My first proper cry since starting HRT was yesterday, and it was because I realized I would never have CIS teenage years, of panicking about periods, bonding with my mom over my body's changes, and trying to sneak boys or girls into my room at night for naughties, or talk gossip with the girls in the school hallways. The sudden wave of basically grief from thinking that made me cry into the warm hug of blåhaj.
I can confirm I have cried over the same thing. I wish I could just have had a normal cis teenage life and just gone through it like every other girl. Instead im here way too late grieving over it too. 😔
I think one of the early things I'm most excited for is being able to cry I rarely ever can no matter how bad I feel and it makes me feel like an automaton
Currently 3 months on hrt (diy) and it's an absolute blessing. When it comes to energy, as you mention with a friend, I think I can comment. I have very severe clinical depression and estrogen makes you feel ALL emotions more strongly, and I definitely felt some of the worst depressions of my life. I'm getting slowly better, though. I continue to have rough periods, but overall even though the lows are lower the highs are absolutely heavenly because I am becoming who I want to be. Just a little insight from a baby tran x
I have been on hrt since febuary 25th this year, and it's been a game changer. I've more embraced myself. I've been happier. Less anxiety and anger. I care about my appearance , and health alot more.
I remember day when I decided to take my first estradiol dose. After buying my medication in the pharmacy I go home immediately, I nervous a lot because I think that I do something bad. I look at testosterone blocker pills and estrogel and say « ok i just decided to start my real life ».My expectations was high, but I know that hormones need time and I begin wait. Now I taking HRT for 6 month and it’s the best decision in my life. My disphoriya decreased , skin makes softer, acne completely vanished from my face,my body started smelling better and exactly my face started to change. Now I look more feminine but know it’s not the end 😄. Also I have an opportunity to find endocrinologist who can help me with my blood test, medication dosage. In Russia find a doctor who can help you is very difficult because the authorities don’t want to help transgender person, even intersex people hard to find specialists during the new law 😔.
I'm three weeks on HRT. Personally, I've noticed my hands getting a bit colder, the mature stuff you described, and that's about it. A big one though was about 20 minutes after taking it. Similar to how you'd feel medicine, alcohol, or drugs kick in, I felt the E and TB kick in. It was a really interesting feeling. I can't directly compare it to anything but here's my best analogy: You know when you're driving on a bumpy dirt road for a long time and you hit that patch of pavement, and you notice the change in texture? Like you wonder how the car somehow got quieter and smoother because you've accepted the bumpy gravel road as normal? I felt that but internally, it was a tranquility. I didn't feel overly calm, but by brain felt 'oiled', like it was running smoothly for the first time. Also I know it's way too early for this, but I SWEAR my skin is slightly softer. EDIT: I also have not experienced any real emotional change that I could track, three weeks in I haven't really cried. That said though I watched a horror movie and I DEFINITELY felt the E making that 100x more distressing ahah. Also, I catch myself getting frustrated and getting dysphoria when I look at trans or cis women at all. It's been a legitimate hurdle and quite problematic for even consuming regular youtube content. I'm usually a pretty chill person but since taking HRT I've noticed I am feeling more cheated by my current body, and seeing others with traits that I desperately want has really started to affect me. I don't think it's the E doing this, but i think it's interesting and worth mentioning nonetheless.
fellow early HRTer here, 2 weeks today. I don’t have a moment I can pinpoint where it feels like they kick in, but I am feeling a couple of things I think I can attribute to it. I totally did placebo my hair getting thinner immediately though. First shower i took afterwards I swore it was already thinner and the next one I knew definitely was not. Can feel my nerves getting a little stronger, but no tears yet. I hope it comes around and helps me see my place in the world, because as of right now, I still don’t feel like I fit. Gender apathy replaces euphoria for the most part, and i struggle to parse whether I feel like this isn’t right for me or if the apathy is just my shield from the discomfort. I don’t feel very aligned with the binary transfem experience, and i have a genuine nonzero attachment to my precious state of boyhood. I feel no desire to blend with cis girls or mourning for a girlhood that never was, but i know for a fact that i don’t want to be a man. i feel your same frustration towards cis women and trans women, but really towards anyone who looks like they know themselves. I hope I get a good cry soon so I can understand where it’s coming from finally. I just hope this all begins to come together and feel right sooner rather than later. one day at a time 🏳️⚧️
The dramatic jump at the beginning was very cute and epic! (here's an appreciating comment about it, if most folks didn't notice it, since it was kinda subtle)
@@Nikowo1610 i noticed early on that while they weren't big, they would jiggle when i ran so since the end of month 2 ive worn one every time i exercise and now at work since i occasionally have to run there. im just over a week away from 4 months now and they're not much but they're definitely boobs.
I'm going to be a year on E at the end of october! I put my first patch on and just stared at the box and wanted to cry. I spent countless nights wishing I could wake up as a girl. That first morning after starting I told myself "We finally made it..." Every day seems so much more vivid than it ever was before HRT! Even today it makes me all giggly to think that every day I'm more fem than the day before!
Not really relevant to the video, but I just wanted to thank you for being such an inspiration to me. Seeing these videos gave me the confidence to come out to my friends and find a name that I wanted to go by. So, thank you sincerely I don't know how my life would be if I never found out about your channel, but if it's this good, then I don't think I care.
Interestingly you uploaded this on my one month HRT anniversary! Definitely been feeling the tears this past week especially, my eyes sometimes get teary even when I don't think I'm thinking about anything in particular. I noticed my body odour changed and skin softened slightly within the first week. That's mostly it for my physical changes so far, but my mental health has been so much better and I know there's more coming when my body's ready for it.
this video helped me realize how achievable everything is?? like getting hrt doesnt feel like this ~big nebulous thing~ anymore, its just puberty 2 lol (just have to GET ITT now)
Thank you again for yet another wonderful video! This sort of gives me something to expect when I eventually get around to starting HRT. I miss crying, and am kind of excited for day 2 effects, honestly. But also, not looking forward to the reduction of the YT Monetized energy drive.
