0:43 “A lot of people are searching for happiness, they’re looking for it. They’re trying to find it in someone or something outside of themselves. That’s a fundamental mistake. Happiness is something that you are, and encompasses the way you speak.” 2:16 “We cannot choose the things that will happen to us, but we can choose the attitude we will take towards anything that happens to us.”
Thank you very much, I really never knew what that lady said. I never understood why there were no subtitles, besides I do not speak English nor are they American. I am Latin American, I speak I never understood why there were no subtitles, besides I do not speak English nor are they American. I am Latin American, I mean I speak Spanish...
i think of that time like a safety net, but for emotions. it keeps you safe from the sadness, but it's not very thick, so there's a big chance you might cry until you get back to neutral
@@rebeccamikulin3519 Doubt. 1. Faking death is hard asf and you can't just "sorta fake" it. You need months and months of preparation. 2. They could go to jail for driving a person to suicide. This would ruin their lives and you are so calm about that. r/quityourbullshit
It's been years , still know every lyric like it's written in my bones . Geez , It really punches you in the gut . I like to say I'm through it , and actually starting to enjoy my life . But the little things stick around .
I can’t wait to be there I’ve felt that but it’s continued to just get worse and worse and everything around me is crumbling away loved ones passing stupidly throwing away relationships and thinking I’m over it then it just haunts me and possibly loosing years of my freedom or my whole life and just so many things and it’s only ever gotten even more worse it hurts and I hate that I have to wonder, pray, wish, for it too be better
That's the only appropriate time to "miss" someone. If a person is still around you at the time, missing them just means your clingy/obsessive, which is a problem. :/
when I was a young kid I didn’t understand the lyrics correctly and thought it just was a amazing fire song, as a 15 year old I now understand the lyrics and it is still a fire song
I feel this to an extent to were I wish I could go into a mental hospital because I feel like such a damn wreck to society that it's dangerous for me to be around people
@@jenniferbapp3075 Don't know if it'll help you, but in my case, I realised I am not meant to fit in with society, or how people behave in this city-world. I don't value the same things they do, and I never will. Knowing I'm not supposed to fit in, but rather be myself in everything I do, does help. I just made that comment when I was feeling real low. But what makes the loneliness worse is dwelling over it. Keeping active helps--doing things you enjoy, I mean, not working 24/7. I hope this all helps in some small way.
True, there is nothing after death, we're all be forgotten one day, watch bojack horseman, its a great show that deconstruct depression and mental illness
@@CryztalzUntold1020 same i used to fake depression for attention and now that i actually have it i realize just how much of fucking stupid child i was for thinking it was something edgy and cool💀 i literally have no life now it basically got striped away from me due to my mind state.
Wil you end my pain? Will you take my life? Will you bleed me out? Will you hang me out to dry? Will you take my soul in the midnight rain? While I'm falling apart While I'm going Will you end my pain? Will you take my life? Will you bleed me out? Will you hang me out to dry? Will you take my soul in the midnight rain? While I'm falling apart While I'm going insane Most people are searching for happiness They're looking for it They're trying to find it in someone Or something outside of themselves That's a fundamental mistake Happiness is something that you are And it comes from the way you speak Can you break my bones? Will you tear my skin? Can you taste my lust? Can you feel my sin? See, I'm a waste of life I should just kill myself Yeah, I could slit my wrists But it really wouldn't help Wouldn't fix my issues Or change your mind 'Cause I broke your heart And you buried mine Now, I'm six feet deep And I can't breathe I got dirt in my eyes And blood on my sleeves But I dig my way up Through these roots and leaves So I can get some air So I can finally breathe And now I'm on my knees Oh baby, begging please Will you Will you Will you end my pain? Will you take my life? Will you bleed me out? Will you hang me out to dry? Will you take my soul in the midnight rain? While I'm falling apart While I'm going Will you end my pain? Will you take my life? Will you bleed me out? Will you hang me out to dry? Will you take my soul in the midnight rain? While I'm falling apart While I'm going insane We cannot choose the things that will happen to us But we can choose the attitude we want to take Towards anything that happens to us Goodbye And don't you miss me when I'm gone Goodbye 'Cause you're the fucking reason that I'm not around Goodbye Don't you miss me when I'm, miss me when I'm gone Goodbye 'Cause you're the fucking reason that I'm not around Fucking reason that I'm not around Bitch, you're the fucking reason that I'm not around
when you can’t even open up because you genuinely can’t express any form of emotion so you just quietly stay and try ignoring everything, including yourself and everyone around you
It hurts to see that depression is a "trend" that has been on going for a while now. People who are actually depressed get a lot of hate because others think they're faking it as there are many kids who thinks that its cool. It really isnt. If you're one of those who think that its fun, please stop pretending. As someone who struggles with it and is currently on anti-depressants it feels like were being made fun of for our unstable mental health. If you're also struggling with it please find help and talk to someone you know will listen. Its not pretty. Its not fun. Its not a lifestyle. Its a deadly illness. Edit: When I commented this, I had no idea how much attention it would get. First of all I want to thank you people for supporting this as depression is a tough topic and many don't understand what this illness really is. Second of all I just want to say that you all are important. Even if it seems that no one cares; I care. I care about you. There are more people than just me that care about you. Life might be rough right now but I believe in you. You can get through this.💜 Once you hit rock bottom the only way is up. I'll be over here cheering you on the road to recovery and a healthier life.💛
@@kaitlyn-gracesmith7923 Cures for depression differ from person to person, some people just need someone to talk about it to, while others use antidepressants, therapy or do things they love and enjoy for a boost of endorphins such as serotonin. There are a handful of people who are heavily depressed and none of these work for them in the long run. These people often think that there is only one answer but it's not true. Suicide isn't the answer. Everyone has their own way of figuring things out but suicide is never the only option. You just have to try and stay positive and keep searching for your perfect cure. Now onto the youngins who think its a cool lifestyle, the only way to fight this is with awareness and educating them about what depression really is. These might throw them off and shock them if you tell them: *Mindblowing fact:* No. Just because I am depressed, doesn't mean I'm sad 24/7. *Mindblowing fact no.2:* No. My favourite colour isn't black. Its green! -because even though im struggling with this I do think that life is a beautiful and wonderful thing to have and green is a representation of life and living things. c: A quick explanation about how it all works to help educate others: Depression has a few forms, the most common being when a person's brain isn't able to make enough endorphins to keep a stable state of emotions & energy. A person with this will often feel unmotivated and fatigued along with heavy mood swings where the highs can be like a star over the smallest thing this person enjoys but the lows can be almost ocean floor deep over a small thing this person dislikes. It varies from person to person and it depends on how they got their depression. I hope I gave you the answer you were looking for and if not then there are many scientific articles about depression which will give a more in-depth explanation on the ways of battling this mental illness 👍
You’re lucky. You must take for granted how lucky you are that you don’t want to kill yourself. It’s something that never goes away even with help. It’s always there in the back of your mind.
