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  • Опубликовано: 26 окт 2024

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  • @andreagarciaraygoza317
    @andreagarciaraygoza317 2 года назад +16817

    I started tearing up when you said you woke up and started crying in the hospital. I wish you and your partner the best. You're an amazing person, Minori.

  • @Alatrianna
    @Alatrianna 2 года назад +2191

    As someone who lost their first child too (23 weeks stillborn) it's so amazing to watch this and hear you talk about your experience. No matter what stage you are when you lose a baby it's so unbearably painful for both parents. You are an incredible person, and I wish you all the best in your future, and for your rainbow baby when you are ready for that 🌈💝

    • @BilliesCraftRoom
      @BilliesCraftRoom 2 года назад +29

      Im so sorry for your loss. If it feels safe to answer this, and pls ignore me if its too painful to answer. Do you wish more contries had a ceremony of some kind for the little ones who leave too soon?
      Please ignore me if that feels an insensitive questions.

    • @Alatrianna
      @Alatrianna 2 года назад +42

      @@BilliesCraftRoom Oh absolutely! My husband and I are lucky enough that where we live (Australia) after 20 weeks any baby born is legally considered a life so as painful as the process was, we legally had to declare her birth (the hospital handled the death thankfully) so we have her birth certificate and she will be listed on the birth certificates of all of our future children. We also had to organise her funeral as well which I won't go into details about of course. It was so beautiful though to see that Japan has ceremonies for miscarriages and early pregnancy loss giving it the respect and weight it deserves. Allowing the family to grieve is so important and I hope one day there isn't a stigma around it.

    • @kittenmimi5326
      @kittenmimi5326 2 года назад +2

      How many month is that?

    • @Alatrianna
      @Alatrianna 2 года назад +5

      @@kittenmimi5326 about 4.5 months

    • @Snow-xd4rv
      @Snow-xd4rv Год назад

      @@Alatrianna There isn't a stigma around it

  • @kenziegrace3286
    @kenziegrace3286 2 года назад +6877

    We love you minori and are always here for you!❤️

    • @HadiaExists
      @HadiaExists 2 года назад +5

    • @Suemauz1208
      @Suemauz1208 2 года назад +13

      I‘m so sorry to hear that. Heartbreaking. Yes talk with your partner. You will feel better. Cry so much you want. You be loved ❤

    • @vianniesze5614
      @vianniesze5614 2 года назад +4

    • @JesusHernandez-mi2us
      @JesusHernandez-mi2us 2 года назад +3

      @@Anonymous_Private807 ki

    • @박지민-g1r
      @박지민-g1r 2 года назад +4

      It's always the jimin stans 😩

  • @paralarval
    @paralarval 2 года назад +3174

    This showed up in my recommended and my heart dropped when I read the title. I had to pause only 37 seconds in as I can't really deal with this well, however I'd like to wish you and your loved ones all the best. Sending all the love, and these sentiments go out to any who see this as well. Take care of yourselves, everyone. Much love.

  • @fallabeaufaebelle
    @fallabeaufaebelle 2 года назад +1915

    This is tragic news. I'm so happy to hear that your partner was not only supportive of your health choices but also grieved with you. Sounds like he really loves you and since we love you so much that's just so awesome to hear. Also so happy your medical team and the priest were there for you two. Glad to hear you're giving yourself time and permission to take care of your health in all capacities, because you deserve that

    • @AneXineohp
      @AneXineohp 2 года назад +28

      I know you really mean well, but you should know that _of course_ he was supportive and grieving, that's to be expected (even tho it's not always the case, you don't need to imply it's so surprising he acted as a partner should and is defined to be, as acting that way is how it works, especially since it's something they committed to together in the first place as it was both of their bean); also, it was less of "health choices" and more of something she was advised to do because it was all she could do, she didn't really have a choice and he didn't either, so it only makes sense they're _supportive of eachother._

    • @ms.pirate
      @ms.pirate 2 года назад +37

      boyfriends/husbands like that are pretty rare these days. I never witnessed a caring and healthy relationship like that Irl. I hope she treasures him

    • @fallabeaufaebelle
      @fallabeaufaebelle 2 года назад +34

      @@AneXineohp TBH I think you read way too much into that but I hope your comment made you feel better about mine. It certainly did not make me feel good, so feel free to skip reading this because it will be rant-y and I don't want you to have a bad day or anything if it hurts your feelings, especially if you already are having a rough time. But I do wanna be able to vent this out. You're welcome to comment back, but I won't continue. Don't want to do that, but I do feel like there's a bigger, important picture I'd like to illustrate for anyone interested in reading. Of course, if you feel like you need to comment back, then by all means that is your prerogative. Just know that I don't plan on saying anything more than this. So yeah... here's my rant if you feel the need to stop now because it's kinda loaded with some passionate feelings....
      The fact you're trying to warp my comment into something it wasn't I don't appreciate. Also, you don't seem to grasp the gravity of this, clearly, because there a lot of women who don't have supportive partners in situations like this (even supportive healthcare and other resources that should be offered can be denied even in situations like this) even when they very much should be given support. But I don't intend to turn someone's journey into a political thing. I did need to say while I agree those things should be standard, they aren't. Also, having an empathic experience after a tragedy is always good to reflect on how you appreciated how you were treated, so there's no reason to just take it for granted when valuing the good stuff and also processing the negative stuff is healthy. I just wanted to say I was glad she was supported and that she's making healthy choices for herself, such as giving herself permission to take breaks, which is "heath stuff", so there's really no need for you to try and minimize any of that. She's doing amazing through this and I love to see that, and I think we can all appreciate how she took time and effort to keep us updated on this very difficult time for her while also being able to highlight what made this process something she could grow from with her partner and everything. These are important things we really should talk about more! Anyway I love this channel so i'm happy she's surrounded by support in such a hard time. While it should be the norm, not everyone gets that, and maybe you don't realize just how meaningful that is but that resonated with me and I just wanted to comment about how I was glad she had these positives in her life. So, no, it's not implying something so backwards like you tried to suggest, and I don't appreciate that at all, and I really hope you don't comment back with anything else because I don't plan on starting an argument especially for something like this. Of course, if you feel so compelled, that's completely your choice. For your reference, I just plan to tell you to have a good day if I say anything back at all. And I hope you do have a good day. And I hope you get this much support in your life too because everyone does deserve that. But yeah, do not appreciate you trying to make my comment into something it wasn't when I was just being positive and appreciating she's got something she deserves.
      That's my rant. Felt passionate about that one for a lot of reasons... I know it's a novel but seeing someone get support like this...? For a lot of reasons, it means a lot and I wanted to say that I was happy to see that. And I want to be able to feel like I can be happy for someone else (and say that I am) for things that... not everyone actually does get...

