im suicidal, but im so thankful to have songs like this on the earth. Thanks to all the singers who making that. The only thing where i can put my emotions in. Much love.
If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
Hey bro, me too. But don't lose hope. I found my exit from that tunnel, and I believe that you can do it too. I know that is not easy, but at the end of the tunnel, everything will be better and you will feel that strange thing that most people call "happiness" (which is way better than you can think, trust me). And remember, if you need, we are always here for you.
Listen I'm not gonna bulls**t you and say everything going to be alright and life will be rainbows and butterflies, but I can say that eventually it won't hurt as bad. The longer we deal with the pain, the better we get at handling it. This song is definitely good. There's also a song called "This is what self-destruction feels like" this song is really good. I hope it helps and if you ever want to talk about it we all here.
I hope one day to come back to this song and not relate to it anymore and just seeing it as a touching song about a miserable lifetime I once had. Edit: It's been almost half a year and I'm still not at the place I want to be. But I feel a lot better now and just keep living, fighting. Every day. Thank you all for your comments, I sincerely hope you find happiness, luck and peace when you wish for it. You are so strong and beautiful!💕🍃
This lockdown is extra harsh when you’re an overthinker who constantly needs distractions to not feel sad or lonely Update: Thanks for all the likes everybody. These last few weeks have been rough. I constantly find myself trapped in my own mind. Every night I’m at war with my own thoughts and I’m constantly loosing every battle. My own thoughts want to take me out. I just wanted to say that I love you all and I hope you all find happiness because I feel that I will never find it
Yeah. I keep thinking that all of my friends are ignoring me and I start to think that they probably hate me when they’re probably just busy, but one can never know for sure
For me, it's absolutely worse because of my depression. School helped me distract myself from my mind but now I'm stuck in my house with nowhere to go 😔
Problems of being the nice friend : - No one ever asks you how you're doing. - You have the feeling that you need to make others smile. - No one notices it if you're in a dip bc you are used to not show your emotions bc they already have enough problems without you... *...*
•cry yourself to sleep •sit in bed for an hour in the morning contemplating life •put on a fake smile and go through the day •don’t let anyone know you aren’t ok Repeat, every day...
yk whats worse then that? people knowing youre not okay and knowing youre suicidal and just not caring and making it completely clear that they wouldnt care if you ended your life.
Am I the only one who has those days where you feel so worthless? Like you don't deserve anything and everything you do is a mistake but you keep denying it could even be depression... Same
You’re not alone. I feel that way too. I have 1 friend and I’m always worried I annoy her. I feel like my looks get me by but everyone hates my personality which is the one I can’t change. I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and have started seeing a therapist. I highly recommend it. It helps so much to have someone to talk to that cares and you know you aren’t bothering them with your problems cause they get paid
Miranda Boam my whole family has struggled with anxiety, ADHD, depression, and ect... But I always figured that Ill be the one who was fine. but lately my thoughts just get to me, even my best friend If she hangs out with someone I get super scared and jealous bc I feel like they are talking behind my back.. Im scared to talk to anyone abt it, I feel like they will judge me bc my life is perfectly fine.
I always feel like I’m being replaced when friends hang out with other people. I learned it’s a big part of BPD. You should look into videos of what life is like for people with BPD. I find a lot of comfort in hearing people describe the exact way I feel and knowing I’m not complete alone in feeling that way.
Thank you for being the one artist to not just discuss suicidal ideation but to give some of the reasons behind it. It's so validating even though it's painful.
the fact that we all relate to these lyrics just shows how broken we all are . but remember it's okie, because we're all here to support each other because we know how badly it hurts . have a wonderful day guys
I feel like I'm not even qualified to feel this sad. Everyone has valid reasons, everyone is going through a harder time than me to be listening to these songs and crying. I don't even know why im so sad suddenly anymore.
I'm sorry for your sadness. I wish I would personally know you to make you smile. The Marine Corps thought me that pain is weakness leaving your body. Let it out and be strong. You are important. Sorry I never meet you.
I hope you're doing better and okay! Just try to take care of yourself and remember that everything will get better, even if it takes some time. have a nice day :)
Ha me too. I mean, White single child in an upper-middle class family. Im just being a dramatic bitch. Haha, now I get why my brothers a drug addict, and to be honest I always knew why my cousin committed suicide. Wish I was that brave
@@audrey665 It hurts when you realize that the people who think they know you don't know you better than some random person on the internet that you saw by chance
Weirdo Jill sorry :( people don’t care enough to ask me so I know how you feel and it’s not fun. I hope everything gets better soon ❤️ remember it’s okay to be sad and cry. You deserve happiness too
and like, you have to say yes, because if you say no they'll ask you why, but they don't actually want to hear why, they just want to hear you say your fine and move on
@@urmum8977 This depends on who asks you this. Some people mean it and want to help you (or at least want to listen to you) and some people don't. But in this case it's their own fault. They shouldn't ask if they don't want to know the answer.
This song brings back the nights where I shed so many tears without anyone knowing. The silent cries, the silent nights, and the hurtful thoughts I had, and then goes out of my room with a smile on my face. Thank you for making this song, I felt understood.
Came back here with the same thoughts and feelings I had. The day will end and the sun will eventually shine. I'm going to be just fine. Even if I don't feel like it, still.. I believe that I can get through this, just like I always did.
@@umerrafiq5828 I'm sure you will find your way out of this cycle. But, i know what you mean and i would lie if i'd say your wrong. In live you will have a lot up and downs, but everyone can lern to dance in the rain, even you. You can't decide when happy times come and when bad times come, you can just decide what you do with the time thats given you. You don't have to be Happy all the time. Take yourself the time you need to stay up and go on.
I remember when I used to listen to this daily, I had a really hard time and everyday I didn’t think I had something to be here for and wanted to unalive myself. I haven’t listened to this for about a year already, I started started loving myself and being myself around people, I felt like a had something to live for and especially for myself. Im slowly getting over my biggest fears and it feels amazing 😊 So to those who are going through a hard time please keep on going it might take a month even years but it’s totally worth it at the end I love you and whoever reads this I hope you know that you’re strong
Thank you very much!❤️ I'm having a hard time and it's encouraging to think that I'm not alone.. and that there is hope. (My English is also not perfect.. ;) ) Thank you❣️
Your Creator says you were fearfully and wonderfully made stay just a moment longer and I will show you how this Dark world needs You...Yes all of you. Love God
@@oli.the.oddball it's not that u r a puppet, ur His son. He won't let u go through something that u can't handle. So stay strong cus at the end of the day, we all knew that God has an amazing plan for us..
I swear the FBI agent in my phone knows when I’m in a bad mood and always recommends songs that get me feeling better.. Thank you FBI agent, you're the best. (edit: this song is a bomb and I love it)
"Wonder what it's like to be OK" "Would you like me if i drank that" "Heavy from the hurt inside my veins" "If you wanted i could take that" "I'll do anything for love" "I don't feel like I'm enough" "I could promise if you knew me you would walk away" "Mama don't know what it's like to wanna die" These lines hit me hard Edit: didn't expect people to feel the same.
don’t know if anyone cares but i just came back to this song after about a year and a half of being completely clean and generally not slipping back into that depressive state of mind. i remember looking out of my window and begging a god that i don’t even believe in to end my pain. i wanted to die at that point in my life. i cried listening to this song again after a while, not really because i was sad, but because i was proud of hi far i’ve come and so badly wanted to give that girl crying in her bedroom every night a big hug and whisper ‘it will be ok’. i am a bit worried because during quarantine i feel i’ve started to slip into old, triggering habits. i don’t know if anyone will have read this far but i want to tell people going through the same thing i did, that even though at this point in time everything seems hopeless and life seems pointless, there is good around you and there is good to come. you’re at a rough chapter in your life, every character has them, but soon you’ll turn a page and it will start to get better, it’s all part of your story. i love you❤️
❤️❤️ I actually started tearing up after reading this ❤️❤️❤️ mainly because I know people who have gone through/are going through that and now, going through the comments here I'm seeing so many more people who are going through the same. Thank you, this is what we needed to see
I wish somebody would ask. Not because I could answer honestly but because this loneliness feels like a confirmation that I’m just worthless. That nobody would ever see my tears. That I don’t even need to hide because there’s no one to hide my feelings from. I’m just tired.
Same, but, what to do? When I'm sad my mom says, are you gonna make me sad too :( ? If it weren't for my mom I think I will not be here right now. So I just want she to be happy. If she's sad, at least don't will be my fault, and I'll can be there to help her. 🌌✨
I'm that friend. That friend that walks in the back if the side walk isn't big enough. That friend who gets left behind. That friend who has all their problems over looked. That friend who can't let out their feelings because "they have problems to". That friend who is "always sad". That friend who gets called dramatic if they try to let out their feelings. That friend who gets called toxic when they stand up for themselves That friend who only gets picked for partners in an odd group bc their smart I'm that friend.
I hope you're okay💓 don't give up, you can face it 💓one day everything will change to way you want it to be just... Just never ever give up okay💓 You're So Strong
"wonder what it's like to be ok" this hits hard, especially now that the only reason I am still trying to stay alive is because I don't want to hurt my family
Hey, are you okay? It’s okay to not be okay. I just wanna let you know people around you love you You’re important You’re special I love you I love you for you... And there is someone that cares about you. I need you to stay alive for me.. I know when I say it’s going to be okay you don’t believe me But I’ve been in this situation It all gets better at some point. And I need you to stay alive to see it
ill stay alive for you but I'm in pain if I do ill only e more sad I hear screaming in my head every sec when I sleep when I'm awake ill need wish I could end myself but id want too
Chares Argyris True happiness can only be found in God, for only He can meet the deepest yearnings of our hearts. Let me explain. You see, we aren't on this earth by accident. God created us, and He put us here for a reason: to know Him and to enjoy His presence in our lives, both now and throughout eternity. God even created us with an empty place in our hearts -- an empty place that He alone can fill. The Bible says, "He has also set eternity in the hearts of men" (Ecclesiastes 3:11). Whenever we try to fill that empty place with anything or anyone other than God, we are bound to fail. No matter how many things we have or how successful we are, that empty place is still there. But when we come to Christ, we discover that God loves us, and He makes us part of His family. More than that, He comes to live within us by His Holy Spirit. Think of it: God wants you to be part of His family forever -- beginning now. By faith turn to God and tell Him that you know you need Him. Then open your heart and life to Christ and ask Him to fill the empty places in your life. Jesus promised, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives" (John 14:27). Turn to Christ today and discover the joy and peace He alone can give. www.google.com/amp/s/www.seattlepi.com/news/amp/True-happiness-can-only-be-found-in-God-1213644.php
@@TheFulfilledPotential I see what you are saying and I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but I want to give you advice if you don't mind. What I think your problem is that you never actually let God in. God can heal, but you have to trust in him fully and ask him into your heart. If God can not heal you, then he is a weak God, but God is not weak, he created the earth, he created you and me, I promise he can and will heal you, but you have to trust that God can do it and you have to let him into your heart so he can work in your life or in other words, let God have to control! God loves you, he sent his only son (imagine sending your son to die the way Jesus died!) and that is how much he loves you. By Jesus dying on the cross, he paid the price of your sins. Trust that Jesus died and ask him into your heart, Let him take control and you will experience true happiness.
