Awake In The Darkness | FULL Documentary by Aubrey Marcus
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- Опубликовано: 6 фев 2025
- Darkness retreat experience: A week in total darkness and isolation
I’ve had many difficult experiences, from relentless Ayahuasca sits, inescapable sweat lodges, biting mountain cold, and face-mangling car accidents. But never have I been broken like the darkness broke me. To spend a week in the black is indescribable. From the quiet, desperate solitude. The absolute fragility of your blindness. To the relentless endogenous DMT visions that fill the void with messages and horrors.
I have lived my life committed to sharing the truth, but this film is another level of vulnerability. I’ve never cried like this, prayed like this, or even laughed like this in front of anyone. Ultimately the darkness is the searchlight for all of our shadow. In my time spent in the black I understood how scared I was to love and be loved. How much of the world I had taken for granted. I understand now why this is one of the oldest ceremonies on earth.
In this director's cut, I also share for the first time the challenging relationship with my father, and the intensity of the moments surrounding his mental health collapse. All of which was woven into the fabric of this experience.
This Chakaruna Media documentary features Aubrey Marcus, Vylana Marcus, Ashkay Nanavati, Jamie Wheal, Kathy Shubin, Erick Godsey, Don Howard, Jon Dean, Bharati Gianert. Directed By Ben Stewart.
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Founder of Onnit and modern philosopher Aubrey Marcus asks the important questions: How do we find our purpose, wake up to who we truly are, have a few more laughs, and human being a little better?
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I' am in France, in the French Alps, my door is open to you, i love this brother for asking loud and clear for love, i know its not rare in spiritual circles, but sometimes, you find yourself back home in the Alps, after many decades, and these words are rare to hear, it deploys cascade of tears on my face, .....these words are the golden keys to peace...
Much love from America ❤
Sending you love my brother.❤
Je peux avoir de l'amour moi aussi ?
My Florence. My heart is always open to you. God bless you. Gregg Oreo Long Beach Ca Etats Unis
Hello From Florida ❤
I love the Carl Jung quote: "Life really does begin at 40. Everything before that is just research."
My awakening per say came in November last year after stumbling across one of your podcasts following ancient theory’s and history. I just want to say thank you for changing oh my world. Tons of other great mentors as well but you started mine and I feel connected to all of your videos! My sister loves your content as well. I’ve struggled with adhd but refuse meds. Ive never read a book to actually read it. I’m very artsy and well with my hands so I stay busy. I got your book tonight as the first book I’ve ever checked out at 33yrs old. Only 20 pages in and I actually got lost truly soaking in what I was reading. Your videos have helped me tremendously and continue to do so. Thank you for everything you do! Looking forward to owning my day tomorrow!
“You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it. Moulded by it” - Bane
Bane 😂
😆
Hilarious
Lol.. maybe he was onto something and just misunderstood?
I don’t think the dark causes you to mould. 😂
Aya taught me that some of us choose to learn in the darkness and some of us choose the light. There is no judgment to entertain here, everything is everything and everything is love.
Oh man, what a ride... !
Thank you, for sharing your vulnarability in such a honest and pure way.
The world desperately needs these kind of experiences (initiations) and people who are brave enough to share it.
Very touching, especially your emotions toward your father and your gratitude and relief for fully beeing back in this life at the end.
My deepest respect and gratitude towards you. 💝
Growing spiritually is being able to forgive anyone.....no matter how hard it is.
Sometimes it's almost impossible!
“Every time I don’t follow through I lose faith in myself, and I begin to not trust myself. Love yourself, and be honest.” 🙏
Yes, I thought that was the most powerful statement
After meditating many times and learning to astral project. I was lying in bed one night and meditating, not even trying or without thought I started seeing the energy move in my room, in the dark. I saw the air moving from my fan, my husbands breath from snoring lol, small little particles moving through the air. I sat up and realized I could make more energy and see it. I started shuffling my arms and saw the energy it created. It was phenomenal. Some of the most interesting things you’ll ever experience or see are from within ourselves.
GO TO CHRISTIAN ORTHODOX CHURCH AND STOP WITH THE OCCULT!!
GOD WILL SAVE YOUR LIFE,JESUS IS THE WAY,THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE!! ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT!!
AMIN!!
Wtf are you talking about? What does that have to do with the occult?
@@Revolusionist321 Occult only means hidden. Infra Red is hiiden. UltraViolet is hidden. From most of us. But some animals and even a few rare humans can see into that range.
Hidden does not mean evil, just that which most are not aware of.
Nothing to be feared.
