Trauma wasn't trauma, it was a "normal" part of life. I don't remember having any "good ol days", "golden days". The patchy memories of abuse were all I had. If that was all life was, I was ready to check out. At 11, in a very casual way, I attempted to leave this body; this experience. That started my life's journey of medications, hospitalizations, therapy, etc. I'm 58, I have an an appointment with my therapist today. Depression, I hate you.😢
The first time I heard this I was in pieces 💔 I’m 62, when I was in my 20’s I lost two close males friends to suicide within the space of 18 months through depression, I was there to support and listen, but for their latter months to the end I felt I failed them. Back then in the 80’s no one talked about these issues at all like they do today. I’m pleased there are newer avenues open to guys now to reach out. There’s an irony too, March 29th (Ren’s birthday and new release date) is the anniversary of the suicide a really really special friend Steven back in 1986, he was 23. ❤️🇬🇧 Thanks Cliff for all you do. X
You 100% didn’t fail your friends. By being their to support them and listen to them you where the change back then that you appreciate today. You where probably the light in the dark within a society that was failing them. RIP Steven ❤️
Once again Ren sends another song of empathy into the universe. A digital hug for all who need it. This is why we love Ren, and we love you, @Cliff Beats. More than all this, I am starting to learn to love myself. Thanks for being there pal. I am here for you to Bro.
I have avoided listening to this one, but decided to tackle it today with you. I have been avoiding acknowledging my own depression for over a decade. I was “just a little blue”. I’m so tired of ignoring and denying. Thank you and Ren for helping me to finally face the fact that I might not be able to just get over it on my own. Love your channel. And thanks for the tough love at the end too.
Ren’s track is devastating and beautiful, but I also appreciate your message in urging people to embrace self care and reach out for help. I turn 50 years old in a few months and I’ve been trying to cope with the depression and anxiety and irritability and hopelessness and all of it, and I’ve felt this way most of my adult life and never really knew why. Thought this was what life was, and that I was a failure because I couldn’t handle it. People need to hear artists like REN and people like you talking about self love and that it’s ok to ask for help. It’s ok to ask for help. It’s ok.
Sometimes it's hard to handle, but I'm willing to bet you are far from a failure just by witnessing your kind heart in this moment. May you be blessed and find every reason to smile.
Man...You are brave.. I listened to this one last week and it hit different. I was not ready. The last 12 seconds damn near had me on a plane just to hug him and take care of him. Then I remembered stalker vibes are NEVER cute and would not help him. 😢😢
I think that the stigma regarding mental health issues is starting to go away. I now meet people everywhere that openly talk about their mental health, both men and women, something that no one would admit 20 years ago.
Ren - Hold On is the counterpart to the song Depression. Still about depression and oppression but a completely different and upbeat vibe, almost a mantra about just struggling through it. It was something he always repeated to himself, so much that it became a song. He would say to himself hold on because there has to be something better if he can make it to the other side and come out of his depression and illness. Ren - Do You Believe came out around the same time and is also worth listening to.
Ok, how to start??? This song by Ren, is something ALOT of people need to not only hear but PAY ATTENTION to. His ability to find the perfect combination of words and how to present them, is astounding. (My sentence structure is horrible. Ren does that to me.) Add to that, the fact that just with the tones and emotional strain in his voice. He has taken the listener right into the depths of where he is. Now, for you. That was THE BEST personal advice I have EVER heard. It was only words that come from the soul of someone that has been there. It was direct to the point. Came from your heart. And one hundred percent absolutely true. I am really new to discord and really haven't figured it out quite yet. I so truly believe that it's IMPERATIVE that folks hear the GOOD that they do. You do a wonderful thing. Acknowledge and celebrate that about yourself. Even if it's just for a moment. Thank you and have a stellar day.
Cliff Beats thank you for shining light on this very serious subject. You have a platform where you are able to reach hundreds of people. Keep being the light at the end of people's very dark tunnels. Thank you!
I was born with a chemical disfunction in my brain. The clinical term for it is chronic chemical depression. Having this problem my entire life has made me think about doing the unthinkable more than once in my life. My heart goes out to the men and women who encounter this problem in their lives. Please dont give up! ❤
Amazing breakdown homie. This song is what the last 25 yrs of my life has been like. Depression is debilitating, crippling and horrible. Thank you to Ren for being a voice for me and for those who have problems trying to Express it.🙏❤
Thank you for this reaction. To all the folks out there dealing with depression: solidarity. We'll get through this if we allow ourselves to reach out, and all carry the weight together. Show other people grace, but never forget to show yourself a little grace too.
Subscribed! Ren is just so raw, so real, and so relatable. More Ren please - Ready for You, Dominoes, Heretic, Ocean and Humble. I really appreciate your reactions.
