For me, the biggest sign I’m going into mania is that I start to believe I “beat depression” and I will never be depressed again. I can’t even remember what it feels like.
same here! and I think I'm currently going through a manic episode because of that. I also start to feel like everything is great and I have no reason at all to be sad. although sometimes instead of feeling like I beat depression, I realize I'm extremely irritated by no reason at all and I can barely have normal social interactions because of that :/
I think you nailed it. To me Lizzie sounds just like an energetic person going through moods but not bipolar at all. When you're bipolar you literally become different personas like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde and then you don't recognize yourself when in and out of an episode.
"I really don't wish to go among *mad* people," said Alice. "Oh, you can't avoid that," said the Cheshire Cat. "We're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad." "What makes you think *I'm* mad??" asked Alice. "You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
As someone with this diagnosis, I can't watch this video. She is making me feel manic by how fast she is talking and the hand gestures.... Which is on ME, not HER. But she appears manic and I'm not sure why anyone would try to stay in this state. Extremely dangerous. And at the beginning she states how she is NOT manic, but this video is telling you to stay in that hypomanic state. Very confusing and conflicting ideas here. Just wanted you to know how other people with the diagnosis are perceiving this.
I understand where you are coming from and I respect your views. We are individuals with individual experiences with our bipolar. My mania can be great, slightly uncomfortable and completely horrible. Some people only experience one aspect of mania but it varies. Maybe that will help you to understand it a bit more :)
I don't have manic but this video made me feel on edge. My ex has ADD and honestly, I couldn't cope and it gave me anxiety issues a lot of the time. Maybe I'm just too sensitive to other people's energies.
I just stayed up until 4:30 am planning my meals for the week...but I kept thinking that I felt "normal"! It's so strange reflecting on that and seeing hypomanoc behaviours even when you don't feel super wired
Everything I said in this video has been approved by multiple Psychiatrists I've talked to! Everyone's experience in Bipolar is different, and for me hypomania is a positive thing. There are so many artists and writers who have been Bipolar and used the mania to hone in on their creativity and produce novels, music, artwork that would not have been possible had they not been manic. My experience in hypomania is being extremely productive, creative, this insane focused and extreme vibrance, innovation, euphoria. One Psychiatrist I talked to explained it as "everyone would love to be hypomanic all the time." I agree! For me, it HAS at times escalated into too much manic-- really bad, dangerous outcomes and me lashing out at friends, but on medicine it never gets to that point. Before I was diagnosed Bipolar I had gone through so many hypomanic episodes throughout college in which I was a bit too energetic and intense, but that had not at all escalated into anything dangerous that would have harmed me or someone else, or led to anything that I would have been arrested or hospitalized for. Like I said in the video, giving up that part of myself is something I refuse. I feel like all of me has been murdered. All the parts of me and I'm starting with no foundation, no central sense of self and the last thing I want is to erase, numb so many of the emotions-- all the intensity and focus and craziness and elation that has defined me for so many years. My depression is paralyzing as well. I absolutely hate it and it has scarred me immensely. Throughout the past year and a half I have been in and out of really severe depression. Like to the point of almost out of reality, out of my own mind... the terms are depersonalization and derealization: look them up! I'm sure you'll identify. It was hell. I lost myself, all my passion and ambition and love...everything was forced. So much of it was barely connection with reality and like a third party observer to my own thoughts, emotions, actions. It is this autopilot fog existence that is not at all living, by any definition of the term. And maybe in a year I'll look back on this video and see it as so foolish, naive...but for now, I am living this. I can control my hypomania so it won't crash into SEVERE depression, just a slight depression that I can still edit videos in, socialize, eat and maintain a somewhat healthy daily routine. My definition of chill hypomania may be vastly different from yours. So we may be talking about completely different things. I have been SO SENSITIVE at times to anyone speaking positively of Bipolar like "yayy it's a more vibrant way to live. you'll be so much more creative" etc. been SOO angry at times that there are a ton of books written on this same topic: how to capture your hypomania. But this is where I'm at right now. What I've learned the most so far about all of this is that if you are living with this awful hellish chronic illness that halfway feels like a forced drug addiction to mania, process it and talk about it and identify with it HOWEVER you want to. It is like I said: I feel that all of me has been murdered. I go from being so angry hating I have this to being accepting to enjoying the hypomania. And I'm allowed to. You're allowed to hate my perspective on it and be so hurt by this video. That is valid, as well. You deserve to identify however you want with Bipolar. We each deserve that. We can yell. We can cry every day for a month. We can crave alcohol, crave going off our medicine and fight so hard against that. We can talk about being Bipolar with some random stranger we meet or just talk about it with our family and best friend. We can love being medicated and be on 5 mood stabilizers to completely level out any emotional intensity. We can be like Halsey and continue to have a crazy party lifestyle and admit that but also barely talk about it in interviews. This is AWFUL. DISORIENTING. Sometimes I feel it has ruined me, that it is ruining my life, that it's destroyed all the dreams I built up for myself. It feels so out of control. And so amidst that, each of us should be able to gain control, make our own health decisions however we want. I'm glad I've experienced going off my medicine, self medicating with alcohol, breaking up with my boyfriend because bipolar made my emotions back and forth... because it is me. All of it has been me. I identify with Bipolar in that way. And I'm glad I've had the freedom to not be constrained by psychiatrists and mood stabilizes for years of Bipolar manifesting in me before I grow up, become sober and never taste alcohol again, have a 9pm-6am sleep schedule and give up so much of my extreme extreme lifestyle of stoked energy on three hours of sleep, crying intensely every night for a month, being way too flirtatious with some new guy, texting essays of affirmations to my best friends, journaling thirty pages of inspirations and intellect just in two days, praying for three hours straight feeling God so intensely...all of that has been my Bipolar and it has been my reality. My experiences, my emotions because of bipolar…all of it has hurt me so much, damaged me, made my life so chaotic, out of control, hurt people I love but it has been me. How I've thought of me, related to me, the girl I based my identity in. And I won't ever completely give her up.
Hmm. I understand this sentiment/perspective, but the opposite end is when you're exhausted from manic states and don't have the energy to create. So, 5-6 hours of productivity, and two days of non-productivity. It doesn't make sense :\
LizziesAnswers I agree with you that bipolar can be good. I think it's the only episodic psychiatric condition that people enjoy. it's a beautiful disease. I was diagnosed bipolar 1 with dysphoric mania, and it was later realised that I'm predominantly prone to hypo mania. I'm also medicated successfully for adhd. I love the emotional highs, they make strong. 150%. it's worth it to be running on fumes sometimes.
The fact that you're saying that someone (multiple psychiatrists lol) validated your video is your ego fearing of falling apart when you realise that you're a phony. You're deluding yourself, doctors and people who are bipolar. Cheers.
I'm opposite kinda. I write more when depressed. I unknowingly write every single day n not at all when manic. The things I do however when I am manic is intense research. Like obsessive book studies. I once checked out 25 books from the library on one subject and read all of them and did intense online studies. Then hit depression and now I owe $90 because I didn't return any of them lol
I have Bipolar 1, I don't get to choose when I'm manic or hypomanic, it just happens. I also suffer with severe depression. I wish I had a choice in the matter. It's exhausting. I can't sleep without high doses of Seroquel . I am on 3 different med's. I guess it's true, every bipolar person has a different experience.
I am soo sorry :( That sounds terrible :( And I am sorry too if watching this made you feel invalidated or sad. In a lot of these videos I speak positively of it just because amidst the hell and loss of identity, there are some things for me that I really like. But I know for me, when I've been really deep into episodes hearing anyone say anything positive about bipolar hurts so much. If you want to be validated in how awful bipolar is, watch this video it is me fully expressing my anger/desperation about it: ruclips.net/video/vqyJDwhuQog/видео.html&ab_channel=LizziesAnswers I hope it can make you feel more emotionally validated or understood :) And I really hope too that in the future your brain chemistry can change a bit or they can find you a better medicine so you feel more peaceful, more in control, more yourself. It is awful, I know. And I've cried every day in the past week because of it. But life will still have so much purpose for you, your love will help to heal and change your friends, you'll fall in love, have a career, write a book, be an amazing mom... whatever you want to do. It is still there. Take care of yourself always be exercising as much as possible and making sure you drink enough water and eat. I love you!
You have a beautiful way of explaining things. I am definitely gonna watch your video. You are adorable and very relatable. I'm glad I'm not alone. I love you too!
Definitely not alone! I'm type 1 as well and also have Psychosis. Like you, I don't get to choose when it hits me either nor do I yet know what my "triggers" (ugh I've come to hate the connotations of that word) are, despite having been diagnosed with bipolar 1 as of around 10 years ago. I'm on 3 meds also, with a psychiatrist who doesn't tell me practically anything unless I have my mother with me to help me pry (I'm actually very shy when physically around those I don't know well). Just don't give up! I've been diagnosed with about 3 different illnesses now, and I can tell you that it only gets easier with time. Take time to discover yourself and those like you. (Some of my best short term friends have come from my hospital stays)! Hope you have a good day, friend! Keep on truckin'!
Well, I got into commenting this video because I see that there are many people who have BD commenting on it and can't quite figure out why Lizzie is so optimistic about BD. That's because she doesn't have one. Good for her.
Adrian Zieniewicz Lizzie is young so her symptoms may be less severe but that doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have BP. It is a degenerative disorder which means unfortunately it gets worse with age.
This is the first time I've ever seen your videos. Thank you so much for doing this! I so look forward to watching the rest of your videos. I'm so grateful that you're putting this out there!!!!
I'm so happy you found my channel! I too am excited for more bipolar videos :) I have a playlist on my youtube home page for all my mental illness videos, go watch the rest of them!! ruclips.net/p/PL6zP_UCWqLrHX2Yz38MCsPww4c3JKvVrN
This is such an amazing and in depth video. Nothing I love more than productive hypomania, I'm sharp, creative, smart and my focus is on a whole new level. Keep up the great work!
