I know this is out of pocket, my mother died of drug overdose when I was 10, I remember asking her to use her phone on the porch, and asking her to stop smoking because I never liked the smell. I never knew she died, my dad stop letting me go see her one day. I ended up running into the middle of traffic on a interstate trying to run to where she was staying, which was not at my dads house of course. Luckily it was during work hours so no one crashed or hit me. He told me that my mom was dead, I think I went to sleep after that, I never talked to him about it. Two or three years later I was with my grandparents and they were talking about their daughter, my mom, they talked about her overdose like I already knew that's how she died, I didn't. I thought I had a good mom then, but now I realize she was horrible, I love my dad lots, he saved me, but he's very hands off, I have no one except for my brother, and he just isn't my kind of person, I'm grateful I have him still of course, but sometimes his death, I wonder if It would hurt me. I have only one friend that I truly relate to, and all of my past girlfriends never meant anything to me really, relationships that were months long that I really never cared about ended with me just not talking to them anymore, ghosting them, and the dog I've had since I was 4 just died, I had a stronger connection to her than you would think for a dog, but I grew up with her and I had her for so long, it was like losing a family member. I started working in construction when I was 14-15, I'm 17 now, I only have one friend, I don't make any friends, I don't have the time, everything constantly hurts and tylenol doesn't help when I'm trying to sleep and it feels like my back is tearing itself apart. I don't do drugs, I drink alcohol sometimes, I'm happy that is all, but I don't think I've felt an actual emotion since I was a boy. update, gonna graduate in a few weeks then a couple of weeks after that I'll be 18, my dad has already threatened to kick me out more times than I can count but I held in for school, I don't know why, It's the only thing I knew for 12 years of my life so I guess it's natural, me and my friend are going to get an apartment and work from there, I don't feel like an adult, I still feel like a kid, there isn't any "waking up" that happens when you become an adult, it's just more responsibilities laid on top of you under the guise of "maturity is responsibility" which is a fucking corporate motto. Sometimes I think about just getting in my car with as much as I can take from my dad and driving whichever way I think looks prettiest, I have enough money to last a couple years like that I think, but to me that's like suicide, it's the easy way out, every shove full you throw out of your own hole is a problem you have to fix later, but sometimes you think it's easier to just fall asleep in your hole and die, because crawling out is too much work, but then all you'll be is some bones and a shovel and who's going to admire that?
The fact you’re still breathing and telling this heartfelt story means you still have a purpose or something you can achieve. You’re strong, stronger than you think.
Dude, you're still young in terms of everything, literally anything can happen to you from here on out, bad and good. You're gonna make it one way or another, that's a guarantee. We all make it, but we just have to be here long enough to do so.
You’re incredible. I am truly glad for you brother, everything you have done is amazing. Keep pushing through the hard times and do what you can to get by. You are wonderful every part of you, I don’t have to know you to know that for you are made by GOD. If I got to know you it would be even better! Brother, I am your friend. I love you not in a weird stupid way but I want the best for you. I truly hope and pray only good happens to you. If you want true joy and happiness then please accept CHRIST. I know it may be cliche and you may not want to hear it but brother when I was depressed and wanted to give up JESUS was there. So no matter what happens now I can have hope that I’ll get through it. Because of him! It is because of him that I am alive and because of him that I feel joy. Please, bro you don’t have to be perfect and you don’t have to know everything just accept him as your LORD and Savior and be joyful. Repent and truly find GOD. I promise he will give you purpose, you will find it one day. I love you my brother, you are truly wonderful JESUS loves you and GOD bless you 🙏🏾❤️✝️🫶🏾
It’s about your own journey my friend. He or she will come just live your life doing the things you love and everything and everyone else will fall into place. Don’t be so negative about the one life you have.
God loves you all no matter what you are passing through God loves you all so don't give up but stay on track knowing that He will be with you and help you and I know it's difficult I know that life is unfair but guys God doesn't want us to kill ourself but He wants us to be filled with joy love and peace so don't give up but keep going I know that in the end you will reap the fruit of not giving up I know that in the end you will say it was difficult but I made it so I repeat it again DONT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF but ask Jesus to give you peace and I know that He will do it because I'm a testimony of it. God bless you all
PRay to Jesus. I can testify that if you go in your room close the door and honestly pray to GOD in heaven, that your prayer will be heard. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
@@michiruu You're not on your own. Someone with such a unique complexity and depth to them as you is not a product of chance. Used to feel like you said and it led down a dark path. I hope you won't be a dense fool like I was, accept the Lord's peace & love. "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free." Galatians 5:1
@@youngdonkeyy4498naw I tried it fr I was naive thinking talk workout game I had everything yet I was lacking I truly had nothing void and emptiness now I’m brand new thank Jesus fr
Whatever you are going through is temporary and will be a win to those that hurt you. Don't give them the satisfaction. Will you even think about what is bothering you in 5 years? In 2?
