I finally finished this video. God damn. This is powerful, and I share many of your feelings and experiences, and love the game for many of the same reasons. Thank you for making this. Genuinely.
Thank you so much! I watched and enjoyed your video on Pathologic 2, of course! I tried to make this an essay and realized it had to be a video and said, "oh no." But I'm glad I did and that people respond to it!!
i've watched a million pathologic videos, but this is the only one that really made me realize HOW fucked up it was to lock everyone in the termitary. great video!
I think it took me a third or fourth playthrough to really pay attention to what was going on at the Termitary early in the game in a way that i connected to the events of the end game. It is SO messed up what the Olgimskys did, and I really get why the Kin wanted to handle them in a particular way.
Your videos are breaking me but just like you say about pain and pleasure, I am in awe at the beauty you bring. Thank you for sharing, you've touched my soul.
Congradulations on getting the vaccine and a glorious moment of surpassing the phobia! Thank you for making this heartfelt, vulnerable, deeply emotional video.
Oh wow, this was a fantastic video, thank you so much. Many of the things you spoke of hit very close to home for me and brought me to tears as someone who is also autistic, also suffers with PTSD (also in part due to head injury haha) and who also lost their grandmother without being able to be there, but it was super cathartic for me and I feel like this video was exactly what I needed to watch/hear. I'm really glad that you put this into the world. I still haven't finished Pathologic 2 since they took it off Xbox Gamepass before I could finish it but I still think about it constantly so I'm taking this video as a sign to get it on Steam and finally see it through to the end! Also congratulations on getting your vaccine and just in general being in a better place now!
I feel this. I agree with so much of this, and how for me at least pathologic 2 helped give me a feeling of agency. Its good at showing how the little choices make a difference even when everything is too big. For me during the pandemic this was my comfort game, and well I've played the hell out of it. It was nice to be able to actively see how you made things better (or worse). I mean as much as I wanted to cry when running through a plague infected house to find a crying baby the first time, I didn't actually cry until I handed the baby over from the shear joy of success.
Othering Thesis; what is WRONG with ME? Non-normative Antithesis; what is wrong with THE WORLD thinking me wrong? Unasked Synthesis; all of Udurgh (can be perceived as) a sorrow, soft and agreeable. Thank you for this.
I always find it interesting how media that looks extremely depressing on the outside usually helps people overcome their own problems more than alternatives, you also hear similar stuff about how dark souls helps ppl cope with difficult times in their life, I believe it's cus games like this make us confront our fears instead of pretending that they are not there but also give us the opportunity to learn from it and overcome them
I certainly find dark media way more helpful than fluffy escapism, and I do think it's because dark media grapples with the problem more directly. I would never say escapism can't help someone, but I can say it's never helped me personally.
@@QualiaRedux very true, imo escapism helps me while im playing and not focusing but afterwards it actually makes me more sad since I'll never be able to live in a flawless, idealized world like that. media like pathologic instead gives me the feeling of: "if these people can find the strength to get up in the morning even with all the hopelessness in their world then I can too" and this world isn't nearly depressive in comparison
Very beautiful video! As someone who's also autistic i really appreciate your view on this game, and tbh i really share the sentiment of it helping me cope with the pandemic. Often i feel i was looking too literal at the story but i still enjoyed playing it a lot. I had to watch a lets play before hand to really bring me to buy it because i really cant get into stuff i dont know, and still had a completely different playthrough. The game just really hits different playing it yourself and im so glad i did.
I'm so glad you included the tie-in with tragedy because I'm very much not a horror fan but the whole time I was relating so hard because I fucking love tragedy. I think part of it, which you touch on when you're talking about how you need your experience as a player and not the character to beat the game, is that you have a sense of agency even as everything goes to shit that is very much absent irl. Life usually doesn't let you see when you're heading into the worst experiences a person can have. You make a mistake, or just a decision that on any other day wouldn't have impacted anything, or someone else makes an unpredictable decision to hurt you, and that's it, what's done is done and either deal with the consequences or, well, die. In fiction, you have enough information to see how you could make choices that will, if not fix everything, have results that would be easier to live with. Agonizing over what-ifs when it comes to real events is maladaptive at best, but having the power to exercise omniscient or near omniscient decision-making can be deeply cathartic ime
Amazing video. It takes a lot of courage to put this much of yourself out there and I think the personal aspect of the video really helps show how this game gets under your skin and stays there.