Im newly diagnosed bp2 as of 9/18 and your videos have helped me ever since... I had an identity crisis like what you talk about and binged all you're videos and related so much. I really hope you keep the bipolar playlist going.. It helped me when i was lost and continues to help more than you know 💕
I had full blown manic for 8-9 months. Started 6-7 companies. Thought I could be Jesus and blew a million bucks lol bought a 700k house at 28. Sold it at 30 years old fml
"How to stay hypomanic in a way that is safe?" Lizzie, I love your energy and truly wish this were something safe. Hypomania is illness. It is no different than being depressed. We just like it more. I hope that the multiple psychiatrists you are talking TO are talking WITH you about the reality of hypomania. It is the other side of the bipolar coin. I love my euphoric hypomania, but I can't control it. I prefer stability. Thank you for being honest with your experiences. Mine are very different. Julie
You have NO IDEA how grateful I am for your videos on Bipolar Disorder. I was just recently diagnosed and it's helped me realize so much about my ups and lows in life; however, I can't necessarily tell when I'm manic. You explain it all in such a relatable fashion, so thank you
Omg.... I do the texting and re affirming people at night thing when I'm manic too. I'll get a rush/spike and think of my ex or old friends and send them a super long text
Stephen Bailey do you this is unintentionally? My bf does the same if he feels insecure he threats me on text that he is seeing someone else and tries to break off and then later apologize. My long distance bf told me on our first meeting that he is bipolar and pstd I didn't even know what was that . Even saw his 2 manic episodes during my stay at his place on our first meeting . He apologized later that he didn't mean to say all that and was very ashamed? Is that true ? And he shuts down for days and then send me a text out of the blue ? How do you feel when you are depressed ? I need to know so I can understand him better
Thank you for sharing! You are so strong. I hit rock bottom and had the worse happen to me in my life before being diagnosed with my illness. That's why I also am sharing my story to others. We need more people like you to share their story and provide awareness to our mental health. Sending you positive vibes
You are so self aware, I applaud all of the work you have done. My Mom was Bi-polar and she was a walker. She also journaled and it helped her a lot. Great video you are helping people. Best wishes to you
I'm not sure if I'm bipolar or not. I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression but I feel like it's not that. First of all, the meds they gave me don't do anything. I go through episodes of being extremely motivated, like I'll get an idea, for example recently it was joining the military. I went for a 3k run (at 2am) and stayed up all night doing push-ups and sit-ups. And then a few hours later in the morning all my motivation was gone and I just wanted to stay in bed all day. Another thing that happens to me is I will go into episodes of feeling extreme guilt over nothing. I talk really fast and my thoughts seem to go too fast for my mouth. These are just a few things that have been happening to me
I want to say you have answered so much about myself kissy by this video. I’ve been having episodes of anxiety and anger in public. I also get in high irritation where I need moments of solitude away from the world. This has also helped me understand how to manage an episode by being self aware and prepare for the signs. Thanks keep making videos they truly help people.
I have been following you since your first Draw My Life video and I remember thinking how intense you were. I loved it, lol. Your personality didn't overwhelm me at all (intense people always intrigued me). I thought it was a special gift, until I was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder and then schizoaffective disorder. I now understand that I enjoyed your videos because I understood the intensity and the heavy emotions. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I have spent most of this healing process running away from rebuilding myself. I have just been waiting for my emotions to drive me again. To watch your videos and hear your advice has been so encouraging and helpful. Peace and love Lizzy!
Woww! This has been yearssss, that is amazing I wish I could meet you!! I feel so happy and loved that you have wanted to follow my life and see me grow for so so long :) It is crazy to me too that we sort of grew up together into being diagnosed... I've never known someone and then them be diagnosed with Bipolar, that'd be so interesting to me too. I want to hear more of your story! Let me know if you ever want to skype and talk through things. I think I just started a month ago with rebuilding myself. It is so bizzare to me feeling like I have to start all over. But..I found a therapist recently. We've done three sessions so far and she's really been helping me with it. I hope you fully feel and process everything that has scarred you through it, so that you can get as many parts of you back as possible. Keep fighting! It makes me feel better that I'm not the only one.
Wow! I am soooo glad I found you. I spent my entire 20s untreated bipolar. I spent my entire 30s trying to recoup from my 20s. I wish I wish I wish I had someone like you 20 years ago. Going forward, I feel confident that my 40s will be a much better time for me!
i woke up feeling depressed, then i was having a bath and my heart started futtering like mad. i got out of the bath and went and washed the dishes and i felt a sense of extream Well being come over me. as i left the house to go to the train station i walked like 100 miles an hour, while my eyes kept flickering i felt like a crazy person. but when i got on the train i felt so manic that i started to feel anxiety about what people thought of me its crazy stuff haha
This is the first of your videos that I have seen and I have to say that I totally agree with the viewpoint and feelings you have towards hypomania. I also have been living to try and maintain that level of productivity and the good feelings of a “hypomanic” state. I really enjoyed this video and LOVED all the warnings and how you worded them. The books, medical journals and even the few memoirs I’ve scoured all same the same things. Common symptoms and how bad Bipolar disorder is for most. But as our biggest weakness, it most definitely can become our greatest strength! I believe that wholeheartedly today. Even though I continue to meet obstacles and have setbacks. They become more manageable the more aware I am of the signs leading up to them. Anyway, it’s really late for me and I’ve written and edited this comment five or six times already. I believe I’ll quit while I’m only this far behind and hope that it makes sense when I wake up later. Take away is: I love your insight and I’m excited to watch more soon.
I actually just posted a video that I recorded of myself in a very manic state as sort of a video note to myself because my hands were shaking too much to write it down. I didn't realize how manic and incoherent I was till I went back and watched it. I figured I'd post it to try to help show people what mania is really like. i'm happy you get to control your hypomania but for me, even when I'm confident I'm controlling my mania, it spirals into something out of my control pretty quickly even on medication. I agree that artists can hone the energy brought on by hypomania, god knows I have many times over but in the end I do end up incredibly manic. and eventually depressed. so I have to train myself to see its not worth it, no matter how good it feels. just a little thing on my own personal experience with this.
The eye blinking thing. My eyelids quiver and my vision vibrates. It resembles a migraine aura. Incidentally, I’ve been hypomanic for two weeks. I’m enjoying the energy, but feel like I need to complete every idea before I dip down into depression. I just wish my brain would stop and the voices would be quiet for a little while. I’ve never had a peaceful moment. The closest I’ve had is when I’m completely drunk, which I don’t do anymore, because of my meds. I need a better mood stabilizer than I’m taking.
Idk why but I’ll like apply for jobs and search for jobs during this phase and go on hella interviews, or add an extra job to my workload lol Am I the only one ?
Once when I was manic I woke up, I was very dysphoric when I woke up because I get angry, irritable & productive. I’ll be very giddy & more motivated too, but it’s mostly anger. So I impulsively quit that day over a misunderstanding with a coworker. I then proceeded to apply to a billion jobs. Fast forward a few days, I’m on my way to an interview. I get this brilliant idea to be a stripper. So I got off at the wrong stop & walked to the mall. I took my boyfriends card I had for something else and I spent $700 on makeup and stripping supplies. I was a stripper for about a month & then I completely crashed and went into a depressive episode. So I feel you. If I feel the urge to quit or apply for jobs that’s a red flag of mine and it took TOO long for me to recognize that as a red flag lmaooo you aren’t alone
I’m so manic today, after a long depressive episode for two weeks, it’s so true I drank caffeine too and it made me extremely manic. As I type this at 3:36 AM in the morning. When I’m manic I take extremely big risks and spend compulsively. I hate being overly manic now because I’ve realized how productive and unstoppable you can feel and be but in the end you crash. I honestly never knew that I was bipolar until I saw your video, which was a blessing in disguise because everything you are talking about I can relate so much and my disorder makes so much more sense to me now. I’m actually kind of happy about being bipolar, I just hate the depressive episodes of feeling completely exhausted and fatigue. When I’m in a depressive state I can sleep more than 12 hours a day, it’s really bad.
You are so sweet. This is like the best Christmas present ever--a thorough understanding of this part of me which has perplexed me for what seems like eternity. Thank you, Liz Thank you for talking about it because you could literally save someone's life. Much love from Dallas, TX
Elianah wulfy I am so happy! This is amazing that we can relate to each other.. that we have such similar experiences. I am grateful if I can encourage you :)
"I feel so calm and relaxed. I'm normally really hyper and talk fast" *proceeds to talk lightening fast while constantly swinging arms around* 😵 dafuq bruhh
I'm finding this video so late but I could listen to you for hours. Everything you say is so relatable plus you seem super sweet! I love mania but I usually end up psychotic from it ugh!
Love your video! I think you are so lucky to have been correctly diagnosed so young and it was so nice to see somebody else talk as fast as i do! [My onset was in my 20's also, but i wasn't diagnosed until i was 45.... and every few years my medication has to change to keep up with the changing physiology of my body... ] but some of this stuff rang so true for me, especially the frenetic writing (your journal, my calendar). ..... Oh, i did want to mention, for my journal, i bought an app for my phone that records MP3 files (the recording app on the phone wasn't MP3), and then transfer the files to my laptop. And it's easier on my 59-year old, arthritic hands.... But i still have to write longhand on some stuff.... in multi-colored pens.... so that will never change i guess... :-) thanks again.
I just wanted to thank you for this video. You have no idea how much this helped me. I've been having all of these symptoms and I thought I was going crazy. I'm going to the doctor to get started on medication. Thank you so so much!
Thanks for posting this! It really helped Bipolar Mania.. Was awake 3 days, I think. . I lost count, I may have had a micro nap but I don't remember it. I'm past 'getting bad again'; past the point of no return now, my insanity has over run me, I am completely submerged, waves crashing down. A woman I know has grown close to me, shes a nurse. Shes a good friend who helps me out, & understands me. She gave me an anti psychotic & something to induce sleep. I sat there just staring at the pill packs for almost an hour struggling to take them. But I ended up finally taking them & sleeping, but in the morning (this morning) i was depressed & irritable all day, i kept moving to rooms where noone was. I feel normalish now, i say ish cause its almost 4am so.. I *had* insurance but it got canceled A few months ago, hopefully my application gets approved so i dont have to keep finding medicine off the street. Bet if bernie was president I wouldn't have to go through this.. -
Dude, I relate to having way too many ideas, poor sleep cycle, talking too super fast, reading endless articles, needing to move, craving sexual intimacy, talking to a lot of people endlessly, etc. I guess bipolar varies from person to person
Kayla Klauer I'm SOO happy it helped you 💛💛 I have so many more videos on Bipolar on my RUclips channel! The playlist to all those videos is on my home page 👌
LizziesAnswers I've watched almost all of them, you have inspired me to create my own channel talking about my experiences with bipolar. When I tell you that your videos helped me realize so many things about my mood changes, I seriously mean it. Your videos have actually changed my life for the better. Please keep doing what you're doing and spreading this helpful advice💙
Thank you for this video Lizzie. My female friend recently told me she was Bipolar 1. She took so long to tell me, but now I like her even more. It didn't change how I saw her and I told her that I accept her just as she is.
This video really help me realize a lot of my actions. I’m going through a depression after my few weeks of hypomanic that I didn’t realize. But yesterday I was able to realize I am becoming very depressed after I was doing so well. I’m still learning a lot about bipolar and how to help myself and this helped so much.
