We are all on the way out- some sooner, some later- and none of us will be here in a hundred years. It's part of the deal- life is fleeting. You're a fine, intelligent man. We all have tons of regrets- serious, legitimate & appropriate regrets. I'm 62 and know a good bit by now. You're an excellent man.
I’m 31 and dying of a neurodegenerative disease. I totally get what you’re going through. All of your feelings are valid. If you ever need someone to talk to, who gets it.. I’m here ♥️
I'm a cancer survivor and I know the fear you are feeling.I still have fear of my cancer returning. I decided to live my life and not be afraid of what might happen. I'm praying for you and it's not over until it's over.
Get some Ativan from your doctor..............forget about dying and just live as happily as you can......love to you and get something for your anxiety (Ativan).......don't fight just live and be happy..........don't let death loom over you - it's no way to live.....maybe it's real maybe it is not...........stay happy.........meditate focus on breath, it will calm you. Don't worry about liver............naps are good, helps your strength.............don't depress yourself with what you didn't" do.....we all have regrets - you have made no mistakes - you are a kind and sympathetic person.........love yourself!!!!
Ok there’s something really special about this guy. The voice, the message, the emotion. He’s facing something most of us fear, we are all going to be there. His story is not over it seems like a beginning not an end. As a Christian Im praying for this guy, we all fear death but it’s not an ending but a transition into something better. I ask all Christians to pray for this man and ask the Holy Spirit to touch his heart as well as all of ours. If he is to go on the greatest adventure ever may 1000 angels lift him up to my lord and savior Jesus Christ. As Steve Jobs said “ Oh Wow, Oh Wow, Oh Wow” !
Personally I think you are a bit of a legend posting this, there are so many people in the same boat as you just wanting to hear the thoughts of others in their situation. I think this is a very selfless thing to do by talking honestly about it all. I hope you can get your anxiety under control and wish you the absolute best.
Just found your cancer vlog today 11/10/20, my heart aches for you! I am in the medical profession and deal with death and dying on a daily basis. Not only do you have the right idea about establishing a legal will to designate where your things end up or who they end up with but you should also consider an advance directive for health care decisions to determine who will make medical decisions for you in the event that you cannot make them for yourself. Absolutely push through with treatment but in the event that it all becomes too much and you make the decision to stop aggressive treatment consider Hospice. I lost my father early in life to a gastric cancer that metastasized to his brain and liver, I watched as he struggled and fought to the very end because he was the single parent of 2 small children. If I had been able to tell him to stop I would have, his struggle was brutal beyond imagination and has left my sister and I with deep emotional scars. His illness was the impetus for my decision to go into healthcare and every time I have a conversation with a patient or a family member regarding end of life I always consider my father's struggle and his reason's for fighting and the peace he could have had if he had stopped fighting. Life is worth the fight!!! You are worth the fight!!! Your family and friends are worth the fight!!! But if you chose to put down your battle ax and kick back in your recliner...that's OK too!!! Peace be with you my friend!!! I hope you find the courage, the energy and the strength to get up every day and fight until you decide not to. I will be on the sidelines cheering you on every step of the way.
Well written very indeed... Hindsight is 20/20, but I have been through a similar case with my mum, so I understand exactly what you mean. It was 20 years ago for me and left me with horrible memories, was a teen at that time. I wish you all the best.
I hate cancer so much. This young man should be living his life, not facing any of this. Your costume was absolutely amazing, Daniel. I figured it would be good before actually seeing it, but not THAT good! That coat is so dope lol
It ain’t over til it’s over, there are lots of treatments , but I understand your fear and it’s hard to see anything positive. As you said, you don’t know us personally, but you have generously shared yourself with us. We are strangers who care, who feel your anxiety and pain and are hoping and wishing and praying for you. Wise words about regrets.
I prayed for you. I had a friend with terminal cancer, she was given 6 months to live. She actually went on to live for another 17 years! She was always busy doing stuff, she helped look after her mother who wasn’t in the best of health and she never told her mum she was sick because she didn’t want to upset her and she thought her mother wouldn’t be able to cope with the news. Well, my friends mum got sick and passed away and my friend died less than 4 months later. She helped her dad sort out all her mother’s affairs, traveled abroad to sort out property they owned and then not long after getting back home and sorting everything out, she went into hospital and passed away. All that time later... 17 years after a 6 month diagnosis. I don’t believe it was a coincidence that she lived so long and then died so soon after her mum passed. My friend had a drive to help others and she did stuff for people every day. She ran a business and still went to work most days even if it meant taking nap on the job. She booked holidays every year and had a full life right up until a week before she died.. She continued all the family routines - simple things like getting fish and chips in every Friday night, planting flowers in the spring to watch them to bloom in the summer, redecorating a room. I guess I’m trying to say that she didn’t let cancer change her course.I believe putting her mum before herself somehow helped her go on for as long as she did. She told me of friends that deserted her after her diagnosis, she thought it was because they couldn’t deal with feeling awkward around her. Her partner of 10 years left her too and the crazy thing is, some of those people actually went on to die years before before my friend did. She was involved in some trials and she told me that every now and then an individual in the group would be cured or show no visible cancer so it’s definitely worth looking into trials. I don’t say keep fighting, I say keep living. Fighting is tiring and you need all your strength. Many very elderly people wake up daily and enjoy life even though they know they are knocking on heavens door. I know all this is easy for me to say bc I’m not in your situation but I believe you can still have a good life and possibly a long one!
Anxiety meds would really be helpful and anyone battling what you're battling would need it. I stumbled across your channel and I'm glad I did. Praying for you and that you get some peace along the way.
It just suck though that god isnt real. It suck man but once your dead that is it. No heaven, no conciousness, just nothing. Kind of like before you were born.
I have lupus and when I’m feeling terrible I’m always told “you look so well!!” With that in mind I have to say you’re looking well today. Hope you get some time when you feel good enough to enjoy life a bit.
Such a honest man, its so unfair ,im crying watching this,he doesnt realise what an inspiration he is so brave to show people all these thoughts, your nephew will be proud of your a brave sole, i want to read your short stories x
Daniel, When you talked about not having kept all your bridges in good repair, I paused the video and sent an email to a friend who is getting a divorce, offering support in several forms. Thank you for inspiring me to do that.
I just spent the last 2 hours watching your vlog from the beginning. You’re such an articulate individual and May I say, easy on the eye... Thank you for sharing your life with us. And your kitties. I love animals so much. I also love your Halloween costume...outstanding, really! I will look forward to being able to see your horror stories too! You’re such a sweet guy. I’m so glad I found you.💗💗💗🐱🐱
I really do care about you, Daniel and I want you to know that I’m here, and I will be here until the end, whatever that end may be. It breaks my heart that you are going through this.. just know that you aren’t going through it alone. Stay strong, okay? I’m still praying for a miracle.
😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭 so bloody unfair.... 3 years is a long time to fight But it’s in your nature not to toss in the towel yet You’re anxiety is so understandable You’re a legend dude! A fighter and a funny man...this is heartbreaking I so want you to recover I wish I could hug you! Comfort you somehow But I’m still sending positive vibes from Australia 🇦🇺
Most words and platitudes seem insufficient in addressing your current situation, but I want you to know that I would be so proud to be your friend apart from the internet. You are honest, caring, and and deserving of every kindness and support that is offered. Your life has meaning, and you, my friend, matter in the great scheme of life's unpredictable twists and turns. Noone wants to leave this earthly existence, but rest assured, you have made your mark, and will be remembered for your honesty and perseverence in the face of tremendous odds. I love you, my brother - you have greatly enriched my life. Thank you for being you.
Daniel , pls don’t beat yourself up about regrets & missed opportunities. Perhaps you could write yourself a letter forgiving yourself for those kinda things. It might make u feel less sad about the past. I hope we get to hear the horror stories cause you’re such a talented writer , perhaps we could pay/download it , so we get to keep a piece of you too. :) & that halloween costume was so cool & realistic , great job 😎
Daniel, I stumbled across your videos just recently. I was drawn in by a thumbnail pic (previous video) of yourself. I immediatley felt and saw something behind your eyes that I beleive I needed to hear. I clicked on just based on that feeling, didnt even read the title, so the video could have been a squirrel running around a tree, or a grown man explaining how to tie shoelaces but I knew I had to see it. 😊 Now that I DO know your situation, I so desperatley wish I could provide some solace or peace or something. You know, you have been quite articulate about your thoughts and feelings but I feel there is something even deeper maybe words cant express. I wish I could sit with you, allow you to talk freely without judgement, & somehow provide comfort. Its really awful that I know a fellow soul is in need that Im unable to help with. Please look after your mental health as well. I so hope you have that person or persons in your life that you can really speak with. Someone that will hold your hand when something hurts, that will hug you when they can see you need it, will just listen. I will be watching and sending you a shit tonne of positive vibes from Australia. 😊😊😊😊 P.S. Holey moley, that halloween costume was frightening!! I loved it! 😃
You gave so many people strength from your strength and courage, right to the end. So much so that it was a shock to learn that you had passed. I miss your kind face and the empathy you showed to others whilst facing this fight yourself, spoke volumes about the person that you were. See you on the other side xx
I just found you today! I hear you. I see you . I'm here for you ! You are not alone in this time! I've been through Cancer with my Mother and my husband. It sucks ! I can tell you this from what I learned being both of their caregiver. If treatment is to much...stop taking it. My Mother battled for 5 years with what started as breast cancer. It metastasized to so many areas over the 5 year course. About a week before she passed away in my arms she had a very lucid moment and held me and told me that if she had do overs she would have stopped the treatments to have quality of life over quantity. My Husband said the exact same thing. We knew his was terminal from the beginning, but he chose to go through treatments that made him so sick and miserable that he couldn't enjoy the things he loved to do. Both of them got on a anxiety med which helped them so much !! As far as regrets...we ALL HAVE THEM !! Please Daniel do not beat yourself over your regrets ! I know how those regrets hurt and remind us of the should, would have and could have events in our life. You are not alone in that ! I'm a Mother of a son, possibly about your age. I'm a Grandma to an 18 year old Granddaughter that is figuring out her path. I'm a woman that lives with chronic pain due to several things, Fibromyalgia, damage from car accident and I have HepC. I'm not in your shoes, no one is, but I am here. Listening, praying and watching your journey ! Hugs from a virtual stranger from Kansas
Daniel, I just came across your channel and I want to thank you for sharing your feelings. It's helps others going through treatment and helps caregivers. My husband passed away in 2018 from Glioblastoma and he never really opened up about his illness. He did cry and say he didn't want to leave me though and that made me cry as well. I think it's great that you share your story and the love and support you receive must warm your heart. Hang in there and keep fighting ! Your still winning.😊😊😊😊😊 The halloween costume is awesome !!!
The saddest video I have ever seen 🙁 I seen the pain and fear in your eyes. I hope and pray the treatment will work for you!! Gosh I hate cancer!! Hugs to you always!! Your costume was absolutely amazing!!!! Loved it!!
The way you talk straight from the heart and convey it in such a creative way is a real gift, I would listen to anything you put out there. Love a good horror story too! Try to focus on and enjoy the now, no one knows what tomorrow brings.
Hi Daniel, I have been following you for a while, I have a partner with terminal liver cancer and my heart feels like it is going to break, I see him go up and down and I have seen him be frightened and I have seen him pretending to be ok when he is so definitely lot. He sleeps slot and is very weak, my heart goes out to you, I hope you have family support. Lots of love and positive energy that I hope may help xx
Do you have palliative care? They can help a lot of anxiety and help with other symptoms to make you comfortable, help with anxiety, and a lot more. It’s for anyone with chronic illness regardless of prognosis. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. We are all standing with you, and wishing you the best. You are a f*cking warrior. I really admire your frankness, and being so open about your thoughts and feelings.
The pictures are glorious, your whole look knocked it out of the park. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us. You are a wonderfull, creative articulate force of nature, and I salute you.
You can't wrap your mind around the thought of death. All I can say, is that this is very sad. I have son's your age and your so eloquent with your speech and in chronicling. I don't think I will ever forget your face and your story. As I age, I prepare in little ways. I've written my kids very personal letters in case I should pass. I say in case lol.. It's as sure as taxes, that one day I will pass. Your legacy will live on. Hugs from Northern Canada. I'm so sorry of what your going through, but thank you so much for sharing your story. Your Halloween costume was so amazing. Holy crow.. It could win prizes.
You are so transparent, and I appreciate that. Don’t beat yourself up over stupid regrets, you cannot change the past. I think most of us have regrets, just not everyone admits it. You are in my thoughts. I am glad you made this video.
Your emotional clarity and ability to express yourself is admirable is just a shame that talent has to be show through this circumstances. I send hugs and prayers from Mexico your way Daniel hoping the treatment helps.💗♥️💗
Listening to you... hearing you. I suggest you research NDE (Near Death Experiences). I promise there’s nothing to be afraid of. There is life after this and it’s AMAZING!!! It truly is the feeling of “going home”.
Daniel, thank you so much for being upfront and honest about your predicament. It's so important that we start to learn to talk openly about what's going on, the realities of a terminal illness. I remember reading something said by a US writer who had cancer to a friend.. . "we're all dying but I have cancer and you don't." (Btw, that wasn't meant to sound harsh or disrespectful, before anyone starts commenting!) You are a sensitive, courageous, giving man, I can sense that. In these videos, you are giving so much information that might help others on a similar journey. Thank you again, Daniel. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult passage.
I also just found your channel I can not imagine what you are going through, I am going to pray for you everyday! Lord please watch over Daniel and lay your healing hands on him! be near him during all his treatments and free him from pain! free him from fear and have mercy on him in Jesus name amen!
That costume for Halloween was the best I’ve seen! But man, I HATE cancer with a passion. It takes the most wonderful of people 😞. Your video came as a recommendation and I’d love to be a supporter. Just wish I could give you a huge hug! xx ♥️
Oh my God. I hate cancer! It took so many from me and I was a cancer survivor for 25 years but now it's back...I have so many regrets ...🥺...Your videos have already stolen my heart and I just came across them. I see the pain in your beautiful eyes. Stay strong Daniel and reach out if you need!
