더운날씨에도 두 분 너무 고생많으셨습니다. 연수님 얼굴에 비비탄맞으셔서 아프셨을텐데 괜찮으신가요?ㅜㅜ 수원님 러브캐쳐에 출연하셨다는 사실을 이번영상에서 처음 알았네요...ㅋㅋ 착한성격에 자상하시고 배려심이 많으신성격과 MBTI 끝자리빼고 똑같은점도 너무 영광입니다! 연수님 유튜브에 자주 출연해주세요^^
눈을 맞았으면 큰일났겠지만 눈이 안 맞아서 다행인데.. 비비탄으로 얼굴에 맞아서 흉치겠네!ㅠㅠ 아이쿠! 놀랐겠다.... 어떻해 연수님!ㅜㅜ 얼굴에 덧나겠네요.ㅜㅜ 연수님 얼굴에 일단 빨리 상태를 봐서 다 나아졌으면 좋겠네요.^^ 그 남자분이랑 연수님 데이트하기가 딱 잘 맞고 어울려요^^
Oink Oink.. I have the tape Recorder in my hand and I would stop the record and Push the Play button.. Listening to the Song in the back ground.. I am listening to my voice.. it was the day I got very drunk and I just can't help myself and just pouring Out my Heart.. I was sitting down on the Desk and I would be looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. letting you know How much I am dealing with this Missing YOU.. there are times when I feel so Lost and it drives me Mad.. it drives me crazy when I am dealing with YOU when YOU cannot be found.. as I am sitting down by the Desk.. listening to the Tape recorder.. I can hear myself crying as I am sharing my Heart to YOU.. telling YOU how much it hurts to be missing YOU and when will be the time I can be with YOU.. I know it sounds so non sense but there are days I just needs to be with YOU.. that I want to be with YOU close.. and I am wondering How can I get YOU close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU how much I missed YOU and been loving YOU.. why can't I tell you these words of Mine to YOUR ears.. and No matter How much time Flies.. the Love I have for you seems to grow stronger and stronger because all I ever want is for YOU TO be close to my Heart and for you to always remember how much I love YOU.. as I would press the Stop button on the tape recorder.. I want to mail this tape Out to YOU.. I wish there was a way for me to give you this Tape which I just heard my voice telling you that I love YOU.. will you believe my words when I tell you this.. if you receive this Tape that has been recorded by my voice with the Piano sound in the back Ground.. would you believe me that it is my Heart that I put into for YOU.. as I would sit and LOOK at the tape.. I know that I can't mail this to YOU.. I know that YOU won't listen to the tape because there is A lot of crying on the Other side.. I was so drunk.. I do not remember much because it seemed like I blacked Out after.. but I do still want to give you something from My Heart.. it is to give YOU a song.. I want to write YOU a Song.. a Music.. but I am Not sure will you listen to the Music.. to the song that be send to YOUR Way.. as I am looking at the Little Piano.. I put the Little Piano next to the desk.. and I have the Empty Glass Jar with me.. and I wish that If you cannot be here with me.. if I am going to be missing Your presence.. at least leave me with Your Heart.. I would be asking.. if you can please give me Your Heart instead.. then I would not miss you too much because at least I can look at your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. will you please give me Your Heart.. I want your Heart so that I know that YOU will come.. Only way YOU can come a little Closer is when YOU have your Heart.. I can truly imagine Your Heart.. as I would open the Door.. front door and I would see a Small Box in the front.. as I would take the Small Box into my room.. and I been giving YOU a Note.. a Note that went to YOU asking for Your Heart and I believe if you have read this Note.. I be asking.. if YOU ever stop BY.. if you are close By.. there is Only ONE thing.. One Wish I need from YOU.. all I be asking was that ONE thing.. it is Your Heart.. Let me please have this Heart so that I can surprise you with a Gift.. as I am holding this Small Box.. I see the Note attached.. I just could Not believe that YOU have responded to the Message of the Note.. because when I looked at the Note YOU have placed on the TOP of the Small Box.. I would read what I have wrote to YOU for One WISH I needed.. I am touching my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat as I would look at the Note and It was my Own writings of the Note.. It means YOU have read it and you have responded to the Message which I felt my Heart be touched of Your reaction to this One request I been asking you for A Long time.. I sit on the floor.. and I open the top of the Small Box and I take a LOOK into the Small Box.. It is a Heart.. Not just any Heart.. but it is Your Heart.. for a Long time.. I been asking and Needing this from YOU.. I would hold your Heart with Both Hands.. and as I would stand UP on two feet.. I go over to the Empty Glass Jar.. inside the Glass Jar is soft Cottons laid inside to Protect Your Heart.. I place your Heart gently lowering inside where your Heart lays on the Soft Cottons.. I can't feel my Heart.. I feel like my Heart is skipping its Beat as I am looking at your Heart.. It must be that I love Your Heart.. that I love your Heart as much as I love YOU.. I would place the Glass Jar with Your Heart inside on the TOP right side of the Little Piano.. I know a friend who can play the Piano well and brought him over to Play a SOFT songs for Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. it was last Night I had to sit by the desk and I would write through the Night.. as My friend comes and he sits on the Piano Bench and I look at his Hands.. his fingers touches the Piano Bars and starts to Play a Music.. Play a SONG.. I would Look at the Letter.. as I would LOOK at your Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and I would start to Speak to your Heart as I would get closer to the Glass Jar.. I would say to your Heart.. ALL I ever wanted is for YOU to come close.. I know that I am poor.. I have truly nothing to give YOU that is really important.. I am hearing the Sounds of the Little Piano playing.. with such a soft tunes and I would look at the Glass Jar.. Looking at your Heart.. I would say to Your Heart through the Glass Jar.. I have been asking for your Heart.. But it seems like YOU never wanted to show me Your Heart.. I always wanted to feel close to YOU.. a Heart to Heart close is what I am talking about.. I been struggling trying to figure Out How can YOU Love me.. I know that I have found a Way to tell YOU that I love YOU.. to transfer and to deliver to YOU some way and some how.. even though when I would walk Out side.. and when I look UP at the MOON.. I see and clearly feel the Long distance between Us.. I see How High the Moon is when I look UP at the sky.. and How far it is to get to that MOON.. it is the same way I feel when I think of YOU.. How High and How far it is for me to get to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP.. as Long as I know that there is that ONE DAY.. and I believe strongly in that some Day.. NO matter How many times My Heart can Break or How Much I can feel the Hurt and the Pain I must endure.. and How much time I needs to wait.. even though it can be Never to be with YOU.. as Long as YOU know that I still Love YOU and I still believe that some Day it can happen.. having that Hope and to keep on dreaming of loving YOU still.. I know that It can come true.. as YOU can see I never thought that I can write YOU a Letter.. who ever thought that I can believe in this Love.. but there was that One day.. I would start to think beyond.. I start to think about the MOON and think about going Beyond.. what if I can JUMP over the MOON.. walk if I can walk on the MOON.. even though I may never be able too but I can still dream very BIG and never give UP on that dream to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU are able to receive on the Other side and that YOU are able to give a Little bit of that TIME.. and for you to open and to look at just One Letter that I write to YOU telling you that I love YOU.. I am sure the Message will get around soon or Later.. I am Not worry about today.. I am Not worry about yesterday.. I am Not worry about tomorrow because as Long as my Heart can still love you.. that is the Only happiness I get to feel.. I am Not asking you much.. I am Not even asking you to Love me back.. but.. when YOU ever walk Out side.. and when It becomes Night time and there is this peace in your surroundings and YOU are able to LOOK UP at the MOON.. all I want for you to is remember Me.. every time YOU Look at the MOON.. YOU LOOK up at the sky and you see the Big MOON looking at YOU.. I am sure there will be a time and space where you are able to think alone.. I am just wishing.. I am just hoping that YOU can make a room for me just for few seconds.. for few minutes.. just to say I do remember a man who loves YOU so Much.. who loves YOU more than YOU can love yourself or even who you can start to Love back because YOU know that I been here loving you for just a Long time.. Don't you want to love the One who loves you the Most.. don't you want to know who loves you the Most.. because It is Me.. It always has been me who been loving YOU still.. all I want you to do is just remember me because this is the Only thing I am hoping for.. just that One wish is for you to Know and to remember that there is a MAN out there.. if YOU feel lonely and alone in times.. YOU should walk Out side.. and be by yourself.. and Just LOOK UP.. if the Moon appears before your eyes.. that is when the time YOU can see.. some one is thinking of YOU always.. who is loving YOU still.. who is on the Other side who been LOOKING UP at that same MOON as your eyes be looking.. that On the Other side.. I feel the same way.. that I do feel lonely in times and many times when I walk out side.. I am alone but I love to LOOK at the MOON when I am alone because It reminds me of YOU and I be thinking of YOU and I smile while I am looking at that MOON because I know that MOON knows me.. Knows my Heart.. knows How much I love YOU.. telling YOU.. looking at your Picture as I am standing Out side alone.. as the MOON is before my eyes and I be opening UP my Heart looking at your Picture and I am sure the MOON can hear my voice.. can hear my out cries when I share from my Heart of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. but I would say looking at your Picture.. it hurts.. Loving YOU is the greatest feeling in the world to have but missing YOU hurts me the Most.. it kills me in times because I want you close.. I want you close
I am looking at this Book.. and I would close the Book.. looking at your Picture.. It has been so hard finishing the Pages of this Big Book but.. I just wanted to let you know.. I wanted it to be done because we made a Promise.. the promise which I must keep on my part.. when I try to do something and if it is going to be something that I know in my Heart I just can't keep.. I will not do it at all because I don't want YOU to see me as a failure.. some one who cannot finish or cannot keep the Word.. that is why it is something that has to be Special.. it must be an Unique experience because I believe it is so Hard to keep a Word or to Keep a Promise.. it has gotten harder over the Years but when I think of YOU.. I know that IN MY Heart.. I must have YOU.. I must win your Heart and make you Mine forever.. to say to YOU.. to tell YOU to come closer and I would ask for Your Ear.. can you please lend me your Time and Lend me your Ear.. I must say few words so that YOU can hear my Heart.. and I will say to YOU when I see you Close.. when I see your ear approach me.. I will say.. My Heart is crying.. Not just crying but heart is dying for Your love.. dying just to say I love YOU.. and I been looking at your Picture.. sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the Pages of this Big Book.. I would be thinking.. should I not read at ALL.. but when I think of the first time I saw YOU.. and just to get closer.. I must do my Part and that is to read.. as I would Pull the Note Book before me.. reading part.. flipping through many pages.. and trying to sit and focus.. concentrate on the Words on the Pages of telling Me.. but next is the Picture of YOU.. and I would stop.. thinking the Focus is gone.. can't concentrate when I be looking at the Picture of YOU.. because YOU are so beautiful to Me.. I would flip back few pages to re read.. and yes.. the Time flies very fast when YOU start to day dream.. holding your Hand.. and Pulling you close in my arms and LOOKING at YOU.. looking at your ear.. if I can speak.. if I am able to tell YOU the way my Heart feels about YOU.. I would say.. Please.. let me explain this Heart of Mine.. Please let me speak so that I can tell YOU.. and I would say.. ALL day.. when I did Not see YOU.. I started to miss YOU.. wondering when I can come close to YOU.. will you let me come close.. Please let me by your side.. because I need to be with YOU.. why.. because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. and I would look down.. looking at the Pages.. trying to write the summary of this BOOK.. trying to write more than a sentence.. the More I try to read this Big Book.. the More I want to see Your Picture.. but.. it took me back and forth of fighting myself that I would say.. I have made a promise to YOU.. and that is the End of the Line.. I told YOU and yes.. we made the agreement that If I finish this BIG BOOK and write the summary on the paper for this BOOK.. you will let me in the BOOK CLUB.. it was yesterday.. when I went to the Library to see YOU.. and I would be waiting in a Long Line.. feels like YOU are a famous Arthur.. because I have never seen so many People waiting in the Line.. and with a BOOK in one hand and the Paper on the Other hand waiting to be the Next.. to Join the Book Club.. I was excited when I saw People sitting down and there were many Cuts in between.. feels like an Audition to make a Movie.. and YOU are like the director who be looking for Actors and Actresses.. but I knew that I spend Many Hours.. re reading this Book.. going back and Forth.. writing on the Pieces of papers.. scribble this and Scribble that.. papers be rolled and thrown into the trash Can because I just could not Write well.. but as I let go of your Picture for few Hours.. opened the drawer and Put your Picture into it and closed the Door.. felt like an addiction.. wanted to open that drawer.. struggling to LOOK at your Picture but I told YOU.. I must finish this