'It is what it is' Mate, I will tell you what it is ... it is thousands of people saying 'what is goin' on you lot' to their friends, and trying Subway salads and finally using their gym membership. Because of you. And *more importantly* thousands of people thinking a little more deeply about their lives, and gaining perspective and making the absolute most of their day. Because of you. Some people are on this planet ninety years, and they never achieve anything close to that. You are our rock star, Emily Hayward. Never forget it xxx
Jo Cannon couldn't agree more! "what is goin' on you lot" is my absolute favorite part of her vlogs...idk if it's because I feel like if she starts with that she is doing well or what but I will rewind her videos if I don't catch her saying it!
As much as I would love Emily to have had more time I'm glad for her that this stage of her journey was relatively short. This wasn't the Emily that we knew and loved... although we loved her however she was , she was suffering and knew her time was limited, you can see it in her eyes. The poor girl couldn't do any of the things she loved, her beautiful hair gone... her gorgeous smile and the cheeky little twinkle she had. What must have been going through her mind, knowing how tuned in she was about her illness she had to know that she was nearing the end. I'm glad it's over for her... that she is no longer in pain and no longer dealing with the stress of her situation. The little darling went through enough in her short life, I just hope that the bright, cheerful, energetic, thoughtful beautiful girl that we all got to know and love is enjoying her rewards now in heaven... free, healthy and happy. God bless you Emily xx.
Emily, I was very sick years ago after waking from coma. Suddenly I couldn't walk far and got so tired. I still wanted to come with my friend to he's car and the movies, but walking half way out of the hospital, and I was exhausted.. 20 years old, then, by the way... For some reason, I refused to sit in a wheel chair. Ended with my friend " borrowing" the cantine food trolley 🙃😜. Every time he kame and took me somewhere, he pushed me on that.. The security man smiled and said it was ok as long as my friend went back with it . one day an other security guard was there instead of the usual one. He came running after us, angry and said that's not a toy, get off... My friend tried to explain, but understandable, he did hes job.. I still refused the wheel chair 😫... I was told too, I didn't have long ( they were wrong, tho) , so I felt sicker and imberrest or something... Wondered afterwards, why didn't I just let someone push me around in a wheelchair!? It would have been much easier. Now, I wouldn't feel imberrest or sicker, but then, I wasn't emotionally ready yet. I used to sit in them playing, when visiting someone in a home where wheelchairs stood in the hall, but when I needed one, I wouldn't. Hard for others to understand, but I understand it is hard. I hope you know it's only you who think negative about it. Everyone else doesn't judge. If some do, they doesn't count, because they are people who aren't worth our time or thoughts 😝😉. Do what's best for you and Aisha! Thousands of people "knows" you and loves you and only wants the best for you 💕! It's very understandable that you are tired. I have to sleep twice a day to" load my batteries " Hate it, but I can't fight it more than a day and catch up the next... So glad you have Aisha. You to are amazing together. Wish I was more like you two! You inspire me to change a lot in my life! Greatful for finding your channel and you tough amazing girls. 💕👌 Love from me 😘❤♥❤♥❤♥
Wow Aisha really helped her as much as possible psychologically during this whole time. She always says really positive and supporting things. What a rock.
Speech is better today, truly! I would never have thought that when I started watching you that I would than be diagnosed with breast cancer. Emily, your response to your situation is helping me cope with the news I have been given - thank you.
It pains me to see Em feeling like she was slipping away...like you could see how down she felt in herself about not being able to do as much as she used to...so brave of her to share these moments...I truly can empathise and i’m guilty of feeling the same at times as I have metastatic tumours in my brain...Em will always be such a blessing ✨...
Aisha you have a such a soft, sweet way about you. I would love to watch you have a you tube channel of your own one day. But, it could be about anything really. Life, outlooks, make-up. Maybe just advice on how to live a life full of kindness. Which is what you are.
Em, I'm at a similar stage in my palliative care. I know how difficult it is to let go & accept our physical limitations. You're an amazingly strong & beautiful person ....remember that! Your soul is not limited in any way so stay positive & use whatever methods you need to in order to continue to live the highest quality of life. Im still praying for miracles for you... And for me. Love you both so much.
A wheelchair isn’t a step back! I faint when I stand up & my knees can dislocate so my wheelchair has given me my life back! There’re also scooters on the motorbility scheme which you could probably get & you might feel more independent! 😊
Georgina's Journey I have a mobility chair as well, and I am doing two charity projects, work with cancer patients; work with elderly people that can't get out to shop. (I shop for them) I still can walk but have rumors in the back etc..not malignant thank god, but I get around just fine. There's an adjustment, sure as hell, but it challenges me to make the day(s) count more. But that has always been my personality... to stay active, and kick life in the butt joyfully!
Sometimes we all have to make adjustments and if a wheel chair gives you more freedom and things to smile about then by all means do it!! You can't smell the flowers on the side of the road from inside the car, sweeties!
Aisha, you truly are what all spouses should strive to be. While you have to be drowning and terrified inside, your love for Emily is overwhelmingly clear to us all as you only show such positivity and strength to Emily. I just love seeing how much you love her. Emily is so blessed to have you by her side and you Emily as well, obviously :) I'm thinking of you both and sending much love!
Sad to see Em look so sad and just...defeated. I understand why and she has every right but it still breaks my heart. Love you both ❤ Thank you for checking in!!
I agree... her body is getting tired. You can see it in her eyes. Her speech is kinda off, she seemed kinda out of it!! But she is doing what she can and living how she wants to live with her wife!!
Hey ladies lovely to hear from you. Have you thought of borrowing an electric scooter in stead ? That means you could be independent Emily as in controlling where and which way you want to go, Aisha can look amazing running after you if she can catch up ! Most shopping centres have them for loan or I’m sure an OT occupational therapist has access to one for a loan. You could attach your camera to the front like a body cam and give us a birds eye view of you out and about. Seriously though it would get you out of the house as you have mentioned before you get stir crazy at home. At least that way you can hold a conversation with Aisha as you could walk and steer side by side rather than have to keep yelling if Aisha is pushing you and can’t hear each other. It’s not going backwards Emily try and think of it as just another way , a different way of going forwards together ? Big hugs to you both xx
It's interesting that Aisha is grateful for all of the support from viewers. I believe viewers are very grateful that Emily has so much support in Aisha. There are no words for how much these two inspire.
With all due respect for the frustration and feeling physically terrible, if I were facing what you are, I can’t imagine anyone better than Aisha to walk through it with. She’s so sensitive, respectful, intelligent, positive, and loving. Such a wonderful team! ❤️
I really don’t think you girls actually understand how important these daily vlogs are to the world. Not only because of selfish desires we have to see you, as we’ve grown to love you, but also to the world in general, to educate on the ups and downs of life, and life with cancer. This footage gives clear and honest insight into the daily changes. Aisha, your kind, constantly considerate support of Emily gives all loved ones of a cancer patient true guidance. Emily, you do you, whatever you feel like is right, documenting when you feel able, with honesty is all you need do as you are legendary at it. Life couldn’t have picked better ambassadors than you two. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Whenever I need motivation, I come back to this channel and rewatch Emily's vlogs. The tragedy of her passing hit me hard, but I'm thankful that her videos are still up. She truly was an inspiration with an unbreakable spirit, fighting against the odds every day. Despite her declining health, she was relentless and kept pushing herself, pushing her limits. Her strength of will and determination are unparalleled. She was a superwoman who embodied optimism and positivity, a true example to us all. Emily, you are a legend who will never be forgotten. Rest in peace.
Aisha is the most supportive encouraging AMAZING human being ever!! Emily I'm so glad you went out, don't feel bad about wheel chair get out and about you wheel it around till you need it! It's doing what ya have to your strength and tenacity is AMAZING! !