Let me first say thank you, Cliff. You're the person that introduced me to Ren's music. Going down the "Ren rabbit hole" has been one hell of an experience. He's an inspiration to so many people, myself included. This is a reaction I've been simultaneously looking forward to and dreading. This is hard for me to listen to because I relate far too much to this song. It also hurts to hear Ren break down at the end. I can't listen to this without tearing up. That said, I'm glad Ren put this out and was brave enough to be so vulnerable with us. It's a perfect representation of just how much depression can really fuck with your view of the world. It's a gut punch that more people need to experience, ESPECIALLY those that are fortunate enough to not have to go through shit like this. Since I first heard this song, I've gone back to it a few times during really bad days just to remind myself that no, I'm NOT dealing with this alone. There ARE others that have felt the way that I'm feeling. One of the hardest hitting lines for me is "Fuck those lessons, fuck depression" because, yeah, I don't care about whatever this is supposed to teach me, I just want the pain to STOP. To anyone reading this that also battles with this mental behemoth, I hope that this serves as a reminder that, while your brain may be telling you that no one else gets it, the truth is that there are people that understand you. If you're a suicide survivor like me, I'm glad you're still here. Thank you Ren and Cliff, for being so open with us about your struggles. Keep fighting. You've had more of a positive impact on my life than I could ever put into words, and I am eternally grateful.
Control the things you can. Like you were saying. Wash dishes. Take a walk. Drink a extra bottle of water. Control the small things get to be big things. Thank you. Honestly I love to listen to you speak the truth. I'm with you serious panic disorder. Everyday is a battle. ❤❤
TRUTH...REN is continually giving a voice and educating a generation of people with these exact thoughts and people that may not understand. Fuck Depression. Pure 🔥 Prayers up people🙏
This one ruins me every time I hear it, but I listen to it often. I’ve lived with depression for most of my 52 years and I’ve struggled with addiction and PTSD after witnessing the murder of a good friend, so I feel every word of this song. EVERY FUKING WORD. I’m not going to say I’m doing well now, but it’s music like this that gets me through the day, every day. If it wasn’t for music, I seriously doubt that I’d still be here. So glad you’re bringing Ren’s music into the light for so many people. Keep up the great work, much love
I've heard this dozens of times and every single time it hits hard!! I was medicated for depression at nine years old. That was 49 years ago! Great reaction again Cliff. Thank you for spreading Ren's message!
As much as Diazepam described perfectly and even sounded like 10mg or more of the crap, this song does exactly the same. What's written on the label and what's inside is exactly what it is. I hate you depression.
Here for you and #Ren always ❤️ hope you are having a wonderful day today Cliff an anyone else reading this comment I hope you are having a wonderful day today too ❤️
The horrible thing with depression is once it’s with you it never really leaves you. We just learn to live with it and we feel a little better. We’re always one bad play away from the slide to deep depression again. Get better soon guys. 💔
I found EMDR to be very helpful for my PTSD, it brought me from 59 on the scale to 29. No talking, just processing. Then my mentally ill mother who was a major contributor to my PTSD entered end stage COPD and feeling better decided to let her back in my life, throw myself in the fire and try to heal through it. Six months in my house on hospice, so many triggers, walking away, pushing stuff down, biting my tongue, shaking uncontrollably, why did I do this? I put myself in the position where I had to. But... in the end, I walked out of the fire, feel more healed and whole somehow... I always thought I'd finally have peace when she was no longer here but I opened my heart to love her through her death, and myself through my healing. I found compassion for the broken person in front of me realizing she too had PTSD from her sick parents. That compassion for her, compassion for self is what was priceless. I actually miss her sometimes; which is most shocking of all. I pray all who suffer find peace in their hearts. This song was relatable for most of my 52 years, and I never thought it would get better. The hardest part now is that I don't react as I always did, which leaves me not knowing how to feel. When sick is all you know, healthy is foreign, but still, attainable. Will I ever be 100% ? I don't know, but I know I don't have to soothe myself anymore and am working on healthy thoughts, responses and practices. That feeling that there is no hope is real, I know it well, but I found hope, it does exist. Bless you for your caring heart and Bless Ren for raising awareness and bless every heart that feels alone.
I was told ages ago that depression was anger turned inwards? the way he expresses himself in such a creative inclusive way to all of us that have suffered through it.
This is such a great lyric in shedding light on depression. Thanks, Cliff. Please check out Ren x Chinchilla - How to be me (live). And I see that you got the checkmark next to the name now. Not sure if that means anything, but it's a milestone, so congratulations. long overdue. ❤🙏
These words hit home. I lost a decade of my life to major depressive disorder. Nothing the medical experts did made the symptoms disappear. I had to learn to function in the eye of a storm. I was then diagnosed with bipolar but they were wrong. I had complex PTSD. I thank you both for shining a light on a very difficult subject.
Great reaction and props to you for not shying away from these subjects. Dominoes and Heretic deal with heavy subjects as well - yet done so breathtakingly beautifully that it keeps you hypnotized and of course - leads to insight, support and growth. TY!
