Hello Emma l was a funeral administrator for twenty lus years at a very busy home we did funerals from babies up to a hundred year olds but the one thing that would really get to me was having to give the families loved one's ashes,l considered it an honour to help families do the final thing for their loved ones.l would advise families if they wanted their loved one's ashes at home to buy just an everyday ginger jar so the ashes could be in the home but no one would know. I have all my little rescue dogs ashes in lovely ceramic ones from the charity shop. You've done well today Emma collecting loved one's ashes is not as easy as people think. Sending much love to you all🙏xxx
Lovely post. Now the tasks are completed. All that's left is finding a place for that grief to settle and heal. It's always there, of course, but can also become a place for happy memories of loved ones gone. I remember when my 23 yr old daughter died in another state than where our family lived . When her ashes were ready, I picked them up and boarded a plane to the state where she was to be buried. When I deplaned my Mom was there and just reached out both hands automatically for the small carry-on bag I had placed them in. "I'll take Brook-ie" she said. The ashes are such a powerful thing. All that's left. You are doing beautifully Emma...we all love you so. (Ann)
I'm having to go to same 🏥 where my mum passed iv had panic attack going by the place with the room with 🦋 butterfly on, so much love em❤❤❤❤❤ take day by day❤❤❤❤ ❤ love jayne and hubby bill your bristolian friends remember em they're just in the next room 🙏 s❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤wish I was in your car holding you❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Do you work in England? I legally have my pets' ashes at home in an urn I bought. (two rabbits died a year after a year) I know people who legally have people too.
Sending love your way. The ashes, fingerprints, and locks of hair are tangible proof that Sooz and Mum walked this earth with you. The memories and their spirits are proof that they are not gone from your life even now. Love does not die. ❤️❤️
Oh Emma, soft big hugs! When you were in your car looking at fingerprints and hair samples, there were 2 bright small orbs dancing around you....I KNOW they were Mom and Sooz with you! It's been almost 10 months since we lost our Mom, and still crying daily. Don't think we will ever get over losing someone we loved so much. Hugs sweetie....
Awful for you. I collected my dear Mum's ashes by myself, and it was surreal. Noone told me I could have a lock of hair/ fingerprints. Lovely idea. Let the tears flow whenever you feel like it. Things will get better eventually, it's a process, no right or wrong way to grieve. Look after yourself hun xx
No one told me either that I would have some hair ,but the did put some of my mums ashes in a little matching urn which we could keep and we will have a ring made from them and then the rest of mum went in with dad ❤
Sweet Emma, this is never ever easy!! Sounds like you had a big panic attack, maybe taking us with you will help, you are not a lone Emma!! Yes cry it's ok, good to help heal! Stress can make you feel icky!! This is very hard for you and we feel so sad you are going through this!! One step at a time, baby steps my dear friend ❤! Love the dress, you always look so nice! Maybe once you and Jason receive your precious momma Muriel and Sooz ashes, this will be some kind of a new beginning or form of closure, I'm not sure I'm even helping with what I'm saying I just care so much!! Momma Muriel and Sooz will always be apart of your life! Sweet Emma just remember we are here for you, we all care so much, you've been through was to much!! Lean on our heavenly father, our heavenly father will give you strength you never knew you had!!! Bless you Emma! This is so hard! I know without a doubt you want them back, but one thing is that neither are suffering anymore, you have done another hard part, I'm overwhelmed for you and Jason 😞 I'm praying for you and Jason!! 🙏 Let it out sweet Emma, we so understand!!much love to you ❤
Bless your beautiful heart. Whilst the shells of your Sooz and Mother are now ashes, their spirits are vibrant, alive, and still with you in a different way now. My heart is with you. 💕🩷
I think youre doing really well. I cared for mum for 5 years before she passed last april and its floored me. I couldnt eat for months, couldnt sleep unless medicated......a right bloody mess. I cant remember her funeral as i wept from the minute i saw the hearse. My existing conditions became much worse with the anxiety i feel. 15 months on we are selling our house as shes everywhere and i cant live here anymore. Stay strong xxx
Never easy Emma did it twice myself recently. The locks of hair are lovely to keep although I can’t think where or what to do with my Mums. Be kind to yourself it’s a very traumatic time for you. Needs doing but terribly sad for you, my hearts breaking for you pet take care xxx we are all with you and at your side your never alone xxx
Oh sweetheart. What a sad sad day. But you did it! And you made them proud. Feel so bad forJason too. He lost his Princess...and as you said she was your identical twin sister so it must be sad for him to see you for so many reasons. Please remember so many people are with you and always will be ...I know I will always be here for you Much love from Cindy in Michigan,USA
Emma ,you don’t really need reminders of your loss , it will make you feel so raw,but what feels right for you is the path you must and will take . Time does not heal , you have no choice to go on living, to care for all other things , to be that kind loving compassionate woman we know you to be . This day, month , year , minute, this too will pass . Hugs and kisess
Hello, Emma! Hope you’re doing well. I’ve been very busy so I haven’t been able to watch any videos you’ve posted. You’re still as beautiful as ever! It’s hard picking up those last little bits of our loved ones. I remember ordering and getting my necklace with my daddy’s thumbprint on it, I held it close and just putting my fingers all over his print. He was real and alive and with all that I remember thinking how could he be gone. It’s been two years now and some days I still have that same thought, and also, when I’m anxious and nervous I hold on tight to my necklace and it calms me. Love from the States my friend ❤
@@TheDogPooProwith some of my mums favourite tops she would wear my sister surprised me at Xmas with a teddy bear made from them. It’s amazing how much it helps to hug it when I’m feeling down and missing her. I’ve also seen ppl who have had blankets made. It’s a comforting way of keeping them near xx
Yes they can take the loss. They should not have contacted you especially yet. First of all you are not responsible you were not married to them. They are your mom and sister. Do not worry about the bills worry about you now. You are more important than some stupid bills that they know they write off daily for other ppl. Hugs to u my dear. You are so inspiring to so many . You are such a strong woman even with tears.You rock girl.
Emma, my heart goes out to you, I know Sooz, and Mum, were right there beside you, with their hands on yours, helping you get through this, they will never leave you! 💜💜💜🙏🙏🙏please tell Jason, we're praying for him too!