it's definitely one of the best videos on pathologic in english i've seen at all! seeing how a person truly felt all of the aspects of the game that deeply, recognised it as a true piece of art and not only a gameplay and graphics is truly fascinating. i am truly happy that you're feeling better now, hope it will keep going this way. i am so filled with emotions now, wow. i admire pathologic very deeply and it's so heartwarming to see other people, from different countries, with different backgrounds especially, have somewhat similar experiences while playing a game like that is beautiful and gives me so much hope as a russian-speaking person, as it is a way of somehow sharing the culture and mindset of my fellow countrymen. again, thank you so much for making this spectacular video and excuse me for my mistakes if you find some, i didn't specially check the translator so that i can fully express myself) send lots of admiration for the work that you've done.
This is a great video and I love it. I haven't been able to come back to this game since the Pandemic, or one of my other favorite games Plague Inc. But I feel I have a whole new context on it now from your video.
Just wanted to say that I was really moved by this video, and am grateful to have found someone else who was as heavily impacted by this game as I was. I’m so grateful to have found Pathologic 2, and your channel just after I finished my first run-through. Please keep making content. Your content quality is very high for such a small channel. Hope to continue supporting you as it grows :)
I have PTSD myself as well, and I wanted to comment to say thank you so much for making this video. I feel like you put into words feelings I have had over and over again, and as a result after watching this video I feel like I understand parts of myself better. I love your videos!
I don't usually comment but I just wanted to say I am very happy that I found this video. I am a woman with autism and the section where you talked about performance definitely touched a chord. A very well presented and thought out video- I hope you make more!
I'm so glad you liked it! We don't always get to speak on our own behalf about the experience of having autism, and I'm glad it's resonating with other autistic people!
Thank you for making this video, it was really interesting and moving. good stuff all round I will be sure to stick around to see what else you make, should you so choose c:
Ended up here after reading one of your short stories, this is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for putting words to feelings I didn't know how to express and I am so happy/vicariously proud? that you got the vaccine 💜 Cheers to growth and progress
I too am a traumatized neurodivegent non-binary person (with health issues/disabilities) and I really related to this video. Thank you so much for sharing. It helps to know there are others who think and feel similarly to me, it can be so lonely being the way I am sometimes. Sending so much love to you!
This was an amazing video thank you for making it! I can really tell it’s from the heart & you don’t get a lot of that on youtube so seeing it is always nice. As a 15 year old neurodivergent trans women I feel I can relate to your struggles even just a little bit. Pathologic is something that really helped me come to terms with what pain meant to me & how it impacts my life & seeing that effect other people as well is powerful & makes me feel less lonely. I’m excited to see if you make other videos & if not that’s ok too just this one was enough. Thank you & much love
Thank you! I'm going to do a variety of things. I think the next video will be a critique cryptocurrency from a less explored perspective, and the ones after that will be about books as objects, and then the semiotics of aliens! So that's what I'm working on now. I'm having a lot of fun with making videos and hope you enjoy the next ones!!
This was an amazing video. As someone whos trans nd and a huge fan of horror i never really looked into why i love horror myself too much before the pandemic and i have consumed a good amount of horror during quarantine but out of all of them, pathologic 2 really hits the nail on a lot of thing and has made me reflect the most im glad someone also kinda has similar experiences with it
i feel p2 was meant for these personal stories. this isnt a game you share, its almost unbeatable, buggy and infuriating. but for pain i truly believe there isnt a better medium and more importantly a title in that medium that can bring the best out of you and the situation.
On my first playthrough I got stuck in a death loop and died six times in a way that I didn't think could be fixed, so I started over. The second time, getting all the way through, I think the final count was 22.
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I finally finished this video.
God damn.
This is powerful, and I share many of your feelings and experiences, and love the game for many of the same reasons. Thank you for making this. Genuinely.
Thank you so much! I watched and enjoyed your video on Pathologic 2, of course! I tried to make this an essay and realized it had to be a video and said, "oh no." But I'm glad I did and that people respond to it!!
i've watched a million pathologic videos, but this is the only one that really made me realize HOW fucked up it was to lock everyone in the termitary.
great video!
I think it took me a third or fourth playthrough to really pay attention to what was going on at the Termitary early in the game in a way that i connected to the events of the end game. It is SO messed up what the Olgimskys did, and I really get why the Kin wanted to handle them in a particular way.
Oh dang! How did I not get to see this one yet?
I'm strapping in for More Pathologic Content (tm)!