Haha, watching this at 6:30a.m. and haven't been to sleep yet. Been up all night texting friends "novels," listening to Emancipator and pacing/dancing around the room feeling inspired and like the universe is conspiring in my favor. Finally laid down to watch RUclips and attempt to sleep 😂 Thanks for the video, wishing you the best!
I hope I can figure mine out like this. But I am everywhere and not medicated. I couldn't function even more with. But I had the wrong diagnosis of just severe/clinical depression but bipolar 2 makes more sense now. So I havent tried lithium. I get random mixed states that are unpredictable minus feeling off an hour before. They are scary. Thanks for making these videos however. Driving kinda scares me at this point of my life too. So I put off my lisence for years.
You hit so many key points and it frustrates me that with all those points you make, I wish I had the mental capacity to specify all of my questions and comparisons on a post to you but it is thoroughly impossible. I want to meet you in person! I think the big difference between us is that I am a single unemployed mother of an 8 month old that was premature and I have legal issues,etc...see there is my damn manic...hypo manic? I am learning to become self aware. I was barely diagnosed July 2017 and am unmedicated...long story. But I watch your videos and it makes me look up to you. I have my shit going on and when I was diagnosed, it explains so much of how I have been my entire life. I'm sure you get this a lot but Lizzie...if you could somehow take a moment out of your day to reach out to me, personally...I feel that you could really help me better than any therapist I've ever had. I hope you get this. My request is sincere. Please contact me. You could save portions of my life and something is better than nothing....and here I go rambling....fan....tactic. Haha! Much love to you! Thank you for helping me not feel so alone and that I can be strong. I'm always told I am strong and a good mother but I just don't see or feel it...
“Have I gone mad? I'm afraid so. You're entirely Bonkers. But I will tell you a secret, All the best people are.” ― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland ruclips.net/video/eAVW-jLRLE8/видео.html
your videos are great! just listening to a few, i'm curious if you've ever experienced borderline personality disorder type symptoms or have had that brought up in a session. some things you said that describe your relationships might be in that spectrum. i have been diagnosed bipolar and am finding i may have some symptoms of borderline as well. they are often found hand in hand. sending messages to people in my life on "how much they mean to me," etc... and pushing romantic partners away is something you have described and things i myself have done. you also bring up validation a lot. something i seek a lot as well in my research. good luck to you!
Lizzie...you are very wise for your years! Honestly..at your age I was a walking disaster. I'm a psych nurse with Bipolar and suffered greatly for 40 yrs of horrific circumstances. Mostly brought on by my sick mind, yet I worked continually, very hard and successfully and helped so many, but not able to help me. I'm in the process of getting back to Drs and meds and trying to get my son to realize. He's Bipolar.. He's in the land of denial..using daily alcohol binges to stop the suffering. Not sure how I can help him.. worried.
This is definitely helpful for someone like me who hasn't been able to get any treatment at all; it is good to know some tips for when it comes :) thank you. I've been trying so hard to recognize my mood shifts and they are very scary... It's so hard to remain calm and I've lost most of my friends over it
thank you so much. while im still figuring out meds, I do know how unpredictable I am in a manic state, and with how scary that is, having a sense of control will really be nice
Just know that if you have more hypomanic episodes it increases the likelihood of having more hypomanic episodes and full manic episodes and psychosis, which could result in involuntary mental hospital holds. Hope you're all safe and being kind to yourselves, loving the open dialogue!
Thank you so much :) I had my first really high hypomanic episode the other day but I was really aware that what I was doing wasn't 'normal' I.e trying to stop cars in the road with my magical powers lol.
Wow ok, I experience most of these only reason I started doing research on this is because I haven't been feeling myself lately and my boyfriend has been telling me that I have been experiencing some bipolar symptoms! I will definitely be talking to a professional, thank you for this video!
I can't eat at all when I'm hypomanic Or sleep Too many things to do I will meal prep breakfast lunch and dinner for 3 weeks and not eat a single one of those meals until I come down because I'm too busy to eat anything that requires utensils. I go on like 20 mins of sleep and 300 calories a day.
'requires utensils'. I love that statement! Eat on the go is so convenient during mania. If i make a meal and sit down to eat it, I often get distracted doing something else. the food goes cold because I spent too long on doing something else or I forget I was even eating a meal at all.
That is so intresting! Im bipolar 1 and I usally eat less, sometimes not at all for days when im manic. If I have a depression that is so deep that I cant get out off bed then I eat less. But Usally I eat much much more when im depressed.
Thanks for sharing! I get super resistant to following my own 'rules' and this video helped me. I noticed you end most of your statements like a question. Maybe that is just average for you, but I know for myself I tend toward more childlike speech when I'm hyper (I think I experience hypomania; this is something I'm exploring).
Really interesting video. I don't have Bipolar disorder, but I have Schizophrenia. I find it interesting to learn about other mental disorders. Thanks for posting this video. ☺️
I got diagnosed with Bipolar II (but my diagnosis was adjusted and is now Rapid Cycling Bipolar I) at 10 years old, and I am now 14 going on 15, but my mania is still not under control. I have gone through periods of time where I’ve not slept for an entire week, which has caused hallucinations, and all that Jazz. Also, I’ve talked with many professionals that have said (and I agree) that after mania (I’m unsure about hypomania) you “crash” which can cause long periods of sleeping, and can trigger a depressive phase. If you are a female, I suggest you get a period tracking app, due to the fact that your cycle can trigger episodes, manic , hypomanic, and depressive.
For me, it's this electricity running throughout your entire body. I get the cravings for alcohol and increased appetite. I don't think that I blink more or get violent dreams but everyone experiences it differently.
I feel like a good way to look at it, is high energy vs low energy... like I'm still trying to learn to track my moods better and recognize what state I'm in; especially when I have symptoms that can signal mania, depression, or just anxiety (like extreme irritability). So I try to be aware of other accompanying symptoms that can help me differentiate... and I think high energy in general usually signals hypomania to me; whether I'm easily irritated by everything and just want to move faster and faster with my plans; or I'm just living like a major goofball and start feeling very excited and impulsive and fidgety/a constant need to think, talk, or move basicaly... and definitely less sleep (without missing it; if I miss it and am tired I'm most likely just depressed or anxious). When I'm hypomanic I'm too excited and wired to sleep... like sleeping seems stupid. And it's really hard to calm myself because even though I am self aware, and know what I should do to take care of myself, I really don't want to to be honest.. I want to run with it. Like today for example, I only slept a couple of hours total... and ended up going out. Playing guitar. Going out more. Working on a few goals. Hanging with a friend. Like I did not slow down or chill at all... I just kept going and going instead of forcing myself to calm down. And I def notice the change in my writing; like a pressure to keep writing and writing (esp texts to friends or even just my talking... it get's exciting, fast, loud; with millions of creative ideas zapping through.). Sometimes I experience racing thoughts and restlessness though with depressive symptoms at the same time or closely together. And that's the harder part to figure out... whether or not I'm in a dysphoric, mixed state or just ultra rapid cycling. It gets really annoying. Like if I'm JUST manic or JUST depressed it's easier to manage. But when I'm experiencing both within 24 hours it gets hella annoying... Like I can spend majority of the day hypomanic, or even stable, and then have a random burst of depression at night or early morning where I start having urges to self harm and think terrible things about myself (and a lot of is triggered I think because of the tension/irritability/excessive energy that can even come from the hypomania; like I realize I'm not normal and can't calm down and feel on edge; and just wanna do anything to relax, especially because I don't wanna lash out at innocent loved ones). It's the most aggravating thing ever.... but just a little while later; I'll shift out of it and become super focused on my goals and upbeat again. I think part of it is I'm not on the best meds for me. I did a swab test, and tried a different med, and I did way better that week that I tested it. However, there was a misunderstanding with my insurance, so I might have to wait to get that one again, so for now I'm on what I had before... and I just don't think it's as effective. But it is better than nothing. When I was on no meds I was terrible and felt completely out of control... especially in depressive/mixed phases. Like I'd have the mixed symptoms of depressive thoughts, but racing; tired but restless, worthlessness and hopelessness, but impulsiveness and risk taking... like I just didn't care if I lived or died, or wanted to, and my thoughts went by so fast that before I could even pause, reflect, and talk myself out of a stupid decision I was grabbing something to hurt myself... at least now even though I get episodes and random thoughts/moods, I can at least think a bit more slowly, clearly than before and am a lot more selfaware... I'm usually able to prevent major bad decisions; or recognize when I've made one and try not to do worse ones and stay self aware after to see if my episode passed or progresses, and whether or not I need to seek more help of some kind momentarily... it's easier to seek help when depressed I feel like then when manic though because everyone thinks it's great when I'm manic (Except when I'm super mad). For the most part thought they think I'm funny, and love my energy and goofiness... but once I see people get uncomfortable I know I'm going overboard, and being impulsive. It's still hard to stop though no matter how much I notice it thought. I'm diagnosed bipolar 2 but I think I might have bipolar 1 because I went a week believing I'd die, and started getting ready.. I'm pretty sure that's psychosis, and called a paranoid delusion. I never told my doctors or therapist though... my friend thinks I should... IDT it really matters the diagnosis though cuz I already did the swab test... but maybe it would matter cuz maybe they'd take what meds I'm on more seriously... because I also had another time where I almost thought my friend was going to kill me. And once where I spent a day believing I have some kind of superpowers; mostly mind control type ones... yeah... it was weird. I also took a quiz today to see if I'm manic and I scored a 70/100 or something like that, and it said I'm closer to being severely manic than just moderate/hypomanic... so I'm like... dang... my diagnosis is probably wrong. And idk how to feel about it. I just know I need help to get stable. I'm tired of the mixed stuff and ultra rapid cycling mainly. Like I want my body to just PICK are u depressed today or manic today. Don't leave me guessing. But yeah... they're both hard to manage in their own ways cuz they both make me think irrational. It's like no matter how hard people try I feel like people will never fully comprehend unless they experience it themselves... but when manic I feel like I can push my limits and do almost anything. And when I'm depressed, it's hard to reach out for help sometimes because I feel like it happens so much that I'm just a bother at this point... but if I don't do it, I likely end up getting worse and thinking that also people would be better off without me around to bother them and stuff... and that I'll never get better no matter what I do. I've gotten better at rejecting those thoughts though. Now I need to get better at rejecting the thoughts telling me to push my limits when I'm manic. Anyway yeah long message. Clearly more manic today... lolol.... oh well.
