My dad, who is a plumber, gives me grief for using bath stuff that plugs up the plumbing. I think I’ll show him this video to show him it could be much worse lol (also he’s on the British side of the family and we have a long lineage of Johns so, statistically, one of them is a murderer)
As soon as Stephanie said that I thought about my 7 year old son, Zachary John - who at the age of 3 told me "your skin is so so so soft mummy, can I have it?" 😳
I absolutely loved your series on Bonnie and Clyde, and came away feeling like I had actually known them. I would love to hear you do Marilyn Monroe!!!
How in the world does Stephanie not have 1 million subscribers yet. She is absolutely top tier. I’ve been a long time supporter. I love you and your content! Here are your flowers 💐
As a CSA survivor by a family member that you crave attention from because you just want to be loved so you just accept your role as like a payment for their rocognition and attention I completely understand the contradiction of the not being afraid of them but also being afraid at the same time. Its a very confusing and hard to explain. Not saying that what he said happened is the truth or not but its something that does happen.
Agreed, in other types of abuse as well. Many DV survivors have the same emotions about their abusers. It's not that the survivors are contradictory, it's that the abusers mask and unmask.
It kind of annoys me that shes so dismissive of what his claims were because of what she deems a "contradiction" and a lack of "evidence" 🙄 .. but also taking every horrible thing he admitted he did to his brother and sister is taken as gospel.. while also not seeing the connection of victims usually becoming offenders but go off sis i guess. Ugh.
@@bombchelle7974 just came to the comments because i was so frustrated by this. was really expecting her to take that same sort of skeptical tone but then.....
@@apothe0ses I started my comment out by saying that exact sentiment but I pulled back. I wasn’t sure if I was just letting my emotions lead me to think things were a certain way and it wasn’t. Glad I wasn’t the only one.
I'm delighted to see you are covering the Dennis Nilsen case. A truly evil guy who is infamous here in Scotland. There was a 3 part drama called "Des" shown on our tellies here just over a year ago. It was so good. David Tennant does a brilliant job playing Nilsen.. Well done Stephanie, once again keeping me well and truly entertained. 😍😍
@@Veetribe. I really want to see Delphi murder's solved! That case haunts me, I find it so frustrating! I mean he's right there in the footage, but no one knows who he is.
I appreciate the reliability of Dennis being clearly questioned. I find that many people are so invested in finding someone to blame they blindly believe the stories of known criminals. I always listen with a mound of salt. They aren’t normal people with normal perceptions
Even though I do believe he made stuff up - I do reckon he was abused by his grandfather. The logic & his actions he developed as grew older makes sense and I can see the connections in relation to his childhood history claims....I think he was very mentally unstable but at the same time very much aware of the horrific things he was doing. RIP to the lifes he cruelly snatched 🖤
You can tell by the want to have these males incoherent/sleeping.. Thats what he says was done to him and in turn he does/wants to do the same to others.. This guy is definitely twisted
Agreed. Also, the horrible acts he ended on doing to his brother show he probably learned it from someone else. I don’t believe children just do that for no reason, that’s a learned behavior
Yeah, I realized my own mortality around 5-6 and it was extremely traumatic and prob had some part in me developing a severe anxiety disorder and depression. My mom would find me just randomly in a total meltdown and she'd have to console me as I wept to her about how I didn't want to die and that I didn't want to grow up because that meant she and my dad would get old and die.
i had something similar as a child and cannot remember what triggered it, but your comment was really reassuring that i’m not alone. i remember being a similar age and crying because i knew i’d die one day, and because i felt like i was already living life on a loop (waking up, school, home, sleep, repeat). definitely very scary to go through that as a young child! think it definitely fed into my poor mental health now.
This is actually really comforting to read. This initial comment and people’s responses. I also had several panic attacks between the ages of maybe 6-8 and it took lots of consoling on my poor moms part to calm me down. I have often wondered if that has played into my mental issues as an adult. I can still remember feeling just like I did as a young girl, terrified of losing my life or a family members life. Thanks to everyone here for sharing your experiences. ✌️ and ❤️
@@megschmeedafamc SCHMEEDA FAM!!!!! Also, well written comment. I’m so sorry you went through that. I struggled with depression from a young age, but it was more so about the emptiness I felt and disliking my life
I had the same realization at that age as well and it made me panic. My mom was very clever and told me the tale "we don't disappear forever. We just shed our skin, grow wings, and become a soul. We'll see each other again, and it'll be forever." My young impressionable mind believed this and calmed down. The poor mental health issues still came 3 years later tho, so I guess it only slowed down the process
I lost my dad when I was 4 years old.. And it took me until now to realize that all this time as a kid, all this time hating myself because I thought since I didn’t cry that I caused it. Literally hearing you talk about children suffering because of losing someone at a young age made everything make so much sense. Yes my mom talked about Heaven and I believed her, but there was always a part of me that asked “what’s wrong with me?” Why didn’t you cry like everyone else did when the ambulance was called? I never bring my dad up to my mom because I know it hurts, so hearing this has really helped me understand my thought process back then.
People process and handle grief in so many different ways. We need to educate and normalize these variations. We are shown and told about very few 'acceptable/expected' reactions. There's been a lot of death in my life and rarely did my responses sync with what we've been taught they should be. Even knowing about this range of behaviors, it's hard not to feel some kind of way about yourself when you don't fit into that mold. What finally helped break me of that 'stinking thinking' is when my father died. I love that man with my whole being and everyone who knew him regrets that he's gone and that the children or loved ones in their lives never got a chance to meet him. He was by no means perfect but what a legacy huh? So when I found myself more numbed than crying and acting devastated I knew. This is just my way of handling grief and it's as simple as that. Because if anything broke my heart, it was his passing. So now I don't just intellectually know, I understand and apply the knowledge. It's freeing. I just found out that a loved one is terminal, and I'm glad that I read your post. I needed this reminder. Take care and thank you.
@@Spakrankin I’m so sorry you’ve had to experience so much loss and I’m sending prayers for you and your family! ❤️ It really has helped a lot to know that this is how I processed loss as well. I always felt like maybe I was closed off and had a hard time showing emotions and opening up in relationships. I blamed myself when things didn’t work out and had to work even harder to force myself to let people in, so knowing that I’m not alone in this has really helped me! ❤️
I was four years old when my Grandmother died and I didn't cry when I heard the news and I was really confused as to why everyone was crying at her funeral. I couldn't figure out where all the emotion was coming from, I knew she had died, but I didn't understand why it was sad. With that being said I loved my Grandma and years later when I actually understood is when I finally felt emotion. Bottom line, 4 years old is too young to understand or even feel any emotion behind death, don't feel bad.
I had mortality salience when I was a kid, after my mom died when I was 5 years old. It was terrifying because all I could think about was my mom rotting in the ground, her face melting away into bones. And that made me think about when I would die how I would rot away into nothing, maggots eating me and my bones grinding away after decades. It was scary as a 5 year old.
Love when you cover our insane cases here in the UK. This guy really was so chilling, absolutely horrendous. Thank you for all your hard you do on each and every case Stephanie. I am living for the day when you cover Fred & Rose West (please!!!!) 🙏🙏🙏
I absolutely love the true crime community on RUclips! I heard Stephanie name drop over at Danielle Hallans channel. Now I cannot wait for her weekly uploads and have been binging past episodes. Outstanding storytelling, and attention to details. You never disappoint Stephanie, thank you!
