I like how this channel is used not just to upload music but also for more creative expressions of visual, music, and diary. With such a cinematic flavor I greatly appreciate and not to mention the lovely editing. This video has just made my birthday better so yaaay for Ethel
yes it’s all mother and shes my religious truama and etc etc etc but genuinely hayden’s craft is absolutely insane and the way she is the most beautiful combination of everything she adores is breathtaking. I will always be endlessly inspired by her work and others like searows, florence, skullcrusher, nicole dollanganger and so many others
My mom is going through a psychosis or is developing schizophrenia and I’ve never been this scared or have had this much anxiety, she thinks people are out to get her (physically harm her). After each time she completely loses her mind she’ll go into a catatonic state and I take care of her, and I take care of my little brother who is autistic, we stay with my elderly grandmother (the only person that’s ever been there for me).. I say all of this to thank you Ethel, without music I don’t know what I would do. If you ever have a show in Alabama I’ll be there 🙏🏼💕ily stay safe and stay cool
Thinking of you love, been there too with my mother it's soul destroying, my dads an alcoholic with personality disorders and suspected Aspergers aswell, he lost his wife 2 yr bk too ❤ Going through my own thing now too at 41, thanks to peri-menopause and chronic illness, we got this and I'm proud of you 💕 I've two kids too we're all neurodivergent/Autistic/ADHD (plus BPD for me aswell) Sending love to all who need it 💜 🧡 💚
My heart goes out to you and I can empathize with you. My grandmother was really my mom and I took care of her the last 11 years of her life. She was the only one in my family who truly loved me unconditionally. Losing her was soul crushing. Then this past February I lost my fiancée of 7 years. He died in his sleep for unknown reasons. We were planning on getting married this June. Finally I was going to get married!! We were also saving money to move to a new town in our county so this entire year’s planning and my entire future was stolen from me in the blink of an eye. I say all this so you know that I truly do empathize with you girl. This post is 5 months old. I hope you are still thriving not just surviving because I am merely surviving right now. I will keep you in my prayers. 💜💜💯🌙☀️🎹🎼👑🫶
Ethel has given me so much strength behind closed doors as a trans woman from a backwards upbringing and background. Because of a lot of my online presence, I do not have the current power or support to be able to step into the skin I wish I could live in eternally. But when the thoughts get heaviest, music and art helps the pain subside somewhat. Ethel's been a massive part of that this year for me. When I first heard her music, it was genuinely full-body, and I felt like I was understood and heard, and not so damn isolated in this world. We are all limited, but nothing is ever forever and no hurt is always permanent. Thank you for all you've done through your music, Ethel. You have healed so much of an inner child in me that needed to her your words a long time ago, and bound those words with memories I've cherished this year. It's been a dark one, but I know there's a brightness on the other side. I can't wait to see where your projects--and more importantly, this gorgeous community you have build, who I've met countless friends through--lead you next on this wild journey. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
That's one of the most genuine and sweet things I've gotten to read in a while. Congratulations on your journey and being brave enough to begin down that path. I saw you had a channel and subbed. While I don't listen to much metal anymore except for some post-metal bands, I always love hearing something new along with thoughtful breakdowns and critiques of music and the cultures that surround it. I was an electronic/noise musician for a long time before I took a Roland Juno-106 to the knee. Can't wait to dig into your content, although I was a wee bit sad I didn't see a single review for a HEALTH album. The entire Ethel Caine project got me right through the guts the first time I heard it as well. While I am hetero CIS scum, I am also southern and a survivor of abuse/trauma from an early age, so I immediately got where I felt much of her music as Ethel originated. Those uniquely southern flavors of abuse, alienation, redneck hypermasculinity, isolation, religious guilt, and that oppressive trend south of the Mason-Dixon to make secret anything and everything that isn't white, Christian, hetero, and blandly status quo.
I was not expecting that intro. I recently lost my mother and find myself speaking to a different realm. I was feeling very low yesterday and that introduction felt like a warm but distant hug. I find a comforting loneliness in my drives and this felt very similar to how I see and live my life. Thank you for sharing Hayden.