@@TheFulfilledPotential I use to believe there was a god that could heal and relieve you of your pain and suffering because he died on the cross for us. But I lost hope after being in fourth grade. My grandma had stage four colon cancer and the day before she died i sat by her bed for hours and just prayed for her to live and told her how much i loved her. She didn't talk anymore for about a month before she died because she was so sick but right after I stopped praying and told her i loved her for the last time before i went to bed she spoke and told me she loved me too. that was her last words before she died in front of me. I was so happy she said she loved me I freaked out and couldnt belive it. I thought she was going to get better... But when she died I stopped believing. my grandma went to church every sunday for her entire life and loved and belived in god. Its why I prayed for her. But I just couldnt belive in someone who when you pray for hours in desperate hope gives you a glimmer of hope and then lets a little boy watch his grandmother die.
I've dealt with depression my entire life and I always isolate. Then, I'll have a moment where I come back to life and then I have to wade through the wreckage of reality. Relationships dead. My self worth, dead. But damn it, I'M alive. I pray you all find balance and serenity. It seems like a dream someone else dreamt and I'm just trying to put it in a jar.
ever feel like you’ll never be enough? like no matter what you do it’s not enough for anyone you wanna disappear you don’t wanna die you just wanna disappear or go somewhere where no one knows you start over no one can judge you at all
I think Why people sing these kinda songs its because they wanna let people out there know that you aren't the only one going through the same bullshit.There are people feeling along with you but they don't show it.You know?
@@krishnier1576 Never, ever call someone selfish that doesn't make the situation better it just makes them feel worse you don't know what's going on in there life?! And many people do care! But they have enough and think it's the only way I've heard people say "I'm like a domino, and once I fall down everyone does to"
...i'm tired of acting everybody think i'm that funny girl who wants everyone to be happy..but did they know the pain i'm living..? yes i'm that "funny girl" who always put a smile on ppl faces, always by their side to help them..but they don't even ask about my day or even how i'm doing..atleast seiing ppl happy make me happy..?idk..i'm stuck in my bubble trynna get out but i can't..i tried for 5 years but i fail..i just wanna be free to be myself :) hoping one day my life change
Things will get better 🤍 I feel you. Things aren’t always the best though. I haven’t gotten any text from my “best friend” in months. And I’m supposed to be the “happy girl.” I’m in pain and so many thing have happened. No one knows what it’s like to be me but me. So I know how you feel. 🤍🤍
My best friend sent me this song. She’s attempted suicide and self harms, has been emotionally abused her whole life by her narcissistic mom and thinks everything is her fault. She’s my entire freaking world and the fact she feels like this absolutely breaks my heart. She’s the strongest most wonderful person I know and I thank God every day for her life and existence. Just know, if you feel like this, you are loved and valuable even if you can’t see your own worth or a way out of the pain. Please hang in there💜
My bff is the same I text her 24/7 to make sure that she texts me back if she doesn’t text back for a day I prepare for the worst news I feel so clingy but I mean after 3 years she’s still here so it’s working...? Cry knowing that she might not make it 18
I just want someone who would say "I know you're not okay" instead of asking "are you okay" I just want someone who really cares I just want someone who knows what I really feel I just want someone who would cheer me up the way I cheer others up I just want someone.... someone who can understand me.
Yeah when ppl asks "are you okay?" It feels like they are expecting "yes" as the answer and I personally can't say "no I'm not okay" so I juts go like "yep never better😆"
My chest feels so heavy while listening to this. Sad? No, it's more than that. It's frustrating because i want to cry so bad but I can't. I cant anymore. That exact feeling when you're hurting but can't express it anymore. It's killing me
When you don't even have it in you to cry anymore, that's when you know... The deafening silence.. The immense pain of pure numbness.. The overwhelming strength it takes to get out of bed.. That's how you know.....
Chin up you..the experience you have will make you a more wonderful person partner friend brother sister mum dad you will have total heart compassion for the right people in all circumstances throughout hard times you are stronger than you already no .xx
It forces us to feel, respond to the pain, to break the damn so we can't hold it in anymore, to cry, to let go of at least some weight... so that we can carry more because we know there's more to carry. I listen to these sad songs because i need to cry and i need to acknowledge how much pain im actually holding on to, so that I don't fool myself into thinking I'm fine. I hope everyone in these comments feel better soon... keep fighting.
It doesn’t matter if this song blows up or if millions of people here it. This will always be our song that we can come here to cry to. This song is for all of us here, because we should know that we are worth it. We all need this song
the holidays are the worst. seeing everyone so happy. you know you should be happy too. but your not. your faking a smile. your dying inside. i feel like i’m in hell. it’s an endless cycle where i feel like i might be okay. and then the next day i lose all hope.
I feel the same, when you see everybody happy, you realize how scared and lonely you are. I'm known as the girl who is smart and has a PERFECT LIFE when in truth I sometimes think that if I end it I can be happy, but I don't because it feels like giving up and I don't want to.
Yeah, When it Was my birthday I Smiled To Make My Family think I was happy, I Laughed to Make my Family Happy, But That Birthday I Felt So Depressed And I just Wanted to Run... Break Stuff... Just Wanted to See My best friend... But She Chose Someone over me...
I fucking hate Christmas!!! It's stupid that people need a date to give and share happiness, and everyone pretends that everyone it's having a great time and family it's the most important thing but December ends and everybody just get back to treat you like trash.
This song hits home for me. Living with depression is a constant fight. It's overwhelming and consuming. Lonely and tiring. Faking smiles and laughs almost feel like a chore.. Even on the sunniest of days, everything feels so gray and dull. Not wanting to die. Just wanting the pain to stop, but it feels endless. Constantly wondering what it's like to be normal, to feel true happiness. Always asking yourself why, why am I like this? Will I ever be okay? Too scared to talk to anyone about it because you feel like a burden, but you want someone to notice and be there for you. My heart goes out to anyone in this battle. I hope you overcome it and win❤
hey, you're doing great, even if all you can manage right now is existing. keep going and things'll turn out. i know it and i believe in you. swim to the top of that freezing ocean, even though it’s so cold it might as well be off the coast of nunavut, and breath. the water may fill your lungs right now, but if you keep going, and if you keep trying, eventually all the water will no longer be there. join me (maybe not me but you get it) on this black sand beach and breath. you'll soon be able to walk instead of having to swim. i've kind of seen that when people can't try anymore, when they need to stop to breath, it really turns out that they can keep going (just don't collapse 100 metres from the finish line, that would be kind of bad (it happened in cc one time, but that was literal running, i know you won't be cut short. the thing is though, they were so close, and it's not that they gave up, they just were really really hot (it was probably 40 degrees c, well, maybe not, but it felt like it was). it's just like you. you're close, but don't get heat stroke. you can keep running. you can keep swimming. you can keep climbing you mount life. you can. you can. you can. (now go forth and keep going, because this is getting long and really wholesome, which feels a bit weird for me)
Thank you for your music, Anson. Whether it’s an uplifting song, like Trying My Best, or a song where you just need to get how you’re feeling off your chest, I’m glad that I came across your music this past year. After 70+ rounds of ECT and the memory loss that has resulted, the only sure thing I’ll be able to remember is music. My love for it, my love for singing (tho I can’t bring myself to sing in front of others very often, if at all), and if I could change my course in life it would be choosing to be a musician. I may not have any talent with writing, and maybe even singing, but music is the only thing that can keep me grounded. That can help me feel, process, and cope with my thoughts and experiences. With all of the comments you get across your videos, you’ll probably never see this one… but I really wish I could sing with you. With my social anxiety I probably couldn’t bring myself to actually produce any sound, but maybe one day I can work up the courage to put my voice out there. So really, thank you again for sharing your music and your creativity, I hope you never stop.
it’s like you’re stuck... you can’t move you don’t want to move stuck sitting there tears rolling down your face throat becoming tense stomach drops everything starts aching more tears come down it just goes on and on and it starts a panic attack barely able to breathe and you just want someone a certain someone to come and give you a hug and just never let go and the bad part home is what causes it
● Same here , but I think God put all of us through this together so that it can benefits us later on in life and be much more stronger than those who didn't suffer , I'm being abused in all kinds of abusing by my mother , she doesn't treat us fairly because I'm the only daughter, she always says that she regret having me :" and also encourage my other brothers to hurt me physically and emotionally and control whatever I do , and she actually succeed in this because yesterday my brother and my older brother beat the shit out of me and hit me so hard , and I started praying for God to just take my soul and they replied "Amen" could u imagine how that feels .like the ones who supposed to protect u are making u insecure, they think that life is all about food and sleeping. ..etc . Although I try my best to be better everyday and they don't notice it , if anyone cannot feel safe when they're around their own family then who should u feel safe around, u basically lose trust , and all they do is blame u for everything even the day I was born ! The are so good at acting that everything is fine , lie up on lie .. and all of this under the name of " we are raising her , parents doesn't hate their child EVEr" and it blows our minds HOW ? This is can't be right , no parents should be treating their kids that way , you didn't creat your son/daughter God created them so they're not yours, they're blessing from God , you shouldn't be hurting them you shouldn't damage them , you should be taking care of them instead of hitting them ! It's so unfair. Especially for young girls, they can't defeat themselves, they just shut up because they're scared . It's so upsetting. . One day you'll be able to achieve your goals and you'll become what u want to become! And those tears on your face will be insh'allah the tears of JOY 💓 💔..
@@tofix3308 Hi I'm so so sorry to hear that. I've been through emotional and mental abuse from my family members but that's as far as it goes. I've never been hit physically so I got really sad hearing that you go through that. You posted this 4 months ago, are you somehow doing better now? And you seem to be muslim too? Anyways stay strong okay? :'(((
Is anyone else scared of crying or letting out their feelings in front of others because they might say your being silly or childish or irrational or they’ll just get laughed at or is it just me
“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.” ― Mark Twain
I broke down in tears listening to this song. This sums up everything I’ve been feeling lately. This quarantine isn’t making anything better either, it’s making me feel worse.
I have been struggling with depression for a while and have been suicidal. I used to hurt myself but because of songs like this that helped me get better, i am now almost 5 months sober from self harm. Thank you so much. You saved my life
Wow. I just want to tell you how grateful I am for your music; it's honestly so unique and beautiful, and the first time I've found anything that I feel compelled to listen to on repeat. If hard times are motivating you to write your songs, please know that there a whole host of people who value you for understanding hardship enough to produce music that gives voice to their struggles and thoughts.
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I cry myself to sleep sometimes, most of the time I can’t even smile or frown or cry because I feel so empty. I have so much anxiety and my family doesn’t believe me, so I don’t tell them how I feel. I’ve been trying to throw hints at them for so long and nothing is getting better and they aren’t catching on but I can’t just tell them. I want to die so bad but I’m too scared and I can’t take it anymore... everything changed a couple of years ago and so many bad things have been happening since then and I don’t know what to do and I want to tell my mom so bad but I don’t want her to think that it’s her fault...
I'll be honest i don't know you, so I'm not fussed about what happens to you so know what I'm saying is what i think and not what I'm saying just to make you feel better. Fuck your ma's feelings. Her job is to look after you and show you how to do that on your own when you have to be independent. If she is failing in those departments then the lady has got to rectify that. All you are doing by saving her feelings is making your problems worse and that's just gonna make things harder for the both of you when you got to face it. If she doesn't believe you then it is partly her fault.
