Do I self sabotage because I want to stay on hcg? No, I think I do it because it is what I have always done...and I'm old. The idea that I could truly be at goal is hard to believe, even though I see the numbers and feel the changes in my body. I have been fat my whole conscious memory with the exception of the past few months. I did recently do an OMG thinking I won't have hcg...but I'm not confident of my ability to maintain, so I think I will end up doing a vanity round or two! Cheryl
Haven't heard from my hcg baby for a few days. She was so close to breaking into Onderland that I think she might be freaking out....I was in crisis with my eating, so didn't call her...giving her space. Wish you had called...or even a text...feeling a trip north itching in my bones!
Knit? I did a MEGA afghan this winter...so big I can hardly lift it! I got fanatical....didn't do much else but knit! Can't seem to handle the intricate stuff anymore...so I have to go for volume...I should offer to make them for people for free if they buy the yarn!!! lol I do sew...I have curtains to make...I have photos to organize...I have a garage to clean out...lots to do...ADHD HATES mundane...I need to get a job...then I'll be too tired-oooops-fatigue is a trigger...geez, what isn't?
It's good for the newbies to see that the weight loss does slow even on hcg as we get closer to our goal weights, and we can no longer sit down with a calendar at the beginning of a round and say I will be this weight by this date. Just doesn't work that way as we lose more weight and get closer to normal. I also think just my opinion, that it is important to do P4 practice times between rounds, even though it will cause a higher P4 stabilized weight (even if stablized within 2 lbs in P3).
So glad you vlogged about these feelings and facts. I will not be at goal at our meet up either! I'm over LIW and about to post a vlog about my next round thanks to my continuing eating issues. I'm working at accepting that I am a human being, I was never meant to be anything except for who / what I am in each moment. I am so happy to be alive and I love every breath that I am allowed while in this vessel. I'm struggling though.
Thank you so much...you are always there...it is SO appreciated! Back on track, and so relieved! Almost back to my lowest...and then on to virgin fat! I'm getting close to that "Oh, my god, is this the end....or isn't it? that I watched you go through on your vlogs. I found it interesting that even when the hunger was raging, you were still wondering if you might be able to go "lower!" That seems to be the "limbo lure" of hcg!
We all know that our weight issues are much deeper than the hcg protocol. I think Robin Woodall has her clients follow hunger scale before protocol because we have to conquer our emotional eating issues...we all have them! Once we conquer them then protocol can move toward more positive results, as when protocol is done in its original guidelines. You will get there, don't be hard on yourself :)
Thank you so much for your honesty and openness. This was wonderful to watch. I relate so much to the feelings, thoughts, and behaviors you describe. I think you're doing great, no matter what. You never give up, and that's so rad. Be kind to yourself, look how far you've come. Amazing.
Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. Sometimes I wonder about how I am received...my ADHD and wierd sense of humor get taken the wrong way sometimes. I AM determined...but oh, I am getting tired of losing the same weight over and over...So looking forward to Ohio. Do you know what time we are meeting?
Cheryl, I was just thinking of you yesterday... hoping you weren't having a hard time because I know you said before it's usually because you aren't doing so well when we don't see you vlog. So glad you vlogged! You have every right to be on here sharing your experience. Your determination is admirable and just because you are having a hard time in the home stretch doesn't negate how awesome you did get the bulk of your weight off!!! I'm so glad I met you here.. you are an inspiration to me :)
So sorry to hear that I just had a passing in my family. I can relate everywhere we go my daughter wants to know if grandma going to be there, she doesn't understand :( It's tough. I am loading and feel sooo gross! Not a disservice for me, your an inspiration, your honest about having struggles it's weird to hear that some have no issues (great for them) but i feel like there is something wrong with me. Take care!!
I see your comments everyday so if didn't feel like you were gone so long. How's your hcg baby doing? I can't remember if she's still at it or went to try something else? I had the most stressful day yesterday Cheryl I swear I almost called you.
I am sorry to hear about your loss. There is a book that Maria Shriver wrote "What's Heaven" that is designed for kids. I remember that it was a good one to use when I worked with kids and trauma and loss. I will keep try to keep in mind that MY screw ups give comfort to others...(saying that tongue in cheek) It is true...even if you only say....geez...I'm not THAT bad!!! I am nothing, if not REAL...sometimes too much so for some venues...thank goodness my vlogs don't need to be censored!
Love how aware you are with EVERYTHING. You know yourself very well. Every failure is worth celebrating. It is what ultimately ends up in success. You are doing fine with everything that's being going on. I hope you are feeling better about spilling your guts. LOL. It is good to get it out of your system and you have so much support. Good or bad, we will be here.
You aren't doing this community a disservice. Not at all. First of all, we're here to support you and second... no matter where you are, you always support all of us! You give more than you think through your honesty and determination. Even if you have bumps, you're determined to do this.
: ) Yes Ma'am never give up! Glad you caught the interview : ) It was so nice to do... day by day and hour by hour at times my dear. You will get to exactly where you want to be and happy you went through it all : ) Here for you any time you need it pretty lady!! Again I am so sorry for your family loss of your mother in law : ( Big Hugs!!! and Much Love!!! So happy you popped on and shared your feelings : ) Stay strong : )
Maybe you are subconsciously self sabotaging yourself because your afraid to be off hcg because of you feel so good on it? Just a thought? What do you think about that?