Emily a wheelchair is NOT giving up freedom it's to help you experience MORE with your wife when the body needs a little more support! I understand you're frustration and it's totally valid just try seeing the positive in it. Thank you for sharing today ❤
Aisha is an angel! I cried watching this.... Always took a step back from the vlogging and reluctantly popped her head in now and again! Now she’s erudite and stepping in just at the right time in a non condescending way! I was floored to be honest. So much love as always to you both ❤️❤️
Your mind is so razor sharp Emily! I understand the total frustration when your body just won’t cooperate. I pray that you get your strength back soon! 🙏
I understand this video was made close to the time she passed on, but in the last 3 or 4 videos there is a far away look in her eyes, she doesn't look the same. I guess it could have been the morphine and the pain, it was so quick, just 2 months after the wedding. Dam disease stole her vitality at the end. She was amazingly brave. Rip sweet Emily 💖
Exactly how I was thinking. Im rewatching everything now and saw her light starting to dim in the last couple videos. Especially when she bows her head speechlessly in her responses to comments as if she knows its happening. I hate it. I dont believe she recieved the best care, their "prognosis" was kinda the same for a year and 1/2 like they had no other resources to try. I really wish she had seen other doctors for second and even third opinions Its selfish but I feel like if she would have beaten this going with an oncology team who could say more than they did.
@@lamunecamuerta7380 I'm wondering if she could have gotten second opinions or opted for other treatments with the healthcare system in the U.K.. I don't live there, so not sure how that works. Not trying to criticize the system there at all, so please everyone, not trying to offend anyone. I know that even here in the USA, some private insurance plans, don't cover certain treatments, and are not accepted by all doctors or hospitals. Does anyone who lives in the UK know if she could have explored other options? She fought a long, hard battle, and I applaud her bravery. May this beautiful soul RIP. 😢💔
I was wondering how long after her marriage she left.When I STARTED watching i didnt even realize she had already passed..What a shame.. she wad amazing motivator A'S an her TOGETHER could done so much.
la muneca muerta once it’s terminal and in the brain there isn’t much anyone can do. Only thing that allows some people more time is how fast the growth rate is. She said it time and time again that she was lucky for how little of symptoms she had.
Aisha is a perfect partner. She's so motivating and keeps Emily's spirits up! Don't think the wheelchair is a step back Em, you won't be losing your freedom, you'll be gaining it! You'll be able to get out and enjoy some time away from the house instead of just staying in or going out and becoming utterly exhausted, so Aisha is right. She's taking good care of you. Take care Em. We're all behind you! ☺
Emily and Aisha changed me as a human. I didnt understand the gay thing before, but its as beautiful(maybe even more) than what we consider normal.What a wonderful partner Aisha....what burst of positiveness....what absolute commitment....you guys changed my views on relationship, life, death...and my belief that I kniw best....
Aw Em, I still think you're doing great. I can imagine how frustrated you are with everything at the moment, but don't give up. I was watching back some of your old vlogs today, and I know that girl with the positivity and fire is still there! :) Just take it one day at a time. Aisha is such an angel, and I wish both of you all the best. We love you guys so much! xxx
I have never been so touched by this beautiful soul. It is pushing myself to become a better person mentally and physically. I hope everyone has a Aisha in their life. . I know you’ve been gone over a yes but you are still touching peoples lives. All my love to you both.
Couldn’t have put it better then Jo Cannon Emily, I am 40 yrs old, been happily married for 17yrs to my husband (my Aisha) and have 3 children. I have an autoimmune disease and am disabled and so I used to be a less involved with my family before I subbed to your channel. I was more easily talked into going for a rest or a lie down rather than playing with my children or just spending time doing simple things like colouring in or making Lego with them. You have inspired me to make the most of every second as their childhood is going by so quickly, so now I do colouring/Lego/reading/homework etc in bed if necessary BUT I do it and that is thanks to you. Thank you for giving me a purpose again. Thank you for giving my 3 children their mummy back. Thank you for sharing your life, your good days and your bad days with us. You truly are a Fallen Angel as you give so much to so many and what you give is priceless. People remember you for how you make them feel and you will never, ever be forgotten by me (or the thousands of other lives you have touched). Keep going gorgeous girl. We are all with you and Aisha willing and loving you guys on. Big love always, Oshie Dot Xxx
Oh its made my day that you have posted! Listen, Im a radio presenter and "voices" are my speciality...your speech is good..its strong and if you slur well , half the time its only you Emily , that knows it. Besides..we all talk too much...myself included..Speak only whats worth hearing..thats my motto
Ditto. I'm American (I've got that upper Midwest accent) and the accent I'm used to hearing is obviously different from yours. I haven't noticed any change in your speech.
Sweetheart, low blood pressure is shitty, and it will make you display all the symptoms you are right now, because your body is fighting harder to do everything, including talk ( tho I know you know all that ), so what Aisha says is absolutely true...to be getting up and about and going out doing stuff is wonderful, and testament to your underlying fitness...you are courageous and strong, and your continued commitment to letting us in to your daily struggles does not go without gratitude from this community...nor without love ❤ Big hooj enormous love to you both...keep tearing the arse out if it kiddo xx
I’m a nurse in USA and I can tell you, I often have patients with very low blood pressure and will put them in the Trendelenburg position (head down feet up) for even just 15 minutes and it increases the blood pressure quite a bit. Just make sure your feet are above your heart level. The idea is to get your blood to flow toward your heart/head. Hope this helps! You both are in my prayers daily! ❤️
Anyone who has an Aisha in their lives is truly blessed! You are doing great Em. I had a spiral femur fracture and was told if I were 5 years older, I would spend the rest of my life in a nursing home. I ended up working my ass off and can walk. But there are many times my leg cannot keep up and a wheelchair is really a blessing in disguise. I've never thought of it as a step back, we are not the same as we were in the past, but when energy is down, they are a life saver. Love seeing you out like this, I love that pink in your cheeks!
If I didn't have a wheel chair I wouldn't leave the house. My wheelchair is a tool it isn't me it doesn't define me and it won't define you, it will be a great aid. Also My hubby got me got out to Tesco the other day. Bumped into friends and had an impromptu lunch down our local links by the sea. All thanks to my wheel chair. Please don't be scared of the chair it's a great tool. Big hugs
Hi. So sad that darling Emily has now left us, but just to say Im also a full time wheelchair user and its been my lifesaver, Without it I would be completely lost because Im single and alone most of the time so Im very lucky that mine is a power chair so Im independent. Emily will be so missed. Peace xxx
Emily, I wish I could take away all the pain in your eyes. You are such an amazing fighter! I'm so proud of you for being so strong! Girl you really are showing Cancer who is boss, it is not slowing you down! You got this girl. And Aisha is a blessing and incredibly supportive. May yall both be happy always because yall deserve it. Many prayers and hugs. 💪❤ #CancerCantWin #KickCancer
Emily's whole journey has really made me evaluate my own life. The amount she fitted in to such a short time. The cancer was relentless, so rarely did she have any positive news yet she seemed to just sail through it all and make the most of every minute. Really inspirational and puts everything in perspective. All she really wanted was more time to do the things she loved and be with the people she loved. What she'd have given for another week or month... yet she was grateful for every minute she had. All of our little problems seem so insignificant in comparison.
El Astronaute ❤️ I don't think I've ever seen anyone with more will to live. That's what flashes in my mind every time I catch myself wasting time or not appreciating everything around me. Emily wanted to live SO much and I feel a responsibility to honor her by making the most of my life and showing gratitude always. I'm forever indebted to her. What a glorious legacy she created.
You ladies are powers of example on how to conduct yourself with honor, dignity, and positivity under difficult circumstances. Thank you for being role models to us all!
London Afro Vegan Recipes they have one that looks like a Harley and I want it myself. there awesome! at least we'll have some style lol. I have a jazzy right now it's got aronotic seating..it's the greatest.