Tell your mom this: Mom, we need to talk. (When she says ok) Mom this isnt your fualt its just that i feel so empty and some days i just want to die. Can you please help me?
Being born as a person with a disability that forces me to limit my interaction with other people, this song somehow comforts me when times are really lonely and I would wish I was born differently
2019 has sucked. i got broken up with someone who had been dating me for 3 years. one friend died in a car crash. another friend took their life. my depression and anxiety are just getting worse. i’m back to the therapist. my mom is sick with a chronic illness. my grandma has cancer. my great grandpa died. my baby cousin is on a breathing machine. i have barely any friends, only a few. only one who understands. but yet every. single. day. i put on a smile, i help my classmates who cry, but most of them are crying because there boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with them. i’ve lost friends from trying to help them, they say i don’t understand what it’s like to cry myself asleep because i am always smiling. always happy. little does anyone know that i cry more then humanly imaginable. i cry so much that pillows will get soaked after i cry on them. i’m so young too, 16 years old. i know that the most hurt people most the time seem to be the happiest. which is where a little speech comes in, if your friend seems happy, obviously there’s a high possibility that they ARE happy. but look into their eyes, do they look hurt? you may not think you know what the look of hurt looks like, but once you see it, you’ll know exactly what it is. then, if you see that look, start being there more then ever. ask them if they’re ok. they’re going to say yes... but just keep asking. if they ask why you’re asking then tell them: “you look hurt, i don’t think you’re ok.” some friends are stubborn but eventually they’ll open up. just remember that they’re going through something bad, so be patient with them. EDIT: thank you so much for the support it means everything🥺 and if any of y’all need to talk text me @ 7122303144
I don't know what your name is.. I don't know who you are.. all I can tell you is this. What you wrote made me cry. I know that wishing can't do anything, but I honestly wish for you to someday somehow manage to find peace within yourself. I don't know how to say this.. I just know hopelessness. I wish I could help you like you've helped people. I wish, but I probably can't do shit, since I don't know you, but what I want you to know is that you're fucking amazing. You're amazing for putting on a smile, for feeling what true pain is like, and not letting yourself be a broken person. And by "broken person", I certainly don't mean a sad person. I know you're sad. But, you know, from my own understanding.. the people that are so sad, also end up being rude, selfish, angry, sociopathic kind of people. And I'm not blaming them. But that's truly what you'd call "broken". And I'm very proud of you.. and no, I don't know you, but I don't need to know you to be proud of you. I just know that little piece of you, and that's enough for me. You are the reason I want to keep going.. people like yourself. I like to see that. I like to see people who refuse to break, even when they are depressed, anxious, hopeless, everyday.. I do want to encourage you, but I mostly said what I said for the sake of honesty. I do truly believe you're amazing, aside from just complimenting you.. and.. I know it's not enough to fix your problems.. but I hope it can make you feel, even, just slightly better than how you've been feeling a minute ago. I'm sorry if this is too emotional, or too long, or too of anything.
You're a warrior. A fucking blessing in this shitty universe. I don't know why things had to happen that way. Why? Why something happens the way it happens? But I believe for the human whose own heart is hurt and wrapped in chaos is putting effort to soothe other souls, must be adorned with peace and goodness and endless appreciation. Thank you for existing. Thank you for being so kind and humane. Thank you for spreading goodness. I'm a total stranger to you but we're under the same sky and I'm proud of you. Please pat yourself and scream these words at yourself "I'm enough and I'm so worthy ". You deserve the Universe. Take love from a 19 year old brother.
It is kind of weird that I feel like I am being addicted to pain and sadness. Like, I know I am not okay but I keep on looking for this kind of sad music and sad movies and drown myself in the sadness because somehow I find comfort in being more and more depressed. I don't know, I feel like depression is kind of addicting and now I realize how dangerous this feeling is :')
It’s my only shred of personality I have left. I gotta cling to it. I don’t even remember what it’s like to be happy. I don’t remember my personality outside of my depression and anxiety.
Me too ,but I think that is it ,cause the times when we're drying alone ,it is painfull but at tge same time,the only moment when we don't need to act ,where we can be ourselves ❤😔
@@KingKlobber remembering it is hard as well. you remember how it felt to be okay and the feeling slips through your fingers. it hurts knowing that there is such a thing as happy.
I don’t think that it’s so much that you find comfort in being more depressed but that the songs put your hurt into words when you can’t if that makes sense?
The agony, The chaos that we have inside. All of the pain that we couldn't cry out. It's just, sometimes it's too heavy to even do something about it. You just let it go. No tears, no rant's. You just wrap it in silence. Have you ever done that? Well, I've had. Somehow songs like this, it doesn't change everything inside but somehow, it lessens the pain that eventually, it's like it's not there. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SONGS ANSON ❤️🍁
I think the part of this that hits is the "would you like me if I drank that, if you wanted I could take that" I work so hard to mold myself into someone easier for my loved ones to hold and carry because I know I am a burden and I'd do anything to put them at ease. Of all the artists, your lyrics resonate in a hollow space in me that echoes with your words and resounds with "they understand" I cannot thank you enough for making such emotions into tangible things, for shedding beauty and understanding where despair often reigns. You pull your listeners up for air and it is the kindest thing you could do. Here's to you and all the progress you make. May life extend your reach because Lord knows the world needs to hear you.
I have the same problem, i try to be someone else. Almost everyone Hates me and i try anything to be liked. Because of that i have done that for so long i cant change back anymore😢😢
During quarantine.. I just realised that I’m not having anyone to count on. No texts.. not even an are you okay or how you doing I could respond to with lies. I miss lying about being okay because these loneliness - just seems worse.I don’t know how to survive anymore. I can’t even say I don’t want people to be sad because they just moved on. It’s just me and my thoughts. The past 2 years were the worst of my life. Bad things happened countless times but I thought.. ''at least I’ve got someone to count on''. But now? I feel like drowning and I don’t know what to hold on to. I WANT a life - I’m just tired. Tired of living this life. I can’t carry this anymore. Please, if anyone is reading this... pray for me. I feel like loosing my faith.
Hey you:) I sincerly hope you are doing okay. I don't know if this will help you but reading your comment I had the great urge to answer you. I am sure you are a great person and I wanted to tell you that I am really astonished by the way you are dealing with your thoughts and feelings. It will be okay because you are strong. You can get help and you will find people strong enough to carry you for a bit, before you are able to keep going on on your own. It will work out because you have such a strong will. And if it gives you more strenght, I'm praying for you
It’s gonna be ok, don’t lose faith, you got this, when you are through you’ll be stronger than anyone, if you need to talk to someone here’s my number 9095169272, I truely hope you get better we all need time
*I'm used to being the happy kid the one that everyone can trust with their problems but I have no one to talk to so I just pretend to be the happy kid that always cracks jokes till my cover is exposed.*
I’m a Mama & I understand… & the only reason I’m still here is because of my 2 young boys that depend on me to show them what love is supposed to be like. The thoughts that envelop someone struggling with depression are uncontrollable & overwhelmingly devastating, to feel like this world would be better off without you like your presence is not beneficial or a burden is heart wrenching. I can’t imagine one of my boys feeling this agony & I would go to the ends of the earth to protect them… I would face any torture, any pain, any devastation, any depression, anything with every piece of my being, & be wanting to disappear but I will never leave them like that, nor will I let them believe that they weren’t enough to make me stay, that they weren’t everything I ever hoped for & that they aren’t important enough to make me fight with everything I have & everything I am to prove to them that our love is stronger then my weaknesses & that they are the most amazing, special & perfectly made people in my world & that I deeply love them unconditionally in every way, everyday & will now always & forever. What I have always told them is that I fell in love with them at first beat because the second I heard their little heart beating over the baby monitor I was hooked they changed my world end I would go through everything every pain every heartache everything all over again with a smile on my face if I knew that they were at the end so knowing that I can do the same now that I have them because they deserve to have a mothers love & no one can ever love them the way I do. I need them to know that’s how I feel. And I’m sure there’s a lot of other parents who love their children the same a lot of your parents all of you young kids and adults reaching out for love acceptance and understanding you’re worth it whether you believe it or not you are you’re special and priceless and irreplaceable there’s only one of you in this whole universe and this world needs you for some reason or other it needs you and you’re strong enough to stay to find out even though sometimes it doesn’t feel like you are I promise you are, please don’t give up. Life is not easy or fair it’s what you decide it’s going to be so surround yourself with only positivity & force yourself to be positive temporarily, & it will make a make a difference. I’m sending you all some love… even if the sun doesn’t shine & it’s not ok. Your Special & you have purpose & your loved.
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
@@reneaaragon7886 I know things may be hard but I think it's worth it. I know where you're coming from cause I feel the same way about my sister. I hope things get better for you and your fam ❤️
Today I found my story written on this song…today I realized God is my only company and the only that will always understand me. I don’t feel human anymore…
This hits so close to home. I think the biggest burden is feeling you have to be "ok"...that word is a superficial unrealistic expectation. we are human, we struggle, we fall we pick ourselves back up. that line you said about wondering what it's like to be ok that's so powerful bc that's the burden and expectation we put on ourselves when we are in a dark hard place like we are the only one who has ever felt this pain. This song is so powerful because it let's us know we're not... sorry for the long rant lol but in short I loved it
“ I can’t carry this anymore “ such a short sentence with a powerful meaning. Life is cruel and will beat you to your knees until u can’t get up. But I promise you, YOU CAN get up. YOU CAN arise above the hardships of life. I know it gets dark and hopeless but PLEASE listen to me. The harder life pushes u down the BIGGER the comeback will be. If you HIT a wall in life DO NOT stop, do what is TAKES to get passed YOUR wall. EVERYONE HITS a WALL in life, and some people stop at that wall, but not you, YOU will breakthrough that wall. I PROMISE you when you pass that wall you will think “that was hard but I made it” but it does not stop there, your journey will continue to HIT you with WALLS but in the end you will KNOW “ I carried all of THAT, yet I still came out holding that load like I OWNED it” so please. Carry that load a little longer
"Tell my maker up above that I have had enough" really hits hard for me. I wanted to..... rest. I'm tired with nothing else to do. I'm drowning with all the expectations they have for me. I've fallen out of love with loving myself. In this game we called life, we only got one chance. People are willing to do anything just to play one more time. And here I am, sending requests everyday to the creator up above, to void my account.
If God hasn't called you home yet, it's because he still needs you here. You have a purpose in His plan, and He loves you more than you could ever comprehend. Sending prayers. Fight on.
For anyone who's reading this just now that you're not alone I've been in pain even hurting myself but just no that you still have people that still love you so no matter what comes in your way just no that there will be happiness in the future so don't think that your life is useless because life will get better just no I've been in the same thing depression anxiety and all that stuff but if you need to talk it out I'm here for you ❤
@@dawnmarie8007 how you gonna tell me to not state my beliefs then proceed to shove your beliefs down my throat as if they were proven facts 💀 what’s your proof? You forgot to include it. Also, I know many people believe in him but they shouldn’t. The idea of a god is innocent at face value, but deep down at its core it’s just evil and sadistic and dangerous.