Well done, Emma. I'm not surprised you couldn't breathe. Truly heartbreaking but you did it. One more very sad, difficult task completed. As you say, another step in the journey You are a credit to mum and Sooz and to ALL your family. Jason too, bless him. Mum and Sooz would be SO proud of you. Take good care, Emma. Much love. ❤ xx
So sorry for your pain, it’s very hard to get through what you’re going through 😢 just the finality of it brings it all to the forefront again. Blessings and peace to you and your family.🙏🏻😢🙏🏻
Oh Emma, you are doing an amazing job! The practicalities aren’t something you think of when you lose a loved one, it’s just heartbreaking all over again! 😢I’m from the UK but live in Australia & when my Dad passed I brought some of Dad back to Australia with me. I carried my paperwork & the staff at the airport were just amazing. At Manchester airport I had to put the ashes into the basket for them to go through the machine but the staff let me follow them through. They also didn’t touch them out of respect. I wasn’t questioned at all…I was very thankful for that. ❤ I’m glad you are crying when you need to…we aren’t meant to keep our emotions in at times like this especially! Sending love & many prayers for you all from Oz 💗💗💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💗💗💗😢😢😢
Much love to you dear Emma 💕 I haven't been on here for awhile, and had you on my mind today, wondering how you are. You popped up straight away 😊 Big hugs to you xox I wish I had words to say that could help in some way. Please know, I send my love to you, and you are thought of, and cared about, all the way over here in a little town in New Zealand 💞🫶🌺🤝💔
So bittersweet for you, darling and such a monumental step in your journey of grief and healing. As usual, you did this with such strength and grace. Sooz and mum would be so very proud of you. 💜💐
Oh Emma, my heart breaks for you… when my brother passed it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. We rode motorcycles together and took many ride trips. When I pick up his ashes I put them in my saddle bag and took him for one last long ride. My prayers are with you. Hugs n love 💕 from across the pond.
I could never let my sister go. I have my sisters hair and fingerprints and my mum and dad all live in in my office in a beautiful memorial I have set up. When it’s my turn to go they will all go with me so we can be together forever. It’s all so personal whether you scatter ashes etc. I had a friend who got a beautiful ring made of her husbands ashes. It was stunning ❤️
Emma so sorry for your loss of your mother and sister. dave and baby girl look adorable. we have are mom ashes at home. the other part of her is free in the ocean. when i think of my mother i see a cardinal bird. hope you find a symbell for your mom and Suzie sending lots of love too your famlly.
Emma,Emma, I can’t read the screen for crying. I think I know why I was meant to come a Ross your channel here- I have more tears to let go too- so I thank you for your incredible, amazing strength and fortitude! You are so strong Emma. I cry with you and when you’re back a little later, I’m still pulling tissues from my tissue box! Lucky I’ve got my little poodle to give me comfort. Today, well, this day was huge. I know it makes no sense does it- our minds can’t wrap around them being in this ‘box’. It just doesn’t seem real. I had my mum in the garden, still in the velvet covered box. I bought her favourite flowers and would go out and water them, talk to her. I needed her close by then. One day this beautiful monarch butterfly came along when I was out with her. It was surreal. I am not making this up- I held out my finger to pick it up. It jumped on! I opened the screen door and took it inside! I was crying so much, I went to my bed and put it on the pillow, and laid with it and cried and cried. It didn’t move. I was worried I had done something wrong but it wasn’t dead. I decided it was mum, telling me she’s ok. Spending a little more time with me. She had taken her life. I had so much pain in my heart. And here, I got to have as much time as I needed. I talked to her. I told her how hurt I felt by leaving the way she did- yep, all about me! Gosh! Then I got up, when back out, put the butterfly back on the flowering plant. I said my goodbye and thank you. And it flew away. Even as I remember it right now, I feel like my heart will break. I pray for you every day, for your continuing healing, your determination to help others, your lovely furry family, I think you’re amazing. Bless your heart Emma. I wish I could give you a big hug! 🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
Oh dear Emma. This is so very emotional and hard to really process that it’s true. Whole new waves of grief flood our minds. Your caring and love and devotion made their struggles bearable for them. Your love carried them through. Sending you loads of love and prayers for comfort. Take care.❤️🌻🩷❤️🌻🩷
You are crossing another little bridge here and are taking further your journey of sadness. Yes it is sad Emma, you are allowed to recognise that and feeling it is so necessary. I am sad with you and will be happy with you on another day but today is not that day. Bless you, a daughter and sister your angels will be very proud of, they are guiding you and you will be alright. xxxxx
Emma please take the tablets regularly, you need them. I don’t like to see you so upset but glad you feel you can share these moments with all of us. You are still on a journey and still early days. Biggest of hugs xxx
I really feel for you sweetheart, I’ve got my sons ashes here at home he passed away 10may, he was 44 and I’m broken like you! I also have had 4 cold sores which obviously we are very run down. My heart goes out to you and I’m sending you a virtual hug and hope this helps a little. Keep your chin up as this is what they would both want you to do and remember all of the wonderful times you had together ❤❤❤
Oh dear Emma, you did it! We are all with you when you have been so gracious to share your difficult private moments like this. Love to Jason and the family. I've had Propranolol for severe anxiety and it made me very short of breath, tight chested, like a cage around my ribs as it slows the heartbeat. Maybe look into that with your GP for an alternative or stopping it if it's bothersome. 😊💓🌷
Oh sweet beautiful Emma I’m crying with you this morning! The ptsd and trauma is so very real! Oh darling I to have my sisters hair! When I need to be close that’s my go to I just hold her hair and smell it! I didn’t get her finger prints tho I wish I would have tho! You have done an awesome job being the angel in the wings 🪽 you did such an amazing job taking care of Suz and mom! They will be forever looking over you my love! Just remember look for your signs! When They will send! Suz are her story will save millions of lives and keep telling it Emma! You’re saving lives sweet girl! You have all my love ❤ I wish I could physically hug you! Sisters in waiting!!
A new, big step forward in the lifelong grief process for Sooz and Mum, and you’re doing brilliant, sweet Emma. Sending you so much love.❤❤❤🙏🏻 oxoxoxo love your dress.
Dear Emma never be sorry for grieving everybody grieves differently and nobody can put a time on it . And you must remember you had double the grief too go through so dear Emma you need to try and relax when you have soon you time when I lost my husband sixteen years ago now I never thought I would lose him so young . My go recommend listening to relaxation tapes which did help over time . Sending you lots of soft hugs xx
❤Hi Emma, Bless you’re beautiful heart!❤You look beautiful! Thinking of you Emma dear friend! So so hard for you today, but you did so great. Of course you are so sad. But this you needed to do this for both of them, and for you! Love you Emma!❤
Emma, thankful they are home now despite the tears. Painful but another chapter of grieving. Moments like that, most of us wish to lift you up and stand beside 🦋 Hugs from 🇨🇦
Hey Emma, you have been so brave.. get a ring and a necklace there are some lovely ones, then they will be always be with you… we’re still here Emma and we always will be… hugs and love xxx
I had my mom's hair put it resin in a locket with a picture of my sis and mom and gave it to my sister as a gift. Every step of grieving has its unique challenges. Hugs.
