I think it was said by Paul Hedderman; ‘the self cannot get out of selfing’ and this is true for the apparent non-seeker and those seeking because even the non spiritual seeker is caught in the web of self centred thinking. It reminds me of the significance of the Buddhist teachings on self- grasping ignorance being at the root of all suffering. I never considered spiritual seeking to be self-grasping ignorance and now it appears to be obvious that that’s exactly what it is.
There was intuition here that there was no need to spend much money on seeking. This wasn’t the case in the story of addiction where the exchange of money for instant gratification was frequent. There was a recognition that there was nothing to get quite early on, it appeared that there was conditioning blocking some kind of realisation. Perhaps the story of addiction was coming undone although not really. If I had known I was already free then there would have been no more seeking. I had a pointing that I was my own master from a teacher which appeared to reduce looking outward. The seeking energy was depleting gradually, at times there was a sense that it was dissipating. Seeing the emptiness of apparently solid objects and emptiness of the body was more instant than seeing the emptiness of the personal identity which appeared to take time. Now there is listening to you speaking with curiosity but no grasping at words or trying to ‘get’ anything. It seems already known that everything is just energy, it seems like this was known already. I wonder how many people feel this, that it is already known and why this is. It’s absolutely okay now just to live the dream fully and completely.
I am at a stage of my life where most humans simply irritate the crap out of me, yet I enjoy engaging with complete strangers like Uber drivers and try make most of the time, seeking to learn. But these days there seems so little to learn, except for when I dream at night. Every dream is like solving a mystery and often quite erotic. How the dream state is at the moment I need to go to the bathroom, usually determines the rest of my day... Watching youtube trying to find information that is of value. But most days, I just feel like sleeping in the hope of continuing some of the amazing dreams that I have now forgotten. But I know I have the potential to be a serious contender to be Elon Musks' nemesis, yet I was not dealt the same cards, had different lessons to learn, and I love my father more than myself, yet I don't have children at age 42 and single for like 12 years already. Any advice, or should I keep on believing in my dreams and go back to sleep ?
Is it wrong to yearn to fill that void though ? Is satisfaction really the death of desire, or can it be made semi permanent or through meditation, perhaps exposure to certain frequencies ?
There is no wrong or right outside of the story of me. Everything is already unfolding timelessly in free flow. This is exposing the individual is illusory and whether that dream goes on or fades doesn't matter, it's all unconditional freedom 💚
@@Pok3rface There is no next level. The dream is that there is a 'me' going somewhere, but time and space are constructs appearing in the dream of individuality. In other words 'me' lives in what will be. When that collapses, life goes on very ordinarily in free flow, eating happens but no one is doing it. 💚
fill the void with what you love at the time and then let it go. That was the self then but then it's constantly renewed. I think its a bit like existentialists say we need to be a lack or void so that something can be there. So that things can constantly change. It's OK where you are. It's brill! Only love can help you live and have relationship with others I think. Not self and not no self. Thses are all words. Just relax It's great! Trust you will be ok. I've always struggled with ocd and despair. I've gone back to my Indian roots and it's brilliant.
To be really really honest here…What drives you to tell this story while it is exactly what Jim Newman, Tony Parsons, Richard Sylvester etc. have been spreading around for years? The whole act is so close to what is performed by them. Is it fresh for you? What is the agenda?
Indeed, no agenda, no one behind the words. Just fun and aliveness spilling out of absence. It responds to individuals who feel the need for wholeness, and the energy can seem to soften the separation experience for others, not always, and not required. It also provides some income.
I think it was said by Paul Hedderman; ‘the self cannot get out of selfing’ and this is true for the apparent non-seeker and those seeking because even the non spiritual seeker is caught in the web of self centred thinking. It reminds me of the significance of the Buddhist teachings on self- grasping ignorance being at the root of all suffering. I never considered spiritual seeking to be self-grasping ignorance and now it appears to be obvious that that’s exactly what it is.
Extrodanary is the isnesss :)
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There was intuition here that there was no need to spend much money on seeking. This wasn’t the case in the story of addiction where the exchange of money for instant gratification was frequent. There was a recognition that there was nothing to get quite early on, it appeared that there was conditioning blocking some kind of realisation. Perhaps the story of addiction was coming undone although not really. If I had known I was already free then there would have been no more seeking. I had a pointing that I was my own master from a teacher which appeared to reduce looking outward. The seeking energy was depleting gradually, at times there was a sense that it was dissipating. Seeing the emptiness of apparently solid objects and emptiness of the body was more instant than seeing the emptiness of the personal identity which appeared to take time. Now there is listening to you speaking with curiosity but no grasping at words or trying to ‘get’ anything. It seems already known that everything is just energy, it seems like this was known already. I wonder how many people feel this, that it is already known and why this is. It’s absolutely okay now just to live the dream fully and completely.
I am at a stage of my life where most humans simply irritate the crap out of me, yet I enjoy engaging with complete strangers like Uber drivers and try make most of the time, seeking to learn. But these days there seems so little to learn, except for when I dream at night. Every dream is like solving a mystery and often quite erotic. How the dream state is at the moment I need to go to the bathroom, usually determines the rest of my day... Watching youtube trying to find information that is of value. But most days, I just feel like sleeping in the hope of continuing some of the amazing dreams that I have now forgotten. But I know I have the potential to be a serious contender to be Elon Musks' nemesis, yet I was not dealt the same cards, had different lessons to learn, and I love my father more than myself, yet I don't have children at age 42 and single for like 12 years already. Any advice, or should I keep on believing in my dreams and go back to sleep ?
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Is it wrong to yearn to fill that void though ?
Is satisfaction really the death of desire, or can it be made semi permanent or through meditation, perhaps exposure to certain frequencies ?
There is no wrong or right outside of the story of me.
Everything is already unfolding timelessly in free flow.
This is exposing the individual is illusory and whether that dream goes on or fades doesn't matter, it's all unconditional freedom 💚
@@Alexisnonduality But I am already free and not bound to anything except the need to eat. What is the next level ?
@@Pok3rface There is no next level.
The dream is that there is a 'me' going somewhere, but time and space are constructs appearing in the dream of individuality. In other words 'me' lives in what will be. When that collapses, life goes on very ordinarily in free flow, eating happens but no one is doing it. 💚
fill the void with what you love at the time and then let it go. That was the self then but then it's constantly renewed. I think its a bit like existentialists say we need to be a lack or void so that something can be there. So that things can constantly change. It's OK where you are. It's brill! Only love can help you live and have relationship with others I think. Not self and not no self. Thses are all words. Just relax It's great! Trust you will be ok. I've always struggled with ocd and despair. I've gone back to my Indian roots and it's brilliant.
‘What is-ism’ 😮😢😊😅
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So why is this ONE body so persistent in the waking dream??
There is no time, the dream is that there is a real continuity of a past, present and future.
To be really really honest here…What drives you to tell this story while it is exactly what Jim Newman, Tony Parsons, Richard Sylvester etc. have been spreading around for years? The whole act is so close to what is performed by them. Is it fresh for you? What is the agenda?
Indeed, no agenda, no one behind the words. Just fun and aliveness spilling out of absence. It responds to individuals who feel the need for wholeness, and the energy can seem to soften the separation experience for others, not always, and not required.
It also provides some income.
@@Alexisnondualitynice that it provides you with some income
Why not