MY ANOREXIA RECOVERY // getting stressed // over-reacting to things
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- Опубликовано: 27 июл 2024
- It's so easy to get stressed in recovery, especially when you're underweight or malnourished in some way. I find I can be fine one minute and then something goes wrong and all of a sudden I'm falling apart. UGH.
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Hi Megsy, one of my subscribers pointed me to this video. Your content is brilliant, you're clearly a great contributor to the recovery community. Sending you a tonne of strength and love in your recovery. x
Bless you, thanks for the message. Funnily enough a couple of people pointed me to you too & I just love your channel & instagram. It’s helping me so much at the moment to hear from people who are living life, & I’m sure there’s still struggles but you talk so openly about it all & how you’ve learnt from what you’ve been through & how you want to keep building you & your life. Veryyyyy inspiring, thank you 😘😘
This is so good for me today. Last night I had more breadsticks at Olive Garden than I had "planned" (disordered, I know😭) and I was so mad the rest of the night. It's so good to have a community where you're not alone
I'm not an ED person but I'm a drug addict. I watch a lot of u lovely ladies and they are all helpful but u in particular have helped me so much. There are so many similarities between our diseases. Anyway this helps me in so many ways. Just wanted to thank you for being so vunerable to us u have helped to save my life.
When I was very underweight I got angry each time someone asked me a question. In fact the questions were not stupid and people were kind to me but it was just so difficult to speak (and my speech was very slow and quiet). Each time I had to response I thought "aaaahhhh, why do you make me open my mouse, could you shut up at least for a few moments please?".
Pavel Rudko oh god you poor thing! I hope you’ve got more energy now!
Megsy Recovery, I've got much more energy right now, thank you) But I often experience the stuff you told about. When body has no resources for making decisions and etc. And the mood is still low most of the time. Sometimes it even seems everyone just pretends having any interests and fun other then food and their lives are like mine - just waiting between meals (in fact I understand my ED just tells me everything is like it's supposed to be and everyone should suffer all the time, so continue). And it's hard to distinguish whether my head is full of thoughts about food because I'm underweight, or am I just lazy and weak to end the meal and go get stuff done. That's why your videos are so important for me. You really help to get back on track and believe things will get better if I gain some weight.
Pavel Rudko I experience the same thing. The anger with others. I also can’t find my words.
I relate to this so much. My mum has always said that she could tell what kind of place I was in by looking at my reactions. I would go off like a firecracker over the silliest things.
Thank you for sharing your journey. So proud of you. X
I can definitely relate to this. I recently was late for a yoga class so I couldn't go in and had a meltdown and cried all the way home lol Also, I heard this saying while I was in treatment once "Do you want a good day or a good life" Kind of the same thing! Like do you want the immediate gratification of the ED or the long term gratification of being healthy? Anyways, loved the video as usual. Stay strong!
Hilary Thomson yes love that saying!!! 🙏
& god those stressed out experiences. Do you look at it & think what am I doing? I’m always like seriously, Meg. Chill 😂
Really needed this vlog today. Thanks megs x
So so excited to see you in my notifications xxxx
It is amazing how much I am learning from you. Love you!
Thanks for posting, I always find your videos helpful.
This is so so so fitting for me, really really needed this today! Had a bit of a faff with what time I was meant to start my shift at work and I literally have been spending the morning stressing out so much!
One of my big things is over thinking and dwelling on things that I have no control over! Thank you meg, you amazing starrrr!
Oh i can't even begin to tell how much i needed this video at the moment! Yesterday i got a ticket in the tram. Although while paying it i acted okey but the second i stepped out i broke down completly crying and overwhelmed with hate toworths myself. I don't have the money to really spend on anything let alone this and i just got taken away 50 bucks. And accually like you said, the first thing my head was thinking; your not allowed to eat anymore (not sure how that plan will work out in the long term really). Yes getting a ticket is a stressfull thing, but the world won't stop and you will wake up tomorrow again. Many hugs and thank you lots!
