100 reasons why you should stay alive -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach 2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself 3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days 4. Your mom's smile 5. Your best friends laugh 6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you 7. The feeling of the sun against your face 8. Hearing the words “I love you” 9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday 10. Birthdays 11. Quiet late night drives 12. Missed opportunities and adventures 13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day 14. Long hot showers 15. Music that you connect with 16. You have a purpose 17. You can change somebody’s life 18. Snowball fights 19. Concerts 20. Watching people fall 21. As long as your heart is beating, there is hope 22. You will regret dying 23. What if Heaven isn’t real? 24. Marriage 25. You are enough 26. Pain is only temporary 27. Late-night food runs with your friends 28. The sound of rain 29. Reading powerful quotes 30. Eating your favorite foods 31. Stars 32. Good movies 33. Having children 34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them 35. Meeting new people 36. Your struggle will make you stronger 37. You have a lot of people that love and support you 38. Being able to say, “I made it” 39. Genuine smiles 40. Bonfires 41. You matter 42. Time heals most wounds 43. Your first apartment/house 44. The crunch of leaves in the fall 45. Finding your soul mate 46. Meaningful hugs 47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding 48. You are worth it 49. Sunday night football 50. The smell of Christmas trees 51. People care about you; lots of them in fact 52. Sunsets 53. Ice cream 54. You are brave 55. Things really do get better 56. Dogs 57. Cats 58. Pets in general 59. Rainbows 60. You are amazing 61. The city 62. Traveling 63. Vacations 64. Road trips 65. Hearing awesome stories 66. Inside jokes 67. Coffee/Tea 68. Snowmen 69. Your talents 70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win 71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness 72. You will be happy one day 73. All-nighters with your friends 74. Cuddling 75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college 76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years 77. Smiling 78. Seeing someone else smile 79. You are beautiful 80. Decorating your house/apartment 81. Capturing perfect moments on camera 82. You would be missed 83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants 84. Your favorite hobby 85. Swimming on a hot day 86. Being cozied up with blankets 87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap 88. Helping other people 89. Watching the people you love become successful 90. Becoming successful yourself 91. Babies/little kids 92. Cute old people 93. Love stories 94. You are strong 95. You will be proud that you continued to live 96. The feeling of grass under your feet 97. Telling crazy stories 98. The smell of rain 99. Watching lightning 100. YOU ARE LOVED
Don’t ever leave please because so many people need and care about you, and I don’t know who you are but I never want to see you go. I’m here to talk and so is everyone else
@@mnr9940 I might be wrong, but I did a little bit of research and found that it's from Howl's Moving Castle, but don't take my word on it since I'm not too sure. Hopefully this can provide some knowledge on it, have a good day/night!
Same I hate the fact that I can’t stop my brain from working having obsessive thoughts that scare me and I’m just 14 I’m tired of it I just want it to stop ....ur not alone I know it will go away bc nothing last forever so keep strong luv ya
I just wanna cry but tears don't come out so here I am, watching the sunrise all by myself.....🌅 (Edit: umm omg?! 956 likes whaaaaat, thank you all so much)
Well that happens when you cry To much that your body can’t take it any more and you just want cry, that’s all you wanna do or this makes no sense to you because I’m to damaged
tell me I've been lied to- crying isn't like you... ooooo what the hell did I do? never been the type to... let ~me~ see right through ...i love you...
i’m so tired. i just went my brain to relax for a moment. i’m tired of getting stressed out. i’m so fucking tired. everything hurts so badly. i’m so self destructive to myself, and i am so sorry to myself. i am so sorry. i wish i could stop, but i cant. i just wanna feel happy with myself, and allow myself to breathe, and be okay.
POV: your best friend just told you they love you. You’re hit with an overwhelming wave of emotions that crashes down on you all too quickly. So you run. You run and you run and you run and you wind up here. It’s dark out and raining. There are cement walls all around you and you feel trapped. Just as you start to panic this starts playing. The music surrounds and consumes you. You close your eyes and you feel it in your veins. You feel nothing and everything.
That “I love you” when not returned is left to float in the air. It changes into poison until it intoxicates you and roses bloom from your throat from unrequited love. The thorns make you bleed and you cry tears of regret and fear. Those wistful tears long for turning back time, and you’re receiving these flowers from Hanahaki because the regret is so strong. But yes, it’s hard for me to be loved romantically. Hard for me to feel like I’m doing well. It’s different when you’re the person who gives everything but gets little back. You’re kind of forgotten about, I guess
POV: you are in your room all lights on sitting in front of a laptop AND DOING HOMEWORK CUZ ITS YOUR EXAM but you don't want to that's why you are listening to billie
omg dont get me in my feels like that, im srsly gonna cry ;-;(i am writing on a laptop cuz im doing home work so i dont have any emojis ;-;, but it was still really good)
she sits at the highest seat she could find, guitar in hand. the world seems so quiet. she starts strumming, the words making their way from her lips. rain starts pouring down, drenching her whole self. she, unbothered by the inconvenience, keeps singing her heart out. the words bringing her back to her greatest, yet saddest memories. she just wanted to be happy, but the world wouldn't allow it. it took her back to the day, that faithful day. she remembers the feeling of the hard hospital chairs underneath her. her hand in his. hes laid in front of her, a thin white sheet covering his frail body. he takes slow breathes, as she watches his chest move up and down. she felt tears drip from her chin as she says the words: "i love you.", knowing he couldn't hear them, and even if he did, he couldn't say them back.
