It made me weep when she spoke of being in prison with her friend and then in the celestial room. It reminded me of my experience. Never have been in prison, but for so long after my conversion, i never felt i belonged. But then a miracle happened
So grateful you had Portia on! As a recovering alcoholic myself, I have never heard a stronger story! Heavenly Father does love each of us individually, and she is able to show His love to those who otherwise have no clue of their worth. This will be hard to beat! But keep 'em coming anyway!
WOW! I love your testimony. I didn't change even after a massive head injury, when my life starts improving. I had to give GOD my desire to drive a car again. This was the hardest decision because I can see clearly to drive a car.
Thanks Ashly And Portia. Keep telling and sharing your stories. You are about your Father's work. I hope though your experience it will guide many to return to the gospel and enjoy all God's blessings.
Portia, you are just a delight and I loved your story. You were so honest and you're such a beautiful soul. I'm one of your cheerleaders! Keep the good work up. You're helping so many people that can relate to you ❤
Dear Ashly and guests, Thanks for your time, your light, your courage and your faith in sharing your very real stories of coming back. I love the posted message before your podcasts, that you aren't encouraging people to leave the Church or step away from their faith in order to feel stronger faith or love when they return. I know that it isn't necessary to have a faith crisis or even serious doubts about the Restored Church in order to feel the power of the Atonement, Heavenly Father's love and extreme gratitude for our Savior. I am 80 years old and the longer I live, the more I love Them and marvel at Their love for all of us.
I cried all throughout this interview. Such a powerful story of faith and hope and LOVE!!! So grateful I found your podcast!! Everyone needs to listen to this podcast. So very powerful and simply beautiful ♥️
Another part i identify with is my attitude towards the 7 out of 8 children who have left the Church. I love them, and allow them space and time to correct their course if they chose to.
This is such a positive force for good to have these stories. I have always loved my garments too, what an amazing symbol of covenants with Heavenly Father. Thank you for the time you put into these.
Same here. I love my garments! Not just because of what they stand for which is most important but I don't like the way my clothes feel on my body without them. It's like they feel rough on my skin.
Wow Portia!! You are absolutely incredible!! Your story is heart warming!! 🩷 You are filled with light and you just glow!! Thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful soul, and I'm here cheering you on!! I have no doubt you have many more great experiences in store for you and your family!!
I remember reading about Portia's arrest in the news. After hearing this interview and her story I just want to hug her. She radiates a light that is pure love and happiness 🥰❤❣ I love everything about this interview! It's my favorite so far of any of the stories you've posted on your podcast. I feel her love for the Savior and His Gospel. Thank you for hosting this podcast! And to Portia, thank you for sharing your story, hugs🫂🥰
"But behold, if ye will awake and arouse your faculties, even to an experiment upon my words, and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of my words." Alma 32:27, Book of Mormon
I actually really appreciate the disclaimer at the beginning. As a lifelong member, I was just thinking today that I need to go become a drug addict and leave the church so I can get a real testimony and become financially wealthy on the other side, as I’m not a good provider right now and my faith is starting to waiver a bit, not in the church, but in God. I’m not kidding, I am not being facetious, I truly was contemplating this.
I don’t recommend a path forward involving drugs. Consider a second job on the financial part. I can’t speak on the religious component as I’ve never been religious.
@D Carts Can I ask you three genuine questions and get straight answers - how much time per day do you spend reading the Book of Mormon? How much time do you spend in front of a screen? Do you pray daily till there’s nothing else you can say, till the well is dry, and there’s nothing more you can think of to be grateful for? I’ve found it’s impossible to waiver when I FEAST on the Book of Mormon DAILY, pray till the well is dry and am not glued to a screen. I’ve been in, and I’ve been out. The peace of Christ is very real. And very tangible. You can’t waiver when there’s sunshine in the soul.