Just found you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know the fear of cancer first hand. You do not have to put on a brave face. Feel your feelings. Share them. Don't forget to live your life.
My heart goes out to you..Get the doctor to prescribe Ativan for your anxiety. ..do whatever you need to do to be at peace and have the doctor's give you whatever you need to keep you comfortable. God Bless you
Yes, take some Ativan. It works well and you don't feel totally spaced out. Also, they gave me some good anti- nausea meds, which really helped with my appetite. The liver thing is awful, but we are all praying you will come out the other side!
Hey Daniel. My name is Rob and I’m standing by you bro. I wish I could put words to what I’m thinking as beautiful as what you do. That coupled with your gentle voice makes me want to listen more. +1 subscriber. On a lighter note, the 911 text you have set up with a mate is a fantastic idea and as for those Halloween pix .... wow!!!!!! That’s Hollywood scary movie stuff. Lots of bro love to you from New Zealand. 👍
Hi..i know how you feel with any aches or pains in your body..you think..is it cancer..ive stopped all my treatments..2 years of treatment & the radioactive beads in my liver worked for 3 months!! Im over it all...the fear of scans results..ive got stage 4 terminal cancer in my liver..started as colorectal cancer..its so very scary...and the depression is unreal & the fatigue is horrible..everything is such a chore & the churning anxiety in your tummy..youre not alone..there's thousands of us out there in the world..we need to all support each other. Im going back to new Zealand to live & i will go & pay for my funeral & im going to be cremated..like you im happy if anyone wants a bit of my ashes then the rest thrown off a cliff I used to love to sit at
@Youhann Van dam thank you...some people never drink,smoke do drugs,they exercise & get struck down with aggressive cancer. Also some people smoke & live until their over 100 years old. The oncologist said its just bad luck!! Look at the little children with cancer..they haven't even lived..im not scared of death..its the dying process & dying before my parents & leaving my little dog behind. I stopped smoking 4 months ago & i don't wake with a rough throat like its been charred by fire..youre skin & blood oxygen saturation improves. I used nicotine lollies. Some people use patches..if u do..dont sleep with it on as u will have nightmares from the nicotine. We don't smoke while we sleep..I really hope you give up..maybe start by cutting down each day..cut 1 smoke out each day or 2 days..when u want a smoke delay yourself by 15minutes. Get the nicotine lollies n suck one in the car if you like to smoke n drive like I did. I broke that bad habit....good luck..let me know how you go ok🙂🚬🚭
Goodluck my friend. You're a warrior! You got this buddy. No matter what the outcome, you've fought long and hard. You're an inspiration and you should be proud of yourself. Thank you for your RUclips videos. My prayers go to you and yours always.
Nothing to fear Daniel, you're not going to die you are going to awaken to your true reality and I promise you it's gonna be a spectacularly beautiful experience, just as it will be for all of us if and when it's finally time to go home... You are probably not aware of your good fortune to have this opportunity to create so much value towards others by helping people to gain strength and understanding. After watching many videos on NDEs and listening to different professionals state their opinions, I feel a sense of obligation to finally share my experience, which, with the help of Hubble, has definitely been verified... My NDE happened over 47 years ago when I was struck by lightning while talking on the telephone in my living room. According to several doctors at the hospital, it was a miracle that I was not physically damaged in any way. When I was able to talk, I kept telling them about the beautiful light and the magnificent journey that I'd taken through the stars etc, to meet it, but none could explain where I'd been. It was my home doctor who later suggested that I had possibly been momentarily dead. I described the unforgettable Light to many people in the years that followed - some seemed to understand but most thought it was probably just an illusion. During the 80s and 90s, a lot of doctors who made comments on NDEs described them as something that was programmed within the mind to take place during death, in order to help us deal with the dying process. This came as a big disappointment to me because my beautiful experience with the multi-coloured Light had taken away the fear of death and helped me move towards a path that would eventually allow me to understand much more about myself and the world/universe around me than anyone had ever taught me. I reluctantly began to accept the doctors' explanations with deep regret, until one day in 2003, I was glancing through a newspaper and came across a picture taken by Hubble of the Cone Nebula. The picture was in colour and instantly took my breath away - I trembled and my head spun. It looked exactly like the Light that I'd visited in 1970 and had been describing to people ever since - (even Today, it seems like I was there only a moment ago). The Light was the most beautiful experience of love and security, that even after all these years nothing has compared. It felt like I'd found my way home after being lost in a scary jungle. The Light's multitude of vibrant colours all blended together in what seemed to be perfect harmony. Each of the colours seemed to be intelligent - it was as if they were alive and sending me a loving welcome. Then I was sucked backwards away just as quickly as I'd arrived. I burst back into the bubble that I'd burst out of before I'd entered space to head to the Light. From then on, I began questioning everything that I'd been taught about God. It was as though something inside me had been switched on, exposing me of a far-distant extension of my reality and it was very scary. I was left with a huge void to fill and no knowledge of how to fill it. Motivated by an underlying driving force, I began searching for something with no idea of what it was. I went from one country to the next and to add to my dilemma, I seemed to arrive just in time for a disaster, including revolutions, typhoons and earthquakes etc. There were so many times that I could have been killed like the many others around me that were. Then one day while I was napping in Hong Kong, I had a dream and in it, I was informed that there was, even more, chaos to confront before my destiny would take me to a country, where I would meet my best friend (a future friend that is) who would take me to the foot of a great pointed mountain. Once there I would find the truth that I needed to find. I told friends about the dream, who laughed and joked about it - I also laughed with them. Not long after the strange dream 500 hundred people were killed by landslides all around me - an apartment building a couple of doors away from mine, fell over knocking the top 5 floors off the empty building being built beneath it - there were cries of horror and the smell of rotting bodies. Unable to cope, I jumped on a plane and headed for Manila, arriving just in time for a record-breaking flood and the revolution that ended the Marcus ruling. I had to run for my life and leave all my belongings behind to get on a rescue flight back to Hong Kong. By then I was drinking heavily and so depressed that I was even thinking of suicide. An agent was in Hong Kong looking for a replacement vocalist for an American band that was playing in a Tokyo club. Next thing I knew, I was in Japan trying my best to perform with a very wild heavy metal band (no easy task for a cabaret singer). At the club, I met someone who became the best mate that I'd ever had. He taught me to chant the words Nam-myoho-renge kyo and took me to a beautiful temple at the foot of Mount Fuji (I knew right away that it was the pointed mountain that I'd been told about in my dream). As most religious groups do, the organisation promoting the chant, claimed to be the only ones right while all the others were wrong. The chant had an amazing effect on my daily life - it was like an awakening and somehow it connected me to the beautiful Light - there were even moments while chanting, that I experienced some of the wonderment that I'd felt at the Light. ruclips.net/video/KfRcUpoPl7w/видео.html I stuck with the organisation to learn as much