POV: you fall in love with the person who unexpectedly came into your life, you spend every day together, watch every sunrise and make eachother laugh. One night you stare into their eyes as the sunsets. You whisper the words "I love you" as they start to drift off to sleep. They you fall apart bc you remember you live in a world where u can only say I love you once, and that person u say it to has to die. Your watching your love hopelessly dying as it starts to pour, you scream and cry and try to take it back. He makes you laugh one last time by teasing you about how you tripped right In front of him the first time you met. Every memory flashes before your eyes as you lay in the rain hanging on to the last moments you have with your love. You think about how you wanted your life to end before you met them and how they changed your perspective on life, they taught you how to see the beauty in small things. You whisper to them "I always knew I loved you" before watching them become one with the earth. You sit in the rain screaming and crying until you have no voice left.
Everyone is commenting POV's. Try this one: POV: You've been depressed for years, but your best friend that you've known for five years doesn't know. They spend time with you, you make jokes together, you play video games with them and wish you could spend every waking minute with only them. but. They just recently told you that they have suicidal thoughts. You cry for hours just at the thought that something could be wrong, and that they could hurt themselves. You've never seen them this way. Two months later, you have to call an ambulance for your friend due to a suicide attempt. You put on headphones and wait outside in the rain, you don't want to face the fact that something is wrong. They didn't make it.
Ur_Average_Weeb ik it feels like that, i lost my best friend and i’m currently writing this from a mental hospital, i promise it’ll be okay, please stay. people want you to stay i swear, it’ll be worth it, i promise you that if you stay it’ll all make sense and it’ll be so amazing.
Ur_Average_Weeb i’m trying, thank you, just know you’re loved and there’s always someone who cares, and if it seems like there isn’t there will be someone, i promise, ily, ty.
POV: you look down at her, her eyes pleading and filled with pain, but you know you can’t help her. your tears fall on her face, knowing that she was suffering, you couldn’t do anything. you look down the road at the man running then at the gun on the ground a few feet away. heavy tears poured, you looked back at her. her eyes started to close. she whispers “I love you.. forever and always..” she then takes her last breath as rain starts pouring. you scream as you realized she is gone. Rain pattered on her face and yours, you’re soaked, you lay down next to her and watch her. you start to feel nothing. you’re numb. the words repeat in your head ‘forever and always’. You close your eyes and listen to the rain while your fingers are intertwined with hers.
water drips from your curls as the arena fills with the echoing sounds of raindrops hitting the pavement. your eyes focus and unfocus, unable to find a balance between the past and the present. you're in his arms again in central park, then suddenly you aren't. screams escape your heaving lungs and there's a deafening silence. everyone is gone. he is gone. god, if only you had known how a broken heart aches. if only he had never said he loved you, if only it weren't the end of the world.
Fantastic. I love this melancholy, yet soulful, version. Just the soul of her voice with the lyrics meaning and the gentle rainfall... Absolutely Beautiful!
This song makes my chest feel empty and my thoughts drifting away. I haven't felt that in a long time. It also makes me cry, but the good crying. Where all the worries and troubles, even the depression and anxiety I have, just flow out of me. I wanna feel that way all the time.
I swear.. There is something about her voice... It calms me and it allows me to express my self.. And the rain.. It just mixes so well in such a stunning way.. It’s crazy... And I love it...
Ikr I love it it’s like I can feel it and it feels amazing in my ears haunting yet satisfying it’s beautiful but the expressing yourself is definitely I felt
POV: she loved him. she fought it for ages before succumbing to the feeling. she wanted to tell him in person so she messaged him to come on a walk. they stood in a field and as she confessed her love and feelings to him it started to rain. He never said it back. shes currently sitting on the exact spot on a cold cloudy day and wishes that she'd never said it just to keep him close. She realises she still loves him.
You ever love someone so much that you wake up and go to sleep thinking about them just for them to not know you even exist. The passion you have for them is different than with anyone else and no matter how many times they ghost you, you stay because you’re in denial and have faith. When you rekindle that relationship they slowly drift away again. It’s no longer a 50-50 relationship. Even if it’s just a crush remember that hate and love are both equally strong words 🙂
Oh my lord I thought 'how good can it be?' and I think my soul just ascended into heaven hearing this. billie eilish is good but damn you should teach her some stuff.
billies voice is like a lot of ghosts surrounding you and it gives you chills every time but it feels like your not alone even knowing the ghosts are in your head
this reminds me of her show at red rocks in the summer of 2019. it was raining the whole show but I still had such an amazing time. this is what would her singing I love you would sound like if everyone wasn't singing over her. such a beautiful night, I cried so hard. love it
POV: it’s a dimly lit empty stadium and it’s raining outside. Billie is on stage, looking at you in the back row on your own while singing to you. this is the most you’ve ever felt connected to someone in your life.
this came up in my recommended and i clicked because i have an obsession with this song. i closed my eyes and mates on my bed and just imagined standing in an empty stadium with only billie on stage with a microphone and a speaker for the background music. i imagined just standing there listening and sobbing. anyways that’s just what i was doing while i listened to this :)
This song reminds me of my dad. I hate u for leaving i hate u for every single pain you put me through I hate that you lied. However, I love you for being my hero at one point. Enjoy your new family. I did it without you.
I really enjoy this.. It’s midnight here and I sneaked outside to go on my roof than I came across this video and I don’t regret it.. looking at an empty sky wishing there was stars..
Im only a few seconds in but This is absolutely amazing! When she started singing I just got a wave over me. And it just put me at so much peace. And ease, I just drifted off into this. Tysm
it hits different when it's not about a lover but a friend you told all your secrets to, trusted them the most, loved them endlessly, gave them all you've got, they were your number...yet they tell you you will never be important to them and they never talk to you again and they've already replaced you...
