When I was younger, my parents constantly pressured me into perfection. They changed after they were told by my younger brother's teacher that this was a bad way to parent. They now tell me it's ok if I'm not perfect, but now it's the only thing I'll accept.
their parenting is unacceptable. My elder sister was also like some experiment for my parents and passed on trauma to me from it. I’m glad they learned but you could have some lifelong problems from their way of teaching
The sad part of me getting worse is if I look at myself at all in the mirror I feel like throwing up by how disgusted I am at myself and avoiding mirrors so I don’t. Start crying
In the end, they all just hurt me, no matter how many long conversations we had, no matter how many times we would die laughing, no matter how much they would make me feel better when I vented. At the end, you’ll always regret it.
I’m so sorry that you feel like this, you don’t deserve that. How are you? I’ll be here if you need to vent or talk about anything at all just let me know. I love you so much and you deserve better than this ❤
I like that there's hope in that but sometimes the hurt just pushes you deeper and deeper down until you feel like your suffocating and have no one even if there is someone screaming i love you at me I don't think I deserve it and the cycle is endless its been like this for four years
1:26 Damn that hit hard. The 7th one...I have anxiety so it's really difficult for me to talk, socialize and open up to people. My parents put me in soccer to socialize and make friends, it's not really working. The funny thing is I have an easier time talking to adults and boys my age because I don't feel like I'm being targeted by girls my age and I fit in. The problem I have with girls my age is I always think "There looking at me bc they think I'm better than them" "There looking at my clothes" "They probably think I'm annoying and weird" in reality I'm jealous how easily they can talk to people and make friends. Thats why I only have maybe one friend if that even counts bc I haven't seen her for 2 years or talked to her, so I have none. People think it's so cool to be alone have no friends, it's "aesthetic" when really its horrible it's a frickin nightmare. You go on the internet look at all the friend groups and cute couple tiktoks, it really burns it literally is eating you alive. I've been homeschooled since 6th grade up to 8th and probably till the end of school all I have to make friends is sports. I try to push myself to talk to people but it just fogs my mind and I overthink EVERYTHING. What I mean everything I really mean it, my coach asks me "what's your favorite ice cream?" I say chocolate and he says "Thats kind of plain and boring" the rest of the day I'm still thinking about what I should of said. On the internet you can do anything without anyone knowing it's you, you're an unknown. Sorry for long paragraph :,)
No, that’s completely valid, no need to apologize for the long paragraph. I definitely get this, but I want you to know that being in the big “popular kids” friend group isn’t fun. (Please don’t be jealous of us, we deal with so much drama.) once in middle school, I got accused of something stupid and while there was no confirmation I had done anything, I was socially shunned. I’m sorry about that, and I wish I knew you irl so we could be friends.
I like watching these videos and reading the comments because I know I'm not alone and it makes me feel good that I'm not the only one struggling and that I'm fighting myself to not commit like many others
Is it just me but the words that make you cry after holding it in for so long is,are you ok? Every time someone says that when I’ve been holding the tears back for too long it just makes me crack its like those other words never mattered but are you ok just made all the tears come at once. Is this just me?
It’s not just you. I do all the time when I hold it all in. When I hold it all in I get extreme anxiety, I always pick at my nails and my leg(s) start to twitch, and I get a lump in my throat. Then when they ask are you ok I just start sobbing. Hopefully things get a bit better for you
I’ve always been the therapist friend like my whole life so yk I’m always there for my friends when they need someone to talk to but when I vent to my friends all they say is “oh I’m sorry” “just don’t listen to them it’s not that hard” “ you are being dramatic” like I don’t know what to do anymore
i’m sorry for the vent… so in my school every year they have this cross country race where everyone runs. This is my first year of high school and my second year in france, there’s this girl on my swim team (i do competitive swimming) who I used to appreciate so much when I was faster than her, but ever since she passed me she has always been making fun of me, she goes to a different class than me. So like the cross country was all of 10th grader girls ran first then boys (4k meters) and when they announced the winners (I first said congrats to everyone) I wasn’t in the top 10 which was okay but I had this pressure, so I slightly started crying but then when I found out she was 1st I bursted into tears and everyone saw me crying, it was so embarrassing.
Don’t be sorry. It’s not your fault. I know things are competitive and hard rn maybe because you’re in a new school, people want to show you their strengths. That girl is an asshole and she doesn’t deserve you love. Stay strong and if you need to vent Ik always here for you
0:25 my “friend” sent me a video which she edited and it was a ‘who do you think will be the last person staying at you grave when everyone else left’ and she had pictures and videos of the girl she met this year while I was friends with her since the 4th grade and now we are In the 9th grade
I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity and lastly, 101: me :) @sofii5390 10 months ago I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity and lastly, 101: me :)
Little vent that got better When I was in art class last year we got to choose where we sit and I sat alone. Everybody moved to the other side of the room. I had to do every project alone with nobody,j wasn't allowed to change seats again either. It felt so isolating and degrading having people give me those little looks of pity or whatever it was yet never even offering a seat at their table. It was sk bad that I started looking for reasons not to go to that class, I'd move all appointments with a counselor to be during that class alone. But now, this year we got the choice to sit wherever we wanted again and people actually moved to my table to sit with me! The guy that I liked who is now my boyfriend wanted to swap seats with the girl next to me so we could sit together. Now I don't feel all that alone, people like me. I know they don't hate me anymore. And it feels good. But I can't help but feel like maybe they're all pretending, that's something I've gotta work on for myself because now people argue over who gets to work with me for classes! During drama I had a fall out with my partner and then 2 groups offered for me to join. It felt nice to be wanted. It feels nice to have people come up to me and say "Heyy how are you?!" It feels nice to have friends again after a year of complete isolation. Even during the lockdown I was less alone, I've spent 4 years like that but it felt so different last year. It felt inhumane. Now i have people to talk to and hangout with. Now I know that people want me to sit with them for lunch. Now j know people enjoy being on call for a bit. I know that they don't hate me and they know I love them all for being so kind. It feels nice
Aww❤ I’m happy for you. I really hope it’ll be even better too ! I don’t wanna make your vent about me, but I experience that too.. nothing really change for me but I’m happy for u ❤❤❤and it’s sucks.. ur not alone 😊
The only person who actually cares abt me is my best friend she’s the only person who wants to sit with me and partner up. She was sick on the day of the field trip I went to so I had to be alone the whole time. There was only one person who felt bad and sat with me.