My bro is gone not 3 but 4 i mean yeah this sounds cringe or not I've never typed these comments ever lol but them going away makes me feel empty like i have seen a lot of people in my life that come and leave eventually everyone leave but the most important thing is what they leave behind for you
Maybe you indeed gave no shit, and im a fool for craving for you. At least in less than a month it will be over, even if you are the person i loved the most(at leaast for now), i will be glad to stop seeing you everyday. It hurts that i have to write these messages under some youtube videos, and that you will never recieve them, while you completely moved on in a span of such a short time compared to the quality of the times we spent together(or maybe its just me who enjoyed you). You are happier than ever right now, i wish i could have something that he does, which made you have feelings for him in a month, and not lead on for 2 years like you did to me. Im hurt by your actions, but i have to move on. Its not a long journey, cause the 99% of it has already been finished by me, i just have to remove all the leftovers of my love towards you, love so great that i willingly became sort of a puppet for you. I wonder if i could do anything to avoid it all, maybe just never meeting you was the key? Im tired of you, please just...i dont know,
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real.
Sim mano....
I know this is out of pocket, my mother died of drug overdose when I was 10, I remember asking her to use her phone on the porch, and asking her to stop smoking because I never liked the smell. I never knew she died, my dad stop letting me go see her one day. I ended up running into the middle of traffic on a interstate trying to run to where she was staying, which was not at my dads house of course. Luckily it was during work hours so no one crashed or hit me. He told me that my mom was dead, I think I went to sleep after that, I never talked to him about it. Two or three years later I was with my grandparents and they were talking about their daughter, my mom, they talked about her overdose like I already knew that's how she died, I didn't. I thought I had a good mom then, but now I realize she was horrible, I love my dad lots, he saved me, but he's very hands off, I have no one except for my brother, and he just isn't my kind of person, I'm grateful I have him still of course, but sometimes his death, I wonder if It would hurt me. I have only one friend that I truly relate to, and all of my past girlfriends never meant anything to me really, relationships that were months long that I really never cared about ended with me just not talking to them anymore, ghosting them, and the dog I've had since I was 4 just died, I had a stronger connection to her than you would think for a dog, but I grew up with her and I had her for so long, it was like losing a family member. I started working in construction when I was 14-15, I'm 17 now, I only have one friend, I don't make any friends, I don't have the time, everything constantly hurts and tylenol doesn't help when I'm trying to sleep and it feels like my back is tearing itself apart. I don't do drugs, I drink alcohol sometimes, I'm happy that is all, but I don't think I've felt an actual emotion since I was a boy.
update, gonna graduate in a few weeks then a couple of weeks after that I'll be 18, my dad has already threatened to kick me out more times than I can count but I held in for school, I don't know why, It's the only thing I knew for 12 years of my life so I guess it's natural, me and my friend are going to get an apartment and work from there, I don't feel like an adult, I still feel like a kid, there isn't any "waking up" that happens when you become an adult, it's just more responsibilities laid on top of you under the guise of "maturity is responsibility" which is a fucking corporate motto. Sometimes I think about just getting in my car with as much as I can take from my dad and driving whichever way I think looks prettiest, I have enough money to last a couple years like that I think, but to me that's like suicide, it's the easy way out, every shove full you throw out of your own hole is a problem you have to fix later, but sometimes you think it's easier to just fall asleep in your hole and die, because crawling out is too much work, but then all you'll be is some bones and a shovel and who's going to admire that?
You're strong.
The fact you’re still breathing and telling this heartfelt story means you still have a purpose or something you can achieve. You’re strong, stronger than you think.
Dude, you're still young in terms of everything, literally anything can happen to you from here on out, bad and good. You're gonna make it one way or another, that's a guarantee. We all make it, but we just have to be here long enough to do so.
@@coalparadox I keep telling myself that
You’re incredible. I am truly glad for you brother, everything you have done is amazing. Keep pushing through the hard times and do what you can to get by. You are wonderful every part of you, I don’t have to know you to know that for you are made by GOD. If I got to know you it would be even better! Brother, I am your friend. I love you not in a weird stupid way but I want the best for you. I truly hope and pray only good happens to you. If you want true joy and happiness then please accept CHRIST. I know it may be cliche and you may not want to hear it but brother when I was depressed and wanted to give up JESUS was there. So no matter what happens now I can have hope that I’ll get through it. Because of him! It is because of him that I am alive and because of him that I feel joy. Please, bro you don’t have to be perfect and you don’t have to know everything just accept him as your LORD and Savior and be joyful. Repent and truly find GOD. I promise he will give you purpose, you will find it one day. I love you my brother, you are truly wonderful JESUS loves you and GOD bless you 🙏🏾❤️✝️🫶🏾
When you lowkey start accepting the fact that you might never find someone who genuinely loves you.