Aisha maybe in the future when you see the light at the end of this tunnel then you should look into being a support worker for those who element through what Emily did. You kept her strong for so long and you kept her living. You were such a positive impact on her. Emily I miss your videos already. I miss your face. I keep looking still to see if you have put up a video then I remember. I hope your resting em after what you have gone through... knowing you you will have found pure gym in heaven. Lots of love to you both xx
Hi you two! I am so glad you updated us. I find myself thinking about you often, wondering how you are feeling. I'm so glad you have Aisha there for you Emily. God bless you both! ❤
I’ve been house bound for 9months because of medical reasons and my first outing was to Tesco lol I didn’t go in I just sat in the car. I was so happy just to be out. I know not being free to do what you want is frustrating and horrible but even just little things that seem stupid to most people can seem huge to you! Aisha is such a positive person and like she said you achieve more today then you could of last week so always look at it like an achievement! ❤️
Never, ever, could have imagined that I could be so deeply touched, so moved, by two absolute strangers that I had never met even once. And I could add.. so inspired and motivated!! And my gosh, such an incredibly courageous and unified force you see in Emily and Aisha!! Emily had such a Vibrant and Pulsating energy....WHAT a Life-force! And Aisha, ..her personal Angel and Rock!
I don't know if the two of you truly realize what an inspiration you have been to so many people. Aisha...you as the caregiver. Always positive...always with that bright, beautiful smile...always making the best with how Emily feels each day, giving her your encouragement and words of wisdom (in my house, they have come to be known as "Aishaisms")...always giving her your unconditional love and support...always being her rock...the epitome of what a partner does for the person they love. And you dear, sweet, beautiful Emily...the person who has been battling this horrible disease for years, but has done so with courage that even the bravest men/women do not know...the way you have bounced back from every single piece of bad news you have been given and the way you treat every piece of good news as the greatest victory...the strength you have shown to us all in your resolution of accepting your diagnosis/prognosis, while insisting that you are going to fight and defy the odds for as long as you can...your sheer determination that you have not and will not let the cancer define who you are and that you are going to live your life your way...and you have done all these things with tremendous humility and grace. There are people here from all over the world, and while most do not know you personally, we have all come to care for you both a great deal. We continue to hope and pray for a miracle, but know that whatever the future holds, you both have left an indelible mark in the minds and hearts of all of us.
I hope that Aisha comes back to these vlogs and re reads the comments. I hope that they would be a source of comfort to her, and help her know how much she and Emily helped so many people.
I know the thought of being out in a wheelchair feels like a step in the wrong direction...my sweetheart Emily, but it's much better to be OUT in one than having to STAY IN because you have not got much strength and feel exceptionally weak. Believe me, darling I've been there. If you feel once you are in it that you feel strong enough to walk for a while, get out and push it and that will give you support too. You are such an incredibly courageous young lady and your strength of fight is most admirable and totally amazes me every day. Having your beautiful wife Aisha by your side delights me knowing how well she looks after you and encourages you every second of every day. You are both a perfect complement of each other...she's the flip to your flop, your sea to your ocean, your peanut to your butter, but most of all she's the love of your life. Keep strong beautiful ladies. Love you both millions xx😍😘😍xx
I'm a wheelchair and scooter user. It really opens up the world to me again and lets me do things with my kids. My main issues are fatigue, balance and pain, and I've been ill for twelve years now, in slow decline. I slur when I'm tired too, I know it's frustrating to not be able to do things as normal, but if something enables you to keep doing things, it's not really a bad thing or a failure on your part. It's doing the best with what you've got. Xxx
Just had to say,by the way....you girls don't realise just how much you've captured people's hearts. I came upon your channel by chance and I've gone from watching it just kind of like a soap opera to actually wondering during the day if you've posted and how you both are. You really are an amazing couple with loads of folk sending love,wishing they could do more . You certainly have a very special place in my heart xxxxxxx
Your speech is good. It was a bit slurred in the beginning, but I think Aisha is right, if it’s not important you aren’t concentrating on it. It was perfect through the rest of the video. You said something like “short, snappy segments” which is hard to say in the best of circumstances. I was laughing when you said it. Your brain cells are working perfectly. Hope you have a good day. Maybe your energy will improve. I don’t know about the wheelchair. It depends how tired you get walking I guess. I’d probably stick to walking even a short distance as long as I could. Anyway, it’s always lovely to see you both and happy you can still smile and laugh. Thanks for making the vlog. We all appreciate it so much. Oh you actually said “short, sharp snippets; “ that’s even harder.
Aisha you are the sweetest wife to Emily !!! You come across so uplifting , patient and kind. You both were meant to be with each other during this challenging time. Loads of love
Aisha's right, my husband talks like that to me when he's uninterested😴 Love you both and Emily you're leaps and bounds better than you were a week ago. Give yourself some credit. Thanks for the update, love and prayers from Missouri, USA 🙏 ❤️
Emily you are doing great. Don't let the frustration bring you down. I know it's difficult but look at what you can do not at what you can't , however small your achievements try to thrive of them and never apologize for anything to do with the symptoms you are coping with. Sending you both strength and serenity.
You are doing so incredibly well Emily most people would give up but you haven't and you should be so proud of yourself and how you have handled your illness, Aisha is amazingly supportive and you both are the perfect couple ment to be together love to you both 💕💕
I agree with Aisha!! How many people wallow in their own self pity because of minor ailments. Then there's you... fighting cancer and still managing to get up, ready for life and face the day... even if that does mean a trip to the shops!! You're doing amazingly!!! You are an inspiration xxxx
Aisha you are so amazing! the support and upbeat spirit within you is so great. Emily you look better then your previous post, your body is fighting a big fight, don't apologize for your speech or anything else. YOU are still here, MARRIED to a beautiful women ( who needs no make-up) and have so much love and support from around the world Hugs to you both
I think a wheelchair would help you with your freedom because it would allow you to rest when you need to but still get out and about. I get you might feel funny about it but it's not admitting defeat, it's just accepting some help 😘
The best advice I can give in regards to using a wheelchair is this; it’s not there to stop you moving forward, it’s there to allow you to keep your independence at a point where otherwise you would stop all together. I avoided using one for years and that resulted in me missing out on time with my loved ones, not leaving the house and staying isolated when my family would go out and it made me miserable. I finally gave in and rented one for a big family holiday where we would cruise the world and it changed my life for the better. I didn’t miss out on a damn thing and I got to see how beautiful this earth is and cherish every moment with my wonderful family. I’m not using it any more as right now it’s not necessary for me, but I will forever be thankful for the independence it gave me at a time I needed it most :) it’s not giving up, it’s going forward and refusing to miss out! Much love Emily and Aisha!!
I am 42 years old...and I just want to adopt BOTH of you!!! The tenderness you show one another melts my heart. I wish for every single person in the universe to have at least one person in their lives to care for and look out for them like you girls do! XOXOXOXO Love, MaryKate (MK)
Aisha. So much wisdom in what you say. Em. I say go for the w/c when out so your body isn’t fatigued and you can enjoy you outings without worrying about being tired and needing to sit. Not going back, thinking ahead of what you want to enjoy. Love you both. 🙏🏼💖😘
God has sent u a wonderful wife . Just remember Emily , your going to get depressed and sad and feel like giving up and she is going to be ur biggest motivator she is gunna drill the happy into you . You will appreciate it when the depression or sadness creeps off !! You seem so down lately ☹️ I pray for you and have my husband pray for you .
Brittany Kidwill she is down, because she is as sick as a person can be, the body produces chemicals and such that causes depression. We all have a death gene, the death gene knows exactly what it’s doing. She is SICK, not exactly a down that she can lift up.
There is no giving up in dying from cancer...she has no choice in the matter, it has been chosen for her. It is good for Aisha to be positive around her and to keep her feeling as good as possible, but of course she is down lately, she is watching her own life slip away from her and is having to face her mortality. That she chooses to share a video during this time is amazing, so we are going to see her down and sad. I challenge anyone on the very last leg of their journey to the other side, to feel anything but down.