Cliff seriously thank you for all you do. For being raw and honest and eel with us. Through the last few years of insanity you’ve been a great refuge and so good for my mental health. And also the music breakdowns are fun too lol😂
I've been stuck in this concrete for a long time but I will never let it put me down. On some days it wants me to end myself by I absolutely refuse to. I will fight till the last day even if every day is suffering.
Second time hearing, this beautiful soul. I was in a pool of tears. I believe he is better now. But I understand you just learn how to manage your anxieties. Thank you Cliff 💕👵🏼
I suffer from dysthymia. It's essentially a low level of chronic depression. If 1 is severe, black-hole depression and 10 is absolute euphoria, and you think of everyone as having a set point somewhere on that scale and an ability to temporarily move an average amount up or down (short-term happiness, sadness, etc.)... well, dysthymia is a lot like having a somewhat lower set point than average. I can be happy, short-term. I can find excitement. I just REVERT back to my set point pretty quickly. Seeing a series of therapists and counselors, building tools, leveraging low levels of medication... it's opened up the world to me. I'm entering chess tournaments, bringing my greyhound to agility training, I've managed to stay married for going on 13 years, and my family still talks to me and values me and my time. Cliff, your radical honesty and desire to support others... I am in awe of it. Every time I see something new from you, I want to hear it. I want to see it. Thank you SO MUCH for your support of yourself and others. And thank you so much for supporting Ren. You're 1,000% correct. We need him. We need his art.
About depression, do you know that Lucy posted a new video , with Martha and their mother Louise? The song is " smile" , music from Charlie Chaplin. A song to listen everytime you have hard time. Listen to it , you will not regret❤
My wife doesn't understand and it's easier to shove it down then try any more to explain or ask for help. Feel so weak just telling her how I felt even if I don't understand it. I find it impossible to blame anyone but myself for anything and everything since I became a father. I recently felt the warmth of the sun, things may be looking up. Keep up the fight there's light even if it doesn't seem bright.
For me the hardest part was never trying to end things, or wanting to die. That has been my entire life. Living with chronical illness. Its more than just feelings and emotions. For me. it's the next day. I've never cursed a sunrise quite like the one I didn't want to see. All the pain that lead to end it all. That is clarity. Its clear. It's a purpose. But being there the day after. A day you never wanted to see. That emptiness. That distress of knowing there will be more. The feeling of being alive, when the last thing you remember before that, was you having that peace " It's over, No more pain " But then waking up. It's just something that crush you. It's the weight of the world, with nothing to hold it.
well shit. spoken from the inside, as Ren always does. i don't have it in me to fight with my dr anymore to try to get care. i'm broke so there's no therapy to be had. this state is my life and it's a relief and validation to hear it put into words.
Thank you for being you❤️ I was diagnosed with major depression, bipolar, and borderline at the age of 21. So I was overdiagnosed and overmedicated and completely lost. They didn't want to talk about my severe childhood trauma because the therapists couldn't handle it. The last 5 years I saw a new therapist who is also a shaman. The first appointment she told me that western society don't understand trauma the way old tribes do. For instance the Indians and other old society's see trauma as life experience and are seen as wounded healers. My own opinion of myself changed. I was not broken or damaged. Although I am diagnosed with C_trauma and trauma based dissociative dissorder now. My medication is reduced and I can feel again wich is necessary for healing. I am doing very good at 57. It's all about caring for yourself. I can see the light in the dark. You are right only you can save You. I agree that man find it more difficult to seek help. I hope Ren and poeple like you will change that. We are oke as we are. We are not broken and we can become strong!!!
Yay! I’m so glad you reacted to this and enjoyed the message. Also, thank you for being so available to your subscribers and there for us all should we need someone to listen - what you do is really important and really makes a difference 🙌🏻
This song hits too close. I have dealt with depression my whole life. My first vivid memory is the day my father died when I was 5. Things just got worse from there. There were no golden times. I never even deluded myself to believe there was. The triumph of every day is just getting out of bed and facing another day. Its amazing this has gone on for decades now. Its so numbing.
Hi Cliff. I really like your reaction. Ren is amazing. I cry becouse everybody have some of Depressions. I have lot off Sh.t in my life... Ren know. You also know..... much love from Europe-Austria
Sooooo nice to see you reacting to this. I've been putting requests out for this with only one bite so far. I am living this right now and have been for a very long time. Often listen to this song on repeat. Thank you for your reaction. I'm sorry for your struggles and I love how you put yourself out there for others as a shoulder to lean on or a listening ear.
Getting chills watching you take these in, like I did when I first watched them. Having watched most of his videos hundreds of times, love that I can go back to the beginning with you❤❤❤
The therapists wet dream line hit me hard... I literally had a therapist tell me during an evaluation for a psychiatrist that they wanted me to leave my current therapist for them because they found my case "interesting and intriguing"...
