The only thing I must do is to be a student of life, i don't wanna know! I want to learn! I want to live, observe, listen, experience. Then I know, but it doesn't matter. I just no longer serve no kings and live the loop that all generations just go wasted and the next ones all over keep looping life around till the thing we call death! 🐺🙏Thanks for reading....
Thank you for talking about it. I had the same feelings and questions as the person you give a reply in this video. That feeling of not knowing what to do anymore without purpose, not knowing the sense of my life when knowing it doesn’t really matter anyway. Your answer helps. Thank you !
Driving the same point in. Thank you. It’s also starting to stick in my mind. I am feeling better d out … well what ever. Learning to accept and see myself as just here right now. Not worried about I am etc. just hearing my feelings mostly to stop and let it happen and not try to explain everything to myself. Catching the repetitive stories faster. Stopped the smoking today.
Bro I was tripping an hour ago and realized our world as a kind of sandbox or "playfield". My ego was dying and it was so scared that there came thoughts of sentences from ascendor from videos of his, which my mind was using to guide itself to peace. I suddently realized that thoughts are living on its own. Which was way too scary for my mind to handle, it didnt want to let go. It felt so alien how those negetive thoughts just came out of nothingness. It felt like one part of me wanted to let go, but the other was wayyy too frightened. Terrifying experience 😂
The way you've described it is wonderful. We often live in this duality of "I" and "my thoughts," where this "I" seems to have an idea of how these thoughts should be - an idea which is, in itself, just another thought. This creates a conflict within ourselves, and that conflict is the root cause of these negative thoughts in the first place. In other words, when what appears to be negative can simply be allowed to be, due to the recognition of the truth that it cannot be changed - this includes negative thoughts, negative emotions, negative behaviors, and negative circumstances - something shifts. And in that allowing, healing can occur.
Thank you. Because of your videos, and particularly Direct Path to Consciousness, I started to wake up and am still awakening. I have exactly the same feelings your commenter talks about. It's complicated by the fact that I like Me and didn't want that part to die, but I'm starting to think ego isn't Me and I can afford to lose it. It's seriously scary. But I'm waking up, so I guess it's too late for second thoughts.
Hi there, firstly, I love your videos. They resonate with me in a lot of ways and have been helpful in just as many ways. I was wondering if you could do a video on alcoholism. I drink every day and for quite sometime, there has been two sides of me battling it out. The one that doesn't want to drink and is sick of feeling shit in the mornings and of course, the one that comes up in the afternoon and is perfectly fine with it. I hope you can share something that may help Thanks in advance Noel
Hello, thanks for your comment. I once made a video where I explained how to overcome smoking, and I'm wondering if you've seen it already. The ideas discussed there can actually be applied to any addiction. Let me know.
hey ascendor. this is again extremly helpful. i really struggle to just feel the sensations. i have a lot of anxiety, since ever. drugaddiction made it even worse. now i found this path if it is one and it really helped me. still i always feel the anxiety and then i think about your video, to just let it be and feel it without labeling it, it kinda works, but then some seconds later its like forgotten. i think the anxiety keeps me so much in the mind, that im not conciouss enough to see these things, that its not a big deal actually. i meditate and keep learning about spirituality daily, but right now im at a point where i feel that i dont know how to even act. because first i was always listening to the gurus etc. and then i started listening to krishnamurti and to you, and now i kinda feel lost. im not sure if this is relatable, or a little confusing to read. i just wanted to express these feelings. maybe if you have an idea what could help, id always be thankful! but your videos alone are meaning a lot to me! peace
I can understand your suffering and know how it feels. You’re struggling and searching through videos for a spark of hope, some kind of guidance or advice. And then, the people in these videos tell you to stop trying to fix it-because the constant effort to "do something" is what led you into suffering in the first place. Can you look at the discomfort as though it’s not yours, but simply a natural event occurring in nature? Not something negative, but just something normal - unpleasant, yes, but not bad. This isn’t meant to be a method to help you get rid of uncomfortable feelings. Instead, it’s meant to offer you a perspective from which you can observe what’s happening now in a neutral way. “There is suffering, so what? It’s not a problem, just a guest visiting me. It’s allowed to be here.” And then, you simply continue living.
It’s a very interesting topic. Where do I do emotional work to „heal“ wounds so that they get out of the way and where do I simply accept as it’s just another story that something is broken? The whole esoteric scene says heal your wounds, feel your feelings. But what if it’s just not working and it’s not going away… on the other side, many teachers say that it’s necessary to work with those wounds and emotions upfront to open up for awakening….