    • @fallabeaufaebelle
      @fallabeaufaebelle 2 года назад +14

      @@ms.pirate I love she felt comfortable sharing this. I super appreciate it. More people, especially women, should hear this. They deserve this sort of relationship. Not everyone realizes how real this can be and it's absolutely more than acceptable to expect and want this kind of support from others. Because some people may say "your standards are too high" but really this is healthy and Im just loving she not only has it but appreciates it and she's doing her best to keep moving forward on her journey.

    • @jessicaw_
      @jessicaw_ 2 года назад +23

      @@AneXineohp Goodness me, they are just appreciating her husband. While it is the bare minimum, the world has fallen since long ago. There are many women who were loved by their husbands but dumped when they have pregnancy/health problems, I believe that's what led OP to thinking that way. You're putting too much thought into their comment.

  • @e._.o._.action
    @e._.o._.action 2 года назад +2648

    The fact that she forced a smile while in so much pain shows how much she cares about us. We love you and wish you the best

    • @unicornhorn1003
      @unicornhorn1003 Год назад +29

      Ik when I saw how red her eyes and her face had become my heard dropped. Like who can smile through that kind of pain? I hope she gets well soon :)

    • @sarahkettel3194
      @sarahkettel3194 Год назад +2

      Tahts right

    • @staywithskz1433
      @staywithskz1433 6 месяцев назад

      I felt so awful for her

  • @mokamoroll
    @mokamoroll 2 года назад +2158

    minori, im so sorry i really got chills just by looking at the title you're so strong to be able to tell us this story youre so precious :(

  • @_fussyfangs
    @_fussyfangs 2 года назад +2038

    Minori, when I saw you say “I will be fine!” at the hospital with your eyes full of tears I starting crying myself. I’m sure your little bean will be watching over you and your husband forever. Please take some time to rest if you need it, we will understand! 🤍

    • @Sam_reyes
      @Sam_reyes Год назад +8

      he nit her husband hes still her bpyfroend their engaged

    • @jamangel
      @jamangel Год назад +1

      Wow

    • @arandomfrog9493
      @arandomfrog9493 Год назад +9

      ​@@Sam_reyes so he's her soon to be husband, he's her fiancé.

    • @vqbl795
      @vqbl795 9 месяцев назад

      ​@@Sam_reyes After engagement, you call your partner a fiance. Although sometimes, some social media influencers would keep calling their fiance or husband a "boyfriend" to sound more relatable to a younger and wider set of audience (kinda like that Vietnamese lady who lives with her partner in Germany. They recently got engaged but she admits she prefers to still call him a bf). But yeah...
      Anyway, officially dating = bf and gf, officially engaged to be married = fiancee and fiance... Might sound unimportant, but in several countries and cities, it matters as far as customs are concerned as well as in legal documents and procedures (like when you're applying for a housing or business loan with your partner and the bank does a background check on your financial stability and all possible legal involvement with one another).

  • @Areeba530
    @Areeba530 2 года назад +921

    6:26 you can tell how much she's been crying by her eyes. It's really hard to see a cheerful person cry or in pain. I wish you all the best Minori! ❤️❤️

    • @andromedaplayz_2344
      @andromedaplayz_2344 2 года назад +3

      bestie... why did u block me everuwhere...

    • @D1gitalf0rest
      @D1gitalf0rest 2 года назад +7

      @@andromedaplayz_2344 what do u mean

    • @bumblelzzy6827
      @bumblelzzy6827 2 года назад +4

      ​@@andromedaplayz_2344 I apologize, but I think you got ghosted and unfriended. I am really sorry that happened.

    • @Areeba530
      @Areeba530 2 года назад +4

      @@andromedaplayz_2344 sorry i was forced to

    • @gachageeky8911
      @gachageeky8911 2 года назад +3

      @@Areeba530 the drama 😮 who forced you to block them.w

  • @TemiDansoArt
    @TemiDansoArt 2 года назад +730

    I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Stay strong❤

    • @iris.art111
      @iris.art111 2 года назад +2

      Ik it’s so sad ❤😭

    • @CassTheCreative
      @CassTheCreative 2 года назад +2

      😭 this happened to my aunt 😭

    • @swaggyelenaprayingforallov5599
      @swaggyelenaprayingforallov5599 2 года назад +4

      It is so sad but I’m such a big fan Temi I love your art and everything. I love how you support other big youtubers like Minori, and comment on their videos as well! You are so kind hearted

  • @Meekox
    @Meekox 2 года назад +778

    Minori is so mature, few people ever have this type of mentality on life.
    I really wish you can continue your life being you! All strength to you and your partner Minori!

  • @tenzinchime5863
    @tenzinchime5863 Год назад +2338

    Minori you’re an amazing women, you deserve all the happiness in the world.

  • @pyromaniczaj
    @pyromaniczaj 2 года назад +960

    Talking about your miscarriage is so heartbreaking that I cried. Even if I knew this was coming, I still cried silently. And the fact that it happened right after and you posted, you still posted videos and looked so so happy. I’m so sorry for your loss. Even if I am not currently in Japan, I want to give you and your partner a hug and go pray for your baby. I hope you will feel better.