this is a really good video :) explains allot and good coping mechanisms :) im strggling with this all the time im so tired of feeling ......what ever im going to feel who knows whats going to happen im hyper manic i think just now
I think I have been really manic. My hands twitch and my manic moments aren't fun anymore because I can't stop and I can't breathe and I can't control it. When I am manic I can't type correctly, my hands twitch and I can't keep still. The other day at school I felt like I needed the get out of the room and all I could do was organize as much as possible I began to feel faint like my feet did and even after I got out and its the most irritable I have ever been to where I feel like I can't get through the halls. Lately its been intense and odd. The only thing that can calm me down is eating until I stop eating then it goes back
You won't lose this battle. If you don't want to, then you won't. It feels so chaotic, hopeless, out of control, numb.. like you're silently screaming and you try to explain to people around you but they dismiss it, don't intervene and don't try to understand. On the outside people interpret you as calm and strong, but inside it's all tumultuous and terrifying and feels like parts of you have been murdered. The suicidal thinking is terrifying. The lack of self awareness of when you are manic is terrifying. The high likelihood you'll keep going off your meds is terrifying. All of it is so overwhelming. But... you're not the only one being attacked inside out like this. There are millions of other people all throughout history who lived with this, who thrived with it. Some of them without modern medication, without awareness of what it even is... because they predated modern science. {although! The Ancient Greeks had lithium baths to treat Bipolar, so even they understood some of it.} Yes, there is a high suicide rate. That is what terrifies me the absolute most. But that level of intensity of fear... let it spark you into research and research and research so you can arm yourself with every bit of information on what to do if you're suicidal, what type of exercise to do to alleviate depression, what kind of food to eat, how to improve sleep hygiene... let all of this fear and hopelessness build up so much that it transforms into something so powerful within you. It is awful. It is awful. It is awful. it is hell. I hate it. I hate it. But... it is a part of us. And.. there are bits of it that we can love and identify with, that we can use to be creative and to love people better. Like all of what I'm writing.. if I wasn't bipolar I wouldn't impulsively write so intense so much to a youtube comment at 1AM. There are so many weapons you have to fight with: first off, you have been properly diagnosed & are doing some type of treatment compliance. And, you are fighting, researching, thinking in-depth about how to help yourself through it. Medicine does an amazing, amazing job of almost eliminating the too much-dangerous-out of control depression or mania. And there are so many medicines to change throughout your life as your brain changes. If you want to, you won't lose the battle. You have so many people who have fought before you, who are fighting with you. We are both fighting through this. And we won't lose.
Mania totally helps achieving huge goals! But, I feel so, so much better now that this is a basic medical topic- not some weird swing of vibes I can’t figure out
A couple months ago I was in drug treatment and I was diagnosed with Bipolar II and i was like "ok, i guess" i googled the least amount of symptoms and I was like "yup that's me" and just yesterday I was on snapchat posting videos of me talking shit literally being the epitome of "manic" it wasnt until HOURS later i was like "why am i do hyper in this video? why am i acting so manic?" thats when it clicked and i googled "what is a manic episode?" and wow it is so fucking validating and my brain makes SO much more sense now. My main symptoms are sense of euphoria, depression, extreme self confidence, poor concentration, and my mind is always racing its hard to focus on one thought. thanks for this video!
Chelsey Alvarez I'm so so glad you understand yourself now, I felt extremely validated too understanding why I am this way. Stay on medicine & go to therapy regularly 💛💛
I stopped blowing and eating crap at the same time. And I’ve been feeling euphoric for the last few days. And then today suddenly I felt halted. I wanted to really do something but at the same time I really didn’t want to do anything at all. While also feeling simoultaneously feeling increasingly angry and sad at the same time. I have had a shitty sleep these last few nights. Too wired. Kept tossing and when I finally fell asleep I never passed the 5 hour sleep mark. But I ended up deciding to punch my specially made punching sand box. So I don’t break things. And I just went full rage on that sand. My first two punches were concious. But then I just kept hammering my fists down into the sand. And then I suddenly started crying uncontrollaby for no apparant reason. Then I got angry again, started punching the sand again. Went a little berserk again. Cried a bit more and then I finally calmed down. I am glad I decided to start a journal too. Although it fucking annoys me I have to write in it everyday. I feel like I trapped myself. But also don’t not want to do it cuz that feels like quitting. It was meant as a stick behind the door and to be documentation of my story of self improvement. Started treatment with a psychologists centre myself. Suspected borderline. But feeling so euphoric and wired and sleeping like shit is completely new to me. And now I’m wondering if I might be forming some of what you said. I forgot what you called it the not full blown manic state. Then again with how bad authoritive people can trigger my anger for daring to act as if they are above me might indicate some aspd tendecies as well. and whenever I compare my lack of friends of supportive family members. I just feel like I am not made to live in this society at all. Well. Done ranting. I’m trying to get some sleep.
So I’m trying to figure out I have Bipolar or not. I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist for next week. I’m watching these to see if what I’m believing makes sense. I have a feeling that I’m manic right now but of course I’m not officially diagnosed. Everything you listed sounds about like me right now and it’s actually kind of freaking me out. Very helpful video
I’m trying to make a character that has Manic episodes/Bipolar/depression episodes. I don’t have Bipolar, so I want to understand it before I make the character. Thank you for making me understand a little better!
omg! I'm so crashed out right now and I can't take it! Unfortunately I have to share a room right now and it's not good. I can't sleep when I need to and I'm shamed when I do. I can't function and it's tearing my life to pieces.
Can I ask what medicines have helped stabilize everything? I'd like to google it then talk to my own doctor etc. Great video, wish there was more of them. Really appreciated it, keep it up I've heard that when a person is hypo manic or in mania you require high quality foods. It's like having a race car & only providing it regular gasoline instead of higher octane racing fuel. So no simple sugar & try complex carbs.
When I was a teen I had racing thought, multiple thoughts overlaying on each other and the ability to stay up 84 hours straight. I also had horridly deep depression as well once the other cycle I had came into play. I was placed on Tegretol for the mood swings. As far as the depression I was on Mellaril for longer than the tegretol since the mania wasn't noticed by me for a while I had to go through a few mood swings before I realized what was happening to me.
for me, it's first and foremost my sleep and energy levels and how they're correlated. today, I'm tired and I've slept for about 14-16 hours. drank two Starbucks and I'm still below normal. my emotional reactions are above normal but I'm not sad. no impairment. that's it for symptoms.
I would actually consider you subsymptomatic in the video. your energy level is elevated, your confident, you're talking fast. your just not cracked out and working without sleep or eating crayons.
I have issues with mania. I have recently stopped taking medication and I exploded into a manic state, it was pretty bad. I have levelled out so I will see how things go over the next few weeks. Hopefully I can maintain a level of wellness, I really dont want to be on that medication anymore, its killing me. I hope you're doing well.
How about if you're more manic than depressive? I usually will go weeks with little sleep, no desire to eat, and I get all amped up when I try talking to people until I start to realize how whacked out my sleeping and eating schedules are. Eventually it hits me and I'll just sleep all day for a few days in a row and not wanna see anyone or even text and just feel overall fed up with humanity as a whole
I get a 2 weeks spell a lot sometimes were I start getting elated happy great fealing the first few days is fine the 3ed day irritability starts and racing thoughts start up before it even gets to full stage I also start talking more/faster but can also run away or avoid talking all together I also get a urge to get high or drunk for no reason do very reckless things the worse it gets the more reckless I get I've even had legal problems because of it. I get 2 weeks - 2 months of depression and suicidal thoughts can happen but rarely I also talk almost 24/7 in my head (Not always at myself) I hallucinate and get delusional at times and get like images of really bad things happening or me doing something bad or someone else hurting me or poisoning me that can at times be going for hours i get severe paranoia and sometimes feal like people are after me or know about me and what I think I always feel like I'm being watched by someone or a spirit I have very vivid and unclear dreams/nightmares I've also had delusions of having powers and having things i like that aren't there fealing like there in real life I hear a voice at least once a day at least once a month however it can be for weeks in a bad time then it's 2 or 3 voices. unfortunately I'm 14 and am in a bad situation because my dad is verbally abusive and narccistic and thinks nothing worng "because I've been around those people and there crazy" as he said... my mom is to sick to take care of even herself half the time and he is terminally ill 2 siblings of mine were diagnosed with bipolar 1 the other 2 have things simular they had different father mine had bipolar and paranoid-schizophrenia my uncle and his father had severe cases of bipolar and schizophrenia everyone is broke so I can't get an official bipolar / schizophrenia / aspergers diaognoises .. I'm just glad I'm not to bad (yet) it gets worse every year with more stress and the older I get. I also can get very elated but be deppressd and irritable all at once.
For me, the biggest sign I’m going into mania is that I start to believe I “beat depression” and I will never be depressed again. I can’t even remember what it feels like.
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I do the same thing!!
same here! and I think I'm currently going through a manic episode because of that. I also start to feel like everything is great and I have no reason at all to be sad. although sometimes instead of feeling like I beat depression, I realize I'm extremely irritated by no reason at all and I can barely have normal social interactions because of that :/
I think you nailed it. To me Lizzie sounds just like an energetic person going through moods but not bipolar at all. When you're bipolar you literally become different personas like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde and then you don't recognize yourself when in and out of an episode.
SAME OMG
i thought id beat depression felt so happy over the last 3 weeks
"I really don't wish to go among *mad* people," said Alice.
"Oh, you can't avoid that," said the Cheshire Cat. "We're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"What makes you think *I'm* mad??" asked Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."
Ever since I found out about bipolar disorder I've seen this movie as a metaphor for it
As someone with this diagnosis, I can't watch this video. She is making me feel manic by how fast she is talking and the hand gestures.... Which is on ME, not HER. But she appears manic and I'm not sure why anyone would try to stay in this state. Extremely dangerous. And at the beginning she states how she is NOT manic, but this video is telling you to stay in that hypomanic state. Very confusing and conflicting ideas here. Just wanted you to know how other people with the diagnosis are perceiving this.
Morgan Stover I didn’t even think she was talking fast damn I must be freaking people out
I understand where you are coming from and I respect your views. We are individuals with individual experiences with our bipolar. My mania can be great, slightly uncomfortable and completely horrible. Some people only experience one aspect of mania but it varies. Maybe that will help you to understand it a bit more :)
Morgan Stover hi
I don't have manic but this video made me feel on edge. My ex has ADD and honestly, I couldn't cope and it gave me anxiety issues a lot of the time. Maybe I'm just too sensitive to other people's energies.
@@lilsunflower9655 I'm watching this at 1.5 speed, does that make me weird !?😂
I just stayed up until 4:30 am planning my meals for the week...but I kept thinking that I felt "normal"! It's so strange reflecting on that and seeing hypomanoc behaviours even when you don't feel super wired
Chloe Rose that’s normal. Normal ppl stay up planning meals. Maybe you just felt like doing that. Everything isn’t hypomanic.
