My Miscarriage

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  • Опубликовано: 11 янв 2025

Комментарии • 31 тыс.

  • @olgatrujillo4431
    @olgatrujillo4431 3 года назад +6373

    "Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear. They were never cold, never hungry, never alone and importantly always knew love." - Zoe Clark-Coates

  • @holdawn
    @holdawn 3 года назад +6108

    just because someone dislikes pregnancy doesn't mean they dont want a baby.

    • @rurue-hf6nu
      @rurue-hf6nu 3 года назад +47

      @blv ...wrong comment?

    • @JosephJoestarz
      @JosephJoestarz 3 года назад +13

      Thank you. Exactly 👏

    • @CitrineMoon
      @CitrineMoon 3 года назад +32

      Yes! This! One of my cousins was pretty miserable her whole pregnancy but that doesn't mean she hates being a mother. She adores her son.

    • @user-ri3oz1hi4k
      @user-ri3oz1hi4k 3 года назад +6

      Exactly. I hope they choose to adopt one of the billions of kids around the world 💕😞

    • @maggiequinn9226
      @maggiequinn9226 3 года назад

      Yeah.

  • @lexa4434
    @lexa4434 3 года назад +6079

    And now she’s pregnant with twins...
    This is really the universe giving back what it took from you

    • @nikidanesh3819
      @nikidanesh3819 3 года назад +24

      ❤️❤️

    • @mariamshah338
      @mariamshah338 3 года назад +407

      yep. the baby went back for its best friend :)

    • @itskadyy1907
      @itskadyy1907 3 года назад +58

      Took the words right out of my mouth!!

    • @fr3y458
      @fr3y458 3 года назад +26

      Exactly what I was thinking

    • @raytas9140
      @raytas9140 3 года назад +17

      Right I’m
      So happy for her!!!!!

  • @ashleyl6620
    @ashleyl6620 3 года назад +982

    I’m a labor and delivery nurse and I want to thank you for talking about miscarriages. 1 out of 4 pregnancies end in loss. Whether it is a miscarriage, stillbirth or a neonatal death. And no one talks about it. The shame that surrounds it needs to end! 99.9% of the time it is never the mothers fault.

    • @ktcooki276
      @ktcooki276 3 года назад +20

      One in four???? No way???? I never heard that statistic before. Love to Colleen.x

    • @salvetre3966
      @salvetre3966 3 года назад +8

      @@sdf9962 oh I'm sorry for your losts. Sending you love honey ❤️

    • @sdf9962
      @sdf9962 3 года назад +6

      @@salvetre3966 thank you, I very much appreciate your kindness!

    • @annaleise624
      @annaleise624 5 месяцев назад

      I’m 15 and have a baby girl. I didn’t even think about this

  • @OhLaurenBaby
    @OhLaurenBaby 3 года назад +3035

    Miscarriages are hard whether the pregnancy was planned or not. Your pain is entirely valid.

    • @megan886
      @megan886 3 года назад +2

      1000th like

    • @millahschulte9326
      @millahschulte9326 3 года назад +1

      It’s so sad and my mum had two and I can’t imagine what she went through

  • @AJ-db8kc
    @AJ-db8kc 3 года назад +2951

    We should normalize women not liking being pregnant, i think it would take away a lot of guilt and shame

    • @katherinetaylor4026
      @katherinetaylor4026 3 года назад +205

      exactly. and we need to normalize women not liking being pregnant and still wanting children.

    • @reallareina
      @reallareina 3 года назад +27

      i agree 100%

    • @angel4ever35
      @angel4ever35 3 года назад +40

      It doesn't help nobody warns new moms what to expect during and after pregnancy, it's very hard, also being in pain and sick isn't enjoyable lol 🤣 I was so jealous of the happy comfy preggo ladies

    • @Rebecca_4
      @Rebecca_4 3 года назад +51

      I’m just a teenager rn and I would love to be a mother but the process of being pregnant and giving birth sounds sooo tough sometimes I probably could never handle
      I have sooo much respect for mothers and women who has struggled with these topics

    • @atotallyrandomchickonthein5460
      @atotallyrandomchickonthein5460 3 года назад +12

      @@Rebecca_4 YES. i want them but i don't cause I have a ton of siblings and I don't wanna spend my years watching them, and if I did i don't wanna make my older kids watch them like i have to, but you can die during labor so it scares me 😔

  • @brianaraymond2910
    @brianaraymond2910 3 года назад +5916

    Just because you don’t like being pregnant doesn’t make your feelings any less valid. I am so truly sorry for your loss.

    • @jaecringy1795
      @jaecringy1795 3 года назад +18

      This is so true Colleen we all love you 💕

    • @madelyngilliam7606
      @madelyngilliam7606 3 года назад +9

      yes exactly. 💕

    • @angel4ever35
      @angel4ever35 3 года назад +10

      I hated being pregnant but I know this would've broke my heart, cause when my doc couldn't find the heartbeat during one of my ultrasounds and freaked out and started telling me to go to the hospital next door, luckily she was sleeping and it was just really low and hard to find, but that split second of fear was the most gut wrenching feeling I ever had

    • @Kat-qr7hv
      @Kat-qr7hv 3 года назад +4

      I absolutely hated being pregnant but I’d do it all over again for my son. I never even wanted kids. He was supposed to be a twin and I was devastated when both didn’t make it! Any reaction to miscarriage is valid!

  • @karaklontz
    @karaklontz 3 года назад +820

    Colleen, I’m having a miscarriage today. My first pregnancy. I can’t express enough how much comfort this brought me. I’m currently in rehearsals to play the Baker’s Wife in Into the Woods. I don’t know if I can pick up the pieces of this loss in time to continue in the role. But your video is helping me through my grieving process. Other than not having a previous pregnancy experience, this was like watching a recording of myself and my own heart right now. Thank you for your bravery to share. And your pregnancy with your sweet twins gives me so much hope.

    • @strangelifeasdawn7053
      @strangelifeasdawn7053 3 года назад +16

      I’m so sorry for your loss

    • @alicetarry6397
      @alicetarry6397 3 года назад +16

      Oh honey I'm so so sorry for your loss. I cant even begin to imagine how hard this would be for you. Just know you have people to talk to and you are never alone. I hope that one day you get your beautiful rainbow baby and you have a wonderful life full of happiness and amazing memories. You are a powerful, strong, and courageous woman and you can get through this. I hope you feel better soon xxx

    • @loveydovey1008
      @loveydovey1008 3 года назад

      First*

    • @EmilyandPichu
      @EmilyandPichu 3 года назад +1

      I’m so sorry you had to go through this you are a strong and amazing woman ❤️❤️❤️

    • @ytn1f
      @ytn1f 3 года назад +8

      I’m sorry this happened to you. Today I am having a miscarriage and I don’t know what to do. My first pregnancy after trying for a year. Seeing Colleen gives me hope to keep going for that rainbow baby.

  • @Catherine_Anne
    @Catherine_Anne 3 года назад +4380

    Please don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t grieve this baby because you don’t like being pregnant. You have every right to grieve your loss. A miscarriage is one of the hardest things a woman can go through, please give yourself time to heal.

    • @Bussyattack
      @Bussyattack 3 года назад +63

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda ???shut up...