October 24 2019, the date where my cousin went through hell and pain: It all started with him doing everything he loved living his best life, I loved him so much he was so funny energetic and full of love and passion for everything he does. When riding the dune buggy him and his friend loved doing the gas tank exploded, leaving him in the flames as his friends ran off.. all of them. a kind woman finally picked him up and brought to the hospital after a long time of burning, The image of him asking for help as his friends ran off leaving him behind hurts me to this day. He later died in the hospital being loved by friends and family. His friends didn't arrive to his funeral. This is a reminder to please cherish the time you spend with your family, including the annoying one's ik they get on your nerves sometimes but please love and cherish them.
I feel like I get to emulate what I've been missing by listening to this song guys. I've known my special someone since 2015 aug 15th. It was around 10:40 something when we met because we met at work and she was my first teammate I was sent to. Through all these years I've been watching her slowly hate herself more and more until now.. she is so consumed with this unknown sadness monster that hurts her inside each day. She says she can't love me anymore because she's a burden on me. She tells me I'm the most beautiful, kindest and loving guy she's ever met and so on... but then she'll come and hold me and kiss me sometimes on the cheeks and nuzzle into me. It's during these silent moments that I remember when we were still at the beginning, and we'd fall asleep on the couch sometimes, just curled up into each other. I would feel my whole being become warm and soft in a way. I could feel a softness within me that emanated from somewhere between the two of us. I still think of that moment from time to time when we're lounging around and I'm not sure if we're together or not. That was the moment when I understood what it was like to actually FEEL "Love". When we would wake up the followin morning I'd feel my whole body just being warm and smooth and soft all around. My muscles and my mind had achieved such a relaxed and content state that I wanted nothing more than to just pull her closer, kiss her nose, her forehead, rub the top-back of her head and let her soft curly hair dance between my fingers like a soft waterfall while she'd open her eyes a little and look up towards me while she woke up and she'd give me this little smile where her eyes, on the corners, would smile too. I miss those moments, that soft and warm sensation. These days I just don't know... but I still love her tenfold the amount I did yesterday and I know I'll love her tomorrow. I think that part of me just hopes that she can work through these inner struggles and be able to be "there" beside me again because I feel like I'm not quite "here" sometimes, like I'm just so lost in this mysterious mist stuck with a far-away feeling of deep sadness and loneliness. It hurts... I don't know what to do for it. I just keep finding myself sticking around waiting like good little pup for the next dose of life to keep me from passing away without actually dying. It's like when you hurt so much that you just can't quite breathe because you have this dull hurt that stretches from your core to the bottom of your throat.. your shoulders ache for some reason.. and tears just seem to flow out instead of coming out in waves every few blinks like the ocean late at night. I miss our time living in hawaii, we'd go and sit close to this big sea bird that would hang out by the water sometimes, it looked like a fat crane. We'd draw in the sand and then lay down and talk about imaginary things. We'd talk story a lot while relaxed and snuggled on the sands. I dunno... i dunno why I type this on a music video, it judt made me feel things and here goes my fingers just dancing around like I'm playing wack-a-mole with my inside words. I miss "us"... I miss being alive and feeling ageless and wanted and loved.. happy. I miss my dreams being reality 😩😧😢😢😢
this song just reminds me of how I still love my ex bestfriend even though he used me and hurt me in so many ways. this song says I cant escape the way I love you but I dont want to and that is exactly how it is for me. I know that if he ever texted me again I would go crawling back. it's awful but sometimes I miss him. I know I would care If anything happened to him. he put me through so much. I never got triggered by the things I do before i met him. i had never stayed up crying and scared before i met him. i never had to worry about someone being alive in the moring before I met him. I had never hurt myself before I met him. and yet I still miss him..... I dont know why and I hate myself for it. he put me through so much horrible shit and yet, I miss him.
Hey, it's okay. I promise you, it's okay. I understand- I was in the same situation with an old best friend, she was the person who made me loose everything and everyone I loved, the person who tried to kill me and then when that failed, tried to get me to do it myself. Who encouraged me to hurt myself and ruin everything in the most painful way possible. I didn't want to leave her, though. She was slowly killing me any we both knew that, but I didn't want to go- I stayed stuck to her side for 2 years, and when I did make it out, it was because of my best friend. He snapped me out if it all and made me realise. "you're not going to make it out of this alive if you stay. And I need you." And when I think about it now, I realise I always used to pretend to myself that I had no way out, to make me believe it, because I didn't want to accept that I stayed because I wanted to. now, just less than a year later, I'm free from her and I've never been happier. But I still have moments where I miss her, I miss her so much, and it'd take so much strength not to go running back if I could. And we feel like that because we're human, me and you. It's okay. It's okay for it to still sting, for you to want to go back, as long as you always remember that you're in control. You've got this, you can make it. We're only human, and that's okay.
pov: Billie takes you out (as friends) because its your birthday. she takes you to the beach, waterpark and amusement park. as you get some food and drinks, it gets dark and it starts to rain. billie takes you to her favorite childhood arena that has been abandoned for a few years. billie finds an old microphone in the storage closet and sets it up in the middle of the arena. you sit in the bleachers, excited. Billie starts to sing this song but when she sings the part "i love you", you stop smiling and feel a rollar coaster of emotions inside your body as billie stops singing and walks up to you happily. Billie says that she has something to tell you but you just sit there, not knowing what to do. you feel sad, angry, suprised, joyful but disgusted. you never thought of yourself liking billie. you get up and whisper "Im sorry" and run as fast as you can. thats the last you ever saw from billie...