as I could and then spent years trying to divide what the actual teaching was from the added politics of the organisation. I eventually left the organisation and have since depended on my own volition to sort things out. In doing so, I have studied other beliefs and discovered that some of what they teach is almost the same as what Nichiren taught (Nichiren was the first person to chant NMRK and teach it to others). The one thing that became more and more obvious to me was that the three major Laws of (Nature - Cause and Effect - Communication or oneness of past/present/future) represented by myoho-renge-kyo, represent the underlying fundamental Laws of everything, no matter what we choose to believe or not. I also gained a better understanding of the teachings of Jesus (not by what was written about his lessons by his disciple's (who all denied even knowing him when he was arrested) but by the example that he set 'between the lines'. He also taught Nature - Cause and Effect (reap what we sow) and prayer = communication. But it appears that the disciples didn't get it right, even though when they asked where the Kingdom of God was and Jesus told them that it was within their own lives, they still believed and taught others to believe that God was a man in the sky. I also got to understand that, minus all the added misconceptions, Nichiren taught many of the same things as Jesus did. Scientists now say that our solar system was born out of a nebula - that physically everything, including ourselves, is made out of stardust and that energy never disappears or ends. Nichiren taught that our body is a small planet, which relies on Earth's environment to exist, and that our life-force is a small universe that contains 'everything' that exists, even though we are only awake to a very small part of it. Like Jesus taught that the Kingdom of God is within (which obviously must mean that's where God is also) Nichiren taught that Enlightenment (Buddhahood) is within. He also taught that there are millions of other worlds like ours with their own mountains, rivers and moons and that there are also places that are wonderful far beyond our present comprehension to conceive and understand. In the physical sense, they are scattered all over the universe - in the spiritual sense, they are all located within each of us. (one way to understand this is how TV works etc.) It doesn't matter how many TVs there are, they are all able to present the same thing if tuned in. The one thing that confused me after seeing the pictures of Cone Nebular, taken by Hubble back in 2003, was how could I have possibly travelled that distance and back, as even at the speed of light it wouldn't have been possible. Yet, long before Hubble was even built, I accurately described the Cone nebular to so many people. It's only in the last few years that it has finally made sense to me. I went there and back within my own life-force - I travelled across the universe that each of us contains within - not physically but spiritually. I now know that NDEs are journeys we make beyond our physical/Earthly limitations, into our own unknown selves. I also believe that, by way of continuous physical rebirths, we are on a journey to within to eventually discover our true selves - reach a point where we can understand life as it truly is and awaken the wisdom to comprehend and know the real meaning of 'God... PS: My story doesn't end here: Over the past few years since I've been posting this brief about my NDE, many people have asked me to write a book about it and the extraordinary things that have followed, so for anyone who may be interested... my autobiography: 'Saved by the Light of the BUDDHA WITHIN' is now available at Amazon books. amzn.to/356Ia5W PS2: For anyone who would like to know more about, I sincerely recommend that you read Tina Turner's brand-new book:
RIP Daniel DC Becker. You are missed. IMHO, I think his last video of him listening to himself being announced as an author was perfect. He was so so happy in the moment and it’s a lovely way to remember him. I hope more of his stories are published. He spoke like a writer. So clear, articulate, intelligent, thoughtful. I wish he’d had a different outcome. More time with those he loved. 🤍🕊️🤍
You are so loved! We all have to go through this one day! You are just so young and this is so sad! Find peace and try to forgive yourself for your regrets. Like you said, we all have regrets. Just like all of us, please try to let go of them. By the way, you are amazing and awesome.
your halloween costume was amazing! ive just found your channel, so sorry to hear about what your going through my heart goes out to you, your an amazingly strong person, thankyou for sharing your story with us all xx
Hi Daniel, It makes me feel so sad to hear what your saying but I understand it your a very brave.man Lovely man,I love listening to you ,you have such a calming voice I could listen to you for ever. We don't want you to die but there is always hope. I wish I could give you a hug .i hope we give you comfort and strength.Thank you for been so honest about it.i Carnot imagine how you must feel, sending you all my prayers and love your costume was fantastic,I would never have guessed it was you brilliant..Try and keep positive and just take a day at a time.love Marilyn x. From Wales in UK
11/22/2021 - RIP dear Daniel. You fought such a difficult fight. Praying for your dear friends and family. Sure going to miss you!
Please God place your hands on this man and heal him. Prayers to you.
Amen 🙏🙏🙏.
God should have prevented Daniel from getting cancer in the first place!
We are all on the way out- some sooner, some later- and none of us will be here in a hundred years. It's part of the deal- life is fleeting. You're a fine, intelligent man. We all have tons of regrets- serious, legitimate & appropriate regrets. I'm 62 and know a good bit by now. You're an excellent man.
Yes and a 100 years after we pass no one will really remember all the toil and joy we went thru.
@@waynewells1958 sadly It will be about 40 yrs….
I’m 31 and dying of a neurodegenerative disease. I totally get what you’re going through. All of your feelings are valid. If you ever need someone to talk to, who gets it.. I’m here ♥️
I send my best thoughts to you as well.
You are brave Steph!! I'm so sorry!! I hope you have lots of love and support around you! Praying in Minnesota
Praying for you from Indiana 🙏❤🙏❤🙏
❤ Im so sorry
Thank you so much for all of the love ♥️🙏🏼
I'm a cancer survivor and I know the fear you are feeling.I still have fear of my cancer returning. I decided to live my life and not be afraid of what might happen. I'm praying for you and it's not over until it's over.
You have such a gentle soul. May God be with you and bring you peace.
Get some Ativan from your doctor..............forget about dying and just live as happily as you can......love to you and get something for your anxiety (Ativan).......don't fight just live and be happy..........don't let death loom over you - it's no way to live.....maybe it's real maybe it is not...........stay happy.........meditate focus on breath, it will calm you. Don't worry about liver............naps are good, helps your strength.............don't depress yourself with what you didn't" do.....we all have regrets - you have made no mistakes - you are a kind and sympathetic person.........love yourself!!!!
Such lovely advice! ❤️❤️
What AMAZING advice, please take it. We support you all the way ❤
He. Is being real!
its not easy trying to keep it off your mind
Trust in the lord for the forgiveness of your sins for the life after this
Ok there’s something really special about this guy. The voice, the message, the emotion. He’s facing something most of us fear, we are all going to be there. His story is not over it seems like a beginning not an end. As a Christian Im praying for this guy, we all fear death but it’s not an ending but a transition into something better. I ask all Christians to pray for this man and ask the Holy Spirit to touch his heart as well as all of ours. If he is to go on the greatest adventure ever may 1000 angels lift him up to my lord and savior Jesus Christ. As Steve Jobs said “ Oh Wow, Oh Wow, Oh Wow” !
Personally I think you are a bit of a legend posting this, there are so many people in the same boat as you just wanting to hear the thoughts of others in their situation. I think this is a very selfless thing to do by talking honestly about it all. I hope you can get your anxiety under control and wish you the absolute best.