Emily and Aisha i am so in awe of the maturity, the love,the care, the patience,you two show each other on a daily basis. Please write a book some day, on living a life of selflessness. Your lives are so real, raw, honest, inspiring. The meaning of love that is true!😍 Big love from the ATX😘
Emily would have given up about this time if not for Aisha. She helped her live life as much as possible during the time she had left. I would have given up. Amazing. Her body wasn’t working and couldn’t maintain blood pressure and O2 levels.
I had the wheelchair battle in my head too . I'm stage 4 breast cancer, with Mets in bones. I've got two kids and if I wanted to do things with them, i need the chair. It's not all the time. It's just another tool to help me be "normal" and do "normal stuff". Keep your chin up chick, you are amazing and have an amazing support crew. xx
When I had chemo I was the same way. The doctor called it chemo brain. A brain fog. I found myself getting word wrong. I'd get ahead in my thinking and my words would come out wrong, if that makes any sense. Sometimes I'd forget things. I was aggravated with myself. Tiredness was a big issue. Sometimes just couldn't go. I didn't have the energy. Since the cancer I was in a coma and find it hard to go distances. I've considered a scooter so I could go more. I have a grandson with autism and I'd like to take him to a zoo or Disney World,but to much walking right now for me. It's not fair to him to not be able to take him somewhere to enjoy himself. Being in the house is no fun for him all day. Walking any airport would be impossible for me right now. I don't like being like this but I'm trying to do better. It's hard and a struggle at times. I can understand where you're coming from. I'm sorry your not feeling good and strong. A scooter would coserve your energy and you'd still be able to go places. Maybe you'll get feeling better after some of the treatment your going through. During treatment it's bad I know. I got inner ear damage with chemo and started walking and I'd walk into people or bump off walls. Started losing my balance. Would fall. They made me use a cane. I went to therapy for it. They said they couldn't cure it, I'd have to adjust. I even had vertigo. It was bad. I took severe fibromyalgia out of having cancer. They can't cure it either.Told me sometimes you can get it after a life threatening illness. It's painful. I ended up getting to much lyrics and it stopped my kidneys and other organs followed. That's what put me in a coma. The side effects of chemo are not good but the option of not taking it are not good either. Your both in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.
I have to say you have made me think about the way I spend my time and how I could be doing more. You don't know me but these past few months you have deeply touched me with your bravery and fighting spirit. Thank you for your videos.
Darling. I just love you. Both of you. You are doing so well. Don't be down in yourself. I know your mind wants to be out there doing things, but the body is not cooperating, but you have done so well. Extremely well. Now's the time to relax more and enjoy your personal time with your loved ones. Embrace those moments. I wish you love and happiness, peace of mind. And so much love sent your way. Love from Tess in Ireland
I am chronically sick and had the shower chair debate for so long. I was convinced I would be giving in or not moving forward if I allowed myself to sit and shower but then I did it and realized that not only the mental torture before a shower lessened but I took more showers and eventually I was feeling all around a little better day by day because every SINGLE THING YOU CAN DO TO MAKE YOUR LIFE less painful helps your body get better...heal...
I'd say definitely get a wheelchair!! It might seem like a step back but that's only because you've attached those negative connotations to it in your mind? It's only another piece of medicine - this time its outwardly helping your body instead of internally like the drugs/medicine? If it's the difference between sitting inside or being out in the sunshine having a good day then go for it! Just a different way of getting about - and you can get up and walk about out of it if you're in a park etc - you're not trapped!
Remember this: you have encouraged thousands THOUSANDS of people!! Both of you! You both remind me how to CARE more, and how to be grateful more!!! You are SO loved and HIGHLY respected!!! Mad mad respect! Thank you for being transparent and for allowing us to see the real life of caring for someone who has cancer and being someone with cancer. We love you loads! LOADS!
Don't diss your daily trip out no matter how trivial. I was to proud to go into my wheelie legs rendering me house bound for 10 months. Using a wheel chair is merely utilizng a tool to enhance your quality of life, thereby defining your existence rather than the cancer setting your limits. I implore you to consider it, use it and visit a gym and do what you love. P.s. your speech is still good and as Aiesha stated it's clear when you are saying the important stuff. I find distracting my hands whilst talking improves my speech. Remember just because you are differently abided, it does not disable you from enjoying your life. Angels encamped around you and yours.
As a complete stranger who has followed your story, it's bullocks seeing what cancer is doing to you, you are an inspiration, regardless off the end result you have made a fucking difference. 💗💗💗
'It is what it is'
Mate, I will tell you what it is ... it is thousands of people saying 'what is goin' on you lot' to their friends, and trying Subway salads and finally using their gym membership. Because of you. And *more importantly* thousands of people thinking a little more deeply about their lives, and gaining perspective and making the absolute most of their day. Because of you.
Some people are on this planet ninety years, and they never achieve anything close to that.
You are our rock star, Emily Hayward. Never forget it xxx
Jo Cannon so well said.
Jo Cannon amen! Exactly!!!!!
Amen. Well said. Love you Emily!
Jo Cannon couldn't agree more! "what is goin' on you lot" is my absolute favorite part of her vlogs...idk if it's because I feel like if she starts with that she is doing well or what but I will rewind her videos if I don't catch her saying it!
Jo Cannon 💝
As much as I would love Emily to have had more time I'm glad for her that this stage of her journey was relatively short. This wasn't the Emily that we knew and loved... although we loved her however she was , she was suffering and knew her time was limited, you can see it in her eyes. The poor girl couldn't do any of the things she loved, her beautiful hair gone... her gorgeous smile and the cheeky little twinkle she had. What must have been going through her mind, knowing how tuned in she was about her illness she had to know that she was nearing the end. I'm glad it's over for her... that she is no longer in pain and no longer dealing with the stress of her situation. The little darling went through enough in her short life, I just hope that the bright, cheerful, energetic, thoughtful beautiful girl that we all got to know and love is enjoying her rewards now in heaven... free, healthy and happy. God bless you Emily xx.
It was so sad to see her this way.
Don’t hold back on the chair sweet, if it means you can still get out and about with Aisha making memories then that’s all that matters 😘 Lotti x x
Agreed. Having a chair is a different form of freedom when you're in that situation.
Emily, I was very sick years ago after waking from coma. Suddenly I couldn't walk far and got so tired.
I still wanted to come with my friend to he's car and the movies, but walking half way out of the hospital, and I was exhausted.. 20 years old, then, by the way...
For some reason, I refused to sit in a wheel chair. Ended with my friend " borrowing" the cantine food trolley 🙃😜. Every time he kame and took me somewhere, he pushed me on that.. The security man smiled and said it was ok as long as my friend went back with it . one day an other security guard was there instead of the usual one. He came running after us, angry and said that's not a toy, get off... My friend tried to explain, but understandable, he did hes job..
I still refused the wheel chair 😫... I was told too, I didn't have long ( they were wrong, tho) , so I felt sicker and imberrest or something... Wondered afterwards, why didn't I just let someone push me around in a wheelchair!? It would have been much easier. Now, I wouldn't feel imberrest or sicker, but then, I wasn't emotionally ready yet. I used to sit in them playing, when visiting someone in a home where wheelchairs stood in the hall, but when I needed one, I wouldn't. Hard for others to understand, but I understand it is hard. I hope you know it's only you who think negative about it. Everyone else doesn't judge. If some do, they doesn't count, because they are people who aren't worth our time or thoughts 😝😉.
Do what's best for you and Aisha! Thousands of people "knows" you and loves you and only wants the best for you 💕!
It's very understandable that you are tired. I have to sleep twice a day to" load my batteries " Hate it, but I can't fight it more than a day and catch up the next...
So glad you have Aisha. You to are amazing together. Wish I was more like you two! You inspire me to change a lot in my life!
Greatful for finding your channel and you tough amazing girls. 💕👌
Love from me 😘❤♥❤♥❤♥
Wow Aisha really helped her as much as possible psychologically during this whole time. She always says really positive and supporting things. What a rock.
Aisha extended her life.
I need an Aisha in my life! She has just the right outlook for everything. Listen to her, she knows what she's talking about! Thinking of you both.
