Lyrics It hit me, I was scared of dying Thought of all the things I gave up trying A neverending car ride Windows rollin' down, I... Couldn't stop, couldn't stop Crying Moonlit walls Crumble to pieces Fragments lost, they Prove my existence Time and space Crawl to a slow Sit in silence I sink when I'm alone So I look up At the ceiling fan Everything feels lighter Staring at the ceiling fan So I look up At the ceiling fan Everything feels lighter Staring at the ceiling fan Life is putting me through some test Toss me a bone, take this awful mess I solved it once before But there's always more and more and more Stay up till the sunrise Butterflies in my eyes Didn't I, didn't I Tell you? Keep on falling behind Chest is feeling so tight It carved a hole inside And grew Moonlit walls Crumble to pieces Fragments lost, they Prove my existence Time and space Crawl to a slow Sit in silence I sink when I'm alone So I look up At the ceiling fan Everything feels lighter Staring at the ceiling fan So I look up At the ceiling fan Everything feels lighter Staring at the ceiling fan (At the ceiling fan) (At the ceiling fan)
Your songs always seem to capture an emotion of mine and comfort me knowing I'm not the only one experiencing them. Thank you so much for another banger Lily, I look forward to your future songs! ❤❤
such a beautiful song and OMGGG THE ANIMATIONS?? THE COLORS???? the way the artstyle changed when the chorus hits. damn- another song straight into my playlist yup yup
If you do find yourself often "staring at the ceiling fan", or as it's more often described, "staring off into space", there is a word for that - dissociation. This whole song's lyrics are about the experience of dissociating, and I find it fascinating from a mental health perspective. Oh, and the song and the MV are really beautiful. Congrats on the excellent song, Lily!
Idk what it is about Lily's songs, but I always felt like they speak to me, and it's just butterflies in my heart every time. Another absolute banger 🩷🩷🩷
I discover you recently with "not too late" and I just wanted to congratulate you because it seems to me like all the songs you write are made with passion. It's a beautiful feeling to watch your channel, I can't explain it. It just feels like you've really put something of you into each video. Not all of them are of my liking, but the passion you put in each of these projects can only be defined as inspiring. I hope one day I can master the same courage you put in yourself in my dreams too. Thank you for keeping being yourself
When you turn rumination, depression and anxiety into an art piece. I think this song will have a special place in my heart. It reminds me of the times it was hard to pick myself up.
Lily you have been on a ROLL recently!! You’ve released so many songs in the last few months and I’m so proud of you! You’ve come so far from Dreamy Night (although that will always be one of the best songs!) and I am so excited to see where your music career takes you in the future! Keep up the amazing songs and these amazing music videos!
There are so many layers of meaning behind the lyrics and the music video. I really like this song! I put my thoughts on some of the lyrics below. "a never ending car ride" a metaphor for the relentless thoughts that plague her "i / couldn't stop, couldn't stop / crying" she is unable to do anything except cry. she can't stop the thoughts, nor can she stop crying. "moonlit walls crumble to pieces" the cage that she uses to try to contain herself, her emotions and thoughts, is broken, and (see next quote) "fragments lost / they prove my existence" she knows that these fragments (emotions, thoughts experiences) are what makes her human. perhaps the "fragments lost" implies that she shows her self to other people, and in that way, gives those pieces of herself to others. "time and space crawl to a slow" shows how long these moments feel. she wants it to stop, but it feels like the opposite happens - as though time slows down. "sit in silence" she can't do anything but think, but that just worsens the feeling of spiraling. perhaps she has no energy to do anything else anymore. "i sink when i'm alone" she can't fight it, can't do anything but let it happen. "so i look up at the ceiling fan / everything feels lighter staring at the ceiling fan" the plain walls with the ceiling fan is safe, predictable, and monotone. much better to stick to something comforting, even if it is monotonous, than losing herself in her thoughts. the monotone colors interspaced with bright, galaxy-like colors throughout the music video are likely a representation of the boring, safe life versus the world of experiences outside the room with the ceiling fan. some of the experiences outside would be fun and exciting, and others would be hurtful and depressing. but even a little bit of hurt is enough to make her want to stay inside, where it is safe, where she won't get hurt. "moonlit walls crumble to pieces" but she has to leave sometimes, perhaps unwillingly (because the walls crumble on their own, she doesn't intentionally leave), and it hurts. there's way more that i could analyze, but i think i'll leave it here for now.
