Yes! I've been restricting for about a month now and I'm losing weight. The logical part of me is saying this is wrong, but it's making everyone so happy. Sad part is...I'm happy too and I want to know how low I can actually go.
That one time when my teacher pointed out that i was losing weight, i was so happy but the rest of my class stayed silent. They probably knew that i wasn't skinny haha
I don’t think this song romanticizes EDs upfront, though you can use it for that. To me, this song is a dark look at the voice of anorexia, meant to show the listener how deceptive it is. Some of the lyrics are completely blunt- “I will hurt like hell, I will kill you in no time”, but they are sung prettily so you don’t suspect it. It’s a look into the deception and manipulation of eating disorders, how “we’ll have wings eventually” can be disguised as something hopeful but its true meaning is ‘angel wings’, because you’ll die.
My relationship with ana is complicated We are friends but i dont follow her much Know what i mean? I eat alot one day then the next day i dont eat at all
The day to day changes like that are an emotional rollercoaster, but I know you'll get through it. Keep tuning out her bullying the best you can. Stay sweet, and I'm wishing you luck. Ana can be so cruel, but she's not worth the stress!
I think what's weird about most Anorexia related songs is that though they're saying how bad it is to have one (which is completely true) and how it will ruin your life but people listen to these songs to like stay off eating Well, at least for me
It's not as weird as you might think. Ana stems from a low self-esteem and self-hatred. So you might think: "Yeah sure, it'll hurt like hell. That's exactly what I deserve!" Never give up. You have the strenght and potential to crush any self-esteem problems and ultimatively, Ana. The hardest part really, is to realize this.
@@Sky-hc4sc I believe her sweet voice is the point. The way Ana lures you in with promises, like a manipulative person would. It makes a lot of sense. She can say "I will kill you in no time" you don't question it because of her sweet, soothing voice, it's meant to have an innocent tone to it;I think this is what makes this song so hauntingly beautiful
Kaye Graie You'll never be perfect. Ever. It won't happen, no one will ever be perfect, the idea of perfection is totally convoluted and bullshit, even if you think you look good, you most likely don't and that doesn't matter.
@@choruppted wow cuz that's real helpful. I agreed with you at first but then you started on the "Even if you think you look good ,you aren't" bullshit... Yeah no. That's just insulting
Exactly. People are made fun of no matter what you do. You can’t be fat, you can’t be average. Even I get made fun of by some of my own family members because I’m “Too underweight”. You can’t win with society.
Ana and I have a close love/hate relationship. I love becoming skinny but sometimes I wanna go back to eating normally but the image in my head of being skinny brings me back.
Severinsen Oh gosh, this comment may say a year ago but I’m pretty sure I wrote this when I was 11, I’ve finally been able to recover slightly and I’ve learnt that! :)
The way RUclips is making me a personalized mix or playlist full of anorexic songs is so sweet. Thanks RUclips for trying to get me Ana back again when I didn't even leave her
Dear [name], I used to listen to this song so often. Hundreds of time, over and over and over. I was getting stripped down: In confidence, in hope and in beauty. Tumbling, Cascading, Fading. Someday it became okay/ it alleviated somehow. I don't know how. I faced myself. I forced something? No, it happened. I overcame Ana, I am free. Someday, I hope all of those here will too. Thank you for the song. This kept me going. Stopped me from collapsing. Sorry, however, I do not wish to continue our relationship anymore. I will not. I shall not. I cannot. I do not. I am no longer apologetic to Ana. You are not me. We are not one. I have left. Farewell. I miss you Ana, I will not lie about that. But I love myself more than you now. In the memory of love, [ex-lover]
This song makes me wanna go for a run edit, three+ years later: i. don't even know what i was expecting when i saw this comment. i have been struggling with weight and disordered eating for years. i was in denial when i wrote this comment LMAO but i'm still having a hard time existing lol. anyways. also i was like 14 or 15 when i wrote this and i turn 18 in like 17 days lol
@@applesong01 sadly you cant just not do that personally i dont mean to but ill see some food i want and go over all the anorexic “rules” in my head without meaning to. Even when i try to distract my thoughts ill still panic at certain foods like i can be okay and take one bite from a doughnut and start panicking and suddenly i feel sick so i just spit it out and drink water or tea. Ana is so two sided it feels like its good and like youre in control until youre too deep in and your gw gets smaller and smaller eating is a chore especially when your stomach has shrunk and years of “eating more than XXX calories will make me fat” even if its only 100 and most of us have body dysmorphia i didn’t realize i had lost any weight like the scale changed but in my head my body stayed the same till my friend showed me a pic from a couple years ago. Its not “just dont think that” “just dont eat” because this disorder has trained us to think were fat even if were not, we feel we have control when in reality we dont otherwise wed have a normal diet, its trained us to be scared of food because were scared of gaining weight and its hard to be sensible sometimes theres a lot you dont see the biggest issue imo is wanting to be healthy because usually you dont care if you die you may not have anyone else who cares my parents enabled me encouraged it 100% and sometimes you don’t realize what youve done its also hard to deal with the self hatred of eating because you feel like a failure you werent “sick enough” it’s competitive and it sucks.
You still alive kiddo? If you are and you're reading this and you're in recovery, you did good. You're stronger than most people. If you're not in recovery, there's still time, hopefully.
dont say stuff like this. it can trigger others especially youger kids who dont have their own opinons and will get influenced by this. i know it sounds hypocritical cause basically thats what this song's about but i just think it'd be better to keep that stuff to yourself.
Ana (Anorexia) is spelled with one N. Anna (you) is spelled with two Ns. Problem solved I guess?? • • Edit: I got 21 likes😮 Usually my comments get 0-4 likes lol.
Just a heads up for you guys. I wrote this when I was deep into my ed. I was stressed and slowly killing myself. Not long after writing this, I told my friends and worked myself through to the other end. Please get help. I've never been happier.
@@agoose2531 I got better help then you probably got. I went to a facility. I'm doing ok. Except, depression is an intense one, plus my anxiety. Don't forget Mr, Eating Disorder. That's a good one. All I got is a loving friend and my boyfriend. But, now everything comes intenseeee, when it takes a stop in.
I remember when I used to listen to this music for thinspo... Now I listen and I remember how disgusting it is to have an eating disorder take over your life. Keep working towards recovery. No one should ever have to deal with an ED ❤️ Stay strong.
*runs to ana after literally bingeing just now* Me: i wuv you im sorry 😭 Ana: it’s okay bby i love u too Being in an abusive relationship with ana is making me crazy but i will always come back to her 😭🖤🥀
It can feel so normal to suffer, but always know that you're stronger than her. It may not feel like it, but you are. Just keep fighting her nasty comments and her tempting praise. You'll get over her eventually. It'll just take a little heartbreak. But hey, that's every toxic relationship. You've got this. Good luck!