My daughter of seventeen past away from pills phenol.we got her lots of help .but just wanted to say to talk to your kids and watch them close .we did .but just keep praying.
You ever just have these friends that u love and care for and they care for u but they couldnt ever understand how you feel so you cant seek comfort from them and they dont try to help you bc they think you are ok but ur really not and there is no one right now in your life who you could tell your issues and fears to bc they either take it the wrongh way or make u feel even worse . Anyone ?
"ma, i love you, but i'm exhausted. don't you see i'm slowly falling apart and you seem to not care" "are you rlly blaming me for your 'fake' depression? get over it. for once in your life, take some responsibilities, won't you?" "i'm not blaiming you. just please listen-" "get the hell out of my face. after all the hard work i've done for you this is how you treat me?" "okay.. i'm sorry.." with a bitter smile, she turned around and ran out of the house. the cold rain pours down her pale face once she stepped outside. her body began to tremble as she collapse to the hard cement. desperately holding on to her throbbing chest, she screams in agony, "dad, i miss you! i love you so much. please, i'm begging you, come back to us. what did i do to deserve this pain!?"
100 reasons why you should stay alive
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1. The salty smell and calming sound of the beach
2. You would hurt a lot people that love you more than life itself
3. Hot chocolate on cold winter days
4. Your mom's smile
5. Your best friends laugh
6. Your little cousins, nieces, and nephews that look up to you
7. The feeling of the sun against your face
8. Hearing the words “I love you”
9. Not being able to sleep/the feeling you get the night before a holiday
10. Birthdays
11. Quiet late night drives
12. Missed opportunities and adventures
13. The feeling of lying in bed after a long day
14. Long hot showers
15. Music that you connect with
16. You have a purpose
17. You can change somebody’s life
18. Snowball fights
19. Concerts
20. Watching people fall
21. As long as your heart is beating, there is hope
22. You will regret dying
23. What if Heaven isn’t real?
24. Marriage
25. You are enough
26. Pain is only temporary
27. Late-night food runs with your friends
28. The sound of rain
29. Reading powerful quotes
30. Eating your favorite foods
31. Stars
32. Good movies
33. Having children
34. Staring at clouds and finding pictures within them
35. Meeting new people
36. Your struggle will make you stronger
37. You have a lot of people that love and support you
38. Being able to say, “I made it”
39. Genuine smiles
40. Bonfires
41. You matter
42. Time heals most wounds
43. Your first apartment/house
44. The crunch of leaves in the fall
45. Finding your soul mate
46. Meaningful hugs
47. Being in/attending someone’s wedding
48. You are worth it
49. Sunday night football
50. The smell of Christmas trees
51. People care about you; lots of them in fact
52. Sunsets
53. Ice cream
54. You are brave
55. Things really do get better
56. Dogs
57. Cats
58. Pets in general
59. Rainbows
60. You are amazing
61. The city
62. Traveling
63. Vacations
64. Road trips
65. Hearing awesome stories
66. Inside jokes
67. Coffee/Tea
68. Snowmen
69. Your talents
70. You’ll disappoint the people that love you by letting your illness win
71. The feeling of pure joy/happiness
72. You will be happy one day
73. All-nighters with your friends
74. Cuddling
75. Reunions with your friends/high school/college
76. Re-connecting with someone you haven’t talked to in years
77. Smiling
78. Seeing someone else smile
79. You are beautiful
80. Decorating your house/apartment
81. Capturing perfect moments on camera
82. You would be missed
83. Quiet bookstores/small restaurants
84. Your favorite hobby
85. Swimming on a hot day
86. Being cozied up with blankets
87. Feeling refreshed after a nice nap
88. Helping other people
89. Watching the people you love become successful
90. Becoming successful yourself
91. Babies/little kids
92. Cute old people
93. Love stories
94. You are strong
95. You will be proud that you continued to live
96. The feeling of grass under your feet
97. Telling crazy stories
98. The smell of rain
99. Watching lightning
100. YOU ARE LOVED
you’re an angel
yo thank you so much its been rough, someone i knew just commited suicide and i wish i could've helped.
@@liz-tu2ff Awww thank you! so are you
@@rose-hl2vk aww of course! And I'm so sorry to hear that. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you!
YES YES AND YES! tym angel, needed to hear this
It’s like her voice is haunting you and surrounding you yet its comforting at the same time. I live for it, but it kills me.
The perfect way to explain this ✨❤️
Sounds like my playlist lmao too many sad songs :)
omg its in words
this:
Yesssa
Its weird. "i love you" hurts even more then "i hate you"
Yeah people don't lie when they say i hate you but can lie when they say i love you.
This comment really made me sad cause it’s true...
oh dam
@@user-ud8xd so sorry :/
I felt that and it hits me rlly hard to the point ion wanna get up some times
Do you ever get the feeling that you want to disappear......
all the time...
just ask my friends....
I've said it many times..
most of them don't understand tho....
@@sadburrito9394 aw don't worry .... I guess strangers understand us better than our closest ones
Don’t ever leave please because so many people need and care about you, and I don’t know who you are but I never want to see you go. I’m here to talk and so is everyone else
Itz Alt Farida yeah..
Listen to how can you live by TISH on spotify
Hope u like it💕
To everyone crying to this, we’ll be okay.
i love how you say 'we'
I literally cried to this
no i wont :/
Haha..I hope so😃
Idk
my heart is heavy
as one of my favorite anime’s once said, “a heart is a heavy burden”
azamitani can you please say which one is it?
Hey amira I am the one person that does read the about in the channels
@@mnr9940 I might be wrong, but I did a little bit of research and found that it's from Howl's Moving Castle, but don't take my word on it since I'm not too sure. Hopefully this can provide some knowledge on it, have a good day/night!
