I’m so sick of the narrative that people are fat-phobic because they want to lose weight. Not everyone feels good being overweight. Not everyone is ok with being overweight. It doesn’t make you fat-phobic. It’s your body, you do what makes you feel your best.
Yes! I was telling my boyfriend this same thing. I feel unbelievably uncomfortable being overweight and it’s not because I’m fat phobic😂 it’s because I’m literally uncomfortable in my own skin. When I’m overweight it’s because I’m eating like garbage. And when I eat like garbage it makes me mentally sick feeling also it effects my moods and everything. It’s a domino effect. There’s nothing wrong with being aware of your own weight.
I have been very thin and very heavy. I didn't think I looked good either way. But I am very uncomfortable at the weight I am now. I have scoliosis and I actually feel like my gut is weighing on my spine and pulling it towards more of a curved/swayback position. There are many things about the weight that are uncomfortable, just speaking from my own experience.
“I cannot care. I mean, I care.” I feel this so deeply. I talk myself into not caring about my weight so that I can get relief from overwhelming emotions. I’m ready to care again.
Same here. The only thing that has helped has been cold showers and daily apple cider vinegar shots. It sounds crazy but I feel like it resets my central nervous system. The willpower has been such a struggle.
I'm really enjoying these less filtered videos, more like how lots of youtube used to be. The less polished realness of just hanging out is so comforting. Also from one gal struggling to another with aaaaallllll this same stuff including the family loss - thank you for sharing, not feeling alone is refreshing 💕
I’m here to remind you of how STOKED you were when you first rode your peloton with Cody. I feel like you had legit JOY. I love you so much and always appreciate your transparency. Love to your sister as well.
I am so sorry for your sister. Five years ago I lost a baby at 38 weeks and it was beyond devastating. It took me about 9 months to feel myself again. I never thought I would feel joy again. Thankfully I did. It was hard on the whole family. Thinking of you all!
@michelledillman I am SO sorry to hear that. That must have been so difficult for you to go through and come out of and I’m sure you struggle with it to this day but I pray you find peace and comfort at times as well. ❤
I've gained 80lbs since Covid-19! I was doing SO well then Covid-19 hit and I became lethargic, anxious, and lazy. I'm really struggling physically but my mental health has been a priority and gotten better. It's a hard balance. I feel all you said!
I gained 60lbs. Since January of last year I lost 41lbs. I saw a nutritionist, got food sensitivity tests, found out I have celiacs, changed my entire way of eating (my old way want bad, just not right for me. I needed to eat more, but more as in adding in a TON of veggies and lean protein).
Kristi your timing is amazing... I am literally waking up this morning on the first day of trying not to eat my emotions. I'm sitting here watching this video with a cup of tea and some hard boiled eggs, and was feeling really by myself in the sadness that got me here when I stumbled upon this upload. THANK YOU. Wishing you the best in your habit building, we got this.
I completely relate to being thinnest at my lowest point mentally. So many compliments on how great I looked, but all that weight loss was fueled by my poor mental health and high anxiety. You can definitely make a healthier change in your lifestyle! I'm also on a journey to get my mindset right towards food for myself and my family. The balance of a "sustainable" lifestyle is such a challenge for me, coming from a "diet culture" childhood, but we definitely have the power to make healthy changes for ourselves! We deserve it. :)
When COVID hit, I had major mental health issues and I lost a ton of weight. The food insecurity has me saving the food for my kid's. My mental health got better and I was able to keep the weight off. Then my mom passed away back in May and I started eating and still haven't stopped. I'm aware of the old habits but I just can't pull out of it. It's a total struggle
I also had food scarcity during COVID and struggled with overeating when my mom passed in 2021. It's soooo hard. I think part of it is just accepting that gaining weight in grief is normal. It's also normal to gain weight after food scarcity, our bodies are trying to keep us going after a hard time. I'm almost 3 years out and I'm able to eat more intuitively again. For me it started doing 5 minute stretch videos by Yoga with Bird with the intention of just being with myself (not losing weight at all). I would just cry and let it out and sit with whatever thoughts would come up. You will be okay, it just takes time.
@@sarahs1212 Thank you for commenting, I think I'll check out that yoga. It's something I've been thinking about trying. I'm sorry you lost your mom, but I'm also glad to hear you're doing better. Gives me some hope. 💓
I immediately gained weight when my sister suddenly died in 2019, then covid hit a few months later, then i had back to back babies in Nov 2020/Jan 2022. I have put on weight i can NOT get off and i feel so hopeless.
@@nattyophelia7879 I'm so sorry for your loss. Grief is hard, throw in all those hormone fluctuations and I can totally understand your situation. I'm sure you'll find your way out. We all will!
Dude.. as a PCOS girly I cannot tell you how life changing going to a good endocrinologist was for me. Balancing my hormones and getting my thyroid in check (while also taking vitamin b12 and D) was the best thing I could've done to help me lose weight. 10/10 highly recommend. Thank you for being so vulnerable!
Kristi, Y'all moved into cozy woods and subconsciously you've become Goldilocks with the bears. All the comforts of home, a roaring fire, wonderful pj's and fabulous bedding. All I would want is food and hibernation!
Hey there sweet lady, thank you for speaking so openly with us and being a relatable queen. I’m so horribly sorry for your loss and I’m carrying your whole family in my heart. I’ve been a nurse for 10 years, and my specialty is OB. I am forever changed by the loss I’ve witnessed. It wasn’t even my personal or family loss, but the loss haunts me still. It is one of the most incomprehensibly painful things to experience in this life. I just want you to know that you and your sister and your family are NOT alone. You and your family are important, and cherished, and valuable lights in the world. I just wanted to send you a massive virtual hug. This is one of the hardest things ever, and it’s ok not to be ok. Love and hugs and prayers and through the to all of you ❤
Kristi. I needed this video more than you know. It is so good to know that I am not alone. My weight has gone up and down my whole adult life and I literally and so tired of the rollercoaster. When I am stressed I have the constant urge to eat to physically fill this void in the pit of my stomach and as a result I have gained all the weight I have worked so hard to lose earlier this year. I am exhausted of this constant struggle and I am so tired of the “food noise”. All I think about is eating. Thank you for sharing, we all need to know that we are not alone.
Man.. you sound just like me. My weight went up and up over several yrs.. I was in a DEEP depression, I had to sell my nail salon and stop working all together by 2016/2017.. just struggling with my mental health along with health issues, to the point that I was at my highest weight ever at the end of 2020. I was 197!! Me? What? Yesss.. 197lbs 😱🥺☹️🤨🤔😥 Then something just clicked in my brain or the stars aligned or Santa came idk but in Feb of 2021 I got on my treadmill.... and all of a sudden in July I had lost 65lbs! Then I proceeded to gain most of it back in 2022 and now 2023. I had worked sooo hard. No one can understand the disgusting way I feel when I look at myself. (sorry this is so long) but honest to goodness I was just like this minute, doing that whole cycle of looking in the mirror, changing clothes and hating myself ONLY to walk into the kitchen pop on RUclips and grab 3 reeses peanut butter cups 😒 Is it not crazy that this video was the first thing I saw? Just let me say.. I adore Kristi and I'm grateful for the amazing ppl in the comments 💛
I’m a nurse and I took my first hospital job last February. I relate to this so much. The work environment and the demands with zero resources are absolutely brutal. Every time I finish a 12 hour shift the only thing that makes me feel better is eating. I put on jeans today for the first time in months & it was not a good time 😢
Jeans are overrated anyways, but I totally get how you feel ❤ I too work long days and have a toddler… and for about two whole years after birthing him I was stuffing my face after a long shift. I didn’t even realize I was doing it! I’ve since stopped the nightly binge , but haven’t lost the weight yet. You’re not alone, girly! So many of us are going through the same things. Love the community this channel has created ❤
I just switched to remote work after nearly ten years of nursing/nurse-midwifery.. it's only been a few weeks and I already feel like a different and better person. I highly recommend looking - the healthcare environment is getting worse.
I lost 40 pounds when I started in the ICU. Everything was like dust in my mouth and I ate like a bird. After years I finally got back to normal but recently I changed jobs and the anxiety has me eating EVERYTHING this time.
This was so vulnerable and honest. I’ve gone through similar weight struggles and it’s very defeating. But I really appreciate you sharing this. And 100% meal prepping IS A LIFESAVER. be prepared for how much time/work you must dedicate to it. But when you do and you keep the prepping/planning on track it makes a huge difference with overeating and all that. Good luck!
I do EMDR and it’s life-changing. I was doing regular therapy and thought it was fine until I faced a trigger of something I thought I had dealt with. I went through it from beginning to end with my EMDR therapist and saw how much more I needed to deal with. I highly suggest it.
I've considered that for a minute! There are thoughts I struggle with - nothing gross, just grief, and three intrusive thoughts that come and go. I would really like to lessen the grief intensity, maybe I wil give this a shot!