I continuously think I know a case well, then Stephanie comes in and proves me wrong! I'm always excited for the new gems of information she has to share 💎💗
When I first learned about Dennis Nilsen, I was (and still am) really intrigued by the similarities between Jeffrey Dahmer and him. Oddly, these similarities extend to their subdued demeanors and soft-spokenness. However, far more interesting than their demeanors is the fact that they both had a strange obsession with dead young men as a means of feeling in control as well as a way of having companionship that doesn’t expose their extreme awkwardness. Dead men tell no tales, as the saying goes, and they also don’t make fun of your weird predilections and lack of social finesse…well, frankly, not even finesse as it suggests something like prowess or an above average ability…with these two it’s more a general inability to socially engage at a basic level for a prolonged period like a normal human being. Moreover, they both used large quantities of alcohol not only as a social lubricant, but as liquid courage. It’s so interesting that Jeff and Des had to be three sheets to the wind before they could indulge their grotesque fantasies. Unlike the Bundys and the Gacys,; that is serial killers whose individual murders were the culmination of a fast and furious crescendo of sexual excitement that could only be assuaged by committing the final act, Nilsen and Dahmer seemed to be almost disgusted by themselves and these periods of uncontrollable and ever growing lust and desire, but they still wanted the end result of being in control of another person and having the prolonged “companionship” keeping the bodies allowed. But in order to tolerate the disgust and benefit from the end result they had to get shit-canned. And then of course there was a cannibalism. Obviously, this with Dahmer‘s thing. I feel like Nelson may have tried it once or twice, but I can’t remember. But they both definitely talked about the joy they derived from having the dead bodies with them for as long as long as possible. Interestingly, even their youthful experimentation was quite similar. Where Dennis used his full length mirror and baby powder to create the illusion of a lifeless body, Jeffrey attempted sex with a kidnapped manikin. Where Nilsen lamented the difficulty he had pretending his reflection was not himself, but another separate body, Dahmer complained about the coldness and stiffness of the manikin. Which, actually, is morbidly ironic in more ways than one when you think about it. Of course, I’m just scratching the surface. I could go on. In fact, when I consider how they speak about themselves in writing and in interviews and the ways in which they use their family and the “circumstances” of their youth to garner sympathy and shirk accountability, it’s uncanny. I put quotation marks around circumstances because, as Stephanie pointed out, Dennis Nilsen was a totally unreliable narrator in regard to his youth and familial relationships and Jeffrey Dahmer was equally unreliable when he recounted his past. So it wasn’t my intention to write a dissertation on these two, but they are just so fascinating…and when I say “ they” I am referring to their individual pathologies. I don’t mean to suggest I find them fascinating as individuals.. What I find even more fascinating is the concept that what appears to be really peculiar and unique on the surface, is often not so when we peel away the layers. As humans we might find it hard to believe there could be more than one Dennis Nilsen or another Jeffrey Dahmer, but their similarities, sick and twisted as they are, support a pathology that undoubtedly exists within any given demographic in larger numbers than I care to think about. Yikes on trikes as they say.
This deserves so much more recognition. Your comparisons are very interesting and I agree that there has to be a much larger group of people who share these similarities than we care to think about. It's just the split between how many of those individuals choose to act on their desires and interests.
Ugh you’re by far my favorite and the most throughout true crime youtuber. I love your content and I listen to probably over 20 true crime podcasts/youtubers. I appreciate you!!!
I totally understand what he was talking about with the ocean - the story - I don’t think he was lying about how he felt - the symbology of the strength of the ocean and the strength of his grandfather as the only male figure he had in his life - in the positive and the negative (his grandfather doing what he wanted with him). Whether he was being the loving grandfather in one moment and then in the next unsuspecting moment the predator. It reminded him how the ocean could turn from a thing of beauty to a force that could take your very life. I do believe this could have haunted him in his dreams
I agree with you, a lot of his childhood trauma took place close to the ocean and the sounds. That’s what he associated with his grandfather, the feelings that aroused and the memories created. Plus the death of his grandfather taking place on the ocean furthers that trauma and the association the ocean has with the whole situation from childhood to adulthood. I definitely don’t think he was lying, more of an associative disorder from trauma
This man is absolutely the reason for my obsession with serial killers! Back in the 80's my Mom used to have a weekly crime magazine delivered and he was in the very first issue! I was only a young girl and probably way too young to read some of the content in these magazines but I was hooked. I grew up wanting to know why someone whom is seemingly a perfectly normal and ordinary man would do that. Only at the grand old age of 49 last year did I begin a degree in Criminology and psychology in a desperate bid to answer this question!! Thank you Stephanie for covering this case. Read the book Killing for Company, it's VERY insightful!! x x x x
Beginning a degree at 49! Good for you :) it's never to late. I am such a crime buff and always say if school wasn't so much $$$ I'd get a degree in criminology.
@@patticruzable YES, metaphorically. I know it's hard for people to understand, but the guy has the brain of a poet, and they do romanticize and use metaphors. If he wasn't a serial killer, people would not be making fun of him for looking at his Grandpa's death in this manner. Read anyone's Biography and it will be that person's glorified perception. You don't have to be a serial killer to have a skewed perception.
When I heard Betty stood up to her husband's family over her children, it convinced me that she cares about her children. I just don't think she fit into this neat little box of what a "mom" should be according to Dennis. I'd love a series on Marilyn. I think she's fascinating... and you're so incredibly thorough.. Her and I share the same birthday 😉 lol.
WHAT!? So it only takes one stance to define how a mother is towards her children. She could have been cold as ice emotionally but stood up for her children going to the wedding because it was also an attack on her. She was not just standing up for her children. Just because Dennis is a serial killer doesn't mean his experience with his Mom was not authentic, and Mothers do treat their children differently whether they realize it or not.
@@krystademilio1256 Pretty much. My grandmother is like this. She only cares about herself, was/is abusive in multiple ways, but she projects an image of the perfect mother and views any attack on her kids/grandkids as being about her.
Seriously!! I wait for the next video all the time. I’ve watched every video of hers and Kendall Rae. I have tried finding new videos with new content providers and no one compares to Stephanie and Kendall. Danelle Hallan for example sucks at research. I’m so disappointed in every video of hers I watch. Stephanie spoils us
Agreed! Like I love other YT's like Bailey, but Stephanie actually goes into all the details and doesn't hold back, even when it's tough to listen to. You truly get to know all the ins and outs of a true crime story
@@madisonl3401 yess I just started watching her!! I’m half way thru all her videos 😅 I love her disclaimer at the beginning. She ALWAYS watches out for your mental health. Mad respect for her
@@Cc-fj9bf I stopped watching Bailey… I felt like she was more genuine in the beginning. Now it’s all one big joke and money maker for her… not a fan anymore 😬
I believe his mother could have been both abusive and loving - two things can be true about a person, as we are multi faceted beings and not one dimensional. We can be both hero and villain to different people at different times and in different circumstances. People behave badly some times and then are good at other times - two opposing things can be true in the one person.
the three part david tennant series on nilsen is incredible for this. Can't wait to see the rest of Stephanie's videos on him- it like an early xmas present
Your true crime stories and your GREAT research is terrific. This story in specific, is crazy and i had goosebumps up and down both my arms through out this whole story.!
I do love me a sponsored Stephanie. We stan queens getting paid in this house. The Cherry & Vanilla Macaron scent is my new favorite. I bought the Candy Cane scented one, handed it to my fiancé, and said, “Give this to me for Christmas.” 😂
I'm already fairly familiar with this story, but hearing you tell it really brings things to life. It's all the little details that slip by unnoticed by other true crime enthusiasts (which is great, sometimes I am not in the mood for a long, drawn out story) by this tale in particular I am enjoying tremendously. Bring on part 2!!!
Taking aside Nielsen being a abominable killer, which is almost ridiculously hard to do, he has a beautiful way of writing. Also what the hell is an “embryonic sex addict” I mean damn!!
If you liked it, you might enjoy some Yukio Mishima. Nielsen's writing reminded me of "Confessions from a Mask" without the creepy killings. Thought there is a creepy sex obsessed sexist killer child in his 1963 "The Sailor Who Fell from Grace with the Sea".
Your psychological analysis in this is top drawer and so interesting to consider. There's always some reason for these acts. And you played out the step by step evolution of his depravity. Makes perfect sense how his sickness developed.
I remember watching a documentary on this guy years ago and the way they described pulling the bodies out of the building’s pipes and him just commenting on it so casually like calling it KFC disturbed me so much and never left me… but after this video… I didn’t know the half of it! 😳 Also yes to Marylin Monroe! I love your history videos just as much! Oh and as a fellow 84 baby, I feel you on the whole time thing… like what?! 40?! We are still those darn Millennial kids with the new fangled tech and the disrespecting our elders, aren’t we?! 😅🤣
Dennis Nilson scares the shit outta me. Thanks for talking about kids losing someone when they’re young. My late husband, my kid’s father, passed away at age 35, from a massive heart attack while we were camping. All of my kid’s saw it. It literally broke them. Even more so now. I had to hold my son who was 7 at the time, 24/7 because he was inconsolable. They say kids don’t understand what death means but I beg to differ. My youngest daughter reacted much differently. She didn’t show much emotion at the time but now she goes immediately to her dad’s grave whenever she breaks down. She doesn’t understand even now, that losing him, is why she struggles so much. She thinks there is something wrong with her, no matter how much I reassure her. She also went through a phase of blaming me. She feels bad now, but I knew. Trying to take care of them as they grieved while I was also grieving was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It tore everyone’s family apart. Our’s..his. He had a contentious relationship with them before and after, they blamed me. So, not only did my kids lose their dad, they lost an entire half of their family. I knew they were motivated by grief, but I don’t think they knew. My kids will never feel “whole”. I understand that now, although I tried to heal them myself. My daughter took out so much anger on me but now, she’s terrified of losing me. My son is the same. I, too, felt so much anger at everything, everyone. I felt like people judged me by my inability to make them better. People think losing someone at a young age isn’t as hard on them since they tend to forget a lot. But, they remember the sadness. And they feel the loss forever. P.S. OH EM GEE Cherry Almond Macaroon?!?!? 😍 I’m totally getting that Native gift set! Cherry Almond Jergens smells so good I want to eat it!!!
