i really miss being a child. i miss being really young and seeing everything with beauty, seeing all pure in the world. now it's just hate and depression. i miss my mom and dad hugging me, telling me they love me, making jokes with me, kissing my forehead and the meaningful 'good nights'. instead they just yell at me, tell me how awful i am, and make me feel horrible. the world is a scary place and i just want to sleep for the remainder of my life
Luna System they nurish and protect you when ur young for you to survive but when youre old enough youre expected to but not always prepared to take on life with strength the truth hardships n stuff it's cold not fair but is what it is. When ur old enough u gotta venture out on your own n be strong independent responsible
Every moment may become a memory. That's why you should enjoy your life. If you want to meet with someone propose it to them. If this person was to stay in your life he will.
My mum died a year and a half ago. My fondest memories are fading. I'm beginning to forget her voice, her touch. Boy would I give it all up to see my mother again. Miss you, mum. Everything I do is through you, for you. I love you I thank the artists for this beautiful music. It really makes you feel something.
Facts well kinda, I still miss my friends because we had to move away like 6 or 7 years ago we used to all play videogames together and play outside but now that's just a memory
And thats so sad to realise. Like before she was my best friend and knew everything that was going in my life. Now 10 years later we completely strangers and i saw her at the store she didnt even say hi....
Damn. So many stories told in these comments, so many lives are under strain and being lived. Stay strong my dudes, one day we'll all meet in the stars.
The best memories are those summer nights you had when you were a kid. The fireflies and the light humidity. Playing all evening in the streets with the other neighborhood kids. I miss it. I wish I were a kid again
Ah, I used to play with my neighbourhood friends a long time ago. But when I moved it literally broke me so much to leave that house and those friends, that I became depressed. Somehow.
Jesus is Thicc All of that is true except for the light humidity. The humidity is never light where I live. Some days you step out and your glasses will fog up. My sister and I always joke that after you live in the south after a while you start growing gills because of the humidity.
I feel like time slows down at night, were always rushing around doing things but at night everything slows. I love the nostalgia that I get just sitting on my couch reminiscing..
Yeah that's why I like to stay up at night. It's like you're the only person in the world and you have no obligations, nobody expects anything out of you. It's kind of liberating.
When i was a kid, i want to grow up fast, but now that i am a grown up man. I don't know anymore, i just want the good ol' days to come back. I want the days where it was simple and fun.
I remember my dad and i talking; 'I want to be older! Nobody takes me seriously as a kid!' i whimpered to my dad. He then let's a sigh proceeded with a little nostalgic chuckle; 'Later you'll see. I wish i had your age.' he said, while kissing me on the cheek. I didn't undestand why he was saying that, i thought that being an adult was awesome! But now, i undestand that you cant do or enjoy the same things you did back in those happy days. I miss it.
Ampa A.A A samee when I was 5 I told my mom in the kitchen while she was cooking “UGH I wish I was a teenager or an Adult, I hate being a kid you can’t do anything!” This was my moms response,” Oh that’s what I said when I was your age, but when I grew older I wanted to be like your age again. I was confused as well and I didn’t know why they would say that. Later as time past quickly I started to look at life differently in a bad way in a challenging way, Ina depressing way. :( I wish I could’ve made the most of my small childhood
I miss being 4 with my cousin that I know close waiting for the next nerf or lego commercial and I remember saying that being a teenager is cool but now that I am one it's depressing I've considered committing suicide but I've been able to not a little tip life is like a heart monitor it has its ups and downs, but the only time it stays straight is when your dead
Damn. The time flies so fast. I love the old days, when you only had to worry about who the hidden Pokémon was. You really had nothing to worry about. Everything was fine. Of course you thought that the rest of your life would be fine too. Last July my grandfather passed away. Still crying everyday. When I go to my room in the dark, I sit down on my bed and start to remember everything that happend in the past. And then I start crying again. When you went to your cousins on a Saturday and stayed there the whole day playing with your cousins, going outside and play hide and seek at 7 PM, until your parents tell you to come back to eat. And if you were staying there for a few days when you had a vacation, were the best times. Playing with your cousins on the Playstation or Xbox or whatever created memories for me aswell. Now i'm way older, and depressed, lost in this world. The comments make me feel nostalgic, remember how I really enjoyed the good times. This video is definitly worth it. I wanna give a big shoutout to the creator of this video. My fingers became a little bit tired of all this writing...
Life goes on and those memories become hazy as you create new ones and that's a good thing; it's like a defense mechanism for you to go on, and at some point those very hazy, very brief memories only bring a smile to your face while you're making new ones. Go outside, do stuff, create nice memories for your future you. Chin up, dude! Enjoy it. PS: when you're older and independent, you can get a dog, and it'll be your dog and you'll be its human. I suggest you do that :)
Remember when there was no trouble in our lives? We didn't feel stressed over school or family, we just had fun. We didn't have responsibilities or problems. This takes me back to those days.
Mans this is still killing me i really don't know how to go about this situation though am a strong human masculine being these feelings for my ex are heavy i think only her mouth saying u will heal then i think i will,
When I feel lost, come here to read all of people's comments. It feels less painful to know that are so much people lost in memories, like me. Even if a world away.
There is no deeper meaning in life. No reason for anything. Nothing to be truly happy for. And yet, people manage to do just that. To find happiness in living. To project meaning on a world that inherently has none. That's part of why I find the world so beautiful and fascinating. Just because you aren't happy now, doesn't mean you can't be later. Relax and focus on getting better. Help others find their own happiness and you'll likely find yours along the way. If not for you, then for others at the very least.
Everyone has to give Life a Meaning by himself. Even if you dont really see that Life has Meaning. Its all about each individuals story. We will stay forever only ourself for the time of our Life and are the only one in the whole world wo lives exactly that story, with these unique emotions. Also Drugs are not bad lol ^^
cosmic kermit hey man think of it not so much as a bad thing but a part of your life when you where happy because you can always come back to that maybe with someone different but you will never lose that no madder what pal
I know the feeling my friend, we should only think safe to prevent further pain, and hope we defintely will see our loved ones who have gone again.. One day.. I hope once someone goes its not forever.. Cant be ya know? :') it cant be..
Lauren not trying to spoil your mood or anyone else's but it just a comment, they may not necessarily be like this in person since everyone is feeling sorry for themselves (including me) it's just that were human and that we cant avoid emotion so we just express ourselves in "comments". Sorry if none of this make sense, I just don't know why I'm replying to you, I'm just really tired while drawing, I'm just gonna go bed
Wolfsterz your right i love my grandparents so much because when my parents couldnt take care of me i lived with them for three years and i visited them every weekend and im aware that some time they wont be with me anymore so i try to be with them as much as i can.
@@lievaska1785 I know the pain my best friend said to me nobody likes you u wil die alone this wash 5 years ago and i hear it stil he dont want contact with me because he found coler friends he dont need me...
i had a friend he was almost my brother and recently i found our blood "contract" (we prick our finger and signed with a drop of blood), we made this contract to be sure that our friendship last for a long time. But it did not work and today I'm afraid to send him the contract photo...
if you start to enjoy being alone, little by little, the time you spend will show you where yo want to be alone after this and is shown by smiling. It´s like peeling an onion but, every layer has a mirror that reflects you and everything you reflect tells you that the next layer is 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000+... better. So I already told you the game for life and the key is to smile for real, not muscle flexing beacuse yes; That is the true key, *enjoy*!
It honestly hurts me to read some of these comments, and to know that there are people out there suffering like that. To whoever might be reading this, just know that if you're going through tough times, you're not alone and you are loved by someone, someone out there, even of you don't think so.
I've been sitting here for the past 5 minutes balling my eyes out knowing that I have wasted most of my childhood, I never did anything fun, I just sat in my room watching the television. I miss the childhood I never had, I miss the fun times that would've happened if I were jist to turn off the damn tv and think about how much I was ruining my life, now all I can think about is more ways to hide my pain, more ways to cope with lost time and loved ones, my grandma that I never met because she was like me, she insisted on doing what was fun at the time. I miss the happy me, I miss my friends that I never made because of a screen. I want those wasted years back.
The Blue Pill, then shut off whatever you're watching this on, and do something. Join a gym, climb a mountain, take up a new sport. Life is too short to waste.
I don't believe that. There cannot be any single person on this planet who literally did nothing but stare at a screen forever. This sounds like you're making fun of people who list their problems here.
TopHatCat999 I'm not making fun of anyone. I have done basically nothing with my life so far and I want to change it but I haven't gotten a good chance to actually try. The internet, and smart phones, and computers, and all of this shit have taken over my life ever since I knew how to think. My earliest memory is me staying up for three weeks straight watching Netflix. My life is boring and I am trying to fix it.
The Blue Pill turn off your phone, go on a tech diet and do new things. Say yes to weird stuff, do the things you wouldn't usually do, like walking the other way after work/school going to a bar or bowling... take dance classes, get a bike and ride the city, go to the movies, the theater a concert or anything alone.
The vacations where you would meet random kids, play tag, ride on your bikes, have fun with glowsticks as the sun went down. Then you came back home and never saw them again... But you didn't worry because you only remembered the good times with them. I miss being able to do and be whatever and I miss not giving a damn nobody would give a damn... cause you were just a kid.
We didn't worry because we thought it would never end.. :( but everything changes. Every year gets progressively worse, even if we're doing well in life
Summer of 2012, best summer of my life. Those were just simple times. My last summer of high school working, hanging with friends til 6am and waking up at 2. Fucking nature walks, throwing rocks at trains, McDonald's runs, smoking on the tracks and in my cousins hot tub. No worries, no bills, no nagging spouse, just good vibes. I hope my kids can experience their teens like I did cause I wouldn't change that time with anyone else's.
MeatSpin I am 15 and i am grammar school (Gymnasium in dutch). Every fucking day I come home from school at 16:30 in the rain. When I am home I do my homework, eat, do my homework and sleep. I've got like 20 minutes or less spare time only at Saturdays and vacantions i got some time to do what i like to do. Everything goes wrong. Everyday I cry a bit and swear to everything that's fucking alive. I think I am like jealous on people of my age who got a great time. I still have got 3 years school. After school I am gonna do something that's not related to anything I do at school atm. I could easily do a easier level of school but school and my parents won't accept that. I am fucking depressed.
Luuk. I relate to this so much ....its also so much pressure to be that perfect religous, scholarly daughter...its just not fair when I see other people my age having fun and enjoying life and all I'm doing is living in a prison
I am afraid of remembering my memories... it makes me so sad how I can’t turn back time and go back to the young and bright me. As I grow up, it gets too complicated. It’s draining me emotionally and exhausting me physically. It is hard when there’s a constant battle between your mind and your heart. When I listen to these type of music it makes me nostalgic and it hurts but at the same time relieving. I just wish everyone to have a wonderful and peaceful mind and heart. Nothing is better than feeling love and happiness. I LOVE YOU ALL.
Childhood is like a dream. When you are a kid you are not conscious that those years are the only good years of your entire life...and when you get older you say "fuck childhood was so good" but every piece of memory in your mind feels like something that never existed. This is how I feel, am I mad?
Im fifteen, i do not remember anything from two years ago, i have lost most of my memeories, i dont have a mental issue or anything that would have caused this, i just cannot remember. Sometimes i look back at my past, or what i can remember, and i want to sleep, same goes if i try to see my future. i sleep all of the time, but yet i do not dream at all, i do not dream, because what would be the point, it wastes time, which is something i do not know the quantity of, i sleep a lot of the time, as i sleep i think, when i awake, i think, i am always thinking, yet i do not speak until spoken too. Sometimes i do not even speak then. Sometimes as i sleep, i dont want to awake, i want to sleep and drift through my memories and thoughts for eternity, and forget how hard life is, and forget my future, i am not ready for it, i am terrified of what the universe has in store for me, i just hope i can sleep for eternity soon.
