I just watched this video. As a high school teacher of 19 years, I have witnessed many teens who have suffered so much. I recently rededicated my life and focus to the Lord. I felt moved by the Holy Spirit and I know that my faith will help these kids that I have so much influence over. Thank you for your service to our country and your service to our Lord Jesus Christ. God bless you sir.
I don't remember much before I turned 9, but what I do remember makes me glad I can't. My adoptive father saved me. He took the shattered pieces and made me whole, but God made me so much more. What a joy to be loved by both of them.
Victor: I dont know if you will read this or not, but if you do get this message. Thank you for this video, as I was watching it, it made me cry. It reminded of my childhood abuse by my parents. You have no idea how much I can relate to the abuse you went through with your father. There where nights that I went to sleep not knowing if I would be alive the next day or be killed by my own parents while I slept. And every night I prayed to God to protect me and help me make it throughout the night. And I have to say that I truly believe that I am still alive because god has heard all my prayers and has always protected me in the presence of the most evil anyone encounter. God Bless you man, thank you for helping our youth. and thank you for setting such a great example of love, faith and forgiveness. Thank you !!! Thank you !!!
+Nick Johnson That is AWESOME. I love hearing how God works through a movie on RUclips. I encourage you to get plugged into a good, Bible teaching church near you. Enjoy the journey God has in store for you.
I found God in a way I never thought. He really does work in amazing ways. He took away my alcoholism and addiction. I never believed in God. It's crazy how I'm only 23 and I never thought I could be happy, but he restored me and is showing me love in a way I never knew. God bless you Victor.
I have a similar background. My two freest days were when I forgave my parents and older brother of sexual abuse. Only the Father can make that happen! Thank you for healing our youth through the Word of God.
When I saw this video was over an hour long, I thought to myself there's no way I'm going to see this through. Going through many traumatic things growing up from being abused by siblings, being thrown down stairs, to never having a mother in my life from day one as far as memories go, this touched my heart. Thank you for sharing your life, it was hard for me to breath because I recognize your pain as I'm sure many others do. Truly inspiring, thank you.
Mr. Marx, I am a 29 year old man that has been touched by story and I do have to admit. Your story has made me think in a very different manner. I have been holding hatred against my own father for also being physically abusive towards my mother and myself. I have always told myself that I could never forgive him for what he did. Seeing your video has changed my way of thinking. I thank you for creating this video so I could watch it @0206hrs in the morning. You sir, are a very strong&awesome.
Even though I'm atheist, and many many people have very very mean, rude, and nasty misconceptions of us, I felt that this was a very touching and interesting movie. I have has a similar life but I have pulled through everything that has happened. I haven't seen my father in over 10 years and I am currently in the ARMY Early enlistment program. After next year in HS I will be going to basic. Thanks for this story. It has given me a bit more motivation to move on.
I was watching this on my smartphone with headphones while my teenaged kids were watching television. About half way through I started to cry. What happened to you was much worse than my childhood. My father suffered heavy physical abuse as a child and practiced heavy psychological terror on my brothers and sisters. A few years ago he got Motor neuron disease. It's an awful way to die. I thank God that I had got the opportunity for him to live with my wife and children when he first got the news after years of estrangement. I was able to forgive him before he died. Your story really meant something to me. Thank you for sharing your powerful story.
What a powerful film. My husband has a passion for law enforcement and guns, and protecting me, and I was a little church girl in 7th grade that was molested at a church camp, and I started a true relationship with Jesus because of that brokenness that year. I'm 24 now. Touched us both.
I am not a religious man by any account, but I feel so touched by your story Victor, and I really respect your faith, I am so glad you are happy, I cried many times watching this, I hope you and your family will be kept safe, amazing work, so moving and emotional all the best! you are such a remarkable individual and we need more people like you in this world.
This is, by far, one of the most powerful and compelling stories I have ever seen! You have really highlighted the power of God by showing where you come from and the amazing work you are doing today. Your ministry is phenomenal and I am sure you are changing so many kids lives. It is sad that you had to travel the path you did to reach this point, but I quit questioning God's ways long ago. You will have many waiting at the gate when you reach Heaven! God Bless!
I cried throughout most of this movie.. I cannot handle the thought of any child being hurt. I praise God for his grace and mercy and for saving your life. Witnessing how you have turned all of this trauma in your life around for the good is amazing. To forgive those who have caused such trauma is truly a miracle from God. Thank you for sharing your story, for helping other kids who are hurting and for never giving up, heeding God's call. I know He has you.. I'm so grateful for His mercy and love in my own life. I am overwhelmed watching this, at Gods goodness. Love to your beautiful wife & kids.. My own faith is strengthened and renewed.
Mr. Marx, It has been twenty years since I have turn my head from the Lord. I have done many things that added to Christ's suffering that day long ago. Tonight I did pray that prayer at the end of your movie. Through your words I felt that God was telling me it is time form me to return to him. Thank you for sharing your life with me. Tonight as I watched your life before me, I wept for your pain. Thank you for pushing me to come back home, from where I should never have left.
My friend was brutally murdered 5 years ago this exact night, her death had a devastating effect on my life, I have known GOD since I was 3 years of age, many times I have felt abandoned and wanted to take my own life, her death was a heavy burden on me.... My sister sent me here to watch your story, and for the first time I have felt a peace bestowed on me, God is GOOD. Thank You so much. X
+Natalie Simpson I am so glad to hear that Natalie. Nothing is ever worth giving up your life. Trust God to show you how your personal trials and experiences can help others. Blessings.
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Have to say, to talk about the things that happened to you in public takes guts, but to talk about the things that you did yourself, that you regret, takes real heart. God bless you sir. You're an inspiration.
I read that prayer with such a slow.. monumental calm.. tears rolled.. heart sank.. mind shuffling.. whatever The Holy Spirit, Christ, and God may be.. it's very real.. and it's in our DNA.. thank you for your service Vic
Victor as I sit here and type this I must tell you that tears are rolling down my face. I pray for you my spiritual brother. Your life-message has given me so much hope and made me feel so much love. I was never abused, I have very loving parents but I suffer from a terrible birth defect and you my friend have made living my life so much easier by showing me the way with Jesus Christ in my life. For that, I love you.
One of the most inspirational documentaries I've ever seen. Sir, I truely respect you and I salute you countless times. You're such an inspiration and you've raised the bar for these troubled kids who've been through the worst times of their lives. It's sad to know what you've been through as a kid but also it's so amazing to know that you've mend your ways and your life despite all those abuses and ghastly things in your life. Another thing that surprised me the most was that you forgave all those people who did so wrong to you. Sir, you really are a benevolent and amazing person and it's really hard these days to find people like you. Once again I salute you Sir. I would love to meet you someday personally when I come to America.
+Parminder Singh What a nice comment and only through God can I do what I do. It goes to show you, God has a plan for all of us if we just trust Him that all things will work for good.
Hey Victor! Amazing testimony and such an encouraging video! God Bless you and your efforts to help the emotionally and spiritually wounded kids out there. Your teachings of the Gospel are such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story about how God has tugged on your heart to forgive, even when it seemed impossible! Keep up the excellent ministry!
Made me cry... Thanks for such an inspiring story. Made me think about how I wasn't able to fully forgive my dad even after he had died. I hope it's not too late to forgive him. I'll always include him in my prayers from now on.
Just like Solomon, wisdom comes through pain and heartache. The beauty of this day is that Jesus is here and tangible to us, making us richer than even the splendor of kings. You are a blessed man Mr Marx; to know the depth of mercy you are blessed.
As a woman who also suffered from PTSD, I'm really grateful to hear your testimony. Our God is love and awesome in our lives. He constantly woos and pursues us and makes all things good in His time. Trust in Him and have life. From a former atheist who was prayed into the Kingdom by Believing family members. Amen.
+Melissa De Soto - Your response was a helpful testimony too! What kind of God is He to not only provide the gift of salvation, but then go and pursue us?!?! Who does that? :-)
Brother Marx, You and your wife are amazing people. Folks can say the believe in Jesus and such. But, not only do you walk the walk, but the Peace is in both of your eyes. God bless you brother and your ministry!
Met you and your dad at a tournament in Bakersfield. I was a black belt competitor. Now a 7th degree. I am a Christ lover and follower and have also done outreach/speaking/demonstrations with gang members and drug addicts. I grew up with an abusive alcoholic dad. I watched him die a couple of years ago and prayed with him as he was dying. I just watched this film and must say my ordeals pale in comparison to yours. God bless you my brother. I pray you will continue the good fight.