Oh, Stephanie! So many thoughts! So , here goes: First off, I hope your rib has healed, or has at least gotten better :) Great narrative, as always! Jeffry Dahmer (sorry if I messed the spelling) all over again - keeping dead male 'companions' in the house..... Based on how 'strange' Nilsen's sexuality was, I tend to believe he was molested by his grandfather. Seriously, you can't be just 'born this way'.... (Well, I'm not a psychiatrist, but still.) Marylin Monroe - YES!!! Please do a series! In no less than 5 or 6 parts! We all think we know her story, but I'm dead certain you'll be able to dig out some details most of us have never even heard of before. So, please, go ahead and do that. And last but not least, I wonder if you and Derrick are going to discuss the infamous Astroworld tragedy. I know, I know, so much has been said about it already, but with your human touch and Derrick's professional insight, it would be a very interesting podcast. Thanks again for all of your hard work!
A lot of kids who are molested become hyper or hypo sexual and without immediate therapy can go on to assault other children. Obviously not all and not most assaulted children assault other children but it is not uncommon for this to happen. I don’t doubt that he was molested
Bundy would never, ever admit that his grandfather abused him, but even the FBI believes he did. Dahmer's father only intermittently admits that Jeffrey was sexually abused by a neighbor when he was only 8 years old. My friends Mother sexually abused her son's, his father knew and did absolutely nothing. ☮️💜
Seriously, I love your technique in explaining our cases. I usually have to watch your videos like three times because your voice calms me and I watch you early in the morning hours so I fall asleep at times but I watched you by chance one time a little over a year ago and now you're definitely my favorite! Just wanted to finally message and let you know how much I enjoy the way you handle these cases and discuss the things we're all thinking as well.
Hi I am from Gateshead UK North England. Hen was a term of endearment yes for girl but I heard it being said to boys" hello hen can you fetch my glasses" but obviously in a geordie accent.
I don't remember how I learned about what death was and that it happened to everyone but I do remember being little 4-5 and sitting on my Mom's lap crying and telling her I didn't want her to die. I did that for a long time. It used to freak her out and make her think I knew something she didn't. I turned 30 this year and I'm so thankful to still have her and that I was just being a kid scared of accepting the fact of death instead of foreshadowing something.
Just as I'm losing the will to live with laundry. Here Stephanie comes to save the day 😂 Been waiting For this one . I'm British and no one has ever stopped talking about this. The whole country was fucked up by it. Love ya kiddo. Well done ❤️
I'm not a daddy I'm just an older man who's got a crush on you and believe someday that me and you will tie tonight and I can throw you over my shoulders and walk through the threshold you're just so beautiful to me
I've watched a documentary about Dennis previously, so I was reluctant to watch another. When I noticed that you (Stephanie) was doing it , I very quickly changed my mind.... Absolutely no regrets. Love your deep dive. Will watch Part 2 later this afternoon. 👌💞🇿🇦🌹
I just turned 19 a few days ago, and I was gonna watch your livestream you had on my birthday, but I got busy with family, and I was so bummed! But just now I got an upload-notification, and I saw it was a multiple parter from you, which truly feels like a belated birthday gift to make up for it. Lots of love to u Steph, you've truly become a constant in all the ups and downs of my life. Your videos keep following me through all of it, and giving me something to look forward to every week, no matter what's going on personally. Seriously, I love u for that, and thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
It’s so great to see all of these comments expressing how much Stephanie helps us get through and brighten our days no matter what we’re going through. I’m glad I’m not alone in this! Such a genuine soul, thank you for not only bringing awareness to these victims but creating a community where we all feel at home.
Dennis could've, no joke, been a writer. It's kinda sad, in a way, to see so many facets of a person and know they've abdicated many of their paths in order to harm others and do evil. I hope his victims and their families can be at peace. Thank you for this upload, Steph! Great work as per usual.
It amazes me how Stephanie story tells. Hours of script seems memorized to a T. Everything flows perfectly and is easily understood by her explanations! My favorite podcaster along with Dereck! ❤️
Yay, now that you’ve posted part 3 and it turned up to be the last part I can FINALLY watch this without fear. Your deep dives are just too good and I make myself anxious waiting 🤣
“Mortality salience” I remember vividly experiencing this. It was when the media was pushing that the world was going to end in 2012 and I was 13-14 years old. I was in hysterics thinking I was going to die and it was the first time I came to the realization of my own mortality.
Oh and one more thing....you are probably the only person that I listen to you talk about the sponsor of your video's, even when it's a repeat lol. It's like you are talking to your viewers & relating to us almost like we are there with you. Keep doing you & you will rise to the TOP
You fricken rock Steph. LOVE YOUR DEEP DIVES!! Just got home from a night out ( brothers house warming) and sure enough you have uploaded some more awesome content. Thank you mate. Big love to you from Australia 🇦🇺!!!
The best source for info on this is Brian Masters book 'Killing For Company' written in 1985, not watching Netflix. It provides factual information on Nilsen's life prior to arrest. Masters spent eight months actually interviewing Nilsen in person. He continued to visit him for many years. Nilsen was honest with him.
Your humorous inflections as you read his disturbing quotes are brilliant! Also,, I have read about and watched so much on the Titanic, so I am beyond thrilled that you are doing a series on it. And please, please, do one on Marilyn Monroe. She has been my idol since I was a little girl ❤️
Living in the UK I have read and seen articles / documentaries about this killer more times that I've had hot dinners but I STILL did a little scream when I got the notification saying Stephanie was covering it because you do it like NO one else 💖☺️ x
The mother getting upset over the two children being excluded from the wedding seems more a social slap in the face rather than having the kids' back. The children being an extension of herself she felt she was being rejected. My 2 cents. Thanks
YES! I cant believe this one stand she made is being used as a blanket to explain how loving she MUST be towards her children. I see a woman who's pride was hurt.
Definitely. As a child of an emotionally cold mother who was obsessed with "what others thought," I saw nothing in the mother forgoing the wedding that proved anything about her being a "loving mother." And I also disagree with Stephanie that cold mothers can be good mothers-- lack of warmth and unconditional love from one's parental figures (regardless of the parental figure's gender identity) is extremely damaging to a child's emotional development, well-being, and ability to trust others. This is well-known in the realm of psychology.
@@india239 Dennis said his Mom was cold and unloving. The only evidence used to dismiss Dennis is that his Mom told some family members all her children are invited to a wedding or no one goes -so she must be a warm, caring Mom. This is a giant leap! Where are the stories from other people and the kids about what a loving mom she is?? Does she give off a warm and loving demeanor to you? So yes, It's baffling that people want to say he is lying or fantasizing about this so he has an excuse for what he did. He even acknowledges in his autobiography that he may be trying to justify his killings with different reasons. The facts are: 1) his Mom was cold and unloving 2) this is not an excuse for killing
I knew a lot about Dennis Nilsen, but as always you manage to go so deep into these cases and their background stories. There was stuff in your video that i did not know. Great video.
I LOVE when you deep dives & multi-part videos. I can relax & forget about stress or clean & listen to your videos. I also LOVE how you tell us about each persons life story. You treat each case & victim(s) with respect. You’re one of my favorite people 😊.
@@StephanieHarlowe Oh wow! Yay! Thank you for leaving a comment. Made my night 💕. I’ve been following you for along time. I sometimes comment, but it probably gets lost in the sea of comments 😂. I can’t wait to see what this next year brings for you & the podcast!
I would be 100% down for a Marilyn series or podcast!! 😍 I’ve been obsessed with her my whole life and never get tired of researching her. I’d love to hear Stephanie’s perspective of her life.
You are saving my day. I'm feeling pretty bad. I have runny nose and I haven't had a good night sleep. Feeling a bit better because you uploaded. I know a lot about him and his case but glad to hear what you have to say.
Him touching his brother is a sign that he was telling the truth about his grandfather. I was 7 when it started happening to me, it was terrifying, it lasted until I was 14! The reason it stopped was bc I had a friend stay the night and my step father touched her and she told her parents about it. I feel so guilty that it happened to her, like I could’ve stopped it if I had just said something but I didn’t bc I was scared. When all that was happening to me I became sexual as a KID. It’s awful and you would think being a kid means you don’t have these sexual feelings but it happens especially when you are exposed to it. So I believe that he was sa’d by his grandfather. I’m sorry for the long explanation but I feel like I could relate and see why he did what he did to his brother regardless of how wrong it is, it was seemingly normal to him. I’m sorry, I do sympathize with him there. Believe victims, no one believed me bc they thought I was just saying it to get attention once my friend said something when in reality, that’s the last thing I wanted. I felt gross
Just bought some of natives body washes I always check with 'think dirty' first as me and my kids have sensitive skin. It's rated 0 meaning no harmful products in it or irritants. We've been using a dove hypoallergenic baby wash but going to give this a try as we still have breakouts sometimes. It has no allergens in it either that I've seen. So glad I decided to look into it after hearing you talk about it several times. 🥰
I was 12. Dennis started My fascination for serial killers. I read and followed his case everyday in the newspapers that were delivered, for me, like having a magazine subscription back then! Look forward to part 2. Well done on this case.