Hey man that's why slot of us like our mania. THAT IS PRODUCTIVE WHERE I'M FROM
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Everything I said in this video has been approved by multiple Psychiatrists I've talked to! Everyone's experience in Bipolar is different, and for me hypomania is a positive thing. There are so many artists and writers who have been Bipolar and used the mania to hone in on their creativity and produce novels, music, artwork that would not have been possible had they not been manic. My experience in hypomania is being extremely productive, creative, this insane focused and extreme vibrance, innovation, euphoria. One Psychiatrist I talked to explained it as "everyone would love to be hypomanic all the time." I agree! For me, it HAS at times escalated into too much manic-- really bad, dangerous outcomes and me lashing out at friends, but on medicine it never gets to that point.
Before I was diagnosed Bipolar I had gone through so many hypomanic episodes throughout college in which I was a bit too energetic and intense, but that had not at all escalated into anything dangerous that would have harmed me or someone else, or led to anything that I would have been arrested or hospitalized for. Like I said in the video, giving up that part of myself is something I refuse. I feel like all of me has been murdered. All the parts of me and I'm starting with no foundation, no central sense of self and the last thing I want is to erase, numb so many of the emotions-- all the intensity and focus and craziness and elation that has defined me for so many years.
My depression is paralyzing as well. I absolutely hate it and it has scarred me immensely. Throughout the past year and a half I have been in and out of really severe depression. Like to the point of almost out of reality, out of my own mind... the terms are depersonalization and derealization: look them up! I'm sure you'll identify. It was hell. I lost myself, all my passion and ambition and love...everything was forced. So much of it was barely connection with reality and like a third party observer to my own thoughts, emotions, actions. It is this autopilot fog existence that is not at all living, by any definition of the term.
And maybe in a year I'll look back on this video and see it as so foolish, naive...but for now, I am living this. I can control my hypomania so it won't crash into SEVERE depression, just a slight depression that I can still edit videos in, socialize, eat and maintain a somewhat healthy daily routine. My definition of chill hypomania may be vastly different from yours. So we may be talking about completely different things. I have been SO SENSITIVE at times to anyone speaking positively of Bipolar like "yayy it's a more vibrant way to live. you'll be so much more creative" etc. been SOO angry at times that there are a ton of books written on this same topic: how to capture your hypomania. But this is where I'm at right now.
What I've learned the most so far about all of this is that if you are living with this awful hellish chronic illness that halfway feels like a forced drug addiction to mania, process it and talk about it and identify with it HOWEVER you want to. It is like I said: I feel that all of me has been murdered. I go from being so angry hating I have this to being accepting to enjoying the hypomania. And I'm allowed to. You're allowed to hate my perspective on it and be so hurt by this video. That is valid, as well.
You deserve to identify however you want with Bipolar. We each deserve that. We can yell. We can cry every day for a month. We can crave alcohol, crave going off our medicine and fight so hard against that. We can talk about being Bipolar with some random stranger we meet or just talk about it with our family and best friend. We can love being medicated and be on 5 mood stabilizers to completely level out any emotional intensity. We can be like Halsey and continue to have a crazy party lifestyle and admit that but also barely talk about it in interviews.
This is AWFUL. DISORIENTING. Sometimes I feel it has ruined me, that it is ruining my life, that it's destroyed all the dreams I built up for myself. It feels so out of control. And so amidst that, each of us should be able to gain control, make our own health decisions however we want. I'm glad I've experienced going off my medicine, self medicating with alcohol, breaking up with my boyfriend because bipolar made my emotions back and forth... because it is me. All of it has been me. I identify with Bipolar in that way. And I'm glad I've had the freedom to not be constrained by psychiatrists and mood stabilizes for years of Bipolar manifesting in me before I grow up, become sober and never taste alcohol again, have a 9pm-6am sleep schedule and give up so much of my extreme extreme lifestyle of stoked energy on three hours of sleep, crying intensely every night for a month, being way too flirtatious with some new guy, texting essays of affirmations to my best friends, journaling thirty pages of inspirations and intellect just in two days, praying for three hours straight feeling God so intensely...all of that has been my Bipolar and it has been my reality. My experiences, my emotions because of bipolar…all of it has hurt me so much, damaged me, made my life so chaotic, out of control, hurt people I love but it has been me. How I've thought of me, related to me, the girl I based my identity in.
And I won't ever completely give her up.
Hmm. I understand this sentiment/perspective, but the opposite end is when you're exhausted from manic states and don't have the energy to create. So, 5-6 hours of productivity, and two days of non-productivity. It doesn't make sense :\
LizziesAnswers I agree with you that bipolar can be good. I think it's the only episodic psychiatric condition that people enjoy. it's a beautiful disease. I was diagnosed bipolar 1 with dysphoric mania, and it was later realised that I'm predominantly prone to hypo mania. I'm also medicated successfully for adhd. I love the emotional highs, they make strong. 150%. it's worth it to be running on fumes sometimes.
It's all fun and games till you push hypo-mania to full on mania.
This fucking kid
The fact that you're saying that someone (multiple psychiatrists lol) validated your video is your ego fearing of falling apart when you realise that you're a phony. You're deluding yourself, doctors and people who are bipolar. Cheers.
@@spiritualantiseptic oh that's deep, you must be proud. No one cares you troll
I'm opposite kinda. I write more when depressed. I unknowingly write every single day n not at all when manic. The things I do however when I am manic is intense research. Like obsessive book studies. I once checked out 25 books from the library on one subject and read all of them and did intense online studies. Then hit depression and now I owe $90 because I didn't return any of them lol
I thaught I was the only one who does this. Lol
I do this to, Ill start studying neuro phycology and college courses and spend hours of filling my notebook with notes every tho I’m in highschool 😂
if this is her in a non manic state i can't imagine when she manic for christs sake. she's already speaking 1,000 words per minute
Not just me then....
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i thought it was just me.
I’m normally like this non manic. Never done coke, but I imagine it would only slow me down while manic lmao. That’s how manic I get.
it feels so slow for me, I don't know
My exact thoughts
I have Bipolar 1, I don't get to choose when I'm manic or hypomanic, it just happens. I also suffer with severe depression. I wish I had a choice in the matter. It's exhausting. I can't sleep without high doses of Seroquel . I am on 3 different med's. I guess it's true, every bipolar person has a different experience.
I am soo sorry :( That sounds terrible :( And I am sorry too if watching this made you feel invalidated or sad. In a lot of these videos I speak positively of it just because amidst the hell and loss of identity, there are some things for me that I really like. But I know for me, when I've been really deep into episodes hearing anyone say anything positive about bipolar hurts so much. If you want to be validated in how awful bipolar is, watch this video it is me fully expressing my anger/desperation about it: ruclips.net/video/vqyJDwhuQog/видео.html&ab_channel=LizziesAnswers I hope it can make you feel more emotionally validated or understood :)
And I really hope too that in the future your brain chemistry can change a bit or they can find you a better medicine so you feel more peaceful, more in control, more yourself. It is awful, I know. And I've cried every day in the past week because of it. But life will still have so much purpose for you, your love will help to heal and change your friends, you'll fall in love, have a career, write a book, be an amazing mom... whatever you want to do. It is still there. Take care of yourself always be exercising as much as possible and making sure you drink enough water and eat. I love you!
You have a beautiful way of explaining things. I am definitely gonna watch your video. You are adorable and very relatable. I'm glad I'm not alone. I love you too!
Definitely not alone! I'm type 1 as well and also have Psychosis. Like you, I don't get to choose when it hits me either nor do I yet know what my "triggers" (ugh I've come to hate the connotations of that word) are, despite having been diagnosed with bipolar 1 as of around 10 years ago. I'm on 3 meds also, with a psychiatrist who doesn't tell me practically anything unless I have my mother with me to help me pry (I'm actually very shy when physically around those I don't know well). Just don't give up! I've been diagnosed with about 3 different illnesses now, and I can tell you that it only gets easier with time. Take time to discover yourself and those like you. (Some of my best short term friends have come from my hospital stays)! Hope you have a good day, friend! Keep on truckin'!
Well, I got into commenting this video because I see that there are many people who have BD commenting on it and can't quite figure out why Lizzie is so optimistic about BD. That's because she doesn't have one. Good for her.
Adrian Zieniewicz Lizzie is young so her symptoms may be less severe but that doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have BP. It is a degenerative disorder which means unfortunately it gets worse with age.
This is the first time I've ever seen your videos. Thank you so much for doing this! I so look forward to watching the rest of your videos. I'm so grateful that you're putting this out there!!!!
I'm so happy you found my channel! I too am excited for more bipolar videos :) I have a playlist on my youtube home page for all my mental illness videos, go watch the rest of them!! ruclips.net/p/PL6zP_UCWqLrHX2Yz38MCsPww4c3JKvVrN
This is such an amazing and in depth video. Nothing I love more than productive hypomania, I'm sharp, creative, smart and my focus is on a whole new level. Keep up the great work!
How do you trigger it?
Im newly diagnosed bp2 as of 9/18 and your videos have helped me ever since... I had an identity crisis like what you talk about and binged all you're videos and related so much. I really hope you keep the bipolar playlist going.. It helped me when i was lost and continues to help more than you know 💕
I had full blown manic for 8-9 months. Started 6-7 companies. Thought I could be Jesus and blew a million bucks lol bought a 700k house at 28. Sold it at 30 years old fml
You are young you will manage this and find balance in manic épisodes and hope in depresdion
"How to stay hypomanic in a way that is safe?" Lizzie, I love your energy and truly wish this were something safe. Hypomania is illness. It is no different than being depressed. We just like it more. I hope that the multiple psychiatrists you are talking TO are talking WITH you about the reality of hypomania. It is the other side of the bipolar coin. I love my euphoric hypomania, but I can't control it. I prefer stability. Thank you for being honest with your experiences. Mine are very different. Julie
Julie A. Fast hi
You have NO IDEA how grateful I am for your videos on Bipolar Disorder. I was just recently diagnosed and it's helped me realize so much about my ups and lows in life; however, I can't necessarily tell when I'm manic. You explain it all in such a relatable fashion, so thank you
Omg.... I do the texting and re affirming people at night thing when I'm manic too. I'll get a rush/spike and think of my ex or old friends and send them a super long text
Stephen Bailey do you this is unintentionally? My bf does the same if he feels insecure he threats me on text that he is seeing someone else and tries to break off and then later apologize.
My long distance bf told me on our first meeting that he is bipolar and pstd
I didn't even know what was that . Even saw his 2 manic episodes during my stay at his place on our first meeting . He apologized later that he didn't mean to say all that and was very ashamed? Is that true ? And he shuts down for days and then send me a text out of the blue ?
How do you feel when you are depressed ? I need to know so I can understand him better
I relate to this.
Yes I reach out to old friends too.