- being a kid without responsibilities or care in the world is literally the biggest privilege we all took for granted so If there are any kids 9-12 years old reading this please don’t rush it be a kid while you still can and enjoy it. Because honestly I didn't know what I had until I lost it.
i miss being happy, laughing till my sides ache. i miss sneaking out at 4am to go nowhere but everywhere. i feel tired i'm just trying to live through today and get through tomorrow. i'm not living, just simply wishing and sleeping my life away i don't wanna sleep anymore for i miss being awake
Now I'm sad. I miss my childhood and the people from back then who aren't in my life anymore, missing the days before my relationship with my family fell apart. Now I'm an adult and those days are just hazy memories that I cling to. Thank you for making these videos.
Kurt Soriano I know how it goes man I really do the only thing you can do is keep your head up and keep pushing through and keep focusing on yourself even though it sucks! I'm here for you if you ever need to talk gteboe96 is my snap bro feel free to hmu anytime
21 years and I don't really know what I'm doing with my life... I'm going like in auto-pilot, I have no dream, no objectives, no goals, just doing whatever I'm told to, this is not going to end well...
I miss the days when life wasnt a challenge, and when we could explore life like we never could today, life without stress or self consciousness. Life when it was a game for you to enjoy learn and have fun, life is too complicated now, time flies when youre young
Kate Is great enjoy being 11 because life is only gonna get harder in the future, what I suggest is start seeing the negativity as a positive aspect in your life. Maybe even try recollecting your life in what's positive or negative. (probably sounded dumb af cuz its 2:43 on a Thursday night, schools tmm, and currently high AF)
OUR GOVERNMENT RUINED US. AND PLANET. THEY WILL MAKE IT WORSE 2018 AND SO ON. LIFE WAS DOPE IN 90S FOR ME . FUCK TRUMP THE POPE THE SYSTEM AND ALL THE LIES. WE NEED JESUS TO COME BACK.
i miss being a kid. Coming home from school making your homework that only took 30 min or less then going outside to play on the street. I miss watching tv after dinner with my pj's on and not stressing about homework or school. I miss sleeping at 9pm when i wasen't staying up all night to do my homework...I miss being a child.
I remember when I'd get up in the morning, get dressed, and take my bike out into my small little Chicago neighborhood. I'd always visit my favorite bakery, and I'd also stop and chat with this man I knew at 7/11. I recently visited my old place 7 years later. Everything is discolored, the joy that I once felt there was totally gone, all my favorite stores were run down and closed forever, and my old childhood home is basically gone, because all the plants are dead, and someone else owns it now.
That would be nice. Even if this comment section doesn't know a thing about on another, we still feel the same pain and morn together; This music has connected us
I met this girl in my dreams once. She had like this yellow dress and a big booty and I wanted to have sex with her and she wanted it from me but events came up in the dream which delayed me from sneaking into her bed( We were living in the same house). On the second try I was able to hook up but just when i was about to penetrate her I woke up. I don't know why I dreamt that but when i woke up I felt really lonely honestly I wish I could meet this big booty yellow dressed girl and not for the sex (lol) maybe we could talk or something.
Can't explain how much I want to be 10 again . Now I'm coming up on my 21st bday it's very scary I been living alone in adult life for 1 year now , I think about how I can possibly go back in time . Is time travel really impossible ?
Even after 5 years of having this in my first play list made on RUclips I come back every now and then and think back on the time that had passed. I miss it the laughs, the cry’s, the trips, the old me. I don’t know if I’m sad or happy about it all. At 17 I was a big dreamer sorta loser tbh and now I’m at the age 22 about to be 23 next month and I have climbed so many mountains but haven’t been on the original trail up the mountains. I miss you 2017 year old me and I love you 2022 me as you have been the reason I am still living and done so much. I’m counting on your 2023 me you’ll do good never let a bad day get you down and don’t let any old you down they will be looking up to you and support you like they have always. I’ll be back in a couple years again, love you all
Have had it since mid to late 2017 and listen to it every now and then. Life has been a wild ride looking back and I’m 25 now. I feel so old but I know I’m young. I already miss the times I’ve had even though I was aware and appreciated the moments while there. And somehow listening to this video fits my memories well as I think back.
I'm 19, never had a genuine enough interest in any girl to ask anyone out. And here I am all my friend busy with their gfs and I have nothing better to do but play cs:go at 4am and feel depressed about all the memories that I missed out on...I miss being a kid
Nobody knows, people just get busy whit what they find in the way ultil the day they think they're too old to make a huge change or learn something new
I remember listening to this mix a few years ago and I can't help but get caught up in how much I've grown mentally and emotionally. I have my days but I can honestly say that I am finally safe and secure. -- I was in emotional turmoil: got out of an emotionally draining on/off relationship, was living in an emotionally traumatic household, and was a die hard escapist. I went through many dark days sitting outside my back porch listening to this mix, I always felt like it was speaking to the emotions that I couldn't explain. Art does that to you. -- I just want all of the listeners to know that the dark days will blow over. YOU will be safe. YOU will find a higher purpose outside of the relationships you have with other people. YOU got this! You just need to get deep with yourself and dive into new settings, activities, habits, and people. Trust me.
I realized that this video, to be honest all videos you have made, they help to live an another day in this painful world, just because all songs are beautiful, and you know, I started to draw scenes from your videos, and I understand that I can draw, man, just be the person you are, be beautiful, because Beaty is in us, thank you for this
Every moment in everyone's lives has led to this right her. Anonymous strangers listening to the same song at differ times feeling different emotions with different experiences. I've never felt like part of a grand community until now and it feels calm. We're all waves in the same ocean. Some as still as a pond and some as violent as a tsunami. Yet we're all the same. Same species with the same blood. Just difference faces, ages, races, genders. And in the end. No matter what goes on time still goes by and before you know it this ocean will no longer exist and all those memories, and experiences and will be swept away by the one thing that doesn't change. So however much time you have left. Enjoy it, you deserve at least that much.
I'm reading the comments and I feel so touched by many of them. Life is a mistery. We have to learn to keep going, always. With people around us or just on our own. I feel alone everyday but there's still people supporting me. I still believe in some people.
Some deep thinking quotes i found: A happy ending always has the day after. No one is guaranteed happiness. It's not a human right. It's a house you have to build yourself. Your family and friends can help, but they're all busy buildins their own houses too. And in the end it always seems like your house is the worst. But it's not the house, it's the work that you put into the house that makes you happy. So always strive for a bigger house. Life always has a sad ending, so make every other moment happy.
I moved states, lost all my friends, they don't even recognize me anymore, they have forgotten about me even though they said they wouldn't. I miss spending time with them, sneaking out at 12 in the morning just to walk around and muck around, I miss my grandparents, I never see them anymore but I wish I could. It kills me knowing that one day they are going to pass away, I'm going to miss playing in their yard, I'm going to miss gardening with my grandma, I'm going to miss going on car drives with her, I'm going to miss baking with her, its been years since I have done anything like that with her and I'm worried I will forget, I will forget what it felt like to be happy. I miss my old house, I went back there for the first time in years and to see what the people did to it destroyed me, it was like seeing my childhood retting ripped apart, they took down my cubby house which I built with my mum when I was young, they leveled out our dam which I used to fish in even though there was no fish, they ripped out the trees I used to climb and fall out of. they. at least the pool was still there and the basketball ring, I have so many memories in that pool and while playing basketball with my dad. but it wasn't the same, even though it was there. I couldn't imagine what the inside looked look and I don't think I want to know. the backyard was horrible, they garden was gone, the chook shed was gone, the fruit trees where gone, I secret little area under a tree was gone. I am happy my cousins still live in the same house, the memories we had there were great, use to play hide and seek and film it, now when I say we should do it they laugh at me and I have to tell them I'm just joking even though I would love to. I miss that so much, I miss the nerf wars we would have, I miss staying up late watching movies and playing video games together. I wish my parents would have done our road trips when I was older just so i could remember them, I can only remember a few of them, so when they tell me about something that happened to me or my sister I just wish I could remember and don't have to go off my imagination. it fucking kills me to know that they re going to die one day, and I know it could be ages away but with the world, we live in these days, all the terror and killings I don't know anymore. it could happen tomorrow or in a week, all I know is that if It does happen I will not be ready, I never will be, I live my parents to death, so much that I would die for them, they have done so much for me, and I have done so little. I should do more, I don't spend any time with them anymore, but I'm trying, I really am and I think they can see that. I'm all way on my computer playing games or watching youtube. I know I still have plenty of time to spend with them but I'm constantly worried that their time will be cut short. and I will regret it, so much that I will think about ending it. but I know that I wouldn't be able to. I wish I wasn't scared of the world, I love going out with my friends, but I hate seeing people I don't know because I'm always thinking about what they won't do, I'm always thinking negatively and I just wish I didn't. I'm scared and I know it, but too scared to tell anyone, I don't want to be scared. I'm only 16 turning 17 at the end of December, I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but I can help it. I think I'm done, and I'm sorry if it makes no sense, I just felt like letting it out, and I'm sure there is more I just can't remember. I thought this would be the perfect place since everybody seems so comforting and supporting. I'm not sure if anyone will read this and if you did, thank you.
I know this feeling bro.After a really difficult year due to studying and pressure,I left home 2 months ago because I was accepted in a university out of my city.Even though the new town is lovely and university is cool,I still do feel empty. I met some new people which I'm not sure I want to pass the rest 4 years with them,since they are not my type at all.I'm not going out,instead I'm staying in my new home which I'll never get used to, and play games,read books and listen to music.All I want is going back to my friends and family. I finally understood how much I miss them right now.So,it would be nice if we sometimes stopped what we do and give a hug or say something good to our loved ones.
I did read all the message; Idk what have you been thru, but i think that those problems might come with the puberty and the teen-ages, maybe you are scare of growing up, just like everyone is, but you have to be strong, and remember that many people is going thru the same thing, and be grateful that you have a family that doesn’t care if you are shy, negative or positive they are there for you Good luck with the teenages, and this growing up stuff!💪😉
Hey ik this is super late but I'm 15 and my birthday is also in December! But if you ever even see this i wanted you to know you aren't alone your comment caught my eye because your story sounds exactly like mine everything you said about growing up, your cousins, friends and family I literally thought I wrote it but please stay strong because most can't relate to us or those who "do" offer the same lame ass message saying oh it gets better but they can't relate to us letting go is the worst feeling in the world which is why I hate it I wish death wasn't inevitable but it is and I can't lie and say it gets better but you can make it better go visit the ones you miss pay respects and remember who and what you've lost be your best self and not for anyone but yourself you are loved and you are special therefore live life the way you wish it was you only get one shot let's not let our nightmares and routine fuck it up for us. That's it from me friend happy trails!
Over 2 years since my mom died. This video has carried me through hell and back. Love ya mom and everyone reading, it doesn’t get better but we grow and that’s the fun part. Evolve and don’t quit, pain or pleasure, forward.
Just some people expressing their emotions, no one talk about suicide, this song doesn't make sad or something like that. It make us nostalgic, everyone had to be a child we all miss this time.
Since everybody is typing their deep emotional thoughts, I guess Ill join in. The past few days I got really sad and cried at random times thinking about the fact that everybody dies. Eventually everything will be gone, we will never see our friends, family, significant others ever again, as far as we know. I really hope somehow we will...But I will never find out in this lifetime. All I can do is hope. I don't want my parents to die either, they are getting older. All the times I wronged them and took advantage of them during my addiction and depression will haunt me sooooo badly.