M C Amen ! We all need some Aisha in our lives !! And we are here for you as well Aisha ! You two are one and we LOVE U!!
Very good comment
M C Well said! I’ve always thought everyone needs an Aisha in their lives!
onelinkarmy yeah- you said it way better than I did!
Yeah, she is so positive and precious ♡
She lived a third of her life with Cancer, yet she kept strong and achieved.
Speech is better today, truly!
I would never have thought that when I started watching you that I would than be diagnosed with breast cancer. Emily, your response to your situation is helping me cope with the news I have been given - thank you.
A Gutfog10 ❤❤❤❤❤❤
A Gutfog10 ❤️
I hate this disease my best wishes to you
A Gutfog10 💗💗💗
A Gutfog 10 .. Emily has also given me strength through my diagnosis and on-going treatment.. hope all goes well with you ❤️xx
It pains me to see Em feeling like she was slipping away...like you could see how down she felt in herself about not being able to do as much as she used to...so brave of her to share these moments...I truly can empathise and i’m guilty of feeling the same at times as I have metastatic tumours in my brain...Em will always be such a blessing ✨...
I hope you’re doing well today John! x
Aisha you have a such a soft, sweet way about you. I would love to watch you have a you tube channel of your own one day. But, it could be about anything really. Life, outlooks, make-up. Maybe just advice on how to live a life full of kindness. Which is what you are.
Agreed 100%
Agree! ❤️
Rebekah Bridges-Tervydis i agree! She's very graceful.
A hints and tricks / what I’ve learnt kind of vloggy channel.
She is such a lovely human ☺️
If anyone wants to see what true love is, they need only look at you two. Sending love and prayers.
Em, I'm at a similar stage in my palliative care. I know how difficult it is to let go & accept our physical limitations. You're an amazingly strong & beautiful person ....remember that! Your soul is not limited in any way so stay positive & use whatever methods you need to in order to continue to live the highest quality of life. Im still praying for miracles for you... And for me.
Love you both so much.
Ke K God bless you Ke
I'm praying for you too Ke K🙏
Love to you, Ke K! Sending positive vibes and healthy feels. xx
A wheelchair isn’t a step back! I faint when I stand up & my knees can dislocate so my wheelchair has given me my life back! There’re also scooters on the motorbility scheme which you could probably get & you might feel more independent! 😊
Ps, I love seeing how supportive Aisha is and how open she is to anything that might help, you picked a good one Emily! 😊
Georgina's Journey I have a mobility chair as well, and I am doing two charity projects, work with cancer patients; work with elderly people that can't get out to shop. (I shop for them) I still can walk but have rumors in the back etc..not malignant thank god, but I get around just fine. There's an adjustment, sure as hell, but it challenges me to make the day(s) count more. But that has always been my personality... to stay active, and kick life in the butt joyfully!
H. Wolfe wow that’s amazing! You should be so proud of yourself! I’ll be able to start uni this September thanks to mine! :)
Sometimes we all have to make adjustments and if a wheel chair gives you more freedom and things to smile about then by all means do it!! You can't smell the flowers on the side of the road from inside the car, sweeties!
Linda Hicks completely agree! That’s a great way to look at it Linda! :)
Aisha, you truly are what all spouses should strive to be. While you have to be drowning and terrified inside, your love for Emily is overwhelmingly clear to us all as you only show such positivity and strength to Emily. I just love seeing how much you love her. Emily is so blessed to have you by her side and you Emily as well, obviously :) I'm thinking of you both and sending much love!
Christine Jarrett perfectly said!
Sad to see Em look so sad and just...defeated. I understand why and she has every right but it still breaks my heart. Love you both ❤
Thank you for checking in!!
I agree... her body is getting tired. You can see it in her eyes. Her speech is kinda off, she seemed kinda out of it!! But she is doing what she can and living how she wants to live with her wife!!
do you think its from pain meds, the sort of slurred speech? or the brain tumours, maybe both?
It does not matter what the exact cause is.
She's so brave. She knows that she's going to pass on; yet she still carries on. That's really tough
Hey ladies lovely to hear from you. Have you thought of borrowing an electric scooter in stead ?
That means you could be independent Emily as in controlling where and which way you want to go, Aisha can look amazing running after you if she can catch up !
Most shopping centres have them for loan or I’m sure an OT occupational therapist has access to one for a loan. You could attach your camera to the front like a body cam and give us a birds eye view of you out and about.
Seriously though it would get you out of the house as you have mentioned before you get stir crazy at home. At least that way you can hold a conversation with Aisha as you could walk and steer side by side rather than have to keep yelling if Aisha is pushing you and can’t hear each other. It’s not going backwards Emily try and think of it as just another way , a different way of going forwards together ?
Big hugs to you both xx
Holly Hocks And it could be the best scooter in the world. #PimpMyScootay
KungFuPlatypus just like the one in Minions with a basket at the front ! It would be fun for Emily which would be great for them both.
Holly Hocks Exactly, mobility scooters don't have to be drab. I'd have a furry seat, LED lights, a wee flag at the back. The whole shebang :)
amazing suggestion
Wonder how her balance is?
If she has a good balance this would be a great idea
She couldput cool stuff on the scooter give it some personality
It's interesting that Aisha is grateful for all of the support from viewers. I believe viewers are very grateful that Emily has so much support in Aisha. There are no words for how much these two inspire.
With all due respect for the frustration and feeling physically terrible, if I were facing what you are, I can’t imagine anyone better than Aisha to walk through it with. She’s so sensitive, respectful, intelligent, positive, and loving. Such a wonderful team! ❤️
Aisha is an angel on earth 😭😭😭😭 I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOO MUCH!!! You are constantly on my mind and in my heart💚
I really don’t think you girls actually understand how important these daily vlogs are to the world.
Not only because of selfish desires we have to see you, as we’ve grown to love you, but also to the world in general, to educate on the ups and downs of life, and life with cancer.
This footage gives clear and honest insight into the daily changes.
Aisha, your kind, constantly considerate support of Emily gives all loved ones of a cancer patient true guidance.
Emily, you do you, whatever you feel like is right, documenting when you feel able, with honesty is all you need do as you are legendary at it.
Life couldn’t have picked better ambassadors than you two. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Whenever I need motivation, I come back to this channel and rewatch Emily's vlogs. The tragedy of her passing hit me hard, but I'm thankful that her videos are still up. She truly was an inspiration with an unbreakable spirit, fighting against the odds every day. Despite her declining health, she was relentless and kept pushing herself, pushing her limits. Her strength of will and determination are unparalleled. She was a superwoman who embodied optimism and positivity, a true example to us all. Emily, you are a legend who will never be forgotten. Rest in peace.
Aisha is the most supportive encouraging AMAZING human being ever!! Emily I'm so glad you went out, don't feel bad about wheel chair get out and about you wheel it around till you need it! It's doing what ya have to your strength and tenacity is AMAZING! !
Amazing couple XXX think your both lovely warm people xx
It amazes me how loving and sweet the comments are. In a world where people scream and hate. YOU two brought out the best...♡♡♡
Suzanne Bryson love this comment.. great observation
Kristi Martinez ♡♡
Aisha is the most positive person ever and she's so right in what she says - give yourself credit, you're doing amazingly. Sending love x
I often wonder if Aisha watches these now.... I do. I still come here and watch at least one video a day.
Aisha you are a diamond! The way you are taking care of Em and make her laugh is just amazing
Emily's 6/10 is for most people more like 1/10, such a trooper.
El Astronaute Yep so true
Emily a wheelchair is NOT giving up freedom it's to help you experience MORE with your wife when the body needs a little more support! I understand you're frustration and it's totally valid just try seeing the positive in it. Thank you for sharing today ❤
Aisha TRULY has a WONDERFUL positive spirit!😍
wifey material l0l
She is amazing! They both are. Xx
I'm with Aisha - going to Tesco, Sainsburys, Boots, Barclays or anywhere, is a victory.
