On the plus side, you know that the authoritative internal voice is you. My most inspiring moment after my deconversion was the realization that the inspiring internal voice was simply myself all along. Thanks for these vids! They are top notch!
Fantastic work. My migration from fundamentalism theism to atheism happened over many years and I had never thought to document them so elegantly. Thank you for doing this.
Wow - I could actually feel the sense of loss and desperation that you described as you started to feel your faith slip away. Absolutely one of the best video series on RUclips. Thank you for making these.
Best Series going on RUclips. No strawmen, no rants, no condescension, just facts, and a story that almost breaks your heart no matter what side of things you think you're on. Impeccable on all accounts. Nothing but support!
This whole series is intense. I haven't watched all of them yet, I think I may need to stretch that out over a few months. However, this has made me seriously think about the way I talk to people of faith. My own conversion was very quick and painless. As it was when I was a child, I think I may possibly have just not been that invested in faith at all. Watching this makes me realise what torment people of genuine faith go through as they lose it. Very well done sir.
That feeling you describe toward the end of the video is exactly what compelled me to continue pursuing information until I was completely devoid of faith.
i am going to leave a more thought through comment at the end of the series, but I really feel like I want to leave some quick feedback now. This has thus far been one of the most beautiful series of short videos I have ever seen, for so many reasons that it would take me too long to list and I shall leave it for the end. Thank you for taking the time to document your personal change in such a profound and beautiful way and share it with us..
that was very interesting video i do understand it's a Deconversion video after all but you seems that not only you believed in Christianity before but everything you saw was through a Christian point of view and to the point where you actually tried to share your view to make others believe in it too, Seems like you were not only a Christian but a very deep in Christianity, i do not know how some people here even question that you were not a true Christian or not saved according to them.
Its initially saddening to hear such a detailed and honest relation of a journey from childhood into adulthood, growing pains and all. I dont say that as an analogy either, for it truly is a journey from the mind of a child to that of an adult, from a world of fantasy and imagination to the infinitely greater wonders of reality. Again, thank you for sharing this with all of us, this remains one of the best series on youtube without any question in my mind.
Clearly this is among the best efforts on RUclips. Your demeanor is beautiful and I can feel the sincerity. Wish I the talent to tell my tale in such a format. Since I am unable this series has been a wonderful facsimile. I'll bet there are a lot of former believers that cab really relate to so much of this thoughtful series. Looking forward to your next effort.
Wonderful, absolutely wonderful. You had given names of series of those other users you enjoyed several meetings ago, but... this is the best I've seen.
Your videos are truly an inspiration, and it is clear from other comments just how must your words, experiences touch and are shared by others. It is a tremendous journey you have been taking, thanks for taking us along
Hi Chris. It's difficult to put into words the dimension & magnitude of your experience, you do well expressing it. The music adds a very powerful supportive synergy to this. Tom
I really enjoy these videos. I think they will be a tremendous help to others going through roughly the same things as you. Please do continue in your work.
Excellent one! I spend (too much) time on forums trying to break through with believers. This video has helped a lot with understanding their feelings and perspectives. It also gives me a bit of encouragement in thinking that, despite believer resistance, perhaps some things are really getting through to them. ....although I've always thought that they wouldn't BE there unless they were "exploring doubts," even if they didn't seem to realize it. ....more
I really can't thank you enough for making this series. All of them, this video especially has been liberating, when I realize that I'm not the only one to go through these things. Despite our quite different religious backgrounds (I was a liberal lutheran, at least until I began my search for the 'true God') we've had remarkably similiar experiences in many ways. It's not that often that I get to compare such feelings with other ex-theists.
Your chosen presentation style mated with your uniquely non-confrontational "this is my story" delivery is exceedingly refreshing & I am certain, reminiscent for many, of their own experiences. I would have liked to have seen that game though... Your vids are wonderful. I believe will now have to look at them all, you have yourself another subscription. 5/5
Awesome as always. Looking better and better all the time. You have to put this all on DVD when you are done. Heck, at the rate you going this will become a 2 + hour documentary! I would buy it. Anyone else?