Ok, I took down my comment. If you want it so badly, my life became so much brighter when I accepted the lord. In my religion, it is my solemn duty to tell people about him in hopes they will accept him. Other people will not be respectful in arguments. My simple request was to please avoid other arguments. Thank you for letting me talk to you and please have a good day. I will pray for you😊
The hardest part of depression is when it hurts to do anything and no one knows your depressed so they just call you lazy and say you don't care about there health but really every morning you try so hard to just force a smile or laugh, trust me i would know. Leave a reply of your story.
yeah, Every Morning I Try to Get Up In Five seconds bc i have to... But My Whole Body hurts And I just Want to Fall And Cry... But My Mom Is Always There Watching me, So I can't And I go Out Side And Bang My Arm on the Wooden Fence before Opening it an d letting out my dogs.. And No One Notices, When i Tell My Friends That i need Help All they Say is "It'll me Okay, God Will help" But God Killed My Best friend... And Now I Cry When I Go to Sleep... Because I Couldn't help... And Now I Don't rant, But Others Rant to me... And I Just Want to help Others, My Friends Is Like The Only People Who care s About My Health... And I Lie To My friends Telling them That Im Okay, They Think Its True And That Just makes me Hurt even more... That they Don't Understand Everyday I Say "I'm Great! Why Wouldn't I?!..." Why can't They understand?!
it takes me 20 minutes to get out of bed in the morning but even then it’s hard. if i don’t get up my mom gets upset because i make me and my sister late for school but when i tell her i used to spend 45 minutes in bed she said it was absurd. i’ve been getting so slow recently and during volleyball and volleyball has literally saved me from seriously wanting to kms. it’s so freaking stupid i’m so done
@@depremonkey I was the exact ssame before i joined my hs volleyball team.. i think they fr saved my life. ive built relationships that i feel will last a long time in only a few months and i couldbt be more greastful. srry for all the misspells and atuff.. i broke my finger playing last friday and im going throujg a bit of a rough patch (hence why i came back to this aong).. anyways, my point is that you just have to keep going. i know i sound like everyone else but trust me, i was where you were and i - i just csnt even put into words how much my vb team has helped. let them in, they can help you.. much love
Anson, you wrote something that hit my heart so badly I can't even speak. Every lyric, note, and key echo through my head all day and night, and it's a sad reminder of our world. And though most people fail to see this, you've sparked over 72,000 people's hearts with a dagger of hope, that there's someone out there going through the same thing as them. Thank You.
I try so hard to have a good time everyday, keep the people in my life happy, to have fun, make memories but each moment of each day is such a struggle to not slip back into a very dark place mentally. Even accepting love & kindness is so hard when you feel like an open wound. It gets so exhausting living with the fear of breaking down, falling apart any moment. The ghost of the past follows me everywhere, I don't know if I'll ever recover from this. Tonight was especially difficult and I couldn't do anything to calm myself down, I have college tomorrow and got only a few hours to sleep. This comment section really helped to soothe the clenched feeling of the heart and the बेचैनी of the mind. Thanks for existing y'all kind souls, wishing, praying it stops hurting for you too.❤️
If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
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Anson Seabra this is beautiful
thanks for discribing my everyday feelings🖤
Don`t give up @@gracienicole5047
Everythime I feel sad I listen to your song and they calm me very much
What was your inspiration for this song ? I liked it , it's a song I can listen to on repeat.😊
The worst pain to feel is no tears, no noise... just the *pain*
Yep
I wanna cry but I can’t I’m trying but... nothing is happening
I am at a point that I hardly cry anymore.
The worst part is when you feel numb & empty. It usually happens after the pain part
i don't cry anymore really
i don’t wanna end my life, i just want this thing inside of me to escape..
Agree
I don't want to say the "someone loves you" stuff, but don't forget to turn on the light sometimes
Sending you virtual hugs
you have to be strong and beat that thing inside u cause believe me I know that u can do it ❤
Mya Janego Same, I wish I could convey that to my mother without worrying her.
I miss the nights when I went to bed without tears in my eyes.
Same
Agreed
I envy the 12 year old me who cried because she got a bad grade on a test. I wish I could just go back in time.
Me too
same ;/
im suicidal, but im so thankful to have songs like this on the earth. Thanks to all the singers who making that. The only thing where i can put my emotions in. Much love.
If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts thank you
Hey bro, me too. But don't lose hope. I found my exit from that tunnel, and I believe that you can do it too. I know that is not easy, but at the end of the tunnel, everything will be better and you will feel that strange thing that most people call "happiness" (which is way better than you can think, trust me). And remember, if you need, we are always here for you.
You're not alone in this. Jesus loves you so much, and even if you don't believe in Him, please remember that you are loved!
Do song really heal you baka you are just a weak soul telling your mere feelings to strangers
The feeling of crying inside with no tears flowing just really hurts so bad
Yep I want to but I can’t cry
I'm just too numb from the pain that I don't think I'm able to cry anymore
Yes I wish I had the ability to cry
yes i knowwww
I still can flowing tears from my eyes.. but this is silent cries and that's hurt until it feel numb-everytime
I don’t want to die, I just want to close my eyes and finally, feel alright.
You will be alright. Just find something that you care about. Whatever it is do it. Smile and be happy.
This is what I was like I listened to this song when I was suicidal and I woke up with birds chirping and the sun ready
that song helps :)
Same
Listen I'm not gonna bulls**t you and say everything going to be alright and life will be rainbows and butterflies, but I can say that eventually it won't hurt as bad. The longer we deal with the pain, the better we get at handling it. This song is definitely good. There's also a song called "This is what self-destruction feels like" this song is really good. I hope it helps and if you ever want to talk about it we all here.
I hope one day to come back to this song and not relate to it anymore and just seeing it as a touching song about a miserable lifetime I once had.
Edit: It's been almost half a year and I'm still not at the place I want to be. But I feel a lot better now and just keep living, fighting. Every day.
Thank you all for your comments, I sincerely hope you find happiness, luck and peace when you wish for it.
You are so strong and beautiful!💕🍃
me too :(
Relatable
You can do it. Bake a cherry pie when that day is come 🍒 😌love you
Same here. Every day is a struggle to make that happen one day...
I hope that for you too. I get u
pretending to be okay is harder than battling depression itself
I mean yeah
I just gave up and hide away in my room , easier to be alone, cant get hurt, cant dissapoint, no one to hurt but me when im alone
I
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Do you ever have those awful days where you’re so sad that you can’t even cry? Cause same.
Everyday, for years now .
I can only cry whenever I drink... so I drink
that’s turned into everyday for me.
IamRael me too
Yep. Every single day
This lockdown is extra harsh when you’re an overthinker who constantly needs distractions to not feel sad or lonely
Update: Thanks for all the likes everybody. These last few weeks have been rough. I constantly find myself trapped in my own mind. Every night I’m at war with my own thoughts and I’m constantly loosing every battle. My own thoughts want to take me out. I just wanted to say that I love you all and I hope you all find happiness because I feel that I will never find it
I'm an over thinker too, and its been hard on me also. Just know that you have to stay strong and you'll be able to go back to everything!❤️
Yeah. I keep thinking that all of my friends are ignoring me and I start to think that they probably hate me when they’re probably just busy, but one can never know for sure
Word to that
For me, it's absolutely worse because of my depression. School helped me distract myself from my mind but now I'm stuck in my house with nowhere to go 😔
Ans when you need to constantly need to be surrounded with people cause you’re scared of yourself and what you might do if you’re alone for too long
Problems of being the nice friend :
- No one ever asks you how you're doing.
- You have the feeling that you need to make others smile.
- No one notices it if you're in a dip bc you are used to not show your emotions bc they already have enough problems without you...
*...*
Hii!! how are you ✨❤️
Are u ok
Right
Me.. 💔
Never found a more relatable comment
“Mama said the sun gonna shine but mama don’t know what it’s like to want to die.” Hit hard yet amazing for crying your heart out
Wanna be friend :)
•cry yourself to sleep
•sit in bed for an hour in the morning contemplating life
•put on a fake smile and go through the day
•don’t let anyone know you aren’t ok
Repeat, every day...
Color POPlife is endless cycle psychological torture
If only they knew
yk whats worse then that? people knowing youre not okay and knowing youre suicidal and just not caring and making it completely clear that they wouldnt care if you ended your life.
completamente es un ciclo sin fin en mi vida actualmente
Ok thanks for idea
Am I the only one who has those days where you feel so worthless? Like you don't deserve anything and everything you do is a mistake but you keep denying it could even be depression... Same
You’re not alone. I feel that way too. I have 1 friend and I’m always worried I annoy her. I feel like my looks get me by but everyone hates my personality which is the one I can’t change. I got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and have started seeing a therapist. I highly recommend it. It helps so much to have someone to talk to that cares and you know you aren’t bothering them with your problems cause they get paid
Miranda Boam my whole family has struggled with anxiety, ADHD, depression, and ect... But I always figured that Ill be the one who was fine. but lately my thoughts just get to me, even my best friend If she hangs out with someone I get super scared and jealous bc I feel like they are talking behind my back.. Im scared to talk to anyone abt it, I feel like they will judge me bc my life is perfectly fine.
same
I always feel like I’m being replaced when friends hang out with other people. I learned it’s a big part of BPD. You should look into videos of what life is like for people with BPD. I find a lot of comfort in hearing people describe the exact way I feel and knowing I’m not complete alone in feeling that way.
I'm here for you. My Instagram is whoaa.alley if you ever want to DM me and need someone to talk to. Stay stronf Love.
"Mama said the sun will shine; But Mama dont know what i feels like to wanna die."
How many people can relate to this?
💔💔
Me 💓-💔
savana mathews me ...
Too Much
I wish I could say I can't relate but...
Thank you for being the one artist to not just discuss suicidal ideation but to give some of the reasons behind it. It's so validating even though it's painful.
My depression want me to die but my anxiety is scared to
We love you ❤️
We love you❤️
Same
IO love you
survive the covid 19
the fact that we all relate to these lyrics just shows how broken we all are .
but remember it's okie, because we're all here to support each other because we know how badly it hurts . have a wonderful day guys
i Love you
thank you
💕
Aw this made me smile:)
But when will it get better? When will all the pain go away?
I feel like I'm not even qualified to feel this sad. Everyone has valid reasons, everyone is going through a harder time than me to be listening to these songs and crying. I don't even know why im so sad suddenly anymore.
I'm sorry for your sadness. I wish I would personally know you to make you smile. The Marine Corps thought me that pain is weakness leaving your body. Let it out and be strong. You are important. Sorry I never meet you.
@@davidvargas9549 😔you absolutely made my day...thank you so much
I hope you're doing better and okay! Just try to take care of yourself and remember that everything will get better, even if it takes some time. have a nice day :)
Ha me too. I mean, White single child in an upper-middle class family. Im just being a dramatic bitch. Haha, now I get why my brothers a drug addict, and to be honest I always knew why my cousin committed suicide. Wish I was that brave
@@Kitsune-gx7km hey no don't say that, u have a right to feel however u feel even if other people dont think that reason is good enough
"I wonder what it's like to be ok". This hit me so hard. 😢
I forgot the feeling of feeling ok
sad some of will never know
I feel like in the comment section we are like a family
A very broken family.
It is, we're all a family from different countries, from different cultures and religions:)♡
And it hurts that the people in the comment section of sad songs understand me more than my own family and "friends"
@@audrey665 It hurts when you realize that the people who think they know you don't know you better than some random person on the internet that you saw by chance
@@audrey665 wow that hit hard. Sadly, I have to agree. I feel the same...
