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It's astonishing that a human being who endured such horrific emotional torture during their entire childhood can even string a sentence together. She deserves all credit for the tremendous compassion and emotional intelligence and love she has found for herself. She is an amazing role model.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
@@NF40375 that’s part of the issue DID is debated becuase of situations like this exact one, if it is real this would be the perfect case of dissociation. So it’s really a messy topic, that being said the fact she didn’t go into full psychosis is honestly incredible.
@@michikomanalang6733 that is faith--people gave her her bad situation and god gave her the strength to overcome it and accede to the better life she has now
the black man who was being tortured in a cross but still had more humanity than anyone envolved because he still tried to save the little girl in the scene really broke me
only white people believe this dumb shit they cant tell when white people are writing for black characters lol he was like the dude in Green mile? like bagger Vance ? Like forest gumps friend?? a white woman made this bs up. Black man white cross lol gtfoh! @@hilbillie
The story about the black man and his family has me in tears. It's sad that we don't know who these people are and she can't report it because she doesn't know where it happened. Those people deserve to be known too.
@@Jasmine-ow9og I thought more like extended family/descendants who know their family members died in a suspicious way and maybe know some circumstances
The saddest part is what people are willing to believe with no corroborating evidence. This is why people are still in the process of being acquitted today after spending decades in jail from the first wave of the satanic panic. Example- John Quinney was just exonerated a few short months ago after spending 25 years in prison and the time since as a registered sex offender based on satanic panic accusations in 1991.
"She's mine, I can do what I want." Wow. That is horrifying. I'm glad she survived. "You tell what happened." Oh god. That women's last act was to give a little girl a reason to live.
@@jbarbeau92 why do you think that? Is it so unreasonable to see how shitty some people are? Have you not seen how many horrific things happen every day?
@@jbarbeau92 you definitely don't know that, unless you have proof it didn't happen always treat it as it has. This type of behavior of yours kills people, and unless you're a sicko psychopath quit saying stuff like this...
To me, the most striking part of this video is how incredibly normal her and her family all look in the photos. They're affectionate, well put together, smiling, doing a range of family activities. They look like people you could see anywhere in your community and not suspect a single thing. It makes me think of how many other people are experiencing things just as horrific as Mary did, and no one will ever know.
@@subg8858 the one in front of their house where she's leaning against her dad, neither of them are smiling and her eyes are so empty. It broke my heart.
Abuse is surprisingly normal in a lot of places, especially when it comes to a parent physically assaulting their kid for 'unacceptable behaviour', which is just an excuse really. The signs of abuse are subtle so often overlooked. I was neglected and starved for a while, but no one saw an issue until one teacher realised I wasn't eating at breaks. It took a few years before this symptom alone was seen.
As a survivor of similar atrocities I can say that monsters do not look like monsters. They look like the fun well respected people in the community w a nice smile. People would say “why do you hate your dad? He’s so nice and fun.” Little did they know that that fun cool guy had been raping and torturing his first born daughter (me). It’s a good lesson to not let your guard down no matter how someone looks
Some abusers make sure to project a perfect image. I also learned about false memories and therapists who were… frankly planting false memories of satanic abuse into peoples brains under hypnosis around the time this woman would have been 37.. I’m not invalidating her story but this video did make me think of that.
My mom had a very similar story. Buried alive with a corpse & a breathing tube, raped by most of the men she knew growing up, forced to do other things that I won’t list here. We lost her in 2020. She was 74. I so wish there was a way for me to investigate and learn more. Her story could make for a horror movie. So many unbelievable things. So many mysteries. Such a tortured life…and she was a brilliant woman, the most loving mother I ever could have had. Many of her memories came back during counseling with our pastor when I was very young. She was in her early 40’s.
So awful 😢 There is evil in this world. We are in the midst of a spiritual warfare and people can believe it or not, it’s here. Good versus evil. We have this illusion that life is supposed to be perfect so no one talks about the bad things or says the bad things are all made up. I pray you find answers God bless hun❤
She should be proud of herself for breaking the cycle and protecting her kids, what a kind, strong and wonderful woman. I don't know her but I'm genuinely filled with so much pride
It's true... I hope and I pray over your future so that you may love what you do, with a strong heart and a brave mind. Good luck and I am so grateful you have a strong heart to even want to do something so vital and wonderful 🥺😍🙏
I remember the female officer that just happened to need the restroom when I was taking a "break" during my interview process, after my abuse. She didn't say a word, but I knew she was in there to make sure I wasn't trying to leave the planet. I didn't want her to get blamed for anything that would of happened to me. She didn't deserve that. I went back to the interview instead. Now my life is so much better. I'm glad she was there. Being there is enough, sometimes. Thank you for choosing to just be there.
@@greengal111796 I do have my bachelors degree in criminal justice. I just want to find the right fit. I don’t to work somewhere where they can’t interact with the kids and honestly try to help them
The first time I brought a family member into a therapy session, it was my mom. We were discussing the abuse I faced as a child with the therapist and my mom brought up a time my dad had pressed my face into the wooden floor with his knee for minutes so hard one side of my head was entirely purple. I was stunned listening to her, I could not remember ANY of this. Later on when I tried my hardest to think back to those days, I remember one morning putting on makeup for the first time to go to school and not knowing how to apply any of it. I later realized I had been trying to cover up the bruises and my mom confirmed this memory was correct. It's insane the things our brain is capable of to protect us.
@@daisybuttercup6801usually it isn’t just as simple as that, the mother could be dependant on the father for money or housing which is common- and plus the mother could’ve been experiencing abuse too
@@hime8903 that’s no excuse , she could have run away with her children to a police station, or a refuge centre , someone would have protected them. These mothers who let child abuse happen are cowards.
@@daisybuttercup6801 very easy to criticise when your not in that situation, in a ideal world you would be correct but some people are trapped in their abuse by reasons such as fear or lack of understanding
I literally CANNOT understand how people could do such disgusting things to their OWN children and make their children suffer. It's so incomprehendable! Mary is so unbelievably strong!
@@gg_ingy not saying all satanists or luciferians are like that, but following satan makes some people do some of the most evil things imaginable or unimaginable. From my perspective, it's better to be with God in the mighty name of Jesus of Nazareth the Christ, than to be without Him or some other spiritual being.
@Andrés Mcguire-Buckley I'm in the actual spiritual Satanist community and I have never encountered anyone in it whom would harm a child. We do rituals to make ourselves happy or improve at things, mostly.
16:25 "Many people in this organization are accused parents" that line made me gasp. Practically a whole organization created to gaslight victims of abuse into thinking that their memories are false.
They had to find a way to gaslight the victims. States were passing laws so that accused child molesters could be sued. "False memories" was the idea they came up with. Decades earlier Freud came up with--the accusations are sexual fantasies. That wouldn't work today. Probably.
That's not what she said. She said "You can save a child's life even if you can't rescue them.". There's a big difference. And yes, you can save another's life, whether it's a child or an adult, by being kind and gentle.
When she said “I looked at my mom and I really wanted her to care” completely broke me. I can’t imagine a little child going through that. I thought I was ready for this interview but I cried through this entire thing. She is so strong and resilient.
You know how it is, many children got beaten until they become purple by their parents but they still reach to high them to ease the reason why their parents have been upset while on the other hand those parents think they have done good because the children still love them.
Im from the netherlands here we got a case about a girl with the same stories she even told here baby was raped killed and burried during a satanic ritual by a top ranking minister. Real journalist (no conspiracy media) found so much evidence it Will keep you awake at night.
“I don’t want other victims to compare their trauma to me” comforts me in the worst way. I don’t remember a lot of my trauma, but I’m almost sure it wasn’t this and there was a part of me that went “see, you haven’t gone through anything like that, how could you be this messed up?” Thank you for this video, and thank you for not making me feel like I’m faking my issues just because I wasn’t in a cult.
I'm glad you got the message I wanted to give. YOUR healing is important, no matter what you experienced. I send you my comfort and my concern. Take care of YOU.
I've been feeling this shame and guilt as well and when she said that I started crying because that means so much to survivors. I've only just begun my healing journey and it's so hard somtimes...
@@maryknight4450 Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry for what happened to you and thank you for showing us that there is light at the end of our healing journey. Thank you for your courage.
People like to play the Pain Game; comparing their struggles to others. An attempt to use their suffering to one up someone else, as if it's something to brag about. I hate the Pain Game. I will never play it. Your suffering may not be as "bad" or "intense" as someone else's in their opinion. But your suffering was real. It IS real. My best example is my menstrual cramps. Women try to compare their menstrual pain. I as a woman do not. I am aware that mine is extreme, but that's my normal. But what is MY normal, is NOT another woman's normal. I know that pain. And she is in pain. And I will use my familiarity to comfort her. Your trauma may not be as "bad" as some may think. But did you go through it? Did you survive? Are you surviving now? You pushed through so much. And no one can take that away. Your trauma hurt you. Just like someone else's trauma hurt him/her. Your pain is real. Your suffering happened. But your recovery will happen too.
her comment about feeling confused when her study session with her teacher was over because she was expecting something bad to happen or for him to hurt her because she was so used to the adults in her life hurting her that when he didn’t, it didn’t feel normal… oh my god, that breaks my heart. what a remarkably strong lady ❤️
I feel like this with my partner sometimes. He's amazing, kind and my best friend. But still, sometimes I brace myself for the verbal or physical assault because that's what I experienced with my parents.
@Mary Knight god bless you I have so much respect and love for you I'm so sorry for what you have been through may god protect you in every way amen ,your so strong and brave xx❤
@@holovoid3306 Omg, the way I struggled with this same thing. Everything is much better now, tho. I'm so glad u also found someone that's so good to u!!!!
can we please give anthony credit for being so incredibly respectful. he is so good at making his interviewees comfortable even when it’s a horrible, heart wrenching conversation.
Most definitely - my hat off to you Anthony for holding such sacred space for Mary to tell her story and change lives. You helped her reach out to people she couldn't have touched otherwise. Beautiful unity community sharing.
the quote that she said at her father's grave "God is the only father I've ever had because fathers are protective" made me stop in my tracks. I have never thought about that ever before and I love how her faith is so present in her life even after everything she's been through
I know I was worried she would become traumatized of crosses and Jesus in general after what she witnessed from such a young age, but I'm glad it helped build her faith even more!
She is right to speak about it. It needs to be spoken about. My older brother SA me when I was 4-6/7 and he was 16. He did the same thing to our cousin, she was 5 and he was 21. She’d just had her leg amputated from cancer. It was the worst time of my life. I’m 42 now and I’m finally speaking out. The more it’s talked about the more people will realize this is an issue that is too often swept under the rug. Families would rather keep it a secret than to be associated with a known pedophile and be the target of backlash. That’s the sad fact.
Nothing is more brave than speaking up. I haven’t been brave enough to speak up or report about it but seeing stories like yours make me feel safer to do it. We’re in this together 💖
Same thing happened to me. I’m 18 now, and my brother molested/SA me multiple times between the ages of 6-9 when he was 15-18. I totally relate to the sweeping under the rug. I told my parents what happened, and I genuinely do believe they think they’re doing the best thing for me by keeping this a secret but idk.
@@GreyWithAnE42fuck I hope your brother is in jail one day. don’t be afraid to go forward (once you’re ready in your own time) as you’re an adult now and are separate from your parents
My husband is a survivor of occult ritualistic and sexual abuse from his mother, aunts and uncles, and cult members. It's a miracle he survived after the beatings, cuttings, rape, and poisoning. I feel for this woman.
I hope your husband is happy now and cut off from those horrible people. My heart is breaking as I'm thinking of an innocent little boy who would at the time think that was normal. You're honestly a saviour to him for understanding and loving him no matter what he's been through ❤❤
Mary has been so strong through so much. She did a documentary where therapists who didnt believe in her lived experiences just told her right to her face that her experiences werent real and that child sexual abuse wasnt that bad ??? and she was so calm and collected. She is such a strong and amazing woman. My prayers go out to her.
Can we line up those therapists and slap them in the face. There needs to be consequences for mental health professionals who betray people that badly. I get it, you want to think the world isn't that bad, it scares you, so it's easier to gaslight the patient in front of you. But buckle up, real life doesn't care if you think it's "impossible". Don't go into that line of work if you can't stand hearing the most horrific things.
her saying the part about not comparing trauma is so comforting for me, i don’t remember an entire year of my life but i know what happened and why i don’t remember it but she is so amazing and i wish i was as strong as mary
Hey I don’t know anything about your circumstances, but I hope you realize that just by surviving that you are strong. Things get rough, but just like trauma, strength isn’t something to be compared
Thank you for your kind words. I hope you know that you are stronger than you think! It will take time, and I hope only the best for you on your journey to a healthy life!
Yes. A lot of people almost see it as a competition or feel like they can’t be suffering if someone else is going through things too. But that’s just not true and it can destroy you as a person. We must go through more to feel this way? No you do not need to validate your abuse or justify the lingering trauma. The message she sends is incredible. A truly inspirational woman
i have awful memory problems... they say its a symptom of ptsd but it does not make it easy to deal with. i have kinda lost hope that i would ever get help so i just accept that my memories are gone and i try to stay in the moment. i wish you all dealing with trauma strenght, its gonna be ok.