I don’t know if you saw my previous comment but my mom is going through some kind of psychosis it’s horrifying. She’s only 36 years old and I feel like this is the end, I’m 19 living with my grandmother (the only person I have to talk to) and my autistic brother whom I also take care of. I feel like I’m basically fucked. I send you love and healing my friend🙏🏼🖤💛
so beautiful to see you show this part of the midwest and capture the way it feels. rusted metal, brown deers, quiet rivers and nights and cornfields, placidity and fear and longing- its own language and poetry ❤️ hope it’s keeping u safe and showing u its secrets
i love seeing the world through your eye, its truly mystical and wonderful yet mundane and simple all at once. it reminds me that maybe i can see my world like that too, the stillness of life in the dark isnt lonely and scary but rather peaceful and the glow of yellow street lights, those too can be the most beautiful stars.
I don't know what this is... An instrumental to a new song? A demo? And idea Hayden just conjured and was like...listen to THIS? I don't know. But this is way too gorgeous and perfect and emotive for how hilariously simple it is. She has SUCH a skill in writing the most simple...songs. In a way that conveys more emotive power than anything else around. It's not just emotional intelligence...it's that, but it's also a really intuitive genius for songwriting and arranging and crafting...a song. She's a stone cold genius. And this seemingly simple piece of audio...is proof of that. There's literally infinite potential on top of that bed of sound...most people can't do THAT.
Wow, beautiful- it’s like I can feel what you feel but not quite. I like the way you film, it’s personal but we still all feel something for it. Complex.
Hi Ethel, I’ll write a little something here and I hope it can make you smile in case you read it ❤. I’ve become a fan of yours this year, I was just looking trough the Spotify’s recommended albums and preacher’s daughter popped up out of nowhere, at first I listened to ptolemaea and American teenager, needless to say I fell in love with them. After listening to your whole discography I fell in love with hard times which was the reason I finally wrote a song I had been trying to put into words for a year, for context: I’ve been writing songs for 1 and a half year and there was this song called “Open wound” that I started writing from the very beginning and I would rewrite times and times again because it never felt right. One day, after listening to hard times I finally got it out of my head, it was there in front of my eyes, and I finally have it saved in my notes app with all the other songs. I’m young, and you’re helping trough so many things you have no idea, there’s this one thing I haven’t talked about with anyone at all, barely even with myself, but I’m starting to feel more like a woman than a man and months ago I felt like I just had to suffocate that feeling and keep living my life the way I am, and even though I know many transgender celebrities and singers you just twisted something in me, I don’t know how or why but you just did, I’m finally starting to take in consideration this feeling and I am so happy I found you, you’re really helping me out in ways I never though a singer could. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you deserve the world. (This was really brief and dull but I just hope you know how many people you save everyday, it’s incredible, I really look up to you in ways I never have before)🫶
Since first hearing your music my Pentecostal raised converted Catholic Boomer brain finds itself once again intrigued with what I see and hear. However, one commenter mentioned Ashmedai, of which I never associated with your music. And don’t ever care to. Peace. 🙏🏼
I don't know who's channel this is or what was going on while I was watching the video, but I suddenly felt overcome by emotion and just burst out crying. Thank you to whoever made this, it is beautiful
Please check out the album Preachers daughter by Ethel Cain. Ethel is a character made by Hayden Anhedonia with a wilddd story. this track is from her ambient side project ashmedai
Beautiful stuff .. For some reason it made me think of the track on that Faming Lips record The Soft Bulletin 'The Observer' ... empty dark streets in some bleak podunk town peppered with industrial towers.. awesome atmosphere
Completely random but I got hit by a wild boar tonight while listening to “Thoroughfare” & was stuck alone on the side of the road for a few hours (low on gas, at 10% while on a country road that wouldn’t show up on the map so no one could find me for several hours x) & honestly, that shit went fucking hard. Am I partially traumatized, yes. But now I have a fun little memory to think abt every time I listen to one of my favorite songs. Plus is felt very Ethel Cain coded. Anyways, this is so fucking good ✝️
Ethel Cain, you have been an inspiration for me to make music myself for a long while now. Thank you for everything you do. Your expert songwriting, visualization, topic-choosing, and beautiful voice are spectacular. And also as a queer person who is religious - your music is very comforting for me. Love to all Naed Rose
ive listened to the ambient/spatial tracks you've released on soundlcloud and I am quite excited for a full release if there will be one. Regardless, the set of ambient songs you've put out (the double 0 series) are amazing and kicks an itch in me that only ambient music can. thank you for taking us here to this place with you, thank you for experimenting and dabbling in this lovely genre of music where the lack of words is a saving grace, a chance to think and reflect.