I hate when they ask “are you okay?”
Because that’s just another reminder that I’m not..
Weirdo Jill sorry :( people don’t care enough to ask me so I know how you feel and it’s not fun. I hope everything gets better soon ❤️ remember it’s okay to be sad and cry. You deserve happiness too
and like, you have to say yes, because if you say no they'll ask you why, but they don't actually want to hear why, they just want to hear you say your fine and move on
@@urmum8977 This depends on who asks you this. Some people mean it and want to help you (or at least want to listen to you) and some people don't. But in this case it's their own fault. They shouldn't ask if they don't want to know the answer.
That hit different but let's be honest we also say we are good even if we are not tho when they say that xx ❤️
Exactly
I feel like I’m drowning and everyone’s just standing there watching me struggle.
chanmp3 That is what I always related my pain to when I was going through a different kind of depression just a few months ago… now it is different.
Same worst part is when they judge you for so
I love you
Want me to jump in and save you?
And some of the people watching ate telling you 'just swim'😭
This song brings back the nights where I shed so many tears without anyone knowing. The silent cries, the silent nights, and the hurtful thoughts I had, and then goes out of my room with a smile on my face. Thank you for making this song, I felt understood.
Came back here with the same thoughts and feelings I had. The day will end and the sun will eventually shine. I'm going to be just fine. Even if I don't feel like it, still.. I believe that I can get through this, just like I always did.
*Depressed people don’t want to die... They just want the pain to stop...*
Absolutely this 😢
I wish all the happy ppl could know this
EXACTLTLPYLY
so true, people just dont understand
I felt that bad
“Momma said it’s gonna be alright... momma don’t know what it’s like in my mind”
That got me goosebumbs, i honestly started crying right here
Once i said "i can't carry this anymore", today i can say "i don't carry this anymore".
@LinaMarie
Love this.💖
HEY I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! 💗
I finally understand what that meant. I let go of my past and now i understand what you meant
but as soon as you think it's gone, it comes back and in an even worse way. The cycle just doesn't stop.
@@umerrafiq5828 I'm sure you will find your way out of this cycle. But, i know what you mean and i would lie if i'd say your wrong. In live you will have a lot up and downs, but everyone can lern to dance in the rain, even you. You can't decide when happy times come and when bad times come, you can just decide what you do with the time thats given you. You don't have to be Happy all the time. Take yourself the time you need to stay up and go on.
I remember when I used to listen to this daily,
I had a really hard time and everyday I didn’t think I had something to be here for and wanted to unalive myself.
I haven’t listened to this for about a year already, I started started loving myself and being myself around people, I felt like a had something to live for and especially for myself.
Im slowly getting over my biggest fears and it feels amazing 😊
So to those who are going through a hard time please keep on going it might take a month even years but it’s totally worth it at the end
I love you and whoever reads this I hope you know that you’re strong
Thank you for sharing this and giving those of us out there that are still struggling hope. ♡
@@PokeCallie 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼
I won't ever be ok
Thank you very much!❤️ I'm having a hard time and it's encouraging to think that I'm not alone.. and that there is hope. (My English is also not perfect.. ;) ) Thank you❣️
Thank you ❤
“Tell my maker up above that i have had enough” HIT ME
mollie b Dude same
Your Creator says you were fearfully and wonderfully made stay just a moment longer and I will show you how this Dark world needs You...Yes all of you. Love God
Same
@@oli.the.oddball it's not that u r a puppet, ur His son. He won't let u go through something that u can't handle. So stay strong cus at the end of the day, we all knew that God has an amazing plan for us..
Mood
"But Mama don't know whats its like to wanna die" HIT DIFFERENT
I’m on the suicide watch and I’m 16 days clean from self harm ✌️
You can do this.
No one notice your pain
No one notice your tears
No one notice you stress
They just notice your mistakes
THIS
Holy fuck this is so..true
Yep
So so true my friend.
:)
It's almost therapeutic to find songs like this, the ones that I can legit feel in my heart, I don't feel as alone
most def not alone
I swear the FBI agent in my phone knows when I’m in a bad mood and always recommends songs that get me feeling better..
Thank you FBI agent, you're the best.
(edit: this song is a bomb and I love it)
Sooooo related
you re
It’s me YOU KNOW WHAT ITS SUMMER VACATION-
This is such a mood
@@Itsme-fo7xf You're*
"Wonder what it's like to be OK"
"Would you like me if i drank that"
"Heavy from the hurt inside my veins"
"If you wanted i could take that"
"I'll do anything for love"
"I don't feel like I'm enough"
"I could promise if you knew me you would walk away"
"Mama don't know what it's like to wanna die"
These lines hit me hard
Edit: didn't expect people to feel the same.
Peace out same bro
God I’m crying now
Same...
So true 😭and the bit that says tell my maker up above that ive had enough that hits so hard
@Peace Out @LucyTheEvilFox @Corrupted Griffin @Kaci Rush all of you can talk to me if need be. ill listen
Same I’m depressed
“Mama said the sun’s gonna shine, but she don’t know what it’s like to want to die” I felt that...😢
I wish, I would just felt it. But I experienced it.
Same
Alexis .D same
Same
Alexis .D same but it’ll be okay. hopefully you’re doing better.
i have autism, this song is just simply beautiful. It speaks to me in so many ways. It makes me feel a little more understood. Thanks, Anson.
Yeah me too
"Are you okay?"
How I wish there's someone would actually say that.
Are you oke?
@@malinzgraggen299 thank you 🤭 i'd really appreciate that 😍
@@malinzgraggen299 thank you 🤭 really appreciate it 😍
@@malinzgraggen299 i hope you're okay too 😊
People say it all the time. They just don’t actually want to hear our problems. They just wanna hear you say I’m fine.
don’t know if anyone cares but
i just came back to this song after about a year and a half of being completely clean and generally not slipping back into that depressive state of mind. i remember looking out of my window and begging a god that i don’t even believe in to end my pain. i wanted to die at that point in my life. i cried listening to this song again after a while, not really because i was sad, but because i was proud of hi far i’ve come and so badly wanted to give that girl crying in her bedroom every night a big hug and whisper ‘it will be ok’. i am a bit worried because during quarantine i feel i’ve started to slip into old, triggering habits. i don’t know if anyone will have read this far but i want to tell people going through the same thing i did, that even though at this point in time everything seems hopeless and life seems pointless, there is good around you and there is good to come. you’re at a rough chapter in your life, every character has them, but soon you’ll turn a page and it will start to get better, it’s all part of your story. i love you❤️
❤️❤️
❤️❤️ I actually started tearing up after reading this ❤️❤️❤️ mainly because I know people who have gone through/are going through that and now, going through the comments here I'm seeing so many more people who are going through the same. Thank you, this is what we needed to see
Thank you for sharing maggie, just got on antidepressant I have to keep fighting
❤❤
I’m so proud of you❤️ thank you for giving other people that see your comment, including me have hope❤️
Everyone here complains about when they have to lie when people ask if your ok.
It hurts when you can act so well nobody even asks
Yeah I know that.
I wish somebody would ask. Not because I could answer honestly but because this loneliness feels like a confirmation that I’m just worthless. That nobody would ever see my tears. That I don’t even need to hide because there’s no one to hide my feelings from. I’m just tired.
Ama Sophie My feeling exactly no one even thinks to ask or notice that’s why it hurts so bad
Same, my friends think im crazy
Same, but, what to do? When I'm sad my mom says, are you gonna make me sad too :( ? If it weren't for my mom I think I will not be here right now. So I just want she to be happy. If she's sad, at least don't will be my fault, and I'll can be there to help her. 🌌✨
The chuckle at the 2:57 Where he says
I can't carry this anymore.
I feel those who are truly in pain know how much pain is in that chuckle.
*Deadly.*
What is more deadly,a gun or a thought?
A gun gives you the opportunity,but a thought pulls the trigger.
Dang, That's true
words are the fuel.
Ahh shitt😭
@@your.local_ghost the words is the bullet
w o a h
I need to cry,
to let it all out
but I can't,
My body won't let me...
Neither will mine.
I feel you on that one. Like I feel the pain and feel like crying but I can't. No matter how hard I try, my body wont let me.
We're in the same boat then...
I wanna cry, let it all out, but same as you
My body won’t let me cry
@@moonish_ yea. Not being able to cry is frustrating sometimes
I'm that friend.
That friend that walks in the back if the side walk isn't big enough.
That friend who gets left behind.
That friend who has all their problems over looked.
That friend who can't let out their feelings because "they have problems to".
That friend who is "always sad".
That friend who gets called dramatic if they try to let out their feelings.
That friend who gets called toxic when they stand up for themselves
That friend who only gets picked for partners in an odd group bc their smart
I'm that friend.
I’m going trough the same. It hurts!Everybody is just talking about themselves and no one is listening to my problems:)I just want to die
Melinda 77 I'm here for you! If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here! I know how it feels and it sucks but don't die.
No One Thank you! I’m there for you too! Life sucks!! I just can’t anymore
Melinda 77 yeah
I hope you're okay💓 don't give up, you can face it 💓one day everything will change to way you want it to be just... Just never ever give up okay💓 You're So Strong
"wonder what it's like to be ok"
this hits hard, especially now that the only reason I am still trying to stay alive is because I don't want to hurt my family
*Being depressed😔 is like living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that wants to die*
i love you, and i care for you ♡ you have to know that you deserve the entiere fcking world, because you are BRAVE, and you WORTH IT !!
That's right
@@bleuennquerel8728 you are the good person, keep it up, :(
And a soul that just wants to be free
it really is..
Hey, are you okay?
It’s okay to not be okay.
I just wanna let you know people around you love you
You’re important
You’re special
I love you
I love you for you...
And there is someone that cares about you.
I need you to stay alive for me..
I know when I say it’s going to be okay you don’t believe me
But I’ve been in this situation
It all gets better at some point.
And I need you to stay alive to see it
Øne_bîtch thank you for loving me for me, even though you don’t know me. you got me crying
I don't agree.. Sorry.. I have had fake friends.. Fake lies.. Everything builds up.. The judgement.. Laughing.. I can't.. I just can't..
Øne_bîtch I cant trust people anymore. They expose,backstab,rumors,betray me and end up asking me why I don’t like anyone but my 3-5 friends
no my dad left me
ill stay alive for you but I'm in pain if I do ill only e more sad I hear screaming in my head every sec when I sleep when I'm awake ill need wish I could end myself but id want too
Ive never related more to a song. Its currently 5:30a.m and im laying in bed, eyes full of tears. I haven't related more to a song than this
yup crying aswell..in bed..at night..wooo..uhhh
Chares Argyris True happiness can only be found in God, for only He can meet the deepest yearnings of our hearts. Let me explain.
You see, we aren't on this earth by accident. God created us, and He put us here for a reason: to know Him and to enjoy His presence in our lives, both now and throughout eternity. God even created us with an empty place in our hearts -- an empty place that He alone can fill. The Bible says, "He has also set eternity in the hearts of men" (Ecclesiastes 3:11).
Whenever we try to fill that empty place with anything or anyone other than God, we are bound to fail. No matter how many things we have or how successful we are, that empty place is still there. But when we come to Christ, we discover that God loves us, and He makes us part of His family. More than that, He comes to live within us by His Holy Spirit. Think of it: God wants you to be part of His family forever -- beginning now.