Show her that you are stronger. Don't let her overtake you. You can do it, keep fighting against her even if it's really hard. Many including me care about you. Even if I don't know you in person I wish the best and a long happy and healthy life for you.❤ You are loved and not alone
I struggled with anorexia- I just want to say that in the end it doesn’t matter. In the end calories are just a number, and you were given this life to breathe and dance and who the fuck cares if you have belly or cellulite? I use to work out to this song and replay it for hours, I hurt myself and still have the scars to tell the tale, but in the end I want to say you, are beautiful. You are so so beautiful and it makes me emotional to come back here and read the comments after recovering and just tearing up cause I use to be in your shoes but know that you aren’t alone, seek help and start out small and work your way up. I will always believe in every one of you. Wear those jeans, eat what you want, because fuck I’m so happy now and I’m so free from that weight. You will be weightless- not from pounds , but you’ll be free and weightless from the rocks on your shoulders of dealing with this . I love you, stay safe and stay strong
Thank you for this. I don't struggle with an eating disorder but the staggering amount of people who do in the comments honestly terrorizes me. Because this song shouldn't be listened to like that. This shouldn't be a way to fall deeper into the pit the disorder brings. Many of my close friends struggle with EDs, and I am terrified. But people like you give me hope. And give me motivation to stick by their side and support them as much as I can. I am so, so happy you've recovered and are free from the guilt this disorder brings. I wish you tons of luck and good things to come. Stay safe, and much love to you.
I'd like this song so much i listen it Everyday like 1-2hours maybe even more... I know i shouldn't listen this but how do i stop this? My life just sucks:(
1:16 oh this part when she says in the morning, lies and lullabies. How it reminds me of the beginning of that summer when i was close to my lowest weight, and i was waking up excited every morning, in the warm sheets of my bed, facing the window with the closed shutters. Every time i opened my eyes and faced that, i knew. It would be a great day. Im losing every day. I couldn't tell if it was reality or if i hadnt yet woken up, i couldn't tell if it was a dream or not. And i would feel my ribcage with my fingers and get up to the cold wooden floor. And walk to the bathroom. And strip in front of the mirror and bodycheck. And finally weigh myself. Those were the lies, the lullabies..
looking at the bright world outside, but too physically exhausted to enjoy it. im afraid i would never truly be happy with my body, no matter how hard i work.
@@Luumenarymusic awh im so sorry, im always here if you need me i’m so proud off you. your so strong and your doing amazing. keep going you’ve got this x
“Not long ago, a question bubbled to the surface of my brain: if my body could speak, would she forgive me? Though it sounds strange, it was wildly helpful for me to start thinking of my body as a being separated from myself. This mindset made it easier for me to be gentle and more forgiving with my body, because we are sadly often more willing to be unkind to ourselves than we are to someone else. I began to experience newfound guilt for putting my body through the abuse of my eating disorder, because what did my poor, loyal body do to deserve such violence? The answer is nothing, and the same is true for you, too: your sweet body did nothing to deserve to endure the wrath of you.” Blythe Baird
Am I the only one that gets so love deprived that when Ana says “very smart of you to call me” I get really happy and warm inside because it’s the only compliment I’ve received in years
yes i have special convos with ana its rly fun shes the only one i talk to these days sometimes she takes breaks. she took at least a 5 month break and i was so lonely and were gaining weight . She came back yesterday
i listened to this song years ago when i was in the depths of my ED… now, here i am listening to it again, and i can definitely say this is how the voice haunts me and other people going through an ED…
Honestly I do get that you are trying to help n I think that's great but telling an anorexic to just eat is like telling someone with depression to just be happy , it doesn't really work like that no matter how much I wish it did xx no offence cuz ik u was trying to help
And also most of the people listening to this song most likely are not even Ana probs just people wishing they were skinny saying yes I will do this and be skinny this time it will work only to eat I'm about 10 minutes after this song so.....
...and that means any pain they feel is less worthy in some way? Or rather, more worthy of derision? Thanks for the opinion, although it's neither clever nor insightful. What was it exactly that made you feel you needed to parrot this observation, anyway? No, don't answer here, it's a thought question--ask yourself. Think on it. Does it perhaps say more about you than you intended? Do you recognize that, whether valid or not, this kind of statement you've made carries an unspoken continuation: "me? I'm better than anyone like that. And I'm better than you too, that's why I took the time to make more than one derisive comment in a pool of possibly suggestible, emotionally vulnerable people who would identify with this song and the initial sentiment from which this conversation thread initiated. There is nothing odd about taking the time to obliquely reference my dominance by belittling a relatively common insecurity." But I don't know you any more than you know me, and I don't think that there's anything special about that mode of self-aggrandizement. It's common in and of itself, albeit needlessly hurtful. If that's NOT your intention, perhaps you could try a less condescending tactic next time you comment on someone else's personal hell if you mean to be helpful. And if helpfulness isn't your goal, that says a lot more about you than you will ever say about anyone else. And the unspoken inferences that could be made about you by this kind of bitchy condescension are far more eloquent, too. Do some self searching before you start spouting off backhanded 'advice', in other words.
A very inspiring person once said "If you are not recovering, you are dying" It's the hard truth, please anyone thinking 'maybe the anorexia life is for me' reconsider. This probably won't help, because I used to be a stubborn person too 5 years ago and I ignored all warnings, but maybe. Just maybe I can convince you that this will not make you happy. This disorder has destroyed every part of my life and now that I'm relapsing again it makes me realise how hard it is to stop. No, you won't stop at your goal weight, you won't say "just a few more lbs/kgs" because it will never be enough. It will never be enough for the monster. The monster in me called an eating disorder
I can appreciate this song for a number of reasons. I can appreciate the raw honesty of this song. I can appreciate it due to the years I have spent in this disorder - recovery, relapses, trying again, lapses, trying again. It is worse every relapse. It is more freeing every time I get control over it.
That happened at the hospital with me. I ate under 100 calories everyday for 50-52 days. I lost a lot of weight but, the hospital made me eat. I broke down crying
brooo I remember always listening to this song back when I was 13 years old & at the beginning of my ed. It really brainwashed me idk what in this song is but i was addicted and listened to this always before going to sleep with headphones and crying myself to sleep
i remember listening to this song all the time whilst starving myself two years ago. this song makes me sick to my stomach just because of the memories i have with it. it's not worth it in the end, i promise
listening to this again 2 years after i first found it, when i was lying alone in a hotel room, at a perfectly healthy weight, crying and wishing this on myself because all i saw was fat when i looked in the mirror. i had no idea what i had gotten myself into by starting to 'diet' and messing around with ED behaviours. and i now know I'm never going to like myself no matter how much weight i lose, i'm currently back in hospital paying for the damage i've been doing to my body yet i still can't accept that i need to get 'better', whatever that means anymore. i'm sorry to anyone who's going through the same struggles.
Meif'wa Queen no, listen, if dying are your intentions then okay, I'm not going to argue with u on that. But what if dying doesn't work out? What if you go to recovery, you come out with the same weight you started off with. And if you don't die, and it didn't go as planned, what's your life choice. Now I'm not arguing, I swear, I just. I never asked for Ana to come knocking to my door, I know the skinny pleasure, the oh so good empty feeling, but at the end of the day I always ask myself, "why do I do this?". I just don't want anyone to do this to themselves, I apologize for assuming you were just starting your journey, but I do care. I never meant to come of as insensitive, but if insensitive is the only way to get it out of people's heads than I'll have to be insensitive. I am pro recovery, but I realize I am a hypocrite because I don't want recovery and I know it's hard but it's worth a shot. If you're not up to it, i understand, we can die thin together/ or apart if you still hate me. Idc, but I have to try to make someone better. And anorexia may seem like your friend but it is hell, I remember when I used to eat like nothing, but now I seem to see nothing else but numbers in my food. Good day, is all I'd like to say, because over night I'd like to say I matured, not sure though, because I have nothing but respect towards you.
