Why January was the worst and best month of my life
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- Опубликовано: 10 фев 2019
- January was one of the best, but also worst, months of my life. Not because of the copyright drama, but because someone I was very close to passed away suddenly. I think it's important to show it's not always parties and fun events that happen each month. I hope you all enjoyed the better moments of this vlog like the NYE Party, watching me eat yummy food and travel to Florida to stream Fortnite at the NFL Pro Bowl 😀
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My name's Imane, but you can call me Poki/Pokimane :) I'm a creator and streamer who plays Fortnite, Minecraft, and League of Legends. Subscribe! bit.ly/2mkTsAY
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hi friends, thanks so much for all the love on this video & throughout this month, it's really meant the most because it was when i needed it the most 💖 I donated all of the money (plus some of my own money) from the stream where I spoke about my friend passing away, if you'd like to support a good cause then I'll link where to donate below
love u poki
I love you, Poki!
Pokimane Really brave of you to talk about this stuff, sorry for your loss
This world kept on rejecting me so i became an Anonim. Not only because i've lost someone that was trully dear to me on my younger age and that destroyed me for more than half of my life. But because it keeps taking the best people we have in our lifes in just a second. No warnings, no signals just vanishing. But once a old man told me 'Adrian, keep your head up, show your tears to those you care about, save it for them. Life is cruel but we got to live it'. You as a streamer, the dream i had/have but cannot achieve proved that you care about them/us. I respect you, i am sorry for your lost, i know the meaning of hating, losing. Respect, Love, keep it up Imane. You are one of those whom inspired me to become a streamer but life may not be the same for everyone. I will keep on watching your beautiful career from here just like that boy who became your angel. With love, Adrian. {A} Dark.
We are all here for you poki😢😢
literally so heartbreaking to see one of the most happiest person to cry, ugh my heart
I'm deeply sorry for your loss. From the way you worded it, it sounds like a suicide. I may be wrong tho. It's amazing to see how supportive he was of you though. Idk if he's an ex or just a friend, but either way, I believe everyone should have someone like that in their lives. A good support system isn't exactly easy to get nowadays, honestly. People tend to lack empathy nowadays and are too caught up in their own problems to take the time to check up on their friend's well-being.
Stay strong Poki. Just like he meant a lot to you, you mean a lot to your fans, and your fans mean a lot to the loved ones in their lives. We're all just human beings. It's easy to dehumanize individuals on Twitch and in chat as just random text and emotes, but every pepega, every LUL, every 4head is coming from a human being, and it serves as a good reminder that we need to be there for each other, instead of trying to bring each other down all of the time.
I am not reading all of this
I also thought a suicide
I hope your friend rests in peace... Poki you're an angel, when I met you yonder time ago at a meet n greet you were so incredibly kind and supportive, one of the nicest most genuine RUclipsrs I've ever met. You're positive energy and message is amazing and so is your strength. I hope you're OK and I am so sorry for your loss. Sending positivity your way.
Broke my heart when you suddenly started crying
It's hard to see they one of the persons you consider one of your actually friends because even if she doesn't know about u. She knows your support and help because if it isn't she may doesn't be here or in the same way. DUDE I MEAN she is sharing with me and you something so personal and she talk and what's to know about what we think about much things of her life. SHE MAKE MOST THINGS FOR MY BAD DAYS AND GET GOOD CULTURE AND HAPPINESS ASJDNAKSAK. One of the best persons on the world. Really hope she gets better
Oh same
Poki starts crying I look at chat
FREE BOBBY SHMURDA
Nooblord 😂😂😂
Nooblord God i love the generation i love in
Godzilla_GTR I love it it too but this is so sad Alexa play hot nigga by Bobby shmurda
Where
It’s at 10:38.
Crying means You have been strong for a long time! Stay strong Imane! Really love you and your content.
Wow that is true and amazing.
@@totallynotasian Indeed
I agree with u stay imane we all love you
Guess I have unlimited strength
I wish I could save this comment
I feel bad for you, not only because of your friend dying. But because everyone in the chat didn’t really care, they just wanted you to play fortnite. I care for poki. I understand that people passing away is harsh. But if you treat her poorly like she was made to only stream fortnite, then something is wrong with you. Sorry if this sounded rude...
Edit: Holy crap, the replies are really optimistic. I’m only saying the truth and if you don’t agree, that’s 100% okay. Stop fighting in the replies nor say mean things. And no, I did not make this comment for attention, so STOP thinking I did. I just care for poki, is there something wrong with that?
It's not rude, you were spouting facts. I don't know why people forget that celebrities are people, too. That's dumb and rude on the part of anyone who forgets that, even for just a moment.
