-When it's been years since it ended... you read this comment... realize you never fell out of love with them and feel that familiar ache in your chest, like a bad joint in the winter.
I got this feeling 3 days ago, I don't know if I'll be able to fall out of it, I don't want to keep being like this, chest hurts and all I wanna do is scream and punch my fists in the wall even if it hurts me. I don't know what I did wrong and I wish I knew. It was too sudden, hit me like a train but without any horns to warn me. I can't stop thinking about you.
I felt so guilty for such a long time for letting you go, but now, now I realize that... you're hurting me, I loved you more than I loved myself, and well, you didn't love that much and I don't blame you, because such as I did, you broke my heart too.
this really hurts to read cuz of how much i can relate to it. she cheated on me but why do i still feel the need to be with her? i cant find it in me to let her go cuz when i do...is the moment i accept we wont have a future together and im not ready to give that up. atleast no yet...
The problem that she loved me too, with all her hearth. But I let her go, more than once, I let her go because I was too afraid to love. I let her go more than 2 years ago. I let her go and I think about that, I am haunted by that every single day.
Oh wow, it’s been nearly six years since I left him, I had our child. I was so hurt, it still hurts. I have really bad anxiety, depression, ptsd, more trust issues than I had before, I’m autistic so it was hard enough to handle trying a relationship so now I struggle more with not being able to understand if I was the problem but I doubt I was, I did everything he wanted, clean the house do my family’s laundry paid all our bills and bought the food and worked and worked and I thought it was love. Despite the bottles and the screaming and throwing. I blame that on my childhood since I didn’t have a model of what a loving relationship was. I still blame myself. I never asked him to stop cheating, never called him out because I didn’t think I deserved to.
Sometimes.. I hate that I still love her she's probably dying for me to get over her. she's probably so annoyed a person as low as me could even like her she's probably had enough of seeing my face but I still love her. every time she asks if i still love her all i can say is "I still love you" and the only reason I say that. is because I really.. still do.. she gets mad at me shouts at me to just get over her tells me to just give up but no matter how hard i try to forget these feelings they just won't go. in every day, everything reminds me of her. i'm so miserable. it's all my fault. i'm causing all this hurt for me and her why can't i just forget i ever loved her. she's gonna ask me again hoping I say i'm over her but I'm not. all i can say is I still love you, sorry.
Me and you have the same problem but today she finally chose to cut me out of her life it sucks so much but keep your head up I know the everything reminds you of her is no easy thing it really hurts everytime and even if you can't move on you gotta live and work hard
4+ years I've known and been by her side from every up and down never leaving her and it fucking sucks but I made her a promise to never kill myself and to try my best to stay away from self harm
So sad stupid story about me please don't judge or read to much into it, I just wanted to get this off my chest. I saw you once a while ago never did notice until a bit later though. We were young just 14, we were being ''emo''. as is usual being a teen. I stared at you across the cafeteria, you saw and laughed at me. I got a friend to ask your name, because that smile was all to much for me. We were both shy and awkward as can be, but that didn't stop me. I asked your friends if you had a boyfriend at the time, how happy I was to hear someone had none I would never be again. Soon I tried asking you out, you said yes. Wasn't long before we were together all the time, in school and outside. people'd go up and say you'd better not let eachother get away. we both would laugh and shy away. We had things in commen, though bad it may have been. Or parents did not always agree. Being depressed and wanting to hurt ourselves frequently. But thanks to you I could not be happier, even though when you were not there I could not have fallen deeper. We made a promise to stop for eachother, cutting eachother for the last time to solidify this. You did not want to but understood that if you'd hurt yourself you'd hurt me to, like you said it was for you too. you were my first, like I was yours. it was just second base, but boy was I nervous. It was a bit weird and awkward all the same, but it didn't matter we both came. I couldn't help but lie and smile with you in bed that day. watched you sleep until I too fell away. We'd hang out in the grass after schooldays, just laying there as cars drove by. Not saying a word, not that we had to. We were just glad being together there. We'd hug before we had to go our seperate ways, making both of us late. I'm still smiling for those days. moving forward we started living together, we both went to school again although not together. I'd be at work all day just to find you home, waiting for me saying sometimes welcome home. I always was fast coming home, knowing you'd be there drove me on. Even if work was hard and though, coming home to you was enough. We were together for 5 and half years. Then it felt like we found a crossing. you went one way and I went the other. I felt us drifting apart, and I thought it was all my fault. Still think so, though you said it was not. You said you were fine, but the spark in your eyes was gone. the laugh you once had, I had not heard for so long. I did not think that time, I was wrong. I pushed you away, thinking you'd be better off without me. Said we could not go on. I was very wrong. It was me who felt like I could not live up to you. Like I didn't deserve you. But when I realised you were already gone. I called and texted you, you talked but little to none. I said I was stupid and wrong and didn't want this. To revert time and go back to how things were going on. Then shit hit the fan... What you did you were back in town, said you needed time and space. I listend hoping to fix what I had broken. You needed money for a place to stay I gave it to you saying I didn't need it back, you gave your body away online to pay me back. I could've never accepted that, you were worth so much more than that. I said I still loved you and wanted you back, you slept with an almost married man behind is fiance's and kid's back I forgave you since I screwed up real bad. I cried trying to explain how I felt and you cried with me, but pretended nothing happend afterwards. I came every night to your home just to see how you were doing. We slept together. I wanted to feel the love once had you just wanted lust and the kicked me out to rest. I felt used but hoped it would bring you back. When I asked you again, you said you'd already givin up. My friends told me I should forget you, My parents did the same. They did not know how it was, how it is. But how especially I felt along the way. We saw eachother one last time. We didn't say much, we both couldn't lie. We both had made mistakes, we couldn't right anymore. We just chatted the spark we had was gone. The pain I felt that day along was enough, to send me spiralling three years and more. I'm still picking up the pieces of the heart I once gave you. Now broken and unstable. I send you a mail since you wanted to be friends. I told you I coudn't but you did not understand. So I pushed you away, before you'd hurt me again. But the truth in the end is... I'd still fall in love with you again..
I cried at this. Ok, that sounds shallow, but it's true. I had a silent breakdown. I love this story, and I hope you manage! Just remember, Ambition and The Comment Section, we have your back!
Being in love hurts but the feeling of sitting up late at night, looking at the stars, and feeling that pounding in your chest makes it worth everything.
it hurts more loving someone you know doesn't love you anymore, desperately clinging to a hope that things could be how they once were, though you know nothing will ever be the same again, sitting up late at night, looking at the stars with tears in your eyes, alone, because you can't seem to fall in love with anyone else and you can't stop thinking about someone who doesn't need you anymore.
Damm the comment bar is filled with deep and heart touching/breaking stories that are giving me the feels meanwhile I just thought I had a smol crush on someone and then realized I think about them every moment I'm not busy and imagine scenarios with them and hope everyday I will atleast catch a small glimpse. And I don't think we will work out since I'm not pretty just like their female friends he willn probably leave school early since that person is two classes above me.... How do you forget a crush like how do you get over them ?
You cant forget them unless u moved on,or have someone new that noticed u..for me i already express my feelings yet she just wanna be friends cause this hurts the most.cause i have to be friends with my crush.😭 and we rarely message each other.this is worse...so just try to move on,try to find someone new thats gonna notice u,make u happy,will always be there to give hugs and kisses,especially to cuddle with u when u need to be pampered
Thank you for being you Roses are read, violets are blue, There is a tune, To there the birds flew, For those loved through and through, A place of wisdom and understanding, A mountain of charity, Where Understanding and love gave their first kiss, The two intertwined now defined as clarity, Clarity where are you now? it was you I had missed, I made hymns of your beauty, While in the abyss, Only when the stars would shine like this, That in the darkness that I could find bliss. Thank you for being you
It all started at my class, there was this girl, the most beautiful girl there, her hair, her smile, everything on her made me feel happy and gave me another big reason to keep going to that school. I took a deep breath and tried to talk with her. Luckily she talked with me. Time passed, like 9 months or so, we both had the same feeling now, we used to hold hands, say I love you. I thought we where a thing, and to confirm that I tried to ask her if she wanted to date.The same day I thought I could tell her my feelings, she messages me saying that she had some "family issues", I asked her what is the matter but she just answered saying that she wanted distance from me, that I wasn't a close friend to her so she would prefer to be near her friends besides of me, I lied saying it was ok, I will wait, but i wasn't ok, i was already crying by that, she then said it would be better for me not to wait, and she never liked our hugs, she never liked to hold hands with me. From that day forward, she never talked with me, we never hold hands again. But every single time i see her, its like the first time. (English isn't my main language, sorry).
2 years late but... I felt relatable 'cause I had the same situation just like you, yeah about the "family issues". We've been full of happiness together until the day her mom found out that she had a boyfriend. Her childhood was heavily affected by the heartless stepdad, her mom became so strict and didn't care much about her daughter feelings. Covid-19 days made me miss her and hoped that I could meet her after the quarantine but then she texted "I think that we need to stop, I just want to breakup, I'm really sorry, don't feel sad and blame yourself because that's my fault". My heart still shattered and hurt now and I still love u... I'm sorry... I just can't move on. The only girl I love just left me all of sudden...
I saw him first in class, I knew his best friend more than him himself. We met at the lunch benches but only spoke for a few minutes. He started to call me kiddo and short, even patting my head sometimes. It was the last time we talked for two months. I met him online again with a few friends in a group chat. It was up to ten people. Two of them liked him. When I started to talk and dm him I felt this odd feeling about myself. We made our own private group chat in a server this time. Just the two of us. It was Wednesday. He said he wanted to try something. He then started up a roleplay like we do more often now and he kissed me. It wasn’t real but we knew this wasn’t a joke. He said that he liked me. It was 11:34 pm and I had to go to sleep soon but I just kept on hugging him and I said I liked him back. It was his first confession. I knew it wasn’t a joke this time. He always made jokes in a dm saying “you know I like you.. right? Jkjk, or am I?” I always wanted to strangle him whenever he says that, but now it was so surreal. I had to go to bed, I told him that and he said good night and sweet dreams for the first time. The next day when I saw him in class we gave eachother a big hug. We knew we were too young to date but we considered ourself to be a future girlfriend future boyfriend thing. Our teacher walked in on us hugging and she looked at me, she had a clean smile on her face and walked to her desk knowing we liked each other. We talked everyday until a few months later. It was some sort of event and I sat right next to him. He turned to me and said “high five!” And when I did he took my hand and held it. I blushed so hard but nobody even noticed, it was my first time holding an actual crush or persons hand besides relatives. He let go and we both laughed, he was blushing too and smiling. I thought it was cute and joked about it. He said he hated his smile, but I didn’t wanna force him so I just hugged him and nobody even noticed what happened, even when his best friend was there. The event was over. Now every single event after another we sit together and preform together. We parter up for certain things and we were always together. People started to think we were together, which was true but we just made up and excuse that we’re just best friends. If people found out it would be spread around the entire school. Though they’d never believe us at least we tried. It was quite a while since he’s said sweet dreams to me. But then one night he decided to say it. But he also said “I love you.” I had to say the same, we both were blushing and it was all screen love but we knew we had something. Since school is still on summer break for us.. we’ll be seeing each other in 4 weeks. I enjoy your warm hugs and when you held my hand. I hope we get to do our plans of walking in the rain together one night and staying up on the roof and just talking. I hope we can do that when we see each other again. I love you. -Lumi
Two years late, but who cares She, at the beggining, was cold and rude and a big bully. The first time I saw her was in middle school, we were both 9. She said my round glasses were ugly. I shrugged and went to my class. Whenever she needed to talk to me, she called me ''nerd''. Everytime I passed on the hallway on my way to History class, she would be sitting back at the same window, lift her sharp grey eyes at me, give a sarcastic smile and shout ''Hey, nerd!''. I never cared. I was bullied before for many reasons before. Why would she think her insults bothered me? Then she started getting bullied. A bunch of tall and fat, older kids would block her way and insult her. Sometimes I heard her out-smarting them or giving back a sarcastic comment and walking away. A nine-year-old Barbie girl with grades and sarcasm against five, sometimes six stronger twelve-year-olds. I don't remember when she stopped talking to me. But I do remember that, in the beggining, I got bored. Somehow she became part of my routine. When we were thirteen, she came to class one day with a new haircut. The light blonde, almost platinum long hair she used to wave around was now barely touching her shoulders. Everyone stared as she took a seat behind me, pulling her books from the bag. The class went by normally, but some girls would still look at her with shock. In first grade of highschool, we got into the same school and she still sat behind me every class. But we never really talked. Another boring chemistry class, I was drawing in the backpage of my notebook when I felt my hair being slightly pulled. My the corner of my eyes, I watched as she played with a lock of my hair between her pale fingers. When I turned around to face her and the lock fell out of her hands, all she did was lift her gaze and say, in her sweet and melodic voice. ''I'm sorry. Your hair is just really pretty.'' I answered that I wasn't mad and that she could continue playing with it. And then she did. I fell asleep during math once and woke up to see my hair fully braided and the answers to the exercises I missed explanations all noted down in a green note. I think that's when we started being friends. She proved to be really sweet and funny and charismatic, and she gave the greatest hugs in the world. I finally found out I've fallen for her when we were both 17. We attended the same college and became roommates. I was majoring in Architecture, she was majoring in English. When we were 21 I took the courage to ask her out. I'll never know if she took this first date as a thing between friends or not, but truth is, it was really fun and heart warming. I took her to the greatest coffee shop I knew and it was very nice. We were 25 when I finally asked her to be my girlfriend. And she said yes! She said yes and that felt like the happiest day of my life. Two years ago she was diagnosed with lung cancer. So I worked day and night to pay the hospital bills. But we were too late. Sorry, Darcy, I know you wouldn't want this, I know you'd want me to move on and be happy with someone else, but... I still love you. Sorry.
i'm.....so so very sorry for ur lose. I wish for ur gf to be in a better place now. Ur story was so beautiful i cried haha... I've nvr fallen in love, I think i can't but ur story touched my heart. I hope ur doing well. I hope u remember it's ok to miss her but moving on isn't bad. I hope ur happy. Very much happy cause u deserve it.
I am sorry for your loss, tbh i never liked anyone bcuz I never cared about them, I was kind of the quiet kid... But nice story! (i moved to Canada and everything was great except nothing kinda changed.. until the new kid came... ALL I CAN SAY... Sorry for yur loss agn
TwT Hey, ik im a bit late....but how are you? Are you taking care of yourself? I hope so. If your reading thus that meabs you have made it so far, and i bet your gf would be proud. Im proud to and also your doing great, life can be hard sometimes, we just need to stay strong.