You're both great - big love & I hope you enjoy the weekend :)
Love you girls keep strong! Xxxx
Yep I have social anxiety and going outside even to target or the park always help my mood
I think she would benefit and could distract her
K 13 Glad to hear that getting out helps your mood and good on you for pushing through your anxiety!
Sophie Hamilton
Thanks Sophie I'm much better now that last year
Luv that now I can do that stuff without being paralyzed by my anxiety
Aisha is an angel! I cried watching this.... Always took a step back from the vlogging and reluctantly popped her head in now and again! Now she’s erudite and stepping in just at the right time in a non condescending way! I was floored to be honest. So much love as always to you both ❤️❤️
Your mind is so razor sharp Emily! I understand the total frustration when your body just won’t cooperate. I pray that you get your strength back soon! 🙏
EMILY EVERYTIME I WATCH YOUR VLOG...YOU MAKE ME WANT TO BE A BETTER HUMAN BEING...YOU REALLY DO....GOD BLESS YOU..💪💯
Just love you both!! Keep going Emily we all believe in you 💓
I understand this video was made close to the time she passed on, but in the last 3 or 4 videos there is a far away look in her eyes, she doesn't look the same. I guess it could have been the morphine and the pain, it was so quick, just 2 months after the wedding. Dam disease stole her vitality at the end. She was amazingly brave. Rip sweet Emily 💖
Exactly how I was thinking. Im rewatching everything now and saw her light starting to dim in the last couple videos. Especially when she bows her head speechlessly in her responses to comments as if she knows its happening. I hate it. I dont believe she recieved the best care, their "prognosis" was kinda the same for a year and 1/2 like they had no other resources to try. I really wish she had seen other doctors for second and even third opinions Its selfish but I feel like if she would have beaten this going with an oncology team who could say more than they did.
@@lamunecamuerta7380 I'm wondering if she could have gotten second opinions or opted for other treatments with the healthcare system in the U.K.. I don't live there, so not sure how that works. Not trying to criticize the system there at all, so please everyone, not trying to offend anyone. I know that even here in the USA, some private insurance plans, don't cover certain treatments, and are not accepted by all doctors or hospitals. Does anyone who lives in the UK know if she could have explored other options? She fought a long, hard battle, and I applaud her bravery. May this beautiful soul RIP. 😢💔
I was wondering how long after her marriage she left.When I STARTED watching i didnt even realize she had already passed..What a shame.. she wad amazing motivator A'S an her TOGETHER could done so much.
la muneca muerta once it’s terminal and in the brain there isn’t much anyone can do. Only thing that allows some people more time is how fast the growth rate is. She said it time and time again that she was lucky for how little of symptoms she had.
Aisha is a perfect partner. She's so motivating and keeps Emily's spirits up! Don't think the wheelchair is a step back Em, you won't be losing your freedom, you'll be gaining it! You'll be able to get out and enjoy some time away from the house instead of just staying in or going out and becoming utterly exhausted, so Aisha is right. She's taking good care of you. Take care Em. We're all behind you! ☺
Emily and Aisha changed me as a human. I didnt understand the gay thing before, but its as beautiful(maybe even more) than what we consider normal.What a wonderful partner Aisha....what burst of positiveness....what absolute commitment....you guys changed my views on relationship, life, death...and my belief that I kniw best....
You are so blessed to have such a good wife....God Bless you Emily
Aisha, I wish I had been able to be HALF the caregiver that you are. Sending all the healing energy I can to you both.
Aw Em, I still think you're doing great. I can imagine how frustrated you are with everything at the moment, but don't give up. I was watching back some of your old vlogs today, and I know that girl with the positivity and fire is still there! :) Just take it one day at a time. Aisha is such an angel, and I wish both of you all the best. We love you guys so much! xxx
I have never been so touched by this beautiful soul. It is pushing myself to become a better person mentally and physically. I hope everyone has a Aisha in their life. . I know you’ve been gone over a yes but you are still touching peoples lives. All my love to you both.
Kudos to Aisha for being so strong and supportive 💖
Couldn’t have put it better then Jo Cannon Emily, I am 40 yrs old, been happily married for 17yrs to my husband (my Aisha) and have 3 children. I have an autoimmune disease and am disabled and so I used to be a less involved with my family before I subbed to your channel. I was more easily talked into going for a rest or a lie down rather than playing with my children or just spending time doing simple things like colouring in or making Lego with them. You have inspired me to make the most of every second as their childhood is going by so quickly, so now I do colouring/Lego/reading/homework etc in bed if necessary BUT I do it and that is thanks to you.
Thank you for giving me a purpose again. Thank you for giving my 3 children their mummy back. Thank you for sharing your life, your good days and your bad days with us.
You truly are a Fallen Angel as you give so much to so many and what you give is priceless.
People remember you for how you make them feel and you will never, ever be forgotten by me (or the thousands of other lives you have touched).
Keep going gorgeous girl. We are all with you and Aisha willing and loving you guys on.
Big love always, Oshie Dot Xxx
Oh its made my day that you have posted! Listen, Im a radio presenter and "voices" are my speciality...your speech is good..its strong and if you slur well , half the time its only you Emily , that knows it. Besides..we all talk too much...myself included..Speak only whats worth hearing..thats my motto
Ditto. I'm American (I've got that upper Midwest accent) and the accent I'm used to hearing is obviously different from yours. I haven't noticed any change in your speech.
Emily I love you because you are an amazing woman ❤️ and Aisha you are the most supportive wife anyone would dream of❤️😊 God bless you
Emily I hate seeing what I see in your beautiful eyes. Please don’t give up!🙄😥
Sondra Cumberland - NO ONE GIVES UP. CANCER DOES’NT BEAT ANYONE, THAT’S THE NATURE OF THE “BEAST”.
Sweetheart, low blood pressure is shitty, and it will make you display all the symptoms you are right now, because your body is fighting harder to do everything, including talk ( tho I know you know all that ), so what Aisha says is absolutely true...to be getting up and about and going out doing stuff is wonderful, and testament to your underlying fitness...you are courageous and strong, and your continued commitment to letting us in to your daily struggles does not go without gratitude from this community...nor without love ❤
Big hooj enormous love to you both...keep tearing the arse out if it kiddo xx
I’m a nurse in USA and I can tell you, I often have patients with very low blood pressure and will put them in the Trendelenburg position (head down feet up) for even just 15 minutes and it increases the blood pressure quite a bit. Just make sure your feet are above your heart level. The idea is to get your blood to flow toward your heart/head. Hope this helps! You both are in my prayers daily! ❤️
Anyone who has an Aisha in their lives is truly blessed! You are doing great Em. I had a spiral femur fracture and was told if I were 5 years older, I would spend the rest of my life in a nursing home. I ended up working my ass off and can walk. But there are many times my leg cannot keep up and a wheelchair is really a blessing in disguise. I've never thought of it as a step back, we are not the same as we were in the past, but when energy is down, they are a life saver. Love seeing you out like this, I love that pink in your cheeks!
If I didn't have a wheel chair I wouldn't leave the house. My wheelchair is a tool it isn't me it doesn't define me and it won't define you, it will be a great aid. Also My hubby got me got out to Tesco the other day. Bumped into friends and had an impromptu lunch down our local links by the sea. All thanks to my wheel chair. Please don't be scared of the chair it's a great tool. Big hugs
Exactly that's all it is, an aid.
marvelousmillie, Well said. :)
Hi. So sad that darling Emily has now left us, but just to say Im also a full time wheelchair user and its been my lifesaver, Without it I would be completely lost because Im single and alone most of the time so Im very lucky that mine is a power chair so Im independent. Emily will be so missed. Peace xxx
The look of horror "Where's it gone?!" 😂😂 That's like me when the kids nick my stuff lol xxx
Love you both loads 😘 xx
connie baldwin it was the split second look of panic that I know so well 😁 xx
Aisha has the most awesome outlook and advice. She can literally see positive in any situation. What a blessing she is. Thanks for the update.