Jokes on you
I never found one
It’s about your own journey my friend. He or she will come just live your life doing the things you love and everything and everyone else will fall into place. Don’t be so negative about the one life you have.
ion gotta say nun, the music talk for me.
God loves you all no matter what you are passing through God loves you all so don't give up but stay on track knowing that He will be with you and help you and I know it's difficult I know that life is unfair but guys God doesn't want us to kill ourself but He wants us to be filled with joy love and peace so don't give up but keep going I know that in the end you will reap the fruit of not giving up I know that in the end you will say it was difficult but I made it so I repeat it again DONT GIVE UP ON YOURSELF but ask Jesus to give you peace and I know that He will do it because I'm a testimony of it. God bless you all
Amen
Thank you God bless bro ✝️
Thanks that helped me! God Bless Amen ❤️🥳
God didn’t help me bro I will kms soon it’s too late
@@lewken7320 Jesus loves you
They call me scooby because I can’t doo this anymore 😂
real man.
lowkey might die alone
You won't die alone, man.
Real
I'm not okay
No amount of sleep can fix this tired.
the voices will never leave, they keep yelling
its 2024 stop saying this shi
@@kayaturner dont know why you care so much but ok bro whatever you say man
@@breadyboi3948 Nah bro you're not allowed to have struggle because it's 2024
i fckn dreamed the faceless girl again and it was the same girl i dreamed last year mannn i'm so cooked rn
Stay strong bro
We all cooked bro
i'm afraid of nothing, not in the sense that i have no fears but rather that i fear something that isn't there
I need someone to save me please
PRay to Jesus. I can testify that if you go in your room close the door and honestly pray to GOD in heaven, that your prayer will be heard. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
theres no god or no jesus youre on your own and so am i
@@michiruu You're not on your own. Someone with such a unique complexity and depth to them as you is not a product of chance. Used to feel like you said and it led down a dark path. I hope you won't be a dense fool like I was, accept the Lord's peace & love.
"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free." Galatians 5:1
You can save yourself homie. Get a hobby, go workout, go talk to some people and dont stay in that mindset
@@youngdonkeyy4498naw I tried it fr I was naive thinking talk workout game I had everything yet I was lacking I truly had nothing void and emptiness now I’m brand new thank Jesus fr
realest oms🥱
Beautiful❤
Yeah this gon be playing while I end it
Please don’t bro God loves you I know how you feel but we will get through everything even if it takes years it will all be ok someday. ❤️✝️
Whatever you are going through is temporary and will be a win to those that hurt you. Don't give them the satisfaction. Will you even think about what is bothering you in 5 years? In 2?
Rock lee would’ve never “ended it” go workout find a purpose be someone!!
real this is true
damn, song is fire! thx for drop!
Real.
real real
Bro this songs reminds me of one factorio soundtrack
am i the only one that' feeling empty lately like drained
I fucking destroyed myself with my own hands, I had a good start but I crushed everything.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHY YOUR NOT DOING... FUCK IT, JUST DO WHAT U CAN.
My bro is gone not 3 but 4 i mean yeah this sounds cringe or not I've never typed these comments ever lol but them going away makes me feel empty like i have seen a lot of people in my life that come and leave eventually everyone leave but the most important thing is what they leave behind for you
I think I will kms soon I can’t keep this life
Don't bro u can push through
Real
I’m not confident
#hopecore
No
@@curly30 ?
@@8136n #real
frfr
Maybe you indeed gave no shit, and im a fool for craving for you. At least in less than a month it will be over, even if you are the person i loved the most(at leaast for now), i will be glad to stop seeing you everyday. It hurts that i have to write these messages under some youtube videos, and that you will never recieve them, while you completely moved on in a span of such a short time compared to the quality of the times we spent together(or maybe its just me who enjoyed you). You are happier than ever right now, i wish i could have something that he does, which made you have feelings for him in a month, and not lead on for 2 years like you did to me. Im hurt by your actions, but i have to move on. Its not a long journey, cause the 99% of it has already been finished by me, i just have to remove all the leftovers of my love towards you, love so great that i willingly became sort of a puppet for you. I wonder if i could do anything to avoid it all, maybe just never meeting you was the key? Im tired of you, please just...i dont know,
wow bro, i really hope you get better and get past this someday
im cooked
im upset
Why?
real real
real.
real real