Mother, the greatest hero of our time, is out hunting cryptids. Watch out Pennsylvania mythical creatures, her blades are as sharp as her wit. Squonk, Raystown Ray, the Giwoggle, Not Deer, Ape Boy, and even John Fetterman don't stand a chance with Mother on the hunt.
@@alpha8here As much as I can tell from the pictures of the mounted head on the wall of Mother's den, maybe. To find out the real answer you would have to track down a surviving Pennsylvanian and, as we both know, that can be next to impossible these days.
on the way to my grandmas house out in the country, there were a couple big plants like that. i remember once, when were kids, we we on our way to visit. passing by that same plant, my young brother suddenly said, "look! they're making clouds!"
HOW HAS NO ONE NOTICED THAT THIS IS FROM THE INTRO TO LEGEND OF ZELDA: OCARINA OF TIME??? WHICH JUST HAD ITS 25 YEAR RELEASE ANNIVERSARY???
i literally just commented that and scrolled down and saw that you’ve commented the same thing and hayden has liked it lmao
I like how this channel is used not just to upload music but also for more creative expressions of visual, music, and diary. With such a cinematic flavor I greatly appreciate and not to mention the lovely editing. This video has just made my birthday better so yaaay for Ethel
happy birthday❤
@@disruptionsoccur thank you, bless your heart
Happy (late) birthday i hope your day was lovely:-)
Always feel like a cult member with u 🤍
The taste that you have...
That’s not a good thing
@@another933 True :( I try my best to feel like a cult leader
OMG HIII 😍
after all these years u are still everywhere whats ur secret
PLZ LET THIS BE THE AESTHETIC OF THE NEXT ALBUM LIKE ID LITERALLY DIE
brutalist industrialisation is so hot
yes it’s all mother and shes my religious truama and etc etc etc but genuinely hayden’s craft is absolutely insane and the way she is the most beautiful combination of everything she adores is breathtaking. I will always be endlessly inspired by her work and others like searows, florence, skullcrusher, nicole dollanganger and so many others
My mom is going through a psychosis or is developing schizophrenia and I’ve never been this scared or have had this much anxiety, she thinks people are out to get her (physically harm her). After each time she completely loses her mind she’ll go into a catatonic state and I take care of her, and I take care of my little brother who is autistic, we stay with my elderly grandmother (the only person that’s ever been there for me).. I say all of this to thank you Ethel, without music I don’t know what I would do. If you ever have a show in Alabama I’ll be there 🙏🏼💕ily stay safe and stay cool
This really hit me. I Wish you the best for the future
@@daviaprilia50 thank you, same to you my friend 🌷💫
Thinking of you love, been there too with my mother it's soul destroying, my dads an alcoholic with personality disorders and suspected Aspergers aswell, he lost his wife 2 yr bk too ❤
Going through my own thing now too at 41, thanks to peri-menopause and chronic illness, we got this and I'm proud of you 💕 I've two kids too we're all neurodivergent/Autistic/ADHD (plus BPD for me aswell)
Sending love to all who need it 💜 🧡 💚
God bless you. Hope you and your family are all are doing the best you can. Ethel was there for me too when my mother had stage 4 pancreatic cancer.
My heart goes out to you and I can empathize with you. My grandmother was really my mom and I took care of her the last 11 years of her life. She was the only one in my family who truly loved me unconditionally. Losing her was soul crushing. Then this past February I lost my fiancée of 7 years. He died in his sleep for unknown reasons. We were planning on getting married this June. Finally I was going to get married!! We were also saving money to move to a new town in our county so this entire year’s planning and my entire future was stolen from me in the blink of an eye. I say all this so you know that I truly do empathize with you girl. This post is 5 months old. I hope you are still thriving not just surviving because I am merely surviving right now. I will keep you in my prayers. 💜💜💯🌙☀️🎹🎼👑🫶
Ethel has given me so much strength behind closed doors as a trans woman from a backwards upbringing and background. Because of a lot of my online presence, I do not have the current power or support to be able to step into the skin I wish I could live in eternally. But when the thoughts get heaviest, music and art helps the pain subside somewhat. Ethel's been a massive part of that this year for me. When I first heard her music, it was genuinely full-body, and I felt like I was understood and heard, and not so damn isolated in this world.
