I miss the days is one of those songs that he just knows what we need. The whole production of the song gets you. To be fair the whole album is a no skip album
NF doesn’t always give you what you want, but he always gives you what you need. He makes you feel things you may not want to, but need to. He is just a true artist in every sense of the word. I love that Interlude was just Nate talking because he’s such a private person we don’t get a lot of that from him.
Great reaction! Remember we almost lost him after perception. He checked into a facility to get help. This album is based off of that experience. Please do not skip I miss the days! Also options and no excuses are hype songs on this album too.
Hi Nikki - I am so sad right now. I just lost my little brother today. I don't know what to do. I am just listening to NF Paralyzed reactions and this one popped up too. "I don't see you like I should, you get so misunderstood, it's hard cuz I hate myself." Not really sure why these bars comfort me in this place.
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts. Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain. And thank you Rykerroad for reacting to it.
NOT gonna lie... in the NF "Journey" , EVERY song on The SEARCH album should be included! Like to not have "My Stress", "Only", "Let Me Go" on the Journey is crazy! These songs are soooo personal to what NF goes thru 👏
Hearing this song live, with a crowd surrounding me singing along was such an overwhelming cathartic experience. This one, Let Me Go and later Just Like You live had me in tears in the best way
Totally agree! Hearing every person in the theatre saying the words "its hard when i hate myself" and knowing at one point or another it would have been true for everyone there brought me to tears ! So powerful.
Hate Myself is such a perfect song. That line about how he wants love and passes it up and then tries to find it later. It can be viewed as wanting love from someone else. But I think of it like wanting love from yourself. How he says "I feel like you don't see me, my life has no meaning" just resonates with me. I've felt many times like I can't even see who I am. I can't see who I am. Because all I see is what I hate about me. But that's not all I am. Then the line about getting love and passing it up. I had moments when I'd feel proud of myself. I'd feel happy. But then I'd tell myself, "no you don't deserve that. That's a lie." Luckily I've learned how to deal with the negative feelings and thoughts. But this song is a great reminder of where I was, and how when I do backslide, that I'm not alone. I just hope everyone someday is able to look on their past and say, "I didn't love myself then, that's okay, because I love myself now."
Thank you both for always being so open and honest with all of us - especially when you don’t need to be. It would be easy enough to just listen to NF and give a thumbs up or thumbs down review. You’ve both been so upfront with sharing different life experiences with us as listeners and to me that just reiterates how genuine the two of you are. So happy to be a part of this little community of music junkies!
Something i have always found super unique but have never heard it mentioned is the fact that the "nf journey" is completely organic that fans created after reactions to nf's music began to grow. Im sure he knows about it but to my knowledge he has never referenced it. Seems to be just a super cool thing that has been created between NF and his fans yet NF has never acknowledged it publicly (or privately). Just a really cool unspoken project between NF and his die hard fans. I have never heard of anything remotely similar to it in the music genre.
I secretly hope one day Nate would put his idea of the NF journey on one album. Like a sort of greatest hits. That's one question I would love to ask him if I ever had the opportunity. What would be his suggested journey, would he want newbies to go back through his older work or start fresh. I know he's Saud before that he Prefers fans to listen to his new tracks in order on the project.
Hate Myself is very real for me. I have depression and anxiety feeds off my depression, that lyric where he says "suicidal thoughts come and go like a guest of me, but I don't want to die, I just want to get relief", that for me is so deep, I don't think I have ever not thought about suicide where I haven't thought about just being away or getting relief, its a constant battle and its something I always deal with. Now I have this emotional job where I have to take care of others, I work in an ER as a social worker and it is just hard to deal with things when you're so surrounded by bad things but having people around that care, its like "i’m at war with peace".
I Miss The Days. I'll just say what others have because it truly is that great of a song. I know it's not currently on the list, but if you guys have the time please listen to it on your own time.
Chorus coming up...."It's not easier the second time" Kyle. Thanks for being real my brothers. Chorus gets upbeat..."It doesn't make it easier but it makes it a little more peppy" Eric. And my favorite of all, "Things can be beautiful and heavy" Really great reaction. I know you have been using the very good list but you seriously need to do every song on this album in order. Just start with any you haven't done yet and catch up and then move forward. Their are still some of the best songs ever coming up which is saying a lot! Loving every minute of these reactions.
this was the song that made me come to terms with a death in my family. me and my friends saw him live after cancer took my grandma and she was my best friend. he performed this and let me tell you that was the first time i’ve EVER cried listening to it. i had a mental breakdown during “ i walk through the ashes of my passions” and i didn’t even know the person next to me but they hugged me. i held my anger and sadness in for weeks and idk why it was this song but it hit me in that moment. nf truly is someone that saved me.
NF and this song is how I realized I needed to get help. I never thought I was actually depressed because I would always do what I need to do and not have days where I didn’t wanna do anything. But this song described perfectly how I feel all the time. I go through times where I don’t want to live but I don’t wanna die because I have a beautiful girlfriend and son that I love more then anything. I thought something was wrong with me because I am happy with the life I have but I’m not happy. NF made me realize I’m not the only one and was able to give words to the way I feel specifically with this song. I’m still not better, but I’m getting there and o definitely give NF a little credit for that and I’m eternally grateful that he wrote this song
NF has "Layers" in the hook(chorus) has layers to it. Child voice(younger Nate,the past) talking to the future Nate. Present Nf is talking younger Nate and future Nate.
I love this album so much. It literally shows the bounce of emotions we all feel. I didn’t hear this song until I went to the concert and man to see all the people singing this song and FEELING it was unexplainable.. I think you guys will love Just Like You because you always say “how does he know” I hope you do that song and check out I miss the days even if it’s not a reaction.
I enjoy your reactions not just because you both enjoy the songs. But you guys explain why you enjoyed it and connect with the songs. I love rap rap songs, but NF songs apply to my life and what I'm feeling or have felt. That's why I call him the goat.