Amazing Stephanie! You always go above and beyond with your series’ and I can’t wait to watch more from this one. Just wanted you to know - Fraserburgh is pronounced ‘Fraser-buh-ruh’. I know, Scots English really is a law into it’s own 😄🙈 it’s the same for Edinburgh (Edin-buh-ruh’) and pretty much any of these names that end with ‘gh’. Not confusing at all when you’re learning to read as a young Scot 😐 haha! Lots of love, your friendly Scottish Subscriber 🏴🤍 xx
Not all victims of abuse become abusers BUT all his acts, fantasies and descriptions at a very early age scream victim of sexual abuse to me. Especially his feelings towards his brother.
Honestly you could do an in depth series on the process of paint drying and I'd sit and listen to every minute. You put so much work and dedication and it shows 🙌
about his sexism, I've noticed that some gay men can be very misogynistic at times, albeit in a different way than straight men. a long time ago a friend (we've both grown and changed a lot since then) once told me because I was anxious about something that "this is why he just doesn't like girls" as if anxiety were a uniquely feminine trait (to be fair my anxiety was crippling back then and I understand I may have been hard to deal with but it didn't stem from my gender)
I just watched The Nielson Tapes on Netflix, I am SO HAPPY that you are doing this series. I think he is such an interesting case, psychosocially speaking. Would love to know what was going on inside his brain.
Hello ☺️ I lived in Fraserburgh til I was around 8 years old... beautiful little place, and so sorry to be the one to point out the pronunciation🙈 but it's (Fraser bruh) been looking forward to this series so much as you always do the best research.... thank you Stephanie 💚
I am a regular viewer but I absolutely had to join the club - and go on and Subscribe!! And almost every day I hear your theme song when I make my coffee in the morning!! Lmbo I am loving your content!! Thank you for your dedication to keeping us in the loop! And You do your research -- you tell stories I knew nothing about!!
By far the best video / documentary / etc of this case that I’ve ever seen. I’ve watched them all and Stephanie still managed to find things I’ve never heard. Amazing job!
Once again loving Stephanie's pronunciation of Scottish places, if the word ends in burgh it's pronounced 'burruh' like fraserburruh, Eh-din-burruh but tbh I like it better the way she says it 🤣♥️♥️♥️
Sorry but being Scottish it does bug me. Do a bit of research first about place names, it's not hard, I know how to pronounce Pittsburgh correctly. The other month for Leith in Edinburgh it was Lee-ith instead of Leeth.
I am rewatching all these now before I watch the 3rd. I have short term memory loss so its helps to rewatching it all!!! I did want to say about where he confronted death the way he did at 5.... Some kids that have traumatic child hood's (I know this from my own experience) have to confront it early. U also learn to understand it very early!!! Definitely love listening to u telling. The story!!
When you said "when you have a father like that then it's better they are not around" I FELT THAT IN MY SOUL! Sometimes life is better without the horrible, abusive, nasty fathers! I really wish the best for all children, but there's just so many monsters in this world. It breaks my heart.
Excellent start to a series Stephanie. Damn this dude, crazy writing skills, but so evil. Can't wait for the next episode. Thank you for all you do. ❤️
Great content Stephaine, I thought I knew all there was to know about Nilsen..but you uncover a lot of stuff I wasn't aware...big respect for the time/ effort you put into your channel!
I love how Stephanie’s down to earth sass offsets this dude’s flowery insanity.
“Flowery insanity” LOL!!!!
I'm so late to this video but this comment is so underrated 😂
So helpless!
"emotions flying out of every orifice" was a dangerous phrase to hear right as i was taking a sip of my coffee 😂
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This but bourbon 😂🤧🤧
When you see “”part one” and know there may be 10 parts but you’re all in for it 😍
i’m hoping it is!!
The longer the better! 😂
😂 when he see “part one” and HOPE it’s a 10 parter!
@@desiraeb.7030 whatever gets me through the holiday season craziness 🤩
@@paige10301999 same 😀
My dad, who is a plumber, gives me grief for using bath stuff that plugs up the plumbing. I think I’ll show him this video to show him it could be much worse lol (also he’s on the British side of the family and we have a long lineage of Johns so, statistically, one of them is a murderer)
LOL, it could be SO much worse
As soon as Stephanie said that I thought about my 7 year old son, Zachary John - who at the age of 3 told me "your skin is so so so soft mummy, can I have it?" 😳
@@laurabrown7856 oh hell naw kids are wild 😂
Paused this to say I'd love to see you do a series about Marilyn Monroe.
Yesss!!!
@@StephanieHarlowe Ohhh, yes please! 🙏🏻
you would do such a good job covering Marilyn!
I would love to see Stephanie deep dive into this one as well. So many theories and unanswered questions
I absolutely loved your series on Bonnie and Clyde, and came away feeling like I had actually known them. I would love to hear you do Marilyn Monroe!!!
"Did he want to eat my flesh?"
Stephanie: "No dude.... He probably just wanted to rob you"
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Dennis: are you going to kill me and eat my flesh?
Taxi driver: no dude wtf is wrong with you I was just going to rob you jesus dude, get therapy
Holy cow. I'm gonna need a second before part 2. That was intense. This guy is twisted.
Right???
This comment has me pumped 😂
It's like Stephen King, meets Jack Ketchum whilist under the influence of hallucinogens.
Yes he's one of our infamous serial killers ... keep safe from England 🌺
I feel ya!!!! I needed the sponsor break just after the intro.
How in the world does Stephanie not have 1 million subscribers yet. She is absolutely top tier. I’ve been a long time supporter. I love you and your content! Here are your flowers 💐
As a CSA survivor by a family member that you crave attention from because you just want to be loved so you just accept your role as like a payment for their rocognition and attention I completely understand the contradiction of the not being afraid of them but also being afraid at the same time. Its a very confusing and hard to explain. Not saying that what he said happened is the truth or not but its something that does happen.
Agreed, in other types of abuse as well. Many DV survivors have the same emotions about their abusers. It's not that the survivors are contradictory, it's that the abusers mask and unmask.
It kind of annoys me that shes so dismissive of what his claims were because of what she deems a "contradiction" and a lack of "evidence" 🙄 .. but also taking every horrible thing he admitted he did to his brother and sister is taken as gospel.. while also not seeing the connection of victims usually becoming offenders but go off sis i guess. Ugh.
@@bombchelle7974 just came to the comments because i was so frustrated by this. was really expecting her to take that same sort of skeptical tone but then.....
@@bombchelle7974 yep. I agree but if anything is said there’ll be a riot!! I see this a lot. I said something one time and it didn’t go over well.
@@apothe0ses I started my comment out by saying that exact sentiment but I pulled back. I wasn’t sure if I was just letting my emotions lead me to think things were a certain way and it wasn’t. Glad I wasn’t the only one.
I'm delighted to see you are covering the Dennis Nilsen case. A truly evil guy who is infamous here in Scotland. There was a 3 part drama called "Des" shown on our tellies here just over a year ago. It was so good. David Tennant does a brilliant job playing Nilsen.. Well done Stephanie, once again keeping me well and truly entertained. 😍😍
David killed that role
@@NikkieTwix he really did
Going to watch that next. Thanks for the information!
Yes, he was perfect in that role!
Came to the comments to leave this exact message 😂
My dad worked with Nilsen's step-father at the time Denis was arrested. I've never had a case with such a close connection to me before.
Your Dad knew good ole Adam? That is really interesting!
I can relate..i went to church with a suspect on the Delphi murders..really creepy
@@Veetribe. I really want to see Delphi murder's solved! That case haunts me, I find it so frustrating! I mean he's right there in the footage, but no one knows who he is.
Our youth worker when i was 12 was arrested for dozens of rapes upon pensioners in the 1980s spanning a decade.