BIG BOOK first and then I can look at your Picture as Much time as I want.. so I had to focus and started to write the summary.. it felt so GOOD to finish Both the reading of the BIG BOOK and also the writing on the Note Book summary of the Book and taking it to YOU.. I would smile.. when the BIG BOOK hit the Final Page and I would close the BIG BOOK.. I smiled and said.. It is DONE.. I have kept my Word to YOU.. I have kept my promise to YOU and after writing on the Pages of the Note BOOK about the story what It means to me.. I just had to share what is real from my Heart.. not to act like I know but just be real with myself to YOU.. telling YOU my Thoughts about the story on this BIG BOOK.. as I would enter the Library.. and I am watching the Lines of People going down.. and I would see many people would fail trying.. I saw many stormed Off the Library and angry is what I saw in most people's faces.. as I would get closer and closer to the table and I would see YOU there sitting with Your Friend.. there were more guys in the Line than ladies so I guess the Intentions or the Motives must be Like Mine.. who wants to be Just Close to YOU.. as I would be the Next in the line.. and I would sit on the chair of the table.. and I look at YOU.. who is sitting across from me.. and YOU are looking at me.. probably thinking that I am just like All of these Other guys who came for the wrong reasons.. and who did Not keep his Word or His Part of the Deal means the Promise.. but.. It was such a great struggle on my part.. when I saw YOUR Picture inside the Big BOOK.. it was distracting me A lot because of Your Beauty.. How can someone who is so Beautiful Like YOU loves to be in a BOOK CLUB.. I am Not say all the Beautiful ladies are the same.. but it seems like YOU are so Different because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember when I first Walked into the Library.. and I saw YOU walking.. holding BOOKS in your Arms and I just had to get Close to YOU.. I slip and tripped and it got to YOU.. the BOOKS fell on the Floor and I fell alone with YOU inside this Library.. I know that I just can't tell YOU any words Yet because YOU are not going to Like me at first.. and that is why when I heard of YOU telling me about this BOOK CLUB.. I must join into this Club to be part and that is the Only way to get close to YOU.. I would push the BIG BOOK towards your direction and told YOU.. I have read the Whole Book.. the pages are so long.. but I still had to do what I told I was going to do.. that is to keep my Word.. to Keep my promises I made to YOU.. and Do you remember that I called you on the Phone and You Picked UP.. I had to delay because I knew that the time line for me was just too short to finish in on time.. and YOU also told me.. that YOU wanted me to write YOU a Summary on the Pieces of papers of this Story that I read in this BIG BOOK.. and I would put few papers down and I would Push with my hand towards YOU.. and YOU looked at me.. and I guess you thought that I was not that serious type.. I am very serious when it is very Important for me to do.. when I want to so something and made the choice and made the decision to do something.. I will do it no matter of the Cost.. How hard or difficult it is to finish.. I just don't try but I go all in if it is YOU.. if you are very Important in my Life.. I can also make the changes for YOU TO know my Heart.. I see you grabbing the pieces of papers.. and YOU would start to read what I wrote on the Pieces of papers.. and YOU would pass the Pieces of papers to your Friend who is sitting next to YOU.. and I would take the Picture of YOU and Place it on the TOP of the table.. and I would say.. I would look at this Picture.. your Smile.. and How beautiful YOU truly are really amazes Me.. I had to struggle looking at your Picture.. if felt Like I was getting More drunk the More I saw your Picture.. I even opened the Drawer and placed YOUR picture inside in and closed for few Hours.. I was shaking in my hands.. wanting to Open the drawer and to take your Picture Out of the drawer and to have a Peek.. the truth is that More I see your Picture.. the More I would forget the story I was reading in the Pages of the BOOK.. I would grab the Drawer and I would try to pull the Open so that I can look at your Picture.. but I knew that there was something far more Important for me to do at that point and it was to keep my Promises I made to YOU so I would start to look at the Pages of the BOOK and kept on reading.. reading more and More reading as the pages would be read and I would flip the page to the Next.. I would be thinking about YOU.. thinking about the Meeting and How this is Much more Important to me than just LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. and I would see you turn YOUR Head looking at your Friend.. and I see her smile.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me.. I see your hand out.. telling me that I can join in the Book Club.. and I thought this was a Joke.. I never been in any Kind of Club before.. but when YOU gave me YOUR hand Out.. I knew that this mean it is true.. I put my hand out to shake YOUR HAND.. and I could not believe It.. I get to be close to you.. it does Not matter what YOU think of me at first because I believe it starts with the first small step.. I stood in the Line.. and I saw many men sitting on this Chair and they were rejected.. and I saw men getting UP with such anger and they just walked Out.. and could NOT join in this Club.. as I am in the ROOM thinking about what happened yesterday.. because YOU gave me another BOOK.. but this BOOK is Not that Big.. and How you told me that YOU really enjoyed and Loved reading this Book because of the Story. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am missing YOU now.. I am missing you so bad right Now.. because Yesterday.. I never felt so happy in my Life.. when I saw YOU looking at me.. to able to show YOU something but to see you giving me a Smile.. Just that One glimpse of Smile is all I needed
Of your most favorite BOOKS.. that YOU read many times.. and over and over you would keep on reading It.. what happens when I start to love this BOOK you Love.. will you let me keep this BOOK.. If I can connect to Your Soul and to connect what it means to relate as a reader just Like YOU.. I wonder will a day will come when YOU can really Love me too.. that I am waiting for that Day where YOU can say to Me.. that YOU Love me.. as much as I love YOU.. you also can say to me that YOU love Me.. I am waiting for that Day.. that One day.. the Some day that can come soon.. as I am putting the new BOOK on the TOP of the desk.. I would open the cover of the BOOK.. I see another Picture.. a new Picture of YOU.. I am wondering what does all this means.. so that I can Miss YOU and that I can love you.. if I do.. is it right for me to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I really really love YOU.. Please.. tell your heart to be open for Me so that I am able to tell you all these things to YOU.. I been reading few of the Pages the Book you gave Me.. Pulling out the Piece of Paper.. I am trying to write the Summary of what the Book is telling me.. of course if YOU are asking me do I enjoy reading this BOOK.. I would tell YOU.. the BOOK has just too many pages to read.. and I would flip through the pages because some of the things that is Telling me is truly boring to read.. it is Like.. why do I needs to know about this Information.. this Historical portion and I would be scratching my Head.. wants to yank my hairs Out because I would Yawn and tries to GO back to the Pages.. If I don't understand It.. I would re read it over and over so that I can tell YOU what I think of this Book.. when I take a Pause.. it is YOUR picture.. I would put your Picture next to the Book and I would take a LOOK at YOU.. I would smile and ask.. why is My Heart be burning.. It keeps ON burning whenever I look at YOU.. I feel like this Burning deep inside seems like it never stops ON ME.. DO you think that this is what I call Love.. what do you think about this Heart of Mine when It keeps On burning inside of me.. it is when My eyes takes off the Pages of this BIG BOOK and I turn to LOOK at your Picture.. I rather LOOK at this Picture for Hours and even with the Hours goes By.. I don't think I would ever get tired of LOOKING at YOU just like when I write to YOU.. I never get tired of telling YOU.. Letting YOU know How much I still Love YOU.. I can tell YOU millions of times and I would say.. Let me see your ears please.. can I step a little closer to YOU.. if My Voice can be Loud.. I can lower my voice and even whisper.. Just to tell YOU.. that I miss YOU.. Have been missing YOU for a Long time.. but.. Just wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I can stand Out.. go Out side and even Yell looking at the MOON who is looking.. showing the Face.. My Face and turn to the MOON.. with YOUR NAME.. I can say it Out loud.. I love YOU.. I don't want the MOON think that I am telling It.. that is WHY.. or Not the angels be confused or the neighbors around.. But with YOUR NAME say it and say to YOU I LOVE YOU.. but WOULD you let me be Close.. would you let me come closer to YOU.. would YOU open your Heart and Open your ears to listen.. would you receive the Words I want to tell YOU.. can I tell it to YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. with the BIG BOOK in front of me.. the BOOK is opened Now with the pages on right and left.. with Letters written as I would try to read the page.. going from chapter to the Next.. looking at the Numbers as I am flipping through the pages of this BOOK.. I would read and Pause.. my eyes would turn to LOOK next to this BOOK is your Picture.. I can't hide your Picture away.. I need your Picture with Me so that It reminds me who I love.. that I be loving YOU for reals.. can I take a Look at your Picture Please.. and it is YOU who left this One picture inside.. I remember before I started to read the Pages of this BOOK.. I called your Number.. and I even told YOU that I have found a Picture of YOU.. of course I would hear a Long Pause on the other side before you would say something about It.. I know that YOU did Not put the Picture here for me.. but when I saw the Picture.. It just helps me with the Pains I am suffering right Now.. I know that We are suppose to meet about a Week for Now.. but It seems like it is taking for ever.. time is ticking so Slow even though I am so Busy trying to Finish this Whole book.. and NO.. I am Not a good reader either.. that is why I had to ask for a delay for two weeks.. as I would try to go back to the Pages.. to read the pages.. it is not that easy for me.. too many difficult words would come around.. I have to pull out the dictionary to find and to understand the meaning of this Word.. and trying to read the sentence to go back to understand what it is telling Me.. I been going through Hardship of looking at the second Book.. which is the dictionary.. I remember you told me.. after I am finished reading the Whole book.. YOU be asking me to write to YOU a Summary of the book.. I have been sitting here.. with this One Piece of Paper in front.. trying to write something.. I am tempted to write about something else instead.. I am trying to think about this Story of this BOOK.. but My mind.. my eyes would LOOK at the Picture instead.. I would look on the ground.. there are few papers that has been rolled into balls.. because I started to write to YOU a Letter from my Heart.. and instead of trying to share about this BOOK.. My Mind and Heart takes me somewhere what My Heart wants to tell YOU.. if you are asking me.. what did I write that I had to roll into balls instead.. Maybe I should write TWO instead.. One that is from me to YOU and the other from the story of this BOOK.. the Summary you wanted to see.. when I would look at the Balls rolled UP from the Pieces of paper.. I would write.. I been missing YOU.. I wish that I can go to the Library.. if I go to that Library.. will I see you there.. would you be at the table the last time I saw YOU at.. but I don't want to show UP like I am spying on YOU because I am Not.. I am showing UP because My Heart misses YOU and I want to see YOU more.. of course.. I decided Not to GO.. but Last Night.. I do remember.. My Heart.. I started to miss YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It would stop me from reading more Pages of this BOOK.. I had to put the BOOK down because I would be missing YOU.. and I was struggling.. and I knew last night.. that was the day I saw you like two weeks Back.. and I would grab the keys.. and I knew.. should I go to the Library.. I know that If I do go.. maybe there is a better chance I will see YOU there.. so I took the keys.. and I went into the car.. and I started the Car to drive But.. I knew.. I should Not.. I am going to be making the mistake of showing UP just too early.. I don't even have the paper of the summary for this BOOK and NO.. I did Not finish the BOOK yet.. so I had to pause and think before.. so I did Not drive the Car.. I came Out of the car and stood Out side.. and I would LOOK UP at the sky.. LOOKING Above me is the MOON.. as I am looking at the MOON.. I would Open my Heart and Open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. I would say.. what am I doing.. I know that I made a Promise to YOU.. and YOU gave me two weeks.. even though YOU wanted to Meet sooner.. I know that if I showed UP.. and I am Not ready to show you the presentation.. and If you were to ask me about the BOOK.. and If you say.. did I finish the BOOK.. and I am sure you would say.. why ask for two weeks if I am able to share Now and makes me a Liar.. I don't want YOU to see me as that Kind of a Person when ALL I wanted to say is that I missed YOU.. I been missing YOU for a while Now.. and why can't I just show UP just to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. but.. would Your Heart be opened to receive.. will your Ears be opened to hear the Words I need to say.. But I know that My Heart truly needs to tell YOU.. that I really Love YOU.. YOU may Not believe me.. or the Words Yet.. YOU may think that I am Not being serious about the situation or about My Heart to YOU.. but.. YOU do not have to believe anything Yet.. because I know that In time everything can change that.. there will be a TIME when YOU WILL Finally understand and able to receive when the TIME is right.. that is why I am Not asking it for today.. I am Not asking it for Now.. but I believe.. there will be a TIME you will know the truth.. that the TRUTH will do Its work and will set it Free.. Set me free because I am Not lying.. just sharing just the way it is and has been in my Heart.. that I love YOU.. what More words can I say to YOU that I been loving YOU.. and I would Be looking UP at the MOON.. just pouring from My Heart and speaking.. of course YOU are Not there to listen is the Problem.. that YOU are not there to hear these words of Mine.. that YOU just don't know yet how much I love YOU.. and as I would be sitting on this Chair by the desk in my room.. I am just looking back.. thinking back of what has taken its place.. and I am looking at the Picture.. Your Picture that is Next to this Big Book.. I wish that YOU could see me like this.. only if YOU are able to see me Now.. how can I get YOU to know that I been thinking of YOU.. that I am doing my Part.. that I am reading through these pages.. which It was not my choice.. if I go back where I saw YOU at the Library.. I would of chosen a Different Book.. and something much more Smaller with Pages.. and I would show YOU.. can I read this One instead.. and I can write YOU the Summary on piece of paper and tell you about the story I read of this book.. but.. it was Out of Nowhere.. sitting on the table.. across from YOU.. with a Smile.. YOU would push this BIG BOOK.. I wanted to be your Friend.. a reading club.. and it took me by a