To people who resonate with this song like Kyle verbalizes how hard was it, hopefully you've done this, for you to set "do not disturb" on your phone at bedtime with no exceptions for 2 call or favorites? The first time I did it I simply couldn't sleep which just unscored how broken I'd made myself without noticing. Love you guys!
thank you for embracing NF in the first place! I'm so happy you've enjoyed the journey so far and I can't wait to see how it'll evolve. keep doing what you love man
I love you guys. This song is so powerful. I just started listening to NF and I like to listen to his songs for the first time with your reactions. I feel like I relate to you guys and NF. Love your genuine reactions. ❤
I think we as NF fans really needed to hear him SAY what he was feeling in interlude AND Hate Myself. Incredibly relatable. 💜💜💜 I really hope you do I miss the days... Kyle, I think we're kindred spirits.
This was my anthem for about a year. Still feels like home. How does he know!!!! And how come we ALL think that and he’s one of the few that can actually say it out loud.
I was re-listening to your reaction because this is one of my favorite songs by NF. At the beginning of the song, where it’s NF’s regular voice and a pitched voice, I wonder if that could be adult NF and young NF singing those lyrics to each? It would track with the message in Nate.
At first I would just play NF songs.... but when hard times hit me emotionally..... seems like I pray NF songs... my arms open.... where I let HOPE in... Rykerroad .... thanx ;)
This song live is soooo hard for me. Listening to this with the interlude live with thousands of people surrounding you all feeling the same thing is such an experience. I cried both times I saw this live
I'm on this Journy with you guys and this song song hit hard. I am one of those people that has been there for everyone I care about with everything I had in me. I'm now going through the stage where I've cut a lot of those people out of my life. I got to the point where I had nothing left in me. Realizing nobody seemed to be here for me only added anger deep down in my soul. I've never had this feeling in me ever. It doesn't belong, doesn't suit me well, I hate it so much. I'm struggling to find away to get rid of it, need it to go away. That being said. Thank you for doing this, for being so open with situations of your own. It makes it somewhat better understanding that everyone goes through hard times at certain points in life. I appreciate you both so much for all of it. The hilarious goofy moments, the raw real moments and the fantastic relationship the 2 of you share! ❤️🩹🙏👏 ugh where's the crowbar emoji!¡! Oh well, I guess I'll just roll the 🎲 instead lol! 🤗
This song was so heavy, that it made me think heavily of things that I don’t know and how me not knowing makes me angry at myself. This was beautifully devastating, thank you for reacting to yet another song I needed and thank you for saying how I felt Kyle, seriously thank you
Interlude is a snippet from one of his own therapy sessions after his breakdown. He wrote half of hate myself while in intense treatment. So glad yall are getting the background before he releases his new project to see where he was. And also this is more than NF. This is Nate, as fans we relate to the human vulnerability and REAL insight into how trauma can be turned into triumph!
This one resonates with me a LOT, but I Miss the Days is like NF ripped my mind out in the mess it is always in, and then strung my thoughts together to form coherent sentences to explain how I feel. He's literally the voice of so many of us, with no shortage of musical therapy that he provides. It hurts me that he suffers so much when he helps so many. I hate to say it, but he is on the same level to me as Chester Bennington... the voice of the broken, when he is the MOST broken. I hope NF survives to see a lovely, happy old age though...
Nf is one of the best artist that i ever heard of in my entire life every song that he makes it hits different and he says staff that are true and if i am being honest he helped me go through tuff times
Another GREAT reaction gentlemen!!!! I’ve been here since the beginning of the journey and can’t wait for the next NF reaction to drop. I love your reactions and reflections and don’t hold back for no one! Be yourself and tell all, I know I’m here for it! We who are here, are here for you guys and your honest reaction to the music/artist/lyrics. It’s special to watch someone new get hyped about a REAL artist and not the same ol hype of drugs money and sex that mainstream wants to push. What I’m trying to say, you have a story, tell it. Don’t hold back. I know I’ll listen.
How does NF do it? How does he know? The way I see it, there are people that have talent and become great then there are people that have a gift and become legendary. NF has a gift from God that he has the ability to articulate his experiences and pain in such a way that it reaches people on many levels. He is one of those rare people that have a gift that will reach people long after he is gone.....Legendary !!
Your reactions were amazing and very relatable. I've started to think about going to therapy and if i do, i'll make my therapist listen to his songs and just refer to them because i couldn't ever put what i feel better into words than him. I feel so bad for the people that would really need to listen to his songs but don't know him.
@@realwestcoastgaming glad this works for you 😁. I'm thinking about starting next month or so, a friend of mine gave me the number of their therapist and i hope it'll work with her too. Does your therapist like his music as well or do they just listen to it for you?
I know many people who always want to help others and keep putting off their own needs, but many of them fall behind and end up needing help. For me, I prioritize taking care of myself so that I can feel happy AND be in a position to help others, which I've been fortunate enough to do many times. The line "I wish I could help, but it's hard when I hate myself" speaks pretty loudly to me there
You also have to check out Like This. It's such a complex song because the beat will have you vibing and possibly bouncing, but the message is as deep as this song. It broke me when I first heard it. Full tears, which was extremely carthatic. Anyone who really connects with the song gets it. Also just echoing 99% of everyone else, you need to do the entire Search album. It's doing Nate such a disservice not too, so if your journey list doesn't have the entire Search, it's not the journey and someone lied to you. Either way, an amazing reaction guys! Thank you.
This is one that I avoided at first because it hits to close to home, but it’s beautiful. Then Clouds came out and it felt like he turned a corner in getting freedom to be happy
I think the most powerful line in this song is when he says "pray to God with my arms open". That is literally you surrendering yourself to God. Just a great visual to see where he is at mentally.
This song just make tears in my eyes...the melody, the lyrics, and NF voice...just make us feel so emotional! Another masterpiece. NF is the concept and meaning of an music artist. Like always, your reactions are awesome. Thanks to open your hearts to us, Kyle and Eric ☺️
Great video as always guys. I appreciate your genuineness and authenticity. You are becoming one of my favourite reaction channels. NF has the ability to bring stuff out of people that they wouldn’t otherwise think about. And I appreciate your willingness to have these candid and honest conversations. Keep it going guys. 🙂
I love this song, but I've always looked at it differently. I've always looked at it as he is talking to himself, like in a mirror. He wishes he could help himself to grow but he can't because he hates himself. It's so hard to see ourselves as the bad guy but it's impossible to change the things about ourselves that we don't like until we admit the faults we have. We have to hate parts of ourselves to truly push ourselves to change. Maybe it's because I've been there that I see it that way.