@@amberws7468 After seeing the results my moms had I’ve been seriously contemplating going too. I don’t have the same kind of trauma but I think it would still help. I say go for it! 😊👍
I found you years ago bc makeup. Today I'm in a totally different place in my life and I love that you are too AND creating content about it. Just as excited about this clean with me as I was back in the day watching you slay makeup looks ❤ Thanks for being you!
I’m almost 2 years into my journey and have lost 60lbs. What I can tell you worked for me is to avoid fast food, try to exercise at least 3 days a week, strength training is important especially when you are short 5’4” and shorter. It is a slow gradual thing. I just make it part of my list of things I have to do because I know it’ll make me feel better physically and mentally. Eating enough protein is also very important if you want to stay satiated.
I just want to say that I started EMDR therapy after seeing one of your stories about it and it HAS CHANGED MY LIFE. Thank you so much for sharing everything that’s going on in your life, I’m sure you’re helping more people than you could ever know 🤗
Hey Anna, that’s great to hear. Ive been thinking about trying it, as nothing else has worked for me to help my nervous system. Could I ask what you feel changed from it and how many sessions did you have to feeling like it made a difference? I know everyone is different but I can’t find many relevant reviews online.. Thanks in advance!
@@feyrechihro7247please give it a shot. I combine EMDR with IFS and I am making huge progress. I hope it works for you! It’s working wonders for me! It takes time. Like it won’t be three sessions, or five sessions. And you can jump from one event to another and while going through some things you might have to double back. However my therapist suggested 12-24 months in EMDR therapy. It also depends on how hard and how deep you can go. I have a very large window of affect tolerance so I can dig really deep. Depending on your own window of affect tolerance, it may take longer to get comfortable with your stories and alter the narrative that you have developed for yourself.
@@feyrechihro7247I started EMDR at the end of September and it’s been great! I’ve only done two sessions of the actual processing and the rest was my therapist getting to know all of my traumas we have to work through. She taught me a lot of coping skills and methods to help with anxiety. But the process of going through the trauma can of course be hard. It’s kind of hard to explain but we started with the first memory I have and worked through it, and in one session I know longer feel any emotional connection to the memory. Afterwards you might feel anxious but the coping skills help. I would HIGHLY recommend it, it’s hard work but so worth it! Apologies for this long reply lol
@@feyrechihro7247it is so different for everybody and it depends on how much trauma you have. You need several sessions to “uninstall” your trauma and then sessions to “reinstall” positive cognitions. I’d plan on 3-6 months of sessions on average, that is just my personal singular experience
Oh and one book I loved was called “Nourishing Wisdom” by Marc David - it’s the gentlest book about releasing weight I’ve ever read, it’s kinda deep but I think it’s powerful and really speaks to the root of overeating - he has a whole organization that might be helpful for you too (Institute for the Psychology of Eating). He has a podcast too that’s very sweet, helping people learn how to best help themselves.
Kristi…. Thank you so much for making these videos. I’m so over people showing the fake perfection and it makes me feel non relatable. I’m tired of people saying “omg this is a mess” and it’s like a few toys on the ground. You are Raw Beauty Kristi for a reason. You are Raw and beautiful. I appreciate you and your strength and your realness and positivity. Because even if you’re in the rough the positive thing is that you keep going and trying be proactive with your problems. I have two kids and feel the same as you. I feel like I’m in a perpetual mess and weight and positive mindset and everything is so hard but I’m at it everyday trying to do the best I can. Much love ❤️❤️
clicked so fast, i am in a rut with my weight loss right now especially relating to the “self sabotage.” mostly the ppl around me don’t care to lose weight or make it a priority like i do… feeling not alone through this journey is important. i am with you, and i’m sure many others are with you as well. good luck on your journey to just simply feeling better.
Remember that fat loss is a long term project. You will have f-ups but it is important to not give up. The microbiome stuff you had in the video is very important. Try to shoot for diverse foods so that your microbiome can transform. Don't take food out of your diet, put food in. Gradually add more vegetables and fruits. Have a small bowl of salad everyday or have green smoothies like I do. Start to use more spice. And start to eat more fermented food. Yogurt, kombucha, cheese, sauerkraut, kimchi. What really helped me (I am not out of the woods though) was to eat unsalted nuts every time I felt bout of eating is coming. I can stop some eating with fistful of nuts. Even if you overeat on them, it will be better than to overeat on pizza. Look up Zoe and Dr. Chris van Tulleken talking about ultra-processed foods. Good luck girl, love you! ♥ And merry Christmas ofc! 🎄
I sat down with a bowl of Rocky Road just before I started this video - I am exactly where you are right now. I didn't think I was so far out, but I've recently taken a few fitness classes and it's like the first time I've seen myself for real in a mirror. When I realized I couldn't even do several of the moves because my belly fat was literally in the way, the reality set in. I'm not just a few pounds overweight. Stress is definitely a factor.
Something that has helped me with healthy changes recently is thinking of those things as self care or treating myself. I used to only consider things like shopping or eating ice cream as treating myself (and still do at times) but now that has primarily become things like taking a walk, drinking more water, stretching, choosing veggies over chips, etc. It helps me feel like I deserve good things and better health! Best luck on your journey. Getting started is hard, but identifying the desire for change and wanting to move forward with it is the first step. Thanks as always for your honesty and openness! ❤
Oh man, I’m relating to all of this so much. I feel you. Gained 30 lbs in the last couple years and just can’t stop the snacking even when I tell myself to cut it out.
First, I just wanna say, soooo much love to your sister and you as I remember you sharing that something terrible happened but we didn't have any details. I've prayed ever since. I'm not a therapist but it just sounds like you formed a habit through trauma, and you can definitely change that habit. Wishing you all the best through your health journey. One thing I highly recommend is looking into incorporating more fermented food, including fermented grains/wheat (like sourdough bread/pancakes, ect). I have done this more recently and I noticed a huge difference in stomach bloating/digestion.
A nutritional blood analysis changed the game for me. Regular blood work never really picked up much, or diet/exercise/lifestyle stuff didn't do squat. I found out so much and it has been so helpful.
I’m not sure what exactly happened to your sister but I recently tragically lost my beautiful 15 month old baby boy almost a year ago. There are no words and I sincerely wouldn’t wish this for anyone. There is no way to describe the pain and it doesn’t go away. My thoughts and positive energy are with you and your sister. You’re not alone ❤
Thank you all so much I really didn’t except anyone to read it but it means so much to me that people from all over thought about my baby Max whilst reading and commenting I appreciate it so much ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this. 💜 I feel like I’ve gotten to a point where I find myself eating and not even enjoying it but feeling unable to stop. Problems with food addiction are hard because we have to eat, so finding the balance and taking back control seems tricky.
Same. I'm not entirely unhappy with my weight gain, even though this is the heaviest I have been my entire life. I understand what you're saying about just feeling uncomfortable. My coworkers are always pestering me to join them at the gym and it has become so taxing because I'm just not ready. Hearing you say similar things is oddly comforting. I think when you're ready for the push, you'll get there, just like I will. ❤
I went through in just a 6 month time span, a miscarriage, my father diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and I ruptured my achilles tendon. I binge/comfort ate for 6 months straight. I gained about 30 lbs and had these same conversations. I couldn’t stop, I didn’t care to stop. One day it hit me and I just completely changed my lifestyle and am back on the road to a healthier version for me. My point is that you’ll get there in your OWN time, there is no correct timeline and when you’re ready you’ll do it. Life is hard and food is good. Be kind and gracious to yourself. Love these style of vids btw!! 🩷
You’re so real for this. I’ve struggled with binge eating for years and only recently have started to take control of my diet again. This should be talked about and normalized more ❤
As somebody who's gone up 2 sizes every year since 2020, I feel you girl. My 2 biggest factors are, I was a body builder for 6 years. I met my now husband at the start of the pandemic, the same time the gyms closed. Not only did I put on the happy relationship weight, i also quit my bodybuilder lifestyle. (Gym 7 days a week, 6 meals a day) NOWADAYS, I've given myself the freedom to eat pizza, donuts, drink soda, alcohol, enjoy fast food weekly.. all the things I didn't enjoy for years. I didn't have a soda for 5 years. I'm still fairly comfortable at a size 14-16, but I hate how out of breath I get. I still roller skate 2-3 times a week, but I'm always winded and I know I need to get back into weight lifting. I don't believe I consume a huge excess of calories, just too much salt & sugar! Bc its in everything! We will get there girl. We just have to give ourselves some time.
Same here, I used to workout so much and ate extremely clean. Met my love, and stopped working out, started eating everything I denied myself in the past. I felt so free, but now my health is crap and I get out of breath over everything 😅 So I need to find a balance, but it's so hard.