I'm a huge fan of your openness. And, I love how you are open with the things that make you feel uncomfortable. I think I disguise my faults with over-confidence and alcohol. I thIink you and Ren are good models for me going forward. I'm an English teacher living and working in a foreign country. I walk into school every.. single... day... believing and trying to make my students better. I do the work, I put in the effort to be the best I can be for every kid that walks through my door, but I've lost my own focus. Also, let's be clear that I have NEVER taught a class under the influence of anything other than maybe a hangover a couple of times! Based on Ren's music and your reactions, I'm going for a dry April. And, who knows, a dry May. I've dealt with addiction to almost everything I've touched (which is almost everything). I've conquered all but smoking and alcohol. The last two vices. I'm happy with who I am as a person and a mentor. What I am not happy about, is how I have such a good life, and I spend so much free time drinking. Much love! Thanks for the inspiration from you both!
Bro I deal with all of the above you just listed All I can do is work keep my head up and live day to day and if anybody out there actually needs help don't be afraid to get it 💯
This is only the second time I have heard this as the first time I bawled like a baby. And sure as hell, I am crying again 😢 we need to protect Ren at all costs 🖤
I get free therapists, psychologists, and psychiatrists from the VA. I'm their worst nightmare because they need to put lots of effort into helping me. Suicide may be more common in men. It's also more common among veterans. Most veterans are men. Double-threat.
I heard that there has been done research by an organization for veterans with PTSD and depression, that vit D reduces self-harm and suicide with 50%. Maybe interesting? ❤
I barely had stumbled into Ren when I seen "Hi Ren" maybe 13, 14 days go and was blown away. Lyrically beautiful and I also have suffered with depression are there tried the paxil I was on for about 7 years. It makes you dull and sometimes emotionsless and I couldn't feel the emotion anymore. I only felt sadness throughout the whole time but it would never get very extremely sad but it was always sadness. I decided to get off of it about a year-and-a-half ago and I feel a lot better to be honest. My brother and I stopped at the same time, kind of tapered off we both feel so much better but still the sadness remains and I've heard this song a few times, it's beautiful and past couple months I've been not in a good place. But I never get seriously suicidal nothing like that thank God. Had that thought wanting to kill myself but there is sadness and depression and it's just hard to fix I'm 46 years old. And I know I believe a lot of us struggle from this. Others more severe than others. I love this tune it's just so meaningful I could feel that pain frustration and his lyrics made me shed a tear. Past two weeks listening it's not the first time I've shed a tear over one of his music. ❤
Wow thought i had been down the ren rabbit hole but wow, i hadn't heard this one. So relatable, and raw. Omg to hear him breakdown at the end, to be able to be allowed into that personal suffering, just hits so hard
I love REN ✨his songs help bring out so much emotion ,feelings thoughts This song 😭😭😭😭😭 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😰😰😰😰 I live with chronic illnesses and ambiguous grief it’s rough but I used music as one of my tools 🎶lyrics & perspectives stories. To keep keeping on the best I can with what I have been given one day at a time ! 🎶music is life 🎶 I adore you cliff 😉💙✌🏽your an amazing human being 💯I look forward to seeing you on the daily 🥰
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From the outside looking in, from the inside peering out, this song paints the picture of depression perfectly.
Trauma wasn't trauma, it was a "normal" part of life. I don't remember having any "good ol days", "golden days". The patchy memories of abuse were all I had. If that was all life was, I was ready to check out. At 11, in a very casual way, I attempted to leave this body; this experience. That started my life's journey of medications, hospitalizations, therapy, etc. I'm 58, I have an an appointment with my therapist today. Depression, I hate you.😢
May you find peace in your heart mind and soul
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You are loved❤️
The first time I heard this I was in pieces 💔 I’m 62, when I was in my 20’s I lost two close males friends to suicide within the space of 18 months through depression, I was there to support and listen, but for their latter months to the end I felt I failed them. Back then in the 80’s no one talked about these issues at all like they do today. I’m pleased there are newer avenues open to guys now to reach out. There’s an irony too, March 29th (Ren’s birthday and new release date) is the anniversary of the suicide a really really special friend Steven back in 1986, he was 23. ❤️🇬🇧 Thanks Cliff for all you do. X
You 100% didn’t fail your friends. By being their to support them and listen to them you where the change back then that you appreciate today. You where probably the light in the dark within a society that was failing them. RIP Steven ❤️
Ren hits the nail on the head every time his music is personal and honest that’s what separates him from everyone else. Another top reaction bro 👊
Once again Ren sends another song of empathy into the universe. A digital hug for all who need it. This is why we love Ren, and we love you, @Cliff Beats. More than all this, I am starting to learn to love myself. Thanks for being there pal. I am here for you to Bro.
I have avoided listening to this one, but decided to tackle it today with you. I have been avoiding acknowledging my own depression for over a decade. I was “just a little blue”. I’m so tired of ignoring and denying. Thank you and Ren for helping me to finally face the fact that I might not be able to just get over it on my own. Love your channel.
And thanks for the tough love at the end too.