Your not the only one I've hated myself and had severe depression since I was about 8 years old.. I'm 30 now and still feel the same way.. I have struggled to change things about me and have been told many many times to get professional help but it's just weird to me to tell a stranger my darkest thoughts and memories I'm not even good at talking to those closest to me
@@RiddleAlucard I can tell you from my personal experience that if you find the right psychologist, it can be a huge help. While I didn't deal with depression as a child, I suffer from fairly severe PTSD and had to learn to deal with depression, anxiety, and rage as an adult and I almost ruined my life. I found someone who helped me understand the root of my issues and while I will never be cured, it has helped me learn to cope and manage it.
@@RiddleAlucard I used to struggle with depression, attempted suicide a few times, and had severe anger management issues. I turned to drugs and alcohol to suppress my issues. I sought professional help a few times but they never helped. (some people need help, some can do it on their own) It's usually not just one thing but a compound of things. One this was, I was physically abused as a child, and after I spent time reflecting on that. (it took years to work through my issues, I also used a dark room and music, but everyone is different). I realized the root of my issue was that I was in fear, I was still that little boy. Personally I took up boxing, jiu jitsu, and karate. It helped me to not be afraid anymore. What I'm trying to say is find each root cause, and address them one by one, it will take time but if I can get through it, you can too.
I've always taken this song in with the idea that he's talking to himself taking to himself, the song is low and then the last verse is him performing it for the masses. It's him telling everyone with a upbeat that he hates himself and everyone vibes with it and then he goes back to feeling alone and accepts that he hates himself. The video to when I grow up kinda reminds me of what I mean where he shows out for the crowd and then goes back stage and wipes his face.
I love probably watched this reaction a dozen times. You guys really matter to us. I look forward to your NF videos so I have someone to cry to this song with me
It's so awesome to watch y'all go down this NF rabbit hole and see your own reactions firsthand of this journey. One of these days y'all need to travel down that rabbit hole with King ISO
Guys... once again, a great reaction! So many songs that so many of us needed to hear and just didn't realize it... and there are many more still that are gonna hit y'all. I promise! I don't think anything will be 'as hard' as How Could You Leave Us was but some may come close... depends on your personal journey. 💜
I'm glad yall did this combo this way...bacause really this was intended to be listened this way. God helps NF really put things into perspective. May he continue to do so 🙏
Kyle, from what it sounds like we are similar in how much we look out for others and rooting for their best to the detriment of not taking care of ourselves and what we need from others. And for myself, I have become so accustomed that others simply don’t have the empathy like I do, it’s just not often I come across someone who is wired like how I think and that’s fine I mean we are uniquely designed by God and I just happen to be one of those who is very introspective and also sensitive to how others around me feel because I know my own pain like it’s a close friend. I’ve sat in moments of isolation allowing myself to feel every sharp dagger of loneliness and negative experiences because I had no choice, I had nobody to share it with other than to call out to God, read the book of Psalms and listen to conscious hip hop and resonate with music, tv shows and movies that had themes or characters who were experiencing struggles just so I could feel less alone. The church I was always trying to help others and by the grace of God I had moments of life where He made an impact on others lives through me being willing to share their pain but when it came to my pain, nobody showed up. The church leaders couldn’t relate because they always had their click or their crew around. I’ve felt like an outcast in many ways even around a crowded room. This feeling never seemed to subside unless I was taking the focus off myself so helping others became a joy but time alone was both my vice I could return to as I pitied myself some valid reasons and some not. But yeah even with my faith in Jesus, enjoying life is difficult because I hated myself, I wanted to go back to the old Kevin who was happy but I had become jaded and trapped in my own mind. Now I’m not saying that you’re like that but I just believe that Kyle you’re an encourager, you’re a genuine guy who wants to lift others up, pray for them, see them succeed but when it comes time for you to be in the spotlight, maybe you’re like me and you push that away because you feel undeserving when the truth is that you do deserve others caring about your life and your well being. I think we all need friendships and relationships where the empathy and friendship given is mutual. And I’m interjecting mostly about my experiences but wanted to share. I’m still not fixed. I’ve become resilient from my pain and I’m working towards goals that aren’t results driven but more so actions I am consistent in taking. I’ll let the Lord bless me if He chooses to. Or if He lets me wander in the valleys of life for longer, then I’m committed to trusting that it’s for my soul’s benefit and as hard as it is to stay in those experiences I am doing my best to keep my perspective that God loves me (I don’t deserve it, and I don’t fully realize why he loves me) but I know His character as He is the Author of love and so of course He loves me. I’ve come to accept His love base on Him staying true to His character but I pray that I understand the depths of it as I mature and grow and experience those little moments in life called happiness. Either way through pain or grief or loss, I will always have joy because it’s sealed in Heaven by the work of Jesus’ death on the cross and resurrection from the dead. But I too am looking for the map to hope and why I relate to NF or Twentyone pilots music is because it’s raw about how it describes these experiences of vulnerability even if it’s just a conversation I have with myself or my honest and open prayers to God. I’m always gonna be real and I see a realness to you and your character so if this rambling of a comment brings you any encouragement I hope it makes you grow closer to a God who although is invisible, He is always there and often speaks with a whisper over the loudness of the voice of fear than can live in our heads. Be blessed and may God bring you peace and bless you way more than you even think is possible.
Yes the song hypocrite by King Iso is a hard hitter and you feel that way when you really want to help but yourself feel lost with no answer for the questions life throws at you because you've self medicated to the point of numbness so you can go on autopilot.