Kristi! I went to a np- my whole life.. I’m NEVER full. She basically said it’s poor gut health and vitamin deficiency. All the bad foods I ate gave me leaky gut syndrome. The nutrition never hits the stomach! She actually had to give me a special antibiotic which healed it.. I fell off the wagon after 2yrs. And may be back to square one- but it was the LITERAL healthiest I ever felt in my life. ❤❤❤ good luck Momma!🙏🏽
Thank you for talking about this- literally on my walk tonight with my husband we discussed our emotional eating habits. Earlier this year we tried to buy a home and it ended up falling completely apart, and then we lost our rental home. We are now in a place that is not at all comparable to what we had before, and while it may seem trivial to others, to us it’s been devastating. Ever since then we have both just completely let ourselves go. Ultimately it isn’t about weight for us anymore, but it’s about health. I’m having huge health issues now and we are having trouble conceiving as well… it’s a struggle to move forward out of those habits and I wish people would give others more grace - we are all just trying our best
I’m not saying this just to be like “me too, me too” but I wanted to send hugs to your sister and family for their loss. I also lost my baby in August in the second trimester of my pregnancy and it was horrible. The hardest journey I’ve ever walked. I feel like since, I’ve been trying to fill my days with busyness and events instead of facing my fears about trying for another baby in the future. I feel immense fear of loss occurring again + have trauma around ultrasounds, as I saw his little body there and that’s how we found out. We went in for a routine ultrasound and left knowing our baby’s heart stopped. It’s truly nightmarish. I just wanted to send love to her and see how she is doing. Loss is horrendous, no matter the stage of loss. Also, thanks for your vulnerability and your “hang out with me” videos. It fills my cup, you’re awesome. 🤍
Kristi, I love your transparency and honesty. You help so many others just by being you and sharing with us. Overeating happens to so many of us and sometimes we don’t even realize we are doing it! Thank you so much for this video and your candor!
Im a new viewer to your channel but i click on your videos so fast when i see a new one. As a 30 year old woman it is SO nice to hear an adult my age casually speak on these topics. I love your company. I know you have your struggles, but your presence feels so stabilizing to me. Edit: you could try talking to a nutritionist about fermented foods to diversify your gut biome. They are the only thing that help with my adult acne and there's no side effects so its worth a shot!
Please keep doing these videos whenever you can. I have my own struggles and these videos have been a helpful motivation to get the depresso nest sorted
Because you talked about anxiety, I recognized myself. I am learning that I also have been in fight or flight for most of my life. I am 59. It is getting better. You talking about, “taboo”, subjects HELPS! You got this!
I seen this story about this elderly woman who had dementia and was literally at the end of her life and was still trying to watch what she ate to lose weight. That’s how deep the diet culture has been ingrained in our heads. It’s sad.
Just before covid I lost 80 pounds. During 2020 I gained 70 back. I tried to start losing again, but shyt kept happening in my life making me stress eat. Things are just starting to become stable again in my life, so hopefully I can get back on track.
%100 can relate to how you are feeling. I’ve dealt with a similar situation, so I really appreciate you sharing your experience, and i think it’s so awesome that your main concern is your health, because by focusing on that rather than your physical appearance, you’ll be able to see healthy long lasting results that will make you feel genuinely happy. But the biggest thing for me, is remembering that it takes time, and gradually developing better eating habits and changing your lifestyle may be better than doing a sudden 180, because then you’re more likely to go back to old habits. That’s probably my biggest tip. Be patient with yourself, you can do it!
I love this style of video from you. This and your video about why we all feel dead inside have been my comfort background videos since you've posted them. I could listen to you talk for hours, it also feels like I'm chatting to a friend (a very relatable friend). Thank you so much for always staying true to who you are and giving us genuine relatable content in a world that is so focused on staged aesthetic
Like a lot of others are saying in the comments, I appreciate the true, unfiltered feeling of this video. It's like visiting a good friend. And as someone who has struggled with anxiety (and still kinda does), you explain it perfectly! It's so wise to balance being kind to yourself and being honest with what needs to change. Inspiring yourself to do better for your own benefit is already progress I think.
Thank you for sharing and always keeping it real!! Life is such a wild ride. I’m so glad you’re at a peaceful place. The constant anxiety is so scary. Sending you so much love!
Oh my God. I need more of those „Clean with me“ Videos. I am autistic and for me some times it can be hard to get up and get into the day. When i am listening to you Kristi i feel motivated and can get out of my looping thoughts
Whenever willpower goes out of the window for me, I find it helpful to focus on the word discipline. I make it my word of the month and read it every single day, and even though I don't feel like doing something it helps me push through, and eventually willpower comes back. I hope you can find the tool or words that work for you ❤
THIS. is EXACTLY what I’m going through right now. I cannot care. I care SO much, I feel awful, I don’t recognize myself, I feel like I can’t see my friends or go out to dinner. But I can’t get myself to STAAAAHP bc the care just flies out the window when I go food mode. Thank you for this.
Girl, I’ve never related to anyone more!! From the mental to the physical to the emotional to the toddler stuff…I’m going thru it all!! It’s so nice to hear someone else is going thru the exact same stuff!! Thank u, thank u, thank u!!💖
We also grew up in a time where "unhealthy" food was used for celebration or on special days such as birthdays and holidays. Shitty food was on a pedestal as a child and many happy memories had food at the center of them. Its not only self control, its rewiring a lifetime of thinking
I'm still in the middle of this so I have no conclusions but what mentally has changed for me - I stopped changing my eating habits of trying to "get ready". I was always getting myself "ready" for a party or summer or event. Nope. I'm already ready. I'm good. If I lose weight, super duper, if not then that's okay because I'm already good. Also, I changed my goals. My goal is to get stronger, my goal is to get 5,000 steps so many days a week, my goal is to be able to carry my child up a flight of stairs. If I lose weight that's great. I have lost weight but it's just not the main goal and, therefore, I obsess over it less when I don't lose a pound that week or whatever. I can carry my toddler up a flight of stairs 😎
Yes yes yes!! This all the way. Shift your mindset and your goals! I want to feel good, I want to be strong, I want to have stamina. How I just need to work on liking how I look.
I’ve done this too. My goal started as trying to get stronger for my hikes. Then that evolved into liking the way I was feeling and wanting more. To be more flexible. To be able to lift heavier and heavier. Still haven’t really lost any pounds but my body composition is slowly shifting and, more importantly, I FEEL so much better.
Honestly Kristi SAME HERE THE PAST TWO YEARS. Especially past year… insane. And I am 36 and TOTALLY HEAR YOU about the feeling influenced by millennial anorexic level thinness. I really feel like it f*cked with a lot of our minds and thankfully like you I feel like I’m finally divorcing that in my 30’s.
Thank you for this.❤ I lost a significant amount of weight on Keto which reversed my type 2 diabetes and managed to keep it off for a while before gaining back all the weight and going back to struggling with keeping my blood sugar levels at a healthy range. Your video spoke to me because you perfectly worded my struggles with food, and with trying to get back to a healthy lifestyle but not caring hard enough because of everything thats happening.. but I turned on my treadmill for the 1st time in months and watched the video while taking a walk, and I've decided to try to ease myself back into it because I also dont /feel/ healthy and I miss it.. thank you for being so real❤
Girl I am struggling so hard right now. It honestly helps just to know that someone who has been able to successfully stick to Keto in the past still goes through these struggles. I have PCOS and really bad food addiction and binging habits. Add that to me recently going off my birth control.... I feel awful. And most days I cannot wrap my head around how people can just be normal with food.
I found the most amazing book on exactly what you were asking about at the end of the video - Your Weight is not the Problem by Lyndi Cohen. She’s an Australian nutritionist and her philosophy is the exact opposite of most, that traditional diets do not work as you’re effectively starving yourself which is never sustainable. She goes through small steps you can take to improve your health which are sustainable long term. I highly recommend it as she’s finally someone who makes sense to me!
Girl I'm right there with you. I gained almost 50 lbs due to 4 family members passing away this year, it's been horrific. I started working out (slowly), cut most carbs, count calories with an app, and love watching Sean of Steel. He was 600+ lbs, love his channel too ❤ you'll get there. We all will. I just want to feel and look as healthy as I can 😊
So sorry you have had so much loss. I also experienced the deaths of four family members within 2 years, one being my mom😢. It was so traumatic. I am a total stranger but I am sending you love and light. ❤
@andreadavis1250 oh my gosh I'm so sorry. One of mine was my dad. I keep meaning to come back to RUclips but my mental and physical state just hasn't been there. Thank you for the thoughts, sending love right back to you 💔
The metabolic thing from the Tik Tok you showed is real - about the link to not losing weight. My cat had the same thing when I first adopted her - she was overweight. Since then I have had her on a strict healthy vet diet for 3 years (she’s now 13), especially when you aren’t super motivated to exercise this is so important. It took a minimum of 3 months to reset her gut microbiology with this diet and only at that point did she start slowly losing weight and her mental health changed too. She used to not groom herself and wouldn’t play much, then after that period she was playing and grooming herself etc.