Just found your cancer vlog today 11/10/20, my heart aches for you! I am in the medical profession and deal with death and dying on a daily basis. Not only do you have the right idea about establishing a legal will to designate where your things end up or who they end up with but you should also consider an advance directive for health care decisions to determine who will make medical decisions for you in the event that you cannot make them for yourself. Absolutely push through with treatment but in the event that it all becomes too much and you make the decision to stop aggressive treatment consider Hospice. I lost my father early in life to a gastric cancer that metastasized to his brain and liver, I watched as he struggled and fought to the very end because he was the single parent of 2 small children. If I had been able to tell him to stop I would have, his struggle was brutal beyond imagination and has left my sister and I with deep emotional scars. His illness was the impetus for my decision to go into healthcare and every time I have a conversation with a patient or a family member regarding end of life I always consider my father's struggle and his reason's for fighting and the peace he could have had if he had stopped fighting. Life is worth the fight!!! You are worth the fight!!! Your family and friends are worth the fight!!! But if you chose to put down your battle ax and kick back in your recliner...that's OK too!!! Peace be with you my friend!!! I hope you find the courage, the energy and the strength to get up every day and fight until you decide not to. I will be on the sidelines cheering you on every step of the way.
Beautifully stated!!!
As an RN, I agree with your words which were well written. I'm with you Daniel! Hang in there.... From Ontario, Canada 🍁 hugs
Well written very indeed... Hindsight is 20/20, but I have been through a similar case with my mum, so I understand exactly what you mean. It was 20 years ago for me and left me with horrible memories, was a teen at that time. I wish you all the best.
This comment is so true and I do hope that this brave young man considers either Palliative or Hospice Care.
How do you do these directives . As as wife can I make these decisions ?
You say you're afraid. I accept what you say. Along with that I see massive strength. Which in turn gives me strength.
RIP - his costume was unbelievable! I wish those pictures would go viral
Biggest, biggest hugs to you. You are such a strong yet gentle soul. Such a lovely combination that this world could use so much more of.
I hate cancer so much. This young man should be living his life, not facing any of this. Your costume was absolutely amazing, Daniel. I figured it would be good before actually seeing it, but not THAT good! That coat is so dope lol
My heart goes out to you Daniel, you have my prayers and best wishes.
It ain’t over til it’s over, there are lots of treatments , but I understand your fear and it’s hard to see anything positive. As you said, you don’t know us personally, but you have generously shared yourself with us. We are strangers who care, who feel your anxiety and pain and are hoping and wishing and praying for you. Wise words about regrets.
I prayed for you. I had a friend with terminal cancer, she was given 6 months to live. She actually went on to live for another 17 years! She was always busy doing stuff, she helped look after her mother who wasn’t in the best of health and she never told her mum she was sick because she didn’t want to upset her and she thought her mother wouldn’t be able to cope with the news. Well, my friends mum got sick and passed away and my friend died less than 4 months later. She helped her dad sort out all her mother’s affairs, traveled abroad to sort out property they owned and then not long after getting back home and sorting everything out, she went into hospital and passed away. All that time later... 17 years after a 6 month diagnosis. I don’t believe it was a coincidence that she lived so long and then died so soon after her mum passed. My friend had a drive to help others and she did stuff for people every day. She ran a business and still went to work most days even if it meant taking nap on the job. She booked holidays every year and had a full life right up until a week before she died.. She continued all the family routines - simple things like getting fish and chips in every Friday night, planting flowers in the spring to watch them to bloom in the summer, redecorating a room. I guess I’m trying to say that she didn’t let cancer change her course.I believe putting her mum before herself somehow helped her go on for as long as she did. She told me of friends that deserted her after her diagnosis, she thought it was because they couldn’t deal with feeling awkward around her. Her partner of 10 years left her too and the crazy thing is, some of those people actually went on to die years before before my friend did. She was involved in some trials and she told me that every now and then an individual in the group would be cured or show no visible cancer so it’s definitely worth looking into trials. I don’t say keep fighting, I say keep living. Fighting is tiring and you need all your strength. Many very elderly people wake up daily and enjoy life even though they know they are knocking on heavens door. I know all this is easy for me to say bc I’m not in your situation but I believe you can still have a good life and possibly a long one!
Ill pray for you. And we dont know eachother like strangers but We CARE.
Anxiety meds would really be helpful and anyone battling what you're battling would need it. I stumbled across your channel and I'm glad I did. Praying for you and that you get some peace along the way.
I've said a prayer for you just now. I will continue to do so. May God bless and keep you.
I see you
And your total honesty.
Words fail me
You are in my thoughts 💗
This video so touched me Daniel. Hugs to you dear.
I like how your videos still show up. Life is a journey even after it ends
just remember that God is always with you and death is not the end!
Amen🙏🙏🙏.
It just suck though that god isnt real. It suck man but once your dead that is it. No heaven, no conciousness, just nothing. Kind of like before you were born.
@@jacobsjungle5676 Very well said!
@@jacobsjungle5676 It sucks that you've never felt the indwelling of the Holy Spirit! ✌bro!
I have lupus and when I’m feeling terrible I’m always told “you look so well!!” With that in mind I have to say you’re looking well today. Hope you get some time when you feel good enough to enjoy life a bit.
Such a honest man, its so unfair ,im crying watching this,he doesnt realise what an inspiration he is so brave to show people all these thoughts, your nephew will be proud of your a brave sole, i want to read your short stories x
Same....just. ...tears and more tears
That costume is so good, cannot believe it is you under there!
Daniel, When you talked about not having kept all your bridges in good repair, I paused the video and sent an email to a friend who is getting a divorce, offering support in several forms. Thank you for inspiring me to do that.
I just spent the last 2 hours watching your vlog from the beginning.
You’re such an articulate individual and May I say, easy on the eye...
Thank you for sharing your life with us.
And your kitties. I love animals so much.
I also love your Halloween costume...outstanding, really!
I will look forward to being able to see your horror stories too!
You’re such a sweet guy. I’m so glad I found you.💗💗💗🐱🐱
I really do care about you, Daniel and I want you to know that I’m here, and I will be here until the end, whatever that end may be.
It breaks my heart that you are going through this.. just know that you aren’t going through it alone. Stay strong, okay? I’m still praying for a miracle.
Praying for you!
😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭 so bloody unfair.... 3 years is a long time to fight
But it’s in your nature not to toss in the towel yet
You’re anxiety is so understandable
You’re a legend dude! A fighter and a funny man...this is heartbreaking
I so want you to recover
I wish I could hug you! Comfort you somehow
But I’m still sending positive vibes from Australia 🇦🇺
Most words and platitudes seem insufficient in addressing your current situation, but I want you to know that I would be so proud to be your friend apart from the internet. You are honest, caring, and and deserving of every kindness and support that is offered. Your life has meaning, and you, my friend, matter in the great scheme of life's unpredictable twists and turns. Noone wants to leave this earthly existence, but rest assured, you have made your mark, and will be remembered for your honesty and perseverence in the face of tremendous odds. I love you, my brother - you have greatly enriched my life. Thank you for being you.