After their services, the funeral directors brought my folk’s ashes to the cemetery. They were installed in the niche in a small chapel there. There is room for my sister and I. I told my sister that if were going to share a room again, she had to behave. I have my dad’s warped humor. I’m glad you weren’t alone picking them up. Hope Jason is ok. Be gentle with yourself. It will get better.
Big hugs to you, this is the hardest thing to do. Crying is the most natural thing , it shows just how much love you have inside . You're grief keeps topping up the heart, & its an overflow ❤❤❤
I just hope that your telling us is actually helping you Emma, and not stressing you out even more, because you don't have to do this. It's only a privilege for us to be taken along on your oh so sad journey and don't do it if it's making things harder for you. I think you have to reach the point of being sick and tired of being sick and tired at all the emotional swings you are going through, before you can even think you are a part way through this. When you say you are 'smashing life again', it's really just bravado for the world. We know it's a brave face you are putting on... a thin veneer over all the pain underneath. Loved your dress, it was very flattering and a great choice. This is one of the most difficult things which has to be tackled after loved ones die, and of course you will have many, many flashbacks now and way into the future. But they will get easier to deal with in time. It's terrible seeing the depth of your pain Emma. Thinking of you and sending love.
Oh how difficult that must have been Emma. You have every right to be falling apart and you will have good days when you don't. Every day is a new one. All is okay. Baby steps xx
Hi Emma, I can't imagine the despair u r dealing with.Especially losing a twin.Even though we can't be there with you physically, we all are here for you spiritually.Grieve at your own pace.I hope Ash, and your furbabies r keeping your heart happy! ❤🙏🐾
Oh Emma hun. Ur so brave u may not think you are but your amaxing to Deal with 3 Bereavements in 2 months omg ur strong your get threw this hun. You did Mum and sooz proud. Maybe just a small piece of mum and sooz to have in a keepsake like a crystal that when sun shines u cam see them .just a thought or jewellery. You know what your doing. You take care sweet lady. Here if u need a chat x ❤❤
Sending the biggest hugs your way Emma. I know how hard that is and you proved once again what a classy and strong young woman you are, I know Sooz and your Mum were holding you up. Go have a big snuggle with your babies that will help. Bless you, sweet girl.
Hi Emm. It’s rough. Very rough. I’m sorry hun. I can’t imagine your pain losing your twin sister. I’ve lost my mum too and that was so hard. I can’t even imagine if I lose one of my sisters. We are so close. I’m feeling for you lovely. ❤❤❤❤❤
Oh Emma, this is so surreal. My heart is with you. Hope You can breathe a little bit ,now that you have the ashes with you. One day at a time honey. Lots of love, hugs and comforting thoughts ❤
Oh dearest Emma. This vlog was difficult to watch. You are a brave, strong and wonderful sister and daughter they are both looking down on you with pride. Sending love and healing to you Em xx
I’m crying so hard I can’t hardly see the video, I’m giving you a big hug and lots of love right now. Love you Emma and I hope you feel all our presence with you✝️✨🥰🙏🏼🌸☮️😭🦋💐🎀🫶🏼🕊️🧸🐾❣️❣️❣️❣️
Hi, I’ve been following you for some time. I kept telling my mum about you, sooz and your mum. Then unexpectedly on the 28/6/24 my mum passed away in her sleep. I cared for her for years. Now waiting for her ashes. I feel your pain. I’m struggling everyday. Grief is bloody tough. Funeral was last week. Hit me like a tone of bricks, everyone getting on with life and I’m stuck in my grief. I hope things will get better for us. Stay strong.
Oh Emma. I’m so sad. I know how you feel. I had panic attack as well picking up my husbands ashes. I did get a heart shaped container that held a votive candle with some of his ashes in it it. Also got a tear drop stainless steel tear drop necklace with some of his ashes in it. I carry the candle with me when I go to hotels and such. Glad they’re home. Love the dress. You’re a beautiful soul. Hugs from a huge fan in Reno NV. ❤
Emma those propranolol should be taken on a regular bases not when you feel you need them hun ,take them everyday and they build up. I was doing that and my attacks kept creeping up on me and it was becauce I was just taking one here and there untill doctor told me off. There good when taken properly xx❤
Your pain is felt by so many sweetie. You are stronger than you realize. Once everything fully settles down and the last arrangements are completed, then is the time to remember the beautiful memories and sights of your vacation and how many people have wrapped you in love and hugs especially Jesus. I’m so thankful you were never alone. You have handled things so gracefully and continue to do so. Much love and support.
Hey Em I cried along with you. I recently went to sort my late mum’s things and just her hair still on her hair brush set me off. When you showed your mums hair I sobbed like a baby. God how I long to do her hair again like I used to. Virtual hugs sent to you xx Ps I loved your dress btw wondering if you could link it or a description ❤❤
Sending love and light your way at this difficult time on remembering your mum and Sooz. I to saw 2 orbs in the car with you, they will never be far away from you. Look out for signs, a feather, a robin and be comforted as they are with you always 🙏
I’m so sorry you are grieving the loss of your mother and twin Sooz. It brought me back to losing my parents. It will be okay. Your mom and Sooz will always be with you in your heart, and they will watch over you.