I have 3 male cousins who endured a lot of what you did as a child. One has been in prison twice now. I have been praying for a way for them to hear your testimony. I think it would be freeing to their souls. Thank you for sharing what happened to you as a kid. Having been sexually abused my entire childhood by my own father, I know how God can heal and restore. My dad was delivered and me and my sister forgave. I couldn't imagine my life without my dad now. God bless you.
Victor, as a man, you have truly come full circle. The presence of the Holy Spirit radiates through your shared story. I couldn't hold back my emotions as I felt like I shared in your experience of such hateful abusiveness, I just can't imagine the pain, fear and grief. Such evil, unimaginable! Thank God in the highest for changing your life. Thank God in the highest for your willingness to share your testimony for the youth and for us viewers. We have all fallen short of the Glory of God. God's grace is miracle of peace, healing, love, forgiveness and the promise of eternal life. I don't know you as a person but I feel like I know you spiritually and I just want to tell you that I love you. For all you do in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen and Amen
Wow truly amazing story! The power of Jesus Christ can brake any chain, wipe away anger, replace sorrow with joy, transfer grudges into forgiveness. God bless you victor
Today was the first time I ever heard of you, but I'm really moved. I watched your film and pasted it on my FB page, it is wonderfully refreshing! I'll start following you more closely. I was a messed up kid myself with a similar background before I've found Jesus. You are a huge inspiration. Blessings from Poland, my dear brother!
God found me around 4 months ago. Your story got me thinking... When you would say you gave your life to Christ. It's like we litteraly give our lives to Christ, and e fills us with his life. It's not a dedication, it's a replacement.
Inspiring - please keep touching the souls of incarcerated children. They are looking for way out. You have the road map. God bless you on your mission.
One of the best life redeeming stories I’ve ever heard. Thank you Victor and Eileen for sharing your life story. God bless you and family and ministry!
Amazing, you are a spiritual warrior and leader!! I'm a combatives instructor and work in EP for a ministry in Texas! Been looking for a Christian leader in martial arts and self defense and this is amazing!!! I've been praying about this and on top of all of the great skills you have, you're a believer!! Thank you for sharing your testimony, Sir. Maybe one day I can train under you and share my story with you!! God bless you..
Victor, I am always amazed how God uses people who are vulnerable and open up their past to others. I can only imagine how painful it is at times, but you get to see the incredible miracles that happen through it. Thank you for being willing to be vulnerable. You are a strong example of Christ to the world.
In recent years I have lost my Faith. I want jesus back in my life. I prayed that prayer. I felt a cleansing rush through my body. I am thankful for you Victor and your story.
Powerful! Moving! Lord, thank You for touching him. Continue the fine tuning to Victor's healing....and move through this ministry to bring healing to many, many other hurting children and adults. All for Your glory.....
I sat through the toughest thing i have ever watched. Watching and hearing the pain you went through and yet you overcame that pain through the word of god, it is truely inspiring. I am touched. God Bless you!
wow! amazing! i actually cried.. haha and i just dont bust out in tears like that.. but they was good tears.. i felt Jesus's strength and power inside of me.. i felt him.....
I never leave comments but I need to say to you that I'm 62 years old and you have through this video by the holy spirit helped me find the missing piece in my walk with my Heavenly Father and His Son. Thank you for being an honest servant of the Most High. May He continue using you to help free the hurting and starving for acceptance in this cruel cruel world. YAH bless you my brother. kevin
Victor......I am really speechless right now, after hearing your testimony! I too, can relate to your childhood testimony.....I experienced every type of abuse in my childhood also.......but my story doesn't even compare to yours. I'm 65 yrs. old & have been blessed having many counselors & loving family that helped me to recover from my past. BUT, the complete recovery didn't happened until I was finally able to completely surrender my life to the Lord God Almighty! I accepted Jesus into my life when I was 27 yrs. old ....... He has helped me to receive healing all these years. So my story has been a long, slow process....about a year ago He healed me completely in a miraculous way. He is the only one who can completely Redeem us. Amen! Your story has inspired me to be used by the Lord to reach out to other children who have & are suffering abuse! God Bless You!
Thank you Issac. Your are correct that a lot of people can relate, but God is the only one who gave me the strength to endure. I have tried to live my life without him & I failed miserably.
Victor, Your testamony is incredible! Your martial art skills are awesome but Jesus has molded you into a greater weapon of Gods grace that He is using to pull souls out of darkness and into eternal life! As I watched this I couldn't help but bless the Lord (and get all choked up) He does heal and restore, and you bother, are a shining example of this. I respect your walk of faith and forgiveness. Keep sharing your testamony, it's a bright light in the darkness.
I can't just keep clicking through without stopping here to leave a most simplistic comment. This is absolutely wonderful. So many moments where I couldn't stop myself from tearing up. I'm a guy; that shouldn't happen, right? I couldn't help it. Extremely powerful. Everyone has a story; thank you, thank you for sharing yours. God bless you, sir. You and your family. Keep doing what you're doing; it truly is God's work. You shall be in my prayers now and until the Lord returns.
Wow , let me just say, I had tears in my eyes at several points during this film. God is great indeed. I experienced a hard upbringing also..... it hit me on sooo many levels hearing your testimony. My 3 year old son was molested by a nephew I wound up raising, and it almost broke me, I had a breakdown , the devil almost destroyed me, but God never let me down ..... good job Victor, keep fighting the Lords fight, God bless you bro
Mr. Marx it was a pleasure to have you as a guest at Family Talk. I've seen you at Rocky Mountain Calvary and always enjoy listening to you as your story never gets old. God bless you and your ministry and family. Hooorah!
Praise the Lord!..this blessed me and made me cry...I do understand abuse and God's healing power..God bless you and your family and ministry, and know I will continue to pray and intercede for you all.
Victors Story has helped so many of my Friends and has been one of my Go To testimonys for many many years....I can only thank God and Give him the glory . Amen .
I watched your movie and it has given me hope when I thought there was none. I have PTSD, along with other things. When I was 2yrs old, my twin brother, and I (we were born on 11/8/74), were playing, and we lost my little brother when he was 1yr & 16 days old on 9/29/77. We were told that he somehow pulled the nipple of his bottle thru the bottle cap and choked on it and died. I found out in 1999, when I was hypnotized during therapy that my twin and I took my little brothers bottle apart and my mom couldn't find the nipple of the bottle so she put our little brother in his play pin and the nipple was in the play pin and he must have thought that it was pacifier and put it in his mouth and choked to death. The hypnotist took me to go back to my first memory and that was the day my brother died. I called my mom after the session and asked her why she had lied to us this whole time and I told her what I saw and she said, "we were never suppose to know the truth. It was the "dirty little secret" in the whole family. After that my parents divorced, and life pretty much went to crap. Then when I was in elementary school my mom had us go to a babysitters house after school. Her name was Mrs. Story. She babysat about 7-8 kids, but for some reason I was her target. She would beat me. The last time she beat me was with a belt and she had me by the arm and kelp hitting my backside. When I say backside I mean from my ankles to my shoulders, and because she had me by the arm I couldn't get away and I was running in a circle around her because she wouldn't let go of my arm. She beat me to the point that, (1) the belt broke, and (2) I collapsed and I couldn't get back up. Her 20 something year old son walked in on her beating me as I laid on the floor. He stopped her and took off my clothes and put me in the hot shower because I was bleeding all over. The hot water hurt because of the open wounds. I have a twin brother and we had our (school clothes), and our (play clothes), which we had to put on when we got to her house after school because my dad never paid child support. Our play clothes were shorts and a tee shirt and our school clothes were jeans and a shirt. When my mom came to pick us up I was still crying and in my school clothes. My mom asked Mrs. Story why I was crying and she told my mom that I put a pillow over a girls face and was trying to kill her. The girl was 12 and we, (my brother and I), were 7 yrs old. My mom instantly spanked me on the butt right there on the spot, which hurt 10 times worse because of the open wounds left by the belt. We went home and I was still crying and she told me to take a shower and when I took my clothes off she saw all the bleeding whelps, and asked what had happened. My brother told her what the lady did to me. I had to have a lady police officer take pictures of me naked at the hospital for evidence, which embarrassed me and made the experience much worse. From that point on we were "latch-key kids". I find myself in dark rooms in my house, on more meds than I have fingers. I have had several injuries in my life. I've been shot in the stomach with a .45 at point blank range getting carjacked on 9/17/94. In 7/28/1998, I fell 20ft. & I broke my back, neck, & hip. The fall compressed my spine from T2-L5 and smacked my head to the concrete below me. I was lucky I was wearing my hard hat. That, I believe saved my life. In 2003, I had a transmission fall 3' onto my chest & broke all my ribs, twice on the left side and once on the right side, it pushed my sternum 2mm from my heart and I laid underneath my truck for 3 hours with (1) punctured lung holding the transmission off of me. I had to have metal struts inserted under my sternum and drilled to my ribs to push my sternum out. In 2001, I had a 4x4 post accidentally swung at my face, by my boss, and had to have facial reconstruction done, by a work accident. I've had Multiple hernia surgeries from the gunshot scar being cut on so much. I had complications where the mesh pulled away and cut my stomach open, my small intestine was cut open, among other things and it almost killed me. I need a knee replacement. I can't work because of the meds and my injuries. I live in constant pain, I lost the most important people in my life, lung cancer took my mom in 2010 , a heart attack killed dad in 2014. I lost my best friend to cancer in 1998 and another good friend in 2007 to accidental "pain management drug overdose", all of which has made my PTSD , Depression and anxiety worse. I have a wonderful wife who has been there for me. She is my second wife. My first wife is a meth addict and alcoholic. I have (3) wonderful daughters, 16,19,20 yrs old. I had (2) with my first wife, the youngest and the oldest, and my wife that I have now has a daughter, but calls me dad, cause her real dad isn't there for her like mine wasn't for us. By the was when my father died we had made amends with each other. One of my daughters isn't making the greatest choices right now, but we are hoping she comes around. Your story has given me hope when I thought there was none. I feel like the modern day "JOB" from the bible. I'd love to talk to you a bit. I don't know if that's possible. Anyway, thank you for your story. I too was abused as a child. I lost my younger brother because my twin and I took my brothers bottle apart when we were 2yrs old and he found the nipple and choked at 1yr and 16days old. My brother and sister have quit talking to me for what I don't know and they won't say. My daughters don't talk to me much because they are busy girls with lives of their own. As a parent, I come second to their lives. My wonderful wife is all I have really. I'm a broken man. Physically and mentally. I'm lost and can't find my way back. That's a burden I carry everyday. My twin doesn't know what happened to our younger brother. I found out thru hypnosis. My dying mother made me promise not to say anything. I haven't. I struggle with that a lot. Thank you for your story. I watched it with tears running down my face because it hit so close to home for me . There have been times when I just didn't want to feel any pain anymore and woke up in hospital from "accidental" overdose. Sometimes I wonder if it was accidental. I've seen psychiatrists and they have had nothing to say so I stopped going. I didn't feel like they have helped. They didn't. I worry someday I just won't wake up. I haven't been to church since 2011. I used to go faithfully but after my mom passed it was hard to go back because it reminded me of her. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
Felix/ JPC. God bless you forever.. may the Lord bless you. I have been through a lot too.. I guess that's what makes us stand out and care for others.. stay strong bless ur heart.