@@pascalswager9100 i know this needs to be solved..justice for these girls
I appreciate the reliability of Dennis being clearly questioned. I find that many people are so invested in finding someone to blame they blindly believe the stories of known criminals. I always listen with a mound of salt. They aren’t normal people with normal perceptions
Even though I do believe he made stuff up - I do reckon he was abused by his grandfather. The logic & his actions he developed as grew older makes sense and I can see the connections in relation to his childhood history claims....I think he was very mentally unstable but at the same time very much aware of the horrific things he was doing. RIP to the lifes he cruelly snatched 🖤
I agree
You can tell by the want to have these males incoherent/sleeping.. Thats what he says was done to him and in turn he does/wants to do the same to others.. This guy is definitely twisted
Agree!
Agreed. Also, the horrible acts he ended on doing to his brother show he probably learned it from someone else. I don’t believe children just do that for no reason, that’s a learned behavior
Yeah, I realized my own mortality around 5-6 and it was extremely traumatic and prob had some part in me developing a severe anxiety disorder and depression. My mom would find me just randomly in a total meltdown and she'd have to console me as I wept to her about how I didn't want to die and that I didn't want to grow up because that meant she and my dad would get old and die.
i had something similar as a child and cannot remember what triggered it, but your comment was really reassuring that i’m not alone. i remember being a similar age and crying because i knew i’d die one day, and because i felt like i was already living life on a loop (waking up, school, home, sleep, repeat). definitely very scary to go through that as a young child! think it definitely fed into my poor mental health now.
I cried myself to sleep all the time around the age 7 because of these exact things. My family growing old, losing my siblings or dying myself
This is actually really comforting to read. This initial comment and people’s responses. I also had several panic attacks between the ages of maybe 6-8 and it took lots of consoling on my poor moms part to calm me down. I have often wondered if that has played into my mental issues as an adult. I can still remember feeling just like I did as a young girl, terrified of losing my life or a family members life. Thanks to everyone here for sharing your experiences. ✌️ and ❤️
@@megschmeedafamc SCHMEEDA FAM!!!!!
Also, well written comment. I’m so sorry you went through that. I struggled with depression from a young age, but it was more so about the emptiness I felt and disliking my life
I had the same realization at that age as well and it made me panic. My mom was very clever and told me the tale "we don't disappear forever. We just shed our skin, grow wings, and become a soul. We'll see each other again, and it'll be forever."
My young impressionable mind believed this and calmed down. The poor mental health issues still came 3 years later tho, so I guess it only slowed down the process
I lost my dad when I was 4 years old.. And it took me until now to realize that all this time as a kid, all this time hating myself because I thought since I didn’t cry that I caused it. Literally hearing you talk about children suffering because of losing someone at a young age made everything make so much sense. Yes my mom talked about Heaven and I believed her, but there was always a part of me that asked “what’s wrong with me?” Why didn’t you cry like everyone else did when the ambulance was called? I never bring my dad up to my mom because I know it hurts, so hearing this has really helped me understand my thought process back then.
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I didnt cry when my grandmother died. That was a long time ago and i still think about it sometimes. Panteras cemetery gates reminds me of that!!
People process and handle grief in so many different ways. We need to educate and normalize these variations. We are shown and told about very few 'acceptable/expected' reactions. There's been a lot of death in my life and rarely did my responses sync with what we've been taught they should be. Even knowing about this range of behaviors, it's hard not to feel some kind of way about yourself when you don't fit into that mold. What finally helped break me of that 'stinking thinking' is when my father died. I love that man with my whole being and everyone who knew him regrets that he's gone and that the children or loved ones in their lives never got a chance to meet him. He was by no means perfect but what a legacy huh? So when I found myself more numbed than crying and acting devastated I knew. This is just my way of handling grief and it's as simple as that. Because if anything broke my heart, it was his passing. So now I don't just intellectually know, I understand and apply the knowledge. It's freeing. I just found out that a loved one is terminal, and I'm glad that I read your post. I needed this reminder. Take care and thank you.
@@Spakrankin I’m so sorry you’ve had to experience so much loss and I’m sending prayers for you and your family! ❤️ It really has helped a lot to know that this is how I processed loss as well. I always felt like maybe I was closed off and had a hard time showing emotions and opening up in relationships. I blamed myself when things didn’t work out and had to work even harder to force myself to let people in, so knowing that I’m not alone in this has really helped me! ❤️
I was four years old when my Grandmother died and I didn't cry when I heard the news and I was really confused as to why everyone was crying at her funeral. I couldn't figure out where all the emotion was coming from, I knew she had died, but I didn't understand why it was sad. With that being said I loved my Grandma and years later when I actually understood is when I finally felt emotion. Bottom line, 4 years old is too young to understand or even feel any emotion behind death, don't feel bad.
I had mortality salience when I was a kid, after my mom died when I was 5 years old. It was terrifying because all I could think about was my mom rotting in the ground, her face melting away into bones. And that made me think about when I would die how I would rot away into nothing, maggots eating me and my bones grinding away after decades. It was scary as a 5 year old.
That's horrific, so sorry you went through that.
i’m so so sorry. this sounds awful enough to experience as an adult, i hope you are okay
my god that is aweful! I had mortality salience around 9 years old and I was traumatized by it. I can't imagine what you went through at 5!
Um, I'm 35 and that still sounds scary. You poor kid! That's A LOT for a five year old.
Yeh, we all know this what happens, but it's best trying to not think about it. That's easier said than done. Horrific.
Love when you cover our insane cases here in the UK. This guy really was so chilling, absolutely horrendous. Thank you for all your hard you do on each and every case Stephanie.
I am living for the day when you cover Fred & Rose West (please!!!!) 🙏🙏🙏
“ I feel like your ears haven’t given me consent to hear that.”😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 my tea came out of my nose!!😂
Haha but dude I also appreciate that cause a lot of this was heavy stuff to hear already, not sure my ears could take more 🙉🙈
I absolutely love the true crime community on RUclips! I heard Stephanie name drop over at Danielle Hallans channel. Now I cannot wait for her weekly uploads and have been binging past episodes. Outstanding storytelling, and attention to details. You never disappoint Stephanie, thank you!
If you think you are old now, wait until you are 73. Then you can stare to feel old. I watch you every broadcast. Thank you for doing them..
I continuously think I know a case well, then Stephanie comes in and proves me wrong!
I'm always excited for the new gems of information she has to share 💎💗
The house he complained about growing up in is soooo much nicer than any house I've ever lived in
i’d love a marilyn monroe series!
YES!!!!!
Omg.. yes!!!
Me too!!
Please!
@@arrhoads23 Me too!!!
When I first learned about Dennis Nilsen, I was (and still am) really intrigued by the similarities between Jeffrey Dahmer and him. Oddly, these similarities extend to their subdued demeanors and soft-spokenness. However, far more interesting than their demeanors is the fact that they both had a strange obsession with dead young men as a means of feeling in control as well as a way of having companionship that doesn’t expose their extreme awkwardness. Dead men tell no tales, as the saying goes, and they also don’t make fun of your weird predilections and lack of social finesse…well, frankly, not even finesse as it suggests something like prowess or an above average ability…with these two it’s more a general inability to socially engage at a basic level for a prolonged period like a normal human being.
Moreover, they both used large quantities of alcohol not only as a social lubricant, but as liquid courage. It’s so interesting that Jeff and Des had to be three sheets to the wind before they could indulge their grotesque fantasies. Unlike the Bundys and the Gacys,; that is serial killers whose individual murders were the culmination of a fast and furious crescendo of sexual excitement that could only be assuaged by committing the final act, Nilsen and Dahmer seemed to be almost disgusted by themselves and these periods of uncontrollable and ever growing lust and desire, but they still wanted the end result of being in control of another person and having the prolonged “companionship” keeping the bodies allowed. But in order to tolerate the disgust and benefit from the end result they had to get shit-canned. And then of course there was a cannibalism. Obviously, this with Dahmer‘s thing. I feel like Nelson may have tried it once or twice, but I can’t remember. But they both definitely talked about the joy they derived from having the dead bodies with them for as long as long as possible.
Interestingly, even their youthful experimentation was quite similar. Where Dennis used his full length mirror and baby powder to create the illusion of a lifeless body, Jeffrey attempted sex with a kidnapped manikin. Where Nilsen lamented the difficulty he had pretending his reflection was not himself, but another separate body, Dahmer complained about the coldness and stiffness of the manikin. Which, actually, is morbidly ironic in more ways than one when you think about it.
Of course, I’m just scratching the surface. I could go on. In fact, when I consider how they speak about themselves in writing and in interviews and the ways in which they use their family and the “circumstances” of their youth to garner sympathy and shirk accountability, it’s uncanny. I put quotation marks around circumstances because, as Stephanie pointed out, Dennis Nilsen was a totally unreliable narrator in regard to his youth and familial relationships and Jeffrey Dahmer was equally unreliable when he recounted his past.