The thing is, many spiritual teachings give you the impression that you need to feel your emotions for a specific purpose. They tell you to sit with the uncomfortable feeling, but with the hidden motive that the feeling will eventually go away. And that’s exactly where the problem lies. The point of consciously feeling the emotion is not to make it go away, but to accept that it’s there and to recognize that nature simply is the way it is. For example, if there is suffering in the form of fear, you realize that it’s not something that’s harming you-it’s simply there, and that’s it. And in this recognition, you may come to see that there’s nothing to heal. Once this realization happens, the suffering may leave on its own, but that’s not the goal, nor is it the purpose. The purpose is to understand that both good and bad, positive and negative, yin and yang, are part of the whole-and both are welcome.
How do you balance discipline and Wu Wei? Not this exact term necessarily but the act of not forcing. I want to exercise, read, meditate consistently, even when I DONT feel like doing them, does this contradict the state of natural flow? Please give me your thoughts as it is the one paradox i have not been able to understand
This sounds like there was an awakening here and then followed by what could be labelled anhedonia? But what about prior to (deep) realisation? Along the path, is it possible that motivation drops - or in other words, is a gradual loss of motivation and sense of meaning and purpose (especially if one had them before) a sign that something is shifting this context? And what happens if you are on autopilot but there's still work and recognition and awards and such. In other words, you were successful and busy before this hit you and the train is still going on (also the train can't stop since a lot of people/egos depend on the train).
Hello bro. My health is worse and worse. I have more thoughts and emotions, feel a lot of tensions and my body is burning. In daily activities im creating new emotions and anxiety which are poisoning me and i fall down. What can you suggest? Maybe should i do lot of meditations lets say 1h and 1h break and again? to let the energy flow? Sometimes when i sit there is nothing, i even dont feel that energy flows. But sometimes when i say i accept it (thought or feeling), i feel energy is flowing and i feel relief. What can you suggest to go up and not fall down? Im not sure should i feel feelings and emotions or observe thoughts or just do nothing
Even if I let everything be as it is I still dont realize anything. I guess I should just try to live with the pain as best as i can. And also what to you think happens after we die. Do we get reborn instantly or do we stay in this void of consciousness and love for a bit. Or is it like before I was born so it is like nothing happened at all? Thank you for your videos
hi. my worst symptom is a pressure in neck and tingling sensation in the forehead. i have had it for 4 years now and i don't know what to do. some times it has taken over my life completely and made me dissociate. the more i focus on it the worse it gets. it is so hard to just accept when the focus is automatically on the symptoms like an autopilot. What should i do? Thanks for a great channel it helps alot
What happens if you want to do stupid or bad things, like drinking too much or eating too much or other things in excess or harmful to self? Should those be resisted? It seems fundamentally this is what it's about, ego is addicted to Maya, to the drama, and if that addiction isn't there, then there's addiction to money, power, drugs, etc. But going with the flow when it comes to addiction would lead to the addiction getting worse.
Are you really going with the flow if you’re doing those things? Generally the addiction is a coping mechanism to avoid a negative emotion or thought. What if you looked at that feeling? Or just see the thought for what it is? A thought.
@@curb2ivanic414 Addictions start that way (resisting something) but take on a life of their own. There's this analogy about skiing in the same groove again and again and it deepens the groove so much that there's little choice but to go in the groove unless there is fresh new powder (neuroplasticity). I would also argue the fundamental seeking behaviour aka "desire" being referred to is an addiction (to maya), it's easier to understand using chemical substances. So isn't giving into the seeking/desire, which causes dissatisfaction, also the natural response that avoids resistance? I would indeed say at that the desires arising and enacting those is going with the flow. Resisting it also is going with the flow. Observing it in a detached manner is also going with the flow. It's all going with the flow, that's the thing, but from a societal POV - saying observe addictive behaviour while indulging in it (some methods to quit addictions are based on this) is a different response from saying resist the addictive behaviour. I have heard only a couple of teachers say the former, so I'm always curious what others say.
It might Jusf be a detoxing process that feels really uncomfortable at first… the ego js conditioned life lòng and this is absolutely new to tell it stfu 🤣 Breath breath, patient is the key 😭
I don’t understand and don’t try to understand anything. I just know it’s true. Is it a belief? Or knowing? Does it matter? Does mattering matter? I guess no.
Thank you 🙏
The only thing I must do is to be a student of life, i don't wanna know! I want to learn! I want to live, observe, listen, experience. Then I know, but it doesn't matter. I just no longer serve no kings and live the loop that all generations just go wasted and the next ones all over keep looping life around till the thing we call death! 🐺🙏Thanks for reading....
Thank you for talking about it. I had the same feelings and questions as the person you give a reply in this video. That feeling of not knowing what to do anymore without purpose, not knowing the sense of my life when knowing it doesn’t really matter anyway. Your answer helps. Thank you !