I just lost my Twin brother last year from an accidental overdose. He was on pain meds from being hit on his motorcycle. Left him with a broken femur and broken neck. He healed but then femur didn't heal properly so they had to do the surgery again putting him on more pain meds. This was last year. He ran out of pain meds. This was when fentanyl hit the scene. He was sold fentanyl but was told it was something different. We have both struggled with addiction since we were 14 when we moved away from our abusive father and back into our mom's house. She worked all the time so we pretty much ran the streets of Atlanta being exposed to a lot of shit we shouldn't have at that age. Anyway. Tell your brother the truth. Do your best to have a relationship with him. I would give anything to have my brother back. He was my only best friend. I'm 34 and cried a lot thru this video. I too study martial Arts.Brazilian Jiu-jitzu and judo but have been too depressed to even leave my house really. Life is crazy.
God bless you. No one can or should have to endure what you have. But, you are here for a reason brother and by the grace of God, even though I don't know you, I'm grateful for your presence. My thoughts and prayers go out to you in the hopes it will ease your struggle.
I just shared this on FB. What an incredible testimony! We are His hands and His feet to go and touch the untouchables. Your testimony represents God's Redeeming Love! He loved us so much He died for us...and now we can forgive so that we can live for Him! Praying for you and the many ways God will reveal Himself through your ministry!
Victor Marx Your story has really touched me. i LIVE IN WASHINGTON State. I suffer from PTSD myself. You have inspired me to be a better father and husband.
We just watched this documentary/testimony at our house church here in Cebu, Philippines. everyone was very blest by your testimony and how GOD has worked in your life. Thank you for sharing this to the young people and the world of broken hearts and souls. GOD's richest blessing upon your life, family, and ministry.
That's awesome to hear. I love it when my video gets to other countries and makes an impact. I am very blessed to hear that it touched y'all. Blessings.
My new best friend .Thank You Jesus ,Amen 100 % PTSD Mom Dad .murder suicide age 6 .Was a fool for many years . God has let Me live long enough to learn to forgive amd to forgive myself 75 old .LOVE life
Dear Mr. Marx,First let me say thank you for your ministry, which I found accidentally yesterday. Once a Marine wife,always a Marine wife, I couldn't resist a video called some like fastest Marine disarmed gun to head. I started watching your other videos and was intrigued with the bits of your story that I was hearing so I googled you. I watched this movie and my heart was moved. I knew someone who had to see your story to begin to heal. I was abused badly,neglected and abandoned and deal with ptsd, but my husband, my dear husband, just the tiny bit he's let slip kill me. He also had a severely alcoholic, severely abusive stepfather and he was the punching bag. His mother never left the man and he dropped dead in the gutter 22 years ago. Literal gutter. I met this sweet,shy,hurt,smart,tender,brooding,loving boy just before our 17 &18th birthdays. Two broken kids found each other and we've tried to reassemble one another. He was already set to go into the Corps when we met. It changed him, he found a home, he found a family. He threw himself into it to the expense of our family and his body. It was everything to him until long story short, they screwed him over and it brought back all of that feeling of failure he'd been proving was wrong. He was never the same. He killed himself to make them"love" him again, they just used him. He refused help because that would be weakness and a good Marine does not have weakness. He finally retired after 23 years in 2014, 2 weeks later I nearly died, a week later again, 4 months later again. He's considered a 100% disabled veteran for all of his problems. He finally sought mental health care but nothing is working. He is so depressed. Our family came to Christ in 2006 but you could say it hasn't always"stuck". He's been trying hard to mend his relationships with our two great kids (16 & a Marine to be &19) I saw this video and made him sit and watch with me. You touched him. Something in his eyes was different. He thanked me. Now I am thanking you because for the first time in a long time I see hope. By the grace of God your ministry walked into my family and I am excited to see Triggered. Anyway, sorry for my very long post but I had to tell you thank you for hope
When I sat down and saw this video was an hour long i thought there was no way i would watch the whole thing. I ended up watching the whole thing and sure glad i did, this video was great and i think it is so inspirational. I hope people get the same out of it that I did. Thanks Victor this was awesome...GOD IS GREAT!
I accidentally stumbled upon this video and decided to watch it. All I can say is that he has a truly amazing testimony. Victor's life was transformed and he is now helping others as a result. This is worth one hour of your time.
May GOD continue to bless U, Sir! Your story really touched me. I really like how you tie your martial arts and your faith in Jesus together. As a martial artist, a Christian and a flawed man with a messy past, I'm inspired to share my story and use my gifts to help others as you do. I love U, brother! May GOD be glorified in all that we do.
+Aaron Wilson thank you for your comment and I am glad that you got my story. Allow God to show you how your "messy past" can be an inspiration to others that their is always hope if you rely and trust in God.
I've shared your DVD with my children, their friends and families Victor. Many have been positively impacted and I have seen changes in their personal lives from you telling your story. Thank you for posting the complete video online so that countless others may also benefit from your life's experiences and life story. May it continue to be a positive light and may God bless everyone who watches this video!
I'm 13 years old, personally I think this is the most inspirational video I have ever watched. I'm not religious but nevertheless, it definitely touched my heart. Thank you
Thank you for educating the viewers about PTSD. I'm all to familiar w/that, myself. My Husband cried when you shared the incident about your wife (fully clothed), coming in the shower and crying w/you. God was loving you through Eileen. We love you, too, Victor. I've shared your video w/a Mom, whose son is in detention. Pray for Ryan's soul, and that he would also watch your moving testimony of Christ Love, and New Life in HIM.
Wow. I first started watching this because is saw a suggested video on my youtube feed. Then I saw this. I thought it was going to be a video about self defense. To be more specific...physical self defense. Little did I know, it was teaching me to defend from myself. Truly inspiring words. I did say the prayer at the end.
I am spiritually blessed to watch this. (literally crying right now) as a mom of a wonderful boy I am really protective of him since there are unimaginable evils in the world. But the Lord would never fail to protect us. Everything that happen to us and all our deepest scars are only healed by Jesus. Keep being an inspiration Victor Marx!
