Girl it’s such a struggle to stay strong. I had to move away from California and all my friends to get clean. Once me and my husband moved and got clean it was like me and him were strangers we had nothing in common anymore he moved back to California and got back on drugs and went to jail. I’ve stayed clean ever since. I could never go back to that life. I know I wouldn’t survive. It was such a dark time in my life I am surprised I even came out of that ok. I’ve done some insane things for the dope and seen things that haunts me to this day. Your life seems chaotic, but adventurous. Stay strong. Love and light Ruby ❤
I remember when you first disappeared during that time, I would occasionally check your social media to see any sign that you were still alive, even if you were just liking posts. As someone who also lost an older brother, I'm sorry for the pain you went through. Your life is slowly improving, even if there are days where it doesn't feel like it, you're in a better place than before 💜 I'm thankful that we got to know each other better.
@@StElmosFire53 It’s painful to think about how his final moments were so I try to remember the positive times. He made quite a splash in his short life, he’s very missed.
Ruby, you have been through a lot and so have I. I am so proud of you for moving forward and improving your life. You know, It's ok. Some of us out there are just late bloomers and once you want something so much, things will get better. The Lord provides! lol I am so happy to be supporting you on your journey and I will never stop. You have been honestly the best content creator I have ever come across on RUclips. You just have the best personality and a good heart. Let's not forget your incredible humor for making me laugh constantly. I stand by you Ruby 100% and let's keep pushing forward.🙂❤
Thank you so much cycleman I really appreciate the kind words and the support you’ve given me! I’ve been living off these donations until I get my first check so it’s been a lifesaver. Glad you’re enjoying the content🙏🙏🙏🩵🩵!
Getting really tired of reading obits for young people that say "passed away unexpectedly". I wish they'd just print what it actually was, it might help somebody. No judgement, please just stay alive I'm rooting for you. I've lost so many people to this exact pattern. It's such a predictable way to go and it's too boring. Have to laugh or I'd cry.
Glad you're doing good, Im bout 2 months of just methadone. The Roo is gonna be mad that you referred to him as "this bigger RUclipsr" if he see's this.
Rubes, I'm right there with ya. Vividly. Seriously can't wait to hear where this goes. You're a soldier, girl. Living on the street sorts you the fuck out. Quick.
We should maybe make a baby. I want a kid but I also have issues? Idk? Do I! Let’s make a baby but not in the normal way? Or not. Dumb idea. Beavis and butt head. Duh duh duh der der der duh duh duh.
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What an incredibly touching testimony Ruby. You are a beautiful girl inside and out. Sending big love and support 🙏🏻🕊❤️
Girl it’s such a struggle to stay strong. I had to move away from California and all my friends to get clean. Once me and my husband moved and got clean it was like me and him were strangers we had nothing in common anymore he moved back to California and got back on drugs and went to jail. I’ve stayed clean ever since. I could never go back to that life. I know I wouldn’t survive. It was such a dark time in my life I am surprised I even came out of that ok. I’ve done some insane things for the dope and seen things that haunts me to this day. Your life seems chaotic, but adventurous. Stay strong. Love and light Ruby ❤
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I remember when you first disappeared during that time, I would occasionally check your social media to see any sign that you were still alive, even if you were just liking posts. As someone who also lost an older brother, I'm sorry for the pain you went through. Your life is slowly improving, even if there are days where it doesn't feel like it, you're in a better place than before 💜 I'm thankful that we got to know each other better.
This is great Ruby! You tell your story so well. I’m so proud of you!
🩵🙏 thank you ☺️
Amazing video! Thank you for sharing your journey! Im so very sorry for your loss of your Bro❤
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Prayers for your family. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Your brother killed in jail. I didn’t realize that’s where he died. My prayers for you all. I’m tearing up just the thought.
Your hair is so beautiful sitting in your bed with the dog. Very sixties looking and healthy. As well as what looks like your natural color
@@StElmosFire53 It’s painful to think about how his final moments were so I try to remember the positive times. He made quite a splash in his short life, he’s very missed.
Ruby I think ur doing awesome. Keep on pushing u got this. You done really great on this video. 💕
Thank you so much!! 💜💜💜🙏🙏🙏 you always come w the positive energy
@@Ruby_Spacek Are you trans?
Thank you for sharing ❤🔥
RIP to your brother 🙏🏻🫂
Great video! & great editing!
Thank you Poly! I prayed for motivation and was blessed today woohoo! Hope you are well :)
@@Ruby_Spacek I enjoyed hearing the softer side of you & about your life, although I loveeeeeee wild & crazy Ruby too 🥰
Ruby, you have been through a lot and so have I. I am so proud of you for moving forward and improving your life. You know, It's ok. Some of us out there are just late bloomers and once you want something so much, things will get better. The Lord provides! lol I am so happy to be supporting you on your journey and I will never stop. You have been honestly the best content creator I have ever come across on RUclips. You just have the best personality and a good heart. Let's not forget your incredible humor for making me laugh constantly. I stand by you Ruby 100% and let's keep pushing forward.🙂❤
Thank you so much cycleman I really appreciate the kind words and the support you’ve given me! I’ve been living off these donations until I get my first check so it’s been a lifesaver. Glad you’re enjoying the content🙏🙏🙏🩵🩵!
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@@Ruby_Spacek your welcome! and I know but hopefully you get your check soon. I may not always be around the web but I always check in lol👍🙃
@@Cycleman90you’re the king man I hope you have a good night
@@Ruby_Spacek Anytime!🙂😎
Getting really tired of reading obits for young people that say "passed away unexpectedly". I wish they'd just print what it actually was, it might help somebody. No judgement, please just stay alive I'm rooting for you. I've lost so many people to this exact pattern. It's such a predictable way to go and it's too boring. Have to laugh or I'd cry.
Excellent video.
Ruby, i put in a word for with with the lead cook at Strings, OBL. I think you got a job out here in the Free Stare of Jefferson
Sorry for your loss🙏🙏🙏😔🤍
Really powerful video. a global pandemic and a close family members death…. You can’t predict it. Keep being strong and keep fighting.
Thank you 🙏 💜a lot of people relapsed during the pandemic, I’m so grateful to still be here and have a fighting chance tho 🩵
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Glad you're doing good, Im bout 2 months of just methadone. The Roo is gonna be mad that you referred to him as "this bigger RUclipsr" if he see's this.
Rubes, I'm right there with ya. Vividly. Seriously can't wait to hear where this goes. You're a soldier, girl. Living on the street sorts you the fuck out. Quick.
I relate to the early degenerate 20's/post frontal lobe development rebuild arc. Shoutout to all the late bloomers in life
heheh yup I’m still playing catch up on life
We should maybe make a baby. I want a kid but I also have issues? Idk? Do I! Let’s make a baby but not in the normal way? Or not. Dumb idea. Beavis and butt head. Duh duh duh der der der duh duh duh.
"Keep up the great work! Life has many trials and tribulations."
Thank you Johnny :))