So it wasn’t my intention to write a dissertation on these two, but they are just so fascinating…and when I say “ they” I am referring to their individual pathologies. I don’t mean to suggest I find them fascinating as individuals.. What I find even more fascinating is the concept that what appears to be really peculiar and unique on the surface, is often not so when we peel away the layers. As humans we might find it hard to believe there could be more than one Dennis Nilsen or another Jeffrey Dahmer, but their similarities, sick and twisted as they are, support a pathology that undoubtedly exists within any given demographic in larger numbers than I care to think about. Yikes on trikes as they say.
Yikes on trikes is right, thanks for making these points
I think they even sort of look similar, their facial structure, and such. Same creepy look in their eyes.
This deserves so much more recognition. Your comparisons are very interesting and I agree that there has to be a much larger group of people who share these similarities than we care to think about. It's just the split between how many of those individuals choose to act on their desires and interests.
Kidnapped mannequin.. How does one kidnap a doll? Good points though.
I’m interested to know why you think Jeffrey Dahmer was unreliable about his childhood. His father and others backed up everything he talked about.
Ugh you’re by far my favorite and the most throughout true crime youtuber. I love your content and I listen to probably over 20 true crime podcasts/youtubers. I appreciate you!!!
I totally understand what he was talking about with the ocean - the story - I don’t think he was lying about how he felt - the symbology of the strength of the ocean and the strength of his grandfather as the only male figure he had in his life - in the positive and the negative (his grandfather doing what he wanted with him). Whether he was being the loving grandfather in one moment and then in the next unsuspecting moment the predator. It reminded him how the ocean could turn from a thing of beauty to a force that could take your very life. I do believe this could have haunted him in his dreams
I agree with you, a lot of his childhood trauma took place close to the ocean and the sounds. That’s what he associated with his grandfather, the feelings that aroused and the memories created. Plus the death of his grandfather taking place on the ocean furthers that trauma and the association the ocean has with the whole situation from childhood to adulthood. I definitely don’t think he was lying, more of an associative disorder from trauma
I love being a patron and commenting early 😊 can’t wait to hear what new info you’re shedding light on today
Girl this dude here is action packed with issues!
Me too!! It's like awesome early birthday presents lol
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This man is absolutely the reason for my obsession with serial killers! Back in the 80's my Mom used to have a weekly crime magazine delivered and he was in the very first issue! I was only a young girl and probably way too young to read some of the content in these magazines but I was hooked. I grew up wanting to know why someone whom is seemingly a perfectly normal and ordinary man would do that. Only at the grand old age of 49 last year did I begin a degree in Criminology and psychology in a desperate bid to answer this question!! Thank you Stephanie for covering this case. Read the book Killing for Company, it's VERY insightful!! x x x x
Beginning a degree at 49! Good for you :) it's never to late. I am such a crime buff and always say if school wasn't so much $$$ I'd get a degree in criminology.
Would LOVE a series on Marilyn!! There was a three part drama in the UK called DES recently about Nielson, worth watching if you can find it x
Yes I love David Tenant!
I was about to recommend that myself when I saw this, that’s fantastic
I agree!!
David Tennant was amazing as Nielsen!
As Stephanie was talking I was thinking about David Tennant’s portrayal of Neilsen
"Boss, I think I've found a dead body"
"Alrighty then, get some sleep and we'll take a look tomorrow"
Such a British response.
Also.... no fog here!!!
"No... a heart attack. a HEART ATTACK took your grandfather." 😂😂😂
This was too funny! Although I think Dennis was speaking metaphorically, not literally.
@@patticruzable YES, metaphorically. I know it's hard for people to understand, but the guy has the brain of a poet, and they do romanticize and use metaphors. If he wasn't a serial killer, people would not be making fun of him for looking at his Grandpa's death in this manner. Read anyone's Biography and it will be that person's glorified perception. You don't have to be a serial killer to have a skewed perception.
Excellent video, I’ve watched videos on this case, but this one is better ! The way she goes into detail !
When I heard Betty stood up to her husband's family over her children, it convinced me that she cares about her children. I just don't think she fit into this neat little box of what a "mom" should be according to Dennis.
I'd love a series on Marilyn. I think she's fascinating... and you're so incredibly thorough.. Her and I share the same birthday 😉 lol.
Klarissa!! How are you, girl? Always love seeing you in the comments.
WHAT!? So it only takes one stance to define how a mother is towards her children. She could have been cold as ice emotionally but stood up for her children going to the wedding because it was also an attack on her. She was not just standing up for her children. Just because Dennis is a serial killer doesn't mean his experience with his Mom was not authentic, and Mothers do treat their children differently whether they realize it or not.
I would love to see one on Marilyn that would be amazing.
@@krystademilio1256 Pretty much. My grandmother is like this.
She only cares about herself, was/is abusive in multiple ways, but she projects an image of the perfect mother and views any attack on her kids/grandkids as being about her.
@@iceprincess2134 yes, this was how my great grandmother was and also my grandmother as well.
"my grandfather is now Poseidon ... to pull me down in the watery grave" Stephanie I howled
I'm really looking forward to this series. Stephanie always goes so in depth and it is seriously appreciated for us True Crime nerds 🥰
Seriously!! I wait for the next video all the time. I’ve watched every video of hers and Kendall Rae. I have tried finding new videos with new content providers and no one compares to Stephanie and Kendall.
Danelle Hallan for example sucks at research. I’m so disappointed in every video of hers I watch. Stephanie spoils us
Agreed! Like I love other YT's like Bailey, but Stephanie actually goes into all the details and doesn't hold back, even when it's tough to listen to. You truly get to know all the ins and outs of a true crime story
@@kc98990 have you tried Eleanor Neale? I really like her videos too. But Stephanie is definitely my favourite!
@@madisonl3401 yess I just started watching her!! I’m half way thru all her videos 😅 I love her disclaimer at the beginning. She ALWAYS watches out for your mental health. Mad respect for her
@@Cc-fj9bf I stopped watching Bailey… I felt like she was more genuine in the beginning. Now it’s all one big joke and money maker for her… not a fan anymore 😬
I believe his mother could have been both abusive and loving - two things can be true about a person, as we are multi faceted beings and not one dimensional. We can be both hero and villain to different people at different times and in different circumstances. People behave badly some times and then are good at other times - two opposing things can be true in the one person.
I already know this is going to be a very in depth dive into this case. Can't wait to get into it! Thanks Stephanie!
Dennis really took “life’s a stage, and we are all merely players” to heart and then cracked it up to 11 and ripped the knob off, didn’t he?
the three part david tennant series on nilsen is incredible for this. Can't wait to see the rest of Stephanie's videos on him- it like an early xmas present
I watched that David played him so well 👏 I thought
The likeness was uncanny!! Well played indeed!
I didn’t know he did one! I have to watch it, thanks for the tip😊
@@cheyennekizirian it’s called Des. It’s an amazing watch!
Your true crime stories and your GREAT research is terrific. This story in specific, is crazy and i had goosebumps up and down both my arms through out this whole story.!
I do love me a sponsored Stephanie. We stan queens getting paid in this house. The Cherry & Vanilla Macaron scent is my new favorite. I bought the Candy Cane scented one, handed it to my fiancé, and said, “Give this to me for Christmas.” 😂
If u know they wont treat u, u gotta treat urself lol
Cherry vanilla??? Omg. That has gotta be incredible! I'm going in!
Im obsessed with the candy cane! I bought 3 of them last year 😂
I'm already fairly familiar with this story, but hearing you tell it really brings things to life. It's all the little details that slip by unnoticed by other true crime enthusiasts (which is great, sometimes I am not in the mood for a long, drawn out story) by this tale in particular I am enjoying tremendously. Bring on part 2!!!
Taking aside Nielsen being a abominable killer, which is almost ridiculously hard to do, he has a beautiful way of writing. Also what the hell is an “embryonic sex addict” I mean damn!!
His writing is ABSOLUTELY beautiful- I hate to admit. It’s phenomenal.
His writing is beautiful. If only it was a better subject.
If you liked it, you might enjoy some Yukio Mishima. Nielsen's writing reminded me of "Confessions from a Mask" without the creepy killings. Thought there is a creepy sex obsessed sexist killer child in his 1963 "The Sailor Who Fell from Grace with the Sea".
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Your psychological analysis in this is top drawer and so interesting to consider. There's always some reason for these acts. And you played out the step by step evolution of his depravity. Makes perfect sense how his sickness developed.
Super excited for this series to continue, Stephanie! Love ya, girl!
I love you back!!
I appreciate you honesty on death. I have a huge fear and anxiety when I "remember" it's getting closer
I remember watching a documentary on this guy years ago and the way they described pulling the bodies out of the building’s pipes and him just commenting on it so casually like calling it KFC disturbed me so much and never left me… but after this video… I didn’t know the half of it! 😳
Also yes to Marylin Monroe! I love your history videos just as much!