been so amazing to see lily dive into new music directions this year! the syncopation adds to this kind of haunting but relatable feeling and i always appreciate her introspective lyricism 🥺🫶 tysm for another beautiful MV lily!!
listening to lily's songs at 1am hits different. ceiling fan really has to be in my top 3 fav lily's released song, the lyrics, the intro, really put what i'm feeling into words in 2023.
This and Last Cup of Coffee are very interesting pictures of depression and anxiety, from a lyrical and musical perspective. Good shit. Pretty cool to see your musical lane develop.
THANK YOU FOR RELEASING ANOTHER SONG!! IVE HEARD YOUR PREVIOUS SONGS LIKE 100 MILLION TIMES AND IVE BEEN CRAVING FOR MORE SCRUMPTIOUS MELODIES!! AND THIS IS PERFECT THANK YOU THANK YOU
Man there's something so HAUNTING about this song. It's so vaguely creepy and drapes heavily on the shoulders with weighted sadness. It's such an experience, I love it.
ohhh this hit hard . thank you for making songs and putting your vulnerability out there ; you are a genius and ahead of the song going crazy just in itself , you have made so many people feel seen :)
thank you for this one. while all your songs are straight bops, this is one of the ones that hit harder and really stirred up something. i can't even count the number of times i've replayed it.
I can’t explain how much I love your music😭 you explain concepts of sadness and emptiness but fullness idk how to explain it I just love it sorry if this was confusing but it’s just I LOVE ITTTTTT you explain so many emotions i feel I don’t know how to😭🙏 amazing
one of my fave songs by you guys to date. don't ever let people tell you your voice cant make it big when people like Yaeji and yourself exist singing in this voice quality in english. Done (Let's Get It) Passed Me By, and Michin by Yaeji for example are good possible inspirations in terms of backtracks to accompany the quality of your voice and how you shape it artistically.
Yet another great song that I feel portrays different kind of emotions. Staring at the ceiling fan really sometimes makes it feel lighter >w< thank you Lily for making these❤️
This is my new favourite song AHHHH!!! I love both the audio and the visuals, especially the contrast between the calmer parts and the more intense parts. A banger as always!!
such beautiful visuals and outstanding lyrics!! youve always been such a comfort to me and your music has gotten me through some very difficult times. thank you for being such an amazing person lily :3 you truly make this world a better place
The definition of comfi..your songs play in my head throughout the day especially at night mainly when I can't sleep..and I have to listen to feel at peace 🤧🤧
wooooooah that was fantastic, wow--one of your best songs!! Also, the production was amazing, shout-out Farhan for absolutely killing it. Love those strings :D
Idk why I'm late but gosh. I just love her songs. I wanna cry lol I don't have a ceiling fan tho but still aaagh, I gotta listen to this more. My mind still stuck on "waiting for a sign" but goodness did all of her other songs help me when I didn't have internet but at least I had her music ;u;
thank u for making relatable music for over a decade now. lily pichu forever !
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lilys songs always comfort me, THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT ARTIST 😭😭
I fully agree!!!
@Fox0r it's a good thing you found out!! I literally know all of her songs from memory
Beautiful song and animation! You and aka really shine in this mv!
Lyrics
It hit me, I was scared of dying
Thought of all the things I gave up trying
A neverending car ride
Windows rollin' down, I...
Couldn't stop, couldn't stop
Crying
Moonlit walls
Crumble to pieces
Fragments lost, they
Prove my existence
Time and space
Crawl to a slow
Sit in silence
I sink when I'm alone
So I look up
At the ceiling fan
Everything feels lighter
Staring at the ceiling fan
So I look up
At the ceiling fan
Everything feels lighter
Staring at the ceiling fan
Life is putting me through some test
Toss me a bone, take this awful mess
I solved it once before
But there's always more and more and more
Stay up till the sunrise
Butterflies in my eyes
Didn't I, didn't I
Tell you?