You came to my school about two years ago, two years ago i was a complete mess, but hearing your story from your book and your movie really inspired me. I am currently a brown belt in taekwondo, martial arts and god are my life. Thank you and god bless.
I am from Egypt, I've watched the program with Evette today on al karma tv, your life story is amazing it shows God's glory , thank you for sharing it . And thanks for praying for Egypt too, God bless your life .
Whether you are an theist or an atheist, the lesson rings clear - healing requires humility, honesty and reflection. Victor you have effectively modelled all of these character traits and you will continue to 'save' others because others KNOW you care and will open up their hearts because you make them feel safe and important. Thank you for this beautiful lesson.
I totally prayed the prayer, you know I'm into a very dark peek of my life and i actually came to this film by watching street fight.It's amazing how god makes things happen
VictorMax..i was deeply moved by your story..so inspiring and touching..you're a miracle son because you survive through all the harshest conditions..may God bless you as you continue to inspire people
I'm honored to have been able to hear your story, hear of your triumph and overcoming devastation all the while saving young kids lives that need it the most. I'd love to be able to do what you do with troubling kids and learn from you! There's so much pain and anger in our world yet not enough who "want" to turn it all around. Good bless you for all you do!!!
Hello, you spoke in my church today as a guest speaker, and I'd like to extend my gratitude for sharing all that you did. I've been blessed with a good life, but a lot of my friends have had it rough and are in bad places right now. Your story really inspired me and I can't wait to share it with them and give them hope. Thank you so, so much for doing what you do.
Victor, just finished watching your video... truly amazing how God has worked in your life and how you have let him work in your life! It is obvious you know the Lord and He knows you and you hear His voice! I'm confident that you have some serious treasure in heaven waiting for you! Jesus lives! May God continue to bless your ministry by reaching as many lost souls as possible for Him and His glory! Well done "preacher man"!
Interesting movie, I accidentally bumped into your gun disarming vdos and learnt about this movie you had made so I had to watch it. Very inspiring even though I have never experienced child abuse myself, it's a very good example of all the crazy people out there and what they are capable of. It's not a safe world to be living in any more. Keep up the good work Mr. Victor.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and being in the prison ministry, I personal have not had many terrible things done to me, I have had a few traumatic things happen but most in my adult life. This is very motivational to me and it reminds me that i need to get back on track with soul winning. I shared this video to my FB. Thank you for your service to our nation and our God, sincerely , your brother in Christ and fellow veteran(currently Active Duty), Roy Larsen aka Archer Knox
Roy Larsen You're most welcome. Look forward to our new movie due to be completed this year "Triggered" on PTSD & always share God with those you can. Semper Fi brother :-)
Thank you God for loving Victor Marx and giving him restoration in his life! Thank you God for using his story to help others see You! I pray for a hedge of protection around Victor as he does Your work. God bless you Victor!
Your story really touched me. I grew up with an alcoholic father. He was sometimes abusive. I don't remeber much of my childhood. I only remeber a few violent incidents, and a few good. It's so frustrating. It is like my past didn't even exist, because i don't remeber much at all. And i don't know why. I just can't remeber anything, even though i try really hard sometimes! :) I am kind of a weird person. i have some fears in my life. And i would just love to know where those fears is coming from. I especially have fear for men. Sometimes when a man just looks at me, i want to hide myself. I have been told, that when i was a kid, i was hiding myself under tables at school. I think it maybe was because of shame, and the feeling of beeing unworthy. Thank you Victor. God bless you :)
Thank you for sharing today at Calvary Chapel. Sooo inspiring, such a special, Spirit-filled morning of testimony and worship. Just thank you and Thank You most of all, Father, and Lord Jesus, Son of the Most High...for REDEMPTION and the witnesses of your mercy...thank you!
Wow, what a story. If you had a protected and beloved childhood, this sounds almost like a Hollywood story. It is still hard to believe that you are the man you are after what happened to you. Especially the part at the end with your stepfather was really touching. I don’t have the words to say how much respect I have for you and how you made it through your life. Violence usually leads to more violence and you made it to break this cycle. Thanks for giving this hope to a lot of other people. Cheers, Gecko
Hey Michael, its great to hear from a brother in Sweden! God bless you as you seek His face, and follow in faith to shine like the Son in Sweden. God bless you abundantly!
Wow sir that's all I have to say. You are truly an inspiration. Keep doing what you do, lord knows we need more folks like you. You were given the name Victor for a reason. Simply because you are a victor. Thank you for doing what you do, and thank you for serving our beloved country. I'm saddened to see our youth going down wrong paths. A lot of them just don't have the guidance needed to mold them into respectful productive members of society. It seems like we as a country are going down hill.
29:58 God bless him. I had a similar violent upbringing but at the hands of my mother (although my dad was violent, too). She was crazy violent. Whipped us with horse whips (riding crops) when we were just little, suffocated me to unconsciousness, punched me in the face because I said a word out of place (she'd do that in the car when I couldn't escape). She smashed a glass milk bottle over my brothers forearm (she was aiming for his head), causing arterial bleeding. She was absolutely nuts. My brothers both left as soon as they dared and I was left there with her. I ran away several times., finally leaving for good just after my 16th birthday. I stole money from her and got the hell out of there. It was grim.I was angry for a lot of years, even after joining the army. But God had plans for me and I turned out good. A senior Army officer and married to my sweetheart for 28 years. I forgave my parents years ago, recognizing that they were the product of previous generations of anger and abuse. But I decided it stopped with my generation. I love my two adult sons and tell them so all the time. They gets hugs from their old dad whenever I see them and I make sure that they understand how important they are to me and how loved and valuable they are to me, but especially to God. Thank you Victor for having the courage to speak about your experiences and thank you for doing God's work!
Something told me to watch this video and after I saw it, something told me to show it to my sister who is going through a pretty nasty divorce. The last year has been incredibly difficult for her and your story brought tears to her eyes and gave her hope. God Bless you and your family for the work that you do.
I had so many emotions while watching this bcuz it touched a part of my own life,I actually didnt want to see at first due to knowing what it could bring up from my past,but by the end I felt hopeful and with a desire to have my life arranged to where God could turn the bad and use it for good,bcuz I dont want to feel like a victim any longer.ive been n tears,thank u so much for this testimony,jlynn
Very Awesome testimony, thank you for sharing! I visited your website also, what a great ministry you have I pray one day the Lord directs me to my calling, It looks like you definitely found yours! :-)
praise be to God! Mr. Marx i just want to thank you for caring enough for these kids life,completely inspiring and encouraging God Bless you and your family...thank you for sharing your powerful story!
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Thank you for the kind comments and prayers.
I just watched this video. As a high school teacher of 19 years, I have witnessed many teens who have suffered so much. I recently rededicated my life and focus to the Lord. I felt moved by the Holy Spirit and I know that my faith will help these kids that I have so much influence over. Thank you for your service to our country and your service to our Lord Jesus Christ. God bless you sir.
YOU are a warrior, the shame is not yours and the abuse is not your fault. Pray for your pops and I'm glad he is doing better now. God Bless you.
I don't remember much before I turned 9, but what I do remember makes me glad I can't. My adoptive father saved me. He took the shattered pieces and made me whole, but God made me so much more. What a joy to be loved by both of them.
Victor: I dont know if you will read this or not, but if you do get this message. Thank you for this video, as I was watching it, it made me cry. It reminded of my childhood abuse by my parents. You have no idea how much I can relate to the abuse you went through with your father. There where nights that I went to sleep not knowing if I would be alive the next day or be killed by my own parents while I slept. And every night I prayed to God to protect me and help me make it throughout the night. And I have to say that I truly believe that I am still alive because god has heard all my prayers and has always protected me in the presence of the most evil anyone encounter. God Bless you man, thank you for helping our youth. and thank you for setting such a great example of love, faith and forgiveness. Thank you !!! Thank you !!!
You are welcome, God bless you- your friend, victor
I just prayed that prayer!
+Nick Johnson That is AWESOME. I love hearing how God works through a movie on RUclips. I encourage you to get plugged into a good, Bible teaching church near you. Enjoy the journey God has in store for you.
I found God in a way I never thought. He really does work in amazing ways. He took away my alcoholism and addiction. I never believed in God. It's crazy how I'm only 23 and I never thought I could be happy, but he restored me and is showing me love in a way I never knew. God bless you Victor.
I have a similar background. My two freest days were when I forgave my parents and older brother of sexual abuse. Only the Father can make that happen! Thank you for healing our youth through the Word of God.
When I saw this video was over an hour long, I thought to myself there's no way I'm going to see this through. Going through many traumatic things growing up from being abused by siblings, being thrown down stairs, to never having a mother in my life from day one as far as memories go, this touched my heart. Thank you for sharing your life, it was hard for me to breath because I recognize your pain as I'm sure many others do. Truly inspiring, thank you.