Another fantastic video, and it is very interesting to see how interwoven you once were with the faith. Though as your video's go on it is much clearer where doubts arose. You are a rare breed my friend. Most Athiests that I've met have a smug air about them and some are even worse then the most evangelical of Christians. It is a joy to listen and watch your work, as you seem so humble and modest throughout. I am glad to see your deconversion hadn't changed that about you.
at first i was only interested in watching your personal history, and it didn't let me down this far. but in this episode, it sent me goose bumps all over. i'm currently studying computer science myself, was an unbeliever for my whole live, but i can clearly relate to your feeling of hollowness when it comes to learning statistics or math in general, those exams are the biggest challenges in my life this far.
I was very much hoping the holiday season would give you the opportunity to complete and release another video. As other people have reported for themselves, your deconversion is not remotely like my own in the details, but the overall model still seems very applicable, and your personal story is fascinating. Thank you for taking the time to do this series; I very much look forward to the next video.
Awesome series. I've been raised without religion, watching your series has showed me that a deconversion is not easy, which I sometimes find myself thinking. Production value is also very good.
I am running out of good things to say about you. Of all your vids, this one has given me the most insight into what being a christian must be like thank you
This is a good as an action movie. With ten times the psychological significance! Seriously, I really like these videos you've been making. The raw emotion of these personal events is just riveting, and all the while you present the logical reasons why God simply is not there.
Thanks for continuing with this series, Evid3nc3! I'm looking forward to your conclusion so I can go back and watch them all together from the beginning.
Oh man, I didn't realize this was a work still in progress. Now I have to wait! These are really well done. Besides a good description of what you were thinking at the time, technically I like the background music, the slight reverb on the voice, etc. Very classy.
When I read comments about faith, and getting reassurance from the authoritative voice in your head, it reminds me of a trick I read about in a bicycle magazine: if you're having trouble getting uphill, imagine there are two giant rubber bands connected to the bike, pulling you uphill. Which, for me, is occasionally helpful. Now, if a person can get strength/support from something they KNOW is a figment of their imagination...
5:38 There is something beautiful and poetic here, because you are right now using your love of technology to communicate in a new way to reach the 21st century. These videos leave me floored and I join the others choking back tears
you're voice hypnotizes me, if I knew you in real life..I'd be like "just talk, pic random words to read, it doesn't matter" lol. Love the videos so far, especially the one where you talked through emails with the professor.
I've said it before, but this is one of the best series I've seen on deconversion and free thinking. I would LOVE to see a video talking in more detail about speaking in tongues. I think that, for many atheists, the whole thing seems absurd. But for believers the experience is apparantly very real and very moving. I'd love to hear your take on it, from someone who experienced it.
What you said about reaching people through technology is exactly how I felt when I entered college in the mid-80s. Our Christian liberal arts college encouraged us to be Christian witnesses in our respective fields. Unfortunately I was never very good at it, and it took me a long time to realize why. I have deconstructed my faith now that I am in my 50s and it makes sense why I acted so hesitant about being "that guy" in the office.
This is the only video of yours where our stories significantly differ. I spent much of my youth in quiet frustration that God did NOT seem to talk to me. I was never able to discern between "divine guidance" and "my imagination," as you thought you could.
Thank you so much :) I happened across your videos about a month ago and found them quite humorous. I didn't know that you were watching mine as well. Yes, ironically, my love of technology and focus on "evangelism" were actually hardly phased at all by my deconversion. I only changed my focus and my message.
Another great video! I also remember as a believer a decade ago thinking that the 'voice' in my head felt "authoritative" and was evidence that the holy spirit was speaking to me. Prayer apparently can have this psychological effect. Around that time I was having terrifying sleep paralysis hallucinations which I attributed to demons. These experiences remind one of the power of the subconscious mind to influence conscious perceptions.
I must agree with 'vanillasmile82' and others posting thumbs-up. Your "Deconversion" journey is so much similar to my own journey. It has truly been a strengthening and comforting video for me, after my terrible lonelyness during the three years when I let go of 'God's Hand'. After that terrible three years, I began building a new foundation based on Naturalism on which I could stand and face daily life.
Due to the encouragement of the Pentecostals at my church who taught a class on being spirit-filled, I finally did what they said: "Just simply open your mouth and don't think about it. You just have to open your mouth." At home in bed one night, because I wanted to hear from God, I finally broke through my mental barrier and in faith, opened my mouth. The noises that came out repeated and were like being a robot. I realized that if I continued down this path I would surely become mentally ill.
As ever, compelling work, masterfully done. On a barely related note, statistics took me down like the Titanic in high school. I remember wishing God had guided me NOT to take it. ;-) Happy New Year!