    • @noandno183
      @noandno183 3 года назад +32

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda stfu

    • @mattiejohnson5654
      @mattiejohnson5654 3 года назад +39

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda all hail SATANNNNN

    • @gaby.673
      @gaby.673 3 года назад +15

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda okay what would you do if you got pregnant and had a miscarriage its SAD and you don't know what it feels like kinda rude

    • @laurenfrazier7510
      @laurenfrazier7510 3 года назад +11

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda what the actual hell she is grieving and you have to comment this? Wtf

  • @Binkeeandtatertot
    @Binkeeandtatertot 3 года назад +4056

    “Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear. They were never cold, never hungry, never alone and most importantly always knew love” ❤️

    • @elliegrace757
      @elliegrace757 3 года назад +155

      I know this is meant for Colleen, but this touched me regarding my situation which I have also left a comment, thank you x

    • @ianonymous4204
      @ianonymous4204 3 года назад +24

      i love this❤️

    • @suzannemabery5549
      @suzannemabery5549 3 года назад +34

      My mom had a miscarriage before she got pregnant with me and every time I hear or see a story I'm reminded of my brother, Caleb in heaven and I know she'll love this. I've never had a miscarriage, I was told I was when I was pregnant with my oldest son and I felt like my world was over until I got transported to st. Louis and by God's Grace I was told I was not having one. This breaks my heart for you Colleen. May the Lord turn this around for the good.

    • @valrojas16
      @valrojas16 3 года назад +8

      That's beautiful

    • @kerri-leeelcock660
      @kerri-leeelcock660 3 года назад +8

      Man i needed this comment

  • @caitlynlewis4539
    @caitlynlewis4539 3 года назад +2249

    Anyone who would think “she shouldn’t be sad about a miscarriage because she doesn’t like pregnancy” are not worth your time. What a sad, cold, uncompassionate place that would come from. Your feelings and your grief are valid!!!! Sending you love and light and compassion!!

    • @raniazaouaghi7595
      @raniazaouaghi7595 3 года назад +6

      Ikr she said that she hates pregnancy but would still be gratefull for being prego. So the people who say that have NOTHING to say like she was actually crying why would she cry if she didnt care.

    • @brookeanslow3167
      @brookeanslow3167 3 года назад +2

      Caitlyn Lewis stop. Been so mean u wount like if u had a miscarege

    • @raniazaouaghi7595
      @raniazaouaghi7595 3 года назад +6

      @@brookeanslow3167 She is defending us bro she isnt being mean at all-

    • @jessicasfairytale
      @jessicasfairytale 3 года назад +6

      @@brookeanslow3167 you stop. Caitlyn is defending Colleen. Also, get off this video, you look and sound too young to be here.

    • @jamesomeara1328
      @jamesomeara1328 3 года назад +1

      If I have something bad to say well then I can go away bc most of us are here to support not to leave bad comments

  • @natalie5865
    @natalie5865 3 года назад +590

    My sister suffered a 3rd trimester miscarriage. It really broke her, and I’ve never seen her like that. Your not alone Colleen, and I hope anybody can see this message and know that your not alone. Say strong

    • @RedRoseSeptember22
      @RedRoseSeptember22 3 года назад +51

      Mama Doctor Jones says it's not considered miscarriage after 20 weeks, but fetal death instead. Which doesn't make it any better I know, but it's better when people use the correct term.

    • @nooraqueen2716
      @nooraqueen2716 3 года назад +26

      That’s a stillbirth

    • @b4byheart726
      @b4byheart726 3 года назад +13

      @@RedRoseSeptember22 it’s fetal death after 8 weeks, and embryonic death before 8 weeks.

    • @phyreacid
      @phyreacid 3 года назад

      🥺🥺😭😭

    • @jennifermarielove2608
      @jennifermarielove2608 2 года назад +8

      1st trimester is heartbreaking but 3rd is even more heart breaking knowing that you spent months creating a life and bought furniture please tell your sister I'm so sorry for her lost.

  • @vendejamos7595
    @vendejamos7595 3 года назад +2391

    "I don't like the pregnancy process" and "I want to have kids" are two statements that should coexist :)) sending love to your family Colleen ❣️

    • @yayamckenzie5986
      @yayamckenzie5986 3 года назад +18

      yess SAY IT LOUDER

    • @seona1902
      @seona1902 3 года назад +2

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda .

    • @user-hn9fl2bd8j
      @user-hn9fl2bd8j 3 года назад

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda ....

    • @cessily810
      @cessily810 3 года назад +7

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda baptism doesn’t save you😀

    • @vendejamos7595
      @vendejamos7595 3 года назад +3

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda That's hilarious I already am :)) how about u get off the internet and stop telling people how to live their lives.

  • @montbm1338
    @montbm1338 3 года назад +2208

    She hated pregnancy but she loves motherhood. It's not fair. Love you Colleen, we're here with you, will be here always to support you 🖤

  • @RachelZeglerLovesHugs
    @RachelZeglerLovesHugs 3 года назад +22656

    Oh mama. We love you so very much. You are so strong.

  • @alyciaadams8634
    @alyciaadams8634 3 года назад +122

    I would never wish a miscarriage on my own worst enemy. The emotional aspect is almost unbearable at times. The pain is unlike any other. Sending you love and light.

  • @elizabowens3168
    @elizabowens3168 3 года назад +1594

    The saddest part no one talks about is having to tell everyone that you’re not anymore.

    • @Rebecca_4
      @Rebecca_4 3 года назад +17

      If you guys have seen the video Rebecca Zamolo made she talked about how she had to tell people it wouldn’t happen anymore
      And that’s rlly hard especially being extremely scared about what others will think

    • @elizabowens3168
      @elizabowens3168 3 года назад +11

      @@Rebecca_4 That was truly the hardest part for me. ugh. I never wanna have to do that again. I wasn't worried about that they would think. I was more concerned about the overwhelming feeling of guilt.. My therapy helped me through that though.. its tough and still is it takes your body over 6 months to get back to more and that the hormones. It been only 4 months since I lost my son and I still have very high days and very low days... it comes in waves.

    • @jessicalopez6842
      @jessicalopez6842 3 года назад +5

      Exactly what happened with me. Within 1 day of telling everyone we had to tell them we weren’t anymore

    • @malikaaj
      @malikaaj 3 года назад +5

      it's my fear honestly I wouldn't be able to tell anyone until I know the pregnancy will be safe you know? its such a scary and sad thing

    • @elizabowens3168
      @elizabowens3168 3 года назад +3

      @@malikaaj I waited after my first trimester but I still lost my son at 17 weeks... next time im waiting until I have the baby... cause yeah it just so scary at the point.. I was so close to being in my third trimester.. ugh but I totally understand girl.

  • @bridgette1800
    @bridgette1800 3 года назад +2654

    Just because you “don’t like being pregnant”, doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to mourn the loss of your baby. You have every right to grieve, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I’m so sorry for your loss 🖤

    • @aliciadeadlydaisy7543
      @aliciadeadlydaisy7543 3 года назад +30

      Who the hell "likes" being pregnant anyway?? 😂
      Traumatic and devastating situation regardless if she "loves" being pregnant or not 🙄

    • @zuzannab9454
      @zuzannab9454 3 года назад +1

      Wait she lost flynn

    • @Emilia.92
      @Emilia.92 3 года назад

      @@aliciadeadlydaisy7543 yeah 😭

    • @Emilia.92
      @Emilia.92 3 года назад

      Yeah true

    • @bridgette1800
      @bridgette1800 3 года назад

      @Alicia Deadly Daisy totally agree. That was my whole point..

  • @anxiousbean1685
    @anxiousbean1685 3 года назад +3649

    This woman cannot catch a break. She’s gone through so much and she still has so much love and support to give to others.

    • @guacamole6860
      @guacamole6860 3 года назад +52

      People who disliked this video where crying to much and couldn’t see what they where doing

    • @anxiousbean1685
      @anxiousbean1685 3 года назад +55

      @@talendumas who cares if she makes a living off of little kids? the little kids find her funny and she’s a great role model. she doesn’t live to please you or anyone else. not to mention this video is about her fricking miscarriage which is a very sad thing. the miranda videos aren’t made for everyone, and not everyone has to like them, but to target the woman who makes them who is literally just vibing having fun being silly?