Well, thank you for taking the time to watch it Mark. I hope that this film helps you through your healing. Blessings.
Mr. Marx, I am a 29 year old man that has been touched by story and I do have to admit. Your story has made me think in a very different manner. I have been holding hatred against my own father for also being physically abusive towards my mother and myself. I have always told myself that I could never forgive him for what he did.
Seeing your video has changed my way of thinking. I thank you for creating this video so I could watch it @0206hrs in the morning. You sir, are a very strong&awesome.
Even though I'm atheist, and many many people have very very mean, rude, and nasty misconceptions of us, I felt that this was a very touching and interesting movie. I have has a similar life but I have pulled through everything that has happened. I haven't seen my father in over 10 years and I am currently in the ARMY Early enlistment program. After next year in HS I will be going to basic. Thanks for this story. It has given me a bit more motivation to move on.
I was watching this on my smartphone with headphones while my teenaged kids were watching television. About half way through I started to cry. What happened to you was much worse than my childhood. My father suffered heavy physical abuse as a child and practiced heavy psychological terror on my brothers and sisters. A few years ago he got Motor neuron disease. It's an awful way to die. I thank God that I had got the opportunity for him to live with my wife and children when he first got the news after years of estrangement. I was able to forgive him before he died. Your story really meant something to me. Thank you for sharing your powerful story.
What a powerful film. My husband has a passion for law enforcement and guns, and protecting me, and I was a little church girl in 7th grade that was molested at a church camp, and I started a true relationship with Jesus because of that brokenness that year. I'm 24 now. Touched us both.
Thank you and GBY you BOTH!
I am not a religious man by any account, but I feel so touched by your story Victor, and I really respect your faith, I am so glad you are happy, I cried many times watching this, I hope you and your family will be kept safe, amazing work, so moving and emotional all the best! you are such a remarkable individual and we need more people like you in this world.
This is, by far, one of the most powerful and compelling stories I have ever seen! You have really highlighted the power of God by showing where you come from and the amazing work you are doing today. Your ministry is phenomenal and I am sure you are changing so many kids lives. It is sad that you had to travel the path you did to reach this point, but I quit questioning God's ways long ago. You will have many waiting at the gate when you reach Heaven! God Bless!
I cried throughout most of this movie.. I cannot handle the thought of any child being hurt. I praise God for his grace and mercy and for saving your life. Witnessing how you have turned all of this trauma in your life around for the good is amazing. To forgive those who have caused such trauma is truly a miracle from God. Thank you for sharing your story, for helping other kids who are hurting and for never giving up, heeding God's call. I know He has you.. I'm so grateful for His mercy and love in my own life. I am overwhelmed watching this, at Gods goodness. Love to your beautiful wife & kids.. My own faith is strengthened and renewed.
Mr. Marx, It has been twenty years since I have turn my head from the Lord. I have done many things that added to Christ's suffering that day long ago. Tonight I did pray that prayer at the end of your movie. Through your words I felt that God was telling me it is time form me to return to him. Thank you for sharing your life with me. Tonight as I watched your life before me, I wept for your pain. Thank you for pushing me to come back home, from where I should never have left.
My friend was brutally murdered 5 years ago this exact night, her death had a devastating effect on my life, I have known GOD since I was 3 years of age, many times I have felt abandoned and wanted to take my own life, her death was a heavy burden on me.... My sister sent me here to watch your story, and for the first time I have felt a peace bestowed on me, God is GOOD. Thank You so much. X
+Natalie Simpson I am so glad to hear that Natalie. Nothing is ever worth giving up your life. Trust God to show you how your personal trials and experiences can help others. Blessings.
Have to say, to talk about the things that happened to you in public takes guts, but to talk about the things that you did yourself, that you regret, takes real heart. God bless you sir. You're an inspiration.
I read that prayer with such a slow.. monumental calm.. tears rolled.. heart sank.. mind shuffling.. whatever The Holy Spirit, Christ, and God may be.. it's very real.. and it's in our DNA.. thank you for your service Vic
How does this video only have 200k views? Seriously people watching this. Spread it around. This speaks volumes to me and I'm only 16.
Thanks and GBY !
Victor Marx good think you bit that evil man hand brother should of kick him in his nuts
Victor Marx glad your okay
XiBlazeeX Thank you for your comment and for sharing. I'm very glad you enjoyed it.
XiBlazeeX i don't get it either. I'm sharing it
Victor as I sit here and type this I must tell you that tears are rolling down my face. I pray for you my spiritual brother. Your life-message has given me so much hope and made me feel so much love. I was never abused, I have very loving parents but I suffer from a terrible birth defect and you my friend have made living my life so much easier by showing me the way with Jesus Christ in my life. For that, I love you.
One of the most inspirational documentaries I've ever seen. Sir, I truely respect you and I salute you countless times. You're such an inspiration and you've raised the bar for these troubled kids who've been through the worst times of their lives. It's sad to know what you've been through as a kid but also it's so amazing to know that you've mend your ways and your life despite all those abuses and ghastly things in your life. Another thing that surprised me the most was that you forgave all those people who did so wrong to you. Sir, you really are a benevolent and amazing person and it's really hard these days to find people like you. Once again I salute you Sir. I would love to meet you someday personally when I come to America.
+Parminder Singh What a nice comment and only through God can I do what I do. It goes to show you, God has a plan for all of us if we just trust Him that all things will work for good.
Hey Victor! Amazing testimony and such an encouraging video! God Bless you and your efforts to help the emotionally and spiritually wounded kids out there. Your teachings of the Gospel are such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story about how God has tugged on your heart to forgive, even when it seemed impossible! Keep up the excellent ministry!
Made me cry... Thanks for such an inspiring story. Made me think about how I wasn't able to fully forgive my dad even after he had died. I hope it's not too late to forgive him. I'll always include him in my prayers from now on.
It's never too late. Forgive him and find healing.
Just like Solomon, wisdom comes through pain and heartache. The beauty of this day is that Jesus is here and tangible to us, making us richer than even the splendor of kings. You are a blessed man Mr Marx; to know the depth of mercy you are blessed.
As a woman who also suffered from PTSD, I'm really grateful to hear your testimony. Our God is love and awesome in our lives. He constantly woos and pursues us and makes all things good in His time. Trust in Him and have life. From a former atheist who was prayed into the Kingdom by Believing family members. Amen.
+Melissa De Soto Wow! Thank you for you comment and I hope that you enjoy our PTSD movie that will be coming out soon. Stay tuned.
Melissa De Soto God helps bless us all, Amen.
+Melissa De Soto - Your response was a helpful testimony too! What kind of God is He to not only provide the gift of salvation, but then go and pursue us?!?! Who does that? :-)
Brother Marx, You and your wife are amazing people. Folks can say the believe in Jesus and such. But, not only do you walk the walk, but the Peace is in both of your eyes. God bless you brother and your ministry!
Met you and your dad at a tournament in Bakersfield. I was a black belt competitor. Now a 7th degree. I am a Christ lover and follower and have also done outreach/speaking/demonstrations with gang members and drug addicts. I grew up with an abusive alcoholic dad. I watched him die a couple of years ago and prayed with him as he was dying. I just watched this film and must say my ordeals pale in comparison to yours. God bless you my brother. I pray you will continue the good fight.
I have 3 male cousins who endured a lot of what you did as a child. One has been in prison twice now. I have been praying for a way for them to hear your testimony. I think it would be freeing to their souls. Thank you for sharing what happened to you as a kid. Having been sexually abused my entire childhood by my own father, I know how God can heal and restore. My dad was delivered and me and my sister forgave. I couldn't imagine my life without my dad now. God bless you.
I believe that this man just made me believe in God. Thank you sir. I wonder where he thinks he would be now if he never let that man into his heart..
Victor, as a man, you have truly come full circle. The presence of the Holy Spirit radiates through your shared story. I couldn't hold back my emotions as I felt like I shared in your experience of such hateful abusiveness, I just can't imagine the pain, fear and grief. Such evil, unimaginable! Thank God in the highest for changing your life. Thank God in the highest for your willingness to share your testimony for the youth and for us viewers. We have all fallen short of the Glory of God. God's grace is miracle of peace, healing, love, forgiveness and the promise of eternal life. I don't know you as a person but I feel like I know you spiritually and I just want to tell you that I love you. For all you do in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen and Amen
Wow truly amazing story! The power of Jesus Christ can brake any chain, wipe away anger, replace sorrow with joy, transfer grudges into forgiveness. God bless you victor
+Rudi Repulsion Well put. Thank you for watching and sharing it with others.