I’m so sorry for what you are going thru, I understand because my husband of 62 years passed away June 1st. I still can’t believe it and I cry everyday. I don’t know how to be by myself. We were married when I was 18 and it’s always been the two of us. Nights and weekends are the worse, when all the couples get together and I’m sitting home alone. I try to do things but inside I’m longing for him.. Seeing his ashes and the first visit to the cemetery was awful, reality set in and I still can’t get over it.. You were a wonderful sister and daughter and did everything you could to help them. You are very special. ❤🙏🏻
Awww, I'm sorry hon. I've been there. I know how hard it is, how it feels soooo....not right? I wish I was there to go with you as a buddy, give you both a big hug!! No one should have to do this task. Love you❤😢
Hey Emma, Sending you loads of hugs for all the difficult moments and memories. It was nice to see a burst of orbs around you whenever you cried in the car take it whatever it might be but seemed sweet as they settled as you did and did not come from opening the box and yes the sun light does show up stuff but still it was not there before. Anyway suffice to say you were not alone and were being hugged for sure. Now as a doctor may I discuss what seems to be inability to yawn? This is something Propanolol can cause via the TR mechanism that help to cool the brain.This is a very simplified explanation if this is what you mean-inability to yawn. Your doctor would have checked you do not have any breathing issues before prescribing and the correct minimum dose. If it becomes too bothersome talk with your doctor. xx
Hi Emma, I loss my Mom on June 30th 2024 from a brain tumor surgery which turned to brain cancer. My heart is so broken and shattered, My Parents live in FL as I live in CT I was there in FL with my Parents for 5 months. My 88 year old Dad and my Brother-in-law has to pick up her ashes. That is going to be hard on my Dad, it breaks my heart I can't be there with my Dad. I am hoping my Brother-in-law just picks them up my Dad is 88 he can't take anymore heart break. It's so heartbreaking for all of us. I am crying watching this. I know it hurts I am going to get some of my Mom's ashes when that days comes I know it's not going to be easy. God bless you, thinking and praying for you.🙏🙏
Emma that''s a classic sign of stress and anxiety, the heartbeat thing, I have suffered myself for years. Please try and focus on something positive when you go through these scary feelings, like your fur babies or hubby, it does help. God bless you xxx
It’s very emotional I remember picking up my mums and then my dads it brings everything back I just hugged the ashes all the way home God bless you that’s the worse of things over you did so well Emma xxx
Poor Emma. It is so sad. I picked up my husband's ashes yesterday and it is heartbreaking. I feel devastated. I am thinking of you and sending big hugs from Normandy France ❤️🙏
The tax needs to be paid sweetie, but any other debt e.g credit card, loan etc, they are written off in the event of death. Nobody in the family is liable to pay. I’ve just had results of my 12 month blood test post weight loss surgery, and my Vitamin D is through the floor. I’m now on extra vit D high dose in addition to the Bariatric vitamins. What a lovely dress, I love that. Sending love and hugs, it’s an emotional day for you xx❤
@smh1072. Sorry to hear that , my vitamin D levels are non existent, mainly because of ill health , I rarely leave my house , also have had severe osteoarthritis for years which can also contribute to it . I’m also on industrial amounts of vitamin D , just to ask are you experiencing hair loss ❓. I am shedding badly and it’s very upsetting , I’ve been told it could take 6+ months before I see any benefits in my health 😢. Best wishes x
@@suesmith3744 hi, it’s awful isn’t it. Yes severe hair loss. I took the decision to have my waist length hair cut into a Bob. It had gone so thin, it was straggly. I now have baby hairs growing, so I’m happy it’s recovering. I was also very low on B12 and had to have 6 loading doses in two weeks. I’m now getting the b12 injections 12 weekly. Xx
Oh Emma, I’m feeling your stress. My experience is no where near your grief. Twelve years ago I lost my beloved 12 1/2 year old Golden Retriever. The days and weeks after she passed were unbearable but when I had to pick up her ashes up by myself was very hard. The vet made a memory package for us, it contained a paw print, a lock of hair and a nice container. It helped a bit but to this day I still miss her. May God give you peace, strength and the knowledge that, he is not done with you yet. God bless you my dear, Amen!🙏🇺🇸🕊🕊 The saying, “God never gives you more than you can handle,” obviously is pushing you to the limit. I wish I could hug you right now. I am crying tears for you. My heart feels so heavy, please know I will take some of your hurt for you my precious one. Pick out a beautiful box or container that you can put where know they are with you. It does not have to be fancy. Take care of yourself, beautiful Emma!🙏
Ohhhh that was so awful and gut wrenching to get through. You were done so well and then I see you literally crashing inside as the lady was speaking details throughout. Oh my dear. My dear!! Why is the word “fun” a part of Funeral director?? Anyway … it hurts so very much inside (and with so much PTSD) because of what it’s like to be a pain Sherpa, a heart ❤️ Sherpa and a very deep love Sherpa. You carry them all and yourself on your back wherever …. to the ocean, the islands, across the street, up a mountain. You carry them everywhere like a Sherpa. And sometimes the burden will be heavy and sometimes it will shift and lighten and go back and forth and again. But you are a Sherpa now and must carry on, carry onward. Sooz’s lock of hair was born on her head the same day as your own. Treasure that lock of hair and hold it close to you!! Every cell is your sister! Your Sooz, your twin. And you will be the Sherpa who brings her to Thailand as you promised her. My Dear Emma. You are so loved. So loved my dear. I hope you know.
That was so hard. Sending you the biggest, warmest hug. You have such a kind, loving heart. You are doing your mum and Sooz proud. I'm glad you got the fingerprints and locks of hair. With much tender love, Elizabeth in Georgia USA. ❤️🫂
From one Emma to another, huge hugs darling. I know how you feel, believe me. Lost my mum, an uncle and my eldest half brother all in the space of 6 months, 9years ago now. I have days even now when I'll break down and cry because I'm still grieving after this time, but it is easier now. You won't ever forget your loved ones, they're always by your side. ❤
Hello Emma l was a funeral administrator for twenty lus years at a very busy home we did funerals from babies up to a hundred year olds but the one thing that would really get to me was having to give the families loved one's ashes,l considered it an honour to help families do the final thing for their loved ones.l would advise families if they wanted their loved one's ashes at home to buy just an everyday ginger jar so the ashes could be in the home but no one would know. I have all my little rescue dogs ashes in lovely ceramic ones from the charity shop. You've done well today Emma collecting loved one's ashes is not as easy as people think. Sending much love to you all🙏xxx
Lovely post. Now the tasks are completed. All that's left is finding a place for that grief to settle and heal. It's always there, of course, but can also become a place for happy memories of loved ones gone. I remember when my 23 yr old daughter died in another state than where our family lived . When her ashes were ready, I picked them up and boarded a plane to the state where she was to be buried. When I deplaned my Mom was there and just reached out both hands automatically for the small carry-on bag I had placed them in. "I'll take Brook-ie" she said. The ashes are such a powerful thing. All that's left. You are doing beautifully Emma...we all love you so. (Ann)
I'm having to go to same 🏥 where my mum passed iv had panic attack going by the place with the room with 🦋 butterfly on, so much love em❤❤❤❤❤ take day by day❤❤❤❤ ❤ love jayne and hubby bill your bristolian friends remember em they're just in the next room 🙏 s❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤wish I was in your car holding you❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Do you work in England? I legally have my pets' ashes at home in an urn I bought. (two rabbits died a year after a year)
I know people who legally have people too.
What a lovely idea ❤
I love all you're videos Emma you're not alone with losing a very much loved one's. I lost my dad at the age of 26 years old😢 and I feel you're pain
Sending love your way. The ashes, fingerprints, and locks of hair are tangible proof that Sooz and Mum walked this earth with you. The memories and their spirits are proof that they are not gone from your life even now. Love does not die. ❤️❤️
Oh Emma, soft big hugs! When you were in your car looking at fingerprints and hair samples, there were 2 bright small orbs dancing around you....I KNOW they were Mom and Sooz with you! It's been almost 10 months since we lost our Mom, and still crying daily. Don't think we will ever get over losing someone we loved so much. Hugs sweetie....