I find myself checking back to youtube weekly despite having too much to do, just to see if you posted your next video. It's my birthday today, so I say thankyou! :D
Everyone's deeply kind and articulate comments are overwhelmingly appreciated. If you've not been following the twitter feed, Part 2 is on the way, as a special Christmas gift to my engaging and magnanimous subscribers. It should appear on the channel within an hour.
This set of videos is excellent. Ironically, I questioned all these things when I was very young. Maybe 11 or so. That is when I wanted to be "good" and I started reading the bible front to back. Needless to say, I was very disturbed by what I read. Thankfully I had common sense enough to realize God was a fallacy. I just couldn't speak my mind until I became older.
i seriously doubt that this whole series was made by one person, and i`m beginning to question the true intentions behind all this. Mainly because this channel has been inactive for a long time, and it seems to have rushed to it`s end, almost as if the purposse of this channel was to create this whole series of deconversion videos. I sincerelly hope that this isn`t true and I can`t seem to find what other intentions a person or group of persons would have in making this series of videos, but still i can`t cease to feeel this. Anywhore, this was extremelly well done, very profound and touching, it seems that all the words where carefully planed as well as the background music, tone of voice,etc.
At this point I was wondering along similar lines. Evid3nc3 began with a rawish handheld personal video, and has transformed into a heaven-like echo voice with requisite angelic music. And they are so well done, a befitting choice of music, the elocution, the editing, the choice of graphics. I wonder if the '3' in the name might mean two other people. The lack of video for so many years may be either that is all he had to say, life's priorities no longer allow him the time to do more videos, or he has annual cycles for his need to express creativity.
I've read his blog and a lot of things he wrote. First off, Chris is a computer science major, and was planning on making video games in his early life. I don't think it'd be too hard for him to figure out the software required to put this stuff together. I use similar software (i.e. Adobe Captivate, Camtasia Studio 8) as an instructional designer, although I don't know the exact software he used. He may have had help at some points, but the story is entirely his. He spent a great deal of time making these videos, and he's stopped making them because he got his PhD, moved to California with his family, etc. And he said it's difficult at this point in his life to spend a great deal of time making videos for free because cost of living is expensive, etc. Although, I've watched these videos several times. He still makes little edits and annotations on occasion, and still occasionally answers comments. Rest assured, this is Chris R.'s aka "Evid3nce's" work, and he does it to help people...
@Tespri That's a good point. It's hard to believe an omnipotent being would be so frail that it couldn't make any more of an impact on my series than causing me to release a video a week later than I usually do. I think one would be more convinced God had a hand in it if God did something like cause me to reconvert and put up a video about.
There is a new Dante's Inferno video game that is out for PS3, you can download the demo on the network. And, once again, mucho kudos on the video Evid3nc3. You are a true artist.
I am impatient for the conclusion of this series, to see the whole and complete picture. While I can agree with your network analogy, I think the personal relationship with god is key to most theist's belief and their reluctance to even consider discarding them. The emotional pull is strong and emotion is one of the two foundations to theistic beliefs. The other, of course, being ignorance.
I love this series so far.... Our backgrounds as well as our process of deconversion is fairly similar. I as well was baptized in the holy spirit and spoke in tongues. That was the hardest part of my deconversion. Feel free to message me. I would love to have a few conversations with you.
@purrot I'm not really looking to get in a huge conversation about this, because I'm slowly realizing that talking to anyone on RUclips is just a waste of time, but what I was pointing out is congruent with you said. My point was just because he said he was a Christian, that doesn't mean he truly was; I know plenty of people who claim to be Christians with their words while their attitudes don't back it up. This is the feeling I got from this video.
I was talking about personal experiences. And God is big, yeah, unthinkably for us big. Yet He's loving enough and merciful enough to come down from His holy throne in eternity and care for our small pains and worries individualy. In fact He cares so much He gave everything He had, His most precious. His son. For us! God has given a revelation of Himself to Abraham, Moses and so on. But He has proven the Bible is His word. And yes He's in control of every moment and atom in the universe. :)
Chris, if you were a missionary, you would be unstoppable. You -are- a missionary, a missionary for intellectual humility, honesty, and a profound and unquenchable search for truth. I can imagine that countless believers will watch your video, and that the sensitive, reflective ones will join with me--an atheist--in calling your work the exemplification of everything that Christians claim "God" wants: virtuous excellence. (1/2)
@blurglide Good question. I argued primarily on Gamedev (for what is now probably an obvious reasons: the video game). My handle was "Orikal". I've tried to recover the conversations and they are archived but viewing them is very slow.