Hi my name is Healthy and I'm here to save you Very smart of you to call me We will work together and you will exist again You'll have legs eventually I want you to embrace me I will help you to control I won't hurt like Ana I will give you back your soul It will give you a good body It is painted in your personality Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness You will feel okay You will feel okay So just be a good person and please follow my rules Don't forget you're taking over Existing is what you'll be in no time if you're Taking your life back I want you to embrace me I will make you honest again I won't hurt like Ana I will give you back your soul Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness You will feel worth it You will feel worth it You won't be your enemy You will find yourself in me You are perfect Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness You will feel worth it You will feel worth it You're already perfect
This really helped.. I can’t tell you how much you did just by writing a comment... I’m attempting to recover but I can’t get the image of the “perfect” body out of my head.. this made me forget it. Even if it was just for a bit.
Same, I used to think (when I was younger, like, 8 yrs old) “why don’t they just eat?” And I didn’t understand it at all. But then look at me now, been a victim of it for 2 years and relapsing again
We are best friends for only one week spans... I miss and need her so much when she leaves...she helps me go numb. (DO NOT LIKE THIS! I CAN’T HAVE A NOTIFICATION SHOWING ON MY YT!)
Ana she will find you no matter where you go No matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow The eye in the storm the cry in the morn, You're fine for a while but then start to loose control, Ana's there in the dark She's there in my heart She waits in the winds She's gotta play a part Ana is a friend Yeah Ana is a friend of mine Ana is a friend but Ana is a foe And no matter what I feed her she always seems to grow She sees what I see and she knows what I know, So don't forget as you ease on down the road Trouble is a friend - Lenka
Throwback to when i was was ana af... I know nobody wants to hear this but recovery is v possible i know it's super hard but it is possible and v worth it!!Stay strong friends |-/
spookden i think they meant they have a male voice in their head, like, you can have a female voice (ana) or a male voice (rex) OF COURSE it's still anorexia, so calm down guys :)
For anyone wondering about the artist, her name is Mi Helaskoski. Her music isnt on spotify or yt music but you can find her on youtube and she does have a couple other song although I think she may have stopped making music as I cannot find anything about her recently, all her comments and videos are from 3+ years ago.
I listen to this song everyday and replay the words in my head when I feel hungry. Whenever someone asks me why I’m not eating I just say that I already ate or that I’m not hungry. My family and friends just congratulate me for being able to lose weight, no one suspects a thing.
They will. I used to be just like that, and this time around losing weight is so much harder because people are catching on 100 times as fast. Being able to hide it is not going to last forever.
I'd rather die from my eating disorder than die from attempting again. I hate my body so I try to lose weight because maybe then I'll get rid of the hatred for myself not only that but I might receive praise and love for my new body, I might have someone think I'm beautiful.
We don't want people to tell us what's good for us. We don't want them to tell us to "just eat" or that "it's all in our heads." We've heard it all before. We want to suffer and we want to change ourselves into this dangerous, idealistic body and show them that we are the only ones allowed to hurt us anymore. But look back at who you used to be. You were young, and you were hurting. You remember who you were as a child, and you remember your pain. Crying, alone or with people who hardly seemed to care. Sometimes you damned the world for always seeming to be aimed against you. Even knowing how much that child used to hurt, do you still want to make them suffer? Do they deserve to feel this pain, too? You're the only one who will ever know your own, personal pain. There are thousands of people who fight Ana everyday, and there are people waiting with open arms to catch you when you fall, even if they sometimes struggle to understand how this disease even works. But you are the only person who can tell you to stop. And, chances are you don't want to- full heartedly, at least. You never did this thinking it'd feel good. If anything, you wanted it to hurt. But you don't deserve this pain, no matter how much you want it and how much you think you do. And the child you used to be doesn't deserve it, either. So, even if it's hard to stop for yourself, always try for them, because no one knows your suffering like you do, and it's never too late to start giving that child the happiness they were always so desperate for. This song is beautiful, by the way. Hard hitting and a little bit emotionally taxing, but beautiful. Thought I'd throw that in. Good luck, you wonderful people. Don't let your scars dictate who you are, whether they're inside or out.
It's going to be hard for awhile, but always keep fighting. You're so much better than she says you are, and you're well worth the work it's going to take to move past her. Just focus on getting a little bit better each day.
I saw your comment and I have been dealing with anorexia for 4 years. I got over it but I’m still extremely depressed. Please eat. Ana is not your friend I promise. I know that better than anyone. I’m not going to try to force you to eat but can you please talk to me
When it said "Hi my name is Ana and I am here to save you Very smart of you to call me" Did it remind anyone else about Annabeth chase form Percy Jackson?
I've been listening to songs like this whenever I feel hungry. The song basically tells you how horrible and consuming ana is but I feel like that's exactly what I need. Pain is comfort for me. It mirrors the way I'm feeling, my goals and my flaws. It gives me purpose, and control idk....
Echo Productions Same,But There is a small line between low self-esteem and Anorexia for me.I mean I simply feel insecure,ugly and not hot and I sometimes hate my body
this song did nothing but add to my ED. if you are here listening to this song, please stop immediately. 8 years later and i will never heal. i had a child and still weigh less than i did in 7th grade. please
Wow...this song brings back a lot of memories, especially when my ED was at it's peak when I was 15/16. I'm 20 now and these past few months I've been slipping back down the rabbit hole again. Hearing this song makes me feel....weird. Both a good and bad kind of weird.
I was gonna go make noodles 🍝. Not anymore two years after making that comment: here i am 7 kgs over my weight loss. i am relapsing and two days into this relapse, i already feel faint. this disorder never escapes you, unless u get the proper help you need. you cannot DIY or bullshit your recovery. get the help you need and yes even take time off of everything to recover. you will regret it otherwise. dont brush your ed under the bus, even if you think you miracoulsly recovered.
For me Ana is like that kid my parents forced me to hang out with that I never cared about. Now as a young adult I still hang out with her simply due to the familiarity of her presents.
wish I could be like the others and say that I'm listening to this and remembering the times when I had an ED, but instead I'm in the midst of my n-th relapse in those past five or so years. I'm honestly so impressed with all of you who have chosen recovery. I don't know when I'll have the strength to do it myself, but hopefully soon since college is definitely not a good time to be going throught this bs. that being said, finding this song again after all those years feels like coming back home from a long journey.
White monster cans stacking, falling asleep in your sweaty clothes, or waking up feeling like you're freezing to death. First thing you eat in 3 days is a single tomato, later you find yourself crying beside the toilet. Why are these such scary, but still comforting memories.
I tried to be anorexic, then I realized I have an eating disorder-- I can't STOP. This song was to help me stop overeating....but it just made me sad and proud lmao
Society: dont eat u will get fat Society: eat something anorexic freak Society: oh not that that makes u fat Society: let's but everyone against u Society: what do u think ur doing crying urself to sleep Society: dont be depressed know one likes that Society: stop cutting that's not good! Society: Do what u got to do know one cares!! ••••dies•••• Society: U will be greatly missed Look what society has done to us
When you're overweight so no one questions it when you skip meals, restrict, and listen to songs like this. It's a curse.
I agree with you
Are you okay?
Yes! I've been restricting for about a month now and I'm losing weight. The logical part of me is saying this is wrong, but it's making everyone so happy. Sad part is...I'm happy too and I want to know how low I can actually go.
That one time when my teacher pointed out that i was losing weight, i was so happy but the rest of my class stayed silent. They probably knew that i wasn't skinny haha
Same.
