I know exactly what you mean about feeling so lost and alone at times, I have no friends outside of a computer and have always felt like I've never belonged anywhere. But I'm so glad to hear that you have met some amazing people and feel free to be your beautiful self. Just remember to be kind to yourself Caligo, you have a beautiful soul and you deserve to be happy.
You’re back!!! I’ve missed your pretty face and wonderful personality here on RUclips. I hope your okay and everything is going well. Best wishes and much love 🖤🖤 Also now that you’re in Germany will it possible for you and It’s Black Friday be able to do a video together? Pretty please 🖤
Yay for the vegan apartment!! :) I'm glad that you're feeling freer and well-supported and that you can really be yourself!! It sounds that you have a lot of exciting new projects and goals going on in your life and I imagine that you'll eventually meet someone as you become the person you want to be :) I have to say that it's really admirable that you've achieved your goal of moving to Germany, especially given all the risks and uncertainties involved. I'm excited about your upcoming covers and videos - I really enjoy your singing and your videos are always really well done. Take your time in thinking out your ideas; I'm sure it'll be worth the wait! I can definitely understand your decision to put your clothing line on hold - risks feel a lot more worthwhile when you're passionate about what you're doing :) For your financial situation - I'm not sure how monetization on RUclips works, but maybe that might be worth looking into if you're planning to post videos regularly? It probably wouldn't help with major expenses like rent, but it might make a difference with smaller expenses like groceries. I'm also wondering if you could use your skill set to generate income - clearly, you're good with technology and have insight into marketing strategies what with your social media presence and video editing skills. If you designed your Necrohex website yourself, then you've got web design skills as well. Those would all be valuable skills to bring to the workforce. Given that the goal is to make money, now probably wouldn't be the best time to, say, start up your own graphic design/media marketing company, but maybe there are local businesses in your area that may be looking for someone to help them build a marketing strategy or online platform (Instagram/Facebook advertising, RUclips etc.)? You would probably be good at that. Maybe you could also find work as a tutor? You mentioned that not many people in Leipzig speak English, but I imagine that there would be high school/university students and working professionals who would very much want learn or practice with a fluent speaker. Maybe you could see if there are organizations looking for English or even Hebrew tutors? Or even giving people singing lessons? These kinds of jobs usually give you some freedom with deciding your hours, so you could work around your singing lessons/band rehearsals etc. I recall that you didn't really like working in retail back in Israel, but it might be something to consider, at least in the short run. It could help you grow your savings again, pay day to day expenses and maybe let you take a short course in something like media marketing so you have more credentials to get a "survival job" that suits you better. If there are any vegan businesses in your area, maybe that would be something to look into as well - like a restaurant or café with a vegan mandate, any activist organizations that need someone to create some promotional materials online? Just a few ideas, unfortunately generated without much knowledge of what the job situation in Leipzig is like. But I hope it helps a little and that you can find something. I understand the frustrations and worry about not being able to find work and make a living. Don't give up! You made it this far and I'm sure you'll find a way to make this work!! Anyways; I missed your work and you and am glad to see you back! Looking forward to what you post next! :)
Thank you! Really appreciate the advice and suggestions! Some of these I already thought about and one of them is actually my plan for the future, but I'll talk about it when the time arrives :)
I'm glad you're taking time to look after you mentally, physically and emotionally. When you get in a point of life that you don't feel like yourself even if it's were you were born you need to do what ever it takes to make yourself better as a whole and take time for you. Again I'm glad you're doing good and I can see a change even if it's a slow change in you
Follow your Heart , I’m an empath so I felt your emotions and passion inside you , I didn’t just hear it in your voice, I felt it , I also took your advice and grabbed a cup of coffee glued to my seat I felt your heart race every time you spoke of your music , you are happier Too , I remember coming across your channel ( I’m newer here) and felt an instant connection then you were gone so When I seen you tonight upload a vid ( it’s evening in the US) I smiled and couldn’t stop , you are a beautiful soul and your visions are too, so never stop no matter how hard the storms cause one day .....one Day Thank you for you and inspiring Many Blessings to you and your journey 🤗
Thanks for the update. Its amazing to find our tribe and see our own growth. Thanks for being vulnerable and authentic. Your body mods are fantastic! You are a beautiful soul inside and out. ❤
I am.glad you made a video about.your life,I am happy you feel good in Germany and you have wonderful people around you,make music if that is what you want and makes you happy,take care of you,love you!! 💗
Hi Caligo, It's been awhile since I heard from you! I am glad to hear that you are finally living in Germany. Yes, I care and I know these huge steps are huge and the changes you had to go through were a lot but now, finally you found a place you where you feel at home. And lastly, be yourself, take things step by step, don't rush through things, obviously, take the time for yourself, and live your life how You want to live. Take care and blessed be.