Yes! I thought the same thing when I saw those light orbs! Thank you for mentioning it! 💕💕💕
I saw them too! ❤️
Awful for you. I collected my dear Mum's ashes by myself, and it was surreal. Noone told me I could have a lock of hair/ fingerprints. Lovely idea. Let the tears flow whenever you feel like it. Things will get better eventually, it's a process, no right or wrong way to grieve. Look after yourself hun xx
No one told me either that I would have some hair ,but the did put some of my mums ashes in a little matching urn which we could keep and we will have a ring made from them and then the rest of mum went in with dad ❤
Sweet Emma, this is never ever easy!! Sounds like you had a big panic attack, maybe taking us with you will help, you are not a lone Emma!! Yes cry it's ok, good to help heal! Stress can make you feel icky!! This is very hard for you and we feel so sad you are going through this!! One step at a time, baby steps my dear friend ❤! Love the dress, you always look so nice! Maybe once you and Jason receive your precious momma Muriel and Sooz ashes, this will be some kind of a new beginning or form of closure, I'm not sure I'm even helping with what I'm saying I just care so much!! Momma Muriel and Sooz will always be apart of your life! Sweet Emma just remember we are here for you, we all care so much, you've been through was to much!! Lean on our heavenly father, our heavenly father will give you strength you never knew you had!!! Bless you Emma! This is so hard! I know without a doubt you want them back, but one thing is that neither are suffering anymore, you have done another hard part, I'm overwhelmed for you and Jason 😞 I'm praying for you and Jason!! 🙏 Let it out sweet Emma, we so understand!!much love to you ❤
Thank you and prayers for these commenters for sharing to help Emma.❤🙏
Bless your beautiful heart. Whilst the shells of your Sooz and Mother are now ashes, their spirits are vibrant, alive, and still with you in a different way now.
My heart is with you. 💕🩷
Those we love never go away
they walk beside us every day,
unseen,unheard
but forever near.....🙏🏻 💕 xx
I think youre doing really well. I cared for mum for 5 years before she passed last april and its floored me. I couldnt eat for months, couldnt sleep unless medicated......a right bloody mess. I cant remember her funeral as i wept from the minute i saw the hearse. My existing conditions became much worse with the anxiety i feel.
15 months on we are selling our house as shes everywhere and i cant live here anymore.
Stay strong xxx
Never easy Emma did it twice myself recently. The locks of hair are lovely to keep although I can’t think where or what to do with my Mums. Be kind to yourself it’s a very traumatic time for you. Needs doing but terribly sad for you, my hearts breaking for you pet take care xxx we are all with you and at your side your never alone xxx
We are putting our hair into a resin locket for my brother sister and myself also.
Oh sweetheart. What a sad sad day. But you did it! And you made them proud. Feel so bad forJason too. He lost his Princess...and as you said she was your identical twin sister so it must be sad for him to see you for so many reasons. Please remember so many people are with you and always will be ...I know I will always be here for you Much love from Cindy in Michigan,USA
Emma ,you don’t really need reminders of your loss , it will make you feel so raw,but what feels right for you is the path you must and will take . Time does not heal , you have no choice to go on living, to care for all other things , to be that kind loving compassionate woman we know you to be . This day, month , year , minute, this too will pass . Hugs and kisess
I know this is so hard. I wish I could hug you, beautiful girl. You are doing so good and we’re all so proud of you. ❤❤❤
Hello, Emma! Hope you’re doing well. I’ve been very busy so I haven’t been able to watch any videos you’ve posted. You’re still as beautiful as ever!
It’s hard picking up those last little bits of our loved ones. I remember ordering and getting my necklace with my daddy’s thumbprint on it, I held it close and just putting my fingers all over his print. He was real and alive and with all that I remember thinking how could he be gone. It’s been two years now and some days I still have that same thought, and also, when I’m anxious and nervous I hold on tight to my necklace and it calms me. Love from the States my friend ❤
Thank you xx I may get a necklace made xxxx
@@TheDogPooProwith some of my mums favourite tops she would wear my sister surprised me at Xmas with a teddy bear made from them. It’s amazing how much it helps to hug it when I’m feeling down and missing her. I’ve also seen ppl who have had blankets made. It’s a comforting way of keeping them near xx
It's healthy to cry , I still cry after 9 years of looking my dad
Yes they can take the loss. They should not have contacted you especially yet. First of all you are not responsible you were not married to them. They are your mom and sister. Do not worry about the bills worry about you now. You are more important than some stupid bills that they know they write off daily for other ppl. Hugs to u my dear. You are so inspiring to so many . You are such a strong woman even with tears.You rock girl.
Emma... the orbs...at around 24.05 !!!!!! 😮😮 I've never seen this before 💗💗
Your lovely Mum and Sis are with you darling ❤xx
Yes orbs are around her in the video!
Emma, my heart goes out to you, I know Sooz, and Mum, were right there beside you, with their hands on yours, helping you get through this, they will never leave you! 💜💜💜🙏🙏🙏please tell Jason, we're praying for him too!
Well done, Emma.
I'm not surprised you couldn't breathe.
Truly heartbreaking but you did it.
One more very sad, difficult task completed.
As you say, another step in the journey
You are a credit to mum and Sooz and to ALL your family.
Jason too, bless him.
Mum and Sooz would be SO proud of you.
Take good care, Emma.
Much love.
❤ xx
So sorry for your pain, it’s very hard to get through what you’re going through 😢 just the finality of it brings it all to the forefront again. Blessings and peace to you and your family.🙏🏻😢🙏🏻
Oh Emma, you are doing an amazing job! The practicalities aren’t something you think of when you lose a loved one, it’s just heartbreaking all over again! 😢I’m from the UK but live in Australia & when my Dad passed I brought some of Dad back to Australia with me. I carried my paperwork & the staff at the airport were just amazing. At Manchester airport I had to put the ashes into the basket for them to go through the machine but the staff let me follow them through. They also didn’t touch them out of respect. I wasn’t questioned at all…I was very thankful for that. ❤
I’m glad you are crying when you need to…we aren’t meant to keep our emotions in at times like this especially! Sending love & many prayers for you all from Oz 💗💗💗🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💗💗💗😢😢😢
Thank you x x that is good to know x sorry about your dad xxx
Oh Emma, I wish I could give you a great big hug and comfort you. Love and hugs and prayers from Ohio in the USA
Emma, I don’t know if you believe in this kind of thing, but as I’m watching this they are there with you, again I see orbs all around you✝️☮️❣️❣️❣️❣️
I saw those too !
Much love to you dear Emma 💕 I haven't been on here for awhile, and had you on my mind today, wondering how you are. You popped up straight away 😊 Big hugs to you xox I wish I had words to say that could help in some way. Please know, I send my love to you, and you are thought of, and cared about, all the way over here in a little town in New Zealand 💞🫶🌺🤝💔
So bittersweet for you, darling and such a monumental step in your journey of grief and healing. As usual, you did this with such strength and grace. Sooz and mum would be so very proud of you. 💜💐
Oh Emma, my heart breaks for you… when my brother passed it was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. We rode motorcycles together and took many ride trips. When I pick up his ashes I put them in my saddle bag and took him for one last long ride. My prayers are with you. Hugs n love 💕 from across the pond.