I remember being so nervious the first time I picked up my HRT and when I took it, I take sublingual pills, I was amazed at how imeditately I felt something. It was like a wave of like deep warmth and comfort. I asked my other friend that just started hrt if they felt the same way, because I thought it was all in my head, but she felt the same way.
When I picked up my first bottle of estradiol, the pharmacist lady gave me a sympathetic knowing smile. My first reaction to hormones though was somewhat extreme (as good as recreational drugs) and I learned what "hot under the collar" meant. This (un?)fortunately didn't last, and now my responses are pretty normal compared to what I've read. Can confirm crying is a lot easier, but also my emotional responses are quicker, not delayed. This means I've snapped at people whereas I would have in the past _not_ responded but then held my tongue when the annoyance registered too late.
Yay!~ sry, I had to do that 😅 for me, at the second of December, I get the hormonal level tested, and a few weeks later (end of December start of January) I'll get the first dose... I mean, I have to take the train to the doctor (I go to a doctor because he does it without a prescription and for free of course).... so I'll sit inpatiently in the train towards Köln/colonge and then for almost an hour to (with wait) Bonn (a german city and formal capital) to the doctor... I'm inpatient already 😅
I just got hrt a week ago and yeah... it felt weird how fast and simple it was. And I mean it like there would to be a lot of waiting time between the doctor prescribing it to actually starting it but it didn't it just you have it and you take blood samples before taking the pill. But once I had it, I felt so happy like wtf I haven't been this happy in like... scratch that I just haven't been this happy ever before
Idk why I do this to myself 😂 every time I listen to one of these or read about the side effects, I decide NOT to do HRT, but then I’m still unhappy lol. And when I play Skyrim I always play as a woman, and it feels so euphoric. Basically when I’m playing it, in my mind I’m like “yes I wanna be a woman, side effects be damned”. But then I go into those side effects, and it’s just too scary lol. I often wish my egg had never begun to crack, and I had never started questioning my gender, because then I didn’t even realize I was so dysphoric all my life. Now I’m in this weird state of limbo where I feel invalid no matter what I lean toward. I at least took the step of contacting a nurse practitioner and she’s been helpful, but she’s also confirmed a lot of what Lucy has mentioned in regards to side effects.
Intresting timing, cause the 4th next month will mark my first month into hrt 😅 Now I finally get why so many of us drink monster with how much sleepier I've gotten.
Just done with my first month on DIY estradiol monotherapy injections! It's a completely different experience. I was getting a huge spike in estrogen, followed by a huge dip just before my second injection 10 days later. In a few days I was feeling like a completely different person. My libido died a violent, deserved death in the span of a couple days, my skin became soft and smooth basically immediately. I met my partner for the first time during this first week as well, and all I could think about was hugging, kissing, and snuggling him to death. I do feel like a completely different person, and that's a GOOD thing, before I felt like a ghost haunting a broken husk. Now I feel real, I feel whole.
So I've been on hrt about a month now, but I feel like I haven't had any changes. Maybe it's me not seeing the changes, but watching this video made me realize that I probably have been seeing changes by now. I really hope something changes soon
I'm 5 months in and tbh I haven't really experienced noticably emotional/crying differences, which is odd as it seems fairly universal. Though I was also always pretty emotional when testosterone dominant anyhow... I do think there may be some subtle differences in how I process emotion, but it's very much a "kinda sorta maybe" in retrospect matter, not something I notice in the moment. The breasts will come. Think after the end of my first month I just had somewhat tender nipples, but by month 2 I definitely was forming buds -- and it was probably last month when they began to actually look like breasts (albeit very small and immature)
This is my first year on HRT and I’m 36 mostly because my most of my family isn’t supportive of me transitioning so going into my first HRT doctors appointment I was so nervous I was shaking but I’m 8 months into my HRT now and I’m looking forward to my next appointment and I’m happy I started I only wish I started sooner but I have very supportive friends and a sister who is amazing to me but I don’t have any regrets about starting my HRT and I can’t wait for my first surgery
Depending on how long my doc takes and the clinic takes, I might be on HRT by Halloween, so this is some nice timing ^_^ Update the day before Halloween: I've been on HRT since the 18th :3
One part of that music sounded so dang familiar but I can't place it... It is really bugging me. Also, I just got my prescriptions from planned parenthood, but my pharmacy hasn't gotten it yet..... I am really excited to get started as soon as possible but I know that I got through this process faster than a lot of people so I know I am still lucky. I actually do find this video very helpful for knowing what to expect and stuff too, so thank you!
Me too, I have been socially transitioning for the past two years, and my whole focus and goals have been being getting on HRT. I even played it through the scenario, in my mind, of going into the pharmacy with the prescription in hand, and getting the drugs! But they would ultimately arrive by post, so this scenario wasn't my reality. But, when they did arrive, I just sat there looking at them - just like the cat, who has that all-consuming urge/desire to catch that mouse. but, as soon as it catches it, it will just sit there with a "what do I do now look on its face!" what I did do was read the leaflets that came with both the blocker and hormones. I even had my bestie read through it, so I was doing it correctly. now, just over a month on the stuff, it has already become a part of my daily routine. the blocker did make me feel a bit sleepy, for the first week and a bit, I just put that down to it switching off the testosterone, that's been turbo-charging my bloodstream for the past X number of years! that leved out fairly quickly for me. Life has just continued along its path without incident since I started, and will continue on its path - wherever that will take me next!