I swear this song brain washes me
Gina same
Gina same omg
Same here omg
me too
YEAH
Me: recovering from anorexia
My RUclips recommendations: *you know what would be funny?*
How are you now hun🥺
hope you’re doing well
Lol me
Damn recomended
She's calling you
I don’t think this song romanticizes EDs upfront, though you can use it for that. To me, this song is a dark look at the voice of anorexia, meant to show the listener how deceptive it is. Some of the lyrics are completely blunt- “I will hurt like hell, I will kill you in no time”, but they are sung prettily so you don’t suspect it. It’s a look into the deception and manipulation of eating disorders, how “we’ll have wings eventually” can be disguised as something hopeful but its true meaning is ‘angel wings’, because you’ll die.
sarah are you actually insane.....you are encouraging her......disgusting.
Maya Kinney please don’t listen to Sarah oh my- please please recover
sarah u are seriously sick, i have anorexia myself but i don’t encourage others ppl to follow my lifestyle that’s disgusting, i hope u get help soon
@@sarah-nm9vj Please delete your comments!
sarah thank you i needed to hear this
That moment When you realise that the people that comment, Care more than your family...
I care I won’t give any personal info but just know I care
Oh gosh this is so true
Why is this so true??
I don't know if our care is more than your family's 'cause i think they care a lot!!. But i do know we care alot more than you could imagine
SOO true...
My best friend had Ana.
R.I.P. My dear old friend.
Frost will Bite very sorry to hear.
That's so sad. I'm honestly speechless right now. That sucks how someone could struggle so much... I'm so sorry for your loss
im so sorry for ur loss
My bff died from Mia..now o fight her..
Oh, R. I. P
“I will hurt like hell, I will swallow your sweet soul”...Wow that’s actually...true...
😂😂
Heidi Jaime it’s not that funny.
you are stronger
"Emptiness is pure , starvation is the cure" I live by this quote .
i hope you got better... please take care
I'm taking this
@@soggyeggos5093 I always see you on ana subs how are you doing? How's it going?
I’m dying for this quote*
Cringe
Am I the only one who finds this song comforting?
I listen to it on the way to school to prepare for the hell I have to experience, it surprisingly makes me feel better.. So yes
I heart it whenever i'm hungry and it serves.
R3tro Chick no it's comforting to me too
No
R3tro Chick no
My relationship with ana is complicated
We are friends but i dont follow her much
Know what i mean?
I eat alot one day then the next day i dont eat at all
The day to day changes like that are an emotional rollercoaster, but I know you'll get through it. Keep tuning out her bullying the best you can. Stay sweet, and I'm wishing you luck. Ana can be so cruel, but she's not worth the stress!
You might be bulimic
I used to only eat once a day, (dinner so my parents won't suspect something) and u kinda want to start doing it again. It can't be that bad right
Welcome to the mia world
Lol same
I think what's weird about most Anorexia related songs is that though they're saying how bad it is to have one (which is completely true) and how it will ruin your life but people listen to these songs to like stay off eating
Well, at least for me
Liv Omfg I feel the same! The song tells "I will hurt like hell" and girls want to be even more anorexic, fuck logic.
It's not as weird as you might think. Ana stems from a low self-esteem and self-hatred. So you might think: "Yeah sure, it'll hurt like hell. That's exactly what I deserve!"
Never give up. You have the strenght and potential to crush any self-esteem problems and ultimatively, Ana. The hardest part really, is to realize this.
i want it to hurt like hell. i need it
Please, just make it hurt like hell. It won't be any worse than the hell in my head after I eat
Same
This is what i imagined ana's voice would sound like
(How did this comment get 600 likes??!!)
SAME
not me, i imagined her voice to be rude, harsh, careless, RECKLESS, just like MINE and definetly not that high
@@Sky-hc4sc why should she be rude or careless? She will eventually be your friend don't you remember?
@@Alice58302 yeah you’re right, but i dont think she sounds so sweet irl
@@Sky-hc4sc I believe her sweet voice is the point. The way Ana lures you in with promises, like a manipulative person would. It makes a lot of sense. She can say "I will kill you in no time" you don't question it because of her sweet, soothing voice, it's meant to have an innocent tone to it;I think this is what makes this song so hauntingly beautiful
They say that you're perfect the way you are, but society and people don't work like that.
Kaye Graie
You'll never be perfect. Ever. It won't happen, no one will ever be perfect, the idea of perfection is totally convoluted and bullshit, even if you think you look good, you most likely don't and that doesn't matter.
Society: Be yourself
Society: No, not like that
@@choruppted wow cuz that's real helpful.
I agreed with you at first but then you started on the "Even if you think you look good ,you aren't" bullshit...
Yeah no. That's just insulting
Exactly. People are made fun of no matter what you do. You can’t be fat, you can’t be average. Even I get made fun of by some of my own family members because I’m “Too underweight”. You can’t win with society.
@MacKinley not that easy
Ana and I have a close love/hate relationship. I love becoming skinny but sometimes I wanna go back to eating normally but the image in my head of being skinny brings me back.
I just wanna go back to eating cookies and ice cream and eat away but I know I can't because if I do I'll ruin all my progress
exactlyyyyyyyyyy
I hope you’re doing better now. I really do ❤︎
SAME
@@em7676 SAME
Ana and I have complicated relationship
same
Carly Bram we all do. She's cheating on all of us too. While we're faithful as ever
yeah we have a love-hate relationship
sameee
Carly Bram same
I can't find this song anywhere other then RUclips, I can't find anything about it. This song is so unsettling, yet so appealing.
I'm trying to find it as well. I really enjoy this song its self.
Mi has other songs too, shes on yt
@@daintyreaper4842 whats her yt?
@@isabellasucks I would also like to know
Saaaaammmeee. I found this song in like 2014 while searching ana mia music and I could never find it anywhere other than here
" I will swallow your sweet soul ".
Aren’t you suppose to be my friend! :c
An ED is never your friend.
NEVER.
Severinsen Oh gosh, this comment may say a year ago but I’m pretty sure I wrote this when I was 11, I’ve finally been able to recover slightly and I’ve learnt that! :)
@@jay-bj9pq Glad to hear that 💗
actually my soul is salty so 😈
hello relapsing gang. hope everything will get better for us.
heyo.. how are you doing?
Black coffee and mint gum. That’s what this sounds like
Thats kinda what i eat everyday + water
Ik it's unhelthy but fuck helth i wanna be skinny
Shadow of the darkness you should eat more to prevent binges. Trust me, I know
@@shadowofthedarkness7321 idrc about health anymore i just wanna be skinny...
lemon water and cinnamon apple cider vinegar "tea" for me lmao
me feeling caught *continue chewing my gum*
The way RUclips is making me a personalized mix or playlist full of anorexic songs is so sweet. Thanks RUclips for trying to get me Ana back again when I didn't even leave her
It's our other mother Ana making us a list of lullybuys
give me your playlist ❤️ plz
This song hits hard. It's amazing but also very dark
phil is amazing
amazingfoodisnotonfire ikr
whypeasant ? nice profile pic
leon loves ryan ross is that Billie Eilish in your pfp?
Ryro !
Dear [name],
I used to listen to this song so often.
Hundreds of time, over and over and over.
I was getting stripped down:
In confidence, in hope and in beauty.
Tumbling,
Cascading,
Fading.
Someday it became okay/
it alleviated somehow. I don't know how.
I faced myself.
I forced something?