Try to remember my friend, its truly not a ending but a new eternal beginning. You have a beautiful soul. Love
I'm so sorry you are afraid. God will be with you. You are so precious.
YES! .HE IS PRECIOUS! I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!
I wish I could hug you....I cannot imagine how you are feeling but I wish I could bring you some solace 💜💜
I'm heartbroken for you Daniel. You're truly amazing, dignified and brave. And I love your photos, they're brilliant x
That feeling...the anxiety and fear... I'd steal it from you like a thief if I could...
I would do the same. There are so many people who you've never met, who would take all of your anxiety and fear and pain in an instant.
Daniel , pls don’t beat yourself up about regrets & missed opportunities. Perhaps you could write yourself a letter forgiving yourself for those kinda things. It might make u feel less sad about the past. I hope we get to hear the horror stories cause you’re such a talented writer , perhaps we could pay/download it , so we get to keep a piece of you too. :) & that halloween costume was so cool & realistic , great job 😎
We all have regrets of our past
May Jesus hold you in His arms
Cancer has touched us all. That is the common bond. That is why you are not alone.
Daniel, I stumbled across your videos just recently. I was drawn in by a thumbnail pic (previous video) of yourself. I immediatley felt and saw something behind your eyes that I beleive I needed to hear. I clicked on just based on that feeling, didnt even read the title, so the video could have been a squirrel running around a tree, or a grown man explaining how to tie shoelaces but I knew I had to see it. 😊
Now that I DO know your situation, I so desperatley wish I could provide some solace or peace or something. You know, you have been quite articulate about your thoughts and feelings but I feel there is something even deeper maybe words cant express. I wish I could sit with you, allow you to talk freely without judgement, & somehow provide comfort. Its really awful that I know a fellow soul is in need that Im unable to help with. Please look after your mental health as well. I so hope you have that person or persons in your life that you can really speak with. Someone that will hold your hand when something hurts, that will hug you when they can see you need it, will just listen.
I will be watching and sending you a shit tonne of positive vibes from Australia. 😊😊😊😊
P.S. Holey moley, that halloween costume was frightening!! I loved it! 😃
You gave so many people strength from your strength and courage, right to the end. So much so that it was a shock to learn that you had passed. I miss your kind face and the empathy you showed to others whilst facing this fight yourself, spoke volumes about the person that you were. See you on the other side xx
I just found you today! I hear you. I see you . I'm here for you ! You are not alone in this time!
I've been through Cancer with my Mother and my husband. It sucks ! I can tell you this from what I learned being both of their caregiver. If treatment is to much...stop taking it. My Mother battled for 5 years with what started as breast cancer. It metastasized to so many areas over the 5 year course. About a week before she passed away in my arms she had a very lucid moment and held me and told me that if she had do overs she would have stopped the treatments to have quality of life over quantity. My Husband said the exact same thing. We knew his was terminal from the beginning, but he chose to go through treatments that made him so sick and miserable that he couldn't enjoy the things he loved to do. Both of them got on a anxiety med which helped them so much !!
As far as regrets...we ALL HAVE THEM !! Please Daniel do not beat yourself over your regrets ! I know how those regrets hurt and remind us of the should, would have and could have events in our life. You are not alone in that !
I'm a Mother of a son, possibly about your age. I'm a Grandma to an 18 year old Granddaughter that is figuring out her path. I'm a woman that lives with chronic pain due to several things, Fibromyalgia, damage from car accident and I have HepC. I'm not in your shoes, no one is, but I am here. Listening, praying and watching your journey !
Hugs from a virtual stranger from Kansas
Daniel, I just came across your channel and I want to thank you for sharing your feelings. It's helps others going through treatment and helps caregivers. My husband passed away in 2018 from Glioblastoma and he never really opened up about his illness. He did cry and say he didn't want to leave me though and that made me cry as well. I think it's great that you share your story and the love and support you receive must warm your heart. Hang in there and keep fighting ! Your still winning.😊😊😊😊😊 The halloween costume is awesome !!!
The saddest video I have ever seen 🙁 I seen the pain and fear in your eyes. I hope and pray the treatment will work for you!! Gosh I hate cancer!! Hugs to you always!!
Your costume was absolutely amazing!!!! Loved it!!
Daniel’s life advice #1 “Don’t ignore the possibilities , assuming they will always be there”
I don't know what I can say to make this ok, it's not ok. You are a gorgeous young man and I hope you have lots of love and support in your life.
The way you talk straight from the heart and convey it in such a creative way is a real gift, I would listen to anything you put out there. Love a good horror story too! Try to focus on and enjoy the now, no one knows what tomorrow brings.
Classiest costume ever. As a cancer survivor, I understand the fear and anxiety. My heart ❤ is with you, sweet man.
Hi Daniel, I have been following you for a while, I have a partner with terminal liver cancer and my heart feels like it is going to break, I see him go up and down and I have seen him be frightened and I have seen him pretending to be ok when he is so definitely lot.
He sleeps slot and is very weak, my heart goes out to you, I hope you have family support. Lots of love and positive energy that I hope may help xx
I wish I could hold your hand and give you a hug...sending love and prayers. 🦋🌈💜
Do you have palliative care? They can help a lot of anxiety and help with other symptoms to make you comfortable, help with anxiety, and a lot more. It’s for anyone with chronic illness regardless of prognosis.
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. We are all standing with you, and wishing you the best. You are a f*cking warrior. I really admire your frankness, and being so open about your thoughts and feelings.
Great advice.
The pictures are glorious, your whole look knocked it out of the park. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us. You are a wonderfull, creative articulate force of nature, and I salute you.
Bravery personified. A good man. The World is a better place with you in it. My prayers are with you.
Your costume is perfection!!!
Honesty is always a good look. ❤️
Ohhhh and I love the Halloween 🎃 costume.... unreal!
You can't wrap your mind around the thought of death. All I can say, is that this is very sad. I have son's your age and your so eloquent with your speech and in chronicling. I don't think I will ever forget your face and your story. As I age, I prepare in little ways. I've written my kids very personal letters in case I should pass. I say in case lol.. It's as sure as taxes, that one day I will pass. Your legacy will live on. Hugs from Northern Canada. I'm so sorry of what your going through, but thank you so much for sharing your story. Your Halloween costume was so amazing. Holy crow.. It could win prizes.
You are so transparent, and I appreciate that. Don’t beat yourself up over stupid regrets, you cannot change the past. I think most of us have regrets, just not everyone admits it. You are in my thoughts. I am glad you made this video.
Your emotional clarity and ability to express yourself is admirable is just a shame that talent has to be show through this circumstances.
I send hugs and prayers from Mexico your way Daniel hoping the treatment helps.💗♥️💗
Listening to you... hearing you. I suggest you research NDE (Near Death Experiences). I promise there’s nothing to be afraid of. There is life after this and it’s AMAZING!!! It truly is the feeling of “going home”.