LOOKING on the side.. next and wants to skip looking at the pages instead.. I enjoy and Love looking at your Picture.. I feel bubbly inside and sometimes my eyes wants to cry looking at YOU.. I would say.. I be seeing you soon.. Next week.. and to see YOU SMILE will be the greatest moment for me to look at YOU.. when I see YOU.. I come into the Library.. with the Piece of paper written with the Summary.. holding the Big BOOK to tell YOU I have read it all.. Now here is the piece of paper.. sharing my summary about this BOOK.. and I would tell YOU.. I have written YOU another Paper.. but it has nothing to do with the BOOK but it comes from My Heart.. can I please read the Letter to YOU instead.. Please Open your ears to listen.. and Open your Heart to receive the Words.. then I will give you the Paper.. the Letter that is written from Me.. and when YOU Miss me.. YOU can read it over.. re read it if YOU have too.. but read it when YOU miss Me.. that is HOW you know that I love YOU.. I just wanted to say that I love YOU.. and If you are asking me what DO I love you the Most.. that I see that YOU love Books.. Just as much as I am starting to enjoy and Love reading BOOKS.. so that I can kiss your Forehead.. your Intelligent is what I am kissing.. the Smart that is Inside your Brains because I am going to be very smart for YOU.. as I would turn to look at the Pages of the Book.. I would look at the letters and I would start to read once again.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking of the story about this Book but More for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU and share with YOU.. so you will know that some day.. it is because I love YOU.. that One day SOON.. your Heart will know I love YOU.. and I just want to draw closer to YOU and tell you from My Heart.. How much I really Love YOU and that I have never stopped but always loved YOU STILL.. The Word I love you is the Only word that Comes to my Mind.. comes from my Heart.. only the words I can say when I see YOU.. when can I see you again.. Please tell me that it be soon.. I am looking at the book.. the Pages are just to big.. over 800 pages to read.. but I know that I must read it to keep the friendship going.. what if I want more than your Friendship.. because I felt something More than just friends.. if you call me a Friend.. I think that I must reject It.. I must be Honest and truthful to YOU.. that I want More than just your friendship.. I want your Heart.. I want to be Your Lover.. can I be the One who can say and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I would look at the book.. My Mind would go back.. my mind would think back to the Library.. the Place where I first saw YOU.. the Place where I bumped into YOU.. even though my Mind is going back to the Library.. I know that I needs to start reading this Book.. I know that we made a deal.. YOU told me that I needs to share after I read this Book.. but do you Not see the pages.. LOOK at the size of this Book.. did I even tell YOU that I am Not a book worm.. I don't even like to read much of the Books.. and if you were to ask me how many Books I read in the Past.. I think the Numbers would be so much less and YOU be so shocked of the truth.. I am Not of a reader but just a beginner to read a Book.. I meet YOU and I ran into YOU.. and YOU dropped many books.. I could see that YOU love to read a lot of Books.. but.. I did Not tell you the truth because I did Not want to lose Your touch.. I did Not want to see you pushing me away just because I don't read.. But Now.. since I am a part of the Book club.. what if I can't read all of these more than 800 pages of this Big Book.. as I start to flip from One page to the next page.. I am wondering do they have any pictures where I can look.. maybe I can start by looking.. and as I start to flip few pages down this Big book.. I stop on a page.. there is a Picture.. One Picture and as I grab to take the Look of the Picture.. I flip to take a Look.. it is the Photo Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. is it YOU who has place this Photo picture in here.. I don't remember me asking for Your Picture.. did I ask for the Picture and YOU gave it to Me.. and was it I who put the Picture in between these two pages.. I am sitting on this Chair.. in my Room.. trying to think about if it was Me.. I am Not sure.. because now I feel so confused.. what if it was I who placed it here.. what if It was not me but was it YOU then.. did YOU know that I was going to be taking this Book Home.. I never asked for Your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK back of the Photo Picture.. there is a Number written on it.. whose Number is this.. Is this Your Number.. was this all planned ahead of time knowing that I was going to take this Book home or just out of Nowhere.. I am wondering.. of course I do Love this Photo Picture.. from time to time.. after reading this Big Book and I get tired.. I can turn to LOOK at your Photo Picture and to relax my mind.. and to Love YOU.. maybe this is the main reason why I had to lie to YOU.. could not tell you the truth.. could Not be honest with YOU because.. it was My Heart.. it was YOU.. the first glance.. when I turned to LOOK at YOU.. and yes.. it was me who ran into YOU knowing YOU were heading my direction.. I had to get Your Attention because I wanted to get to YOU.. there was something about YOU that my eyes just can't stop looking.. there was something about the Time.. the Place where you put it the Most.. I saw you from the distance walking with your friend.. I looked around and I wanted to start reading Books.. I saw in your arms.. YOU were holding many books.. something about that Time.. where you put your focus the Most.. and where you put your eyes and Your Heart into.. I looked over knowing that YOU are going to be some one very special.. some one very Hard to find.. that is different from myself but.. at the same time.. I can learn to change and adapt to situation.. any circumstances because I am not afraid to try some thing New.. that is when I told myself.. I needs to get to YOU.. before some one else will come and Love YOU.. I know that there are so many Young men in this world.. who would Loves to be in my shoes.. who would try to get to YOUR Heart.. so that is when I told my self.. go to your direction and run.. bump into YOU.. but Not hurt you.. just enough where you can feel something to get to YOUR HEART.. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I got to YOU in a wrong way because that was Not my intention.. I just wanted to be a part and to be close to YOU.. Not to hurt YOU or scare YOU.. because I am Not a creep.. I am Not a weirdo either.. just a Man who wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. making this Kind of Move.. and also.. knowing my own weakness of Not to Love to read Books is at my fault but.. I told YOU.. if I love you.. I know that I can change.. I know that I can even adapt to this change.. Not to impress YOU but just to be close.. just to let YOU know that I love YOU.. but.. I know that I was Not right with YOU.. as I am sitting down on this chair.. in the Room close to my desk.. I have this Picture.. the Photo Picture.. I am wondering.. what if I did Not say Yes.. I am wondering.. what would happen to this Photo Picture.. if some one else came and sat on my place.. because I don't remember I be asking YOU.. or was it I who asked you that I needed your Picture.. as I am trying to read these pages.. I was flipping through the pages trying to look for some Historical Pictures.. some comes in the Black and White Photo Pictures.. but for some reason.. as I was flipping through the pages of this BIG BOOK of 800 pages.. I found this Photo Picture.. It is Your Picture because the One who is in the Photo Picture is YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. the Flower looks so lovely and yes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can stay here.. I can sit here and just look at your Photo Picture all day Long and Never get tired of it.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. was it YOU put it here.. and if it was YOU.. can I call this Number.. is this Number Your Phone Number.. and I know that it is pretty late.. so that I am not going to call YOU or disturb YOU late into the Night.. as I am looking at your Photo Picture.. I would put it on the Top of the desk.. and I would flip the pages back to the first Chapter.. and I would start to read from the Chapter 1.. and I would look through the first line sentence.. and as I would look across and going down.. it is written small but so much to read even the first Page of this first chapter.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. did YOU even finished this Whole 800 pages of the Book.. this Big Book.. I wanted to ask.. I wanted to know so that we can be on the right pages on the same book.. I grabbed the Phone.. it is late but Not too late to sleep late.. so as I look at the back of the Photo Picture.. I would dial the number which is written in the back.. and as I would wait.. I do hear the ringing on the Other side.. and I would wait and wait.. I do hear on the other side.. I hear your voice.. and I tell YOU.. Do you remember me?? of course YOU don't know my number.. so I would say.. It is the Guy YOU met at the Library.. the One you gave the Big Book.. with the 800 pages and the Historical figure story.. and Of course you remember.. and I would say.. as I was looking through the Pages.. I wanted to know if it had the Black and white Photo pictures and started to flip through many pages.. and I stopped at One where I found your Photo Picture.. and when I grabbed to take a LOOK at it.. it was YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. I have never seen such a beautiful Flower.. and YOU are even more Beautiful than the Flower you were holding.. and I was Not sure if making this Call be right or wrong.. but I just wanted to check something.. and I hear you say something.. of course.. I am so sorry for calling you this late but I have a One Question.. I wanted to check to see and ask YOU
Thinking about YOU.. so if I am suppose to meet YOU in three weeks later.. for three weeks.. to me it feels like a Long time to see YOU.. what if I start to miss YOU.. and I know that I needs to see YOU.. DO I call your Number just to hear your Voice.. but I know that I can't just do that.. so as I would take the Big BOOK in my hands.. and I flipped.. I am truly touched.. My Heart just melted as I am looking at the first page.. I asked YOU if YOU finished reading this.. and YOU told me that YOU did.. and YOU have read this Whole BOOK.. I am truly touched and truly Impressed by.. because right Now.. I am trying to read the first line sentence and I would start to yawn.. but I know that I have a deadline and I have promised you and YOU told me that I must and meet you on that day.. so I would start to focus.. as I would start to read the first page of this chapter.. as I would read he first page and I would flip the page to the next.. Just looking at the size and the thickness.. it is a lot of pages.. which I have never read this much of pages in my life.. But.. I know that I love YOU.. I must finish reading.. but my eyes would wander off.. as I am looking at the next page.. my eyes seems more interested of looking at Your Photo Picture.. my hand grabs to take a Look.. and I want to see YOU again.. I want to see you soon.. but three weeks later seems like it is just too long for me.. I should of said how about two weeks.. maybe two weeks could of been a better choice.. so that I don't miss YOU.. so that I can look at you closer and be as near as possible to YOU.. How can I get close.. but in order for me to get close to YOU and to love you close.. I must do my part to show YOU.. I am a man who keeps my Word.. when I make a Promise to YOU.. I try to keep that promises and m word when I tell YOU I will do something on your belong.. to keep YOU closer to My Heart.. but My eyes.. keeps on wandering off.. it does Not like to LOOK at the Page of this Book.. but rather focus and concentrate on YOU.. your Photo Picture.. please tell me why is this happening to Me.. why does Love must be this Hard sometimes.. some times It feels so impossible to reach.. but.. LOOKING at How much time YOU put into.. and How you had to read this Whole Book.. this 800 pages of it.. it brings me to shame on me if I can't