There is silence, In everything we do now, Our words used to have meaning, Substance, Soul, - Now they are just, Misguided ghosts, Looking for a place to fit in, But you believe in ghosts, Don‘t you? - Or at least you used to, Yeah, You used to, Just like our words, Used to have meaning. I still love you, sorry Xo, Ocean
I still love you. And even though we're both with other people now, I'll always have that one spot for you in my heart. We've moved on, but I still care. And I always will. I'm sorry.
I know... I know how long it's been. We haven't seen each other in 3 years, we haven't talked in 2 years. You don't even know that I confessed to you, because you never read any of my messages... I loved you, y'know? I'd... Never truly felt love before until I realized, no matter how hard I tried to change my appearance and personality, I couldn't change my heart to love someone else. I'm sorry I realized it so late. I messaged you, and messaged you, and messaged you... I miss you. I miss you, no matter how much I convince myself that I don't. I've tried to fall in love, over, and over...! But I couldn't help it... You were gone. You didn't even tell me why, or say goodbye... Please come back. Please come back... Please... come back... It hurts so much without you, please come back...! I don't get it, why did you leave me behind? What was I supposed to learn...? Why can't you talk to me, just once...! I want to fall in love again! I want to feel something for someone again. I want to feel something for someone I can touch and talk to. I want to feel something for someone who loves me back. I want to feel something... I want to fall in love... I want to fall in love. I want to fall in love! I need to... But I... I still love you... sorry...
I am now glad that I dont have a love life. No intimate relationship altho im at the age to have one. Yet I'll say, this is sad, I'm sorry if I can't really relate but, I'm rooting for you. All of my best friends are like that, I kinda always have a pattern. But its fine, we say good bye and sometimes need closure. Hope you guys have a good one, good luck! 😊
I was also inlove to someone for 9 years.. but finally i have freed myself from that sad emotion.. loving someone who can never love you back.. he forgave me and i forgave him too.. and most importantly.. i forgave myself.. finally.. now I can say that it's totally fine to be alone and not to think of him.. ☺️☺️☺️ I am alone but happy in my solitude.
The idea of 3 years and 2 years is so on point with my situation. I’ve been studying abroad and he’s still in my hometown (now working) 😔 he’s been the only guy i truly loved bit he never knew that.. he avoided me at some point but recently we started talking again.. but still haven’t seen him irl
I fell in love with my best friend for 3 whole years before i finally confessed. I know he wouldn't love me back because he is straight and I am a guy. I stayed silent for 3 years and pretending i have no feelings for him but no matter what i do to get over him, he comes back like a bitter sweet dream. Unable to combat my feelings, I thought i would tell him, so he could finally reject me and I could finally get this over with. And as expected, he rejected me but everything went better then I thought. he hugged me and told me that i shouldve told him earlier because best friends should never keep secrets from each other. I cried. But i wasnt crying because i didnt get the love i wanted but because i got something better, the most kind and loving friend I could've ever gotten. he swore he would help me get over him and, after telling him many times something like the title of this vid, I did get over him. I promise yall we will be best friends forever
Hey, it’s been a while. A year to be exact. I made the mistake. On the night of the 16th of February, I couldn’t handle it. I was young and stupid back then, so I couldn’t tell if it was love or lust, but we had such a good run together. Ever since we were kids, i looked up to you. I never realized how much you meant to me once my family split. You swooped down to rescue me from suicide and you took care of me. Then at that night of the 16th, I asked if you had a valentine, and if you didn’t, I’ll be there for you. I never realized how much of a change I had to see you as my best friend and my older sister to a girlfriend. The adjustment was too hard for me to handle, and that was when I knew I made a mistake. I didn’t want to break up with you, it would hurt me to. But you did the next day, and for the first time, I was truly alone. You didn’t come to the rescue. That was a year ago, I’m good now. I have another girl who loves me for who I am, but does not love me that way, while I do. She knows, but she won’t let that break the friendship. I love her, but when I think of you every now and then, it tears my heart apart into pieces. And sometimes, I think about what I did, and I feel guilty. Just think of what we could’ve been. We could’ve had a blossoming friendship, but here I am, running for another girl, but still not able to let go of you, yet we haven’t talked in a year. I desperately want to talk to you. I know we meet every week, but talking to you just isn’t the same. The scars in my heart are bigger than the self inflicted scars on my body. And sometimes I have to admit, I still love you, I’m sorry.
ZexR and ana paula thank you for your support! This is the same guy but using different accounts but anyway I’ve gotten a teeny tiny better than before and it’s all thanks to you 😁 I love you
Jumpin on the love story train Remember when we met? It was something around august of 2015. You were just two hears above me, and our friendship had so many flaws. We were both so young and scared... Especially because we were strangers on the internet. Then, a year later, you confessed to me. I never wanted anyone to love me, because i knew i wasn't worth it... But you were so kind, so lovely, so... So unique, so real. We went through so much... So many heartbreaks, so many fights... But you were still my first love. You saw me grow up, and you were always with me. And I will never forget what you did. All the good things, all the bad things, everything is still in my heart. I cannot say I still love you, but I still remember you, and I promise you still have a place in me. Always wishing you the best, Adrian, your old Sae.
So I've known this girl for a few years now, and have always had a crush on her. I slowly became good friends with her, while expressing my feelings towards her. In the last year, my feelings towards her grew stronger, and I continued telling her how I feel. Last week I finally asked her out. She wasn't interested. We haven't talked since then. Now she has a boyfriend, and I'm still here. Staring at the ceiling. Listening to this song... Thank you Ambition. P.S. Thank you all for showing me this amazing support. I love the community that Ambition has built. I love you all.
Sebastian Larabee Good luck out there, man. I wish I could give you some sage advice that could instantly fix your situation, but I don’t really have anything of the sort. All I can really say is this: it’s okay to take a break from love for a while if you feel hopeless or suffocated. I personally know that when I’m feeling that way, it’s best to just take a step back and wait for a little while. Take your time coming back; it makes the rediscovery even more sweet.
moving on is the strangest thing in the world, when you find someone who fills you up the way she use to, when that new someone tries their hardest to make you feel better, that’s when you let go, you start to realize that you can stop loving....but you won’t forget her
One day, I was scrolling and liking every single photo on my Instagram like I usually do, and then I saw yours. The only detail that was different from all your other posts was a girl, your girlfriend to be exact. She's everything I'm not, she's from the same prestigious school as you so she must be intelligent since she was able to pass the entrance exam, she's from a church; I bet your mom loves her, she has features that even I find cute, but the bigger difference was that she had you and I don't. I miss us. I'm not saying that I want you back or anything, it's not the same as before, but I miss you, and I miss our love. I even still have your sweater in my closet, faded blue jacket with the strings that I used to pull on. And suddenly, I realize that I still love you. However, I'm happy for you. Looking at you makes me realize that I'm not alone, that I can love and be loved. You gave me the greatest gift that no one can replace. ( been learning to love me for five months, I'm learning to breathe without you ) Thank you, this music reminded me so many feelings that I long forgotten.
What a lovely story. It's nice to look back and think about the good times and it might not be the same now but you had memories together and that the fact it exists is a beautiful thing.
(vent) i still love you. i still love your lovable smile that can light up my day; your voice that felt like music to my ears; your eyes that i could just get lost in forever; your laugh that shook the butterflies in my stomach; your words that made my heart skip a beat, that made it soft and warm by every "i love you" i could still remember that came out of those lips that felt like heaven to kiss; your hugs that felt like blissful home; and just.. you, as the person that you are with those flaws and perfections i accepted and loved. but we both knew it wouldn't last long. we both knew this wasn't supposed to happen. we both loved each other with the ignorance of the pain when the time came that reality and the heartbreaking truth would rip us apart from each other then to our hearts that just wanted to love. and it did happen. they ripped us apart. we're broken in so many ways that i cannot fathom how much both of us are actually going through. we've sunken to possibly one of the lowest points of our lives because of how much we miss each other, the missing piece of our hearts, not because you were "the one i've been looking for" but because your love made a snug little corner in my heart where it just fit so nicely that it molded into my heart and when you were ripped away from me, there's now a hole in the wall where your love was supposed to be. and yet i still love you. i'm sorry.
I remember asking a friend for ur snap and then chatting with you and getting to know you more. I remember the day I confessed and you told me you felt the same and took me out to eat. I remember everything you said, all your “I love you’s” and all you hugs and how you’d try to find an excuse to hold my hand. I remember that day when we were sitting alone, in the corner of the school and you just stared straight into my eyes and told me you loved me. I remember all our late night calls. I remember every feeling, every touch, every word, and every broken promise. And I remember, your love fading away. and the day you decided to leave. I remember it all. and I wish I didn’t.
It’s been more than a month now.. I still feel bad, and I don’t know why. I’m not the one who left you questioning your entire self, becoming extremely anxious about everything, overthinking everything, becoming insomniac, crying each night in hope of just a little text back saying to me that you’re alive. I’m not the one who then left you, without an explanation as to why. You see, you were the first person to love me back. The first person to kiss me. To say to me "I love you " in that manner. To make me feel so happy, and complete, and confident. I passed trough all the range of emotions, but, lately, I just seemed to have given up. My entire routine consist on waking up and almost immediately wishing to go back to sleep. Then going trough my day, trying to occupy my mind as much as possible, to avoid thinking about any of it anymore, as I just cannot take it anymore. Then going to bed. And then just endlessly scroll trough my phone as my thoughts go wild, and ultimately, after putting music on, my mind usually get muted by my body shutting off in the hope of a bit of sleep. All of that to say; I still love you. And I’m incredibly sorry. For being so stupid
Man, I know how it is, I know what youre talking about, and at least know that there is people who are in the same or similar situation as you. Good luck recovering, and finding someone who will keep caring back.
i know exactly how you feel. he told me he just didnt feel the same anymore about a month ago. the only answer i was worth was "idk im sorry" it feels so real.. right? its such a beautiful feeling to be able to give yourself to someone and for them to return the favor.. and idk its a ongoing battle in my mind deciphering if id trade all of those priceless moments for my happiness... sometimes i wish id never met him.. sometimes i love him more than anything.. i love him for what he gave me. im so sorry that you feel this way too. its cheesy as fuCk but it does get better. someday youre going to be able to listen to a love song without your heart dropping. someday my friend maybe both of us can find ourselves again :)
your act just like my bf right now....but He just , ignored me....I'm almost giving up..as it just keep repeating for a few years.......I don't want to talk my problems to another person...i just want to pour my heart to him...but....he just pushed me away without feel any guilty.....I know he still love me...and that is what my friend's said....but...I'm giving up to be the first one text only....i;m giving up to setttle our problems as he just create new lies and escaping himself........I'm crying each night.........just because i miss him...i don't want to lose him....but he just treat me like a trash....attention seeker......i tried to delete his chats..but i just can't..........But when I want move on...He come back with his sweet talks....new sweet lies...but then he pushed me away again......once i have said that....I want to break up with him...He cried ....but he makes me suffer and i still love him.....hmm...I said if he thinks i'm important..he knows how to find me..if i'm not important to him..just ignored me..and yup..that is what he is doing right now..pushed me away..and ignore me..........................
Why does it have to feel so godamn complicated?...One moment I've resigned myself to never being together, never reciprocated in kind while still gently supporting you from afar... and then the next it feels like heartache so great, my heart might burst amongst the salty tears. I'm happy enough getting to talk to you everyday yet it also feels so insufferably bittersweet.
Ambition is just a lofi place, where I feel a special type of tranquillity. By far my favourite channel and the only one I can listen to as religiously as I listen to your songs, much love and gratitude.
*He told me he loved me.* *I told him I loved him.* *...* *.....* *He started loving someone else.* *He never told me.* *He never broke anything off.* *...* *....* *Why?* *Was I not good enough?* *...* *....* *Why do I still love him?*
I just went through a tough break up and the title and tags describe how I feel. I constantly go from still loving her to being depressed and back to loving her. But I know she'll never feel the same again.
Brandon Hargett I wish you luck out there. If you don’t think there’s any chance of returning to the way things once were, then don’t worry about it. If you need time before you put yourself back out there, take it. I was anything but ready to be in a relationship when I found the person I love, so I took some time for myself to figure things out. Now, we’re happily together, and I credit that in part to the fact that I just took my time. You’ll figure it out. Just relax, and you’ll see.
"I might have feelings for someone else but, I still love you even though it hurt more than I could ever imagine. I wonder if you're in love with a different person now. It hurts to think about that even though my heart is with someone else now. I'm sorry that I couldn't fill that hole in your heart and I'm sorry it didn't feel real to you. I still love you... sorry."
it's only been a week and I'm slowly realizing that he's not going to come back. it's so hard to realize that someone who was so close to you is so willing to become a stranger... after so many times you promised to always be there for each other. I still love you. I don't think I'll ever stop. I'm sorry.