  • @crazyformyseIf
    @crazyformyseIf 2 года назад +917

    you sound so calm and collective during this.. i’m so proud of you for being able to speak about this and stay strong!!

  • @the_mathilde_oof8603
    @the_mathilde_oof8603 2 года назад +491

    I'm so sorry Minori :( I hate that you're going through this but we're all supporting you

  • @fancydeer
    @fancydeer Год назад +1708

    I'm so sorry this happened to you. ❤Don't pay attention to comments saying you should have waited until you knew 100%. No pregnancy is 100%. Nothing in life is 100%. You were pregnant, you were having a baby, you were excited. I wish you and your partner the best moving forward.

  • @Itz_Dailenyz
    @Itz_Dailenyz 2 года назад +1031

    I’m so sorry..You are an amazing person and we all support you 🫶🏻

  • @Juanthehorsey
    @Juanthehorsey 2 года назад +1838

    This actually hits really close to home. When I was 4, my mom was expecting twins, and I was supposed to have siblings, but it never happened. However, it will be okay. Everything truly happens for a reason, and it’s the moments like this that make you and your relationships stronger. Don’t give up, Minori. Don’t lose hope. It will be okay. We love you.

    • @kaeeelyn6569
      @kaeeelyn6569 2 года назад +17

      God has a purpose for everything.. so through this time you must stay strong. Rebekkah, you are so strong 💪 especially when you were just 4.

    • @Mdanfakha7
      @Mdanfakha7 2 года назад +1

      Same

    • @MellowJelly
      @MellowJelly Год назад +2

      It's okay to believe not everything has a reason. If we constantly see ourselves as a martyr we are more likely to stay in unhealthy situations because we believe there's a lesson or meaning involved. So it's okay to realize sometimes bad things happen for no reason.

  • @nijirichi7904
    @nijirichi7904 2 года назад +705

    Ah Minori, I'm so sorry for your loss. Its an emotional roller coaster and we're happy that you were sharing it with us. We were just as excited with the news and just as sad with what happened. I will continually support your videos, please focus on your mental and physical health for the mean time. Please give yourself and your partner time to recover well from what happened. It is okay to grieve. I'm sure you're little bean felt all the love in the world even before it came to. Love always, a silent fan.

  • @tildatea
    @tildatea Год назад +272

    my mother went through similar and she said how she was placed near the same room as births were happening and how much hearing the newborns crying caused her such pain. I wish hospitals would consider having a separation between those giving birth and those mourning their loss. You're so brave for doing this video.

    • @vqbl795
      @vqbl795 9 месяцев назад +13

      Yeah, they do. It's called a private deluxe room. They are rooms saved for the VIP and given to patients willing to spend extra for a quiet, comfortable and luxury lounge-like hospital accommodations... For those of us who can't afford that, hospitals will just let us suffer in silence 🤐

  • @sweetxiuga.9829
    @sweetxiuga.9829 2 года назад +506

    You don’t have to always show us a brave face 🥺 it’s okay to show us you’re hurting or struggling or stressed. We’re here for you! ❤

    • @bishop51807
      @bishop51807 2 года назад +1

      Yeah, it's human, only the machine called Society thinks showing our emotions is a flaw.

    • @sharminakhter7434
      @sharminakhter7434 2 года назад +1

      Always

    • @mariatachi8398
      @mariatachi8398 2 года назад

      That is the part that is hurting. She just show happy face😢

  • @DragonriderEpona
    @DragonriderEpona 2 года назад +413

    I was actually surprised when you shared your pregnancy that early as miscarriages do happen. Hearing now that you actually went through this.. I'm so sorry that it happend. I hope you had(/have) a good recovery (physically and mentally). Stay strong. Stay positive. And thank you for sharing such a personal story. You're an amazing person!

    • @amandabrito6047
      @amandabrito6047 2 года назад +23

      As someone who has had 10, I learned to simply be joyful and hopeful for the times I had. It's okay to share early, even after heartbreak. It's also okay to not. We all process that loss differently.

    • @taeknngi
      @taeknngi 2 года назад +6

      @@amandabrito6047 so much love to you

  • @ginawilkolak7492
    @ginawilkolak7492 2 года назад +819

    Oh Minori, I’m so sorry you went through such an emotional and stressful time. I had no idea how often miscarriages happened until my sister had one and then everyone started sharing stories about them. It’s like it’s a secret until others share their story.
    Thank you for telling us. You didn’t have to, but it was so nice of you to think of your viewers. I hope whatever path your family takes will bring happiness!

  • @puripuriin
    @puripuriin Год назад +1350

    Minori maybe it wasn't the time now and in the future your little bean will be back and grow into a beautiful newborn baby full of love ❤️

  • @hero5581
    @hero5581 2 года назад +401

    Oh Minori... I never comment on youtube videos but this is different. I am so sorry you are going through this. I have been watching you for almost a year now and your videos bring me such zen and calmness while I am working. You have done so much for me even if I don't know you, and when you posted you were pregnant, it made since why I did not see your videos for a while and I was so happy for you and your family. I was excited to see the DIY you would do for your child and see your journey. Now seeing this I am thankful you are sharing your experiences and being so open and truthful, but I'm sure the sadness you feel can't even explained in just this video. I was diagnosed with endomitriosis and was confirmed I sadly cannot have children, and experienced the same surgery as you to remove extra tissue from the uterus, with no bean. When I woke up I still felt a little off and empty, even though there was nothing there. I couldn't imagine being in your shoes where it is more than just tissue removed. Though this may be a sad experience, I am hoping and giving my thoughts to you and your partner for a beautiful future. I guess what I am saying is thank you for being so open with us, as this is an important topic to talk about. You are more than welcome to your privacy, but that is very brave of you to share. This too shall pass, and I'm sure your future is beautiful

  • @jmsboo3803
    @jmsboo3803 2 года назад +391

    I’m so sorry for you minori, I hope you keep fighting and stay hopeful !❤️

  • @jojell7510
    @jojell7510 2 года назад +479

    Minori, I’m so sorry for your loss. My daughter (10) who follows you told me the news this morning (UK). I hope that creating this animation was healing for you. Thank you for sharing what some people do in Japanese culture. I think that marking these things is really important. I know what you’ve experienced and I send you & your partner much love.
    15th October is Wave of Light to mark the end of baby loss awareness week. People light a candle at 7pm to remember the babies gone too soon. I’ll be lighting candles for mine and thinking of you too.