One of the things that has helped me has been listening to podcasts about the brain and habits, such as eating when I'm not hungry. I have been working with my thought processes around my life habits, noticing that they are very intertwined. Eating is connected to other behaviors and one won't improve without working on others. BUT I really want to look into the gut bacteria, that is FASCINATING!!! Thank you for another awesome video, you are a GEM!!!
I feel like we are the same person! Infertility, a one year old now, ups and downs of awful mental health, constantly struggling with my weight and allot of mental health problems around food and body imagine. I’m 30 and yeah the early 2000s where an awful time for body shaming. Please let me know if you find anything to help motivate you in weight loss. Man it’s just so hard! I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your sisters baby ❤️
I just love you for who you are . I too always had a weight problem yo yo dieter up 40 down 40 blah blah I did lose my weight with keto but since I’ve lost my weight I started going off keto and only eating 2 times a day it’s helping me manage my weight I’ll eat breakfast/lunch at 12-1 then dinner around 5-6 and maybe lil snacks later on . intermittent fasting is sooooo good for inside your body . Give yourself grace sweetie love all your content 🌻🌻🌻
Meal prepping is key for me. Not only for weight reasons, but to set up my week and have free time to work out. I am a single mom, a nursing student, and a full-time job... I NEED TO meal prep 😂
YES YES YES. Meal prep is vital to showing you when to stop - you're at the end of the container/plate. And you just feel BETTER when you incorporate healthy carbs and, honestly, just a more rounded/balanced meal. I know Kristi and hubs have done Hello Fresh in the past, but there's other companies that provide the meals already in containers to just grab and eat, unless they do meal prep for you now, not just including ingredients for you to cook.
First, I appreciate how real you are with your videos. Second, I am contemplating doing videos of my journey recently and this just makes me want to do it even more. I turned 53 this year and had a very sedentary lifestyle (desk job). I love hospitality, specifically cooking for people (comfort food). I own a business that makes custom chocolate candies (YIKES!). I basically set myself up for rolling downhill health-wise and recently, my doctors have been confirming this. In August, I was told that my employer was doing a fitness challenge and hiring personal trainers for employess that wanted to participate. I've always hidden my true weight, hated getting my picture taken, avoided getting my body's measurements, etc. But this was different. Something switched inside of me and I knew that if I didn't step up and take advantage of this opportunity, I would never do anything to help myself. I was given a number of articles, tools and methods by which I could jump into this new lifestyle. Boy, was it difficult at first. But I guess anything worth having is. Ultimately, I realized that I needed to be honest and transparent about where I was at and then allow myself to trust someone (who I didn't really know) with all of my personal and intimate details. I know that we are all very busy. And most of us are busy being everything to others...except ourselves. At the end of the day, we each have our own perfect body type and shape, we all have our own personality type and we all have our own "place" of happiness and contentment. How much time we spend finding those things is up to us. In closing, my hospitality is now geared more towards myself. I food prep on the weekends so I am not trying to make unhealthy and unreasonable decisions during the week. My chocholate business is looking at methods for making treats with healthier alternatives. And my time...well, it's still busy, but I am committed to working on self care and stress management on a dailiy business. This makes me want to be a better mother, wife, friend, daughter, grandmother, role model and all around human. I love you for who you are! Blessing to you my friend!
100% relate to the anxiety description, and feeling like theres always a threat. Medicated now but still get super tired and bingy. Either way you look beautiful, but I totally get the struggle of the weightloss journey, I'm there too
You are the most real and relatable. Thanks for your vulnerability and thoughts. Sending you love from the Carolinas. All of the ladies in the comments are all with you ❤
Coming back to finish this the next day and seeing the end of your video, I've had a LOT of success with counting macros and joining the group Macros Inc. on Facebook. A lot of people look at it and jump to the conclusion that because we weigh our food that it's an obsessive eating disorder, but it's how we accurately track the portion sizes since labels and measuring by volume can be so far off. If you're going to meal prep portions, that could be really beneficial for you! It's the only "diet" I've been able to stick with for more than a couple of months because the longer you do it, the easier it gets, and you're actually allowed to have an adequate amount of calories, and they don't consider any foods "bad" for you. Prioritize protein and vegetables for fullness, but if it fits in your calories, you're allowed to have it. That mindset has made the biggest difference for me, and now that I'm back to trying to lose again, that's exactly where I went back to instead of trying another fad diet.
Kristi I am there with you girl. I have PCOS and Lupus and they are both hard to lose weight with. I get so depressed because I feel like it’s a no win situation. BUT I am also my own worst enemy. With my lupus I have days the pain is so bad, I just stuff my face with things that are bad for me. My husband is very supportive but thankfully he is not an enabler. He started a hello fresh subscription with healthy choices for me and got me some lupus friendly exercise stuff like stretching bands and chair yoga videos. Keep these videos going girl and we can all support each other. And I am so sorry for all the issues with your family and I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks Em❤
I am dealing with this too. I've always been thin and athletic. Well, I got a job interview and went to my closet to get a nice outfit, and got really depressed when I realized hardly anything fit me. Somehow, without realizing it, I had gained a lot of weight. I think one of the main things is I used to walk everywhere, used to walk miles! Where I live now isn't really a place I feel comfortable walking outside, and I am so far out in the country, there is no walking to the store here, it's really far away. Been dieting since last year! Well, not so much dieting, as changing my eating habits for good. The real challenge is getting enough exercise. I hate it! I want to walk! I think I am going to bite the bullet and get a treadmill so I can get some miles in like I used to. I almost always live someplace with stairs, too. Lots of stair climbing. My new place has no stairs. This really sucks but hey at least I'm facing the problem and dealing with it. I do have a stationary bike and a mountain climber and am using those as much as I can. You can do this! I know you can.
Happy that your making the changes for the right reasons since it's really all about how you feel and not how you look. If your happy with how you look then that's all that matters but if you don't feel good then you don't live good.
A FANTASTIC book that I CANNOT recommend enough is The Body is Not an Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor. I work as a therapist, and reference this book all the time in client sessions. The audiobook is great too if you prefer that mode. There’s also an adjoining workbook if you want to dive even deeper!
For me, after so much trauma, it feels good to have had some kind of pleasure (in food). Also, dieting, denial, going hungry, giving up this bit of pleasure, and working out is painful and my pain bucket is full. I relate so hard. I cannot care but I also care so much. I also want to feel good, and look like myself. Thank you for sharing. Many of us relate so much.
Thank you for sharing Kristi! This is all so common and not talked about enough. Have you listened to maintenance phase? I’ve found it to help ground me and my thoughts about health, weight, and body image.
I can relate to some of this. My daughter has PANS/PANDAS and had an awful flare that lasted about six months and just ended around March/April. I was down to my smallest size in years bc I was RIDDLED with anxiety over our every day chaos. My dr put me on prozac, i was doing some at home therapy using a therapist who has a daughter with OCD, so I was able to use her tips and her group for support and get through it. My husband started doing 75hard, and while that was great overall, i was bored and lonely and much less anxious, so i ate and ate and ate, and stopped moving. I have gained 10 pounds, and while that isnt a ton to most people, im 5 ft. and at this weight? my joints hurt. i sleep worse. i am more tired. i feel like my skin is literally tighter like a sausage casing. IT IS NOT COMFORTABLE FOR ME NOR IS IT SUSTAINABLE FOR THE LIFE WE LIVE. I cannot homeschool if i am too tired or weak. so for me? i have to lose this weight. ive been trying to go about it in a healthier way, and trying to lift weights almost every day at home. im enjoying it but not seeing physical results yet bc im so sore. but my goal is stamina, energy, and being able to fit in the clothes i have bc in this economy, i cannot afford to purchase a whole new wardrobe. sorry for the rant. ritalin is kicking in, got dang it.
I love how raw and real you are. Never stop being you. I feel the exact same way….and I need to make changes. I feel uncomfortable….and I don’t like it.