James Curfman I know, I wish people understood that.
It is inhumane
At first yes, but most of people were supportive when she cried
Hadi Farhat not all... most of them still just wanted her to play fortnite like so much
Seeing poki sad makes my heart break:( 😥
I hope everything gets better
You're smiles 11/10 and it could light up any room
poki starts crying i look at chat
Poki starts crying i look at chat
FREE BOBBY SHMURDA
Where
Same also
Goser Hagemans 10:38 you gotta pause quick to see it
Anyone else notice that someone said what’s popping RUclips at 10:45
RIPXIVAN2GOOD4U YT ya lol
Yeah it sucks when your close friends pass away, I know what it feels like and it's hard to get through it yourself, I'm glad you have friends to support you through this, *sends virtual hug*
Its so hard to loose someone you love very much i know this feeling
I love you Dad❤️
Papa 💕
Love your school shooter math tutor video
W A I T
Ur actually hilarious
bro your vids are so funny
Last advice before his death was for you poki. You really meant something for him. May he rest in Peace.
Ive been through that kind of loss. Its a lot harder when its not old age. When its unexpected. Its always the good ones too. I try to remember them for the good times and try to take some inspiration from what i admired about them. Let their legacy live on. Love and prayers poki
I feel this video a lot. Last semester I lost two relatives and it hit me hard. Just started my first year of college and it just hit me along with everything else. Keep being awesome Poki, and stay strong!
I personally don't know u but I can tell ur nice and strong person just know us fans and ur family will be here for u to, dont let ur haters drag u down 🖤
"I can tell your nice..." muahahahaha
LEGO KANGAROO *MWAHAHAHAHA
Yeah but she copyright claims every video she can at any moment she gets
Don't be sad we fans are here for you
I can understand the pain of loosing someone but just think about who are still here for you friends, family,we fans will always support you.
@-Tcáf- hey hey hey hey hey OK don't pin it on us , you find some other reason to explain why he likes her
Don’t worry Poki we are all with u in these tough times
Not really.
@@sophiafrytv7893 Bit mean ngl
@@jingle8375 Sorry, it's true, we aren't actually there. We are only here for her on the internet.
@@sophiafrytv7893 true but some time it can help knowing that there is some one out there that can fell sorry with with you and i think that is what he is trying to say ^^
even if we cant be ther with her she will know that we still wich her the best from were every we are in the world and hops that she can talk to some one close ^^
Thank you for being vulnerable not a lot people have the strength to express their true feelings! You are such a pure soul! Keep your head up💞
really sorry to hear about your friend. i've lost some too. with time your heart will heal but it will be filled with the wonderful memories and words you shared with them. take care poki
Stay strong Poki, life’s not smooth sailing. Your subscribers are all here for you
weeb
Weeeeeeb
i am not a smooth sailor because i am the realest of the real i am the real youtuber from planet unpretty
Evariste Galois im not subscribed but yeah sure
WTF !!! I LOVE POKIMANE !!!! ♥️ I HAVE MAKED A VIDEO FOR MY BABY POKIMANE !! THIS VIDEO IS ONLY FOR MY SWEET POKIMANE !!!!!
Stay strong! Poki, your subscribers are here for you! That must’ve been a tragic moment, my aunt had died from a brain bleed... She was weary close to me. You can get through this! Feel better
I cant imagine what you're going through, while you was explaining your personal situation on stream I was in disbelief that something so tragic could happen to someone so kind. Please keep your head high.
Dude made me cry . I'm at work and h literally have tears .
Love you boo be strong and it's okay to cry sometimes, don't have to put on a brave face all the time. Let all out girl
No doubts this is a very beautifull tribute you can make to him. Im impresed for being so open, keep strong Imane!
It's okay poki. You just gotta push thru it. Love you poki ❤️✌🏾
I understand your good and one and only best friend who helped u thru out the years and suddenly he passes away... I'm really sorry for u having to go through that of u hearing he passed. Many people from your stream are actually rude calling u names while u telling a sad story. Once again I'm sorry for your lost and lucky u have friends in your place to cheer u up.... the haters that commented on every single thing that u use that is social media is just jealous about u.. I don't really watch your stream or any of your videos but I saw someone post up a video of someone telling an emotional story so I clicked the video and it happened to be u.... I watched it and tried not to cry.. my heart warmed and the story that u told everyone was such a sad and wonderful story... I hope u will feel better and don't mind the here just leave them alone and take care... I know u probably won't read what I wrote but oh well I'll post it for other people to see.... if u read what I wrote them I hope u have a wonderful day and one more thing...I'm very sorry for your friend.. for u since u know him so well I know u will miss him a lot... I'm like a cry baby when I see emotional things on youtube.. but take care poki I hope u feel better with your friends around u :) take care and we all love u
Rest in peace to your friend. I know you'll get through this I just hope you will recover from this tragic experience. Don't forget that your fans are always here for you. If people are hating on you just ignore the negativity. Just continue what you love. Love you ❤
love u poki
nice
No one cares
Whats？
I mean this the youtuber i rarely watch because it isnt the type of content i watch
Tiago Abreu Is no one cares, then why did you take your time to reply?