each time i try to handle the emotions and pain and not burst out like a crybaby i can’t help but fucking cry.. and be there guilt tripping my self and overthinking not only have i bursted out for that matter of fact but i have this friend who had 2 other friends and those 2 friends sent me death threats to kill my self and worst things and kept ranting and ranting about these things it just hits so hard.. cause you are in the middle not wanting to die but at the same time some thing hurt you that u wish u weren’t alive sometimes..
0:22 when my friends get upset they take their anger out on me when I’m trying to calm them down so the hardest words I have to swallow are when my friends say “YOU KNOW YOU CANT ALWAYS MAKE PEOPLE FEEL BETTER” (don’t worry my other friends defended me because they saw I was on the verge of tears)
It’s the fact that I’ve been best friends with my best friend for years and try to help her as much as I can’t my she never cares so never hugs me back, and always criticizes me in the worst way possible, just picking out me till I feel like I’m crying every night, yet she still makes me apologize for everything…
The hardest words I had to swallow.. We're the ones that were never spoken. Being left alone, singled out on purpose for a reason I'll never know. It was a pill I choked on then swallowed dry.
hardest words? maybe that i was exaggerating about my dad being in the hospital, on my very last straw. an anvil on my mental health and that day i had my first failed suicide attempt
1:45 this nobody understands my bond with school was broken in elementary i get panic attacks when thinking of going to school even when i want to go i can’t bring myself to do so. *they* just..don’t get it.
0:23 my friends 'joked' about ignoring me for the whole of the afternoon and they knew i had insecurities about being strange for people and i didn't stand up for myself, i really wanted to say " you obviously seemed more happy without me, so go be without me" but i couldn't because they aren't only friends.
Sometimes I wish I could stop feeling. Everyone aside from my best friend just sees me as the stupid emotional one. Whenever I have a bad day it’s just “oh she’s at it again”
0:23 My “best friend” : I mean no offense, but I don’t wanna be best friends anymore, we can just be close friends. Me: …………Yeah it’s ok, I’m going to get lunch now. My “best friend” : Oh ok I’m going to go eat with Kathy now!
the way i was crying and gagging watching those while knowing how much i loved them and we were so close…not they talk shit abt me. tbh i dont even wanna be here anymore because of them. they keep letting me down. whatever…noone would ever listen to my vent.
Y’all ever get such bad anxiety your stomach hurts and you can’t cry? Because that’s how I feel rn. My friends all seem annoyed and mad at me and I can’t take it anymore everything hurts I’m overthinking more than normal and I don’t know where to go, everyone hates me and I feel like I can’t do anything about it. What did I do, and what do I do to make it better?
if it makes you feel better, same.. it gets so bad when i get to the bathroom my tears burst out my eyes and i start breathing heavily. im at a friends sleepover rn and she keeps calling me a b*tch, and even unfriended me on roblox after i beat her in mm2.. i wanna cry so bad….. she hurt me many times before like when i was friends with her before she leaked my private channel, and i had to delete it bc my whole school found out. i trust her over and over and i dont think i will be able to escape this cycle. i hate my life so much
My mum found out about my ice addiction and now is getting numerous blood tests. Don’t get me wrong I know it will help but I have a phobia of needles and anxiety. My friends will tell everyone and teachers will start sending me out to talk to the so called support of safeguarding.. I’m losing myself I can’t even eat. I’ve been skinny shamed and fat shamed. Am I even good enough? My mum also found my scars and searched my room. She found my vent book and threw it away. Somebody help me I just want to leave this hell and be gone.. I hope some of you find a happy ending but for me my happy ending may be leaving… :)
One day i got a friends. We used to be best friends. But she has something who always terrifies me. The thing is when i was not ok with her opinion she literally menacing me . She menacing me by my bullying when i was in primary. And you know i hate when the thing i vent she used this like a weapon to me. She was literally always insulting me and one day she beat me and when i asked why she said that was for fun. And then she used this for like 3 year on me. The day i separated from her i use to do a lot of nigthmare where she killed me. And now this nigthmare is always there.