@@prodbyBA23A If you want you can watch it on tiktok its lxrvmxtv or bils.bad.bitch (yeah im billie stan) you will have to scroll down a LOT but maybe i can mention u
This song is so nostalgic and beautiful. Its actually what lifts my mood back up and makes me smile whenever I'm at an all time low and everything else fails to cheer me . Even if i listen to it while I'm normal and calm, it makes me smile. Its definately my all time favorite ♡
I like the song because of the beat and the catchy lyrics, however after reading these comments it made me realize that people can like this song for different reasons. To all of you who are using this song to get through hard times, I wish you the best of luck and I hope that the dark rainy sky will soon be cleared by the shiny sun 🌅. 🍀 Oh look, here's a 4 leaf clover :).
*"When your happy you enjoy the song."* *"But when your sad you understand the song."* *"If your depressed you would listen to this song a lot whilst sad."* Edit : if you ever feel sad, unhappy, hopeless, helpless, etc. I would really recommend to get a therapist, and a lot of people fake being "sad" or "depressed" because depressed people usually hide their feelings, because they don’t want others to feel the pain. People could also show their sad, but please, please, get a therapist! You could talk to them.. and talking about things hurting the inside of you does feel good, like remember the time you told you’re parents you had a nightmare? It felt good, so telling a therapy would feel just as good!
Life does get better. Being 16-17 was the hardest time in my life for me, but now I'm 57, and it does get better. You'll be grown soon. Set some goals for how you want your life to go. It started getting better for me around 18.
I wonder if any of my family looks at my history cause if so I don't think "will you end my pain, will you take my life" isn't a good look for me- I just like the song i swear..
I came across this song on Instagram and I remember playing this over so many times around 2-3 years ago. Stuff changed and I'm much happier now, but wow that time was truly hard for me. I know this song from word to word and honestly I didn't expect to ever see it again, it flooded all over me again. But wow. It got better, I'm surprised. Wow. I'm not as bad as I used to be, I'm happier, I just now realized.
Oh girl im so sorry for you when i wrote this my mom came in and i turned off my phone it has happened with me many times.. btw what did your mom say??..
Yea my grandma will listen to the music I listen to see what I like and 80% of the songs i listen to are like this one, and she'll say "are you depressed? a lot of songs you listen to are sad!" And then I'm just silent..
Yeetra I love this song, but idk if I’m suidicial.. I feel like everything is going wrong and like I have the feeling that I have to die or sumn but I don’t cut myself or sumn.. *Edit: u prob don’t care but oh well*
The Last Bacon Hair yeah but Dumb asses like everyone thinks the fact were suicidal when we listen to this song but it’s not just that it’s the fact that this song has more meaning than what you think. I don’t think everyone is gonna ever allow this music to be on the radio station to listen to you know it’s crazy how deep this song it is and it feels when you listen to it.
THADZ please if you talk to someone who’s not okay don’t tell them this i hear this every time and it just makes me feel like y’all think it’s easy which i know you have good intentions but i just hate the dumb phrases like “No don’t do it” “that’s not good” stuff like that instead ask them maybe why they feel the way they do try to understand instead of telling them “don’t think of that”
i told my mom and she called me selfish and some other non-advertiser friendly things and was more worried about fixing me, than how I was still standing on my two feet. sO iM dOiNg jUsT gReAT-
I remember hearing this somewhere but I couldn't find it until not long ago because the title isn't really in the lyrics which is how I usually find songs ^^; so gassed that I found it
I remember when I was 12 that this was my song and thinking my life was bad. Four months my mom died because of a lung infection. Weirdly enough, that snapped me out of my depressed state and made me realize that I always had something to lose and people that love me.
POV: you are listening to this song with headphones in, you hear a knock at your door so you immediately wipe your tears away and wipe away the snot dripping from your nose, you put on a hoodie and run to the door, you open up the door to be surprised to see your brother standing there, he has a plate of cookies, he says, “ I heard you crying so I got you these, hope you enjoy “ you take the cookies, and then as you try to walk back to your bed, your brother grabs your arm and pulls you back, he then says “ I know your hurting, I know that your sad, and if you ever want to talk about it you can tell me, I’ve been broken before too, love you sis “ then he kisses your forehead and closes the door, you then run back to your bed with the cookies, you think about what your brother had said, and with the warm, fuzzy feeling, you lay there and unpause your music and eat the warm cookies you brother made for you, and it made you forget why you were sad, you then finish the last cookie, and then peacefully fall asleep, and hour later your brother comes to check up on you, he kisses your forehead and then leaves. - Anonymous (written by me) Guys, this is not a true story, I don’t have an amazing brother like this, I wish, and I’m sorry for everyone who has a horrible brother (s) we all wish our siblings were nice and not such brats, sorry if I made you cry, it wasn’t intentional!!
Ahem.. OKAY NOW THAT THEY ARE GONE, COME GET A FREE HUG, YOU NEED IT! You're beautiful and strong. You may not feel it now but you are. You're still here so you're so strong! You're smile is one of the few that shines the brightest, so be the light in someones darkness. You're a extraordinary person, and you're special. God put you on this earth for a purpose, and I believe you're purpose is to shine bright and be the very best you can be. Don't be down over something because that something won't last forever. Like for instance when it storms the storm will eventually go away. Don't give up, because I believe in you, and all you need is that one person to be strong for you. You can achieve great things. Whether they are small or big. You're perfect the way YOU are, there is only one of you in the world, that's what makes you special. You're awesome and perfect the way YOU are. Even if you're a twin, it doesn't matter because you have different personality and different prospectives on life. We all bleed red and we all are different, that's why the world is so great. Live life and be happy, whether that is doing you're favorite hobby, or hanging out with family or friends. Just know I'm here. Anytime you need this message I'll always be here for you. Every time you're sad boop yourself on the nose, that way you know there is at least one person here for you. And hug yourself so you're reminded you're strong. Now, Stay strong for me because you never know what life may bring!