Where I am only 6 months on HRT, some of the things that I noticed are: * From about 2 weeks to the end of the 2nd month, within minutes of getting up in a morning, I would experience what I can only describe as a hot flush. As in I would suddenly feel very hot, and some times a little dizzy. These hot flushes would last 5-10 minutes and only occurred 2-4 times a week. * from the day that I started, I have been recording my measurements (bust, waist & hips) every month, and at the end of the 3rd month I noticed that my bust had increased and waist decreased. Now it was nothing visually noticeable at first, it was only because the measurements changed that I noticed. It was the end of the 4th month that breast development became obvious. * it was early in the 5th month that I felt that I needed to wear a bra - only A cup so far. * also in the 5th month, the measurements showed that my hip had increased in size.
I'm still me just a more gentle loving me and no tiered feelings lost muscle but was hopping to my dead self has big biceps thank for sharing Jennifer Marie preoptrans 6 months hormones feeling fantastic God bless
8:50 speaking of crying, i didn't notice any difference in that regard after i started HRT. i cried and smiled aaa lotttt about a month before that, still full of testosterone, but having just accepted myself as transfem. now _that_ was freaking cathartic!! after more than two decades of denial and depression... HRT on the other hand seems to have been giving me only physical changes, or at least predominantly. and those in turn are making me happier every day with how i look 😊🥹 but no noticeable direct psychological effects. well, this week, with a slightly higher dosage, i did cry a tiny bit a couple of times, but whether it was due to the estrogen, or cuz i was watching a lot of emotional stuff, i do not know.
today is 2 weeks for me, so this is a perfect video for me :D not rly feeling much yet but I’m like a sloth metabolically so I’m sure it’ll come around at some point :) rly hope so, still feeling pretty apathetic a lot of the time. I don’t expect it to be a fix all but I hope it’ll help emotionally at least.
For me it felt liberating!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰 I had 0.2 nmol/L from haven too high testosteron level for a male prior to starting HRT 11 month ago.. 🥺 in a week i felt like the unrest inside me just disappeared, or i still godt ADHD and ASD, so some of it is still there, but it felt like 98%.. it is a weird feeling to feel like your diagnosis got better.. 😅 I love being on HRT 🥰 it was the best i have done for myself ❤️🥳 it is not like it fix all, i still struggle with many thing, i struggle with thing i didnt did before.. On the day of my 11 month, i got a bigger behind, and a C75 coup size (EU) which i will not complain about (i'm 169cm high) and i need to change to and from uniform every day at work, and nearly no one care or notice🤔
Should hopefully be starting next week, and kinda nervous. Doesn't all feel quite real yet. Not out of the closet yet, and still partially in denial about being trans myself. But after worrying about it for many years, I figured its time to stop being so damned indecisive and take the leap of faith... just hope it won't be as miserable as first puberty.
Amazingly, you released this video the day that I started HRT lol Progynova 2 mg Can't say I feel any different after the first week but I was expecting that How long do you think it was before you felt the emotional changes?
When I started HRT, I had not started social transition yet. So I'm sure the pharmacist was a bit confused because it looked like some random guy was just taking estrogen & progesterone for who knows why.
Also, the first effect I noticed was that I smelled different. Now I'm back to not really noticing how I smell. And with temperature, I'm just colder in general, so hot temperatures are easier to deal with-which is kind of convenient, since Iive in a hot climate.
I'm trans. Marisa by name. I am 8 or 9 months on estrogen and blocker injection. Nothing happening so far. Just Libido non- existant now which I kinda like. I like the control. No weeping, no crying. Feel my usual logical practical self. What is the weeping all about anyway !!?? Is it something spiritual, something mystical perhaps ?? The soul weeping within the man ? That's what I think. I am a VERY SLOW DEVELOPER . A bit of a plodder. Breasts might take 3 to 4 years to develop for me. Patience is required . Sorry, I can't relate at all to your crying. I don't really WANT to CRY anyway. I want to be HAPPY. So God bless you.
Sick timing im just over 1 month in and wow im surprised that anythings happened in that time. Even 3 hours after my first pills i felt a wave of euphoria? I usually dont feel happy passively i can only realy compare to illicit drugs but that the weird thing is it stayed not as strong but ive felt better ever since (if i ever feel dead my first though is usually “oh shiz I forgot to take my titacks” or something) If your easily grossed out… idfk… grow up or uh stop reading Nips felt it at 2 week yowich Accidentally peeing your self is now an actual concern I thought this was a made up tv trop lmao And apparently my skin look better Oh and how could i forget. Ive always been a little timid emotional bitch but now my cry range has moved from when im sad, uncomfortable, confused or angry to include happy, grateful and just feeling good man. Anyways autism over and remember You trans person
I had to wait 2 days for my first script of it, but it seems like the pharmacy knows to order it for me every month so they do so now everytime I refill. I'm pretty sure they know because its still under my legal name and I avoid saying my legal name as much as possible and they kinda give me the look. Theres a lot of trans people in my area and a lot of them get their scripts filled there now because Walgreens discriminates heavily against trans people in my area. Sadly a lot of people I know also have to go through CVS because work and which CVS also in my area heavily discriminates against trans people. Places will refuse to fill scripts if they clock people. Also I use to cry prior more easier than most people but yeah starting HRT yeah.... crying became pretty second nature. A lot of ptsd memories mixed in there, and the sadness for not being able to process my emotions came over me. I bottled a lot of my emotions and I had a lot of cPTSD issues. I also missed a old friend that passed away that yeah. I was always more emotional out of everyone I knew, but yeah. Tempeture thing I heard was because skin thins a little more. I'm about 9 months in keep that in mind, and I finally just got to the level goals.