By faith turn to God and tell Him that you know you need Him. Then open your heart and life to Christ and ask Him to fill the empty places in your life. Jesus promised, "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives" (John 14:27). Turn to Christ today and discover the joy and peace He alone can give.
www.google.com/amp/s/www.seattlepi.com/news/amp/True-happiness-can-only-be-found-in-God-1213644.php
@@TheFulfilledPotential I see what you are saying and I'm not trying to tell you what to do, but I want to give you advice if you don't mind. What I think your problem is that you never actually let God in. God can heal, but you have to trust in him fully and ask him into your heart. If God can not heal you, then he is a weak God, but God is not weak, he created the earth, he created you and me, I promise he can and will heal you, but you have to trust that God can do it and you have to let him into your heart so he can work in your life or in other words, let God have to control! God loves you, he sent his only son (imagine sending your son to die the way Jesus died!) and that is how much he loves you. By Jesus dying on the cross, he paid the price of your sins. Trust that Jesus died and ask him into your heart, Let him take control and you will experience true happiness.
Relatable.
@@TheFulfilledPotential I use to believe there was a god that could heal and relieve you of your pain and suffering because he died on the cross for us. But I lost hope after being in fourth grade. My grandma had stage four colon cancer and the day before she died i sat by her bed for hours and just prayed for her to live and told her how much i loved her. She didn't talk anymore for about a month before she died because she was so sick but right after I stopped praying and told her i loved her for the last time before i went to bed she spoke and told me she loved me too. that was her last words before she died in front of me. I was so happy she said she loved me I freaked out and couldnt belive it. I thought she was going to get better... But when she died I stopped believing. my grandma went to church every sunday for her entire life and loved and belived in god. Its why I prayed for her. But I just couldnt belive in someone who when you pray for hours in desperate hope gives you a glimmer of hope and then lets a little boy watch his grandmother die.
I've dealt with depression my entire life and I always isolate. Then, I'll have a moment where I come back to life and then I have to wade through the wreckage of reality. Relationships dead. My self worth, dead. But damn it, I'M alive. I pray you all find balance and serenity. It seems like a dream someone else dreamt and I'm just trying to put it in a jar.
ever feel like you’ll never be enough?
like no matter what you do
it’s not enough
for anyone
you wanna disappear
you don’t wanna die
you just wanna disappear
or go somewhere where no one knows you
start over
no one can judge you
at all
every day, all you have to do is be good enough for yourself
I feel it too,I did my best and its not enough
Omg never found something that I could relate to more
Hello5 it sucks to feel this way
@@ZoeRaae I agree
It's so direct like you just somehow feel the pain.
I think Why people sing these kinda songs its because they wanna let people out there know that you aren't the only one going through the same bullshit.There are people feeling along with you but they don't show it.You know?
How does he sing my exact thoughts
Same
Same
same.
Same
Same
The worst feeling is not feeling loved when you do get loved
I know.... it's like, I know im loved, yet I don't feel it? its like my brain is fighting about which is true sometimes.
We are all just suicidal people telling others suicide isn't the answer.. Edit: why did my comment get more likes than Ansons i-
.
I felt that
@@krishnier1576 Guess I'm selfish then. Peace ✌️
@@krishnier1576 Oh wow so I am selfish because I have like..mhm.. literally no one who cares, right.
@@krishnier1576 Never, ever call someone selfish that doesn't make the situation better it just makes them feel worse you don't know what's going on in there life?! And many people do care! But they have enough and think it's the only way I've heard people say "I'm like a domino, and once I fall down everyone does to"
...i'm tired of acting
everybody think i'm that funny girl who wants everyone to be happy..but did they know the pain i'm living..?
yes i'm that "funny girl" who always put a smile on ppl faces, always by their side to help them..but they don't even ask about my day or even how i'm doing..atleast seiing ppl happy make me happy..?idk..i'm stuck in my bubble trynna get out but i can't..i tried for 5 years but i fail..i just wanna be free to be myself :) hoping one day my life change
Things will get better 🤍 I feel you. Things aren’t always the best though. I haven’t gotten any text from my “best friend” in months. And I’m supposed to be the “happy girl.” I’m in pain and so many thing have happened. No one knows what it’s like to be me but me. So I know how you feel. 🤍🤍
@Fé Van Den Eeckhaut hey its okay i know how it feels, dont be sorry you can tell me everything ill listen :)
@@emilialaurenn im sorry for that, the same thing happened to me but she blamed me :/ hope je life get better :)
@@milk_n_txechild34 you too! 🤍
@@emilialaurenn :) 🌃
My best friend sent me this song. She’s attempted suicide and self harms, has been emotionally abused her whole life by her narcissistic mom and thinks everything is her fault. She’s my entire freaking world and the fact she feels like this absolutely breaks my heart. She’s the strongest most wonderful person I know and I thank God every day for her life and existence. Just know, if you feel like this, you are loved and valuable even if you can’t see your own worth or a way out of the pain. Please hang in there💜
I hope it’s okay. I’m so sorry.
My bff is the same I text her 24/7 to make sure that she texts me back if she doesn’t text back for a day I prepare for the worst news
I feel so clingy but I mean after 3 years she’s still here so it’s working...? Cry knowing that she might not make it 18
"Hang in there".
Yeah I was gonna hang in my room pretty soon tho lol😂😂😂
Are you okay? 🥺 I’m sorry for whatever’s going on in your life, please don’t do anything to hurt yourself
@@201202ful Noooo do you need to talk to somebody?
Depression: Wants to die
Anxiety: Scared of everything, including dieing
...When I have both..
Ig I have both but idk
but deep inside you don't wanna die you just want the pain to end
I have both.. 😔 it hurts so bad because I don't know what to fucking do anymore. But im fine...
...
Right..? 🙃
Both 😔
I just want someone who would say "I know you're not okay" instead of asking "are you okay"
I just want someone who really cares
I just want someone who knows what I really feel
I just want someone who would cheer me up the way I cheer others up
I just want someone....
someone who can understand me.
You'll find that someone soon, stay strong, but I know that's easier said than done.
Ur Ok. Im praying for everyone in chat.
Yeah when ppl asks "are you okay?" It feels like they are expecting "yes" as the answer and I personally can't say "no I'm not okay" so I juts go like "yep never better😆"
Its ok to not be ok
We often give others the things we want.
I understand you🫂
My chest feels so heavy while listening to this. Sad? No, it's more than that. It's frustrating because i want to cry so bad but I can't. I cant anymore. That exact feeling when you're hurting but can't express it anymore. It's killing me
I am going through this and it hurts so much because it means the pain stays in my heart and it never leaves
It's going thru the same thing
Listening to songs and soundtracks help soo much
I know the emotions just swirl inside and I'm turning more and more towards apathy at this point.
I feel you
You‘re not alone.
When you don't even have it in you to cry anymore, that's when you know... The deafening silence.. The immense pain of pure numbness.. The overwhelming strength it takes to get out of bed.. That's how you know.....
Hey : don't be like me I.... don't want you to be ...... : )
“Wonder what it’s like to be okay.”
Wonder if I’ll ever find out.
97th like
I’m sure you’ll find out one day :)
james got a labtop he knowes now
I hope you do one day!
I haven't
"I don't feel like I'm enough"
-me everytime I like someone
same
@@AnsonSeabra AW YOU BOTH DESERVE SO MUCH LOOOVE
Me everytime I wake up from bed
I feel you
Chin up you..the experience you have will make you a more wonderful person partner friend brother sister mum dad you will have total heart compassion for the right people in all circumstances throughout hard times you are stronger than you already no .xx
who else listens to sad songs when they are feeling sad, just to make yourself even more sad.
I do - :)
It forces us to feel, respond to the pain, to break the damn so we can't hold it in anymore, to cry, to let go of at least some weight... so that we can carry more because we know there's more to carry.
I listen to these sad songs because i need to cry and i need to acknowledge how much pain im actually holding on to, so that I don't fool myself into thinking I'm fine.
I hope everyone in these comments feel better soon... keep fighting.
Me but sometimes they make me a little less sad but sad songs are not sad to me and sad movies that my mom cry to don't make me cry.
Just to fell something
@@stranger5829 yea
It doesn’t matter if this song blows up or if millions of people here it. This will always be our song that we can come here to cry to. This song is for all of us here, because we should know that we are worth it. We all need this song
the holidays are the worst. seeing everyone so happy. you know you should be happy too. but your not. your faking a smile. your dying inside. i feel like i’m in hell. it’s an endless cycle where i feel like i might be okay. and then the next day i lose all hope.
It’s okay not to be okay ♡ you are amazing, and i’m sure you will fight against this empty feeling, and this endless sadness bc i will help you to ♡
I feel the same, when you see everybody happy, you realize how scared and lonely you are. I'm known as the girl who is smart and has a PERFECT LIFE when in truth I sometimes think that if I end it I can be happy, but I don't because it feels like giving up and I don't want to.
Yeah, When it Was my birthday I Smiled To Make My Family think I was happy, I Laughed to Make my Family Happy, But That Birthday I Felt So Depressed And I just Wanted to Run... Break Stuff... Just Wanted to See My best friend... But She Chose Someone over me...
The most relatable thing ever
I fucking hate Christmas!!! It's stupid that people need a date to give and share happiness, and everyone pretends that everyone it's having a great time and family it's the most important thing but December ends and everybody just get back to treat you like trash.
"I can't carry this anymore "
" wonder what's it like to be fine"
These parts hits me...
This entire song hits hard. Next year will be better 🙂 it has to be
@Yahia Abdal Hamid stay safe cuz you deserve to get to see the brighter days
This song hits home for me.
Living with depression is a constant fight. It's overwhelming and consuming. Lonely and tiring. Faking smiles and laughs almost feel like a chore.. Even on the sunniest of days, everything feels so gray and dull.
Not wanting to die. Just wanting the pain to stop, but it feels endless. Constantly wondering what it's like to be normal, to feel true happiness. Always asking yourself why, why am I like this? Will I ever be okay?
Too scared to talk to anyone about it because you feel like a burden, but you want someone to notice and be there for you.
My heart goes out to anyone in this battle. I hope you overcome it and win❤
You just explained my current situation
Why does it have to hurt this much
Literally couldn't have said it better
Thanks for your comment. I needed it.
hey, you're doing great, even if all you can manage right now is existing. keep going and things'll turn out. i know it and i believe in you. swim to the top of that freezing ocean, even though it’s so cold it might as well be off the coast of nunavut, and breath. the water may fill your lungs right now, but if you keep going, and if you keep trying, eventually all the water will no longer be there. join me (maybe not me but you get it) on this black sand beach and breath. you'll soon be able to walk instead of having to swim. i've kind of seen that when people can't try anymore, when they need to stop to breath, it really turns out that they can keep going (just don't collapse 100 metres from the finish line, that would be kind of bad (it happened in cc one time, but that was literal running, i know you won't be cut short. the thing is though, they were so close, and it's not that they gave up, they just were really really hot (it was probably 40 degrees c, well, maybe not, but it felt like it was). it's just like you. you're close, but don't get heat stroke. you can keep running. you can keep swimming. you can keep climbing you mount life. you can. you can. you can. (now go forth and keep going, because this is getting long and really wholesome, which feels a bit weird for me)
Thank you for your music, Anson. Whether it’s an uplifting song, like Trying My Best, or a song where you just need to get how you’re feeling off your chest, I’m glad that I came across your music this past year.