I like Magnus's approach, which is live life. Eat well for like 80% and the other 20% you enjoy food. And there is intermittent fasting. But I like the approach of just trying to make healthier meals, enjoy a treat now and then, and find some physical activity that I enjoy. I really enjoy going disc golfing with my husband. Walking (some cases hiking) while throwing discs, you're being active and enjoying it so much that you don't realize your workout till you're done and tired, but you have a smile on your face. ❤
Lost my daughter in 2009… still gets me now!! Every now and then I’ll burst into tears! Mentally suffered from PTSD since (recently diagnosed as C-PTSD). EMDR has helped loads but I’ve had multiple traumas so I could do with another batch really! Sometimes I completely stop eating. Sometimes I binge… my binge eating is - I will eat until I’m in pain or physically sick! Thankfully haven’t binged in a while. I’m going through the not eating phase… 🤦♀️
I want to say this again but thank you for being open about this! I'm living the exact same thing. In 2020 I had a crisis and lost 20lb got on medication and now have gained 50lbs 😞 I need to change but it's hard!!
totally unrelated to the topic of this video, but I remember watching your videos back a few years ago and somehow losing track of your channel - only for you to pop up in my recommended today. I'm happy to have found you again, you are for some reason very soothing to me. Thank you for still being here and thank you for this video :)
This is why i had to go off antidepressants. I course corrected too much, going from hyper vigilance about everything to not worrying about anything, especially what i was eating. I was gaining weight so fast it was worse than the mood swings off meds. Everyone is different, gotta find what works for you. Also, what if it’s ok to eat what you want for a while? Find other outlets to feel healthy, like vitamins/supplements, adding in healthy foods alongside your comfort foods. Add movement, etc and have compassion for yourself. Sometimes it’s ok to have time to nourish your soul. ❤
I’m so sick of the narrative that people are fat-phobic because they want to lose weight. Not everyone feels good being overweight. Not everyone is ok with being overweight. It doesn’t make you fat-phobic. It’s your body, you do what makes you feel your best.
It's not an irrational fear either
1000% people just don't want to see other people happy or successful.
Yes!
Yes! I was telling my boyfriend this same thing. I feel unbelievably uncomfortable being overweight and it’s not because I’m fat phobic😂 it’s because I’m literally uncomfortable in my own skin. When I’m overweight it’s because I’m eating like garbage. And when I eat like garbage it makes me mentally sick feeling also it effects my moods and everything. It’s a domino effect. There’s nothing wrong with being aware of your own weight.
I have been very thin and very heavy. I didn't think I looked good either way. But I am very uncomfortable at the weight I am now. I have scoliosis and I actually feel like my gut is weighing on my spine and pulling it towards more of a curved/swayback position. There are many things about the weight that are uncomfortable, just speaking from my own experience.
“I cant care hard enough”! I FELT THAT!!
Meeee too!!
I heard someone say once “I guess I like food more than I hate being fat” and that hit hard.
ooo I've been feeling that for the past few months. its like she literally took the words out of my mouth
Omg, I connected with that too
“I cannot care. I mean, I care.” I feel this so deeply. I talk myself into not caring about my weight so that I can get relief from overwhelming emotions. I’m ready to care again.
Same here. The only thing that has helped has been cold showers and daily apple cider vinegar shots. It sounds crazy but I feel like it resets my central nervous system. The willpower has been such a struggle.
I'm really enjoying these less filtered videos, more like how lots of youtube used to be. The less polished realness of just hanging out is so comforting. Also from one gal struggling to another with aaaaallllll this same stuff including the family loss - thank you for sharing, not feeling alone is refreshing 💕
I’m here to remind you of how STOKED you were when you first rode your peloton with Cody. I feel like you had legit JOY.
I love you so much and always appreciate your transparency. Love to your sister as well.
I am so sorry for your sister. Five years ago I lost a baby at 38 weeks and it was beyond devastating. It took me about 9 months to feel myself again. I never thought I would feel joy again. Thankfully I did. It was hard on the whole family. Thinking of you all!
@michelledillman I am SO sorry to hear that. That must have been so difficult for you to go through and come out of and I’m sure you struggle with it to this day but I pray you find peace and comfort at times as well. ❤
@@laurennicki4991 thank you so much
I am so deeply sorry for your loss
The way you introduced the sponsor of this video by telling us the shenanigans of your toddler was flawless
I've gained 80lbs since Covid-19! I was doing SO well then Covid-19 hit and I became lethargic, anxious, and lazy. I'm really struggling physically but my mental health has been a priority and gotten better. It's a hard balance. I feel all you said!
Me too and I just lost 30! I did have a baby September 2020 but I starting gaining the weight 8 months later
I also gained weight during Covid and it took me more than 2 years to loose it...
I gained 60lbs. Since January of last year I lost 41lbs. I saw a nutritionist, got food sensitivity tests, found out I have celiacs, changed my entire way of eating (my old way want bad, just not right for me. I needed to eat more, but more as in adding in a TON of veggies and lean protein).
This format of talking is SO comforting!!!!
Kristi your timing is amazing... I am literally waking up this morning on the first day of trying not to eat my emotions. I'm sitting here watching this video with a cup of tea and some hard boiled eggs, and was feeling really by myself in the sadness that got me here when I stumbled upon this upload. THANK YOU. Wishing you the best in your habit building, we got this.
same
I love the evolution of your channel. It has evolved with me and my journey and it’s so comforting. Such a great reminder that we’re not alone.
I completely relate to being thinnest at my lowest point mentally. So many compliments on how great I looked, but all that weight loss was fueled by my poor mental health and high anxiety.
You can definitely make a healthier change in your lifestyle! I'm also on a journey to get my mindset right towards food for myself and my family. The balance of a "sustainable" lifestyle is such a challenge for me, coming from a "diet culture" childhood, but we definitely have the power to make healthy changes for ourselves! We deserve it. :)
When COVID hit, I had major mental health issues and I lost a ton of weight. The food insecurity has me saving the food for my kid's. My mental health got better and I was able to keep the weight off. Then my mom passed away back in May and I started eating and still haven't stopped. I'm aware of the old habits but I just can't pull out of it. It's a total struggle
I also had food scarcity during COVID and struggled with overeating when my mom passed in 2021. It's soooo hard. I think part of it is just accepting that gaining weight in grief is normal. It's also normal to gain weight after food scarcity, our bodies are trying to keep us going after a hard time. I'm almost 3 years out and I'm able to eat more intuitively again. For me it started doing 5 minute stretch videos by Yoga with Bird with the intention of just being with myself (not losing weight at all). I would just cry and let it out and sit with whatever thoughts would come up. You will be okay, it just takes time.
@@sarahs1212 Thank you for commenting, I think I'll check out that yoga. It's something I've been thinking about trying. I'm sorry you lost your mom, but I'm also glad to hear you're doing better. Gives me some hope. 💓
I immediately gained weight when my sister suddenly died in 2019, then covid hit a few months later, then i had back to back babies in Nov 2020/Jan 2022. I have put on weight i can NOT get off and i feel so hopeless.
@@nattyophelia7879 I'm so sorry for your loss. Grief is hard, throw in all those hormone fluctuations and I can totally understand your situation. I'm sure you'll find your way out. We all will!
Sorry for your lost. You can do this
Dude.. as a PCOS girly I cannot tell you how life changing going to a good endocrinologist was for me. Balancing my hormones and getting my thyroid in check (while also taking vitamin b12 and D) was the best thing I could've done to help me lose weight. 10/10 highly recommend. Thank you for being so vulnerable!
Kristi, Y'all moved into cozy woods and subconsciously you've become Goldilocks with the bears. All the comforts of home, a roaring fire, wonderful pj's and fabulous bedding. All I would want is food and hibernation!
Aww this comment is so lovely!! Absolutely, kristi be easy with yourself.
Hey there sweet lady, thank you for speaking so openly with us and being a relatable queen.
I’m so horribly sorry for your loss and I’m carrying your whole family in my heart. I’ve been a nurse for 10 years, and my specialty is OB. I am forever changed by the loss I’ve witnessed. It wasn’t even my personal or family loss, but the loss haunts me still. It is one of the most incomprehensibly painful things to experience in this life. I just want you to know that you and your sister and your family are NOT alone. You and your family are important, and cherished, and valuable lights in the world. I just wanted to send you a massive virtual hug. This is one of the hardest things ever, and it’s ok not to be ok. Love and hugs and prayers and through the to all of you ❤
Kristi. I needed this video more than you know. It is so good to know that I am not alone. My weight has gone up and down my whole adult life and I literally and so tired of the rollercoaster. When I am stressed I have the constant urge to eat to physically fill this void in the pit of my stomach and as a result I have gained all the weight I have worked so hard to lose earlier this year. I am exhausted of this constant struggle and I am so tired of the “food noise”. All I think about is eating.
Thank you for sharing, we all need to know that we are not alone.