I’m so sorry I’ve been through it too i really hope you get better I love your streams and every time I watch you play fortnite and your happy it makes me happy, please feel better
blake turner what happened to Poki I was wondering
When you told that story my tears were rolling.
It reminded me ALOT about when lost my best friend in an unfortunate car accident 3 years ago. He had just gotten a pretty new car after taking his drivers license. But one day his breaks malfunctioned and he drove ~ 50-70km/h straight into a ditch and died instantly.
Him and I we basicly grew up together and i really looked up to him because he always tried his best to make everyone happy. He was the kindest person i knew and always had a smile on his face. He loved to sing, play on his guitar and loved to just be and make everyone happy. When i got the announcement from my dad that he sadly passed away.. I didnt really.. Ract at all.. I just couldnt belive what i was hearing.. A few week later on his funeral my world has never been that dark. Every step i took got heavier and heavier. Putting the rose on his casket was the hardest thing i have ever done... Suck when beautiful people just pass away out of the blue :( Please take care and love the people around you. You never know what could happen
Oh, man. That's rough! I'm sorry for your loss, Imane. My condolences to you, your friends and the family of your dearly departed. I have known people who died young but none of them were close friends with me. I cannot imagine (and I really don't want to try). You are very strong if you knew that whole time and were still killing it playing games and signing autographs! Jees, the kind of fortitude that takes! And you do your best to make this as positive as possible by giving to worthy causes, and provide links to outreach programs. You are an inspiration. I cannot believe that I get to be one of your subscribers. You're AMAZING, Imane! Love you. Please be well.
Sorry for ur loss rip ur friend
May God bless you, your roommates and that man who Overdosed. Stay strong poki. Much love
Hey Poki, I lost a friend of mine tragically too and I know the feeling of shock and disbelief. I think the hardest part about it is the constant reminder that they're no longer here. When those thoughts come up, just remember them in a happy light and the good memories you've shared with them because those are the ones that truly matter. Just remember that everyday gets easier. Sending you so much love and healing ❤️
I've been there. Lost two very good friends last year from my gaming community and it's really tough to try and be happy when you're so emotionally distraught. You're a strong woman, so I know you'll get through this.
It's so sad how hard she's trying to keep a smile on her face. :(
Im about to cry 😢
Btw we LOVE U Poki ❤️
XxAleiskaxX 16 sensitive fuck
@@kysdre show some respect
Dre nyc u don’t know if I’m going through the same or worst so u have to stop making comments like that it can really offend ppl smh
Thank you for being real with us as it's always appreciated. I'm so sorry to hear about your friend as no one can understand what you're going through, but know that you are loved, cared and supported by countless individuals.
I lost my best friend right after I left home for the military. It feels surreal for awhile and it never completely goes away. When someone becomes an important cog in your life, losing them is a tremendous hurdle. Just be sure to lean on your support structure when you need it, needing support isn't a weakness.
I understand how you have it pokimane because i have feeling problems and stomach problems so sometimes in class (8th grade) i just start crying, it’s not fun because everyone looks at me and i feel they look down on me, so i feel like a bullied victim because i cry very easy, but it’s not my fault.
Hahaha
😂😂sucks to be u
So u mean that..... U had .....DIAHOERRHEA ALL THE TIME ??!! 😂😂😅😅
Dont let bullies run ur life. They are either jealous of you or picking on you to hide their insecurities. Stand up for yourself and dont be afraid of what ppl think about u. Because at the end of the day, if u let every word affect you, youl never be happy in life
ImagineFoodOnATable me to and everyone thinks I’m lying
iss ight poki, try to stay positive and know we’re all here for u. 💙🙏🏽
no
@@burned9679 im not sure i understand
You had me in tears poki you always keep it so real
Treasure your moments and memory's off the dude he sounded ace and he will now always be you angel for ever x
Always be strong imane i hope yku can be better we love you, you mean the world to us
I'm so sorry that happened to you love you ❤️❤️
Rest in peace 🙏
TRISTIN who died?