finish it.. as I would turn to look at this Page.. I would be reading from the top of the sentences and my eyes goes across and to the next line.. and to the next line until it goes down to the end of the page.. I would turn to look at another page.. If I love YOU.. and it has taken you a long time to read and to finish.. I would try to read again.. but my Mind.. my eyes keeps on looking.. why can't you see what I am going through.. even though I wants to concentrate on what Must I needs to do.. I keep on reaching.. I keep on looking for Your Photo Picture.. my hand just cannot keep away from YOU.. my hand touch and grabs Your Photo Picture.. I know that I should stop.. and try to put Your Picture Away.. or stick it on the pages of this Big book but I know that when it comes to Loving YOU.. I just can't.. I just won't because My Heart keeps on searching to LOOK at YOU.. I feel like YOU are the Only One who can make me smile.. Over and Over.. I find the true Joy when It comes looking at YOU and just telling myself.. my Heart that I love YOU.. that I just can't Let YOU go.. my Heart just can't Let YOU go.. that when I try to put it away.. I start to miss YOU.. and missing YOU brings more pain then ever.. so I have to Put your Photo Picture near me.. just knowing that YOU are close when YOU are so Far away.. as I would Look at the clock.. Looking at the Time.. I can see that Now it has become late into the Night.. where I needs to close this Big BOOK and needs to sleep.. so I would shut the Big Book in front of me.. and Putting on top of the Desk.. my Hand cannot let go of Your Photo Picture.. I know I needs to see YOU.. the More I see you in this Photo Picture.. it is so much harder for me to let it Go.. My Heart be missing you.. my eyes be missing YOU.. and I just miss everything about YOU.. as I look at your Photo Picture.. I will say to Your Picture.. I love YOU.. I know that YOU may Not able to hear it right Now.. but I wanted to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am able to tell YOU.. I know that you cannot hear me.. that is why I say it.. I tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me to finish this Book.. but.. I have made a promise to YOU.. that we are going to be meeting next week.. the same Hour at the Same Library and I needs to be ready to share what I think about this Book.. to continue this Partnership.. I must be ready to share it to YOU.. I am trying to drink cold glass Ice water.. my eyes are being Heavy.. I want to sleep instead.. My Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. my hand touches the Picture.. holds the Picture and I would look at Your Closer from this Picture YOU gave me.. I would be thinking of YOU.. that I am so excited to see YOU again.. and I would turn too look at the page of this Book.. I would flip it back to the first Chapter one.. and I am asking YOU.. Looking at your Picture
Impression.. even though I have Nothing to prove myself to YOU.. but.. I do want to keep my Promise to YOU.. I have already decided to read this BOOK.. as I would sit.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. I would close the Book.. and I would think about the experience of meeting YOU.. holding Your Picture in my Hand.. I do remember I be walking into the Library.. did Not expect much to happen that day but just to borrow a Book.. as I would walk and I see YOU.. why did I stop.. there is a lot of People in the Library.. but I saw YOU walking.. with a Friend YOU were talking.. and I wanted to get Your Attention but.. HOW.. as YOU and Your Friend passes me by.. I would act like I did Not see YOU and I bumped into YOU.. as the Books You were holding in your hands falls to the Floor.. I would help you by picking UP the Books that is laying on the ground.. as YOU stood UP with your Friend.. I grabbed the last Book.. and I would rise UP and I give it into your hands.. Your Friend had many books in her hands holding the BOOKS you were carrying.. I looked at YOU.. and I said sorrow.. as I watch YOU pass me By with your Friend.. at a table YOU sat with her.. I knew this is the Only Chance.. I may Never see YOU again.. who knows when YOU will come to this Library.. and as I walked UP to the table.. of course.. I saw YOU Looking UP with your Friend.. and the two of YOU were sharing.. I asked if I can join this table.. and Just wanted to ask you One question.. How to join this Group.. and your friend looks at Me and she smiles and YOU look at me with a Big Smile.. YOU be telling me that to join this club.. a BOOK CLUB.. I needed to read the books YOU and your friend was reading and to part take.. to share.. as I pulled the chair Over and I sat across YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. share what.. and I see YOU laying the BIG BOOKS on the top of the table.. It is so much to read.. a lot of pages to read I am thinking.. and every Week.. YOU and your Friend would meet at this table and would share.. and I am thinking.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Not just beautiful but also so Smart.. if YOU are reading all of these Books.. there is so much YOU can share with Others I believe and the Friend looks at me.. and she smiles.. as I look down.. there is a Line of People.. and they are standing behind YOU.. where is all of these People coming from.. and I see YOU turn to LOOK back.. they are Your Partners.. I am thinking.. there is a lot of People who wants to be Your Friend and be Your Partner.. it is because YOU are so Smart.. Not just beautiful.. But so Smart too.. as I am thinking about the day.. I know that I wanted to see YOU.. and I want to tell YOU what My Heart feels.. I want to tell YOU what my Heart Thinks and what it feels right Now.. can I share with YOU what I think when I look at your Picture.. when I see YOU again.. can I tell YOU my story of HOW MUCH I love YOU.. I can tell YOU a lot.. share you a lot More when I look at YOU.. when I look at you in the Picture.. I want to close the BOOK.. and open my Heart to YOU.. my Heart can be a Book.. has pages of letters to tell YOU that I LOVE YOU.. will you let me share my Heart to YOU.. Please tell me that I am able to open my Heart.. that YOU will have ears to Listen so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and for the whole week.. I been missing YOU.. it drives me crazy when I miss YOU.. when I look at your Picture.. and I think of YOU.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I love you and want you so Bad.. I love you and need you so Bad.. I love you and I miss YOU over and over again because when it comes to YOU.. when it is all about YOU.. I can open my Heart with letters and the pages of the letters can say that I love YOU.. I feel it in my heart and in my soul that I can't never stop but keep on loving YOU over and over again.. will you please let me Open my Heart to YOU.. My Heart is dying.. I am dying.. without YOU I know that I am dying and that is why I needs to say it.. I needs to tell YOU something.. that has been written in my Heart all about YOU that Only YOU can erase the pages of Letters that is written in my Heart just for YOU.. why can't YOU open YOUR Heart to accept it.. I am Not asking YOU much.. but it is this Simple.. to Open Your Heart for me.. to Let me In.. Please let me In and Let me write in your Heart and tell Your Heart that I love YOU.. as I am sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the BOOK.. I been flipping through the pages and I can feel my Heart be burning from the Inside.. I know like this BOOK.. like the pages that makes it into this BOOK.. the written words on the Pages like Letters.. when It is ALL about YOU.. when it is for YOU.. when My Heart and My Mind thinks of YOU.. I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I can tell you more than these pages of the 800 pages of this Book.. as long as it is YOU.. I know that I can share and write and tell YOU more.. because it comes from my Heart which I wanted to say even till Now.. I love YOU.. you do not know how much I love YOU but even till this Day.. YOU Know my Heart.. ever since the first day till Now.. I been loving YOU and still I love YOU.. You told me to come and wait for you.. I wanted to know the answers why YOU wanted to break UP with me.. last night.. I just could not sleep at all.. I wanted answers.. and I wanted to know if it was me.. is it because I wasn't the One.. is it because YOU have met someone new.. before I can close and shut.. I had to know why you wanted to leave me.. so I remember messaging YOU back.. asking YOU to meet me at the spot.. the same table.. at the Library.. I even told YOU that I am going to write YOU a Letter.. a Letter that I haven't written in a long time.. I do remember when I first met YOU.. and we started to date each Other.. My Heart.. I just don't know what it was about YOU.. but My Heart.. I would be going into the House.. with a Smile that I just could Not.. looking in the Mirror.. going into the rest room.. and turning on the lights.. I would look at myself in the mirror.. wondering what is matter with my Heart.. that I just could Not stop smiling after seeing YOU.. after meeting YOU.. after leaving.. just being close to YOU.. My Heart just could not take it that I had to leave YOU.. I am sitting on the table.. with the Book you gave me.. I am sitting by the table where we met for the first time.. as I open the front cover of the Book.. there is Your Picture.. and behind the Picture is the Letter I have written for YOU.. I am looking at the Picture.. thinking about going to the fair park.. YOU wanted me to get YOU a Big Bear.. a Brown Big Bear and I do remember winning the contest and able to get this Big Brown Bear.. I am looking at the Picture.. YOU were smiling and holding on the side of this Big brown Bear.. I just could not help it.. but tears.. why do you want to end this relationship.. why is it so Hard to let YOU go when we been through so much together.. I am sitting here quietly waiting for YOU.. I wanted to see YOU and meet eyes to eyes.. I want to hear from your voice.. I wanted the answers of why can't I be loving YOU any more.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. do you not know that it is Me who is hurting the most.. I am still wondering.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of pains in my Heart.. please tell me what have I done so that I know that if it is right.. I can truly walk away and Not to bother YOU.. Not to love you anymore.. I have written YOU a Letter.. if YOU open the folded Letter which is in Half.. I wrote last Night.. I was looking at Your Picture.. the One you would tell me.. after I took this picture of YOU holding the side of this Big Brown Bear.. YOU told me with a Big Smile.. that YOU loved me.. I just could Not believe the Words I heard.. from your own lips.. from your Own words YOU have expressed and confessed the Love.. I did not hear it before.. it would be me who be telling YOU.. many times I would send.. write letters to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I miss YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my life.. that can it be YOU.. can it be Me who can love you forever and tell YOU that I do love YOU.. and to confess and express.. being thankful for the chance that I get to say and to share that I love YOU.. but Now.. YOU are telling me that YOU wanted to leave.. to break UP this relationship.. I am still waiting.. sitting by the table.. and I asked you if we can meet.. I been waiting for more than two hours Now.. and still I don't see you.. as I am looking at the people.. they are walking into the Library.. some holding books.. while others are going into other tables.. I see some people sitting on chairs by the tables.. some by the computers.. I am waiting for YOU.. and I am wondering.. should I call YOU.. am I suppose to call you and ask YOU when will you come.. are you even coming at all.. and I look down.. looking at the Book.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. and when I lift UP my head to look.. I see you have finally come.. but who is that.. as I see you holding hands with another Man.. and YOU are smiling.. WHY are you going to do this to Me.. why are you bringing another Man into the picture.. and I see you stop by the table.. and I stand UP.. I see you pull the chair and YOU sit.. the Man next to YOU.. He smiles and pulls the chair and He sits next to you.. I am wondering.. DO I needs to hear this because Now I know.. I get the picture.. I know your answers now.. It is because of Someone else.. do YOU even love Him.. if YOU love him.. then why are you hurting Me.. did YOU ever loved Me.. why did YOU show up like this.. is it because YOU wanted to hurt Me.. to destroy my Heart.. YOU know that I also have a Heart.. and I learned how to love YOU with my Heart.. it took me a long time to learn but Now I know that I love YOU.. but what YOU are doing is so wrong.. because I did not want to come here if YOU came to show me what It means to
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항상 영상의 언니 룩 신발 악세사리 정보 남겨주셨으면 좋겠습니다!!!!!😊
누구 따라하거나 의식하지말고 자유롭게 생활하길.. 예쁜 그 모습 구대로 그애처럼
러브캐쳐3때 수원님 젤 좋아했는데.....넘 잘어울려 왜 안사겨요 사귀어주세요......진심 연애세포 다 죽었었는데 언니 영상보고 스물스물 살아남....❤ 그래서 또 보러와써..
왜이렇게 귀엽냐구 ㅠㅠ
흐엉엉 ㅠㅠ
곧 연애한다는 소식 들을 준비할게용🥰
기염둥이
수원님 넘 설레..ㅎ_ㅎ
8:53 엉니 ..나 여기 너무 설레.....🥰그나저나 얼굴 괜찮죠????
얼굴 괜찮아요옹 ㅠ 옥수수들도 조심하기🫶🏻
아니 근데 두분..얼굴합.. 짱이다아 언니 진짜 나도 바로 달려왔더구요🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🩵🩵
바로 와주다니~~🩵
이러면 너무 내가 고맙고 감동이잖아..
릴스 타고 여기까지 왔다😻🫶🏻
옥수수들은 수수언니를 뺏길 수 없써 •• 🥹🌽💗
안뺏겨쩡 나 요기이떠 기염보이들
와 연수님 엠비티아이 유니콘이시네
진짜 두분 얼굴합 미쳐따..👍🏻 뭔가 설레는 브이로그예요💗
좋게 봐주셔서 너무 고마워요 잘자요🫶🏻👀🫶🏻
@@seoyeonsu여자는 본판개박살나도 목숨걸고 얼굴갈아엎으면
존잘남 만나는구나
@@sexynerdnam 존잘은 아니고 훈남
아...설레.....❤
9:00 아픈게 걱정되지만 얼굴 너무 이쁘잖,,,아
아니예효.. 그렇지않음...봐주는 사람 눈이 예뻐서 그렇게 보이는것임💖
너무 설레요 .. 수원님 엄청 스윗하셔
스윗보이 인저엉~~~~~!!
수원과 연수의 조합이라니 .. 행보캐 ..
수원연수 종로 다녀와찌이✌🏻ㅎㅎ
연수언니 얼굴도 이쁘지만 성격이 너무 귀여움;;❤ 애교만땅 몸짓이 귀여워용
악 ㅋㅋㅋ 나는 애교가 하나도 없는데엥..?😞😭
좋게 봐주셔서 너무 고마워요 힝🫶🏻
더운날씨에도 두 분 너무 고생많으셨습니다.
연수님 얼굴에 비비탄맞으셔서 아프셨을텐데 괜찮으신가요?ㅜㅜ
수원님 러브캐쳐에 출연하셨다는 사실을 이번영상에서
처음 알았네요...ㅋㅋ
착한성격에 자상하시고 배려심이 많으신성격과 MBTI 끝자리빼고 똑같은점도 너무 영광입니다!
연수님 유튜브에 자주 출연해주세요^^
15:55 형..그냥고백을해...ㅋㅋㅋ
사겨라!!!!! 줜잘 줜예
뚜수연수 연애 응원해요!!
*F님들은 T의 공감능력의 한계를
공감해주세요ㅠㅋㅋ
저는 T😂
이 남자분 프로그램에 나온 분 맞으신가요..?