We are all limited, but nothing is ever forever and no hurt is always permanent.
Thank you for all you've done through your music, Ethel. You have healed so much of an inner child in me that needed to her your words a long time ago, and bound those words with memories I've cherished this year.
It's been a dark one, but I know there's a brightness on the other side.
I can't wait to see where your projects--and more importantly, this gorgeous community you have build, who I've met countless friends through--lead you next on this wild journey.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
i love you & wherever you are, i hope it is beautiful
You are loved always ❤ never give up ❤️
That's one of the most genuine and sweet things I've gotten to read in a while. Congratulations on your journey and being brave enough to begin down that path.
I saw you had a channel and subbed. While I don't listen to much metal anymore except for some post-metal bands, I always love hearing something new along with thoughtful breakdowns and critiques of music and the cultures that surround it. I was an electronic/noise musician for a long time before I took a Roland Juno-106 to the knee. Can't wait to dig into your content, although I was a wee bit sad I didn't see a single review for a HEALTH album.
The entire Ethel Caine project got me right through the guts the first time I heard it as well. While I am hetero CIS scum, I am also southern and a survivor of abuse/trauma from an early age, so I immediately got where I felt much of her music as Ethel originated. Those uniquely southern flavors of abuse, alienation, redneck hypermasculinity, isolation, religious guilt, and that oppressive trend south of the Mason-Dixon to make secret anything and everything that isn't white, Christian, hetero, and blandly status quo.
Thanks for posting and keeping up🖤
It kind of reminds me of the Twin Peaks intro. Love it ❤️
omg yes almost like a modern version, very lynchian very cool!!!
🦉the owls are not what they seem
I was thinking the same as soon as I saw the bridge. Waiting for Ronette Pulaski to walk across.
there’s something about your mind that amazes me so much. i could sit and watch these videos for hours. they’re so relaxing
Ocarina of Time is such a vital part of my psyche growing up. Crazy to have you use the melody like this, exciting stuff
omg thank god i noticed it too and i got so excited
Oh yea it is 😮
what I love about mother is her ability to romanticize what society either looks past or is disgusted by
I was not expecting that intro. I recently lost my mother and find myself speaking to a different realm. I was feeling very low yesterday and that introduction felt like a warm but distant hug. I find a comforting loneliness in my drives and this felt very similar to how I see and live my life. Thank you for sharing Hayden.
I don’t know if you saw my previous comment but my mom is going through some kind of psychosis it’s horrifying. She’s only 36 years old and I feel like this is the end, I’m 19 living with my grandmother (the only person I have to talk to) and my autistic brother whom I also take care of. I feel like I’m basically fucked. I send you love and healing my friend🙏🏼🖤💛
@@Im_lil_kennedyim sending u so much love❤
@@knuckleveIvet thank you 🙏🏼
Same here to you my friend 🫶🏻
Blessed be the daughter of cain 🙏🏻💗
you are such a gorgeous artist and im so excited for everything that's to come with what you put out 🩷
so beautiful to see you show this part of the midwest and capture the way it feels. rusted metal, brown deers, quiet rivers and nights and cornfields, placidity and fear and longing- its own language and poetry ❤️ hope it’s keeping u safe and showing u its secrets
Just discovered you today and I'm gonna kneel on my knees cause what the hell of an artist you are. I'm your new devotee now.
Welcome to the club. Her artistry is exceptional
i love seeing the world through your eye, its truly mystical and wonderful yet mundane and simple all at once. it reminds me that maybe i can see my world like that too, the stillness of life in the dark isnt lonely and scary but rather peaceful and the glow of yellow street lights, those too can be the most beautiful stars.
I left Appalachia and this took me right back.
a remix of ocarina of time in a video of yours is like my personal joker. loved the temples tho
I think this is my favourite ashmedai track from you i feel like it's drawing me into something. Probably not something good but I'd go
This being filmed in my home town is crazy. I’m living for it.
where is that
I don't know what this is...