Driving the same point in. Thank you. It’s also starting to stick in my mind. I am feeling better d out … well what ever. Learning to accept and see myself as just here right now. Not worried about I am etc. just hearing my feelings mostly to stop and let it happen and not try to explain everything to myself. Catching the repetitive stories faster. Stopped the smoking today.
Bro I was tripping an hour ago and realized our world as a kind of sandbox or "playfield". My ego was dying and it was so scared that there came thoughts of sentences from ascendor from videos of his, which my mind was using to guide itself to peace. I suddently realized that thoughts are living on its own. Which was way too scary for my mind to handle, it didnt want to let go. It felt so alien how those negetive thoughts just came out of nothingness. It felt like one part of me wanted to let go, but the other was wayyy too frightened. Terrifying experience 😂
Well my friend, what people call life is the playfield indeed! And the game master is the government...
The way you've described it is wonderful. We often live in this duality of "I" and "my thoughts," where this "I" seems to have an idea of how these thoughts should be - an idea which is, in itself, just another thought. This creates a conflict within ourselves, and that conflict is the root cause of these negative thoughts in the first place. In other words, when what appears to be negative can simply be allowed to be, due to the recognition of the truth that it cannot be changed - this includes negative thoughts, negative emotions, negative behaviors, and negative circumstances - something shifts. And in that allowing, healing can occur.
Than you🩷🙏🏻
Thank you. Because of your videos, and particularly Direct Path to Consciousness, I started to wake up and am still awakening. I have exactly the same feelings your commenter talks about. It's complicated by the fact that I like Me and didn't want that part to die, but I'm starting to think ego isn't Me and I can afford to lose it. It's seriously scary. But I'm waking up, so I guess it's too late for second thoughts.
Thank you for your articulate comment, it does add clarity to the understanding of the kind of muddy state I find myself in.
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It will be worth it :)
@@ascendor.ascendor Thank you much for your encouragement, I do appreciate it profoundly ☺️
Wow, “what is actually here” - game changer, thank you
Hi there, firstly, I love your videos. They resonate with me in a lot of ways and have been helpful in just as many ways.
I was wondering if you could do a video on alcoholism.
I drink every day and for quite sometime, there has been two sides of me battling it out.
The one that doesn't want to drink and is sick of feeling shit in the mornings and of course, the one that comes up in the afternoon and is perfectly fine with it.
I hope you can share something that may help
Thanks in advance
Noel
Hello, thanks for your comment. I once made a video where I explained how to overcome smoking, and I'm wondering if you've seen it already. The ideas discussed there can actually be applied to any addiction. Let me know.
hey ascendor. this is again extremly helpful. i really struggle to just feel the sensations. i have a lot of anxiety, since ever. drugaddiction made it even worse. now i found this path if it is one and it really helped me. still i always feel the anxiety and then i think about your video, to just let it be and feel it without labeling it, it kinda works, but then some seconds later its like forgotten. i think the anxiety keeps me so much in the mind, that im not conciouss enough to see these things, that its not a big deal actually. i meditate and keep learning about spirituality daily, but right now im at a point where i feel that i dont know how to even act. because first i was always listening to the gurus etc. and then i started listening to krishnamurti and to you, and now i kinda feel lost. im not sure if this is relatable, or a little confusing to read. i just wanted to express these feelings. maybe if you have an idea what could help, id always be thankful! but your videos alone are meaning a lot to me! peace
I can understand your suffering and know how it feels. You’re struggling and searching through videos for a spark of hope, some kind of guidance or advice. And then, the people in these videos tell you to stop trying to fix it-because the constant effort to "do something" is what led you into suffering in the first place.
Can you look at the discomfort as though it’s not yours, but simply a natural event occurring in nature? Not something negative, but just something normal - unpleasant, yes, but not bad. This isn’t meant to be a method to help you get rid of uncomfortable feelings. Instead, it’s meant to offer you a perspective from which you can observe what’s happening now in a neutral way. “There is suffering, so what? It’s not a problem, just a guest visiting me. It’s allowed to be here.”
And then, you simply continue living.
Thank you Ancendor 🙏 every day I will wait for your video to watch ❤
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It’s a very interesting topic. Where do I do emotional work to „heal“ wounds so that they get out of the way and where do I simply accept as it’s just another story that something is broken? The whole esoteric scene says heal your wounds, feel your feelings. But what if it’s just not working and it’s not going away… on the other side, many teachers say that it’s necessary to work with those wounds and emotions upfront to open up for awakening….
The thing is, many spiritual teachings give you the impression that you need to feel your emotions for a specific purpose. They tell you to sit with the uncomfortable feeling, but with the hidden motive that the feeling will eventually go away. And that’s exactly where the problem lies.