I read your bio.
I just want my brain to stop for a while
Same I just- I’m tired of living and I’m tired of having to think of too many of these things that make me feel absolutely worthlessn
Amen to that
Same I hate the fact that I can’t stop my brain from working having obsessive thoughts that scare me and I’m just 14 I’m tired of it I just want it to stop ....ur not alone I know it will go away bc nothing last forever so keep strong luv ya
@@andrearenee7186 omg stay strong toooo💜💜💜 god bless u and ur sweet heart💜
We are all here for you and wiling to talk it out with you, suicide is not the right way
I just wanna cry but tears don't come out so here I am, watching the sunrise all by myself.....🌅
(Edit: umm omg?! 956 likes whaaaaat, thank you all so much)
relatable i just cant cry but i wanna cry with tears streaming down my face so bad
Well that happens when you cry
To much that your body can’t take it any more and you just want cry, that’s all you wanna do or this makes no sense to you because I’m to damaged
My friends say that they cry every night, but I can’t even cry because I bottle everything up so I can't cry :/
Was it pretty? What were the colors? What's your name? How's your day been?
Everytime I started to teared up a little i always hold it because I think crying makes you weak
tell me I've been lied to-
crying isn't like you... ooooo
what the hell did I do?
never been the type to...
let ~me~ see right through
...i love you...
i l o v e y o u
i LOVE you
I love you❤
i’m so tired. i just went my brain to relax for a moment. i’m tired of getting stressed out. i’m so fucking tired. everything hurts so badly. i’m so self destructive to myself, and i am so sorry to myself. i am so sorry. i wish i could stop, but i cant. i just wanna feel happy with myself, and allow myself to breathe, and be okay.
i wanna hug u
@@mizu7079 pls i just came back to this comment, and i just wanna say that u actually made my day
aaliyah lopez awwwhhhhh your welcome ❤️stay strong okay? ily :3
i see myself..
@@i.d.s5703 i hope you’re doing okay
comment section is so depressing. its scary
POV: your best friend just told you they love you. You’re hit with an overwhelming wave of emotions that crashes down on you all too quickly. So you run. You run and you run and you run and you wind up here. It’s dark out and raining. There are cement walls all around you and you feel trapped. Just as you start to panic this starts playing. The music surrounds and consumes you. You close your eyes and you feel it in your veins. You feel nothing and everything.
:0 your really good at writing. good job
sailor thank you so much!
@@sailor5854 agree .w.
thats probably him...
i never got the "i love you" back. that's what hurts most.
That “I love you” when not returned is left to float in the air. It changes into poison until it intoxicates you and roses bloom from your throat from unrequited love. The thorns make you bleed and you cry tears of regret and fear. Those wistful tears long for turning back time, and you’re receiving these flowers from Hanahaki because the regret is so strong.
But yes, it’s hard for me to be loved romantically. Hard for me to feel like I’m doing well. It’s different when you’re the person who gives everything but gets little back. You’re kind of forgotten about, I guess
@@yangminhye349 this is beautiful.
Also, I love your pfp! Who’s the character?
POV: you are in your room all lights on sitting in front of a laptop AND DOING HOMEWORK CUZ ITS YOUR EXAM but you don't want to that's why you are listening to billie
literally me right now
how did u know
@@anabnanas i can read minds
Are you spying on me? Cause that's LITERALLY WHAT I'M DOING.
Don't call me out I'm tryna write a essay😭
This is exactly what I was loooking for when I searched this. It’s so satisfying to listen to. Good job in the edit
how do i feel nothing and everything at the same time
something i've been asking for years. but i could never find an answer. not even a reason.
this.
I never realized how much the word “love” hurts.
whoever’s reading this:
you are an angel, you are beautiful valid and loved :)
Can u tell me another joke?
‘angel’ if I die..
im not babe
this song makes me cry every time i listen to it idk why i think i have a connection to this song.
best "I love you" version of all times... especially from 00:00 to 05:29
Imagine this
Ur sleeping on Billie's lap and she sings this song to u as she plays with ur hair
omg dont get me in my feels like that, im srsly gonna cry ;-;(i am writing on a laptop cuz im doing home work so i dont have any emojis ;-;, but it was still really good)
@@ilikefries7700 Awwww my bad
I'm bald 😐
and she's my sister
DONT MAKE ME CRYYY GODDAMNNNSNEJ
she sits at the highest seat she could find, guitar in hand. the world seems so quiet. she starts strumming, the words making their way from her lips. rain starts pouring down, drenching her whole self. she, unbothered by the inconvenience, keeps singing her heart out. the words bringing her back to her greatest, yet saddest memories.
she just wanted to be happy, but the world wouldn't allow it. it took her back to the day, that faithful day. she remembers the feeling of the hard hospital chairs underneath her. her hand in his. hes laid in front of her, a thin white sheet covering his frail body. he takes slow breathes, as she watches his chest move up and down. she felt tears drip from her chin as she says the words: "i love you.", knowing he couldn't hear them, and even if he did, he couldn't say them back.
why did i just write this-
and i oop it’s amazing 🥺💔
@@realgeezersofessex thank you 😌
POV: you fall in love with the person who unexpectedly came into your life, you spend every day together, watch every sunrise and make eachother laugh. One night you stare into their eyes as the sunsets. You whisper the words "I love you" as they start to drift off to sleep. They you fall apart bc you remember you live in a world where u can only say I love you once, and that person u say it to has to die. Your watching your love hopelessly dying as it starts to pour, you scream and cry and try to take it back. He makes you laugh one last time by teasing you about how you tripped right In front of him the first time you met. Every memory flashes before your eyes as you lay in the rain hanging on to the last moments you have with your love. You think about how you wanted your life to end before you met them and how they changed your perspective on life, they taught you how to see the beauty in small things. You whisper to them "I always knew I loved you" before watching them become one with the earth. You sit in the rain screaming and crying until you have no voice left.