Thank you for sharing! You are so strong. I hit rock bottom and had the worse happen to me in my life before being diagnosed with my illness. That's why I also am sharing my story to others. We need more people like you to share their story and provide awareness to our mental health. Sending you positive vibes
You are so self aware, I applaud all of the work you have done. My Mom was Bi-polar and she was a walker. She also journaled and it helped her a lot. Great video you are helping people. Best wishes to you
Love you girl! Thank you for raising awareness of this terrible disease that we have and for creating less stigma around it.
I'm not sure if I'm bipolar or not. I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression but I feel like it's not that. First of all, the meds they gave me don't do anything. I go through episodes of being extremely motivated, like I'll get an idea, for example recently it was joining the military. I went for a 3k run (at 2am) and stayed up all night doing push-ups and sit-ups. And then a few hours later in the morning all my motivation was gone and I just wanted to stay in bed all day.
Another thing that happens to me is I will go into episodes of feeling extreme guilt over nothing. I talk really fast and my thoughts seem to go too fast for my mouth. These are just a few things that have been happening to me
you’re indeed hypomanic
i'm currently going through the same exact that.. did you ever figure it out?
I think I am and I don’t know what to do
That's Mania one with it can see it in others
I want to say you have answered so much about myself kissy by this video. I’ve been having episodes of anxiety and anger in public. I also get in high irritation where I need moments of solitude away from the world. This has also helped me understand how to manage an episode by being self aware and prepare for the signs. Thanks keep making videos they truly help people.
hi lizzie
Widya Km thank you
amazing input thank you
I have been following you since your first Draw My Life video and I remember thinking how intense you were. I loved it, lol. Your personality didn't overwhelm me at all (intense people always intrigued me). I thought it was a special gift, until I was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder and then schizoaffective disorder. I now understand that I enjoyed your videos because I understood the intensity and the heavy emotions. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. I have spent most of this healing process running away from rebuilding myself. I have just been waiting for my emotions to drive me again. To watch your videos and hear your advice has been so encouraging and helpful. Peace and love Lizzy!
Woww! This has been yearssss, that is amazing I wish I could meet you!! I feel so happy and loved that you have wanted to follow my life and see me grow for so so long :) It is crazy to me too that we sort of grew up together into being diagnosed... I've never known someone and then them be diagnosed with Bipolar, that'd be so interesting to me too.
I want to hear more of your story! Let me know if you ever want to skype and talk through things. I think I just started a month ago with rebuilding myself. It is so bizzare to me feeling like I have to start all over. But..I found a therapist recently. We've done three sessions so far and she's really been helping me with it. I hope you fully feel and process everything that has scarred you through it, so that you can get as many parts of you back as possible. Keep fighting! It makes me feel better that I'm not the only one.
Wow! I am soooo glad I found you. I spent my entire 20s untreated bipolar. I spent my entire 30s trying to recoup from my 20s. I wish I wish I wish I had someone like you 20 years ago. Going forward, I feel confident that my 40s will be a much better time for me!
i woke up feeling depressed, then i was having a bath and my heart started futtering like mad.
i got out of the bath and went and washed the dishes and i felt a sense of extream Well being come over me.
as i left the house to go to the train station i walked like 100 miles an hour, while my eyes kept flickering i felt like a crazy person.
but when i got on the train i felt so manic that i started to feel anxiety about what people thought of me
its crazy stuff haha
IF this is someone who is not hypo then I do not want to see this person when they are
This is the first of your videos that I have seen and I have to say that I totally agree with the viewpoint and feelings you have towards hypomania. I also have been living to try and maintain that level of productivity and the good feelings of a “hypomanic” state. I really enjoyed this video and LOVED all the warnings and how you worded them. The books, medical journals and even the few memoirs I’ve scoured all same the same things. Common symptoms and how bad Bipolar disorder is for most. But as our biggest weakness, it most definitely can become our greatest strength! I believe that wholeheartedly today. Even though I continue to meet obstacles and have setbacks. They become more manageable the more aware I am of the signs leading up to them.
Anyway, it’s really late for me and I’ve written and edited this comment five or six times already. I believe I’ll quit while I’m only this far behind and hope that it makes sense when I wake up later.
Take away is: I love your insight and I’m excited to watch more soon.
I actually just posted a video that I recorded of myself in a very manic state as sort of a video note to myself because my hands were shaking too much to write it down. I didn't realize how manic and incoherent I was till I went back and watched it. I figured I'd post it to try to help show people what mania is really like. i'm happy you get to control your hypomania but for me, even when I'm confident I'm controlling my mania, it spirals into something out of my control pretty quickly even on medication. I agree that artists can hone the energy brought on by hypomania, god knows I have many times over but in the end I do end up incredibly manic. and eventually depressed. so I have to train myself to see its not worth it, no matter how good it feels. just a little thing on my own personal experience with this.
The eye blinking thing. My eyelids quiver and my vision vibrates. It resembles a migraine aura. Incidentally, I’ve been hypomanic for two weeks. I’m enjoying the energy, but feel like I need to complete every idea before I dip down into depression. I just wish my brain would stop and the voices would be quiet for a little while. I’ve never had a peaceful moment. The closest I’ve had is when I’m completely drunk, which I don’t do anymore, because of my meds. I need a better mood stabilizer than I’m taking.
This is you when you're NOT manic?!?! This is how I talk when I AM manic... :O
I think she is manic and doesnt realize it... I'm manic right now and I can tell
@@bioshockbombshell she was definitely manic lol
Idk why but I’ll like apply for jobs and search for jobs during this phase and go on hella interviews, or add an extra job to my workload lol Am I the only one ?
Michel Davis I do this and then when I crash I'll impulsively quit them all
I always think "yeah I could do that job" which I totally can't do but I don't interview
Once when I was manic I woke up, I was very dysphoric when I woke up because I get angry, irritable & productive. I’ll be very giddy & more motivated too, but it’s mostly anger. So I impulsively quit that day over a misunderstanding with a coworker. I then proceeded to apply to a billion jobs. Fast forward a few days, I’m on my way to an interview. I get this brilliant idea to be a stripper. So I got off at the wrong stop & walked to the mall. I took my boyfriends card I had for something else and I spent $700 on makeup and stripping supplies. I was a stripper for about a month & then I completely crashed and went into a depressive episode. So I feel you. If I feel the urge to quit or apply for jobs that’s a red flag of mine and it took TOO long for me to recognize that as a red flag lmaooo you aren’t alone
I’m so manic today, after a long depressive episode for two weeks, it’s so true I drank caffeine too and it made me extremely manic. As I type this at 3:36 AM in the morning. When I’m manic I take extremely big risks and spend compulsively. I hate being overly manic now because I’ve realized how productive and unstoppable you can feel and be but in the end you crash. I honestly never knew that I was bipolar until I saw your video, which was a blessing in disguise because everything you are talking about I can relate so much and my disorder makes so much more sense to me now. I’m actually kind of happy about being bipolar, I just hate the depressive episodes of feeling completely exhausted and fatigue. When I’m in a depressive state I can sleep more than 12 hours a day, it’s really bad.
Me too. Did you learn how to trigger mania or hypomania?
You seem a bit manic to me.
Yes
She was. I feel her too
Definitely sounds manic af
@@aquamarinedream8304 because shes manic
Bluntly Blondie hi
You are an angel. Thank you for being my inner voice tonight, since mine seems to be taking a vacation...
♥♥♥
It is crazy to me that I can be this to you, because for a year and a half I felt so chaotic no guidance.
Keep fighting! You have more emotional wisdom than you realize
You are so sweet. This is like the best Christmas present ever--a thorough understanding of this part of me which has perplexed me for what seems like eternity.
Thank you, Liz
Thank you for talking about it because you could literally save someone's life.
Much love from Dallas, TX
Elianah wulfy I am so happy! This is amazing that we can relate to each other.. that we have such similar experiences. I am grateful if I can encourage you :)
"I feel so calm and relaxed. I'm normally really hyper and talk fast"
*proceeds to talk lightening fast while constantly swinging arms around* 😵 dafuq bruhh
I'm finding this video so late but I could listen to you for hours. Everything you say is so relatable plus you seem super sweet! I love mania but I usually end up psychotic from it ugh!
Love your video! I think you are so lucky to have been correctly diagnosed so young and it was so nice to see somebody else talk as fast as i do! [My onset was in my 20's also, but i wasn't diagnosed until i was 45.... and every few years my medication has to change to keep up with the changing physiology of my body... ] but some of this stuff rang so true for me, especially the frenetic writing (your journal, my calendar).
..... Oh, i did want to mention, for my journal, i bought an app for my phone that records MP3 files (the recording app on the phone wasn't MP3), and then transfer the files to my laptop. And it's easier on my 59-year old, arthritic hands.... But i still have to write longhand on some stuff.... in multi-colored pens.... so that will never change i guess... :-) thanks again.
I just wanted to thank you for this video. You have no idea how much this helped me. I've been having all of these symptoms and I thought I was going crazy. I'm going to the doctor to get started on medication. Thank you so so much!
It's amazing that you're doing these vlogs keep it up!
Thanks for posting this! It really helped
Bipolar Mania.. Was awake 3 days, I think. . I lost count, I may have had a micro nap but I don't remember it.
I'm past 'getting bad again'; past the point of no return now, my insanity has over run me, I am completely submerged, waves crashing down. A woman I know has grown close to me, shes a nurse. Shes a good friend who helps me out, & understands me. She gave me an anti psychotic & something to induce sleep.
I sat there just staring at the pill packs for almost an hour struggling to take them. But I ended up finally taking them & sleeping, but in the morning (this morning) i was depressed & irritable all day, i kept moving to rooms where noone was. I feel normalish now, i say ish cause its almost 4am so..
I *had* insurance but it got canceled A few months ago, hopefully my application gets approved so i dont have to keep finding medicine off the street.
Bet if bernie was president I wouldn't have to go through this..
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Dude, I relate to having way too many ideas, poor sleep cycle, talking too super fast, reading endless articles, needing to move, craving sexual intimacy, talking to a lot of people endlessly, etc. I guess bipolar varies from person to person
This is hands down the most helpful bipolar related video I've ever watched on youtube. Thank you SO much for sharing this knowledge
Kayla Klauer I'm SOO happy it helped you 💛💛 I have so many more videos on Bipolar on my RUclips channel! The playlist to all those videos is on my home page 👌
LizziesAnswers I've watched almost all of them, you have inspired me to create my own channel talking about my experiences with bipolar. When I tell you that your videos helped me realize so many things about my mood changes, I seriously mean it. Your videos have actually changed my life for the better. Please keep doing what you're doing and spreading this helpful advice💙
Thank you for this video Lizzie. My female friend recently told me she was Bipolar 1. She took so long to tell me, but now I like her even more. It didn't change how I saw her and I told her that I accept her just as she is.
