Yes this is exactly how it feels. With the initial awakening there was tremendous bliss followed by unrelenting and painful upheaval of everything. Then a sort of holding pattern punctuated by more painful contractions. Then a sort of dullness and some doubt. One day though, it just slipped in. It was unmistakeable. I had been half expecting some more bliss but it wasn’t like that. There was a pleasurable sense of ease and trust, but no big lightning or thunder. It’s there when one wakes and effortlessly there at all times.
Hey, this reminds me of something… You haven’t forgotten about Part 3 of “How the Worst Week of My Life Became the Best Week of My Life”, have you? Part 2 ended on quite a cliff hanger! :)
Hi Angelo, I resonate with the one pointed approach. Lots of suffering and I became very aware of how the me that is resisting is playing a big part in this suffering. Arguing with it or fighting it doesn't make any sense anymore so resting in one point does. I either sit and try to feel into the frustration and suffering or I ask myself who is suffering or what is this? Those questions resonate a lot and I feel a space coming up, also almost a shock/wave of sensations in the chest when I ask who I am. The sensations subside after a while.The thing is that I either try to stay in the space, or try to stay wth those sensations, but after a while it feels like I'm holding on to an object and it is drifting away. I then try to hold on to it, and when this isn't working, I repeat the question and the cycle repeats. Do you have any advice on this? Thanks a lot for everything.
I’ve always had access to this one pointedness, not on command, but sometimes it just shows up and I’m able to settle into it. Think of, simultaneously, becoming as relaxed and concentrated as possible. One sticky belief I have is this one pointedness only presents itself when I’m stoned. Experientially, this feels true. It’s hard to put in words - I would say it feels more embodied, vivid and obvious when I’m high. When I’m sober, the Samadhi is much weaker. And the sense gates are not as vivd since I’m always bouncing back into the mind and using it as a pacifier.
When i smoke Sometimes, i See the thoughts especially the subtle ones much clearer at the beginning but after a few hours i get alot of daDreaming thoughts and identify with them again. So i stay away from IT mostly.
I have that sticky belief as well. I have mostly quit smoking (only used five times in the past year and a half), and I rarely feel any kind of deep spiritual experience anymore. On the other hand, even though I often felt deep spiritual connection and experience when smoking, I began to suspect the identity of me was using this idea of getting somewhere for someone as a means to reinforce itself. I have no answers now, except I think I know that I know nothing. I have way too much intellectual understanding of all this. There is nowhere to go, nothing to do, yet that thought may just be a cop out. I'm sick of it all really. Wish I could go back to being fully deluded. Life was more fun and less miserable then. I may take up smoking again just to numb out.
Yes dont delude yourself to think there ist nothing to do when you feel youre the doer , investigate the doer and Most importantly investigate emotions. But its all about being aware , and thats quite enjoyable. Its Not a Special experience , its the Nature of your experience. Sink into it, you can Not do that its whats aware of your doing. If yoU feel numb its a sign of emotional Repression , so investigate. Atleast thats my Take. Good luck❤
@@brushstroke3733 Yeah that sounds like my experience. Ignorance is bliss isn’t it? Some of the most unconscious and least self-aware people I know seem to be the happiest.
Something resonates and says yes this is what I am experiencing, but I cannot be sure. But definitely a quality of no figuring out needed, attention wants to go/be in this mode, even though the thoughts can come up and try to wrestle and compare.. like the openness of thoughtless space is this one pointedness in a way but this one has kind of a gravity to it, immersion in the senses...
I feel like i know this. I know what you are describing. I have experienced a glimps or glimpses of this on a smaller scale. Like there is truth there ✨️
Hi Angelo. What would you say is (are) the biggest obstacle(s) preventing someone from clarifying the non-dual nature of phenomena after a first shift, substantial decreases in reactivity and some emotion work having been gone through? Fear? Thank you :))
If I read you right this is what the Buddhists call the A and P, the arising and passing. Thoughts, feelings, sensations “arise” and then “pass.” Just notice this. They are just thoughts, feelings, sensations. The final thing to go for me was the seeker. The thought that wants to find that final bit of “knowledge” or “information” or “wisdom” that will allow IT to become… when that was seen as just another thought, I was free.
There may be a feeling or a sense that something is “directing” this effort, laying things at your feet, showing you what you need to see, when you need to see it. Just let it. Surrender. But there is also a trap in identifying or trying to “know” what the mystery is. Drink from the fountain, but don’t get caught in trying to figure out how it works. That’s just more seeking.
That turned into Siri word salad. Maybe a better ask is that recognition that you’re talking about, the underlying thing that is not a thing, the inside that it is who I am, that is or is not Awakening?
guys I've been having such a romantic awakening this is the second video I've commented this but the people need to know listen to taylor swift she is releasing me before and after awakening "epiphany" beautiful song and listen to her from the place of no self take yourself to be nothing while you are listening to her and she will show you you
I listened to it upon your recommendation. It did nothing for me. Music is a pretty personal journey. It affects us each in different ways. Glad it touches you in a special way though. Taylor Swift is definitely very talented.
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Yes this is exactly how it feels. With the initial awakening there was tremendous bliss followed by unrelenting and painful upheaval of everything. Then a sort of holding pattern punctuated by more painful contractions. Then a sort of dullness and some doubt. One day though, it just slipped in. It was unmistakeable. I had been half expecting some more bliss but it wasn’t like that. There was a pleasurable sense of ease and trust, but no big lightning or thunder. It’s there when one wakes and effortlessly there at all times.