6시만 기다렸댜용❤
ㅑ옹냐옹 고맙다냐옹🥰
진짜 너무...예쁘잖아요 눈이 토끼🐰 ㅠㅜ넘예뻐요 눈 안다치게 ㅠㅠ조심하구요 아팠겠다 ㅠ
진짜 진짜 찌인짜 아파쩌요.. 조심 또 조심 ㅠ
두분 너무 잘 어울리세요 ,,, ♥️ 그나저나 연수님 너무 예뿌시네요 ,, 🫶🏻
꺄오 감사합니다..🫢💖
언니 내껀데 언니 내껀데 언니 내껀데 언니 내껀데 ,,, 언니가 연애 안했으면 좋겠는데 또 좋은 남자 만났으면 좋겠어 모르것다~나도 내 마음을 ㅜㅜ 언니 얼굴 언제나 열일 하네욤❤️ 세상남자들 눈이 이상해 내가 남자였음 3초만에 반했어
공주님 ~~~~~~ 오늘 영상도 너무너무너무너무 이뻐요..... 나중에 지금 옥수수 데이트도 해요 용안 감상하고시픔..... 😵💫💕💕💕💕💕💕
어머 지금 옥수수데이트 너무 괜찮다
가을에 하까?💖
옥수수들은 몸만와
언니! 혹시 위에 흰색 상의 정보 알 수 있을까용....? 너무 예뻐오...❤️
아니 !!! 오늘 머리랑 메이크업 너무 찰떡콩 🫶 저랑두 익선동 데이트 해주세욥 😢
카톡하시오..😞
바로 달려왓어용❤
정말 감사해요🫶🏻
연수님 오늘 영상도 최고입니다💗
촬영하실 때 간단한 마이크 착용하시는 것도 좋을 것 같아요! 특히 야외라 ㅎㅎ
잘 안들리나요?! ㅠㅠ
다음에 참고할게요 고마워요🥰
잘 들려요!! 좋은 퀄리티를 위해 살짝콩 말씀드려본거에요 🫶🏻
18:37 나 숨 못 쉬어..
아씨 정수원 존잘이네 ㅜㅜ
공주님 오늘두 짱 ... ❤️
옥수수들도 여전히 아직도 오늘도 짱이야💖
두분 너무 잘어울려요
지금 데이트 너무너무 오랜만이에요❤❤종로 명동!!! 저도 가볼게요 연수언니 추천은 믿고가는😉😍
나두 수수코스로 데이트하러 가야게뜨아아💚💙💚💙
언니 꼭 해봐 진짜 추천💖
눈을 맞았으면 큰일났겠지만 눈이 안 맞아서 다행인데.. 비비탄으로 얼굴에 맞아서 흉치겠네!ㅠㅠ 아이쿠! 놀랐겠다.... 어떻해 연수님!ㅜㅜ 얼굴에 덧나겠네요.ㅜㅜ 연수님 얼굴에 일단 빨리 상태를 봐서 다 나아졌으면 좋겠네요.^^ 그 남자분이랑 연수님 데이트하기가 딱 잘 맞고 어울려요^^
넘~~무조아🫶🏻요♥️
연수님을 진심으로 사랑해주는 남자가 나타난다면!!!!옥수수들은 무조건 찬성찬성 양보해줄거에유!!!!!!연수님은 사랑받기 충분한 사람이기때무네~~영상 보는내내 대리설렘...간만에 또 맛난거 먹으시고 재밋게 놀고 데이트 하신거 같아서 기분이 너무 조타🫶♥️
8:49 🫢🫢
연수님이 신는 저런 양말?은 어디서 구매할수있나용?
엉니 썸 잉스타보자마자 달려왔엉요…
앙대 나 질투나….😨 엉니.. 나도…언니랑 데이트…🥹🥹
저 학교에서 언니 영상 자주 보거든요 오늘 영상보고있는데 애들이 카리나 닮았대요 ㅎㅎ❤
응..? 그 친구들 다 데리고와
맛있는거 사줘야게따!!!!!💖
언냐~~궁금한거 있눈데 항상 나갈때마다 샵에서 헤메 받으시는 건가요?? 저 날은 헤메 받았나용??
You both looks so cutee
재가 그 오빠를 어디에 본적이 있는데 라고 생각을 했는데..맞네요 언니 수원오빠가 러브캐쳐 3에 한번 나왔는데 ㅋㅋ 제가 그때 완전 수원오빠 팬이거든요..언니ㅠㅠ
으와ㅏ너무 신기ㅣ!!!😭💗
❤
옥수수여러분 엔딩크레딧까지 꼭 보세요❤
악 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 쿠키봐주세요🍪
바지 정보 알려주세욤..
오빤데 은근 애교부림
상하의 궁금해용!
Suwon is so cute ❤️ my favorite lovecatcherboy
얼굴 맞앗을때 소리질럿어여ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 큰일날뻔
상하의정보궁금해요...!
왜 남사친이에오!!!!
수수연수님 브이로그를 잘 볼게요
고마워요 항상 기범님! 화이팅
코디 정보 궁그매여
1등 !!!
귀걸이 정보 궁금해용❤
남자분 티비에서 본거같아요!
Oink Oink.. I have the tape Recorder in my hand and I would stop the record and Push the Play button.. Listening to the Song in the back ground.. I am listening to my voice.. it was the day I got very drunk and I just can't help myself and just pouring Out my Heart.. I was sitting down on the Desk and I would be looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. letting you know How much I am dealing with this Missing YOU.. there are times when I feel so Lost and it drives me Mad.. it drives me crazy when I am dealing with YOU when YOU cannot be found.. as I am sitting down by the Desk.. listening to the Tape recorder.. I can hear myself crying as I am sharing my Heart to YOU.. telling YOU how much it hurts to be missing YOU and when will be the time I can be with YOU.. I know it sounds so non sense but there are days I just needs to be with YOU.. that I want to be with YOU close.. and I am wondering How can I get YOU close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU how much I missed YOU and been loving YOU.. why can't I tell you these words of Mine to YOUR ears.. and No matter How much time Flies.. the Love I have for you seems to grow stronger and stronger because all I ever want is for YOU TO be close to my Heart and for you to always remember how much I love YOU.. as I would press the Stop button on the tape recorder.. I want to mail this tape Out to YOU.. I wish there was a way for me to give you this Tape which I just heard my voice telling you that I love YOU.. will you believe my words when I tell you this.. if you receive this Tape that has been recorded by my voice with the Piano sound in the back Ground.. would you believe me that it is my Heart that I put into for YOU.. as I would sit and LOOK at the tape.. I know that I can't mail this to YOU.. I know that YOU won't listen to the tape because there is A lot of crying on the Other side.. I was so drunk.. I do not remember much because it seemed like I blacked Out after.. but I do still want to give you something from My Heart.. it is to give YOU a song.. I want to write YOU a Song.. a Music.. but I am Not sure will you listen to the Music.. to the song that be send to YOUR Way.. as I am looking at the Little Piano.. I put the Little Piano next to the desk.. and I have the Empty Glass Jar with me.. and I wish that If you cannot be here with me.. if I am going to be missing Your presence.. at least leave me with Your Heart.. I would be asking.. if you can please give me Your Heart instead.. then I would not miss you too much because at least I can look at your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. will you please give me Your Heart.. I want your Heart so that I know that YOU will come.. Only way YOU can come a little Closer is when YOU have your Heart.. I can truly imagine Your Heart.. as I would open the Door.. front door and I would see a Small Box in the front.. as I would take the Small Box into my room.. and I been giving YOU a Note.. a Note that went to YOU asking for Your Heart and I believe if you have read this Note.. I be asking.. if YOU ever stop BY.. if you are close By.. there is Only ONE thing.. One Wish I need from YOU.. all I be asking was that ONE thing.. it is Your Heart.. Let me please have this Heart so that I can surprise you with a Gift.. as I am holding this Small Box.. I see the Note attached.. I just could Not believe that YOU have responded to the Message of the Note.. because when I looked at the Note YOU have placed on the TOP of the Small Box.. I would read what I have wrote to YOU for One WISH I needed.. I am touching my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat as I would look at the Note and It was my Own writings of the Note.. It means YOU have read it and you have responded to the Message which I felt my Heart be touched of Your reaction to this One request I been asking you for A Long time.. I sit on the floor.. and I open the top of the Small Box and I take a LOOK into the Small Box.. It is a Heart.. Not just any Heart.. but it is Your Heart.. for a Long time.. I been asking and Needing this from YOU.. I would hold your Heart with Both Hands.. and as I would stand UP on two feet.. I go over to the Empty Glass Jar.. inside the Glass Jar is soft Cottons laid inside to Protect Your Heart.. I place your Heart gently lowering inside where your Heart lays on the Soft Cottons.. I can't feel my Heart.. I feel like my Heart is skipping its Beat as I am looking at your Heart.. It must be that I love Your Heart.. that I love your Heart as much as I love YOU.. I would place the Glass Jar with Your Heart inside on the TOP right side of the Little Piano.. I know a friend who can play the Piano well and brought him over to Play a SOFT songs for Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. it was last Night I had to sit by the desk and I would write through the Night.. as My friend comes and he sits on the Piano Bench and I look at his Hands.. his fingers touches the Piano Bars and starts to Play a Music.. Play a SONG.. I would Look at the Letter.. as I would LOOK at your Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and I would start to Speak to your Heart as I would get closer to the Glass Jar.. I would say to your Heart.. ALL I ever wanted is for YOU to come close.. I know that I am poor.. I have truly nothing to give YOU that is really important.. I am hearing the Sounds of the Little Piano playing.. with such a soft tunes and I would look at the Glass Jar.. Looking at your Heart.. I would say to Your Heart through the Glass Jar.. I have been asking for your Heart.. But it seems like YOU never wanted to show me Your Heart.. I always wanted to feel close to YOU.. a Heart to Heart close is what I am talking about.. I been struggling trying to figure Out How can YOU Love me.. I know that I have found a Way to tell YOU that I love YOU.. to transfer and to deliver to YOU some way and some how.. even though when I would walk Out side.. and when I look UP at the MOON.. I see and clearly feel the Long distance between Us.. I see How High the Moon is when I look UP at the sky.. and How far it is to get to that MOON.. it is the same way I feel when I think of YOU.. How High and How far it is for me to get to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP.. as Long as I know that there is that ONE DAY.. and I believe strongly in that some Day.. NO matter How many times My Heart can Break or How Much I can feel the Hurt and the Pain I must endure.. and How much time I needs to wait.. even though it can be Never to be with YOU.. as Long as YOU know that I still Love YOU and I still believe that some Day it can happen.. having that Hope and to keep on dreaming of loving YOU still.. I know that It can come true.. as YOU can see I never thought that I can write YOU a Letter.. who ever thought that I can believe in this Love.. but there was that One day.. I would start to think beyond.. I start to think about the MOON and think about going Beyond.. what if I can JUMP over the MOON.. walk if I can walk on the MOON.. even though I may never be able too but I can still dream very BIG and never give UP on that dream to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU are able to receive on the Other side and that YOU are able to give a Little bit of that TIME.. and for you to open and to look at just One Letter that I write to YOU telling you that I love YOU.. I am sure the Message will get around soon or Later.. I am Not worry about today.. I am Not worry about yesterday.. I am Not worry about tomorrow because as Long as my Heart can still love you.. that is the Only happiness I get to feel.. I am Not asking you much.. I am Not even asking you to Love me back.. but.. when YOU ever walk Out side.. and when It becomes Night time and there is this peace in your surroundings and YOU are able to LOOK UP at the MOON.. all I want for you to is remember Me.. every time YOU Look at the MOON.. YOU LOOK up at the sky and you see the Big MOON looking at YOU.. I am sure there will be a time and space where you are able to think alone.. I am just wishing.. I am just hoping that YOU can make a room for me just for few seconds.. for few minutes.. just to say I do remember a man who loves YOU so Much.. who loves YOU more than YOU can love yourself or even who you can start to Love back because YOU know that I been here loving you for just a Long time.. Don't you want to love the One who loves you the Most.. don't you want to know who loves you the Most.. because It is Me.. It always has been me who been loving YOU still.. all I want you to do is just remember me because this is the Only thing I am hoping for.. just that One wish is for you to Know and to remember that there is a MAN out there.. if YOU feel lonely and alone in times.. YOU should walk Out side.. and be by yourself.. and Just LOOK UP.. if the Moon appears before your eyes.. that is when the time YOU can see.. some one is thinking of YOU always.. who is loving YOU still.. who is on the Other side who been LOOKING UP at that same MOON as your eyes be looking.. that On the Other side.. I feel the same way.. that I do feel lonely in times and many times when I walk out side.. I am alone but I love to LOOK at the MOON when I am alone because It reminds me of YOU and I be thinking of YOU and I smile while I am looking at that MOON because I know that MOON knows me.. Knows my Heart.. knows How much I love YOU.. telling YOU.. looking at your Picture as I am standing Out side alone.. as the MOON is before my eyes and I be opening UP my Heart looking at your Picture and I am sure the MOON can hear my voice.. can hear my out cries when I share from my Heart of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. but I would say looking at your Picture.. it hurts.. Loving YOU is the greatest feeling in the world to have but missing YOU hurts me the Most.. it kills me in times because I want you close.. I want you close
I am looking at this Book.. and I would close the Book.. looking at your Picture.. It has been so hard finishing the Pages of this Big Book but.. I just wanted to let you know.. I wanted it to be done because we made a Promise.. the promise which I must keep on my part.. when I try to do something and if it is going to be something that I know in my Heart I just can't keep.. I will not do it at all because I don't want YOU to see me as a failure.. some one who cannot finish or cannot keep the Word.. that is why it is something that has to be Special.. it must be an Unique experience because I believe it is so Hard to keep a Word or to Keep a Promise.. it has gotten harder over the Years but when I think of YOU.. I know that IN MY Heart.. I must have YOU.. I must win your Heart and make you Mine forever.. to say to YOU.. to tell YOU to come closer and I would ask for Your Ear.. can you please lend me your Time and Lend me your Ear.. I must say few words so that YOU can hear my Heart.. and I will say to YOU when I see you Close.. when I see your ear approach me.. I will say.. My Heart is crying.. Not just crying but heart is dying for Your love.. dying just to say I love YOU.. and I been looking at your Picture.. sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the Pages of this Big Book.. I would be thinking.. should I not read at ALL.. but when I think of the first time I saw YOU.. and just to get closer.. I must do my Part and that is to read.. as I would Pull the Note Book before me.. reading part.. flipping through many pages.. and trying to sit and focus.. concentrate on the Words on the Pages of telling Me.. but next is the Picture of YOU.. and I would stop.. thinking the Focus is gone.. can't concentrate when I be looking at the Picture of YOU.. because YOU are so beautiful to Me.. I would flip back few pages to re read.. and yes.. the Time flies very fast when YOU start to day dream.. holding your Hand.. and Pulling you close in my arms and LOOKING at YOU.. looking at your ear.. if I can speak.. if I am able to tell YOU the way my Heart feels about YOU.. I would say.. Please.. let me explain this Heart of Mine.. Please let me speak so that I can tell YOU.. and I would say.. ALL day.. when I did Not see YOU.. I started to miss YOU.. wondering when I can come close to YOU.. will you let me come close.. Please let me by your side.. because I need to be with YOU.. why.. because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. and I would look down.. looking at the