Emily, I wish I could take away all the pain in your eyes. You are such an amazing fighter! I'm so proud of you for being so strong! Girl you really are showing Cancer who is boss, it is not slowing you down! You got this girl. And Aisha is a blessing and incredibly supportive. May yall both be happy always because yall deserve it. Many prayers and hugs. 💪❤ #CancerCantWin #KickCancer
Emily's whole journey has really made me evaluate my own life. The amount she fitted in to such a short time. The cancer was relentless, so rarely did she have any positive news yet she seemed to just sail through it all and make the most of every minute. Really inspirational and puts everything in perspective. All she really wanted was more time to do the things she loved and be with the people she loved. What she'd have given for another week or month... yet she was grateful for every minute she had. All of our little problems seem so insignificant in comparison.
El Astronaute ❤️ I don't think I've ever seen anyone with more will to live. That's what flashes in my mind every time I catch myself wasting time or not appreciating everything around me. Emily wanted to live SO much and I feel a responsibility to honor her by making the most of my life and showing gratitude always. I'm forever indebted to her. What a glorious legacy she created.
All our problems really are insignificant if you're facing death, not next year but next week.
You ladies are powers of example on how to conduct yourself with honor, dignity, and positivity under difficult circumstances. Thank you for being role models to us all!
I’m just so sad about this ... I keep watching old vids ❤️
AISHA’S INSIGHT 😍😍😍It’s unreal! Love you both and great to see you getting out!!! I thought Emily’s speech was better today and she said more 💜
So, so precious. Both of you, dear, precious, inspirational superwomen. My hat is off to you, love from northern British Columbia, Canada.
I freaking love you guys keep it up and Em get a mobility scooter and pimp the feck outta it!
London Afro Vegan Recipes they have one that looks like a Harley and I want it myself. there awesome! at least we'll have some style lol. I have a jazzy right now it's got aronotic seating..it's the greatest.
Yes! This! 😍 xxx
I used these stickers on my chair. www.hippymotors.co.uk
Aisha maybe in the future when you see the light at the end of this tunnel then you should look into being a support worker for those who element through what Emily did. You kept her strong for so long and you kept her living. You were such a positive impact on her. Emily I miss your videos already. I miss your face. I keep looking still to see if you have put up a video then I remember. I hope your resting em after what you have gone through... knowing you you will have found pure gym in heaven. Lots of love to you both xx
Hi you two!
I am so glad you updated us. I find myself thinking about you often, wondering how you are feeling. I'm so glad you have Aisha there for you Emily.
God bless you both! ❤
Aisha knows just what to say... you married the perfect woman Em.
I’ve been house bound for 9months because of medical reasons and my first outing was to Tesco lol I didn’t go in I just sat in the car. I was so happy just to be out. I know not being free to do what you want is frustrating and horrible but even just little things that seem stupid to most people can seem huge to you! Aisha is such a positive person and like she said you achieve more today then you could of last week so always look at it like an achievement! ❤️
It was so hard to watch Emily struggle like this because she had always been so upbeat and positive. What a fighter she was 😢
Nice to see you Emily and Aisha! A pleasure to be part of your lives.
Never, ever, could have imagined that I could be so deeply touched, so moved, by two absolute strangers that I had never met even once. And I could add.. so inspired and motivated!! And my gosh, such an incredibly courageous and unified force you see in Emily and Aisha!! Emily had such a Vibrant and Pulsating energy....WHAT a Life-force! And Aisha, ..her personal Angel and Rock!
You both are beautiful inside and out. Aisha no makeup needed. Thanks for the short vlog to give us an update. Stay positive. Prayers from the USA!
Denise Gillit totally agree she is a beautiful girl inside and out, if I was that gorgeous I’d never wear makeup.....sadly I’m not! 😆😆😆
I don't know if the two of you truly realize what an inspiration you have been to so many people. Aisha...you as the caregiver. Always positive...always with that bright, beautiful smile...always making the best with how Emily feels each day, giving her your encouragement and words of wisdom (in my house, they have come to be known as "Aishaisms")...always giving her your unconditional love and support...always being her rock...the epitome of what a partner does for the person they love. And you dear, sweet, beautiful Emily...the person who has been battling this horrible disease for years, but has done so with courage that even the bravest men/women do not know...the way you have bounced back from every single piece of bad news you have been given and the way you treat every piece of good news as the greatest victory...the strength you have shown to us all in your resolution of accepting your diagnosis/prognosis, while insisting that you are going to fight and defy the odds for as long as you can...your sheer determination that you have not and will not let the cancer define who you are and that you are going to live your life your way...and you have done all these things with tremendous humility and grace. There are people here from all over the world, and while most do not know you personally, we have all come to care for you both a great deal. We continue to hope and pray for a miracle, but know that whatever the future holds, you both have left an indelible mark in the minds and hearts of all of us.
Aralynn2023
I hope that Aisha comes back to these vlogs and re reads the comments. I hope that they would be a source of comfort to her, and help her know how much she and Emily helped so many people.
I know the thought of being out in a wheelchair feels like a step in the wrong direction...my sweetheart Emily, but it's much better to be OUT in one than having to STAY IN because you have not got much strength and feel exceptionally weak. Believe me, darling I've been there. If you feel once you are in it that you feel strong enough to walk for a while, get out and push it and that will give you support too. You are such an incredibly courageous young lady and your strength of fight is most admirable and totally amazes me every day. Having your beautiful wife Aisha by your side delights me knowing how well she looks after you and encourages you every second of every day. You are both a perfect complement of each other...she's the flip to your flop, your sea to your ocean, your peanut to your butter, but most of all she's the love of your life. Keep strong beautiful ladies. Love you both millions xx😍😘😍xx
I'm a wheelchair and scooter user. It really opens up the world to me again and lets me do things with my kids. My main issues are fatigue, balance and pain, and I've been ill for twelve years now, in slow decline. I slur when I'm tired too, I know it's frustrating to not be able to do things as normal, but if something enables you to keep doing things, it's not really a bad thing or a failure on your part. It's doing the best with what you've got. Xxx
We love you Emily and Aisha! 🌹❤️
Just had to say,by the way....you girls don't realise just how much you've captured people's hearts.
I came upon your channel by chance and I've gone from watching it just kind of like a soap opera to actually wondering during the day if you've posted and how you both are.
You really are an amazing couple with loads of folk sending love,wishing they could do more .
You certainly have a very special place in my heart xxxxxxx
Your speech is good. It was a bit slurred in the beginning, but I think Aisha is right, if it’s not important you aren’t concentrating on it. It was perfect through the rest of the video. You said something like “short, snappy segments” which is hard to say in the best of circumstances. I was laughing when you said it. Your brain cells are working perfectly. Hope you have a good day. Maybe your energy will improve. I don’t know about the wheelchair. It depends how tired you get walking I guess. I’d probably stick to walking even a short distance as long as I could. Anyway, it’s always lovely to see you both and happy you can still smile and laugh. Thanks for making the vlog. We all appreciate it so much. Oh you actually said “short, sharp snippets; “ that’s even harder.
Aisha you are the sweetest wife to Emily !!! You come across so uplifting , patient and kind. You both were meant to be with each other during this challenging time. Loads of love
Aisha's right, my husband talks like that to me when he's uninterested😴 Love you both and Emily you're leaps and bounds better than you were a week ago. Give yourself some credit. Thanks for the update, love and prayers from Missouri, USA 🙏 ❤️
Emily you are doing great. Don't let the frustration bring you down. I know it's difficult but look at what you can do not at what you can't , however small your achievements try to thrive of them and never apologize for anything to do with the symptoms you are coping with. Sending you both strength and serenity.
You are doing so incredibly well Emily most people would give up but you haven't and you should be so proud of yourself and how you have handled your illness, Aisha is amazingly supportive and you both are the perfect couple ment to be together love to you both 💕💕
I agree with Aisha!!
How many people wallow in their own self pity because of minor ailments.