When trying not to cry is more painful than crying When you just got a message from your only friend saying that you’re ignoring her, making herself the victim, saying that you’re jealous of her and her friends and you just lost her so now you’re alone and you’re even more hurt than you were before:
Aww honey you may not know me and I may not know you but if you think no one loves you at least try to remember I love you and I care for you and hope you’ll find someone who loves you unconditionally ❤️ xx
For the first one i can eat as much as i want but wont get much bigger and i can feel the first one like ill have 1 taco bc that’s fills me up but my mum is always like aren’t u more hungry? 0:24 - holding tears in - “x=3”
Someone i thought i was friends with sat at my table during science and told me"im bored enough to join" it hurt so much and i almost cried. And someone i was friends with just stopped talking to me for some reason.
hello dear! good morning/afternoon/night. how are you? well, if ur sad im so sorry to hear. Whoever hurt you, whatever triggered you, whatever happened, i hope ur day gets so much better! just remember ur so valuable and mean so much to someone or.. everyone! even if you dont think so. pssst ... go down!! i love you so much
°•vent•° So my mom is very mentally abusive, and I remember how the one thing I wanted her to say more than anything was a simple apology. one that she really meant. One what she wouldn't simply forget. And I remember so clearly just a couple days ago how she was yelling at me and saying things like, "What did I ever do to deserve this," "Why are you like this?" The typical. I remember how I finally answered the last question. How I said with tears dripping of my face, how I was so stressed out because of her yelling at ever little mistake. And what she said next just broke me. Broke all of my hopes. "When your stressed out, you don't just get into even more trouble! So answer the damn question! Why are you like this?!" And it hurt so much. And I said, unable to control it, how that was the truth. How it was my coping mechanism, to do what got me into trouble, which was watching RUclips on my school Chromebook, because I'm not allowed to watch RUclips and it's blocked on everything else, because it just lets me forget the stress for a little while. And I apologized. I remember how scared I was. She had never layed her hands on me, but I was so scared she would, because she had been threatening to for awhile. "I'm sorry, too .." just broke me. Because she apologized! She really apologized! And I was crying the rest of the night, in fear that it was fake. In fear that she would wake up and have forgotten...
I understand! Me too, like what do they mean by “What did i do to deserve this or you?” Like YOU made ME. It was your choice.. my mom and dad has physically abused me when i was younger but now they do it less but at the same time they still love me i dont know how to explainnnn
I just had the worst day of secondary school and its only my first year 2 of my friends have turned on me and everyone else is comstasmtly harrasing . I fucking hate my life and my shitty school
Maybe but thats not always the case.. See im skinny and everyone still bullies me for it(for example: call me a stick, call me flat, call me bones, jst being so rude). Its digusting, it seems like you just cant be “perfect”. But we dont need to be “perfect” cus it simply doesn’t exist.
0:13 nah bcs today me and my bsf started taking a break over something they did. it was so hard bcs ik it was a mistake and i felt so bad. they told me that they would be waiting for me. i started balling bcs whyyyyyyy did they have to do that bcs i still want to be there friend but i cant change what happened 🥺
-VENT- so I don't feel like my choices matter to anyone. "DONT wear this, it looks bad on you so I will be soooooooo ashamed ". "Woah, you sure you wanna eat that? You might get fatter piggy!". "Well you have to go with us. We don't care your sick." Stop. Please. I can't handle this. If I cry I will be again known as a crybaby so I cry alone even if someone asks me if I need help. I can't stand people screaming at me. I feel invisible all the time but when I cry everyone suddenly cares but don't even help me. What is wrong with people, why can't they respect me?
When I read all these comments I feel so bad.. I thought my friend problems are bad but after reading everyone elses I just feel like I’m over reacting. I’m useless
the second one was true me and my bff did a roasting battle but then she said something that actually hurt me and I started crying and couldn’t sleep at all
I know saying “it’s ok, you are perfect no matter what” probably won’t help but I just wanted to say that If you think about committing suicide, please take my words Life may not feel worth it but there’s always at least one person who cares about you and doesn’t want you to pass, there’s also always something that you look forward to, if someone’s toxic to you, they can’t tell you what you are and can’t change the person you are. We may have only 1 life, so we should make the best out of that one life, you don’t need to please anybody, you at least need to please yourself first. Other people may hate you, but please just know that I think that your important, and my favorite. Even though I don’t know who you are, I support all of you and you can vent to me if needed. I also have problems, but it’s just the worm in my brain that lies to me. Please, if you feel like you’re worthless and that you’re nothing, you’re lying to yourself. You are the main character in your own life, nobody can bring you down. Although, if you still feel like suiciding and if being alive to you brings more pain, please don’t. If you feel like you can’t take it any longer, I’m not forcing you to or telling you to, but if you feel like that’s the best thing to do, then you can go for it. Im not saying that you should die, I don’t want anyone to die, or convincing you to die,but in heaven there’s more peace, I promise. You’re not alone because everyone has problems no matter the age, and we all support each other! We may not know how it feels but trust me, you can’t let anyone hurt you in your own life, you can fight back for how you want to be treated! This may or may not help you, but please feel free to vent in the replies so maybe I can help, I hope everyone values their life. ❤️✨ Please spread this message if you want 🙏💗
I was in a friend group of 7 (including me) and I just felt soo excluded. it kept getting worser and worser. they would ignore what I say and only speak to me when they need my stuff. yesterday I found 9ut they all collectively hated me and thought I was annoying. they were my only friends. without them I had no one. school is torture and none of them realise how much this hurt me. this is not the first time but it still hurts. I cried and cried and that's all I did . I tried to feel happy again by talking to some old friends but I couldn't do it. they wiped out my smile and my loud energy. I want to hate them but I cant. I still feel sad when I see them talking to each other like nothing happened. I can't do this anymore thank you for reading so far
The one about how you just physically can't go to school hit me the most I think. Three days ago I got called by my school psychologist (it's one of the actually paid and devoted to their job ones so I like and trust her) and I was wondering, was it about that anonymus vent letter I left under her door a few months ago? I knew she knew it was me, so maybe she's going to ask if it got better? But turns out no. She called me because my teacher (I have no idea how a teacher besides teaching that looks after your class specifically is called) said I have the habit of cleaning my throat a lot and he was wondering if it could be a stress reaction or something. I knew I was doing it often, but had absolutely no idea it was so loud. Good for me I was already sick and my parents agreed for me to stay home for the rest of the week. I have no idea how I would act confronted with the fact that it's not just my brain thinking I'm being a bother to others. I was already anxious that I'm making a lot of noises (cleaning throat, coughing, shifting in my seat a lot, reaching for the backpack etc), but now it's confirmed that people actually notice it. I don't know if it's a stress reaction or just the effect of my almost constant sinus infection, but fuck god damn it I'm not going back to school until I find a way to stop doing it... thing is I just can't. If I don't do it, I feel like I'm going to choke. I don't know what to do
Vent comment: I dont really have irl friends, I never fit in anywhere. Always a weirdo. And when I found a best friend.. they left me. “ this is your fault! your fault! “ oh, your edit is good “ OMG GIRL THAT EDIT IS SOOOO COOL!!!!!!!! “ You make friends, someone just like you.. a weirdo..! But they change.. and then.. you loose them. :(
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tbh the feeling of trying not to cry is worse than actually crying.