No one knows what goes on after this lifetime. I pray to God that there is, cause there are things I need to fix, all the times i did wrong to my parents, friends,family, it hurts. Live your best life brother, cause you will never get it back. Don't hold grudges, since life is too short. If u have problems with someone, resolve them while u still got time. That way u won't leave this life regretting
i personally find facing the void to be a uplifting experience. yes, everything you know and love will die, rot and be forgotton. you, however, are one of the lucky few that got to experiecne it before its gone. you get to feel love, sadness and the full spectrum of emption. you get to EXPERIENCE. what a wonderful opportunity. would you even want a life without loss? i wouldnt, because without loss and suffering, you cant have the perspective to appreciate all the little things in life. everyday, on my way to work, my bus goes accross this bridge, and on it i get to see the most amazing view of the river valley, often times with beams of sunshine raining down. I could think about the smelly guy to m right or how much i hate my job, but instead, for those 30 seconds, i just appreciate that view. i look at the beauty, and think "ya know. its ok. if this is the price for this, then its worth it." dont let fears control you my man, just take advantage of every opportunity you can to experience as much as you can. be happy. be sad. be angry. live. show the cold dark void that you dont give 2 fucks about it and you will enjoy life and be happy IN SPITE of it.
My father passed away 13 years ago just about. Every so often I really think what would my life be like right now if he was here... and how would I have turned out? Maybe better... maybe I wouldn’t regret so much and made some better choices. Maybe he could’ve taught me lessons my mom couldn’t even though she tries her hardest to do both parts. Well I don’t really believe in god per say, but I do believe everything happens for a reason and I hope that whether he is now just in complete darkness or actually somewhere in peace...I have or will do something that can make him proud I truly do love and miss you dad and wish you were here today to guide me to do better - Love Michael No sympathy is needed here... I’m just talking like everyone else and I like reading comments and participating.
It will happen it took me 22 years but it will happen. I'm a kid of WVs DHHR system and lost my dad from the jump and my mom 8 times as well as went through 14 different foster families. Only to be adopted in 6th grade and be kicked out as a 17 year old and live under a bridge. Now im a senior in college and am on my way. All of which is stressful and depression but I had a kid with a girl I'm no longer with. Hes my fucking world man he makes me feel like I've neve felt before I think it's what people call happiness. Even the thought of him makes me feel at ease. I'm not saying having a kid will solve everything I'm just saying your time will come. Life fucking sucks bad like reallllllly fucking bad but there comes short brief times where happiness exist just enjoy them while you can. While not dwelling over the times where you cant find it
I'm currently 15. Looking at all these comments make me wonder about how hard it must be being an adult and having to grow up and deal with with responsibilities and many complications in life and I don't realize how quickly time flies and how much I need to cherish my childhood before it's all over and I have to finally be responsible and make wise choices in life unlike I do now. I think about it but I can't really understand how most of you feel in those dark times, but I know they're stressful. I wish the best of luck to all of you in life, Have a good one.
You're in school right? This is THE TIME of your life. Trust me. You have little to no responsabilities and alot of time to make friends... use this time. Live the moment while you can. Growing up isn't that bad. It's just different. It's hard, yeah, but you can do it. Do not fear the passage of time because.. well.. it's unavoidable. And most importantly, be yourself. Life is too short to be whoever others want you to be; too short to live someone else's life.
Man this mix brings back some memories! I was stationed in Korea in 2017, and this brings me right back to exploring that awesome country. The fun dates with the expat teacher I dated for most of the time I was there, the solo exploring around Busan, Seoul, Pyeongtaek... The awesome time with the people I met at work and in Hostels. It is kind of sad I don't keep contact with pretty much anyone from that period, but the memories will always be there! "Rejoice, O young man, in thy youth..." -Ecclesiastes
Thank you for including "i am tired" to this mix! 4 years later, this song still gets played everyday. I would have never imagined that it could impact someone's life or that people would simply enjoy it. So thank you and the people listening from the bottom of my heart!❤
I miss when I was a little kid. Nothing mattered. I could wear whatever I wanted, eat whatever I wanted say what ever i wanted, do what ever I wanted, and no one would judge me. I was happy. I was never embarrassed about anything I said or did because I knew everyone would forget. I had no body image issues, I didn't wish for the clothing all the other girls had, and I socialized. I had FRIENDS. Now I'm depressed and anxiety ridden and it just... makes me want to go back in time, go back to the time where I was happy, and wanted to socialize, and wanted to have friends. Now I just sit in my room on my computer. I just...
Dont think about the past. Its over and now is the present moment. Live in the now, not in the past, not in the future, just enjoy, what now is. Dont think about it, just feel that, what now is, look around in your room, look at it and dont think about it, say, this is good and that is bad, just look at it and feel it. Feel your Body. Feel it from inside. This is meditation.
Fighting with anxiety is one of the hardest things anyone can face. It makes you someone you're not, and somedays no matter how hard you fight against it, it will continue to bring you down. But you know yourself you weren't always like this, that's why its good to look back but its more important to look forward to the days you'll be free of it! Strive for it, make some changes in your life, break some boundaries , it's a tough journey but with the love and support of those closest to you and all your peeps in this community, you gots this
Makes me wonder where all the years went, I never listened to my parents when they said time would fly by. Just yesterday I was surrounded by "friends" and a bright future ahead of me. Today I'm 24, lost and confused as to wtf happened, where my "bright future" has gone, where all my "friends" are, the girl I've loved since middle school is now married and has a kid, yet I can't keep a steady job, a high school drop out. I'm 24 and I feel like I've lived a long enough life, it shouldn't be this way. I'm so lost and confused, sometimes I feel like just calling it quits. I can't be the only one like this, someone who has been through this or sees light at the end of the tunnel please... help. I don't wanna give up...
VIPER-STRIKE I'm also 24 was a B+ to A student from first to eighth grade with a promising future until my life fell apart and it hasn't been the same since, the only time I felt like life was worth living since then was during the three months I spent with this girl that has already left back to her country half way around the world. I don't know when I'll call it quits myself but until then I guess the best we can do is to try to make the best we can with the hand we were dealt.
I wanna say the side of my story which is like yours but,I’m 11 years old. When I was small like 5 I was like “UGH I wish I was already a teenager or an adult, I don’t want to be small!” And my parents would say,”Oh You would regret saying that when you are around 12-14.” And I was like NO. Now I’m here sad about me wishing to make most of my small childhood Ik I’m a child still but, life is getting harder and I’m slowly getting depressed but my “friends” always say ,so,and,ok,oh let’s play this. No one cares. I like being sad but it’s just not making me feel right at the same time.(sorry bout bad grammar)
VIPER-STRIKE hey bro. I feel for ya. I was about 21 and I wasn’t doing to well. The loneliness is crippling, it’s like I have no energy. I didn’t care about anything. Why should I even get out of bed? I follow a guy on RUclips called Cain Carter. You can find him at hotdamnirock and he went through some pretty ducked up shit that helped me through. His struggle taught me to learn myself and what I want for myself. I’m 28 now and married with a 2 yr old daughter. Just saying life goes on, but remember it will be what you make it. Also, I love you bro.
I miss my mom, I miss being a kid without all these mental problems. I miss looking forward to each day versus fighting to make it through. I miss everyone being happier in general. I miss being at peace with myself and being able to daydream about the future. There’s so much darkness right now but I know things will get better.
I'm 18 and my days consist of working on the weekends and college on Mondays and Wednesdays. I have a lot of free time and a little too much time to think and get lost. I am at a constant fear of becoming too lost to no return but I pray that that won't happen. Just wished all of my friends didn't move to Universities ranging from an hour away to the other side of the country. Glad some other people are on here that understand what it's like to swim in this mental pool we have going on. Stay strong guys, God has a plan for all of us. God Bless.
Everything you go through is preparing you for an upcoming moment. 💜 Be fucking nice to people... Be the change. You never know what someone else is going through....
My favorite childhood memories are having picnics at the park with my grandma and sister, playing on my swingset at dusk in the summer. Or going shopping at the mall with my family, and falling asleep on a long drive home. I really miss those peaceful days...
I miss the summer of 2015, great time with great people and a great feeling of life overall. But I do think people tend to remember only the good things of great memories, as I think, that I am doing that. My best friend ( who i spend the summer with a lot ) said to me this weekend: 'Damn man, I miss those summer times. They were so great and now everything is so boring and less spectaculair.' I guess were growing up more. And i had to agree, i've been thinking about this a lot, like everyday. And the people i used to hang out with, i dont see them anymore. Sometimes, but really not much. We changed, and things happened, although, that is what we say to ourselves. I think nothing happened to us, but some things aren't new anymore for us. I am almost turning 18, feels like a big step. Looking forward to ending my school, but also think it is something sad. I love my life, but i have so many questions about it! Who am I, what am i going to do with my life, and all these memories i have! But i guess that's life. I am surely becoming the person i want to be, but i still have to complete my personal puzzle.
tijmen Clement having just turned 18, I can tell you that nothing feels different; I don't feel like an adult, infact I feel no different to how I was 2 years ago, although I have learnt and matured alot since then. I agree that people tend to romanticise the past, but isn't it so nice to have those nice memories to look back on? Although it's painful to think that there are people who are not in your life any more, nobody is in your life permanently, and that makes the time you spend with them that much more special
This is strangely painful to see our beloved Simpsons characters outside of the humorous context as if they are real people with a dynamic range of feelings, not just silly characters we laugh at. We begin to empathise with them in strange ways. OUCH!
When I was a kid me and my bro didn't have a bed. Instead we would sleep on mattresses. Everytime we fell asleep on a bench or watching tv our parents would pick us and put us on the mattresses , cover us heavily and kiss us goodnight. Somehow the fact that I didn't have a bed for my own don't seem so bad. I'll go back to those days in a heartbeat
I hate that all the YT vids that get recommended to me now are trash 24/7 ai generated lo-fi stuff when vids like THIS are what I actually want. I've been using this vid to relax for years.
I'm terrified. I'm so very, very terrified. Being exposed to so many new things recently and the past few years. Friends are breaking off, relationships are gone, loved ones have been lost. I'm terrified of the future. I'm scared of fucking up and not having someone there to help. My dad used to help me carry something, or help me grab something out of my reach. Now it's the other way around. My mom used to tell me goodnight at my bedside every night. Now I'm the one at her bedside telling her the same. It hurts knowing they're gonna die one day, and I can't stop it. I'm not prepared. I'll never be prepared. Work and college is fucking me up bad, and soon I'm gonna have to get a second job. So much of my time is being consumed, and I'm terrified that I'm not spending it well. Recently got into a car crash, girlfriend broke up with me, friend committed suicide, and I'm just feeling completely drained. I'm always tired. I'm always looking forward to laying down in silence. I just wonder if what I do is worth it, if why I'm here is important at all. I'm terrified of crossing that threshold, though. I'm terrified that one day I won't have enough willpower; that I'll just take the easy way out. I just want to do good. I want to be able to do things on my own. I want to be the best that I can. While everyone is still here. And that's what terrifies me the most. I'm terrified that one day I'll reach my peak and achieve my goals, but no one will be around to see me do it. I'm terrified. I'm so very, very terrified. Thank you for reading.
missing those summer nights when i used to try to catch the fireflies that were all around me, playing with my family and friends in my backyard listening to music feeling the warm weather. most of all, i just miss being happy.
Isabella Borja I remember I would just spend the entire day outside with friends, playing games in the yard, having dumb little arguments about kid stuff. We would build forts inside with pillows and outside with bamboo, branches and palmetto leaves. I miss those times so much. I would be so reluctant to go home around sunset. I wish I could just go back to those times, just to remember the amazing feeling of having friends you'd thought you'd be with forever.
Currently listening to this at midnight on my birthday. So many thoughts are running through my mind at the moment. I should’ve done things differently and now that im older im kinda sad that I wasn’t able to do or say more , back then ,because i always shy and very insecure. Hoping that in the years to come ,i get to grow confidence and that i stop feeling lonely and sad all the time .
You just need something living that can show you a semblance of love and will let you have sex with, preferably human. My thing is goats, but everyone is different. Damn goats are sexy
Graduated Highschool, it seems like all the fun is over permanently. "Go get a job, go be a productive member of society, get married, have kids, go to college", I'm still just a kid. I'm not ready for any of this
I heard this mix so many times because is relaxing, but I never figure out what it means till I lost my first love, my mom... Now memories is all I got, and sometines is not enought! I'm not able to return to those moments, there not second chance, just keep moving forward...
