It's actually crazy how similar our lives are and how much I relate to you: never really being able to fit in, desperately not wanting to drop out, wanting to find satisfaction in your career, thinking that you knew what you want only to find out you actually didn't. Except in my journey I found that my mental health was so on the deep end that it might have affected my entire experience and I would have never known lest I stopped being denial and actually started getting help. I really appreciate the genuine discussion, and I'm hoping that you're able to live a little bit more "recklessly" going forward
Wow!! You are so kind and this makes me so happy to hear you found your own path too :)) and yes getting help wherever you can is so so needed! I found so many benefits in that too
Good for you, girl! I could not figure out what I wanted to do and decided I needed to just get something. I wanted to feel normal and fit into society. I let other people sway what I thought would be good for me. After 7 years I finally got my degree...in something that burned me out, and I still don't even work in that field. I did for a short time, but I had developed subtle trauma from school and could not keep up. I felt so much shame, fear, and misalignment, I started developing an autoimmune disorder and chronic fatigue. And yeah, I whole heartedly believe this was one of the main contributors to my health problems. I don't work currently and am now healing. You have such a good head on your shoulders. Keep following your instincts! College isn't for everyone and it IS expensive. It takes bravery to go against the grain and honor your values. I wish I could have heard this message years ago, but everyone is on a journey and I am a firm believer in things happening for a reason. :)
dude I’m turning 26 years old this year and I’m currently attempting university for the 3rd time. I’ve changed my majors to an embarrassing degree (started out with journalism 💀. And I haven’t declared too many majors officially; I’m just taking prerequisites for Finance now). Luckily I’m in a very fortunate financial situation with my parents, but I hate my school. I don’t feel like I fit in at ALL. Sometimes I wonder if things would be different if I lived on campus. All I know is that I’d be in debt. Watching this video helped me accept that it’s okay “not being normal.” I think that’s cool as duck. Normal is boring, and lord have mercy if I have to be like everyone else. The best thing that I can say is keep exposing yourself to different interests. I’m currently working at a movie theater and I LOVE movies. I wanna work in the business side of the film industry if that’s possible. Anyway, forgive me for rambling ;-; I just resonated with your video is all. You’re pretty cool! Please take care
I'm your 50th subscriber! I dropped out of college recently for the reason to chase my dreams and ambitions. I realised that I was going to college for others, for family, parents, etc. And not for me. However ofcourse I don't reccommend dropping out without knowing where you would want to go, If you take risks into a direction you've always wanted then take it because life is short, take a chance ❤
psssst im your 29th :)) wow it is so cool to find other people who are on the same boat as me :) Your comment made my day Hi new friend! Let's connect!
I went to hair school after high school, lost my passion and I'm a introvert and not a talker, still not a licensed stylist but I gained a valuable skill. I've since only taken a photography course to learn to use my camera and learn dark room (so fun!!) and an online university entry level and didn't finish the first year. I never saw the point of wasting money at uni/college and no clue what I'd take!! nothing interests me and school is a struggle! no shame, I work as a manager at work and travelled the world, worth it!
I dropped out of freaking Floral Design mid-year after barely graduating high school (literally only made it because I swapped to an alt school in senior year!) Because I had undiagnosed Autism and ADHD not to mention my physical disabilities of EDS and POTS which were also undiagnosed at the time. It was mostly the neurodivergencies that made me unable to handle college though 😭 now I'm a mom and babysitter, never even need my high school diploma for anything, and my life is good and fulfilling.
I’m so happy I watched this video, this is my first year of college and last semester I went to a university straight out of high school and had this big vision for it that it was going to be fun and I was going to make a lot of friends and this and that. But actually being there and after the 1st month it quickly changes and I felt like exactly how u said I felt like I was wasting my time and was doing a major just for the sake of it, they didn’t have nursing program and had biology so I was doing something else, I met a few cool people from my dorm mates that I’m actually very happy I met, they where some genuinely cool good people to hang with. But besides those people I didn’t feel like I aligned and I swear it felt like the days where so slow and I was just dreading every single day. I only lasted 2 months and dropped out, so u doing 5 months is really good! overall i felt like it could have gone a differenr way but it didnt. now im back home second semster doing community college and its going okay, still havent made any new friends lol, (kinda my fault i chose all online classes and stay at home most the time 😅) i just feel like a mess this whole year. I do however want to give myself the shot of getting a degree because i would like to do something in ghe health field as of rn… but anyways it was nice to hear someone going through a similar expiernce and feelings, loved the video!