Yea…
Mhm
Yeah
Yeah..
Yup.
"Suicide aren't gonna get rid of pain, its just gonna pass it to some one else...."
-A wise man
what if there is no one that the pain gets passed to:(
@@niyati2260 there always is
The more I am alive the more it hurts...
gurl I did not just find ur fucking comment here- OH CRAP-
*hugs u through screen to lol idk why*
@@itz_skylee2001 skylee what are you doing here-
@@strange_game_2972 uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 😬
@@itz_skylee2001 it's ok we're all sad sometimes :D
It’s the fact most of us are kids and we shouldn’t be feeling this way but we are
Fr i am only 10...
True…
Same
Fr I was literally 6 and started sh and no one noticed
I started 3 years ago I’m now 13 and still struggling worse than ever
When I was younger, my parents constantly pressured me into perfection. They changed after they were told by my younger brother's teacher that this was a bad way to parent. They now tell me it's ok if I'm not perfect, but now it's the only thing I'll accept.
their parenting is unacceptable. My elder sister was also like some experiment for my parents and passed on trauma to me from it. I’m glad they learned but you could have some lifelong problems from their way of teaching
Yeah parents should all have a universal guide to raise a child ...like bro I am not complaining but parenting is a valuable part of growing up
The sad part of me getting worse is if I look at myself at all in the mirror I feel like throwing up by how disgusted I am at myself and avoiding mirrors so I don’t. Start crying
In the end, they all just hurt me, no matter how many long conversations we had, no matter how many times we would die laughing, no matter how much they would make me feel better when I vented. At the end, you’ll always regret it.
I’m so sorry that you feel like this, you don’t deserve that. How are you? I’ll be here if you need to vent or talk about anything at all just let me know. I love you so much and you deserve better than this ❤
@@butterflies-r1t aw tysm >3 I’m over it now, Ty for asking tho ur so kind ❤️
I feel you I had to Go to That to your not alone
this is what i go through. im so done
ye my friends are toxic all the time dont know if i can make it thru this year lolol
“The ones who hurt the most are the ones who are the strongest in the end..” - someone I love.
I like that there's hope in that but sometimes the hurt just pushes you deeper and deeper down until you feel like your suffocating and have no one even if there is someone screaming i love you at me I don't think I deserve it and the cycle is endless its been like this for four years
I want to cry so badly, I need to but no tears come out, just emotion.
1:26 Damn that hit hard. The 7th one...I have anxiety so it's really difficult for me to talk, socialize and open up to people. My parents put me in soccer to socialize and make friends, it's not really working. The funny thing is I have an easier time talking to adults and boys my age because I don't feel like I'm being targeted by girls my age and I fit in. The problem I have with girls my age is I always think "There looking at me bc they think I'm better than them" "There looking at my clothes" "They probably think I'm annoying and weird" in reality I'm jealous how easily they can talk to people and make friends. Thats why I only have maybe one friend if that even counts bc I haven't seen her for 2 years or talked to her, so I have none. People think it's so cool to be alone have no friends, it's "aesthetic" when really its horrible it's a frickin nightmare. You go on the internet look at all the friend groups and cute couple tiktoks, it really burns it literally is eating you alive. I've been homeschooled since 6th grade up to 8th and probably till the end of school all I have to make friends is sports. I try to push myself to talk to people but it just fogs my mind and I overthink EVERYTHING. What I mean everything I really mean it, my coach asks me "what's your favorite ice cream?" I say chocolate and he says "Thats kind of plain and boring" the rest of the day I'm still thinking about what I should of said. On the internet you can do anything without anyone knowing it's you, you're an unknown.
Sorry for long paragraph :,)
No, that’s completely valid, no need to apologize for the long paragraph. I definitely get this, but I want you to know that being in the big “popular kids” friend group isn’t fun. (Please don’t be jealous of us, we deal with so much drama.) once in middle school, I got accused of something stupid and while there was no confirmation I had done anything, I was socially shunned. I’m sorry about that, and I wish I knew you irl so we could be friends.
@@moonbox0929 Thank you for that, I wish I knew you irl so we can be friends too.
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I like watching these videos and reading the comments because I know I'm not alone and it makes me feel good that I'm not the only one struggling and that I'm fighting myself to not commit like many others
I hope you are doing well rn my friend:)
Same it’s comforting:)
sometimes i wish i could change it but at least i know that she wasnt who i thought she was
"how long ago would we have lost you if your attempt worked?"
*yesterday..*
these were so relatable i started crying.
Is it just me but the words that make you cry after holding it in for so long is,are you ok? Every time someone says that when I’ve been holding the tears back for too long it just makes me crack its like those other words never mattered but are you ok just made all the tears come at once. Is this just me?
I cry even when someone isn’t saying that to me.
