Thank you Rachel. I'm just recovering from an obsession with an older woman, and it does feel like I just came out of a storm. These obsessions have the power to change our identities, priorities, and behaviors. And the worst part is that you can't discuss them with people who haven't experienced them. They just think you're weird and crazy. So it's very comforting to hear another person speak on this experience. I'm glad I am not alone in this. Also best of luck with your surgery. Wishing you a smooth recovery
Thanks you so much! And yes, the chief reason I do these videos is to be brutally honest about the experience(s), ongoing, so that young women can have the support I just didn’t feel I had (felt like I was crazy for many years). Hugs and kisses to you
This video really helped me reflect on why I’ve spent my entire life longing for girls and women who didn’t love me back. It made me realize that I was repeatedly seeking affection from unaffectionate people, almost like an intentional way of self harming.
Thank you for this video. I've struggled with an unrequited crush/love for somebody who's slowly become my friend, but I still cry over. This really encouraged me to continue to make art as a constructive use for all these emotions.
I've struggled being obsessed with older women . I'm thinking because my mom was never around. They did love me back but it wasnt in the way I wanted. I met my gf now shes closer to my age and I truly have fallen in love . It's two sided. You dont have to chase what god sends you. Looks like you're learning the whys you were in that situation and that's awesome. It does affect your dopamine levels in the brain when u think about them. I have borderline as well and they may have been a favorite person or a form of limerence.
Great video(s) . . . You're not crazy, and she probably would have loved to accept You. A treasure, well spoken, talented, loving, attractive. . . . Maybe she was *beyond terrified* of the all the taboos of the social machine as she perceived it from a lifetime of hearing growls and implied threats from the rumor mill . . . concerning the age gap and being recently your teacher. Guessing she's very disappointed in herself now and was frightened and confused. You might even be right about the "target" in the sense that she might even be the wonderful person you loved . . . but due to societal taboos she grew up with, she couldn't even steer the boat, and to save her life she had to throw you overboard. Maybe all she could hear was herself being crazy and afraid that this would never be allowed, and didn't know what to say other than her terrible response. You're right. And maybe she was temporarily crazy & had to spurn you even if she didn't want to. . . .Well wishes, and I trust You.
It's 4th of July and late..and I thought I would listen to one of your videos, before retiring for the night. I came upon this video. Thank you for sharing your personal experience. It brought me comfort knowing am not crazy. As long as we learn and move forward not backwards is key. Peace and good journey.
I’ve went through so many of these...as far back as I can remember. I never imagined to stumble upon a video at random so specific to what I experienced. (female chasing female)
very interesting to hear this. for you see i'm so used to only straight dudes ever being referred to as "creepy" and "threatening" even by females they wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole that it's really fascinating to know that it actually happens to others too.
I created this same fairy-tale image about my ex and had a very difficult time letting go... took me years. I held onto that image and overlooked his abusive behavior. To this day, I still care for him, but I have a more realistic image of who he is now and also realize that we were truly never compatible. Healthier/re-framed mindset. As for the other situation that you know quite well about, this is something I had never experienced in my life, so naturally, I've been looking for answers inside myself which I feel that I have found at this point in time, but also clinging to a feeling of "wanting to know more," if that makes sense. Pandora's box. Just trying to follow my inner guidance. And in regard to your situation, I think your obsessive thoughts have also formed their own identity around how you view yourself in romantic terms which was entirely untrue as it was based on this person's negative behavior toward you. To clarify, when you start viewing yourself as "unlovable," naturally, you also start attracting people to solidify those thoughts about yourself and/or repel those who do not think that way of you. I hope that makes sense. Great video ;)
Thank you Talitha!! Always insightful. I do recognize how my behavior has impacted not only this woman but others and in my adult years I have not fallen cursed in extreme adoration and obsession of others. Mostly, because when you get to know someone they inevitably fall from the pedestal. But I agree, the worst part is I have to take responsibility and closure from myself for everything even though she was at the very least mildly abusive towards me. I will check the show out!
Thank you Rachel. I'm just recovering from an obsession with an older woman, and it does feel like I just came out of a storm. These obsessions have the power to change our identities, priorities, and behaviors. And the worst part is that you can't discuss them with people who haven't experienced them. They just think you're weird and crazy.
So it's very comforting to hear another person speak on this experience. I'm glad I am not alone in this.
Also best of luck with your surgery. Wishing you a smooth recovery
Thanks you so much! And yes, the chief reason I do these videos is to be brutally honest about the experience(s), ongoing, so that young women can have the support I just didn’t feel I had (felt like I was crazy for many years). Hugs and kisses to you
This video really helped me reflect on why I’ve spent my entire life longing for girls and women who didn’t love me back. It made me realize that I was repeatedly seeking affection from unaffectionate people, almost like an intentional way of self harming.