Keep on falling behind
Chest is feeling so tight
It carved a hole inside
And grew
Moonlit walls
Crumble to pieces
Fragments lost, they
Prove my existence
Time and space
Crawl to a slow
Sit in silence
I sink when I'm alone
So I look up
At the ceiling fan
Everything feels lighter
Staring at the ceiling fan
So I look up
At the ceiling fan
Everything feels lighter
Staring at the ceiling fan
(At the ceiling fan)
(At the ceiling fan)
Your songs always seem to capture an emotion of mine and comfort me knowing I'm not the only one experiencing them. Thank you so much for another banger Lily, I look forward to your future songs! ❤❤
such a beautiful song and OMGGG THE ANIMATIONS?? THE COLORS???? the way the artstyle changed when the chorus hits. damn- another song straight into my playlist yup yup
Lily's voice is so amazing!! This is immediately going into my comfy playlist ❤❤❤
If you do find yourself often "staring at the ceiling fan", or as it's more often described, "staring off into space", there is a word for that - dissociation. This whole song's lyrics are about the experience of dissociating, and I find it fascinating from a mental health perspective.
Oh, and the song and the MV are really beautiful. Congrats on the excellent song, Lily!
Good to see Lily making a Title Fight reference
Idk what it is about Lily's songs, but I always felt like they speak to me, and it's just butterflies in my heart every time. Another absolute banger 🩷🩷🩷
the vocals, the lyrics, the music, the art & music video, everything about this song is SO GOOOOOOD THANK YOU LILY!!!
I discover you recently with "not too late" and I just wanted to congratulate you because it seems to me like all the songs you write are made with passion. It's a beautiful feeling to watch your channel, I can't explain it. It just feels like you've really put something of you into each video. Not all of them are of my liking, but the passion you put in each of these projects can only be defined as inspiring.
I hope one day I can master the same courage you put in yourself in my dreams too. Thank you for keeping being yourself
This is probably my new favorite song by Lily. It hits so close to home, and this sound is something new from Lily, and I like it a lot.
we are being blessed ahhh more comfi beats, more life!!!
Make as many songs as possible please. Every time you release one my serotonin goes through the roof. I wish you good luck
When you turn rumination, depression and anxiety into an art piece. I think this song will have a special place in my heart. It reminds me of the times it was hard to pick myself up.
Lily you have been on a ROLL recently!! You’ve released so many songs in the last few months and I’m so proud of you! You’ve come so far from Dreamy Night (although that will always be one of the best songs!) and I am so excited to see where your music career takes you in the future! Keep up the amazing songs and these amazing music videos!
The sound of this is SO UNIQUE AHHHH. For some reason this gives me heavy video game vibes, I think it's the sounds used and I absolutely love it.
There are so many layers of meaning behind the lyrics and the music video. I really like this song! I put my thoughts on some of the lyrics below.
"a never ending car ride"
a metaphor for the relentless thoughts that plague her
"i / couldn't stop, couldn't stop / crying"
she is unable to do anything except cry. she can't stop the thoughts, nor can she stop crying.
"moonlit walls crumble to pieces"
the cage that she uses to try to contain herself, her emotions and thoughts, is broken, and (see next quote)
"fragments lost / they prove my existence"
she knows that these fragments (emotions, thoughts experiences) are what makes her human. perhaps the "fragments lost" implies that she shows her self to other people, and in that way, gives those pieces of herself to others.
"time and space crawl to a slow"
shows how long these moments feel. she wants it to stop, but it feels like the opposite happens - as though time slows down.
"sit in silence"
she can't do anything but think, but that just worsens the feeling of spiraling. perhaps she has no energy to do anything else anymore.
"i sink when i'm alone"
she can't fight it, can't do anything but let it happen.