Yeah I written the comment before watching t, it literally was in the first minute 😅 Lovely video, maybe weird word choice but that's how I feel about it 🙃 By the way, sorry if inpolite, is it true HRT makes body hair grow slower, lighter and thinner? And face hair too?
Lucy, why doesn't social services pay for srt in Australia? Do they pay for estrogen and testosterone blockers? Here in the United States, most medical insurance companies cover it. Medical insurance is mandatory in the United States. If you can't afford it, social services will provide it. Hope your srt goes well. ❤😊❤
i havent started hrt myself yet or done much research, but afaik most hormones are on the pbs (pharmaceutical benefits scheme) which subsidises the cost of medications making them much cheaper to start with. so even though the cost is not fully covered, it's usually very affordable. also, in australia, if people have medical insurance it's usually so that they can cover costs of using private health services, because public health services cover or subsidise most essential costs.
My Hair Line has grown back to near female hair line.. my sex drive are different not less, but Yes dysphoria.. 🥺 my weiner are shrinked quit a lot.. 🎉 which makes it so much easier to hide.. but could be a problem when it comes to bottom surgery
I'm 1 and half months on hrt and my biggest things I've noticed is my nipples have been soooo itchy and my breast buds have already started and my right one in particular is super sore all the time
The first few months will kill me, cause, I'm ace and im already a very emotional and teary person, so the early effects won't really be noticeable l, so ima sit around and wait for tiddies for like 3 months :[
I highly recommend finding experienced hairdressers and asking lots of questions about how to look after your hair! Everyone's hair is different and I applied it to my routine
Three months in and all I have to show for breasts is nipples poking out. No pain (no gain 😭), but if I do my usual *slip through doorway sideways* I'm reminded by a small shock. If this is all I'm sad. For others changes can't say I felt any more tired since hrt, feels like it's the opposite sometimes. Same with crying idk if it's hormones or just me allowing myself to cry when I feel like it. Horny drive went down a bit though
If someone assigned male at birth before age 18ish only takes blockers it's fine from my understanding since it just delays puberties effects, but I think long term post 18 your body needs a 'dominant hormone' so you'd like need to take estrogen alongside it. As long as the body has a main hormone flowing through the body is all healthy and well
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My first proper cry since starting HRT was yesterday, and it was because I realized I would never have CIS teenage years, of panicking about periods, bonding with my mom over my body's changes, and trying to sneak boys or girls into my room at night for naughties, or talk gossip with the girls in the school hallways. The sudden wave of basically grief from thinking that made me cry into the warm hug of blåhaj.
Existential dysphoria sucks, can confirm. Those proper cries do feel really cathartic though, beats the numbness of pretransition
I can confirm I have cried over the same thing.
I wish I could just have had a normal cis teenage life and just gone through it like every other girl.
Instead im here way too late grieving over it too. 😔
Yuppppp. The best we can do is have fun right now. My girlfriend and I went to a sleepover-themed party and it was legit healing
Haven’t started HRT yet, but that realization is what part of what helped me determine that I’m ready to start HRT
@@livvy94 Awwwww 🥺
I want a sleepover party!!!! 😭
Thank you! I wanna try that as well!
I think one of the early things I'm most excited for is being able to cry
I rarely ever can no matter how bad I feel and it makes me feel like an automaton
Crying is great! I was able to properly sob after about a month or so of HRT, it's just as cathartic as you're expecting, maybe better
Oh god, I'm already such a big crybaby...I dread to think what I'll become if I ever do HRT. 😅
me too! I haven't cried in years, it feels like a sneeze that hasn't been snuzed
i have the same problem😭
Currently 3 months on hrt (diy) and it's an absolute blessing. When it comes to energy, as you mention with a friend, I think I can comment. I have very severe clinical depression and estrogen makes you feel ALL emotions more strongly, and I definitely felt some of the worst depressions of my life. I'm getting slowly better, though. I continue to have rough periods, but overall even though the lows are lower the highs are absolutely heavenly because I am becoming who I want to be. Just a little insight from a baby tran x
I have been on hrt since febuary 25th this year, and it's been a game changer. I've more embraced myself. I've been happier. Less anxiety and anger. I care about my appearance , and health alot more.
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I read this as “Embarrassment” XD
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I remember day when I decided to take my first estradiol dose. After buying my medication in the pharmacy I go home immediately, I nervous a lot because I think that I do something bad. I look at testosterone blocker pills and estrogel and say « ok i just decided to start my real life ».My expectations was high, but I know that hormones need time and I begin wait. Now I taking HRT for 6 month and it’s the best decision in my life. My disphoriya decreased , skin makes softer, acne completely vanished from my face,my body started smelling better and exactly my face started to change. Now I look more feminine but know it’s not the end 😄. Also I have an opportunity to find endocrinologist who can help me with my blood test, medication dosage. In Russia find a doctor who can help you is very difficult because the authorities don’t want to help transgender person, even intersex people hard to find specialists during the new law 😔.
I'm sorry it's so hard for you in your homeland i hope you transition goes smoothly and brings you the peace you deserve 😊
Love form the UK ❤
I'm three weeks on HRT. Personally, I've noticed my hands getting a bit colder, the mature stuff you described, and that's about it. A big one though was about 20 minutes after taking it. Similar to how you'd feel medicine, alcohol, or drugs kick in, I felt the E and TB kick in. It was a really interesting feeling. I can't directly compare it to anything but here's my best analogy: You know when you're driving on a bumpy dirt road for a long time and you hit that patch of pavement, and you notice the change in texture? Like you wonder how the car somehow got quieter and smoother because you've accepted the bumpy gravel road as normal? I felt that but internally, it was a tranquility. I didn't feel overly calm, but by brain felt 'oiled', like it was running smoothly for the first time.