Man.. you sound just like me. My weight went up and up over several yrs.. I was in a DEEP depression, I had to sell my nail salon and stop working all together by 2016/2017.. just struggling with my mental health along with health issues, to the point that I was at my highest weight ever at the end of 2020. I was 197!! Me? What? Yesss.. 197lbs 😱🥺☹️🤨🤔😥 Then something just clicked in my brain or the stars aligned or Santa came idk but in Feb of 2021 I got on my treadmill.... and all of a sudden in July I had lost 65lbs! Then I proceeded to gain most of it back in 2022 and now 2023. I had worked sooo hard. No one can understand the disgusting way I feel when I look at myself. (sorry this is so long) but honest to goodness I was just like this minute, doing that whole cycle of looking in the mirror, changing clothes and hating myself ONLY to walk into the kitchen pop on RUclips and grab 3 reeses peanut butter cups 😒 Is it not crazy that this video was the first thing I saw? Just let me say.. I adore Kristi and I'm grateful for the amazing ppl in the comments 💛
I’m a nurse and I took my first hospital job last February. I relate to this so much. The work environment and the demands with zero resources are absolutely brutal. Every time I finish a 12 hour shift the only thing that makes me feel better is eating. I put on jeans today for the first time in months & it was not a good time 😢
Jeans are overrated anyways, but I totally get how you feel ❤ I too work long days and have a toddler… and for about two whole years after birthing him I was stuffing my face after a long shift. I didn’t even realize I was doing it! I’ve since stopped the nightly binge , but haven’t lost the weight yet. You’re not alone, girly! So many of us are going through the same things. Love the community this channel has created ❤
I just switched to remote work after nearly ten years of nursing/nurse-midwifery.. it's only been a few weeks and I already feel like a different and better person. I highly recommend looking - the healthcare environment is getting worse.
Do you work nights? There’s a great book called why we sleep that spoke about weight gain sue too disrupted sleep cycles, which often happen to nurses
Healthcare jobs blow
I lost 40 pounds when I started in the ICU. Everything was like dust in my mouth and I ate like a bird. After years I finally got back to normal but recently I changed jobs and the anxiety has me eating EVERYTHING this time.
This was so vulnerable and honest. I’ve gone through similar weight struggles and it’s very defeating. But I really appreciate you sharing this. And 100% meal prepping IS A LIFESAVER. be prepared for how much time/work you must dedicate to it. But when you do and you keep the prepping/planning on track it makes a huge difference with overeating and all that. Good luck!
1000%.
My mom does EMDR and she’s almost a different person now with the progress she’s made. It’s really amazing.
I do EMDR and it’s life-changing. I was doing regular therapy and thought it was fine until I faced a trigger of something I thought I had dealt with. I went through it from beginning to end with my EMDR therapist and saw how much more I needed to deal with. I highly suggest it.
I that everyone knew how life changing it is. It changed my life without a doubt. I have a completely new experience in life now.
@@cherylmaclean4349I’m so intrigued by EDMR and have wanted to try it
I've considered that for a minute! There are thoughts I struggle with - nothing gross, just grief, and three intrusive thoughts that come and go. I would really like to lessen the grief intensity, maybe I wil give this a shot!
@@amberws7468 After seeing the results my moms had I’ve been seriously contemplating going too. I don’t have the same kind of trauma but I think it would still help. I say go for it! 😊👍
I found you years ago bc makeup. Today I'm in a totally different place in my life and I love that you are too AND creating content about it. Just as excited about this clean with me as I was back in the day watching you slay makeup looks ❤ Thanks for being you!
I’m almost 2 years into my journey and have lost 60lbs. What I can tell you worked for me is to avoid fast food, try to exercise at least 3 days a week, strength training is important especially when you are short 5’4” and shorter. It is a slow gradual thing. I just make it part of my list of things I have to do because I know it’ll make me feel better physically and mentally. Eating enough protein is also very important if you want to stay satiated.
This☝🏻
Why is strength training especially important for short people? I'm asking because I'm 5'2.😊
I just want to say that I started EMDR therapy after seeing one of your stories about it and it HAS CHANGED MY LIFE. Thank you so much for sharing everything that’s going on in your life, I’m sure you’re helping more people than you could ever know 🤗
Hey Anna, that’s great to hear. Ive been thinking about trying it, as nothing else has worked for me to help my nervous system. Could I ask what you feel changed from it and how many sessions did you have to feeling like it made a difference? I know everyone is different but I can’t find many relevant reviews online.. Thanks in advance!
@@feyrechihro7247please give it a shot. I combine EMDR with IFS and I am making huge progress. I hope it works for you! It’s working wonders for me! It takes time. Like it won’t be three sessions, or five sessions. And you can jump from one event to another and while going through some things you might have to double back. However my therapist suggested 12-24 months in EMDR therapy. It also depends on how hard and how deep you can go. I have a very large window of affect tolerance so I can dig really deep. Depending on your own window of affect tolerance, it may take longer to get comfortable with your stories and alter the narrative that you have developed for yourself.
@@feyrechihro7247I started EMDR at the end of September and it’s been great! I’ve only done two sessions of the actual processing and the rest was my therapist getting to know all of my traumas we have to work through. She taught me a lot of coping skills and methods to help with anxiety. But the process of going through the trauma can of course be hard. It’s kind of hard to explain but we started with the first memory I have and worked through it, and in one session I know longer feel any emotional connection to the memory. Afterwards you might feel anxious but the coping skills help. I would HIGHLY recommend it, it’s hard work but so worth it!
Apologies for this long reply lol
@@feyrechihro7247it is so different for everybody and it depends on how much trauma you have. You need several sessions to “uninstall” your trauma and then sessions to “reinstall” positive cognitions. I’d plan on 3-6 months of sessions on average, that is just my personal singular experience
Oh and one book I loved was called “Nourishing Wisdom” by Marc David - it’s the gentlest book about releasing weight I’ve ever read, it’s kinda deep but I think it’s powerful and really speaks to the root of overeating - he has a whole organization that might be helpful for you too (Institute for the Psychology of Eating). He has a podcast too that’s very sweet, helping people learn how to best help themselves.
Hey, thanks for sharing this info!
Kristi…. Thank you so much for making these videos. I’m so over people showing the fake perfection and it makes me feel non relatable. I’m tired of people saying “omg this is a mess” and it’s like a few toys on the ground. You are Raw Beauty Kristi for a reason. You are Raw and beautiful. I appreciate you and your strength and your realness and positivity. Because even if you’re in the rough the positive thing is that you keep going and trying be proactive with your problems. I have two kids and feel the same as you. I feel like I’m in a perpetual mess and weight and positive mindset and everything is so hard but I’m at it everyday trying to do the best I can. Much love ❤️❤️
clicked so fast, i am in a rut with my weight loss right now especially relating to the “self sabotage.” mostly the ppl around me don’t care to lose weight or make it a priority like i do… feeling not alone through this journey is important. i am with you, and i’m sure many others are with you as well. good luck on your journey to just simply feeling better.
Remember that fat loss is a long term project. You will have f-ups but it is important to not give up. The microbiome stuff you had in the video is very important. Try to shoot for diverse foods so that your microbiome can transform. Don't take food out of your diet, put food in. Gradually add more vegetables and fruits. Have a small bowl of salad everyday or have green smoothies like I do. Start to use more spice. And start to eat more fermented food. Yogurt, kombucha, cheese, sauerkraut, kimchi. What really helped me (I am not out of the woods though) was to eat unsalted nuts every time I felt bout of eating is coming. I can stop some eating with fistful of nuts. Even if you overeat on them, it will be better than to overeat on pizza. Look up Zoe and Dr. Chris van Tulleken talking about ultra-processed foods. Good luck girl, love you! ♥ And merry Christmas ofc! 🎄
I sat down with a bowl of Rocky Road just before I started this video - I am exactly where you are right now. I didn't think I was so far out, but I've recently taken a few fitness classes and it's like the first time I've seen myself for real in a mirror. When I realized I couldn't even do several of the moves because my belly fat was literally in the way, the reality set in. I'm not just a few pounds overweight. Stress is definitely a factor.
Something that has helped me with healthy changes recently is thinking of those things as self care or treating myself. I used to only consider things like shopping or eating ice cream as treating myself (and still do at times) but now that has primarily become things like taking a walk, drinking more water, stretching, choosing veggies over chips, etc. It helps me feel like I deserve good things and better health! Best luck on your journey. Getting started is hard, but identifying the desire for change and wanting to move forward with it is the first step. Thanks as always for your honesty and openness! ❤
Good way to change mindset! I’m going to try this!
Love how open you have been about sharing your human experience. You are authentic and you are beautiful.
Possibly the most relatable video ever. And exactly what I needed tonight. Thanks RBK for always being you. And for sharing yourself. 🤗🤗
I struggle sooo hard with the caring but not caring enough and not doing anything about it. Thanks for making me feel like im not alone
Oh man, I’m relating to all of this so much. I feel you. Gained 30 lbs in the last couple years and just can’t stop the snacking even when I tell myself to cut it out.
First, I just wanna say, soooo much love to your sister and you as I remember you sharing that something terrible happened but we didn't have any details. I've prayed ever since. I'm not a therapist but it just sounds like you formed a habit through trauma, and you can definitely change that habit. Wishing you all the best through your health journey. One thing I highly recommend is looking into incorporating more fermented food, including fermented grains/wheat (like sourdough bread/pancakes, ect). I have done this more recently and I noticed a huge difference in stomach bloating/digestion.
A nutritional blood analysis changed the game for me. Regular blood work never really picked up much, or diet/exercise/lifestyle stuff didn't do squat. I found out so much and it has been so helpful.