You really look much better then when you were going through everything! You are simply lovely!
@maryshelton3730 thank you xx
I could never let my sister go. I have my sisters hair and fingerprints and my mum and dad all live in in my office in a beautiful memorial I have set up. When it’s my turn to go they will all go with me so we can be together forever. It’s all so personal whether you scatter ashes etc. I had a friend who got a beautiful ring made of her husbands ashes. It was stunning ❤️
😢 darling Emma I really feel your pain , you are doing really well , keep strong & look after yourself thinking of you daily 💓 xx
Emma so sorry for your loss of your mother and sister. dave and baby girl look adorable. we have are mom ashes at home. the other part of her is free in the ocean. when i think of my mother i see a cardinal bird. hope you find a symbell for your mom and Suzie sending lots of love too your famlly.
Emma,Emma, I can’t read the screen for crying. I think I know why I was meant to come a Ross your channel here- I have more tears to let go too- so I thank you for your incredible, amazing strength and fortitude! You are so strong Emma. I cry with you and when you’re back a little later, I’m still pulling tissues from my tissue box! Lucky I’ve got my little poodle to give me comfort.
Today, well, this day was huge. I know it makes no sense does it- our minds can’t wrap around them being in this ‘box’. It just doesn’t seem real. I had my mum in the garden, still in the velvet covered box. I bought her favourite flowers and would go out and water them, talk to her. I needed her close by then. One day this beautiful monarch butterfly came along when I was out with her. It was surreal. I am not making this up- I held out my finger to pick it up. It jumped on! I opened the screen door and took it inside! I was crying so much, I went to my bed and put it on the pillow, and laid with it and cried and cried. It didn’t move. I was worried I had done something wrong but it wasn’t dead. I decided it was mum, telling me she’s ok. Spending a little more time with me. She had taken her life. I had so much pain in my heart. And here, I got to have as much time as I needed. I talked to her. I told her how hurt I felt by leaving the way she did- yep, all about me! Gosh! Then I got up, when back out, put the butterfly back on the flowering plant. I said my goodbye and thank you. And it flew away. Even as I remember it right now, I feel like my heart will break. I pray for you every day, for your continuing healing, your determination to help others, your lovely furry family, I think you’re amazing. Bless your heart Emma. I wish I could give you a big hug! 🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
Oh dear Emma. This is so very emotional and hard to really process that it’s true. Whole new waves of grief flood our minds. Your caring and love and devotion made their struggles bearable for them. Your love carried them through. Sending you loads of love and prayers for comfort. Take care.❤️🌻🩷❤️🌻🩷
You are crossing another little bridge here and are taking further your journey of sadness. Yes it is sad Emma, you are allowed to recognise that and feeling it is so necessary. I am sad with you and will be happy with you on another day but today is not that day. Bless you, a daughter and sister your angels will be very proud of, they are guiding you and you will be alright. xxxxx
Emma please take the tablets regularly, you need them. I don’t like to see you so upset but glad you feel you can share these moments with all of us. You are still on a journey and still early days. Biggest of hugs xxx
aww emma wish i could give you a big hug, i didn't know you could get hair and fingerprints xx😘
I really feel for you sweetheart, I’ve got my sons ashes here at home he passed away 10may, he was 44 and I’m broken like you! I also have had 4 cold sores which obviously we are very run down. My heart goes out to you and I’m sending you a virtual hug and hope this helps a little. Keep your chin up as this is what they would both want you to do and remember all of the wonderful times you had together ❤❤❤
Oh sweetheart 😢💔 I'm so sorry x x x
I'm walking this path with you xxx
Oh dear Emma, you did it!
We are all with you when you have been so gracious to share your difficult private moments like this.
Love to Jason and the family.
I've had Propranolol for severe anxiety and it made me very short of breath, tight chested, like a cage around my ribs as it slows the heartbeat. Maybe look into that with your GP for an alternative or stopping it if it's bothersome. 😊💓🌷
Sending lots of love and big hugs to you! You are having a difficult time! Take care! Thank you, Emma! 💕🫶🏻🙏🏻🥰🤗
Emma, I know how hard this is to do. I wish I had words that would help. Much love.
Oh sweet beautiful Emma I’m crying with you this morning!
The ptsd and trauma is so very real! Oh darling I to have my sisters hair! When I need to be close that’s my go to I just hold her hair and smell it!
I didn’t get her finger prints tho I wish I would have tho!
You have done an awesome job being the angel in the wings 🪽 you did such an amazing job taking care of Suz and mom!
They will be forever looking over you my love!
Just remember look for your signs! When They will send!
Suz are her story will save millions of lives and keep telling it Emma! You’re saving lives sweet girl!
You have all my love ❤ I wish I could physically hug you!
Sisters in waiting!!
A new, big step forward in the lifelong grief process for Sooz and Mum, and you’re doing brilliant, sweet Emma. Sending you so much love.❤❤❤🙏🏻 oxoxoxo love your dress.
Mum and Sooz were in the car with you the whole time you got back into the car!!Loads of orbs flying around you. Bless you all!!! xxx❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉
Dear Emma never be sorry for grieving everybody grieves differently and nobody can put a time on it . And you must remember you had double the grief too go through so dear Emma you need to try and relax when you have soon you time when I lost my husband sixteen years ago now I never thought I would lose him so young . My go recommend listening to relaxation tapes which did help over time . Sending you lots of soft hugs xx
Cried all the way through this it’s so sad. Mum and Sooz would be so so proud of you Emma. Lots of love always ❤🐌 xx
❤Hi Emma, Bless you’re beautiful heart!❤You look beautiful! Thinking of you Emma dear friend! So so hard for you today, but you did so great. Of course you are so sad. But this you needed to do this for both of them, and for you! Love you Emma!❤
My dear sweet Emma, my heart just breaks for you. You are so brave and strong. You are amazing. You’ve got this! Much love and hugs.
Emma, thankful they are home now despite the tears.
Painful but another chapter of grieving.
Moments like that, most of us wish to lift you up and stand beside 🦋
Hugs from 🇨🇦
Hey Emma, you have been so brave.. get a ring and a necklace there are some lovely ones, then they will be always be with you… we’re still here Emma and we always will be… hugs and love xxx
I had my mom's hair put it resin in a locket with a picture of my sis and mom and gave it to my sister as a gift. Every step of grieving has its unique challenges. Hugs.
After their services, the funeral directors brought my folk’s ashes to the cemetery. They were installed in the niche in a small chapel there. There is room for my sister and I. I told my sister that if were going to share a room again, she had to behave. I have my dad’s warped humor. I’m glad you weren’t alone picking them up. Hope Jason is ok. Be gentle with yourself. It will get better.