    • @zprxmels
      @zprxmels 3 года назад +3

      Exactly how I feel

    • @calliethomas2296
      @calliethomas2296 3 года назад +8

      @@talendumas bro just get out of here

    • @zprxmels
      @zprxmels 3 года назад +6

      @@talendumas get out of here if your going to be rude also making videos on social media is a lot harder than it looks my distant cousin makes them it gets stressful but what's even worse is Colleen is/has experienced a miscarriage

  • @kimphamxx
    @kimphamxx 3 года назад +182

    Now this Christmas is 2 little boys, a little girl with presents under the tree❤️❤️❤️ I’m here after your birthing video and vlog, sending you & your new family members so much love!

  • @mia-wo9xt
    @mia-wo9xt 3 года назад +798

    I’m so sad that she had to say sorry for showing her emotions and being sad for losing someone.

  • @meltheconehead
    @meltheconehead 3 года назад +3315

    She’s so strong. She is literally a queen and she can get through anything. We love you colleen!!!!!

    • @beth7259
      @beth7259 3 года назад +22

      b l go away

    • @MrsTran-ix4hk
      @MrsTran-ix4hk 3 года назад +7

      @@TdScar ikr

    • @zoe.h
      @zoe.h 3 года назад +14

      Hi Neil, yes she is a queen, and we love her very much. Bye Neil the church boy.

    • @meltheconehead
      @meltheconehead 3 года назад +8

      @@zoe.h Directioner :3

    • @meltheconehead
      @meltheconehead 3 года назад +3

      @@TdScar hey, please don’t swear in my comments.

  • @SierraSchultzzie
    @SierraSchultzzie 3 года назад +10880

    sending you so much love. Miscarriage brings such a deep and intense kind of pain that can be so difficult to process. I hope you’re able to find healing and strength in grieving, all your feelings are incredibly valid 💕

    • @mandielayne9941
      @mandielayne9941 3 года назад +100

      Thank you for being such a beautiful soul, Sierra!!!

    • @abirose7928
      @abirose7928 3 года назад +47

      Ily Sierra🤍

    • @aH5oAAJv2BPyPwYKOQ9g
      @aH5oAAJv2BPyPwYKOQ9g 3 года назад +122

      seeing both you and colleen go through miscarriages has really opened my eyes to the possible outcomes of pregnancy and has taught me a lot. I love you both❤️

    • @tehechristatehe
      @tehechristatehe 3 года назад +61

      Thank you for supporting Colleen during this! My heart really breaks for her. I remember when I watched your miscarriage video and it really taught me a lot and made me realized how difficult miscarriage can be. I see you supporting so many people who have suffered a miscarriage. It's really inspiring and kind of you. Thank you for being so kind and loving to so many women going through such a horrible thing and thank you for using your platform to raise awareness about such a hushed topic. I can't imagine how many people you have helped and comforted.

    • @HaileyHailey810
      @HaileyHailey810 3 года назад +16

      AWH SIERRA❤️

  • @toolaaaa209
    @toolaaaa209 3 года назад +290

    Who's here after she got pregnant with twins!! so happy for her

  • @carysx2757
    @carysx2757 3 года назад +1473

    whether she hated her last pregnancy or not , doesn't mean that she's not devastated by this loss, you got this hun

    • @jadahmarenaa1847
      @jadahmarenaa1847 3 года назад +1

      I’m so confused what happened??

    • @prestynolivia2052
      @prestynolivia2052 3 года назад +1

      @@jadahmarenaa1847 she had a miscarriage

    • @jadahmarenaa1847
      @jadahmarenaa1847 3 года назад

      @@wickedmonica I would but I’m with my grandparents right now and I just came across the video and was so confused because she seemed so sad. I can’t have the volume up.

    • @glowup_guruu
      @glowup_guruu 3 года назад +1

      @@wickedmonica He/she might not know what miscarriage means.

    • @carysx2757
      @carysx2757 3 года назад

      @@jadahmarenaa1847 she unfortunately had miscarriage

  • @mandiejonsen
    @mandiejonsen 3 года назад +1213

    I had a miscarriage 30 years ago and I still haven’t gotten over it. Grieve until you don’t need to.

    • @marissacorrales1731
      @marissacorrales1731 3 года назад +18

      Im sorry for your loss

    • @yourisnobpo1173
      @yourisnobpo1173 3 года назад

      Nobody ask

    • @yourisnobpo1173
      @yourisnobpo1173 3 года назад

      Nobody asked

    • @hopemcclellan6870
      @hopemcclellan6870 3 года назад +23

      @@yourisnobpo1173 you’re right, I didn’t but i really appreciated the comment. You didn’t need to comment ❤️

    • @celinaalabbas9281
      @celinaalabbas9281 3 года назад +17

      @@yourisnobpo1173 and nobody asked for your comment. We support everyone with his/her own story and we are all here to listen to everyone. So if you won't, then you should move on and don't be part of this community. But if something would have happened to you too, you would appreciate the support wouldn't you... have a nice day

  • @AntsCanada
    @AntsCanada 3 года назад +4736

    So sorry to hear this, Colleen. We are here to support you. Praying for you and your family.

    • @juanmacias977
      @juanmacias977 3 года назад +6

      Yeah😞

    • @antoinettegutierrez166
      @antoinettegutierrez166 3 года назад +22

      Hello Collen, my name is Antoinette. I am so sorry to hear you had a miscarriage . I understand completely the pain you are feeling. I had 4 miscarriages . I have two beautiful girls 20 and 19. It really hurts when you lose your pregnancy. My deepest condolences to you and Eric.May God bless you always 🙏

    • @Antonina2013
      @Antonina2013 3 года назад +4

      Yeqh ofc we r

    • @Cowy313
      @Cowy313 3 года назад +6

      @@antoinettegutierrez166 This is not coleen

    • @hayhay3451
      @hayhay3451 3 года назад +1

      Yes

  • @katephilbrook3959
    @katephilbrook3959 3 года назад +170

    I just had a miscarriage last week. I was due a week after your twins are due. I am so so sad, and so sad that I don’t get to follow along with your twin pregnancy journey while at the same stage. I’m so sorry this happened to you and I am struggling myself.

    • @kateh3718
      @kateh3718 3 года назад +13

      Hey I just wanted to say I am very sorry for your loss. I hope you will be alright... well wishes to you

    • @parnikajaiswal3693
      @parnikajaiswal3693 3 года назад +7

      im so so sorry. i hope you're doing okay, sending love ❤️

    • @gabbielogan9271
      @gabbielogan9271 3 года назад +1

      I'm so sorry

    • @katephilbrook3959
      @katephilbrook3959 3 года назад

      Thank you for the support ♥️

    • @elizabethlopez4982
      @elizabethlopez4982 3 года назад

      ❤️❤️❤️

  • @PumpkinZulu
    @PumpkinZulu 3 года назад +273

    When you lose a pregnancy, you are grieving a future you no longer have. It’s heavy.

  • @ooohstephh
    @ooohstephh 3 года назад +298

    The SECOND a mama sees a positive test, she starts to instantly plan and see the future differently. It doesn’t matter how long you were pregnant, the pain is still absolutely there. I am so sorry, Colleen. My heart breaks for you and your family. Praying for you.

  • @NatalieCrawfordMD
    @NatalieCrawfordMD 3 года назад +861

    As a fertility doctor: Thank you for sharing this. I’ve had my own miscarriage and I help patients and I know the stigma is real and the pain is so hard. Sending you love and thank you for sharing. Your vulnerability is brave and inspiring. ❤️

  • @ShyLuna44
    @ShyLuna44 3 года назад +56

    I had several miscarriages in my 20’s, I’ve never been able to have a baby ever since. I know the pain. Thank you so much for sharing this. The universe is making up for what you lost by blessing you with twins. I know it doesn’t make up for what you lost but it’s a double blessing. Hugs from Canada

    • @victoryaod1000
      @victoryaod1000 3 года назад +3

      Thank you for speaking up and sharing your experience.

  • @bethsmithdr10
    @bethsmithdr10 3 года назад +1441

    Why so many dislikes? Miscarriages are sad but normal things that can happen while pregnant. She deserves support for speaking her truth about how this affected her.