Hey, this reminds me of something… You haven’t forgotten about Part 3 of “How the Worst Week of My Life Became the Best Week of My Life”, have you? Part 2 ended on quite a cliff hanger! :)
It's coming lol, been busy :)
I experienced it the same way! 🙏
Hi Angelo, I resonate with the one pointed approach. Lots of suffering and I became very aware of how the me that is resisting is playing a big part in this suffering.
Arguing with it or fighting it doesn't make any sense anymore so resting in one point does.
I either sit and try to feel into the frustration and suffering or I ask myself who is suffering or what is this?
Those questions resonate a lot and I feel a space coming up, also almost a shock/wave of sensations in the chest when I ask who I am. The sensations subside after a while.The thing is that I either try to stay in the space, or try to stay wth those sensations, but after a while it feels like I'm holding on to an object and it is drifting away. I then try to hold on to it, and when this isn't working, I repeat the question and the cycle repeats.
Do you have any advice on this? Thanks a lot for everything.
me + you= Mu
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i feel mu is like the most loving mother…… just watching her child …..watching is saying too much…. it’s the love……. so intimate
Indeed!
Gratitude.
I’ve always had access to this one pointedness, not on command, but sometimes it just shows up and I’m able to settle into it. Think of, simultaneously, becoming as relaxed and concentrated as possible.
One sticky belief I have is this one pointedness only presents itself when I’m stoned. Experientially, this feels true. It’s hard to put in words - I would say it feels more embodied, vivid and obvious when I’m high. When I’m sober, the Samadhi is much weaker. And the sense gates are not as vivd since I’m always bouncing back into the mind and using it as a pacifier.
When i smoke Sometimes, i See the thoughts especially the subtle ones much clearer at the beginning but after a few hours i get alot of daDreaming thoughts and identify with them again. So i stay away from IT mostly.
I have that sticky belief as well. I have mostly quit smoking (only used five times in the past year and a half), and I rarely feel any kind of deep spiritual experience anymore. On the other hand, even though I often felt deep spiritual connection and experience when smoking, I began to suspect the identity of me was using this idea of getting somewhere for someone as a means to reinforce itself.
I have no answers now, except I think I know that I know nothing. I have way too much intellectual understanding of all this. There is nowhere to go, nothing to do, yet that thought may just be a cop out.
I'm sick of it all really. Wish I could go back to being fully deluded. Life was more fun and less miserable then. I may take up smoking again just to numb out.
Yes dont delude yourself to think there ist nothing to do when you feel youre the doer , investigate the doer and Most importantly investigate emotions.
But its all about being aware , and thats quite enjoyable. Its Not a Special experience , its the Nature of your experience.
Sink into it, you can Not do that its whats aware of your doing.
If yoU feel numb its a sign of emotional Repression , so investigate.
Atleast thats my Take.
Good luck❤
@@brushstroke3733 Yeah that sounds like my experience. Ignorance is bliss isn’t it? Some of the most unconscious and least self-aware people I know seem to be the happiest.
@@blubsblobs Yeah that’s pretty consistent with my experience.
Something resonates and says yes this is what I am experiencing, but I cannot be sure. But definitely a quality of no figuring out needed, attention wants to go/be in this mode, even though the thoughts can come up and try to wrestle and compare.. like the openness of thoughtless space is this one pointedness in a way but this one has kind of a gravity to it, immersion in the senses...
I feel like i know this. I know what you are describing. I have experienced a glimps or glimpses of this on a smaller scale. Like there is truth there ✨️
Very helpful...thank you.
❤ thank you
Welcome!
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Hi Angelo. What would you say is (are) the biggest obstacle(s) preventing someone from clarifying the non-dual nature of phenomena after a first shift, substantial decreases in reactivity and some emotion work having been gone through? Fear? Thank you :))
Maybe try directly investigating the senses gates. You could consider contemplating the Bahiya sutta or seeing if the fetter approach works for you.
If I read you right this is what the Buddhists call the A and P, the arising and passing. Thoughts, feelings, sensations “arise” and then “pass.” Just notice this. They are just thoughts, feelings, sensations. The final thing to go for me was the seeker. The thought that wants to find that final bit of “knowledge” or “information” or “wisdom” that will allow IT to become… when that was seen as just another thought, I was free.
There may be a feeling or a sense that something is “directing” this effort, laying things at your feet, showing you what you need to see, when you need to see it. Just let it. Surrender. But there is also a trap in identifying or trying to “know” what the mystery is. Drink from the fountain, but don’t get caught in trying to figure out how it works. That’s just more seeking.
So is the whole point of self inquiry just to realize that you don't need self inquiry? If you're already it, why ask? Just to exhaust the mind...?
No, this is a conceptual framework, it is about going beyond conceptuality, it is about discovery :)
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So that recognition in the realization of insight that it is “who I am“ is not awakening?
That turned into Siri word salad.
Maybe a better ask is that recognition that you’re talking about, the underlying thing that is not a thing, the inside that it is who I am, that is or is not Awakening?
@@geoffreylevens9045 FYI, you can edit comments
Can you talk about the spiritual playboy stage?
What?
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I must have missed that one - damn!
@@brushstroke3733 😅
guys I've been having such a romantic awakening this is the second video I've commented this but the people need to know listen to taylor swift she is releasing me before and after awakening "epiphany" beautiful song and listen to her from the place of no self take yourself to be nothing while you are listening to her and she will show you you
and tell yourself to go where you do not want to go while listening to her music and always this helps run head first at whatever you can
I listened to it upon your recommendation. It did nothing for me. Music is a pretty personal journey. It affects us each in different ways. Glad it touches you in a special way though. Taylor Swift is definitely very talented.
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