I have the same thing….I don’t think they even cared
It’s not just you. I do all the time when I hold it all in. When I hold it all in I get extreme anxiety, I always pick at my nails and my leg(s) start to twitch, and I get a lump in my throat. Then when they ask are you ok I just start sobbing. Hopefully things get a bit better for you
I’m so sorry for whatever’s happening in your life.. I hope things start to get better soon❤
thats me too, im sorry your going through that. :(
I’ve always been the therapist friend like my whole life so yk I’m always there for my friends when they need someone to talk to but when I vent to my friends all they say is “oh I’m sorry” “just don’t listen to them it’s not that hard” “ you are being dramatic” like I don’t know what to do anymore
I treat people how they treated me and they break down in fucking tears.
i’m sorry for the vent… so in my school every year they have this cross country race where everyone runs. This is my first year of high school and my second year in france, there’s this girl on my swim team (i do competitive swimming) who I used to appreciate so much when I was faster than her, but ever since she passed me she has always been making fun of me, she goes to a different class than me. So like the cross country was all of 10th grader girls ran first then boys (4k meters) and when they announced the winners (I first said congrats to everyone) I wasn’t in the top 10 which was okay but I had this pressure, so I slightly started crying but then when I found out she was 1st I bursted into tears and everyone saw me crying, it was so embarrassing.
Don’t be sorry. It’s not your fault. I know things are competitive and hard rn maybe because you’re in a new school, people want to show you their strengths. That girl is an asshole and she doesn’t deserve you love. Stay strong and if you need to vent Ik always here for you
It’s not your fault it’s no ones fault but her’s. You did nothing wrong. No one thinks any less of you than they originally did. You are not to blame.
Don't be sorry, you don't have to be perfect, it's impossible to be, I hope things get better. Stay Strong❤
@@IkaisHot you're too nice lyy
@@anonymousalli2045 tysm lyu
0:25 my “friend” sent me a video which she edited and it was a ‘who do you think will be the last person staying at you grave when everyone else left’ and she had pictures and videos of the girl she met this year while I was friends with her since the 4th grade and now we are In the 9th grade
I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list:
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. hugging things
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things
80. trying to learn a new culture
81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
82. you weren't born to entertain people
83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
84. arguing with 8 year old kids
85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
86. new technologies
87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
89. cringing at old things you've said and done
90. money
91. random shower thoughts
92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
94. that weird funky smell from new items
95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
97. feeling happy for other people
98. cute animals
99. flowers
100. laughing at your own stupidity
and lastly, 101: me :)
@sofii5390
10 months ago
I'm giving you my own 101 reasons to stay alive list:
1. you'll never eat your favorite food again
2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again
3. you might one day meet your idol
4. people who care about you will miss you
5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts
6. crying to let it all out and feeling better
7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining
8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again
9. sleeping in
10. reading your favorite book
11. you'll never grow up with your friends
12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day
13. trampolines
14. cookies
15. coffee or tea (your preference)
16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness
17. rewards for doing good on something
18. your favorite show
19. your favorite game
20. singing in the shower
21. farting when you're alone and laughing about it
22. the moon
23. the stars
24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it
25. your favorite scent
26. listening to a song on loop for hours
27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing
28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you
29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather
30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather
31. dancing when to music when you're alone
32. sunsets
33. sunrises
34. snow
35. rain
36. your favorite song
37. you'll miss out on memes
38. watch corona disappear
39. long bus/train/car rides
40. road trips
41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours
42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full
43. trying out new things
44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning
45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc.
46. giving gifts
47. receiving gifts
48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries)
49. fireplaces
50. roasting marshmallows
51. s'mores
52. chocolates
53. finding stray animals
54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs
55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise
56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up
57. free things
58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem
59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right
60. holidays
61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter"
62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it
63. amusement parks
64. candies
65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other
66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you
67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting
68. aesthetic things
69. hugging things
70. seeing rainbows after it rains
71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time
72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day
73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on
74. falling leaves
75. cherry blossom trees
76. your favorite animal
77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears
78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone
79. cringing at weird things
80. trying to learn a new culture
81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something
82. you weren't born to entertain people
83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end)
84. arguing with 8 year old kids
85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug
86. new technologies
87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things
88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed
89. cringing at old things you've said and done
90. money
91. random shower thoughts
92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world"
93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright
94. that weird funky smell from new items
95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile
96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense
97. feeling happy for other people
98. cute animals
99. flowers
100. laughing at your own stupidity
and lastly, 101: me :)
0:16 "i dont care about u anymore" my ex and my personal favourite after i told someone that i felt like kms "no ones gonna remember u anyway"
Hardest words to swallow " she is better than you, she has always been at everything"
Little vent that got better
When I was in art class last year we got to choose where we sit and I sat alone. Everybody moved to the other side of the room. I had to do every project alone with nobody,j wasn't allowed to change seats again either. It felt so isolating and degrading having people give me those little looks of pity or whatever it was yet never even offering a seat at their table. It was sk bad that I started looking for reasons not to go to that class, I'd move all appointments with a counselor to be during that class alone. But now, this year we got the choice to sit wherever we wanted again and people actually moved to my table to sit with me! The guy that I liked who is now my boyfriend wanted to swap seats with the girl next to me so we could sit together. Now I don't feel all that alone, people like me. I know they don't hate me anymore. And it feels good. But I can't help but feel like maybe they're all pretending, that's something I've gotta work on for myself because now people argue over who gets to work with me for classes! During drama I had a fall out with my partner and then 2 groups offered for me to join. It felt nice to be wanted. It feels nice to have people come up to me and say "Heyy how are you?!" It feels nice to have friends again after a year of complete isolation. Even during the lockdown I was less alone, I've spent 4 years like that but it felt so different last year. It felt inhumane. Now i have people to talk to and hangout with. Now I know that people want me to sit with them for lunch. Now j know people enjoy being on call for a bit. I know that they don't hate me and they know I love them all for being so kind. It feels nice
Aww❤ I’m happy for you. I really hope it’ll be even better too !