Oh and as a fellow 84 baby, I feel you on the whole time thing… like what?! 40?! We are still those darn Millennial kids with the new fangled tech and the disrespecting our elders, aren’t we?! 😅🤣
Dennis Nilson scares the shit outta me.
Thanks for talking about kids losing someone when they’re young. My late husband, my kid’s father, passed away at age 35, from a massive heart attack while we were camping. All of my kid’s saw it. It literally broke them. Even more so now. I had to hold my son who was 7 at the time, 24/7 because he was inconsolable. They say kids don’t understand what death means but I beg to differ. My youngest daughter reacted much differently. She didn’t show much emotion at the time but now she goes immediately to her dad’s grave whenever she breaks down. She doesn’t understand even now, that losing him, is why she struggles so much. She thinks there is something wrong with her, no matter how much I reassure her. She also went through a phase of blaming me. She feels bad now, but I knew. Trying to take care of them as they grieved while I was also grieving was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It tore everyone’s family apart. Our’s..his. He had a contentious relationship with them before and after, they blamed me. So, not only did my kids lose their dad, they lost an entire half of their family. I knew they were motivated by grief, but I don’t think they knew. My kids will never feel “whole”. I understand that now, although I tried to heal them myself. My daughter took out so much anger on me but now, she’s terrified of losing me. My son is the same. I, too, felt so much anger at everything, everyone. I felt like people judged me by my inability to make them better.
People think losing someone at a young age isn’t as hard on them since they tend to forget a lot. But, they remember the sadness. And they feel the loss forever.
P.S. OH EM GEE Cherry Almond Macaroon?!?!? 😍 I’m totally getting that Native gift set! Cherry Almond Jergens smells so good I want to eat it!!!
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Oh, Stephanie! So many thoughts! So , here goes:
First off, I hope your rib has healed, or has at least gotten better :)
Great narrative, as always! Jeffry Dahmer (sorry if I messed the spelling) all over again - keeping dead male 'companions' in the house..... Based on how 'strange' Nilsen's sexuality was, I tend to believe he was molested by his grandfather. Seriously, you can't be just 'born this way'.... (Well, I'm not a psychiatrist, but still.)
Marylin Monroe - YES!!! Please do a series! In no less than 5 or 6 parts! We all think we know her story, but I'm dead certain you'll be able to dig out some details most of us have never even heard of before. So, please, go ahead and do that.
And last but not least, I wonder if you and Derrick are going to discuss the infamous Astroworld tragedy. I know, I know, so much has been said about it already, but with your human touch and Derrick's professional insight, it would be a very interesting podcast.
Thanks again for all of your hard work!
They discussed it in a recent live stream
A lot of kids who are molested become hyper or hypo sexual and without immediate therapy can go on to assault other children. Obviously not all and not most assaulted children assault other children but it is not uncommon for this to happen. I don’t doubt that he was molested
@@emilyelizabeth484 Thank you! I need to see that.
Bundy would never, ever admit that his grandfather abused him, but even the FBI believes he did. Dahmer's father only intermittently admits that Jeffrey was sexually abused by a neighbor when he was only 8 years old. My friends Mother sexually abused her son's, his father knew and did absolutely nothing. ☮️💜
Seriously, I love your technique in explaining our cases. I usually have to watch your videos like three times because your voice calms me and I watch you early in the morning hours so I fall asleep at times but I watched you by chance one time a little over a year ago and now you're definitely my favorite! Just wanted to finally message and let you know how much I enjoy the way you handle these cases and discuss the things we're all thinking as well.
Thank you so much!!!
'our cases' ??! Are you a serial killer sir ?
@@WerZel 😂 no! but that came across funny I see that now. 😆
I can totally relate to this! 👌
I used to feel guilty falling asleep. Now I enjoy it because I make each video last longer! And I knew you where not a killer. You seem way too nice.
It's funny hearing you saying "hen". I'm Scottish and it's a term of endearment when talking to females "You're looking nice, hen" "what is it hen?"
Hi I am from Gateshead UK North England. Hen was a term of endearment yes for girl but I heard it being said to boys" hello hen can you fetch my glasses" but obviously in a geordie accent.
@@denisedick721 am from. Newcastle indeed
Finally: Dennis Nilsen! Yes, a Marilyn Monroe series would be amazing 🥰
I don't remember how I learned about what death was and that it happened to everyone but I do remember being little 4-5 and sitting on my Mom's lap crying and telling her I didn't want her to die. I did that for a long time. It used to freak her out and make her think I knew something she didn't. I turned 30 this year and I'm so thankful to still have her and that I was just being a kid scared of accepting the fact of death instead of foreshadowing something.
I love how you set the scene. I can really see how he became who he was now.
Just as I'm losing the will to live with laundry. Here Stephanie comes to save the day 😂
Been waiting For this one . I'm British and no one has ever stopped talking about this. The whole country was fucked up by it.
Love ya kiddo. Well done ❤️
Same here with the laundry, good wishes from UK x
I'm not a daddy I'm just an older man who's got a crush on you and believe someday that me and you will tie tonight and I can throw you over my shoulders and walk through the threshold you're just so beautiful to me
@@OWlsfordshire sorry. What?
@@KMcGagh I bet you weren't expecting that comment during laundry day 🤔🙄😂
@@janetcw9808 nothing perks up laundry day like a creep! Ive just started ironing... God knows what I'm getting for that 😂
*Edited my bad spelling *
I've watched a documentary about Dennis previously, so I was reluctant to watch another. When I noticed that you (Stephanie) was doing it , I very quickly changed my mind.... Absolutely no regrets. Love your deep dive. Will watch Part 2 later this afternoon. 👌💞🇿🇦🌹
I just turned 19 a few days ago, and I was gonna watch your livestream you had on my birthday, but I got busy with family, and I was so bummed! But just now I got an upload-notification, and I saw it was a multiple parter from you, which truly feels like a belated birthday gift to make up for it. Lots of love to u Steph, you've truly become a constant in all the ups and downs of my life. Your videos keep following me through all of it, and giving me something to look forward to every week, no matter what's going on personally. Seriously, I love u for that, and thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
Happy birthday! 19 is such a great age, I'm so jelly!! Hope you had a great one!
@@StephanieHarlowe thank you!!❤️
It’s so great to see all of these comments expressing how much Stephanie helps us get through and brighten our days no matter what we’re going through. I’m glad I’m not alone in this! Such a genuine soul, thank you for not only bringing awareness to these victims but creating a community where we all feel at home.
I’m so looking forward to this series. He’s one of the UK’s scariest killers imo
Sis, your husband was pretty scary too.
@@ladyzoomin True 😅 But at least he didn’t eat people!
@@notthatboleyngirl I mean, I guess that's a good point lol
@@ladyzoomin her husband 😳
I had to look up the name lolol
Yessss! Marilyn Monroe, Elvis, Kurt Cobain, Layne Staley, Janis Joplin… hell, the 27 club! I’d love videos of them all!
Dennis could've, no joke, been a writer. It's kinda sad, in a way, to see so many facets of a person and know they've abdicated many of their paths in order to harm others and do evil. I hope his victims and their families can be at peace. Thank you for this upload, Steph! Great work as per usual.
It amazes me how Stephanie story tells. Hours of script seems memorized to a T. Everything flows perfectly and is easily understood by her explanations! My favorite podcaster along with Dereck! ❤️
Yay, now that you’ve posted part 3 and it turned up to be the last part I can FINALLY watch this without fear. Your deep dives are just too good and I make myself anxious waiting 🤣
Same girl! Just started 😬😊❤
OMG cherry almond jergens my childhood too!!! My mom used it all my life still does! My fave I'm so gonna order this native !
Tell us what you think!
“Mortality salience” I remember vividly experiencing this. It was when the media was pushing that the world was going to end in 2012 and I was 13-14 years old. I was in hysterics thinking I was going to die and it was the first time I came to the realization of my own mortality.
Oh and one more thing....you are probably the only person that I listen to you talk about the sponsor of your video's, even when it's a repeat lol. It's like you are talking to your viewers & relating to us almost like we are there with you. Keep doing you & you will rise to the TOP
You fricken rock Steph. LOVE YOUR DEEP DIVES!! Just got home from a night out ( brothers house warming) and sure enough you have uploaded some more awesome content. Thank you mate. Big love to you from Australia 🇦🇺!!!
I love you, Stephanie Harlowe. Thank you for your work!
The best source for info on this is Brian Masters book 'Killing For Company' written in 1985, not watching Netflix. It provides factual information on Nilsen's life prior to arrest. Masters spent eight months actually interviewing Nilsen in person. He continued to visit him for many years. Nilsen was honest with him.