I would respond to that like this: You wished the "good" god we've been told since we were kids existed . But when we look closely, it's almost imposible to separate the other atrocious things he did. In fact I realized I was picking and choosing the good parts and rejecting the nasty ones.
Man this series is insanely good, the voice, the music, it's perfect.
Yes. I watch it once a year and use Chris's arguments when defending my own atheism (I am also a former believer)
In a nutshell, this is exactly what i went through in becoming an atheist. Powerful, and thank you for taking the time to make the series.
same but sans a professor.
This series is a thing of beauty - on every level. A wonderful new year to you Evid3nc3 ;8)
oh wow the man himself in here long ago
18 months after my deconversion. It strikes me just so how closely you and I had similar experiences. This ministry to atheists particularly.
Thank you for doing this meaningful work, and sharing your story in such a beautiful, creative way.
It's wonderful to have this process explored in such a deep and nuanced way. A sort of mathematical dissection of deconversion. Fascinating!
This should be written into an autobiography
On the plus side, you know that the authoritative internal voice is you. My most inspiring moment after my deconversion was the realization that the inspiring internal voice was simply myself all along.
Thanks for these vids! They are top notch!
Fantastic work. My migration from fundamentalism theism to atheism happened over many years and I had never thought to document them so elegantly. Thank you for doing this.
You should write all this - word for word in a book.
I would be a the top of the list to purchase it.
Wow - I could actually feel the sense of loss and desperation that you described as you started to feel your faith slip away. Absolutely one of the best video series on RUclips. Thank you for making these.
Best Series going on RUclips. No strawmen, no rants, no condescension, just facts, and a story that almost breaks your heart no matter what side of things you think you're on. Impeccable on all accounts. Nothing but support!
This whole series is intense. I haven't watched all of them yet, I think I may need to stretch that out over a few months. However, this has made me seriously think about the way I talk to people of faith. My own conversion was very quick and painless. As it was when I was a child, I think I may possibly have just not been that invested in faith at all. Watching this makes me realise what torment people of genuine faith go through as they lose it. Very well done sir.
That feeling you describe toward the end of the video is exactly what compelled me to continue pursuing information until I was completely devoid of faith.
That is precisely the lesson I learned, though I didn't have time to go into it in the video. Glad you were able to read it in between the lines :)
i am going to leave a more thought through comment at the end of the series, but I really feel like I want to leave some quick feedback now. This has thus far been one of the most beautiful series of short videos I have ever seen, for so many reasons that it would take me too long to list and I shall leave it for the end. Thank you for taking the time to document your personal change in such a profound and beautiful way and share it with us..
that was very interesting video i do understand it's a Deconversion video after all but you seems that not only you believed in Christianity before but everything you saw was through a Christian point of view and to the point where you actually tried to share your view to make others believe in it too, Seems like you were not only a Christian but a very deep in Christianity, i do not know how some people here even question that you were not a true Christian or not saved according to them.
Its initially saddening to hear such a detailed and honest relation of a journey from childhood into adulthood, growing pains and all. I dont say that as an analogy either, for it truly is a journey from the mind of a child to that of an adult, from a world of fantasy and imagination to the infinitely greater wonders of reality. Again, thank you for sharing this with all of us, this remains one of the best series on youtube without any question in my mind.
Clearly this is among the best efforts on RUclips. Your demeanor is beautiful and I can feel the sincerity. Wish I the talent to tell my tale in such a format. Since I am unable this series has been a wonderful facsimile. I'll bet there are a lot of former believers that cab really relate to so much of this thoughtful series. Looking forward to your next effort.
Wonderful, absolutely wonderful. You had given names of series of those other users you enjoyed several meetings ago, but... this is the best I've seen.
This series should be made into a documentary and put on national television.
Thanks so much for your constant and enthusiastic support :)
Your videos are truly an inspiration, and it is clear from other comments just how must your words, experiences touch and are shared by others. It is a tremendous journey you have been taking, thanks for taking us along
Hi Chris. It's difficult to put into words the dimension & magnitude of your experience, you do well expressing it. The music adds a very powerful supportive synergy to this. Tom
I really enjoy these videos. I think they will be a tremendous help to others going through roughly the same things as you. Please do continue in your work.
i can't wait for part two. you have edited these videos in a way that makes them very desirable to watch and send to friends.