    • @chrystalteal4171
      @chrystalteal4171 3 года назад +29

      I think some people dislike that she had to go through a miscarriage or that it is unfair. Some people dislike a video because they don't agree with content or some dislike it because they also hurt. I don't want anyone to see the dislikes or thumbs down as a negative or a bad thing. (I always look at the positive in everything, though)

    • @laurendahlman8324
      @laurendahlman8324 3 года назад +10

      If people don’t like a video they should just click off instead of spreading awful emotions

    • @BeccaReevesXX
      @BeccaReevesXX 3 года назад +4

      Some people don't understand what the dislike button truly means. I think they disliked she lost her baby and was hurting. They were feeling sad for her and didn't like what she had to go through. They don't understand that it's for if you actually dislike the video. Not that you dislike her situation.... at least I'd hope!

    • @DigitalFroxe
      @DigitalFroxe 3 года назад +4

      @@BeccaReevesXX The like and dislike is to show your like or dislike of the content given to you.

    • @hot6ygirl943
      @hot6ygirl943 3 года назад +6

      please every youtube video in existence will get dislikes no matter the context, and the ratio to dislikes and likes is very very good

  • @k8lynL
    @k8lynL 3 года назад +629

    We need to normalize miscarriage stories and understanding. So sorry for your loss Colleen. sending you all the love vibes !!!!!!!

    • @peyton1956
      @peyton1956 3 года назад +5

      @b l huh?

    • @amywilson2292
      @amywilson2292 3 года назад +15

      @@peyton1956 they are spamming this comment everywhere, it's disgusting

    • @ILikeBirds
      @ILikeBirds 3 года назад +10

      @b l this isn’t the time, bot

    • @lemonade_011
      @lemonade_011 3 года назад +2

      I don’t lyk the word normalize but Agreee !

    • @dorampafa8666
      @dorampafa8666 3 года назад +1

      @b l are you kidding me

  • @GracielaAnn
    @GracielaAnn 3 года назад +440

    I had a miscarriage Christmas of 2019, I didn’t give myself time to grieve. I thought I had to be strong for my husband and son. A year later I got depressed because everything built up. So cry, take time to yourself, RUclips will be here after. Your health is more important!

    • @GracielaAnn
      @GracielaAnn 3 года назад +2

      @Madi Renson I’m so happy for her! Hope they are good and healthy 🙂

    • @catrinmaijones
      @catrinmaijones 3 года назад +2

      Well done so true

    • @strawblairyfields
      @strawblairyfields 3 года назад +1

      @Madi Renson Rainbow baby ☺️

  • @lindseylouasmr8838
    @lindseylouasmr8838 3 года назад +258

    I had a miscarriage last year and even though I didn’t want to be pregnant especially with the guy I was with at the time I was still devastated. You’re not alone ❤️

  • @Jordi-Nicole
    @Jordi-Nicole 3 года назад +468

    For someone who’s gone through multiple miscarriages, these comments are so beautiful. I know they were directed to Colleen but I am taking in all the kind words

    • @Rubybugarin
      @Rubybugarin 3 года назад +6

      You’re also strong and beautiful and worthy of so much love.

    • @ansleekennedy3272
      @ansleekennedy3272 3 года назад +4

      Such a silent battle... I’m so sorry.

    • @gwyneverdent395
      @gwyneverdent395 3 года назад

      i am so sorry, u r sooo strong

    • @kaylafreeman8439
      @kaylafreeman8439 3 года назад

      sending you love, hope and peace. you deserve the world and i’m so sorry about the pain you endured. same with colleen. my mom had a miscarriage and i can’t imagine the pain my lord.

    • @iloveeeeeecats
      @iloveeeeeecats 3 года назад

      You are so so so SO strong girl! That is so amazing that you really tried again, and again - there is no way in the world I could even be able to be so amazing after losing a pregnancy!
      ughh I wish I could just give everyone a hug

  • @michellecardenas7703
    @michellecardenas7703 3 года назад +1330

    It really resonated with me when Colleen said, “my heart became a place for four people”

    • @kaileylane_1115
      @kaileylane_1115 3 года назад +4

      Well self love too🥰

    • @vashappening5440
      @vashappening5440 3 года назад +8

      5 now

    • @HilaryLudkin-Finnie
      @HilaryLudkin-Finnie 3 года назад +8

      six now, herself, her husband, Flynn her twins and the little baby we never got to meet but was just as loved Xx
      Stay safe everyone🥰

    • @HilaryLudkin-Finnie
      @HilaryLudkin-Finnie 3 года назад +4

      @@XX-yw6iz The baby she lost still counts as having a place in her heart, so that's Flynn, her twins, her lost baby, Eric and herself as she included herself when she said it and self love is important too.

    • @XX-yw6iz
      @XX-yw6iz 3 года назад +3

      @@HilaryLudkin-Finnie my bad,i reread your comment after posting that,went to delete mine but it wouldnt let me

  • @emmavictoria3255
    @emmavictoria3255 3 года назад +246

    as soon as i heard you say “i had a miscarriage” i started crying just remember we all love you

    • @tamzincaffrey82
      @tamzincaffrey82 3 года назад +9

      I had a miscarriage on my first ever pregnancy 2 years ago and since then I have not been able to get pregnant. I feel so sorry for Colleen, but so glad that she brought this up.

    • @Gracelyn222
      @Gracelyn222 3 года назад +2

      I heard
      Colleen: “and it was positive”
      Me: 👁👄👁 YESSS AAAHHHHH
      Colleen: “but.. it turned out to be a miscarriage”
      Me: ...😭😭😢😭😢NOOOOO
      *comments all of the love in the world*
      Also me: istg if someone comments something mean imma SCREAAAAAM

    • @emmavictoria3255
      @emmavictoria3255 3 года назад

      @@tamzincaffrey82 i am so sorry that happened to you ❤️❤️

  • @ravenlawless5724
    @ravenlawless5724 3 года назад +1889

    You never lost your baby, they just had to go get their sibling. Now they are together on their way to meet you!

    • @michelle360kpop
      @michelle360kpop 3 года назад +122

      This was the most beautiful comment ❤️

    • @beeziess
      @beeziess 3 года назад +107

      he wanted to come with his bestfriend :)

    • @sturn-wf7xd
      @sturn-wf7xd 3 года назад +7

      @@beeziess LMAO

    • @lilyflower50099
      @lilyflower50099 3 года назад +67

      @-Breeze- they were just trying to be positive

    • @that_crzy_ray06
      @that_crzy_ray06 3 года назад +43

      @-Breeze- Jeez they were just trying to be nice. The only inconsiderate one here is you.

  • @SamandAlyssa22
    @SamandAlyssa22 3 года назад +3380

    Your pain and your feelings are valid ❤️

    • @reaganberg3835
      @reaganberg3835 3 года назад +30

      yes! if you had the baby for 1 day or you got to watch the baby grow up, it doesn't matter if you lose them you are allowed to feel sad. dont let anybody tell you otherwise. and colleen you are a mom of 2. that is your baby. they are just up in heaven watching over you.

    • @crazy_cap_mushroom
      @crazy_cap_mushroom 3 года назад +3

      @@reaganberg3835 for sure

    • @naama_amedi
      @naama_amedi 3 года назад +2

      @Sam&Alyssa ❤️

    • @oliviaparsons5515
      @oliviaparsons5515 3 года назад +1

      @@reaganberg3835 agreed

    • @janemh5866
      @janemh5866 3 года назад +2

      @@reaganberg3835 first part is absolutely true any way someone would feel in this situation is their’s, their right and entirely valid, but that includes not necessarily believing it was a baby or that it is in heaven, that’s ok too and something we should be respectful of

  • @funfettirapunzel
    @funfettirapunzel 3 года назад +351

    If a SINGLE person says something mean, I will eat them. You’re an ANGEL and you’re an INCREDIBLE mommy and you are LOVED

    • @romiatzmon9150
      @romiatzmon9150 3 года назад +11

      I'll join you on that!!!