Actually I dont know what happened too xd
@@omohqmed2182 her friend I think
Hey poki! I have a feeling you probably wont even read this lol, but I would just like to say I hope things start to turn around for you and I hope your friend rests very peacefully in Heaven. I know the feeling of losing someone you love and I know its so horrible, but just remember that he is in a better place now. I have been suffering from depression the past few months just with personal issues and I would like to say thank you for continuing to upload videos and streaming because honestly your content always makes me happy and can distract me from the wrong happening in my life. I know I am just a stranger to you, but I wish I could make you happy and cheer you up the same way you have been doing to me. I hope you see this :). I will pray for you and I hope your life will be happy and fulfilling very soon! Rest in Peace❤️
i hope feb is way better, much love and respect for still giving to the fans at the pro bowl with everything that happened
Damn.... Thats some real shit. Thank you for being honest and transparent. The world needs more of it.
You will always remember the ones who help u. I think he felt the same way about you.
Wish you the best of luck be strong god is with you
💪
Yep that true god is with her and with all of us
@@waelhajj8823 Im with you on that god is amazing
I’m so sorry! We as your subscribers are here for you. We know your close friend is looking over you and smiling! He’s probably so happy that your so successful! This is a very hard thing to go through so you don’t have to hide your emotions. #SUPPORT
I know how it feels to lose someone you look up to feels devastating but remember the good things about him that'll help
Cheer up poki!😢You can bounce back to your OG self.Cheerful and happy😁.You are the best YT ever
don't cry poki it ok we are with u
Thank you
So sorry for for loss imane💜my deepest and most sincere condolences 💜💜
Feels bad that someone you love passed hope you stay happy and have more fun times with all your people.
rest in peace to that man.
Etika
Fed always seems genuinely happy to see you succeed. He's surely a great friend to have.
Turns out he's not such a good person afterall, lol
@@xoxo-vu3on mistakes happen..he was drunk...they have hashed it out...get a life
I'm sorry for what happened:(.. I hope you will stay strong! I love you so much poki please take care of you and thank you for opening your heart to us. Is really sweet to know that you trust us. And again love you and take good care of you!
Im so so so sorry for your loss. Hope you feel better. Your the Greatest streamer ever
Poki your gonna be ok and we will keep supporting you until the end WE LOVE YOU it's ok ❤❤❤❤
Poki don’t cry we are here for you
Nah se dont are
My sincerest condolences Imane, I know you'll be doing great because of those around you that love and support you. Stay strong ❤️
sorry to hear about your loss poki :( praying for ya
0:16 I love how everyone is on their phones taking pictures of their food
Damn I’m so sorry for your loss I know how it is to lose someone close to 😔well it’s my dad actually it might be a little different but still he passed away last November it’s hard to lose someone but even though it’s hard I’m sure he is in a better place right now looking down at you and he’s friends and family to protect and guide you and them the way 😇 I hope you’ll be feeling a little better when you’re reading this 😊 u make me always happy when I watch your videos/streams I wish I could do something back for you 😔
do a flip
Just wanted to say sorry for your loss I don’t normally watch your videos tbh but this caught my eye hit close to home you’ll get through it 🤙
I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend... I hope the rest of your 2019 will be better
Imane, I’ve been a fan on RUclips and twitch since you were in the old offline house and, I- I just wanted to tell you that you helped me through my suicidal part of my life, I don’t even have the words to describe how I’m sorry for the loss you had, I had a friend who’s dad died form an addition to drugs. But I want you to know though you may not see this or see me on twitch in chat... Thanks you are awesome and strong keep it up Imane we are here for you
Poki, i hope u feel better. life isn't always a smooth sail, and i know by experience, my grandpa died when i was 11, and i was very close to him. I was at a summer camp and i couldn't attend the funeral. i feel u and hope u feel a lot better. we are all here for u. see u at stream!!
Edit: Wow 13 likes :D
Edit 2: HOLY CRAP 100 LIKES
My grandpa died when i was eleven and i know what you went through
Mateo Garibay but you are 11 and a half tho
Lmao that edit is so wholesome
Mateo Garibay Omg same, my grandma died when I was at summer camp and I couldn’t attend her funeral either.
@Your Daddy: shut up dude everybody goes through this so stop
It’s really cool how poki can share things like this with her stream or fans becomes it makes it feel like they are a family supporting each other.#goals
Sorry for your loss, we hope the best for you and that you are ok
You don’t have to hide your emotions to us Poki, us, as your viewers will always be here no matter what happens. Have a good February! ❤️
Patrick Mcmanus Just keep on getting out of your chair.