Just wanted to say, I'm autistic, I grew up not knowing I was. Hardest part is not having the ability to express how if feel correctly most the time and I found the music is a way to express my feelings...like I can send people a song that says what I can't express myself. NF is probably one of the biggest artists that helps me with that...this song in particular, hits me hard everytime
You guys are really amazing, beautiful and more in touch with yourselves and others than a large majority. Keep going through the search because each one you will continue to get more reflection that we are all connected. You are a mirror of me just as NFand everyone else. It's so much deeper than so many realize. ✌️❤️🌏⚖️🙏♾️
Great reaction as always. just got back from vacation so have a couple videos to catch up on. But good way to recharge from a tiring trip by hearing some NF and your reactions. NF is just one of a kind! so glad I found his music as like we all have said it somehow comes to us at the time we need it. I have gone thru the journey a few times and each channel is different its own way weather a breakdown of lyrics or music. You are one of the only ones I stay to the very end on almost every video as I enjoy the conversations as I appreciate the journey. So keep up the good work and look forward to more.
By far my favorite song except for Thinking and Green Lights. One hard song and one 'thinking' song. I listen to this song slowed and it is very therapeutic for me.
Honestly this is like the 2nd time I've actually listened to this song. When I seen the title and know how NF feels about himself I didnt want to hear it, Then I tried and I couldn't. It is very hard to hear NF say this about himself. I pray for him and anyone feeling this way. It hurts my heart.
Sometimes you just help others not to think about what's wrong with you... and even if it's not healthy you do it because it is somehow easier. Keep up with the reactions, I love you guys and your videos❤️
Just found y'all not too long ago but have liked what I have seen. I was always that friend who people could count on no matter the damage to me. A friend of mine committed suicide and in his note he said I was "always there for him" and that "I shouldn't feel regret or anger" towards my self for his decision to end it all. He said I was "the only reason he didn't do it sooner" because he wanted to try and "pay me back" for all the "Time, energy, love, and support I gave him." He was the one who convinced me to try therapy and when I had a good relationship with my therapist he said in his note "he knew he could finally let it happen without regrets." it was devastating knowing that i had put sooo much love and compassion into him and everyone around me, yet i couldn't feel anything towards myself other than hate. This and "How could you leave us" was the first time i was able to unleash the pressure i had built up and opened my eyes to self care. NF is a hero to me and many others... God Bless
The thing that you have, Kyle, is a calling. Even if you're constantly giving from an empty cup, you still give. And that cup runith over. That empty cup still runith over. There's a big difference between having this calling, and being ordinary. An ordinary person MUST have water flowing into the cup from self care and a support system so they can help/nurture/mentor others. Someone who is called to do this work doesn't have that option. We just do it. Because that person needs us. That stranger needs our words or messages from the spiritual side. We have no control over the situations or experiences, they happen because they are supposed to happen and WE are supposed to be there, in that moment, for that person. It's draining and seems like a curse more than a blessing. But it's a gift that cannot be denied. Believe me. I've tried. The more I fight it, the more insistent the gift is. Yes we need self care. Yes we need a break. Yes we would love someone to take care of us while we do the work we're called to do. Fuck. Wouldn't that be amazing?? But thats not up to us... Once I made peace with the fact that I have this amazing gift, I started to relax more. I wasnt fighting it anymore. I was just letting things happen as they should. It takes the pressure off of you and puts it on the universe. Once I let go and let "goddess" my breathing came easier. After you "let go" and embrace the gift....self care and support comes organically. Love you brotha. You got this. ❤❤❤❤
Make sure that after the search, before paid my dues, you read the Rolling Stone article. Also, before the clouds album, watch the Big Lebowski... lol. Love your journey
After listening to Ren troubles it feels different in comparison to what he's gone through but that just goes to show how much a toll mental health can take on us regardless of what degree it impacts us.
I miss the days is one of those songs that he just knows what we need. The whole production of the song gets you. To be fair the whole album is a no skip album
Yes!!! Absolutely have to do “I Miss The Days”
NF has been able to make songs that I feel inside but just, don’t have the words to say. NF is amazing & I love how raw & real he is.
"I don't wanna die I just wanna get relief" That one hit holy shit
NF doesn’t always give you what you want, but he always gives you what you need. He makes you feel things you may not want to, but need to. He is just a true artist in every sense of the word.
I love that Interlude was just Nate talking because he’s such a private person we don’t get a lot of that from him.
Great reaction! Remember we almost lost him after perception. He checked into a facility to get help. This album is based off of that experience.
Please do not skip I miss the days!
Also options and no excuses are hype songs on this album too.
What she said! ☝💜
And the song Only. Also, what she said.
Yes what she said & also Only!!!
Hi Nikki - I am so sad right now. I just lost my little brother today. I don't know what to do. I am just listening to NF Paralyzed reactions and this one popped up too. "I don't see you like I should, you get so misunderstood, it's hard cuz I hate myself." Not really sure why these bars comfort me in this place.
@@dennisr.4918DennyDesigns so sorry for your loss!!
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts.
Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain. And thank you Rykerroad for reacting to it.
NOT gonna lie... in the NF "Journey" , EVERY song on The SEARCH album should be included! Like to not have "My Stress", "Only", "Let Me Go" on the Journey is crazy! These songs are soooo personal to what NF goes thru 👏
Yea those 3 most definitely need to be added
@@smallbatch83 Right idk who exactly made a Journey list but NF is so deep and personal that almost ALL his songs help you understand him.
And I miss the days
@@OwO_MIW I didnt even realize I Miss The Days wasnt on the journey? The "Journey" really needs to add some songs. Just listen to ALL of NF!
And only
Hearing this song live, with a crowd surrounding me singing along was such an overwhelming cathartic experience. This one, Let Me Go and later Just Like You live had me in tears in the best way
Totally agree! Hearing every person in the theatre saying the words "its hard when i hate myself" and knowing at one point or another it would have been true for everyone there brought me to tears ! So powerful.
Please don’t miss out. ‘Only’ or ‘I miss the days’ they are part of the journey and a must listen
Hate Myself is such a perfect song. That line about how he wants love and passes it up and then tries to find it later. It can be viewed as wanting love from someone else. But I think of it like wanting love from yourself. How he says "I feel like you don't see me, my life has no meaning" just resonates with me. I've felt many times like I can't even see who I am. I can't see who I am. Because all I see is what I hate about me. But that's not all I am.