It's funny how depression can change someone.... it's...actually kinda sad....one moment you could be enjoying the day ,laughing n sh*t....the next you're in your room crying , and there doesn't even have to be a reason to be crying. It just punches you in the face and reminds you that you're not okay. Before you could have at least be getting 8 hours of sleep but now you stay up till 6 in the morning making up arguments n cr*p in your head making yourself feel even more like a failure and insecure. .....and it all started in 2nd grade....and it is still going on in highschool.....or is it just me?
2nd grade... kids huh overthinking is your problem the thing here is that you think you have depression and you overthink it in return your brain messes up with you as if your worthless just like how someone with actual depression would think but there's no reason for you to think that, life is precious dont waste your childhood thinking of nonesense your life would really be a failure if you waste your time instead of having fun and creating memories with other people.
kids being depressed since second grade... what you got broken or something? aren't kids supposed to be studying for their future? Id understand if you have depression because your family has problems with money but if your family can pay for your tuition food and house then how will you cope up with adulthood if from your childhood you've been depressed even with all the needs you can have?
I’ve hid my feelings so much to the point where I can’t cry anymore and when i want to cry just to see how it feels again i can’t nothing comes out. Edit: thank you all for your support and i didn’t mean for my comment to get this many likes i was just expressing myself since i have no one to express myself too.
@@katecorreia8422 there needs to be more people like you. you took the time out of your day to comment on a random persons post to ask if they were ok. Truly, do not change
"Depression isn't a phase. It doesn't simply go away. It watches as you laugh and smile, and sniggers at you when you think you're happy. It waits until you're weak And then whispers in your ear All the words you were wanting to dissapear The things that the people you kept near Couldn't wait for you to hear. Making you start to fear All the things you hold dear. And then it pulls you back in." -Me
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
Hey you! Yeah you. If you’re reading this its a sign. You’re gonna be okay, your life is gonna be amazing. You are loved by me and many others. I will ALWAYS be here for you 💕💕
“Your hand is not a paper" Don't cut it "Your mouth is not a cloth" Don't stitch it "Your neck is not a hanger" Don't hang it "Your face is not a mask" Don't cover it "Your body is not your enemy" Don't blame it "Your heart is not a glass" Don't break it "Your life is not a film" Don't end it "Your heart is not a house" Don't lock it "Your life is not a cloth" Don't change it "Your not pretty" Cause your beautiful "They don't want you" Cause they need you "They don't like you" Cause they love you "The world doesn't have a place for you" Cause the world has a special place for you Not my words but spread them. :)
you're not pretty you ARE MIRACULOUS , STUNNING , GORGEOUS. YOU ARE IMPORTANT DON'T LISTEN TO THE EMOTIONAL ABUSER peace out my fellow mortals. btw i'm not suicidal I just love this song.
A lot of people know this song now but only a few understand it for those who found lund recently they won't know the pain this kid went through, personally I was suicidal around 2016 been listening to him ever since cause what he says in his song I am in real life
Atef Hassan someone will care I’ll care and I’m sure lots others will so don’t do it your better than that and others would miss out on how you make them smile and laugh
VINCXI There’s always someone your never alone and if you need help just ask they will help you as long as you open up even if it’s a pet at least your getting it off your chest
I swear for the longest damn time RUclips and any other app had like banned this song from existing I couldn’t find it for the longest time but now I have found it again. So happy
@@virthew i want to be forgotten though i dont want people to remember life is temporary so like im gonna die doesnt matter when either i take myself out or eh idk i dont want to live long
That is true, nobody cares or even realizes your existence untill you're dead, then they pretend that they were your best friend, just so that nobody thinks that they're assholes, that's when they actually show love
Who's still listening to this?
I now keep listening to this for 24/7 lol
Me cuz i remembered it when i was playing my playlist
Always lol
Me
I am
The fact, this has a warning before it plays shows how strong truly is.
THTS WHAT IM SAYING
Haha yeah
Fr
Fr
Real
if you listened to this song at a young age, i’m sorry. but it’s also still and forever will be a bop.
ONG
I listened to this when I was 8-
@@ItzmeLulah.. Same omg
@@ItzmeLulah.. same lol when i was 9
9 y/o :) im 13 now☹️
ok but who is still here from 2024?
Yes
I’m here
I suddenly got reminded of this song so 🤭
Me
Here
0:43 “A lot of people are searching for happiness, they’re looking for it. They’re trying to find it in someone or something outside of themselves. That’s a fundamental mistake. Happiness is something that you are, and encompasses the way you speak.”
2:16 “We cannot choose the things that will happen to us, but we can choose the attitude we will take towards anything that happens to us.”
OMG, thank you, I've been listening to this on repeat, and couldn't figure out what the person in the background was saying. Thank you
It comes with the way you think*
Thank you very much, I really never knew what that lady said.
I never understood why there were no subtitles, besides I do not speak English nor are they American. I am Latin American, I speak I never understood why there were no subtitles, besides I do not speak English nor are they American. I am Latin American, I mean I speak Spanish...
makes all senses in time everybody knows the pain leaves a nasty scars 😇😇😇😇
You are The Hero without cape, no cap
Ya'll ever had that moment after you're done crying and you feel numb as shit? That's what this song feels like.
Factttttttttts
Ussaly always feel like that
i think of that time like a safety net, but for emotions. it keeps you safe from the sadness, but it's not very thick, so there's a big chance you might cry until you get back to neutral
uhm not really, i usually cry and stop because my body doesn't have tears anymore so i just sit there feeling like crying🤠
yeah it's true. Fuck i cry a lot. But i only then feel numb in my face? is that normal?
99% depressed comments
1% how good actually is this music
LOl yep
The song sound so beautiful
Im the 1%✌😂
Untrue
LMAO
you know it's getting bad again when this song is on repeat.
nah its just catchy
@@w_rxen1058 true
nah bro i just like it
It's on repeat....
