i'm so sorry things have been so awful hannah. i know nothing any of us can say makes anything at all better but seeing you so upset really hurt. i have no words to change anything but thank you for your honesty and please know i am thinking of you and wishing you nothing but the best in the coming weeks and months. finding your vlogs and listening to your thoughts about so many books has been enriching and a bright light in many dark days in the past year or so, and i hope you know that you continuing to share content - even when things are so difficult for you personally - is so so appreciated. take care and if any of us can do anything at all, please shout
It is always wonderful to watch your videos. I find that showing vulnerability is one of the most difficult emotional expressions. Your dissection of hope was truly spot on. Sending love and courage to you. ❤
I'm so sorry the procedure was disappointing, but i'm glad little treats and good audiobooks provide the slightest bit of solace and some distraction. I've also been in an "distracting audiobooks only" state of being lately, and will definitely take your recommendations from this video. I've recently added What My Bones Know to my shelves, but glad to hear there's a good audiobook for it. This morning, I've started My Fourth Time, We Drowned by Sally Hayden on scribd. It's really good, but very harrowing too. I hope you've been able to enjoy some of the nice weather this weekend ☀️
So sorry to hear your procedure didnt work out as you hoped, it was tough to see you upset. I know that your videos bring people as much joy to watch as they are for you to make, thats certainly true for me amid other life stress over the past 2/3 years. X
I'm so sorry you're suffering so much and that the procedure did not have the results you hoped for. I have had ME for coming on 15 years now, starting in my late teens, and the pressure from others to be hopeful and positive have been a heavy burden to bear. I am currently reading Everything Happens for a Reason and Other Lies I've Loved by Kate Bowler, a memoir of the author's diagnosis with stage 4 bowel cancer. As an academic she studies the prosperity gospel, but in her experiences with cancer she realises how much she and the wider culture still believe that we can control our own lives and create our own good fortune. It's not as deep a cultural critique as I would like, but I'm finding her rage at glib, platitude-ladden responses to suffering to be very welcome.
Wow that sounds fantastic and her academic research is also sooo up my street. Definitely ordering!! Thank you so much for the recommendation and I hope you have a restful week x
I’m so very sorry for all you’re going through, Hannah. I was just denied kidney transplant, after several of my friends and family lined up to donate and my husband was found to be a perfect match. We were so hopeful that I’d be able to get away from dialysis and feel human again, but that hope is now gone, and my CKD will kill me someday. I understand how hard it is to lose hope, and I’m sending you strength and love.
So sorry for all you are going though Hannah and that this year has been so awful. Really felt what you said about hope feeling impossible without evidence, I was the same and it wasn’t until I actually had reason to feel it again that I was able to. I hope that the same happens to you very soon. Love all your content and so grateful for the parts of life you share ! Sending love and solidarity x
Hi Hannah! I absolutely love your videos/vlogs, your content is so informative and educational. A real eye opener. It was tough to see you so upset, head up girl, you got this. One day at a time, one step at a time - sending you faith and hope! Love your beaded necklace, can I ask where u picked it up? I've been eyeballing it in your recent videos 😂❤ Hope today the sun is shining for you! Much love, Monica xxx
Sending lots of love! Little treats are essential. I don’t know if this will help you at all but I find a difference in thinking about hope vs. faith. E.g you were absolutely right to be hopeful for your procedure and disappointed with the outcome. But as you say I find it difficult to hold on to without evidence. For me, having faith allows for more ambiguity, for example: faith that you’ll find ways to manage, faith that you’ll find joy etc. that’s not to take away from the grief of it all because that needs to be seen and felt. But those two things (in my mind) can exist together more harmoniously than hope for specific change. On another note, I also just finished What My Bones Know and it’s up there with my favourite books - so brilliant and enlightening. Definitely interested in the others you mentioned too, thank you for sharing ❤
Chronic illness is a real pain in the .... My heart goes out to you and I hope you find a way to live with it. Plus you are a wonderful women, writer and book reviewer❤🩹❤🩹❤🩹
Thanks for your honesty fellow sicko. Gutting to hear about your procedure- you will be in my thoughts. Love your little treats, you've given me inspo for my down days. Wishing you more sunny days, tasty pastries, & captivating audiobooks ❤🩹❤🩹
Sending you a big hug Hannah. On the topic of unfinished videos, I would still watch if you leave some vlogs shorter because you need to. Not sure if it matters my opinion on this, I just wanted to send you reassurance that those glimpses of Amsterdam and chats of current reads without a final review are also beautiful.
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i'm so sorry things have been so awful hannah. i know nothing any of us can say makes anything at all better but seeing you so upset really hurt. i have no words to change anything but thank you for your honesty and please know i am thinking of you and wishing you nothing but the best in the coming weeks and months. finding your vlogs and listening to your thoughts about so many books has been enriching and a bright light in many dark days in the past year or so, and i hope you know that you continuing to share content - even when things are so difficult for you personally - is so so appreciated. take care and if any of us can do anything at all, please shout
Thanks so much Katie that’s such a kind message ❤️🩹❤️🩹
It is always wonderful to watch your videos.