Ren’s track is devastating and beautiful, but I also appreciate your message in urging people to embrace self care and reach out for help. I turn 50 years old in a few months and I’ve been trying to cope with the depression and anxiety and irritability and hopelessness and all of it, and I’ve felt this way most of my adult life and never really knew why. Thought this was what life was, and that I was a failure because I couldn’t handle it. People need to hear artists like REN and people like you talking about self love and that it’s ok to ask for help. It’s ok to ask for help. It’s ok.
Sometimes it's hard to handle, but I'm willing to bet you are far from a failure just by witnessing your kind heart in this moment. May you be blessed and find every reason to smile.
Man...You are brave.. I listened to this one last week and it hit different. I was not ready. The last 12 seconds damn near had me on a plane just to hug him and take care of him. Then I remembered stalker vibes are NEVER cute and would not help him. 😢😢
Your channel is a public service. Thank you for this authentic and helpful reaction.
The boy's an absolute genius. He hits your heart every time. ❤
I think that the stigma regarding mental health issues is starting to go away. I now meet people everywhere that openly talk about their mental health, both men and women, something that no one would admit 20 years ago.
Ren - Hold On is the counterpart to the song Depression. Still about depression and oppression but a completely different and upbeat vibe, almost a mantra about just struggling through it. It was something he always repeated to himself, so much that it became a song. He would say to himself hold on because there has to be something better if he can make it to the other side and come out of his depression and illness. Ren - Do You Believe came out around the same time and is also worth listening to.
Thank you for mentioning these songs. My Mantra has often been, 'This isn't me, this is something I'm going through.'
@@ocnwsprI havent heard it put like that. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for taking this subject, “depression” to the forefront. We need people like you. This is serious thing.
Ok, how to start???
This song by Ren, is something ALOT of people need to not only hear but PAY ATTENTION to.
His ability to find the perfect combination of words and how to present them, is astounding.
(My sentence structure is horrible. Ren does that to me.)
Add to that, the fact that just with the tones and emotional strain in his voice. He has taken the listener right into the depths of where he is.
Now, for you.
That was THE BEST personal advice I have EVER heard.
It was only words that come from the soul of someone that has been there.
It was direct to the point. Came from your heart.
And one hundred percent absolutely true.
I am really new to discord and really haven't figured it out quite yet.
I so truly believe that it's IMPERATIVE that folks hear the GOOD that they do.
You do a wonderful thing.
Acknowledge and celebrate that about yourself.
Even if it's just for a moment.
Thank you and have a stellar day.
Deep song by ren called crutch please react to tht one too cliff your love it 🔥🔥
I love this one. Its more spoken poetry than a song but he nails it. Absolutely top class
Cliff Beats thank you for shining light on this very serious subject. You have a platform where you are able to reach hundreds of people. Keep being the light at the end of people's very dark tunnels. Thank you!
I was born with a chemical disfunction in my brain. The clinical term for it is chronic chemical depression. Having this problem my entire life has made me think about doing the unthinkable more than once in my life. My heart goes out to the men and women who encounter this problem in their lives. Please dont give up! ❤
Ren - love music 1,2 & 3 and dear god xxx happy to see you feeling better x
Amazing breakdown homie. This song is what the last 25 yrs of my life has been like. Depression is debilitating, crippling and horrible. Thank you to Ren for being a voice for me and for those who have problems trying to Express it.🙏❤
Thank you for this reaction. To all the folks out there dealing with depression: solidarity. We'll get through this if we allow ourselves to reach out, and all carry the weight together. Show other people grace, but never forget to show yourself a little grace too.
Subscribed! Ren is just so raw, so real, and so relatable. More Ren please - Ready for You, Dominoes, Heretic, Ocean and Humble. I really appreciate your reactions.
Let me first say thank you, Cliff. You're the person that introduced me to Ren's music. Going down the "Ren rabbit hole" has been one hell of an experience. He's an inspiration to so many people, myself included.
This is a reaction I've been simultaneously looking forward to and dreading. This is hard for me to listen to because I relate far too much to this song. It also hurts to hear Ren break down at the end. I can't listen to this without tearing up.
That said, I'm glad Ren put this out and was brave enough to be so vulnerable with us. It's a perfect representation of just how much depression can really fuck with your view of the world. It's a gut punch that more people need to experience, ESPECIALLY those that are fortunate enough to not have to go through shit like this.
Since I first heard this song, I've gone back to it a few times during really bad days just to remind myself that no, I'm NOT dealing with this alone. There ARE others that have felt the way that I'm feeling. One of the hardest hitting lines for me is "Fuck those lessons, fuck depression" because, yeah, I don't care about whatever this is supposed to teach me, I just want the pain to STOP.
To anyone reading this that also battles with this mental behemoth, I hope that this serves as a reminder that, while your brain may be telling you that no one else gets it, the truth is that there are people that understand you. If you're a suicide survivor like me, I'm glad you're still here.
Thank you Ren and Cliff, for being so open with us about your struggles. Keep fighting. You've had more of a positive impact on my life than I could ever put into words, and I am eternally grateful.