@@jellyemotions2.065 … Please don’t do it though.. 🥺
Coming back in 2023 bc this is in my forever playlist.
Yes
Samee
Same
Fr
He came back
" People only miss you when you're gone. "
That hit hard. I felt that.
But when your there... You don't matter
- Da Emo Grill uwu - the point of missing someone is because they’re not there..? why miss someone when they’re with you, that doesn’t make sense lol
The pain can you and it the numb and lonely ness
It hit harder than my dad
They’re not wrong
You'll get judged for everything but when your gone they are like "no I miss them they were such a good person"...
@@rebeccamikulin3519 Doubt.
1. Faking death is hard asf and you can't just "sorta fake" it. You need months and months of preparation.
2. They could go to jail for driving a person to suicide. This would ruin their lives and you are so calm about that.
r/quityourbullshit
This what I going thru RFN. Fuck him, Love doesn't matter if all he do is using 😔
Okay
IM YOUR 100TH LIKE
Exactly it doesn't make any sense...
Listening to this as a kid and understanding the words but Listening to it now and understanding the meaning of it
Same
Fr bro
Fr fr 😞
understanding the meaning of it as a kid yikes
If you listened to this when it came out as a kid then you’re still a kid
It's been years , still know every lyric like it's written in my bones .
Geez , It really punches you in the gut . I like to say I'm through it , and actually starting to enjoy my life .
But the little things stick around .
Same.
I can’t wait to be there I’ve felt that but it’s continued to just get worse and worse and everything around me is crumbling away loved ones passing stupidly throwing away relationships and thinking I’m over it then it just haunts me and possibly loosing years of my freedom or my whole life and just so many things and it’s only ever gotten even more worse it hurts and I hate that I have to wonder, pray, wish, for it too be better
Stuck with my step mom rn, Treats me like shit, 14 yrs of age rn, knew her since i was 4
2019-this is a good song still
2020- this song fits way too perfect
Palese subrucw anima gamer
This generation will be depressed and traumatized forever 😖
@@ilvnayeli that's pretty true
Leli Saravia
yes
Ya
“People only miss you when your gone😐”
That's the only appropriate time to "miss" someone. If a person is still around you at the time, missing them just means your clingy/obsessive, which is a problem. :/
True
Dat hit me so hard xd
Or they will not miss you even when you are gone. :/
Some people won't even miss you when you're gone. It's sad to think about that... :/
when I was a young kid I didn’t understand the lyrics correctly and thought it just was a amazing fire song, as a 15 year old I now understand the lyrics and it is still a fire song
Come back here every year or so.
The loneliness doesn't end.
This shit won't end.
I feel this to an extent to were I wish I could go into a mental hospital because I feel like such a damn wreck to society that it's dangerous for me to be around people
@@jenniferbapp3075 Don't know if it'll help you, but in my case, I realised I am not meant to fit in with society, or how people behave in this city-world. I don't value the same things they do, and I never will. Knowing I'm not supposed to fit in, but rather be myself in everything I do, does help.
I just made that comment when I was feeling real low. But what makes the loneliness worse is dwelling over it.
Keeping active helps--doing things you enjoy, I mean, not working 24/7. I hope this all helps in some small way.
I’m not scared of death, I’m scared of what comes after (edit) oh hey guys
Nothing
same
True, there is nothing after death, we're all be forgotten one day, watch bojack horseman, its a great show that deconstruct depression and mental illness
Best saying of 2020
No one knows, it's either nothing or the afterlife
This song is so fucking good. It makes me feel even worse. I love it.
Same lovely to feel even worse isn’t it?
@@aisha2018 i dont feel anything anymore
Feeling worse makes me feel better
I don't know what I feel but I like the beats
same :)
listened to this when i was younger to be ''edgy'', now i'm living the literal reality of this song---
Me too I thought I would never get depressed but here I am
Guess life really gets back at ya
I used to fake depression on my old acc and dang did anxiety hit me like a train
@@CryztalzUntold1020Hewwo qwq
@@atswu hello
@@CryztalzUntold1020 same i used to fake depression for attention and now that i actually have it i realize just how much of fucking stupid child i was for thinking it was something edgy and cool💀 i literally have no life now it basically got striped away from me due to my mind state.
Wil you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going
Will you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going insane
Most people are searching for happiness
They're looking for it
They're trying to find it in someone
Or something outside of themselves
That's a fundamental mistake
Happiness is something that you are
And it comes from the way you speak
Can you break my bones?
Will you tear my skin?
Can you taste my lust?
Can you feel my sin?
See, I'm a waste of life
I should just kill myself
Yeah, I could slit my wrists
But it really wouldn't help
Wouldn't fix my issues
Or change your mind
'Cause I broke your heart
And you buried mine
Now, I'm six feet deep
And I can't breathe
I got dirt in my eyes
And blood on my sleeves
But I dig my way up
Through these roots and leaves
So I can get some air
So I can finally breathe
And now I'm on my knees
Oh baby, begging please
Will you
Will you
Will you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going
Will you end my pain?
Will you take my life?
Will you bleed me out?
Will you hang me out to dry?
Will you take my soul in the midnight rain?
While I'm falling apart
While I'm going insane
We cannot choose the things that will happen to us
But we can choose the attitude we want to take
Towards anything that happens to us
Goodbye
And don't you miss me when I'm gone
Goodbye
'Cause you're the fucking reason that I'm not around
Goodbye
Don't you miss me when I'm, miss me when I'm gone
Goodbye
'Cause you're the fucking reason that I'm not around
Fucking reason that I'm not around
Bitch, you're the fucking reason that I'm not around
Got it bro I’ll just look at this instead of watching the lyrics video I searched for ty👍
@@Roy-ni1op Yoo Roy I need to see the whole lyrics to put feeling in every word while singing 😂🤌🏼
Wow😮
when you can’t even open up because you genuinely can’t express any form of emotion so you just quietly stay and try ignoring everything, including yourself and everyone around you
don't worry bro you'll get the victory royale soon
the world is watching, get that victory royale
Ah yes,emptiness,the endless thing that you can't get rid of
I done that
Literally lol
"They will only care about you when you are dead"
I feel that........