"so i look up at the ceiling fan / everything feels lighter staring at the ceiling fan"
the plain walls with the ceiling fan is safe, predictable, and monotone. much better to stick to something comforting, even if it is monotonous, than losing herself in her thoughts.
the monotone colors interspaced with bright, galaxy-like colors throughout the music video are likely a representation of the boring, safe life versus the world of experiences outside the room with the ceiling fan. some of the experiences outside would be fun and exciting, and others would be hurtful and depressing. but even a little bit of hurt is enough to make her want to stay inside, where it is safe, where she won't get hurt.
"moonlit walls crumble to pieces"
but she has to leave sometimes, perhaps unwillingly (because the walls crumble on their own, she doesn't intentionally leave), and it hurts.
there's way more that i could analyze, but i think i'll leave it here for now.
pls analyze more ;___; loved your interp of thjis song
This was a very cool analysis! I like seeing how others thought of it.
been so amazing to see lily dive into new music directions this year! the syncopation adds to this kind of haunting but relatable feeling and i always appreciate her introspective lyricism 🥺🫶 tysm for another beautiful MV lily!!
Instantly became my favorite piece by her, it's so good 😭
listening to lily's songs at 1am hits different. ceiling fan really has to be in my top 3 fav lily's released song, the lyrics, the intro, really put what i'm feeling into words in 2023.
Made a whole lilypichu shrine and got ready in my lily themed things just to watch this video I love your music!! 🌸🌸💮
We’re making it out of my room with this one-
Thanks for the great music as always!
This and Last Cup of Coffee are very interesting pictures of depression and anxiety, from a lyrical and musical perspective. Good shit. Pretty cool to see your musical lane develop.
her voice is just so unique it gives me goosebumps every time
THANK YOU FOR RELEASING ANOTHER SONG!! IVE HEARD YOUR PREVIOUS SONGS LIKE 100 MILLION TIMES AND IVE BEEN CRAVING FOR MORE SCRUMPTIOUS MELODIES!! AND THIS IS PERFECT THANK YOU THANK YOU
How am I just discovering lily’s music? The visuals, the sound! It’s everything
WHY ARE ALL OF HER SONGS SO GOOD??
Such an inspiration
this is insane and i regret only hearing it now for the first time
HOLY THE ANIMATION
i'd say this is relatable but i dont have a ceiling fan
ALL OF LILY'S SONGS ARE AMAZING AAAAA
Man there's something so HAUNTING about this song. It's so vaguely creepy and drapes heavily on the shoulders with weighted sadness. It's such an experience, I love it.
This is going into my liked playlist immediately it's so comforting- thank you lily
This is so good 🥰🥰
All Lily songs are so chill, calm and of course so comfy 🥰 More please!
I can't stop listening to this wonderful piece of work!
Omg I remember the starting of the song from this poem lily composed super long ago, interesting to find it in one of her songs
Straight on the playlist. TY LILY❤
ohhh this hit hard . thank you for making songs and putting your vulnerability out there ; you are a genius and ahead of the song going crazy just in itself , you have made so many people feel seen :)
wow, this actually has to be my favourite song of lily's now, the song is amazing and the visuals in the video were beautiful too
That pre-chorus is absolutely divine. Great production too! I'm dancing through the feels.
thank you for this one. while all your songs are straight bops, this is one of the ones that hit harder and really stirred up something. i can't even count the number of times i've replayed it.
I'm so exciting for this new song! ❤
This might be one of my favorite musics EVER. This is great, Lily, you are amazing
I can’t explain how much I love your music😭 you explain concepts of sadness and emptiness but fullness idk how to explain it I just love it sorry if this was confusing but it’s just I LOVE ITTTTTT you explain so many emotions i feel I don’t know how to😭🙏 amazing
Blessed year for a comfi beats enjoyer The GOAT
one of my fave songs by you guys to date. don't ever let people tell you your voice cant make it big when people like Yaeji and yourself exist singing in this voice quality in english. Done (Let's Get It) Passed Me By, and Michin by Yaeji for example are good possible inspirations in terms of backtracks to accompany the quality of your voice and how you shape it artistically.