4:00 rings a bell to me but I need to check and see what time to be sure! Good question :)
Do I self sabotage because I want to stay on hcg? No, I think I do it because it is what I have always done...and I'm old. The idea that I could truly be at goal is hard to believe, even though I see the numbers and feel the changes in my body. I have been fat my whole conscious memory with the exception of the past few months. I did recently do an OMG thinking I won't have hcg...but I'm not confident of my ability to maintain, so I think I will end up doing a vanity round or two! Cheryl
Haven't heard from my hcg baby for a few days. She was so close to breaking into Onderland that I think she might be freaking out....I was in crisis with my eating, so didn't call her...giving her space. Wish you had called...or even a text...feeling a trip north itching in my bones!
Knit? I did a MEGA afghan this winter...so big I can hardly lift it! I got fanatical....didn't do much else but knit! Can't seem to handle the intricate stuff anymore...so I have to go for volume...I should offer to make them for people for free if they buy the yarn!!! lol I do sew...I have curtains to make...I have photos to organize...I have a garage to clean out...lots to do...ADHD HATES mundane...I need to get a job...then I'll be too tired-oooops-fatigue is a trigger...geez, what isn't?
It's good for the newbies to see that the weight loss does slow even on hcg as we get closer to our goal weights, and we can no longer sit down with a calendar at the beginning of a round and say I will be this weight by this date. Just doesn't work that way as we lose more weight and get closer to normal. I also think just my opinion, that it is important to do P4 practice times between rounds, even though it will cause a higher P4 stabilized weight (even if stablized within 2 lbs in P3).
So glad you vlogged about these feelings and facts. I will not be at goal at our meet up either! I'm over LIW and about to post a vlog about my next round thanks to my continuing eating issues. I'm working at accepting that I am a human being, I was never meant to be anything except for who / what I am in each moment. I am so happy to be alive and I love every breath that I am allowed while in this vessel. I'm struggling though.
Thank you so much...you are always there...it is SO appreciated! Back on track, and so relieved! Almost back to my lowest...and then on to virgin fat! I'm getting close to that "Oh, my god, is this the end....or isn't it? that I watched you go through on your vlogs. I found it interesting that even when the hunger was raging, you were still wondering if you might be able to go "lower!" That seems to be the "limbo lure" of hcg!
We all know that our weight issues are much deeper than the hcg protocol. I think Robin Woodall has her clients follow hunger scale before protocol because we have to conquer our emotional eating issues...we all have them! Once we conquer them then protocol can move toward more positive results, as when protocol is done in its original guidelines. You will get there, don't be hard on yourself :)
Thank you so much for your honesty and openness. This was wonderful to watch. I relate so much to the feelings, thoughts, and behaviors you describe. I think you're doing great, no matter what. You never give up, and that's so rad. Be kind to yourself, look how far you've come. Amazing.
We're here for you through the good, bad and ugly. Thanks for sharing and giving us encouragement as well.
Thank you so much for your support and encouragement. Sometimes I wonder about how I am received...my ADHD and wierd sense of humor get taken the wrong way sometimes. I AM determined...but oh, I am getting tired of losing the same weight over and over...So looking forward to Ohio. Do you know what time we are meeting?
Cheryl, I was just thinking of you yesterday... hoping you weren't having a hard time because I know you said before it's usually because you aren't doing so well when we don't see you vlog. So glad you vlogged! You have every right to be on here sharing your experience. Your determination is admirable and just because you are having a hard time in the home stretch doesn't negate how awesome you did get the bulk of your weight off!!! I'm so glad I met you here.. you are an inspiration to me :)
So sorry to hear that I just had a passing in my family. I can relate everywhere we go my daughter wants to know if grandma going to be there, she doesn't understand :( It's tough.
I am loading and feel sooo gross!
Not a disservice for me, your an inspiration, your honest about having struggles it's weird to hear that some have no issues (great for them) but i feel like there is something wrong with me. Take care!!
I see your comments everyday so if didn't feel like you were gone so long. How's your hcg baby doing? I can't remember if she's still at it or went to try something else? I had the most stressful day yesterday Cheryl I swear I almost called you.
I am sorry to hear about your loss. There is a book that Maria Shriver wrote "What's Heaven" that is designed for kids. I remember that it was a good one to use when I worked with kids and trauma and loss. I will keep try to keep in mind that MY screw ups give comfort to others...(saying that tongue in cheek) It is true...even if you only say....geez...I'm not THAT bad!!! I am nothing, if not REAL...sometimes too much so for some venues...thank goodness my vlogs don't need to be censored!
We love you no matter what!! Thanks for sharing so much with us. I'll see you soon:) hugs- Jen
Sorry, i just had surgery so its hard to type. Whatever it is we are here to support you Cheryl. Xo
Love how aware you are with EVERYTHING. You know yourself very well. Every failure is worth celebrating. It is what ultimately ends up in success. You are doing fine with everything that's being going on.
I hope you are feeling better about spilling your guts. LOL. It is good to get it out of your system and you have so much support. Good or bad, we will be here.
You aren't doing this community a disservice. Not at all. First of all, we're here to support you and second... no matter where you are, you always support all of us!
You give more than you think through your honesty and determination. Even if you have bumps, you're determined to do this.
That is what i call loading over load. We should Add another fb rated P2 only.
: ) Yes Ma'am never give up! Glad you caught the interview : ) It was so nice to do... day by day and hour by hour at times my dear. You will get to exactly where you want to be and happy you went through it all : ) Here for you any time you need it pretty lady!! Again I am so sorry for your family loss of your mother in law : ( Big Hugs!!! and Much Love!!! So happy you popped on and shared your feelings : ) Stay strong : )
Maybe you are subconsciously self sabotaging yourself because your afraid to be off hcg because of you feel so good on it? Just a thought? What do you think about that?
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