I have PTSD and had/have repressed memories. I once told my therapist I wish I'd never recovered those memories. She then told me "No, you wish it had never happened. But it did." That was so hard to hear, because it's true, but sadly we can't change history. I also agree forgiveness is not necessary, I will never forgive. I can accept, but never forgive. It kind of puts the responsibility in the victims hands.
A lot of this she likely hasn't been through. She may believe it, or think she remembers it, but there's absolutely no verifiable evidence that "satanic ritual abuse" exists. She's part of the satanic panic in the 80s and 90s.
@@pinkrosegurl6987 it’s true tho lol . majority of parents aren’t ready to have children think they are but aren’t . don’t give them enough ir too little attention , don’t feed them in a proper schedule , don’t take care of basic needs , curse around their newborns smoke around them do drugs, arguing , fighting and this is surface level can be much worse … shaking beating leaving shit in their diaper for hours causing rashes and much much worse ..people don’t realize they’re actually susceptible to stuff at all ages regardless of if their memory is strong . it can cause long term affects and majority of people have been messed up by their parents in some way whether they realize it or not , the way they act their decision making is all affects from trauma unknown or known . in some cases can cause full on severe mental health issues like multi personality , bipolar , chronic depression and many many many other things .
I'm amazed that this woman seems so down to earth and relatively well adjusted. She's a real soldier. It's heartbreaking that things like this happen even to this day.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
She's probably suffering from dissociative identity disorder as are most survivors of this kind of abuse. This can make it appear as though someone is more functional than someone with less complex trauma.
Even to this day? Shoot, with the internet, the deep web, online child porn, and people and companies like Epstein and Balenciaga in the world, I'd say it's happening now much more than it was.
There's a reason she became a social worker even before she recovered those memories. Her subconscious put her in a position to save children the way she herself, should've been saved. What am amazingly strong human being. And as someone with recovered memories that were also corroborated by other victims it's a VERY real thing.
The pure strength she has to do these interviews... the false memory foundation sounds like a super villain league, and she brought a camera. Powerful woman
As someone who’s been through extremely MINIMAL trauma compared to this and STILL go through so much PTSD because of that, I can’t imagine what she felt when everything was resurfacing. Memory blockage is absolutely real: me and my mom randomly remember the most insane things about my dad, and just look at each other like “Wow I can’t fucking believe we just thought that was normal at the time.” Peace and love
Please remember, you deserve compassion and gentleness no matter what, there's no minimum threshhold for it to be "enough" to deserve to be treated 100% seriously. It sounds like you are aware of how much hurt it's caused you, and I just want you to hear that it matters, and you matter.
hearing her say that forgiveness isnt necessary for healing gave me the reassurance I needed, too many people say to forgive your abusers but that's the last thing I ever want to do. forgiving would mean at least to me that I'm disrespecting myself, disregarding my feelings and my abuse that I'm letting them get away with it. I needed to hear this, thank you so much
I feel like there’s levels.. some things are forgivable and others should not be ignored no matter how much one has moved on. Being able to move on with your life should not mean forgiving.
As a victim of 3 types of abuse. I appreciate her saying that it doesnt matter the type of abuse you suffer, it can affect you deeply. Basically saying no ones abuse is any less traumatic than another. It all effects us deeply in different ways, and we're all victims the same. I'm happy she survived, and is thriving. Bless her.
my therapist once said that some people might have a broken toe, and someone else might have a broken leg, but it doesn't make your broken toe any less painful. All abuse is bad, some of it is worse.
this woman is so strong to be able to even live through this, let alone talk about it. how sick do you have to be to put your own child through this much psychological torture, and to act this horrifically to innocent people and animals?? i'm in shambles when an animal or person dies of natural causes, let alone seeing them murdered in such cruel and revolting ways. absolutely disgusting. props to you for living on, mary.
@@midnightsan9917 You keep spamming this on every comment and it's getting annoying, lol. It's really not that hard to believe her story with how depraved people can be.
As a survivor of severe sexual abuse, rape and torture by my own father, her words hit home. You just go through the motions simply to survive. Years later certain memories haunt you that you didn’t even know existed. I pray for her healing and hope she knows none of it was her fault.
Hey I just want to say that you are strong and amazing and that what you have gone through are awful but you are strong and amazing and deserved to be love in a safe way. YOU ARE STRONG!!!❤️❤️
Yes but it's also true what she says that even though your memories might be blocked, the stress is still there. Surviving mechanisms are meant to just get away from a certain thread but when prolonged they take much of a physical toll since even though you don't remember why, your brain still works in trauma response mode. Once you start actively working on healing that trauma it's when you truly start to live. I wish you the best in your journey
What kills me is I forget most things still, like now that I'm away from abuse, but after so long my brain got so good at forgetting I'm now having issues remembering anything. And shes so right about the being good to kids, my teachers all had figured out something was wrong, but they just didn't know what, so they'd let me stay late and were super kind honestly if it wasn't for a couple of them I wouldn't have made it.
This was easily the most disturbing episode I’ve ever seen on this channel. Absolutely horrifying what happened, I really think we as a society need to really be more aware of these things happening regularly.
I think as a society we should be teaching more about how our memories work and we should be teaching the history of the satanic panic. We should also be teaching media literacy & research and teach people to be free thinkers/skeptics because it's wild that people just take this at face value considering all we know about this topic
@@basedandsingletpilled928 I don’t disagree that there have been cases of therapists accidentally leading their patients to have false memories. However, there are so many more true cases of childhood abuse like this. I don’t know why you would automatically doubt someone who is telling her story. There is no evidence that her memories are false. On the contrary, she later found out that her cousins have similar memories.
It doesn't surprise me that these people went to church every Sunday, that some of their friends who went to murder with them were friends from church (if I'm remembering what I heard correctly). There are some actually evil people in churches, they like to look "good" and pretend that they're doing nothing wrong "because I go to church." Sure sure there are nice people in churches too, but that culture is a breeding ground for some of the most vicious violence and hateful acts. I don't understand it.
@@basedandsingletpilled928 there’s much more proof of abuse and organised abuse, and papers that prove the CIA has done similar things. People want control. People know abuse controls people. That is not so much to get. You’re very privileged to ignore the horrendous abuse that has happened and still happens in the world
Parents please listen. YOUR CHILDREN ARE NOT YOUR PROPERTY NOR CAN YOU DO WHATEVER YOU WANT WITH THEM. That is why we have CPS OR CYS. Disgusting how some people treat children.
@@lillymurray8408 yeah cause 50% is that they cant do anything cause of bs reason or they just dont do enough to keep children safe or be given to safe people.
I love that Mary's here replying to comments, still trying to help other survivors. Her statement about not comparing traumas was particularly poignant. I had a friend tell me I didn't need to go to therapy because I wasn't bad enough to need it. What bs. Hate that it delayed my journey but my therapist has been so amazing helping me deal with anxiety and chronic pain
To anyone tempted to compare trauma--somebody's doesn't have to be LESS than yours for you to matter, for what you've been through to matter. There's no hierarchy. If someone is suffering in any degree, it matters, and you are always worth seeking help to alleviate that suffering and to bring more peace into your life.
It's absolutely true. I was r*ped when I was 11 years old and didn't remember it until my first consensual encounter when my boyfriend literally turned into that guy on top of me, I screamed, slapped him in the face, and realized I had felt it before. It really affected me to the point that I am on the asexual spectrum when I wasn't before that. It took me a long time to accept that happened to me and what that meant.
Sometimes I question whether my memories are something that I made up. But I recently spoke with an old friend and she remembers it precisely the same way. So I guess it's just a defence mechanism
She's incredibly brave but can I also say the sheer admiration I have for the black man on the cross? That even in such a terrifying and horrific moment, he pretended to go along with it to try and save the little girl. What a horrible thing for him to experience, and what strength for him to have tried his best 😢
I can't even process it. An absolutely minimal shred of relief for him specifically is that apparently he didn't live to see her be killed. I don't understand how people can so easily take life and do harm. You can just... not do that.
Weird how I've come full circle here. I came back to RUclips as a way to distract myself from obsessive thoughts about my partially recovered memories of childhood abuse, etc. A few years ago, around age 30, I started to remember. It took over my life instantly. I couldn't focus on anything else no matter how hard I tried. Those puzzle pieces just kept falling into my lap and my brain was constantly working on putting them together. There were three main things here on YT that managed to hold my attention and get my mind off of the dark crap I had been suppressing for all those years: Creepypasta Narrations, Horror Game Playthroughs, and... SMOSH. Now that I'm at a place where I'm ready to start looking into other people's stories that may be similar to mine... I find this one. I clicked, not even realizing what channel it was! It really made me incredibly happy to see Anthony giving a platform to RAMCOA survivors. There aren't many. As mentioned in the video, it's a topic that's SO very suppressed. It's hard for us to even find out more information about the types of things that may have happened to us or the people who most likely did them.
EXACTLY. It's even hard to find information, and sometimes without the information it's hard to jog any memories or it makes it feel like it's so rare that it couldn't have happened to you.
I agree man, apparently its possible to develop ptsd from other peoples stories. I knew a dude who worked with fire fighters and they would all tell him their worst stories as a type of debriefing therapy. Dude struggled with alcohol for a long time after
@MrFangsAlot You know mental illness is tricky right? Just coz he has a portrait of himself doesn’t mean he isn’t struggling one way or another. Don’t downplay people’s illness because of possessions
It is like the psychologists that have mandatory hours with other psychologists so they could "discharge" because hearing those type of situations isn't light on their soul.
The smile on her face when she says she's so much happier now is the BEST PART of this interview. I'm proud of her for trusting herself, and I'm proud of everyone that's become part of her support system.
the way she was able to stay in a room with the founder of the false memory foundation and not sock him in the face is something i wouldnt be able to do in all my lifetimes
Sock *her* in the face, you mean. The founder, Pamela Freyd, has a PhD in pedagogy. She is in her eighties, and also welcomed ME into her home, to talk about her sad family story. She offered me tea, we sat around looking at cards and letters from the months and years before their adult daughter got hypnotherapy, "recovered" a vague memory, and accused them of abuse. She cried a few times. It's been over 30 years and she hasn't seen her grandchildren since. That's who you would sock in the face.
Sometimes you hear a story so incredibly evil and heartbreaking you struggle to understand how it’s even possible… This is one of those stories. Wishing Mary healing & happiness ❤️🩹
I hate that any of this is real and would love to bury my head under my pillow and wish it away but that would probably definitely dishonor the human beings that have endured and died from this kind of evil so here I am. I think sometimes the most we can do is to be there and listen. God. I hate this.
@@Mirandanns it's false memories. They talk about them in this video as though we don't all have false memories lol don't worry, this isn't happening to kids. This is just a mass hysteria that's been waxing and waning since the late 1970s. Look into the satanic panic and the daycare sex abuse hysteria. The same psychotherapy tactics that caused them are described in this video. There's a great documentary here on RUclips that actually has clips of those types of therapy sessions - it's called "Memory Wars".
@@artdump6592 Why do you think that? You really think there is no way people can be this sickeningly crazy? Well you are wrong. There are so many sickening things people do. She isnt the only one who experienced something like this, her whole group isnt the only one.
It's absurd to me how someone could disregard suppressing memories in PTSD. I'm in a delicate situation, I keep having to interact with my abusers while some memories are already unlocking, so I'm trying to navigate the old ones while I can't help but still suppress new ones. Anyway, I'm so glad she's getting the chance to tell her story and is now leading a happy life, and I'm glad you're creating this understanding and safe space Anthony
as a social worker, this person is an icon she is probably the strongest and most admirable person i have ever witnessed. she should be so proud that she has progressed to this degree
I don’t work in any psychology field, and I have been burning to know: could you tell me more about how the psychology community thinks of Ms. Knight, and how we should talk about the trauma someone has uncovered, if someone talks about having uncovered memories of satanic abuse? Just as some reference, I want folks to be believed and to live happy and confident lives, but I’m struggling with the idea of satanic abuse being real and being impossible.
Anthony is amazing at this. He knows when to talk more, joke around with the people he’s interviewing, and when to simply be there to provide a platform for others to speak. I definitely appreciate his sensitivity to tone and his genuine personality!
My husband blocked alot of his childhood memories even simple ones. His sister told him about so many things they went through and how the mom treated them. He almost had a panic attack realizing he couldn't remember years from his child hood. Like a big gap in his life.
Same. I’m 43 and can’t remember my childhood other than a few flashes of of scenes, maybe seven of them altogether. Are you saying you CAN remember your whole childhood?
@clairerousseau5759 I can't remember my whole detailed childhood but I can remember since I was perhaps 3 to 4 years old and from there a memory from each passing year. He can't remember a big gap of his childhood and most are related between he was abandoned by his mom for 3 years. He can't remember things that happened during the time with her. Anyways I'm just saying to him to find out about that caused him bad emotions.
@@alicevill2259 I hope he gets better. Now I think something is wrong with me because I hardly remember anything from childhood. I thought that was everyone’s experience…I guess not.