Excellent one!
I spend (too much) time on forums trying to break through with believers. This video has helped a lot with understanding their feelings and perspectives.
It also gives me a bit of encouragement in thinking that, despite believer resistance, perhaps some things are really getting through to them.
....although I've always thought that they wouldn't BE there unless they were "exploring doubts," even if they didn't seem to realize it.
....more
I really can't thank you enough for making this series. All of them, this video especially has been liberating, when I realize that I'm not the only one to go through these things. Despite our quite different religious backgrounds (I was a liberal lutheran, at least until I began my search for the 'true God') we've had remarkably similiar experiences in many ways. It's not that often that I get to compare such feelings with other ex-theists.
These are the only videos that get me REALLY excited when a new one comes out.
Best series on YT.
Your chosen presentation style mated with your uniquely non-confrontational "this is my story" delivery is exceedingly refreshing & I am certain, reminiscent for many, of their own experiences.
I would have liked to have seen that game though...
Your vids are wonderful. I believe will now have to look at them all, you have yourself another subscription.
5/5
This series is amazing, keep up the great work
Awesome as always. Looking better and better all the time. You have to put this all on DVD when you are done. Heck, at the rate you going this will become a 2 + hour documentary! I would buy it. Anyone else?
Another fantastic video, and it is very interesting to see how interwoven you once were with the faith. Though as your video's go on it is much clearer where doubts arose.
You are a rare breed my friend. Most Athiests that I've met have a smug air about them and some are even worse then the most evangelical of Christians. It is a joy to listen and watch your work, as you seem so humble and modest throughout. I am glad to see your deconversion hadn't changed that about you.
at first i was only interested in watching your personal history, and it didn't let me down this far. but in this episode, it sent me goose bumps all over. i'm currently studying computer science myself, was an unbeliever for my whole live, but i can clearly relate to your feeling of hollowness when it comes to learning statistics or math in general, those exams are the biggest challenges in my life this far.
soooooo good that you share the depth and conviction of your spiritual experience before revealing it's psychological basis... right on!
I was very much hoping the holiday season would give you the opportunity to complete and release another video. As other people have reported for themselves, your deconversion is not remotely like my own in the details, but the overall model still seems very applicable, and your personal story is fascinating. Thank you for taking the time to do this series; I very much look forward to the next video.
I love this series! I always get super excited whenever I see a new one pop:) Keep up the great work, looking forward to more!
Awesome series.
I've been raised without religion, watching your series has showed me that a deconversion is not easy, which I sometimes find myself thinking.
Production value is also very good.
I am running out of good things to say about you. Of all your vids, this one has given me the most insight into what being a christian must be like
thank you
This is a good as an action movie. With ten times the psychological significance!
Seriously, I really like these videos you've been making. The raw emotion of these personal events is just riveting, and all the while you present the logical reasons why God simply is not there.
You're videos are so personal; thank you for sharing your experiences to unabashedly!
Thanks for continuing with this series, Evid3nc3! I'm looking forward to your conclusion so I can go back and watch them all together from the beginning.
Oh man, I didn't realize this was a work still in progress. Now I have to wait! These are really well done. Besides a good description of what you were thinking at the time, technically I like the background music, the slight reverb on the voice, etc. Very classy.
Wow. Thank you SOOOOO much for taking time off to do this. The whole series has been absolutely amazing.
When I read comments about faith, and getting reassurance from the authoritative voice in your head, it reminds me of a trick I read about in a bicycle magazine: if you're having trouble getting uphill, imagine there are two giant rubber bands connected to the bike, pulling you uphill. Which, for me, is occasionally helpful. Now, if a person can get strength/support from something they KNOW is a figment of their imagination...
Again thanks for sharing your journey. I hope others can see parallels in their own life and learn something for themselves.
Excellent series. Waiting for the next video. Well done, and thank you.
You got me waiting for your videos now, and every new one is better than the last. Good job!
5/5
5:38 There is something beautiful and poetic here, because you are right now using your love of technology to communicate in a new way to reach the 21st century. These videos leave me floored and I join the others choking back tears
This is one of the best series on you tube.
you're voice hypnotizes me, if I knew you in real life..I'd be like "just talk, pic random words to read, it doesn't matter" lol. Love the videos so far, especially the one where you talked through emails with the professor.