This video really help me realize a lot of my actions. I’m going through a depression after my few weeks of hypomanic that I didn’t realize. But yesterday I was able to realize I am becoming very depressed after I was doing so well. I’m still learning a lot about bipolar and how to help myself and this helped so much.
This video really made me accept myself more with my new diagnosis. Thank you for your video! :)
Haha, watching this at 6:30a.m. and haven't been to sleep yet. Been up all night texting friends "novels," listening to Emancipator and pacing/dancing around the room feeling inspired and like the universe is conspiring in my favor. Finally laid down to watch RUclips and attempt to sleep 😂 Thanks for the video, wishing you the best!
Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this. You are a great voice in the RUclips Bipolar Community!
I hope I can figure mine out like this. But I am everywhere and not medicated. I couldn't function even more with. But I had the wrong diagnosis of just severe/clinical depression but bipolar 2 makes more sense now. So I havent tried lithium. I get random mixed states that are unpredictable minus feeling off an hour before. They are scary. Thanks for making these videos however. Driving kinda scares me at this point of my life too. So I put off my lisence for years.
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Mintyoreos hi how are you can we talk
You hit so many key points and it frustrates me that with all those points you make, I wish I had the mental capacity to specify all of my questions and comparisons on a post to you but it is thoroughly impossible. I want to meet you in person! I think the big difference between us is that I am a single unemployed mother of an 8 month old that was premature and I have legal issues,etc...see there is my damn manic...hypo manic? I am learning to become self aware. I was barely diagnosed July 2017 and am unmedicated...long story. But I watch your videos and it makes me look up to you. I have my shit going on and when I was diagnosed, it explains so much of how I have been my entire life. I'm sure you get this a lot but Lizzie...if you could somehow take a moment out of your day to reach out to me, personally...I feel that you could really help me better than any therapist I've ever had. I hope you get this. My request is sincere. Please contact me. You could save portions of my life and something is better than nothing....and here I go rambling....fan....tactic. Haha! Much love to you! Thank you for helping me not feel so alone and that I can be strong. I'm always told I am strong and a good mother but I just don't see or feel it...
“Have I gone mad? I'm afraid so.
You're entirely Bonkers.
But I will tell you a secret,
All the best people are.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
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Michael Piccirillo "Alice I Wonderland"? I absolutely LOVE this quote; it is just so darned PERFECT! 😁
your videos are great! just listening to a few, i'm curious if you've ever experienced borderline personality disorder type symptoms or have had that brought up in a session. some things you said that describe your relationships might be in that spectrum.
i have been diagnosed bipolar and am finding i may have some symptoms of borderline as well. they are often found hand in hand.
sending messages to people in my life on "how much they mean to me," etc... and pushing romantic partners away is something you have described and things i myself have done. you also bring up validation a lot. something i seek a lot as well in my research.
good luck to you!
Lizzie...you are very wise for your years! Honestly..at your age I was a walking disaster. I'm a psych nurse with Bipolar and suffered greatly for 40 yrs of horrific circumstances. Mostly brought on by my sick mind, yet I worked continually, very hard and successfully and helped so many, but not able to help me.
I'm in the process of getting back to Drs and meds and trying to get my son to realize. He's Bipolar..
He's in the land of denial..using daily alcohol binges to stop the suffering. Not sure how I can help him.. worried.
You are so wonderful... I really appreciate this video. It was like someone finely understands (which of course, you do)
thank you for taking time to put your thoughts on video just hearing you talk so positive about it helped me today .
Someone get me the word count for this video, I think it broke a world record.
This is definitely helpful for someone like me who hasn't been able to get any treatment at all; it is good to know some tips for when it comes :) thank you. I've been trying so hard to recognize my mood shifts and they are very scary... It's so hard to remain calm and I've lost most of my friends over it
thank you so much. while im still figuring out meds, I do know how unpredictable I am in a manic state, and with how scary that is, having a sense of control will really be nice
You seem like you were showing manic episode in this video.
exactly she is manic
She’s probably hypomanic at that time
Just know that if you have more hypomanic episodes it increases the likelihood of having more hypomanic episodes and full manic episodes and psychosis, which could result in involuntary mental hospital holds. Hope you're all safe and being kind to yourselves, loving the open dialogue!
Thank you so much :) I had my first really high hypomanic episode the other day but I was really aware that what I was doing wasn't 'normal' I.e trying to stop cars in the road with my magical powers lol.
Wow ok, I experience most of these only reason I started doing research on this is because I haven't been feeling myself lately and my boyfriend has been telling me that I have been experiencing some bipolar symptoms! I will definitely be talking to a professional, thank you for this video!
I can't eat at all when I'm hypomanic
Or sleep
Too many things to do
I will meal prep breakfast lunch and dinner for 3 weeks and not eat a single one of those meals until I come down because I'm too busy to eat anything that requires utensils. I go on like 20 mins of sleep and 300 calories a day.
mightybfool C me neither. I can’t eat or sleep.
Literally me right now.
Same
'requires utensils'. I love that statement! Eat on the go is so convenient during mania. If i make a meal and sit down to eat it, I often get distracted doing something else. the food goes cold because I spent too long on doing something else or I forget I was even eating a meal at all.
It's crazy how accurate you are when I compare my bipolar 1 to your signs.
That is so intresting! Im bipolar 1 and I usally eat less, sometimes not at all for days when im manic. If I have a depression that is so deep that I cant get out off bed then I eat less. But Usally I eat much much more when im depressed.
Thanks for sharing! I get super resistant to following my own 'rules' and this video helped me. I noticed you end most of your statements like a question. Maybe that is just average for you, but I know for myself I tend toward more childlike speech when I'm hyper (I think I experience hypomania; this is something I'm exploring).
This has helped me so much. I really appreciate this
Really interesting video. I don't have Bipolar disorder, but I have Schizophrenia. I find it interesting to learn about other mental disorders. Thanks for posting this video. ☺️
I got diagnosed with Bipolar II (but my diagnosis was adjusted and is now Rapid Cycling Bipolar I) at 10 years old, and I am now 14 going on 15, but my mania is still not under control. I have gone through periods of time where I’ve not slept for an entire week, which has caused hallucinations, and all that Jazz. Also, I’ve talked with many professionals that have said (and I agree) that after mania (I’m unsure about hypomania) you “crash” which can cause long periods of sleeping, and can trigger a depressive phase. If you are a female, I suggest you get a period tracking app, due to the fact that your cycle can trigger episodes, manic , hypomanic, and depressive.
For me, it's this electricity running throughout your entire body. I get the cravings for alcohol and increased appetite. I don't think that I blink more or get violent dreams but everyone experiences it differently.
Thank you, Lizzie for your insights into symptoms.
I feel like a good way to look at it, is high energy vs low energy... like I'm still trying to learn to track my moods better and recognize what state I'm in; especially when I have symptoms that can signal mania, depression, or just anxiety (like extreme irritability). So I try to be aware of other accompanying symptoms that can help me differentiate... and I think high energy in general usually signals hypomania to me; whether I'm easily irritated by everything and just want to move faster and faster with my plans; or I'm just living like a major goofball and start feeling very excited and impulsive and fidgety/a constant need to think, talk, or move basicaly... and definitely less sleep (without missing it; if I miss it and am tired I'm most likely just depressed or anxious). When I'm hypomanic I'm too excited and wired to sleep... like sleeping seems stupid. And it's really hard to calm myself because even though I am self aware, and know what I should do to take care of myself, I really don't want to to be honest.. I want to run with it. Like today for example, I only slept a couple of hours total... and ended up going out. Playing guitar. Going out more. Working on a few goals. Hanging with a friend. Like I did not slow down or chill at all... I just kept going and going instead of forcing myself to calm down. And I def notice the change in my writing; like a pressure to keep writing and writing (esp texts to friends or even just my talking... it get's exciting, fast, loud; with millions of creative ideas zapping through.). Sometimes I experience racing thoughts and restlessness though with depressive symptoms at the same time or closely together. And that's the harder part to figure out... whether or not I'm in a dysphoric, mixed state or just ultra rapid cycling. It gets really annoying. Like if I'm JUST manic or JUST depressed it's easier to manage. But when I'm experiencing both within 24 hours it gets hella annoying... Like I can spend majority of the day hypomanic, or even stable, and then have a random burst of depression at night or early morning where I start having urges to self harm and think terrible things about myself (and a lot of is triggered I think because of the tension/irritability/excessive energy that can even come from the hypomania; like I realize I'm not normal and can't calm down and feel on edge; and just wanna do anything to relax, especially because I don't wanna lash out at innocent loved ones). It's the most aggravating thing ever.... but just a little while later; I'll shift out of it and become super focused on my goals and upbeat again. I think part of it is I'm not on the best meds for me. I did a swab test, and tried a different med, and I did way better that week that I tested it. However, there was a misunderstanding with my insurance, so I might have to wait to get that one again, so for now I'm on what I had before... and I just don't think it's as effective. But it is better than nothing. When I was on no meds I was terrible and felt completely out of control... especially in depressive/mixed phases. Like I'd have the mixed symptoms of depressive thoughts, but racing; tired but restless, worthlessness and hopelessness, but impulsiveness and risk taking... like I just didn't care if I lived or died, or wanted to, and my thoughts went by so fast that before I could even pause, reflect, and talk myself out of a stupid decision I was grabbing something to hurt myself... at least now even though I get episodes and random thoughts/moods, I can at least think a bit more slowly, clearly than before and am a lot more selfaware... I'm usually able to prevent major bad decisions; or recognize when I've made one and try not to do worse ones and stay self aware after to see if my episode passed or progresses, and whether or not I need to seek more help of some kind momentarily... it's easier to seek help when depressed I feel like then when manic though because everyone thinks it's great when I'm manic (Except when I'm super mad). For the most part thought they think I'm funny, and love my energy and goofiness... but once I see people get uncomfortable I know I'm going overboard, and being impulsive. It's still hard to stop though no matter how much I notice it thought. I'm diagnosed bipolar 2 but I think I might have bipolar 1 because I went a week believing I'd die, and started getting ready.. I'm pretty sure that's psychosis, and called a paranoid delusion. I never told my doctors or therapist though... my friend thinks I should... IDT it really matters the diagnosis though cuz I already did the swab test... but maybe it would matter cuz maybe they'd take what meds I'm on more seriously... because I also had another time where I almost thought my friend was going to kill me. And once where I spent a day believing I have some kind of superpowers; mostly mind control type ones... yeah... it was weird. I also took a quiz today to see if I'm manic and I scored a 70/100 or something like that, and it said I'm closer to being severely manic than just moderate/hypomanic... so I'm like... dang... my diagnosis is probably wrong. And idk how to feel about it. I just know I need help to get stable. I'm tired of the mixed stuff and ultra rapid cycling mainly. Like I want my body to just PICK are u depressed today or manic today. Don't leave me guessing. But yeah... they're both hard to manage in their own ways cuz they both make me think irrational. It's like no matter how hard people try I feel like people will never fully comprehend unless they experience it themselves... but when manic I feel like I can push my limits and do almost anything. And when I'm depressed, it's hard to reach out for help sometimes because I feel like it happens so much that I'm just a bother at this point... but if I don't do it, I likely end up getting worse and thinking that also people would be better off without me around to bother them and stuff... and that I'll never get better no matter what I do. I've gotten better at rejecting those thoughts though. Now I need to get better at rejecting the thoughts telling me to push my limits when I'm manic. Anyway yeah long message. Clearly more manic today... lolol.... oh well.