I don’t wanna make your vent about me, but I experience that too.. nothing really change for me but I’m happy for u ❤❤❤and it’s sucks.. ur not alone 😊
The fact it’s my life all over again…
Someone who does care pls let me know and I will make you my best real friend I’m sorry for you all I’m sorry I wish someone was there for you.
i hope your still alive
The only person who actually cares abt me is my best friend she’s the only person who wants to sit with me and partner up. She was sick on the day of the field trip I went to so I had to be alone the whole time. There was only one person who felt bad and sat with me.
Don’t feel bad I’m sure they had a fun time with you
I hate when I’m the therapist friend and when I try to vent but they turn it into theirs…
each time i try to handle the emotions and pain and not burst out like a crybaby i can’t help but fucking cry.. and be there guilt tripping my self and overthinking not only have i bursted out for that matter of fact but i have this friend who had 2 other friends and those 2 friends sent me death threats to kill my self and worst things and kept ranting and ranting about these things it just hits so hard.. cause you are in the middle not wanting to die but at the same time some thing hurt you that u wish u weren’t alive sometimes..
I cried so hard I can’t cry anymore
I relate to the first one so much it’s scary..
I call myself skinny to make jokes and ,=making me feel better
@@DDDD-to2tm I’m really underweight and people call me sticks and bones and it hurts
Ikr…
@@biancaa.s :c
They never try to notice...I'm going insane...This is painfull
I like how I can talk to my dad about dating girls and my feelings but can't even say anything about myself around my mom
0:22 when my friends get upset they take their anger out on me when I’m trying to calm them down so the hardest words I have to swallow are when my friends say “YOU KNOW YOU CANT ALWAYS MAKE PEOPLE FEEL BETTER” (don’t worry my other friends defended me because they saw I was on the verge of tears)
0:22 probably “why don’t you go run to ____?”
People begging.others to vent actually pisses me off so horrendously. Ask once, if they're not comfortable with it, stop asking.
Thanks for these, really. ❤️
It’s the fact that I’ve been best friends with my best friend for years and try to help her as much as I can’t my she never cares so never hugs me back, and always criticizes me in the worst way possible, just picking out me till I feel like I’m crying every night, yet she still makes me apologize for everything…
What hurts the most is when your parents know that you are hurting and they just don't care.
The hardest words I had to swallow..
We're the ones that were never spoken.
Being left alone, singled out on purpose for a reason I'll never know.
It was a pill I choked on then swallowed dry.
hardest words?
maybe that i was exaggerating about my dad being in the hospital, on my very last straw. an anvil on my mental health and that day i had my first failed suicide attempt
I cant do it anymore
I told my friend ‘I can’t do it anymore’ and she thought i was on about our homework haha
1:45
this
nobody understands
my bond with school was broken in elementary
i get panic attacks when thinking of going to school
even when i want to go
i can’t bring myself to do so.
*they* just..don’t get it.
0:23
my friends 'joked' about ignoring me for the whole of the afternoon and they knew i had insecurities about being strange for people and i didn't stand up for myself, i really wanted to say " you obviously seemed more happy without me, so go be without me" but i couldn't because they aren't only friends.
When i was 7 i starved myself so i die i wish it worked
The year that hurt me the most was the year i was born 🤗🤗🤪😵🥰😍
Sometimes I wish I could stop feeling. Everyone aside from my best friend just sees me as the stupid emotional one. Whenever I have a bad day it’s just “oh she’s at it again”
0:22 "I don't love you anymore" literally that was the last thing my ex gf told me
0:23
My “best friend” : I mean no offense, but I don’t wanna be best friends anymore, we can just be close friends.
Me: …………Yeah it’s ok, I’m going to get lunch now.
My “best friend” : Oh ok I’m going to go eat with Kathy now!
The more I stay alive tho more I realize why roosters start their days off screaming
The hardest words to swallow- "If your old enough to try to kys your old enough to be responsible for yourself" -mom
the way i was crying and gagging watching those while knowing how much i loved them and we were so close…not they talk shit abt me. tbh i dont even wanna be here anymore because of them. they keep letting me down. whatever…noone would ever listen to my vent.
0:23 “hey uh im uninstalling dc for a while… goodbye”
Y’all ever get such bad anxiety your stomach hurts and you can’t cry? Because that’s how I feel rn. My friends all seem annoyed and mad at me and I can’t take it anymore everything hurts I’m overthinking more than normal and I don’t know where to go, everyone hates me and I feel like I can’t do anything about it. What did I do, and what do I do to make it better?
if it makes you feel better, same.. it gets so bad when i get to the bathroom my tears burst out my eyes and i start breathing heavily. im at a friends sleepover rn and she keeps calling me a b*tch, and even unfriended me on roblox after i beat her in mm2.. i wanna cry so bad….. she hurt me many times before like when i was friends with her before she leaked my private channel, and i had to delete it bc my whole school found out. i trust her over and over and i dont think i will be able to escape this cycle. i hate my life so much
@@vanilla_bae aww, well I’m sending a lot of love!!
@@AlliTwix aw thanks ❤️ I hope you are doing well too! Sending love!