Then there's you... fighting cancer and still managing to get up, ready for life and face the day... even if that does mean a trip to the shops!! You're doing amazingly!!! You are an inspiration xxxx
Aisha you are so amazing! the support and upbeat spirit within you is so great. Emily you look better then your previous post, your body is fighting a big fight, don't apologize for your speech or anything else. YOU are still here, MARRIED to a beautiful women ( who needs no make-up) and have so much love and support from around the world Hugs to you both
Aisha is literally your medicine! Love you two so much, keep smiling and keep fighting Em, you’re a champ and an absolute legend ❤️
I think a wheelchair would help you with your freedom because it would allow you to rest when you need to but still get out and about. I get you might feel funny about it but it's not admitting defeat, it's just accepting some help 😘
Ash well said hun
The best advice I can give in regards to using a wheelchair is this; it’s not there to stop you moving forward, it’s there to allow you to keep your independence at a point where otherwise you would stop all together. I avoided using one for years and that resulted in me missing out on time with my loved ones, not leaving the house and staying isolated when my family would go out and it made me miserable. I finally gave in and rented one for a big family holiday where we would cruise the world and it changed my life for the better. I didn’t miss out on a damn thing and I got to see how beautiful this earth is and cherish every moment with my wonderful family. I’m not using it any more as right now it’s not necessary for me, but I will forever be thankful for the independence it gave me at a time I needed it most :) it’s not giving up, it’s going forward and refusing to miss out! Much love Emily and Aisha!!
Sending you hugs from 🇺🇸 . 💖💖💖
I am 42 years old...and I just want to adopt BOTH of you!!! The tenderness you show one another melts my heart. I wish for every single person in the universe to have at least one person in their lives to care for and look out for them like you girls do! XOXOXOXO Love, MaryKate (MK)
I think that wheelchairs wouldn’t be a bad thing. It doesn’t take away freedom, for those who need it, it brings their freedom.
Great point. God bless.
Aisha. So much wisdom in what you say. Em. I say go for the w/c when out so your body isn’t fatigued and you can enjoy you outings without worrying about being tired and needing to sit. Not going back, thinking ahead of what you want to enjoy. Love you both. 🙏🏼💖😘
God has sent u a wonderful wife . Just remember Emily , your going to get depressed and sad and feel like giving up and she is going to be ur biggest motivator she is gunna drill the happy into you . You will appreciate it when the depression or sadness creeps off !! You seem so down lately ☹️ I pray for you and have my husband pray for you .
Brittany Kidwill she is down, because she is as sick as a person can be, the body produces chemicals and such that causes depression. We all have a death gene, the death gene knows exactly what it’s doing. She is SICK, not exactly a down that she can lift up.
There is no giving up in dying from cancer...she has no choice in the matter, it has been chosen for her. It is good for Aisha to be positive around her and to keep her feeling as good as possible, but of course she is down lately, she is watching her own life slip away from her and is having to face her mortality. That she chooses to share a video during this time is amazing, so we are going to see her down and sad. I challenge anyone on the very last leg of their journey to the other side, to feel anything but down.
I understand why she is sad and possibly why. I am a nurse . Thank you for the extra information .
I really hope that it's not her last leg of her journey though...
We all wish it wasn't Marion, we all wish that a sudden miracle would come along. I am just speaking from experience is all.x
Emily and Aisha i am so in awe of the maturity, the love,the care, the patience,you two show each other on a daily basis. Please write a book some day, on living a life of selflessness. Your lives are so real, raw, honest, inspiring. The meaning of love that is true!😍 Big love from the ATX😘
Emily would have given up about this time if not for Aisha. She helped her live life as much as possible during the time she had left. I would have given up. Amazing. Her body wasn’t working and couldn’t maintain blood pressure and O2 levels.
I had the wheelchair battle in my head too . I'm stage 4 breast cancer, with Mets in bones. I've got two kids and if I wanted to do things with them, i need the chair. It's not all the time. It's just another tool to help me be "normal" and do "normal stuff".
Keep your chin up chick, you are amazing and have an amazing support crew. xx
Her gf is such a rock. Must be just so tough for her having to be so strong while watching someone u love go through this. 2amazing girls!!!
When I had chemo I was the same way. The doctor called it chemo brain. A brain fog. I found myself getting word wrong. I'd get ahead in my thinking and my words would come out wrong, if that makes any sense. Sometimes I'd forget things. I was aggravated with myself. Tiredness was a big issue. Sometimes just couldn't go. I didn't have the energy. Since the cancer I was in a coma and find it hard to go distances. I've considered a scooter so I could go more. I have a grandson with autism and I'd like to take him to a zoo or Disney World,but to much walking right now for me. It's not fair to him to not be able to take him somewhere to enjoy himself. Being in the house is no fun for him all day. Walking any airport would be impossible for me right now. I don't like being like this but I'm trying to do better. It's hard and a struggle at times. I can understand where you're coming from. I'm sorry your not feeling good and strong. A scooter would coserve your energy and you'd still be able to go places. Maybe you'll get feeling better after some of the treatment your going through. During treatment it's bad I know. I got inner ear damage with chemo and started walking and I'd walk into people or bump off walls. Started losing my balance. Would fall. They made me use a cane. I went to therapy for it. They said they couldn't cure it, I'd have to adjust. I even had vertigo. It was bad. I took severe fibromyalgia out of having cancer. They can't cure it either.Told me sometimes you can get it after a life threatening illness. It's painful. I ended up getting to much lyrics and it stopped my kidneys and other organs followed. That's what put me in a coma. The side effects of chemo are not good but the option of not taking it are not good either. Your both in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless.
Fuck me I am going to use my gym membership in honour of Emily ….. what a girl ….. what a shame. So sad. RIP young lady.
I have to say you have made me think about the way I spend my time and how I could be doing more. You don't know me but these past few months you have deeply touched me with your bravery and fighting spirit. Thank you for your videos.
Darling. I just love you. Both of you. You are doing so well. Don't be down in yourself. I know your mind wants to be out there doing things, but the body is not cooperating, but you have done so well. Extremely well. Now's the time to relax more and enjoy your personal time with your loved ones. Embrace those moments. I wish you love and happiness, peace of mind. And so much love sent your way. Love from Tess in Ireland
I am chronically sick and had the shower chair debate for so long. I was convinced I would be giving in or not moving forward if I allowed myself to sit and shower but then I did it and realized that not only the mental torture before a shower lessened but I took more showers and eventually I was feeling all around a little better day by day because every SINGLE THING YOU CAN DO TO MAKE YOUR LIFE less painful helps your body get better...heal...
So much love! You two are perfect for one another. You look much better today em, just take each day as it comes ❤️ xxx
R.I.P dear Emily 🌸❤️
I'd say definitely get a wheelchair!! It might seem like a step back but that's only because you've attached those negative connotations to it in your mind? It's only another piece of medicine - this time its outwardly helping your body instead of internally like the drugs/medicine? If it's the difference between sitting inside or being out in the sunshine having a good day then go for it! Just a different way of getting about - and you can get up and walk about out of it if you're in a park etc - you're not trapped!
Remember this: you have encouraged thousands THOUSANDS of people!! Both of you! You both remind me how to CARE more, and how to be grateful more!!! You are SO loved and HIGHLY respected!!! Mad mad respect! Thank you for being transparent and for allowing us to see the real life of caring for someone who has cancer and being someone with cancer. We love you loads! LOADS!
Don't diss your daily trip out no matter how trivial. I was to proud to go into my wheelie legs rendering me house bound for 10 months. Using a wheel chair is merely utilizng a tool to enhance your quality of life, thereby defining your existence rather than the cancer setting your limits. I implore you to consider it, use it and visit a gym and do what you love. P.s. your speech is still good and as Aiesha stated it's clear when you are saying the important stuff. I find distracting my hands whilst talking improves my speech. Remember just because you are differently abided, it does not disable you from enjoying your life. Angels encamped around you and yours.
As a complete stranger who has followed your story, it's bullocks seeing what cancer is doing to you, you are an inspiration, regardless off the end result you have made a fucking difference. 💗💗💗