@@Revolusionist321 amen* and nothing is pagan about the spirit inside of us
Sounds like symptoms of schizophrenia
Thank you Aubrey... Thank you very much. This was incredible to witness!
This is so important right now, thank you for all the inspiring aubrey. My life totally changed in the last years!
I'm new to your work, Aubrey, and honestly I thought you were just a bro. Boy, was I wrong! This is an incredible offering. Thank you and deep bow. 🙏📿🥰
I can just say Wow! just Wow! I’m grateful that I found your channel and that your courage and acceptance are just wow!
Thank you for sharing such a personal experience with such honesty! Love and light beautiful soul!❤
I love your podcasts but these documentaries seem to slip past my recommendations. It was really powerful to see more of your story and it's extremely powerful how you share your vulnerability publicly for anyone to be a part of. A message i think we all feel whether we acknowledge it or not.
What a beautiful, deep and honest account, visually so well done. It shows how much our minds are all the same. How much the human species is connected. How much deep compassion emerges from the time in the dark. I finished my 21 days darkness retreat in May in Northern Germany and found your video only now. Simply thank you for openly sharing your innermost.
You keep popping in and out of my sphere of co-creators, Aubrey. I've done everything you have and more, but THIS sounds like it is going to be the best ever. I loved the Kahlil Gibran quote. I never heard that quote before, and He's one of my favorite dead people. I am a combination of minister, life coach, and fortune teller. I don't expect anyone to follow me, but I do hope everyone starts listening to the call of what makes them happy, healthy and wealthy. It is a package deal, and the answer lies WITHIN,
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We are definitely here to grow....that can't be refuted.
What is we are all here because we are not ready to take part in being God yet, or part of God yet.
Very awesome video that brings some great and brilliant questions.
Who wants to get crazy!?
crying my fucking eyes out.
i lived in darkness for 7 years, regaining my sight for the last 6…. this last year has helped me to finally see. and this is the most beautiful documentary/video you’ve ever released and it’s power will move mountains.
How did that work out? Like could see, then you went literally blind, then regained your sight? How'd that all happen?
@@Str8murkufool17 ye how?
@@Str8murkufool17if she’s seeing impaired she might possibly not have the ability to have RUclips comments read for her? I’m not sure how that works honestly just kinda guessing
@@HonchoHundonah dog blind people usually just use a feature that reads it to them lol like voice to text
But yeah how tf were you seven years in the dark then six not then dark again? Idk I’m lost bro
Edit: nah I just checked her channel lol at the very least she wasn’t blind seven years ago so idk
@@AcidRap69 the internet need more investigative people like you, and less liars like Savannah.
I know you won't read this Aubrey and I'll say it anyway.
Thank you for sharing this journey.
You healed a fragmented part in me about my dad.
He found God and constantly shamed me for not believing and now I know it was because he never felt enough as he was.
Thank you for this video....I have been so afraid of darkness all my life. Your experience puts a whole new understanding. Maybe this is a sign to face this fear ❤
How amazing to witness. Thank you for your vulnerability and generosity. It took me back to my Ayahuasca ceremony. I needed it. Thank you again. You reside in my everything. ❤
Thank you Aubrey. I love how your videos show up for me when they seem so relevant in my life. Its been hard going thru an awakening with no one showing me the path. I had to decide for myself who was deceiving me & who was not. Im glad I found your channel.
Wooooow that was crazy powerful. I spent the entire time he was in the darkness in this video with my eyes closed and my lights off in somewhat complete darkness, and opened them up whenever they came to get him because his darkness journey was complete. Holy shit I felt the raw emotions Projecting from him listening and watching this 🤯🤯 very powerful video, amazing journey. Well done man 🥰
Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing this. You're teachings are amazing, I appreciate you spreading your light ❤️
Thank you Aubrey for letting us into your darkness and also guiding us to our own.
Bru….. I’m only 23 minutes in and every single time you cry, I cry😢😊.
This is the most beautiful, raw documentary I have ever saw. You are so special.
Hi Aubrey,
It takes so much strength to open ourselves to vulnerability. You did just that while trusting the transformation process. Your relationship with your father and with yourself seem to have some striking similarities with themes of self trust, self love, and self forgiveness.
I resonated with your journey including many of your thought processes while your mind was falling and also while you rose back up. Thank you for sharing this. The message at the end was so true and clear, that we’re all here to love ourselves and love us (us as in collective).
I wonder what your second journey in the pitch blackness would be like if you did this again. I also wonder how you’ve integrated this experience with time.
I wish I could give you a hug and say don’t be too hard on yourself. Though I realize that’s what I need. Everything is a mirror.