Then the line about getting love and passing it up. I had moments when I'd feel proud of myself. I'd feel happy. But then I'd tell myself, "no you don't deserve that. That's a lie."
Luckily I've learned how to deal with the negative feelings and thoughts. But this song is a great reminder of where I was, and how when I do backslide, that I'm not alone.
I just hope everyone someday is able to look on their past and say, "I didn't love myself then, that's okay, because I love myself now."
I'm surprised no one's talked about the child's voice in the background.
Thank you both for always being so open and honest with all of us - especially when you don’t need to be. It would be easy enough to just listen to NF and give a thumbs up or thumbs down review. You’ve both been so upfront with sharing different life experiences with us as listeners and to me that just reiterates how genuine the two of you are. So happy to be a part of this little community of music junkies!
So glad to have You here too, Louuu! 💜😊
It's hard to imagine life without you guys. We are so thankful and happy to be able to enjoy music with you all!
@@rykerroadMOM3123 💜💜💜
I’d love to hear the “My Stress” reaction. Daily NF reactions, I’m here for it.
Something i have always found super unique but have never heard it mentioned is the fact that the "nf journey" is completely organic that fans created after reactions to nf's music began to grow. Im sure he knows about it but to my knowledge he has never referenced it. Seems to be just a super cool thing that has been created between NF and his fans yet NF has never acknowledged it publicly (or privately). Just a really cool unspoken project between NF and his die hard fans. I have never heard of anything remotely similar to it in the music genre.
I secretly hope one day Nate would put his idea of the NF journey on one album. Like a sort of greatest hits. That's one question I would love to ask him if I ever had the opportunity. What would be his suggested journey, would he want newbies to go back through his older work or start fresh. I know he's Saud before that he Prefers fans to listen to his new tracks in order on the project.
I'm sure you're tired of hearing this but I MISS THE DAYS 😂😂😂
Hate Myself is very real for me. I have depression and anxiety feeds off my depression, that lyric where he says "suicidal thoughts come and go like a guest of me, but I don't want to die, I just want to get relief", that for me is so deep, I don't think I have ever not thought about suicide where I haven't thought about just being away or getting relief, its a constant battle and its something I always deal with. Now I have this emotional job where I have to take care of others, I work in an ER as a social worker and it is just hard to deal with things when you're so surrounded by bad things but having people around that care, its like "i’m at war with peace".
I Miss The Days. I'll just say what others have because it truly is that great of a song. I know it's not currently on the list, but if you guys have the time please listen to it on your own time.
💯 Agreed, one of NF’s finest…really hope you guys treat yourselves to this one at some point.
Hardest song for me to hear but I love it
Chorus coming up...."It's not easier the second time" Kyle. Thanks for being real my brothers. Chorus gets upbeat..."It doesn't make it easier but it makes it a little more peppy" Eric. And my favorite of all, "Things can be beautiful and heavy" Really great reaction. I know you have been using the very good list but you seriously need to do every song on this album in order. Just start with any you haven't done yet and catch up and then move forward. Their are still some of the best songs ever coming up which is saying a lot! Loving every minute of these reactions.
this was the song that made me come to terms with a death in my family. me and my friends saw him live after cancer took my grandma and she was my best friend. he performed this and let me tell you that was the first time i’ve EVER cried listening to it. i had a mental breakdown during “ i walk through the ashes of my passions” and i didn’t even know the person next to me but they hugged me. i held my anger and sadness in for weeks and idk why it was this song but it hit me in that moment.
nf truly is someone that saved me.
NF and this song is how I realized I needed to get help. I never thought I was actually depressed because I would always do what I need to do and not have days where I didn’t wanna do anything. But this song described perfectly how I feel all the time. I go through times where I don’t want to live but I don’t wanna die because I have a beautiful girlfriend and son that I love more then anything. I thought something was wrong with me because I am happy with the life I have but I’m not happy. NF made me realize I’m not the only one and was able to give words to the way I feel specifically with this song. I’m still not better, but I’m getting there and o definitely give NF a little credit for that and I’m eternally grateful that he wrote this song
NF has "Layers" in the hook(chorus) has layers to it. Child voice(younger Nate,the past) talking to the future Nate. Present Nf is talking younger Nate and future Nate.
I love this album so much. It literally shows the bounce of emotions we all feel. I didn’t hear this song until I went to the concert and man to see all the people singing this song and FEELING it was unexplainable.. I think you guys will love Just Like You because you always say “how does he know” I hope you do that song and check out I miss the days even if it’s not a reaction.
OH YES!! Just Like You is gonna knock them over!
I enjoy your reactions not just because you both enjoy the songs. But you guys explain why you enjoyed it and connect with the songs. I love rap rap songs, but NF songs apply to my life and what I'm feeling or have felt. That's why I call him the goat.
I cant wait for you guys to hear "My Stress"! My fav from this album
To people who resonate with this song like Kyle verbalizes how hard was it, hopefully you've done this, for you to set "do not disturb" on your phone at bedtime with no exceptions for 2 call or favorites? The first time I did it I simply couldn't sleep which just unscored how broken I'd made myself without noticing. Love you guys!
The juxtaposition of the peppy track with the raw words gets me everytime.
thank you for embracing NF in the first place! I'm so happy you've enjoyed the journey so far and I can't wait to see how it'll evolve.
keep doing what you love man
it's been a lot of fun
I love you guys. This song is so powerful. I just started listening to NF and I like to listen to his songs for the first time with your reactions. I feel like I relate to you guys and NF. Love your genuine reactions. ❤
ive never heard/seen any reactions to nfs very first song like beautiful ,invisible ,falling apart ,can you hold me
I think we as NF fans really needed to hear him SAY what he was feeling in interlude AND Hate Myself. Incredibly relatable. 💜💜💜 I really hope you do I miss the days... Kyle, I think we're kindred spirits.
This was my anthem for about a year. Still feels like home.