Nah but is it just me or does anyone else have an SH addiction but it's only really bad in the winter because it's more easier to hide from people
Same
My mum found out about my ice addiction and now is getting numerous blood tests. Don’t get me wrong I know it will help but I have a phobia of needles and anxiety. My friends will tell everyone and teachers will start sending me out to talk to the so called support of safeguarding.. I’m losing myself I can’t even eat. I’ve been skinny shamed and fat shamed. Am I even good enough? My mum also found my scars and searched my room. She found my vent book and threw it away. Somebody help me I just want to leave this hell and be gone.. I hope some of you find a happy ending but for me my happy ending may be leaving… :)
I miss my comfort person. They are my best friend and my everything. I miss them so much.
One day i got a friends.
We used to be best friends.
But she has something who always terrifies me.
The thing is when i was not ok with her opinion she literally menacing me .
She menacing me by my bullying when i was in primary.
And you know i hate when the thing i vent she used this like a weapon to me.
She was literally always insulting me and one day she beat me and when i asked why she said that was for fun.
And then she used this for like 3 year on me.
The day i separated from her i use to do a lot of nigthmare where she killed me.
And now this nigthmare is always there.
When trying not to cry is more painful than crying
When you just got a message from your only friend saying that you’re ignoring her, making herself the victim, saying that you’re jealous of her and her friends and you just lost her so now you’re alone and you’re even more hurt than you were before:
The first time I actually felt love was when my classmates asked if I was okay..
Aww honey you may not know me and I may not know you but if you think no one loves you at least try to remember I love you and I care for you and hope you’ll find someone who loves you unconditionally ❤️ xx
For the first one i can eat as much as i want but wont get much bigger and i can feel the first one like ill have 1 taco bc that’s fills me up but my mum is always like aren’t u more hungry?
0:24 - holding tears in - “x=3”
Someone i thought i was friends with sat at my table during science and told me"im bored enough to join" it hurt so much and i almost cried. And someone i was friends with just stopped talking to me for some reason.
0:22 '' oh sorry i was just mad at my game, forgive my for slapping you''
0:22
Melly my bestie: "I think im about to die" "I dont want to die" 😭
5:12 I’m actually super proud of this person tho❤
the hardest thing t swalow is being told my best friens not being my besties anymore after 3 yrs
Honestly I feel so terrible and just wanna run away from everything
How are you now?
hello dear! good morning/afternoon/night.
how are you?
well, if ur sad im so sorry to hear.
Whoever hurt you, whatever triggered you, whatever happened, i hope ur day gets so much better!
just remember ur so valuable and mean so much to someone or.. everyone! even if you dont think so.
pssst ... go down!!
i love you so much
Tysm your amazing!!!:)
In fifth grade I did counseling 4 my FAM problems then I got told I had depression and anxiety it hurts....😭😭😭😭
°•vent•°
So my mom is very mentally abusive, and I remember how the one thing I wanted her to say more than anything was a simple apology. one that she really meant. One what she wouldn't simply forget. And I remember so clearly just a couple days ago how she was yelling at me and saying things like, "What did I ever do to deserve this," "Why are you like this?" The typical. I remember how I finally answered the last question. How I said with tears dripping of my face, how I was so stressed out because of her yelling at ever little mistake. And what she said next just broke me. Broke all of my hopes. "When your stressed out, you don't just get into even more trouble! So answer the damn question! Why are you like this?!" And it hurt so much. And I said, unable to control it, how that was the truth. How it was my coping mechanism, to do what got me into trouble, which was watching RUclips on my school Chromebook, because I'm not allowed to watch RUclips and it's blocked on everything else, because it just lets me forget the stress for a little while. And I apologized. I remember how scared I was. She had never layed her hands on me, but I was so scared she would, because she had been threatening to for awhile. "I'm sorry, too .." just broke me. Because she apologized! She really apologized! And I was crying the rest of the night, in fear that it was fake. In fear that she would wake up and have forgotten...
I understand! Me too, like what do they mean by “What did i do to deserve this or you?” Like YOU made ME. It was your choice.. my mom and dad has physically abused me when i was younger but now they do it less but at the same time they still love me i dont know how to explainnnn
The fact I relate to way to much..
The moment I started reading ur comment and I saw your mom is mentally abusive I felt very bad for u
@@ThatOneRandomPersonOnRUclips what you said to them, is what I wished people would say when I also talked about my mother.
@@Ilovetheater012 is ur mom also mentally abusive
I just had the worst day of secondary school and its only my first year 2 of my friends have turned on me and everyone else is comstasmtly harrasing . I fucking hate my life and my shitty school
What’s the most hardest sentence to swallow?
“Your to fat,ugly and dumb to be my best friend I’m not being your friend anymore😂”
-My ex best friend.
The hardest words i swallowed was " No! "
4:54 this hurt a lot. Cuz I really feel that people would actually recognise me for me if I was “skinny”
Maybe but thats not always the case.. See im skinny and everyone still bullies me for it(for example: call me a stick, call me flat, call me bones, jst being so rude). Its digusting, it seems like you just cant be “perfect”. But we dont need to be “perfect” cus it simply doesn’t exist.
0:13 nah bcs today me and my bsf started taking a break over something they did. it was so hard bcs ik it was a mistake and i felt so bad. they told me that they would be waiting for me. i started balling bcs whyyyyyyy did they have to do that bcs i still want to be there friend but i cant change what happened 🥺
hah- I wish I was perfect
The word “perfect” shouldn’t even exist.
@@j_is_my_fav6293 Yeah.. but it doesn I just wanna be skinny and not cause problems
@@Nyx-Starx your perfect just the way you are you don’t need to change we all love you so much and wish you the best in life
@@j_is_my_fav6293 Thank you so much for saying that, It made me feel a bit better
"I wish i pretty "
-VENT-
so I don't feel like my choices matter to anyone. "DONT wear this, it looks bad on you so I will be soooooooo ashamed ". "Woah, you sure you wanna eat that? You might get fatter piggy!". "Well you have to go with us. We don't care your sick."