You’re a warrior at heart. ❤
How powerful! “We’ve come to bring you into the light”.
I cried with you.
Wonderful video. A friend sent me the link. I have done 5 Dark Retreats. I learned some good lessons. I have also wanted to hear from others to see how their experience compared to mine. I was wondering how many similarities there are. I have categorized the types of visions. Some were attached to my face, so if I turned, they would always be in front of me, others seemed to be attached to the room. Lots of fractals and color. Everything intensified the longer I was in the Darkness. Then I "went to Narnia", which is an experience that takes me out of the space to another world. I even forget that I am lying in a bed in the dark. There is SO MUCH LIGHT. I have been profoundly changed. I also do it while fasting for a week.
Our brokenness is brought on by the darkness of others to remind us of our own darkness until!!! We evolve from our Hell.
We are taught to demonize Hell and so we fear to shine light on it. But if we should be truthful, we will recognize that Hell is a beautiful place where absolute truth exist and it is only available to the most vulnerable soul.
The following quote defined it well.
"There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”
--- Carl Jung
Great documentary Bro.
Watching from South Africa 💚
Love and light
Thank You . 👏
Thank you Aubrey for sharing your moments of vulnerability and your intimate search of your true self, that’s the purest form of love you could send to all of us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart 🙏🏻✨💗
I was actually brought to the experience of being completely blind for three months... After two surgeries I now operate with 40% of eyesight on one eye.
My third eye is my inner eye that sees all that I was blind to, while I had normal physical eyesight.
This is so profound... Thank you ❤️
alas my mother turned totally blind in 2003 (medical malpractice) has never had any such experience
That was AMAZING! I'm so glad the algorithm tossed you in my lap. Amazing Grace is right. Keep up the Great Work, Son. You are doing it for all of us.
Wow. This is incredible. I’m so grateful Aubrey has been so confused and curious because look at the content that’s coming out of it.. I see myself in his beautiful struggle..
Thank you to the women holding him and supporting this man. Praying for you.. Vibes from Seattle 🌬💞
Seattle shows up a lot in comments. Must be the earth/sea power.
Same filling from Calgary, AB,❤
the moment you saw the light again and cryed, I had to laugh from my heart..you are such a beautyful beeing-thx for sharing your experiencis..love&light
I have been waiting for this. Thanks so much for sharing your journey with us and being willing to show the world that vulnerability is a beautiful truth.
You are a beautiful human Aubrey❤️ radiante, real, loved and you bring so much happiness and deepness to our lives. You’ve helped me more than you can imagine
Had a lot of similar thoughts when I lost my freedom for 7 months. We take so much for granted. And much of what we value and use to prop ourselves up is just imaginary, and it buries what you truly are and value. I remember getting out, it felt so good, so fresh and hopeful, but also I was amazed at how everyone was faking it. They're not being who they truly are. They're being who they think others will admire, or playing a role almost, and they use material things and various other facades to do so. Of course it's hard not to because it's the way it is, I do it too and there's varying levels to it, but I know there's a truth underneath it all where we're all on equal ground and your value is what you're spirit is made of. It's a good truth to know, it keeps you grounded in reality.
Huge congratulations, @Optimal, for passing on the great learning you received... I love what you perceive now that it's over. It's always a win when you make the most of it... Many thanks...
TU MEKE! Wonderful Healing Video!..Thanks 4 Sharing Yer Journey!!!! Yer Ready Teddy! Much ❤️
This is very interesting and timely. I have a genetic eye condition. I am losing sight from the outside in. I am at a point of loss that there is more dark than light with my total amount of sight. And then the past month or so, I have been more meditative, especially at night. I did not plan it that way. It just seemed like the right way to process losing sight and being in the dark. I have def learned a lot and healed. And I plan on keeping up with the meditation and introspection because it seems like the antidote to coping with the vision loss and what I am doing with my life.
It isn't genetic. It can be healed with nutrition and peptides. I have seen it multiple times now.
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Everything will work well for you. Amazing how you are handling it. I agree with you, I think work on introspection is the key.
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Good luck bro ❤
Damn. This was powerful. As a mother, I’m always seeking ways to go deeper and show up more for myself, my family, and the world… I forsee implementing similar practices that can function alongside my responsibilities until the days I can journey in solitude. ❤ thank you so much for sharing your experiences, Aubrey. So inspired to share my story.