Evryone is telling a story in the comments...and there's me. I just love my best friend. I said it to her and she said "Oh. It's ok!You are my friend anyway,i will never let you go!Baka." And..that makes me happy. I was afraid to loose her,i was afraid to be alone. Now we are kinda more than best friends but nothing like that. We have kinda a bro-mance LOL- I'm really the only optimist here?ÉwÈ
I met her two years ago on the internet, in a fandom that I'm not gonna mention, since it's sort of irrelevant. We secretly shared so many more things, like the admiration for maths and physics and loving the Harry Potter series. She asked me if I would join a role-playing group chat, and I did. Around 20% of all messages were roleplay. We were mostly talking about our lives, and I got really close to her. After a month, she confessed, and I showed my love to her as well. Most of the groupchat was teasing us, yet we still had out fair share of support from them. That was in late-August-early-September 2016. Since then, we had 3 unstable long-distance relationships and we fell out of touch for far too many times. I didn't hear a word from her for the last week. It might not sound like a lot, but considering that we used to talk daily for a couple of hours, it's harsh. She does have a really strict schedule, but I'm paranoid for a reason. She went through a terrorist attack, and I would be not only destroyed, but I would break down, because she's a rare specimen, an *amazingly* rare one, and I'm glad she invited me to that group chat, since she's one of the reasons that keeps me going. At least seeing the "Last active at ..." thing under her username update from time to time is a little conforting... 🌺 UPDATE: She stopped talking to me because she hates me. There's another girl, that I met in kindergarten, 11 years ago. We didn't talk too much (if at all) until 7th grade. We were pretty much forced to become benchmates throughout the last school year. We made so many inside jokes, had too many because of which we were wheezing uncontrollably during the lectures. Of course, we had our tantrums here and there, but that made us what we are now. We're best friends. The best of friend. Or at least... That's what she feels. I'm saying this here, because there's no one else I know invested enough to care, and if I say this to her, she'd destroy me. And probably her own sanity as well. Not saying I don't care about her (I do, a lot), but... I just feel like it's not it. This is *not* what I'm looking for in a friendship. So I usually drifted from her, during the breaks between lectures, and went to another girl, one that she hated. She kept saying "Come sit next to me already!" and I couldn't do anything else but obey. But oddly enough, this girl that I used to talk to... Is the one that I feel I didn't form a great relationship with. And usually, she made me feel like she's the one that I'm looking for. Sense of humor, cuteness and childishness, intelligence, good looks, what more could you ask. Tu ești, Delia. Tu ești fata aia. I still love you. Sorry. ✌️
I'm sorry that your first relationship didn't work out, but if she really feels that way then she's not worth your time. She's out of your reach now and that's just something you're going to have to accept, and trust me, it will make your life a lot more easier if you do. For the second girl, your so called "best friend", don't lie to yourself. It's clear that you don't like her, and don't give me that "but I care about her" bull because if you did then you wouldn't be avoiding her would you. I don't think you know it, but all you're really doing is hurting her and yourself more. Sure, she'll get really mad if you tell her this but she'll get over it. You already know your relationship with her is leading to a dead end and stalling is only making it worse. Sense of humor, cuteness and childishness, intelligence, good looks, these are just excuses, stop chasing a fantasy that just isn't true. Yeah, in the end, you might miss making your silly jokes and laughing with her, but if you can't help this "feeling" of yours that this isn't the friendship you want, then it's about time you let her go. No more excuses, no more lying. I'm telling you this because I've tried to tell myself the same thing a long time ago, but I didn't listen and it only made my situation worse. I'm in a better place now and I've learned a lot since then. You still have a long life ahead of you, so don't let small things like these get in the way of living it. Peace.
Hello my Romanian friend, it's heartbreaking to see the updated message. Fuck life. If you need anything, any help and support, i'll try my best to be here for you. And i am for real, if you actually want a new friend we could find a way to talk, i want to be as helpful as possible.
To anyone reading this, I truly hope you live happily. I know it can get tough sometimes. Just remember I'm always rooting for you. Do your best. You will always be good enough! :)
You're so sweet and supportive, I'm glad to see you like this mix, I like it too. Never stop what your doing. Stay amazing and don't let anyone get you down!✨
He won't ever see this and it's perfectly fine. But I love you, and even though you just want to be friends, I'll never stop loving you even if it kills me cause in the end I'm always the one here for you.
Fought for him for over half an year. He didnt wanted me for an incident that i had back then...he said that i was perfect but that one thing ruined it a bit. Felt so lonely and i asked for him to be around but he pushed me away, while being still sweet to me. I felt so unbearable lonely that i let a boy into my life but the one i truly loved never said a thing (until months later saying that he was jealous) several moths passed and somone near him talked me into having something.. I thought he could give me the warmth I needed, but he just used me and I felt so dirty. After hearing about it he got so angry about it telling me why I did it if I had feelings for him.. I just said that he pushed me and after some weeks he realized that he had truly feelings for me. We were happy and had so many wonderful memories together. But each 2 months he had a mental breakdown about what i did and mentaly abused me with insults and depriving me of warmth for days. He broke up with me and I just couldnt do anything anymore. It almost ruined an important exam in which i had to cry and submited it way to soon. He apologized and promised to never leave me again. All the cycle repeated itself for half an year longer. Until he broke up with me twice in a week and 29 days ago he did it again (3 times in 2 weeks).. Im still lovesick... and it hurts that i went through all this for nothing. He now has a new gf as if nothing happened. I love him so much but at the same time I could never forgive him for promising me till the end to never leave me alone.. sry for the long text but dunno..
Rossio Tecedeiro you deserve better❤️ we’re all human who make mistakes. If he can’t accept it and move on then he doesn’t really love you. You are so much more than your mistakes plz realize that❤️
i didnt want to be like this... i didnt want to drag you down with me and my slowly growing demons. i couldnt handle seeing you upset and crying, i cared for you and was there for you through thick and thin. when i finally confessed to you and told you i would wait i felt a weight come off my chest, being able to tell someone my feelings was great. soon you decided to become my girlfriend. i was so happy with you the happiest ive been in so long... but i wasnt loving you the way i wanted to- my demons wouldnt let me. so i told you. i told you i wanted to love and fix myself before i could love you the way i wanted to. you said you were fine but you lied. and now you hate me. but while you hate me i sit here hugging the stuffed animals you gave me praying these new demons leave me alone while wishing i could hold you, but i know you dont wanna here me say "i still love you" im sorry.
"No matter how long it's been, I still can't seem to forget you. Even after you tried so hard, so many times to push me away, my mind and heart continue to stray towards you. Your sheer amazingness at everything you do was so brilliant to me, it was blinding. To me, you were an amazing, inspiring person... so even after everything... i still love you"
This month seems like a big break up month for people and I've sadly joined that army. It's going to be rough coping after loosing a 5 yr relationship... It's hard. And it's going to be weird entering society after that blur. I won't feel like me but I know I have to keep living and actually do something with myself; even alone. So if you are hurting please know you can keep going, it's hard but keep trying to move forward. You'll have friends that will help you along the way.
lmao i like how everyone is talking about their heartbreaks and all, and then there is me, who literally lost their hope in love bgAHSDFASHFG i deadass can't love people anymore, and it's kinda upsetting, but eh, they say being heartless is better than being heartbroken, so i'll take that 👈👈
" I knew if I talked to you again..... My feelings would come back But why? Why? Why does my heart hurt when your with her? Why does it hurt to move on? Why do I still feel guilt? Why do I still regret meeting you? Why...... Why do I still love you?"
Although no one will see this, I want to share a story of mine.. 2 years ago I met someone, he was kind, funny, _cough_ cute af _cough_, and someone I really liked. Of course without knowing I could tell he didn't like me, he liked other girls in our grade. I was "lucky" enough to be the person he told about his feelings towards others. He came to me when he wanted help with either impressing a girl or telling her he liked them. I helped him in hopes of him one day realizing how much Heartache he was causing me, he never did and before I knew it the school year ended, we couldn't talk, and I began the slow process of moving on. Last Year was so much different, although I thought I was over him at that point, I wasn't over him. We chatted so much more then we used to, we played videogames together. The feeling of liking him came back and eventually I realized he felt the same way after exchanging numbers and talking. I even had the confidence to ask him out, and see if he wanted to be my Boyfriend... he said yes. I was so happy, dating him was like a dream and I didn't want to wake up from it, but I did wake up, and when I woke up it hurt... a lot. When we broke up it was my call, I broke up with him because I was so afraid I would hurt him or that he'd leave me. As much as he didn't want me to end it I did out of my own fear. The voices in the back of my head telling me that one day I'd hurt him or that one day he'd hurt me... I even thought for meer seconds that I didn't love him. When I broke up with him we agreed to still be friends, though it took a lot of healing for both of us to even talk to one another again. it wasn't till a few weeks after that I realized my mistake, that I still loved him..... But I didn't want to do that to him again so I didn't try it again. I didn't ever mention to him how I felt after that and we remained friends. With a cost of my own loneliness though.. This year is once again different. Despite everything we are still friends, great friends infact and I couldn't have it any other way. He's happy with his new girlfriend and I'm happy helping him with what he needs. although I still regret my mistake that one faithful day, I hope that I can move on and he can be with someone who makes him happy. This song made me think of him and my story, and I'm glad I could get this off my chest. Even if I'm just ranting to a bunch of strangers.
you shouldn't be sorry for loving someone, they should be happy to receive such a great feeling. But if they don't appreciate it you should find someone who need it the most
I liked him, he liked me. But he was broken, way beyond my repair. But I still tried, I loved him to the FULLEST I could ever love someone. But... he just saw right past me, he didn't see me... I was nothing but a ghost, I love him. He doesn't love me, he doesn't want me to be involved with him, he pushes me away, he loved me. Now I'm just hurt. We talk, but it's about what our other friends are talking about. We laugh like I didn't confess, we laugh like my words had turned to dust. They were nothing but a myth. He'll never know my true feelings, because he never like the truth from me. My truth always made him want to be with me, but he couldn't because of his broken self. I love you, but can't you give me a chance? Even if it's for a week, a day, an hour... anthing, anything to show you how much I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I'll help you heal, I'll help you love again. You can't have a dead heart on me, when you haven't even tried to love me... You say, "I love you." To me as a joke, to make me feel good. Do you not know it hurts?
i came here without knowing anyone. i didn't have an intention to have friends or date. all i came for was to travel and to get to know the area and have fun. i met you at my new job. you well chill. something about you attracted me. i remember you telling me when you first met me. you said i waved happily to you when they were introducing us. i remember it too. time went by and we started to get to know each other. you always came to my area just to talk. you would finish your work quickly just to talk. soon enough i started to like you. but it turns out that you started to like me more than i did to you. we later became one. we did so much together in a short period of time. you were my first boyfriend, my first kiss, first to hold my hand, and first in everything. you made me happy and i always loved to see you smile. we said we'd do so much; travel to different places together, try out new stuff. then i really started to fall in love with you. we were really alike. but then we got distant. you didn't have time for me. you were busy. you had so much to do. i still waited. i was there for support in anything you needed. but the distance only got worse. you kept telling me that we shouldn't keep it going.you didn't want to hurt me. i missed you so much. i felt lonely. you couldn't be there when i needed you the most.i couldn't even see you to talk about it and see what can work out. i couldn't hold it any longer and just gave out. now we're no longer a thing. i still look back at our pictures, our messages, listen to the songs we sent each other. every little things reminds me of you and i appreciate every little thing about you. i still love you. i don't know how long this pain will last but i'll always love you and miss you.
We've been through this. Three times already. Three times I have confessed, Three times you've pushed me away. But now, being just friends seems to be the best option, for both of us. But now...... My life isn't the same. Your existence is a blessing and a curse. And I hate you. For existing, For smiling at me, For caring about me, For teaching me how to love. All because I love you, but I know it'll never come true. I curse you, for indirectly bringing the emotions into my life. But I still love you, because you've treated me like no one ever has. I still love you..... Sorry.
oh god... this music brought back a lot of feelings i've had for him. like we've known each other for 8 years, since we were little children and all the love i had for him was brought back and i don't know what to feel.. we don't even talk anymore and we used to be so close...
Things ill never forget: -How i fell inlove with you -How i knew you will never love me -How i knew it's impossible because you're an anime character..
I still love you💔😢 and it’s killing me slowly. You have her and I have nobody. Just loneliness. Depression. Meds. Heartbreak... from someone who wasn’t even mine, but after getting to know you, it all made perfect sense that god blessed me to meet you.. our view of the world and outlook on life and children and family.. all made perfect sense. We both agreed on our feelings and that our union could cause conflict and hurt those closest to us. It was hard being friends with her, kissing her brother when all I thought about was you.. my feelings are never a priority in life though are they? If we love each other and meant to be why can’t we??? I wish I prayed for you. Stayed up nights and cried wrote poetry about you... I see you occasionally you still smile at me the way you used to.. and I try not to but boy you have this hold on me.. a beautiful pain, a terrible ache. but we can’t go there. We agreed that we both had feelings for the other, but the timing wasn’t right.. my heart broke the day we parted💔💔💔 you told me if things were different, In a heartbeat it would be me.. what does the future hold? For us? I’ll be waiting😞 To my first love, my first real heartbreak 💔
It such an awkward, shitty feeling. The feeling of flutters in your stomach and your face going sweaty, red. But when sharing this feeling with someone else, your flushing face becomes soft and gentle and you cant help but hating love, yet loving each other. ♡~
I know we're just close friends and that's all we'll ever be. Seeing you happy with him makes me happy... Or is it just a beatific feeling that I force upon myself. Deep down I know I'm sad and I'm hurting over this, but whenever I see you and you ask me how I'm doing all I can say is that... "I still love you... and I'm sorry"
The only thing you need is not love, it is patience, because only with patience will true love come. Everyone has a soulmate just needs to wait patiently. So don't be afraid because you will meet your soulmate in the right place at the right time.
To: him From: me Hey... Lately I’ve been having a rough time. Today was emotional. Yesterday I asked a lot of people if I should tell you about the feelings I have for you. Most of them said “ yeah go for it” but only some said “it cud ruin our friendships” which really made me think. But then I realized we aren’t really friends anymore anyways. So that whole night I was so excited to finally tell you about my feelings I have for you! But then this morning I was kinda nervous and really thought about it. But I was still gonna do it. So it finally came to the part were I tell you! Until... I saw you talking and smiling away at this girl idk what it was but I kinda broke and said to myself “forget it” and walked away broken. Now I don’t think I’ll ever have that much confidence anymore. I don’t think I’ll ever tell you anymore either not that you’d care. But I guess now I’m more broken than I ever was 😭💔👍🏻
I know I’m late for the party but seeing all these stories that everyone shared, it brought me an inspiration to do this. He and I were in the same club, but we rarely talked to each other. Then in late July, our club decided to go on a vacation together. By that time, I was going through a very bad break up and so was he. We both shared our stories and we started talking together. After some days, I realized how much I fell for him. You may say that’s quick, but at that time all I cared about was everyone else’s happiness, and seeing him a bit duller than his everyday, I felt the urge of helping him to get through it. I confessed. And he accepted. I didnt realize he fell for me too. The months later on were the happiest moment of my life so far. I had someone to care for, he loved me with all his heart, and our relationship kept blooming... until one day... I started noticing how much stress he had to go through, not just from studying but also from our relationship. He held too much responsibilities in the same time. And so, after 4 months in the relationship, we both decided to give each other a rest. With all those stress and pressure he had, he couldn’t find time to love anymore, he stopped loving and moved on by himself... As for me, I couldn’t help but to keep loving him. He always tells me to find someone else, but I couldn’t. I feel bad for loving him, for keep pulling him back on my side, knowing it will never work again. He told me to promise to stay happy, but now I feel so bad for breaking that promise. I couldn’t feel full again, and I felt like I had no choice but to live this way.. I’m sorry if my story was terrible. I just really wanted to share it..