How does he know!!!! And how come we ALL think that and he’s one of the few that can actually say it out loud.
I love how unnoticed Eric’s random giant drink vessels are. Eric, I notice, and I want all of them lol.
LOL, we notice!! I'm looking for fun drink vessels now!! I have a few, need more!
I was re-listening to your reaction because this is one of my favorite songs by NF. At the beginning of the song, where it’s NF’s regular voice and a pitched voice, I wonder if that could be adult NF and young NF singing those lyrics to each? It would track with the message in Nate.
Knee deep in defeat of my own actions. That shit gives me chills every time I hear it.
Raw , you could hear his voice t the end. This one is definitely relatable and just listening to his music helps me get through.
This song and the entire album just makes me want to give the man a hug. Like a good long hug. I feel for him
I can't wait for you guys to get to " just like you " I hear you guys always say how does he know, I think that song might answer your question.
Yall are gonna love Just Like You so much.
What is SUCCESS when HOPE has Left You? My favorite line
At first I would just play NF songs....
but when hard times hit me emotionally.....
seems like I pray NF songs...
my arms open....
where I let HOPE in...
Rykerroad .... thanx ;)
This song live is soooo hard for me. Listening to this with the interlude live with thousands of people surrounding you all feeling the same thing is such an experience. I cried both times I saw this live
I'm on this Journy with you guys and this song song hit hard. I am one of those people that has been there for everyone I care about with everything I had in me. I'm now going through the stage where I've cut a lot of those people out of my life. I got to the point where I had nothing left in me. Realizing nobody seemed to be here for me only added anger deep down in my soul. I've never had this feeling in me ever. It doesn't belong, doesn't suit me well, I hate it so much. I'm struggling to find away to get rid of it, need it to go away. That being said. Thank you for doing this, for being so open with situations of your own. It makes it somewhat better understanding that everyone goes through hard times at certain points in life. I appreciate you both so much for all of it. The hilarious goofy moments, the raw real moments and the fantastic relationship the 2 of you share! ❤️🩹🙏👏 ugh where's the crowbar emoji!¡! Oh well, I guess I'll just roll the 🎲 instead lol! 🤗
The search album is one of the best collection of songs ever made!
This song was so heavy, that it made me think heavily of things that I don’t know and how me not knowing makes me angry at myself. This was beautifully devastating, thank you for reacting to yet another song I needed and thank you for saying how I felt Kyle, seriously thank you
Interlude is a snippet from one of his own therapy sessions after his breakdown. He wrote half of hate myself while in intense treatment. So glad yall are getting the background before he releases his new project to see where he was. And also this is more than NF. This is Nate, as fans we relate to the human vulnerability and REAL insight into how trauma can be turned into triumph!
Also. I really appreciate how you each individually love and connect to songs. So complimentary and unique at the same time!!! Brothers!!!!
This one resonates with me a LOT, but I Miss the Days is like NF ripped my mind out in the mess it is always in, and then strung my thoughts together to form coherent sentences to explain how I feel. He's literally the voice of so many of us, with no shortage of musical therapy that he provides.
It hurts me that he suffers so much when he helps so many. I hate to say it, but he is on the same level to me as Chester Bennington... the voice of the broken, when he is the MOST broken. I hope NF survives to see a lovely, happy old age though...
VERY WELL SAID! ☺️❤️ that’s something i can relate to!
Can't wait for clouds and trust
Paid my dues is one of my favorites! He goes hard!! So excited
Nf is one of the best artist that i ever heard of in my entire life every song that he makes it hits different and he says staff that are true and if i am being honest he helped me go through tuff times
I'm sure Kyle would love 'Like This', 'Only' and 'I Miss The Days' very well..... Deep songs
Another GREAT reaction gentlemen!!!! I’ve been here since the beginning of the journey and can’t wait for the next NF reaction to drop. I love your reactions and reflections and don’t hold back for no one! Be yourself and tell all, I know I’m here for it! We who are here, are here for you guys and your honest reaction to the music/artist/lyrics. It’s special to watch someone new get hyped about a REAL artist and not the same ol hype of drugs money and sex that mainstream wants to push.
What I’m trying to say, you have a story, tell it. Don’t hold back. I know I’ll listen.
How does NF do it? How does he know? The way I see it, there are people that have talent and become great then there are people that have a gift and become legendary. NF has a gift from God that he has the ability to articulate his experiences and pain in such a way that it reaches people on many levels. He is one of those rare people that have a gift that will reach people long after he is gone.....Legendary !!
Your reactions were amazing and very relatable. I've started to think about going to therapy and if i do, i'll make my therapist listen to his songs and just refer to them because i couldn't ever put what i feel better into words than him. I feel so bad for the people that would really need to listen to his songs but don't know him.
that’s what i did with my therapist, it’s helped me so much!! good day to you 🥺☺️
@@realwestcoastgaming glad this works for you 😁. I'm thinking about starting next month or so, a friend of mine gave me the number of their therapist and i hope it'll work with her too. Does your therapist like his music as well or do they just listen to it for you?
I love your reactions to NF. I look for them now. 💜 PS I love that you watch The Office sitting down. lol
I know many people who always want to help others and keep putting off their own needs, but many of them fall behind and end up needing help. For me, I prioritize taking care of myself so that I can feel happy AND be in a position to help others, which I've been fortunate enough to do many times.
The line "I wish I could help, but it's hard when I hate myself" speaks pretty loudly to me there
You also have to check out Like This. It's such a complex song because the beat will have you vibing and possibly bouncing, but the message is as deep as this song. It broke me when I first heard it. Full tears, which was extremely carthatic. Anyone who really connects with the song gets it. Also just echoing 99% of everyone else, you need to do the entire Search album. It's doing Nate such a disservice not too, so if your journey list doesn't have the entire Search, it's not the journey and someone lied to you. Either way, an amazing reaction guys! Thank you.
This is one that I avoided at first because it hits to close to home, but it’s beautiful. Then Clouds came out and it felt like he turned a corner in getting freedom to be happy
I think the most powerful line in this song is when he says "pray to God with my arms open". That is literally you surrendering yourself to God. Just a great visual to see where he is at mentally.