@@millennialfalkon I’ll give an honest answer. I read the Book of Mormon (because I love it!) every single day, in fact out loud, each night with my children. I consider conference talks scripture as well so I listen to a talk or two almost daily. Screen time, far too much, as I drive 1.5-3 hours each day and some days 6 hours driving. But most of my screen-time is spent on this type of content, I have a desire to have hope and faith, but I struggle. Do I pray like Enos, like Nephi, like I should? Nope. Prayer to me is useless. ;) I go back to my comment. I am to the point where I think being a lifelong willingly and lovingly obedient member (nobody can force me or shame me into anything, anyone who says otherwise can go f-themselves you hear me JD?) who does have a testimony of the truth of the gospel of Christ as taught in his restored church, never had word of wisdom issues, some chastity issues like most people, is a curse nowadays and not a blessing. I’m failing at providing for my family so my kids get to go be taught queer theory in school although it’s now creeping into the church so who cares if they hear it at school when they can be indoctrinated right in church by holy inspired bishop and stake president called deceivers, right? I struggle with God (hope in only, not belief in anymore) now. Which will have to be good enough I guess. Was that honest enough? It’s on the Internet so it cannot be erased. I think falling into deep addiction and falling away from the truth of the gospel for a time is the path we should take. Money and a stronger testimony seems to be the blessing to those who follow the path after the self inflicted suffering ends. Just my two cents. :)
@@dcarts5616 well thank you for your candour, I appreciate it! I’m glad you love the Book of Mormon. From the way you say you don’t know God is real makes me think we may love reading it daily for very different reasons, though. I love reading it because there’s a very real, and tangible, influence that pervades my life when I’m in line with it. And completely in line with my conscience and square with my conscience to my bishop. There’s a very deep, and very real abiding peace, and light that influences my every thought, word and deed for good. The love and influence of God. I can’t doubt Him when I read it. As an ex addict, I can guarantee you it’s a fools errand to think enlightenment awaits there. It’s darkness, and many there be who have been lost in strange and forgotten paths. Stripping yourself of resources you need to provide and protect for your children, thinking it’s going to increase your resources, is, to put it bluntly, and honestly, for clarity’s sake, quite literally, a delusional idea. Which speaks more to Satan’s philosophy than Christ’s. Quite frankly I think it’s a systemic, and catastrophic failure in the educational system to not teach children how the financial system works, the difference between assets, liabilities, how to set up multiple streams of income and developing multiple forms of currencies. ie emotional, social, financial etc But thankfully we’ve been given miracles in the shape of brains and endowed with agency to direct them to solving our needs and wants. And not alone, either. You never answered whether you’re praying sincerely or not every day, and making a sincere connection.
@DCarts “Education will make you a living. Self education will make you a fortune.” Jim Rohn. There’s a member that wrote a trilogy series on internet marketing named Russell Brunson. It’s rock solid place to start to earn more for your family.
I think sometimes we emphasize too much that the Atonement helps us overcome our personal sins without also talking about the Savior's help in overcoming the effects of other people's sins in our lives. Yes, we talk about forgiveness and healing, but maybe we can adjust our emphasis a little bit. It would be nice to hear from family members affected by the actions of the people whose stories we hear on this channel, like from Portia's children, but maybe that would be beyond the scope of the channel.
Alma’s invitation to try a little experiment, to see whether the seed is good or not, that by it’s fruit you may know whether it’s a good tree or not, is the scientific process. And a true litmus test. I’ve have tasted, and know, the fruit of the tree, the love of God, is very real, and it is a GOOD tree.