Stop. Please. I can't handle this. If I cry I will be again known as a crybaby so I cry alone even if someone asks me if I need help. I can't stand people screaming at me. I feel invisible all the time but when I cry everyone suddenly cares but don't even help me. What is wrong with people, why can't they respect me?
0:23 like ones I wanted to say? “Ok I will”
When I read all these comments I feel so bad.. I thought my friend problems are bad but after reading everyone elses I just feel like I’m over reacting. I’m useless
the second one was true me and my bff did a roasting battle but then she said something that actually hurt me and I started crying and couldn’t sleep at all
You know when your heart physically aches? One of the worst pains out there
I know saying “it’s ok, you are perfect no matter what” probably won’t help but I just wanted to say that
If you think about committing suicide, please take my words
Life may not feel worth it but there’s always at least one person who cares about you and doesn’t want you to pass, there’s also always something that you look forward to, if someone’s toxic to you, they can’t tell you what you are and can’t change the person you are. We may have only 1 life, so we should make the best out of that one life, you don’t need to please anybody, you at least need to please yourself first. Other people may hate you, but please just know that I think that your important, and my favorite. Even though I don’t know who you are, I support all of you and you can vent to me if needed. I also have problems, but it’s just the worm in my brain that lies to me. Please, if you feel like you’re worthless and that you’re nothing, you’re lying to yourself. You are the main character in your own life, nobody can bring you down. Although, if you still feel like suiciding and if being alive to you brings more pain, please don’t. If you feel like you can’t take it any longer, I’m not forcing you to or telling you to, but if you feel like that’s the best thing to do, then you can go for it. Im not saying that you should die, I don’t want anyone to die, or convincing you to die,but in heaven there’s more peace, I promise. You’re not alone because everyone has problems no matter the age, and we all support each other! We may not know how it feels but trust me, you can’t let anyone hurt you in your own life, you can fight back for how you want to be treated! This may or may not help you, but please feel free to vent in the replies so maybe I can help, I hope everyone values their life. ❤️✨
Please spread this message if you want 🙏💗
Thank you so much for this, take care 🖤
Thanks sir , that was wonderful text , it is so hopeful
1:19 this is my daily life
i'm sorry babe. i know how it feels, trust me it will get better. 💗
00:20 "look im sorry but no one wants you here... so you have to leave...."
I CANT CRY ANYMORE HELP ME
What are the hardest words for you to swallow
*”im fine”*
I was in a friend group of 7 (including me) and I just felt soo excluded. it kept getting worser and worser. they would ignore what I say and only speak to me when they need my stuff. yesterday I found 9ut they all collectively hated me and thought I was annoying. they were my only friends. without them I had no one. school is torture and none of them realise how much this hurt me. this is not the first time but it still hurts. I cried and cried and that's all I did . I tried to feel happy again by talking to some old friends but I couldn't do it. they wiped out my smile and my loud energy. I want to hate them but I cant. I still feel sad when I see them talking to each other like nothing happened. I can't do this anymore
thank you for reading so far
0:23
“im busy..”
0:27 “STOP” “You’re annoying” “That hurt..” “Eat more” “k”
was on my phone just to text him and get a blocked page at the end when "he got bored" of me.
I got called annoying by sm I loved and trusted
“What year ruined you the most “ my fourteen years on this hellish place we call home
1:38 i relate so much. i get bullied in school
I actually cant take this anymore everyday my mother finds a way to yell at me and my dad is dead so that doesnt make it any better.
22 : your not my friend 2:10 100% true 3:54 ive done it before 6:34 it was leaving my friends without saying goodbye
5:26 why can i agree with this so much
At least you actually have someone to ask if you are okay. 0:53
Are you okay? 😊❤
@@KaciPayne-nj8wb I’m doing a bit better since then, thanks for checking in ❤️
I honestly just want someone to talk to. My parents won’t let me see my friends and i don’t even have any friends since my parents homeschooled me.
The one about how you just physically can't go to school hit me the most I think.
Three days ago I got called by my school psychologist (it's one of the actually paid and devoted to their job ones so I like and trust her) and I was wondering, was it about that anonymus vent letter I left under her door a few months ago? I knew she knew it was me, so maybe she's going to ask if it got better?
But turns out no. She called me because my teacher (I have no idea how a teacher besides teaching that looks after your class specifically is called) said I have the habit of cleaning my throat a lot and he was wondering if it could be a stress reaction or something. I knew I was doing it often, but had absolutely no idea it was so loud.
Good for me I was already sick and my parents agreed for me to stay home for the rest of the week. I have no idea how I would act confronted with the fact that it's not just my brain thinking I'm being a bother to others. I was already anxious that I'm making a lot of noises (cleaning throat, coughing, shifting in my seat a lot, reaching for the backpack etc), but now it's confirmed that people actually notice it.
I don't know if it's a stress reaction or just the effect of my almost constant sinus infection, but fuck god damn it I'm not going back to school until I find a way to stop doing it... thing is I just can't. If I don't do it, I feel like I'm going to choke. I don't know what to do
0:22
“Let’s just be strangers again.”
0:11 is true for me lol i cry every single fucking day bc of the one text
Vent comment: I dont really have irl friends, I never fit in anywhere. Always a weirdo. And when I found a best friend.. they left me. “ this is your fault! your fault! “ oh, your edit is good “ OMG GIRL THAT EDIT IS SOOOO COOL!!!!!!!! “ You make friends, someone just like you.. a weirdo..! But they change.. and then.. you loose them. :(