After 70+ rounds of ECT and the memory loss that has resulted, the only sure thing I’ll be able to remember is music. My love for it, my love for singing (tho I can’t bring myself to sing in front of others very often, if at all), and if I could change my course in life it would be choosing to be a musician. I may not have any talent with writing, and maybe even singing, but music is the only thing that can keep me grounded. That can help me feel, process, and cope with my thoughts and experiences.
With all of the comments you get across your videos, you’ll probably never see this one… but I really wish I could sing with you. With my social anxiety I probably couldn’t bring myself to actually produce any sound, but maybe one day I can work up the courage to put my voice out there.
So really, thank you again for sharing your music and your creativity, I hope you never stop.
it’s like you’re stuck...
you can’t move
you don’t want to move
stuck sitting there
tears rolling down your face
throat becoming tense
stomach drops
everything starts aching
more tears come down
it just goes on and on
and it starts a panic attack
barely able to breathe
and
you just want someone
a certain someone
to come
and give you a hug
and just never
let go
and the bad part
home is what causes it
● Same here , but I think God put all of us through this together so that it can benefits us later on in life and be much more stronger than those who didn't suffer , I'm being abused in all kinds of abusing by my mother , she doesn't treat us fairly because I'm the only daughter, she always says that she regret having me :" and also encourage my other brothers to hurt me physically and emotionally and control whatever I do , and she actually succeed in this because yesterday my brother and my older brother beat the shit out of me and hit me so hard , and I started praying for God to just take my soul and they replied "Amen" could u imagine how that feels .like the ones who supposed to protect u are making u insecure, they think that life is all about food and sleeping. ..etc . Although I try my best to be better everyday and they don't notice it , if anyone cannot feel safe when they're around their own family then who should u feel safe around, u basically lose trust , and all they do is blame u for everything even the day I was born ! The are so good at acting that everything is fine , lie up on lie .. and all of this under the name of " we are raising her , parents doesn't hate their child EVEr" and it blows our minds HOW ? This is can't be right , no parents should be treating their kids that way , you didn't creat your son/daughter God created them so they're not yours, they're blessing from God , you shouldn't be hurting them you shouldn't damage them , you should be taking care of them instead of hitting them ! It's so unfair. Especially for young girls, they can't defeat themselves, they just shut up because they're scared . It's so upsetting. .
One day you'll be able to achieve your goals and you'll become what u want to become! And those tears on your face will be insh'allah the tears of JOY 💓
💔..
To FiX i’m so so sorry. if you ever wanna talk you can message me if you instagram or anything. i promise i’m here (:
@@ZoeRaae it's alright yea :) it's called @tofystar
@@tofix3308 Hi I'm so so sorry to hear that. I've been through emotional and mental abuse from my family members but that's as far as it goes. I've never been hit physically so I got really sad hearing that you go through that. You posted this 4 months ago, are you somehow doing better now? And you seem to be muslim too? Anyways stay strong okay? :'(((
Hey, are you ok? Do you want to talk? Because I wouldn't mind to listen :) Please, stay strong. You got this. You are a good person
Is anyone else scared of crying or letting out their feelings in front of others because they might say your being silly or childish or irrational or they’ll just get laughed at or is it just me
Don’t worry you’re not alone:)
Yes..
No it's not just you people ,on the bus said I do the stuff I do for attention but little do they know I'm slowly dying and there making it worse -💔🖤
I told myself, there's just people who stupid will say that, but everytime I'm upset.
I tried that and I got told by the only person I had that “they don’t give a fuck and they don’t want to hear whatever dumb shit I have to say”
you ever like a video before it starts? that’s the energy i have for anson. i already know it’s gonna be good.
:) thank you so much!
legit me
Facts.
You are by far, one of the best singers I have listened too.@@AnsonSeabra
Liquid Mind I feel this on a spiritual level
“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it.” ― Mark Twain
I broke down in tears listening to this song. This sums up everything I’ve been feeling lately. This quarantine isn’t making anything better either, it’s making me feel worse.
Be your own ally in all times..
Am I the only one laying in bed in the middle of the night and crying my eyes out
Nope
You are certainly not the only one
@@katharina.-1398 we may know it but it sure feels like we are the only ones.
No you're not
Nope
I feel like he just sang my exact thoughts.
ikr!!! i couldent stop crying
same
I have been struggling with depression for a while and have been suicidal. I used to hurt myself but because of songs like this that helped me get better, i am now almost 5 months sober from self harm. Thank you so much. You saved my life
Wow. I just want to tell you how grateful I am for your music; it's honestly so unique and beautiful, and the first time I've found anything that I feel compelled to listen to on repeat.
If hard times are motivating you to write your songs, please know that there a whole host of people who value you for understanding hardship enough to produce music that gives voice to their struggles and thoughts.
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I cry myself to sleep sometimes, most of the time I can’t even smile or frown or cry because I feel so empty. I have so much anxiety and my family doesn’t believe me, so I don’t tell them how I feel. I’ve been trying to throw hints at them for so long and nothing is getting better and they aren’t catching on but I can’t just tell them. I want to die so bad but I’m too scared and I can’t take it anymore... everything changed a couple of years ago and so many bad things have been happening since then and I don’t know what to do and I want to tell my mom so bad but I don’t want her to think that it’s her fault...
I'll be honest i don't know you, so I'm not fussed about what happens to you so know what I'm saying is what i think and not what I'm saying just to make you feel better.
Fuck your ma's feelings. Her job is to look after you and show you how to do that on your own when you have to be independent. If she is failing in those departments then the lady has got to rectify that.
All you are doing by saving her feelings is making your problems worse and that's just gonna make things harder for the both of you when you got to face it. If she doesn't believe you then it is partly her fault.
Tell your mom this: Mom, we need to talk. (When she says ok) Mom this isnt your fualt its just that i feel so empty and some days i just want to die. Can you please help me?
❤❤ we are all here for you even if we don't know you
Feel that...
Hey, are you ok? Do you want someone to talk to? Cause I can listen to you if you want
Do y’all know if he’s like okay? All his songs are hella sad, I wanna give him a hug🥺🖤
Honestly just the longest hug that will radiate love and encouragement that we all need
Being born as a person with a disability that forces me to limit my interaction with other people, this song somehow comforts me when times are really lonely and I would wish I was born differently
As a tear runs down my face I still listen over and over and cry harder..
Same except I dont feel anything anymore
you should have seen me a few weeks ago crying my heart out while looking at the carved drawings on my arms...
so i can relate
2019 has sucked. i got broken up with someone who had been dating me for 3 years. one friend died in a car crash. another friend took their life. my depression and anxiety are just getting worse. i’m back to the therapist. my mom is sick with a chronic illness. my grandma has cancer. my great grandpa died. my baby cousin is on a breathing machine. i have barely any friends, only a few. only one who understands. but yet every. single. day. i put on a smile, i help my classmates who cry, but most of them are crying because there boyfriend/girlfriend broke up with them. i’ve lost friends from trying to help them, they say i don’t understand what it’s like to cry myself asleep because i am always smiling. always happy. little does anyone know that i cry more then humanly imaginable. i cry so much that pillows will get soaked after i cry on them. i’m so young too, 16 years old. i know that the most hurt people most the time seem to be the happiest. which is where a little speech comes in, if your friend seems happy, obviously there’s a high possibility that they ARE happy. but look into their eyes, do they look hurt? you may not think you know what the look of hurt looks like, but once you see it, you’ll know exactly what it is. then, if you see that look, start being there more then ever. ask them if they’re ok. they’re going to say yes... but just keep asking. if they ask why you’re asking then tell them: “you look hurt, i don’t think you’re ok.” some friends are stubborn but eventually they’ll open up. just remember that they’re going through something bad, so be patient with them.
EDIT: thank you so much for the support it means everything🥺 and if any of y’all need to talk text me @ 7122303144
oofxfishy I had a very similar 2019 to you and I know what it feels like and I’m sorry. I hope it gets better for both of us one dau
I don't know what your name is.. I don't know who you are.. all I can tell you is this. What you wrote made me cry. I know that wishing can't do anything, but I honestly wish for you to someday somehow manage to find peace within yourself. I don't know how to say this.. I just know hopelessness. I wish I could help you like you've helped people. I wish, but I probably can't do shit, since I don't know you, but what I want you to know is that you're fucking amazing. You're amazing for putting on a smile, for feeling what true pain is like, and not letting yourself be a broken person. And by "broken person", I certainly don't mean a sad person. I know you're sad. But, you know, from my own understanding.. the people that are so sad, also end up being rude, selfish, angry, sociopathic kind of people. And I'm not blaming them. But that's truly what you'd call "broken". And I'm very proud of you.. and no, I don't know you, but I don't need to know you to be proud of you. I just know that little piece of you, and that's enough for me. You are the reason I want to keep going.. people like yourself. I like to see that. I like to see people who refuse to break, even when they are depressed, anxious, hopeless, everyday..
I do want to encourage you, but I mostly said what I said for the sake of honesty. I do truly believe you're amazing, aside from just complimenting you.. and.. I know it's not enough to fix your problems.. but I hope it can make you feel, even, just slightly better than how you've been feeling a minute ago.
I'm sorry if this is too emotional, or too long, or too of anything.
Cosmic I’m not even going to lie, but that made me shed a few tears...
@@fishy1724 Keep it up, soldier.. keep it up.
You're a warrior. A fucking blessing in this shitty universe. I don't know why things had to happen that way. Why? Why something happens the way it happens?
But I believe for the human whose own heart is hurt and wrapped in chaos is putting effort to soothe other souls, must be adorned with peace and goodness and endless appreciation. Thank you for existing. Thank you for being so kind and humane. Thank you for spreading goodness. I'm a total stranger to you but we're under the same sky and I'm proud of you.
Please pat yourself and scream these words at yourself "I'm enough and I'm so worthy ". You deserve the Universe.
Take love from a 19 year old brother.
It is kind of weird that I feel like I am being addicted to pain and sadness. Like, I know I am not okay but I keep on looking for this kind of sad music and sad movies and drown myself in the sadness because somehow I find comfort in being more and more depressed. I don't know, I feel like depression is kind of addicting and now I realize how dangerous this feeling is :')
It’s my only shred of personality I have left. I gotta cling to it. I don’t even remember what it’s like to be happy. I don’t remember my personality outside of my depression and anxiety.
@@KingKlobber same I don't remember when was the last time i was happy for a long time.I feel adapted to it.
Me too ,but I think that is it ,cause the times when we're drying alone ,it is painfull but at tge same time,the only moment when we don't need to act ,where we can be ourselves ❤😔
@@KingKlobber remembering it is hard as well. you remember how it felt to be okay and the feeling slips through your fingers. it hurts knowing that there is such a thing as happy.
I don’t think that it’s so much that you find comfort in being more depressed but that the songs put your hurt into words when you can’t if that makes sense?