Also I know it's way too early for this, but I SWEAR my skin is slightly softer.
EDIT: I also have not experienced any real emotional change that I could track, three weeks in I haven't really cried. That said though I watched a horror movie and I DEFINITELY felt the E making that 100x more distressing ahah.
Also, I catch myself getting frustrated and getting dysphoria when I look at trans or cis women at all. It's been a legitimate hurdle and quite problematic for even consuming regular youtube content. I'm usually a pretty chill person but since taking HRT I've noticed I am feeling more cheated by my current body, and seeing others with traits that I desperately want has really started to affect me. I don't think it's the E doing this, but i think it's interesting and worth mentioning nonetheless.
fellow early HRTer here, 2 weeks today. I don’t have a moment I can pinpoint where it feels like they kick in, but I am feeling a couple of things I think I can attribute to it. I totally did placebo my hair getting thinner immediately though. First shower i took afterwards I swore it was already thinner and the next one I knew definitely was not. Can feel my nerves getting a little stronger, but no tears yet. I hope it comes around and helps me see my place in the world, because as of right now, I still don’t feel like I fit. Gender apathy replaces euphoria for the most part, and i struggle to parse whether I feel like this isn’t right for me or if the apathy is just my shield from the discomfort. I don’t feel very aligned with the binary transfem experience, and i have a genuine nonzero attachment to my precious state of boyhood. I feel no desire to blend with cis girls or mourning for a girlhood that never was, but i know for a fact that i don’t want to be a man. i feel your same frustration towards cis women and trans women, but really towards anyone who looks like they know themselves. I hope I get a good cry soon so I can understand where it’s coming from finally. I just hope this all begins to come together and feel right sooner rather than later. one day at a time 🏳️⚧️
I def read TB as tuberculosis for a while, until I remembered testosterone blockers lmao.
The dramatic jump at the beginning was very cute and epic! (here's an appreciating comment about it, if most folks didn't notice it, since it was kinda subtle)
One effect I've experienced... Now I fully understand what "butterflies in the stomach" means 🥰
sports bras have been a lifesaver these first 3 months
After three months already?? Girlie what's your secret,
Or wait is it just there as armor for the soreness
@@Nikowo1610 i noticed early on that while they weren't big, they would jiggle when i ran so since the end of month 2 ive worn one every time i exercise and now at work since i occasionally have to run there. im just over a week away from 4 months now and they're not much but they're definitely boobs.
@@Captain_MaeveOmggg that's so neat I hope mine get to grow so quickly (starting in about half a year if everything goes perfect !!)
@@Nikowo1610 I wish you the best of luck girl. they generally start around 1 to 3 months.
Came at the perfect time! I start HRT in two weeks!
The crying...oh the crying. Sad? Cry. Happy? Cry. Cry? Cry some more.
I would like that :3
This is different from my normal life in zero ways. 😂
I cant wait to start HRT but I've only just started to try and socially transition so i got a wayyyyy to go :)
I'm going to be a year on E at the end of october! I put my first patch on and just stared at the box and wanted to cry. I spent countless nights wishing I could wake up as a girl. That first morning after starting I told myself "We finally made it..." Every day seems so much more vivid than it ever was before HRT! Even today it makes me all giggly to think that every day I'm more fem than the day before!
Not really relevant to the video, but I just wanted to thank you for being such an inspiration to me. Seeing these videos gave me the confidence to come out to my friends and find a name that I wanted to go by. So, thank you sincerely I don't know how my life would be if I never found out about your channel, but if it's this good, then I don't think I care.
Interestingly you uploaded this on my one month HRT anniversary! Definitely been feeling the tears this past week especially, my eyes sometimes get teary even when I don't think I'm thinking about anything in particular. I noticed my body odour changed and skin softened slightly within the first week. That's mostly it for my physical changes so far, but my mental health has been so much better and I know there's more coming when my body's ready for it.
year 2 hrt picture IS SO CUTE
this video helped me realize how achievable everything is?? like getting hrt doesnt feel like this ~big nebulous thing~ anymore, its just puberty 2 lol (just have to GET ITT now)
That was the primary goal of the video
@@fairyprincesslucy yes! It's literally the same thing as diabetic people injecting insulin
Thank you again for yet another wonderful video! This sort of gives me something to expect when I eventually get around to starting HRT. I miss crying, and am kind of excited for day 2 effects, honestly. But also, not looking forward to the reduction of the YT Monetized energy drive.
omg, this video has the best timing. I just got my insurance card in the mail today so I can start hrt myself!!
I remember being so nervious the first time I picked up my HRT and when I took it, I take sublingual pills, I was amazed at how imeditately I felt something. It was like a wave of like deep warmth and comfort. I asked my other friend that just started hrt if they felt the same way, because I thought it was all in my head, but she felt the same way.
Thank you so much for breaking this down as I am on the fence whether or not I want to do it. This helped alot. YOU ROCK!!!
just had my first pill of progynova today and the GNRH pamorelin, and found this vid, this is so silly, but kinda relatable x3
I literally went to a Chemist Warehouse last week to pick up my prescription 🤣
When I picked up my first bottle of estradiol, the pharmacist lady gave me a sympathetic knowing smile.
My first reaction to hormones though was somewhat extreme (as good as recreational drugs) and I learned what "hot under the collar" meant. This (un?)fortunately didn't last, and now my responses are pretty normal compared to what I've read.
Can confirm crying is a lot easier, but also my emotional responses are quicker, not delayed. This means I've snapped at people whereas I would have in the past _not_ responded but then held my tongue when the annoyance registered too late.