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his heartfelt honesty and declaration to a world of strangers his most personal fears moved me to tears as well
The music enhances this so well, very soothing voice.
I've said it before, but this is one of the best series I've seen on deconversion and free thinking.
I would LOVE to see a video talking in more detail about speaking in tongues. I think that, for many atheists, the whole thing seems absurd. But for believers the experience is apparantly very real and very moving. I'd love to hear your take on it, from someone who experienced it.
What you said about reaching people through technology is exactly how I felt when I entered college in the mid-80s. Our Christian liberal arts college encouraged us to be Christian witnesses in our respective fields. Unfortunately I was never very good at it, and it took me a long time to realize why. I have deconstructed my faith now that I am in my 50s and it makes sense why I acted so hesitant about being "that guy" in the office.
This is the only video of yours where our stories significantly differ. I spent much of my youth in quiet frustration that God did NOT seem to talk to me. I was never able to discern between "divine guidance" and "my imagination," as you thought you could.
Thank you so much :) I happened across your videos about a month ago and found them quite humorous. I didn't know that you were watching mine as well.
Yes, ironically, my love of technology and focus on "evangelism" were actually hardly phased at all by my deconversion. I only changed my focus and my message.
Top notch video as always! Waiting patiently for pt 2!
This is such an important series of videos. Thank you for the time and effort you take to produce them.
Another great video!
I also remember as a believer a decade ago thinking that the 'voice' in my head felt "authoritative" and was evidence that the holy spirit was speaking to me. Prayer apparently can have this psychological effect.
Around that time I was having terrifying sleep paralysis hallucinations which I attributed to demons.
These experiences remind one of the power of the subconscious mind to influence conscious perceptions.
I must agree with 'vanillasmile82' and others posting thumbs-up. Your "Deconversion" journey is so much similar to my own journey. It has truly been a strengthening and comforting video for me, after my terrible lonelyness during the three years when I let go of 'God's Hand'. After that terrible three years, I began building a new foundation based on Naturalism on which I could stand and face daily life.
If this series had more views, the world would be a better place.
Probably the most amazing thing i've ever seen.
These videos are awesome! I really like following you on your path to deconversion.
This one is SO good.
We can all relate to this.
Thanks again for this series!
Woohoo!
Excellent work. I look forward to the next video.
Due to the encouragement of the Pentecostals at my church who taught a class on being spirit-filled, I finally did what they said: "Just simply open your mouth and don't think about it. You just have to open your mouth."
At home in bed one night, because I wanted to hear from God, I finally broke through my mental barrier and in faith, opened my mouth. The noises that came out repeated and were like being a robot. I realized that if I continued down this path I would surely become mentally ill.
As ever, compelling work, masterfully done.
On a barely related note, statistics took me down like the Titanic in high school. I remember wishing God had guided me NOT to take it. ;-)
Happy New Year!
I find myself checking back to youtube weekly despite having too much to do, just to see if you posted your next video. It's my birthday today, so I say thankyou! :D
u do the best stuff, thank u for sharing, i always look forward to the next installment
Everyone's deeply kind and articulate comments are overwhelmingly appreciated.
If you've not been following the twitter feed, Part 2 is on the way, as a special Christmas gift to my engaging and magnanimous subscribers.
It should appear on the channel within an hour.
This set of videos is excellent. Ironically, I questioned all these things when I was very young. Maybe 11 or so. That is when I wanted to be "good" and I started reading the bible front to back. Needless to say, I was very disturbed by what I read. Thankfully I had common sense enough to realize God was a fallacy. I just couldn't speak my mind until I became older.
Another great video. Appreciated by many.
i seriously doubt that this whole series was made by one person, and i`m beginning to question the true intentions behind all this. Mainly because this channel has been inactive for a long time, and it seems to have rushed to it`s end, almost as if the purposse of this channel was to create this whole series of deconversion videos. I sincerelly hope that this isn`t true and I can`t seem to find what other intentions a person or group of persons would have in making this series of videos, but still i can`t cease to feeel this. Anywhore, this was extremelly well done, very profound and touching, it seems that all the words where carefully planed as well as the background music, tone of voice,etc.