I find that showing vulnerability is one of the most difficult emotional expressions. Your dissection of hope was truly spot on. Sending love and courage to you. ❤
I'm so sorry the procedure was disappointing, but i'm glad little treats and good audiobooks provide the slightest bit of solace and some distraction. I've also been in an "distracting audiobooks only" state of being lately, and will definitely take your recommendations from this video. I've recently added What My Bones Know to my shelves, but glad to hear there's a good audiobook for it. This morning, I've started My Fourth Time, We Drowned by Sally Hayden on scribd. It's really good, but very harrowing too. I hope you've been able to enjoy some of the nice weather this weekend ☀️
Thanks Julie ❤️🩹❤️🩹
So sorry to hear your procedure didnt work out as you hoped, it was tough to see you upset. I know that your videos bring people as much joy to watch as they are for you to make, thats certainly true for me amid other life stress over the past 2/3 years. X
Thanks so much for your support Jo x
thank you hannah for sharing. the outside pressure to keep hope really resonated with me. sending you all the love
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Sending you love ❤❤
I'm so sorry you're suffering so much and that the procedure did not have the results you hoped for. I have had ME for coming on 15 years now, starting in my late teens, and the pressure from others to be hopeful and positive have been a heavy burden to bear. I am currently reading Everything Happens for a Reason and Other Lies I've Loved by Kate Bowler, a memoir of the author's diagnosis with stage 4 bowel cancer. As an academic she studies the prosperity gospel, but in her experiences with cancer she realises how much she and the wider culture still believe that we can control our own lives and create our own good fortune. It's not as deep a cultural critique as I would like, but I'm finding her rage at glib, platitude-ladden responses to suffering to be very welcome.
Wow that sounds fantastic and her academic research is also sooo up my street. Definitely ordering!! Thank you so much for the recommendation and I hope you have a restful week x
sending you virtual strength!! I really appreciate you being so vulnerable and your weekly videos that give me such joy, thanks
Thanks so much Julie , your weekly comments are always a joy to see too ❤️🩹
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@@hannahmay11 hahaha it’s more 🏉 but i appreciate the consideration! xxx
I’m so very sorry for all you’re going through, Hannah. I was just denied kidney transplant, after several of my friends and family lined up to donate and my husband was found to be a perfect match. We were so hopeful that I’d be able to get away from dialysis and feel human again, but that hope is now gone, and my CKD will kill me someday. I understand how hard it is to lose hope, and I’m sending you strength and love.
Oh Elizabeth that sounds immensely tough. I hope you can also find small moments of goodness amongst all the awful times ❤️❤️❤️🩹❤️🩹
Lots of love to you hannah! We love your videos and often talk about you and think of you.xx
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So sorry for all you are going though Hannah and that this year has been so awful. Really felt what you said about hope feeling impossible without evidence, I was the same and it wasn’t until I actually had reason to feel it again that I was able to. I hope that the same happens to you very soon. Love all your content and so grateful for the parts of life you share ! Sending love and solidarity x
Thanks so much Beth for your kind words! ❤️🩹🫶🏻🌟
Hi Hannah! I absolutely love your videos/vlogs, your content is so informative and educational. A real eye opener. It was tough to see you so upset, head up girl, you got this. One day at a time, one step at a time - sending you faith and hope! Love your beaded necklace, can I ask where u picked it up? I've been eyeballing it in your recent videos 😂❤ Hope today the sun is shining for you! Much love, Monica xxx
Thank you 💐 it’s from a little shop whilst I on holiday so not very helpful I’m afraid but I have seen some lovely ones on Etsy! X
I'm so sorry to hear you're having such an unrelentingly tough time. Sending you love. ❤
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Sending lots of love! Little treats are essential. I don’t know if this will help you at all but I find a difference in thinking about hope vs. faith. E.g you were absolutely right to be hopeful for your procedure and disappointed with the outcome. But as you say I find it difficult to hold on to without evidence. For me, having faith allows for more ambiguity, for example: faith that you’ll find ways to manage, faith that you’ll find joy etc. that’s not to take away from the grief of it all because that needs to be seen and felt. But those two things (in my mind) can exist together more harmoniously than hope for specific change. On another note, I also just finished What My Bones Know and it’s up there with my favourite books - so brilliant and enlightening. Definitely interested in the others you mentioned too, thank you for sharing ❤
Thank you Amy ❤️🩹❤️🩹
I'm in the same position with my health, it's really hard, I get it. Im sorry your going threw it. 💜💜💜
Lots of love to you Hannah xxx
Chronic illness is a real pain in the .... My heart goes out to you and I hope you find a way to live with it. Plus you are a wonderful women, writer and book reviewer❤🩹❤🩹❤🩹
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Sending you so much love and strength ❤
Thanks for your honesty fellow sicko. Gutting to hear about your procedure- you will be in my thoughts. Love your little treats, you've given me inspo for my down days. Wishing you more sunny days, tasty pastries, & captivating audiobooks ❤🩹❤🩹
Thanks Jess , sending love to you too ❤️❤️
Great video! I really enjoy how you discuss books.
Sending lots of love to you Hannah
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Sending you a big hug Hannah. On the topic of unfinished videos, I would still watch if you leave some vlogs shorter because you need to. Not sure if it matters my opinion on this, I just wanted to send you reassurance that those glimpses of Amsterdam and chats of current reads without a final review are also beautiful.
Thanks so much that’s so good to know ! X