One day, we’ll just stop existing. With the snap of a finger the things we see go blank as we flatline. The people I talk to through the internet would never even know I’m gone, i’d just stopped responding. The world has billions of people with billions of their own storylines, and then it just ends like cutting film. Where do we all go?
Don’t focus on what you could’ve done man, trust me, it’s not worth it. Just focus on improving yourself in the present moment and how it will make you feel in the very end.
listening this and hit some blunts makes me forget all problems and dilemmas that i have. Adults criticizing and saying, do you have problems? you don't know what problems are, damn they don't know nothing about our problems, nothing about our feelings. Sometimes i just wanna go to somewhere and dont back in a couple of months, just appreciate nature and find peace
this is kinda all over the place. i just needed to get it out. i miss calling my parents mommy and daddy. i miss running up to my dad when he got home, him picking me up and hugging me. i miss when my mom would go to work and she would drop me off at my grandmas where i'd spend the whole day playing outside with her with the hose. i miss going back inside with her and playing with little pet shops in an old doll house that she has now given away. i miss sleeping in my parents bed because i was afraid of the dark. i miss riding in the golfcart with my grammy and papa. i miss when my papa would put me on his lap and let me "drive". i miss when grammy would read to me. now, whenever i ask, she just laughs as if im kidding. i miss when my mom would tuck me in, and my dad would read me a story. i miss playing little big planet with my aunt and uncle. i miss laying in bed watching old garfield episodes while my parents played poker with them. i miss my dad carrying me to bed after i fell asleep watching a movie. i miss when he could pick me up and put me on his shoulders. i miss when my mom would kiss me on the head before i went to sleep. i miss playing with my toys in my playroom by myself, not needing anyone to keep me company. i miss being little. i miss going to chuck e cheese with grammy, spending hours there trying to get a bunch of tickets. she won't take me back now. im not her only grandchild anymore. i miss when i was. when i was papa's one and only. he'd do anything for me back then. we had so much fun together, me grammy and papa. we explored all the woods around their house. we rode the golf cart back into no trespassing zones for the fun of it. they were my best friends growing up. they don't act the same with me anymore. i miss when we would drive the golfcart around in the trails through the woods, just exploring. they aren't just my grandparents anymore. their eyes dont light up the way they used to. i can't hold their hands anymore. they have other grandchildrens hands to hold. i miss my uncle. he died a year ago from drug overdose. my grandma and grandpa lost a son. i lost an uncle. my dad lost a brother. i miss running through my grandmas 5 acres with him, pretending we were survivors. building forts, climbing trees. he never really grew up. he will always be one of my best friends. we would run for hours, not tiring. grandma would ring the bell, letting us know it was time for dinner. we would eat, and then go back outside to catch the creatures that came out in the night. i remember one time me and my grandma spent the night on my trampoline in the woods, listening to the crickets. watching the lighting bugs. i don't know where that trampoline is now. it's just...gone. i miss running through grandmas yard with her dogs, yelling as they chased me. they have all passed away now. only one, her name is freckles, is still alive. she can barely walk. sometimes i just walk to my favorite place in grandmas yard with her, slowly, so she can keep up, and lay down. she lays next to me, peacefully. we stare at the clouds as i pet her soft fur. i'd do anything for that dog. she's the most loyal thing that i know in this world. shes so pure. i miss playing in the basement while my grandpa worked. it was like another world down there. it was my grandmas world. all of her old toys and childhood things were down there. they fascinated me. still do, just not the same way. i miss playing minecraft with my cousins until 6 am, sleeping til 2 and then doing it all over again. i miss grammy reading goodnight moon to me. id ask for it over and over until i fell asleep. now, i can hear her reading it to my cousins from across the hall. i miss being little. i miss loving life. edit: im not trying to sound privileged or whatever. i am incredibly thankful for these times. im not trying to sound ungrateful and what not, i just miss them. i've seen a lot of other people venting the same type of things in the comments and i wanted to do the same to share them with people. sorry if this made you mad or something. i know there are way more important things to be worrying about and im sorry if these seems like the least of your concerns, i wrote all of this at 1 am when i couldn't get it off my mind.
This made me cry so much, thank you for writing this. Being little was the best. Now i cant say the word mom without bursting into tears, remembering all the nights we spent at the hospital, only to watch her die in front of me when I was only 11 years old.
Me to ... all those days on mw3 trying to find more glitches for “infected “ or back when faze was like only sniping haha 😂 just old times of a teenage boy
More Nostalgic Music!! ♥
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hey thanks for making this
Hey is your avatar kindred?
i love you neotic
i really miss being a child. i miss being really young and seeing everything with beauty, seeing all pure in the world. now it's just hate and depression. i miss my mom and dad hugging me, telling me they love me, making jokes with me, kissing my forehead and the meaningful 'good nights'. instead they just yell at me, tell me how awful i am, and make me feel horrible. the world is a scary place and i just want to sleep for the remainder of my life
Thats one of the reasons why childhood is so great
Luna System they nurish and protect you when ur young for you to survive but when youre old enough youre expected to but not always prepared to take on life with strength the truth hardships n stuff it's cold not fair but is what it is. When ur old enough u gotta venture out on your own n be strong independent responsible
I feel you dude
Luna System I know how you feel,, but hey it will get better someday
Luna System You just described the words i couldn't say
"No one ever values a moment until it becomes a memory" - Dr. Seuss
I value my moments ❤️
Every moment may become a memory. That's why you should enjoy your life. If you want to meet with someone propose it to them. If this person was to stay in your life he will.
Este comentario me ha hecho llorar.
600th like, but seriously, this is why I will keep on living even if the world is a bad place, memories are priceless and I want to make more of them
That's very true
My mum died a year and a half ago. My fondest memories are fading. I'm beginning to forget her voice, her touch. Boy would I give it all up to see my mother again. Miss you, mum. Everything I do is through you, for you. I love you
I thank the artists for this beautiful music. It really makes you feel something.
Travis Downes u made me cry....i'm so sorry:(
Travis Downes im sorry bro.
Caiuan no prob.... btw i'm a girl and have a nice day:)
Jimin Is bae my bad! have a nice day too.
Travis Downes my prayers go out to you and your mother❤️😌
We all have that old friend who's a stranger now.
Facts well kinda, I still miss my friends because we had to move away like 6 or 7 years ago we used to all play videogames together and play outside but now that's just a memory
@@idek9628 I feel you , my friend move away, the moments I had with her were the best, now they are memories
aaa, i had a friend i went to school for 12 years with.. now i met him not too long ago and we r practically strangers..
And thats so sad to realise. Like before she was my best friend and knew everything that was going in my life. Now 10 years later we completely strangers and i saw her at the store she didnt even say hi....
@@wecandothis same i see my childhood friend at school but we don't talk to each other anymore, like how we used to when we were kids
Damn. So many stories told in these comments, so many lives are under strain and being lived. Stay strong my dudes, one day we'll all meet in the stars.
Stripties wow that really make me feel better. :'D
Mike Tyson GOAT
One day we'll meet in the stars -Stripties
For some reason that hit me hard.
C ya there :)
Stripties Oh god.. im about to cry
The best memories are those summer nights you had when you were a kid. The fireflies and the light humidity. Playing all evening in the streets with the other neighborhood kids. I miss it. I wish I were a kid again
Jesus is Thicc fuck same
Jesus is Thicc, my Summer nights were always usually sweating in bed trying to sleep, but yeah your point stands.
Ah, I used to play with my neighbourhood friends a long time ago. But when I moved it literally broke me so much to leave that house and those friends, that I became depressed. Somehow.
Jesus is Thicc All of that is true except for the light humidity. The humidity is never light where I live. Some days you step out and your glasses will fog up. My sister and I always joke that after you live in the south after a while you start growing gills because of the humidity.
holy shit i used to go out hunting fireflies at 12:00 pm all the time with my cousin and sisters. i miss that
I feel like time slows down at night, were always rushing around doing things but at night everything slows. I love the nostalgia that I get just sitting on my couch reminiscing..
I feel this so much. Well said
ye its the best time of the day :)
I completely agree, I always feel so rushed during the day no matter what I'm doing. It's the worst feeling.
Yeah that's why I like to stay up at night. It's like you're the only person in the world and you have no obligations, nobody expects anything out of you. It's kind of liberating.
Yes. Absolutely. Sometimes i wish all day could be like this. Like if i somehow keep this feeling everything would just work out
When i was a kid, i want to grow up fast, but now that i am a grown up man. I don't know anymore, i just want the good ol' days to come back. I want the days where it was simple and fun.
I remember my dad and i talking; 'I want to be older! Nobody takes me seriously as a kid!' i whimpered to my dad. He then let's a sigh proceeded with a little nostalgic chuckle; 'Later you'll see. I wish i had your age.' he said, while kissing me on the cheek.
I didn't undestand why he was saying that, i thought that being an adult was awesome!
But now, i undestand that you cant do or enjoy the same things you did back in those happy days.
I miss it.
Ampa A.A A samee when I was 5 I told my mom in the kitchen while she was cooking “UGH I wish I was a teenager or an Adult, I hate being a kid you can’t do anything!” This was my moms response,” Oh that’s what I said when I was your age, but when I grew older I wanted to be like your age again. I was confused as well and I didn’t know why they would say that. Later as time past quickly I started to look at life differently in a bad way in a challenging way, Ina depressing way. :( I wish I could’ve made the most of my small childhood
I miss being 4 with my cousin that I know close waiting for the next nerf or lego commercial and I remember saying that being a teenager is cool but now that I am one it's depressing I've considered committing suicide but I've been able to not a little tip life is like a heart monitor it has its ups and downs, but the only time it stays straight is when your dead
Wow.. You just made me cry.....
Being a kid sucks ass though.
Ampa A.A Silence liberal
Damn. The time flies so fast. I love the old days, when you only had to worry about who the hidden Pokémon was. You really had nothing to worry about. Everything was fine. Of course you thought that the rest of your life would be fine too. Last July my grandfather passed away. Still crying everyday. When I go to my room in the dark, I sit down on my bed and start to remember everything that happend in the past. And then I start crying again. When you went to your cousins on a Saturday and stayed there the whole day playing with your cousins, going outside and play hide and seek at 7 PM, until your parents tell you to come back to eat. And if you were staying there for a few days when you had a vacation, were the best times. Playing with your cousins on the Playstation or Xbox or whatever created memories for me aswell. Now i'm way older, and depressed, lost in this world. The comments make me feel nostalgic, remember how I really enjoyed the good times. This video is definitly worth it. I wanna give a big shoutout to the creator of this video. My fingers became a little bit tired of all this writing...
T.C. You make me cry..
damn..
I'm sad
i hope you feel better soon
Life goes on and those memories become hazy as you create new ones and that's a good thing; it's like a defense mechanism for you to go on, and at some point those very hazy, very brief memories only bring a smile to your face while you're making new ones. Go outside, do stuff, create nice memories for your future you. Chin up, dude! Enjoy it.
PS: when you're older and independent, you can get a dog, and it'll be your dog and you'll be its human. I suggest you do that :)
Remember when there was no trouble in our lives? We didn't feel stressed over school or family, we just had fun. We didn't have responsibilities or problems. This takes me back to those days.
The worst thing in the world is when someone you made the best memories with, become a memory.
Yo facts
Yooooo really powerful...
I really only had one ‘best friend’ in middle school, but if course lost all contacts
Mans this is still killing me i really don't know how to go about this situation though am a strong human masculine being these feelings for my ex are heavy i think only her mouth saying u will heal then i think i will,
We are strangers again, but this time with memories.
When I feel lost, come here to read all of people's comments. It feels less painful to know that are so much people lost in memories, like me. Even if a world away.