Yet another great song that I feel portrays different kind of emotions. Staring at the ceiling fan really sometimes makes it feel lighter >w< thank you Lily for making these❤️
This is my new favourite song AHHHH!!! I love both the audio and the visuals, especially the contrast between the calmer parts and the more intense parts. A banger as always!!
yet another banger we love to see it
such beautiful visuals and outstanding lyrics!! youve always been such a comfort to me and your music has gotten me through some very difficult times. thank you for being such an amazing person lily :3 you truly make this world a better place
Since I watched the finger paint video I was wainting for this and now I'm finally able to listent to this all day! Thanks Lily!
im about to install a ceiling fan in my room just because of this song. Another Lily banger
visually and auditorily pleasant wonderful music video
I Haven't heard anything like this, its so different and yet so cool!!!!!
the music keeps on coming :D good work lily!!! ❤
Thank you so much for another comfy song. Keep up the good work Lily!
AAAAAA thank you lily you made my day with this release ❤❤💯💯 straight to my playlist
Another hit ! Your songs really are their own genre, Lily !
Lily's songs always sound unique. Love em!
a remix of this would go hard. like imagine the intro leading to a dope drop
lily i have been listening to this song on repeat since you released it this is my new favorite song ty
Another one for my 3AM existential playlist
I want to keep listening to you and let your helpful influence aid me. I'm so lucky to hear such a star in this space I occupy.
Omg that was so amazing from your voice, the music and the animation.😊
i love this one, your music is so comforting 😭 ILY LILY
Lily always delivers. Such amazing music!
im so obsessed with this song especially because it describes me so well. thank you for another masterpiece lily
no matter how long i spend on youtube i always end up finding my way back to ur new songs
The definition of comfi..your songs play in my head throughout the day especially at night mainly when I can't sleep..and I have to listen to feel at peace 🤧🤧
This song sounds absolutely fire!!! 🔥🔥🔥
this is my favourite song of yours so far! So amazing to see your style develop with every new song, excited to see you continue evolving!
YESS I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU TO RELEASE THIS SONG
Damn, this is fire!
wooooooah that was fantastic, wow--one of your best songs!! Also, the production was amazing, shout-out Farhan for absolutely killing it. Love those strings :D
ANOTHER GREAT BANGER. LILY DON'T MISS
Loved it, thank you for your songs, they're amazing and help a lot
The number of views on this video currently is a crime, should be much higher by now. Great work!
I LOVE YOUR MUSIC. YOUR MUSIC HAS BEEN GETTING SO MUCH AND SO MUCH BETTER THESE YEARS LILY!!!!
U are so talented lily! Oml!
I've been waiting for this since you posted it at the end of your YT video the other day LETS GOOOOOOOOO
this song immediately had me in my feels ;w; the melody and lyrics hit just right
Sooo excited ❤
This is a Bop! Great Song Lily!!
I liked it as soon as I heard it!! 😀
time and space ☀️🌕🧊🪵🔥🛸🏯
This song hits so hard!!
OH MY GOD I LOVE THIS SONG
This one is such a banger, the beat and lyrics are so catchy and relatable. It's beautiful!
Honestly really glad you started making music truly masterpieces making me feel things when everything is empty inside I appreciate you 😢
holy shit i just love this song so much this is the only thing im gonna listen to for like the next two weeks
Such a vibe, comfort and angst
this goes unnaturally hard
Idk why I'm late but gosh. I just love her songs. I wanna cry lol
I don't have a ceiling fan tho but still aaagh, I gotta listen to this more. My mind still stuck on "waiting for a sign" but goodness did all of her other songs help me when I didn't have internet but at least I had her music ;u;
Bro Farhan the GOAT
honestly her songs are getting better and better? GGs !
Oh my gosh 30 seconds in this is awesome
this is my favorite of your music videos holy
everything about this is just sooo great i can't even put it into words!
Oooooh. This is one of your most interesting songs. So many cool details