The real darkness is anything that is expectation, jugement, held sorrow, and everything that one feels but shares not, and does not want others to share or hear in deny, we are ONE, ONE,
Oh my. The greatest moment of your life has helped with illuminating a reset for me. When I was ages 4-10, I'm 42, I used to purposely immerse myself in complete darkness for hours. I was loving, helpful, thoughtful, honest and developing as an empath, having spiritual pulling towards culture I knew nothing about, On a journey I did not understand. I had no one else around me with that inner energy or path. I didn't know why I was doing it and I slowly pulled away from it and life happened. I couldn't sleep and your video was suggested. And what an awakening I got. I will go 6 days in darkness and I'm apprehensive about what I will discover. I have a couple of tweeks that I will make in my darkness journey, because yours was so revealing for me. I'm newly getting back to Source, The Creator, God and I'm grateful your experience will be a meaningful memory to me beginning my darkness therapy. Blessings to you and your family.
Wow what a share…. Thank you. “I will see you again in the everything.” ❤
That was a beautiful documentary. What an experience. I'm so grateful that you shared this. Thank you and may your light always shine bright from within.
This guy is the real deal. You need people like Aubrey in your life, To open up your mind to life.
The most underrated Video on Earth. Gooooooooooooood
Crying with you. We are all one. Love is always the answer. Thank you for sharing your journey
Thank you for taking us in this journey. Now, I want to try it !
I really appreciate you're deep thoughts and you're great talks with other chill humans...tyvm
"Can I be fixed? Is there such a thing?"
This hit home. Thank you for sharing
So grateful for your vulnerable open soul on this planet and for sharing your deeply profound experiences. so much Love and Gratitude
Dearest Aubrey, my heart is grateful you shared this sacred journey. So raw and real. I have thought about doing this. It was like being present for the birth of a child. Wow, when you opened your eyes I felt such vibrations. Like I see videos of someone getting color blind glasses. Thank you, thank you, so grateful I watched. ❤
This may be the most powerful video I have ever witnessed, thank you from the bottom of my heart. You have helped to create the me I have always wanted to be.
You are a gift to humanity dear Sir Aubrey! Thanks!
This was very powerful. I feel like I experienced it vicariously through you. So brave. I love your mantra "I love what is". I'm choosing to see life through these eyes of profound appreciation
Dude…. I just subscribed. Been watching your videos for the last couple of hours. Brilliant, please keep up with this amazing content
Will be sitting in the same darkness room from the 1st - 6th Feb.. so in 7 days time. Re-watched this so many times.
Love yourself, be honest. 💜
will you come back here and give an update about your experience in the dark? best wishes on your journey bro!
Sending endless amounts of love and light to you in your journey ❤️
Would love an update as well. Best of luck.
Hey Fam! thank you for checking in.
I made it four full days in the Darkness Retreat and am now 24 hours post retreat, found my mind just wanted to control everything and to be honest, I had a really tough time in there.
I was hoping so bad to feel oneness with everything, but unfortunately not this time round. There was mostly good that came from my experience though, and I am proud of myself for lasting four days. It's highlighted to me that I need to practice a lot more mindfullness and perhaps sit with some more plant medicines before tackling the dark room again, it's not easy breasy - well it wasnt for me. Everyone is differnet.
I uploaded my eye mask coming off onto my RUclips channel, no pressure to view. It's super short though.
Thanks for checking in
@@jordanjameswa Congratulations my friend. That definitely does not seem like an easy journey to endure but the insight you experience must be rewarding. Have you ever looked into practicing Zen meditation? To me that would be the best practice for mindfulness.
I will he checking out your videos soon as well. Thanks for the update!
I´m in tears of joy for you. How heartwearming. thank you for being . God bless you
A REAL LIFE EARTHLY ANGEL walking among us and helping humanity heal the soul of the world.
LOVE YOU BROTHER MAN!
Everything Aubrey does speaks to my soul. I’m in a ton of debt to that man for pulling me out of bad phases, maintain good ones, and grow spiritually and temporally.
I just finished watching your video and it’s 3:33 pm on 5/12/23. “Hello darkness, my old friend…”.
Nice to meet you Aubrey. Many blessings! ❣️🌟🙌🌟❣️
Very brave of you to share; took courage. Yes, the key is to first become sincere. All the best.
Dude... thank you for demonstrating the strength that comes from vulnerability. Cheers
Amazing man absolutely took me with you in there and man how f*cking amazing it is to share your visions. Thank you sir for your stunning service to this world.
Their are no tricks, no shortcuts, no drugs that can save you or even awaken you truly.The act of disciplined meditation practice year after year after year is all there is.
Wow, thank you brother! This work of art is alive and the journey portrayed full of such loving vulnerability man! Thank You
I felt myself like as though I was going through the journey as well. Beautiful and raw. Thank you for sharing ❤
Such a beautifull experience, I feel I made the journey with you. Thanks for sharing, much love.