I might be 18 hours late, I blame it on school BTW!😂
But I still love your Vids poki❤️❤️❤️
That’s doesn’t add up, school takes up about 8 hours. You had 10 hours of free time.... curious as to why you specifically blame school
@@icukarduously5264 sleep plus school
It’s Arduously fucking idiot trying to act like an intellectual
8 hours of school, ya'll lucky we got 10 hours here
Arguing over school hours *facepalm*
I am soo sorry for your loss poki 😓
I hope that with what ever you go through you talk to someone about it ❤
Hey poki i want to first off by saying he are strong for confronting this lost you had with the public a lot of streamer would just tweet and say they need sometime away from streaming but you felt like us fans need to know about what happening in your life even though we don't need to with which to me make me happy to see you care for us like family or close to it. And second i cry to hear about you friend it was tough and it hit me hard to see you like this cause of the fact you kinda inspirational to a lot of people and maybe save a lot of people lives cause you care about your fan base with your joy and cheery emotion but this side only hurt more cause i know how hard it was for you that day cause after the or before that story you more then likely help someone or made someone day and i know I'm late but stay strong and keep up what you are doing
🖤🖤🖤 stay strong poki 😥
Stay strong Imane ❤️ Not like me watching this video which made me cry in front of my brother..🤧
A good way to help with grief is sharing memories.
Hello Poki i'm so sorry to hear about this i also cried the whole video and feel so bad for you and wish the best if luck to you, hoping you're having a nice day
I woke up
I met pokimane
I hugged her
I cried.
Wait it goes 2,3,1,4
Feels bad man
And you hate to see it
I feel you brother. It happened to my twice 😭😭😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥. Then your whole day feels shity.Feels bad man
toughhhhh
I hate seeing her cry she is an amazing person poki we are always here for you
I haven’t experienced someone who’s close to me dying, and here’s Poki still standing strong after what had happened
Poki i hope u read this u have always been so positive and when i watch u u chear me up so mutch when my mom had a carcrash i didnt know what to do but u made me happy again thank you for evrything u do!
It’s ok poki stay strong life has its bumps and we are all here for you feel better poki 🤩😉😋
You stole my edvice stay strong is what I said
Josh_own-it 123 everyone is saying that
I love you so much pokiiii ❤❤❤❤
#earlysquad
Sorry for your loss I hope he lived a great life #pokie fell better
watching the comment section when you were talking about your close friend's passing kills me. i'm so unbelievably sorry for your loss. i hope nothing but quick healing and happiness for you :( lots of love, always.
Awww that's so sad that a friend of urs passed away I know how you feel because one of my family members passed away too. So all of us are here for you even at hard times like this one so dont cry everyone wants to see you have, a happy face all of us do so dont cry ok but if you, have to I understand sometime j have to do it too so I hope you feel better. 😁😁😁😁✌👍 P.s Anytime I see someone sad I cry too. 😭😭 have a great time ok get well ✌👍🤘😁😁😁
P.s Again is if you are crying or being sad that means in the inside you've been strong in the beginning and to the end so dont give up get some of your hopes up you still have tons of friends to talk too.
Got to keep ya head up🙁🙏🏽❤️
I’m sorry to hear this news. My prayers are with the family of this man.
Hi Pokiii! Im sad to hear that your friend passed away but Im sure he rests in piece and think about him with as much love as u talked about him c: He seemed a really nice guy and Im sure every one of us would love him as much as you if we could get to know him :) Sending youuu muuuuch love and stay strong girl, you will get through this❤
Poki: Loves and hates January
Me: loves and hates 2020
I hate December and January since 4 years ago.
Pokimane WE ALL SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS 💗 After hearing this, it kind of hit my heart in a emotional way and makes me think of the sad things that have happened in my life that I don't know how to explain but :( 🤞 JUST REMEMBER YOU GOT US YOUR FANS AND YOUR FAMILY TO SUPPORT YOU, IT MAY NOT GO AWAY AND CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND ITS FINE, These things aren't that easy to get over with. DON'T LET THE HATE COMMENTS AFFECT WHO YOU ARE, KEEP DOING YOUR THING AND BEING YOURSELF BECAUSE WE ALL LOVE YOU POKI...... 💪💗🤞✊ 🙏 R.I.P POKI'S GOOD FRIEND 🙏
She will never notice you btw
@@speadbreakerderking7169 Or you, stupid troll.
We are all here for you poki! Love you girl
I’m sorry for your loss I now how you feel but keep up the good work 😁👍
Keep your head up and high
Noti squad btw, I feel sorry for u poki. I know how it feels.
pokimane is my GIRL;)
No one cares you have notifications on you fucking loser
Colton erferferf woah chill brother, all he said was that he supports pokimane.
Love u poki stay strong
Its ok poki stay strong we are all here for you!