Pfp twins 👀
What if they still don't :D
They Won't For Me, One Of The Reasons I'm Alive
@@DjVtheJESUSsouja for me it would be better
So true.
Been listening to this for 3 years now
The fact that this is still my fav song in 2024 really promises the song 😌
Damn am I the only one here because I genuinely like the song??
nosir
No
Looks like everyone in the comments are suicidal. The dark side of youtube
I love dis song EEeeee
I love this song ❤️♥️❤️❤️
It hurts to see that depression is a "trend" that has been on going for a while now. People who are actually depressed get a lot of hate because others think they're faking it as there are many kids who thinks that its cool.
It really isnt.
If you're one of those who think that its fun, please stop pretending.
As someone who struggles with it and is currently on anti-depressants it feels like were being made fun of for our unstable mental health. If you're also struggling with it please find help and talk to someone you know will listen.
Its not pretty.
Its not fun.
Its not a lifestyle.
Its a deadly illness.
Edit: When I commented this, I had no idea how much attention it would get. First of all I want to thank you people for supporting this as depression is a tough topic and many don't understand what this illness really is.
Second of all I just want to say that you all are important. Even if it seems that no one cares; I care. I care about you. There are more people than just me that care about you. Life might be rough right now but I believe in you. You can get through this.💜
Once you hit rock bottom the only way is up. I'll be over here cheering you on the road to recovery and a healthier life.💛
What is the cure?
@@kaitlyn-gracesmith7923 Cures for depression differ from person to person, some people just need someone to talk about it to, while others use antidepressants, therapy or do things they love and enjoy for a boost of endorphins such as serotonin.
There are a handful of people who are heavily depressed and none of these work for them in the long run. These people often think that there is only one answer but it's not true. Suicide isn't the answer. Everyone has their own way of figuring things out but suicide is never the only option. You just have to try and stay positive and keep searching for your perfect cure.
Now onto the youngins who think its a cool lifestyle, the only way to fight this is with awareness and educating them about what depression really is.
These might throw them off and shock them if you tell them:
*Mindblowing fact:* No. Just because I am depressed, doesn't mean I'm sad 24/7.
*Mindblowing fact no.2:* No. My favourite colour isn't black. Its green! -because even though im struggling with this I do think that life is a beautiful and wonderful thing to have and green is a representation of life and living things. c:
A quick explanation about how it all works to help educate others:
Depression has a few forms, the most common being when a person's brain isn't able to make enough endorphins to keep a stable state of emotions & energy. A person with this will often feel unmotivated and fatigued along with heavy mood swings where the highs can be like a star over the smallest thing this person enjoys but the lows can be almost ocean floor deep over a small thing this person dislikes.
It varies from person to person and it depends on how they got their depression.
I hope I gave you the answer you were looking for and if not then there are many scientific articles about depression which will give a more in-depth explanation on the ways of battling this mental illness 👍
thanks for sending that message... but i dont think they wont stop...
I agree so much.my parents think im acting
Also how do i make sure that I AM?
I completely agree with you. I have depression myself and it pisses me off that people mock it and think it's cool to have depression.
Not depressed or anything, I just love the song
you get me 😂
Same😂
fr
You’re lucky. You must take for granted how lucky you are that you don’t want to kill yourself. It’s something that never goes away even with help. It’s always there in the back of your mind.
Bro i love how they put the suicide hotline because of how depressing this song is
BRO IKR
It’s so sad how you get bullied at school. Then you die, then everyone starts loving you what a messed up world we live in.
Suddenly everyone had a class with you
It’s out of guilt.
SugacoatedMochi ikr
Yeah...What A Messed Up Life Some People Have Lived
shut the hell up🚔
"Why are you crying"
"I wish I could cry. Tears would clear my soul"
THIS COMMENT I-
IM DEAD LMAO- I DID THAT TIKTOK LMAO!! NSJDUDJDJEHEJWUET U.A.W F
@@lxrvmxtv wait what?! Yhshjsbsndbdhsjjsjd nooo waaaay! Jejsjsjsjjsjs I'm just dying rn too hhahahshshshsjhsbshshs
@@prodbyBA23A If you want you can watch it on tiktok its lxrvmxtv or bils.bad.bitch (yeah im billie stan) you will have to scroll down a LOT but maybe i can mention u
Im not able to cry i've gone too deep into depression that the only way to feel someting is by hurting myself
@@ace_fi love them who love you you'll feel waayyyyy better :)
This song is so nostalgic and beautiful. Its actually what lifts my mood back up and makes me smile whenever I'm at an all time low and everything else fails to cheer me .
Even if i listen to it while I'm normal and calm, it makes me smile.
Its definately my all time favorite ♡
I like the song because of the beat and the catchy lyrics, however after reading these comments it made me realize that people can like this song for different reasons. To all of you who are using this song to get through hard times, I wish you the best of luck and I hope that the dark rainy sky will soon be cleared by the shiny sun 🌅.
🍀 Oh look, here's a 4 leaf clover :).
I never knew being in your own mind was horrible,
*It is such a messy place*
One time I said I like being in deep in my thoughts now I'm like bitch nah its scary there
Yep it fuck you up as much as a broken heart
Its the noisiest place ive been to
Dr. Ordinary fr it’s so loud for some reason
*"When your happy you enjoy the song."*
*"But when your sad you understand the song."*
*"If your depressed you would listen to this song a lot whilst sad."*
Edit : if you ever feel sad, unhappy, hopeless, helpless, etc. I would really recommend to get a therapist, and a lot of people fake being "sad" or "depressed" because depressed people usually hide their feelings, because they don’t want others to feel the pain. People could also show their sad, but please, please, get a therapist! You could talk to them.. and talking about things hurting the inside of you does feel good, like remember the time you told you’re parents you had a nightmare? It felt good, so telling a therapy would feel just as good!
The song is right, i could slit my wrists, but it wouldn't help
no cause that will make you more sad and im already numb so
barbie_mikaela123 are u listening to the song while sad?
true
barbie_mikaela123 lol same you speaking facts-
This song really became my anthem. 2022 you’ve really marked your place in my story.
It be 2022 and I still love this song 💕
Fr
2023 now and I still love this song
"Depression is like living in a body what tries to fight with an mind what tries to die..."
true
That's deep bro I respect dat
nigga what the fuck
Ok, I am I the only one who had this song throughout their childhood, Like my everyday from ages 8-12?????