Aww thank you! That's so sweet of you! Sadly RUclips is not a viable income for me, really (and never have been), but it's just something I like doing and a small "bonus" of income every once in a while.
I identify so much with this video it's insane. I had to give up on sewing as a career for the same reasons you have had to close Necrohex - it's too expensive to get off the ground and the logistics are awful. Nobody is willing to pay what the pieces are really worth so I ended up either making no money or underselling myself. I'm definitely working in being more myself and I feel like I've made huge strides towards that recently, but it's so frustrating to feel held back by certain situations and I really feel for you, it's a horrid feeling. I hope you can put your finger on what it is so you can move forward still. xxxx
This is amazing! Thank you for being human and thank you for being you, this video has given me some mental motivation to achieve my goals. You are an amazing human being, thank you for existing 😊
Caligo! It has really been a long while, I am really glad to see you on here again. I can totally relate in the sense that I feel trapped where I live, and I have a long term goal of moving out of my city to a much bigger and more progressive city, before I turn 30. I feel like I am rediscovering myself through guitar, which I have realized is my main passion and also what will take me far in life. I am really looking forward to seeing you more regularly again, and I hope that you decide to do your weekly lives again :) PS. I changed my name on here but you may or may not recognize me by my profile icon
Hey! I do hehe :) Thank you and go strong! There's nothing as passionate and life changing as finding what makes your heart go. You can do it all! I do not hope to do more lives, but not sure test hoe often and when 🖤
Hey, Caligo) I was thinking, maybe u can consider working in a place like MAC or some other makeup store. U r a really cool makeup artist, know a lot about makeup can sell makeup and u look amazing so will definitely attract people. Thats just one of the options) Lots of love from Russia
Welcome back!i missed you! n i'm happy for you that you're free n comfortable, i was thinking the same moving to Germany, i thought it's the place where i should belong!^^
i'm glad to be back here, and i made it my new years resolution to finally start my transitioning and goin to rehab to start it all hopefully, and i am wearin my new red Eye Contacts and my labret piercing is still healing and i say you're an Amazing person. and i say we lgbtq+ people should raise our flag(i'm bi too) and i imagine it must be hard livin/comin from a very religious country like..israel, i Think it was where you're from? and if i should be honest i ain't easy for me livin wit' both autism, depression AND gender dysphoria bc i live in a country with a lot of well...traditionalist people and elderly who are quite conservative. but i manage somehow. and i dunno where you stand religiously but i can say as a non religious person it's not fun dealin with intolerant religious people, anyways enough rantin, i wish you the BEST OF LUCK man!!
When I saw that you uploaded, I got so excited that I lit my candles and watched the whole video. I'm so happy to see you alive and healthy. :) Like yourself, I hate how money is such an issue for many people in "developed" countries. It's so unfair because so many people are trying to pursue their dreams but are not able to. And about the feeling of where you belong on Earth, Freja (itsblackfriday) made a video on that topic. For some, it takes decades to find the place they call home. Even though I am glad to see that you're very happy in Germany, allow me to give you a little advice: When you chose to immigrate to a country, you need to learn its official language. Unless you are going to America, UK, or any country that's under the British Common Wealth, you can't just expect everyone to speak English. Germany, Sweden, Norway, and those countries (as well as England, to be honest) have a culture and history that goes back many years, just like those in the Middle East. It's not fair to them for immigrants to come in and expect the entire nation to convert to English. Life doesn't work this way. So, if you really love Germany, and you wish to live there full time, you need to speak German. You'll earn people's respect by doing so, thus more opportunities will become available to you. I wish you the best of luck, money, love, and magic on your journey in life. You have such a beautiful soul with so much to offer. Take very good care of yourself, and love yourself all the time because you're a rare gem. Xoxoxoxoxo
@@CaligoBastet You're welcome! You're such a sweetheart. :) Keep practicing and you'll get there. Besides, it's a fun language to learn. And, you can understand Blutengel's songs more. ;)
I don’t need a reward to donate to you. I would like to donate in show of support to you as a creator. It’s like buying music via CDs or iTunes. I think many of your supporters feel the same way and maybe you should look at it that way. And then we can help you move forward with your goals. We enjoy seeing you happy and we want to see you stay in Germany.
