Do I keep secrets or do they keep me? {Verse 1} Let me explain what I mean when I say I never thought that I'd end up here Driving in circles and eating when I'm full Just to fill the years {Pre-Chorus 1} I'm down and I'm out then I'm down again I'll go for a walk when my head starts to spin I could list every crime Every wandering eye All the hands I didn't want near me But it's not that easy {Chorus 1} Do I keep secrets or do they keep me? Will I be quiet for eternity? {Verse 2} I'd go swimming in my bed with words I left unsaid Let them drown me out I'll do wrong on purpose Pretend I'm not nervous For when my head hits the ground {Pre-Chorus 2} I am older but I'm none the wiser And I'm nauseous from all the reminders I will not come to terms I would rather eat dirt Then admit the things that I see in my sleep On my knees till I bleed {Chorus 2} Do I keep secrets or do they keep me? And can you tell that I'm lying through my teeth? {Outro} Send me out to space Where everything is quiet I'll burst into flames And I'll like it All the quiet
ive been waiting for a full version of this song since i heard the clip on tiktok and it evokes the worst and best emotions within me. i hate that I can relate so deeply but ive also never felt so seen in my life
Omg Rachael I'm so glad you put this out! I used to play this clip on tik tok over and over the first time you put it up and I always wanted to hear the rest of it. Thank you for making something so relatable. Lyrically your a genius
this song is soo good i blasted it in my ears and i got literal goosebumps and tears in my eyes. her voice is amazing and chorus behind her like ugh all of it coming together. OMG I LITERALLY LOVE THIS SONG!!
Oh. My. God. I was just listening to it after I had found the short version on tiktok a few months ago and now I was thinking that I should see whether you have released it…it’s literally been 15h…
Hey you, just a reminder that you are not your traumas and it's not your fault, it never has been. I know we don't want to admit what happened to us but it's always possible to get help and that's empowering, not weak. Own your story ❤ stay strong and safe ❤
I've never ever ever found anything wjere someone elses words wrote out my struggles and thoughts as terrifying accurate as this song does. I'm going to send it to my therapist because I still struggle to articultate my shxt. I love you so much rachel, thank you so f00king much for putting yourself out for the world to witness humanity, and empathy in the sweetest audiological experience yet. If you ever need help with anything or a simple friend/shoulder/vent room/listening ear, please reach out. Just respond to this comment and I'll drop my tiktok id or email address. You are worthy. Always. Humanity is Worthy.
Omg new Rachael song, ya'll wanna see how hard I can cry? *shoots tears out eyes*
Do I keep secrets or do they keep me?
{Verse 1}
Let me explain what I mean when I say
I never thought that I'd end up here
Driving in circles and eating when I'm full
Just to fill the years
{Pre-Chorus 1}
I'm down and I'm out then I'm down again
I'll go for a walk when my head starts to spin
I could list every crime
Every wandering eye
All the hands I didn't want near me
But it's not that easy
{Chorus 1}
Do I keep secrets or do they keep me?
Will I be quiet for eternity?
{Verse 2}
I'd go swimming in my bed with words I left unsaid
Let them drown me out
I'll do wrong on purpose
Pretend I'm not nervous
For when my head hits the ground
{Pre-Chorus 2}
I am older but I'm none the wiser
And I'm nauseous from all the reminders
I will not come to terms
I would rather eat dirt
Then admit the things that I see in my sleep
On my knees till I bleed
{Chorus 2}
Do I keep secrets or do they keep me?
And can you tell that I'm lying through my teeth?
{Outro}
Send me out to space
Where everything is quiet
I'll burst into flames
And I'll like it
All the quiet
Welp, time to listen to this on repeat
ive been waiting for a full version of this song since i heard the clip on tiktok and it evokes the worst and best emotions within me. i hate that I can relate so deeply but ive also never felt so seen in my life
Omg Rachael I'm so glad you put this out! I used to play this clip on tik tok over and over the first time you put it up and I always wanted to hear the rest of it. Thank you for making something so relatable. Lyrically your a genius
I remember hearing the first part on TikTok last year and now it’s finally here!!😩🥺
FINALLY
this song is soo good i blasted it in my ears and i got literal goosebumps and tears in my eyes. her voice is amazing and chorus behind her like ugh all of it coming together. OMG I LITERALLY LOVE THIS SONG!!
This song heals me
Gorgeous voice ❤
Oh. My. God. I was just listening to it after I had found the short version on tiktok a few months ago and now I was thinking that I should see whether you have released it…it’s literally been 15h…
Great song! Very powerful, relatable
Wow brilliant I love everything about this you have a lovely voice Rachael and the lyrics are amazing huge bravo on everything and all involved!!👏👏👏
this is so beautiful
Incredible song 🙂
Love your song, thank you for this masterpiece 💙
I've been waiting for this for ages. When i first heard the tiktok version I was blown away and couldn't wait to hear the full version. Incredible 👏👏
Thank you for this song
I remember this from tiktok. It's so beautiful. Thank u sm ♥
i pretty much relate to every sentence in this song.
Im so so so happy you released this, thank you !!!!
Hey you, just a reminder that you are not your traumas and it's not your fault, it never has been. I know we don't want to admit what happened to us but it's always possible to get help and that's empowering, not weak. Own your story ❤ stay strong and safe ❤
I've been waiting for this one for so long aaaa will be on replay for weeks on end I can feel it
Love it love it love it ❤❤❤
Love this!!
so beautiful, fucking hellllllll rachael
how is every song you write so good??
I've never ever ever found anything wjere someone elses words wrote out my struggles and thoughts as terrifying accurate as this song does.
I'm going to send it to my therapist because I still struggle to articultate my shxt.
I love you so much rachel, thank you so f00king much for putting yourself out for the world to witness humanity, and empathy in the sweetest audiological experience yet.
If you ever need help with anything or a simple friend/shoulder/vent room/listening ear, please reach out. Just respond to this comment and I'll drop my tiktok id or email address.
You are worthy. Always. Humanity is Worthy.