Big hugs to you, this is the hardest thing to do. Crying is the most natural thing , it shows just how much love you have inside . You're grief keeps topping up the heart, & its an overflow ❤❤❤
I just hope that your telling us is actually helping you Emma, and not stressing you out even more, because you don't have to do this. It's only a privilege for us to be taken along on your oh so sad journey and don't do it if it's making things harder for you. I think you have to reach the point of being sick and tired of being sick and tired at all the emotional swings you are going through, before you can even think you are a part way through this. When you say you are 'smashing life again', it's really just bravado for the world. We know it's a brave face you are putting on... a thin veneer over all the pain underneath. Loved your dress, it was very flattering and a great choice. This is one of the most difficult things which has to be tackled after loved ones die, and of course you will have many, many flashbacks now and way into the future. But they will get easier to deal with in time. It's terrible seeing the depth of your pain Emma. Thinking of you and sending love.
Thanks lovely x no it makes things easier for me
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I absolutely love talking to you all....it's my big release xxx
Bless you Emma, well done sweetheart. Sending you lots of love & big hugs ❤️🤗 xx
Oh how difficult that must have been Emma. You have every right to be falling apart and you will have good days when you don't. Every day is a new one. All is okay. Baby steps xx
Gentle hugs Emma ❤ xx
My heart is with you Emma ❤.
Just take your time , can remember it so well with my mum .
Lots of love ❤
Hi Emma, I can't imagine the despair u r dealing with.Especially losing a twin.Even though we can't be there with you physically, we all are here for you spiritually.Grieve at your own pace.I hope Ash, and your furbabies r keeping your heart happy! ❤🙏🐾
Oh Emma hun. Ur so brave u may not think you are but your amaxing to Deal with 3 Bereavements in 2 months omg ur strong your get threw this hun. You did Mum and sooz proud. Maybe just a small piece of mum and sooz to have in a keepsake like a crystal that when sun shines u cam see them .just a thought or jewellery. You know what your doing. You take care sweet lady. Here if u need a chat x ❤❤
Sending the biggest hugs your way Emma. I know how hard that is and you proved once again what a classy and strong young woman you are, I know Sooz and your Mum were holding you up. Go have a big snuggle with your babies that will help. Bless you, sweet girl.
Hi Emm. It’s rough. Very rough. I’m sorry hun. I can’t imagine your pain losing your twin sister. I’ve lost my mum too and that was so hard. I can’t even imagine if I lose one of my sisters. We are so close. I’m feeling for you lovely. ❤❤❤❤❤
Oh Emma, this is so surreal. My heart is with you. Hope You can breathe a little bit ,now that you have the ashes with you. One day at a time honey. Lots of love, hugs and comforting thoughts ❤
Oh dearest Emma. This vlog was difficult to watch. You are a brave, strong and wonderful sister and daughter they are both looking down on you with pride. Sending love and healing to you Em xx
I’m crying so hard I can’t hardly see the video, I’m giving you a big hug and lots of love right now. Love you Emma and I hope you feel all our presence with you✝️✨🥰🙏🏼🌸☮️😭🦋💐🎀🫶🏼🕊️🧸🐾❣️❣️❣️❣️
Hi, I’ve been following you for some time. I kept telling my mum about you, sooz and your mum. Then unexpectedly on the 28/6/24 my mum passed away in her sleep. I cared for her for years. Now waiting for her ashes. I feel your pain. I’m struggling everyday. Grief is bloody tough. Funeral was last week. Hit me like a tone of bricks, everyone getting on with life and I’m stuck in my grief. I hope things will get better for us. Stay strong.
Oh my gosh 😢💔🫂 I'm so sorry 😞 x please feel my arms around you xxxx
Slow deep breathes in and out until your calmed down. Prayers for strength ❤❤❤
Awwww Emma, I just want to give you a big hug, Bless your heart❤ You are so loved by all of us here🫂🥰😘💖xxxx
Oh Emma. I’m so sad. I know how you feel. I had panic attack as well picking up my husbands ashes. I did get a heart shaped container that held a votive candle with some of his ashes in it it. Also got a tear drop stainless steel tear drop necklace with some of his ashes in it. I carry the candle with me when I go to hotels and such. Glad they’re home. Love the dress. You’re a beautiful soul. Hugs from a huge fan in Reno NV. ❤
I love how much you loved your sister and Mum. You will see them again. Ask Jesus.
Emma those propranolol should be taken on a regular bases not when you feel you need them hun ,take them everyday and they build up. I was doing that and my attacks kept creeping up on me and it was becauce I was just taking one here and there untill doctor told me off. There good when taken properly xx❤
Actually my daughter was just prescribed them this past week and she is supposed to take them as needed.
Your pain is felt by so many sweetie. You are stronger than you realize. Once everything fully settles down and the last arrangements are completed, then is the time to remember the beautiful memories and sights of your vacation and how many people have wrapped you in love and hugs especially Jesus. I’m so thankful you were never alone. You have handled things so gracefully and continue to do so. Much love and support.
Big hugs sweetheart.
Sending sooo much love
🫂 xxx
Hey Em I cried along with you. I recently went to sort my late mum’s things and just her hair still on her hair brush set me off. When you showed your mums hair I sobbed like a baby. God how I long to do her hair again like I used to. Virtual hugs sent to you xx
Ps I loved your dress btw wondering if you could link it or a description ❤❤
Oh honey bun 🫂💔😢
X x Yes of course x x the dress link is...
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@@TheDogPooPro thank you xx
Awee. I think Mink and Dave sense your sadness. Hugs, Emma. We love you. 💔
Grieve Em, it's natural and necessary a process. Hugs sweetie xxx
Sending love and light your way at this difficult time on remembering your mum and Sooz.
I to saw 2 orbs in the car with you, they will never be far away from you. Look out for signs, a feather, a robin and be comforted as they are with you always 🙏
Emma each of these things you are doing are important milestones in your grief journey. Very hard though . Sending love and strength xx
I’m so sorry you are grieving the loss of your mother and twin Sooz. It brought me back to losing my parents. It will be okay. Your mom and Sooz will always be with you in your heart, and they will watch over you.
Your story is still running and you already thanked me! Freaky timing to chuckle a little!
I’m so sorry for what you are going thru, I understand because my husband of 62 years passed away June 1st. I still can’t believe it and I cry everyday. I don’t know how to be by myself. We were married when I was 18 and it’s always been the two of us. Nights and weekends are the worse, when all the couples get together and I’m sitting home alone. I try to do things but inside I’m longing for him.. Seeing his ashes and the first visit to the cemetery was awful, reality set in and I still can’t get over it.. You were a wonderful sister and daughter and did everything you could to help them. You are very special. ❤🙏🏻
I'm so sorry 😞 x huge hugs to you xx
Hope you’re doing alright! Very emotional to watch this video! Can’t imagine how hard this must have been for you!! Take care!!!