Being humble, having legit reactions, and talked about watching the office... how can I not subscribe?
Great reaction once again this remindes me of when i feel alone in a Room full of people
That's where why comes in.
This song just make tears in my eyes...the melody, the lyrics, and NF voice...just make us feel so emotional! Another masterpiece. NF is the concept and meaning of an music artist. Like always, your reactions are awesome. Thanks to open your hearts to us, Kyle and Eric ☺️
I SWEAR ERIC THAT IS THE BIGGEST GLASS IVE EVER SEEN 😭😭🤣😳
Great video as always guys. I appreciate your genuineness and authenticity. You are becoming one of my favourite reaction channels. NF has the ability to bring stuff out of people that they wouldn’t otherwise think about. And I appreciate your willingness to have these candid and honest conversations. Keep it going guys. 🙂
I love this song, but I've always looked at it differently. I've always looked at it as he is talking to himself, like in a mirror. He wishes he could help himself to grow but he can't because he hates himself. It's so hard to see ourselves as the bad guy but it's impossible to change the things about ourselves that we don't like until we admit the faults we have. We have to hate parts of ourselves to truly push ourselves to change. Maybe it's because I've been there that I see it that way.
Your not the only one I've hated myself and had severe depression since I was about 8 years old.. I'm 30 now and still feel the same way.. I have struggled to change things about me and have been told many many times to get professional help but it's just weird to me to tell a stranger my darkest thoughts and memories I'm not even good at talking to those closest to me
@@RiddleAlucard I can tell you from my personal experience that if you find the right psychologist, it can be a huge help. While I didn't deal with depression as a child, I suffer from fairly severe PTSD and had to learn to deal with depression, anxiety, and rage as an adult and I almost ruined my life. I found someone who helped me understand the root of my issues and while I will never be cured, it has helped me learn to cope and manage it.
@@RiddleAlucard I used to struggle with depression, attempted suicide a few times, and had severe anger management issues. I turned to drugs and alcohol to suppress my issues. I sought professional help a few times but they never helped. (some people need help, some can do it on their own) It's usually not just one thing but a compound of things. One this was, I was physically abused as a child, and after I spent time reflecting on that. (it took years to work through my issues, I also used a dark room and music, but everyone is different). I realized the root of my issue was that I was in fear, I was still that little boy. Personally I took up boxing, jiu jitsu, and karate. It helped me to not be afraid anymore. What I'm trying to say is find each root cause, and address them one by one, it will take time but if I can get through it, you can too.
that’s very well said!
Most tracks on NF's albums are high quality and filled with thought provoking content. He is imo one of the top current artists out
I've always taken this song in with the idea that he's talking to himself taking to himself, the song is low and then the last verse is him performing it for the masses. It's him telling everyone with a upbeat that he hates himself and everyone vibes with it and then he goes back to feeling alone and accepts that he hates himself. The video to when I grow up kinda reminds me of what I mean where he shows out for the crowd and then goes back stage and wipes his face.
I love probably watched this reaction a dozen times. You guys really matter to us. I look forward to your NF videos so I have someone to cry to this song with me
It's so awesome to watch y'all go down this NF rabbit hole and see your own reactions firsthand of this journey. One of these days y'all need to travel down that rabbit hole with King ISO
Guys... once again, a great reaction! So many songs that so many of us needed to hear and just didn't realize it... and there are many more still that are gonna hit y'all. I promise! I don't think anything will be 'as hard' as How Could You Leave Us was but some may come close... depends on your personal journey. 💜
Interesting one of his. Definitely personal.
🖤 NF - “I walk through the ashes of my passions”🖤😢
I can relate to this song really well and I guess it’s therapy to me when I listen to it and see people react to it
I'm glad yall did this combo this way...bacause really this was intended to be listened this way. God helps NF really put things into perspective. May he continue to do so 🙏
Yes I love the longer videos!
Can't wait for "Only"
Kyle, from what it sounds like we are similar in how much we look out for others and rooting for their best to the detriment of not taking care of ourselves and what we need from others. And for myself, I have become so accustomed that others simply don’t have the empathy like I do, it’s just not often I come across someone who is wired like how I think and that’s fine I mean we are uniquely designed by God and I just happen to be one of those who is very introspective and also sensitive to how others around me feel because I know my own pain like it’s a close friend. I’ve sat in moments of isolation allowing myself to feel every sharp dagger of loneliness and negative experiences because I had no choice, I had nobody to share it with other than to call out to God, read the book of Psalms and listen to conscious hip hop and resonate with music, tv shows and movies that had themes or characters who were experiencing struggles just so I could feel less alone. The church I was always trying to help others and by the grace of God I had moments of life where He made an impact on others lives through me being willing to share their pain but when it came to my pain, nobody showed up. The church leaders couldn’t relate because they always had their click or their crew around. I’ve felt like an outcast in many ways even around a crowded room. This feeling never seemed to subside unless I was taking the focus off myself so helping others became a joy but time alone was both my vice I could return to as I pitied myself some valid reasons and some not. But yeah even with my faith in Jesus, enjoying life is difficult because I hated myself, I wanted to go back to the old Kevin who was happy but I had become jaded and trapped in my own mind. Now I’m not saying that you’re like that but I just believe that Kyle you’re an encourager, you’re a genuine guy who wants to lift others up, pray for them, see them succeed but when it comes time for you to be in the spotlight, maybe you’re like me and you push that away because you feel undeserving when the truth is that you do deserve others caring about your life and your well being. I think we all need friendships and relationships where the empathy and friendship given is mutual. And I’m interjecting mostly about my experiences but wanted to share. I’m still not fixed. I’ve become resilient from my pain and I’m working towards goals that aren’t results driven but more so actions I am consistent in taking. I’ll let the Lord bless me if He chooses to. Or if He lets me wander in the valleys of life for longer, then I’m committed to trusting that it’s for my soul’s benefit and as hard as it is to stay in those experiences I am doing my best to keep my perspective that God loves me (I don’t deserve it, and I don’t fully realize why he loves me) but I know His character as He is the Author of love and so of course He loves me. I’ve come to accept His love base on Him staying true to His character but I pray that I understand the depths of it as I mature and grow and experience those little moments in life called happiness. Either way through pain or grief or loss, I will always have joy because it’s sealed in Heaven by the work of Jesus’ death on the cross and resurrection from the dead. But I too am looking for the map to hope and why I relate to NF or Twentyone pilots music is because it’s raw about how it describes these experiences of vulnerability even if it’s just a conversation I have with myself or my honest and open prayers to God. I’m always gonna be real and I see a realness to you and your character so if this rambling of a comment brings you any encouragement I hope it makes you grow closer to a God who although is invisible, He is always there and often speaks with a whisper over the loudness of the voice of fear than can live in our heads. Be blessed and may God bring you peace and bless you way more than you even think is possible.