I met her days-no, months ago, My best friend introduced me to her, both beautiful inside 'n out. We started chatting for days, weeks and after a few more weeks, she told everyone in our group chat that she likes me. The feeling I felt made me feel more alive and happier than before for I already gained a lack of self-esteem but yet somehow, with little confidence I had, I asked her out. She said yes, we were overjoyed to be together. However when news spread to the chats, my best friend suddenly started ghosting me and her, saying I had replaced her. Honestly, it hurt a lot and it still does to this day. She helped me through it but some friends of ours were in the way of giving me time to get my mental health back up. It took a few more weeks for my signs of tiredness, irritation and excessive sadness to show up, my parents started noticing and my mother took my phone away. Before that however, flashbacks started plaguing my mind of when my parents started fighting, flashbacks of my days of negativity along side it. The school guidance counselor took notice and wanted to help, she was the one I relied on in my time of need, the one I talked to and not my closest ones, my love and my mom. I cried for the time I was there, she gave me a book that was given to those who needed guidance. Months after, teachers started to take in my signs of sluggishness, tiredness, and lack of interest on social interaction. I made a personal bubble for myself, well, I already did; I just made it stronger.The day we got our report card, my eyes went wide when I had seen three low grades. It was the ones I had a hard time on but could manage before. One of them was from a teacher that just made my mental health break over and over like shattering a glass cup. Again to when my mom took my phone, she went to my chats, and saw the one thing I always kept away from them: my attempts of suicide and self-harm and by self-harm I didn't only mean cutting: It was both cutting and self-traumatizing. Self-harm isn't just cutting. She and dad confronted me about it, we got more closer, but she pulled me out of school so I could take homeschooling. Mom cut away my communication with my love and my friends. She took away my past way of coping which was chatting but she's trying to change it now so I could lean more on my beading and my all time favorite past-time reading e-books. She's pulling my out of my endless hole of negative thoughts but that doesn't leave the fact that she cut me away my hope and joy. Ignore this, it's just a rant, but I probably should've put that on the top. Thank you to that soul that decided to take time out of their schedule to read this. This is based on this year's events, the last paragraph being happened a few days ago, this was made so messily. I apologize for that, I just wanted to vent on something that's been on my mind for the past few nights.
Music likes this feels like I'm looking at the night sky with them. And we watch the stars and the dark sky while talking deeply about our thoughts. We both know this moment won't last forever and we know that one day we'll forget about it just like how we forget about the night sky and the stars that shine so brightly there. Yet at the same time that's the beauty in it. The neverlasting beauty that soon will fade..
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." 1 John 4:18
About three years ago, I started to like my classmate. She's nice and funny, and was one of the first people I talked to in my new school. She told puns, which would always make my day so much better. And it would've been okay, if i wasn't a girl too. i felt bad about myself for feeling like that. As a Christian I was taught that this was wrong, and although I still stand by that, I wish I'd known that it wasn't my fault. That there wasn't anything wrong with me for feeling this way. That I was still me no matter what. But I didn't. For the longest time i bottled it all up. I even started avoiding my crush. Thankfully, I eventually told my parents and even some friends, and all of them haven't changed the way they see me. In fact, my parents said they were proud that I was so honest with them about this. The feelings aren't consistent, but they're still there after all these years and it's kinda stupid. Some days I think they're gone, then I realise they're not. Why can't I just move on already?! Either way, I still want to be friends with her. So we've started texting each other a little recently, and it's okay so far. If you're the girl and for some reason you're reading this, I dont want this to change our relationship in anyway. All I want is to be your friend. Its just that.... I still love you...I'm sorry.
If you look into the description, You can see all the songs and in order I realized that the names of the song in order is the the stages of being depressed It started pure, then pain, and ends with healing
I meet them a few years back. They were so cheerful. We became good friends fast. We trusted each other and helped each other through the times our depression was pretty bad. I fell in love with them without really knowing. I started to think about them everyday. Their laugh was carefree, and I loved it when I made them laugh. I knew I shouldn’t love them like that since they had a boyfriend already but I couldn’t help it. So I just played my role as the friend. One week my phone stopped charging. I was without it for a week and a half. When I got it fixed I found out that the chat room we were both in were extremely worried about me, and that one of the members even called me which never happens. That day I got my phone fixed was their funeral. I found out a week after their suicide I cried myself to sleep for weeks. It’s been a few months now and they are still all I can think about. Now when ever someone talks about things that they loved I get nostalgic and want to cry. I loved them so much that all ever I wanted was for them to be happy. I miss you.
No se por donde empezar, estas canciones me hacen sentir como un pensamiento que va divagando nomás, siento la mera curiosidad de sentir más pero ese más que sea infinito y a la vez adecuado para no terminar con un sentimiento explosivo. tengo mucho que escribir y no me alcanza el lugar de mi mente para poderlo guardar, que bonita lista de reproducción, me hace calmarme ante tanto tormento que se vive en el día, solo quiero ser luz para las demás personas y es difícil ser buena persona ante el mundo. He de decir que me gustaría tener muchos amigos pero mi circulo es pequeño y quisiera expresar mis sentimientos sinceros, me cuesta, y mi mente a veces crea un torbellino exuberante que me auto-silencia. Voy a mejorar a mi tiempo y lo haré, todo a mi tiempo y con paciencia que venimos al mundo a ser felices, no entiendo aún en qué etapa estoy, pero sigo avanzando, no veo mucho el atrás en logros pero si lo veo en atentados que no quisiera volver a tener, tampoco quiero demostrarles a las personas que me hicieron daño que me va mejor, no, quiero ser un tipo de persona diferente por la cual aun así fui consumido por comentarios de baja frecuencia. Quiero demostrarme a mi mismo que puedo empezar desde muy bajo, medio o alto lugar. Gracias por leerme, la verdad no escribí de algo en particular solo quería desahogarme un poco :')
been listening to a lot of these lately. The girl of my dreams just left me and I'm kind of shattered right now. She's fine though. I guess that's better than her being miserable. I just wish I could continue making her happy as a partner. I wish for so many things. I miss her so much and I wish I could still call her mine and hold her in my arms with an enormous amount of love. She means everything to me. I wish she still loved me the way I love her.
Every now and then, I think about him, his voice, his smell, his kind way of talking to me. We met mid spring 2016. Playing games together and spending every second together, atleas as much time as possible. Time was flying by and we grew to the best friends ever, it was such a special bond, i didnt even realize how much i liked him. One Day i was alone with one of his friends, he told me that he nerver before witnessed him beeing so happy with a girl, and if i maybe liked him. He told me that seeing his friend so happy really was something special and that i was special. I started thinkig about it, but then i met someone else, We just stayed friends, but both deep down we knew, we were ment to be more. Year passed and so did we. We kinda lost our connection, it kinda just faded away and we had our own lifes with partners and friends. But now thinking back to the time we lived in Our own world with eachother, I miss you, I miss us. I texted you and we started to talk again and i just needed to know and jokingly asked if you had loved me back then, you said Yes. That was the moment i wished I had told you that i was in love with you. I am happy now and its fine to move on, but I still love you. Now I am stuck, regreting missing that opportunity to be in love with you and maybe spending my time with you, but its to Late.
Is it bad that I love reading your guys stories it makes me feel like someone understands and that I'm not alone I'm crying on bed looking at stars but nobody's my shining star when I need it ugh this fucking pain I can't take it anymore
This girl will always have a special place in my heart. Even if she shares her life with someone else, even if she never saw me as more than a friend, I still love her.
I know you don't feel the same way I get it just please understand that I'm trying so hard I'm trying to make it work but sometimes I fail I shoved my feelings down for you I shoved my feelings down so that we could be friends but how do I tell you what I'm going through without sounding selfish you'll always be a part of me even if you're the part that's missing I don't want to let you go I know you moved on I know we aren't as close as we were before but I still love you ... sorry
We don't even go to the same school anymore, after we never talked much. I liked you, but so did many other girls. Back then my friend liked you, I ignored all my feelings towards you and rooted for her, I didn't want to be selfish. I thought it was wrong to like someone like you, I wanted to get rid of the feeling, but you were the most genuine guy I had met. I know you treated the conversations you had with me like it was just the normal thing for you, but to me, they were everything. You were selfless, nice, funny, everything a girl would swoon for. After a few months, I kept thinking about you, you were always in the back of my mind. Then my other friend said she was trying to set her friend up with you because you went to the same school and she liked you. "They would look so cute together!" My heart aches. I always put other people's feelings first instead of mine. If I told my friends I still like you..... "You're still hung up on him?" "seriously?!" "You don't even talk to him!" I'm sorry, I still love you.
Well Kayla your feelings are more important and thinking ab your own doesn’t make you selfish ❤️ coming from someone who is the same way (put others feelings before me) you deserve to be happy
no one can sad all time. she can move on from you but you can't move on from her hey... do you have a friends? if have have go to say them about this maybe you be happy and have a smile again. if you can't smile... you must do something maybe you will go to say her you love her so much but her have him near.... go back to you friends or find something new (sorry if you don't understand my text my eng is low. I'm from Thai my eng is low because I'm focus on study and I want to play game than study 💞) อะแฮ่ม คนไทยคนไหนที่มาฟังหรือหลงเข้ามานะคับ มูฟออนให้ได้นะ. ถ้าทำได้แล้ว สอนให้ผมด้วยนะ ทางนี้ยังคิดถึงเธอคนนั้นอยู่เลย... เธอมูฟออนไปแล้วแต่ยังอยู่ที่เดิมอยู่เลยควรทำไงดี…
“It's so hard to understand my feeling for you.. every day I feel empty when you're not there, I’ve had my best moments with you. We're just young kids, I don’t know if you feel the same way..” Life is tough, the only thing you can do is enjoy it while it lasts. This may seem mildly dramatic for a ten year old but, life passes by way too fast, shoot your shot. Spend time with the people you love, life is too short for someone to waste it. Never give up, you are strong and beautiful. Don't let people tell you otherwise, always do what you love. You are amazing and loved, Don't ever give in, life is beautiful. Find the right people, (you enjoy spending time with, you would never purposely ignore.) be kind to others, follow your dreams if it doesn’t work out, oh well. But you will not give up until the end, please promise me that. Find your safe place, your people. On the internet, there will always be friends. Find someone who appreciates you for who you are, If you are in a abusive relationship, get out as soon as possible. You don't realize how manipulative they are until you snap out of it. Wether it’s verbal or physical, it happens once, you'll forgive. It’s a ‘one time thing’ and that goes on and on. Be strong find someone you care about, feel safe with, don't fear, enjoy spending time with, and vice versa. I hope this helped and sorry for taking time out of your day, remember you are loved. :)
Things I won’t forget:
-When I woke up and realized that I’m in love with you
-When I went to bed and realized you fell out of love with me
I cried at this... its so true. thank you
-When it's been years since it ended... you read this comment... realize you never fell out of love with them and feel that familiar ache in your chest, like a bad joint in the winter.
This hit me like I've been hit by a semi. 😔 I must use this.
I got this feeling 3 days ago, I don't know if I'll be able to fall out of it, I don't want to keep being like this, chest hurts and all I wanna do is scream and punch my fists in the wall even if it hurts me. I don't know what I did wrong and I wish I knew. It was too sudden, hit me like a train but without any horns to warn me. I can't stop thinking about you.
it has been 6 months since my gf and i. Same story and I still regret my actions a lot
I felt so guilty for such a long time for letting you go, but now, now I realize that... you're hurting me, I loved you more than I loved myself, and well, you didn't love that much and I don't blame you, because such as I did, you broke my heart too.
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this really hurts to read cuz of how much i can relate to it. she cheated on me but why do i still feel the need to be with her? i cant find it in me to let her go cuz when i do...is the moment i accept we wont have a future together and im not ready to give that up. atleast no yet...
dont give up
The problem that she loved me too, with all her hearth. But I let her go, more than once, I let her go because I was too afraid to love. I let her go more than 2 years ago. I let her go and I think about that, I am haunted by that every single day.
Oh wow, it’s been nearly six years since I left him, I had our child. I was so hurt, it still hurts. I have really bad anxiety, depression, ptsd, more trust issues than I had before, I’m autistic so it was hard enough to handle trying a relationship so now I struggle more with not being able to understand if I was the problem but I doubt I was, I did everything he wanted, clean the house do my family’s laundry paid all our bills and bought the food and worked and worked and I thought it was love. Despite the bottles and the screaming and throwing. I blame that on my childhood since I didn’t have a model of what a loving relationship was. I still blame myself. I never asked him to stop cheating, never called him out because I didn’t think I deserved to.
"My deku doesn't always mean lonely, it means something so much more than just what you think it is"
King ooo damnnnnn
I love Midoriya honestly,,
That sounds so Kacchan..꒰˘̩̩̩⌣˘̩̩̩๑꒱♡
i has found another bnha/mha person
Deku? It sounds more like... ``You can do it´´
Sometimes..
I hate that I still love her
she's probably dying for me to get over her.
she's probably so annoyed a person as low as me could even like her
she's probably had enough of seeing my face
but I still love her.
every time she asks if i still love her
all i can say is "I still love you"
and the only reason I say that. is because I really.. still do..
she gets mad at me
shouts at me to just get over her
tells me to just give up
but no matter how hard i try to forget these feelings
they just won't go.
in every day, everything reminds me of her.
i'm so miserable.
it's all my fault.
i'm causing all this hurt for me and her
why can't i just forget i ever loved her.
she's gonna ask me again
hoping I say i'm over her
but I'm not.
all i can say is
I still love you, sorry.
VIRTUAL TACKLE HUG 🤗
Me and you have the same problem but today she finally chose to cut me out of her life it sucks so much but keep your head up I know the everything reminds you of her is no easy thing it really hurts everytime and even if you can't move on you gotta live and work hard
4+ years I've known and been by her side from every up and down never leaving her and it fucking sucks but I made her a promise to never kill myself and to try my best to stay away from self harm
Do you still love her?
@@sapphirenetworks yeah 😕
Man, love sucks.
We all suck at love.
Very true 😔
We all suck, but love can make us suck less.
-Bo Burnham
I kinda think karma is better... I mean, at least what we give comes back to us
No joke
Even a pikachu too
So sad stupid story about me please don't judge or read to much into it, I just wanted to get this off my chest.
I saw you once a while ago never did notice until a bit later though.
We were young just 14, we were being ''emo''. as is usual being a teen.
I stared at you across the cafeteria, you saw and laughed at me.
I got a friend to ask your name, because that smile was all to much for me.
We were both shy and awkward as can be, but that didn't stop me.
I asked your friends if you had a boyfriend at the time, how happy I was to hear someone had none I would never be again.
Soon I tried asking you out, you said yes.