No, it happened.
I overcame Ana,
I am free.
Someday, I hope all of those here will too.
Thank you for the song.
This kept me going.
Stopped me from collapsing.
Sorry, however, I do not wish to continue our relationship anymore.
I will not.
I shall not.
I cannot.
I do not.
I am no longer apologetic to Ana.
You are not me.
We are not one.
I have left.
Farewell.
I miss you Ana,
I will not lie about that.
But I love myself more than you now.
In the memory of love,
[ex-lover]
this is absolutely beautiful, thank you
This is....... Wow
Thank you!!!
It’s like a text song😍
This song makes me wanna go for a run
edit, three+ years later: i. don't even know what i was expecting when i saw this comment. i have been struggling with weight and disordered eating for years. i was in denial when i wrote this comment LMAO but i'm still having a hard time existing lol. anyways. also i was like 14 or 15 when i wrote this and i turn 18 in like 17 days lol
S a m e
Same, but i am sick so I can't
Even though I just did, I still feel like I want to☺️
alexis austin same fellow Alexis even though I can’t go outside it’s cold as hell here still
me: *listens to this while at track* 🥺
“once on ur lips is forever on your hips” “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”
i tell myself that everyday.
Don't food is good we were meant for it
@@applesong01 sadly you cant just not do that personally i dont mean to but ill see some food i want and go over all the anorexic “rules” in my head without meaning to. Even when i try to distract my thoughts ill still panic at certain foods like i can be okay and take one bite from a doughnut and start panicking and suddenly i feel sick so i just spit it out and drink water or tea. Ana is so two sided it feels like its good and like youre in control until youre too deep in and your gw gets smaller and smaller eating is a chore especially when your stomach has shrunk and years of “eating more than XXX calories will make me fat” even if its only 100 and most of us have body dysmorphia i didn’t realize i had lost any weight like the scale changed but in my head my body stayed the same till my friend showed me a pic from a couple years ago. Its not “just dont think that” “just dont eat” because this disorder has trained us to think were fat even if were not, we feel we have control when in reality we dont otherwise wed have a normal diet, its trained us to be scared of food because were scared of gaining weight and its hard to be sensible sometimes theres a lot you dont see the biggest issue imo is wanting to be healthy because usually you dont care if you die you may not have anyone else who cares my parents enabled me encouraged it 100% and sometimes you don’t realize what youve done its also hard to deal with the self hatred of eating because you feel like a failure you werent “sick enough” it’s competitive and it sucks.
"Your stomach isn't growling, it's applauding" is mine.
"pretty people don't eat" is mine
skip🏃♀️dinner🍽wake🛌up⬆️thinner💀
tv shows glorifying eating disorders, self injury, depression, anxiety...smh it's not some kind of fashion trend, it's torture.
2020 EDIT: I’m okay now, I am pretty much 100% recovered. Thank you guys so much for your kind words
Go eat something.
That is if you're not already dead after 8 months.
You still alive kiddo? If you are and you're reading this and you're in recovery, you did good. You're stronger than most people. If you're not in recovery, there's still time, hopefully.
Same here. I listen to this song every time I feel like binging and also as a reward for not eating. It's fucked up.
R. I. P.
dont say stuff like this. it can trigger others especially youger kids who dont have their own opinons and will get influenced by this. i know it sounds hypocritical cause basically thats what this song's about but i just think it'd be better to keep that stuff to yourself.
No one:
Not a single soul:
Literally nobody:
Those of us named Anna: ........ok then
Ana (Anorexia) is spelled with one N. Anna (you) is spelled with two Ns. Problem solved I guess??
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Edit: I got 21 likes😮
Usually my comments get 0-4 likes lol.
Oh well my name is Ana.
@@anamariaac34 oof.
Just a heads up for you guys. I wrote this when I was deep into my ed. I was stressed and slowly killing myself. Not long after writing this, I told my friends and worked myself through to the other end. Please get help. I've never been happier.
@@agoose2531 I got better help then you probably got. I went to a facility. I'm doing ok. Except, depression is an intense one, plus my anxiety. Don't forget Mr, Eating Disorder. That's a good one.
All I got is a loving friend and my boyfriend. But, now everything comes intenseeee, when it takes a stop in.
this made me cry my eyes out. i've been battling this disease for 4 years.
Good luck still, man ;v;
I'm so fucking sorry...this brings tears to my eyes.
I'm going on year 11...
Been suffering since 7 years old
I'm jealous. Give it to me.
@@mariaclairet5609 tf is wrong with you? Thats like saying "I'm jealous of your depression. Give it to me"
Good luck.
I remember when I used to listen to this music for thinspo... Now I listen and I remember how disgusting it is to have an eating disorder take over your life. Keep working towards recovery. No one should ever have to deal with an ED ❤️ Stay strong.
'I remember when I used to listen to this' I'm so proud of you
*runs to ana after literally bingeing just now*
Me: i wuv you im sorry 😭
Ana: it’s okay bby i love u too
Being in an abusive relationship with ana is making me crazy but i will always come back to her 😭🖤🥀
It can feel so normal to suffer, but always know that you're stronger than her. It may not feel like it, but you are. Just keep fighting her nasty comments and her tempting praise. You'll get over her eventually. It'll just take a little heartbreak. But hey, that's every toxic relationship. You've got this. Good luck!
Missing Eye thank you so much 💘💫
You're welcome so much. :)
same 😩
Show her that you are stronger.
Don't let her overtake you.
You can do it, keep fighting against her even if it's really hard.
Many including me care about you.
Even if I don't know you in person I wish the best and a long happy and healthy life for you.❤
You are loved and not alone
I struggled with anorexia- I just want to say that in the end it doesn’t matter. In the end calories are just a number, and you were given this life to breathe and dance and who the fuck cares if you have belly or cellulite? I use to work out to this song and replay it for hours, I hurt myself and still have the scars to tell the tale, but in the end I want to say you, are beautiful. You are so so beautiful and it makes me emotional to come back here and read the comments after recovering and just tearing up cause I use to be in your shoes but know that you aren’t alone, seek help and start out small and work your way up. I will always believe in every one of you. Wear those jeans, eat what you want, because fuck I’m so happy now and I’m so free from that weight. You will be weightless- not from pounds , but you’ll be free and weightless from the rocks on your shoulders of dealing with this . I love you, stay safe and stay strong
Thank you for this.
I don't struggle with an eating disorder but the staggering amount of people who do in the comments honestly terrorizes me. Because this song shouldn't be listened to like that. This shouldn't be a way to fall deeper into the pit the disorder brings.
Many of my close friends struggle with EDs, and I am terrified. But people like you give me hope. And give me motivation to stick by their side and support them as much as I can.
I am so, so happy you've recovered and are free from the guilt this disorder brings. I wish you tons of luck and good things to come. Stay safe, and much love to you.
I'd like this song so much i listen it Everyday like 1-2hours maybe even more... I know i shouldn't listen this but how do i stop this? My life just sucks:(
I hate my body ☹
samantha rawson
Me too :(
Nobody’s perfect but that doesn’t mean you aren’t great
Everyone here: 12/10
1:16 oh this part when she says in the morning, lies and lullabies. How it reminds me of the beginning of that summer when i was close to my lowest weight, and i was waking up excited every morning, in the warm sheets of my bed, facing the window with the closed shutters. Every time i opened my eyes and faced that, i knew. It would be a great day. Im losing every day. I couldn't tell if it was reality or if i hadnt yet woken up, i couldn't tell if it was a dream or not. And i would feel my ribcage with my fingers and get up to the cold wooden floor. And walk to the bathroom. And strip in front of the mirror and bodycheck. And finally weigh myself.