I so don't relate to all the stories about "I strayed, I got addicted, I hung out with bad friends, I broke all the commandments but God came and rescued me with his grace and forgiveness and now everything is wonderful." I kept the commandments, I didn't stray, I didn't use drugs, I worked my tail off to be a good mom, I put my family first in all my decisions, I was a responsible adult from about age seven, I've spent so much freaking time serving others and putting others first. I've never been valued by the church/church members, I was treated like garbage by my family of origin, the family I married into, and my church "family," and a whole lot of things have turned out horribly despite my doing everything we're told over and over you're supposed to do: prayer, scripture study, church attendance, temple attendance, tithe paying, accepting callings, faithful attendance, FHE, keeping commandments, etc. If there is a mean, nasty, dishonest, underhanded, abusive church member I'm sure to run into him or her. I don't find the church a loving, supportive place, I'm very tired of the hypocrisy of members, I'm beyond tired of the behavior of members when it comes to abuse and abusers, and I don't trust God much any more. I listen to these stories and so far, not one has paralleled mine at all and not a single person seems to have a clue what it's like to go through the things I've been through and get very little support or help from church members, and feel like God not only abandoned me, he set all this up in the first place. The whole loving church family thing has never existed for me. I'm sick of it. Frankly, I'm really tired of hearing how other people broke all the rules and are now living a fabulous life, while I didn't but I've had decades of trials to deal with -- which have never ended -- and which I in no way caused through my own bad choices. I'm tired of struggling with no end in sight with things that are pretty horrible when it doesn't seem like God cares all that much or at all. Not a single thing in my life has been healed, fixed, cured, repaired, etc., and there's no indication they ever will be. I'm so tired of hearing constantly how God is running around fixing things for everyone else and I'm beyond tired of being told the purpose of this life is to suffer. I'm beyond tired of saying, "it's really not working for me" and getting told it is working for me, I'm just too _____ (fill in the blank: lazy, lacking in faith, blind, immature, impatient, etc.) to see all the blessings that come from suffering. It's not working for me. I'm to the point where my reaction to all this -- and to things like general conference talks -- is "oh, just shut up; you don't have a clue about my life and unless you're going to do something a lot more constructive just shut up." Some suffering does not bring blessings. It's just pointless. It doesn't teach you anything except, "there are some very evil people in the world, and no one will help you escape from them or protect you from them -- including God -- and all you will learn from the experience is 'some people are cruel and evil, and everyone else is too gutless to do anything about the evil people.' " There is nothing whatsoever good or praiseworthy or of good report about suffering through abuse. Especially in the church. Nothing you learn makes it a valuable lesson everyone should have. There's no saving grace in it. It does teach you that some people do not deserve Christ's grace and mercy. Which isn't a lesson the church wants to hear.
Have you ever tried to kneel down and prayed to God in the name of Jesus Christ? We all have bad times. I battled depression for five years. It was dark and could not feel anything like i was abandoned. But i chose to think that there is a God. At first i was scared to read the scriptures. But i kept on praying even if i did not feel anything. I asked for Priesthood blessing many times. I sought medical intervention. I did not stand still and complain but did the things ( i know before i had depression), were right to do. There is a God. He lives. He said do not deny the things of God. Little by little the light came back. As i said before it took me five years to feel the warmth of God's love for me. He had been there with me all the way. I could tell because of the things i realized He did to keep me going... I dont know you but i want you to know that i feel sad you had suffered a lot. I can honestly say that there are good people in the Church.
Thank you for your thoughts. I feel like I have been trying my whole life too and just today was wondering what difference I make. The parable of the prodigal son popped into my my mind ... not as the returning but the son who was faithful. I do think people in the church go out of there way to try and be nice... That is what I believe and see. The problem is all of us are swimming in the same raging river and we are often just trying to stay afloat ourselves :). When you go to church consider others are drowning also. Good luck ... I really feel for you and would love to hear your whole story. Seem like there is a lot to your story.
@Antonette Dollete praying! no, I never thought of that . . . . Wait. I did. I said I've been praying regularly my entire life. Any more it feels like I'm constantly praying. Did you read what I said at all? Of course I've been kneeling down and praying. Morning, noon, and night, and in between. Aaaauuurrrrggghhhh.
Ashly, I love this great work you are doing in doing this podcast!! You are so beautiful inside and out!! You and your guests always strengthen my testimony and I am so thankful for you and your efforts. You are an absolute delight as I observe you empathetically relating to and listening to these guests tell their stories. 🩷
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WOW! Her testimony brought me to tears. God does loves us all.
It made me weep when she spoke of being in prison with her friend and then in the celestial room. It reminded me of my experience. Never have been in prison, but for so long after my conversion, i never felt i belonged. But then a miracle happened
So grateful you had Portia on! As a recovering alcoholic myself, I have never heard a stronger story! Heavenly Father does love each of us individually, and she is able to show His love to those who otherwise have no clue of their worth. This will be hard to beat! But keep 'em coming anyway!