Wasn't long before we were together all the time, in school and outside.
people'd go up and say you'd better not let eachother get away.
we both would laugh and shy away.
We had things in commen, though bad it may have been.
Or parents did not always agree.
Being depressed and wanting to hurt ourselves frequently.
But thanks to you I could not be happier, even though when you were not there I could not have fallen deeper.
We made a promise to stop for eachother, cutting eachother for the last time to solidify this.
You did not want to but understood that if you'd hurt yourself you'd hurt me to, like you said it was for you too.
you were my first, like I was yours. it was just second base, but boy was I nervous.
It was a bit weird and awkward all the same, but it didn't matter we both came.
I couldn't help but lie and smile with you in bed that day. watched you sleep until I too fell away.
We'd hang out in the grass after schooldays, just laying there as cars drove by.
Not saying a word, not that we had to. We were just glad being together there.
We'd hug before we had to go our seperate ways, making both of us late.
I'm still smiling for those days.
moving forward we started living together, we both went to school again although not together.
I'd be at work all day just to find you home, waiting for me saying sometimes welcome home.
I always was fast coming home, knowing you'd be there drove me on.
Even if work was hard and though, coming home to you was enough.
We were together for 5 and half years. Then it felt like we found a crossing.
you went one way and I went the other.
I felt us drifting apart, and I thought it was all my fault.
Still think so, though you said it was not.
You said you were fine, but the spark in your eyes was gone.
the laugh you once had, I had not heard for so long.
I did not think that time, I was wrong.
I pushed you away, thinking you'd be better off without me.
Said we could not go on. I was very wrong.
It was me who felt like I could not live up to you.
Like I didn't deserve you.
But when I realised you were already gone.
I called and texted you, you talked but little to none.
I said I was stupid and wrong and didn't want this.
To revert time and go back to how things were going on.
Then shit hit the fan...
What you did you were back in town, said you needed time and space.
I listend hoping to fix what I had broken.
You needed money for a place to stay I gave it to you saying I didn't need it back, you gave your body away online to pay me back.
I could've never accepted that, you were worth so much more than that.
I said I still loved you and wanted you back, you slept with an almost married man behind is fiance's and kid's back
I forgave you since I screwed up real bad.
I cried trying to explain how I felt and you cried with me, but pretended nothing happend afterwards.
I came every night to your home just to see how you were doing.
We slept together. I wanted to feel the love once had you just wanted lust and the kicked me out to rest.
I felt used but hoped it would bring you back.
When I asked you again, you said you'd already givin up.
My friends told me I should forget you,
My parents did the same.
They did not know how it was, how it is.
But how especially I felt along the way.
We saw eachother one last time.
We didn't say much, we both couldn't lie.
We both had made mistakes, we couldn't right anymore.
We just chatted the spark we had was gone.
The pain I felt that day along was enough, to send me spiralling three years and more.
I'm still picking up the pieces of the heart I once gave you.
Now broken and unstable.
I send you a mail since you wanted to be friends.
I told you I coudn't but you did not understand.
So I pushed you away, before you'd hurt me again.
But the truth in the end is...
I'd still fall in love with you again..
beautiful man, hit me right in the feels
This needs more likes!
I read this whole thing and it rlly touched my heart like a bomb I hope you guys make it better and finish life Happily 🤧🤧🤗🤩
I read all of it and I feel so bad that I cried... I really wish I good life to you and not get hurt by someone...
I cried at this.
Ok, that sounds shallow, but it's true. I had a silent breakdown. I love this story, and I hope you manage! Just remember, Ambition and The Comment Section, we have your back!
I like how Deku is in the video for it's picture..
Edit: oh god here come the feels for both Deku and the music
FREAKIN' RIGHT! : O Crap.
-Panicking slightly at the start of work cause will be thinking about this all day- @_@ -in to deep-
I knew it was Deku
Gosh... I have the feels too...
𝙷𝚎𝚑 ♡
@Shayna Do No please, do go on xD
"I like to think."
"You like to think about what?"
"I like to think that he has feelings for me."
Being in love hurts but the feeling of sitting up late at night, looking at the stars, and feeling that pounding in your chest makes it worth everything.
Plu Is Fine lying beneath the shimmering sky 🌌 priceless moment ✌🏻
it hurts more loving someone you know doesn't love you anymore, desperately clinging to a hope that things could be how they once were, though you know nothing will ever be the same again, sitting up late at night, looking at the stars with tears in your eyes, alone, because you can't seem to fall in love with anyone else and you can't stop thinking about someone who doesn't need you anymore.
Matt Osadcii If you really love them, never give up on them. Though maybe it’s that advice that made me so lonely in the first place. Oh well.
tbh this is one of the cutest comments i've ever read :') but it also hurts
it does... It really does but it also hurts like hell when you realize it'll never happen
Damm the comment bar is filled with deep and heart touching/breaking stories that are giving me the feels meanwhile I just thought I had a smol crush on someone and then realized I think about them every moment I'm not busy and imagine scenarios with them and hope everyday I will atleast catch a small glimpse.
And I don't think we will work out since I'm not pretty just like their female friends he willn probably leave school early since that person is two classes above me....
How do you forget a crush like how do you get over them ?
Noobie get a new one sis🤷🏽♀️❤️ it worked for me every time😁
You cant forget them unless u moved on,or have someone new that noticed u..for me i already express my feelings yet she just wanna be friends cause this hurts the most.cause i have to be friends with my crush.😭 and we rarely message each other.this is worse...so just try to move on,try to find someone new thats gonna notice u,make u happy,will always be there to give hugs and kisses,especially to cuddle with u when u need to be pampered
@@mikeyaharkel1537 yeah it works for me too
I'd try to distract myself with other things, keep myself busy with something I enjoy.
Time
Thank you for being you
Roses are read,
violets are blue,
There is a tune,
To there the birds flew,
For those loved through and through,
A place of wisdom and understanding,
A mountain of charity,
Where Understanding and love gave their first kiss,
The two intertwined now defined as clarity,
Clarity where are you now?
it was you I had missed,
I made hymns of your beauty,
While in the abyss,
Only when the stars would shine like this,
That in the darkness that I could find bliss.
Thank you for being you
7 NONENE this is just beautiful...💔
Thanks, this is beautiful ♥️
And thank *you* for being you!
Is it okay if I turn this into a song?
It all started at my class, there was this girl, the most beautiful girl there, her hair, her smile, everything on her made me feel happy and gave me another big reason to keep going to that school. I took a deep breath and tried to talk with her. Luckily she talked with me. Time passed, like 9 months or so, we both had the same feeling now, we used to hold hands, say I love you. I thought we where a thing, and to confirm that I tried to ask her if she wanted to date.The same day I thought I could tell her my feelings, she messages me saying that she had some "family issues", I asked her what is the matter but she just answered saying that she wanted distance from me, that I wasn't a close friend to her so she would prefer to be near her friends besides of me, I lied saying it was ok, I will wait, but i wasn't ok, i was already crying by that, she then said it would be better for me not to wait, and she never liked our hugs, she never liked to hold hands with me.
From that day forward, she never talked with me, we never hold hands again. But every single time i see her, its like the first time.
(English isn't my main language, sorry).
Can't relate but damn
2 years late but... I felt relatable 'cause I had the same situation just like you, yeah about the "family issues". We've been full of happiness together until the day her mom found out that she had a boyfriend. Her childhood was heavily affected by the heartless stepdad, her mom became so strict and didn't care much about her daughter feelings. Covid-19 days made me miss her and hoped that I could meet her after the quarantine but then she texted "I think that we need to stop, I just want to breakup, I'm really sorry, don't feel sad and blame yourself because that's my fault". My heart still shattered and hurt now and I still love u... I'm sorry... I just can't move on. The only girl I love just left me all of sudden...
I saw him first in class, I knew his best friend more than him himself. We met at the lunch benches but only spoke for a few minutes. He started to call me kiddo and short, even patting my head sometimes.
It was the last time we talked for two months. I met him online again with a few friends in a group chat. It was up to ten people. Two of them liked him. When I started to talk and dm him I felt this odd feeling about myself.
We made our own private group chat in a server this time. Just the two of us. It was Wednesday. He said he wanted to try something.
He then started up a roleplay like we do more often now and he kissed me. It wasn’t real but we knew this wasn’t a joke. He said that he liked me. It was 11:34 pm and I had to go to sleep soon but I just kept on hugging him and I said I liked him back. It was his first confession.
I knew it wasn’t a joke this time. He always made jokes in a dm saying “you know I like you.. right? Jkjk, or am I?”
I always wanted to strangle him whenever he says that, but now it was so surreal. I had to go to bed, I told him that and he said good night and sweet dreams for the first time.
The next day when I saw him in class we gave eachother a big hug. We knew we were too young to date but we considered ourself to be a future girlfriend future boyfriend thing. Our teacher walked in on us hugging and she looked at me, she had a clean smile on her face and walked to her desk knowing we liked each other.
We talked everyday until a few months later. It was some sort of event and I sat right next to him. He turned to me and said “high five!” And when I did he took my hand and held it. I blushed so hard but nobody even noticed, it was my first time holding an actual crush or persons hand besides relatives. He let go and we both laughed, he was blushing too and smiling. I thought it was cute and joked about it. He said he hated his smile, but I didn’t wanna force him so I just hugged him and nobody even noticed what happened, even when his best friend was there. The event was over. Now every single event after another we sit together and preform together. We parter up for certain things and we were always together.
People started to think we were together, which was true but we just made up and excuse that we’re just best friends. If people found out it would be spread around the entire school. Though they’d never believe us at least we tried.
It was quite a while since he’s said sweet dreams to me. But then one night he decided to say it. But he also said “I love you.” I had to say the same, we both were blushing and it was all screen love but we knew we had something.
Since school is still on summer break for us.. we’ll be seeing each other in 4 weeks.
I enjoy your warm hugs and when you held my hand. I hope we get to do our plans of walking in the rain together one night and staying up on the roof and just talking. I hope we can do that when we see each other again.
I love you. -Lumi
DAMN U LUCKY ASF
Frisk The Human. One of the best love experiences I've ever read :"^
this spoke to me, i still have hope to fall in love again
Illie Lumi aww so cute I hope everything is still going good for u guys. I wish I had someone like that 😂
Ahh...my heart...
Two years late, but who cares
She, at the beggining, was cold and rude and a big bully.
The first time I saw her was in middle school, we were both 9. She said my round glasses were ugly. I shrugged and went to my class.
Whenever she needed to talk to me, she called me ''nerd''. Everytime I passed on the hallway on my way to History class, she would be sitting back at the same window, lift her sharp grey eyes at me, give a sarcastic smile and shout ''Hey, nerd!''. I never cared.
I was bullied before for many reasons before. Why would she think her insults bothered me?
Then she started getting bullied. A bunch of tall and fat, older kids would block her way and insult her. Sometimes I heard her out-smarting them or giving back a sarcastic comment and walking away. A nine-year-old Barbie girl with grades and sarcasm against five, sometimes six stronger twelve-year-olds.
I don't remember when she stopped talking to me. But I do remember that, in the beggining, I got bored. Somehow she became part of my routine.
When we were thirteen, she came to class one day with a new haircut. The light blonde, almost platinum long hair she used to wave around was now barely touching her shoulders. Everyone stared as she took a seat behind me, pulling her books from the bag. The class went by normally, but some girls would still look at her with shock.
In first grade of highschool, we got into the same school and she still sat behind me every class. But we never really talked.
Another boring chemistry class, I was drawing in the backpage of my notebook when I felt my hair being slightly pulled. My the corner of my eyes, I watched as she played with a lock of my hair between her pale fingers. When I turned around to face her and the lock fell out of her hands, all she did was lift her gaze and say, in her sweet and melodic voice.
''I'm sorry. Your hair is just really pretty.''
I answered that I wasn't mad and that she could continue playing with it. And then she did.
I fell asleep during math once and woke up to see my hair fully braided and the answers to the exercises I missed explanations all noted down in a green note.
I think that's when we started being friends.
She proved to be really sweet and funny and charismatic, and she gave the greatest hugs in the world.
I finally found out I've fallen for her when we were both 17.
We attended the same college and became roommates. I was majoring in Architecture, she was majoring in English. When we were 21 I took the courage to ask her out.
I'll never know if she took this first date as a thing between friends or not, but truth is, it was really fun and heart warming. I took her to the greatest coffee shop I knew and it was very nice.
We were 25 when I finally asked her to be my girlfriend. And she said yes! She said yes and that felt like the happiest day of my life.
Two years ago she was diagnosed with lung cancer. So I worked day and night to pay the hospital bills.
But we were too late.
Sorry, Darcy, I know you wouldn't want this, I know you'd want me to move on and be happy with someone else, but...
I still love you. Sorry.
i'm.....so so very sorry for ur lose. I wish for ur gf to be in a better place now. Ur story was so beautiful i cried haha... I've nvr fallen in love, I think i can't but ur story touched my heart. I hope ur doing well. I hope u remember it's ok to miss her but moving on isn't bad. I hope ur happy. Very much happy cause u deserve it.
I am so sorry for your loss♥️may she rest in peace
I am sorry for your loss, tbh i never liked anyone bcuz I never cared about them, I was kind of the quiet kid... But nice story!
(i moved to Canada and everything was great except nothing kinda changed.. until the new kid came... ALL I CAN SAY... Sorry for yur loss agn
NOOOOOOO, WHY DOES CANCER HAVE TO RUIN EVERY LOVE STORY?!
TwT
Hey, ik im a bit late....but how are you? Are you taking care of yourself? I hope so. If your reading thus that meabs you have made it so far, and i bet your gf would be proud. Im proud to and also your doing great, life can be hard sometimes, we just need to stay strong.
There is silence,
In everything we do now,
Our words used to have meaning,
Substance,
Soul, -
Now they are just,
Misguided ghosts,
Looking for a place to fit in,
But you believe in ghosts,
Don‘t you? -
Or at least you used to,
Yeah,
You used to,
Just like our words,
Used to have meaning.
I still love you, sorry
Xo, Ocean
😍
Best thing about being aromantic is listening to these mixes and not copping any feels; but rather vibes.
i'm fucking jealous sdhjbdfs
@@FuckTheRUclipsUsernameChange SAME
heh sucks for the rest of them
I still love you. And even though we're both with other people now, I'll always have that one spot for you in my heart. We've moved on, but I still care. And I always will. I'm sorry.
I'm just scared I'll die, still being the one who nobody is afraid to lose.