IM SO HAPPY TO SEE A VIDEO TODAY!!!! Helps me get my work done!
Your humorous inflections as you read his disturbing quotes are brilliant! Also,, I have read about and watched so much on the Titanic, so I am beyond thrilled that you are doing a series on it. And please, please, do one on Marilyn Monroe. She has been my idol since I was a little girl ❤️
Living in the UK I have read and seen articles / documentaries about this killer more times that I've had hot dinners but I STILL did a little scream when I got the notification saying Stephanie was covering it because you do it like NO one else 💖☺️ x
The mother getting upset over the two children being excluded from the wedding seems more a social slap in the face rather than having the kids' back. The children being an extension of herself she felt she was being rejected. My 2 cents. Thanks
That is possible
YES! I cant believe this one stand she made is being used as a blanket to explain how loving she MUST be towards her children. I see a woman who's pride was hurt.
Definitely. As a child of an emotionally cold mother who was obsessed with "what others thought," I saw nothing in the mother forgoing the wedding that proved anything about her being a "loving mother." And I also disagree with Stephanie that cold mothers can be good mothers-- lack of warmth and unconditional love from one's parental figures (regardless of the parental figure's gender identity) is extremely damaging to a child's emotional development, well-being, and ability to trust others. This is well-known in the realm of psychology.
@@krystademilio1256 it could be both
@@india239 Dennis said his Mom was cold and unloving. The only evidence used to dismiss Dennis is that his Mom told some family members all her children are invited to a wedding or no one goes -so she must be a warm, caring Mom. This is a giant leap! Where are the stories from other people and the kids about what a loving mom she is?? Does she give off a warm and loving demeanor to you? So yes, It's baffling that people want to say he is lying or fantasizing about this so he has an excuse for what he did. He even acknowledges in his autobiography that he may be trying to justify his killings with different reasons. The facts are: 1) his Mom was cold and unloving 2) this is not an excuse for killing
I knew a lot about Dennis Nilsen, but as always you manage to go so deep into these cases and their background stories. There was stuff in your video that i did not know.
Great video.
Thank you!
Sounds like he and Jeffrey Dahmer would have been good for each other. They both wanted boyfriends that didn’t leave.
He makes Dahmer look like a teddy bear.
What a match!
the similarities between them is terrifying. I've always thought of that, especially recently when I watched the miniseries "des"
I wanna see claymation celebrity death match against Dennis and dahmer
I loved this...right now I have the The Nelson Memoirs qued up on Netflix...going there now! I can't wait for part 2.
This dude, aside from being a monster, has serious delusions of grandeur.
I LOVE when you deep dives & multi-part videos. I can relax & forget about stress or clean & listen to your videos. I also LOVE how you tell us about each persons life story. You treat each case & victim(s) with respect. You’re one of my favorite people 😊.
Thank you so much!!!
@@StephanieHarlowe Oh wow! Yay! Thank you for leaving a comment. Made my night 💕. I’ve been following you for along time. I sometimes comment, but it probably gets lost in the sea of comments 😂. I can’t wait to see what this next year brings for you & the podcast!
I would be 100% down for a Marilyn series or podcast!! 😍 I’ve been obsessed with her my whole life and never get tired of researching her. I’d love to hear Stephanie’s perspective of her life.
You are saving my day. I'm feeling pretty bad. I have runny nose and I haven't had a good night sleep. Feeling a bit better because you uploaded. I know a lot about him and his case but glad to hear what you have to say.
Him touching his brother is a sign that he was telling the truth about his grandfather. I was 7 when it started happening to me, it was terrifying, it lasted until I was 14! The reason it stopped was bc I had a friend stay the night and my step father touched her and she told her parents about it. I feel so guilty that it happened to her, like I could’ve stopped it if I had just said something but I didn’t bc I was scared. When all that was happening to me I became sexual as a KID. It’s awful and you would think being a kid means you don’t have these sexual feelings but it happens especially when you are exposed to it. So I believe that he was sa’d by his grandfather. I’m sorry for the long explanation but I feel like I could relate and see why he did what he did to his brother regardless of how wrong it is, it was seemingly normal to him. I’m sorry, I do sympathize with him there. Believe victims, no one believed me bc they thought I was just saying it to get attention once my friend said something when in reality, that’s the last thing I wanted. I felt gross
Words cannot describe how much I've been looking forward to this since you mentioned you'd be doing a series on Nilsen!
Just bought some of natives body washes I always check with 'think dirty' first as me and my kids have sensitive skin. It's rated 0 meaning no harmful products in it or irritants. We've been using a dove hypoallergenic baby wash but going to give this a try as we still have breakouts sometimes. It has no allergens in it either that I've seen. So glad I decided to look into it after hearing you talk about it several times. 🥰
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I was 12. Dennis started
My fascination for serial killers. I read and followed his case everyday in the newspapers that were delivered, for me, like having a magazine subscription back then! Look forward to part 2. Well done on this case.
Amazing Stephanie! You always go above and beyond with your series’ and I can’t wait to watch more from this one. Just wanted you to know - Fraserburgh is pronounced ‘Fraser-buh-ruh’. I know, Scots English really is a law into it’s own 😄🙈 it’s the same for Edinburgh (Edin-buh-ruh’) and pretty much any of these names that end with ‘gh’. Not confusing at all when you’re learning to read as a young Scot 😐 haha! Lots of love, your friendly Scottish Subscriber 🏴🤍 xx
Would so love a series on Monroe!! I love the voice u do when ur reading his words. This guy is something else!
Not all victims of abuse become abusers BUT all his acts, fantasies and descriptions at a very early age scream victim of sexual abuse to me. Especially his feelings towards his brother.
Honestly you could do an in depth series on the process of paint drying and I'd sit and listen to every minute. You put so much work and dedication and it shows 🙌
about his sexism, I've noticed that some gay men can be very misogynistic at times, albeit in a different way than straight men. a long time ago a friend (we've both grown and changed a lot since then) once told me because I was anxious about something that "this is why he just doesn't like girls" as if anxiety were a uniquely feminine trait (to be fair my anxiety was crippling back then and I understand I may have been hard to deal with but it didn't stem from my gender)
I just watched The Nielson Tapes on Netflix, I am SO HAPPY that you are doing this series. I think he is such an interesting case, psychosocially speaking. Would love to know what was going on inside his brain.
Hello ☺️ I lived in Fraserburgh til I was around 8 years old... beautiful little place, and so sorry to be the one to point out the pronunciation🙈 but it's (Fraser bruh) been looking forward to this series so much as you always do the best research.... thank you Stephanie 💚
I am a regular viewer but I absolutely had to join the club - and go on and Subscribe!! And almost every day I hear your theme song when I make my coffee in the morning!! Lmbo I am loving your content!! Thank you for your dedication to keeping us in the loop! And You do your research -- you tell stories I knew nothing about!!
His fantasies and what happened to him as a child seem to be highly correlated, which makes me think he actually got abused by his grandfather.
By far the best video / documentary / etc of this case that I’ve ever seen. I’ve watched them all and Stephanie still managed to find things I’ve never heard. Amazing job!
Once again loving Stephanie's pronunciation of Scottish places, if the word ends in burgh it's pronounced 'burruh' like fraserburruh, Eh-din-burruh but tbh I like it better the way she says it 🤣♥️♥️♥️
Fraserburgh is also known as the Broch.
She says a lot of things her own cute Stephanie way. Nothing but love! 🥰
@@loum1226 good asda there. Tesco is the best though 😍
Sorry but being Scottish it does bug me. Do a bit of research first about place names, it's not hard, I know how to pronounce Pittsburgh correctly. The other month for Leith in Edinburgh it was Lee-ith instead of Leeth.
No way! Isn't it E-din-bruh? 🤯
I am rewatching all these now before I watch the 3rd. I have short term memory loss so its helps to rewatching it all!!! I did want to say about where he confronted death the way he did at 5.... Some kids that have traumatic child hood's (I know this from my own experience) have to confront it early. U also learn to understand it very early!!! Definitely love listening to u telling. The story!!
Me:Oh man that's messed up.
Also me: stuffing my face during dinner while listening to this video 😅
When you said "when you have a father like that then it's better they are not around" I FELT THAT IN MY SOUL! Sometimes life is better without the horrible, abusive, nasty fathers! I really wish the best for all children, but there's just so many monsters in this world. It breaks my heart.
Excellent start to a series Stephanie. Damn this dude, crazy writing skills, but so evil. Can't wait for the next episode. Thank you for all you do. ❤️
Great content Stephaine, I thought I knew all there was to know about Nilsen..but you uncover a lot of stuff I wasn't aware...big respect for the time/ effort you put into your channel!