Your videos are breaking me but just like you say about pain and pleasure, I am in awe at the beauty you bring. Thank you for sharing, you've touched my soul.
Wow, thank you!
Ice-Pick Lodge needs to see that their art finds it's audience:)
Congradulations on getting the vaccine and a glorious moment of surpassing the phobia!
Thank you for making this heartfelt, vulnerable, deeply emotional video.
Oh wow, this was a fantastic video, thank you so much. Many of the things you spoke of hit very close to home for me and brought me to tears as someone who is also autistic, also suffers with PTSD (also in part due to head injury haha) and who also lost their grandmother without being able to be there, but it was super cathartic for me and I feel like this video was exactly what I needed to watch/hear. I'm really glad that you put this into the world. I still haven't finished Pathologic 2 since they took it off Xbox Gamepass before I could finish it but I still think about it constantly so I'm taking this video as a sign to get it on Steam and finally see it through to the end! Also congratulations on getting your vaccine and just in general being in a better place now!
I feel this. I agree with so much of this, and how for me at least pathologic 2 helped give me a feeling of agency. Its good at showing how the little choices make a difference even when everything is too big.
For me during the pandemic this was my comfort game, and well I've played the hell out of it. It was nice to be able to actively see how you made things better (or worse).
I mean as much as I wanted to cry when running through a plague infected house to find a crying baby the first time, I didn't actually cry until I handed the baby over from the shear joy of success.
It really is an incredible game.
Othering Thesis; what is WRONG with ME? Non-normative Antithesis; what is wrong with THE WORLD thinking me wrong? Unasked Synthesis; all of Udurgh (can be perceived as) a sorrow, soft and agreeable. Thank you for this.
I always find it interesting how media that looks extremely depressing on the outside usually helps people overcome their own problems more than alternatives, you also hear similar stuff about how dark souls helps ppl cope with difficult times in their life, I believe it's cus games like this make us confront our fears instead of pretending that they are not there but also give us the opportunity to learn from it and overcome them
I certainly find dark media way more helpful than fluffy escapism, and I do think it's because dark media grapples with the problem more directly. I would never say escapism can't help someone, but I can say it's never helped me personally.
@@QualiaRedux very true, imo escapism helps me while im playing and not focusing but afterwards it actually makes me more sad since I'll never be able to live in a flawless, idealized world like that.
media like pathologic instead gives me the feeling of: "if these people can find the strength to get up in the morning even with all the hopelessness in their world then I can too" and this world isn't nearly depressive in comparison
Very beautiful video! As someone who's also autistic i really appreciate your view on this game, and tbh i really share the sentiment of it helping me cope with the pandemic. Often i feel i was looking too literal at the story but i still enjoyed playing it a lot. I had to watch a lets play before hand to really bring me to buy it because i really cant get into stuff i dont know, and still had a completely different playthrough. The game just really hits different playing it yourself and im so glad i did.
I'm so glad you included the tie-in with tragedy because I'm very much not a horror fan but the whole time I was relating so hard because I fucking love tragedy. I think part of it, which you touch on when you're talking about how you need your experience as a player and not the character to beat the game, is that you have a sense of agency even as everything goes to shit that is very much absent irl. Life usually doesn't let you see when you're heading into the worst experiences a person can have. You make a mistake, or just a decision that on any other day wouldn't have impacted anything, or someone else makes an unpredictable decision to hurt you, and that's it, what's done is done and either deal with the consequences or, well, die. In fiction, you have enough information to see how you could make choices that will, if not fix everything, have results that would be easier to live with. Agonizing over what-ifs when it comes to real events is maladaptive at best, but having the power to exercise omniscient or near omniscient decision-making can be deeply cathartic ime
Amazing video. It takes a lot of courage to put this much of yourself out there and I think the personal aspect of the video really helps show how this game gets under your skin and stays there.
it's definitely one of the best videos on pathologic in english i've seen at all! seeing how a person truly felt all of the aspects of the game that deeply, recognised it as a true piece of art and not only a gameplay and graphics is truly fascinating. i am truly happy that you're feeling better now, hope it will keep going this way. i am so filled with emotions now, wow. i admire pathologic very deeply and it's so heartwarming to see other people, from different countries, with different backgrounds especially, have somewhat similar experiences while playing a game like that is beautiful and gives me so much hope as a russian-speaking person, as it is a way of somehow sharing the culture and mindset of my fellow countrymen. again, thank you so much for making this spectacular video and excuse me for my mistakes if you find some, i didn't specially check the translator so that i can fully express myself) send lots of admiration for the work that you've done.
