Joanna Sternberg plays "This Is Not Who I Want To Be" for SoS

“I don’t believe that suffering is a scale and you can measure your suffering against someone else’s. So I’m not trying to say ‘woe is me’ but I am a drug addict and I do have technical mental health issues. I wrote this song when I was going through withdrawal and I didn’t sleep for nine days and I was singing it to myself literally about what I was experiencing and the song has helped me not use those substances since I wrote it. I think it could help someone else to write a song about something that happened to them.”
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SoS is happy to share a take of the incredible song “This Is Not Who I Want To Be” from our visit to Joanna Sternberg’s home last year.
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We approached Sternberg after hearing their debut album “Then I Try Some More” which touches on many subjects like addiction, depression and working through feelings of hopelessness. Ultimately it is a triumphant LP, just as Joanna is themself.
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“Rain pouring down my head pounds from the sound
I'm stuck to the bed with brain zaps in my head
I can't fall asleep I cannot stay awake
I cry till I weep I shiver and I shake
I think of you I think of you
I think of you it's all that I can do
And lord knows I try I'm trying hard to change
I wish I knew why I always stay the same
This is not who I want to be
This is not who I want to be
I am slowly killing me
No, This is not who I want to be”
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📷: @charliegrosss

[@PutonyourSundayBests]

Criminally underrated musician. Total legend.

[@JoannaSternbergYoutube]

wow thank you!!!!!!!!!

[@jessicalalonde7950]

@@JoannaSternbergRUclips I came across your song on Spotify and it went straight to my soul because of my own inner things that hold me back and keep me stuck and I say all the time while I bang my head against the wall “this is not how I want to be…” Thank you for writing this and for being you, you are a beautiful person.

[@drsmit]

This song has really helped me through a tough year. Thank you

[@jessicalalonde7950]

I wish I could wrap Joanna in the most loving, protective hug of all time …what a beautiful soul❤️

[@aleenablankenship8410]

This is such a beautiful song, I often listen to it when I need to have a cathartic cry and it always pushes me over the edge but I end up feeling better. This is a very special song to me, thank you Joanna for creating and sharing!

[@naomis.7245]

Absolutely beautiful. I've said that same exact thing about sad music and specifically Elliott Smith. So good to hear it from someone else.

[@fugamantew]

Lovely song writing

[@Beefaroni_boner]

Never fails to make fountains of my eyes

[@lucasoneil8997]

I cant wait to hear what else Joanna has to offer us. Their songwriting is so incredible, personal and dare I say "fun". The melodies are clever, playful but at the same time they grip my heart just as my other favorite musicians have. Holy shit. Go on, Joanna!!!

[@krisj3991]

Thank you for sharing. It means a lot.

[@treesart6914]

Beautiful. Thanks.

[@Perhapsy]

Visionary.

[@lt1nut]

thank you
lots!!

[@chriscravens8318]

Amazing.

[@Likeaforest]

מקסימה שכמותך ❤❤❤❤❤❤