Yay!~ sry, I had to do that 😅 for me, at the second of December, I get the hormonal level tested, and a few weeks later (end of December start of January) I'll get the first dose... I mean, I have to take the train to the doctor (I go to a doctor because he does it without a prescription and for free of course).... so I'll sit inpatiently in the train towards Köln/colonge and then for almost an hour to (with wait) Bonn (a german city and formal capital) to the doctor... I'm inpatient already 😅
I just got hrt a week ago and yeah... it felt weird how fast and simple it was. And I mean it like there would to be a lot of waiting time between the doctor prescribing it to actually starting it but it didn't it just you have it and you take blood samples before taking the pill. But once I had it, I felt so happy like wtf I haven't been this happy in like... scratch that I just haven't been this happy ever before
I was a crier before HRT, so as you can imagine, I've spilled buckets since starting. Never been happier~!
This really helps me along on my journey, three weeks on HRT now!
this came at a funny time for me. i recently had to stop taking my hrt because of safety reasons at home lol.
Sorry to hear! I hope everything gets better soon!
Idk why I do this to myself 😂 every time I listen to one of these or read about the side effects, I decide NOT to do HRT, but then I’m still unhappy lol. And when I play Skyrim I always play as a woman, and it feels so euphoric. Basically when I’m playing it, in my mind I’m like “yes I wanna be a woman, side effects be damned”.
But then I go into those side effects, and it’s just too scary lol. I often wish my egg had never begun to crack, and I had never started questioning my gender, because then I didn’t even realize I was so dysphoric all my life.
Now I’m in this weird state of limbo where I feel invalid no matter what I lean toward. I at least took the step of contacting a nurse practitioner and she’s been helpful, but she’s also confirmed a lot of what Lucy has mentioned in regards to side effects.
Actually perfect timing, I'm about to start myself
this is perfect timing todays my first day of hrt lol
Congrats!! Hope it goes amazing!
@@fairyprincesslucy ty! im rlly excited for this new chapter in my life 😊
Intresting timing, cause the 4th next month will mark my first month into hrt 😅
Now I finally get why so many of us drink monster with how much sleepier I've gotten.
Thanks for sharing your experience with hrt. Im hoping to start them soon
Thank you for the video! I'm going to ask the doctor for HRT tomorrow morning, I hope it goes well : )
Woah just the sorta video I’ve been looking for, what perfect timing 💖
I recently hit the 5 month mark and couldn’t be happier :3
perfect timing lol, hopefully starting next week!
Just done with my first month on DIY estradiol monotherapy injections! It's a completely different experience. I was getting a huge spike in estrogen, followed by a huge dip just before my second injection 10 days later. In a few days I was feeling like a completely different person. My libido died a violent, deserved death in the span of a couple days, my skin became soft and smooth basically immediately. I met my partner for the first time during this first week as well, and all I could think about was hugging, kissing, and snuggling him to death. I do feel like a completely different person, and that's a GOOD thing, before I felt like a ghost haunting a broken husk. Now I feel real, I feel whole.
I have been on hrt for 17 months and 3 weeks. It has been amazing
So I've been on hrt about a month now, but I feel like I haven't had any changes. Maybe it's me not seeing the changes, but watching this video made me realize that I probably have been seeing changes by now. I really hope something changes soon
I'm 5 months in and tbh I haven't really experienced noticably emotional/crying differences, which is odd as it seems fairly universal. Though I was also always pretty emotional when testosterone dominant anyhow...
I do think there may be some subtle differences in how I process emotion, but it's very much a "kinda sorta maybe" in retrospect matter, not something I notice in the moment.
The breasts will come. Think after the end of my first month I just had somewhat tender nipples, but by month 2 I definitely was forming buds -- and it was probably last month when they began to actually look like breasts (albeit very small and immature)
Thank you so much for this! I'm due to start soonish so this is essential information!
2.5 weeks into hrt now. got them sensitive chest and I feel closer to crying than I used to get whenever I would feel a "cryable' emotion.
im 2 months in and its wonderful :3
When the tears came. It felt like normal SpongeBob saying Hi, how are you 😂😭 those bottled up emotions were hitting
This is my first year on HRT and I’m 36 mostly because my most of my family isn’t supportive of me transitioning so going into my first HRT doctors appointment I was so nervous I was shaking but I’m 8 months into my HRT now and I’m looking forward to my next appointment and I’m happy I started I only wish I started sooner but I have very supportive friends and a sister who is amazing to me but I don’t have any regrets about starting my HRT and I can’t wait for my first surgery
Im torn between wanting to lose my belly fat, and eating to help breast growth..
Depending on how long my doc takes and the clinic takes, I might be on HRT by Halloween, so this is some nice timing ^_^
Update the day before Halloween: I've been on HRT since the 18th :3
GOOD LUCK
I may be starting by the end of October too! We got this!
Yipppeeeeee have fun with world's best halloween candy
I might be starting in October too!!!!(either that or halfway through november)
One part of that music sounded so dang familiar but I can't place it... It is really bugging me.
Also, I just got my prescriptions from planned parenthood, but my pharmacy hasn't gotten it yet..... I am really excited to get started as soon as possible but I know that I got through this process faster than a lot of people so I know I am still lucky. I actually do find this video very helpful for knowing what to expect and stuff too, so thank you!
Was it from the Xbox maybe? It's on the tip of my tongue...
Me too, I have been socially transitioning for the past two years, and my whole focus and goals have been being getting on HRT.
I even played it through the scenario, in my mind, of going into the pharmacy with the prescription in hand, and getting the drugs! But they would ultimately arrive by post, so this scenario wasn't my reality.