I live everyday of my life thinking that.
everyone lives the same way either loved or not, thats just life
I know... I know how long it's been. We haven't seen each other in 3 years, we haven't talked in 2 years. You don't even know that I confessed to you, because you never read any of my messages...
I loved you, y'know? I'd... Never truly felt love before until I realized, no matter how hard I tried to change my appearance and personality, I couldn't change my heart to love someone else. I'm sorry I realized it so late. I messaged you, and messaged you, and messaged you...
I miss you. I miss you, no matter how much I convince myself that I don't. I've tried to fall in love, over, and over...! But I couldn't help it... You were gone. You didn't even tell me why, or say goodbye... Please come back. Please come back... Please... come back... It hurts so much without you, please come back...!
I don't get it, why did you leave me behind? What was I supposed to learn...? Why can't you talk to me, just once...! I want to fall in love again!
I want to feel something for someone again.
I want to feel something for someone I can touch and talk to.
I want to feel something for someone who loves me back.
I want to feel something...
I want to fall in love...
I want to fall in love.
I want to fall in love!
I need to...
But I...
I still love you... sorry...
I am now glad that I dont have a love life. No intimate relationship altho im at the age to have one. Yet I'll say, this is sad, I'm sorry if I can't really relate but, I'm rooting for you. All of my best friends are like that, I kinda always have a pattern. But its fine, we say good bye and sometimes need closure. Hope you guys have a good one, good luck! 😊
I was also inlove to someone for 9 years.. but finally i have freed myself from that sad emotion..
loving someone who can never love you back.. he forgave me and i forgave him too..
and most importantly.. i forgave myself.. finally..
now I can say that it's totally fine to be alone and not to think of him.. ☺️☺️☺️
I am alone but happy in my solitude.
The idea of 3 years and 2 years is so on point with my situation. I’ve been studying abroad and he’s still in my hometown (now working) 😔 he’s been the only guy i truly loved bit he never knew that.. he avoided me at some point but recently we started talking again.. but still haven’t seen him irl
Sounds like Katsudeku if you ask me
ouch... too real.. way too real...
I fell in love with my best friend for 3 whole years before i finally confessed.
I know he wouldn't love me back because he is straight and I am a guy.
I stayed silent for 3 years and pretending i have no feelings for him but no matter what i do to get over him, he comes back like a bitter sweet dream.
Unable to combat my feelings, I thought i would tell him, so he could finally reject me and I could finally get this over with.
And as expected, he rejected me but everything went better then I thought. he hugged me and told me that i shouldve told him earlier because best friends should never keep secrets from each other.
I cried. But i wasnt crying because i didnt get the love i wanted but because i got something better, the most kind and loving friend I could've ever gotten.
he swore he would help me get over him and, after telling him many times something like the title of this vid, I did get over him.
I promise yall we will be best friends forever
I'm so glad your friendship is still existent.
Hey, it’s been a while. A year to be exact. I made the mistake. On the night of the 16th of February, I couldn’t handle it. I was young and stupid back then, so I couldn’t tell if it was love or lust, but we had such a good run together. Ever since we were kids, i looked up to you. I never realized how much you meant to me once my family split. You swooped down to rescue me from suicide and you took care of me. Then at that night of the 16th, I asked if you had a valentine, and if you didn’t, I’ll be there for you. I never realized how much of a change I had to see you as my best friend and my older sister to a girlfriend. The adjustment was too hard for me to handle, and that was when I knew I made a mistake. I didn’t want to break up with you, it would hurt me to. But you did the next day, and for the first time, I was truly alone. You didn’t come to the rescue. That was a year ago, I’m good now. I have another girl who loves me for who I am, but does not love me that way, while I do. She knows, but she won’t let that break the friendship. I love her, but when I think of you every now and then, it tears my heart apart into pieces. And sometimes, I think about what I did, and I feel guilty. Just think of what we could’ve been. We could’ve had a blossoming friendship, but here I am, running for another girl, but still not able to let go of you, yet we haven’t talked in a year. I desperately want to talk to you. I know we meet every week, but talking to you just isn’t the same. The scars in my heart are bigger than the self inflicted scars on my body. And sometimes I have to admit, I still love you, I’m sorry.
This hit too, too hard.
ahh... this hurts, omg rlly... this hurts so much, i cant
ZexR and ana paula thank you for your support! This is the same guy but using different accounts but anyway I’ve gotten a teeny tiny better than before and it’s all thanks to you 😁 I love you
chungus r/ wooosh, pretty sure it was figuratively
Jumpin on the love story train
Remember when we met? It was something around august of 2015. You were just two hears above me, and our friendship had so many flaws. We were both so young and scared... Especially because we were strangers on the internet.
Then, a year later, you confessed to me. I never wanted anyone to love me, because i knew i wasn't worth it... But you were so kind, so lovely, so... So unique, so real.
We went through so much... So many heartbreaks, so many fights...
But you were still my first love. You saw me grow up, and you were always with me. And I will never forget what you did.
All the good things, all the bad things, everything is still in my heart.
I cannot say I still love you, but I still remember you, and I promise you still have a place in me.
Always wishing you the best,
Adrian, your old Sae.
So I've known this girl for a few years now, and have always had a crush on her. I slowly became good friends with her, while expressing my feelings towards her. In the last year, my feelings towards her grew stronger, and I continued telling her how I feel.
Last week I finally asked her out.
She wasn't interested.
We haven't talked since then.
Now she has a boyfriend, and I'm still here. Staring at the ceiling.
Listening to this song...
Thank you Ambition.
P.S. Thank you all for showing me this amazing support. I love the community that Ambition has built. I love you all.
Sebastian Larabee Good luck out there, man. I wish I could give you some sage advice that could instantly fix your situation, but I don’t really have anything of the sort. All I can really say is this: it’s okay to take a break from love for a while if you feel hopeless or suffocated. I personally know that when I’m feeling that way, it’s best to just take a step back and wait for a little while. Take your time coming back; it makes the rediscovery even more sweet.
Ashton Palmer Thank you so much. I honestly appreciate your existence.
Be strong man, someone out there is still waiting for you to come 😉
Sebastian Larabee feel you brotha. Keep going
Same. Literally.
moving on is the strangest thing in the world, when you find someone who fills you up the way she use to, when that new someone tries their hardest to make you feel better, that’s when you let go, you start to realize that you can stop loving....but you won’t forget her
One day, I was scrolling and liking every single photo on my Instagram like I usually do, and then I saw yours. The only detail that was different from all your other posts was a girl, your girlfriend to be exact.
She's everything I'm not, she's from the same prestigious school as you so she must be intelligent since she was able to pass the entrance exam, she's from a church; I bet your mom loves her, she has features that even I find cute, but the bigger difference was that she had you and I don't.
I miss us. I'm not saying that I want you back or anything, it's not the same as before, but I miss you, and I miss our love. I even still have your sweater in my closet, faded blue jacket with the strings that I used to pull on. And suddenly, I realize that I still love you.
However, I'm happy for you. Looking at you makes me realize that I'm not alone, that I can love and be loved. You gave me the greatest gift that no one can replace.
( been learning to love me for five months, I'm learning to breathe without you )
Thank you, this music reminded me so many feelings that I long forgotten.
What a lovely story. It's nice to look back and think about the good times and it might not be the same now but you had memories together and that the fact it exists is a beautiful thing.
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened". Dr.Seus
Thank you
(vent)
i still love you.
i still love your lovable smile that can light up my day; your voice that felt like music to my ears; your eyes that i could just get lost in forever; your laugh that shook the butterflies in my stomach; your words that made my heart skip a beat, that made it soft and warm by every "i love you" i could still remember that came out of those lips that felt like heaven to kiss; your hugs that felt like blissful home; and just.. you, as the person that you are with those flaws and perfections i accepted and loved.
but we both knew it wouldn't last long. we both knew this wasn't supposed to happen. we both loved each other with the ignorance of the pain when the time came that reality and the heartbreaking truth would rip us apart from each other then to our hearts that just wanted to love. and it did happen. they ripped us apart.
we're broken in so many ways that i cannot fathom how much both of us are actually going through. we've sunken to possibly one of the lowest points of our lives because of how much we miss each other, the missing piece of our hearts, not because you were "the one i've been looking for" but because your love made a snug little corner in my heart where it just fit so nicely that it molded into my heart and when you were ripped away from me, there's now a hole in the wall where your love was supposed to be.
and yet i still love you. i'm sorry.
I remember asking a friend for ur snap and then chatting with you and getting to know you more.
I remember the day I confessed and you told me you felt the same and took me out to eat.
I remember everything you said, all your “I love you’s” and all you hugs and how you’d try to find an excuse to hold my hand.
I remember that day when we were sitting alone, in the corner of the school and you just stared straight into my eyes and told me you loved me.
I remember all our late night calls.
I remember every feeling, every touch, every word, and every broken promise.
And I remember,
your love fading away.
and the day you decided to leave.
I remember it all.
and I wish I didn’t.
It’s been more than a month now..
I still feel bad, and I don’t know why. I’m not the one who left you questioning your entire self, becoming extremely anxious about everything, overthinking everything, becoming insomniac, crying each night in hope of just a little text back saying to me that you’re alive.
I’m not the one who then left you, without an explanation as to why.
You see, you were the first person to love me back. The first person to kiss me. To say to me "I love you " in that manner. To make me feel so happy, and complete, and confident.
I passed trough all the range of emotions, but, lately, I just seemed to have given up. My entire routine consist on waking up and almost immediately wishing to go back to sleep. Then going trough my day, trying to occupy my mind as much as possible, to avoid thinking about any of it anymore, as I just cannot take it anymore. Then going to bed. And then just endlessly scroll trough my phone as my thoughts go wild, and ultimately, after putting music on, my mind usually get muted by my body shutting off in the hope of a bit of sleep.
All of that to say; I still love you.
And I’m incredibly sorry.
For being so stupid
Man, I know how it is, I know what youre talking about, and at least know that there is people who are in the same or similar situation as you. Good luck recovering, and finding someone who will keep caring back.
i know exactly how you feel. he told me he just didnt feel the same anymore about a month ago. the only answer i was worth was "idk im sorry" it feels so real.. right? its such a beautiful feeling to be able to give yourself to someone and for them to return the favor.. and idk its a ongoing battle in my mind deciphering if id trade all of those priceless moments for my happiness... sometimes i wish id never met him.. sometimes i love him more than anything.. i love him for what he gave me. im so sorry that you feel this way too. its cheesy as fuCk but it does get better. someday youre going to be able to listen to a love song without your heart dropping. someday my friend maybe both of us can find ourselves again :)
This wraps up how I feel.. after everything
Im Sad Now Waitting Fot Her To Accept My Love,I Became Sick After She Haven't Answer My Love For 1 Week,I Wish At The Past I Tell Her The Truth
your act just like my bf right now....but He just , ignored me....I'm almost giving up..as it just keep repeating for a few years.......I don't want to talk my problems to another person...i just want to pour my heart to him...but....he just pushed me away without feel any guilty.....I know he still love me...and that is what my friend's said....but...I'm giving up to be the first one text only....i;m giving up to setttle our problems as he just create new lies and escaping himself........I'm crying each night.........just because i miss him...i don't want to lose him....but he just treat me like a trash....attention seeker......i tried to delete his chats..but i just can't..........But when I want move on...He come back with his sweet talks....new sweet lies...but then he pushed me away again......once i have said that....I want to break up with him...He cried ....but he makes me suffer and i still love him.....hmm...I said if he thinks i'm important..he knows how to find me..if i'm not important to him..just ignored me..and yup..that is what he is doing right now..pushed me away..and ignore me..........................
Me: *listening to lofi while studying*
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Me: ._.
oh.....oh
this is nice
i recently confessed to my crush
after he moved away
i was just texting him and then i saw this
..........lovely
Why does it have to feel so godamn complicated?...One moment I've resigned myself to never being together, never reciprocated in kind while still gently supporting you from afar... and then the next it feels like heartache so great, my heart might burst amongst the salty tears.
I'm happy enough getting to talk to you everyday yet it also feels so insufferably bittersweet.
Ambition is just a lofi place, where I feel a special type of tranquillity. By far my favourite channel and the only one I can listen to as religiously as I listen to your songs, much love and gratitude.
*He told me he loved me.*
*I told him I loved him.*
*...*
*.....*
*He started loving someone else.*
*He never told me.*
*He never broke anything off.*
*...*
*....*
*Why?*
*Was I not good enough?*
*...*
*....*
*Why do I still love him?*
I just went through a tough break up and the title and tags describe how I feel. I constantly go from still loving her to being depressed and back to loving her. But I know she'll never feel the same again.
Brandon Hargett I wish you luck out there. If you don’t think there’s any chance of returning to the way things once were, then don’t worry about it. If you need time before you put yourself back out there, take it. I was anything but ready to be in a relationship when I found the person I love, so I took some time for myself to figure things out. Now, we’re happily together, and I credit that in part to the fact that I just took my time. You’ll figure it out. Just relax, and you’ll see.
"It's the saddest thing when the person who you made the best memories with, becomes a memory."
Thank you guys for liking my comment, all the support has been so great, and I've gotten so much better, thanks to all of you
I relate to the Title
Anyone else?💕
"I might have feelings for someone else but, I still love you even though it hurt more than I could ever imagine. I wonder if you're in love with a different person now. It hurts to think about that even though my heart is with someone else now. I'm sorry that I couldn't fill that hole in your heart and I'm sorry it didn't feel real to you. I still love you... sorry."
This may seem weird but I felt a spark when I scrolled past and saw your name. So uhm...Hi, pleasure to meet you. ^~^°
@@BoaRaven this seems so wholesome and im upset they didn't reply
@@chillcat1454 that's ok, they probably just didn't notice ♡ thank you for your kindness tho ♡♡♡
The girl who used to say I took her breath away now ignores me. Time for me to move on
same, it hurts a lot. 😔
rip in the chat
F
Lmao just leave her to not commit not breathe
it's only been a week and I'm slowly realizing that he's not going to come back.
it's so hard to realize that someone who was so close to you is so willing to become a stranger... after so many times you promised to always be there for each other.
I still love you. I don't think I'll ever stop. I'm sorry.
still love her dear friend?...
Funny how i said goodbye to them just now... and then i find this...TvT they meant so much to me and they still do... thank you for this
having a crush hurts... "you love what you can't have"
Cool drawing of deku it's so pretty I love it
Evryone is telling a story in the comments...and there's me.
I just love my best friend. I said it to her and she said "Oh. It's ok!You are my friend anyway,i will never let you go!Baka." And..that makes me happy. I was afraid to loose her,i was afraid to be alone.