Emmelie D oh bless you, that’s a definite shit happens experience. These things can’t be controlled & they just suck a bit. No need to restrict though, that just fucks other things up
Mia was the first channel I found in recovery and I absolutely love her! She is writing a book about her ED and recovery and I am so excited :)
You know what? I have no idea what my set point is, and I'm 58-years old! I was a skinny little kid, but was gaining weight and getting some nice curves until I became anorexic at 18. I've been in quasi recovery (some years much better than others) ever since my first recovery at age 19, and I never allowed myself to weigh more than a certain amount until just a bit ago. It should be an interesting adventure to see where this old, post-menopausal body takes me. Lol!
friendoftherese1 what will be will be, & whatever your body wants to weigh to be healthy - it’ll allow you to find some mental freedom & space in your head & life to properly enjoy yourself & your relationships & life ☺️ enjoy it x
friendoftherese1
Hi there lovely,
Yes exactly the same for me too! 🌻
I’ve really been struggling this past week. It’s so comforting to not feel alone. It’s like you are speaking what I’ve been going through. I completely stress myself out about the stupidest things. It feels like black and white thinking is really prevalent with me right now and I hate how it just creeped back in. Just this morning I made a To Do list and I remembered WHY I stopped making them-it’s like how other people can be “healthy” and try diets or exercise plans-they can have To Do lists too. ME=obsessing and hating myself for not getting simple things done. Thank you SO much for sharing what you and your therapists worked on together. I always look for the quick get away. The problem I’m dealing with is that my hormones feel out of control-where I feel like I’m literally not able to manage my emotions. Have you experienced any of this with your recovery? Love your ability to giggle at things-really cheered me up today! My BMI at 18-19 probably 20 too is a nightmare situation too. I feel like a stressed little animal constantly-the whole fuck this I have no resources to deal 😀 Love it!
Joy Cooper Yep, totally get you. The majority of us in recovery are not supposed to be BMI 18, 19, 20... weird isn’t it that you can hit supposedly healthy weights & still have ED thoughts & behaviours. Keep going, & don’t beat yourself up. You don’t need to be productive & achieving things to be a wonderful human 😘😘
Thank you so much for this vlog; it resonates so much, on so many levels! I'm currently facing the likelihood that I, too, am not naturally BMI 19 or 20 and will have to keep going up from 20 to really heal. And using the "quick fixes" of restriction and exercise to deal with work stress is just making my job performance and injuries worse! You have such great insights. And isn't Tabitha great, too? Love her vlogs, writing, and podcast. Anyway, thanks and congrats on your great strides toward recovery!
Ellen Seeley yes love love love her. She helps a lot with the issue of hitting targets or low BMIs & still not being fixed. I think most people recovering aren’t going to be well or free at those low BMIs to be honest. Some lucky buggers might, but most wont. I’m with you 😘
My stress gets worse when I’ve not eaten, the smallest thing sets me off and sets the mood for hours. Like you the first thing was restrict 😢😮
brilliant - thanks love. I skipped carbs the other day for this very reason. Restriction is my first port of call , and I'm now I'm pissed off I didn't get through the 'stress' and triggers of the moment. Back on track quickly and hopefully I have learnt from it. It didn't help and only took me away from my friends, being a mum, a worker, and took me into my own world of 'thigh obsession!! One day at a time and more aware today. Thanks Megs, as always. x
Anthia Baker yeh can so relate to that. You’re right though, we can learn from it. Crazy how many times we can fall for its BS isn’t it. I guess with the stress it’s about learning new responses isn’t it, restriction is such an automatic go to... but you’re right it doesn’t really work
I totally feel you on this. Things are so hard at the moment for me with exams and it makes keeping myself well so much harder!
Yeh I used to find that. Food isn’t really a way of coping with exam stress though. It’s totally unrelated. & turning to food will just keep you locked in your ED. Good luck lovely 😘
Yesss Mia is amazing!
Yes I can so relate! Thank you for posting about this topic as I always find myself struggling to eat when stressed out or feeling anxious. One particular RUclips channel that i would highly recommend for you to check out is Follow the Intuition she is recovered from her eating disorder, talks about the struggles she faced & helps others with there recovery!👌💕
Anabel Rios I love her!! Been watching her just today. She’s awesome ☺️
Love that quote😁u help me so much💜thank u for sharing your journey😂😆😆😆
Yes, yes, yes. I can so relate to this. I get Sooo angry and frustrated over the stupidest things.(spilling coffee, dropping things, etc) It's like the reaction is TOO big. It's similar to the guilt I feel over eating something. The guilt I feel is just So huge and It's not normal!
Hey Megsy. Have grace with yourself. Recovery is not perfect. Food thoughts will come to your head and its okay.
I am a 44 years old woman from Spain. So, first of all, sorry for my English. Never wrote a comment in RUclips. But I really want to thank you. I had anorexia at 17, an I have ortorexia since then. Now I am trying to find freedom again. Eating out with my family and they are not waiting for the next complain or special order for myself. Now I am more in the moment. Sharing and loving. Never found anybody who explained to me these things as clear as you. It is a long way for me right now. I am at the start of the road. But I know for sure I do not want to feel isolation and restricted again. Thank you... Thank you so much.