Control the things you can. Like you were saying. Wash dishes. Take a walk. Drink a extra bottle of water. Control the small things get to be big things. Thank you. Honestly I love to listen to you speak the truth. I'm with you serious panic disorder. Everyday is a battle. ❤❤
This one was heavy Cliff. Not gonna lie, I was in tears by the end when he was crying. Support Ren guys🙏❤️
First 😅 glad i was able to b here mental health u always speak about
Think your amazing cliff such a sensitive person. Don't ever change xxx
TRUTH...REN is continually giving a voice and educating a generation of people with these exact thoughts and people that may not understand. Fuck Depression. Pure 🔥 Prayers up people🙏
This one ruins me every time I hear it, but I listen to it often.
I’ve lived with depression for most of my 52 years and I’ve struggled with addiction and PTSD after witnessing the murder of a good friend, so I feel every word of this song. EVERY FUKING WORD.
I’m not going to say I’m doing well now, but it’s music like this that gets me through the day, every day. If it wasn’t for music, I seriously doubt that I’d still be here.
So glad you’re bringing Ren’s music into the light for so many people.
Keep up the great work, much love
May you find peace in your mind soul and heart, in the little things, in the quiet moments.
I've heard this dozens of times and every single time it hits hard!! I was medicated for depression at nine years old. That was 49 years ago!
Great reaction again Cliff. Thank you for spreading Ren's message!
As much as Diazepam described perfectly and even sounded like 10mg or more of the crap, this song does exactly the same. What's written on the label and what's inside is exactly what it is. I hate you depression.
Here for you and #Ren always ❤️ hope you are having a wonderful day today Cliff an anyone else reading this comment I hope you are having a wonderful day today too ❤️
"I'm not gonna' give you love just 'cause I know that you want me to
If you want love then the love is gonna' come from you" ❤️
The horrible thing with depression is once it’s with you it never really leaves you. We just learn to live with it and we feel a little better. We’re always one bad play away from the slide to deep depression again. Get better soon guys. 💔
I found EMDR to be very helpful for my PTSD, it brought me from 59 on the scale to 29. No talking, just processing. Then my mentally ill mother who was a major contributor to my PTSD entered end stage COPD and feeling better decided to let her back in my life, throw myself in the fire and try to heal through it. Six months in my house on hospice, so many triggers, walking away, pushing stuff down, biting my tongue, shaking uncontrollably, why did I do this? I put myself in the position where I had to. But... in the end, I walked out of the fire, feel more healed and whole somehow... I always thought I'd finally have peace when she was no longer here but I opened my heart to love her through her death, and myself through my healing. I found compassion for the broken person in front of me realizing she too had PTSD from her sick parents. That compassion for her, compassion for self is what was priceless. I actually miss her sometimes; which is most shocking of all. I pray all who suffer find peace in their hearts. This song was relatable for most of my 52 years, and I never thought it would get better. The hardest part now is that I don't react as I always did, which leaves me not knowing how to feel. When sick is all you know, healthy is foreign, but still, attainable. Will I ever be 100% ? I don't know, but I know I don't have to soothe myself anymore and am working on healthy thoughts, responses and practices. That feeling that there is no hope is real, I know it well, but I found hope, it does exist. Bless you for your caring heart and Bless Ren for raising awareness and bless every heart that feels alone.
I was told ages ago that depression was anger turned inwards? the way he expresses himself in such a creative inclusive way to all of us that have suffered through it.
Ren is up to 754k sub's.... we need to get him over a million this year.
This is such a great lyric in shedding light on depression. Thanks, Cliff. Please check out Ren x Chinchilla - How to be me (live). And I see that you got the checkmark next to the name now. Not sure if that means anything, but it's a milestone, so congratulations. long overdue. ❤🙏
I love seeing people going back into Ren's catalog and finding gems like this in his older stuff! Check out "Children of the Moon", it's a trip!
such a powerfull track...thnx for reacting to this. keep up the great work on the channel. respect
These words hit home. I lost a decade of my life to major depressive disorder. Nothing the medical experts did made the symptoms disappear. I had to learn to function in the eye of a storm. I was then diagnosed with bipolar but they were wrong. I had complex PTSD. I thank you both for shining a light on a very difficult subject.
Beautiful put Ren, amazing reaction as always from you😊😊😊😊😊
Great reaction and props to you for not shying away from these subjects. Dominoes and Heretic deal with heavy subjects as well - yet done so breathtakingly beautifully that it keeps you hypnotized and of course - leads to insight, support and growth. TY!
Cliff seriously thank you for all you do. For being raw and honest and eel with us. Through the last few years of insanity you’ve been a great refuge and so good for my mental health. And also the music breakdowns are fun too lol😂
The men who are responding to this and speaking up are doing important work. Share your stories. You are helping more people than you will know.
I've been stuck in this concrete for a long time but I will never let it put me down. On some days it wants me to end myself by I absolutely refuse to. I will fight till the last day even if every day is suffering.