But, when they did arrive, I just sat there looking at them - just like the cat, who has that all-consuming urge/desire to catch that mouse. but, as soon as it catches it, it will just sit there with a "what do I do now look on its face!"
what I did do was read the leaflets that came with both the blocker and hormones. I even had my bestie read through it, so I was doing it correctly.
now, just over a month on the stuff, it has already become a part of my daily routine. the blocker did make me feel a bit sleepy, for the first week and a bit, I just put that down to it switching off the testosterone, that's been turbo-charging my bloodstream for the past X number of years! that leved out fairly quickly for me. Life has just continued along its path without incident since I started, and will continue on its path - wherever that will take me next!
>asmr channel
>guitar hero
Femtanyl pfp 👍😎
Yeah the new asmr channel used to be a stream vod channel but became a bit redundant so reusing that channel for future asmr :)
Where I am only 6 months on HRT, some of the things that I noticed are:
* From about 2 weeks to the end of the 2nd month, within minutes of getting up in a morning, I would experience what I can only describe as a hot flush. As in I would suddenly feel very hot, and some times a little dizzy. These hot flushes would last 5-10 minutes and only occurred 2-4 times a week.
* from the day that I started, I have been recording my measurements (bust, waist & hips) every month, and at the end of the 3rd month I noticed that my bust had increased and waist decreased. Now it was nothing visually noticeable at first, it was only because the measurements changed that I noticed. It was the end of the 4th month that breast development became obvious.
* it was early in the 5th month that I felt that I needed to wear a bra - only A cup so far.
* also in the 5th month, the measurements showed that my hip had increased in size.
I'm still me just a more gentle loving me and no tiered feelings lost muscle but was hopping to my dead self has big biceps thank for sharing Jennifer Marie preoptrans 6 months hormones feeling fantastic God bless
8:50 speaking of crying, i didn't notice any difference in that regard after i started HRT. i cried and smiled aaa lotttt about a month before that, still full of testosterone, but having just accepted myself as transfem. now _that_ was freaking cathartic!! after more than two decades of denial and depression... HRT on the other hand seems to have been giving me only physical changes, or at least predominantly. and those in turn are making me happier every day with how i look 😊🥹 but no noticeable direct psychological effects. well, this week, with a slightly higher dosage, i did cry a tiny bit a couple of times, but whether it was due to the estrogen, or cuz i was watching a lot of emotional stuff, i do not know.
today is 2 weeks for me, so this is a perfect video for me :D not rly feeling much yet but I’m like a sloth metabolically so I’m sure it’ll come around at some point :) rly hope so, still feeling pretty apathetic a lot of the time. I don’t expect it to be a fix all but I hope it’ll help emotionally at least.
For me it felt liberating!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰
I had 0.2 nmol/L from haven too high testosteron level for a male prior to starting HRT 11 month ago.. 🥺 in a week i felt like the unrest inside me just disappeared, or i still godt ADHD and ASD, so some of it is still there, but it felt like 98%.. it is a weird feeling to feel like your diagnosis got better.. 😅
I love being on HRT 🥰 it was the best i have done for myself ❤️🥳 it is not like it fix all, i still struggle with many thing, i struggle with thing i didnt did before..
On the day of my 11 month, i got a bigger behind, and a C75 coup size (EU) which i will not complain about (i'm 169cm high) and i need to change to and from uniform every day at work, and nearly no one care or notice🤔
taking my 4th dose tomorrow ^^
Should hopefully be starting next week, and kinda nervous. Doesn't all feel quite real yet. Not out of the closet yet, and still partially in denial about being trans myself. But after worrying about it for many years, I figured its time to stop being so damned indecisive and take the leap of faith... just hope it won't be as miserable as first puberty.
thank you for making this
Almost 2 months on HRT and I still cant cry. Maybe im broken after all
"You will get boobas." YAY!
"You will need to eat in order to get boobas." ...
SHI-
Amazingly, you released this video the day that I started HRT lol
Progynova 2 mg
Can't say I feel any different after the first week but I was expecting that
How long do you think it was before you felt the emotional changes?
Emotional changes for me were pretty sudden but it varies from person to person
When I started HRT, I had not started social transition yet. So I'm sure the pharmacist was a bit confused because it looked like some random guy was just taking estrogen & progesterone for who knows why.
Also, the first effect I noticed was that I smelled different. Now I'm back to not really noticing how I smell. And with temperature, I'm just colder in general, so hot temperatures are easier to deal with-which is kind of convenient, since Iive in a hot climate.
Your so right thought no bras till breast augmentation wrong very tender loving it but have to wear a spots bra thanks again for sharing
i expected mood swings and was hoping it wasnt that crazy. still waiting for the swings but im stable in that sense. feb 2023 started hrt.
thanks girly :3
I just got on hrt and I’m excited to see how it works I just want to know how long until I see subtle changes not the big changes
Adding a little of my experience, since I started
I'm trans. Marisa by name. I am 8 or 9 months on estrogen and blocker injection. Nothing happening so far. Just Libido non- existant now which I kinda like. I like the control. No weeping, no crying. Feel my usual logical practical self. What is the weeping all about anyway !!?? Is it something spiritual, something mystical perhaps ?? The soul weeping within the man ? That's what I think. I am a VERY SLOW DEVELOPER . A bit of a plodder. Breasts might take 3 to 4 years to develop for me. Patience is required . Sorry, I can't relate at all to your crying. I don't really WANT to CRY anyway. I want to be HAPPY. So God bless you.
truly Marisad
Sick timing im just over 1 month in and wow im surprised that anythings happened in that time.
Even 3 hours after my first pills i felt a wave of euphoria? I usually dont feel happy passively i can only realy compare to illicit drugs but that the weird thing is it stayed not as strong but ive felt better ever since (if i ever feel dead my first though is usually “oh shiz I forgot to take my titacks” or something)
If your easily grossed out… idfk… grow up or uh stop reading
Nips felt it at 2 week yowich
Accidentally
peeing
your
self
is now an actual concern
I thought this was a made up tv trop lmao
And apparently my skin look better
Oh and how could i forget.