TheButterflyItalia same
You're not alone.
+Em Escueta same
TheButterflyItalia same 😓
TheButterflyItalia 💕
There is no deeper meaning in life. No reason for anything. Nothing to be truly happy for.
And yet, people manage to do just that. To find happiness in living. To project meaning on a world that inherently has none. That's part of why I find the world so beautiful and fascinating.
Just because you aren't happy now, doesn't mean you can't be later. Relax and focus on getting better. Help others find their own happiness and you'll likely find yours along the way.
If not for you, then for others at the very least.
AwsmChimera thank you so much
Thank you
Everyone has to give Life a Meaning by himself. Even if you dont really see that Life has Meaning. Its all about each individuals story. We will stay forever only ourself for the time of our Life and are the only one in the whole world wo lives exactly that story, with these unique emotions. Also Drugs are not bad lol ^^
Yer talking 'bout Medicinal drugs, right?
nope
Even though we couldn't be together in the end, I'm still glad you were part of my life
cosmic kermit Mature 👌
cosmic kermit Don't be sad it's over, be glad it happened
Stay strong buddy
fuck im sad now
cosmic kermit hey man think of it not so much as a bad thing but a part of your life when you where happy because you can always come back to that maybe with someone different but you will never lose that no madder what pal
Yeah man.. I miss her but maybe god had greater ideas for us man.. just gotta accept what happened
I miss you mom! 😞 May your soul rest in peace. Even if I'm adult now I still need you.
I know the feeling my friend, we should only think safe to prevent further pain, and hope we defintely will see our loved ones who have gone again.. One day.. I hope once someone goes its not forever.. Cant be ya know? :') it cant be..
Rip 🙏
Sorry for your loss
rip :(
felt this.
this comment section is gold. everyone seems so kind and humble, big hugs to you guys.
Lauren not trying to spoil your mood or anyone else's but it just a comment, they may not necessarily be like this in person since everyone is feeling sorry for themselves (including me) it's just that were human and that we cant avoid emotion so we just express ourselves in "comments". Sorry if none of this make sense, I just don't know why I'm replying to you, I'm just really tired while drawing, I'm just gonna go bed
Yaxx Gaming no no it's okay, I respect your opinion!
Big hugs too you too 😍
because weed. the stoner community is always kind
Multiroester true true my friend
Well is this the heaven of RUclips?
Nice freemyX yup.
you've found it. welcome.
Nice freemyX no better way to put it. if youtube offered heaven we made it in with these beautiful sounds and visuals
adia snap?
Jawsh 13 crackle?
Lost my mom six months ago.
Spend time with those you care about, don't let it go to waste.
So sorry to hear that@wolfsterz. Thanks for the advice friend
Wolfsterz thank you ❤
Wolfsterz sorry bro
Wolfsterz You carry a peice of her always, she will always love you just like we do
Wolfsterz your right i love my grandparents so much because when my parents couldnt take care of me i lived with them for three years and i visited them every weekend and im aware that some time they wont be with me anymore so i try to be with them as much as i can.
Do you have that childhood friend whom you are not close with anymore and somedays you just sit there, recalling those days and missing them
I recently learned all my friends growing up were just messing with me and never liked me, so no
Yeah i miss my old friend i know him like 9years but i live 1000km away from him and he Doesnt answer to my calls anonymore
@@lievaska1785 I know the pain my best friend said to me nobody likes you u wil die alone this wash 5 years ago and i hear it stil he dont want contact with me because he found coler friends he dont need me...
I grew up with him he committed suicide haven't felt the same since. But fuck depression.
i had a friend he was almost my brother and recently i found our blood "contract" (we prick our finger and signed with a drop of blood), we made this contract to be sure that our friendship last for a long time. But it did not work and today I'm afraid to send him the contract photo...
Every song just makes me think about where do I want to go or what am I doing whith my life. Everything sucks right now.
if you start to enjoy being alone, little by little, the time you spend will show you where yo want to be alone after this and is shown by smiling. It´s like peeling an onion but, every layer has a mirror that reflects you and everything you reflect tells you that the next layer is 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000+... better. So I already told you the game for life and the key is to smile for real, not muscle flexing beacuse yes; That is the true key, *enjoy*!
Yvander Phillipe OMG Thank you so much, Your words brought me out a smile. ✨
Dann Hernández "right now" isn't always/permanent. nothing is. work at being happy, my dudes. you can do it.
Yvander Phillipe Cheers mate ! God bless
Guess what y'all? Today I found my two "best friends" betraying me, what a wonderful night, isn't it?
It honestly hurts me to read some of these comments, and to know that there are people out there suffering like that. To whoever might be reading this, just know that if you're going through tough times, you're not alone and you are loved by someone, someone out there, even of you don't think so.
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Exacto. ♥
My thanks :')
trashleynotashley Your username made me laugh 😂
I've been sitting here for the past 5 minutes balling my eyes out knowing that I have wasted most of my childhood, I never did anything fun, I just sat in my room watching the television. I miss the childhood I never had, I miss the fun times that would've happened if I were jist to turn off the damn tv and think about how much I was ruining my life, now all I can think about is more ways to hide my pain, more ways to cope with lost time and loved ones, my grandma that I never met because she was like me, she insisted on doing what was fun at the time. I miss the happy me, I miss my friends that I never made because of a screen. I want those wasted years back.
The Blue Pill, then shut off whatever you're watching this on, and do something. Join a gym, climb a mountain, take up a new sport. Life is too short to waste.
Sage Wysocki who the fuck is doing that tho lmao
I don't believe that. There cannot be any single person on this planet who literally did nothing but stare at a screen forever. This sounds like you're making fun of people who list their problems here.
TopHatCat999 I'm not making fun of anyone. I have done basically nothing with my life so far and I want to change it but I haven't gotten a good chance to actually try. The internet, and smart phones, and computers, and all of this shit have taken over my life ever since I knew how to think. My earliest memory is me staying up for three weeks straight watching Netflix. My life is boring and I am trying to fix it.
The Blue Pill turn off your phone, go on a tech diet and do new things. Say yes to weird stuff, do the things you wouldn't usually do, like walking the other way after work/school going to a bar or bowling... take dance classes, get a bike and ride the city, go to the movies, the theater a concert or anything alone.
The vacations where you would meet random kids, play tag, ride on your bikes, have fun with glowsticks as the sun went down. Then you came back home and never saw them again... But you didn't worry because you only remembered the good times with them. I miss being able to do and be whatever and I miss not giving a damn nobody would give a damn... cause you were just a kid.
We didn't worry because we thought it would never end.. :( but everything changes. Every year gets progressively worse, even if we're doing well in life
iv'e always wondered where they went and what they are doing sometimes
Summer of 2012, best summer of my life. Those were just simple times. My last summer of high school working, hanging with friends til 6am and waking up at 2. Fucking nature walks, throwing rocks at trains, McDonald's runs, smoking on the tracks and in my cousins hot tub. No worries, no bills, no nagging spouse, just good vibes. I hope my kids can experience their teens like I did cause I wouldn't change that time with anyone else's.
MeatSpin 2012 was a great fucken year
MeatSpin I am 15 and i am grammar school (Gymnasium in dutch). Every fucking day I come home from school at 16:30 in the rain. When I am home I do my homework, eat, do my homework and sleep. I've got like 20 minutes or less spare time only at Saturdays and vacantions i got some time to do what i like to do. Everything goes wrong. Everyday I cry a bit and swear to everything that's fucking alive.
I think I am like jealous on people of my age who got a great time. I still have got 3 years school. After school I am gonna do something that's not related to anything I do at school atm. I could easily do a easier level of school but school and my parents won't accept that.
I am fucking depressed.
MeatSpin ok after reading that am gonna enjoy being young now
Tuff story bro. Im having to go to military school for 6 months
Luuk. I relate to this so much ....its also so much pressure to be that perfect religous, scholarly daughter...its just not fair when I see other people my age having fun and enjoying life and all I'm doing is living in a prison
I am afraid of remembering my memories... it makes me so sad how I can’t turn back time and go back to the young and bright me. As I grow up, it gets too complicated. It’s draining me emotionally and exhausting me physically. It is hard when there’s a constant battle between your mind and your heart. When I listen to these type of music it makes me nostalgic and it hurts but at the same time relieving. I just wish everyone to have a wonderful and peaceful mind and heart. Nothing is better than feeling love and happiness. I LOVE YOU ALL.
I Love You Little late, but we love you too man
shut up african refugee
Somewhat Interesting you roasted that nigga
^when u get killed in fortnite
4:15 me right now...
Childhood is like a dream.
When you are a kid you are not conscious that those years are the only good years of your entire life...and when you get older you say "fuck childhood was so good" but every piece of memory in your mind feels like something that never existed.
This is how I feel, am I mad?
vic it prob was good but to move on u must let go of the past
I agree :)
shit bro that's true
Im fifteen, i do not remember anything from two years ago, i have lost most of my memeories, i dont have a mental issue or anything that would have caused this, i just cannot remember. Sometimes i look back at my past, or what i can remember, and i want to sleep, same goes if i try to see my future. i sleep all of the time, but yet i do not dream at all, i do not dream, because what would be the point, it wastes time, which is something i do not know the quantity of, i sleep a lot of the time, as i sleep i think, when i awake, i think, i am always thinking, yet i do not speak until spoken too. Sometimes i do not even speak then. Sometimes as i sleep, i dont want to awake, i want to sleep and drift through my memories and thoughts for eternity, and forget how hard life is, and forget my future, i am not ready for it, i am terrified of what the universe has in store for me, i just hope i can sleep for eternity soon.
- being a kid without responsibilities or care in the world is literally the biggest privilege we all took for granted so If there are any kids 9-12 years old reading this please don’t rush it be a kid while you still can and enjoy it. Because honestly I didn't know what I had until I lost it.
i miss being happy, laughing till my sides ache. i miss sneaking out at 4am to go nowhere but everywhere. i feel tired
i'm just trying to live through today and get through tomorrow. i'm not living, just simply wishing and sleeping my life away
i don't wanna sleep anymore
for i miss being awake
Now I'm sad. I miss my childhood and the people from back then who aren't in my life anymore, missing the days before my relationship with my family fell apart. Now I'm an adult and those days are just hazy memories that I cling to. Thank you for making these videos.
Kurt Soriano I know how it goes man I really do the only thing you can do is keep your head up and keep pushing through and keep focusing on yourself even though it sucks! I'm here for you if you ever need to talk gteboe96 is my snap bro feel free to hmu anytime
Out here doing Gods work. Bless up.
Kurt Soriano I thought I was the only who remember her childhood
look up the word 'Saudade' i think it explains your feelings well
Kurt Soriano same I feel you
21 years and I don't really know what I'm doing with my life... I'm going like in auto-pilot, I have no dream, no objectives, no goals, just doing whatever I'm told to, this is not going to end well...
Hey you. 20 y.o. guy here. You will find something, i can bet on it! You just have to find your way. Have a good day!
Find you way man, do what you love
Same
Take responsibility and start carrying your cross.
same
For anyone who needs to hear it ,
You are worthy
You are important
You have a purpose
You are going to be ok
Everything is going to be ok
I'm in tears... I needed to hear it. Thank you x
im tearing up bc of this, thank you💕
Love you ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@Sexy_Panther no it's not....
@Sexy_Panther it doesn't matter
The whole comment section just needs a hug...
I miss the days when life wasnt a challenge, and when we could explore life like we never could today, life without stress or self consciousness. Life when it was a game for you to enjoy learn and have fun, life is too complicated now, time flies when youre young
Challlenger kill me please
Kate Is great enjoy being 11 because life is only gonna get harder in the future, what I suggest is start seeing the negativity as a positive aspect in your life. Maybe even try recollecting your life in what's positive or negative. (probably sounded dumb af cuz its 2:43 on a Thursday night, schools tmm, and currently high AF)
Yea.. i miss the old young times with no stress enjoy these while u can...it will never be same as before. :(
OUR GOVERNMENT RUINED US. AND PLANET. THEY WILL MAKE IT WORSE 2018 AND SO ON. LIFE WAS DOPE IN 90S FOR ME . FUCK TRUMP THE POPE THE SYSTEM AND ALL THE LIES. WE NEED JESUS TO COME BACK.