Can I ask what you do now or plan to do? The only thing that's stopping me is the "what if" in finding a good job and stuff in college. But all of the "good jobs" that I'm offered sounds incredibly boring and soul crushing. I want to try something else, but don't want to be stuck at a minimum wage job or fast food restaurant for the rest of my life because of financial reasons (obviously I have tons of respect for the people that do work at these places and in these roles, but I know it would personally be just as bad as working a 9 to 5 office job my degree offers). I want to feel secure in what I would do without college before dropping out of something I know I won't try to finish later on in my life as it is so so mentally draining. In other words- How do you be...reckless?
honestly, i'm still figuring out how to be reckless myself. However depending on your major, a well paying job out of college isn't exactly a surefire secure thing either. That was true for me in my majors that I found I was the most skilled at-- that's a big reason why I chose to stop attending university. To be honest there are a lot of jobs I didn't even know existed until I went out there and did some research and gained some experience. Had I known of these career paths, I would have made much different decisions in my time at college. As soon as I stopped comparing my "career" path with others and spent some time actually trying some jobs out and meeting different kinds of people and seeing their lifestyles, it gave me a lot of perspective on what I want in life and how best to achieve that.
@MoonBeamsWorld Thank you, I've been thinking about trying out some little jobs at farms and markets to see how viable that path could be for me. I talk to my advisor tomorrow to see what I can do from here! Thanks for giving me a second opinion and a different outlook.
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If it ain't the right fit, don't wear it. You can go back as a mature student...that's what I did.
Yes! The options always there that’s the great thing :)
It's actually crazy how similar our lives are and how much I relate to you: never really being able to fit in, desperately not wanting to drop out, wanting to find satisfaction in your career, thinking that you knew what you want only to find out you actually didn't. Except in my journey I found that my mental health was so on the deep end that it might have affected my entire experience and I would have never known lest I stopped being denial and actually started getting help. I really appreciate the genuine discussion, and I'm hoping that you're able to live a little bit more "recklessly" going forward
Wow!! You are so kind and this makes me so happy to hear you found your own path too :)) and yes getting help wherever you can is so so needed! I found so many benefits in that too
Good for you, girl! I could not figure out what I wanted to do and decided I needed to just get something. I wanted to feel normal and fit into society. I let other people sway what I thought would be good for me. After 7 years I finally got my degree...in something that burned me out, and I still don't even work in that field. I did for a short time, but I had developed subtle trauma from school and could not keep up. I felt so much shame, fear, and misalignment, I started developing an autoimmune disorder and chronic fatigue. And yeah, I whole heartedly believe this was one of the main contributors to my health problems. I don't work currently and am now healing. You have such a good head on your shoulders. Keep following your instincts! College isn't for everyone and it IS expensive. It takes bravery to go against the grain and honor your values. I wish I could have heard this message years ago, but everyone is on a journey and I am a firm believer in things happening for a reason. :)
Wow thank you so much for this comment it was incredibly nice and interesting to read. I wish you the best of luck on your healing journey 💗much loves
dude I’m turning 26 years old this year and I’m currently attempting university for the 3rd time. I’ve changed my majors to an embarrassing degree (started out with journalism 💀. And I haven’t declared too many majors officially; I’m just taking prerequisites for Finance now). Luckily I’m in a very fortunate financial situation with my parents, but I hate my school. I don’t feel like I fit in at ALL.
Sometimes I wonder if things would be different if I lived on campus. All I know is that I’d be in debt. Watching this video helped me accept that it’s okay “not being normal.” I think that’s cool as duck. Normal is boring, and lord have mercy if I have to be like everyone else.
The best thing that I can say is keep exposing yourself to different interests. I’m currently working at a movie theater and I LOVE movies. I wanna work in the business side of the film industry if that’s possible.
Anyway, forgive me for rambling ;-; I just resonated with your video is all. You’re pretty cool! Please take care
thank you for your rambles!!!!!
Something I think a lot of people need to hear ❤ thanks for sharing!