Today was the first time I ever heard of you, but I'm really moved. I watched your film and pasted it on my FB page, it is wonderfully refreshing! I'll start following you more closely.
I was a messed up kid myself with a similar background before I've found Jesus.
You are a huge inspiration.
Blessings from Poland, my dear brother!
God found me around 4 months ago. Your story got me thinking... When you would say you gave your life to Christ. It's like we litteraly give our lives to Christ, and e fills us with his life. It's not a dedication, it's a replacement.
It's the best way to live your life :-)
Inspiring - please keep touching the souls of incarcerated children. They are looking for way out. You have the road map. God bless you on your mission.
Thanks AL, GBY !
One of the best life redeeming stories I’ve ever heard. Thank you Victor and Eileen for sharing your life story. God bless you and family and ministry!
Amazing, you are a spiritual warrior and leader!! I'm a combatives instructor and work in EP for a ministry in Texas! Been looking for a Christian leader in martial arts and self defense and this is amazing!!! I've been praying about this and on top of all of the great skills you have, you're a believer!! Thank you for sharing your testimony, Sir. Maybe one day I can train under you and share my story with you!! God bless you..
Victor, I am always amazed how God uses people who are vulnerable and open up their past to others. I can only imagine how painful it is at times, but you get to see the incredible miracles that happen through it. Thank you for being willing to be vulnerable. You are a strong example of Christ to the world.
+JohnDubya Thank you John. I'm glad you enjoyed the movie.
JohnDubya amen this was a good one.
In recent years I have lost my Faith. I want jesus back in my life. I prayed that prayer. I felt a cleansing rush through my body. I am thankful for you Victor and your story.
YES Curtis!!!!!!
God bless this dude. A great example of true POWER.
Powerful! Moving!
Lord, thank You for touching him. Continue the fine tuning to Victor's healing....and move through this ministry to bring healing to many, many other hurting children and adults. All for Your glory.....
God Bless You Victor...Man your life is amazing...
I'm glad you enjoyed it. I'm just one beggar telling others where to find hope. John 3:16
I'm not religious but this is an incredibly moving story and you're doing great work for these locked up kids.
I sat through the toughest thing i have ever watched. Watching and hearing the pain you went through and yet you overcame that pain through the word of god, it is truely inspiring. I am touched. God Bless you!
wow! amazing! i actually cried.. haha and i just dont bust out in tears like that.. but they was good tears.. i felt Jesus's strength and power inside of me.. i felt him.....
I watched the movie and have prayed the prayer. More power to you Victor and glory be to God and Jesus who saves all us sinners.
I never leave comments but I need to say to you that I'm 62 years old and you have through this video by the holy spirit helped me find the missing piece in my walk with my Heavenly Father and His Son. Thank you for being an honest servant of the Most High. May He continue using you to help free the hurting and starving for acceptance in this cruel cruel world. YAH bless you my brother. kevin
Kevin, you are most welcome. GBY - VM
Victor......I am really speechless right now, after hearing your testimony! I too, can relate to your childhood testimony.....I experienced every type of abuse in my childhood also.......but my story doesn't even compare to yours. I'm 65 yrs. old & have been blessed having many counselors & loving family that helped me to recover from my past. BUT, the complete recovery didn't happened until I was finally able to completely surrender my life to the Lord God Almighty! I accepted Jesus into my life when I was 27 yrs. old ....... He has helped me to receive healing all these years. So my story has been a long, slow process....about a year ago He healed me completely in a miraculous way. He is the only one who can completely Redeem us. Amen! Your story has inspired me to be used by the Lord to reach out to other children who have & are suffering abuse! God Bless You!
Thank you Issac. Your are correct that a lot of people can relate, but God is the only one who gave me the strength to endure. I have tried to live my life without him & I failed miserably.
Victor,
Your testamony is incredible! Your martial art skills are awesome but Jesus has molded you into a greater weapon of Gods grace that He is using to pull souls out of darkness and into eternal life! As I watched this I couldn't help but bless the Lord (and get all choked up) He does heal and restore, and you bother, are a shining example of this. I respect your walk of faith and forgiveness. Keep sharing your testamony, it's a bright light in the darkness.
Wow...what a nice comment. God is good and He is the only way I can do this. Blessings.
I can't just keep clicking through without stopping here to leave a most simplistic comment. This is absolutely wonderful. So many moments where I couldn't stop myself from tearing up. I'm a guy; that shouldn't happen, right? I couldn't help it. Extremely powerful. Everyone has a story; thank you, thank you for sharing yours. God bless you, sir. You and your family. Keep doing what you're doing; it truly is God's work. You shall be in my prayers now and until the Lord returns.
Wow , let me just say, I had tears in my eyes at several points during this film. God is great indeed. I experienced a hard upbringing also..... it hit me on sooo many levels hearing your testimony. My 3 year old son was molested by a nephew I wound up raising, and it almost broke me, I had a breakdown , the devil almost destroyed me, but God never let me down ..... good job Victor, keep fighting the Lords fight, God bless you bro
Mr. Marx it was a pleasure to have you as a guest at Family Talk. I've seen you at Rocky Mountain Calvary and always enjoy listening to you as your story never gets old. God bless you and your ministry and family. Hooorah!
Thanks Joe! GBY !- Victor Marx
Praise the Lord!..this blessed me and made me cry...I do understand abuse and God's healing power..God bless you and your family and ministry, and know I will continue to pray and intercede for you all.
Pocahontas1962 Thank you so much and prayers are always appreciated. Share the video with those who you feel might be blessed by it too.
I shared it on Facebook, I follow your ministry there and it's a blessing...know that there is intercessors standing in the gap...God Bless!
Victors Story has helped so many of my Friends and has been one of my Go To testimonys for many many years....I can only thank God and Give him the glory . Amen .
I watched your movie and it has given me hope when I thought there was none. I have PTSD, along with other things. When I was 2yrs old, my twin brother, and I (we were born on 11/8/74), were playing, and we lost my little brother when he was 1yr & 16 days old on 9/29/77. We were told that he somehow pulled the nipple of his bottle thru the bottle cap and choked on it and died. I found out in 1999, when I was hypnotized during therapy that my twin and I took my little brothers bottle apart and my mom couldn't find the nipple of the bottle so she put our little brother in his play pin and the nipple was in the play pin and he must have thought that it was pacifier and put it in his mouth and choked to death. The hypnotist took me to go back to my first memory and that was the day my brother died. I called my mom after the session and asked her why she had lied to us this whole time and I told her what I saw and she said, "we were never suppose to know the truth. It was the "dirty little secret" in the whole family. After that my parents divorced, and life pretty much went to crap. Then when I was in elementary school my mom had us go to a babysitters house after school. Her name was Mrs. Story. She babysat about 7-8 kids, but for some reason I was her target. She would beat me. The last time she beat me was with a belt and she had me by the arm and kelp hitting my backside. When I say backside I mean from my ankles to my shoulders, and because she had me by the arm I couldn't get away and I was running in a circle around her because she wouldn't let go of my arm. She beat me to the point that, (1) the belt broke, and (2) I collapsed and I couldn't get back up. Her 20 something year old son walked in on her beating me as I laid on the floor. He stopped her and took off my clothes and put me in the hot shower because I was bleeding all over. The hot water hurt because of the open wounds. I have a twin brother and we had our (school clothes), and our (play clothes), which we had to put on when we got to her house after school because my dad never paid child support. Our play clothes were shorts and a tee shirt and our school clothes were jeans and a shirt. When my mom came to pick us up I was still crying and in my school clothes. My mom asked Mrs. Story why I was crying and she told my mom that I put a pillow over a girls face and was trying to kill her. The girl was 12 and we, (my brother and I), were 7 yrs old. My mom instantly spanked me on the butt right there on the spot, which hurt 10 times worse because of the open wounds left by the belt. We went home and I was still crying and she told me to take a shower and when I took my clothes off she saw all the bleeding whelps, and asked what had happened. My brother told her what the lady did to me. I had to have a lady police officer take pictures of me naked at the hospital for evidence, which embarrassed me and made the experience much worse. From that point on we were "latch-key kids". I find myself in dark rooms in my house, on more meds than I have fingers. I have had several injuries in my life. I've been shot in the stomach with a .45 at point blank range getting carjacked on 9/17/94. In 7/28/1998, I fell 20ft. & I broke my back, neck, & hip. The fall compressed my spine from T2-L5 and smacked my head to the concrete below me. I was lucky I was wearing my hard hat. That, I believe saved my life. In 2003, I had a transmission fall 3' onto my chest & broke all my ribs, twice on the left side and once on the right side, it pushed my sternum 2mm from my heart and I laid underneath my truck for 3 hours with (1) punctured lung holding the transmission off of me. I had to have metal struts inserted under my sternum and drilled to my ribs to push my sternum out. In 2001, I had a 4x4 post accidentally swung at my face, by my boss, and had to have facial reconstruction done, by a work accident. I've had Multiple hernia surgeries from the gunshot scar being cut on so much. I had complications where the mesh pulled away and cut my stomach open, my small intestine was cut open, among other things and it almost killed me. I need a knee replacement. I can't work because of the meds and my injuries. I live in constant pain, I lost the most important people in my life, lung cancer took my mom in 2010 , a heart attack killed dad in 2014. I lost my best friend to cancer in 1998 and another good friend in 2007 to accidental "pain management drug overdose", all of which has made my PTSD , Depression and anxiety worse. I have a wonderful wife who has been there for me. She is my second wife. My first wife is a meth addict and alcoholic. I have (3) wonderful daughters, 16,19,20 yrs old. I had (2) with my first wife, the youngest and the oldest, and my wife that I have now has a daughter, but calls me dad, cause her real dad isn't there for her like mine wasn't for us. By the was when my father died we had made amends with each other. One of my daughters isn't making the greatest choices right now, but we are hoping she comes around. Your story has given me hope when I thought there was none. I feel like the modern day "JOB" from the bible. I'd love to talk to you a bit. I don't know if that's possible. Anyway, thank you for your story. I too was abused as a child. I lost my younger brother because my twin and I took my brothers bottle apart when we were 2yrs old and he found the nipple and choked at 1yr and 16days old. My brother and sister have quit talking to me for what I don't know and they won't say. My daughters don't talk to me much because they are busy girls with lives of their own. As a parent, I come second to their lives. My wonderful wife is all I have really. I'm a broken man. Physically and mentally. I'm lost and can't find my way back. That's a burden I carry everyday. My twin doesn't know what happened to our younger brother. I found out thru hypnosis. My dying mother made me promise not to say anything. I haven't. I struggle with that a lot. Thank you for your story. I watched it with tears running down my face because it hit so close to home for me . There have been times when I just didn't want to feel any pain anymore and woke up in hospital from "accidental" overdose. Sometimes I wonder if it was accidental. I've seen psychiatrists and they have had nothing to say so I stopped going. I didn't feel like they have helped. They didn't. I worry someday I just won't wake up. I haven't been to church since 2011. I used to go faithfully but after my mom passed it was hard to go back because it reminded me of her. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.