Yea, half your life you are sitting, and listening...
The comments make me sad enough to cry
Just like those tortured Syrian kids
Hahahahaha.. Not me
Imagine crying over comments lmao
Imagine empathy
i miss being a kid. Coming home from school making your homework that only took 30 min or less then going outside to play on the street. I miss watching tv after dinner with my pj's on and not stressing about homework or school. I miss sleeping at 9pm when i wasen't staying up all night to do my homework...I miss being a child.
I remember when I'd get up in the morning, get dressed, and take my bike out into my small little Chicago neighborhood. I'd always visit my favorite bakery, and I'd also stop and chat with this man I knew at 7/11. I recently visited my old place 7 years later. Everything is discolored, the joy that I once felt there was totally gone, all my favorite stores were run down and closed forever, and my old childhood home is basically gone, because all the plants are dead, and someone else owns it now.
I know that feeling man Stay Strong.
i think we should all meet someday. at least in our dreams
Renata Servato please, we should
That would be nice.
Even if this comment section doesn't know a thing about on another, we still feel the same pain and morn together;
This music has connected us
I met this girl in my dreams once. She had like this yellow dress and a big booty and I wanted to have sex with her and she wanted it from me but events came up in the dream which delayed me from sneaking into her bed( We were living in the same house). On the second try I was able to hook up but just when i was about to penetrate her I woke up.
I don't know why I dreamt that but when i woke up I felt really lonely honestly I wish I could meet this big booty yellow dressed girl and not for the sex (lol) maybe we could talk or something.
WTF... YOU ARE A SAD LITTLE MAN
thomas elder Please leave.
I don't want to grow up.
I don't want time to move
I want to start my life over again
jeff
I. Feel. You.
You know I feel you, I'm terrified of growing up.
Can't explain how much I want to be 10 again . Now I'm coming up on my 21st bday it's very scary I been living alone in adult life for 1 year now , I think about how I can possibly go back in time . Is time travel really impossible ?
I d8nt want to start school all over lmao
Even after 5 years of having this in my first play list made on RUclips I come back every now and then and think back on the time that had passed. I miss it the laughs, the cry’s, the trips, the old me. I don’t know if I’m sad or happy about it all. At 17 I was a big dreamer sorta loser tbh and now I’m at the age 22 about to be 23 next month and I have climbed so many mountains but haven’t been on the original trail up the mountains. I miss you 2017 year old me and I love you 2022 me as you have been the reason I am still living and done so much. I’m counting on your 2023 me you’ll do good never let a bad day get you down and don’t let any old you down they will be looking up to you and support you like they have always. I’ll be back in a couple years again, love you all
So, how was 2023 for you ?
Have had it since mid to late 2017 and listen to it every now and then. Life has been a wild ride looking back and I’m 25 now. I feel so old but I know I’m young. I already miss the times I’ve had even though I was aware and appreciated the moments while there. And somehow listening to this video fits my memories well as I think back.
I'm 19, never had a genuine enough interest in any girl to ask anyone out. And here I am all my friend busy with their gfs and I have nothing better to do but play cs:go at 4am and feel depressed about all the memories that I missed out on...I miss being a kid
The Finesse Kid my exact situation dude, maybe it will get better
I do the exact same, but I'm a girl. Video games are like drugs to me
You're young go out there and find someone bro, you never know if they'll be the one
Add me man we can be depressed together
The Finesse Kid maybe you're gay
I don't know what I want in life and that terrifies me
camrenpeace too real ...
all you have to do is learn to want what you already have. and the things you know can get.
camrenpeace you're not alone
Nobody knows, people just get busy whit what they find in the way ultil the day they think they're too old to make a huge change or learn something new
Me neither but I know what I definitely don't want. If you eliminate as many of those things as you can it gets you going more in the right direction.
Everyones comments is making me sad :(. So many sad, depressed and down people in this World. I wish i could give ALL of you a massive hug.
I remember listening to this mix a few years ago and I can't help but get caught up in how much I've grown mentally and emotionally. I have my days but I can honestly say that I am finally safe and secure.
-- I was in emotional turmoil: got out of an emotionally draining on/off relationship, was living in an emotionally traumatic household, and was a die hard escapist.
I went through many dark days sitting outside my back porch listening to this mix, I always felt like it was speaking to the emotions that I couldn't explain. Art does that to you.
-- I just want all of the listeners to know that the dark days will blow over. YOU will be safe. YOU will find a higher purpose outside of the relationships you have with other people. YOU got this! You just need to get deep with yourself and dive into new settings, activities, habits, and people. Trust me.
love to hear it. thanks
I realized that this video, to be honest all videos you have made, they help to live an another day in this painful world, just because all songs are beautiful, and you know, I started to draw scenes from your videos, and I understand that I can draw, man, just be the person you are, be beautiful, because Beaty is in us, thank you for this
DARVIN!!
Every moment in everyone's lives has led to this right her. Anonymous strangers listening to the same song at differ times feeling different emotions with different experiences. I've never felt like part of a grand community until now and it feels calm. We're all waves in the same ocean. Some as still as a pond and some as violent as a tsunami. Yet we're all the same. Same species with the same blood. Just difference faces, ages, races, genders. And in the end. No matter what goes on time still goes by and before you know it this ocean will no longer exist and all those memories, and experiences and will be swept away by the one thing that doesn't change. So however much time you have left. Enjoy it, you deserve at least that much.
Jozilla13 ..😍
so true :)
you should write a book, i’m not even kidding
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damn that's deep
I'm reading the comments and I feel so touched by many of them. Life is a mistery. We have to learn to keep going, always. With people around us or just on our own. I feel alone everyday but there's still people supporting me. I still believe in some people.
FernandaFort ARMY I love how all the comments I've seen have no dislikes
I agree
This video gives me a feeling that I too can't understand, it feels sad and happy at the same time
Some deep thinking quotes i found:
A happy ending always has the day after.
No one is guaranteed happiness. It's not a human right. It's a house you have to build yourself. Your family and friends can help, but they're all busy buildins their own houses too. And in the end it always seems like your house is the worst. But it's not the house, it's the work that you put into the house that makes you happy. So always strive for a bigger house.
Life always has a sad ending, so make every other moment happy.
Thanks, this kind of thoughts cheered me up a bit!
I usually think that inspirational quotes are kind of cringe, but this one hit me different
I moved states, lost all my friends, they don't even recognize me anymore, they have forgotten about me even though they said they wouldn't. I miss spending time with them, sneaking out at 12 in the morning just to walk around and muck around, I miss my grandparents, I never see them anymore but I wish I could. It kills me knowing that one day they are going to pass away, I'm going to miss playing in their yard, I'm going to miss gardening with my grandma, I'm going to miss going on car drives with her, I'm going to miss baking with her, its been years since I have done anything like that with her and I'm worried I will forget, I will forget what it felt like to be happy. I miss my old house, I went back there for the first time in years and to see what the people did to it destroyed me, it was like seeing my childhood retting ripped apart, they took down my cubby house which I built with my mum when I was young, they leveled out our dam which I used to fish in even though there was no fish, they ripped out the trees I used to climb and fall out of. they. at least the pool was still there and the basketball ring, I have so many memories in that pool and while playing basketball with my dad. but it wasn't the same, even though it was there. I couldn't imagine what the inside looked look and I don't think I want to know. the backyard was horrible, they garden was gone, the chook shed was gone, the fruit trees where gone, I secret little area under a tree was gone. I am happy my cousins still live in the same house, the memories we had there were great, use to play hide and seek and film it, now when I say we should do it they laugh at me and I have to tell them I'm just joking even though I would love to. I miss that so much, I miss the nerf wars we would have, I miss staying up late watching movies and playing video games together. I wish my parents would have done our road trips when I was older just so i could remember them, I can only remember a few of them, so when they tell me about something that happened to me or my sister I just wish I could remember and don't have to go off my imagination. it fucking kills me to know that they re going to die one day, and I know it could be ages away but with the world, we live in these days, all the terror and killings I don't know anymore. it could happen tomorrow or in a week, all I know is that if It does happen I will not be ready, I never will be, I live my parents to death, so much that I would die for them, they have done so much for me, and I have done so little. I should do more, I don't spend any time with them anymore, but I'm trying, I really am and I think they can see that. I'm all way on my computer playing games or watching youtube. I know I still have plenty of time to spend with them but I'm constantly worried that their time will be cut short. and I will regret it, so much that I will think about ending it. but I know that I wouldn't be able to. I wish I wasn't scared of the world, I love going out with my friends, but I hate seeing people I don't know because I'm always thinking about what they won't do, I'm always thinking negatively and I just wish I didn't. I'm scared and I know it, but too scared to tell anyone, I don't want to be scared. I'm only 16 turning 17 at the end of December, I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but I can help it. I think I'm done, and I'm sorry if it makes no sense, I just felt like letting it out, and I'm sure there is more I just can't remember. I thought this would be the perfect place since everybody seems so comforting and supporting. I'm not sure if anyone will read this and if you did, thank you.
I know this feeling bro.After a really difficult year due to studying and pressure,I left home 2 months ago because I was accepted in a university out of my city.Even though the new town is lovely and university is cool,I still do feel empty. I met some new people which I'm not sure I want to pass the rest 4 years with them,since they are not my type at all.I'm not going out,instead I'm staying in my new home which I'll never get used to, and play games,read books and listen to music.All I want is going back to my friends and family. I finally understood how much I miss them right now.So,it would be nice if we sometimes stopped what we do and give a hug or say something good to our loved ones.
I did read all the message; Idk what have you been thru, but i think that those problems might come with the puberty and the teen-ages, maybe you are scare of growing up, just like everyone is, but you have to be strong, and remember that many people is going thru the same thing, and be grateful that you have a family that doesn’t care if you are shy, negative or positive they are there for you
Good luck with the teenages, and this growing up stuff!💪😉
Beto V Lopez thanks mate ❤️
Hey ik this is super late but I'm 15 and my birthday is also in December! But if you ever even see this i wanted you to know you aren't alone your comment caught my eye because your story sounds exactly like mine everything you said about growing up, your cousins, friends and family I literally thought I wrote it but please stay strong because most can't relate to us or those who "do" offer the same lame ass message saying oh it gets better but they can't relate to us letting go is the worst feeling in the world which is why I hate it I wish death wasn't inevitable but it is and I can't lie and say it gets better but you can make it better go visit the ones you miss pay respects and remember who and what you've lost be your best self and not for anyone but yourself you are loved and you are special therefore live life the way you wish it was you only get one shot let's not let our nightmares and routine fuck it up for us. That's it from me friend happy trails!
wow nigga u sad
this makes me homesick for a home I don't have & miss friends I've never met
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lmaø ø same it has that feeling its harmwarming sad and happy its so.. amazing
Over 2 years since my mom died. This video has carried me through hell and back. Love ya mom and everyone reading, it doesn’t get better but we grow and that’s the fun part. Evolve and don’t quit, pain or pleasure, forward.
I love you FranFran!
@@tumelo4526 ty man!!
@@tumelo4526 love you mane
@@digitalnomad6818 Love you too Bubba, be good to yourself!
This type of music has one of the best comment sections on all of RUclips
In what way? Seems like a bunch of whiny, depressed people looking to enable each other. Good tunes though.
Just some people expressing their emotions, no one talk about suicide, this song doesn't make sad or something like that. It make us nostalgic, everyone had to be a child we all miss this time.
Good Night Antifa Stfu.