And it’s so funny how you seem to seek them out subconsciously. Your body senses their unavailability. Hugs to you.
Is obsession love?! No it's a strange feeling and the mood swings are horrible.
Thank you so much for talking about this! ❤️💯
Thank you for this video. I've struggled with an unrequited crush/love for somebody who's slowly become my friend, but I still cry over. This really encouraged me to continue to make art as a constructive use for all these emotions.
So glad to help. ♥️
Rachel, you look gorgeous. I love the way you speak and how articulate you are. Wishing you well on your upcoming surgery ❤️
Thank you very much ❤️
you‘re handling this whole topic better than my therapist, thank you
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I've struggled being obsessed with older women . I'm thinking because my mom was never around. They did love me back but it wasnt in the way I wanted. I met my gf now shes closer to my age and I truly have fallen in love . It's two sided. You dont have to chase what god sends you. Looks like you're learning the whys you were in that situation and that's awesome. It does affect your dopamine levels in the brain when u think about them. I have borderline as well and they may have been a favorite person or a form of limerence.
I have borderline too, and it took me years to realize that my obsessions are just my FPs
Great video(s) . . . You're not crazy, and she probably would have loved to accept You. A treasure, well spoken, talented, loving, attractive. . . . Maybe she was *beyond terrified* of the all the taboos of the social machine as she perceived it from a lifetime of hearing growls and implied threats from the rumor mill . . . concerning the age gap and being recently your teacher.
Guessing she's very disappointed in herself now and was frightened and confused. You might even be right about the "target" in the sense that she might even be the wonderful person you loved . . . but due to societal taboos she grew up with, she couldn't even steer the boat, and to save her life she had to throw you overboard. Maybe all she could hear was herself being crazy and afraid that this would never be allowed, and didn't know what to say other than her terrible response. You're right. And maybe she was temporarily crazy & had to spurn you even if she didn't want to. . . .Well wishes, and I trust You.
It's 4th of July and late..and I thought I would listen to one of your videos, before retiring for the night. I came upon this video. Thank you for sharing your personal experience. It brought me comfort knowing am not crazy. As long as we learn and move forward not backwards is key. Peace and good journey.
You're not delusional, just scarred.
Best wishes for your upcoming surgery, Rachel!
I’ve went through so many of these...as far back as I can remember. I never imagined to stumble upon a video at random so specific to what I experienced.
(female chasing female)
Happy to be of service 😄
Thanks for this! I had quite a lot of obsessive loves with a lot of people. Your video hit me hard.
So glad I can be of help and know you’re not alone ❤️
Thank you so much this video so helpful ❤️
The timing of this video is so perfect for me it's uncanny :D
very interesting to hear this. for you see i'm so used to only straight dudes ever being referred to as "creepy" and "threatening" even by females they wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole that it's really fascinating to know that it actually happens to others too.
I’ve experienced this too. ty for making this video. 💗💗💗
I appreciate this video so much
I created this same fairy-tale image about my ex and had a very difficult time letting go... took me years. I held onto that image and overlooked his abusive behavior. To this day, I still care for him, but I have a more realistic image of who he is now and also realize that we were truly never compatible. Healthier/re-framed mindset.
As for the other situation that you know quite well about, this is something I had never experienced in my life, so naturally, I've been looking for answers inside myself which I feel that I have found at this point in time, but also clinging to a feeling of "wanting to know more," if that makes sense. Pandora's box. Just trying to follow my inner guidance.
And in regard to your situation, I think your obsessive thoughts have also formed their own identity around how you view yourself in romantic terms which was entirely untrue as it was based on this person's negative behavior toward you. To clarify, when you start viewing yourself as "unlovable," naturally, you also start attracting people to solidify those thoughts about yourself and/or repel those who do not think that way of you. I hope that makes sense. Great video ;)
Love your last paragraph so very much. I appreciate you sis. Thanks ❤️❤️❤️
Rachel! I missed your videos on here
Thank you Talitha!! Always insightful. I do recognize how my behavior has impacted not only this woman but others and in my adult years I have not fallen cursed in extreme adoration and obsession of others. Mostly, because when you get to know someone they inevitably fall from the pedestal. But I agree, the worst part is I have to take responsibility and closure from myself for everything even though she was at the very least mildly abusive towards me.
I will check the show out!
Oh this hurt .. I’ve been there .. she ghosted me and I’ve given my all .. she was intense at first yet she just leave me like that