    • @funniburnz4942
      @funniburnz4942 2 года назад +2

      What a sweet post & offer. Thank you for sharing the Oct 15th info above! I had never heard about that before you shared it here. I'm marking the date on my calendar right now.

    • @littlepsycopopmaryith8618
      @littlepsycopopmaryith8618 2 года назад +1

      For me I should light a BIG candle for so many I lost, but such a beautiful day to remember the happy times or even the memories.... ik how she feels thou, and I wish I can go threw the screen and give her and her sweetheart a huge hug.... and maybe some home made sweets or something, talk to them how I dealt with my first miscarriage, and so on.... but just mostly to hug them to tell them "it's ok.." in person.... my heart is really breaking for them. 💔💔💔

  • @n2bu
    @n2bu 2 года назад +420

    とても辛いだろうに律儀に報告してくれるみのりん…
    妊娠報告をしてくれた瞬間、お腹の子は世界中から祝福された幸せな子だったと思います。今は空から見守ってくれていると思います。素晴らしいパートナーの方と共に無理せずご自愛ください。これからも陰ながら応援しております。

  • @nambees5408
    @nambees5408 2 года назад +774

    I had a miscarriage back in 2016 with my first baby and let me tell you, this video made me so sad and emotional for you 🥺 Definitely take this as a sign and continue being happy with your partner, do what you feel is best for you. Baby will always be looking after you 💜
    P.S. I got pregnant again in 2020 and my baby is now 14 months old (I'm 26). Keep being hopeful and happy Minori !💜

    • @wuvumgywgy
      @wuvumgywgy 2 года назад

      Having another kid is basically replacing the other one i feel, unless you were gonna have two.

    • @noatmealcookie02
      @noatmealcookie02 2 года назад +11

      sending thousand health wishes to your baby!

    • @oreo_.bunny_
      @oreo_.bunny_ 2 года назад +48

      @@wuvumgywgy um what? It isn't replacing at all, it's giving another shot at actually having a baby to hold.

    • @chiyuha
      @chiyuha 2 года назад +36

      @@wuvumgywgy dont say that, most parents would never dream of replacing their miscarriaged baby. Its still a loss even if they get another chance

    • @oreo_.bunny_
      @oreo_.bunny_ 2 года назад +25

      @@wuvumgywgy replacing would be forgetting a miscarried baby after having another. Most parents never forget and let their new baby know when theyre older

  • @sallyface1239
    @sallyface1239 2 года назад +512

    Honestly, it's so inspirational that even after going through something so heart breaking she can still stay positive and focus on the future rather than something in the past she couldn't help.
    Good luck for the future minori!✨ Stay positive✨

  • @hannahlisney
    @hannahlisney 2 года назад +340

    The Monk's speech gave me goosebumps. What a beautiful tradition. I'm so sorry, Minori. I'm so glad you have such a strong support network. Sending so much love.

  • @2bed2furious
    @2bed2furious Год назад +628

    I am so sorry, no one should ever go through this. I am so happy that you're alive and healthy right now. Stay safe, you and your partner 🥰

  • @OneBrokenDove
    @OneBrokenDove 2 года назад +835

    As someone who cant have kids, i was crying from the beginning. You would have been an awesome mom, Minori. I love you so much.

    • @zuzuxzu
      @zuzuxzu 2 года назад +40

      She will be an awesome mother when the time comes :’)

    • @satlva2908
      @satlva2908 2 года назад +26

      She will be.

  • @nknkna
    @nknkna 2 года назад +419

    this is heartbreaking and i started crying when you said you’ll be fine. i’m thankful to hear how strong you and your partner were. thank you for telling us the story the Minori way ❤

  • @akemihomurawr
    @akemihomurawr 2 года назад +460

    i love you minori, you're really brave for opening up and telling us about such an emotional and difficult thing to go through. i was happy to hear that you were pregnant, but like you said, you're young, you still have a lot to do and the baby can come after you're really ready. I've been watching your videos ever since you uploaded the rapunzel challenge one, and i will continue to watch and support you for as long as you stay on youtube. i wish you and your partner all the happiness in the world. thanks for making videos and thanks for being you

  • @sugarchii
    @sugarchii Год назад +176

    Minori, I've never heard of you until now because RUclips decided to recommend me this video randomly but I started crying so quick listening to this. I'm sad to hear it happened to you, but I'm happy to see how positive you were about it too. Take care and hopefully you can travel soon ♡

    • @bryn1063
      @bryn1063 Год назад +9

      Same, I never saw this woman before but I'm very sad for her loss and hope she can have a healthy baby like she and her partner deserves

  • @SecretsOfTokyo
    @SecretsOfTokyo 2 года назад +597

    Oh Minori, im so incredibly sorry. Im heartbroken for you, crying with you. Ive lost 4 little babies myself, in fact today is my sons first birthday (he died two days after being born)... Nothing will ever make it better, but time will make things easier. You have an angel watching over you now, who will be with you every step of the way. Keep your chin up mama, you are strong. xx

    • @BiaRosy
      @BiaRosy 2 года назад +24

      Wish the best for you, you are a really strong person and deserves the best!
      Also, if someday you want to have a child again but still afraid, try to adopt or (idk if its legal were you live) go for surrogate, so you don't need to pass for all the stress again! Pls keep your mind and body healthy, and don't forget you can aways go for alternative safe ways to have your baby! What really matters is being there for they and for sure in any occasion (even cat/dog mother) you will be an amazing parent!!!