“ You can save a child’s life without rescuing them. Everyone wants to rescue children, but there is some children you may not be able to rescue. But you can still save their life by being good. You may not even know the child needs rescuing. Just be kind because that could be the thing that makes life worth living “ beautifully said😭❤
Just being nice and doing kind things can help significantly. you don't have to to dramatic things or dive into their trauma to help them. Just be kind
I recently confronted my mom about the abuse I received as a child and she acted like it never happened, I had no memory loss, she just straight up laughed it off and acted like it want anything
Unfortunately my parents are the same. I confronted them about the shitty things theyve said to me growing up, the put downs, the insults, etc. and they shrug it off and deny it and tell my that my “behavior” caused them to change and all this nonsense.
So tragic 💔 😞 😢 😪 that black family was wiped out all so some kkk weirdos could get their jollies off...And to think people believe black Americans don't deserve reparations is baffling🤯🤯🤯🤯
I thought I had a morbid imagination, but this was so far beyond anything I could even comprehend. I'm delighted to hear she is doing so well for herself
Great story, I have always felt compelled to pursue knowledge and power in order to contribute to the betterment of humanity. Been seeking a means to be influential and find out more knowledge about the human race and about the things not everyone is destined to know. I wish to fulfill the goal of enlightenment passed down by our forebears.
I can totally relate to your passion, if all that is what you desire then i think it's achievable. Joining the Illuminatus Brotherhood can lead to the enlightenment you seek and more. I am well aware that the idea of this group may sound mythical but it is possible to join.
@@Margart526 Yeah I acknowledge that misunderstanding can occur when people encounter what they don't fully grasp, especially in this internet era. The Illuminatus advocates for the acceptance of all religions. You can look up "Anthony Szymon". Will give you clarity and answers to any questions you might have.
She talked about uncovering the memory of her sister, and then another memory coming that was "just really upsetting" and my heart absolutely shattered. I'm glad she didn't share the second memory if she wasn't comfortable sharing it, but I can't even begin to imagine how terrible it was for her to keep it back after all of the other awful things she discussed. The things that she went through are things that nobody should ever even have to think about. I'm glad that she's happy and healing now, but I'm heartbroken that she has to heal. She was a little girl.
I had to stop after three minutes. Oh my goodness. I’m glad you gave her an entire episode and I look forward to finishing this video when I’m in a better head space. She already seems like such a strong, inspiring woman.
Please don't watch if if its too triggering for you. Take care of yourself. I put trigger warnings throughout my memoir, most of which is not very triggering. and is focused on how I healed
@@maryknight4450 I was able to watch the entire video! I teach so thinking of what happened to you happening to my students was too much for me in the moment. BUT I did come back and finish watching the video and I thank you for sharing your story! You are an amazing individual
I’m glad that she mentioned emotional abuse is just as bad as the other abuse and not to compare the pain of one person to your abuse or someone else’s abuse. I was at that moment belittling my own experiences with abuse because of her story. What happened to her was absolutely on another level, but that doesn’t make what happened to me any less wrong. She’s such a brave woman and I will make it a point to check out her content. Thank you Anthony for being the bridge to these people. It means so much 💜
Listening to all of this... It makes me realize just how much a human being can endure and still stay alive and grow old, while the brain automatically does its job to protect you and keep you alive. I've been scared to look at all my suppressed emotions and all that trauma, thinking that it's too much, but if she can recover from all those horrors, then I can recover from my trauma as well. This is a light of hope. I'm glad she's sharing her story, and I wish her all the best.
Good luck, really. It's easier with a good therapist, but it's always hard. Breathe deep, let yourself grieve for yourself, make sure to do something that makes you happy after.
@@sydneygorelick7484 careful with therapy because what you say is still calculated. It even adds stress to your life with appointments and extra gas money. Talk to someone that loves you. If you have at least one person that does you’re luckier than some
When I was going through a traumatic birth and postpartum with my first baby during covid, my sweet mama in the UK started experiencing 'flashbacks' or repressed memories of her childhood (caused by her heightened concerns and fears for me at the time). At the age of 53 she started remembering sexual abuse and rape from the age of 5/6 years old. It's been almost 4 years of her being in constant therapy and she's doing so well now. Children's brains are just so incredible, they're wired to self protect.
I know what you mean. But her alternative state would be misery... So she decides to wear a smile instead. Acceptance is really difficult. The ones who hold onto their trauma and appear distraught are only hurting themselves
After a while you become numb to the memories. They seem more like remembering a movie (a horror movie), you basically disassociate. You remember what happened to you, but you don't really remember the pain, the fear. You only know.
It's not casual, it's detached. When you go through something traumatic you dissociate from it in order to survive. That's why it sounds casual. she knows it happened, but she doesn't feel it happened. It's a defense mechanism.
@@danbark4603 sure, but it's also true that the brain, as a coping mechanism to prevent you from constantly being in fear and pain, blocks out certain emotions and/or memories of traumatic events, so it is possible to be "numb", in a way, to those events or parts of them It's also possible to become less affected by it when you talk about it over and over to therapists and interviewers. Maybe your brain becomes more used to it and it feels more like a story than reality. I don't know what the case is for her.
Im happy u chose a different pace for this video , her story is insane and I think this editing style is the correct choice. shes so incredibly brave for sharing this online, im so happy she managed to find happiness now
I, at about 8/9, recalled a memory of a girl (11/12) forcing me to kiss her neck under her bed whenever we went to their house. There was no traumatic feelings associated with it, it was just weird, but I remembered it and asked my mom about them. She indeed recalled the family and said the girl was weird. I told her what had happened and she said she was so sorry about that. That was just one, very minor, emotionally neutral memory so I cannot IMAGINE what she went through as the memories came. Thank you for bringing her story to light.
I forgot to mention, I had suppressed this memory until I was about 35. I can’t even begin to imagine suppressing all of Mary’s memories and then to be flooded with them… and so many. ❤️
i’m so glad this woman is alive to tell her story, she deserves justice and she is so strong it’s insane how she can even talk about this! i hope she is living her life to the fullest💕🙏
Her voice is so expressive ... While still being so calm, so reserved, and so strong. Thank you telling your story and getting awareness out about this. I was so happy to hear your life now is good. You deserve only love.
She’s so warm and sweet. I am amazed by her ability to transform her pain into healing for other people, truly a beautiful example of the human spirit.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
I’m a psychology student and this syndrome is just so fascinating, I studied this topic in a module last semester and find it so interesting. I had to share this video with my psychology group chat. I am so sorry that you went through this, I am so happy you came through the other side stronger and happier
Syndrome? You mean repressed memories? There was a big controversy about false memories of satanic abuse in the 80’s and 90’s being triggered by psychotherapists and hypnosis. While it is possible to repress memories, something this big seems incredibly unlikely. I believe she believes it but without any shred of evidence, it’s hard to believe such stories. Knowing what we do about false repressed memories and satanic panic.
Child sexual abuse including that organised by groups of adults, is not a syndrome. It is a fact of torture and cover up. It happens in school, sports buildings, in the back room of pubs, in ordinary houses, in cellars, in forests, underground tunnels/spaces. It happens in hospitals and all sorts of places.
If this is the censored version...😢 then I don't even want to think about her recalling these horrific memories uncensored. No amount of therapy or years that pass by will cure her trauma but I hope she has been able to work on finding peace within.. some way.. some how. Many people wouldn't be able to make it through something like this so I hope she knows how strong and courageous she is for sharing her story with the world.
I could never have believed ANY parent could be so vile to their own child until I read Anneke Lucas's story long before finding out about Mary. How these incredible women survive is truly inspiring.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
Yes! I've heard Anneke's story, too & believe it. In the 90s MSN had chat rooms for singles. I worked 2nd shift & would chat on MSN when I got home at 1-2:00 a.m. Some ppl I talked to, men & women, told me stories like Anneke's. It's also alarming how many abusrs are out there.
I just looked up Anneke Lucas and what went down in Belgium and ughhhh. Humanity feels so monstrous and hopeless. Idk how people can do this to anyone much less children.
She’s so strong and beautiful. She made me believe that there’s an escape. My trauma is veryyy different but as she said, we shouldn’t compare, because trauma is trauma. It’s so healing to see how comfortable she is talking about it and also she’s so much happier and better and wants to help. I just want to thank her for doing this, i appreciate her so much and for doing this. She just became such and inspiration for me.
I love how beautiful Mary is. Her eloquence, the love exuding from her, the way she starts off by talking about how good she is NOW... she's amazing! You're blessed with such resilience and this brings hope.
I have a disturbing image from my childhood that comes up sometimes and I really can't tell if it's a repressed memory or just genuinely something from my imagination. but as a survivor of abuse her story still resonates with me and I hope to have her strength one day♡
My fiance has the same thing. He keeps questioning whether it's real or not ..all I can say is trauma lives in the body. The way your body reacts when remembering those things are very telling.
As someone who had repressed memories like this they're probably real. That's what happens you can't tell if it really happened or not. Please try to speak to someone you can trust about them. If you need to you can dm me as I'm a stranger who will listen and not tell anyone. Good luck ❤
i was in the same boat, but i was suprised to find that my trauma therapist said it didnt matter wether it was real or not- it mattered that i was suffering from it. we still did the trauma therapy and it worked very well! i hope u find your peace
More than likely, it's both. It's probably truth sprinkled with exaggeration. People tend to remember things somewhat correct, but with certain details wrong. Doesn't mean the memory isn't real, but that it's not entirely true. Maybe try writing about it or drawing it and see what happens? Sometimes when you're not actually thinking about something and just doing it, things come out better
Anybody doubting that recovering memories is a thing.. I experienced the same thing. I was SA before the age of 10 by a family member and a piece of the memory would pop up at random times throughout my teen years, and I’d just push it away instinctively. I always thought it was some messed up dream.. I didn’t fully recover the memory until about over a decade later. It seriously f***ed me up cause I spent so long recovering from the emotional/verbal abuse by the same person, this was a whole new hurdle to get over.
(TW) This terrifies me right now. I’m at a point in therapy where I’m beginning to validate my experiences, and I have some similar type of memories that I still don’t know the full extent of. Just now reading all these comments, I am even becoming more aware just how much we are told that you can’t forget. I forgot some thing as “small“ as my mother saying “sorry is not good enough“ every time I would try to say I was sorry, even if it wasn’t my fault. The fact that I had suppressed that alone was extremely shocking to me when I recalled it because I wasn’t sure how I could forget something so “small“. Over time the other ones faded away and I thought the ones I could recall was the worst I had been through. It wasn’t the worst, it was just the ones my mind could handle living with and using as a means to give people a hint that I didn’t have a great childhood. You can absolutely block out anything I believe. The consciousness has an incredible survival system, and we haven’t been giving it enough credit.
I have one (known) distinctly blocked memory. I know everything from before. The order of what happened after is confusing but I was in shock. All I know is that witnesses said I was screaming. I don’t remember screaming. I don’t remember the nature of what happened when I was attacked. And I figured out a long long time ago that I don’t want to unblock that memory. I know I was physically attacked. I know what the threats were before it happened. I don’t need to remember the details.
I think it's the big difference between memories that come back spontaneously in fragments and memories that are suggested by bad therapists. It's been shown that it is absolutely possible to induce false memories in people by telling them something happened or by suggesting it strongly. Especially if it come from someone with authority. And the tragic thing is that the false memories absolutely feel real and are just as traumatic as real memories. But in your case, your memories came back spontaneously in fragments, so they actually came from your past and not from external suggestions.
as a pagan/satanist: mary, from the bottom of my heart, i am so sorry. satanic rituals are not common and typically a stereotype, but mary, you are walking proof that these situations need to be more serious. i promise you that not all satanists are like this, but i am so sorry for the experience you’ve had with my religion. im glad that you could find a release in religion, religious abuse typically causes a falter with religion and im SO proud you were able to find comfort in a new religion. you are strong and powerful and im so proud of you for escaping. im happy you’ve healed and proud of you for sharing your story and spreading awareness on this awful religious abuse. you are truly amazing.
I’m so happy she’s enjoying life after suffering something so traumatic. The fact she has people doubt her story means that people really don’t know how evil some people can be towards children. Keep enjoying your life Mary, you deserve it.
As someone who went through some insane brutal things myself I have had people doubting me too. Its a sad and scary position to exist in and a big reason why often people dont reveal what happened to them. Ive also been lucky to have those I love care and believe in me
She is the bravest, strongest woman ive ever seen. i cant believe she had to go through all of that, ive never seen anthony so horrified. Im so glad shes starting to enjoy life again after all of that
Humans aren’t far from animals it’s a spectrum those more evil are on the animalistic side of the spectrum and the good people are more on the humane side more civilized side where we have grown
Well, I think you'd be "happy" to know that this story is bs. It's just parroting the talking points of the satanic panic(if you don't believe me, then read the wikipedia article on it)
I’m in disbelief of what this lady went through! She’s so strong and brave for talking about it. She she said in the Seattle area, it gave me chills. I live in the Seattle area, and I always hear about how it’s a very Satanic area, but had never heard any stories about it until now.
Actually there is no evidence of what she says. You can look up the scientific research. It is highly unlikely that repressed memories of satanic abuse exist and you can retrieve them through hypnosis at a later time. Hypnosis is not at all a reliable state as you are very suggestable by the therapist and imagination can play weird games.