Thanks for listening! :))
LIVING RECKLESS resonates with me so much 🌻
I'm your 50th subscriber! I dropped out of college recently for the reason to chase my dreams and ambitions. I realised that I was going to college for others, for family, parents, etc. And not for me. However ofcourse I don't reccommend dropping out without knowing where you would want to go, If you take risks into a direction you've always wanted then take it because life is short, take a chance ❤
psssst im your 29th :)) wow it is so cool to find other people who are on the same boat as me :) Your comment made my day Hi new friend! Let's connect!
I went to hair school after high school, lost my passion and I'm a introvert and not a talker, still not a licensed stylist but I gained a valuable skill.
I've since only taken a photography course to learn to use my camera and learn dark room (so fun!!) and an online university entry level and didn't finish the first year.
I never saw the point of wasting money at uni/college and no clue what I'd take!! nothing interests me and school is a struggle!
no shame, I work as a manager at work and travelled the world, worth it!
I dropped out of freaking Floral Design mid-year after barely graduating high school (literally only made it because I swapped to an alt school in senior year!) Because I had undiagnosed Autism and ADHD not to mention my physical disabilities of EDS and POTS which were also undiagnosed at the time. It was mostly the neurodivergencies that made me unable to handle college though 😭 now I'm a mom and babysitter, never even need my high school diploma for anything, and my life is good and fulfilling.
Keep making videos you’re editing is nice
Thank you I will :)
Lucky for us both Reckless is my middle name!
HAHA I'm happy to join the club!
It's good to know that im not the only person who feels this way😊
I’m so happy I watched this video, this is my first year of college and last semester I went to a university straight out of high school and had this big vision for it that it was going to be fun and I was going to make a lot of friends and this and that. But actually being there and after the 1st month it quickly changes and I felt like exactly how u said I felt like I was wasting my time and was doing a major just for the sake of it, they didn’t have nursing program and had biology so I was doing something else, I met a few cool people from my dorm mates that I’m actually very happy I met, they where some genuinely cool good people to hang with. But besides those people I didn’t feel like I aligned and I swear it felt like the days where so slow and I was just dreading every single day. I only lasted 2 months and dropped out, so u doing 5 months is really good! overall i felt like it could have gone a differenr way but it didnt. now im back home second semster doing community college and its going okay, still havent made any new friends lol, (kinda my fault i chose all online classes and stay at home most the time 😅) i just feel like a mess this whole year. I do however want to give myself the shot of getting a degree because i would like to do something in ghe health field as of rn… but anyways it was nice to hear someone going through a similar expiernce and feelings, loved the video!
wow thank you so much for this comment
I really like your videos :) feels like a FaceTime lol
That's such a complimennnttt tyyyy
Can I ask what you do now or plan to do? The only thing that's stopping me is the "what if" in finding a good job and stuff in college. But all of the "good jobs" that I'm offered sounds incredibly boring and soul crushing. I want to try something else, but don't want to be stuck at a minimum wage job or fast food restaurant for the rest of my life because of financial reasons (obviously I have tons of respect for the people that do work at these places and in these roles, but I know it would personally be just as bad as working a 9 to 5 office job my degree offers). I want to feel secure in what I would do without college before dropping out of something I know I won't try to finish later on in my life as it is so so mentally draining.
In other words- How do you be...reckless?
honestly, i'm still figuring out how to be reckless myself. However depending on your major, a well paying job out of college isn't exactly a surefire secure thing either. That was true for me in my majors that I found I was the most skilled at-- that's a big reason why I chose to stop attending university. To be honest there are a lot of jobs I didn't even know existed until I went out there and did some research and gained some experience. Had I known of these career paths, I would have made much different decisions in my time at college. As soon as I stopped comparing my "career" path with others and spent some time actually trying some jobs out and meeting different kinds of people and seeing their lifestyles, it gave me a lot of perspective on what I want in life and how best to achieve that.
@MoonBeamsWorld Thank you, I've been thinking about trying out some little jobs at farms and markets to see how viable that path could be for me. I talk to my advisor tomorrow to see what I can do from here! Thanks for giving me a second opinion and a different outlook.
How did you afford to move out for college if you can’t do it now, was it loans?
had some help with partial academic scholarships but it was still a pretty penny