This hit me hard
Ren deserves all coming his way. I understand this song so much.
You are a great man also Cliff ❣️total gem ❣️
Second time hearing, this beautiful soul. I was in a pool of tears. I believe he is better now. But I understand you just learn how to manage your anxieties. Thank you Cliff 💕👵🏼
This is my first time hearing “Depression” and WOW!…That was SO powerful, and beautiful. Thank you Cliff Beats
I suffer from dysthymia. It's essentially a low level of chronic depression. If 1 is severe, black-hole depression and 10 is absolute euphoria, and you think of everyone as having a set point somewhere on that scale and an ability to temporarily move an average amount up or down (short-term happiness, sadness, etc.)... well, dysthymia is a lot like having a somewhat lower set point than average. I can be happy, short-term. I can find excitement. I just REVERT back to my set point pretty quickly.
Seeing a series of therapists and counselors, building tools, leveraging low levels of medication... it's opened up the world to me. I'm entering chess tournaments, bringing my greyhound to agility training, I've managed to stay married for going on 13 years, and my family still talks to me and values me and my time.
Cliff, your radical honesty and desire to support others... I am in awe of it. Every time I see something new from you, I want to hear it. I want to see it. Thank you SO MUCH for your support of yourself and others. And thank you so much for supporting Ren. You're 1,000% correct. We need him. We need his art.
About depression, do you know that Lucy posted a new video , with Martha and their mother Louise?
The song is " smile" , music from Charlie Chaplin. A song to listen everytime you have hard time.
Listen to it , you will not regret❤
My wife doesn't understand and it's easier to shove it down then try any more to explain or ask for help. Feel so weak just telling her how I felt even if I don't understand it. I find it impossible to blame anyone but myself for anything and everything since I became a father. I recently felt the warmth of the sun, things may be looking up. Keep up the fight there's light even if it doesn't seem bright.
For me the hardest part was never trying to end things, or wanting to die. That has been my entire life. Living with chronical illness. Its more than just feelings and emotions.
For me. it's the next day.
I've never cursed a sunrise quite like the one I didn't want to see.
All the pain that lead to end it all. That is clarity. Its clear. It's a purpose.
But being there the day after. A day you never wanted to see. That emptiness. That distress of knowing there will be more.
The feeling of being alive, when the last thing you remember before that, was you having that peace " It's over, No more pain "
But then waking up. It's just something that crush you.
It's the weight of the world, with nothing to hold it.
well shit. spoken from the inside, as Ren always does. i don't have it in me to fight with my dr anymore to try to get care. i'm broke so there's no therapy to be had. this state is my life and it's a relief and validation to hear it put into words.
Thank you for being you❤️ I was diagnosed with major depression, bipolar, and borderline at the age of 21. So I was overdiagnosed and overmedicated and completely lost. They didn't want to talk about my severe childhood trauma because the therapists couldn't handle it. The last 5 years I saw a new therapist who is also a shaman. The first appointment she told me that western society don't understand trauma the way old tribes do. For instance the Indians and other old society's see trauma as life experience and are seen as wounded healers. My own opinion of myself changed. I was not broken or damaged. Although I am diagnosed with C_trauma and trauma based dissociative dissorder now. My medication is reduced and I can feel again wich is necessary for healing. I am doing very good at 57. It's all about caring for yourself. I can see the light in the dark. You are right only you can save You. I agree that man find it more difficult to seek help. I hope Ren and poeple like you will change that. We are oke as we are. We are not broken and we can become strong!!!
Yay! I’m so glad you reacted to this and enjoyed the message. Also, thank you for being so available to your subscribers and there for us all should we need someone to listen - what you do is really important and really makes a difference 🙌🏻
i can relate to the words as going through depression the now the endless cycle is never ending .
This one really resonated with me, I have bipolar and anxiety ❤️Ren x
This hits me so hard as bipolar 2. Ren speaks to me in his music.
Thanks Cliff Beats
This song hits too close. I have dealt with depression my whole life. My first vivid memory is the day my father died when I was 5. Things just got worse from there. There were no golden times. I never even deluded myself to believe there was. The triumph of every day is just getting out of bed and facing another day. Its amazing this has gone on for decades now. Its so numbing.
Hi Cliff. I really like your reaction. Ren is amazing. I cry becouse everybody have some of Depressions. I have lot off Sh.t in my life... Ren know. You also know..... much love from Europe-Austria
React to Insomnia...another masterpiece
You are a great example in this.
Ren does it once again xx every time he hits out the park xx poetry/rap rhymes xx
Sooooo nice to see you reacting to this. I've been putting requests out for this with only one bite so far. I am living this right now and have been for a very long time. Often listen to this song on repeat. Thank you for your reaction. I'm sorry for your struggles and I love how you put yourself out there for others as a shoulder to lean on or a listening ear.