Pages.. trying to write the summary of this BOOK.. trying to write more than a sentence.. the More I try to read this Big Book.. the More I want to see Your Picture.. but.. it took me back and forth of fighting myself that I would say.. I have made a promise to YOU.. and that is the End of the Line.. I told YOU and yes.. we made the agreement that If I finish this BIG BOOK and write the summary on the paper for this BOOK.. you will let me in the BOOK CLUB.. it was yesterday.. when I went to the Library to see YOU.. and I would be waiting in a Long Line.. feels like YOU are a famous Arthur.. because I have never seen so many People waiting in the Line.. and with a BOOK in one hand and the Paper on the Other hand waiting to be the Next.. to Join the Book Club.. I was excited when I saw People sitting down and there were many Cuts in between.. feels like an Audition to make a Movie.. and YOU are like the director who be looking for Actors and Actresses.. but I knew that I spend Many Hours.. re reading this Book.. going back and Forth.. writing on the Pieces of papers.. scribble this and Scribble that.. papers be rolled and thrown into the trash Can because I just could not Write well.. but as I let go of your Picture for few Hours.. opened the drawer and Put your Picture into it and closed the Door.. felt like an addiction.. wanted to open that drawer.. struggling to LOOK at your Picture but I told YOU.. I must finish this BIG BOOK first and then I can look at your Picture as Much time as I want.. so I had to focus and started to write the summary.. it felt so GOOD to finish Both the reading of the BIG BOOK and also the writing on the Note Book summary of the Book and taking it to YOU.. I would smile.. when the BIG BOOK hit the Final Page and I would close the BIG BOOK.. I smiled and said.. It is DONE.. I have kept my Word to YOU.. I have kept my promise to YOU and after writing on the Pages of the Note BOOK about the story what It means to me.. I just had to share what is real from my Heart.. not to act like I know but just be real with myself to YOU.. telling YOU my Thoughts about the story on this BIG BOOK.. as I would enter the Library.. and I am watching the Lines of People going down.. and I would see many people would fail trying.. I saw many stormed Off the Library and angry is what I saw in most people's faces.. as I would get closer and closer to the table and I would see YOU there sitting with Your Friend.. there were more guys in the Line than ladies so I guess the Intentions or the Motives must be Like Mine.. who wants to be Just Close to YOU.. as I would be the Next in the line.. and I would sit on the chair of the table.. and I look at YOU.. who is sitting across from me.. and YOU are looking at me.. probably thinking that I am just like All of these Other guys who came for the wrong reasons.. and who did Not keep his Word or His Part of the Deal means the Promise.. but.. It was such a great struggle on my part.. when I saw YOUR Picture inside the Big BOOK.. it was distracting me A lot because of Your Beauty.. How can someone who is so Beautiful Like YOU loves to be in a BOOK CLUB.. I am Not say all the Beautiful ladies are the same.. but it seems like YOU are so Different because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember when I first Walked into the Library.. and I saw YOU walking.. holding BOOKS in your Arms and I just had to get Close to YOU.. I slip and tripped and it got to YOU.. the BOOKS fell on the Floor and I fell alone with YOU inside this Library.. I know that I just can't tell YOU any words Yet because YOU are not going to Like me at first.. and that is why when I heard of YOU telling me about this BOOK CLUB.. I must join into this Club to be part and that is the Only way to get close to YOU.. I would push the BIG BOOK towards your direction and told YOU.. I have read the Whole Book.. the pages are so long.. but I still had to do what I told I was going to do.. that is to keep my Word.. to Keep my promises I made to YOU.. and Do you remember that I called you on the Phone and You Picked UP.. I had to delay because I knew that the time line for me was just too short to finish in on time.. and YOU also told me.. that YOU wanted me to write YOU a Summary on the Pieces of papers of this Story that I read in this BIG BOOK.. and I would put few papers down and I would Push with my hand towards YOU.. and YOU looked at me.. and I guess you thought that I was not that serious type.. I am very serious when it is very Important for me to do.. when I want to so something and made the choice and made the decision to do something.. I will do it no matter of the Cost.. How hard or difficult it is to finish.. I just don't try but I go all in if it is YOU.. if you are very Important in my Life.. I can also make the changes for YOU TO know my Heart.. I see you grabbing the pieces of papers.. and YOU would start to read what I wrote on the Pieces of papers.. and YOU would pass the Pieces of papers to your Friend who is sitting next to YOU.. and I would take the Picture of YOU and Place it on the TOP of the table.. and I would say.. I would look at this Picture.. your Smile.. and How beautiful YOU truly are really amazes Me.. I had to struggle looking at your Picture.. if felt Like I was getting More drunk the More I saw your Picture.. I even opened the Drawer and placed YOUR picture inside in and closed for few Hours.. I was shaking in my hands.. wanting to Open the drawer and to take your Picture Out of the drawer and to have a Peek.. the truth is that More I see your Picture.. the More I would forget the story I was reading in the Pages of the BOOK.. I would grab the Drawer and I would try to pull the Open so that I can look at your Picture.. but I knew that there was something far more Important for me to do at that point and it was to keep my Promises I made to YOU so I would start to look at the Pages of the BOOK and kept on reading.. reading more and More reading as the pages would be read and I would flip the page to the Next.. I would be thinking about YOU.. thinking about the Meeting and How this is Much more Important to me than just LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. and I would see you turn YOUR Head looking at your Friend.. and I see her smile.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me.. I see your hand out.. telling me that I can join in the Book Club.. and I thought this was a Joke.. I never been in any Kind of Club before.. but when YOU gave me YOUR hand Out.. I knew that this mean it is true.. I put my hand out to shake YOUR HAND.. and I could not believe It.. I get to be close to you.. it does Not matter what YOU think of me at first because I believe it starts with the first small step.. I stood in the Line.. and I saw many men sitting on this Chair and they were rejected.. and I saw men getting UP with such anger and they just walked Out.. and could NOT join in this Club.. as I am in the ROOM thinking about what happened yesterday.. because YOU gave me another BOOK.. but this BOOK is Not that Big.. and How you told me that YOU really enjoyed and Loved reading this Book because of the Story. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am missing YOU now.. I am missing you so bad right Now.. because Yesterday.. I never felt so happy in my Life.. when I saw YOU looking at me.. to able to show YOU something but to see you giving me a Smile.. Just that One glimpse of Smile is all I needed
Of your most favorite BOOKS.. that YOU read many times.. and over and over you would keep on reading It.. what happens when I start to love this BOOK you Love.. will you let me keep this BOOK.. If I can connect to Your Soul and to connect what it means to relate as a reader just Like YOU.. I wonder will a day will come when YOU can really Love me too.. that I am waiting for that Day where YOU can say to Me.. that YOU Love me.. as much as I love YOU.. you also can say to me that YOU love Me.. I am waiting for that Day.. that One day.. the Some day that can come soon.. as I am putting the new BOOK on the TOP of the desk.. I would open the cover of the BOOK.. I see another Picture.. a new Picture of YOU.. I am wondering what does all this means.. so that I can Miss YOU and that I can love you.. if I do.. is it right for me to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I really really love YOU.. Please.. tell your heart to be open for Me so that I am able to tell you all these things to YOU.. I been reading few of the Pages the Book you gave Me.. Pulling out the Piece of Paper.. I am trying to write the Summary of what the Book is telling me.. of course if YOU are asking me do I enjoy reading this BOOK.. I would tell YOU.. the BOOK has just too many pages to read.. and I would flip through the pages because some of the things that is Telling me is truly boring to read.. it is Like.. why do I needs to know about this Information.. this Historical portion and I would be scratching my Head.. wants to yank my hairs Out because I would Yawn and tries to GO back to the Pages.. If I don't understand It.. I would re read it over and over so that I can tell YOU what I think of this Book.. when I take a Pause.. it is YOUR picture.. I would put your Picture next to the Book and I would take a LOOK at YOU.. I would smile and ask.. why is My Heart be burning.. It keeps ON burning whenever I look at YOU.. I feel like this Burning deep inside seems like it never stops ON ME.. DO you think that this is what I call Love.. what do you think about this Heart of Mine when It keeps On burning inside of me.. it is when My eyes takes off the Pages of this BIG BOOK and I turn to LOOK at your Picture.. I rather LOOK at this Picture for Hours and even with the Hours goes By.. I don't think I would ever get tired of LOOKING at YOU just like when I write to YOU.. I never get tired of telling YOU.. Letting YOU know How much I still Love YOU.. I can tell YOU millions of times and I would say.. Let me see your ears please.. can I step a little closer to YOU.. if My Voice can be Loud.. I can lower my voice and even whisper.. Just to tell YOU.. that I miss YOU.. Have been missing YOU for a Long time.. but.. Just wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I can stand Out.. go Out side and even Yell looking at the MOON who is looking.. showing the Face.. My Face and turn to the MOON.. with YOUR NAME.. I can say it Out loud.. I love YOU.. I don't want the MOON think that I am telling It.. that is WHY.. or Not the angels be confused or the neighbors around.. But with YOUR NAME say it and say to YOU I LOVE YOU.. but WOULD you let me be Close.. would you let me come closer to YOU.. would YOU open your Heart and Open your ears to listen.. would you receive the Words I want to tell YOU.. can I tell it to YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. with the BIG BOOK in front of me.. the BOOK is opened Now with the pages on right and left.. with Letters written as I would try to read the page.. going from chapter to the Next.. looking at the Numbers as I am flipping through the pages of this BOOK.. I would read and Pause.. my eyes would turn to LOOK next to this BOOK is your Picture.. I can't hide your Picture away.. I need your Picture with Me so that It reminds me who I love.. that I be loving YOU for reals.. can I take a Look at your Picture Please.. and it is YOU who left this One picture inside.. I remember before I started to read the Pages of this BOOK.. I called your Number.. and I even told YOU that I have found a Picture of YOU.. of course I would hear a Long Pause on the other side before you would say something about It.. I know that YOU did Not put the Picture here for me.. but when I saw the Picture.. It just helps me with the Pains I am suffering right Now.. I know that We are suppose to meet about a Week for Now.. but It seems like it is taking for ever.. time is ticking so Slow even though I am so Busy trying to Finish this Whole book.. and NO.. I am Not a good reader either.. that is why I had to ask for a delay for two weeks.. as I would try to go back to the Pages.. to read the pages.. it is not that easy for me.. too many difficult words would come around.. I have to pull out the dictionary to find and to understand the meaning of this Word.. and trying to read the sentence to go back to understand what it is telling Me.. I been going through Hardship of looking at the second Book.. which is the dictionary.. I remember you told me.. after I am finished reading the Whole book.. YOU be asking me to write to YOU a Summary of the book.. I have been sitting here.. with this One Piece of Paper in front.. trying to write something.. I am tempted to write about something else instead.. I am trying to think about this Story of this BOOK.. but My mind.. my eyes would LOOK at the Picture instead.. I would look on the ground.. there are few papers that has been rolled into balls.. because I started to write to YOU a Letter from my Heart.. and instead of trying to share about this BOOK.. My Mind and Heart takes me somewhere what My Heart wants to tell YOU.. if you are asking me.. what did I write that I had to roll into balls instead.. Maybe I should write TWO instead.. One that is from me to YOU and the other from the story of this BOOK.. the Summary you wanted to see.. when I would look at the Balls rolled UP from the Pieces of paper.. I would write.. I been missing YOU.. I wish that I can go to the Library.. if I go to that Library.. will I see you there.. would you be at the table the last time I saw YOU at.. but I don't want to show UP like I am spying on YOU because I am Not.. I am showing UP because My Heart misses YOU and I want to see YOU more.. of course.. I decided Not to GO.. but Last Night.. I do remember.. My Heart.. I started to miss YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It would stop me from reading more Pages of this BOOK.. I had to put the BOOK down because I would be missing YOU.. and I was struggling.. and I knew last night.. that was the day I saw you like two weeks Back.. and I would grab the keys.. and I knew.. should I go to the Library.. I know that If I do go.. maybe there is a better chance I will see YOU there.. so I took the keys.. and I went into the car.. and I started the Car to drive But.. I