WOW! I love your testimony. I didn't change even after a massive head injury, when my life starts improving. I had to give GOD my desire to drive a car again. This was the hardest decision because I can see clearly to drive a car.
Thanks Ashly And Portia. Keep telling and sharing your stories. You are about your Father's work. I hope though your experience it will guide many to return to the gospel and enjoy all God's blessings.
Portia, you are just a delight and I loved your story. You were so honest and you're such a beautiful soul. I'm one of your cheerleaders! Keep the good work up. You're helping so many people that can relate to you ❤
Dear Ashly and guests, Thanks for your time, your light, your courage and your faith in sharing your very real stories of coming back. I love the posted message before your podcasts, that you aren't encouraging people to leave the Church or step away from their faith in order to feel stronger faith or love when they return. I know that it isn't necessary to have a faith crisis or even serious doubts about the Restored Church in order to feel the power of the Atonement, Heavenly Father's love and extreme gratitude for our Savior. I am 80 years old and the longer I live, the more I love Them and marvel at Their love for all of us.
Thank you
The Dream Team episode! Love this & both you ladies! 😍😍👏👏
I cried all throughout this interview. Such a powerful story of faith and hope and LOVE!!! So grateful I found your podcast!! Everyone needs to listen to this podcast. So very powerful and simply beautiful ♥️
Another part i identify with is my attitude towards the 7 out of 8 children who have left the Church. I love them, and allow them space and time to correct their course if they chose to.
It was good to see Portia on David Alexander's channel.
This is such a positive force for good to have these stories. I have always loved my garments too, what an amazing symbol of covenants with Heavenly Father. Thank you for the time you put into these.
Same here. I love my garments! Not just because of what they stand for which is most important but I don't like the way my clothes feel on my body without them. It's like they feel rough on my skin.
What an incredible soul!
❤️☀️
Wow Portia!! You are absolutely incredible!! Your story is heart warming!! 🩷 You are filled with light and you just glow!! Thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful soul, and I'm here cheering you on!! I have no doubt you have many more great experiences in store for you and your family!!
BEAUTIFUL ❤
I remember reading about Portia's arrest in the news. After hearing this interview and her story I just want to hug her. She radiates a light that is pure love and happiness 🥰❤❣ I love everything about this interview! It's my favorite so far of any of the stories you've posted on your podcast. I feel her love for the Savior and His Gospel. Thank you for hosting this podcast! And to Portia, thank you for sharing your story, hugs🫂🥰
GO PORTIA!!! 😎🤙🏼💕
Another great episode! 😎♥️💕
Is there a place to view your merchandise? You do a great work!! Love you & your amazing guests. ❤
come-back-merch.myshopify.com/?ref=comebackpodcast.org
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May i ask if there is a link of the news when she got arrested and why did she go to prison?
"But behold, if ye will awake and arouse your faculties, even to an experiment upon my words, and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of my words." Alma 32:27, Book of Mormon
Ashley, how do I connect with you to get someone on your podcast
email ashly.comebackpodcast@gmail.com
Love 38:00. I wish every ward were accepting of all people like that. That's the way it should be. We ALL need help. Some sins are just more visible.
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I actually really appreciate the disclaimer at the beginning. As a lifelong member, I was just thinking today that I need to go become a drug addict and leave the church so I can get a real testimony and become financially wealthy on the other side, as I’m not a good provider right now and my faith is starting to waiver a bit, not in the church, but in God. I’m not kidding, I am not being facetious, I truly was contemplating this.
I don’t recommend a path forward involving drugs. Consider a second job on the financial part. I can’t speak on the religious component as I’ve never been religious.
@D Carts Can I ask you three genuine questions and get straight answers - how much time per day do you spend reading the Book of Mormon? How much time do you spend in front of a screen? Do you pray daily till there’s nothing else you can say, till the well is dry, and there’s nothing more you can think of to be grateful for?
I’ve found it’s impossible to waiver when I FEAST on the Book of Mormon DAILY, pray till the well is dry and am not glued to a screen.
I’ve been in, and I’ve been out. The peace of Christ is very real. And very tangible. You can’t waiver when there’s sunshine in the soul.