Stay strong, Lizzie! 🤗
this is a really good video :) explains allot and good coping mechanisms :) im strggling with this all the time im so tired of feeling ......what ever im going to feel who knows whats going to happen im hyper manic i think just now
Lizzie from one bipolar person to another I LOVE YOUR ENERGY 😻
I think I have been really manic. My hands twitch and my manic moments aren't fun anymore because I can't stop and I can't breathe and I can't control it. When I am manic I can't type correctly, my hands twitch and I can't keep still. The other day at school I felt like I needed the get out of the room and all I could do was organize as much as possible I began to feel faint like my feet did and even after I got out and its the most irritable I have ever been to where I feel like I can't get through the halls. Lately its been intense and odd. The only thing that can calm me down is eating until I stop eating then it goes back
Wow this is the most enlightening video ive seen so far
13:24 - I was so glad you straightened your rug 😩😂
Thank you for this. I am fighting like hell that I am bi-polar, but think I am losing the battle.
You won't lose this battle. If you don't want to, then you won't. It feels so chaotic, hopeless, out of control, numb.. like you're silently screaming and you try to explain to people around you but they dismiss it, don't intervene and don't try to understand. On the outside people interpret you as calm and strong, but inside it's all tumultuous and terrifying and feels like parts of you have been murdered. The suicidal thinking is terrifying. The lack of self awareness of when you are manic is terrifying. The high likelihood you'll keep going off your meds is terrifying. All of it is so overwhelming. But... you're not the only one being attacked inside out like this. There are millions of other people all throughout history who lived with this, who thrived with it. Some of them without modern medication, without awareness of what it even is... because they predated modern science. {although! The Ancient Greeks had lithium baths to treat Bipolar, so even they understood some of it.} Yes, there is a high suicide rate. That is what terrifies me the absolute most. But that level of intensity of fear... let it spark you into research and research and research so you can arm yourself with every bit of information on what to do if you're suicidal, what type of exercise to do to alleviate depression, what kind of food to eat, how to improve sleep hygiene... let all of this fear and hopelessness build up so much that it transforms into something so powerful within you. It is awful. It is awful. It is awful. it is hell. I hate it. I hate it. But... it is a part of us. And.. there are bits of it that we can love and identify with, that we can use to be creative and to love people better. Like all of what I'm writing.. if I wasn't bipolar I wouldn't impulsively write so intense so much to a youtube comment at 1AM. There are so many weapons you have to fight with: first off, you have been properly diagnosed & are doing some type of treatment compliance. And, you are fighting, researching, thinking in-depth about how to help yourself through it. Medicine does an amazing, amazing job of almost eliminating the too much-dangerous-out of control depression or mania. And there are so many medicines to change throughout your life as your brain changes. If you want to, you won't lose the battle. You have so many people who have fought before you, who are fighting with you. We are both fighting through this. And we won't lose.
I absolutely love this video you understand me better then anybody 😭
Mania totally helps achieving huge goals! But, I feel so, so much better now that this is a basic medical topic- not some weird swing of vibes I can’t figure out
A couple months ago I was in drug treatment and I was diagnosed with Bipolar II and i was like "ok, i guess" i googled the least amount of symptoms and I was like "yup that's me" and just yesterday I was on snapchat posting videos of me talking shit literally being the epitome of "manic" it wasnt until HOURS later i was like "why am i do hyper in this video? why am i acting so manic?" thats when it clicked and i googled "what is a manic episode?" and wow it is so fucking validating and my brain makes SO much more sense now. My main symptoms are sense of euphoria, depression, extreme self confidence, poor concentration, and my mind is always racing its hard to focus on one thought. thanks for this video!
Chelsey Alvarez I'm so so glad you understand yourself now, I felt extremely validated too understanding why I am this way. Stay on medicine & go to therapy regularly 💛💛
I stopped blowing and eating crap at the same time. And I’ve been feeling euphoric for the last few days. And then today suddenly I felt halted.
I wanted to really do something but at the same time I really didn’t want to do anything at all.
While also feeling simoultaneously feeling increasingly angry and sad at the same time. I have had a shitty sleep these last few nights. Too wired. Kept tossing and when I finally fell asleep I never passed the 5 hour sleep mark.
But I ended up deciding to punch my specially made punching sand box. So I don’t break things. And I just went full rage on that sand. My first two punches were concious. But then I just kept hammering my fists down into the sand. And then I suddenly started crying uncontrollaby for no apparant reason. Then I got angry again, started punching the sand again. Went a little berserk again. Cried a bit more and then I finally calmed down.
I am glad I decided to start a journal too. Although it fucking annoys me I have to write in it everyday. I feel like I trapped myself. But also don’t not want to do it cuz that feels like quitting. It was meant as a stick behind the door and to be documentation of my story of self improvement.
Started treatment with a psychologists centre myself. Suspected borderline. But feeling so euphoric and wired and sleeping like shit is completely new to me. And now I’m wondering if I might be forming some of what you said. I forgot what you called it the not full blown manic state.
Then again with how bad authoritive people can trigger my anger for daring to act as if they are above me might indicate some aspd tendecies as well. and whenever I compare my lack of friends of supportive family members. I just feel like I am not made to live in this society at all.
Well. Done ranting. I’m trying to get some sleep.
Thank you so much for this video. I can completely relate to this.
I love the setting besides the bookshelf that makes me not being able to focus due to OCD. Im focusing on your smile and info :) xoxo
keep it up the video is wonderful and it's a horrible condition that is a struggle !!
So I’m trying to figure out I have Bipolar or not. I scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist for next week. I’m watching these to see if what I’m believing makes sense. I have a feeling that I’m manic right now but of course I’m not officially diagnosed. Everything you listed sounds about like me right now and it’s actually kind of freaking me out. Very helpful video
I dont have hypomania for 11 months hope it gets back again
I do notice that my handwriting changes!!! Thanks, I never realized that!!!
I’m trying to make a character that has Manic episodes/Bipolar/depression episodes. I don’t have Bipolar, so I want to understand it before I make the character. Thank you for making me understand a little better!
omg! I'm so crashed out right now and I can't take it! Unfortunately I have to share a room right now and it's not good. I can't sleep when I need to and I'm shamed when I do. I can't function and it's tearing my life to pieces.
I hope you feel better soon!
Thanks! Doing much better!
What did you do to get out of that
Can I ask what medicines have helped stabilize everything? I'd like to google it then talk to my own doctor etc.
Great video, wish there was more of them. Really appreciated it, keep it up
I've heard that when a person is hypo manic or in mania you require high quality foods. It's like having a race car & only providing it regular gasoline instead of higher octane racing fuel. So no simple sugar & try complex carbs.
When I was a teen I had racing thought, multiple thoughts overlaying on each other and the ability to stay up 84 hours straight. I also had horridly deep depression as well once the other cycle I had came into play. I was placed on Tegretol for the mood swings. As far as the depression I was on Mellaril for longer than the tegretol since the mania wasn't noticed by me for a while I had to go through a few mood swings before I realized what was happening to me.
for me, it's first and foremost my sleep and energy levels and how they're correlated. today, I'm tired and I've slept for about 14-16 hours. drank two Starbucks and I'm still below normal. my emotional reactions are above normal but I'm not sad. no impairment. that's it for symptoms.
I feel like doctors think of bipolar disorder as structured episodes of highs or lows but there's everything in between that subsymptomatic.
I would actually consider you subsymptomatic in the video. your energy level is elevated, your confident, you're talking fast. your just not cracked out and working without sleep or eating crayons.
Keep your head up people , FIGHT, FIGHT,and KEEP FIGHTING
When i start to feel like a million bucks then i know shit is going south for me real quick
I have issues with mania. I have recently stopped taking medication and I exploded into a manic state, it was pretty bad. I have levelled out so I will see how things go over the next few weeks. Hopefully I can maintain a level of wellness, I really dont want to be on that medication anymore, its killing me. I hope you're doing well.
what medication are you currently taking? are you still able to control the hypomania?
I would love to be hypomanic all the times I love being bipolar but the depression is the worst!! But Idc cuz my mania makes up for it❤️❤️❤️
How about if you're more manic than depressive? I usually will go weeks with little sleep, no desire to eat, and I get all amped up when I try talking to people until I start to realize how whacked out my sleeping and eating schedules are. Eventually it hits me and I'll just sleep all day for a few days in a row and not wanna see anyone or even text and just feel overall fed up with humanity as a whole
I get a 2 weeks spell a lot sometimes were I start getting elated happy great fealing the first few days is fine the 3ed day irritability starts and racing thoughts start up before it even gets to full stage I also start talking more/faster but can also run away or avoid talking all together I also get a urge to get high or drunk for no reason do very reckless things the worse it gets the more reckless I get I've even had legal problems because of it. I get 2 weeks - 2 months of depression and suicidal thoughts can happen but rarely I also talk almost 24/7 in my head (Not always at myself) I hallucinate and get delusional at times and get like images of really bad things happening or me doing something bad or someone else hurting me or poisoning me that can at times be going for hours i get severe paranoia and sometimes feal like people are after me or know about me and what I think I always feel like I'm being watched by someone or a spirit I have very vivid and unclear dreams/nightmares I've also had delusions of having powers and having things i like that aren't there fealing like there in real life I hear a voice at least once a day at least once a month however it can be for weeks in a bad time then it's 2 or 3 voices. unfortunately I'm 14 and am in a bad situation because my dad is verbally abusive and narccistic and thinks nothing worng "because I've been around those people and there crazy" as he said... my mom is to sick to take care of even herself half the time and he is terminally ill 2 siblings of mine were diagnosed with bipolar 1 the other 2 have things simular they had different father mine had bipolar and paranoid-schizophrenia my uncle and his father had severe cases of bipolar and schizophrenia everyone is broke so I can't get an official bipolar / schizophrenia / aspergers diaognoises .. I'm just glad I'm not to bad (yet) it gets worse every year with more stress and the older I get. I also can get very elated but be deppressd and irritable all at once.