Rabbi- I made teshuva to such a degree, that the person I was before teshuva is gone. I find myself indifferent to physicality. I don't eat much, im not married so I don't touch women and keep shemiras habrit, seemingly getting close to g-d. I am. But I feel in the process I lost part of me. that moment when you feel so close to g-d, yet in someway so far from a sense of selse, or metzius. I know in Hassidic philosophy there is a concept of bittul, and I feel it coming into me, but is somewhat scary, like depersonalization. Perhaps because we are becoming more g-dly, we literally are removed to a degree from this world, olam hazeh. but I feel its also a yetzer hara, evil inclination. there is a part of me that loves music and to sing, but then I reason its a waste of time I should learn torah, pray, or meditate. Like I want to redefine myself as a person with some unique traits again, and not be so void which comes with serving g-d. I hope this made sense. all the best.
Dear Rabbi Alon Anava. So true love your utubes you seem to talk about just what I'm thinking so we are in tune ..what to do ? I keep praying and I can't seem to get clear if what my purpose is ...I never really thought about it all like this before thank you
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Rabbi- I made teshuva to such a degree, that the person I was before teshuva is gone. I find myself indifferent to physicality. I don't eat much, im not married so I don't touch women and keep shemiras habrit, seemingly getting close to g-d. I am. But I feel in the process I lost part of me. that moment when you feel so close to g-d, yet in someway so far from a sense of selse, or metzius. I know in Hassidic philosophy there is a concept of bittul, and I feel it coming into me, but is somewhat scary, like depersonalization. Perhaps because we are becoming more g-dly, we literally are removed to a degree from this world, olam hazeh. but I feel its also a yetzer hara, evil inclination. there is a part of me that loves music and to sing, but then I reason its a waste of time I should learn torah, pray, or meditate. Like I want to redefine myself as a person with some unique traits again, and not be so void which comes with serving g-d. I hope this made sense. all the best.
That's me. Two time cancer survivor here. :)
Dear Rabbi Alon Anava. So true love your utubes you seem to talk about just what I'm thinking so we are in tune ..what to do ? I keep praying and I can't seem to get clear if what my purpose is ...I never really thought about it all like this before thank you
X dear Rabbi Alon Anava. So true I have absolutely no idea what my purpose is at all I'm 70 !
Amen! :)
Agreed.
Unfortunately common sense is not very common.
Thanking you kindly.
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