@@millennialfalkon I’ll give an honest answer. I read the Book of Mormon (because I love it!) every single day, in fact out loud, each night with my children. I consider conference talks scripture as well so I listen to a talk or two almost daily. Screen time, far too much, as I drive 1.5-3 hours each day and some days 6 hours driving. But most of my screen-time is spent on this type of content, I have a desire to have hope and faith, but I struggle. Do I pray like Enos, like Nephi, like I should? Nope. Prayer to me is useless. ;)
I go back to my comment. I am to the point where I think being a lifelong willingly and lovingly obedient member (nobody can force me or shame me into anything, anyone who says otherwise can go f-themselves you hear me JD?) who does have a testimony of the truth of the gospel of Christ as taught in his restored church, never had word of wisdom issues, some chastity issues like most people, is a curse nowadays and not a blessing. I’m failing at providing for my family so my kids get to go be taught queer theory in school although it’s now creeping into the church so who cares if they hear it at school when they can be indoctrinated right in church by holy inspired bishop and stake president called deceivers, right? I struggle with God (hope in only, not belief in anymore) now. Which will have to be good enough I guess.
Was that honest enough? It’s on the Internet so it cannot be erased. I think falling into deep addiction and falling away from the truth of the gospel for a time is the path we should take. Money and a stronger testimony seems to be the blessing to those who follow the path after the self inflicted suffering ends. Just my two cents. :)
@@dcarts5616 well thank you for your candour, I appreciate it!
I’m glad you love the Book of Mormon. From the way you say you don’t know God is real makes me think we may love reading it daily for very different reasons, though.
I love reading it because there’s a very real, and tangible, influence that pervades my life when I’m in line with it. And completely in line with my conscience and square with my conscience to my bishop.
There’s a very deep, and very real abiding peace, and light that influences my every thought, word and deed for good.
The love and influence of God.
I can’t doubt Him when I read it.
As an ex addict, I can guarantee you it’s a fools errand to think enlightenment awaits there. It’s darkness, and many there be who have been lost in strange and forgotten paths.
Stripping yourself of resources you need to provide and protect for your children, thinking it’s going to increase your resources, is, to put it bluntly, and honestly, for clarity’s sake, quite literally, a delusional idea. Which speaks more to Satan’s philosophy than Christ’s.
Quite frankly I think it’s a systemic, and catastrophic failure in the educational system to not teach children how the financial system works, the difference between assets, liabilities, how to set up multiple streams of income and developing multiple forms of currencies. ie emotional, social, financial etc
But thankfully we’ve been given miracles in the shape of brains and endowed with agency to direct them to solving our needs and wants. And not alone, either.
You never answered whether you’re praying sincerely or not every day, and making a sincere connection.
@DCarts “Education will make you a living. Self education will make you a fortune.” Jim Rohn.
There’s a member that wrote a trilogy series on internet marketing named Russell Brunson. It’s rock solid place to start to earn more for your family.
I think sometimes we emphasize too much that the Atonement helps us overcome our personal sins without also talking about the Savior's help in overcoming the effects of other people's sins in our lives. Yes, we talk about forgiveness and healing, but maybe we can adjust our emphasis a little bit. It would be nice to hear from family members affected by the actions of the people whose stories we hear on this channel, like from Portia's children, but maybe that would be beyond the scope of the channel.
Alma’s invitation to try a little experiment, to see whether the seed is good or not, that by it’s fruit you may know whether it’s a good tree or not, is the scientific process. And a true litmus test.
I’ve have tasted, and know, the fruit of the tree, the love of God, is very real, and it is a GOOD tree.