The point of consciously feeling the emotion is not to make it go away, but to accept that it’s there and to recognize that nature simply is the way it is. For example, if there is suffering in the form of fear, you realize that it’s not something that’s harming you-it’s simply there, and that’s it. And in this recognition, you may come to see that there’s nothing to heal.
Once this realization happens, the suffering may leave on its own, but that’s not the goal, nor is it the purpose. The purpose is to understand that both good and bad, positive and negative, yin and yang, are part of the whole-and both are welcome.
@ beautiful explanation
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Very helpful explained
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So helpful thank you ❤
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"Hello I'm in pain, I don't want to feel it, how do I manage it?" you don't, the only way to manage pain is to feel it lol
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How do you balance discipline and Wu Wei? Not this exact term necessarily but the act of not forcing. I want to exercise, read, meditate consistently, even when I DONT feel like doing them, does this contradict the state of natural flow? Please give me your thoughts as it is the one paradox i have not been able to understand
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@ascendor looking for your next video
Tomorrow :)
This sounds like there was an awakening here and then followed by what could be labelled anhedonia? But what about prior to (deep) realisation? Along the path, is it possible that motivation drops - or in other words, is a gradual loss of motivation and sense of meaning and purpose (especially if one had them before) a sign that something is shifting this context?
And what happens if you are on autopilot but there's still work and recognition and awards and such. In other words, you were successful and busy before this hit you and the train is still going on (also the train can't stop since a lot of people/egos depend on the train).
Hello bro. My health is worse and worse. I have more thoughts and emotions, feel a lot of tensions and my body is burning. In daily activities im creating new emotions and anxiety which are poisoning me and i fall down. What can you suggest? Maybe should i do lot of meditations lets say 1h and 1h break and again? to let the energy flow? Sometimes when i sit there is nothing, i even dont feel that energy flows. But sometimes when i say i accept it (thought or feeling), i feel energy is flowing and i feel relief. What can you suggest to go up and not fall down? Im not sure should i feel feelings and emotions or observe thoughts or just do nothing
Even if I let everything be as it is I still dont realize anything. I guess I should just try to live with the pain as best as i can.
And also what to you think happens after we die. Do we get reborn instantly or do we stay in this void of consciousness and love for a bit. Or is it like before I was born so it is like nothing happened at all? Thank you for your videos
hi. my worst symptom is a pressure in neck and tingling sensation in the forehead. i have had it for 4 years now and i don't know what to do. some times it has taken over my life completely and made me dissociate. the more i focus on it the worse it gets. it is so hard to just accept when the focus is automatically on the symptoms like an autopilot. What should i do? Thanks for a great channel it helps alot
What happens if you want to do stupid or bad things, like drinking too much or eating too much or other things in excess or harmful to self? Should those be resisted? It seems fundamentally this is what it's about, ego is addicted to Maya, to the drama, and if that addiction isn't there, then there's addiction to money, power, drugs, etc. But going with the flow when it comes to addiction would lead to the addiction getting worse.
Are you really going with the flow if you’re doing those things?
Generally the addiction is a coping mechanism to avoid a negative emotion or thought. What if you looked at that feeling? Or just see the thought for what it is? A thought.
@@curb2ivanic414 Addictions start that way (resisting something) but take on a life of their own. There's this analogy about skiing in the same groove again and again and it deepens the groove so much that there's little choice but to go in the groove unless there is fresh new powder (neuroplasticity). I would also argue the fundamental seeking behaviour aka "desire" being referred to is an addiction (to maya), it's easier to understand using chemical substances.
So isn't giving into the seeking/desire, which causes dissatisfaction, also the natural response that avoids resistance? I would indeed say at that the desires arising and enacting those is going with the flow. Resisting it also is going with the flow. Observing it in a detached manner is also going with the flow. It's all going with the flow, that's the thing, but from a societal POV - saying observe addictive behaviour while indulging in it (some methods to quit addictions are based on this) is a different response from saying resist the addictive behaviour. I have heard only a couple of teachers say the former, so I'm always curious what others say.
It might Jusf be a detoxing process that feels really uncomfortable at first… the ego js conditioned life lòng and this is absolutely new to tell it stfu 🤣
Breath breath, patient is the key 😭
İ wish you are my Real life friend. İ love you like my same blood brother
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I don’t understand and don’t try to understand anything. I just know it’s true. Is it a belief? Or knowing? Does it matter? Does mattering matter?
I guess no.
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Listening to you or listening to Alan Watts.. so profound
What about health issues? Does life take care of that? Is going to the DR a way the mind makes sense of it
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