@@mojobear93yeah these recovered memories of "Satanic Ritual Abuse" are BS. The manufacturing of those memories caused many innocent people to go to prison. It's part of the Satanic Panic and doesn't exist.
I remember this channel on RUclips called Phoenix and Aria and they basically shared very similar stories of sex abuse and ritualistic abuse from a school they attended in England and also from their parents. It’s so scary how common this is.
Paris Hilton is starting to speak out about sexual abuse while at boarding school. I'm sure she's leaving out the rituals. She said if it can happen to someone like me, then it could happen to anyone😢
There’s a book about a german woman who has eerily similar stories too, she developed multiple personalities to deal with the extreme abuse, and only realized when she was grown and her father wanted her to bring her own children to the sect. She doesn’t name the exact place it happened, but she does name a bigger city I also live close too. Terrifying.
@@ginster458 It really is terrifying to realize that this happens all over the world, and in places that are near you... And it's very frustrating as well, because what can one do about it? x__x
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
Mary is right - kindness really helps… because you never know what people are going through, children or adults. Thank you for sharing your story, salute!
Mary is a beautiful, _beautiful_ soul. I appreciate her kindness, her courage and her honesty about what she's been through ❤ Thank you, Mary. From the bottom of my heart....and from all the other survivors, _thank you!_
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
I don't know how Anthony got through this interview, I'd be a wreck. I'm so impressed with both of you, even if this was a hard listen it is worth so much more to have heard it
I was raised in a cult, and while my childhood was absolutely nowhere near hers, a lot resonates. I'm so glad she started with "my life is good now". Like. When you are born into a house that's on fire, you assume that's how the whole world is, and coming out of that is absolutely one of the hardest things. Forgiveness is a big one, and so, so difficult. That and radical acceptance. (DBT works wonders, folks. Trust me, trust Anthony and trust her. Just go to therapy. It really does get better.) Radical acceptance is the mental action of "ok, this all happened to me, and it wasn't my fault, and I deserved none of it, but. But. It happened, and I couldn't do anything then, but I can accept my past happened while building me and a future I want." It's weird. And it's not easy by any means to just accept your past, but, once you start accepting it, it's like you're also letting it go. And the more you accept and it is let go, the more free you feel. It's not going to magically fix everything, lmao noooo, but it does change the entire game for you. And "crazy". If I had a penny...and what's really ridiculous is when you're in therapy, because childhood trauma can and does cause ✨️personality disorders✨️, people will claim to be there for you no matter what, until you show a symptom that you're sometimes completely unaware of, and then they call you crazy, horrible, ab*sive and more. Nothing hurts more than being reduced to what you're trying to fix because it was broken as a child. I have BPD due to my past, and I've been dehumanized so many times. "You're not hurt, it's just your BPD." "You don't know how to actually love. It's just your fixations of having an fp (favorite person) and your intense emotions." It's really something to climb out and away from your past, get help, and still the world, and even your closest loved ones will hate you at some point. So...to everyone, I know the saying is cliché, but everyone is fighting a battle you don't know about. To quote Sense8, "life doesn't always give us the chance to show our best selves." Be kind. Love first. Give the benefit of the doubt to the Karen in Walmart. I'm not saying get involved, or something, but instead of being judgmental towards her (we can all admit we love a good Karen freakout, it's ok 😂), maybe shift your thoughts to why she's screaming and whatnot. What happened, or is happening and this was the last bit of willpower she had and she snapped? Especially now, when everything is bonkers in this world is kindness from others, even if it's just shifting how you think. I hope everyone finds their way to their healthy happiness. ❤
Thank you so much for this post. I’m profoundly certain that I have undiagnosed BPD (was nearly diagnosed, but the diagnosis was ‘too stigmatizing’ - yes, it’s stigmatizing, but proper treatment begins with a proper diagnosis - and I was given paperwork to assess myself for it - like that went well) and this helps so much. All the love! ❤
@Thea Clement LUCKY. OH LAWD. I wish they'd just given me the paperwork. The testing is more than a bitch. It took months and nothing good happened during. Oh man. But! You're right, and it's absolutely why I was willing to go through the test. Knowing the name of your war is half the battle. When you know what's going on, you then know how to fix it. Proper treatment does work, regardless of what it is. Some take ketamine, some do DBT or CBT, other mood stabilizers and so on. As long as you put the effort in, the treatment absolutely works. For me it was DBT and Polyvagal. I'm not going to pretend I'm all healed, lmao nooo. But I know my work, and the work of others is not in vain, and we can live better. Happier. I wish you all the luck and love, friend! 💜💜🤟🏼🤟🏼 (Also, I'm proud of you. Very much so. We have so many wars we fight everyday, and therapy and meds can be a crazy mess to sort out. I'm proud of you for trying, even when every day is a war and you're trying to turn the tide of it. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, and I am so proud of others who, disorder, illness, whatever it is, that still try. That still get up in the morning. Even if it's to get up, brush your teeth, or grab some coffee and go right back to bed for the day. I'm proud of you. 💜)
My heart broke hearing the black man and the little girl. How can anyone do something so cruel? How can anyone do that to their own child? I would die for my daughter. I cannot even fathom what these poor children and people had to endure at the hands of those monsters
5:30 she wanted to stay with the good people…the ones she knew would die. When I say, my soul broke for her and the other victims listening to this; I can’t even explain.
Mary, you are such an inspirational woman. I have been taken advantage of physically and sexually so many times I've lost count and almost killed by past boyfriends and random men. I was a drug addict and now I am 6 years clean. Now I am in a good place in my life and have healed tremendously. There is always hope for survivors!
Anthony, I truly thank you for using your platform to showcase such stories. You may not know how much it means to people like me I thankfully was never in a cult, but I've endured childhood abuse. So having felt one person's kindness shine a light in the dark when I needed it the most, really made me relate to her saying that you need to be kind to kids. And be kind to everyone really, because you don't know whose inner child you may be healing or just whose bad day you're brightening.
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I’ll totally watch it. Thanks Mr. Padildo
Cool!You should bring cherdleys next time,another talented RUclips comedian
Thank you for making sure people are heard.
It's astonishing that a human being who endured such horrific emotional torture during their entire childhood can even string a sentence together. She deserves all credit for the tremendous compassion and emotional intelligence and love she has found for herself. She is an amazing role model.
She's absolutely phenomenal.
I agree
I’m surprised she hasn’t split into multi personalities or something
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories.
In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
@@NF40375 that’s part of the issue DID is debated becuase of situations like this exact one, if it is real this would be the perfect case of dissociation. So it’s really a messy topic, that being said the fact she didn’t go into full psychosis is honestly incredible.
Yall it's not true it's a classic satanic panic
When she said “my life is really good now” made me tear up IMMEDIATELY
I also cannot fathom how she can still believe in God after all that, wow.
No me too, I'm so glad she's doing well now
@@michikomanalang6733 that is faith--people gave her her bad situation and god gave her the strength to overcome it and accede to the better life she has now
@@michikomanalang6733 God is good to me!
@@anonymouselixir thanks
" little girl, go and tell what happened"...I teared up. This poor lady
this felt like a God thing to me..an angel in the darkness
Was it proven that her memories aren't true?
@@aurizzistic what about her cousin though? He experienced the same thing and he even told her he did
@@aurizzisticGive some sources?
Edit to add: "Google it" is not a source
@gungeligung"Could you provide me with sources?"
"just google lol"
Thats not how you provide sources my guy
the black man who was being tortured in a cross but still had more humanity than anyone envolved because he still tried to save the little girl in the scene really broke me
You really believe this?
@@hilbilliethere’s documented pictures of this happening in history. Are u slow
only white people believe this dumb shit they cant tell when white people are writing for black characters lol he was like the dude in Green mile? like bagger Vance ? Like forest gumps friend?? a white woman made this bs up. Black man white cross lol gtfoh! @@hilbillie
Ikr? And then those creatures killed that brave man
yes they killed the brave man in her imagination lol why was he brave again? lol He died quietly lol @@goodmorning2386
The story about the black man and his family has me in tears. It's sad that we don't know who these people are and she can't report it because she doesn't know where it happened. Those people deserve to be known too.
I hope that maybe somebody in that family is still alive and knows what happened to their family members. Maybe this will reach them, who knows?
It seems like they are all thankfully dead. At least thats smth :/
@@Jasmine-ow9og I thought more like extended family/descendants who know their family members died in a suspicious way and maybe know some circumstances
It’s fucking made up, don’t worry.
The saddest part is what people are willing to believe with no corroborating evidence. This is why people are still in the process of being acquitted today after spending decades in jail from the first wave of the satanic panic.
Example- John Quinney was just exonerated a few short months ago after spending 25 years in prison and the time since as a registered sex offender based on satanic panic accusations in 1991.
"She's mine, I can do what I want." Wow. That is horrifying. I'm glad she survived.
"You tell what happened." Oh god. That women's last act was to give a little girl a reason to live.
This shit didn’t happen
@@jbarbeau92 why do you think that? Is it so unreasonable to see how shitty some people are? Have you not seen how many horrific things happen every day?
@@jbarbeau92 you definitely don't know that, unless you have proof it didn't happen always treat it as it has. This type of behavior of yours kills people, and unless you're a sicko psychopath quit saying stuff like this...
@@axeonee Just ignore him, youtube trolls say stuff like this because they're just attention seeking. It's quite sad honestly
What happened to her parents
To me, the most striking part of this video is how incredibly normal her and her family all look in the photos. They're affectionate, well put together, smiling, doing a range of family activities. They look like people you could see anywhere in your community and not suspect a single thing. It makes me think of how many other people are experiencing things just as horrific as Mary did, and no one will ever know.
They look very abnormal in some of the pics in the doc. A couple were downright terrifying
@@subg8858 the one in front of their house where she's leaning against her dad, neither of them are smiling and her eyes are so empty. It broke my heart.
Abuse is surprisingly normal in a lot of places, especially when it comes to a parent physically assaulting their kid for 'unacceptable behaviour', which is just an excuse really. The signs of abuse are subtle so often overlooked. I was neglected and starved for a while, but no one saw an issue until one teacher realised I wasn't eating at breaks. It took a few years before this symptom alone was seen.
As a survivor of similar atrocities I can say that monsters do not look like monsters. They look like the fun well respected people in the community w a nice smile. People would say “why do you hate your dad? He’s so nice and fun.” Little did they know that that fun cool guy had been raping and torturing his first born daughter (me). It’s a good lesson to not let your guard down no matter how someone looks
Some abusers make sure to project a perfect image. I also learned about false memories and therapists who were… frankly planting false memories of satanic abuse into peoples brains under hypnosis around the time this woman would have been 37.. I’m not invalidating her story but this video did make me think of that.
My mom had a very similar story. Buried alive with a corpse & a breathing tube, raped by most of the men she knew growing up, forced to do other things that I won’t list here. We lost her in 2020. She was 74. I so wish there was a way for me to investigate and learn more. Her story could make for a horror movie. So many unbelievable things. So many mysteries. Such a tortured life…and she was a brilliant woman, the most loving mother I ever could have had. Many of her memories came back during counseling with our pastor when I was very young. She was in her early 40’s.
So awful 😢
There is evil in this world. We are in the midst of a spiritual warfare and people can believe it or not, it’s here. Good versus evil. We have this illusion that life is supposed to be perfect so no one talks about the bad things or says the bad things are all made up. I pray you find answers God bless hun❤
@@realpocahontas1776also way too many people that use religion and Jesus to justify their evil and to manipulate people into thinking it’s ok
What country are you from? Are you from the USA? Do you keep in contact with your moms family maybe hou can ask them about this.....
Your poor Mum. ♥️💐
@@bodgiepotbuddahid guess most of her family was behind the abuse, though.
She should be proud of herself for breaking the cycle and protecting her kids, what a kind, strong and wonderful woman. I don't know her but I'm genuinely filled with so much pride
She is really very strong
thank you
@@maryknight4450 you are really an amazing person
@@cannedbread-ri8fx THANKS!!!
As someone who wants to be a juvenile probation officer “you can save a child’s life even if you can’t rescue them” has me tearing up
It's true... I hope and I pray over your future so that you may love what you do, with a strong heart and a brave mind. Good luck and I am so grateful you have a strong heart to even want to do something so vital and wonderful 🥺😍🙏
I remember the female officer that just happened to need the restroom when I was taking a "break" during my interview process, after my abuse. She didn't say a word, but I knew she was in there to make sure I wasn't trying to leave the planet. I didn't want her to get blamed for anything that would of happened to me. She didn't deserve that. I went back to the interview instead. Now my life is so much better. I'm glad she was there. Being there is enough, sometimes. Thank you for choosing to just be there.
Have you considered public defense work instead?
as a preschool teacher, I have to agree
@@greengal111796 I do have my bachelors degree in criminal justice. I just want to find the right fit. I don’t to work somewhere where they can’t interact with the kids and honestly try to help them
The first time I brought a family member into a therapy session, it was my mom. We were discussing the abuse I faced as a child with the therapist and my mom brought up a time my dad had pressed my face into the wooden floor with his knee for minutes so hard one side of my head was entirely purple. I was stunned listening to her, I could not remember ANY of this. Later on when I tried my hardest to think back to those days, I remember one morning putting on makeup for the first time to go to school and not knowing how to apply any of it. I later realized I had been trying to cover up the bruises and my mom confirmed this memory was correct. It's insane the things our brain is capable of to protect us.