This comment is so underrated for how heartbreaking it is
this comment is seriously underrated it goes so well with the lyrics wow. You're amazing.
This actually made me cry
Dont call me out like tht😳
This is so beautiful to where I began crying..
Everyone is commenting POV's. Try this one:
POV: You've been depressed for years, but your best friend that you've known for five years doesn't know. They spend time with you, you make jokes together, you play video games with them and wish you could spend every waking minute with only them.
but. They just recently told you that they have suicidal thoughts.
You cry for hours just at the thought that something could be wrong, and that they could hurt themselves.
You've never seen them this way.
Two months later, you have to call an ambulance for your friend due to a suicide attempt.
You put on headphones and wait outside in the rain, you don't want to face the fact that something is wrong.
They didn't make it.
😭😭😭
i’m so so sorry that happened :( 💕
this hits different when your best friend of 4 years is dead
Ur_Average_Weeb ik it feels like that, i lost my best friend and i’m currently writing this from a mental hospital, i promise it’ll be okay, please stay. people want you to stay i swear, it’ll be worth it, i promise you that if you stay it’ll all make sense and it’ll be so amazing.
Ur_Average_Weeb i’m trying, thank you, just know you’re loved and there’s always someone who cares, and if it seems like there isn’t there will be someone, i promise, ily, ty.
my heart feels so heavy, i feel like im carrying the world in my shoulders.
don’t forget, i love you. it will get better, i promise.
this song always hits different
Yea....
yea.....always....
POV: you look down at her, her eyes pleading and filled with pain, but you know you can’t help her. your tears fall on her face, knowing that she was suffering, you couldn’t do anything. you look down the road at the man running then at the gun on the ground a few feet away. heavy tears poured, you looked back at her. her eyes started to close. she whispers “I love you.. forever and always..” she then takes her last breath as rain starts pouring. you scream as you realized she is gone. Rain pattered on her face and yours, you’re soaked, you lay down next to her and watch her. you start to feel nothing. you’re numb. the words repeat in your head ‘forever and always’. You close your eyes and listen to the rain while your fingers are intertwined with hers.
Baby Dream I think I would’ve killed myself and came back as something else you can’t handle that pain man
thanks for making me cry 😀👍💔
that story...
FRICK IDK WHAT TO SAY MAN
I guess, become an author
ok but i got mad chills reading andn imagining this
Damn, Write a book
water drips from your curls as the arena fills with the echoing sounds of raindrops hitting the pavement. your eyes focus and unfocus, unable to find a balance between the past and the present. you're in his arms again in central park, then suddenly you aren't. screams escape your heaving lungs and there's a deafening silence. everyone is gone. he is gone. god, if only you had known how a broken heart aches. if only he had never said he loved you, if only it weren't the end of the world.
OKAY THIS IS A R T
Guess im the only one here who's not depressed and just likes listening to sad songs :')
lucky
Fantastic. I love this melancholy, yet soulful, version. Just the soul of her voice with the lyrics meaning and the gentle rainfall... Absolutely Beautiful!
lowkey wanna be friends with yall.. this comment section breaks my hearth.. ily guys
ily too
I love you more😭😭
I have no words to how describe this made me feel
her voice reminds me of a spirit... not a bad one but one that surrounds u... her voice is a hug holding u... like a guardian angel
This song makes my chest feel empty and my thoughts drifting away. I haven't felt that in a long time. It also makes me cry, but the good crying. Where all the worries and troubles, even the depression and anxiety I have, just flow out of me. I wanna feel that way all the time.
I swear.. There is something about her voice... It calms me and it allows me to express my self.. And the rain.. It just mixes so well in such a stunning way.. It’s crazy... And I love it...
Ikr I love it it’s like I can feel it and it feels amazing in my ears haunting yet satisfying it’s beautiful but the expressing yourself is definitely I felt
POV: she loved him. she fought it for ages before succumbing to the feeling. she wanted to tell him in person so she messaged him to come on a walk. they stood in a field and as she confessed her love and feelings to him it started to rain. He never said it back. shes currently sitting on the exact spot on a cold cloudy day and wishes that she'd never said it just to keep him close.
She realises she still loves him.
I don’t think any of us can find a reason to be happy, yet every one of us puts on a smile and goes on with our day as if we’re satisfied.
when you dont want to go back, but it's so addictive.
YOU ARE LOVED
do not leave yet, everything might feel bad atm but it gets better, i promise
I had to listen to this twice once normal and once at 0.75 it’s so good ❤️
Holy shit you deserve so much more subs for this🥺
everytime she says i love you, i get chills throughout my whole body
I feel like billies music is so emotional, and she really engages you with her and whatever she is feeling while she is singing her song.
I feel like this is what my heart sounds like :)
this is really nice lmao. made me cry.
her voice is so calming but what she says hurts🥺🥺
“you didn’t mean to say, i love you”hits a lil different
You ever love someone so much that you wake up and go to sleep thinking about them just for them to not know you even exist. The passion you have for them is different than with anyone else and no matter how many times they ghost you, you stay because you’re in denial and have faith. When you rekindle that relationship they slowly drift away again. It’s no longer a 50-50 relationship. Even if it’s just a crush remember that hate and love are both equally strong words 🙂
U described my current situation perfectly 👁️👄👁️ it's not a 50 50 anymore, it's a 200 -100
This song hits different when you imagine your current friends leaving you like the last ones
i just want to be happy is all. that’s literally all i want . . .