    • @SecretsOfTokyo
      @SecretsOfTokyo 2 года назад +15

      @@BiaRosy Thank you so much for the reply, kind words and support ♥ I've recently had a surgery (only a few weeks ago!) that may help me carry a baby to full term safely, all of my past little ones have been premature, its been a long time fighting with doctors to finally be able to have this surgery so I am hoping for the best from here on out. Im not quite ready to try again just yet, but when the time comes im definitely going to try and stay positive. Otherwise yes, adoption or surrogacy (though not sure how I feel about surogacy yet) is an option ♥

    • @emmajeanjones6552
      @emmajeanjones6552 2 года назад +5

      This comment made me cry more then the video, I hope your doing well and just know that you are loved

    • @SecretsOfTokyo
      @SecretsOfTokyo 2 года назад +5

      @@emmajeanjones6552 Thank you so much for the kind words ♥

    • @emmajeanjones6552
      @emmajeanjones6552 2 года назад +4

      @@SecretsOfTokyo of course

  • @mihneasaila5805
    @mihneasaila5805 2 года назад +419

    I am deeply sorry for your loss, Minori! I cannot imagine the hardship you went through! Stay strong and healthy!

  • @SteenatheCatrobat
    @SteenatheCatrobat 2 года назад +135

    *hugs* I started crying when I saw your face. Misscairage, and pregnancy termination is hard on everyone. Take the time you both need to grieve. I do hope you both will have the family of your dreams. You’re not alone, and we all love you.

  • @indrahx5905
    @indrahx5905 Год назад +56

    This made me cry (still does). It happened to me too, only that my doc said we could try to get it out without surgery. Running around with your dead baby inside of you for weeks is no fun. The pills didn't work, but two weeks later my body was able to do it on its own. The big difference was that I didn't have a loving partner like you do - mine was totally unable to deal with it and left me all alone with my grief and the whole process. You have a great partner. Wish you a wonderful family one day!

  • @mikanoname6120
    @mikanoname6120 2 года назад +261

    I’m so sorry for your loss, thank you for sharing the Japanese culture during this sensitive time.

  • @baileywerner2795
    @baileywerner2795 2 года назад +384

    Thank you so much for being open and honest with your viewers, Minori. My heart goes out to you and your partner. You really can’t know what’s going to happen, but everything happens for a reason! Please don’t let this get you down or discourage you from having a baby in the future, but use it to encourage you to do things you’ve been wanting and appreciate what you have! I loved the drawing style of this video, learning more about you as a person, and about different culture. Please put your health first, and don’t feel you need to hide anything. If you need to take time off RUclips, I’ll still be here! I subscribe because you make great content, not because there’s a new video every week!

  • @Lucythe666
    @Lucythe666 2 года назад +395

    5:15
    This moment was just-
    Your partner is just SO STRONG. I couldn't control myself from crying

  • @zenmeru925
    @zenmeru925 2 года назад +323

    My mother also lost her third child while pregnant. She had to have surgery and she told me and my brother that we wouldn't have a baby sibling, and she also woke up in tears. I couldn't help but tear up a bit when you mentioned that. Also that stuff about religion in Japan, praying for your ancestors to take care of your baby, I found it super cute, in a bittersweet way. I teared up a bit there aswell.
    Things happen for a reason I suppose. You'll get children when the right time comes. Hope you both are healing just right

  • @maryanndy-perez4097
    @maryanndy-perez4097 2 года назад +109

    This really made me cry. :'( you are a brave woman Minori. It have been years since we are married. It was hard for us to get pregnant. Seeing you getting excited and everything it made me feel happy for you. Though, I think things happens for a reason and I hope this made you and your partner stronger. I hope you get better soon.

  • @eggs4073
    @eggs4073 2 года назад +343

    I'm so sorry you had to go through something so traumatic. You're so amazing to be so strong after everything that happened. I know you're going to be an amazing mother someday. Even if you hadn't had a miscarriage, you still would be an amazing mom, but I'm glad you're looking on the bright side and making plans to travel and follow your passions before you try to have another kid. Take your time. We love you Minori!

  • @juliaearl7418
    @juliaearl7418 2 года назад +169

    I’m so sorry for your loss I’m sending all my love and support during this tough time

  • @NotDamienArt
    @NotDamienArt 2 года назад +73

    your positivity is just, so touching. i'm sorry for your loss and i wish you both the best !

  • @myahill3589
    @myahill3589 2 года назад +251

    You are such a strong person being able to share this with us, and your story is so heartbreaking. Yet, as you said, you still have so many things you want to do, and when you feel that you are ready is the best time to have a baby. I'm so sorry that you've experienced something like this, and having a miscarriage can be one of the most hardest things to experience. We love you and are here for you Minori💗💗. Hoping for the Best for you and Yoshi!

  • @raidenriot
    @raidenriot 2 года назад +166

    Oh Minori… I’m so sorry for your loss. You’re so strong for telling us this story. Please take care of yourself!

  • @meluvy
    @meluvy 2 года назад +125

    Minori, I'm so sorry for everything that happened this past month. Take as much time as you need, whenever you need it. We will always wait for you and support you

  • @kyokudonoakuma
    @kyokudonoakuma Год назад +140

    I lost my first baby too (he had heavy disfunctions due to a very rare condition we couldn't do anything about). I took more than a year mourning that baby and thinking about it always brings the tears. I'm glad you managed to get back to normal fast and don't suffer from the grief too much. Wish you the best.