Haven't heard this song since I was 11 but I still remember the lyrics and I'm 16, who would have guessed I got worse instead of getting better.
It doesn't get better honestly. Life isn't worth living imo, the goods aren't worth the bads. I'm just too much of a coward to kms lol
@@tristianragan2754 none of that is true you just have a pessimistic mindset
Life does get better. Being 16-17 was the hardest time in my life for me, but now I'm 57, and it does get better. You'll be grown soon. Set some goals for how you want your life to go. It started getting better for me around 18.
“Nobody cares, until it kills you.”
I cared enough to kill.
Damn
Koua Vang irony at its best.....
qweltynick arch u would pull a trigger u would freeze stop acting like your top shit ur a pussy
u bitches u fucking depres let him
Me: **vibing to the song**
Also me: **hears the song slowed down in the backround**
Me again: ಠ_ಠ
Marya AlJabri
I downloaded the japanese keyboard on my phone settings and found a lot of fun emojis in it.
Bro that faceಠ_ಠ
"It's not always the tear that measures the pain sometimes its the smile that we fake"
this song is just so relatable.
I'm not suicidal but this is still my favorite song 😂♥️
739... Likes? This doesn't even make sense...? Thx guys *internal screaming*
Wait What? 😂😂
Same 😂
Honestly same it’s fire🔥🔥😂
Same XD
Saaaaaame😂😂
I wonder if any of my family looks at my history cause if so I don't think "will you end my pain, will you take my life" isn't a good look for me-
I just like the song i swear..
Same 😂 im scared cuz i listen to miss wanna die, paralysed and broken but i just like the song
Damn I feel you except that I can actually relate the the deppressing songs that I love to listen to 😅
Then clear your history
@@ghostlyacidd someone must've made a joke
Oki people I’m young ya oki I just like the voice I swear
Singing it word for word as I pour another drink
My heart goes out to you 🙏❤️
Don’t man :(
Chris Payne's in pane😭
@@knoflowgaming8725 wish it was as easy as just not doing it. Once u start its near impossible to stop
@jutishiko..♡ਊ!tcH◍ u got instagram?
I came across this song on Instagram and I remember playing this over so many times around 2-3 years ago. Stuff changed and I'm much happier now, but wow that time was truly hard for me. I know this song from word to word and honestly I didn't expect to ever see it again, it flooded all over me again. But wow. It got better, I'm surprised. Wow. I'm not as bad as I used to be, I'm happier, I just now realized.
mom played my playlist once at a beach cause she thought it would be good....
This was the first song that played...
Dead from inside
Btw sorry for replying late
**slow teeth suck**
Sssssssssss…. *OOF…*
Oh girl im so sorry for you when i wrote this my mom came in and i turned off my phone it has happened with me many times.. btw what did your mom say??..
Yea my grandma will listen to the music I listen to see what I like and 80% of the songs i listen to are like this one, and she'll say "are you depressed? a lot of songs you listen to are sad!" And then I'm just silent..
yeah its mostly bad idea to play an introvert kids playlist its mostly sad and depressing lol
Even tho I'm not suicidal.. I still love this song
Yeetra
I love this song, but idk if I’m suidicial..
I feel like everything is going wrong and like I have the feeling that I have to die or sumn but I don’t cut myself or sumn..
*Edit: u prob don’t care but oh well*
@@s.lytherin_vibes9820 ur prolly depressed idk
The Last Bacon Hair yeah but Dumb asses like everyone thinks the fact were suicidal when we listen to this song but it’s not just that it’s the fact that this song has more meaning than what you think. I don’t think everyone is gonna ever allow this music to be on the radio station to listen to you know it’s crazy how deep this song it is and it feels when you listen to it.
The Last Bacon Hair tbh same
Timothy Landinworman yup i listen to it too this music really shows you it’s super underrated.
I was maybe 11-12 listening to this 3 years later I’m 15 and here I am just listening for the memories stay safe y’all ❤
Same here
Same too
Not a suicide hotline attached to the song 💀💀
I’m done with crying...
Tired of trying...
Yeah, I’m smiling....
but inside I’m......
_committing tax evasion_
-I
Oh another sad comm- oh... you bastard 😂😂😂
Zeniom O’Zara a bastard indeed, my dearest friend
-But inside i'm lying
jimin's kookie _n o._
My family: “it’s just a phase”
Me: “Does a phase make me want to run away and jump.”
fr
Hey man no don't it's just a Thought think of that!!
THADZ please if you talk to someone who’s not okay don’t tell them this i hear this every time and it just makes me feel like y’all think it’s easy which i know you have good intentions but i just hate the dumb phrases like “No don’t do it” “that’s not good” stuff like that instead ask them maybe why they feel the way they do try to understand instead of telling them “don’t think of that”
do run away, scratch the jumping thing out..
Heh tbh same :/
I love this song, it's such a beautiful, yet sorrowful piece
Others: (br) *OK* (en)
Barbie: (bro) _ken_
Me: *_(broke)_*
@Dylan Klebold
Lol
So Barbie's bros bro is bro ken
OML
Lol
Me: B(rok)en
When your parents reacting is the only thing holding you back...
Wyatt Harrison that unfortunately why I'm still here the found me before I bled out fully I slit both my wrists will listening to this
@@dylanmorris6870 were you at least in a bathtub or smth?
i told my mom and she called me selfish and some other non-advertiser friendly things and was more worried about fixing me, than how I was still standing on my two feet.
sO iM dOiNg jUsT gReAT-
Wyatt Harrison I hate when your parents think it's a faze until u do something but that was the happiest time I had just watching the blood pour
Wyatt Harrison unfortunately I was in bed so I have special red sheets
Used to listen to this song daily.
Now it's just a vibe and a piece of memory 💖
Sad Bart Simpson edit type music
Fr
*Me watching the start*
*Me sees in top right corner*
"Find more Depressing songs"
Me: OK OK! *laugh* OK!
:O
What?
I did to lmaoo
Omg I saw that..and I clicked it..
Eyyyy
The comment: iM sO sAaAaAd
Me: **dance while I'm depressed** yEaAaAh GoOd SoNg So
Same
Me💀💀💀
I- why is this me-
Same
same xd
I love this song. When I discovered it In a young age I loved it.
brad.