You honestly did this so well. The echoes sound like their bouncing off the walls. The rain sounds perfect
"love" is such a great feeling yet it causes much pain.
Oh my lord I thought 'how good can it be?' and I think my soul just ascended into heaven hearing this. billie eilish is good but damn you should teach her some stuff.
i know it hurts. i know. but im really proud of you for making it today. for making it as far as you have. so, incredibly, proud. i love you.
billies voice is like a lot of ghosts surrounding you and it gives you chills every time but it feels like your not alone even knowing the ghosts are in your head
This song is everything
sometimes, "i love you" hurts.
My parents hurt me by that, I know it could all be thrown away by me saying “I’m gay” (I’m not, but it still hurts how thin their “love” is)
this reminds me of her show at red rocks in the summer of 2019. it was raining the whole show but I still had such an amazing time. this is what would her singing I love you would sound like if everyone wasn't singing over her. such a beautiful night, I cried so hard. love it
this is just so beautiful
I needed this 🥺 thank you
why is this the best thing ever?
~i l o v e y o u~
i had so much chills during this omg
POV: it’s a dimly lit empty stadium and it’s raining outside. Billie is on stage, looking at you in the back row on your own while singing to you. this is the most you’ve ever felt connected to someone in your life.
My eyes hearts me, cause I was crying out my eyes out this past week.. and still :")
Holy cow. This is so angelic
this came up in my recommended and i clicked because i have an obsession with this song. i closed my eyes and mates on my bed and just imagined standing in an empty stadium with only billie on stage with a microphone and a speaker for the background music. i imagined just standing there listening and sobbing.
anyways that’s just what i was doing while i listened to this :)
I have no idea why this single video made me cry for the first time in very long sickening years
Thnks for making me cry🙂
please continue, don’t mind me transcending into another dimension through my chair LMAO WHY DOES THIS HURT SM I LOVE IT
I need an hour version this is so good.
I dont wanna die, that would hurt too many people
i kind of just want to disappear, and for people to forget i ever existed
same~
Here before u blow up 🤧✌️💗
This song reminds me of my dad. I hate u for leaving i hate u for every single pain you put me through I hate that you lied. However, I love you for being my hero at one point. Enjoy your new family. I did it without you.
stay strong
Get 2 phones or something for an example a computer or tablet and put the song on at the same time and sing!!
ITS SO COOL TRY IT
I love this song!! 😍😍
this song just makes me cry more
this is insanely beautiful and absolutely comforting and calming. I love this more than words can describe ❤
*So magical and relaxing...*
her voice is so mesmerizing
i cannot thank you enough for making this
I really enjoy this.. It’s midnight here and I sneaked outside to go on my roof than I came across this video and I don’t regret it.. looking at an empty sky wishing there was stars..
Im only a few seconds in but This is absolutely amazing! When she started singing I just got a wave over me. And it just put me at so much peace. And ease, I just drifted off into this. Tysm
it hits different when it's not about a lover but a friend you told all your secrets to, trusted them the most, loved them endlessly, gave them all you've got, they were your number...yet they tell you you will never be important to them and they never talk to you again and they've already replaced you...
October 24 2019, the date where my cousin went through hell and pain: It all started with him doing everything he loved living his best life, I loved him so much he was so funny energetic and full of love and passion for everything he does. When riding the dune buggy him and his friend loved doing the gas tank exploded, leaving him in the flames as his friends ran off.. all of them. a kind woman finally picked him up and brought to the hospital after a long time of burning, The image of him asking for help as his friends ran off leaving him behind hurts me to this day. He later died in the hospital being loved by friends and family. His friends didn't arrive to his funeral. This is a reminder to please cherish the time you spend with your family, including the annoying one's ik they get on your nerves sometimes but please love and cherish them.
I feel like I get to emulate what I've been missing by listening to this song guys. I've known my special someone since 2015 aug 15th. It was around 10:40 something when we met because we met at work and she was my first teammate I was sent to.
Through all these years I've been watching her slowly hate herself more and more until now.. she is so consumed with this unknown sadness monster that hurts her inside each day. She says she can't love me anymore because she's a burden on me. She tells me I'm the most beautiful, kindest and loving guy she's ever met and so on... but then she'll come and hold me and kiss me sometimes on the cheeks and nuzzle into me.
It's during these silent moments that I remember when we were still at the beginning, and we'd fall asleep on the couch sometimes, just curled up into each other. I would feel my whole being become warm and soft in a way. I could feel a softness within me that emanated from somewhere between the two of us.
I still think of that moment from time to time when we're lounging around and I'm not sure if we're together or not. That was the moment when I understood what it was like to actually FEEL "Love".
When we would wake up the followin morning I'd feel my whole body just being warm and smooth and soft all around. My muscles and my mind had achieved such a relaxed and content state that I wanted nothing more than to just pull her closer, kiss her nose, her forehead, rub the top-back of her head and let her soft curly hair dance between my fingers like a soft waterfall while she'd open her eyes a little and look up towards me while she woke up and she'd give me this little smile where her eyes, on the corners, would smile too. I miss those moments, that soft and warm sensation. These days I just don't know... but I still love her tenfold the amount I did yesterday and I know I'll love her tomorrow.
I think that part of me just hopes that she can work through these inner struggles and be able to be "there" beside me again because I feel like I'm not quite "here" sometimes, like I'm just so lost in this mysterious mist stuck with a far-away feeling of deep sadness and loneliness. It hurts... I don't know what to do for it. I just keep finding myself sticking around waiting like good little pup for the next dose of life to keep me from passing away without actually dying.