  • @SisileaKim24
    @SisileaKim24 2 года назад +167

    You’re so brave and strong ❤

  • @keikouyeda1224
    @keikouyeda1224 2 года назад +456

    I feel so bad, seeing this video feels like you HAVE to explain your pain for us, you don't deserve this, besides im feeling happy to see how mature you are explaining this delicated part of your life for us, we all are wishing the best for you and your family!
    (kisses from Brazil!)

    • @gilashroot8697
      @gilashroot8697 2 года назад +6

      I agree that there is no necessity to share all this, but some people who are experiencing this or have experienced this can draw strength from her sharing. I would say that she did a good job of sharing enough. I hope it helps others and inspires people.

  • @yuelingui
    @yuelingui 2 года назад +160

    I’m so sorry Minori. Thank you for telling us. We are all here for you and I hope you heal ❤️ You are an incredibly strong and brave woman and I know you and your partner can get through this. We love you always.

  • @soup3122
    @soup3122 Год назад +91

    IM LITERARY BALLING MY EYES OUT! u looked so sad when you where in the hospital bed and the sad music too!!! 🥺 im just glad that you got over it. RIP. lil egg 😔🙏

  • @GuineapigGuardian
    @GuineapigGuardian 2 года назад +338

    You found the best partner ever. Supportive, understanding, open, and honest. I also love hearing about Japanese culture because the option to have closure by way of the temple makes sense to me emotionally. I believe that a way to give closure or a way to mourn (you decide) is a healthy way to give your emotions space, to have a voice, and then ultimately, to not feel so overwhelming. I cried for you and your partner, and at the same time I was smiling when you mentioned plans to travel. I hope you and your partner live your very best lives. As I like to say: Remember life is good food, good company, and good sleep.
    From your furry friends Moose, Riot, Crash, and Chip

  • @michaelanderson2949
    @michaelanderson2949 2 года назад +213

    Minori, You’re so brave to even tell us and going through this.

  • @plashie99
    @plashie99 2 года назад +445

    You’re so strong, mature and most of all, kindhearted. I want you to know that these things happen in life and they have happened in a lot of other people in this world that yet, probably got pregnant again and gave birth to a healthy baby. You don’t need to worry about anything you just gotta relax, know that when we spend our time by having fun, things always get great at the end! You’re never alone minori. We are here for you and I want you to know that everything is gonna turn out fine, just have some fun, spend some time with people that you love and just wait patiently until life brings your moment. Everything is gonna be fine these things happen just know that you’re not alone and that we are here for you, stay safe🫶🫶💞💞

  • @Remnants_
    @Remnants_ 2 года назад +38

    The visit to shrine seems like a really lovely way to honour everything you’ve been through & a really sweet idea that your ancestors can help. Hope you & your partner are doing well, take care of yourselves

  • @sophiaisabelle01
    @sophiaisabelle01 2 года назад +221

    We’re all here for you, Minori. Thanks for sharing with us your struggles and difficulties. We’re all humans and we go through dark times in our lives. Things happen for a reason, but we can always look forward for more awesome things to come in our lives. I offer you my virtual hugs. You’re not alone in this. Many other women go through this. We all wish for you and your partner to live on and have a happy marriage.

  • @artesdamamaedragao
    @artesdamamaedragao 2 года назад +636

    Talking about such delicate theme openly and in such caring and loving way takes a lot of courage and maturity. I'm glad you're safe and healthy. All the happiness and love to you, Minori.

    • @Peach_mochi.3
      @Peach_mochi.3 2 года назад +2

      I love how she’s thinking for others and herself at the same time!!! It makes me happy that she is doing steps to move on and have a joyful life!! I mean she said she hopes this video will get to someone who will need it sincerely! She’s a big role model 🤭

  • @edgechan
    @edgechan 2 года назад +85

    I have to admit I cried with the news, but seeing you strong and kind to tell us made me believe you're a stronger and amazing person. Take care of yourself, here we are sending you love to both of you in this situation.

  • @mirage4151
    @mirage4151 2 года назад +53

    This video made me feel very emotional. Almost crying actually lol.
    You were so courageous and so brave Minori! I'm glad that your boyfriend is also a very understanding and supportive person !
    I wish you the best for the future, I hope you'll be able to achieve everything that inspire you !

    • @janerecluse4344
      @janerecluse4344 Год назад +2

      I was holding it together until the clip in the hospital where she said she would be fine, then nope, in tears.

  • @evabodnar8568
    @evabodnar8568 2 года назад +199

    I love the idea that the ancestors take care of the baby. Sending you good wishes and strength from Canada, Minori!

  • @AilindaBaptista
    @AilindaBaptista 2 года назад +62

    * Balling my eyes out * I'm sad you two had to go through that but I'm also happy that you two have each other. I wish only the best for you guys!

  • @Jewel-jn8fv
    @Jewel-jn8fv 2 года назад +262

    I'm sorry that I didn't notice when Minorin was having a hard time, even though I supported her when she was having a hard time.
    Thank you for all the love through your videos. Don't forget that your fans are always on your side🌼

  • @roha9ssi
    @roha9ssi Год назад +39

    It was very sad and tragic to see the title of this video. I literally started tearing up when you said that you suffered and cried because of what happened. Minori, you’re a strong and amazing person, and you truly deserve all the happiness that is yet to come. I hope things get better for you and your loved ones. I hope you stay healthy and safe at all times.❤ Always know that things happen for a better future 😊

  • @shinimegami42
    @shinimegami42 2 года назад +88

    Such a good job on animating this for your first time!
    I'm sorry you've had to go through all this, and I hope you feel a little more normal soon. It sounds like it's been quite a hardship, and then to try and figure out how to tell us on top of that. We all appreciate it!
    Its nice to hear about the trip to the temple, sounded like a really healthy way to say goodbye.