knew.. I should Not.. I am going to be making the mistake of showing UP just too early.. I don't even have the paper of the summary for this BOOK and NO.. I did Not finish the BOOK yet.. so I had to pause and think before.. so I did Not drive the Car.. I came Out of the car and stood Out side.. and I would LOOK UP at the sky.. LOOKING Above me is the MOON.. as I am looking at the MOON.. I would Open my Heart and Open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. I would say.. what am I doing.. I know that I made a Promise to YOU.. and YOU gave me two weeks.. even though YOU wanted to Meet sooner.. I know that if I showed UP.. and I am Not ready to show you the presentation.. and If you were to ask me about the BOOK.. and If you say.. did I finish the BOOK.. and I am sure you would say.. why ask for two weeks if I am able to share Now and makes me a Liar.. I don't want YOU to see me as that Kind of a Person when ALL I wanted to say is that I missed YOU.. I been missing YOU for a while Now.. and why can't I just show UP just to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. but.. would Your Heart be opened to receive.. will your Ears be opened to hear the Words I need to say.. But I know that My Heart truly needs to tell YOU.. that I really Love YOU.. YOU may Not believe me.. or the Words Yet.. YOU may think that I am Not being serious about the situation or about My Heart to YOU.. but.. YOU do not have to believe anything Yet.. because I know that In time everything can change that.. there will be a TIME when YOU WILL Finally understand and able to receive when the TIME is right.. that is why I am Not asking it for today.. I am Not asking it for Now.. but I believe.. there will be a TIME you will know the truth.. that the TRUTH will do Its work and will set it Free.. Set me free because I am Not lying.. just sharing just the way it is and has been in my Heart.. that I love YOU.. what More words can I say to YOU that I been loving YOU.. and I would Be looking UP at the MOON.. just pouring from My Heart and speaking.. of course YOU are Not there to listen is the Problem.. that YOU are not there to hear these words of Mine.. that YOU just don't know yet how much I love YOU.. and as I would be sitting on this Chair by the desk in my room.. I am just looking back.. thinking back of what has taken its place.. and I am looking at the Picture.. Your Picture that is Next to this Big Book.. I wish that YOU could see me like this.. only if YOU are able to see me Now.. how can I get YOU to know that I been thinking of YOU.. that I am doing my Part.. that I am reading through these pages.. which It was not my choice.. if I go back where I saw YOU at the Library.. I would of chosen a Different Book.. and something much more Smaller with Pages.. and I would show YOU.. can I read this One instead.. and I can write YOU the Summary on piece of paper and tell you about the story I read of this book.. but.. it was Out of Nowhere.. sitting on the table.. across from YOU.. with a Smile.. YOU would push this BIG BOOK.. I wanted to be your Friend.. a reading club.. and it took me by a
LOOKING on the side.. next and wants to skip looking at the pages instead.. I enjoy and Love looking at your Picture.. I feel bubbly inside and sometimes my eyes wants to cry looking at YOU.. I would say.. I be seeing you soon.. Next week.. and to see YOU SMILE will be the greatest moment for me to look at YOU.. when I see YOU.. I come into the Library.. with the Piece of paper written with the Summary.. holding the Big BOOK to tell YOU I have read it all.. Now here is the piece of paper.. sharing my summary about this BOOK.. and I would tell YOU.. I have written YOU another Paper.. but it has nothing to do with the BOOK but it comes from My Heart.. can I please read the Letter to YOU instead.. Please Open your ears to listen.. and Open your Heart to receive the Words.. then I will give you the Paper.. the Letter that is written from Me.. and when YOU Miss me.. YOU can read it over.. re read it if YOU have too.. but read it when YOU miss Me.. that is HOW you know that I love YOU.. I just wanted to say that I love YOU.. and If you are asking me what DO I love you the Most.. that I see that YOU love Books.. Just as much as I am starting to enjoy and Love reading BOOKS.. so that I can kiss your Forehead.. your Intelligent is what I am kissing.. the Smart that is Inside your Brains because I am going to be very smart for YOU.. as I would turn to look at the Pages of the Book.. I would look at the letters and I would start to read once again.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking of the story about this Book but More for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU and share with YOU.. so you will know that some day.. it is because I love YOU.. that One day SOON.. your Heart will know I love YOU.. and I just want to draw closer to YOU and tell you from My Heart.. How much I really Love YOU and that I have never stopped but always loved YOU STILL.. The Word I love you is the Only word that Comes to my Mind.. comes from my Heart.. only the words I can say when I see YOU.. when can I see you again.. Please tell me that it be soon.. I am looking at the book.. the Pages are just to big.. over 800 pages to read.. but I know that I must read it to keep the friendship going.. what if I want more than your Friendship.. because I felt something More than just friends.. if you call me a Friend.. I think that I must reject It.. I must be Honest and truthful to YOU.. that I want More than just your friendship.. I want your Heart.. I want to be Your Lover.. can I be the One who can say and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I would look at the book.. My Mind would go back.. my mind would think back to the Library.. the Place where I first saw YOU.. the Place where I bumped into YOU.. even though my Mind is going back to the Library.. I know that I needs to start reading this Book.. I know that we made a deal.. YOU told me that I needs to share after I read this Book.. but do you Not see the pages.. LOOK at the size of this Book.. did I even tell YOU that I am Not a book worm.. I don't even like to read much of the Books.. and if you were to ask me how many Books I read in the Past.. I think the Numbers would be so much less and YOU be so shocked of the truth.. I am Not of a reader but just a beginner to read a Book.. I meet YOU and I ran into YOU.. and YOU dropped many books.. I could see that YOU love to read a lot of Books.. but.. I did Not tell you the truth because I did Not want to lose Your touch.. I did Not want to see you pushing me away just because I don't read.. But Now.. since I am a part of the Book club.. what if I can't read all of these more than 800 pages of this Big Book.. as I start to flip from One page to the next page.. I am wondering do they have any pictures where I can look.. maybe I can start by looking.. and as I start to flip few pages down this Big book.. I stop on a page.. there is a Picture.. One Picture and as I grab to take the Look of the Picture.. I flip to take a Look.. it is the Photo Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. is it YOU who has place this Photo picture in here.. I don't remember me asking for Your Picture.. did I ask for the Picture and YOU gave it to Me.. and was it I who put the Picture in between these two pages.. I am sitting on this Chair.. in my Room.. trying to think about if it was Me.. I am Not sure.. because now I feel so confused.. what if it was I who placed it here.. what if It was not me but was it YOU then.. did YOU know that I was going to be taking this Book Home.. I never asked for Your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK back of the Photo Picture.. there is a Number written on it.. whose Number is this.. Is this Your Number.. was this all planned ahead of time knowing that I was going to take this Book home or just out of Nowhere.. I am wondering.. of course I do Love this Photo Picture.. from time to time.. after reading this Big Book and I get tired.. I can turn to LOOK at your Photo Picture and to relax my mind.. and to Love YOU.. maybe this is the main reason why I had to lie to YOU.. could not tell you the truth.. could Not be honest with YOU because.. it was My Heart.. it was YOU.. the first glance.. when I turned to LOOK at YOU.. and yes.. it was me who ran into YOU knowing YOU were heading my direction.. I had to get Your Attention because I wanted to get to YOU.. there was something about YOU that my eyes just can't stop looking.. there was something about the Time.. the Place where you put it the Most.. I saw you from the distance walking with your friend.. I looked around and I wanted to start reading Books.. I saw in your arms.. YOU were holding many books.. something about that Time.. where you put your focus the Most.. and where you put your eyes and Your Heart into.. I looked over knowing that YOU are going to be some one very special.. some one very Hard to find.. that is different from myself but.. at the same time.. I can learn to change and adapt to situation.. any circumstances because I am not afraid to try some thing New.. that is when I told myself.. I needs to get to YOU.. before some one else will come and Love YOU.. I know that there are so many Young men in this world.. who would Loves to be in my shoes.. who would try to get to YOUR Heart.. so that is when I told my self.. go to your direction and run.. bump into YOU.. but Not hurt you.. just enough where you can feel something to get to YOUR HEART.. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I got to YOU in a wrong way because that was Not my intention.. I just wanted to be a part and to be close to YOU.. Not to hurt YOU or scare YOU.. because I am Not a creep.. I am Not a weirdo either.. just a Man who wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. making this Kind of Move.. and also.. knowing my own weakness of Not to Love to read Books is at my fault but.. I told YOU.. if I love you.. I know that I can change.. I know that I can even adapt to this change.. Not to impress YOU but just to be close.. just to let YOU know that I love YOU.. but.. I know that I was Not right with YOU.. as I am sitting down on this chair.. in the Room close to my desk.. I have this Picture.. the Photo Picture.. I am wondering.. what if I did Not say Yes.. I am wondering.. what would happen to this Photo Picture.. if some one else came and sat on my place.. because I don't remember I be asking YOU.. or was it I who asked you that I needed your Picture.. as I am trying to read these pages.. I was flipping through the pages trying to look for some Historical Pictures.. some comes in the Black and White Photo Pictures.. but for some reason.. as I was flipping through the pages of this BIG BOOK of 800 pages.. I found this Photo Picture.. It is Your Picture because the One who is in the Photo Picture is YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. the Flower looks so lovely and yes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can stay here.. I can sit here and just look at your Photo Picture all day Long and Never get tired of it.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. was it YOU put it here.. and if it was YOU.. can I call this Number.. is this Number Your Phone Number.. and I know that it is pretty late.. so that I am not going to call YOU or disturb YOU late into the Night.. as I am looking at your Photo Picture.. I would put it on the Top of the desk.. and I would flip the pages back to the first Chapter.. and I would start to read from the Chapter 1.. and I would look through the first line sentence.. and as I would look across and going down.. it is written small but so much to read even the first Page of this first chapter.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. did YOU even finished this Whole 800 pages of the Book.. this Big Book.. I wanted to ask.. I wanted to know so that we can be on the right pages on the same book.. I grabbed the Phone.. it is late but Not too late to sleep late.. so as I look at the back of the Photo Picture.. I would dial the number which is written in the back.. and as I would wait.. I do hear the ringing on the Other side.. and I would wait and wait.. I do hear on the other side.. I hear your voice.. and I tell YOU.. Do you remember me?? of course YOU don't know my number.. so I would say.. It is the Guy YOU met at the Library.. the One you gave the Big Book.. with the 800 pages and the Historical figure story.. and Of course you remember.. and I would say.. as I was looking through the Pages.. I wanted to know if it had the Black and white Photo pictures and started to flip through many pages.. and I stopped at One where I found your Photo Picture.. and when I grabbed to take a LOOK at it.. it was YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. I have never seen such a beautiful Flower.. and YOU are even more Beautiful than the Flower you were holding.. and I was Not sure if making this Call be right or wrong.. but I just wanted to check something.. and I hear you say something.. of course.. I am so sorry for calling you this late but I have a One Question.. I wanted to check to see and ask YOU