Although you wanted to sound optimistic, I’ve got the impression that you are crying inside. Leipzig is quite tough for somebody who is from abroad. In Berlin, for example, you can still live quite OK-ish if you only speak English, although there might still be enough employers who are trying to exploit you. How good is your German? I am afraid you will need at least German Level B2 for negotiating successfully with authorities, e. g. The Arbeitsagentur. I would suggest that you are working half-time in some vanilla-job and you are focusing the rest of your time on passion. The big Plus will be: you are contributing to the German social security system and therefore, you don’t need to care about things like health insurance etc. And if you’ve got a job, usually your basic costs are covered and you can spend extra money on things like trips to Berlin. With train, it’s really not that far away! I really hope that you are getting back on track soon!
I reckon you should get some face shots done & get yourself a modeling agency,as you are a stunning looking human 😍😘
Oh thank you!
I've been thinking about that for a while, but I have some things to think through first...
Caligo Bastet dont talk yourself out of it, just go for it honey be free!
I know exactly what you mean about feeling so lost and alone at times, I have no friends outside of a computer and have always felt like I've never belonged anywhere. But I'm so glad to hear that you have met some amazing people and feel free to be your beautiful self. Just remember to be kind to yourself Caligo, you have a beautiful soul and you deserve to be happy.
Yes we care!
Yes, please make another Tattoo vid.
Stay strong. Be good to yourself!
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You’re back!!! I’ve missed your pretty face and wonderful personality here on RUclips. I hope your okay and everything is going well. Best wishes and much love 🖤🖤 Also now that you’re in Germany will it possible for you and It’s Black Friday be able to do a video together? Pretty please 🖤
Thank you!
Though we HAVE met and hung out in festivals, she's not here that much lately and not sure if it'll work out. But maybe some day :)
Caligo I’ll keep my fingers crossed haha It’d be a really cool video. But really I’m just glad you’re back, RUclips wasn’t the same without you.🖤🖤
You are extremely brave. A very rare genuine person. Thank you for sharing your story 😊 it is inspiring 🖤
Yay for the vegan apartment!! :)
I'm glad that you're feeling freer and well-supported and that you can really be yourself!! It sounds that you have a lot of exciting new projects and goals going on in your life and I imagine that you'll eventually meet someone as you become the person you want to be :)
I have to say that it's really admirable that you've achieved your goal of moving to Germany, especially given all the risks and uncertainties involved. I'm excited about your upcoming covers and videos - I really enjoy your singing and your videos are always really well done. Take your time in thinking out your ideas; I'm sure it'll be worth the wait! I can definitely understand your decision to put your clothing line on hold - risks feel a lot more worthwhile when you're passionate about what you're doing :)
For your financial situation - I'm not sure how monetization on RUclips works, but maybe that might be worth looking into if you're planning to post videos regularly? It probably wouldn't help with major expenses like rent, but it might make a difference with smaller expenses like groceries.
I'm also wondering if you could use your skill set to generate income - clearly, you're good with technology and have insight into marketing strategies what with your social media presence and video editing skills. If you designed your Necrohex website yourself, then you've got web design skills as well. Those would all be valuable skills to bring to the workforce. Given that the goal is to make money, now probably wouldn't be the best time to, say, start up your own graphic design/media marketing company, but maybe there are local businesses in your area that may be looking for someone to help them build a marketing strategy or online platform (Instagram/Facebook advertising, RUclips etc.)? You would probably be good at that.
Maybe you could also find work as a tutor? You mentioned that not many people in Leipzig speak English, but I imagine that there would be high school/university students and working professionals who would very much want learn or practice with a fluent speaker. Maybe you could see if there are organizations looking for English or even Hebrew tutors?
Or even giving people singing lessons? These kinds of jobs usually give you some freedom with deciding your hours, so you could work around your singing lessons/band rehearsals etc.
I recall that you didn't really like working in retail back in Israel, but it might be something to consider, at least in the short run. It could help you grow your savings again, pay day to day expenses and maybe let you take a short course in something like media marketing so you have more credentials to get a "survival job" that suits you better. If there are any vegan businesses in your area, maybe that would be something to look into as well - like a restaurant or café with a vegan mandate, any activist organizations that need someone to create some promotional materials online?
Just a few ideas, unfortunately generated without much knowledge of what the job situation in Leipzig is like. But I hope it helps a little and that you can find something. I understand the frustrations and worry about not being able to find work and make a living. Don't give up! You made it this far and I'm sure you'll find a way to make this work!!
Anyways; I missed your work and you and am glad to see you back! Looking forward to what you post next! :)
Thank you!