  • @swagy-em
    @swagy-em 2 года назад +95

    I am so sorry you had to go through this, Minori..it looks so painful and unfair, but that’s how things sometimes go unfortunately. You are so strong, so brave and i am very thankful that you’re here to show everyone the support they need and your whole experience, i know it helped a bunch of people. We will always love and support you, no matter what and even if you need a break sometimes, you can always take it. Take care and hope you get better soon

  • @mistyhollowpro
    @mistyhollowpro 2 года назад +169

    Oh Minori, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know you're going to hear this hundreds of times, but I am. I'm glad you're taking this in with a very "moving forward" outlook though. It's totally okay to grieve, always, but it's also okay to want to not live in the past. We're very proud of you, and we're always happy with you and your openess towards us. Thank you for being so honest. We're always here for you.

  • @Dana-cg5fo
    @Dana-cg5fo Год назад +67

    When you said “I felt empty for awhile” I cried. I lost my baby after only 8-10 weeks. Everyone thinks it wasn’t long enough to build an attachment, but I disagree entirely. I felt and sensed him the moment he was conceived, like I felt his soul, so much that I KNOW they were a little boy. He loved five guys more than anything in the world. I had full on maternal instincts and hated spicy foods which I have loved my entire life. I took 4 pregnancy tests weeks apart just to be sure and they were all positive. I was ecstatic but scared. I wasn’t in a good place and was on the pill so I wasn’t sure how it was possible, but then I discovered I hyper-ovulate which apparently can mess up the pill sometimes. I scheduled and ultra sound to go see him and how he was doing, and suddenly, I felt sick, and felt the most pain I’ve felt in my life at the time. I called my partner frantically. Saying “I think I’m having a miscarriage, I think I’m about to lose him. Something is wrong.” And he comforted me and reassured me. I lost a lot of blood, like I was on a very heavy period. I was puking and rushed to the toilet and… I felt “empty.”
    I cried and prayed, and the next day, I took a pregnancy test, and it was negative.
    I fell to my knees and screamed.
    Mothers can have a connection instantly. INSTANTLY.
    I am so sorry this happened to you, but I am so glad you are okay and healthy and with a good partner.
    Don’t give up!

    • @Moon_Sh0t_X1
      @Moon_Sh0t_X1 10 месяцев назад +5

      That sounds horrible. No one should ever have to go through something like this.

  • @neffyg35
    @neffyg35 2 года назад +94

    Many hugs Minori! I've never been pregnant but as woman that wants to be a mother, I feel like I only imagine the sadness.

  • @nathangeorge6563
    @nathangeorge6563 2 года назад +84

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby, hope your doing well now? Also this video was just...... Wow, can't even put into words how fantastic yet heartbreaking it was. The fact you have been able to see the positives though, just incredible. Your partner is such a fantastic guy for supporting you through this all. I hope you both have the best future together. Stay strong x

  • @tokyolane8017
    @tokyolane8017 2 года назад +130

    Thank you for telling us! And I hope your healing and if you need to take time do so! Sending love and the animations are super cute!!

  • @samantikasaha6674
    @samantikasaha6674 2 года назад +19

    I started tearing up when you said you woke up and started crying in the hospital. I wish you and your partner the best. You're an amazing person, Minori. stay safe and healthy.

  • @miss_lilyanne
    @miss_lilyanne 2 года назад +259

    I have tears typing to you. Baby Minori rest in peace. I love your culture and religious beliefs. It was so comforting to hear babies lost too soon are taken care of by our ancestors. I can just imagine my auntie Joy (who helped raise me and dozen of my cousins)in the afterlife still taking care of all of the little ones that were lost in our family. You will make an excellent Mama one day! Who knows, maybe it will be sooner than you might think.

  • @haleyh9875
    @haleyh9875 2 года назад +63

    Loss is so difficult to deal with, especially at this time in life in this situation. We wish the best for you Minori and support you always

  • @fyrelordazula3902
    @fyrelordazula3902 2 года назад +100

    you’re so brave for opening up to us about it and get well soon 💗

  • @nothanks1239
    @nothanks1239 2 года назад +75

    I feel for you. I also had a miscarriage. Found out on my first scan that my baby was no longer alive. I was absolutely deverstated. 5 months after that, I had an ectopic pregnancy and my fallopian tube ruptured; I needed emergency surgery. I lost my 2nd baby and a fallopian tube. It honestly felt like I was never going to become a mother. But, after some healing I became pregnant again, and she is now almost 5 years old AND I'm pregnant again (early stages). It's so stressful to go through such losses, but I think I'm lucky to have become a parent at all. I wish you and your fiancé the best of luck in your journey ❤

  • @wesleywouldifhecould
    @wesleywouldifhecould 2 года назад +91

    Minori you are a joy in our household's lives. We love seeing your art and your creations and your personality truly beams through the screen and brightens our days. I am truly deeply hurt down in my heart for you. You are a very strong woman and your story is very touching and there is not enough words to say what an honor it is for you to share your story with us. That is something very special and you deserve all the happiness and healing in the world. We 🫶🏻 you.

  • @abyafifah9713
    @abyafifah9713 2 года назад +54

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Watching you telling us is already sad and makes me cry but the moment I saw u talking while lying on the hospital bed with your red face and still manage to smile makes me cry harder, you are so strong. Stay strong and please know that we are here accompanying you along your journey, Minori. Takes your time to heal and I wish all the best for both of you and partner

  • @galaxyfox9372
    @galaxyfox9372 2 года назад +40

    I’m so sorry this happened to you. You would have a been a wonderful mother and we are all here for you to support you during this hard time ❤️❤️

  • @leynasweger4170
    @leynasweger4170 2 года назад +30

    I went through the same exact thing. I understand what you’re going through and it was hard for me and my partner to go through having our miscarriage and we still struggle with it today, especially around our families babies.