Oh, Daniel....I’m so sorry and so sad. You are a true warrior my friend...lots of love and prayers 😘
Daniel, thank you so much for being upfront and honest about your predicament. It's so important that we start to learn to talk openly about what's going on, the realities of a terminal illness. I remember reading something said by a US writer who had cancer to a friend.. . "we're all dying but I have cancer and you don't." (Btw, that wasn't meant to sound harsh or disrespectful, before anyone starts commenting!) You are a sensitive, courageous, giving man, I can sense that. In these videos, you are giving so much information that might help others on a similar journey. Thank you again, Daniel. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult passage.
I also just found your channel I can not imagine what you are going through, I am going to pray for you everyday!
Lord please watch over Daniel and lay your healing hands on him! be near him during all his treatments and free him from pain!
free him from fear and have mercy on him in Jesus name amen!
A shower of blessings and a big hug! Loved the Halloween pictures!
I’m Rooting for you Daniel. Sending love your way
That costume for Halloween was the best I’ve seen! But man, I HATE cancer with a passion. It takes the most wonderful of people 😞. Your video came as a recommendation and I’d love to be a supporter. Just wish I could give you a huge hug! xx ♥️
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" its ( death) not a shadow anymore , its sitting right next to me "
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My heart is crying for you, you’re very strong.May God bless you a good health dear
Cancer sucks and I am so sorry you’re a very handsome man you are in my prayers 🙏🙏🙏 I will be by your side!,
praying for you i had stage 2 colon cancer they took out part of my colon now i am 10 months cancer free theres always hope
You are missed.. a year later, here I am, watching your videos again, wishing you were here..
Oh my God. I hate cancer! It took so many from me and I was a cancer survivor for 25 years but now it's back...I have so many regrets ...🥺...Your videos have already stolen my heart and I just came across them. I see the pain in your beautiful eyes. Stay strong Daniel and reach out if you need!
You came up on my timeline in Ireland. Praying for you Daniel 🙏♥️
Just found you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I know the fear of cancer first hand. You do not have to put on a brave face. Feel your feelings. Share them. Don't forget to live your life.
My heart breaks for you. Thank you for your honesty and trust. You are making a difference in this world that time will not erase.
I just found you! 131 first...I have to go back and watch them all ....your face is so kind.
My heart goes out to you..Get the doctor to prescribe Ativan for your anxiety. ..do whatever you need to do to be at peace and have the doctor's give you whatever you need to keep you comfortable. God Bless you
Yes, take some Ativan. It works well and you don't feel totally spaced out. Also, they gave me some good anti- nausea meds, which really helped with my appetite. The liver thing is awful, but we are all praying you will come out the other side!
Big hugs, many prayers being sent to you. Loved the pictures. ❤
Hey Daniel. My name is Rob and I’m standing by you bro. I wish I could put words to what I’m thinking as beautiful as what you do. That coupled with your gentle voice makes me want to listen more. +1 subscriber. On a lighter note, the 911 text you have set up with a mate is a fantastic idea and as for those Halloween pix .... wow!!!!!! That’s Hollywood scary movie stuff. Lots of bro love to you from New Zealand. 👍
So sad when I whatched this. You're a true human and a shining star. Always will be. ⭐
Always think positive and keep a strong attitude. You’ve got this you’ve got people who are behind you and praying for you every step of the way.
I’m tearing up ...😢
We are here for you.
Your costume was amazing!
Sending so many positive thoughts and vibes your way! You’ve got this!
I'd just like to say that someone in Wales UK is thinking of you and cares very much.❤️😉
Hi..i know how you feel with any aches or pains in your body..you think..is it cancer..ive stopped all my treatments..2 years of treatment & the radioactive beads in my liver worked for 3 months!! Im over it all...the fear of scans results..ive got stage 4 terminal cancer in my liver..started as colorectal cancer..its so very scary...and the depression is unreal & the fatigue is horrible..everything is such a chore & the churning anxiety in your tummy..youre not alone..there's thousands of us out there in the world..we need to all support each other. Im going back to new Zealand to live & i will go & pay for my funeral & im going to be cremated..like you im happy if anyone wants a bit of my ashes then the rest thrown off a cliff I used to love to sit at
@Youhann Van dam thank you...some people never drink,smoke do drugs,they exercise & get struck down with aggressive cancer. Also some people smoke & live until their over 100 years old. The oncologist said its just bad luck!! Look at the little children with cancer..they haven't even lived..im not scared of death..its the dying process & dying before my parents & leaving my little dog behind. I stopped smoking 4 months ago & i don't wake with a rough throat like its been charred by fire..youre skin & blood oxygen saturation improves. I used nicotine lollies. Some people use patches..if u do..dont sleep with it on as u will have nightmares from the nicotine. We don't smoke while we sleep..I really hope you give up..maybe start by cutting down each day..cut 1 smoke out each day or 2 days..when u want a smoke delay yourself by 15minutes. Get the nicotine lollies n suck one in the car if you like to smoke n drive like I did. I broke that bad habit....good luck..let me know how you go ok🙂🚬🚭
Goodluck my friend. You're a warrior! You got this buddy. No matter what the outcome, you've fought long and hard. You're an inspiration and you should be proud of yourself. Thank you for your RUclips videos. My prayers go to you and yours always.
Nothing to fear Daniel, you're not going to die you are going to awaken to your true reality and I promise you it's gonna be a spectacularly beautiful experience, just as it will be for all of us if and when it's finally time to go home... You are probably not aware of your good fortune to have this opportunity to create so much value towards others by helping people to gain strength and understanding.
After watching many videos on NDEs and listening to different professionals state their opinions, I feel a sense of obligation to finally share my experience, which, with the help of Hubble, has definitely been verified...
My NDE happened over 47 years ago when I was struck by lightning while talking on the telephone in my living room. According to several doctors at the hospital, it was a miracle that I was not physically damaged in any way. When I was able to talk, I kept telling them about the beautiful light and the magnificent journey that I'd taken through the stars etc, to meet it, but none could explain where I'd been. It was my home doctor who later suggested that I had possibly been momentarily dead. I described the unforgettable Light to many people in the years that followed - some seemed to understand but most thought it was probably just an illusion.
During the 80s and 90s, a lot of doctors who made comments on NDEs described them as something that was programmed within the mind to take place during death, in order to help us deal with the dying process. This came as a big disappointment to me because my beautiful experience with the multi-coloured Light had taken away the fear of death and helped me move towards a path that would eventually allow me to understand much more about myself and the world/universe around me than anyone had ever taught me. I reluctantly began to accept the doctors' explanations with deep regret, until one day in 2003, I was glancing through a newspaper and came across a picture taken by Hubble of the Cone Nebula. The picture was in colour and instantly took my breath away - I trembled and my head spun. It looked exactly like the Light that I'd visited in 1970 and had been describing to people ever since - (even Today, it seems like I was there only a moment ago).
The Light was the most beautiful experience of love and security, that even after all these years nothing has compared. It felt like I'd found my way home after being lost in a scary jungle. The Light's multitude of vibrant colours all blended together in what seemed to be perfect harmony. Each of the colours seemed to be intelligent - it was as if they were alive and sending me a loving welcome. Then I was sucked backwards away just as quickly as I'd arrived. I burst back into the bubble that I'd burst out of before I'd entered space to head to the Light.