I’ve never heard of this! Would you be able to give details, like what it told you and how you got it done?
@@strawberrylove5684co-ask!
I’m not sure what exactly happened to your sister but I recently tragically lost my beautiful 15 month old baby boy almost a year ago. There are no words and I sincerely wouldn’t wish this for anyone. There is no way to describe the pain and it doesn’t go away. My thoughts and positive energy are with you and your sister. You’re not alone ❤
Sorry for your sudden loss 😢
sending love and light to you
I just can’t imagine. I’m so very sorry. Sending wishes for moments of comfort and peace.
I am so so sorry to hear this. 💔 my thoughts go out to you. I see you and my heart is broken for you 😢
Thank you all so much I really didn’t except anyone to read it but it means so much to me that people from all over thought about my baby Max whilst reading and commenting I appreciate it so much ❤️
Thank you so much for sharing this. 💜 I feel like I’ve gotten to a point where I find myself eating and not even enjoying it but feeling unable to stop. Problems with food addiction are hard because we have to eat, so finding the balance and taking back control seems tricky.
Same. I'm not entirely unhappy with my weight gain, even though this is the heaviest I have been my entire life. I understand what you're saying about just feeling uncomfortable. My coworkers are always pestering me to join them at the gym and it has become so taxing because I'm just not ready. Hearing you say similar things is oddly comforting. I think when you're ready for the push, you'll get there, just like I will. ❤
I went through in just a 6 month time span, a miscarriage, my father diagnosed with Alzheimer’s, and I ruptured my achilles tendon. I binge/comfort ate for 6 months straight. I gained about 30 lbs and had these same conversations. I couldn’t stop, I didn’t care to stop. One day it hit me and I just completely changed my lifestyle and am back on the road to a healthier version for me. My point is that you’ll get there in your OWN time, there is no correct timeline and when you’re ready you’ll do it. Life is hard and food is good. Be kind and gracious to yourself. Love these style of vids btw!! 🩷
You’re so real for this. I’ve struggled with binge eating for years and only recently have started to take control of my diet again. This should be talked about and normalized more ❤
As somebody who's gone up 2 sizes every year since 2020, I feel you girl. My 2 biggest factors are, I was a body builder for 6 years. I met my now husband at the start of the pandemic, the same time the gyms closed. Not only did I put on the happy relationship weight, i also quit my bodybuilder lifestyle. (Gym 7 days a week, 6 meals a day) NOWADAYS, I've given myself the freedom to eat pizza, donuts, drink soda, alcohol, enjoy fast food weekly.. all the things I didn't enjoy for years. I didn't have a soda for 5 years. I'm still fairly comfortable at a size 14-16, but I hate how out of breath I get. I still roller skate 2-3 times a week, but I'm always winded and I know I need to get back into weight lifting. I don't believe I consume a huge excess of calories, just too much salt & sugar! Bc its in everything! We will get there girl. We just have to give ourselves some time.
You should get yourself checked, I heard the jabs make you feel this way
Same here, I used to workout so much and ate extremely clean. Met my love, and stopped working out, started eating everything I denied myself in the past. I felt so free, but now my health is crap and I get out of breath over everything 😅 So I need to find a balance, but it's so hard.
You’re amazing for sharing the most vulnerable parts of you with us. Thank you for all you do ❤
Kristi! I went to a np- my whole life.. I’m NEVER full. She basically said it’s poor gut health and vitamin deficiency. All the bad foods I ate gave me leaky gut syndrome. The nutrition never hits the stomach! She actually had to give me a special antibiotic which healed it.. I fell off the wagon after 2yrs. And may be back to square one- but it was the LITERAL healthiest I ever felt in my life. ❤❤❤ good luck Momma!🙏🏽
I love what this channel has become! As a long time mom (five babies 18 down to just 2) THIS just resonates SO much with me! THANK YOU KRISTI!!!🎉
Thank you for talking about this- literally on my walk tonight with my husband we discussed our emotional eating habits. Earlier this year we tried to buy a home and it ended up falling completely apart, and then we lost our rental home. We are now in a place that is not at all comparable to what we had before, and while it may seem trivial to others, to us it’s been devastating. Ever since then we have both just completely let ourselves go. Ultimately it isn’t about weight for us anymore, but it’s about health. I’m having huge health issues now and we are having trouble conceiving as well… it’s a struggle to move forward out of those habits and I wish people would give others more grace - we are all just trying our best
I’m not saying this just to be like “me too, me too” but I wanted to send hugs to your sister and family for their loss. I also lost my baby in August in the second trimester of my pregnancy and it was horrible. The hardest journey I’ve ever walked. I feel like since, I’ve been trying to fill my days with busyness and events instead of facing my fears about trying for another baby in the future. I feel immense fear of loss occurring again + have trauma around ultrasounds, as I saw his little body there and that’s how we found out. We went in for a routine ultrasound and left knowing our baby’s heart stopped. It’s truly nightmarish.
I just wanted to send love to her and see how she is doing. Loss is horrendous, no matter the stage of loss.
Also, thanks for your vulnerability and your “hang out with me” videos. It fills my cup, you’re awesome. 🤍
You have the right attitude- mindful eating & moving your body by doing something you enjoy is the way to go. Nothing extreme
Kristi, I love your transparency and honesty. You help so many others just by being you and sharing with us. Overeating happens to so many of us and sometimes we don’t even realize we are doing it!
Thank you so much for this video and your candor!
Im a new viewer to your channel but i click on your videos so fast when i see a new one. As a 30 year old woman it is SO nice to hear an adult my age casually speak on these topics. I love your company. I know you have your struggles, but your presence feels so stabilizing to me.
Edit: you could try talking to a nutritionist about fermented foods to diversify your gut biome. They are the only thing that help with my adult acne and there's no side effects so its worth a shot!
I second the ferments I'm new to the journey tho but agree my gut wasn't likeing store carbs .... Home made sour dough carbs tho...
Please keep doing these videos whenever you can. I have my own struggles and these videos have been a helpful motivation to get the depresso nest sorted
Because you talked about anxiety, I recognized myself. I am learning that I also have been in fight or flight for most of my life. I am 59. It is getting better. You talking about, “taboo”, subjects HELPS! You got this!
I seen this story about this elderly woman who had dementia and was literally at the end of her life and was still trying to watch what she ate to lose weight. That’s how deep the diet culture has been ingrained in our heads. It’s sad.
Just before covid I lost 80 pounds. During 2020 I gained 70 back. I tried to start losing again, but shyt kept happening in my life making me stress eat. Things are just starting to become stable again in my life, so hopefully I can get back on track.
%100 can relate to how you are feeling. I’ve dealt with a similar situation, so I really appreciate you sharing your experience, and i think it’s so awesome that your main concern is your health, because by focusing on that rather than your physical appearance, you’ll be able to see healthy long lasting results that will make you feel genuinely happy. But the biggest thing for me, is remembering that it takes time, and gradually developing better eating habits and changing your lifestyle may be better than doing a sudden 180, because then you’re more likely to go back to old habits. That’s probably my biggest tip. Be patient with yourself, you can do it!
I love this style of video from you. This and your video about why we all feel dead inside have been my comfort background videos since you've posted them. I could listen to you talk for hours, it also feels like I'm chatting to a friend (a very relatable friend). Thank you so much for always staying true to who you are and giving us genuine relatable content in a world that is so focused on staged aesthetic
Like a lot of others are saying in the comments, I appreciate the true, unfiltered feeling of this video. It's like visiting a good friend. And as someone who has struggled with anxiety (and still kinda does), you explain it perfectly! It's so wise to balance being kind to yourself and being honest with what needs to change. Inspiring yourself to do better for your own benefit is already progress I think.
Thank you for sharing and always keeping it real!! Life is such a wild ride. I’m so glad you’re at a peaceful place. The constant anxiety is so scary. Sending you so much love!
Oh my God. I need more of those „Clean with me“ Videos. I am autistic and for me some times it can be hard to get up and get into the day. When i am listening to you Kristi i feel motivated and can get out of my looping thoughts
Whenever willpower goes out of the window for me, I find it helpful to focus on the word discipline. I make it my word of the month and read it every single day, and even though I don't feel like doing something it helps me push through, and eventually willpower comes back. I hope you can find the tool or words that work for you ❤
Your “I can’t care hard enough” dialogue describes how I’ve been feeling for a few years now. Thanks for helping me put that into words!
THIS. is EXACTLY what I’m going through right now. I cannot care. I care SO much, I feel awful, I don’t recognize myself, I feel like I can’t see my friends or go out to dinner. But I can’t get myself to STAAAAHP bc the care just flies out the window when I go food mode.
Thank you for this.