Only the og’s remember when this song actually came out half a decade ago
Half a decade? 5 years??? .-.
I’m sorry HOW LONG AGO
Actually, YEAH! That's why I'm here!
Yup
I remember hearing this somewhere but I couldn't find it until not long ago because the title isn't really in the lyrics which is how I usually find songs ^^; so gassed that I found it
Im- why are there so many "deep" Comments, yeah I'm suicidal but I really just listen this bc it's a good song 👀
Cause most of the people here are depresed like me and just want to vent
Some people want to vent and some want to help the depressed people
some people just wanna vent, let them be
stay strong it WILL get better❤❤you WILL get through this. You are amazing❤❤
Tell em about it. Just like u
I remember when I was 12 that this was my song and thinking my life was bad. Four months my mom died because of a lung infection. Weirdly enough, that snapped me out of my depressed state and made me realize that I always had something to lose and people that love me.
Coming back at age 12 knowing this by heart
People: billie ellish songs are the most depressing
This song: *Allow me to introduce myself*
Lol yes
I hate billie eilish so much her music isn't even that good in my opinion
@@dylanbolton5592 fr fr tho
her last words: well yes, but actually no
ThatsOneBigOof that song literally makes me say holy shit like it’s deep asf
‘Why aren’t you crying’
‘I wish I could cry, tears would cleanse my soul...’
Cry then nobody fucking wants to stop you
zet it’s not easy to cry when you’re so broken to the point where you can’t feel pain anymore…
@@abandonedaccount9927 no, no you can definitely cry
It’s not that easy
The Simpsons reference, a very relatable and depressing one
Soooo..Anybody else had a gacha phase?
Me in 2020: *listening to this*
Same here..
ikrr
Same
Lol haha same :)
When corona virus is gone children on school goodbye ☹️ corona virus don’t you mis me when I’m gone 😞
When he said "I'm just a waste of life" i felt that
Same
Same
Same
@@silverseen8300 same man, hmu If u wanna talk! insta @ilumicon
when he talked sbsput mira i felt that
This song alone explains my life. Whoever is reading this, stay strong. Stay strong.
I love this song sm, this is gonna be in my playlist forever
At this point i dont even know what a life without depression feels like
I tried to stop a friend from commiting suicide unfortunately he did it he is now gone I hope he sees me right now who is depressed
Same
Most relatable comment
@@MakeTodayCountOk omg I'm so sorry :(
@@il0vecatss3 thank you he was a good friend and I did not want him to do this but he thought that it was the only way to escape ;(
POV: you are listening to this song with headphones in, you hear a knock at your door so you immediately wipe your tears away and wipe away the snot dripping from your nose, you put on a hoodie and run to the door, you open up the door to be surprised to see your brother standing there, he has a plate of cookies, he says, “ I heard you crying so I got you these, hope you enjoy “ you take the cookies, and then as you try to walk back to your bed, your brother grabs your arm and pulls you back, he then says “ I know your hurting, I know that your sad, and if you ever want to talk about it you can tell me, I’ve been broken before too, love you sis “ then he kisses your forehead and closes the door, you then run back to your bed with the cookies, you think about what your brother had said, and with the warm, fuzzy feeling, you lay there and unpause your music and eat the warm cookies you brother made for you, and it made you forget why you were sad, you then finish the last cookie, and then peacefully fall asleep, and hour later your brother comes to check up on you, he kisses your forehead and then leaves. - Anonymous (written by me)
Guys, this is not a true story, I don’t have an amazing brother like this, I wish, and I’m sorry for everyone who has a horrible brother (s) we all wish our siblings were nice and not such brats, sorry if I made you cry, it wasn’t intentional!!
Ngl I started crying reading this
this made me cry
That’s what I call “Having a crush on your own BROTHER”.
Who said I am crying? I am a boy who lives in a society so I have to suffer in silence
Jokes on you my brother died years ago
I remember listening to this and I once sung it at a talent show and literally some teachers asked me one on one if I was okay 😭😭
Dang I can just picture a small child going will you end my pain will you take my life 😂😂
Its has swear words how did you sing it😭
@@LizzyyYt_ I chose a specific part to sing, they had a lot of students going in turns so they wouldn’t allow anyone to do an entire song 😋
@@m3gacryy ohh alr
Man I bunch of ppl talking about depression I’m just hear to listen to the songs in my Gacha phase 💀
I know someone might have said this but....
When he said “I could slit my wrists, but it really wouldn’t help.”
That really hit different. 😕
That's true though I would know😓
Summer Whitlow my arms look like barcodes ✌️😔
@@julietevis4224 same but my family doesn't know that I'm depressed and have suicidal thoughts so I hide everything
Summer Whitlow they don’t know what I do to myself either I haven’t eaten in 24 hours but they think I did
Guys please tell your parents. Or anyone that you trust. It gets better.
Ahem..
OKAY NOW THAT THEY ARE GONE, COME GET A FREE HUG, YOU NEED IT!
You're beautiful and strong. You may not feel it now but you are. You're still here so you're so strong! You're smile is one of the few that shines the brightest, so be the light in someones darkness. You're a extraordinary person, and you're special. God put you on this earth for a purpose, and I believe you're purpose is to shine bright and be the very best you can be. Don't be down over something because that something won't last forever. Like for instance when it storms the storm will eventually go away. Don't give up, because I believe in you, and all you need is that one person to be strong for you. You can achieve great things. Whether they are small or big. You're perfect the way YOU are, there is only one of you in the world, that's what makes you special. You're awesome and perfect the way YOU are. Even if you're a twin, it doesn't matter because you have different personality and different prospectives on life. We all bleed red and we all are different, that's why the world is so great. Live life and be happy, whether that is doing you're favorite hobby, or hanging out with family or friends. Just know I'm here. Anytime you need this message I'll always be here for you. Every time you're sad boop yourself on the nose, that way you know there is at least one person here for you. And hug yourself so you're reminded you're strong. Now, Stay strong for me because you never know what life may bring!
You literally wrote a whole essay
Tl;dr for the lazy people like me, free hugs. You da bast
What to do when words like this literally fly by my head and nothing's really absorbed because it's all blocked ?