Ive always been a little timid emotional bitch but now my cry range has moved from when im sad, uncomfortable, confused or angry to include happy, grateful and just feeling good man.
Anyways autism over and remember You trans person
For the algorithm! 🏳️⚧️
i just became greener....has that happened to anyone yet? even at the moment of writing this comment, it feels like im getting more greener, green
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Sis took greenstrogen instead of estrogen
@@gaogaogaga lol fr 😃
@@LuNa_097ppffft greenstrogen, fucking brilliant
Appreciate this! Is that really all that bottom surgery costs in your country?
The gofundme for bottom surgery is only a small portion of the total but that small portion has made it much easier to save for it
@@fairyprincesslucy Gotcha. That’s awesome! I’ll chip in next paycheck. Thanks again for sharing your story.
rn im not on hrt yet sadly but i am a bit on the fatter side of things, does that actually mean I'm at an advantage when it comes to breast growth?
I had to wait 2 days for my first script of it, but it seems like the pharmacy knows to order it for me every month so they do so now everytime I refill. I'm pretty sure they know because its still under my legal name and I avoid saying my legal name as much as possible and they kinda give me the look. Theres a lot of trans people in my area and a lot of them get their scripts filled there now because Walgreens discriminates heavily against trans people in my area. Sadly a lot of people I know also have to go through CVS because work and which CVS also in my area heavily discriminates against trans people. Places will refuse to fill scripts if they clock people. Also I use to cry prior more easier than most people but yeah starting HRT yeah.... crying became pretty second nature. A lot of ptsd memories mixed in there, and the sadness for not being able to process my emotions came over me. I bottled a lot of my emotions and I had a lot of cPTSD issues. I also missed a old friend that passed away that yeah. I was always more emotional out of everyone I knew, but yeah. Tempeture thing I heard was because skin thins a little more. I'm about 9 months in keep that in mind, and I finally just got to the level goals.
Yeah I written the comment before watching t, it literally was in the first minute 😅
Lovely video, maybe weird word choice but that's how I feel about it 🙃
By the way, sorry if inpolite, is it true HRT makes body hair grow slower, lighter and thinner? And face hair too?
Glad you enjoyed! I believe hrt can slow it down but most trans people likely need laser to avoid constant shaving
My estrodiol tastes absolutely awful...
But that's because I got it in gel form. xD
Lucy, why doesn't social services pay for srt in Australia? Do they pay for estrogen and testosterone blockers? Here in the United States, most medical insurance companies cover it. Medical insurance is mandatory in the United States. If you can't afford it, social services will provide it. Hope your srt goes well. ❤😊❤
i havent started hrt myself yet or done much research, but afaik most hormones are on the pbs (pharmaceutical benefits scheme) which subsidises the cost of medications making them much cheaper to start with. so even though the cost is not fully covered, it's usually very affordable. also, in australia, if people have medical insurance it's usually so that they can cover costs of using private health services, because public health services cover or subsidise most essential costs.
no way this vid came out on my first week
Omg I take literally the same kind of estradiol :0 :3
Same box and everything
My Hair Line has grown back to near female hair line.. my sex drive are different not less, but Yes dysphoria.. 🥺 my weiner are shrinked quit a lot.. 🎉 which makes it so much easier to hide.. but could be a problem when it comes to bottom surgery
trans people are so epic
i am cis man what is youtube tryna tell me 😵💫
That's up to you to decide! Do whatever you wanna
Sameeee!
Still cis tho
🥚
Meow meow im like 1 months in and skin soft and chest hurt 😊 i do injections tho
I'm 1 and half months on hrt and my biggest things I've noticed is my nipples have been soooo itchy and my breast buds have already started and my right one in particular is super sore all the time
40k!
yep!!! next weeks video is the 40k celebration video
warhammer reference? no way
i'm getting hrt in 4 days!!!!! i'm losing my mind lol
Hey I'm starting tomorrow, if CVS learns to refill on time.
The first few months will kill me, cause, I'm ace and im already a very emotional and teary person, so the early effects won't really be noticeable l, so ima sit around and wait for tiddies for like 3 months :[
Where can i get Testosterone?? (im not ftm i just want to be stronger)
how did you get such good hair? I would also want that
I highly recommend finding experienced hairdressers and asking lots of questions about how to look after your hair! Everyone's hair is different and I applied it to my routine
@@fairyprincesslucy oh, in my country, there are a lot of anti-lgbt people, and they don't even know how to do good hair
Three months in and all I have to show for breasts is nipples poking out. No pain (no gain 😭), but if I do my usual *slip through doorway sideways* I'm reminded by a small shock. If this is all I'm sad.
For others changes can't say I felt any more tired since hrt, feels like it's the opposite sometimes. Same with crying idk if it's hormones or just me allowing myself to cry when I feel like it. Horny drive went down a bit though
bu wait as a guy taking testosterone blockers, will u die at some point if u dont take hrt or some else?
If someone assigned male at birth before age 18ish only takes blockers it's fine from my understanding since it just delays puberties effects, but I think long term post 18 your body needs a 'dominant hormone' so you'd like need to take estrogen alongside it. As long as the body has a main hormone flowing through the body is all healthy and well
I've stopped taking testosterone blockers because I felt like I wasn't reacting well to them. Is that wise or should I go back on them?
depends on what the bad reactions are, I recommend speaking to a doctor if possible as different doses and stuff may suit better
What’s your asmr channel❤️
ruclips.net/channel/UCysLnKlFW5rVv1gmW0CmYbQ here it is! It's brand new so only one asmr video so far but will grow overtime!
Girl pills, girl pills.
i got hea withen 2 mitits
lets hope i can get it (i wont)