    • @3rlfx694
      @3rlfx694 3 года назад +12

      BON APPETIT lmaooooo

    • @therandomgirl5590
      @therandomgirl5590 3 года назад

      I shall help. I am literally about to cry 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

    • @maxim_beatbox
      @maxim_beatbox 3 года назад

      Amen to that!

  • @stefb123
    @stefb123 3 года назад +750

    pregnancy is a traumatic experience for so many women. that doesn’t mean those women don’t want kids. don’t ever apologize for your feelings, they’re valid. you’re an amazing mother, colleen. we love you.

  • @shelbyrenee6826
    @shelbyrenee6826 3 года назад +207

    This just popped in my feed (after Colleen announced she’s having twins a few days ago) and panic came across me until I saw when it was posted.

  • @miahales7771
    @miahales7771 3 года назад +228

    A miscarriage is something no one should have to go through. Your feelings are valid. We love you.

  • @camilleclaire3808
    @camilleclaire3808 3 года назад +487

    Just because she doesn’t like being pregnant, doesn’t mean that this traumatic experience is any less sad 😢

    • @camilleclaire3808
      @camilleclaire3808 3 года назад +1

      @@divinedatura thank you 😊 its cause I’m in love with the outsiders😍

  • @spamacc1873
    @spamacc1873 3 года назад +1279

    This wasn’t your fault. Even if you didn’t enjoy pregnancy it doesn’t mean you can’t mourn the lose of your baby. I’m so sorry ❤️

    • @adrianatovar4173
      @adrianatovar4173 3 года назад +3

      It okay we are here for you even when your feeling sad we’re here

    • @skypanda2773
      @skypanda2773 3 года назад +19

      @@lvb3612 dude, read the room. not the time nor the place.

  • @jessicapreston9808
    @jessicapreston9808 2 года назад +36

    I just had a miscarriage and I’m so thankful for people sharing their stories. It helps me feel less alone in this extreme sadness.

    • @katiidontwanttoputmylastname
      @katiidontwanttoputmylastname 2 года назад +5

      I'm so sorry:( just know you are never alone and there are people out here that care and will help, even if it's just someone to talk to. I will definitely be praying for you and I really hope you start feeling better soon. Just remember it was not your fault or anything you could have done to have prevented it and there will be big blessings ahead for you 💜 I know it's hard right now and I'm so so sorry you have to go through this, I hope you get to experience motherhood at some point but in the meantime, you are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you'll recieve the peace and comfort and happiness that you DESERVE 💜 much love to you 💖💖💖

  • @danilocaingles1418
    @danilocaingles1418 3 года назад +655

    "I'm sure I WOULD HAVE hated it, but i still would have been so grateful for it" broke my heart.

    • @alix.a.
      @alix.a. 3 года назад +6

      @blv not the place to advertise channels...

    • @kippvrz
      @kippvrz 3 года назад +1

      @blv stfu

    • @memecage7029
      @memecage7029 3 года назад +1

      Am I bugging aren’t these reply’s the same as another comment

    • @emerneilan5491
      @emerneilan5491 3 года назад

      Me too

  • @Oscar-wt4dy
    @Oscar-wt4dy 3 года назад +364

    As a male, thank you for educating me on miscarriages. I never understood how common it was.. stay strong!!! Im so happy that you have great people in your life, some that have even experienced the same pain, to help you recover from this.

    • @Elizabeth-xf7yu
      @Elizabeth-xf7yu 3 года назад +5

      I have heard that one out of every 5 pregnancies ends in a miscarriage. It is a pain that a lot of people don't talk about.

  • @Annalisegracie
    @Annalisegracie 3 года назад +358

    I’ve never wanted to reach into a phone screen and hug someone more

  • @brattybaby
    @brattybaby 3 года назад +137

    Colleen, I’m in the process of miscarrying.. I’ve been crying for three days, seeing blood in the toilet, clots and heavy bleeding, it’s traumatic. The physical pain does not compare to the emotional pain I am going through right now. My boyfriend has been amazing, and the closest ones that I expected to support me only had the harshest words for me. It pains me even more. I keep
    telling myself, “let it go.. let the baby go.” I just visualized myself being hugged by Source Energy, by the Universe, by God, and just melt into its arms and know that it will all be okay.. Heal well, take time
    to find yourself again.

    • @ThatLaurenThing
      @ThatLaurenThing 3 года назад +4

      I hope you’re doing okay ❤️❤️

    • @ElsaLoui
      @ElsaLoui 2 года назад

      Sending you love 💙

    • @Orangeystars01
      @Orangeystars01 Год назад

      Oh no, I'm so sorry that you have endured such pain.

  • @sophiar.2317
    @sophiar.2317 3 года назад +395

    "My heart grew and changed into a place for four people." My darling, it still is. It will always be a place for those 4 people, your heart only grows. It will never shrink. Head up and open heart❤️

  • @alliegarofalo259
    @alliegarofalo259 3 года назад +2214

    I will personally fight anyone who has anything negative to say about this

  • @austinfiregaming9740
    @austinfiregaming9740 3 года назад +6333

    We Are All Here For You

    • @amberfaiss
      @amberfaiss 3 года назад +9

      Yes we are

    • @elisharuth8289
      @elisharuth8289 3 года назад +88

      @@alonsosanchez6400 did anyone ask

    • @elisharuth8289
      @elisharuth8289 3 года назад +103

      @@alonsosanchez6400 how can you say that. She's literally talking about her miscarriage and you're saying that it's funny?!

    • @aakano15
      @aakano15 3 года назад +2

      @@Jiimys187 well then go away

    • @aakano15
      @aakano15 3 года назад +14

      @@alonsosanchez6400 go away then

  • @praptipanchal1469
    @praptipanchal1469 3 года назад +308

    So now they have the mini van. This Christmas they would have a bigger family. But not four, it would be FIVE! I am so excited for the rainbow twins 😭❤️🌈

  • @TheEnglishProjectwithMrsKenned
    @TheEnglishProjectwithMrsKenned 3 года назад +560

    It's ok to be sad. A miscarriage deserves to be mourned, so don't be ashamed about it. Just know you're not alone.

  • @EricaGriffin
    @EricaGriffin 3 года назад +4977

    Thank you Colleen for being so open. This is just not talked about and so many are suffering alone. Even just fear of miscarriage eats at women and there often feels like there is zero support. So thank you, bless you. Take all you need to heal.

  • @DefNoodles
    @DefNoodles 3 года назад +3808

    This is incredibly sad. I'm sorry you're going through this. Hope you and your family are well.

    • @bxba3469
      @bxba3469 3 года назад +17

      Nobody should have to go through this 😢

    • @whatthehellkat
      @whatthehellkat 3 года назад +10

      Youre so sweet Dennis!

    • @rcj-ns6pe
      @rcj-ns6pe 3 года назад +12

      @N Nicol a rainbow baby is a baby that comes after you lose one. It’s not a joke.

    • @AM-kn5ch
      @AM-kn5ch 3 года назад +4

      @Paria correct so they are wishing her luck that she can get her rainbow baby

    • @nnicol1077
      @nnicol1077 3 года назад +5

      Guys I'm so sorry I didnt know what that was. My apologies I wish that for her to.

  • @karlacabrera6810
    @karlacabrera6810 3 года назад +276

    May 17th 2021..she just announced she is pregnant ❤️❤️

    • @hollyknutson5656
      @hollyknutson5656 3 года назад +23

      And with twins!!!

    • @lomled
      @lomled 3 года назад +11

      I really hope it goes well and healthy please GOD🥺💗

    • @meredithbisioski471
      @meredithbisioski471 3 года назад +1

      with twins!