This is the best person in the world... :)
I love you very much and thanks💙💙💙
I thought i had lost this song! I only remembered the melody and two words but somehow i found it.
I can already feel everything coming back.
man this is just one of my fav songs i love the beat in it
It's funny how depression can change someone.... it's...actually kinda sad....one moment you could be enjoying the day ,laughing n sh*t....the next you're in your room crying , and there doesn't even have to be a reason to be crying. It just punches you in the face and reminds you that you're not okay. Before you could have at least be getting 8 hours of sleep but now you stay up till 6 in the morning making up arguments n cr*p in your head making yourself feel even more like a failure and insecure. .....and it all started in 2nd grade....and it is still going on in highschool.....or is it just me?
I know how you feel
Ive been like that since 2nd grade aswell
but at the start you said its funny
2nd grade... kids huh overthinking is your problem the thing here is that you think you have depression and you overthink it in return your brain messes up with you as if your worthless just like how someone with actual depression would think but there's no reason for you to think that, life is precious dont waste your childhood thinking of nonesense your life would really be a failure if you waste your time instead of having fun and creating memories with other people.
kids being depressed since second grade... what you got broken or something? aren't kids supposed to be studying for their future? Id understand if you have depression because your family has problems with money but if your family can pay for your tuition food and house then how will you cope up with adulthood if from your childhood you've been depressed even with all the needs you can have?
they even put depressed in their name lmao
If u came back in 2021 u are just as elite as the comment under this.
Edit: OMG thank u all for the likes! Hope u all have a wonderful day ❤️
yessir
yess 😎
Yes
Cool
very cool
this helped me through tough times, love this song
had this on repeat for the past few days , i used to listen to this alot
I’ve hid my feelings so much to the point where I can’t cry anymore and when i want to cry just to see how it feels again i can’t nothing comes out.
Edit:
thank you all for your support and i didn’t mean for my comment to get this many likes i was just expressing myself since i have no one to express myself too.
Do u need someone to talk too
@@katecorreia8422 no it’s fine
I had a similar situation, hope you are okay
Same bruh
@@katecorreia8422 there needs to be more people like you. you took the time out of your day to comment on a random persons post to ask if they were ok. Truly, do not change
"Depression isn't a phase.
It doesn't simply go away.
It watches as you laugh and smile, and sniggers at you when you think you're happy.
It waits until you're weak
And then whispers in your ear
All the words you were wanting to dissapear
The things that the people you kept near
Couldn't wait for you to hear.
Making you start to fear
All the things you hold dear.
And then it pulls you back in." -Me
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
I bet I'll die one midnight
Yes, because Depression is permanent, so is Anxiety etc, it doesn't stop but it can gets easier to cope with.
take care❤️
@@Ren_YMM And what are we going to pray to? Something that doesn't exist?
Lost a friend 6 years ago today, and this song was the last thing that they ever posted. I listen to it every year on the anniversary. Miss you
If you’re reading this believe in yourself, you’ll make yourself proud one day
Hey you! Yeah you. If you’re reading this its a sign. You’re gonna be okay, your life is gonna be amazing. You are loved by me and many others. I will ALWAYS be here for you 💕💕
Thank u I needed that after what I am going through 😭☹️☹️♥️
Ebony Strozier 💕💕
Thank u 😘♥️
Thank u 😘♥️
“Your hand is not a paper"
Don't cut it
"Your mouth is not a cloth"
Don't stitch it
"Your neck is not a hanger"
Don't hang it
"Your face is not a mask"
Don't cover it
"Your body is not your enemy"
Don't blame it
"Your heart is not a glass"
Don't break it
"Your life is not a film"
Don't end it
"Your heart is not a house"
Don't lock it
"Your life is not a cloth"
Don't change it
"Your not pretty"
Cause your beautiful
"They don't want you"
Cause they need you
"They don't like you"
Cause they love you
"The world doesn't have a place for you"
Cause the world has a special place for you
Not my words but spread them. :)
you're not pretty you ARE MIRACULOUS , STUNNING , GORGEOUS. YOU ARE IMPORTANT DON'T LISTEN TO THE EMOTIONAL ABUSER peace out my fellow mortals. btw i'm not suicidal I just love this song.
@@paulajohnson2805 thank you :)
You're not dumb
Your just to lazy to show how smart you are
R/im14andthisisdeep
Okay seriously don't do any of those things
Wow
A lot of people know this song now but only a few understand it for those who found lund recently they won't know the pain this kid went through, personally I was suicidal around 2016 been listening to him ever since cause what he says in his song I am in real life
brad was 100% correct bro
Suicide doesn’t end the pain it gives it to someone else
what if nobody loves or cares about you even when you die?
my pain wouldn'tbe transferred to anyone since there is no one.
It would be transferred to me even though I dont know you. Dont do it.
Atef Hassan someone will care I’ll care and I’m sure lots others will so don’t do it your better than that and others would miss out on how you make them smile and laugh
VINCXI There’s always someone your never alone and if you need help just ask they will help you as long as you open up even if it’s a pet at least your getting it off your chest
I can't be the only one who imagines something while listening
*You are never alone at internet.*
Helena Colurciello *deep*
We are creatives
@@verytired2399 yasssssss
@@iloveanime506 omg ur profile picture
This song gives me memories of my old friend who moved to New York...I love it and hate it at the same time
I swear for the longest damn time RUclips and any other app had like banned this song from existing I couldn’t find it for the longest time but now I have found it again. So happy
The craziest thing is, your whole life people litteraly ignore your entire existence but once you die, that's when they start showing love
Not fully true, we're all will be forgotten, value your life, I recommend watch bojack horseman, its a deconstruction of depression and mental illness
@@virthew we're all depressed kids here can't change that
@@virthew i want to be forgotten though i dont want people to remember life is temporary so like im gonna die doesnt matter when either i take myself out or eh idk i dont want to live long
Ikr. WTFFFFFF
That is true, nobody cares or even realizes your existence untill you're dead, then they pretend that they were your best friend, just so that nobody thinks that they're assholes, that's when they actually show love
this is the song that plays when the villain decides to give up on trying to be the good guy.
I like that analogy
Facts facts facts
Megamind
Megamind
@@zuzannaweber3951 dude you just made me realize exactly what I was vaguely remembering. thank u