The agony, The chaos that we have inside. All of the pain that we couldn't cry out. It's just, sometimes it's too heavy to even do something about it. You just let it go. No tears, no rant's. You just wrap it in silence. Have you ever done that? Well, I've had. Somehow songs like this, it doesn't change everything inside but somehow, it lessens the pain that eventually, it's like it's not there.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR SONGS ANSON ❤️🍁
I think the part of this that hits is the "would you like me if I drank that, if you wanted I could take that"
I work so hard to mold myself into someone easier for my loved ones to hold and carry because I know I am a burden and I'd do anything to put them at ease.
Of all the artists, your lyrics resonate in a hollow space in me that echoes with your words and resounds with "they understand"
I cannot thank you enough for making such emotions into tangible things, for shedding beauty and understanding where despair often reigns. You pull your listeners up for air and it is the kindest thing you could do.
Here's to you and all the progress you make. May life extend your reach because Lord knows the world needs to hear you.
oh my gosh, thank you so much
I have the same problem, i try to be someone else. Almost everyone Hates me and i try anything to be liked. Because of that i have done that for so long i cant change back anymore😢😢
During quarantine.. I just realised that I’m not having anyone to count on. No texts.. not even an are you okay or how you doing I could respond to with lies. I miss lying about being okay because these loneliness - just seems worse.I don’t know how to survive anymore. I can’t even say I don’t want people to be sad because they just moved on. It’s just me and my thoughts. The past 2 years were the worst of my life. Bad things happened countless times but I thought.. ''at least I’ve got someone to count on''. But now? I feel like drowning and I don’t know what to hold on to. I WANT a life - I’m just tired. Tired of living this life. I can’t carry this anymore. Please, if anyone is reading this... pray for me. I feel like loosing my faith.
Hey you:) I sincerly hope you are doing okay. I don't know if this will help you but reading your comment I had the great urge to answer you. I am sure you are a great person and I wanted to tell you that I am really astonished by the way you are dealing with your thoughts and feelings. It will be okay because you are strong. You can get help and you will find people strong enough to carry you for a bit, before you are able to keep going on on your own. It will work out because you have such a strong will. And if it gives you more strenght, I'm praying for you
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It’s gonna be ok, don’t lose faith, you got this, when you are through you’ll be stronger than anyone, if you need to talk to someone here’s my number 9095169272, I truely hope you get better we all need time
I hope that you feel better now, be strong♥️
Sophie I can totally relate but please don't lose your faith.I know it's hard, but it's gonna be okay.I hope one day you'll be the happiest
*I'm used to being the happy kid the one that everyone can trust with their problems but I have no one to talk to so I just pretend to be the happy kid that always cracks jokes till my cover is exposed.*
If you ever want to talk, my instagram is moon.child.enthusiast. I've been through what you just said, so please do not think you are alone.❤️❤️
Same
Ever since I was little I always solved everyone's problems... Why can't they just make an effort to fix me...
Hey, do you want to talk? Cause I don't mind listening :)
Start living for you! Quit pretending! Take the mask off!! Its easier to breath!
I’m a Mama & I understand… & the only reason I’m still here is because of my 2 young boys that depend on me to show them what love is supposed to be like. The thoughts that envelop someone struggling with depression are uncontrollable & overwhelmingly devastating, to feel like this world would be better off without you like your presence is not beneficial or a burden is heart wrenching. I can’t imagine one of my boys feeling this agony & I would go to the ends of the earth to protect them… I would face any torture, any pain, any devastation, any depression, anything with every piece of my being, & be wanting to disappear but I will never leave them like that, nor will I let them believe that they weren’t enough to make me stay, that they weren’t everything I ever hoped for & that they aren’t important enough to make me fight with everything I have & everything I am to prove to them that our love is stronger then my weaknesses & that they are the most amazing, special & perfectly made people in my world & that I deeply love them unconditionally in every way, everyday & will now always & forever.
What I have always told them is that I fell in love with them at first beat because the second I heard their little heart beating over the baby monitor I was hooked they changed my world end I would go through everything every pain every heartache everything all over again with a smile on my face if I knew that they were at the end so knowing that I can do the same now that I have them because they deserve to have a mothers love & no one can ever love them the way I do.
I need them to know that’s how I feel.
And I’m sure there’s a lot of other parents who love their children the same a lot of your parents all of you young kids and adults reaching out for love acceptance and understanding you’re worth it whether you believe it or not you are you’re special and priceless and irreplaceable there’s only one of you in this whole universe and this world needs you for some reason or other it needs you and you’re strong enough to stay to find out even though sometimes it doesn’t feel like you are I promise you are, please don’t give up. Life is not easy or fair it’s what you decide it’s going to be so surround yourself with only positivity & force yourself to be positive temporarily, & it will make a make a difference.
I’m sending you all some love… even if the sun doesn’t shine & it’s not ok. Your Special & you have purpose & your loved.
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
It's so painful..
Yet ur voice is so comforting ❤️
The ones who comfort us the most, have experienced the most pain...
True
@@InquisPrinciple I wish it wasn't
A virtual hug to everyone feeling like they can't carry this anymore💝
I feel you
I love u❤
😢😔😔😔😔
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Depressed people don't want to *die..* We just want to feel *alive* again
true.
not really digging this quote tbh
Yes
Tbh I just want to die. I'm only here for my kids sake.
@@reneaaragon7886 I know things may be hard but I think it's worth it. I know where you're coming from cause I feel the same way about my sister. I hope things get better for you and your fam ❤️
Today I found my story written on this song…today I realized God is my only company and the only that will always understand me. I don’t feel human anymore…
This hits so close to home. I think the biggest burden is feeling you have to be "ok"...that word is a superficial unrealistic expectation. we are human, we struggle, we fall we pick ourselves back up. that line you said about wondering what it's like to be ok that's so powerful bc that's the burden and expectation we put on ourselves when we are in a dark hard place like we are the only one who has ever felt this pain. This song is so powerful because it let's us know we're not... sorry for the long rant lol but in short I loved it
“ I can’t carry this anymore “ such a short sentence with a powerful meaning. Life is cruel and will beat you to your knees until u can’t get up. But I promise you, YOU CAN get up. YOU CAN arise above the hardships of life. I know it gets dark and hopeless but PLEASE listen to me. The harder life pushes u down the BIGGER the comeback will be. If you HIT a wall in life DO NOT stop, do what is TAKES to get passed YOUR wall. EVERYONE HITS a WALL in life, and some people stop at that wall, but not you, YOU will breakthrough that wall. I PROMISE you when you pass that wall you will think “that was hard but I made it” but it does not stop there, your journey will continue to HIT you with WALLS but in the end you will KNOW “ I carried all of THAT, yet I still came out holding that load like I OWNED it” so please. Carry that load a little longer
Let there Be light The fact that this isn't the most liked comment on here hurts me. Thank you though
let there be light, thank you i really needed this
"Tell my maker up above that I have had enough" really hits hard for me.
I wanted to..... rest. I'm tired with nothing else to do. I'm drowning with all the expectations they have for me. I've fallen out of love with loving myself. In this game we called life, we only got one chance. People are willing to do anything just to play one more time. And here I am, sending requests everyday to the creator up above, to void my account.
Same here.
Why is this comment so relatable and extremely underrated?
I finally feel like someone feels me, even though this really isn't me right noe
Same I keep begging him to please come get me
If God hasn't called you home yet, it's because he still needs you here. You have a purpose in His plan, and He loves you more than you could ever comprehend.
Sending prayers. Fight on.
For anyone who's reading this just now that you're not alone I've been in pain even hurting myself but just no that you still have people that still love you so no matter what comes in your way just no that there will be happiness in the future so don't think that your life is useless because life will get better just no I've been in the same thing depression anxiety and all that stuff but if you need to talk it out I'm here for you ❤
I just want to make it
@@syriusblacc9746 it's going to be okay. just don't give up there's still people who love you. im here if you want to talk
"Tell my maker up above that. I have had enough."
I'm sorry God.
@Dakota Bennett HAHAHA OMG I SHOULD NOT B LAUGHING
You don’t need to apologize to an imaginary entity
@@dawnmarie8007 how you gonna tell me to not state my beliefs then proceed to shove your beliefs down my throat as if they were proven facts 💀 what’s your proof? You forgot to include it.
Also, I know many people believe in him but they shouldn’t. The idea of a god is innocent at face value, but deep down at its core it’s just evil and sadistic and dangerous.
Ok, I took down my comment. If you want it so badly, my life became so much brighter when I accepted the lord. In my religion, it is my solemn duty to tell people about him in hopes they will accept him. Other people will not be respectful in arguments. My simple request was to please avoid other arguments. Thank you for letting me talk to you and please have a good day. I will pray for you😊
All I have to do is pray and my anxiety goes away. I can cry and feel him wipe my tears. He loves everyone as they are.
The hardest part of depression is when it hurts to do anything and no one knows your depressed so they just call you lazy and say you don't care about there health but really every morning you try so hard to just force a smile or laugh, trust me i would know. Leave a reply of your story.
No story... Just sending prayers
yeah, Every Morning I Try to Get Up In Five seconds bc i have to... But My Whole Body hurts And I just Want to Fall And Cry... But My Mom Is Always There Watching me, So I can't And I go Out Side And Bang My Arm on the Wooden Fence before Opening it an d letting out my dogs.. And No One Notices, When i Tell My Friends That i need Help All they Say is "It'll me Okay, God Will help" But God Killed My Best friend... And Now I Cry When I Go to Sleep... Because I Couldn't help... And Now I Don't rant, But Others Rant to me... And I Just Want to help Others, My Friends Is Like The Only People Who care s About My Health... And I Lie To My friends Telling them That Im Okay, They Think Its True And That Just makes me Hurt even more... That they Don't Understand Everyday I Say "I'm Great! Why Wouldn't I?!..." Why can't They understand?!
it takes me 20 minutes to get out of bed in the morning but even then it’s hard. if i don’t get up my mom gets upset because i make me and my sister late for school but when i tell her i used to spend 45 minutes in bed she said it was absurd. i’ve been getting so slow recently and during volleyball and volleyball has literally saved me from seriously wanting to kms. it’s so freaking stupid i’m so done
Its hard bro
@@depremonkey I was the exact ssame before i joined my hs volleyball team.. i think they fr saved my life. ive built relationships that i feel will last a long time in only a few months and i couldbt be more greastful. srry for all the misspells and atuff.. i broke my finger playing last friday and im going throujg a bit of a rough patch (hence why i came back to this aong).. anyways, my point is that you just have to keep going. i know i sound like everyone else but trust me, i was where you were and i - i just csnt even put into words how much my vb team has helped. let them in, they can help you.. much love
Anson, you wrote something that hit my heart so badly I can't even speak. Every lyric, note, and key echo through my head all day and night, and it's a sad reminder of our world. And though most people fail to see this, you've sparked over 72,000 people's hearts with a dagger of hope, that there's someone out there going through the same thing as them.
Thank You.
I try so hard to have a good time everyday, keep the people in my life happy, to have fun, make memories but each moment of each day is such a struggle to not slip back into a very dark place mentally. Even accepting love & kindness is so hard when you feel like an open wound. It gets so exhausting living with the fear of breaking down, falling apart any moment. The ghost of the past follows me everywhere, I don't know if I'll ever recover from this. Tonight was especially difficult and I couldn't do anything to calm myself down, I have college tomorrow and got only a few hours to sleep. This comment section really helped to soothe the clenched feeling of the heart and the बेचैनी of the mind. Thanks for existing y'all kind souls, wishing, praying it stops hurting for you too.❤️
If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best