Why didn’t your mother take you away from this terrible abuse
@@daisybuttercup6801usually it isn’t just as simple as that, the mother could be dependant on the father for money or housing which is common- and plus the mother could’ve been experiencing abuse too
@@hime8903 that’s no excuse , she could have run away with her children to a police station, or a refuge centre , someone would have protected them. These mothers who let child abuse happen are cowards.
@@daisybuttercup6801 very easy to criticise when your not in that situation, in a ideal world you would be correct but some people are trapped in their abuse by reasons such as fear or lack of understanding
@@daisybuttercup6801 you clearly have never been in such a situation..
I literally CANNOT understand how people could do such disgusting things to their OWN children and make their children suffer. It's so incomprehendable! Mary is so unbelievably strong!
@@gg_ingy not saying all satanists or luciferians are like that, but following satan makes some people do some of the most evil things imaginable or unimaginable. From my perspective, it's better to be with God in the mighty name of Jesus of Nazareth the Christ, than to be without Him or some other spiritual being.
@@gg_ingy all children deserve parents, but not everybody is meant to be a parent. Especially in these end of days.
Because they rejected God and enjoy Satan, he wants us dead.
@Andrés Mcguire-Buckley I'm in the actual spiritual Satanist community and I have never encountered anyone in it whom would harm a child. We do rituals to make ourselves happy or improve at things, mostly.
@@yoyohayli you and the others of your community are an exception, I did say earlier: "not saying all satanists or luciferians are like that".
It’s so eerie seeing pictures of Mary with her parents knowing all this
Yea- I was actually chilled honestly, it was almost too real for me 😢
The one with her father and how he's smiling at her and she looks uncomfortable as well, its truly disgusting
i know, they seem so normal. its crazy imagining these psychotic things happening in the 50s/60s/70s
Or the Dali Lama as of late lol
“And no wonder, for Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light.”
- Corinthians 11:14-15
16:25 "Many people in this organization are accused parents" that line made me gasp. Practically a whole organization created to gaslight victims of abuse into thinking that their memories are false.
Trash 🗑 🚮 parents & the people that support them.
That is exactly what I was thinking
these people are exactly the reason why victims of this type of abuse are doubted
They had to find a way to gaslight the victims. States were passing laws so that accused child molesters could be sued. "False memories" was the idea they came up with. Decades earlier Freud came up with--the accusations are sexual fantasies. That wouldn't work today. Probably.
Does she have any proof of this statement though? Big accusations to throw at people who disagree with a view.
"We don't need to rescue children, we need to save them by being gentle to them ". What a great human being
By saving a children what are you doing ? You’re rescuing them right ?…… right?
@@patoteto2 Watch the video to understand haha
That's not what she said. She said "You can save a child's life even if you can't rescue them.". There's a big difference.
And yes, you can save another's life, whether it's a child or an adult, by being kind and gentle.
When she said “I looked at my mom and I really wanted her to care” completely broke me. I can’t imagine a little child going through that. I thought I was ready for this interview but I cried through this entire thing. She is so strong and resilient.
You know how it is, many children got beaten until they become purple by their parents but they still reach to high them to ease the reason why their parents have been upset while on the other hand those parents think they have done good because the children still love them.
you believe this woman? smh lol unreal
Im from the netherlands here we got a case about a girl with the same stories she even told here baby was raped killed and burried during a satanic ritual by a top ranking minister. Real journalist (no conspiracy media) found so much evidence it Will keep you awake at night.
As children of abuse . We never stop loving our parents even if they do vile things to us . God jah . Is the only one who can fix all of this .
@@tonyamartin1425 I believe her
“I don’t want other victims to compare their trauma to me” comforts me in the worst way. I don’t remember a lot of my trauma, but I’m almost sure it wasn’t this and there was a part of me that went “see, you haven’t gone through anything like that, how could you be this messed up?”
Thank you for this video, and thank you for not making me feel like I’m faking my issues just because I wasn’t in a cult.
I'm glad you got the message I wanted to give. YOUR healing is important, no matter what you experienced. I send you my comfort and my concern. Take care of YOU.
I don’t know where I picked it up, but I always say “whether you’re drowning in 10ft of water or 100ft of water, you’re still fighting for your life”
I've been feeling this shame and guilt as well and when she said that I started crying because that means so much to survivors. I've only just begun my healing journey and it's so hard somtimes...
@@maryknight4450 Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry for what happened to you and thank you for showing us that there is light at the end of our healing journey. Thank you for your courage.
People like to play the Pain Game; comparing their struggles to others. An attempt to use their suffering to one up someone else, as if it's something to brag about.
I hate the Pain Game. I will never play it.
Your suffering may not be as "bad" or "intense" as someone else's in their opinion. But your suffering was real. It IS real. My best example is my menstrual cramps. Women try to compare their menstrual pain. I as a woman do not. I am aware that mine is extreme, but that's my normal. But what is MY normal, is NOT another woman's normal. I know that pain. And she is in pain. And I will use my familiarity to comfort her.
Your trauma may not be as "bad" as some may think. But did you go through it? Did you survive? Are you surviving now? You pushed through so much. And no one can take that away. Your trauma hurt you. Just like someone else's trauma hurt him/her.
Your pain is real. Your suffering happened. But your recovery will happen too.
her comment about feeling confused when her study session with her teacher was over because she was expecting something bad to happen or for him to hurt her because she was so used to the adults in her life hurting her that when he didn’t, it didn’t feel normal… oh my god, that breaks my heart. what a remarkably strong lady ❤️
thank you
I feel like this with my partner sometimes. He's amazing, kind and my best friend. But still, sometimes I brace myself for the verbal or physical assault because that's what I experienced with my parents.
@Mary Knight god bless you I have so much respect and love for you I'm so sorry for what you have been through may god protect you in every way amen ,your so strong and brave xx❤
@@holovoid3306 Omg, the way I struggled with this same thing. Everything is much better now, tho. I'm so glad u also found someone that's so good to u!!!!
can we please give anthony credit for being so incredibly respectful. he is so good at making his interviewees comfortable even when it’s a horrible, heart wrenching conversation.
That was on my mind as well. He’s good at what he does. He needs a late night show, get rid of the unprofessional goobers on tv now.
He also so strong to be able to hear out all of these story’s for multiple of episodes all for the sake of helping people find a voice
She is amazing to be able to tell her story
Most definitely - my hat off to you Anthony for holding such sacred space for Mary to tell her story and change lives. You helped her reach out to people she couldn't have touched otherwise. Beautiful unity community sharing.
Yes, he's wonderful. Like the son everyone wishes they had.
As a camp counselour, what both of you said about children is sooo true. Just being kind to kids, any time we can, can be so crucial.
yes
the quote that she said at her father's grave "God is the only father I've ever had because fathers are protective" made me stop in my tracks. I have never thought about that ever before and I love how her faith is so present in her life even after everything she's been through
thank you
I think it’s powerful, especially considering her parents believed in the other guy. Mary you’re a true inspiration ❤
I know I was worried she would become traumatized of crosses and Jesus in general after what she witnessed from such a young age, but I'm glad it helped build her faith even more!
she is so strong and incredibly brave!
How can you believe in a god protecting you when you went through this. You got lucky you didn't get murdered.
She is right to speak about it. It needs to be spoken about. My older brother SA me when I was 4-6/7 and he was 16. He did the same thing to our cousin, she was 5 and he was 21. She’d just had her leg amputated from cancer. It was the worst time of my life. I’m 42 now and I’m finally speaking out. The more it’s talked about the more people will realize this is an issue that is too often swept under the rug. Families would rather keep it a secret than to be associated with a known pedophile and be the target of backlash. That’s the sad fact.
I am so sorry I hope you healed ❤ No one ever deserves that and I hope you got justice
Nothing is more brave than speaking up. I haven’t been brave enough to speak up or report about it but seeing stories like yours make me feel safer to do it. We’re in this together 💖
Same thing happened to me. I’m 18 now, and my brother molested/SA me multiple times between the ages of 6-9 when he was 15-18.
I totally relate to the sweeping under the rug. I told my parents what happened, and I genuinely do believe they think they’re doing the best thing for me by keeping this a secret but idk.
@@GreyWithAnE42fuck I hope your brother is in jail one day. don’t be afraid to go forward (once you’re ready in your own time) as you’re an adult now and are separate from your parents
@@presleysmith6779 in the middle of healing and no justice.
My husband is a survivor of occult ritualistic and sexual abuse from his mother, aunts and uncles, and cult members. It's a miracle he survived after the beatings, cuttings, rape, and poisoning. I feel for this woman.
thanks
I hope your husband is happy now and cut off from those horrible people. My heart is breaking as I'm thinking of an innocent little boy who would at the time think that was normal. You're honestly a saviour to him for understanding and loving him no matter what he's been through ❤❤
thanks for your comments!
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Mary has been so strong through so much. She did a documentary where therapists who didnt believe in her lived experiences just told her right to her face that her experiences werent real and that child sexual abuse wasnt that bad ??? and she was so calm and collected. She is such a strong and amazing woman. My prayers go out to her.
thanks
@Mary Knight thank you for sharing your story and being a voice for so many. ❤️
Man, the urge to become a vigilantly grows and grows everyday
Can we line up those therapists and slap them in the face. There needs to be consequences for mental health professionals who betray people that badly.
I get it, you want to think the world isn't that bad, it scares you, so it's easier to gaslight the patient in front of you. But buckle up, real life doesn't care if you think it's "impossible". Don't go into that line of work if you can't stand hearing the most horrific things.
@@alexia3552 fr
"Any chance you get be kind to children" 😭😭 This woman is an absolute saint.
Also tough as nails, going through all that and still managing to live an average life after her childhood
@@Mr_Noob-jp8nv thanks!
@@maryknight4450thank you for sharing your experience ❤
@@maryknight4450 Omg! i know i might be 6 months late, but you are such an amazing woman!
@@Kittenz_Party7 THANK YOU
her saying the part about not comparing trauma is so comforting for me, i don’t remember an entire year of my life but i know what happened and why i don’t remember it but she is so amazing and i wish i was as strong as mary
Hey I don’t know anything about your circumstances, but I hope you realize that just by surviving that you are strong. Things get rough, but just like trauma, strength isn’t something to be compared
@@lilylohmann614 that means so much to me, thank you so much
Thank you for your kind words. I hope you know that you are stronger than you think! It will take time, and I hope only the best for you on your journey to a healthy life!
Yes. A lot of people almost see it as a competition or feel like they can’t be suffering if someone else is going through things too. But that’s just not true and it can destroy you as a person. We must go through more to feel this way? No you do not need to validate your abuse or justify the lingering trauma. The message she sends is incredible. A truly inspirational woman
i have awful memory problems... they say its a symptom of ptsd but it does not make it easy to deal with. i have kinda lost hope that i would ever get help so i just accept that my memories are gone and i try to stay in the moment. i wish you all dealing with trauma strenght, its gonna be ok.
I have PTSD and had/have repressed memories. I once told my therapist I wish I'd never recovered those memories. She then told me "No, you wish it had never happened. But it did." That was so hard to hear, because it's true, but sadly we can't change history. I also agree forgiveness is not necessary, I will never forgive. I can accept, but never forgive. It kind of puts the responsibility in the victims hands.
I applaud you for taking the necessary steps to heal. I hope everything goes smoothly in your process 💖
@@RoyalPurpleDinosaur thank you x
take care of yourself, my fellow survivor.
I can’t imagine what she’s been through. Moral of the story, all kids deserve parents, not every parent deserves kids. ❤
very few parents deserve kids
A lot of this she likely hasn't been through. She may believe it, or think she remembers it, but there's absolutely no verifiable evidence that "satanic ritual abuse" exists. She's part of the satanic panic in the 80s and 90s.
@@alimhamad6532 That's a glass half empty way of looking at it with no evidence or statistics
@@pinkrosegurl6987 it’s true tho lol . majority of parents aren’t ready to have children think they are but aren’t . don’t give them enough ir too little attention , don’t feed them in a proper schedule , don’t take care of basic needs , curse around their newborns smoke around them do drugs, arguing , fighting and this is surface level can be much worse … shaking beating leaving shit in their diaper for hours causing rashes and much much worse ..people don’t realize they’re actually susceptible to stuff at all ages regardless of if their memory is strong . it can cause long term affects and majority of people have been messed up by their parents in some way whether they realize it or not , the way they act their decision making is all affects from trauma unknown or known . in some cases can cause full on severe mental health issues like multi personality , bipolar , chronic depression and many many many other things .
@pink rose gurl Nah so many of the people I know went through abuse by their parents. Even myself.
I'm amazed that this woman seems so down to earth and relatively well adjusted. She's a real soldier. It's heartbreaking that things like this happen even to this day.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories.
In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
A lil too happy
@@HappyHermitt why shouldn't she be? If anyone deserves heaps of happiness, wouldn't it be her?