Raquel Garin Ruano so glad to hear you’re taking actions & making progress. That’s wonderful for you & your family! Keep going xxxx
True numbers dont matter. You focus on being healthy. I have anorexia and BED. Stress is dangerous for ED. I got stressed today and I am back chucking my food out. I had a quite lunch planned and my day was rearranged for me,. I am weak with low vision at times. Being rushed before a meal is toxic.I feel out of control in my life, STICK TO SCHEDULE and say no. My electronics broke and this interfered with it, I am very annoyed had relapse, I cant even look at foods withou feeling sick I liked these crisps though. Thats a win. Some mistakenly thought by helping me with my flat helps but it disorientates me. I have a designated time where I clean stuff. I am focusing on things I can remove. Soccer is comfort to me. Love that game so much
For some reason it’s really comforting to hear a British voice on a (quality) RUclips channel! I feel like I’m so used to American accents that I get startled by a British one (even though i live in England and everyone around me sounds like that - it’s just that online everyone’s a Yank I swear!) you’re so eloquent too which is amazing! X
Zoe Hill 😂😂😂😂 hahaha in British as they come 🙋♀️ complete with wired sense of humour that doesn’t always translate haha
*weird
yah-gurt... so cute!
what a pleasure surprised to see your new vlog since you said you're going to take a break. Double celebration today - the royal wedding and hearing from you! :) Just today, I revisited an old Vietnamese restaurant and realized they've update their menu and it doesn't offer the vegetarian dish I normally would order. I was so frustrated and hated myself for being so stressed out about choosing something different and when I did, I didn't like the option. Mom didn't help me as she was blaming me for being 'difficult'. She doesn't understand my conditions, so I feel so lonely on my journey...I'm longing for the day when I don't stressed when I need to eat something different when choices are limited.
Kim Lau it helps me to remind myself food doesn’t have to be perfect, & when you’re eating enough & giving your body what it needs it won’t have this freak out over every little thing being wrong because it’ll have enough coming in regularly & each individual meal won’t be as important. Keep going 😘
Kim Lau also I’ve prerecord a load of videos. So I could take the break ✌️
im the exact same way and part of my recovery goals is to be able handle stuff like this like for me even getting the bus to work can become stressful if the bus is full and doesnt stop and then i gotta wait for the next one which is only like 4 mins away like it flips me out and puts eating awry like its got no relation to it and im never late anyway cos i get to work too early anyway ... its bizarre! cos its not even got anything to do with food!
Chandni Bhanderi yeh, I think your brains probably just so overloaded & stressed out from the restriction & food that anything else pushes you over. Keep working on it & recovery, I’m sure you’ll get calmer about things 😘
Oh my goodness! This sounds crazy but I didn’t even realize that I do this very thing until I watched this! I get stressed and angry and don’t want to eat! I immediately start feeling fat and like a total loser! My husband always says, “what does fat feel like? Fat is not a feeling.” My face even can ‘feel’ fat when just a half hour ago it didn’t! It’s crazy! Thanks for helping me see that I do this and that I need to find other ways of coping!
Kimberly Early yes exactly, feeling fat does not equal being fat. I might vlog on this topic actually 😘
That would be awesome!
🙋🏻♀️ MEG❤️SY 🤗 BEAUTIFUL you have captured our hearts, even though we don’t know you personally, We are here for you on Your path 👣👣👣👣 Your Journey.....May strength always follow you among sunshine & Happiness to light your way 🌈🙇♀️❤️ Rita xx
hi dear!!!i am struggling with saving money on food (or in anything related to me to be honest). You mention something in this video, and i watched another video in which you also talk about this issue a little bit. Could you please explain me a little bit more how do you manage with this problem??any advice??have you talked about that with your psicology??
THANKS THANKS THANKS!!!!
Ujué Fresán I have forced myself to spend money sometimes, which is uncomfortable but you kind of need to force it a bit at first. I also try to think what will I look back on my life & be pleased for? Will I be glad to have saved all my money up or will I be gutted if missed out on life. Also what do you respect in other people? Do you think hoarding & saving money is an attractive quality & one that you value? Those things help me 😘
You should watch MerryRose Howley!
Rebecca ljeung is a really good recovery vlog recommendation too!!
Hi how tall are you? Xxx
Alicia Cole 5ft 6 or 7, think inbetween the 2
Megsy Recovery Your really pretty! 💖
Hi Megsy. If i can also recommend someomes channel.....PLEASE PLEASE have a look at Kate Flowers channel and journey. I absolutely love her as well and for how far she has come 👌🏼😘
Lo-nette Kotze amazing, thank you 😘
But TW for talking about raw veganism, cheat days and so on...