Yes the song hypocrite by King Iso is a hard hitter and you feel that way when you really want to help but yourself feel lost with no answer for the questions life throws at you because you've self medicated to the point of numbness so you can go on autopilot.
This song is one of the songs I resonate the most with.
Just wanted to say, I'm autistic, I grew up not knowing I was. Hardest part is not having the ability to express how if feel correctly most the time and I found the music is a way to express my feelings...like I can send people a song that says what I can't express myself. NF is probably one of the biggest artists that helps me with that...this song in particular, hits me hard everytime
Can't wait for you guys to do Only ft Sasha Sloan. My favorite NF song. Keep up the good work brothers💪
Always love your honest and very genuine reviews!! Keep up the great reviews you guys! We love you!! 🙌
This was heavy but needed. 💛
I don't like to stop cause when I stop, I think. Goddammit, man, I feel that.
You guys are really amazing, beautiful and more in touch with yourselves and others than a large majority. Keep going through the search because each one you will continue to get more reflection that we are all connected. You are a mirror of me just as NFand everyone else. It's so much deeper than so many realize. ✌️❤️🌏⚖️🙏♾️
Great reaction as always. just got back from vacation so have a couple videos to catch up on. But good way to recharge from a tiring trip by hearing some NF and your reactions. NF is just one of a kind! so glad I found his music as like we all have said it somehow comes to us at the time we need it. I have gone thru the journey a few times and each channel is different its own way weather a breakdown of lyrics or music. You are one of the only ones I stay to the very end on almost every video as I enjoy the conversations as I appreciate the journey. So keep up the good work and look forward to more.
By far my favorite song except for Thinking and Green Lights. One hard song and one 'thinking' song. I listen to this song slowed and it is very therapeutic for me.
Second verse on this song is almost pinnacle NF. Doesn’t get better.
Honestly this is like the 2nd time I've actually listened to this song. When I seen the title and know how NF feels about himself I didnt want to hear it,
Then I tried and I couldn't. It is very hard to hear NF say this about himself. I pray for him and anyone feeling this way. It hurts my heart.
I hope y’all listen to this album without a single skip one day. This entire album. On rotation everyday in my car.
virtual hug to to you both, Kyle especially
This is one of my favorite songs!!!
Sometimes you just help others not to think about what's wrong with you... and even if it's not healthy you do it because it is somehow easier. Keep up with the reactions, I love you guys and your videos❤️
Just found y'all not too long ago but have liked what I have seen. I was always that friend who people could count on no matter the damage to me. A friend of mine committed suicide and in his note he said I was "always there for him" and that "I shouldn't feel regret or anger" towards my self for his decision to end it all. He said I was "the only reason he didn't do it sooner" because he wanted to try and "pay me back" for all the "Time, energy, love, and support I gave him."
He was the one who convinced me to try therapy and when I had a good relationship with my therapist he said in his note "he knew he could finally let it happen without regrets." it was devastating knowing that i had put sooo much love and compassion into him and everyone around me, yet i couldn't feel anything towards myself other than hate. This and "How could you leave us" was the first time i was able to unleash the pressure i had built up and opened my eyes to self care. NF is a hero to me and many others... God Bless
🔥🔥💯💯 Reaction NFrealmusic 💯💯,, just too relatable!!
The thing that you have, Kyle, is a calling. Even if you're constantly giving from an empty cup, you still give. And that cup runith over. That empty cup still runith over.
There's a big difference between having this calling, and being ordinary.
An ordinary person MUST have water flowing into the cup from self care and a support system so they can help/nurture/mentor others.
Someone who is called to do this work doesn't have that option.
We just do it. Because that person needs us. That stranger needs our words or messages from the spiritual side. We have no control over the situations or experiences, they happen because they are supposed to happen and WE are supposed to be there, in that moment, for that person.
It's draining and seems like a curse more than a blessing. But it's a gift that cannot be denied. Believe me. I've tried. The more I fight it, the more insistent the gift is.
Yes we need self care. Yes we need a break. Yes we would love someone to take care of us while we do the work we're called to do. Fuck. Wouldn't that be amazing??
But thats not up to us...
Once I made peace with the fact that I have this amazing gift, I started to relax more. I wasnt fighting it anymore. I was just letting things happen as they should. It takes the pressure off of you and puts it on the universe. Once I let go and let "goddess" my breathing came easier.
After you "let go" and embrace the gift....self care and support comes organically.
Love you brotha. You got this. ❤❤❤❤
Hate Myself, I Miss The Days and Change are NFs best songs. His mixtape is more hype and up beat but these three songs touch you deep
He wrote this song after perception tour, when he was feeling some kinda way dealing with fame
Make sure that after the search, before paid my dues, you read the Rolling Stone article. Also, before the clouds album, watch the Big Lebowski... lol. Love your journey
After listening to Ren troubles it feels different in comparison to what he's gone through but that just goes to show how much a toll mental health can take on us regardless of what degree it impacts us.
Seriously!
How many different kinds of glasses/mugs do you have? 😂
🤷♀️🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣✌️❤️😎🤦♀️
Was wondering that myself! lol
Ima need you to react to I miss the days, clouds, story and paid my dues!! You’ll love them all. NF is just brilliant and so damn relatable!