Thinking about YOU.. so if I am suppose to meet YOU in three weeks later.. for three weeks.. to me it feels like a Long time to see YOU.. what if I start to miss YOU.. and I know that I needs to see YOU.. DO I call your Number just to hear your Voice.. but I know that I can't just do that.. so as I would take the Big BOOK in my hands.. and I flipped.. I am truly touched.. My Heart just melted as I am looking at the first page.. I asked YOU if YOU finished reading this.. and YOU told me that YOU did.. and YOU have read this Whole BOOK.. I am truly touched and truly Impressed by.. because right Now.. I am trying to read the first line sentence and I would start to yawn.. but I know that I have a deadline and I have promised you and YOU told me that I must and meet you on that day.. so I would start to focus.. as I would start to read the first page of this chapter.. as I would read he first page and I would flip the page to the next.. Just looking at the size and the thickness.. it is a lot of pages.. which I have never read this much of pages in my life.. But.. I know that I love YOU.. I must finish reading.. but my eyes would wander off.. as I am looking at the next page.. my eyes seems more interested of looking at Your Photo Picture.. my hand grabs to take a Look.. and I want to see YOU again.. I want to see you soon.. but three weeks later seems like it is just too long for me.. I should of said how about two weeks.. maybe two weeks could of been a better choice.. so that I don't miss YOU.. so that I can look at you closer and be as near as possible to YOU.. How can I get close.. but in order for me to get close to YOU and to love you close.. I must do my part to show YOU.. I am a man who keeps my Word.. when I make a Promise to YOU.. I try to keep that promises and m word when I tell YOU I will do something on your belong.. to keep YOU closer to My Heart.. but My eyes.. keeps on wandering off.. it does Not like to LOOK at the Page of this Book.. but rather focus and concentrate on YOU.. your Photo Picture.. please tell me why is this happening to Me.. why does Love must be this Hard sometimes.. some times It feels so impossible to reach.. but.. LOOKING at How much time YOU put into.. and How you had to read this Whole Book.. this 800 pages of it.. it brings me to shame on me if I can't finish it.. as I would turn to look at this Page.. I would be reading from the top of the sentences and my eyes goes across and to the next line.. and to the next line until it goes down to the end of the page.. I would turn to look at another page.. If I love YOU.. and it has taken you a long time to read and to finish.. I would try to read again.. but my Mind.. my eyes keeps on looking.. why can't you see what I am going through.. even though I wants to concentrate on what Must I needs to do.. I keep on reaching.. I keep on looking for Your Photo Picture.. my hand just cannot keep away from YOU.. my hand touch and grabs Your Photo Picture.. I know that I should stop.. and try to put Your Picture Away.. or stick it on the pages of this Big book but I know that when it comes to Loving YOU.. I just can't.. I just won't because My Heart keeps on searching to LOOK at YOU.. I feel like YOU are the Only One who can make me smile.. Over and Over.. I find the true Joy when It comes looking at YOU and just telling myself.. my Heart that I love YOU.. that I just can't Let YOU go.. my Heart just can't Let YOU go.. that when I try to put it away.. I start to miss YOU.. and missing YOU brings more pain then ever.. so I have to Put your Photo Picture near me.. just knowing that YOU are close when YOU are so Far away.. as I would Look at the clock.. Looking at the Time.. I can see that Now it has become late into the Night.. where I needs to close this Big BOOK and needs to sleep.. so I would shut the Big Book in front of me.. and Putting on top of the Desk.. my Hand cannot let go of Your Photo Picture.. I know I needs to see YOU.. the More I see you in this Photo Picture.. it is so much harder for me to let it Go.. My Heart be missing you.. my eyes be missing YOU.. and I just miss everything about YOU.. as I look at your Photo Picture.. I will say to Your Picture.. I love YOU.. I know that YOU may Not able to hear it right Now.. but I wanted to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am able to tell YOU.. I know that you cannot hear me.. that is why I say it.. I tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me to finish this Book.. but.. I have made a promise to YOU.. that we are going to be meeting next week.. the same Hour at the Same Library and I needs to be ready to share what I think about this Book.. to continue this Partnership.. I must be ready to share it to YOU.. I am trying to drink cold glass Ice water.. my eyes are being Heavy.. I want to sleep instead.. My Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. my hand touches the Picture.. holds the Picture and I would look at Your Closer from this Picture YOU gave me.. I would be thinking of YOU.. that I am so excited to see YOU again.. and I would turn too look at the page of this Book.. I would flip it back to the first Chapter one.. and I am asking YOU.. Looking at your Picture
Impression.. even though I have Nothing to prove myself to YOU.. but.. I do want to keep my Promise to YOU.. I have already decided to read this BOOK.. as I would sit.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. I would close the Book.. and I would think about the experience of meeting YOU.. holding Your Picture in my Hand.. I do remember I be walking into the Library.. did Not expect much to happen that day but just to borrow a Book.. as I would walk and I see YOU.. why did I stop.. there is a lot of People in the Library.. but I saw YOU walking.. with a Friend YOU were talking.. and I wanted to get Your Attention but.. HOW.. as YOU and Your Friend passes me by.. I would act like I did Not see YOU and I bumped into YOU.. as the Books You were holding in your hands falls to the Floor.. I would help you by picking UP the Books that is laying on the ground.. as YOU stood UP with your Friend.. I grabbed the last Book.. and I would rise UP and I give it into your hands.. Your Friend had many books in her hands holding the BOOKS you were carrying.. I looked at YOU.. and I said sorrow.. as I watch YOU pass me By with your Friend.. at a table YOU sat with her.. I knew this is the Only Chance.. I may Never see YOU again.. who knows when YOU will come to this Library.. and as I walked UP to the table.. of course.. I saw YOU Looking UP with your Friend.. and the two of YOU were sharing.. I asked if I can join this table.. and Just wanted to ask you One question.. How to join this Group.. and your friend looks at Me and she smiles and YOU look at me with a Big Smile.. YOU be telling me that to join this club.. a BOOK CLUB.. I needed to read the books YOU and your friend was reading and to part take.. to share.. as I pulled the chair Over and I sat across YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. share what.. and I see YOU laying the BIG BOOKS on the top of the table.. It is so much to read.. a lot of pages to read I am thinking.. and every Week.. YOU and your Friend would meet at this table and would share.. and I am thinking.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Not just beautiful but also so Smart.. if YOU are reading all of these Books.. there is so much YOU can share with Others I believe and the Friend looks at me.. and she smiles.. as I look down.. there is a Line of People.. and they are standing behind YOU.. where is all of these People coming from.. and I see YOU turn to LOOK back.. they are Your Partners.. I am thinking.. there is a lot of People who wants to be Your Friend and be Your Partner.. it is because YOU are so Smart.. Not just beautiful.. But so Smart too.. as I am thinking about the day.. I know that I wanted to see YOU.. and I want to tell YOU what My Heart feels.. I want to tell YOU what my Heart Thinks and what it feels right Now.. can I share with YOU what I think when I look at your Picture.. when I see YOU again.. can I tell YOU my story of HOW MUCH I love YOU.. I can tell YOU a lot.. share you a lot More when I look at YOU.. when I look at you in the Picture.. I want to close the BOOK.. and open my Heart to YOU.. my Heart can be a Book.. has pages of letters to tell YOU that I LOVE YOU.. will you let me share my Heart to YOU.. Please tell me that I am able to open my Heart.. that YOU will have ears to Listen so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and for the whole week.. I been missing YOU.. it drives me crazy when I miss YOU.. when I look at your Picture.. and I think of YOU.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I love you and want you so Bad.. I love you and need you so Bad.. I love you and I miss YOU over and over again because when it comes to YOU.. when it is all about YOU.. I can open my Heart with letters and the pages of the letters can say that I love YOU.. I feel it in my heart and in my soul that I can't never stop but keep on loving YOU over and over again.. will you please let me Open my Heart to YOU.. My Heart is dying.. I am dying.. without YOU I know that I am dying and that is why I needs to say it.. I needs to tell YOU something.. that has been written in my Heart all about YOU that Only YOU can erase the pages of Letters that is written in my Heart just for YOU.. why can't YOU open YOUR Heart to accept it.. I am Not asking YOU much.. but it is this Simple.. to Open Your Heart for me.. to Let me In.. Please let me In and Let me write in your Heart and tell Your Heart that I love YOU.. as I am sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the BOOK.. I been flipping through the pages and I can feel my Heart be burning from the Inside.. I know like this BOOK.. like the pages that makes it into this BOOK.. the written words on the Pages like Letters.. when It is ALL about YOU.. when it is for YOU.. when My Heart and My Mind thinks of YOU.. I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I can tell you more than these pages of the 800 pages of this Book.. as long as it is YOU.. I know that I can share and write and tell YOU more.. because it comes from my Heart which I wanted to say even till Now.. I love YOU.. you do not know how much I love YOU but even till this Day.. YOU Know my Heart.. ever since the first day till Now.. I been loving YOU and still I love YOU.. You told me to come and wait for you.. I wanted to know the answers why YOU wanted to break UP with me.. last night.. I just could not sleep at all.. I wanted answers.. and I wanted to know if it was me.. is it because I wasn't the One.. is it because YOU have met someone new.. before I can close and shut.. I had to know why you wanted to leave me.. so I remember messaging YOU back.. asking YOU to meet me at the spot.. the same table.. at the Library.. I even told YOU that I am going to write YOU a Letter.. a Letter that I haven't written in a long time.. I do remember when I first met YOU.. and we started to date each Other.. My Heart.. I just don't know what it was about YOU.. but My Heart.. I would be going into the House.. with a Smile that I just could Not.. looking in the Mirror.. going into the rest room.. and turning on the lights.. I would look at myself in the mirror.. wondering what is matter with my Heart.. that I just could Not stop smiling after seeing YOU.. after meeting YOU.. after leaving.. just being close to YOU.. My Heart just could not take it that I had to leave YOU.. I am sitting on the table.. with the Book you gave me.. I am sitting by the table where we met for the first time.. as I open the front cover of the Book.. there is Your Picture.. and behind the Picture is the Letter I have written for YOU.. I am looking at the Picture.. thinking about going to the fair park.. YOU wanted me to get YOU a Big Bear.. a Brown Big Bear and I do remember winning the contest and able to get this Big Brown Bear.. I am looking at the Picture.. YOU were smiling and holding on the side of this Big brown Bear.. I just could not help it.. but tears.. why do you want to end this relationship.. why is it so Hard to let YOU go when we been through so much together.. I am sitting here quietly waiting for YOU.. I wanted to see YOU and meet eyes to eyes.. I want to hear from your voice.. I wanted the answers of why can't I be loving YOU any more.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. do you not know that it is Me who is hurting the most.. I am still wondering.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of pains in my Heart.. please tell me what have I done so that I know that if it is right.. I can truly walk away and Not to bother YOU.. Not to love you anymore.. I have written YOU a Letter.. if YOU open the folded Letter which is in Half.. I wrote last Night.. I was looking at Your Picture.. the One you would tell me.. after I took this picture of YOU holding the side of this Big Brown Bear.. YOU told me with a Big Smile.. that YOU loved me.. I just could Not believe the Words I heard.. from your own lips.. from your Own words YOU have expressed and confessed the Love.. I did not hear it before.. it would be me who be telling YOU.. many times I would send.. write letters to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I miss YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my life.. that can it be YOU.. can it be Me who can love you forever and tell YOU that I do love YOU.. and to confess and express.. being thankful for the chance that I get to say and to share that I love YOU.. but Now.. YOU are telling me that YOU wanted to leave.. to break UP this relationship.. I am still waiting.. sitting by the table.. and I asked you if we can meet.. I been waiting for more than two hours Now.. and still I don't see you.. as I am looking at the people.. they are walking into the Library.. some holding books.. while others are going into other tables.. I see some people sitting on chairs by the tables.. some by the computers.. I am waiting for YOU.. and I am wondering.. should I call YOU.. am I suppose to call you and ask YOU when will you come.. are you even coming at all.. and I look down.. looking at the Book.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. and when I lift UP my head to look.. I see you have finally come.. but who is that.. as I see you holding hands with another Man.. and YOU are smiling.. WHY are you going to do this to Me.. why are you bringing another Man into the picture.. and I see you stop by the table.. and I stand UP.. I see you pull the chair and YOU sit.. the Man next to YOU.. He smiles and pulls the chair and He sits next to you.. I am wondering.. DO I needs to hear this because Now I know.. I get the picture.. I know your answers now.. It is because of Someone else.. do YOU even love Him.. if YOU love him.. then why are you hurting Me.. did YOU ever loved Me.. why did YOU show up like this.. is it because YOU wanted to hurt Me.. to destroy my Heart.. YOU know that I also have a Heart.. and I learned how to love YOU with my Heart.. it took me a long time to learn but Now I know that I love YOU.. but what YOU are doing is so wrong.. because I did not want to come here if YOU came to show me what It means to
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