When this first came out, I was really young and really preferred La Disputes songs. Now, like a decade later, I go back to this split for Touche Amore
I was lucky enough to see them perform these songs together at a very latenight show at the old autonomous center in cologne in summer of 2011. The venue was packes way beyond its limits as la dispute were already quite famous and playing bigger venues but all that made for the hottest and most energetic show ive ever been to. A great memory
00:00 I'll Get My Just Deserve I picked up the pen and drew a blank An image in my head and a heart that sank With years in perspective to put them all on the line Thoughts of moving forward with the fear of falling Behind that wall that I’ve built so tall But now I’m at the top Searching for a pulse in this lifeless city is less a quest, it’s wishful thinking If you measured mine on an EKG I’d resemble the skyline out by 7th street I’m not as clever as my words but I’m as sly as a thief I’m as open as a casket with my fears and my beliefs It’s the sick leading the blind I bury truth and blame my pride Now the blind as become sick with their eyes now open wide I watched my skin walk out the door I did not say goodbye
03:18 How I Feel I say a drink might help me sleep, I say I don’t sleep much at all these days, I say it’s cold, Besides, I’m broken. Hard as earth the love of the past, The worth of the world has frozen Still. Like the sheet of ice collecting on the windshield of my car. Where I caught my reflection frozen in the glass, A perfect broken image of the future I’d envisioned in the past- Corrupted by fate now, fractured, and fading away. Replace all I felt promised to me. To be the one who figured it out, Who knew what to do, Who knew how to feel and Felt that Love of the past, The worth of the world, Just set it ablaze and Thaw me out. Dim lit in a room dark red, where I said, “Can’t seem to break off from the way I felt, but I guess you understand, man. We had no chance. I’m tired of fighting with the hand I’ve been dealt. So, I take the cards they give me And keep my protest on the inside of my mouth. If the best I can do ain’t gonna stop what’s coming, What’s the point in trying to change how the hand plays out? Don’t we all just die? When you looked at the light Did it hurt your eyes? When you looked at the light Did it hurt you Like it hurt me?
01:34 And I'll Deserve Just That A branch leaves its leaves The soil is begging please Don’t make another mess this season A storm with a six letter name I’m responsible for this hurricane A big box if IOU’s rests inside my chest With my hand holding a letter wishing you my very best I did not sign my name I’m responsible but won’t take the blame A northwest climate on the brink of breaking That's behind your eyes while my hands are shaking A revolving door that has no shame I’m responsible and will not change This homebody doesn’t need anybody This body would rather be left alone This nobody doesn’t deserve anybody It becomes clearer as it goes
05:22 Why It Scares Me At times I’ve shouted out unprovoked, at the world and you, Just to see if the people around me react. Sometimes I think they’re all acting, At times I’m scared that I’m acting too. Like, My movements or stage directions? Was that a change in topic or a beat in a scene? Have I been taking my emotional cues from a script I wrote at sixteen? Maybe I just think about it all so much That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I’ve touched. Makes me question Was it love or just lust? Caked in blood or old rust? I don’t know. Don’t we remember all the moments we remember the best Framed in poems and in pictures, sang aloud in refrains? Does this cycle of pain and disdain for the past Not work exactly the same? Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react. Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we lack. I know, we won’t always keep around all we feel we need- some are fading in frames, some were born to leave- But if we’re still here, and we still breathe, At least we’ve still got time to figure it out, To know what to do, To know how to feel, Know the things that I’ve been making up inside my head, And to know what’s real. I want to believe that the way I am is just the way it goes. For the things that came, not the things I chose to come. I want to know if I had any control. I want to know if it’d comfort me. And if my heart just stops, pack my memories in it- I want to know all the love I’ve got. And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute- I want to know if a curtain drops.
When this first came out, I was really young and really preferred La Disputes songs. Now, like a decade later, I go back to this split for Touche Amore
I was lucky enough to see them perform these songs together at a very latenight show at the old autonomous center in cologne in summer of 2011. The venue was packes way beyond its limits as la dispute were already quite famous and playing bigger venues but all that made for the hottest and most energetic show ive ever been to.
A great memory
Touché Amoré / La Dispute collab we needed 7:35
These two are touring after a decade I can’t wait
I need a EU tour!!
i was in a touche amore concert this month in berlin, it was incredible! I have to see them with la dispute
And covid 😭😭😭
I got to see them when they played in San Diego at the house of blues in dec 2019. It was SO good
It was worth the wait, seeing them do these songs live truly a highlight of my life
damn forgot how good why it scares me is
That song is amazing!!