An instrumental to a new song? A demo? And idea Hayden just conjured and was like...listen to THIS?
I don't know. But this is way too gorgeous and perfect and emotive for how hilariously simple it is.
She has SUCH a skill in writing the most simple...songs. In a way that conveys more emotive power than anything else around. It's not just emotional intelligence...it's that, but it's also a really intuitive genius for songwriting and arranging and crafting...a song. She's a stone cold genius. And this seemingly simple piece of audio...is proof of that. There's literally infinite potential on top of that bed of sound...most people can't do THAT.
this is from the main theme of the legend of Zelda ocarina of time!
is this song using a sample of zelda ocarina of time omg?
Mother Cain bout to ate like isaiah❤
Wow, beautiful- it’s like I can feel what you feel but not quite. I like the way you film, it’s personal but we still all feel something for it. Complex.
you always scare me and make me question my life in the best ways, love u !!!!
watched this at 4:52am and this absolutely completed me
love u mother ♡
she came out of isayahs stomach to feed her daughters. mother
...I lived in the "rust belt" PA + OH in the late '80's to early 90's ...used to wander around defunct steel mills etc. ...I really "get" this vibe...
So so sad the tumblr is deactivated but we want her to be happy and healthy so I’m sure it’s what was needed
been waiting for this since your last video , these feel so special please keep making videos i love what you have to share with us
Hi Ethel, I’ll write a little something here and I hope it can make you smile in case you read it ❤. I’ve become a fan of yours this year, I was just looking trough the Spotify’s recommended albums and preacher’s daughter popped up out of nowhere, at first I listened to ptolemaea and American teenager, needless to say I fell in love with them. After listening to your whole discography I fell in love with hard times which was the reason I finally wrote a song I had been trying to put into words for a year, for context: I’ve been writing songs for 1 and a half year and there was this song called “Open wound” that I started writing from the very beginning and I would rewrite times and times again because it never felt right. One day, after listening to hard times I finally got it out of my head, it was there in front of my eyes, and I finally have it saved in my notes app with all the other songs. I’m young, and you’re helping trough so many things you have no idea, there’s this one thing I haven’t talked about with anyone at all, barely even with myself, but I’m starting to feel more like a woman than a man and months ago I felt like I just had to suffocate that feeling and keep living my life the way I am, and even though I know many transgender celebrities and singers you just twisted something in me, I don’t know how or why but you just did, I’m finally starting to take in consideration this feeling and I am so happy I found you, you’re really helping me out in ways I never though a singer could. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you deserve the world. (This was really brief and dull but I just hope you know how many people you save everyday, it’s incredible, I really look up to you in ways I never have before)🫶
Lovely how you see the contrast of our temples to industry. Well done.
Beautiful. This gave me inner peace ❤
Since first hearing your music my Pentecostal raised converted Catholic Boomer brain finds itself once again intrigued with what I see and hear. However, one commenter mentioned Ashmedai, of which I never associated with your music. And don’t ever care to. Peace. 🙏🏼
thank you for your art angel, it impacts me every day
idk how to explain the vibe this gives me other than a surreal PBS interlude
so good! can't wait to see you make longer films !
Love you real lady lady 🫶🏻⭐️ Much grace. Many blessings.
I don't know who's channel this is or what was going on while I was watching the video, but I suddenly felt overcome by emotion and just burst out crying. Thank you to whoever made this, it is beautiful
Please check out the album Preachers daughter by Ethel Cain. Ethel is a character made by Hayden Anhedonia with a wilddd story. this track is from her ambient side project ashmedai
Love watching ur story and art unfold 🖤
Teeside is like a Cathedral like this, so beautiful, where Ridley Scott got inspiration for Blade Runner. nice
temples are the manual i want to read.
they give us the guide, we are then guided to possibilities of great magnitude
This Ethel Cain character is ethereal af
i love your instrumentals, they're so full of emotion and beauty
Hayden Anhedonia intuitively understands America.
IF THIS ISNT LEGEND OF ZELDA OCARINA OF TIME... BEAUTIFUL
it’s 6am this is exactly what i needed rn
pennsylvania is a secret treasure
this is incredible pls let it be the vibe of the next album 😭
i love this, i've been listening to this on repeat
OMG NEW ERA?