    • @emeliagreen9350
      @emeliagreen9350 3 года назад

      Twins! 👶👶

    • @elliemcd1006
      @elliemcd1006 3 года назад

      I didn't mean to dislike ur comment sorry i was trying to like it

  • @MackenzieLynnYouTube
    @MackenzieLynnYouTube 3 года назад +3479

    Something someone told me that helped me tremendously: “our one goal as parents is to get our little ones to heaven... we’ve done just that.” 🦋

    • @dominik8225
      @dominik8225 3 года назад +116

      that made me see it from a completely different point of view, wow

    • @thugnugget2645
      @thugnugget2645 3 года назад +17

      PrEaCh honey

    • @nicolea8205
      @nicolea8205 3 года назад +32

      What if you’re an atheist and that saying doesn’t help at all?

    • @thugnugget2645
      @thugnugget2645 3 года назад +21

      @@nicolea8205 just bc you dont belive in a heaven or hell doesnt mean they dont exist.

    • @nicolea8205
      @nicolea8205 3 года назад +39

      @@thugnugget2645 that makes no sense at all. I don’t worship a non existent cloud person. It’s like praying that the Easter bunny will solve your problems and give you wisdom.

  • @pammiasmr9068
    @pammiasmr9068 3 года назад +2700

    No matter what, you are a Mom of two, but one is in Heaven.

    • @lizettegarcia8663
      @lizettegarcia8663 3 года назад +110

      This might be the best comment I have read so far

    • @woah665
      @woah665 3 года назад +39

      That is so sweet

    • @Hillaricious
      @Hillaricious 3 года назад +28

      So true ❤️ rip little one

    • @laurenhansel6536
      @laurenhansel6536 3 года назад +19

      I'm tearing up

    • @alanareid8834
      @alanareid8834 3 года назад +14

      This is my favorite. You are my favorite

  • @megmarie3720
    @megmarie3720 3 года назад +206

    i had a miscarriage 6 months ago and i still can’t talk about it without crying. but at the same time it feels like it keeps their spirit alive. they say whenever you’re pregnant your dna changes, you will always carry a piece of them with you. knowing that gave me a moment of piece when i felt none. please take your time to heal, and i’m wishing you and your family nothing but love

    • @YourPartnerInCrime
      @YourPartnerInCrime 3 года назад +3

      I’m so sorry about your miscarriage. I didn’t know that about the DNA. That is really cool. ❤️

    • @naziarahman6375
      @naziarahman6375 3 года назад +1

      I can’t even begin to imagine the pain 😔 Sending all my love ❤️

    • @eireanmc6126
      @eireanmc6126 3 года назад +1

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @surfgirllife
      @surfgirllife 3 года назад +1

    • @anitakhcreate
      @anitakhcreate 3 года назад +1

      Sending all the support to you!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @alyssavincentstephens7981
    @alyssavincentstephens7981 3 года назад +52

    The intense pain you feel is normal. Let yourself feel it. You’re not alone.

  • @Clisare
    @Clisare 3 года назад +3384

    Fellow miscarriage experiencer here. I'm sorry that this happened you. Thank you for sharing, every person sharing their story helps to normalise talking about it. Sending love ❤️❤️

    • @skkye_09
      @skkye_09 3 года назад +2

      I am so sorry!!

    • @belkYT
      @belkYT 3 года назад

      My mom also had a mis carriage. But aren’t mis carriages 1 in 5 chance?

    • @laurenthomas7200
      @laurenthomas7200 3 года назад

      I am too. Completely agree. Hearing other stories helps.

    • @scarletorgana2919
      @scarletorgana2919 3 года назад

      Same here had a miscarriage with by beautiful baby girl Alya always in my heart I’m pregnant again tho but this time with twin s

    • @scarletorgana2919
      @scarletorgana2919 3 года назад

      @@belkYT so it’s still so sad 😭 My mum thinks it runs in the family I losed my triplet only 2 were born poor Ruby didn’t make it 😢👶🏼

  • @angieantczak9305
    @angieantczak9305 3 года назад +368

    One day at a time, this needs to be talked about more. My daughter had a miscarriage last year. It is devastating. Take care of yourself, mentally and physically. Much love to you.

    • @RayneZaleska
      @RayneZaleska 3 года назад +2

      I am tired of it being taboo! I have lost 5+ and I still am told not to talk about them even though they were my babies.

    • @m.a.d.s7237
      @m.a.d.s7237 3 года назад +3

      @@RayneZaleska Please feel free to share your story. It’s a very hard thing to go through and people should be more educated on it. And also women who go through this should be allowed to share their stories as much or little as they would like.

    • @heather4180
      @heather4180 3 года назад +3

      @@RayneZaleska I hear you ♥️. I lost 1 and still have a hard time with it. I Have always been told, “it wasn’t meant to be and move on.” Yes, we all move on but it doesn’t mean it’s not painful and something we should be kept quiet about.

    • @sannegodijn301
      @sannegodijn301 3 года назад +1

      @b l seriously just stop it

  • @sariahleavitt1928
    @sariahleavitt1928 3 года назад +1521

    When you get that positive test. You picture your whole life. You imagine every little thing. And when it’s taken away and lost it’s so so painful. I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks after we’ve been trying for a baby for 2 years. We thought it was our turn and we lost it. Our first baby. It’s absolutely painful. I fell into a deep hole of depression. But I’m better now and still waiting for my rainbow. I think about my baby all the time and pray to God to ask him to let my baby know even though we never met and I wasn’t very far along. We loved/love our baby sooo so much. And can’t wait to meet him/her someday. Be strong momma. I’ll keep you in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️

    • @rachelrose3573
      @rachelrose3573 3 года назад +8

      Aw Sariah, I'm truly moved by your story. I hope and pray you and your husband get a little one soon! Babies are a blessing and yours will be born into a family that loves them more than anything in life. Stay positive girlie, your time will come!

    • @maggiequinn9226
      @maggiequinn9226 3 года назад +4

      Oh my god, you are such a sweet person.

    • @maggiequinn9226
      @maggiequinn9226 3 года назад +1

      #Praying for you collen.

    • @okaycalm4667
      @okaycalm4667 3 года назад +3

      i’m so moved. you are a true role model, thank you so much for sharing this with us.

    • @sariahleavitt1928
      @sariahleavitt1928 3 года назад +1

      @@rachelrose3573 Thank you so much ❤️

  • @justjadecosmetics837
    @justjadecosmetics837 3 года назад +34

    i had a miscarriage at 19 while in college. I didnt know what was happening. It was the worst pain in my life and i was only 5 weeks maybe. No one understands the amount of love you have for a baby even if you just found out. You have a picture in your head of what your life looks like and you plan. youre not alone

  • @astro-wn6go
    @astro-wn6go 3 года назад +316

    the worst pain in my life was getting so excited for my baby that wouldn’t come. it’s inexplicable the weight of that loss. love you colleen

  • @kaylinfirebaugh2485
    @kaylinfirebaugh2485 3 года назад +1216

    Just because you only have one baby on earth with you, doesn’t mean you’re just a mother of one. you’ll always be a mother of two but one just isn’t with you right now❤️ you’re a great mother and i look up to you.

    • @jodie12347
      @jodie12347 3 года назад +14

      This is so beautiful it brought tears to my eyes. Ive never had kids but i want kids so badly one day

    • @mikkijames9404
      @mikkijames9404 3 года назад +2

      Well said

    • @haidarshehade241
      @haidarshehade241 3 года назад

      Exactly she'll meat that baby as an angel in heaven

    • @haidarshehade241
      @haidarshehade241 3 года назад +1

      And this baby just got quickly to heaven without even having the need to undergo the pressure of life.