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The most gay -luigi-
Since everybody is typing their deep emotional thoughts, I guess Ill join in. The past few days I got really sad and cried at random times thinking about the fact that everybody dies. Eventually everything will be gone, we will never see our friends, family, significant others ever again, as far as we know. I really hope somehow we will...But I will never find out in this lifetime. All I can do is hope. I don't want my parents to die either, they are getting older. All the times I wronged them and took advantage of them during my addiction and depression will haunt me sooooo badly.
I think about this everyday.
Akorp it’s ok bro im black from da hood a different world but I connected with every word we just gotta make dem proud
I can't believe this actually made me cry😞
No one knows what goes on after this lifetime. I pray to God that there is, cause there are things I need to fix, all the times i did wrong to my parents, friends,family, it hurts. Live your best life brother, cause you will never get it back. Don't hold grudges, since life is too short. If u have problems with someone, resolve them while u still got time. That way u won't leave this life regretting
i personally find facing the void to be a uplifting experience. yes, everything you know and love will die, rot and be forgotton. you, however, are one of the lucky few that got to experiecne it before its gone. you get to feel love, sadness and the full spectrum of emption. you get to EXPERIENCE. what a wonderful opportunity. would you even want a life without loss? i wouldnt, because without loss and suffering, you cant have the perspective to appreciate all the little things in life.
everyday, on my way to work, my bus goes accross this bridge, and on it i get to see the most amazing view of the river valley, often times with beams of sunshine raining down. I could think about the smelly guy to m right or how much i hate my job, but instead, for those 30 seconds, i just appreciate that view. i look at the beauty, and think "ya know. its ok. if this is the price for this, then its worth it." dont let fears control you my man, just take advantage of every opportunity you can to experience as much as you can. be happy. be sad. be angry. live. show the cold dark void that you dont give 2 fucks about it and you will enjoy life and be happy IN SPITE of it.
My father passed away 13 years ago just about. Every so often I really think what would my life be like right now if he was here... and how would I have turned out? Maybe better... maybe I wouldn’t regret so much and made some better choices. Maybe he could’ve taught me lessons my mom couldn’t even though she tries her hardest to do both parts. Well I don’t really believe in god per say, but I do believe everything happens for a reason and I hope that whether he is now just in complete darkness or actually somewhere in peace...I have or will do something that can make him proud
I truly do love and miss you dad and wish you were here today to guide me to do better
- Love Michael
No sympathy is needed here... I’m just talking like everyone else and I like reading comments and participating.
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@@Flunkass thank you :D
It will happen it took me 22 years but it will happen. I'm a kid of WVs DHHR system and lost my dad from the jump and my mom 8 times as well as went through 14 different foster families. Only to be adopted in 6th grade and be kicked out as a 17 year old and live under a bridge. Now im a senior in college and am on my way. All of which is stressful and depression but I had a kid with a girl I'm no longer with. Hes my fucking world man he makes me feel like I've neve felt before I think it's what people call happiness. Even the thought of him makes me feel at ease. I'm not saying having a kid will solve everything I'm just saying your time will come. Life fucking sucks bad like reallllllly fucking bad but there comes short brief times where happiness exist just enjoy them while you can. While not dwelling over the times where you cant find it
Why?
We all do, you are not alone
Everything that exists today will one day be completely forgotten
Life is nothing but a game you win ...you lose but in the end you have to put it up..
@@Voidspacie Did you have a stroke or something? that makes no sense
@@Flaming-Tongue no just a stroke of a deppresed poem
Stroke of genius
Thank God
I'm currently 15. Looking at all these comments make me wonder about how hard it must be being an adult and having to grow up and deal with with responsibilities and many complications in life and I don't realize how quickly time flies and how much I need to cherish my childhood before it's all over and I have to finally be responsible and make wise choices in life unlike I do now. I think about it but I can't really understand how most of you feel in those dark times, but I know they're stressful. I wish the best of luck to all of you in life, Have a good one.
You're in school right? This is THE TIME of your life. Trust me. You have little to no responsabilities and alot of time to make friends... use this time. Live the moment while you can. Growing up isn't that bad. It's just different. It's hard, yeah, but you can do it. Do not fear the passage of time because.. well.. it's unavoidable. And most importantly, be yourself. Life is too short to be whoever others want you to be; too short to live someone else's life.
Im 13
England is My City England have turned into a city and you'll turn into an adult
you and me both...
I wanna be 5 years old kid again..
Jeez, this feeling i cant describe it but its sad and beautiful at the same time
That's one scary paradox
ScaryParadox i think that that's melancholy my friend
In a certain way, i love that deep feeling
I think it is called "bittersweet." It is weirdly addicting.
Man this mix brings back some memories! I was stationed in Korea in 2017, and this brings me right back to exploring that awesome country. The fun dates with the expat teacher I dated for most of the time I was there, the solo exploring around Busan, Seoul, Pyeongtaek... The awesome time with the people I met at work and in Hostels.
It is kind of sad I don't keep contact with pretty much anyone from that period, but the memories will always be there!
"Rejoice, O young man, in thy youth..."
-Ecclesiastes
I would like to meet people who understand this in life
music
Went to bed with this playing and had a dream I revisited my childhood house and lived there great vibes sleeping with this again. For sure
miss you mom and dad i will be back home someday, i don't wanna kill myself anymore
Stef dont die please not worth the bad luck fades
Stef stay strong love ❤️
You've chosen a wonderful community to share your feelings with ;) Good luck with everything dude.
dude why not? I'm already planning on next weekend being my last, what ever if you don't want to then congrats to you
Back when I wasn't afraid of tomorrow. When I didn't count the hours of my sleep. When I thought the world was a better place.
Man it s my dream
Every night I can't sleep and i count every single minutes
Thank you for including "i am tired" to this mix! 4 years later, this song still gets played everyday. I would have never imagined that it could impact someone's life or that people would simply enjoy it. So thank you and the people listening from the bottom of my heart!❤
Hope everyone has a great life, wherever you are 😎
cheers anon
Cheers from CT!!
Romania wishes you a great life, as well!
Anonymous 115 Aww, Thanks!
Anonymous 115 Not really tbh... My brother dies 2 weeks ago, so not in the mood
Thank you so much for posting my music
nion That song was great bro, keep it up
thank u for producing beautiful music
Mike D (((-:
sadshawty fucking love you
nion i'm in love with u
I miss when I was a little kid. Nothing mattered. I could wear whatever I wanted, eat whatever I wanted say what ever i wanted, do what ever I wanted, and no one would judge me. I was happy. I was never embarrassed about anything I said or did because I knew everyone would forget. I had no body image issues, I didn't wish for the clothing all the other girls had, and I socialized. I had FRIENDS. Now I'm depressed and anxiety ridden and it just... makes me want to go back in time, go back to the time where I was happy, and wanted to socialize, and wanted to have friends. Now I just sit in my room on my computer. I just...
Damaged Haley stay strong if you ever need anyone to talk to I’m here
Damaged Haley hey stay strong girl, one day u can do better than today:')) btw sorry for my bad english.
Stay strong Haley, we are always with you 😤🙂
Dont think about the past. Its over and now is the present moment. Live in the now, not in the past, not in the future, just enjoy, what now is. Dont think about it, just feel that, what now is, look around in your room, look at it and dont think about it, say, this is good and that is bad, just look at it and feel it. Feel your Body. Feel it from inside.
This is meditation.
Fighting with anxiety is one of the hardest things anyone can face. It makes you someone you're not, and somedays no matter how hard you fight against it, it will continue to bring you down. But you know yourself you weren't always like this, that's why its good to look back but its more important to look forward to the days you'll be free of it! Strive for it, make some changes in your life, break some boundaries , it's a tough journey but with the love and support of those closest to you and all your peeps in this community, you gots this
Growing OLD is required, but growing UP isn’t.
Quit being a fucking child.
That big gey my Niffa
@@bendonnelly690 Lol quit PMSing & go smoke some weed or something
Straight talk....
@@bendonnelly690 Piece of shit, you are
- Yoda,probably
Makes me wonder where all the years went, I never listened to my parents when they said time would fly by. Just yesterday I was surrounded by "friends" and a bright future ahead of me. Today I'm 24, lost and confused as to wtf happened, where my "bright future" has gone, where all my "friends" are, the girl I've loved since middle school is now married and has a kid, yet I can't keep a steady job, a high school drop out. I'm 24 and I feel like I've lived a long enough life, it shouldn't be this way. I'm so lost and confused, sometimes I feel like just calling it quits. I can't be the only one like this, someone who has been through this or sees light at the end of the tunnel please... help. I don't wanna give up...
VIPER-STRIKE I'm also 24 was a B+ to A student from first to eighth grade with a promising future until my life fell apart and it hasn't been the same since, the only time I felt like life was worth living since then was during the three months I spent with this girl that has already left back to her country half way around the world. I don't know when I'll call it quits myself but until then I guess the best we can do is to try to make the best we can with the hand we were dealt.
been through it. it sucks. you'll learn to live with it eventually
I wanna say the side of my story which is like yours but,I’m 11 years old. When I was small like 5 I was like “UGH I wish I was already a teenager or an adult, I don’t want to be small!” And my parents would say,”Oh You would regret saying that when you are around 12-14.” And I was like NO. Now I’m here sad about me wishing to make most of my small childhood Ik I’m a child still but, life is getting harder and I’m slowly getting depressed but my “friends” always say ,so,and,ok,oh let’s play this. No one cares. I like being sad but it’s just not making me feel right at the same time.(sorry bout bad grammar)
VIPER-STRIKE damn. I’m 14 and I already want to end it. I wonder what it’s like for you.😞
VIPER-STRIKE hey bro. I feel for ya. I was about 21 and I wasn’t doing to well. The loneliness is crippling, it’s like I have no energy. I didn’t care about anything. Why should I even get out of bed? I follow a guy on RUclips called Cain Carter. You can find him at hotdamnirock and he went through some pretty ducked up shit that helped me through. His struggle taught me to learn myself and what I want for myself. I’m 28 now and married with a 2 yr old daughter. Just saying life goes on, but remember it will be what you make it. Also, I love you bro.
Goodbye childhood. Goodbye happiness.
How about we have a race guys.
The first one to happiness wins
Cant wait to see you there
It seems like
the goal is getting farther away
the farther we go
I keep running
But I go the wrong direction
So i'll give up.
I got confused guys...
Directions unclear
dick got stuck in a toaster
no hate intended guys, I just felt like the joke wrote itself, I'm sorry
♡
😔
I miss my mom, I miss being a kid without all these mental problems. I miss looking forward to each day versus fighting to make it through. I miss everyone being happier in general. I miss being at peace with myself and being able to daydream about the future. There’s so much darkness right now but I know things will get better.
So true 😢
@@carlosyoutubesinmentiras3463 it’s brain chemicals but it’s still real
I carry a watch on my wrist, not to look cool or in style, but to remind me that my time is the most valuable thing I have and not to waste it.
I carry one to look at the time
I'm 18 and my days consist of working on the weekends and college on Mondays and Wednesdays. I have a lot of free time and a little too much time to think and get lost. I am at a constant fear of becoming too lost to no return but I pray that that won't happen. Just wished all of my friends didn't move to Universities ranging from an hour away to the other side of the country. Glad some other people are on here that understand what it's like to swim in this mental pool we have going on. Stay strong guys, God has a plan for all of us. God Bless.
Everything you go through is preparing you for an upcoming moment. 💜 Be fucking nice to people... Be the change. You never know what someone else is going through....
Gregory Peterson so true
I wish some people knew this. I’d think the world wouldn’t be a total shithole if this was what everyone saw in the morning.
My favorite childhood memories are having picnics at the park with my grandma and sister, playing on my swingset at dusk in the summer. Or going shopping at the mall with my family, and falling asleep on a long drive home. I really miss those peaceful days...
i love the simpsonwave comment sections. you're all so wonderful and you make me feel like I'm not alone. thank you.