At this point I was wondering along similar lines. Evid3nc3 began with a rawish handheld personal video, and has transformed into a heaven-like echo voice with requisite angelic music. And they are so well done, a befitting choice of music, the elocution, the editing, the choice of graphics. I wonder if the '3' in the name might mean two other people.
The lack of video for so many years may be either that is all he had to say, life's priorities no longer allow him the time to do more videos, or he has annual cycles for his need to express creativity.
I've read his blog and a lot of things he wrote. First off, Chris is a computer science major, and was planning on making video games in his early life. I don't think it'd be too hard for him to figure out the software required to put this stuff together. I use similar software (i.e. Adobe Captivate, Camtasia Studio 8) as an instructional designer, although I don't know the exact software he used. He may have had help at some points, but the story is entirely his. He spent a great deal of time making these videos, and he's stopped making them because he got his PhD, moved to California with his family, etc. And he said it's difficult at this point in his life to spend a great deal of time making videos for free because cost of living is expensive, etc. Although, I've watched these videos several times. He still makes little edits and annotations on occasion, and still occasionally answers comments. Rest assured, this is Chris R.'s aka "Evid3nce's" work, and he does it to help people...
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Wonderful work! Looking forward to th e continuation.
Your courage is tremendous.
About time man, about time...
@Tespri That's a good point. It's hard to believe an omnipotent being would be so frail that it couldn't make any more of an impact on my series than causing me to release a video a week later than I usually do.
I think one would be more convinced God had a hand in it if God did something like cause me to reconvert and put up a video about.
Very similar path.
Thanks for sharing. Actually finishing my degree in computer science pretty much was a "miracle" :)
Whoa, the part where you explain how you felt that God's word was hidden - is exactly how I felt. :(
Awesome video! :D
There is a new Dante's Inferno video game that is out for PS3, you can download the demo on the network.
And, once again, mucho kudos on the video Evid3nc3. You are a true artist.
I am impatient for the conclusion of this series, to see the whole and complete picture.
While I can agree with your network analogy, I think the personal relationship with god is key to most theist's belief and their reluctance to even consider discarding them. The emotional pull is strong and emotion is one of the two foundations to theistic beliefs. The other, of course, being ignorance.
I agree, this is just wonderful work.
This video really hit me hard - incredible stuff.
I love this series so far.... Our backgrounds as well as our process of deconversion is fairly similar. I as well was baptized in the holy spirit and spoke in tongues. That was the hardest part of my deconversion. Feel free to message me. I would love to have a few conversations with you.
The time it takes to make these is definitely paying off
@purrot
I'm not really looking to get in a huge conversation about this, because I'm slowly realizing that talking to anyone on RUclips is just a waste of time, but what I was pointing out is congruent with you said. My point was just because he said he was a Christian, that doesn't mean he truly was; I know plenty of people who claim to be Christians with their words while their attitudes don't back it up. This is the feeling I got from this video.
Amazing stuff man, can't wait for more.
I was talking about personal experiences. And God is big, yeah, unthinkably for us big. Yet He's loving enough and merciful enough to come down from His holy throne in eternity and care for our small pains and worries individualy. In fact He cares so much He gave everything He had, His most precious. His son. For us! God has given a revelation of Himself to Abraham, Moses and so on. But He has proven the Bible is His word. And yes He's in control of every moment and atom in the universe. :)
Chris, if you were a missionary, you would be unstoppable. You -are- a missionary, a missionary for intellectual humility, honesty, and a profound and unquenchable search for truth. I can imagine that countless believers will watch your video, and that the sensitive, reflective ones will join with me--an atheist--in calling your work the exemplification of everything that Christians claim "God" wants: virtuous excellence. (1/2)
How can anyone dislike this video part 2 is amazing
Amazing as always.
Powerful stuff. Thank you.
I dont see how people could dislike this
Jeez man. Your story is my story. It made me cry.
@blurglide Good question. I argued primarily on Gamedev (for what is now probably an obvious reasons: the video game). My handle was "Orikal". I've tried to recover the conversations and they are archived but viewing them is very slow.
Man, Statistics class is enough to kick the faith out of anyone! Word!
I would respond to that like this: You wished the "good" god we've been told since we were kids existed . But when we look closely, it's almost imposible to separate the other atrocious things he did. In fact I realized I was picking and choosing the good parts and rejecting the nasty ones.
Very honest video's thank you. It is very similar to my own experience of becoming an atheist.