  • @KB-dn5mc
    @KB-dn5mc 3 года назад +352

    The fact that she’s scared to talk about such an upsetting thing is heartbreaking like it takes such a brave person to talk about miscarriage and bad pregnancies and she should never be shamed for it💔

  • @succubunnie
    @succubunnie 3 года назад +41

    Colleen... I just wanted to say I’m so sorry for the loss of your pregnancy. And I totally get it now. I followed your entire pregnancy with Flynn as you posted it and I always thought to myself “it can’t be that hard”. I am SO sorry I ever thought that. I’m 7 weeks pregnant and I feel miserable. You and all the other mamas out there are SO strong.

    • @faithdaqueene
      @faithdaqueene 3 года назад

      You can never truly know how it feels until you go through this pain. I’ve never gone through it, and I never ever want to go through this pain. Congratulations, and your baby will be blessed with all the joy that they can hope for.

  • @norrisnuts
    @norrisnuts 3 года назад +3724

    So incredible brave sharing your story. So much love to you. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @l0v3l3tters
      @l0v3l3tters 3 года назад +67

      ❤️🥺 norris nuts your so sweet

    • @swsubs4799
      @swsubs4799 3 года назад +45

      Your so sweet Norris nuts I love you 💕x

    • @raniazaouaghi7595
      @raniazaouaghi7595 3 года назад +45

      Brooke, Justin, Biggy, Naz, Sabre or Sockie, Thats so sweet and she is super brave to be sharing this. I would just be sad and all and not say anything. So she is super brave tho!

    • @sourrblx6074
      @sourrblx6074 3 года назад +14

      That is so sweet and I’m so very sorry for Colleen and I can’t imagine what it’s like to have a miscarriage she must feel awful 🥺 i love you Norris nuts so much btw.

    • @Cowy313
      @Cowy313 3 года назад +10

      Omg I’m a big legend

  • @shelbyserda3657
    @shelbyserda3657 3 года назад +319

    I’ve had miscarriages and they affect you in a way you can’t explain. I’m so sorry for your loss Colleen, it’s never easy.

    • @abbycar09
      @abbycar09 3 года назад +1

      I’m so sorry you had to deal with that, I hope you’re doing ok and that’s horrible! ❤️

    • @shelbyserda3657
      @shelbyserda3657 3 года назад +1

      @@abbycar09 I’m doing better, but this was four years ago. I’m still affected by it, but all you can do is be ok and happy they didn’t suffer in front of me you know? 🥰 they’re my angel babies

  • @dopeman4969
    @dopeman4969 3 года назад +147

    A miscarriage is ALWAYS sad. Even if you didn't want the baby to begin with. You are lost something that was a part of you, and that is absolutely devastating. It is okay to feel whatever you're feeling, it is okay to take a full break from everything you're working on and just focus on taking care of yourself. We will all be here. I love you Colleen

  • @carinaka6309
    @carinaka6309 3 года назад +18

    When I first watched your video, I was pregnant. A few weeks later, at 10 weeks pregnant, I had a miscarriage. Now I watch your video again and your words are exactly what I feel: You have set your mind to how your future is going to be and it is just devastating. Thank you for being so open about it!

  • @Tkd777-jim
    @Tkd777-jim 3 года назад +290

    The fact that we’ve seen Colleen every day for a year makes this that much harder to watch. So sad, but happy that you’re ok

    • @Sophie-mh4fw
      @Sophie-mh4fw 3 года назад +1

      It rlly does I feel I'm with her. But she is tough and with our love she can do it. I am crying rn.

  • @gwyneverdent395
    @gwyneverdent395 3 года назад +180

    i SWEAR if anyone says anthing hurtful to colleen it will not end well, i will fight for colleen to feel amazing, i am here for you colleen

  • @butterbean4575
    @butterbean4575 3 года назад +402

    My mom still cries over the miscarriage she had over 23 years ago. It’s a such an immense loss. I’m so sorry.

    • @nanaprincess2537
      @nanaprincess2537 3 года назад +8

      Same here over 20 years ago and over 21 years ago....

  • @Rae_24_
    @Rae_24_ 3 года назад +77

    Often, some women won't even know that they were even pregnant before having the miscarriage. I dont know which is worse, knowing you were or finding out in that way, but Colleen. You. Are. Not. Alone.

  • @ToenjesFamilyVlogs
    @ToenjesFamilyVlogs 3 года назад +310

    She looked so genuinely happy in those clips she posted here quickly of her being pregnant :(

  • @yessir651
    @yessir651 3 года назад +354

    a loss is a loss, Colleen. Just because you didn’t like being pregnant doesn’t mean you are expected to not be sad because of this miscarriage. sending love ❤️

  • @melisefox6053
    @melisefox6053 3 года назад +345

    If someone criticizes a woman for something they can’t control, they can meet me at the garbage because that’s what they are. I am sorry for what happened colleen and just know I’m sending love your way!

    • @calandraoneal8408
      @calandraoneal8408 3 года назад +1

      @@littlebrownjug1683 wat happened

    • @vidcation7865
      @vidcation7865 3 года назад +2

      Exactly. Miscarriages are devastating no matter what your experience with pregnancy is!

    • @calandraoneal8408
      @calandraoneal8408 3 года назад

      @Qween cat I didn’t watch the vid and I don’t have time to or want to , can u just explain

    • @hidingfrompandas
      @hidingfrompandas 3 года назад +1

      @@calandraoneal8408 she had a miscarriage :/

    • @AaliyaahKetler
      @AaliyaahKetler 3 года назад +2

      @@calandraoneal8408 if you’re not interested in watching the video, why do you need to know?

  • @avaroma1517
    @avaroma1517 3 года назад +36

    I just had a miscarriage a few days ago. I’m devastated it’s been hard to get out of bed. I was so excited to become a mom. I was looking at baby stuff everyday. And like she said I had changed my whole mind set and my every thought had to do with my baby and it’s future. I became so passionate about being a mom and to have that taken away is a terrible feeling. I was only a couple weeks but it still hurts. I loved my baby so much. I wish I could’ve been able to hold my baby against my chest.

    • @jasmineconway3790
      @jasmineconway3790 2 года назад

      oh momma, i hope you’re doing well. i had a miscarriage recently too. please remember it’s not our faults💗 sending lots of baby dust for when you may want to try for another baby. you’re still a momma to your angel baby

  • @Karla-fg2rc
    @Karla-fg2rc 3 года назад +409

    It’s heartbreaking to lose what you’ve already accepted

  • @lettucehead77777
    @lettucehead77777 3 года назад +260

    The footage of her telling her family threw me into tears. Colleen our hearts our with you forver and ever. Plz no one show any disrespect plz this is a horrible experince in itself. We love you forever 💕

    • @Mufong.
      @Mufong. 3 года назад +2

      That footage also got me in the heart the most seeing them be so happy for her

    • @marleysoloff8505
      @marleysoloff8505 3 года назад +1

      Same

  • @clover8883
    @clover8883 3 года назад +205

    When we see that positive pregnancy test we immediately build an image of that baby and our family in our hearts. I felt like I was shot into the heavens being given this little angel to carry, then it was taken away and that plummet back to Earth was painful. It’s okay to not feel okay, take time to mend yourself and give yourself the same patience you have for your son.

  • @TheKanaRenee
    @TheKanaRenee 3 года назад +4

    Pregnancy loss is, by far, one of the absolutely worst pains you can experience. It is exactly what you said-- life shattering, devestating, such a drastic pain that does not truly ever go away.
    When we lost our daughter at 18 weeks gestation, I felt so absolutely alone. I didn't want people to tell me "It was meant to be" or "you can try again". I wanted THAT baby. I wanted my daughter.

  • @haleyclark2094
    @haleyclark2094 3 года назад +627

    just because she doesn’t like being pregnant doesn’t mean she doesn’t like having kids.

    • @danielleormerod1137
      @danielleormerod1137 3 года назад +15

      i wish more people understood this!!! its so true

    • @tarunmahesh4711
      @tarunmahesh4711 3 года назад +7

      Exactly. Why is this so hard to understand?