She's probably suffering from dissociative identity disorder as are most survivors of this kind of abuse. This can make it appear as though someone is more functional than someone with less complex trauma.
Even to this day? Shoot, with the internet, the deep web, online child porn, and people and companies like Epstein and Balenciaga in the world, I'd say it's happening now much more than it was.
There's a reason she became a social worker even before she recovered those memories. Her subconscious put her in a position to save children the way she herself, should've been saved. What am amazingly strong human being. And as someone with recovered memories that were also corroborated by other victims it's a VERY real thing.
Exactly, that came to be as well.
I don't know about that ,I PERSONALLY WOULD NOT TRUST WITH ANY KIDS PERIOD, SHE LOOKS DEMONIC ,AND PEOPLE LIKE THAT A LIKELY TO DO IT TO SOMEONE ELSE.
The pure strength she has to do these interviews... the false memory foundation sounds like a super villain league, and she brought a camera. Powerful woman
thanks
As someone who’s been through extremely MINIMAL trauma compared to this and STILL go through so much PTSD because of that, I can’t imagine what she felt when everything was resurfacing. Memory blockage is absolutely real: me and my mom randomly remember the most insane things about my dad, and just look at each other like “Wow I can’t fucking believe we just thought that was normal at the time.”
Peace and love
Bless you, my fellow survivor
@@maryknight4450 You're a hero, spreading your story and seeing you like that. Gives so much strength, because that's how you know. You're not alone.
She even said do NOT minimize.... Trauma is trauma and abuse is abuse. ALL ARE VALID
Please remember, you deserve compassion and gentleness no matter what, there's no minimum threshhold for it to be "enough" to deserve to be treated 100% seriously. It sounds like you are aware of how much hurt it's caused you, and I just want you to hear that it matters, and you matter.
Trauma is never minimal❤
hearing her say that forgiveness isnt necessary for healing gave me the reassurance I needed, too many people say to forgive your abusers but that's the last thing I ever want to do. forgiving would mean at least to me that I'm disrespecting myself, disregarding my feelings and my abuse that I'm letting them get away with it. I needed to hear this, thank you so much
I feel like there’s levels.. some things are forgivable and others should not be ignored no matter how much one has moved on. Being able to move on with your life should not mean forgiving.
Forgiveness IS required. SELF-forgiveness. Otherwise fuck these bastards. This is war as far as some of us is concerned
How can a person truly forgive if you can't forget
Forgiveness is like saying my abuse is ok
@Pauline Loot we learn from our history.and recovery and survival is part of that but until I have forgotten I cannot honestly forgive
As a victim of 3 types of abuse. I appreciate her saying that it doesnt matter the type of abuse you suffer, it can affect you deeply. Basically saying no ones abuse is any less traumatic than another. It all effects us deeply in different ways, and we're all victims the same. I'm happy she survived, and is thriving. Bless her.
my therapist once said that some people might have a broken toe, and someone else might have a broken leg, but it doesn't make your broken toe any less painful. All abuse is bad, some of it is worse.
Stay Strong ❤
this woman is so strong to be able to even live through this, let alone talk about it. how sick do you have to be to put your own child through this much psychological torture, and to act this horrifically to innocent people and animals?? i'm in shambles when an animal or person dies of natural causes, let alone seeing them murdered in such cruel and revolting ways. absolutely disgusting. props to you for living on, mary.
@@midnightsan9917 You keep spamming this on every comment and it's getting annoying, lol.
It's really not that hard to believe her story with how depraved people can be.
I know. She went literally to hell and back and now she's helping others❤❤
@@LordVader1094 its probably a bot just report it
@@Xx_Oleander_xX not a bot I am trying to stop the spread of disinformation love. She obviously has trauma but it may not be exactly what it seems.
@@LordVader1094 she got memory recollection therapy at around the same time as the satanic panic. Plus recovered memory therapy is unproven at best.
As a survivor of severe sexual abuse, rape and torture by my own father, her words hit home. You just go through the motions simply to survive. Years later certain memories haunt you that you didn’t even know existed. I pray for her healing and hope she knows none of it was her fault.
So proud of you for coming so far!! You deserve infinite love hun ❤❤❤❤
@royal subliminals FCC’s rDrRrRf
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I hope you know it was not your fault either. 💕🫂🙏
🩵wish you the best
As a survivor of childhood SA, I can honestly say that our brains are truly incredible, and suppressing memories is part of a protective mechanism...
Hey I just want to say that you are strong and amazing and that what you have gone through are awful but you are strong and amazing and deserved to be love in a safe way. YOU ARE STRONG!!!❤️❤️
Yes but it's also true what she says that even though your memories might be blocked, the stress is still there. Surviving mechanisms are meant to just get away from a certain thread but when prolonged they take much of a physical toll since even though you don't remember why, your brain still works in trauma response mode. Once you start actively working on healing that trauma it's when you truly start to live. I wish you the best in your journey
Yes. That’s true. Unfortunately, our souls will never forget the feelings.
Yes. Very true. I've experienced it
What kills me is I forget most things still, like now that I'm away from abuse, but after so long my brain got so good at forgetting I'm now having issues remembering anything.
And shes so right about the being good to kids, my teachers all had figured out something was wrong, but they just didn't know what, so they'd let me stay late and were super kind honestly if it wasn't for a couple of them I wouldn't have made it.
when her mom said “i’m his only special little girl” and beat her. That is so so so saddening ☹️. It truly shows that trauma just repeats itself.
yes
This was easily the most disturbing episode I’ve ever seen on this channel. Absolutely horrifying what happened, I really think we as a society need to really be more aware of these things happening regularly.
I think as a society we should be teaching more about how our memories work and we should be teaching the history of the satanic panic. We should also be teaching media literacy & research and teach people to be free thinkers/skeptics because it's wild that people just take this at face value considering all we know about this topic
@@basedandsingletpilled928 I don’t disagree that there have been cases of therapists accidentally leading their patients to have false memories. However, there are so many more true cases of childhood abuse like this. I don’t know why you would automatically doubt someone who is telling her story. There is no evidence that her memories are false. On the contrary, she later found out that her cousins have similar memories.
You can see that Anthony was clearly shaken up as well although he was really good at managing it.
It doesn't surprise me that these people went to church every Sunday, that some of their friends who went to murder with them were friends from church (if I'm remembering what I heard correctly). There are some actually evil people in churches, they like to look "good" and pretend that they're doing nothing wrong "because I go to church." Sure sure there are nice people in churches too, but that culture is a breeding ground for some of the most vicious violence and hateful acts. I don't understand it.
@@basedandsingletpilled928 there’s much more proof of abuse and organised abuse, and papers that prove the CIA has done similar things. People want control. People know abuse controls people. That is not so much to get. You’re very privileged to ignore the horrendous abuse that has happened and still happens in the world
Parents please listen. YOUR CHILDREN ARE NOT YOUR PROPERTY NOR CAN YOU DO WHATEVER YOU WANT WITH THEM. That is why we have CPS OR CYS. Disgusting how some people treat children.
Unfortunately CPS and CYS fails most children.
So many parents view children as their property or as a toy instead of a human being. Like all these influencers using their kids as content
@@lillymurray8408 yeah cause 50% is that they cant do anything cause of bs reason or they just dont do enough to keep children safe or be given to safe people.
@@lillymurray8408 yup
cps has failed my biological sister many times and still continues to..
I love that Mary's here replying to comments, still trying to help other survivors. Her statement about not comparing traumas was particularly poignant. I had a friend tell me I didn't need to go to therapy because I wasn't bad enough to need it. What bs. Hate that it delayed my journey but my therapist has been so amazing helping me deal with anxiety and chronic pain
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To anyone tempted to compare trauma--somebody's doesn't have to be LESS than yours for you to matter, for what you've been through to matter. There's no hierarchy. If someone is suffering in any degree, it matters, and you are always worth seeking help to alleviate that suffering and to bring more peace into your life.
As an adult I consciously suppress bad memories. I can totally believe it's possible that children do this subconsciously.
Sad thing is when you suppressed the bad, I've suppressed the good too
@@sherryjohnson3804😢 same
Yes, it's a survival technique. 😢
It's absolutely true. I was r*ped when I was 11 years old and didn't remember it until my first consensual encounter when my boyfriend literally turned into that guy on top of me, I screamed, slapped him in the face, and realized I had felt it before. It really affected me to the point that I am on the asexual spectrum when I wasn't before that. It took me a long time to accept that happened to me and what that meant.
Sometimes I question whether my memories are something that I made up. But I recently spoke with an old friend and she remembers it precisely the same way. So I guess it's just a defence mechanism
She's incredibly brave but can I also say the sheer admiration I have for the black man on the cross? That even in such a terrifying and horrific moment, he pretended to go along with it to try and save the little girl. What a horrible thing for him to experience, and what strength for him to have tried his best 😢
agreed
I can't even process it. An absolutely minimal shred of relief for him specifically is that apparently he didn't live to see her be killed. I don't understand how people can so easily take life and do harm. You can just... not do that.
He is certainly in heaven and I'm sure him and that little girl are friends up there.
@@aurora8749 Oh damn! I made it through and this comment made me tear up.
@@aurora8749 So true.
Weird how I've come full circle here. I came back to RUclips as a way to distract myself from obsessive thoughts about my partially recovered memories of childhood abuse, etc. A few years ago, around age 30, I started to remember. It took over my life instantly. I couldn't focus on anything else no matter how hard I tried. Those puzzle pieces just kept falling into my lap and my brain was constantly working on putting them together. There were three main things here on YT that managed to hold my attention and get my mind off of the dark crap I had been suppressing for all those years: Creepypasta Narrations, Horror Game Playthroughs, and... SMOSH.
Now that I'm at a place where I'm ready to start looking into other people's stories that may be similar to mine... I find this one. I clicked, not even realizing what channel it was! It really made me incredibly happy to see Anthony giving a platform to RAMCOA survivors. There aren't many. As mentioned in the video, it's a topic that's SO very suppressed. It's hard for us to even find out more information about the types of things that may have happened to us or the people who most likely did them.
You might find my memoir helpful.
EXACTLY. It's even hard to find information, and sometimes without the information it's hard to jog any memories or it makes it feel like it's so rare that it couldn't have happened to you.
Yep. There is a reason for that!!!!!!!!
i hope anthony is taking care of himself , it can’t be easy to here these stories
So true
I agree man, apparently its possible to develop ptsd from other peoples stories. I knew a dude who worked with fire fighters and they would all tell him their worst stories as a type of debriefing therapy. Dude struggled with alcohol for a long time after
@MrFangsAlot You know mental illness is tricky right? Just coz he has a portrait of himself doesn’t mean he isn’t struggling one way or another. Don’t downplay people’s illness because of possessions
Its a lot harder living them. I hope Mary is taking care of herself.
It is like the psychologists that have mandatory hours with other psychologists so they could "discharge" because hearing those type of situations isn't light on their soul.
The smile on her face when she says she's so much happier now is the BEST PART of this interview. I'm proud of her for trusting herself, and I'm proud of everyone that's become part of her support system.
the way she was able to stay in a room with the founder of the false memory foundation and not sock him in the face is something i wouldnt be able to do in all my lifetimes
You really need to research the satanic panic and why the group was created in the first place.
Sock *her* in the face, you mean. The founder, Pamela Freyd, has a PhD in pedagogy. She is in her eighties, and also welcomed ME into her home, to talk about her sad family story. She offered me tea, we sat around looking at cards and letters from the months and years before their adult daughter got hypnotherapy, "recovered" a vague memory, and accused them of abuse. She cried a few times. It's been over 30 years and she hasn't seen her grandchildren since. That's who you would sock in the face.
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This woman is kind, strong, intelligent, courageous, and loving. She gives off such good energy, I'm in awe. What a wonderful woman.
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@@maryknight4450 Thanks for sharing your story and strength with others. Fantastic work. 🙏🏾 Blessings
Sometimes you hear a story so incredibly evil and heartbreaking you struggle to understand how it’s even possible… This is one of those stories.
Wishing Mary healing & happiness ❤️🩹
I hate that any of this is real and would love to bury my head under my pillow and wish it away but that would probably definitely dishonor the human beings that have endured and died from this kind of evil so here I am. I think sometimes the most we can do is to be there and listen. God. I hate this.
@Miranda don't worry, the ritualistic satanic stuff isn't real
Thanks Dana and Miranda!
@@Mirandanns it's false memories. They talk about them in this video as though we don't all have false memories lol don't worry, this isn't happening to kids. This is just a mass hysteria that's been waxing and waning since the late 1970s. Look into the satanic panic and the daycare sex abuse hysteria. The same psychotherapy tactics that caused them are described in this video. There's a great documentary here on RUclips that actually has clips of those types of therapy sessions - it's called "Memory Wars".
@@artdump6592 Why do you think that? You really think there is no way people can be this sickeningly crazy? Well you are wrong. There are so many sickening things people do. She isnt the only one who experienced something like this, her whole group isnt the only one.
I haven't even finished yet but I'm still scared by the fact that humans can be THAT CRUEL
I wish her best, she's extremely strong
thank you
It's absurd to me how someone could disregard suppressing memories in PTSD. I'm in a delicate situation, I keep having to interact with my abusers while some memories are already unlocking, so I'm trying to navigate the old ones while I can't help but still suppress new ones.