  • @_jjangyun
    @_jjangyun 2 года назад +54

    im so sorry for your loss minori. please stay safe and keep yourself healthy. we love you so much♡

  • @YoutubeYes143
    @YoutubeYes143 2 года назад +296

    As someone who’s mother experienced this, things will get better and I’m sorry for your loss. When one door closes, another one opens. After my mother had a miscarriage, a few years later, she had me. I like to believe that there is always someone looking after me. I hope things get better for you. Everything happens for a reason. ❤

    • @GMisEpicYuh
      @GMisEpicYuh 2 года назад +4

      Oh hello fellow rainbow child

    • @YoutubeYes143
      @YoutubeYes143 2 года назад

      @@GMisEpicYuh hello there

    • @YoutubeYes143
      @YoutubeYes143 2 года назад +2

      Oh and to whoever deleted their comment that they wrote, sorry I was just trying to help. That was just what I believe. Before I wrote the “everything happens for a reason, I was going to write “I believe that” but I ended up writing it somewhere else in the comment. So sorry, I was just trying to be helpful. And Minori, if you see this, I’m sorry for you. But, I really do hope that things get better.

  • @gwennhall8905
    @gwennhall8905 2 года назад +70

    I’m so sorry Minori 💔 Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I’ve experienced baby loss and it’s the loneliness and most hopeless thing that can happen. To share your story is so brave. I am so happy you have such a supportive partner; it makes a world of difference. Grieve together, and take your time. Don’t feel pressured to upload for us. Just take care of yourself and heal ❤️‍🩹

  • @sailorqueen5381
    @sailorqueen5381 2 года назад +41

    OMG, Minori, I'm so very sorry about what happened to your newborn baby, this is so heartbreaking. I'll be praying for you and your fiancé that the two of you will be okay again and that you'll have a wonderful family of children in your life. It's going to be okay again, and I just know that good things will come in the future. I'll be cheering for you both.

  • @zhangillynn172
    @zhangillynn172 2 года назад +79

    you're so brave to share this to us, Minori-san. Much love and support to you

  • @hoovsies
    @hoovsies 2 года назад +52

    we love you minori, thank you for having the courage to open up about your personal life to us, even with such a seemingly random, but amazing announcement like pregnancy and starting a family! and in the same vein, it takes a lot of courage to open up about heartbreak and loss. even though you've taken the time to share it through your cute art, and though you've stated this all very well in a calm voice, and though you're still sharing with your sweet smile at the end as always, i can't imagine the pain and emotional toil you've gone through to share even more of yourself with us. thank you, and i believe your loss did happen for a reason, as painful as it must have been. i'm glad that you're healthy and that no problems occured with your surgery. maybe it was a bit too early in you and your partners' lives, and you can take the time to heal, fulfill some dreams like travel, and hopefully plan out a happy childhood for your baby if you're able to try again! i've never commented on your videos, and never really comment on others to begin with, but watching this made me cry both out of happiness and sadness for you. best wishes to you and your partner...

  • @gracewilson3895
    @gracewilson3895 2 года назад +129

    Dear Minori- I can only begin to imagine the strength it must have taken to make this video. I am so blessed by your genuine openness, honesty, and sweet spirit. I wish you and your partner all the best and brightest things this world has to offer, all in the right time.❤

  • @rebellalugosi5953
    @rebellalugosi5953 Год назад +12

    I'm glad you made this video- everyone should be comfortable talking about this. It really is 100% normal and happens all the time. Sometimes it even happens later on in the pregnancy. I hope everything works out for you eventually. Virtual hugs to you.

  • @cameleon._.
    @cameleon._. 2 года назад +44

    I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of this. I couldn't hold back my tears while listening to this. When my doctor had told me that I am probably not going to be able to have children,I cried a lot,but this feels even worse. We are supporting you and I hope you feel better ❤

  • @__ArtsyKitsune__
    @__ArtsyKitsune__ 2 года назад +31

    I'm so sorry this has happened Minori, you and your partner are so strong. Sending you hugs and love 💗

  • @rberkowitz9453
    @rberkowitz9453 2 года назад +20

    Minori thank you for sharing this. It was very brave of you. I am so sorry for your loss. You have alot of supportive people around you and you are incredibly strong!

  • @LuxeriasAtelier
    @LuxeriasAtelier Год назад +12

    I'm so sorry to hear that. Just as you posted the video, this happened... Sending all the love and support to you and your partner. I pray that your cute baby will come again in the future.

  • @Linnxanbjd
    @Linnxanbjd 2 года назад +33

    I'm so sorry this happened to the both of you. You're not alone, and i'm sure there must be support groups for couples who go through these things. Take as much time as you need 💜

  • @Whiskur
    @Whiskur 2 года назад +29

    Minori, firstly, I’m so sorry about your loss, I’m so glad your partner is there for you. Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope you know that we will always be there for you and if you need time to grieve? That’s okay. We will be here for you when you return if you take time off. Sending you both much love.

  • @bellblue5527
    @bellblue5527 2 года назад +75

    Minori I just want to extend my deepest sympathy to you and your partner Yoshi for the loss of your little Bean. Having lost two myself at 12 and 20 weeks I really do understand the pain that comes with losing a pregnancy.
    I also do believe your views and outlooks are very healthy and you are free to grieve and process your loss in whatever way you see fit.
    I personally do also believe everything happens for a reason, and no matter how long you and your little Bean were together, it was the exact amount of time that was meant to be.
    Bean came and gave you lessons and memories you will have all your lives. No matter if it was for 4, 5 or 6 weeks, Bean was and is a gift and you and Yoshi will be forever changed because of their little life no matter how small they were, no matter how briefly they were with you.
    You say you are fine and I believe you. But don't be surprised if you have times of sadness and grief pop out of the blue. It's normal and healthy. You are such a mature and kind young lady. You bring so much joy to others all around the world, thank you.
    May your future bring you all your hearts desires and when the time is right for you both you will both make wonderful parents that is for sure 🙏

  • @fehustudio5490
    @fehustudio5490 2 года назад +19

    Thank you for sharing this with us. The ceremony at the temple sounded really nice. I'm glad you and your partner came out of this stronger and I wish you both all the best!