My best wishes for you
I miss the summer of 2015, great time with great people and a great feeling of life overall. But I do think people tend to remember only the good things of great memories, as I think, that I am doing that. My best friend ( who i spend the summer with a lot ) said to me this weekend: 'Damn man, I miss those summer times. They were so great and now everything is so boring and less spectaculair.'
I guess were growing up more. And i had to agree, i've been thinking about this a lot, like everyday. And the people i used to hang out with, i dont see them anymore. Sometimes, but really not much. We changed, and things happened, although, that is what we say to ourselves. I think nothing happened to us, but some things aren't new anymore for us. I am almost turning 18, feels like a big step. Looking forward to ending my school, but also think it is something sad. I love my life, but i have so many questions about it! Who am I, what am i going to do with my life, and all these memories i have! But i guess that's life. I am surely becoming the person i want to be, but i still have to complete my personal puzzle.
tijmen Clement having just turned 18, I can tell you that nothing feels different; I don't feel like an adult, infact I feel no different to how I was 2 years ago, although I have learnt and matured alot since then. I agree that people tend to romanticise the past, but isn't it so nice to have those nice memories to look back on? Although it's painful to think that there are people who are not in your life any more, nobody is in your life permanently, and that makes the time you spend with them that much more special
yeah man, you have a really big point there. haha, laterrrr.
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Sometimes I want people to recognize my pain, but I also never want anyone to know
Silvana Lima i feel the same way
same
same, it feels good to have someone understand you or be concern about you. but at the same time you just want the world to leave you alone.
Pankacks Daily men don't wanna show their pain because it's a sign of weakness, but deep inside everyone wants some attention
omg same
Can't decide whether to break down or appreciate life
This is strangely painful to see our beloved Simpsons characters outside of the humorous context as if they are real people with a dynamic range of feelings, not just silly characters we laugh at. We begin to empathise with them in strange ways.
OUCH!
True
Well said
d'oh
I thought exactly the same, I started to imagine them as real people with real feelings. For some reason I felt sorry for them
Cameron O'Shannessy fuck
that opening dialogue.....damn dude. that hurt in a good and bad way.
im sayin
westben2000 any idea on where it’s from?
mystic1410 it's from a movie "new york, i love you"
When I was a kid me and my bro didn't have a bed. Instead we would sleep on mattresses. Everytime we fell asleep on a bench or watching tv our parents would pick us and put us on the mattresses , cover us heavily and kiss us goodnight. Somehow the fact that I didn't have a bed for my own don't seem so bad.
I'll go back to those days in a heartbeat
I hate that all the YT vids that get recommended to me now are trash 24/7 ai generated lo-fi stuff when vids like THIS are what I actually want. I've been using this vid to relax for years.
I'm terrified. I'm so very, very terrified.
Being exposed to so many new things recently and the past few years. Friends are breaking off, relationships are gone, loved ones have been lost. I'm terrified of the future. I'm scared of fucking up and not having someone there to help. My dad used to help me carry something, or help me grab something out of my reach. Now it's the other way around. My mom used to tell me goodnight at my bedside every night. Now I'm the one at her bedside telling her the same. It hurts knowing they're gonna die one day, and I can't stop it. I'm not prepared. I'll never be prepared. Work and college is fucking me up bad, and soon I'm gonna have to get a second job. So much of my time is being consumed, and I'm terrified that I'm not spending it well. Recently got into a car crash, girlfriend broke up with me, friend committed suicide, and I'm just feeling completely drained. I'm always tired. I'm always looking forward to laying down in silence. I just wonder if what I do is worth it, if why I'm here is important at all. I'm terrified of crossing that threshold, though. I'm terrified that one day I won't have enough willpower; that I'll just take the easy way out. I just want to do good. I want to be able to do things on my own. I want to be the best that I can. While everyone is still here. And that's what terrifies me the most. I'm terrified that one day I'll reach my peak and achieve my goals, but no one will be around to see me do it.
I'm terrified. I'm so very, very terrified.
Thank you for reading.
SgtDevix dude you dont know how much i connect to this im trying to hold the tears back...be strong friend
same here
we have to be strong
Those could be my words. Exactly. Good luck.
God will be watching you he will take care of you
I miss when I didn't have to worry about anything other than how long I could avoid eating my veggies at the dinner table.
missing those summer nights when i used to try to catch the fireflies that were all around me, playing with my family and friends in my backyard listening to music feeling the warm weather. most of all, i just miss being happy.
Isabella Borja I remember I would just spend the entire day outside with friends, playing games in the yard, having dumb little arguments about kid stuff. We would build forts inside with pillows and outside with bamboo, branches and palmetto leaves. I miss those times so much. I would be so reluctant to go home around sunset. I wish I could just go back to those times, just to remember the amazing feeling of having friends you'd thought you'd be with forever.
I feel you, i know these summerdays i used to play cards and roll dices with my grandma all day long, catching fireflies in the evening in a jar.
I don't know why but only the comments make me feel at home.
Currently listening to this at midnight on my birthday. So many thoughts are running through my mind at the moment. I should’ve done things differently and now that im older im kinda sad that I wasn’t able to do or say more , back then ,because i always shy and very insecure. Hoping that in the years to come ,i get to grow confidence and that i stop feeling lonely and sad all the time .
I Wish that for U ❤💛
Bro you're probably like 18. You're fine
Austin Starke unfortunately I wish I were 18 again lol
You just need something living that can show you a semblance of love and will let you have sex with, preferably human. My thing is goats, but everyone is different. Damn goats are sexy
Me too
Graduated Highschool, it seems like all the fun is over permanently. "Go get a job, go be a productive member of society, get married, have kids, go to college", I'm still just a kid. I'm not ready for any of this
Maks Dąbek it's the social norm
Go move to hawaii and smoke pot
Timess man I would do just that with my fave people
I've never related so much to a RUclips comment
over a year later and I'm still not
Miss u mom.. live in peace. Please let me hug you one last time..pls (crying)
Oops sorry man 😞 I would never wanna lose my parents but I know it will happen one day and I dread that day
You made me cry, I hope your mom is in a great place...
That is the the most attention whore comment ever
Ashamedjester 54 What if your mom died? I would write the same shit to u.
TheXerz she is and I don’t give a fuck
I heard this mix so many times because is relaxing, but I never figure out what it means till I lost my first love, my mom...
Now memories is all I got, and sometines is not enought!
I'm not able to return to those moments, there not second chance, just keep moving forward...
Scrolling down .. every different comment with different pain and stress .. STAY STRONG MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS 😓
Kristi Zguro God bless you
Thanks.. but I can’t when so many shit is going on, it feels like there’s no positivity in this damn world
and non-binary pals
You’re alright dude, be well 🙏
One day, we’ll just stop existing. With the snap of a finger the things we see go blank as we flatline. The people I talk to through the internet would never even know I’m gone, i’d just stopped responding. The world has billions of people with billions of their own storylines, and then it just ends like cutting film. Where do we all go?
Matilda interesting point of view
nobody really knows
To a better place
Ok Thanos.
We go somewhere very nice. Where all of our loved ones are. Don't hurry though, everything in its right time.
Do you ever wish you could go back in time to fix the mistake that messed up your life. Cause i do .
i do all of the time i wish i can because i feel like things would be way better
Don’t focus on what you could’ve done man, trust me, it’s not worth it. Just focus on improving yourself in the present moment and how it will make you feel in the very end.
Was the mistake forgetting u didn’t have re-deploy?
i once stalked a boy i liked...it messed me up slowly until i drove myself to insanity...but yeah i wish i could fix my mistake.
Same
i can't really describe it but this genre of music always feels like it's the last period of a great day full of energy
listening this and hit some blunts makes me forget all problems and dilemmas that i have. Adults criticizing and saying, do you have problems? you don't know what problems are, damn they don't know nothing about our problems, nothing about our feelings. Sometimes i just wanna go to somewhere and dont back in a couple of months, just appreciate nature and find peace
this is kinda all over the place. i just needed to get it out.
i miss calling my parents mommy and daddy. i miss running up to my dad when he got home, him picking me up and hugging me. i miss when my mom would go to work and she would drop me off at my grandmas where i'd spend the whole day playing outside with her with the hose. i miss going back inside with her and playing with little pet shops in an old doll house that she has now given away. i miss sleeping in my parents bed because i was afraid of the dark. i miss riding in the golfcart with my grammy and papa. i miss when my papa would put me on his lap and let me "drive". i miss when grammy would read to me. now, whenever i ask, she just laughs as if im kidding. i miss when my mom would tuck me in, and my dad would read me a story. i miss playing little big planet with my aunt and uncle. i miss laying in bed watching old garfield episodes while my parents played poker with them. i miss my dad carrying me to bed after i fell asleep watching a movie. i miss when he could pick me up and put me on his shoulders. i miss when my mom would kiss me on the head before i went to sleep. i miss playing with my toys in my playroom by myself, not needing anyone to keep me company. i miss being little. i miss going to chuck e cheese with grammy, spending hours there trying to get a bunch of tickets. she won't take me back now. im not her only grandchild anymore. i miss when i was. when i was papa's one and only. he'd do anything for me back then. we had so much fun together, me grammy and papa. we explored all the woods around their house. we rode the golf cart back into no trespassing zones for the fun of it. they were my best friends growing up. they don't act the same with me anymore. i miss when we would drive the golfcart around in the trails through the woods, just exploring. they aren't just my grandparents anymore. their eyes dont light up the way they used to. i can't hold their hands anymore. they have other grandchildrens hands to hold. i miss my uncle. he died a year ago from drug overdose. my grandma and grandpa lost a son. i lost an uncle. my dad lost a brother. i miss running through my grandmas 5 acres with him, pretending we were survivors. building forts, climbing trees. he never really grew up. he will always be one of my best friends. we would run for hours, not tiring. grandma would ring the bell, letting us know it was time for dinner. we would eat, and then go back outside to catch the creatures that came out in the night. i remember one time me and my grandma spent the night on my trampoline in the woods, listening to the crickets. watching the lighting bugs. i don't know where that trampoline is now. it's just...gone. i miss running through grandmas yard with her dogs, yelling as they chased me. they have all passed away now. only one, her name is freckles, is still alive. she can barely walk. sometimes i just walk to my favorite place in grandmas yard with her, slowly, so she can keep up, and lay down. she lays next to me, peacefully. we stare at the clouds as i pet her soft fur. i'd do anything for that dog. she's the most loyal thing that i know in this world. shes so pure. i miss playing in the basement while my grandpa worked. it was like another world down there. it was my grandmas world. all of her old toys and childhood things were down there. they fascinated me. still do, just not the same way. i miss playing minecraft with my cousins until 6 am, sleeping til 2 and then doing it all over again. i miss grammy reading goodnight moon to me. id ask for it over and over until i fell asleep. now, i can hear her reading it to my cousins from across the hall. i miss being little. i miss loving life.
edit: im not trying to sound privileged or whatever. i am incredibly thankful for these times. im not trying to sound ungrateful and what not, i just miss them. i've seen a lot of other people venting the same type of things in the comments and i wanted to do the same to share them with people. sorry if this made you mad or something. i know there are way more important things to be worrying about and im sorry if these seems like the least of your concerns, i wrote all of this at 1 am when i couldn't get it off my mind.
Regan Mcneil I consider myself not very emotional but that hits hard
it does.
Thank you
This is so true.. it’s almost like I wrote it
This made me cry so much, thank you for writing this. Being little was the best. Now i cant say the word mom without bursting into tears, remembering all the nights we spent at the hospital, only to watch her die in front of me when I was only 11 years old.
1:21 This one makes me think about my childhood and how I will never be able to live those moments ever again. It all ended way too fast..
That was deep
Me to ... all those days on mw3 trying to find more glitches for “infected “ or back when faze was like only sniping haha 😂 just old times of a teenage boy
Every breathing moment every second is a past memory set in motion