I so don't relate to all the stories about "I strayed, I got addicted, I hung out with bad friends, I broke all the commandments but God came and rescued me with his grace and forgiveness and now everything is wonderful." I kept the commandments, I didn't stray, I didn't use drugs, I worked my tail off to be a good mom, I put my family first in all my decisions, I was a responsible adult from about age seven, I've spent so much freaking time serving others and putting others first. I've never been valued by the church/church members, I was treated like garbage by my family of origin, the family I married into, and my church "family," and a whole lot of things have turned out horribly despite my doing everything we're told over and over you're supposed to do: prayer, scripture study, church attendance, temple attendance, tithe paying, accepting callings, faithful attendance, FHE, keeping commandments, etc. If there is a mean, nasty, dishonest, underhanded, abusive church member I'm sure to run into him or her. I don't find the church a loving, supportive place, I'm very tired of the hypocrisy of members, I'm beyond tired of the behavior of members when it comes to abuse and abusers, and I don't trust God much any more. I listen to these stories and so far, not one has paralleled mine at all and not a single person seems to have a clue what it's like to go through the things I've been through and get very little support or help from church members, and feel like God not only abandoned me, he set all this up in the first place. The whole loving church family thing has never existed for me. I'm sick of it. Frankly, I'm really tired of hearing how other people broke all the rules and are now living a fabulous life, while I didn't but I've had decades of trials to deal with -- which have never ended -- and which I in no way caused through my own bad choices. I'm tired of struggling with no end in sight with things that are pretty horrible when it doesn't seem like God cares all that much or at all. Not a single thing in my life has been healed, fixed, cured, repaired, etc., and there's no indication they ever will be. I'm so tired of hearing constantly how God is running around fixing things for everyone else and I'm beyond tired of being told the purpose of this life is to suffer. I'm beyond tired of saying, "it's really not working for me" and getting told it is working for me, I'm just too _____ (fill in the blank: lazy, lacking in faith, blind, immature, impatient, etc.) to see all the blessings that come from suffering. It's not working for me. I'm to the point where my reaction to all this -- and to things like general conference talks -- is "oh, just shut up; you don't have a clue about my life and unless you're going to do something a lot more constructive just shut up." Some suffering does not bring blessings. It's just pointless. It doesn't teach you anything except, "there are some very evil people in the world, and no one will help you escape from them or protect you from them -- including God -- and all you will learn from the experience is 'some people are cruel and evil, and everyone else is too gutless to do anything about the evil people.' " There is nothing whatsoever good or praiseworthy or of good report about suffering through abuse. Especially in the church. Nothing you learn makes it a valuable lesson everyone should have. There's no saving grace in it. It does teach you that some people do not deserve Christ's grace and mercy. Which isn't a lesson the church wants to hear.
Have you ever tried to kneel down and prayed to God in the name of Jesus Christ? We all have bad times. I battled depression for five years. It was dark and could not feel anything like i was abandoned. But i chose to think that there is a God. At first i was scared to read the scriptures. But i kept on praying even if i did not feel anything. I asked for Priesthood blessing many times. I sought medical intervention. I did not stand still and complain but did the things ( i know before i had depression), were right to do. There is a God. He lives. He said do not deny the things of God. Little by little the light came back. As i said before it took me five years to feel the warmth of God's love for me. He had been there with me all the way. I could tell because of the things i realized He did to keep me going... I dont know you but i want you to know that i feel sad you had suffered a lot. I can honestly say that there are good people in the Church.
God bless you and I Peay everything will get better for you and all your dreams will come true!
Thank you for your thoughts. I feel like I have been trying my whole life too and just today was wondering what difference I make. The parable of the prodigal son popped into my my mind ... not as the returning but the son who was faithful. I do think people in the church go out of there way to try and be nice... That is what I believe and see. The problem is all of us are swimming in the same raging river and we are often just trying to stay afloat ourselves :). When you go to church consider others are drowning also. Good luck ... I really feel for you and would love to hear your whole story. Seem like there is a lot to your story.
@@ElsaBotha8379 that's interesting because it was God who gave me the abusive family, not the devil.
@Antonette Dollete praying! no, I never thought of that . . . . Wait. I did. I said I've been praying regularly my entire life. Any more it feels like I'm constantly praying. Did you read what I said at all? Of course I've been kneeling down and praying. Morning, noon, and night, and in between. Aaaauuurrrrggghhhh.
Ashly, I love this great work you are doing in doing this podcast!! You are so beautiful inside and out!! You and your guests always strengthen my testimony and I am so thankful for you and your efforts. You are an absolute delight as I observe you empathetically relating to and listening to these guests tell their stories. 🩷