Now we are kinda more than best friends but nothing like that. We have kinda a bro-mance LOL-
I'm really the only optimist here?ÉwÈ
It's not about you being optimistic, it's about you just having a different outcome then others
I met her two years ago on the internet, in a fandom that I'm not gonna mention, since it's sort of irrelevant. We secretly shared so many more things, like the admiration for maths and physics and loving the Harry Potter series. She asked me if I would join a role-playing group chat, and I did. Around 20% of all messages were roleplay. We were mostly talking about our lives, and I got really close to her.
After a month, she confessed, and I showed my love to her as well. Most of the groupchat was teasing us, yet we still had out fair share of support from them.
That was in late-August-early-September 2016. Since then, we had 3 unstable long-distance relationships and we fell out of touch for far too many times.
I didn't hear a word from her for the last week. It might not sound like a lot, but considering that we used to talk daily for a couple of hours, it's harsh. She does have a really strict schedule, but I'm paranoid for a reason.
She went through a terrorist attack, and I would be not only destroyed, but I would break down, because she's a rare specimen, an *amazingly* rare one, and I'm glad she invited me to that group chat, since she's one of the reasons that keeps me going.
At least seeing the "Last active at ..." thing under her username update from time to time is a little conforting... 🌺
UPDATE: She stopped talking to me because she hates me.
There's another girl, that I met in kindergarten, 11 years ago. We didn't talk too much (if at all) until 7th grade. We were pretty much forced to become benchmates throughout the last school year. We made so many inside jokes, had too many because of which we were wheezing uncontrollably during the lectures. Of course, we had our tantrums here and there, but that made us what we are now.
We're best friends. The best of friend.
Or at least...
That's what she feels.
I'm saying this here, because there's no one else I know invested enough to care, and if I say this to her, she'd destroy me. And probably her own sanity as well. Not saying I don't care about her (I do, a lot), but... I just feel like it's not it. This is *not* what I'm looking for in a friendship. So I usually drifted from her, during the breaks between lectures, and went to another girl, one that she hated. She kept saying "Come sit next to me already!" and I couldn't do anything else but obey.
But oddly enough, this girl that I used to talk to...
Is the one that I feel I didn't form a great relationship with.
And usually, she made me feel like she's the one that I'm looking for. Sense of humor, cuteness and childishness, intelligence, good looks, what more could you ask.
Tu ești, Delia. Tu ești fata aia.
I still love you.
Sorry. ✌️
I'm sorry that your first relationship didn't work out, but if she really feels that way then she's not worth your time. She's out of your reach now and that's just something you're going to have to accept, and trust me, it will make your life a lot more easier if you do.
For the second girl, your so called "best friend", don't lie to yourself. It's clear that you don't like her, and don't give me that "but I care about her" bull because if you did then you wouldn't be avoiding her would you. I don't think you know it, but all you're really doing is hurting her and yourself more. Sure, she'll get really mad if you tell her this but she'll get over it. You already know your relationship with her is leading to a dead end and stalling is only making it worse. Sense of humor, cuteness and childishness, intelligence, good looks, these are just excuses, stop chasing a fantasy that just isn't true. Yeah, in the end, you might miss making your silly jokes and laughing with her, but if you can't help this "feeling" of yours that this isn't the friendship you want, then it's about time you let her go. No more excuses, no more lying.
I'm telling you this because I've tried to tell myself the same thing a long time ago, but I didn't listen and it only made my situation worse. I'm in a better place now and I've learned a lot since then. You still have a long life ahead of you, so don't let small things like these get in the way of living it. Peace.
Hello my Romanian friend, it's heartbreaking to see the updated message. Fuck life. If you need anything, any help and support, i'll try my best to be here for you. And i am for real, if you actually want a new friend we could find a way to talk, i want to be as helpful as possible.
It's been an year, and things change, but maybe you still want help lol
To anyone reading this, I truly hope you live happily. I know it can get tough sometimes. Just remember I'm always rooting for you. Do your best. You will always be good enough! :)
Back at it again with these sad, but beautiful titles!❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥
I read that as "beautiful titties."
Mayo saaaaaame! I'm like yes, I love beautiful titties lol
You're so sweet and supportive, I'm glad to see you like this mix, I like it too. Never stop what your doing. Stay amazing and don't let anyone get you down!✨
Hetamashi Senpai aww thank you so much!❤️❤️. Your such a beautiful person!!!!✨✨❤️❤️🌸🌸
Funny cause it relates to the situation at the right time
He won't ever see this and it's perfectly fine. But I love you, and even though you just want to be friends, I'll never stop loving you even if it kills me cause in the end I'm always the one here for you.
me too man, me too..
same here i think
Fought for him for over half an year. He didnt wanted me for an incident that i had back then...he said that i was perfect but that one thing ruined it a bit. Felt so lonely and i asked for him to be around but he pushed me away, while being still sweet to me. I felt so unbearable lonely that i let a boy into my life but the one i truly loved never said a thing (until months later saying that he was jealous) several moths passed and somone near him talked me into having something.. I thought he could give me the warmth I needed, but he just used me and I felt so dirty. After hearing about it he got so angry about it telling me why I did it if I had feelings for him.. I just said that he pushed me and after some weeks he realized that he had truly feelings for me. We were happy and had so many wonderful memories together. But each 2 months he had a mental breakdown about what i did and mentaly abused me with insults and depriving me of warmth for days. He broke up with me and I just couldnt do anything anymore. It almost ruined an important exam in which i had to cry and submited it way to soon. He apologized and promised to never leave me again. All the cycle repeated itself for half an year longer. Until he broke up with me twice in a week and 29 days ago he did it again (3 times in 2 weeks).. Im still lovesick... and it hurts that i went through all this for nothing. He now has a new gf as if nothing happened. I love him so much but at the same time I could never forgive him for promising me till the end to never leave me alone..
sry for the long text but dunno..
Rossio Tecedeiro you deserve better❤️ we’re all human who make mistakes. If he can’t accept it and move on then he doesn’t really love you. You are so much more than your mistakes plz realize that❤️
i didnt want to be like this...
i didnt want to drag you down with me and my slowly growing demons.
i couldnt handle seeing you upset and crying, i cared for you and was there for you through thick and thin.
when i finally confessed to you and told you i would wait i felt a weight come off my chest, being able to tell someone my feelings was great. soon you decided to become my girlfriend. i was so happy with you the happiest ive been in so long...
but i wasnt loving you the way i wanted to- my demons wouldnt let me. so i told you. i told you i wanted to love and fix myself before i could love you the way i wanted to. you said you were fine but you lied. and now you hate me.
but while you hate me i sit here hugging the stuffed animals you gave me praying these new demons leave me alone while wishing i could hold you, but i know you dont wanna here me say "i still love you"
im sorry.
Looks like deku
its danger is he
That would make sense
I thought the same thing
I'm pretty sure it is. He has a very distinct hairstyle.
A strange trap deku looks like a younger (with freckles) version of the nigga from cowboy bebop
"No matter how long it's been, I still can't seem to forget you. Even after you tried so hard, so many times to push me away, my mind and heart continue to stray towards you. Your sheer amazingness at everything you do was so brilliant to me, it was blinding. To me, you were an amazing, inspiring person... so even after everything... i still love you"
Thanks this helped me get away from the real world for a while 👍❤ I love you too Ambition
This month seems like a big break up month for people and I've sadly joined that army.
It's going to be rough coping after loosing a 5 yr relationship...
It's hard.
And it's going to be weird entering society after that blur. I won't feel like me but I know I have to keep living and actually do something with myself; even alone.
So if you are hurting please know you can keep going, it's hard but keep trying to move forward. You'll have friends that will help you along the way.
lmao i like how everyone is talking about their heartbreaks and all, and then there is me, who literally lost their hope in love bgAHSDFASHFG
i deadass can't love people anymore, and it's kinda upsetting, but eh, they say being heartless is better than being heartbroken, so i'll take that 👈👈
same
Maybe you guys r Aromantic like me, idk try looking it up
" I knew if I talked to you again.....
My feelings would come back
But why?
Why?
Why does my heart hurt when your with her?
Why does it hurt to move on?
Why do I still feel guilt?
Why do I still regret meeting you?
Why......
Why do I still love you?"
I'm new & I love your channel ^_^
Marisol Villaseñor it’s simply one hell of a channel
Although no one will see this, I want to share a story of mine..
2 years ago I met someone, he was kind, funny, _cough_ cute af _cough_, and someone I really liked. Of course without knowing I could tell he didn't like me, he liked other girls in our grade. I was "lucky" enough to be the person he told about his feelings towards others. He came to me when he wanted help with either impressing a girl or telling her he liked them. I helped him in hopes of him one day realizing how much Heartache he was causing me, he never did and before I knew it the school year ended, we couldn't talk, and I began the slow process of moving on.
Last Year was so much different, although I thought I was over him at that point, I wasn't over him. We chatted so much more then we used to, we played videogames together. The feeling of liking him came back and eventually I realized he felt the same way after exchanging numbers and talking. I even had the confidence to ask him out, and see if he wanted to be my Boyfriend... he said yes. I was so happy, dating him was like a dream and I didn't want to wake up from it, but I did wake up, and when I woke up it hurt... a lot. When we broke up it was my call, I broke up with him because I was so afraid I would hurt him or that he'd leave me. As much as he didn't want me to end it I did out of my own fear. The voices in the back of my head telling me that one day I'd hurt him or that one day he'd hurt me... I even thought for meer seconds that I didn't love him. When I broke up with him we agreed to still be friends, though it took a lot of healing for both of us to even talk to one another again. it wasn't till a few weeks after that I realized my mistake, that I still loved him..... But I didn't want to do that to him again so I didn't try it again. I didn't ever mention to him how I felt after that and we remained friends. With a cost of my own loneliness though..
This year is once again different. Despite everything we are still friends, great friends infact and I couldn't have it any other way. He's happy with his new girlfriend and I'm happy helping him with what he needs. although I still regret my mistake that one faithful day, I hope that I can move on and he can be with someone who makes him happy.
This song made me think of him and my story, and I'm glad I could get this off my chest. Even if I'm just ranting to a bunch of strangers.
you shouldn't be sorry for loving someone, they should be happy to receive such a great feeling. But if they don't appreciate it you should find someone who need it the most
I liked him, he liked me. But he was broken, way beyond my repair. But I still tried, I loved him to the FULLEST I could ever love someone. But... he just saw right past me, he didn't see me... I was nothing but a ghost, I love him. He doesn't love me, he doesn't want me to be involved with him, he pushes me away, he loved me. Now I'm just hurt. We talk, but it's about what our other friends are talking about. We laugh like I didn't confess, we laugh like my words had turned to dust. They were nothing but a myth. He'll never know my true feelings, because he never like the truth from me. My truth always made him want to be with me, but he couldn't because of his broken self.
I love you, but can't you give me a chance? Even if it's for a week, a day, an hour... anthing, anything to show you how much I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I'll help you heal, I'll help you love again. You can't have a dead heart on me, when you haven't even tried to love me...
You say, "I love you." To me as a joke, to make me feel good. Do you not know it hurts?
This mix hit me hard.
i came here without knowing anyone. i didn't have an intention to have friends or date. all i came for was to travel and to get to know the area and have fun. i met you at my new job. you well chill. something about you attracted me. i remember you telling me when you first met me. you said i waved happily to you when they were introducing us. i remember it too. time went by and we started to get to know each other. you always came to my area just to talk. you would finish your work quickly just to talk. soon enough i started to like you. but it turns out that you started to like me more than i did to you. we later became one. we did so much together in a short period of time. you were my first boyfriend, my first kiss, first to hold my hand, and first in everything. you made me happy and i always loved to see you smile. we said we'd do so much; travel to different places together, try out new stuff. then i really started to fall in love with you. we were really alike. but then we got distant. you didn't have time for me. you were busy. you had so much to do. i still waited. i was there for support in anything you needed. but the distance only got worse. you kept telling me that we shouldn't keep it going.you didn't want to hurt me. i missed you so much. i felt lonely. you couldn't be there when i needed you the most.i couldn't even see you to talk about it and see what can work out. i couldn't hold it any longer and just gave out. now we're no longer a thing. i still look back at our pictures, our messages, listen to the songs we sent each other. every little things reminds me of you and i appreciate every little thing about you. i still love you. i don't know how long this pain will last but i'll always love you and miss you.
IZUKUUUUUUU
Dekuuu
Yeessssss dekuuuuuu
SHOTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
@@shototodoroki283 BAKUGOOOOO
@@shototodoroki283 Or Ka-chan )0))
We've been through this.
Three times already.
Three times I have confessed,
Three times you've pushed me away.
But now, being just friends seems to be the best option, for both of us.
But now......
My life isn't the same.
Your existence is a blessing and a curse.
And I hate you.
For existing,
For smiling at me,
For caring about me,
For teaching me how to love.
All because I love you, but I know it'll never come true.
I curse you, for indirectly bringing the emotions into my life.
But I still love you, because you've treated me like no one ever has.
I still love you..... Sorry.
Wow thanks for this mix! Yuutsu has a new fan. Just followed!
oh god... this music brought back a lot of feelings i've had for him. like we've known each other for 8 years, since we were little children and all the love i had for him was brought back and i don't know what to feel.. we don't even talk anymore and we used to be so close...
Things ill never forget:
-How i fell inlove with you
-How i knew you will never love me
-How i knew it's impossible because you're an anime character..
an yes that profile pic. jin-woo
@@knxaii8266 I see your a man of culture as well 😔
I still love you💔😢 and it’s killing me slowly. You have her and I have nobody. Just loneliness. Depression. Meds. Heartbreak... from someone who wasn’t even mine, but after getting to know you, it all made perfect sense that god blessed me to meet you.. our view of the world and outlook on life and children and family.. all made perfect sense. We both agreed on our feelings and that our union could cause conflict and hurt those closest to us. It was hard being friends with her, kissing her brother when all I thought about was you.. my feelings are never a priority in life though are they? If we love each other and meant to be why can’t we??? I wish I prayed for you. Stayed up nights and cried wrote poetry about you... I see you occasionally you still smile at me the way you used to.. and I try not to but boy you have this hold on me.. a beautiful pain, a terrible ache. but we can’t go there. We agreed that we both had feelings for the other, but the timing wasn’t right.. my heart broke the day we parted💔💔💔 you told me if things were different, In a heartbeat it would be me.. what does the future hold? For us? I’ll be waiting😞
To my first love,
my first real heartbreak 💔
❤️
Ugh that title...this is an attack
It such an awkward, shitty feeling. The feeling of flutters in your stomach and your face going sweaty, red. But when sharing this feeling with someone else, your flushing face becomes soft and gentle and you cant help but hating love, yet loving each other. ♡~
Midoria S2
woa, "a zoeira"
você é BR?!
izuku midoriya (his nickname is deku)
wez waiting on szn 4 booz hehehe I need to go to sleep is 3am
i want season 4 so bad i can‘t wait until april ugh ..