Anyway, I'm so glad she's getting the chance to tell her story and is now leading a happy life, and I'm glad you're creating this understanding and safe space Anthony
I’m wishing you the best ❤ and hope your situation improves!! you’re very strong, remember not to be too hard on yourself
@@hoarahbabylon thank you a million❤️ luckily I've finally found a support system and I hope to change my situation as soon as possible
Hey I hope things are okay with you. I’m sending love to you and I hope you are able to be in a safe place soon❤
@@allyssach omg thanks so much ❤️ sometimes it's hard but I'm finding my reasons to stay hopeful
as a social worker, this person is an icon she is probably the strongest and most admirable person i have ever witnessed. she should be so proud that she has progressed to this degree
you look so young 😭
I don’t work in any psychology field, and I have been burning to know: could you tell me more about how the psychology community thinks of Ms. Knight, and how we should talk about the trauma someone has uncovered, if someone talks about having uncovered memories of satanic abuse? Just as some reference, I want folks to be believed and to live happy and confident lives, but I’m struggling with the idea of satanic abuse being real and being impossible.
You look 10 years old
@@nodidb3976 she looks like she’s 20 wearing a filter
@@zzz7583 maybe you are right...
You know this is especially serious when anthony doesn't fall through the roof
good point! i was expecting him to start with that.
Anthony is amazing at this. He knows when to talk more, joke around with the people he’s interviewing, and when to simply be there to provide a platform for others to speak. I definitely appreciate his sensitivity to tone and his genuine personality!
@@itsarali a lot of talk show hosts could learn a lot from him.
@@maryknight4450 youre so strong for getting through what you go through, i admire you
My husband blocked alot of his childhood memories even simple ones. His sister told him about so many things they went through and how the mom treated them. He almost had a panic attack realizing he couldn't remember years from his child hood. Like a big gap in his life.
Does he even WANT to remember?
Same. I’m 43 and can’t remember my childhood other than a few flashes of of scenes, maybe seven of them altogether. Are you saying you CAN remember your whole childhood?
It is a protective measure by the brain to keep the individual from suffering overwhelm and damage. It happens in severe grief too.
@clairerousseau5759 I can't remember my whole detailed childhood but I can remember since I was perhaps 3 to 4 years old and from there a memory from each passing year. He can't remember a big gap of his childhood and most are related between he was abandoned by his mom for 3 years. He can't remember things that happened during the time with her. Anyways I'm just saying to him to find out about that caused him bad emotions.
@@alicevill2259
I hope he gets better.
Now I think something is wrong with me because I hardly remember anything from childhood. I thought that was everyone’s experience…I guess not.
Dissociation is real. I know! I’ve hardly my memories in my life due to abuse
This woman is a pure soul and she is phenomenal
“ You can save a child’s life without rescuing them. Everyone wants to rescue children, but there is some children you may not be able to rescue. But you can still save their life by being good. You may not even know the child needs rescuing. Just be kind because that could be the thing that makes life worth living “ beautifully said😭❤
Amen.
Just being nice and doing kind things can help significantly. you don't have to to dramatic things or dive into their trauma to help them. Just be kind
Yes, I totally broke down at this part. Having worked with kids and wishing I could do more to help 🥹.
I recently confronted my mom about the abuse I received as a child and she acted like it never happened, I had no memory loss, she just straight up laughed it off and acted like it want anything
Jesus. Hope youre doing well ❤
Same tbh. I fought my mom it's just so hurtful to not even care to acknowledge anything
Sounds like the narcissist's prayer.
Unfortunately my parents are the same. I confronted them about the shitty things theyve said to me growing up, the put downs, the insults, etc. and they shrug it off and deny it and tell my that my “behavior” caused them to change and all this nonsense.
Mine did this too plus call me crazy bipolar etc. Sad most my family know too and did nothing and pretend and gaslight.
My dad found the " false memory syndrome" so he could take no responsibility for abusing ME. Tried to fly that with my therapist. Hilarious really.
My family gaslights me too. Hugs 🫂
The words from that woman in the burning house were so moving. Even as she was dying she wanted to support Mary and give her a sense of her future.
So tragic 💔 😞 😢 😪 that black family was wiped out all so some kkk weirdos could get their jollies off...And to think people believe black Americans don't deserve reparations is baffling🤯🤯🤯🤯
She saw her spirit and knew she wasn’t bad like them. 🤍
I thought I had a morbid imagination, but this was so far beyond anything I could even comprehend. I'm delighted to hear she is doing so well for herself
Thank you!
Great story, I have always felt compelled to pursue knowledge and power in order to contribute to the betterment of humanity. Been seeking a means to be influential and find out more knowledge about the human race and about the things not everyone is destined to know. I wish to fulfill the goal of enlightenment passed down by our forebears.
I can totally relate to your passion, if all that is what you desire then i think it's achievable. Joining the Illuminatus Brotherhood can lead to the enlightenment you seek and more. I am well aware that the idea of this group may sound mythical but it is possible to join.
@@bartholetbay412 Hi, isn't the brotherhood a myth? I mean sometimes i just feel like it's all just a conspiracy theory.
@@Margart526 Yeah I acknowledge that misunderstanding can occur when people encounter what they don't fully grasp, especially in this internet era. The Illuminatus advocates for the acceptance of all religions. You can look up "Anthony Szymon". Will give you clarity and answers to any questions you might have.
@@bartholetbay412 oh really, i just saw his website, which is interesting. I will leave him a message.
Yeah i do sometimes feel that too, prolly not exactly but i can totally relate.
She talked about uncovering the memory of her sister, and then another memory coming that was "just really upsetting" and my heart absolutely shattered. I'm glad she didn't share the second memory if she wasn't comfortable sharing it, but I can't even begin to imagine how terrible it was for her to keep it back after all of the other awful things she discussed. The things that she went through are things that nobody should ever even have to think about. I'm glad that she's happy and healing now, but I'm heartbroken that she has to heal. She was a little girl.
I had to stop after three minutes. Oh my goodness. I’m glad you gave her an entire episode and I look forward to finishing this video when I’m in a better head space. She already seems like such a strong, inspiring woman.
Please don't watch if if its too triggering for you. Take care of yourself. I put trigger warnings throughout my memoir, most of which is not very triggering. and is focused on how I healed
@@maryknight4450 you a brave, strong woman. Thank you
@@maryknight4450 You are very strong. We love you.
@@maryknight4450 I was able to watch the entire video! I teach so thinking of what happened to you happening to my students was too much for me in the moment. BUT I did come back and finish watching the video and I thank you for sharing your story! You are an amazing individual
It's crazy how parents can do this to their own _children_
I'm so glad she's doing better now, and thanks to Anthony for showing us this
Mary saying "I enjoy the food I eat" made me so relieved. I'm so glad she's in a better place.
I’m glad that she mentioned emotional abuse is just as bad as the other abuse and not to compare the pain of one person to your abuse or someone else’s abuse. I was at that moment belittling my own experiences with abuse because of her story. What happened to her was absolutely on another level, but that doesn’t make what happened to me any less wrong. She’s such a brave woman and I will make it a point to check out her content. Thank you Anthony for being the bridge to these people. It means so much 💜
Listening to all of this... It makes me realize just how much a human being can endure and still stay alive and grow old, while the brain automatically does its job to protect you and keep you alive. I've been scared to look at all my suppressed emotions and all that trauma, thinking that it's too much, but if she can recover from all those horrors, then I can recover from my trauma as well. This is a light of hope. I'm glad she's sharing her story, and I wish her all the best.
I believe in you ❤
@@Samson16436 Thank you, that means a lot to me ❤
Good luck, really. It's easier with a good therapist, but it's always hard. Breathe deep, let yourself grieve for yourself, make sure to do something that makes you happy after.
@@sydneygorelick7484 careful with therapy because what you say is still calculated. It even adds stress to your life with appointments and extra gas money. Talk to someone that loves you. If you have at least one person that does you’re luckier than some
When I was going through a traumatic birth and postpartum with my first baby during covid, my sweet mama in the UK started experiencing 'flashbacks' or repressed memories of her childhood (caused by her heightened concerns and fears for me at the time). At the age of 53 she started remembering sexual abuse and rape from the age of 5/6 years old. It's been almost 4 years of her being in constant therapy and she's doing so well now. Children's brains are just so incredible, they're wired to self protect.
it’s horrible how casual she’s talking about these things. it really shows how deeply traumatized she is and how much those events effect her.
I know what you mean. But her alternative state would be misery... So she decides to wear a smile instead. Acceptance is really difficult. The ones who hold onto their trauma and appear distraught are only hurting themselves
After a while you become numb to the memories. They seem more like remembering a movie (a horror movie), you basically disassociate. You remember what happened to you, but you don't really remember the pain, the fear. You only know.
@@libera7161 thats not true at all, the pain is always there, you just develop a strengh to match it
It's not casual, it's detached. When you go through something traumatic you dissociate from it in order to survive. That's why it sounds casual. she knows it happened, but she doesn't feel it happened. It's a defense mechanism.
@@danbark4603 sure, but it's also true that the brain, as a coping mechanism to prevent you from constantly being in fear and pain, blocks out certain emotions and/or memories of traumatic events, so it is possible to be "numb", in a way, to those events or parts of them
It's also possible to become less affected by it when you talk about it over and over to therapists and interviewers. Maybe your brain becomes more used to it and it feels more like a story than reality. I don't know what the case is for her.
Im happy u chose a different pace for this video , her story is insane and I think this editing style is the correct choice. shes so incredibly brave for sharing this online, im so happy she managed to find happiness now
thanks
I, at about 8/9, recalled a memory of a girl (11/12) forcing me to kiss her neck under her bed whenever we went to their house. There was no traumatic feelings associated with it, it was just weird, but I remembered it and asked my mom about them. She indeed recalled the family and said the girl was weird. I told her what had happened and she said she was so sorry about that. That was just one, very minor, emotionally neutral memory so I cannot IMAGINE what she went through as the memories came. Thank you for bringing her story to light.
I forgot to mention, I had suppressed this memory until I was about 35. I can’t even begin to imagine suppressing all of Mary’s memories and then to be flooded with them… and so many. ❤️
i’m so glad this woman is alive to tell her story, she deserves justice and she is so strong it’s insane how she can even talk about this! i hope she is living her life to the fullest💕🙏
Her voice is so expressive ... While still being so calm, so reserved, and so strong. Thank you telling your story and getting awareness out about this. I was so happy to hear your life now is good. You deserve only love.
She’s so warm and sweet. I am amazed by her ability to transform her pain into healing for other people, truly a beautiful example of the human spirit.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories.
In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
She is a guardian angel.
I’m a psychology student and this syndrome is just so fascinating, I studied this topic in a module last semester and find it so interesting. I had to share this video with my psychology group chat. I am so sorry that you went through this, I am so happy you came through the other side stronger and happier
Syndrome? You mean repressed memories? There was a big controversy about false memories of satanic abuse in the 80’s and 90’s being triggered by psychotherapists and hypnosis. While it is possible to repress memories, something this big seems incredibly unlikely. I believe she believes it but without any shred of evidence, it’s hard to believe such stories. Knowing what we do about false repressed memories and satanic panic.
What syndrome? Survivor syndrom? Wtf?
Child sexual abuse including that organised by groups of adults, is not a syndrome.
It is a fact of torture and cover up.
It happens in school, sports buildings, in the back room of pubs, in ordinary houses, in cellars, in forests, underground tunnels/spaces. It happens in hospitals and all sorts of places.
@@BeeBlot yea idk either
thanks
If this is the censored version...😢 then I don't even want to think about her recalling these horrific memories uncensored. No amount of therapy or years that pass by will cure her trauma but I hope she has been able to work on finding peace within.. some way.. some how. Many people wouldn't be able to make it through something like this so I hope she knows how strong and courageous she is for sharing her story with the world.
Is there another vetsion?
@@LauraBeeDannon Anthony post the complete uncensored video in another place I believe so the words that were cut off or muted you can fully hear
I could never have believed ANY parent could be so vile to their own child until I read Anneke Lucas's story long before finding out about Mary. How these incredible women survive is truly inspiring.
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories.
In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
Yes! I've heard Anneke's story, too & believe it. In the 90s MSN had chat rooms for singles. I worked 2nd shift & would chat on MSN when I got home at 1-2:00 a.m. Some ppl I talked to, men & women, told me stories like Anneke's. It's also alarming how many abusrs are out there.
@@SweetUniverse Fiona barnett look her up
I just looked up Anneke Lucas and what went down in Belgium and ughhhh. Humanity feels so monstrous and hopeless. Idk how people can do this to anyone much less children.
I highly recommend books: Thanks for memories by Brice Taylor, and Transformation of America by Cathy O'Brien
You can see Anthony holding back tears for her God bless this woman and make the rest of her life Wonderful to make up for this atrocity
thanks
@@maryknight4450 ❤
She’s so strong and beautiful. She made me believe that there’s an escape. My trauma is veryyy different but as she said, we shouldn’t compare, because trauma is trauma. It’s so healing to see how comfortable she is talking about it and also she’s so much happier and better and wants to help. I just want to thank her for doing this, i appreciate her so much and for doing this. She just became such and inspiration for me.