It's like when you hurt so much that you just can't quite breathe because you have this dull hurt that stretches from your core to the bottom of your throat.. your shoulders ache for some reason.. and tears just seem to flow out instead of coming out in waves every few blinks like the ocean late at night.
I miss our time living in hawaii, we'd go and sit close to this big sea bird that would hang out by the water sometimes, it looked like a fat crane. We'd draw in the sand and then lay down and talk about imaginary things. We'd talk story a lot while relaxed and snuggled on the sands.
I dunno... i dunno why I type this on a music video, it judt made me feel things and here goes my fingers just dancing around like I'm playing wack-a-mole with my inside words. I miss "us"... I miss being alive and feeling ageless and wanted and loved.. happy. I miss my dreams being reality 😩😧😢😢😢
Put it under your pillow..... Changes everything..
Holy shit youre right!
this song just reminds me of how I still love my ex bestfriend even though he used me and hurt me in so many ways. this song says I cant escape the way I love you but I dont want to and that is exactly how it is for me. I know that if he ever texted me again I would go crawling back. it's awful but sometimes I miss him. I know I would care If anything happened to him. he put me through so much. I never got triggered by the things I do before i met him. i had never stayed up crying and scared before i met him. i never had to worry about someone being alive in the moring before I met him. I had never hurt myself before I met him. and yet I still miss him..... I dont know why and I hate myself for it. he put me through so much horrible shit and yet, I miss him.
Hey, it's okay. I promise you, it's okay. I understand- I was in the same situation with an old best friend, she was the person who made me loose everything and everyone I loved, the person who tried to kill me and then when that failed, tried to get me to do it myself. Who encouraged me to hurt myself and ruin everything in the most painful way possible. I didn't want to leave her, though. She was slowly killing me any we both knew that, but I didn't want to go- I stayed stuck to her side for 2 years, and when I did make it out, it was because of my best friend. He snapped me out if it all and made me realise. "you're not going to make it out of this alive if you stay. And I need you."
And when I think about it now, I realise I always used to pretend to myself that I had no way out, to make me believe it, because I didn't want to accept that I stayed because I wanted to.
now, just less than a year later, I'm free from her and I've never been happier.
But I still have moments where I miss her, I miss her so much, and it'd take so much strength not to go running back if I could. And we feel like that because we're human, me and you. It's okay. It's okay for it to still sting, for you to want to go back, as long as you always remember that you're in control. You've got this, you can make it. We're only human, and that's okay.
@@uhm9469 thank you so much, I'm sorry you had to go through that and I wish you the best
@@user-ec8dn1zp5n ♥️ right back at u. I hope things start to get better for you very soon, stay strong! 💕
@@uhm9469 thank you sm!! have a good day/night :)
@@user-ec8dn1zp5n u too ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🐠
this song is just so beautiful even though i have never been in love but i know the other feeling, what's stopping her from loving the person.
pov: Billie takes you out (as friends) because its your birthday. she takes you to the beach, waterpark and amusement park. as you get some food and drinks, it gets dark and it starts to rain. billie takes you to her favorite childhood arena that has been abandoned for a few years. billie finds an old microphone in the storage closet and sets it up in the middle of the arena. you sit in the bleachers, excited. Billie starts to sing this song but when she sings the part "i love you", you stop smiling and feel a rollar coaster of emotions inside your body as billie stops singing and walks up to you happily. Billie says that she has something to tell you but you just sit there, not knowing what to do. you feel sad, angry, suprised, joyful but disgusted. you never thought of yourself liking billie.
you get up and whisper "Im sorry" and run as fast as you can.
thats the last you ever saw from billie...
My daughter of seventeen past away from pills phenol.we got her lots of help .but just wanted to say to talk to your kids and watch them close .we did .but just keep praying.
You ever just have these friends that u love and care for and they care for u but they couldnt ever understand how you feel so you cant seek comfort from them and they dont try to help you bc they think you are ok but ur really not and there is no one right now in your life who you could tell your issues and fears to bc they either take it the wrongh way or make u feel even worse . Anyone ?
I know the feeling exactly, but I'm here for u!!
"ma, i love you, but i'm exhausted. don't you see i'm slowly falling apart and you seem to not care"
"are you rlly blaming me for your 'fake' depression? get over it. for once in your life, take some responsibilities, won't you?"
"i'm not blaiming you. just please listen-"
"get the hell out of my face. after all the hard work i've done for you this is how you treat me?"
"okay.. i'm sorry.."
with a bitter smile, she turned around and ran out of the house. the cold rain pours down her pale face once she stepped outside. her body began to tremble as she collapse to the hard cement. desperately holding on to her throbbing chest, she screams in agony, "dad, i miss you! i love you so much. please, i'm begging you, come back to us. what did i do to deserve this pain!?"
this, well this makes me feel like shes walking through my empty mind. her voice just echoing while searching for something, anything in there.
Nothing is permanent even the pain u are holding on
stay strong
just one word... messssmerizing...
I'm here as well, I'll accompany you. We shall sink in this feeling; Together
Showering+dark room+nice candles+playing this song= perfect For reducing My depression and it’s so f*cking calming
Seems like i’m doing a ritual 🤣
I lost my baby sister or brother (we didn’t knew yet) today... I wanna cry forever
i'm sorry..
i’m sorry...
this picture has been my whatsapp wallpaper for the past 5 years. had to check it out. loves it.
its raining right now and I'm listening to this :)))
Listening to this with context just makes it like a million times sadder