Those were the lies, the lullabies..
looking at the bright world outside, but too physically exhausted to enjoy it. im afraid i would never truly be happy with my body, no matter how hard i work.
@@lubbaby208 same
Those times were oddly comforting, although they almost killed me and i had no personality, it also made me feel alive
you know its getting bad when you come to this song for comfort.
Real
literally, hope your doing okay?🫶🏻
@@hiiiii109 no
@@Luumenarymusic awh im so sorry, im always here if you need me i’m so proud off you. your so strong and your doing amazing. keep going you’ve got this x
@@hiiiii109 you don’t fuckin know who i am and I will never need you
“Not long ago, a question bubbled to the surface of my brain: if my body could speak, would she forgive me? Though it sounds strange, it was wildly helpful for me to start thinking of my body as a being separated from myself. This mindset made it easier for me to be gentle and more forgiving with my body, because we are sadly often more willing to be unkind to ourselves than we are to someone else. I began to experience newfound guilt for putting my body through the abuse of my eating disorder, because what did my poor, loyal body do to deserve such violence? The answer is nothing, and the same is true for you, too: your sweet body did nothing to deserve to endure the wrath of you.” Blythe Baird
Yyy
I did this too during recovery and it was so so helpful.
Honestly, this song made me not want to eat. So, I kept it in my liked videos, so, I can watch it everyday so, I don't eat.
Lgbtq Serenity same, do u have snap chat btw
SAME
YALL ME TOO
Same
Me too. Anyone wanna trade Instagram?
Okay, these songs are good and all but like
The poor girls actually named Anna
Lmfaoo noo
My friend's name is actually Ana
Yep my name is Anna
I had friend called anna, she was literally so toxic, she said literally the things in this video. And my mom wondered why I have ed
Haha, that's my name but it's pronounced differently than Ana so it doesn't really matter.
This is literally a song about death...
It's fucked that I actually like it. Plus I like the Asian vibe going on in the backround.
vidmaster011 ikr!
LovelyHermycat Hermione hey
is it just me or is any one else a mix of anorexic and bulimic?
Probably an other eating disorder.
It's called ednos.
there is anorexia binge purge subtype
Yeah, you can have both, I think that's ednos
Meee
I feel like at times Ana is my only friend...
The Pineapple Goddess she’s the best friend in the world a person could have, you just have to obey her rules
Yep
Geoff
The Pineapple Goddess i hope you’re doing alright
Yup
Naiya Plumbley both diseases are horrible there is no need to conpare
Am I the only one that gets so love deprived that when Ana says “very smart of you to call me” I get really happy and warm inside because it’s the only compliment I’ve received in years
You're not alone!
You're an awesome person!!
Don't let this eating disorder take control of your life!!
yes i have special convos with ana its rly fun shes the only one i talk to these days sometimes she takes breaks. she took at least a 5 month break and i was so lonely and were gaining weight . She came back yesterday
i listened to this song years ago when i was in the depths of my ED… now, here i am listening to it again, and i can definitely say this is how the voice haunts me and other people going through an ED…
i’m a male with an eating disorder, found this song on twitter, but this hits different
I was hungry but listening to this song takes away the hunger and the pain.❤
Love RUclips1 yeah and then eat this song does nothing
Honestly I do get that you are trying to help n I think that's great but telling an anorexic to just eat is like telling someone with depression to just be happy , it doesn't really work like that no matter how much I wish it did xx no offence cuz ik u was trying to help
And also most of the people listening to this song most likely are not even Ana probs just people wishing they were skinny saying yes I will do this and be skinny this time it will work only to eat I'm about 10 minutes after this song so.....
same here. probably shouldn't be listening to this😏
...and that means any pain they feel is less worthy in some way? Or rather, more worthy of derision? Thanks for the opinion, although it's neither clever nor insightful.
What was it exactly that made you feel you needed to parrot this observation, anyway? No, don't answer here, it's a thought question--ask yourself. Think on it. Does it perhaps say more about you than you intended? Do you recognize that, whether valid or not, this kind of statement you've made carries an unspoken continuation: "me? I'm better than anyone like that. And I'm better than you too, that's why I took the time to make more than one derisive comment in a pool of possibly suggestible, emotionally vulnerable people who would identify with this song and the initial sentiment from which this conversation thread initiated. There is nothing odd about taking the time to obliquely reference my dominance by belittling a relatively common insecurity."
But I don't know you any more than you know me, and I don't think that there's anything special about that mode of self-aggrandizement. It's common in and of itself, albeit needlessly hurtful. If that's NOT your intention, perhaps you could try a less condescending tactic next time you comment on someone else's personal hell if you mean to be helpful. And if helpfulness isn't your goal, that says a lot more about you than you will ever say about anyone else. And the unspoken inferences that could be made about you by this kind of bitchy condescension are far more eloquent, too.
Do some self searching before you start spouting off backhanded 'advice', in other words.
A very inspiring person once said "If you are not recovering, you are dying" It's the hard truth, please anyone thinking 'maybe the anorexia life is for me' reconsider. This probably won't help, because I used to be a stubborn person too 5 years ago and I ignored all warnings, but maybe. Just maybe I can convince you that this will not make you happy. This disorder has destroyed every part of my life and now that I'm relapsing again it makes me realise how hard it is to stop. No, you won't stop at your goal weight, you won't say "just a few more lbs/kgs" because it will never be enough. It will never be enough for the monster. The monster in me called an eating disorder
Do you mean Blythe Baird?
Blythe said that
Blythe Baird?
I can appreciate this song for a number of reasons. I can appreciate the raw honesty of this song. I can appreciate it due to the years I have spent in this disorder - recovery, relapses, trying again, lapses, trying again. It is worse every relapse. It is more freeing every time I get control over it.
You can do this! I believe in you
my mom forced me to eat today. i was literally crying at the dinner table but like u know i haven’t eaten in two days. periodt.
That happened at the hospital with me. I ate under 100 calories everyday for 50-52 days. I lost a lot of weight but, the hospital made me eat. I broke down crying
Lucky if I don’t eat for like a few hours my moms shoving food down my food and telling me how I’m gonna die like okay drama queen
@@chocolatemilk8838 wow that’s too low I try to stay below 1000
@@Harajukubarbie333 ik.
Julia Grace I am able to get away with not eating for two weeks before my mom notice and then I eat so she won’t get suspicious
This book reminds me of the book "Wintergirls" it's a major trigger to my ED but I just love it
I love that book!!!