    • @lizzytrenske
      @lizzytrenske 3 года назад +8

      @@halahalahala2015 what are you even talking about. pregnancy is a painful thing, and scary even though it comes with a beautiful and happy ending (most times). she isn’t being hypocritical for not wanting to be pregnant. she wants a baby but to get that she obviously needs to go through the process unless she adopts and she knows that. and she is being genuine about it. she tells us how she feels, that’s being honest and genuine with us. her last pregnancy was just really bad for her, she’s worried her next will be the same or worse. i’m the same way, i don’t want to be pregnant even though i want kids when i get older

    • @jackey8977
      @jackey8977 3 года назад +4

      @@halahalahala2015 you don’t know what she went through every pregnancy is different !! Some can be way more difficult then others. She’s genuine for saying she didn’t want to get pregnant. I believe it’s ok if woman are vocal about this it’s important for people who relate to her to not feel alone on the subject and people like you make it hard for us to feel comfortable opening up about it. It’s not that she doesn’t want the baby but her pregnancy journey wasn’t easy it takes a lot from you physically and mentally. A normal pregnancy is hard imagine her that she was diagnosed with all types of stuff while being pregnant. and don’t get me wrong I’ve worked with pregnant woman they all have different stories some think pregnancy is rainbows and sprinkles and have no symptoms but some have told me it was the hardest thing they’ve done. Not to mention what comes after being pregnant postpartum depression and physical exhaustion.! So please don’t comment on a topic if you haven’t been through it ! Especially on a video like this where she is being open and vulnerable have some sympathy ! It’s cost zero dollars to be nice.

    • @t3li5
      @t3li5 3 года назад

      I don't know why this is so hard to understand! I hope that she feels better soon and IF she is pregnant again that everything will be ok! ❤

  • @Stoneystello
    @Stoneystello 3 года назад +507

    I just suffered a miscarriage this Sunday, thank you for talking about this today. I keep going on Instagram and RUclips and it feels like everyone is pregnant and I’m heartbroken, all I wanted to do was give my babygirl a sibling. I felt so alone, thank you for posting this.

    • @Grace-ps1ni
      @Grace-ps1ni 3 года назад +13

      @Alexandria Costello I’m so sorry stay strong mama!😘❤️

    • @tanyavariava4666
      @tanyavariava4666 3 года назад +5

      I'm so sorry Mama❤️ You're not alone

    • @neville2308
      @neville2308 3 года назад +5

      Sending love 💜

    • @jenniferlindsey9013
      @jenniferlindsey9013 3 года назад +5

      Sending you love ❤️

    • @shannongilmann12
      @shannongilmann12 3 года назад +3

      sending so much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @sarnew88
    @sarnew88 3 года назад +741

    Pregnancy isn’t just a line on a stick it’s a new life, new dreams, new hopes and new plans. You have every right to grieve what you’ve lost without scrutiny or judgement. Be gentle with yourself. Sending lots of love x

    • @tehechristatehe
      @tehechristatehe 3 года назад +11

      I love this comment. I really hope she sees this.

  • @jamieforrest5031
    @jamieforrest5031 3 года назад +25

    I saw the title of this just days after the announcement of twins and my heart stopped....

  • @lauracerv706
    @lauracerv706 3 года назад +871

    When she started crying I wanted to hug her.

    • @madelinerich9724
      @madelinerich9724 3 года назад +13

      I grew up with her, I’ve seen her sad before and dealing with things, I started crying when she did because I feel like I know her even tho I obviously dont

    • @daisysdailyvlogs6426
      @daisysdailyvlogs6426 3 года назад +4

      Yeah I started balling my eyes out I felt her sadness and no I haven’t been pregnant or had any miscarriages so I don’t know that pain but I could see that pain and I felt a bit of it and anyone who is or was ever mean to this beautiful, strong, kind, giving, wonderful mother, hilarious, great cook, so much more person is just a piece of burning $1#t that was moldy and rotting for centuries period. Lots of love Colleen!❤️

    • @bsisisjsjdj
      @bsisisjsjdj 3 года назад

      Same

  • @meganbazan5910
    @meganbazan5910 3 года назад +547

    omg honey everything will be okay, my mom had 7 miscarriages and she later had my sister then me. never give up.

    • @mariealexa
      @mariealexa 3 года назад +16

      My mom had 11😭

    • @slimreaper9991
      @slimreaper9991 3 года назад +5

      @@mariealexa wtf 11 damn bro how doesn’t it happen

    • @Melissa-et2et
      @Melissa-et2et 3 года назад +7

      @@slimreaper9991 the body rejects or cannot support the zygote/embryo

    • @Melissa-et2et
      @Melissa-et2et 3 года назад +5

      @@slimreaper9991 or there can be complications with the fetus/baby

    • @adarnaglazzard2669
      @adarnaglazzard2669 3 года назад

      Wow that's so sad I don't think I want to get pregnant any time soon ( I am 13 )

  • @anthonycapala1043
    @anthonycapala1043 3 года назад +205

    As a male, I will never be able to understand the amount of pain a miscarriage must feel like. The thought of you’re going to have a family of four in the future and then it being false must bring an immense type of pain. You are so brave and so valid Colleen. I will never understand a person who would think negatively of this. Stay strong! You’ll be in our hearts!

    • @alysworld6634
      @alysworld6634 3 года назад

      We need more amazing people like u

    • @lilykeenan3509
      @lilykeenan3509 3 года назад

      I don’t understand because it’s their baby too

    • @alysworld6634
      @alysworld6634 3 года назад

      @@lilykeenan3509 but that can't physically like feel the baby inside of them

    • @lilykeenan3509
      @lilykeenan3509 3 года назад +1

      @@alysworld6634 oh ok. I see what you are saying

  • @xxsapphirexx_1224
    @xxsapphirexx_1224 3 года назад +19

    Watching this before was so absolutely heart breaking, but now the twins feel like a miracle. Hearing her talk about how her and Erik were so excited and planning out how it was gonna be with multiple kids for Christmas is so cool because she ended up getting that with maisey and Wesley. I really hope maisey will be home by Christmas

  • @TeahGrace77
    @TeahGrace77 3 года назад +619

    My sister was told she could never have kids. A few years ago she went to the doctor after being very sick
    her results came back as 6 weeks pregnant. She was so happy she wouldn't stop crying. A few months into the pregnancy she had a miscarriage. She wouldn't talk or get out of bed for weeks and barely eat. She never got over it.

    • @a.l5320
      @a.l5320 3 года назад +39

      Omg that must have been devastating for her :(

    • @clairemccallum1287
      @clairemccallum1287 3 года назад +16

      i’m sure your sister would have been an amazing mommy❤️

    • @thatissofetch5508
      @thatissofetch5508 3 года назад +8

      Sending my love to your sister.

    • @colour6763
      @colour6763 3 года назад +1

      @Odaliz Orozco-Rueda stfu

  • @secretspymaria
    @secretspymaria 3 года назад +482

    I’ve never wanted to hug someone more. I know it doesn’t feel like it right now but it’s going to be okay ❤️

  • @catherinen8547
    @catherinen8547 3 года назад +566

    You don't have to justify your pain, sweetheart. Pregnancy brings up a whole host of emotions. And miscarriages are the worst.

    • @celiabrown1484
      @celiabrown1484 3 года назад

      @皇国臣民 what?

    • @frostrose221
      @frostrose221 3 года назад +2

      @皇国臣民 k....but like no one asked or cares. Your comment holds no relevance and is plain rude.

    • @catherinen8547
      @catherinen8547 3 года назад

      @皇国臣民 I am going to report you for spamming. Do better.

  • @allisonlynde889
    @allisonlynde889 Год назад +3

    I watched this video when it first came out. Since then I had a miscarriage of my own and rewatching this makes me feel your pain on such a deeper level. Because I don’t just see your pain I’ve experienced it my own. No one deserves that kind of pain. Its felt so lonely and watching your video again helps me know I’m not alone. Love you Colleen