Felix/ JPC I was almost at tears with what you said and it's really sad that one man can take so much damage. I hope you stay healthy.
Felix/ JPC. God bless you forever.. may the Lord bless you. I have been through a lot too.. I guess that's what makes us stand out and care for others.. stay strong bless ur heart.
I just lost my Twin brother last year from an accidental overdose. He was on pain meds from being hit on his motorcycle. Left him with a broken femur and broken neck. He healed but then femur didn't heal properly so they had to do the surgery again putting him on more pain meds. This was last year. He ran out of pain meds. This was when fentanyl hit the scene. He was sold fentanyl but was told it was something different. We have both struggled with addiction since we were 14 when we moved away from our abusive father and back into our mom's house. She worked all the time so we pretty much ran the streets of Atlanta being exposed to a lot of shit we shouldn't have at that age. Anyway. Tell your brother the truth. Do your best to have a relationship with him. I would give anything to have my brother back. He was my only best friend. I'm 34 and cried a lot thru this video. I too study martial Arts.Brazilian Jiu-jitzu and judo but have been too depressed to even leave my house really. Life is crazy.
God bless you. No one can or should have to endure what you have. But, you are here for a reason brother and by the grace of God, even though I don't know you, I'm grateful for your presence. My thoughts and prayers go out to you in the hopes it will ease your struggle.
Felix/ JPC I feel so sorry about your childhood you and vitor Mark are alike about the chilhood. I been beat up before to
I just shared this on FB. What an incredible testimony! We are His hands and His feet to go and touch the untouchables. Your testimony represents God's Redeeming Love! He loved us so much He died for us...and now we can forgive so that we can live for Him! Praying for you and the many ways God will reveal Himself through your ministry!
Victor Marx
Your story has really touched me. i LIVE IN WASHINGTON State. I suffer from PTSD myself. You have inspired me to be a better father and husband.
Awesome. That's nice to hear & thank you for the comment.
We just watched this documentary/testimony at our house church here in Cebu, Philippines. everyone was very blest by your testimony and how GOD has worked in your life. Thank you for sharing this to the young people and the world of broken hearts and souls. GOD's richest blessing upon your life, family, and ministry.
That's awesome to hear. I love it when my video gets to other countries and makes an impact. I am very blessed to hear that it touched y'all. Blessings.
My new best friend .Thank You Jesus ,Amen
100 % PTSD Mom Dad .murder suicide age 6 .Was a fool for many years . God has let Me live long enough to learn to forgive amd to forgive myself 75 old .LOVE life
+John MacDonald Honored to know you John! GBY
John MacDonald that's awesome bless you
Dear Mr. Marx,First let me say thank you for your ministry, which I found accidentally yesterday. Once a Marine wife,always a Marine wife, I couldn't resist a video called some like fastest Marine disarmed gun to head. I started watching your other videos and was intrigued with the bits of your story that I was hearing so I googled you. I watched this movie and my heart was moved. I knew someone who had to see your story to begin to heal. I was abused badly,neglected and abandoned and deal with ptsd, but my husband, my dear husband, just the tiny bit he's let slip kill me. He also had a severely alcoholic, severely abusive stepfather and he was the punching bag. His mother never left the man and he dropped dead in the gutter 22 years ago. Literal gutter. I met this sweet,shy,hurt,smart,tender,brooding,loving boy just before our 17 &18th birthdays. Two broken kids found each other and we've tried to reassemble one another. He was already set to go into the Corps when we met. It changed him, he found a home, he found a family. He threw himself into it to the expense of our family and his body. It was everything to him until long story short, they screwed him over and it brought back all of that feeling of failure he'd been proving was wrong. He was never the same. He killed himself to make them"love" him again, they just used him. He refused help because that would be weakness and a good Marine does not have weakness. He finally retired after 23 years in 2014, 2 weeks later I nearly died, a week later again, 4 months later again. He's considered a 100% disabled veteran for all of his problems. He finally sought mental health care but nothing is working. He is so depressed. Our family came to Christ in 2006 but you could say it hasn't always"stuck". He's been trying hard to mend his relationships with our two great kids (16 & a Marine to be &19) I saw this video and made him sit and watch with me. You touched him. Something in his eyes was different. He thanked me. Now I am thanking you because for the first time in a long time I see hope. By the grace of God your ministry walked into my family and I am excited to see Triggered. Anyway, sorry for my very long post but I had to tell you thank you for hope
+Lisa P GBY glad you got our care package !
When I sat down and saw this video was an hour long i thought there was no way i would watch the whole thing. I ended up watching the whole thing and sure glad i did, this video was great and i think it is so inspirational. I hope people get the same out of it that I did. Thanks Victor this was awesome...GOD IS GREAT!
Victor, a powerful testimony, God bless you continuously. Praise His name.
I prayed the prayer. ❤️❤️ thank you 🙏🏼.
You are so welcome GBY
I accidentally stumbled upon this video and decided to watch it. All I can say is that he has a truly amazing testimony. Victor's life was transformed and he is now helping others as a result. This is worth one hour of your time.
great lakes backpacker Your welcome :-) Feel free to share it since you never know who may have a similar childhood and is hurting.
May GOD continue to bless U, Sir! Your story really touched me. I really like how you tie your martial arts and your faith in Jesus together. As a martial artist, a Christian and a flawed man with a messy past, I'm inspired to share my story and use my gifts to help others as you do. I love U, brother! May GOD be glorified in all that we do.
+Aaron Wilson thank you for your comment and I am glad that you got my story. Allow God to show you how your "messy past" can be an inspiration to others that their is always hope if you rely and trust in God.
I've shared your DVD with my children, their friends and families Victor. Many have been positively impacted and I have seen changes in their personal lives from you telling your story. Thank you for posting the complete video online so that countless others may also benefit from your life's experiences and life story. May it continue to be a positive light and may God bless everyone who watches this video!
I'm 13 years old, personally I think this is the most inspirational video I have ever watched. I'm not religious but nevertheless, it definitely touched my heart. Thank you
+VoRTeX BlinX Thank you for the comment and I am glad it touched you.
Thank you for educating the viewers about PTSD. I'm all to familiar w/that, myself. My Husband cried when you shared the incident about your wife (fully clothed), coming in the shower and crying w/you. God was loving you through Eileen. We love you, too, Victor. I've shared your video w/a Mom, whose son is in detention. Pray for Ryan's soul, and that he would also watch your moving testimony of Christ Love, and New Life in HIM.