KreativeKat LPS Great book
KreativeKat LPS I net her in 85th grade when she came to promote the book at my school the author is awesome. plus signed copies are cool
KreativeKat LPS me too girl
KreativeKat LPS I love winter girls
i tricked my parents into thinking ana was gone but she’s really been here for years
Bro my parents just think I’m vegan
Please please try to find help and recover, it will be so much better for you in the long run
@@laetitiapohl138 she's right, we know it's hard but if you can't stop it alone go try find help, this is not the right option
@@bunny-uz7ms I’m sorry but lol
Me too
Everytime I listen to this song I remember Cassie from Skins.
same holy shit
Flyin' Orcinus Oml it really fits
oml yesss
YAS
Amy Ash S A M E
brooo I remember always listening to this song back when I was 13 years old & at the beginning of my ed. It really brainwashed me idk what in this song is but i was addicted and listened to this always before going to sleep with headphones and crying myself to sleep
i remember listening to this song all the time whilst starving myself two years ago. this song makes me sick to my stomach just because of the memories i have with it. it's not worth it in the end, i promise
listening to this again 2 years after i first found it, when i was lying alone in a hotel room, at a perfectly healthy weight, crying and wishing this on myself because all i saw was fat when i looked in the mirror. i had no idea what i had gotten myself into by starting to 'diet' and messing around with ED behaviours. and i now know I'm never going to like myself no matter how much weight i lose, i'm currently back in hospital paying for the damage i've been doing to my body yet i still can't accept that i need to get 'better', whatever that means anymore. i'm sorry to anyone who's going through the same struggles.
This makes me feel fat now..
Zoey Slime, DIY, Hacks me to
Me too.. I just want to lose more weight
Me too I want to be 80pounds
Meif'wa Queen no, listen, if dying are your intentions then okay, I'm not going to argue with u on that. But what if dying doesn't work out? What if you go to recovery, you come out with the same weight you started off with. And if you don't die, and it didn't go as planned, what's your life choice. Now I'm not arguing, I swear, I just. I never asked for Ana to come knocking to my door, I know the skinny pleasure, the oh so good empty feeling, but at the end of the day I always ask myself, "why do I do this?". I just don't want anyone to do this to themselves, I apologize for assuming you were just starting your journey, but I do care. I never meant to come of as insensitive, but if insensitive is the only way to get it out of people's heads than I'll have to be insensitive. I am pro recovery, but I realize I am a hypocrite because I don't want recovery and I know it's hard but it's worth a shot. If you're not up to it, i understand, we can die thin together/ or apart if you still hate me. Idc, but I have to try to make someone better. And anorexia may seem like your friend but it is hell, I remember when I used to eat like nothing, but now I seem to see nothing else but numbers in my food. Good day, is all I'd like to say, because over night I'd like to say I matured, not sure though, because I have nothing but respect towards you.
You really should try to stop. You just have to stop listening to that little voice that tells you you’re not enough.
Guess who's back
Back again
Ana's back
Tell a friend
Hi my name is Healthy and I'm here to save you
Very smart of you to call me
We will work together and you will exist again
You'll have legs eventually
I want you to embrace me
I will help you to control
I won't hurt like Ana
I will give you back your soul
It will give you a good body
It is painted in your personality
Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know
Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh
Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies
Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness
You will feel okay
You will feel okay
So just be a good person and please follow my rules
Don't forget you're taking over
Existing is what you'll be in no time if you're
Taking your life back
I want you to embrace me
I will make you honest again
I won't hurt like Ana
I will give you back your soul
Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know
Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh
Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies
Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness
You will feel worth it
You will feel worth it
You won't be your enemy
You will find yourself in me
You are perfect
Perfect to the bone, to the soul to the I don't know
Perfect to the core, to the fat and oh
Perfect every hour, honest, no more lies
Perfect without Ana, Mia, depression, anything, you'll have a consciousness
You will feel worth it
You will feel worth it
You're already perfect
Eeyore Piglet
Eeyore Piglet Felt myself relapsing recently and then read your comment, thankyou it made me feel better.
This really helped.. I can’t tell you how much you did just by writing a comment... I’m attempting to recover but I can’t get the image of the “perfect” body out of my head.. this made me forget it. Even if it was just for a bit.
This has me sobbing
I love u
look who’s back again.
yeah❤️🥰
I've been listening to this on repeat for like two days
I couldn't care less tbh.
So have I think its a habbit to hit the replay button
I couldn't care less tbh SAME
Yep me too
I’m not the only one, I was beginning to feel a little crazy replaying it over and over but there’s something about it that’s so comforting!
I remember when I promised never to befriend Ana
WELP THATS OUT THE WINDOW
Hi I know exactly how u feel if u want an ana buddy u could give me ur email and I can text u.
Same I know you feel
right !
Same, I used to think (when I was younger, like, 8 yrs old) “why don’t they just eat?” And I didn’t understand it at all. But then look at me now, been a victim of it for 2 years and relapsing again
We are best friends for only one week spans... I miss and need her so much when she leaves...she helps me go numb.
(DO NOT LIKE THIS! I CAN’T HAVE A NOTIFICATION SHOWING ON MY YT!)
Ana she will find you no matter where you go
No matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow
The eye in the storm the cry in the morn,
You're fine for a while but then start to loose control,
Ana's there in the dark
She's there in my heart
She waits in the winds
She's gotta play a part
Ana is a friend
Yeah Ana is a friend of mine
Ana is a friend but Ana is a foe
And no matter what I feed her she always seems to grow
She sees what I see and she knows what I know,
So don't forget as you ease on down the road
Trouble is a friend - Lenka
Ana is not a friend but she is mostly just a voice in your head.
This sucks, I thought I gave up on this three years ago look who's back.
You can save yourself. Think why did you stop or who for. Ana won't defeat you unless you let her win x
LOVE YOURSELF NAMJOON WANTS YOU TO BE HEALTHY.
Namjoon would kill u if he find out u are not loving yourself😂
I am calling president namjoon on u
Don’t relapse it’s not worth it. Keep going with recovery x
who else thinks of Emma Chota?
me
I wish there was season 2
Sam McCall me
Obviously
Sam McCall me
Ana, Mia & Ortho are the Nervosa siblings!!
Am I the only one who realizes this??
So Ana and Mia i understand, but what is ortho
@@thatoneanonymous2251 orthorexia (im not sure if I spelt it correctly tho)
That one Anonymous orthorexia is obsession with eating healthy
@@ggukie_jn7206 oh ok thanks for explaining :)
What's Mia?-
Throwback to when i was was ana af... I know nobody wants to hear this but recovery is v possible i know it's super hard but it is possible and v worth it!!Stay strong friends |-/
Phan Trash Number 2 fren |-/
Phan Trash Number 2 Ana has 'attached' herself to me...I haven't known her very long...but I don't know how to unfriend her...but I'm still here 👍
Phan Trash Number 2 stay alive ||-//
I know, but I feel like i would deserv it.
Siegbert Schnösel no body deserves Ana it is a disease but it also a curse
I dont have Ana but I have Rex (the male version of Ana)
They are literally the same thing-
They are the exact same thing.. -_-
spookden i think they meant they have a male voice in their head, like, you can have a female voice (ana) or a male voice (rex) OF COURSE it's still anorexia, so calm down guys :)
spookden bitch I named mine Humphrey fdhjtdgjfd
@@melaniemanson4379 exactly! thank you for not being a dumbass
it’s like it’s attached to me, i always run back to it...this song brain washes me i swear.
For anyone wondering about the artist, her name is Mi Helaskoski. Her music isnt on spotify or yt music but you can find her on youtube and she does have a couple other song although I think she may have stopped making music as I cannot find anything about her recently, all her comments and videos are from 3+ years ago.
The amount of people in the comment section who have struggled with anorexia and/or still do makes me so sad...
I listen to this song everyday and replay the words in my head when I feel hungry. Whenever someone asks me why I’m not eating I just say that I already ate or that I’m not hungry. My family and friends just congratulate me for being able to lose weight, no one suspects a thing.
They will. I used to be just like that, and this time around losing weight is so much harder because people are catching on 100 times as fast. Being able to hide it is not going to last forever.