From then on, I began questioning everything that I'd been taught about God. It was as though something inside me had been switched on, exposing me of a far-distant extension of my reality and it was very scary. I was left with a huge void to fill and no knowledge of how to fill it. Motivated by an underlying driving force, I began searching for something with no idea of what it was. I went from one country to the next and to add to my dilemma, I seemed to arrive just in time for a disaster, including revolutions, typhoons and earthquakes etc. There were so many times that I could have been killed like the many others around me that were.
Then one day while I was napping in Hong Kong, I had a dream and in it, I was informed that there was, even more, chaos to confront before my destiny would take me to a country, where I would meet my best friend (a future friend that is) who would take me to the foot of a great pointed mountain. Once there I would find the truth that I needed to find. I told friends about the dream, who laughed and joked about it - I also laughed with them. Not long after the strange dream 500 hundred people were killed by landslides all around me - an apartment building a couple of doors away from mine, fell over knocking the top 5 floors off the empty building being built beneath it - there were cries of horror and the smell of rotting bodies. Unable to cope, I jumped on a plane and headed for Manila, arriving just in time for a record-breaking flood and the revolution that ended the Marcus ruling. I had to run for my life and leave all my belongings behind to get on a rescue flight back to Hong Kong.
By then I was drinking heavily and so depressed that I was even thinking of suicide. An agent was in Hong Kong looking for a replacement vocalist for an American band that was playing in a Tokyo club. Next thing I knew, I was in Japan trying my best to perform with a very wild heavy metal band (no easy task for a cabaret singer). At the club, I met someone who became the best mate that I'd ever had. He taught me to chant the words Nam-myoho-renge kyo and took me to a beautiful temple at the foot of Mount Fuji (I knew right away that it was the pointed mountain that I'd been told about in my dream). As most religious groups do, the organisation promoting the chant, claimed to be the only ones right while all the others were wrong. The chant had an amazing effect on my daily life - it was like an awakening and somehow it connected me to the beautiful Light - there were even moments while chanting, that I experienced some of the wonderment that I'd felt at the Light.
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I stuck with the organisation to learn as much as I could and then spent years trying to divide what the actual teaching was from the added politics of the organisation. I eventually left the organisation and have since depended on my own volition to sort things out. In doing so, I have studied other beliefs and discovered that some of what they teach is almost the same as what Nichiren taught (Nichiren was the first person to chant NMRK and teach it to others). The one thing that became more and more obvious to me was that the three major Laws of (Nature - Cause and Effect - Communication or oneness of past/present/future) represented by myoho-renge-kyo, represent the underlying fundamental Laws of everything, no matter what we choose to believe or not. I also gained a better understanding of the teachings of Jesus (not by what was written about his lessons by his disciple's (who all denied even knowing him when he was arrested) but by the example that he set 'between the lines'. He also taught Nature - Cause and Effect (reap what we sow) and prayer = communication. But it appears that the disciples didn't get it right, even though when they asked where the Kingdom of God was and Jesus told them that it was within their own lives, they still believed and taught others to believe that God was a man in the sky. I also got to understand that, minus all the added misconceptions, Nichiren taught many of the same things as Jesus did.
Scientists now say that our solar system was born out of a nebula - that physically everything, including ourselves, is made out of stardust and that energy never disappears or ends. Nichiren taught that our body is a small planet, which relies on Earth's environment to exist, and that our life-force is a small universe that contains 'everything' that exists, even though we are only awake to a very small part of it. Like Jesus taught that the Kingdom of God is within (which obviously must mean that's where God is also) Nichiren taught that Enlightenment (Buddhahood) is within. He also taught that there are millions of other worlds like ours with their own mountains, rivers and moons and that there are also places that are wonderful far beyond our present comprehension to conceive and understand. In the physical sense, they are scattered all over the universe - in the spiritual sense, they are all located within each of us. (one way to understand this is how TV works etc.) It doesn't matter how many TVs there are, they are all able to present the same thing if tuned in.
The one thing that confused me after seeing the pictures of Cone Nebular, taken by Hubble back in 2003, was how could I have possibly travelled that distance and back, as even at the speed of light it wouldn't have been possible. Yet, long before Hubble was even built, I accurately described the Cone nebular to so many people. It's only in the last few years that it has finally made sense to me. I went there and back within my own life-force - I travelled across the universe that each of us contains within - not physically but spiritually. I now know that NDEs are journeys we make beyond our physical/Earthly limitations, into our own unknown selves. I also believe that, by way of continuous physical rebirths, we are on a journey to within to eventually discover our true selves - reach a point where we can understand life as it truly is and awaken the wisdom to comprehend and know the real meaning of 'God...
PS: My story doesn't end here:
Over the past few years since I've been posting this brief about my NDE, many people have asked me to write a book about it and the extraordinary things that have followed, so for anyone who may be interested... my autobiography: 'Saved by the Light of the BUDDHA WITHIN' is now available at Amazon books. amzn.to/356Ia5W
PS2: For anyone who would like to know more about, I sincerely recommend that you read Tina Turner's brand-new book:
Love the costume and the pics. Many hugs and prayers for you. Much love too.
Sending positive vibes, try stay strong . It makes me so sad to see what you’re going through. Love & light xx
There's always hope, don't give up yet, xx
RIP Daniel DC Becker. You are missed. IMHO, I think his last video of him listening to himself being announced as an author was perfect. He was so so happy in the moment and it’s a lovely way to remember him. I hope more of his stories are published. He spoke like a writer. So clear, articulate, intelligent, thoughtful. I wish he’d had a different outcome. More time with those he loved. 🤍🕊️🤍
He’s alive and thriving
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I'm so very sorry. Thank you for sharing your experience. Do what you need to do for yourself. Prayers for you. ❤
Sharing your life helps so many, I feel so much hope for you, the world needs you. Hugs
You are so loved! We all have to go through this one day! You are just so young and this is so sad! Find peace and try to forgive yourself for your regrets. Like you said, we all have regrets. Just like all of us, please try to let go of them. By the way, you are amazing and awesome.
Biggest respect to you mate. You're such a lovely guy x
your halloween costume was amazing! ive just found your channel, so sorry to hear about what your going through my heart goes out to you, your an amazingly strong person, thankyou for sharing your story with us all xx
Huge respect to you for your dignified and honest account. Thinking of you at this difficult time.
Hi Daniel, It makes me feel so sad to hear what your saying but I understand it your a very brave.man Lovely man,I love listening to you ,you have such a calming voice I could listen to you for ever. We don't want you to die but there is always hope. I wish I could give you a hug .i hope we give you comfort and strength.Thank you for been so honest about it.i Carnot imagine how you must feel, sending you all my prayers and love your costume was fantastic,I would never have guessed it was you brilliant..Try and keep positive and just take a day at a time.love Marilyn x. From Wales in UK
Thank you for making these videos. This is so powerful and helpful and we love you.
Daniel, you are a most wonderful man and someone I would love to know. I wish I could ease your suffering. With my whole heart I'm praying for you.