What an amazing story, truely inspirational
Thx - John 3:16
Wow. I first started watching this because is saw a suggested video on my youtube feed. Then I saw this. I thought it was going to be a video about self defense. To be more specific...physical self defense. Little did I know, it was teaching me to defend from myself. Truly inspiring words. I did say the prayer at the end.
I am spiritually blessed to watch this. (literally crying right now) as a mom of a wonderful boy I am really protective of him since there are unimaginable evils in the world. But the Lord would never fail to protect us. Everything that happen to us and all our deepest scars are only healed by Jesus. Keep being an inspiration Victor Marx!
i was watching fighting techniques and suddently drop here ,now i know why. i watched the full movie,,you are an amazing man ,greetings from mexico
Thank you for watching, mi amigo :-)
Giggio Alexandros 🇲🇽🇲🇽🤘
You came to my school about two years ago, two years ago i was a complete mess, but hearing your story from your book and your movie really inspired me. I am currently a brown belt in taekwondo, martial arts and god are my life. Thank you and god bless.
Thank you for updating me and encouraging my heart, never give up! I'm proud of you and God loves you!- your friend - Victor
Thank you for sharing your story! All glory to Yahshua!
I am from Egypt, I've watched the program with Evette today on al karma tv, your life story is amazing it shows God's glory , thank you for sharing it . And thanks for praying for Egypt too, God bless your life .
Oh thank you for your kind words and yes you are welcome!
Whether you are an theist or an atheist, the lesson rings clear - healing requires humility, honesty and reflection. Victor you have effectively modelled all of these character traits and you will continue to 'save' others because others KNOW you care and will open up their hearts because you make them feel safe and important. Thank you for this beautiful lesson.
Ray, Thank you for your kind words. -Victor Marx
I totally prayed the prayer, you know I'm into a very dark peek of my life and i actually came to this film by watching street fight.It's amazing how god makes things happen
That intro makes Steven Segal look like a trainee..lol....
VictorMax..i was deeply moved by your story..so inspiring and touching..you're a miracle son because you survive through all the harshest conditions..may God bless you as you continue to inspire people
+Junior Faka Thank you for your comment.
Truly Amazing story, such an inspiration!!
Thx - John 3:16
I'm honored to have been able to hear your story, hear of your triumph and overcoming devastation all the while saving young kids lives that need it the most. I'd love to be able to do what you do with troubling kids and learn from you! There's so much pain and anger in our world yet not enough who "want" to turn it all around. Good bless you for all you do!!!
Hello, you spoke in my church today as a guest speaker, and I'd like to extend my gratitude for sharing all that you did. I've been blessed with a good life, but a lot of my friends have had it rough and are in bad places right now. Your story really inspired me and I can't wait to share it with them and give them hope. Thank you so, so much for doing what you do.
Victor, just finished watching your video... truly amazing how God has worked in your life and how you have let him work in your life! It is obvious you know the Lord and He knows you and you hear His voice! I'm confident that you have some serious treasure in heaven waiting for you! Jesus lives! May God continue to bless your ministry by reaching as many lost souls as possible for Him and His glory! Well done "preacher man"!
Interesting movie, I accidentally bumped into your gun disarming vdos and learnt about this movie you had made so I had to watch it. Very inspiring even though I have never experienced child abuse myself, it's a very good example of all the crazy people out there and what they are capable of. It's not a safe world to be living in any more. Keep up the good work Mr. Victor.
Thank you Ravindran. Your comment is appreciated.
Thank you so much for sharing your story and being in the prison ministry, I personal have not had many terrible things done to me, I have had a few traumatic things happen but most in my adult life.
This is very motivational to me and it reminds me that i need to get back on track with soul winning.
I shared this video to my FB.
Thank you for your service to our nation and our God,
sincerely ,
your brother in Christ and fellow veteran(currently Active Duty),
Roy Larsen aka Archer Knox
Roy Larsen You're most welcome. Look forward to our new movie due to be completed this year "Triggered" on PTSD & always share God with those you can. Semper Fi brother :-)
Thank you God for loving Victor Marx and giving him restoration in his life! Thank you God for using his story to help others see You! I pray for a hedge of protection around Victor as he does Your work. God bless you Victor!
Your story really touched me.
I grew up with an alcoholic father. He was sometimes abusive.
I don't remeber much of my childhood. I only remeber a few violent incidents, and a few good.
It's so frustrating. It is like my past didn't even exist, because i don't remeber much at all. And i don't know why. I just can't remeber anything, even though i try really hard sometimes! :)
I am kind of a weird person. i have some fears in my life. And i would just love to know where those fears is coming from.
I especially have fear for men. Sometimes when a man just looks at me, i want to hide myself.
I have been told, that when i was a kid, i was hiding myself under tables at school.
I think it maybe was because of shame, and the feeling of beeing unworthy.
Thank you Victor. God bless you :)
Counseling really helped me along with allowing God to change me. Find a good Christian counselor to help you though your past.
Thanks :)!
Thank you for sharing today at Calvary Chapel. Sooo inspiring, such a special, Spirit-filled morning of testimony and worship. Just thank you and Thank You most of all, Father, and Lord Jesus, Son of the Most High...for REDEMPTION and the witnesses of your mercy...thank you!
Wow, what a story. If you had a protected and beloved childhood, this sounds almost like a Hollywood story. It is still hard to believe that you are the man you are after what happened to you. Especially the part at the end with your stepfather was really touching. I don’t have the words to say how much respect I have for you and how you made it through your life. Violence usually leads to more violence and you made it to break this cycle. Thanks for giving this hope to a lot of other people.
Cheers,
Gecko
Thanks Gecko for the kind words! - Victor Marx
Great Movie!!!! Fabulous message. I am finally getting baptized after 44 years, so many blessings. Thank You Victor.
Great movie and ministry, brother. Love from Sweden!
Hey Michael, its great to hear from a brother in Sweden! God bless you as you seek His face, and follow in faith to shine like the Son in Sweden. God bless you abundantly!
Wow sir that's all I have to say. You are truly an inspiration. Keep doing what you do, lord knows we need more folks like you. You were given the name Victor for a reason. Simply because you are a victor. Thank you for doing what you do, and thank you for serving our beloved country. I'm saddened to see our youth going down wrong paths. A lot of them just don't have the guidance needed to mold them into respectful productive members of society. It seems like we as a country are going down hill.
29:58 God bless him. I had a similar violent upbringing but at the hands of my mother (although my dad was violent, too). She was crazy violent. Whipped us with horse whips (riding crops) when we were just little, suffocated me to unconsciousness, punched me in the face because I said a word out of place (she'd do that in the car when I couldn't escape). She smashed a glass milk bottle over my brothers forearm (she was aiming for his head), causing arterial bleeding. She was absolutely nuts. My brothers both left as soon as they dared and I was left there with her. I ran away several times., finally leaving for good just after my 16th birthday. I stole money from her and got the hell out of there. It was grim.I was angry for a lot of years, even after joining the army. But God had plans for me and I turned out good. A senior Army officer and married to my sweetheart for 28 years. I forgave my parents years ago, recognizing that they were the product of previous generations of anger and abuse. But I decided it stopped with my generation. I love my two adult sons and tell them so all the time. They gets hugs from their old dad whenever I see them and I make sure that they understand how important they are to me and how loved and valuable they are to me, but especially to God. Thank you Victor for having the courage to speak about your experiences and thank you for doing God's work!
Something told me to watch this video and after I saw it, something told me to show it to my sister who is going through a pretty nasty divorce. The last year has been incredibly difficult for her and your story brought tears to her eyes and gave her hope. God Bless you and your family for the work that you do.
Thank you for your story. Truly inspiring
Michael Fleming Your welcome :-) Feel free to share it since you never know who may have a similar childhood and is hurting.
I had so many emotions while watching this bcuz it touched a part of my own life,I actually didnt want to see at first due to knowing what it could bring up from my past,but by the end I felt hopeful and with a desire to have my life arranged to where God could turn the bad and use it for good,bcuz I dont want to feel like a victim any longer.ive been n tears,thank u so much for this testimony,jlynn
Very Awesome testimony, thank you for sharing! I visited your website also, what a great ministry you have I pray one day the Lord directs me to my calling, It looks like you definitely found yours! :-)
praise be to God! Mr. Marx i just want to thank you for caring enough for these kids life,completely inspiring and encouraging God Bless you and your family...thank you for sharing your powerful story!
xavi cortez Thank you Xavi. I appreciate you taking the time to watch it. Share it with others please.