Really appreciate the advice and suggestions! Some of these I already thought about and one of them is actually my plan for the future, but I'll talk about it when the time arrives :)
Caligo Bastet You’re very welcome and I’m looking forward to seeing how your undoubtedly bright future unfolds! 😀
I'm glad you're taking time to look after you mentally, physically and emotionally. When you get in a point of life that you don't feel like yourself even if it's were you were born you need to do what ever it takes to make yourself better as a whole and take time for you. Again I'm glad you're doing good and I can see a change even if it's a slow change in you
Caligo thank you for being so open with us. I'm proud of you for chasing your dreams
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Follow your Heart , I’m an empath so I felt your emotions and passion inside you , I didn’t just hear it in your voice, I felt it , I also took your advice and grabbed a cup of coffee glued to my seat I felt your heart race every time you spoke of your music , you are happier Too , I remember coming across your channel ( I’m newer here) and felt an instant connection then you were gone so When I seen you tonight upload a vid ( it’s evening in the US) I smiled and couldn’t stop , you are a beautiful soul and your visions are too, so never stop no matter how hard the storms cause one day .....one Day
Thank you for you and inspiring
Many Blessings to you and your journey 🤗
Thank you for your time kind words 🖤
Thanks for the update. Its amazing to find our tribe and see our own growth. Thanks for being vulnerable and authentic. Your body mods are fantastic! You are a beautiful soul inside and out. ❤
Last year and some of this already have been crazy! Good to see you again Caligo
I'm damn late, but welcome to Germany!
Feel free, do your thing, enjoy :)
Best wishes from Aachen ♡
This is great ^^ i love hearing about someone escaping the bounds of conformity and embracing their individuality !!
I've missed you so much, so glad you're back! 😍🖤
It's so good to see you again! I can tell that you are really happy where you are now.
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Thank you for sharing. This was so beautiful and earnest 🖤
I am.glad you made a video about.your life,I am happy you feel good in Germany and you have wonderful people around you,make music if that is what you want and makes you happy,take care of you,love you!! 💗
Oh thank you 🖤
@@TerminalFailSafe Thank you so, so much for the your kind words. I honestly teared up when I read it 🖤 thank you!!!
Hi Caligo,
It's been awhile since I heard from you! I am glad to hear that you are finally living in Germany. Yes, I care and I know these huge steps are huge and the changes you had to go through were a lot but now, finally you found a place you where you feel at home. And lastly, be yourself, take things step by step, don't rush through things, obviously, take the time for yourself, and live your life how You want to live. Take care and blessed be.
Make more vids, give us ads, let us watch them, help us help you! We love you so much and we will be here to support you through your life ❤️
Aww thank you! That's so sweet of you! Sadly RUclips is not a viable income for me, really (and never have been), but it's just something I like doing and a small "bonus" of income every once in a while.
I identify so much with this video it's insane. I had to give up on sewing as a career for the same reasons you have had to close Necrohex - it's too expensive to get off the ground and the logistics are awful. Nobody is willing to pay what the pieces are really worth so I ended up either making no money or underselling myself.
I'm definitely working in being more myself and I feel like I've made huge strides towards that recently, but it's so frustrating to feel held back by certain situations and I really feel for you, it's a horrid feeling. I hope you can put your finger on what it is so you can move forward still. xxxx
This is amazing! Thank you for being human and thank you for being you, this video has given me some mental motivation to achieve my goals. You are an amazing human being, thank you for existing 😊
I love the honesty!
Caligo! It has really been a long while, I am really glad to see you on here again. I can totally relate in the sense that I feel trapped where I live, and I have a long term goal of moving out of my city to a much bigger and more progressive city, before I turn 30. I feel like I am rediscovering myself through guitar, which I have realized is my main passion and also what will take me far in life. I am really looking forward to seeing you more regularly again, and I hope that you decide to do your weekly lives again :) PS. I changed my name on here but you may or may not recognize me by my profile icon
Hey! I do hehe :)
Thank you and go strong! There's nothing as passionate and life changing as finding what makes your heart go. You can do it all!