00:00
I'll Get My Just Deserve
I picked up the pen and drew a blank
An image in my head and a heart that sank
With years in perspective to put them all on the line
Thoughts of moving forward with the fear of falling
Behind that wall that I’ve built so tall
But now I’m at the top
Searching for a pulse in this lifeless city is less a quest, it’s wishful thinking
If you measured mine on an EKG
I’d resemble the skyline out by 7th street
I’m not as clever as my words but I’m as sly as a thief
I’m as open as a casket with my fears and my beliefs
It’s the sick leading the blind I bury truth and blame my pride
Now the blind as become sick with their eyes now open wide
I watched my skin walk out the door
I did not say goodbye
I totally forgot that split ep existed, it's just as dope as it was years ago.
03:18
How I Feel
I say a drink might help me sleep, I say
I don’t sleep much at all these days, I say it’s cold,
Besides, I’m broken.
Hard as earth the love of the past,
The worth of the world has frozen
Still.
Like the sheet of ice collecting on the windshield of my car.
Where I caught my reflection frozen in the glass,
A perfect broken image of the future I’d envisioned in the past-
Corrupted by fate now, fractured, and fading away.
Replace all I felt promised to me.
To be the one who figured it out,
Who knew what to do,
Who knew how to feel and
Felt that
Love of the past,
The worth of the world,
Just set it ablaze and
Thaw me out.
Dim lit in a room dark red, where I said,
“Can’t seem to break off from the way I felt, but
I guess you understand, man. We had no chance.
I’m tired of fighting with the hand I’ve been dealt.
So, I take the cards they give me
And keep my protest on the inside of my mouth.
If the best I can do ain’t gonna stop what’s coming,
What’s the point in trying to change how the hand plays out?
Don’t we all just die?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt your eyes?
When you looked at the light
Did it hurt you
Like it hurt me?
kivzzzz youre the real mvp
Just picked this 7' up at the local record store. Only 5.99! Such a steal.
Nick Vanzwol I just recently picked one up! Love it!!
01:34
And I'll Deserve Just That
A branch leaves its leaves
The soil is begging please
Don’t make another mess this season
A storm with a six letter name
I’m responsible for this hurricane
A big box if IOU’s rests inside my chest
With my hand holding a letter wishing you my very best
I did not sign my name
I’m responsible but won’t take the blame
A northwest climate on the brink of breaking
That's behind your eyes while my hands are shaking
A revolving door that has no shame
I’m responsible and will not change
This homebody doesn’t need anybody
This body would rather be left alone
This nobody doesn’t deserve anybody
It becomes clearer as it goes
Do you think "this nobody doesn't deserve anybody" is an E.E. Cummings reference?
THE PENETRATION. I CANT EVEN HANDLE IT.
05:22
Why It Scares Me
At times I’ve shouted out unprovoked, at the world and you,
Just to see if the people around me react.
Sometimes I think they’re all acting,
At times I’m scared that I’m acting too. Like,
My movements or stage directions?
Was that a change in topic or a beat in a scene?
Have I been taking my emotional cues from a script I wrote at sixteen?
Maybe I just think about it all so much
That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I’ve touched.
Makes me question
Was it love or just lust?
Caked in blood or old rust?
I don’t know.
Don’t we remember all the moments we remember the best
Framed in poems and in pictures, sang aloud in refrains?
Does this cycle of pain and disdain for the past
Not work exactly the same?
Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react.
Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we lack.
I know, we won’t always keep around all we feel we need-
some are fading in frames, some were born to leave-
But if we’re still here, and we still breathe,
At least we’ve still got time to figure it out,
To know what to do,
To know how to feel,
Know the things that I’ve been making up inside my head,
And to know what’s real.
I want to believe that the way I am is just the way it goes.
For the things that came, not the things I chose
to come.
I want to know if I had any control.
I want to know if it’d comfort me.
And if my heart just stops, pack my memories in it-
I want to know all the love I’ve got.
And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute-
I want to know if a curtain drops.
The burn hurt yes
Danke
La dispute is a jammer everyday, Goodbye!
Just found this now wtf. Now I want a full album
Sayer Foll they're both amazing bands
oh my god, I fucking ADORE this
So good.
Incredible