I'm go glad when Russian-speaking people like the video! It's an absolutely beautiful game and I'm extremely grateful it made it over here.
This is a great video and I love it. I haven't been able to come back to this game since the Pandemic, or one of my other favorite games Plague Inc. But I feel I have a whole new context on it now from your video.
Just wanted to say that I was really moved by this video, and am grateful to have found someone else who was as heavily impacted by this game as I was. I’m so grateful to have found Pathologic 2, and your channel just after I finished my first run-through. Please keep making content. Your content quality is very high for such a small channel. Hope to continue supporting you as it grows :)
Thank you! It means a lot to me that people have connected with this video. I hope I can live up to it!
I have PTSD myself as well, and I wanted to comment to say thank you so much for making this video. I feel like you put into words feelings I have had over and over again, and as a result after watching this video I feel like I understand parts of myself better. I love your videos!
I don't usually comment but I just wanted to say I am very happy that I found this video. I am a woman with autism and the section where you talked about performance definitely touched a chord. A very well presented and thought out video- I hope you make more!
I'm so glad you liked it! We don't always get to speak on our own behalf about the experience of having autism, and I'm glad it's resonating with other autistic people!
congrats on getting your shot! I, a stranger on the internet, am proud of you my fellow human
That ending with that music 😭
This was amazing and captivating. Thank you.
Pathologic 2 is a masterpiece and i wish more horror games could be this way.
Thank you for making this video, it was really interesting and moving. good stuff all round
I will be sure to stick around to see what else you make, should you so choose c:
Ended up here after reading one of your short stories, this is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for putting words to feelings I didn't know how to express and I am so happy/vicariously proud? that you got the vaccine 💜
Cheers to growth and progress
Thank you!! Yeah, it was scary, but I did it!!
I too am a traumatized neurodivegent non-binary person (with health issues/disabilities) and I really related to this video. Thank you so much for sharing. It helps to know there are others who think and feel similarly to me, it can be so lonely being the way I am sometimes. Sending so much love to you!
as a trans non-binary person with ptsd who cannot stop thinking about Pathologic, I am very glad you made this video
This was an amazing video thank you for making it! I can really tell it’s from the heart & you don’t get a lot of that on youtube so seeing it is always nice. As a 15 year old neurodivergent trans women I feel I can relate to your struggles even just a little bit. Pathologic is something that really helped me come to terms with what pain meant to me & how it impacts my life & seeing that effect other people as well is powerful & makes me feel less lonely. I’m excited to see if you make other videos & if not that’s ok too just this one was enough. Thank you & much love
I have not played this game, but like. Everything I've seen about it tells me it is so very good and that I would fall for it very hard
Oh, this was dope.
Great video!
Simply magnificent
Very thoughtful video. Happy to sub for more stuff like this!
Thank you! I'm going to do a variety of things. I think the next video will be a critique cryptocurrency from a less explored perspective, and the ones after that will be about books as objects, and then the semiotics of aliens! So that's what I'm working on now. I'm having a lot of fun with making videos and hope you enjoy the next ones!!
that's what I like to see!!
Incredible video, truly amazing
Thank you so much! I really appreciate it.
This was an amazing video. As someone whos trans nd and a huge fan of horror i never really looked into why i love horror myself too much before the pandemic and i have consumed a good amount of horror during quarantine but out of all of them, pathologic 2 really hits the nail on a lot of thing and has made me reflect the most
im glad someone also kinda has similar experiences with it
I'm so glad you enjoyed it and that you found it relatable! Sometimes it's nice to see ourselves represented, isn't it?
i feel p2 was meant for these personal stories. this isnt a game you share, its almost unbeatable, buggy and infuriating.
but for pain i truly believe there isnt a better medium and more importantly a title in that medium that can bring the best out of you and the situation.
You're a person of taste I see.
how many times did you die on your first playthrough
On my first playthrough I got stuck in a death loop and died six times in a way that I didn't think could be fixed, so I started over. The second time, getting all the way through, I think the final count was 22.
Congrats on the vaccine!!
Came from r/hbomberguy, amazing video
Oh, cool! Glad you enjoyed it! Thank you!
@@QualiaRedux yeah I watched it twice! Once by myself and another with a friend on Discord :3
@@ambergong7201 I'm so glad you enjoyed it that much!! It's my first and I was worried it wouldn't get any response. But I'm thrilled!
Did you ever play Metal Gear Solid lol