I do not hope to do more lives, but not sure test hoe often and when 🖤
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Hey, Caligo) I was thinking, maybe u can consider working in a place like MAC or some other makeup store. U r a really cool makeup artist, know a lot about makeup can sell makeup and u look amazing so will definitely attract people. Thats just one of the options) Lots of love from Russia
Welcome back!i missed you! n i'm happy for you that you're free n comfortable, i was thinking the same moving to Germany, i thought it's the place where i should belong!^^
You should make more vids🖤🖤 This helps 🖤🖤🖤
i'm glad to be back here, and i made it my new years resolution to finally start my transitioning and goin to rehab to start it all hopefully, and i am wearin my new red Eye Contacts and my labret piercing is still healing and i say you're an Amazing person. and i say we lgbtq+ people should raise our flag(i'm bi too) and i imagine it must be hard livin/comin from a very religious country like..israel, i Think it was where you're from? and if i should be honest i ain't easy for me livin wit' both autism, depression AND gender dysphoria bc i live in a country with a lot of well...traditionalist people and elderly who are quite conservative. but i manage somehow. and i dunno where you stand religiously but i can say as a non religious person it's not fun dealin with intolerant religious people, anyways enough rantin, i wish you the BEST OF LUCK man!!
Thank you! Wishing you all the luck and sending good energies your way! 🖤
When I saw that you uploaded, I got so excited that I lit my candles and watched the whole video. I'm so happy to see you alive and healthy. :) Like yourself, I hate how money is such an issue for many people in "developed" countries. It's so unfair because so many people are trying to pursue their dreams but are not able to. And about the feeling of where you belong on Earth, Freja (itsblackfriday) made a video on that topic. For some, it takes decades to find the place they call home. Even though I am glad to see that you're very happy in Germany, allow me to give you a little advice: When you chose to immigrate to a country, you need to learn its official language. Unless you are going to America, UK, or any country that's under the British Common Wealth, you can't just expect everyone to speak English. Germany, Sweden, Norway, and those countries (as well as England, to be honest) have a culture and history that goes back many years, just like those in the Middle East. It's not fair to them for immigrants to come in and expect the entire nation to convert to English. Life doesn't work this way. So, if you really love Germany, and you wish to live there full time, you need to speak German. You'll earn people's respect by doing so, thus more opportunities will become available to you. I wish you the best of luck, money, love, and magic on your journey in life. You have such a beautiful soul with so much to offer. Take very good care of yourself, and love yourself all the time because you're a rare gem. Xoxoxoxoxo
Thank you! :)
I know, and I do know some, but it takes time and I had a lot of to get used to. It'll happen :)
@@CaligoBastet You're welcome! You're such a sweetheart. :) Keep practicing and you'll get there. Besides, it's a fun language to learn. And, you can understand Blutengel's songs more. ;)
Glad you’re back!🖤
I really hope everything works out for you!
Claigo do you have blue eyes? Please send me your answer thanks
Do you have any of the hoodies from your clothing line left I'm so glad you are back
Missed you Caligo! That highlight tho!!!!!
Hehehe I'm so proud of it hehe 🖤
You are so gorgeous!
I have Missed You!! Please make another tattoo video! You are Amazing and deserve all the happiness in the world love! I love you boo!! 💚💘😍👣✌👑❤😘
I don’t need a reward to donate to you. I would like to donate in show of support to you as a creator. It’s like buying music via CDs or iTunes. I think many of your supporters feel the same way and maybe you should look at it that way. And then we can help you move forward with your goals.
We enjoy seeing you happy and we want to see you stay in Germany.
I would love some of your stuff you make
Love you Caligo! ❤️🦇
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Been such a long time! I would love to meet up with you someday!
Although you wanted to sound optimistic, I’ve got the impression that you are crying inside. Leipzig is quite tough for somebody who is from abroad. In Berlin, for example, you can still live quite OK-ish if you only speak English, although there might still be enough employers who are trying to exploit you.
How good is your German? I am afraid you will need at least German Level B2 for negotiating successfully with authorities, e. g. The Arbeitsagentur. I would suggest that you are working half-time in some vanilla-job and you are focusing the rest of your time on passion. The big Plus will be: you are contributing to the German social security system and therefore, you don’t need to care about things like health insurance etc.
And if you’ve got a job, usually your basic costs are covered and you can spend extra money on things like trips to Berlin. With train, it’s really not that far away!
I really hope that you are getting back on track soon!
Do you have blue eyes
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Caligo i love to see this kind of video's of you. Your such a sweet person saw you at mera luna and you looked bomm 😘😘
Aww thank you!
Would you ever like to see my future Goth Arabian outfit?
((wish you would regrow your hair))
What is your occupation?
Came across one RUclips vlogger who complained about getting work
ya deffo stick in geremy bro, best place to stay for us goths xD really (wish i could be there really, US sucks soo bad)
You talk so quietly I have to turn the volume up that high I can hear the static pick up from your mic...
Settler colonialism has a way of causing anxiety...