Sending so much love to you Emma ❣❤❣❤
Awww, I'm sorry hon. I've been there. I know how hard it is, how it feels soooo....not right? I wish I was there to go with you as a buddy, give you both a big hug!! No one should have to do this task. Love you❤😢
Hey Emma, Sending you loads of hugs for all the difficult moments and memories. It was nice to see a burst of orbs around you whenever you cried in the car take it whatever it might be but seemed sweet as they settled as you did and did not come from opening the box and yes the sun light does show up stuff but still it was not there before. Anyway suffice to say you were not alone and were being hugged for sure. Now as a doctor may I discuss what seems to be inability to yawn? This is something Propanolol can cause via the TR mechanism that help to cool the brain.This is a very simplified explanation if this is what you mean-inability to yawn. Your doctor would have checked you do not have any breathing issues before prescribing and the correct minimum dose. If it becomes too bothersome talk with your doctor. xx
Bless you Emma. You have been so strong. You have been through so much. Keep going lovely lady. Xxxx sending love and hugs.xxxxx
Hi Emma, I loss my Mom on June 30th 2024 from a brain tumor surgery which turned to brain cancer. My heart is so broken and shattered, My Parents live in FL as I live in CT I was there in FL with my Parents for 5 months. My 88 year old Dad and my Brother-in-law has to pick up her ashes. That is going to be hard on my Dad, it breaks my heart I can't be there with my Dad. I am hoping my Brother-in-law just picks them up my Dad is 88 he can't take anymore heart break. It's so heartbreaking for all of us. I am crying watching this. I know it hurts I am going to get some of my Mom's ashes when that days comes I know it's not going to be easy. God bless you, thinking and praying for you.🙏🙏
Sending you the biggest hug x you're in my thoughts ❤️ I'm so sorry 😞
Emma that''s a classic sign of stress and anxiety, the heartbeat thing, I have suffered myself for years. Please try and focus on something positive when you go through these scary feelings, like your fur babies or hubby, it does help. God bless you xxx
It’s very emotional I remember picking up my mums and then my dads it brings everything back I just hugged the ashes all the way home God bless you that’s the worse of things over you did so well Emma xxx
Oh Em. I just wanted to hug you the entire time you were there to collect Mum and Sooz's ashes. :(
I feel for you Emma it really does hit home when collecting your families ashes. Sending you loads of hugs because i know you need them right now.❤❤❤
Sending lots of love your way ❤️. We’re here for you x x
Praying this is last of the really hard stuff you have to go through! Sending hugs sweet girl!
Poor Emma. It is so sad. I picked up my husband's ashes yesterday and it is heartbreaking. I feel devastated. I am thinking of you and sending big hugs from Normandy France ❤️🙏
Sorry to hear that Elaine x 💔😢 my heart is with you xxxxx
Thank you Emma ❤
The tax needs to be paid sweetie, but any other debt e.g credit card, loan etc, they are written off in the event of death. Nobody in the family is liable to pay. I’ve just had results of my 12 month blood test post weight loss surgery, and my Vitamin D is through the floor. I’m now on extra vit D high dose in addition to the Bariatric vitamins.
What a lovely dress, I love that. Sending love and hugs, it’s an emotional day for you xx❤
@smh1072. Sorry to hear that , my vitamin D levels are non existent, mainly because of ill health , I rarely leave my house , also have had severe osteoarthritis for years which can also contribute to it . I’m also on industrial amounts of vitamin D , just to ask are you experiencing hair loss ❓. I am shedding badly and it’s very upsetting , I’ve been told it could take 6+ months before I see any benefits in my health 😢. Best wishes x
@@suesmith3744 hi, it’s awful isn’t it. Yes severe hair loss. I took the decision to have my waist length hair cut into a Bob. It had gone so thin, it was straggly. I now have baby hairs growing, so I’m happy it’s recovering. I was also very low on B12 and had to have 6 loading doses in two weeks. I’m now getting the b12 injections 12 weekly. Xx
Oh Emma, I’m feeling your stress. My experience is no where near your grief. Twelve years ago I lost my beloved 12 1/2 year old Golden Retriever.
The days and weeks after she passed were unbearable but when I had to pick up her ashes up by myself was very hard.
The vet made a memory package for us, it contained a paw print, a lock of hair and a nice container.
It helped a bit but to this day I still miss her.
May God give you peace, strength and the knowledge that, he is not done with you yet.
God bless you my dear, Amen!🙏🇺🇸🕊🕊
The saying, “God never gives you more than you can handle,” obviously is pushing you to the limit.
I wish I could hug you right now. I am crying tears for you. My heart feels so heavy, please know I will take some of your hurt for you my precious one.
Pick out a beautiful box or container that you can put where know they are with you. It does not have to be fancy. Take care of yourself, beautiful Emma!🙏
Love, hugs and prayers from Cathy in Cape Coral.
You were a beautiful carer for both of them .
Ohhhh that was so awful and gut wrenching to get through. You were done so well and then I see you literally crashing inside as the lady was speaking details throughout. Oh my dear. My dear!! Why is the word “fun” a part of Funeral director?? Anyway … it hurts so very much inside (and with so much PTSD) because of what it’s like to be a pain Sherpa, a heart ❤️ Sherpa and a very deep love Sherpa. You carry them all and yourself on your back wherever …. to the ocean, the islands, across the street, up a mountain. You carry them everywhere like a Sherpa. And sometimes the burden will be heavy and sometimes it will shift and lighten and go back and forth and again. But you are a Sherpa now and must carry on, carry onward. Sooz’s lock of hair was born on her head the same day as your own. Treasure that lock of hair and hold it close to you!! Every cell is your sister! Your Sooz, your twin. And you will be the Sherpa who brings her to Thailand as you promised her. My Dear Emma. You are so loved. So loved my dear. I hope you know.
That was so hard. Sending you the biggest, warmest hug. You have such a kind, loving heart. You are doing your mum and Sooz proud. I'm glad you got the fingerprints and locks of hair. With much tender love, Elizabeth in Georgia USA. ❤️🫂
Will always watch you Emma love and hugs sent to you wish I could give you a massive hug always in my thoughts ❤❤xx
From one Emma to another, huge hugs darling. I know how you feel, believe me. Lost my mum, an uncle and my eldest half brother all in the space of 6 months, 9years ago now. I have days even now when I'll break down and cry because I'm still grieving after this time, but it is easier now. You won't ever forget your loved ones, they're always by your side. ❤
I’m so sorry for you , so much pain and heart break, I am sending so much love💔❤️❤️❤️❤️🇨🇦
Prayers, honey, hugs 🫂 and ❤️ love!