you are so lucky to have found will. he is a nice person, and from the way you talk about him, you got yourself a good one. its nice to be loved by someone who really truly loves you.
I watched your videos over the years, not avidly, not consistently, but I've been watching more of your more recent videos. While, I had no idea what you went through. I always watched and felt like something was off. I could tell you were putting on a kind of act, or spin on the life you showed. That being said it's understandable given your circumstances. What you've gone through was traumatic, and I don't know if you've told any of this to a therapist. From what you said, it doesn't sound like it. And while it may feel like you'll never recover or be able to feel love again, I hope with some time and effort and help you can find ways to re-learn how to feel love, and move on to a happier life. Speaking as someone who's gone through and dealt with their own trauma, albeit not exactly the same as what you described. The feelings effects never fully go away, but they can and hopefully will get easier to handle. I wish you the best of luck. It sounds like you have a good person who loves you, that you can rely on and trust.
I’ve never seen any of your videos, but wow, you have been through so much. Honestly, the fact that you have survived all of this is incredible. You are so strong.
RUclips recommended this video to me and I really didn't expect to hear something way more terrible than I expected with the topic. Hearing you broke my heart, I wouldn't even know if giving you a hug would be a good idea after all the abuse you went through :( Don't want to give you false hope, but at least in my opinion, if you can still cry then it means that your emotions are still there, somewhere. Maybe therapy could help you with that. You mentioned that you didn't know who you were anymore and I don't know you, but I want to let you know that from the way you treat your audience and care about people having something similar going on, I think you're a sweet guy. I sincerely hope that you can surround yourself with people who can make you feel true love and affection, above all, support you. Maybe one day you will be able to genuinely smile again.
Very, very, very powerful video. I've watched your videos for some time now and had no clue what was covered up in the basement (as you will) that wasn't being manifested in your videos. I think when I began to see the unraveling of why these videos are being done is when you were were away from vlogging and then came back to state that you were raped in LA. I began to feel an uneasiness that you wanted to open up but wasn't sure how or when to do it. This is not a concocted video. This is coming from a place that I certainly have never been nor would I want to be in. I can tell by your eyes that even looking at yourself talking about this is hard for you to relive it again. I'm sure there will be opinionated people coming here to spread negativity and to try to point it back to you. However, live your truth and cancel out the noise and chatter that may or may not come from this video. As I stated, live your truth and with time (may take a while), you healing can begin. Many people who think they have reached their bottom really have not which means that you can come back from all of this. You have a story to tell to go along with your hidden talents in fashion that you posses. Wil is a great addition to you and I pray that continues well into your life because he might just be the one to restore the love that you so desperately want to receive and give. Stay strong and keep your head up. You have nothing to keep your head down about. This is your journey that you are on and sharing. If this is how to reclaim you life, then proceed with confidence and assurance that it will be the healing that you so desperately need in your life. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and deep part of your life. Be safe and stay strong.
That was very sad to listen to. Beyond that, what could anyone really say that wouldn't come across to you as false or insincere or self-serving? Nonetheless, here's hoping that your life does get better.
you are so lucky to have found will. he is a nice person, and from the way you talk about him, you got yourself a good one. its nice to be loved by someone who really truly loves you.
I watched your videos over the years, not avidly, not consistently, but I've been watching more of your more recent videos. While, I had no idea what you went through. I always watched and felt like something was off. I could tell you were putting on a kind of act, or spin on the life you showed. That being said it's understandable given your circumstances.
What you've gone through was traumatic, and I don't know if you've told any of this to a therapist. From what you said, it doesn't sound like it. And while it may feel like you'll never recover or be able to feel love again, I hope with some time and effort and help you can find ways to re-learn how to feel love, and move on to a happier life. Speaking as someone who's gone through and dealt with their own trauma, albeit not exactly the same as what you described. The feelings effects never fully go away, but they can and hopefully will get easier to handle.
I wish you the best of luck. It sounds like you have a good person who loves you, that you can rely on and trust.
I’ve never seen any of your videos, but wow, you have been through so much. Honestly, the fact that you have survived all of this is incredible. You are so strong.
RUclips recommended this video to me and I really didn't expect to hear something way more terrible than I expected with the topic.
Hearing you broke my heart, I wouldn't even know if giving you a hug would be a good idea after all the abuse you went through :(
Don't want to give you false hope, but at least in my opinion, if you can still cry then it means that your emotions are still there, somewhere. Maybe therapy could help you with that.
You mentioned that you didn't know who you were anymore and I don't know you, but I want to let you know that from the way you treat your audience and care about people having something similar going on, I think you're a sweet guy.
I sincerely hope that you can surround yourself with people who can make you feel true love and affection, above all, support you. Maybe one day you will be able to genuinely smile again.
Wow. Thank you for sharing, Christian. I’m sorry you went through this 😢
I need asmr video
Very, very, very powerful video. I've watched your videos for some time now and had no clue what was covered up in the basement (as you will) that wasn't being manifested in your videos. I think when I began to see the unraveling of why these videos are being done is when you were were away from vlogging and then came back to state that you were raped in LA. I began to feel an uneasiness that you wanted to open up but wasn't sure how or when to do it. This is not a concocted video. This is coming from a place that I certainly have never been nor would I want to be in. I can tell by your eyes that even looking at yourself talking about this is hard for you to relive it again. I'm sure there will be opinionated people coming here to spread negativity and to try to point it back to you. However, live your truth and cancel out the noise and chatter that may or may not come from this video. As I stated, live your truth and with time (may take a while), you healing can begin. Many people who think they have reached their bottom really have not which means that you can come back from all of this. You have a story to tell to go along with your hidden talents in fashion that you posses. Wil is a great addition to you and I pray that continues well into your life because he might just be the one to restore the love that you so desperately want to receive and give. Stay strong and keep your head up. You have nothing to keep your head down about. This is your journey that you are on and sharing. If this is how to reclaim you life, then proceed with confidence and assurance that it will be the healing that you so desperately need in your life. Thank you for sharing such an intimate and deep part of your life. Be safe and stay strong.
That was very sad to listen to. Beyond that, what could anyone really say that wouldn't come across to you as false or insincere or self-serving? Nonetheless, here's hoping that your life does get better.
WOW😢
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