Thank you for sharing. Thank you for your bravery. Thank you for being an explorer. I spend a lot of time listening to podcasts on spirit, mind, and the universe, looking for something that just seems an arm's length away, and yet I cannot grab a hold of it. I think, what am I missing? I meditate for hours over the past few years, sometimes seeing it, sometimes feeling it, and sometimes feeling like it is mine, only to have it ripped away. This was very moving for me, and something you said resonated so clearly with me. "I have all these plans, and then I don't follow through, and I lose trust in myself." I have said this before. I don't trust myself to follow through on what I desire. I have said this before, and as I heard you say this, the thought became crystal clear, and it is something I have said before, "It is not enough to know." I have to live it, I have to feel it, and the first step to freedom is to understand, but then I have to do it. Without fear. There is nothing to fear, but fear itself. Thank you.
...Flo again, i can' t help to have to share, because i need a family of sisters and brothers, now, and brothers like Aubry, i think creates a portal for humanity, during my meditation, i thought about Indians calling themselves ' wounded knee' , it gave me some soothing inspiration for selflove, when my brain goes spinning around and around on how to fix my guilt regarding my relation with family, so i call myself ' wounded child', and i thought about all of us as such holding hands and praying that the world carry more im portance on compassionate-love NOW.
This video really touched me I appreciate your raw openness.❤
Brought me to loving tears
Looking forward to this video and my own ceremony! Thank you for opening my eyes and many others. ✨🙏❤️
be honest and love yourself... the truest words brother, and to everyone else here
Thank You Aubrey! Your braveness will from this day on, inspire my own braveness, that has not yet fully surfaced.
Such a beautiful divine masculine 🙏🏼
You’re doing so much for their healing ❤️🩹
Such a profound journey, Aubrey, the wounded healer. Thank you 🙏🏻
Absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing this and opening the doors to the unknown experiences we could all explore if brave enough 💙
Thank you ❤ with Love, All Love.✨
Thank you for this… 🙏🏽🙏🏽 such an inspiration to push yourself through your limits to come out successful at the end. I cried w you…when u came back to the light. Thanks!! 🙏🏽💫🥰 love&light
"You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!”
Hey Aubrey, last year the universe answered or gave me a really big prayer of mine. To be completely immersed in nature. I landed on a piece of property in southern Oregon on the Illinois River. I also watched many things in my life fall away. Including my life in the Santo Daime, a 20 year Fradada. I just recently returned from being in Costa Rica for two weeks and then visiting my sister in Alabama being gone a month from here. The one thing that I noticed immediately Upon returning was the Silence of this place, and even more profound was the Stillness. The Stillness that is always here and that always surrounds us. Thank you for this documentary. I do believe if we come back to being in nature and re-establishing a relationship with nature and Mother Earth again, life would, could and for me is so much richer. Less is more. Blessings to you 🦋
Thank you, Aubrey
❤I feel the emotions❤ may you be blessed. Cannot wait to do it myself.
❤ Amazing documentary. Thank you.
This was powerful, thank you for sharing the film with us. Beautiful 🙏⚡🙏
Thank you! I wish you well 🥰 this was wonderful ❤ from the bottom of my heart, thank you 🌈
so grateful for this video. that was simply and purely amazing.
Awesome Aubrey💕🙏🏼💕
Thank you for sharing your journey in light and darkness 💛🙏
Thank you so much🙏🏻❤️🌸✨
Until this day. Anytime I watch content like this, it reminds me of the experience I had on mushrooms.
I took a picture of me and my long time friend Rich in a field. When I looked at the picture after, we were not in it. The ground we were on, the flower that was next to us, made it impossible for me to have missed us completely. We didn't exist in it.
You're thinking all these things..."he had to of had the camera off to the side", "he had to of had it turned the opposite way"
No. I'm sincerely telling you, I had the eye and the camera focused on us. The other side would be the sky.
Thank you so much for this 🕊️👏🏼
How can I find the amazing Grace song? It really struck a chord with me
I make a plan and I don’t stick with it and then I can’t trust myself… that one cut deep. I can identify with that statement and the feelings behind it, far more than I can express.
As someone who also speaks the acts of service love language, your journey through the retreat resonated with me. Aho mitakuye oyasin.
Wow, that was powerful and beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your experience.
Thank you for sharing this!
Loved this documentary so much. Very powerful and touching. I felt your emotions. Thank you for this
Absolutely beautiful. Thank you for loving you.