When she says her name is Ana is that 4 Anorexia?
+Elizabeth Panikar Yep
It´s like the voice of Anorexia is singing the song and it´s talking to you
+Karla Castillo YOU RUINED EVERYTHING
+Karla Castillo missy moo what's anorexia?
Anorexia is a eating disorder, a disease
+Karla Castillo its not a disease
I'd rather die from my eating disorder than die from attempting again. I hate my body so I try to lose weight because maybe then I'll get rid of the hatred for myself not only that but I might receive praise and love for my new body, I might have someone think I'm beautiful.
We don't want people to tell us what's good for us. We don't want them to tell us to "just eat" or that "it's all in our heads." We've heard it all before. We want to suffer and we want to change ourselves into this dangerous, idealistic body and show them that we are the only ones allowed to hurt us anymore.
But look back at who you used to be. You were young, and you were hurting. You remember who you were as a child, and you remember your pain. Crying, alone or with people who hardly seemed to care. Sometimes you damned the world for always seeming to be aimed against you. Even knowing how much that child used to hurt, do you still want to make them suffer? Do they deserve to feel this pain, too?
You're the only one who will ever know your own, personal pain. There are thousands of people who fight Ana everyday, and there are people waiting with open arms to catch you when you fall, even if they sometimes struggle to understand how this disease even works. But you are the only person who can tell you to stop. And, chances are you don't want to- full heartedly, at least. You never did this thinking it'd feel good. If anything, you wanted it to hurt. But you don't deserve this pain, no matter how much you want it and how much you think you do. And the child you used to be doesn't deserve it, either. So, even if it's hard to stop for yourself, always try for them, because no one knows your suffering like you do, and it's never too late to start giving that child the happiness they were always so desperate for.
This song is beautiful, by the way. Hard hitting and a little bit emotionally taxing, but beautiful. Thought I'd throw that in. Good luck, you wonderful people. Don't let your scars dictate who you are, whether they're inside or out.
Ana won’t leave me alone ☹️
It's going to be hard for awhile, but always keep fighting. You're so much better than she says you are, and you're well worth the work it's going to take to move past her. Just focus on getting a little bit better each day.
Missing Eye yeah it’s hard
I saw your comment and I have been dealing with anorexia for 4 years. I got over it but I’m still extremely depressed. Please eat. Ana is not your friend I promise. I know that better than anyone. I’m not going to try to force you to eat but can you please talk to me
Anna Eve my snap is @shannon_mairex
When it said
"Hi my name is Ana and I am here to save you
Very smart of you to call me"
Did it remind anyone else about Annabeth chase form Percy Jackson?
Yes
NemmanieVlogs ! Totally😂 percy wouldn t survive without annabeth
now im just wondering what would happen if annabeth sang this to percy ._.
Philip Hamilton I told myself I wouldn’t but
Oof.
@@akidoesrandomthings9125 Philip you shine brighter than the morning sun my son
I've been listening to songs like this whenever I feel hungry.
The song basically tells you how horrible and consuming ana is but I feel like that's exactly what I need. Pain is comfort for me. It mirrors the way I'm feeling, my goals and my flaws. It gives me purpose, and control idk....
this needs to go on spotify !! i absolutely love this song
Who else doesn't have anorexia but still likes the song? I can't be the only one.
Echo Productions same
Echo Productions Same,But There is a small line between low self-esteem and Anorexia for me.I mean I simply feel insecure,ugly and not hot and I sometimes hate my body
bulimic here. still love the song tho
Echo Productions me
Same
I showed my best friend this and she didn't get it.
Dumbass
Good, normal people arent supposed to get it.
Didn’t she read the beginning lol
Mmmmmm. But , only ana community can get it😜
I AM AN EX ANA, I GET IT 100%
Everytime I hear this it feels like I'm being hypnotised and it kinda feels good because I know with anas help I can have all the control I want
this song did nothing but add to my ED. if you are here listening to this song, please stop immediately. 8 years later and i will never heal. i had a child and still weigh less than i did in 7th grade. please
Wow...this song brings back a lot of memories, especially when my ED was at it's peak when I was 15/16. I'm 20 now and these past few months I've been slipping back down the rabbit hole again. Hearing this song makes me feel....weird. Both a good and bad kind of weird.
Don’t fall back into the rabbit hole!! SENDING LOVE AND LIGHT YOUR WAY🥺❤️
Anorexia aside, as a musician I LOVE the rhythms, voicing, harmonies, blending of the chorus. Such a bop
i think it‘s not normal that I watch this almost every evening..
The voice is so soothing and sweet just like Ana herself
This is really helping me not eat its really nice actually thank you
Am I the only one that listens to this song when they are about to eat something? Or binge excetera it makes me forget about eating is this bad?
Right now
It is bad, but who am I to talk!
me
I’m doing that right now...
I was gonna go make noodles 🍝. Not anymore
two years after making that comment: here i am 7 kgs over my weight loss. i am relapsing and two days into this relapse, i already feel faint. this disorder never escapes you, unless u get the proper help you need. you cannot DIY or bullshit your recovery. get the help you need and yes even take time off of everything to recover. you will regret it otherwise. dont brush your ed under the bus, even if you think you miracoulsly recovered.
Please het help, i am listening to this song for the feeling that i have come far in my recovery. I can talk to you if you want.
are months of treatment my heart still isn't doing so well yet I continue to listen to ana. she's just so comforting you know and welcoming
For me Ana is like that kid my parents forced me to hang out with that I never cared about. Now as a young adult I still hang out with her simply due to the familiarity of her presents.
You know it's getting bad when you're here again
Here I am being Bulimic and jealous that anorexics get all the best songs lmao
Hope you get better ♥..you're beautiful no matter what people think of you
Whoretex • yup we left out
Σκατά τον κόσμο ..γεια
hahahahahahaha
XD same
wish I could be like the others and say that I'm listening to this and remembering the times when I had an ED, but instead I'm in the midst of my n-th relapse in those past five or so years. I'm honestly so impressed with all of you who have chosen recovery. I don't know when I'll have the strength to do it myself, but hopefully soon since college is definitely not a good time to be going throught this bs.
that being said, finding this song again after all those years feels like coming back home from a long journey.
hope ur doing well :(
Her gentle, fairy like voice makes the subject matter extra chilling.
White monster cans stacking, falling asleep in your sweaty clothes, or waking up feeling like you're freezing to death. First thing you eat in 3 days is a single tomato, later you find yourself crying beside the toilet.
Why are these such scary, but still comforting memories.
I’m scared because I actually like this song... and I can kind of relate to it
I'm really sorry for anyone who's relapsing again, here, have a huggie (⊃。; ‿ ;。)⊃
This song makes me feel how I did in the peak of my eating disorder. Ohmygod im going to cry
I tried to be anorexic, then I realized I have an eating disorder-- I can't STOP.
This song was to help me stop overeating....but it just made me sad and proud lmao
Society: dont eat u will get fat
Society: eat something anorexic freak
Society: oh not that that makes u fat
Society: let's but everyone against u
Society: what do u think ur doing crying urself to sleep
Society: dont be depressed know one likes that
Society: stop cutting that's not good!
Society: Do what u got to do know one cares!!
••••dies••••
Society: U will be greatly missed
Look what society has done to us
I remember listening to this when I felt hungry. If you’re struggling and watching this, I’m here for you.
this song makes me forget about my hunger
Same
Same
i hope youre doing well ❤