James Taylor+1, Cowboy

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Beeginning to realize just how rancid & rotten certain issues actually are & disappointed that no one told me! Was singing to cope & recorded it soo...
Yuse knew what happened, why didn't anyone let me know?
People who were upset with me were not able to stand themselves & took their aggression out on me is what I'm seeing here! I could handle having a friend right now but seems all knew so will bee ok right? Still no one takes this situation to heart enough to help it, just the opposite am thinking! I'm fine by myself! I have nothing to say really! I would have a hard time dealing with myself if I was anyone else but myself & preaching is worthless! I will heal! Know the fact that I received very little help from Healthcare! Most Drs just hurt me worse! I probably would have been better off not seeing any except for medication! The first Institution I was 302d to I met one of the staff who played College Football wide receiver & he told me that Concerta would hook me up! I have been asking for it since then but took 13years for a Dr to prescribe it to me! They all fucked me very bad with no help really & alot of Gaslighting! I should have been acknowledged & I don't understand how a Dr can charge money to not help a patient? If acknowledged then could have understood & asked questions! Absolutely should have been told that was beeing Gaslighted & loss of rationale explained so could have compensated for lack of! The Dr I have now actually ASKED ME what he can do to help me!
About 12 Drs or more & the word Gaslighting was not spoken by one of them! A group of boys committed suicide & I am pretty sure that some of the Drs that I saw were pushing me towards that, no joke! This Has to go to court beecause of that! The Drs not treating me to the point of falsifying my medical records prolonged the Gaslighting enabling it to go on for about 7 or 8 years heavy! Dr in Philly,
Dr Secunda actually diagnosed Anhedonia or fear of happiness my first appointment out of area in the first 5min soo... the local Drs were quite aware of it, infact they enabled it to the point of creating it purposely unless they just aren't that good at what they do! Drs can hurt just as easy or easier than they can help! It was a horrible experience & has made it very hard to trust anyone anymore! The first Dr asked me in a very accusing tone if I was saying things to people to make them commit suicide which meant that two boys had already killed themselves per, "People"!
Two of my friends in Philly committed suicide a year apart around 4th of July so I thought about that & questioned if I said anything to them! I told the Dr that but ge did not elaborate on the situation so I had no Idea what he was talking about! The boys passed less than 6months into it & I have dealt with 14years of it, 8 very strong & then some truth some lies! Was lied to a few nights ago by a local at this point obvious & very easy to identify! The Gov is Compromised! I feel that they use Gaslighting to kill certain people! All they have to do is hijack the people around the person they want dead! The Gaslighting victim either commits suicide or turns shooter from the torture really, no other word for it! Victims turned shooters kill themselves after they shoot a group of innocent people! We have a real problem in the U.S. with Compromised Gov! They do not care about much except making history thru manipulation of Society sad to say! Yuse know the dealio & it is all very real for I have studied it while submerged in it for 14years! There is a very good book written by a retired Army General entitled, "On a Pale White Horse", or very close to that! It explains Gov methods of population control & about 350 pages of problems that Gov has created purposely in our Society! A man in the trailer park told me that Trump pleaded guilty to atleast one Fellony charge & the US Constitution does not allow a person with a Fellony charge to run for the office of President! Gov, Healthcare, Hollywood, Law Enforcement, Radio, News are all heavily Compromised & work together racketeering mostly! Quick example,
"When You're a Celebrity it's Adios Reality"!
~*Brad Paisley
Ever wonder why certain Celebrities can commit a crime but are let go after only a short while? I thought that they made a donation or something but in all actuality they are in bed together both Compromised & it is an act of professional courtesy! Other Celebrities Like Bill Cosby get slandered & are taken out of the game! Just like a slam campaign in Politics, Gov has Compromised people in different positions to accomplish this ill act much like the Gaslighting example previous! Slam Campaigns can ruin the Life of a Citizen & in Politics Slam Campaigns lower standards & each year seems to get worse! Instead of explaining why one Candidate is the better or more qualified person for th office position they slam their opponent in an attempt to ruin their credibility! This is detrimental to U.S.🇺🇸
Yo Hyde!