"It's so hard to fight for myself,When living means living in Hell" Never thought I'd feel so damn connected to a song before because that's basically the perfect description to not just my life,but mental illness as a whole
Why are you saying "sorry for taking a break" Everyone needs to take a break every once in a while, and when it comes to health care, you can never say "NO" to taking that break. Hope you doing well, and hope that hearth monitor is not there for bad.
This song left me dealing with things I thought I already overcame, again. CS are hitting so deep, it's sometimes really scary... And that you seems to understand it too, makes your videos so real and let me come back every time I see an update from you! Keep up the fight, you're one hell of a fighter!
Those wires are very uncomfortable. I know that from personal experience and I’m praying for you. Would send a donation, but right now struggling with funds as well.
Yeah, another CS reaction by you, buddy ! This one hits different. You really feel every song by Citizen Soldier, which I appreciate. Keep going, man ! 💜;
They inspired another poem like damn they are like an inspiration well. So yeah I'll leave it down below but it's also on my wattpad account Endless Nightmare I won't sleep tonight because I know that it's gonna be a war. So many thoughts keep me awake. I've been up wondering why I'm even worth fighting for. So why am I worth fighting for? I'm getting so tired of holding my ground. The price that I pay to survive seems to be so high! So I'm raising my white flag tonight, because I don't feel like fighting them tonight. When I shut my eyes they're there waiting for me. They find me every time, there's no escape! Will I never be free! Free from my endless nightmare. There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes. I can never escape it! I can never escape my endless nightmare no matter how hard I try! I've been running for miles! When the morning comes, I know it will still be there. My endless nightmare! I pull the veil over my eyes, so I won't see the person I've become. What am I doing with my life!? I've tried to stop staring at the sun, but my eyes always get the best of me. I'm on the edge, I'm in too deep! Why won't someone come and save me from this endless nightmare?! Why can't you see that I'm right here waiting!? I'm right here in an endless nightmare! I close my eyes, it's still right there waiting for me! I hide, yet it finds me again! Am I trapped here forever no hope of being free! I can never escape the endless nightmare. No matter how many miles I run. When morning comes, it will still be there; my endless nightmare. I've almost had enough! Almost had enough of knowing I just couldn't get much lower. It's got me so messed up. Got me so messed up, not knowing when this story's over. Not knowing when my endless nightmares will end. I mean if they ever end. It's so hard to fight for myself! When living means I'm living in hell. I can never escape this endless nightmare, it doesn't matter if I close my eyes or run for miles; it will still be there! There's no escape from this endless nightmare! -Elizabeth/Numa
I know this isn’t a good thing, but I’ve started staying up later to avoid my never ending nightmare. I hate who I’ve become. I hate who I am. I’m changing this today.
well man i have made it through all 32 CS reactions in just under 3 hrs haha. loved loved loveddd the videos, super blessed to have found these guys and your channel. now my one important question for you is... out of all their songs what are your top 3?
Hope your feeling better bro.
"It's so hard to fight for myself,When living means living in Hell"
Never thought I'd feel so damn connected to a song before because that's basically the perfect description to not just my life,but mental illness as a whole
Why are you saying "sorry for taking a break" Everyone needs to take a break every once in a while, and when it comes to health care, you can never say "NO" to taking that break. Hope you doing well, and hope that hearth monitor is not there for bad.
This song left me dealing with things I thought I already overcame, again. CS are hitting so deep, it's sometimes really scary... And that you seems to understand it too, makes your videos so real and let me come back every time I see an update from you! Keep up the fight, you're one hell of a fighter!
Never be sorry man hope your ok and I love all your citizen soldier reaction videos keep up the brilliant work
prayers to you man, you are sucha genuine human being, love the content.
Those wires are very uncomfortable. I know that from personal experience and I’m praying for you. Would send a donation, but right now struggling with funds as well.
Yeah, another CS reaction by you, buddy ! This one hits different. You really feel every song by Citizen Soldier, which I appreciate. Keep going, man ! 💜;
Never be sorry for taking a break, everyone needs a break every now and then. Hope you feel better. Much love
They inspired another poem like damn they are like an inspiration well.
So yeah I'll leave it down below but it's also on my wattpad account
Endless Nightmare
I won't sleep tonight because I know that it's gonna be a war.
So many thoughts keep me awake.
I've been up wondering why I'm even worth fighting for.
So why am I worth fighting for?
I'm getting so tired of holding my ground.
The price that I pay to survive seems to be so high!
So I'm raising my white flag tonight, because I don't feel like fighting them tonight.
When I shut my eyes they're there waiting for me.
They find me every time, there's no escape!
Will I never be free!
Free from my endless nightmare.
There's a monster I caged deep behind my eyes.
I can never escape it!
I can never escape my endless nightmare no matter how hard I try!
I've been running for miles!
When the morning comes, I know it will still be there.
My endless nightmare!
I pull the veil over my eyes, so I won't see the person I've become.
What am I doing with my life!?
I've tried to stop staring at the sun, but my eyes always get the best of me.
I'm on the edge, I'm in too deep!
Why won't someone come and save me from this endless nightmare?!
Why can't you see that I'm right here waiting!?
I'm right here in an endless nightmare!
I close my eyes, it's still right there waiting for me!
I hide, yet it finds me again!
Am I trapped here forever no hope of being free!
I can never escape the endless nightmare.
No matter how many miles I run.
When morning comes, it will still be there; my endless nightmare.
I've almost had enough!
Almost had enough of knowing I just couldn't get much lower.
It's got me so messed up.
Got me so messed up, not knowing when this story's over.
Not knowing when my endless nightmares will end.
I mean if they ever end.
It's so hard to fight for myself!
When living means I'm living in hell.
I can never escape this endless nightmare, it doesn't matter if I close my eyes or run for miles; it will still be there!
There's no escape from this endless nightmare!
-Elizabeth/Numa
I know this isn’t a good thing, but I’ve started staying up later to avoid my never ending nightmare. I hate who I’ve become. I hate who I am. I’m changing this today.
I’m always just so angry. I can’t help myself. I am going to change
The first step is acceptance my friend, you have got this ❤️
If you haven't heard them before, look up Caskets - "Glass Hearts" or their newer single "Lost in Echoes" 😁🤘🏻
well man i have made it through all 32 CS reactions in just under 3 hrs haha. loved loved loveddd the videos, super blessed to have found these guys and your channel.
now my one important question for you is... out of all their songs what are your top 3?
Understandable... cuz I literally can't sleep
They are always so deep, touching on topics few dare to touch. I do hope your health improves, you're too young to have such horrible health problems.
Hope you will feel better soon.
You should react to If You Can't Hang by Sleeping With Sirens!
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...I understand...
Your iron man 🥰cause of the heart thing you’ve ,stay strong ❤️
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Hey
Can you do a reaction to song By Dream called "Mask"