@@lee-ew4xl
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Its october T~T
I know we're just close friends and that's all we'll ever be. Seeing you happy with him makes me happy... Or is it just a beatific feeling that I force upon myself. Deep down I know I'm sad and I'm hurting over this, but whenever I see you and you ask me how I'm doing all I can say is that... "I still love you... and I'm sorry"
This music helps me calm down in the morning before school
The only thing you need is not love, it is patience, because only with patience will true love come.
Everyone has a soulmate just needs to wait patiently.
So don't be afraid because you will meet your soulmate in the right place at the right time.
To: him
From: me
Hey...
Lately I’ve been having a rough time. Today was emotional. Yesterday I asked a lot of people if I should tell you about the feelings I have for you. Most of them said “ yeah go for it” but only some said “it cud ruin our friendships” which really made me think. But then I realized we aren’t really friends anymore anyways. So that whole night I was so excited to finally tell you about my feelings I have for you! But then this morning I was kinda nervous and really thought about it. But I was still gonna do it. So it finally came to the part were I tell you! Until...
I saw you talking and smiling away at this girl idk what it was but I kinda broke and said to myself “forget it” and walked away broken. Now I don’t think I’ll ever have that much confidence anymore. I don’t think I’ll ever tell you anymore either not that you’d care. But I guess now I’m more broken than I ever was 😭💔👍🏻
"It's not stress that kills us it's our reaction to it." ❤️
I've always loved you Ambition!
I know I’m late for the party but seeing all these stories that everyone shared, it brought me an inspiration to do this.
He and I were in the same club, but we rarely talked to each other. Then in late July, our club decided to go on a vacation together. By that time, I was going through a very bad break up and so was he. We both shared our stories and we started talking together. After some days, I realized how much I fell for him. You may say that’s quick, but at that time all I cared about was everyone else’s happiness, and seeing him a bit duller than his everyday, I felt the urge of helping him to get through it.
I confessed. And he accepted. I didnt realize he fell for me too. The months later on were the happiest moment of my life so far. I had someone to care for, he loved me with all his heart, and our relationship kept blooming... until one day...
I started noticing how much stress he had to go through, not just from studying but also from our relationship. He held too much responsibilities in the same time. And so, after 4 months in the relationship, we both decided to give each other a rest. With all those stress and pressure he had, he couldn’t find time to love anymore, he stopped loving and moved on by himself...
As for me, I couldn’t help but to keep loving him. He always tells me to find someone else, but I couldn’t. I feel bad for loving him, for keep pulling him back on my side, knowing it will never work again. He told me to promise to stay happy, but now I feel so bad for breaking that promise. I couldn’t feel full again, and I felt like I had no choice but to live this way..
I’m sorry if my story was terrible. I just really wanted to share it..
I met her days-no, months ago, My best friend introduced me to her, both beautiful inside 'n out. We started chatting for days, weeks and after a few more weeks, she told everyone in our group chat that she likes me. The feeling I felt made me feel more alive and happier than before for I already gained a lack of self-esteem but yet somehow, with little confidence I had, I asked her out. She said yes, we were overjoyed to be together. However when news spread to the chats, my best friend suddenly started ghosting me and her, saying I had replaced her. Honestly, it hurt a lot and it still does to this day. She helped me through it but some friends of ours were in the way of giving me time to get my mental health back up.
It took a few more weeks for my signs of tiredness, irritation and excessive sadness to show up, my parents started noticing and my mother took my phone away. Before that however, flashbacks started plaguing my mind of when my parents started fighting, flashbacks of my days of negativity along side it.
The school guidance counselor took notice and wanted to help, she was the one I relied on in my time of need, the one I talked to and not my closest ones, my love and my mom. I cried for the time I was there, she gave me a book that was given to those who needed guidance.
Months after, teachers started to take in my signs of sluggishness, tiredness, and lack of interest on social interaction. I made a personal bubble for myself, well, I already did; I just made it stronger.The day we got our report card, my eyes went wide when I had seen three low grades. It was the ones I had a hard time on but could manage before. One of them was from a teacher that just made my mental health break over and over like shattering a glass cup.
Again to when my mom took my phone, she went to my chats, and saw the one thing I always kept away from them: my attempts of suicide and self-harm and by self-harm I didn't only mean cutting: It was both cutting and self-traumatizing. Self-harm isn't just cutting.
She and dad confronted me about it, we got more closer, but she pulled me out of school so I could take homeschooling. Mom cut away my communication with my love and my friends. She took away my past way of coping which was chatting but she's trying to change it now so I could lean more on my beading and my all time favorite past-time reading e-books. She's pulling my out of my endless hole of negative thoughts but that doesn't leave the fact that she cut me away my hope and joy.
Ignore this, it's just a rant, but I probably should've put that on the top. Thank you to that soul that decided to take time out of their schedule to read this. This is based on this year's events, the last paragraph being happened a few days ago, this was made so messily. I apologize for that, I just wanted to vent on something that's been on my mind for the past few nights.
Saika Chi it’s cool. I hope that things get better.
Music likes this feels like I'm looking at the night sky with them. And we watch the stars and the dark sky while talking deeply about our thoughts. We both know this moment won't last forever and we know that one day we'll forget about it just like how we forget about the night sky and the stars that shine so brightly there. Yet at the same time that's the beauty in it. The neverlasting beauty that soon will fade..
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." 1 John 4:18
About three years ago, I started to like my classmate. She's nice and funny, and was one of the first people I talked to in my new school. She told puns, which would always make my day so much better.
And it would've been okay, if i wasn't a girl too.
i felt bad about myself for feeling like that. As a Christian I was taught that this was wrong, and although I still stand by that, I wish I'd known that it wasn't my fault. That there wasn't anything wrong with me for feeling this way. That I was still me no matter what.
But I didn't. For the longest time i bottled it all up. I even started avoiding my crush. Thankfully, I eventually told my parents and even some friends, and all of them haven't changed the way they see me. In fact, my parents said they were proud that I was so honest with them about this.
The feelings aren't consistent, but they're still there after all these years and it's kinda stupid. Some days I think they're gone, then I realise they're not. Why can't I just move on already?!
Either way, I still want to be friends with her. So we've started texting each other a little recently, and it's okay so far.
If you're the girl and for some reason you're reading this, I dont want this to change our relationship in anyway. All I want is to be your friend. Its just that....
I still love you...I'm sorry.
I'm still trying to get over a break up from a couple months ago. So thank you for this.
The titles happen in a perfect sequence. Whatever you’re going through, it gets infinitely better over time. Just you wait, yeah you
If you look into the description,
You can see all the songs and in order
I realized that the names of the song in order is the the stages of being depressed
It started pure, then pain, and ends with healing
I meet them a few years back. They were so cheerful. We became good friends fast. We trusted each other and helped each other through the times our depression was pretty bad. I fell in love with them without really knowing. I started to think about them everyday. Their laugh was carefree, and I loved it when I made them laugh. I knew I shouldn’t love them like that since they had a boyfriend already but I couldn’t help it. So I just played my role as the friend. One week my phone stopped charging. I was without it for a week and a half.
When I got it fixed I found out that the chat room we were both in were extremely worried about me, and that one of the members even called me which never happens. That day I got my phone fixed was their funeral. I found out a week after their suicide I cried myself to sleep for weeks. It’s been a few months now and they are still all I can think about. Now when ever someone talks about things that they loved I get nostalgic and want to cry. I loved them so much that all ever I wanted was for them to be happy.
I miss you.
You got the best music hookups dude thank you!!
No se por donde empezar, estas canciones me hacen sentir como un pensamiento que va divagando nomás, siento la mera curiosidad de sentir más pero ese más que sea infinito y a la vez adecuado para no terminar con un sentimiento explosivo. tengo mucho que escribir y no me alcanza el lugar de mi mente para poderlo guardar, que bonita lista de reproducción, me hace calmarme ante tanto tormento que se vive en el día, solo quiero ser luz para las demás personas y es difícil ser buena persona ante el mundo.
He de decir que me gustaría tener muchos amigos pero mi circulo es pequeño y quisiera expresar mis sentimientos sinceros, me cuesta, y mi mente a veces crea un torbellino exuberante que me auto-silencia.
Voy a mejorar a mi tiempo y lo haré, todo a mi tiempo y con paciencia que venimos al mundo a ser felices, no entiendo aún en qué etapa estoy, pero sigo avanzando, no veo mucho el atrás en logros pero si lo veo en atentados que no quisiera volver a tener, tampoco quiero demostrarles a las personas que me hicieron daño que me va mejor, no, quiero ser un tipo de persona diferente por la cual aun así fui consumido por comentarios de baja frecuencia.
Quiero demostrarme a mi mismo que puedo empezar desde muy bajo, medio o alto lugar. Gracias por leerme, la verdad no escribí de algo en particular solo quería desahogarme un poco :')
been listening to a lot of these lately. The girl of my dreams just left me and I'm kind of shattered right now. She's fine though. I guess that's better than her being miserable. I just wish I could continue making her happy as a partner. I wish for so many things. I miss her so much and I wish I could still call her mine and hold her in my arms with an enormous amount of love. She means everything to me. I wish she still loved me the way I love her.
Every now and then, I think about him, his voice, his smell, his kind way of talking to me. We met mid spring 2016. Playing games together and spending every second together, atleas as much time as possible. Time was flying by and we grew to the best friends ever, it was such a special bond, i didnt even realize how much i liked him. One Day i was alone with one of his friends, he told me that he nerver before witnessed him beeing so happy with a girl, and if i maybe liked him. He told me that seeing his friend so happy really was something special and that i was special. I started thinkig about it, but then i met someone else, We just stayed friends, but both deep down we knew, we were ment to be more. Year passed and so did we. We kinda lost our connection, it kinda just faded away and we had our own lifes with partners and friends. But now thinking back to the time we lived in Our own world with eachother, I miss you, I miss us. I texted you and we started to talk again and i just needed to know and jokingly asked if you had loved me back then, you said Yes. That was the moment i wished I had told you that i was in love with you. I am happy now and its fine to move on, but I still love you. Now I am stuck, regreting missing that opportunity to be in love with you and maybe spending my time with you, but its to Late.
When you relate to Ambition's video titles so much
Is it bad that I love reading your guys stories it makes me feel like someone understands and that I'm not alone I'm crying on bed looking at stars but nobody's my shining star when I need it ugh this fucking pain I can't take it anymore
Mitochondria is the powerhouse of the cell
hehe I giggled at this
this is so random its funny
This girl will always have a special place in my heart. Even if she shares her life with someone else, even if she never saw me as more than a friend, I still love her.
I know you don't feel the same way
I get it
just please understand that I'm trying so hard
I'm trying to make it work
but sometimes I fail
I shoved my feelings down for you
I shoved my feelings down so that we could be friends
but how do I tell you what I'm going through without sounding selfish
you'll always be a part of me
even if you're the part that's missing
I don't want to let you go
I know you moved on
I know we aren't as close as we were before
but
I still love you
...
sorry
When you love someone unreachable it tears you apart
We don't even go to the same school anymore, after we never talked much. I liked you, but so did many other girls. Back then my friend liked you, I ignored all my feelings towards you and rooted for her, I didn't want to be selfish. I thought it was wrong to like someone like you, I wanted to get rid of the feeling, but you were the most genuine guy I had met. I know you treated the conversations you had with me like it was just the normal thing for you, but to me, they were everything. You were selfless, nice, funny, everything a girl would swoon for. After a few months, I kept thinking about you, you were always in the back of my mind. Then my other friend said she was trying to set her friend up with you because you went to the same school and she liked you.
"They would look so cute together!"
My heart aches.
I always put other people's feelings first instead of mine.
If I told my friends I still like you.....
"You're still hung up on him?"
"seriously?!"
"You don't even talk to him!"
I'm sorry,
I still love you.
Well Kayla your feelings are more important and thinking ab your own doesn’t make you selfish ❤️ coming from someone who is the same way (put others feelings before me) you deserve to be happy
@@mikeyaharkel1537 Thank you😊❤
Kayla no problem 🤗❤️ and I’m rooting for ya the whole 100% good luck!!!
I just silently cried for about 20 minutes and this helped me cope with reality...a bit...💔😔
no one can sad all time. she can move on from you but you can't move on from her hey... do you have a friends? if have have go to say them about this maybe you be happy and have a smile again. if you can't smile... you must do something maybe you will go to say her you love her so much
but her have him near.... go back to you friends or find something new
(sorry if you don't understand my text my eng is low. I'm from Thai my eng is low because I'm focus on study and I want to play game than study 💞) อะแฮ่ม คนไทยคนไหนที่มาฟังหรือหลงเข้ามานะคับ มูฟออนให้ได้นะ. ถ้าทำได้แล้ว สอนให้ผมด้วยนะ ทางนี้ยังคิดถึงเธอคนนั้นอยู่เลย... เธอมูฟออนไปแล้วแต่ยังอยู่ที่เดิมอยู่เลยควรทำไงดี…
“It's so hard to understand my feeling for you.. every day I feel empty when you're not there, I’ve had my best moments with you. We're just young kids, I don’t know if you feel the same way..”
Life is tough, the only thing you can do is enjoy it while it lasts. This may seem mildly dramatic for a ten year old but, life passes by way too fast, shoot your shot. Spend time with the people you love, life is too short for someone to waste it.
Never give up, you are strong and beautiful. Don't let people tell you otherwise, always do what you love.
You are amazing and loved, Don't ever give in, life is beautiful. Find the right people, (you enjoy spending time with, you would never purposely ignore.) be kind to others, follow your dreams if it doesn’t work out, oh well. But you will not give up until the end, please promise me that.
Find your safe place, your people. On the internet, there will always be friends. Find someone who appreciates you for who you are,
If you are in a abusive relationship, get out as soon as possible. You don't realize how manipulative they are until you snap out of it. Wether it’s verbal or physical, it happens once, you'll forgive. It’s a ‘one time thing’ and that goes on and on. Be strong find someone you care about, feel safe with, don't fear, enjoy spending time with, and vice versa.
I hope this helped and sorry for taking time out of your day, remember you are loved. :)