W early squad
Getting chills watching you take these in, like I did when I first watched them. Having watched most of his videos hundreds of times, love that I can go back to the beginning with you❤❤❤
This is a tough one. Thank you Cliff for spreading awareness❤❤❤
Lovely transliteration of existence leaning forward towards not only internal regulation of how amazing the human body can be.
Trevor this is a must, show the world Ren and Sam Tompkins, only 850k 😮 the world needs to see this, 😮
The therapists wet dream line hit me hard... I literally had a therapist tell me during an evaluation for a psychiatrist that they wanted me to leave my current therapist for them because they found my case "interesting and intriguing"...
I'm a huge fan of your openness. And, I love how you are open with the things that make you feel uncomfortable. I think I disguise my faults with over-confidence and alcohol. I thIink you and Ren are good models for me going forward. I'm an English teacher living and working in a foreign country. I walk into school every.. single... day... believing and trying to make my students better. I do the work, I put in the effort to be the best I can be for every kid that walks through my door, but I've lost my own focus. Also, let's be clear that I have NEVER taught a class under the influence of anything other than maybe a hangover a couple of times! Based on Ren's music and your reactions, I'm going for a dry April. And, who knows, a dry May. I've dealt with addiction to almost everything I've touched (which is almost everything). I've conquered all but smoking and alcohol. The last two vices. I'm happy with who I am as a person and a mentor. What I am not happy about, is how I have such a good life, and I spend so much free time drinking. Much love! Thanks for the inspiration from you both!
I wish you strength, you are worth some self love❤
Bro I deal with all of the above you just listed All I can do is work keep my head up and live day to day and if anybody out there actually needs help don't be afraid to get it 💯
Thanks for this reaction Cliff! 🤍🤍🤍
Your an amazing soul man. Thanks for giving amazing advice along with great reactions.
This is only the second time I have heard this as the first time I bawled like a baby. And sure as hell, I am crying again 😢 we need to protect Ren at all costs 🖤
I get free therapists, psychologists, and psychiatrists from the VA. I'm their worst nightmare because they need to put lots of effort into helping me. Suicide may be more common in men. It's also more common among veterans. Most veterans are men. Double-threat.
I heard that there has been done research by an organization for veterans with PTSD and depression, that vit D reduces self-harm and suicide with 50%. Maybe interesting? ❤
I can totally relate to this! REN on an different level! 100% Pure Talent. Awesome reaction Cliff ❤
Hold on is a 🔥 track man trust me!!!!
I barely had stumbled into Ren when I seen "Hi Ren" maybe 13, 14 days go and was blown away. Lyrically beautiful and I also have suffered with depression are there tried the paxil I was on for about 7 years. It makes you dull and sometimes emotionsless and I couldn't feel the emotion anymore. I only felt sadness throughout the whole time but it would never get very extremely sad but it was always sadness. I decided to get off of it about a year-and-a-half ago and I feel a lot better to be honest. My brother and I stopped at the same time, kind of tapered off we both feel so much better but still the sadness remains and I've heard this song a few times, it's beautiful and past couple months I've been not in a good place. But I never get seriously suicidal nothing like that thank God. Had that thought wanting to kill myself but there is sadness and depression and it's just hard to fix I'm 46 years old. And I know I believe a lot of us struggle from this. Others more severe than others. I love this tune it's just so meaningful I could feel that pain frustration and his lyrics made me shed a tear. Past two weeks listening it's not the first time I've shed a tear over one of his music. ❤
Wow thought i had been down the ren rabbit hole but wow, i hadn't heard this one. So relatable, and raw. Omg to hear him breakdown at the end, to be able to be allowed into that personal suffering, just hits so hard
RENs straight up lyrical genius 🔥🔥🔥🔥
wise words !🙏🏻
I love REN ✨his songs help bring out so much emotion ,feelings thoughts This song 😭😭😭😭😭 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😰😰😰😰 I live with chronic illnesses and ambiguous grief it’s rough but I used music as one of my tools 🎶lyrics & perspectives stories. To keep keeping on the best I can with what I have been given one day at a time ! 🎶music is life 🎶
I adore you cliff 😉💙✌🏽your an amazing human being 💯I look forward to seeing you on the daily 🥰
Cliff thank you for the GREAT Rxn! Meant a lot to me / us all. On Point!🔥
Thank you for sharing your experience with depression
Great analysis and ty for speaking about it.
Jesus H. He expresses my feelings better than I can. Thanks for doing these tunes CliffB.
Man this song hits like a freight train.. chills
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Love you sir for all you do here with this channel! 🙏🏼💗💕
😢Oh my heart.
That ending is soooo much.
Cradle of Filth - Deflowering the Maidenhead, Displeasuring the Goddess
Wow! That hit so much harder than any of his other songs! Man I appreciate your breakdown/enlightenment! Liked and subbed bro 🔥❤️
Have yet to see someone promote the artist besides themselves. You definitely earned a sub. 💪
He really did nail it Cliff x
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That was so good and sad ❤❤❤
I have loved everything ren has done to date, but this really touched a nerve, I could feel the tears coming towards the end myself,