I love how beautiful Mary is.
Her eloquence, the love exuding from her, the way she starts off by talking about how good she is NOW... she's amazing!
You're blessed with such resilience and this brings hope.
I have a disturbing image from my childhood that comes up sometimes and I really can't tell if it's a repressed memory or just genuinely something from my imagination. but as a survivor of abuse her story still resonates with me and I hope to have her strength one day♡
My fiance has the same thing. He keeps questioning whether it's real or not ..all I can say is trauma lives in the body. The way your body reacts when remembering those things are very telling.
Also I can understand how frustrating it is to not trust your own memories and struggle with that. Wishing you well ❤
As someone who had repressed memories like this they're probably real. That's what happens you can't tell if it really happened or not. Please try to speak to someone you can trust about them. If you need to you can dm me as I'm a stranger who will listen and not tell anyone. Good luck ❤
i was in the same boat, but i was suprised to find that my trauma therapist said it didnt matter wether it was real or not- it mattered that i was suffering from it. we still did the trauma therapy and it worked very well! i hope u find your peace
More than likely, it's both. It's probably truth sprinkled with exaggeration. People tend to remember things somewhat correct, but with certain details wrong. Doesn't mean the memory isn't real, but that it's not entirely true. Maybe try writing about it or drawing it and see what happens? Sometimes when you're not actually thinking about something and just doing it, things come out better
Anybody doubting that recovering memories is a thing.. I experienced the same thing. I was SA before the age of 10 by a family member and a piece of the memory would pop up at random times throughout my teen years, and I’d just push it away instinctively. I always thought it was some messed up dream.. I didn’t fully recover the memory until about over a decade later. It seriously f***ed me up cause I spent so long recovering from the emotional/verbal abuse by the same person, this was a whole new hurdle to get over.
I'm so sorry that happened to you
(TW) This terrifies me right now. I’m at a point in therapy where I’m beginning to validate my experiences, and I have some similar type of memories that I still don’t know the full extent of. Just now reading all these comments, I am even becoming more aware just how much we are told that you can’t forget. I forgot some thing as “small“ as my mother saying “sorry is not good enough“ every time I would try to say I was sorry, even if it wasn’t my fault. The fact that I had suppressed that alone was extremely shocking to me when I recalled it because I wasn’t sure how I could forget something so “small“. Over time the other ones faded away and I thought the ones I could recall was the worst I had been through. It wasn’t the worst, it was just the ones my mind could handle living with and using as a means to give people a hint that I didn’t have a great childhood. You can absolutely block out anything I believe. The consciousness has an incredible survival system, and we haven’t been giving it enough credit.
How did u recover the memory? I have the same issue
I have one (known) distinctly blocked memory. I know everything from before. The order of what happened after is confusing but I was in shock. All I know is that witnesses said I was screaming. I don’t remember screaming. I don’t remember the nature of what happened when I was attacked. And I figured out a long long time ago that I don’t want to unblock that memory. I know I was physically attacked. I know what the threats were before it happened. I don’t need to remember the details.
I think it's the big difference between memories that come back spontaneously in fragments and memories that are suggested by bad therapists. It's been shown that it is absolutely possible to induce false memories in people by telling them something happened or by suggesting it strongly. Especially if it come from someone with authority. And the tragic thing is that the false memories absolutely feel real and are just as traumatic as real memories. But in your case, your memories came back spontaneously in fragments, so they actually came from your past and not from external suggestions.
as a pagan/satanist: mary, from the bottom of my heart, i am so sorry. satanic rituals are not common and typically a stereotype, but mary, you are walking proof that these situations need to be more serious. i promise you that not all satanists are like this, but i am so sorry for the experience you’ve had with my religion. im glad that you could find a release in religion, religious abuse typically causes a falter with religion and im SO proud you were able to find comfort in a new religion. you are strong and powerful and im so proud of you for escaping. im happy you’ve healed and proud of you for sharing your story and spreading awareness on this awful religious abuse. you are truly amazing.
thank you
As a Satanist, I agree
So you know about the satanic panic and Michelle remembers then, right?
Why would you workship the devil?? There is no religion about that, you need serious help.
@@WhatsThistrue Satanists do not worship "the devil"
I’m so happy she’s enjoying life after suffering something so traumatic. The fact she has people doubt her story means that people really don’t know how evil some people can be towards children.
Keep enjoying your life Mary, you deserve it.
As someone who went through some insane brutal things myself I have had people doubting me too. Its a sad and scary position to exist in and a big reason why often people dont reveal what happened to them. Ive also been lucky to have those I love care and believe in me
She is the bravest, strongest woman ive ever seen. i cant believe she had to go through all of that, ive never seen anthony so horrified. Im so glad shes starting to enjoy life again after all of that
thanks!
the blood boiling anger that i felt throughout this episode thinking "How can a human do this to other beings" is......... impossible to calculate.
Look up some cartel videos.
Humans aren’t far from animals it’s a spectrum those more evil are on the animalistic side of the spectrum and the good people are more on the humane side more civilized side where we have grown
Well, I think you'd be "happy" to know that this story is bs. It's just parroting the talking points of the satanic panic(if you don't believe me, then read the wikipedia article on it)
They are puppets of the demon, they let them thou 😢
Nice try sex traffickers hopping on to word twist! Your blood boils when true stories are told and traffic victims escape or try to!
I’m in disbelief of what this lady went through! She’s so strong and brave for talking about it. She she said in the Seattle area, it gave me chills. I live in the Seattle area, and I always hear about how it’s a very Satanic area, but had never heard any stories about it until now.
You don't hear any stories about it because it doesn't happen.
Actually there is no evidence of what she says. You can look up the scientific research. It is highly unlikely that repressed memories of satanic abuse exist and you can retrieve them through hypnosis at a later time. Hypnosis is not at all a reliable state as you are very suggestable by the therapist and imagination can play weird games.
You're in disbelief because it's not true lol. Not the "Satanic Ritual" stuff anyways
@@mojobear93yeah these recovered memories of "Satanic Ritual Abuse" are BS. The manufacturing of those memories caused many innocent people to go to prison. It's part of the Satanic Panic and doesn't exist.
@@mojobear93 Are you an ostrich with your head buried in the sand?
I remember this channel on RUclips called Phoenix and Aria and they basically shared very similar stories of sex abuse and ritualistic abuse from a school they attended in England and also from their parents. It’s so scary how common this is.
Paris Hilton is starting to speak out about sexual abuse while at boarding school. I'm sure she's leaving out the rituals. She said if it can happen to someone like me, then it could happen to anyone😢
There’s a book about a german woman who has eerily similar stories too, she developed multiple personalities to deal with the extreme abuse, and only realized when she was grown and her father wanted her to bring her own children to the sect. She doesn’t name the exact place it happened, but she does name a bigger city I also live close too. Terrifying.
@@ginster458 It really is terrifying to realize that this happens all over the world, and in places that are near you... And it's very frustrating as well, because what can one do about it? x__x
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories.
In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
@@ginster458 what is the book called, do you recall? I'm also german and would be interested
I appreciate how present Anthony is as an interviewer. He sits in the answers Mary gives and follows up instead of moving from one topic to another.
Mary is right - kindness really helps… because you never know what people are going through, children or adults. Thank you for sharing your story, salute!
Mary is a beautiful, _beautiful_ soul. I appreciate her kindness, her courage and her honesty about what she's been through ❤
Thank you, Mary. From the bottom of my heart....and from all the other survivors, _thank you!_
Many drs don’t believe this woman and the treatment she used can I plant false memories many drs outright speak out against this controversial treatment as it caused people to believe false memories. In the 90s Satanic panic happened due to the amount of people recalling false memories, Anthony should really rethink how he portrays these people stories with zero evidence as the truth :/
Amen
thanks
I don't know how Anthony got through this interview, I'd be a wreck. I'm so impressed with both of you, even if this was a hard listen it is worth so much more to have heard it
You could tell he was on the verge of tears in the first part…it hurt me and made me cry😞
I was raised in a cult, and while my childhood was absolutely nowhere near hers, a lot resonates. I'm so glad she started with "my life is good now". Like. When you are born into a house that's on fire, you assume that's how the whole world is, and coming out of that is absolutely one of the hardest things.
Forgiveness is a big one, and so, so difficult. That and radical acceptance. (DBT works wonders, folks. Trust me, trust Anthony and trust her. Just go to therapy. It really does get better.)
Radical acceptance is the mental action of "ok, this all happened to me, and it wasn't my fault, and I deserved none of it, but. But. It happened, and I couldn't do anything then, but I can accept my past happened while building me and a future I want."
It's weird. And it's not easy by any means to just accept your past, but, once you start accepting it, it's like you're also letting it go. And the more you accept and it is let go, the more free you feel. It's not going to magically fix everything, lmao noooo, but it does change the entire game for you.
And "crazy". If I had a penny...and what's really ridiculous is when you're in therapy, because childhood trauma can and does cause ✨️personality disorders✨️, people will claim to be there for you no matter what, until you show a symptom that you're sometimes completely unaware of, and then they call you crazy, horrible, ab*sive and more. Nothing hurts more than being reduced to what you're trying to fix because it was broken as a child.
I have BPD due to my past, and I've been dehumanized so many times. "You're not hurt, it's just your BPD."
"You don't know how to actually love. It's just your fixations of having an fp (favorite person) and your intense emotions."
It's really something to climb out and away from your past, get help, and still the world, and even your closest loved ones will hate you at some point.
So...to everyone, I know the saying is cliché, but everyone is fighting a battle you don't know about. To quote Sense8, "life doesn't always give us the chance to show our best selves."
Be kind. Love first. Give the benefit of the doubt to the Karen in Walmart. I'm not saying get involved, or something, but instead of being judgmental towards her (we can all admit we love a good Karen freakout, it's ok 😂), maybe shift your thoughts to why she's screaming and whatnot. What happened, or is happening and this was the last bit of willpower she had and she snapped?
Especially now, when everything is bonkers in this world is kindness from others, even if it's just shifting how you think.
I hope everyone finds their way to their healthy happiness. ❤
Thank you so much for this post. I’m profoundly certain that I have undiagnosed BPD (was nearly diagnosed, but the diagnosis was ‘too stigmatizing’ - yes, it’s stigmatizing, but proper treatment begins with a proper diagnosis - and I was given paperwork to assess myself for it - like that went well) and this helps so much. All the love! ❤
Bless you ❤
You have a mantle of righteousness on your shoulders, there is light here in what you wrote
May I ask what BPD stands for? 😅
@Thea Clement
LUCKY. OH LAWD. I wish they'd just given me the paperwork. The testing is more than a bitch. It took months and nothing good happened during. Oh man. But! You're right, and it's absolutely why I was willing to go through the test. Knowing the name of your war is half the battle. When you know what's going on, you then know how to fix it.
Proper treatment does work, regardless of what it is. Some take ketamine, some do DBT or CBT, other mood stabilizers and so on. As long as you put the effort in, the treatment absolutely works. For me it was DBT and Polyvagal. I'm not going to pretend I'm all healed, lmao nooo. But I know my work, and the work of others is not in vain, and we can live better. Happier. I wish you all the luck and love, friend! 💜💜🤟🏼🤟🏼 (Also, I'm proud of you. Very much so. We have so many wars we fight everyday, and therapy and meds can be a crazy mess to sort out. I'm proud of you for trying, even when every day is a war and you're trying to turn the tide of it. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, and I am so proud of others who, disorder, illness, whatever it is, that still try. That still get up in the morning. Even if it's to get up, brush your teeth, or grab some coffee and go right back to bed for the day. I'm proud of you. 💜)
My heart broke hearing the black man and the little girl. How can anyone do something so cruel?
How can anyone do that to their own child? I would die for my daughter. I cannot even fathom what these poor children and people had to endure at the hands of those monsters
thanks for your compassion
You should see what some Christian parents have done to their kids.
5:30 she wanted to stay with the good people…the ones she knew would die. When I say, my soul broke for her and the other victims listening to this; I can’t even explain.
Her point about just being kind to children being able to save them made me cry. She’s so brave and kind.
She’s a loving person. I can’t even imagine not being kind to a child. So sad. 😢
This is absolutely horrifying to listen to. Thank you Mary for telling your story. And thank you Anthony for hosting this interview.
thanks
@@maryknight4450no way it’s actually you?
@@phantom_wolf5274 yes. its me. I try to read all the comments.
Mary, you are such an inspirational woman. I have been taken advantage of physically and sexually so many times I've lost count and almost killed by past boyfriends and random men. I was a drug addict and now I am 6 years clean. Now I am in a good place in my life and have healed tremendously. There is always hope for survivors!
I'm glad you are doing well now!
Anthony, I truly thank you for using your platform to showcase such stories.
You may not know how much it means to people like me
I thankfully was never in a cult, but I've endured childhood abuse.
So having felt one person's kindness shine a light in the dark when I needed it the most, really made me relate to her saying that you need to be kind to kids.
And be kind to everyone really, because you don't know whose inner child you may be healing or just whose bad day you're brightening.