This is very beautiful and comforting. Love it. 🖤
Beautiful stuff .. For some reason it made me think of the track on that Faming Lips record The Soft Bulletin 'The Observer' ... empty dark streets in some bleak podunk town peppered with industrial towers.. awesome atmosphere
Thank you dear Ethel for create this atmospheres where our delusion feel less cold, god bless
Completely random but I got hit by a wild boar tonight while listening to “Thoroughfare” & was stuck alone on the side of the road for a few hours (low on gas, at 10% while on a country road that wouldn’t show up on the map so no one could find me for several hours x) & honestly, that shit went fucking hard. Am I partially traumatized, yes. But now I have a fun little memory to think abt every time I listen to one of my favorite songs. Plus is felt very Ethel Cain coded. Anyways, this is so fucking good ✝️
Ethel Cain, you have been an inspiration for me to make music myself for a long while now. Thank you for everything you do. Your expert songwriting, visualization, topic-choosing, and beautiful voice are spectacular. And also as a queer person who is religious - your music is very comforting for me. Love to all
Naed Rose
Watching you see America and find the art that rests there within her continues to heal me in such a surprising way. Love from Live Oak ❤️🔥🌱🐊
This has major driving back home after a long roadtrip vibe.
needed this so much today, love you
I didn't know I needed this until I did. wonderful.
the deer and diamond lights, nature and industry wed in the landscape, stark and hauntingly lovely, thank you so much
Love everything you do!
obsessed with ur artistic visions as always
I can smell Pittsburgh from this footage.
This is phenomenal, I love this sort of industrial Americana from passing by on the Amtrak.
ive listened to the ambient/spatial tracks you've released on soundlcloud and I am quite excited for a full release if there will be one. Regardless, the set of ambient songs you've put out (the double 0 series) are amazing and kicks an itch in me that only ambient music can. thank you for taking us here to this place with you, thank you for experimenting and dabbling in this lovely genre of music where the lack of words is a saving grace, a chance to think and reflect.
This made my year 🩶 beautiful piece as always
THE DAUGHTERS ARE SATTTTTTT
I very much enjoyed the chord progressions. Thank you.
this was so yummy to watch, I like roads and buildings and church architecture and deer and and..
feels like stepping into cold water. but like in a good way hihi.
the city's never dark, but im seeing stars
This makes my heart hurt in a good way
Mother, the greatest hero of our time, is out hunting cryptids. Watch out Pennsylvania mythical creatures, her blades are as sharp as her wit. Squonk, Raystown Ray, the Giwoggle, Not Deer, Ape Boy, and even John Fetterman don't stand a chance with Mother on the hunt.
Would Ape boy be the kid version of bigfoot? Lol
@@alpha8here As much as I can tell from the pictures of the mounted head on the wall of Mother's den, maybe. To find out the real answer you would have to track down a surviving Pennsylvanian and, as we both know, that can be next to impossible these days.
Hauntingly Beautiful ❤
Makes me nostalgic AF for the Paris of Appalachia.
beautiful as always
6:30 am this popped into my feed. BRILLIANT!
i fucking love this and these vibes ur so sick meemaw
Motherrr is this the starting of a new era???
no i think
This song is gorgeous
this is so fucking beautiful hayden. thanks for always giving us a little peak into your brilliant brain
Adore this. 💕
always breathtaking hayden
i really think that ethel is cooking something amazing
this made me feel so much peace
this reminds me of visiting my grandparents in appalachia :,)
Beautiful 🖤
this feels so comforting in a weird way (good way)
mother i am seizing with excitement
Revolutionary fr
i want to be just like you when I grow up
i feel like hayden really has helped me notice things in this life
ahhhh the pa landscape is so perfect for Ethels video
Ah, needed this
I love this legend of Zelda remix 💖
i hope she starts an actual cult so i can join it
"cult" brings attention to us in a negative manner, group, communion, fellowship, congregation, maybe?
@@LukeLFN no, we want a cult
on the way to my grandmas house out in the country, there were a couple big plants like that. i remember once, when were kids, we we on our way to visit. passing by that same plant, my young brother suddenly said, "look! they're making clouds!"
Gorgeous 🩵🩵🩵🩵