Girl, I’ve never related to anyone more!! From the mental to the physical to the emotional to the toddler stuff…I’m going thru it all!! It’s so nice to hear someone else is going thru the exact same stuff!! Thank u, thank u, thank u!!💖
We also grew up in a time where "unhealthy" food was used for celebration or on special days such as birthdays and holidays. Shitty food was on a pedestal as a child and many happy memories had food at the center of them. Its not only self control, its rewiring a lifetime of thinking
I'm still in the middle of this so I have no conclusions but what mentally has changed for me - I stopped changing my eating habits of trying to "get ready". I was always getting myself "ready" for a party or summer or event. Nope. I'm already ready. I'm good. If I lose weight, super duper, if not then that's okay because I'm already good. Also, I changed my goals. My goal is to get stronger, my goal is to get 5,000 steps so many days a week, my goal is to be able to carry my child up a flight of stairs. If I lose weight that's great. I have lost weight but it's just not the main goal and, therefore, I obsess over it less when I don't lose a pound that week or whatever. I can carry my toddler up a flight of stairs 😎
Yes yes yes!! This all the way. Shift your mindset and your goals! I want to feel good, I want to be strong, I want to have stamina. How I just need to work on liking how I look.
I’ve done this too. My goal started as trying to get stronger for my hikes. Then that evolved into liking the way I was feeling and wanting more. To be more flexible. To be able to lift heavier and heavier. Still haven’t really lost any pounds but my body composition is slowly shifting and, more importantly, I FEEL so much better.
GIRL! SAME! Being a human is hard ❤ wishing love and self-kindness to everyone up in here❤
Honestly Kristi SAME HERE THE PAST TWO YEARS. Especially past year… insane. And I am 36 and TOTALLY HEAR YOU about the feeling influenced by millennial anorexic level thinness. I really feel like it f*cked with a lot of our minds and thankfully like you I feel like I’m finally divorcing that in my 30’s.
Thank you for this.❤ I lost a significant amount of weight on Keto which reversed my type 2 diabetes and managed to keep it off for a while before gaining back all the weight and going back to struggling with keeping my blood sugar levels at a healthy range. Your video spoke to me because you perfectly worded my struggles with food, and with trying to get back to a healthy lifestyle but not caring hard enough because of everything thats happening.. but I turned on my treadmill for the 1st time in months and watched the video while taking a walk, and I've decided to try to ease myself back into it because I also dont /feel/ healthy and I miss it.. thank you for being so real❤
Girl I am struggling so hard right now. It honestly helps just to know that someone who has been able to successfully stick to Keto in the past still goes through these struggles. I have PCOS and really bad food addiction and binging habits. Add that to me recently going off my birth control.... I feel awful. And most days I cannot wrap my head around how people can just be normal with food.
I found the most amazing book on exactly what you were asking about at the end of the video - Your Weight is not the Problem by Lyndi Cohen. She’s an Australian nutritionist and her philosophy is the exact opposite of most, that traditional diets do not work as you’re effectively starving yourself which is never sustainable. She goes through small steps you can take to improve your health which are sustainable long term. I highly recommend it as she’s finally someone who makes sense to me!
Girl I'm right there with you. I gained almost 50 lbs due to 4 family members passing away this year, it's been horrific. I started working out (slowly), cut most carbs, count calories with an app, and love watching Sean of Steel. He was 600+ lbs, love his channel too ❤ you'll get there. We all will. I just want to feel and look as healthy as I can 😊
So sorry you have had so much loss. I also experienced the deaths of four family members within 2 years, one being my mom😢. It was so traumatic. I am a total stranger but I am sending you love and light. ❤
@andreadavis1250 oh my gosh I'm so sorry. One of mine was my dad. I keep meaning to come back to RUclips but my mental and physical state just hasn't been there. Thank you for the thoughts, sending love right back to you 💔
The metabolic thing from the Tik Tok you showed is real - about the link to not losing weight.
My cat had the same thing when I first adopted her - she was overweight. Since then I have had her on a strict healthy vet diet for 3 years (she’s now 13), especially when you aren’t super motivated to exercise this is so important. It took a minimum of 3 months to reset her gut microbiology with this diet and only at that point did she start slowly losing weight and her mental health changed too. She used to not groom herself and wouldn’t play much, then after that period she was playing and grooming herself etc.
Your son deserves to have you around and to have you healthy ❤️
Self-care can be complex and is surely an ongoing process that evolves. Meal prep sounds great.
This is so incredibly relatable. Thank for being honest and candid. ❤✌🏼
One of the things that has helped me has been listening to podcasts about the brain and habits, such as eating when I'm not hungry. I have been working with my thought processes around my life habits, noticing that they are very intertwined. Eating is connected to other behaviors and one won't improve without working on others. BUT I really want to look into the gut bacteria, that is FASCINATING!!! Thank you for another awesome video, you are a GEM!!!
I feel like we are the same person! Infertility, a one year old now, ups and downs of awful mental health, constantly struggling with my weight and allot of mental health problems around food and body imagine. I’m 30 and yeah the early 2000s where an awful time for body shaming. Please let me know if you find anything to help motivate you in weight loss. Man it’s just so hard! I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your sisters baby ❤️
I just love you for who you are . I too always had a weight problem yo yo dieter up 40 down 40 blah blah I did lose my weight with keto but since I’ve lost my weight I started going off keto and only eating 2 times a day it’s helping me manage my weight I’ll eat breakfast/lunch at 12-1 then dinner around 5-6 and maybe lil snacks later on . intermittent fasting is sooooo good for inside your body . Give yourself grace sweetie love all your content 🌻🌻🌻
Meal prepping is key for me. Not only for weight reasons, but to set up my week and have free time to work out. I am a single mom, a nursing student, and a full-time job... I NEED TO meal prep 😂
yes, not having to think about what to eat, or have put in the energy to prep makes life 10000x easier.
YES YES YES. Meal prep is vital to showing you when to stop - you're at the end of the container/plate. And you just feel BETTER when you incorporate healthy carbs and, honestly, just a more rounded/balanced meal. I know Kristi and hubs have done Hello Fresh in the past, but there's other companies that provide the meals already in containers to just grab and eat, unless they do meal prep for you now, not just including ingredients for you to cook.
First, I appreciate how real you are with your videos. Second, I am contemplating doing videos of my journey recently and this just makes me want to do it even more. I turned 53 this year and had a very sedentary lifestyle (desk job). I love hospitality, specifically cooking for people (comfort food). I own a business that makes custom chocolate candies (YIKES!). I basically set myself up for rolling downhill health-wise and recently, my doctors have been confirming this. In August, I was told that my employer was doing a fitness challenge and hiring personal trainers for employess that wanted to participate. I've always hidden my true weight, hated getting my picture taken, avoided getting my body's measurements, etc. But this was different. Something switched inside of me and I knew that if I didn't step up and take advantage of this opportunity, I would never do anything to help myself. I was given a number of articles, tools and methods by which I could jump into this new lifestyle. Boy, was it difficult at first. But I guess anything worth having is. Ultimately, I realized that I needed to be honest and transparent about where I was at and then allow myself to trust someone (who I didn't really know) with all of my personal and intimate details. I know that we are all very busy. And most of us are busy being everything to others...except ourselves. At the end of the day, we each have our own perfect body type and shape, we all have our own personality type and we all have our own "place" of happiness and contentment. How much time we spend finding those things is up to us. In closing, my hospitality is now geared more towards myself. I food prep on the weekends so I am not trying to make unhealthy and unreasonable decisions during the week. My chocholate business is looking at methods for making treats with healthier alternatives. And my time...well, it's still busy, but I am committed to working on self care and stress management on a dailiy business. This makes me want to be a better mother, wife, friend, daughter, grandmother, role model and all around human. I love you for who you are! Blessing to you my friend!
100% relate to the anxiety description, and feeling like theres always a threat.
Medicated now but still get super tired and bingy.
Either way you look beautiful, but I totally get the struggle of the weightloss journey, I'm there too
You are the most real and relatable. Thanks for your vulnerability and thoughts. Sending you love from the Carolinas. All of the ladies in the comments are all with you ❤
Coming back to finish this the next day and seeing the end of your video, I've had a LOT of success with counting macros and joining the group Macros Inc. on Facebook. A lot of people look at it and jump to the conclusion that because we weigh our food that it's an obsessive eating disorder, but it's how we accurately track the portion sizes since labels and measuring by volume can be so far off. If you're going to meal prep portions, that could be really beneficial for you! It's the only "diet" I've been able to stick with for more than a couple of months because the longer you do it, the easier it gets, and you're actually allowed to have an adequate amount of calories, and they don't consider any foods "bad" for you. Prioritize protein and vegetables for fullness, but if it fits in your calories, you're allowed to have it. That mindset has made the biggest difference for me, and now that I'm back to trying to lose again, that's exactly where I went back to instead of trying another fad diet.
Kristi I am there with you girl. I have PCOS and Lupus and they are both hard to lose weight with. I get so depressed because I feel like it’s a no win situation. BUT I am also my own worst enemy. With my lupus I have days the pain is so bad, I just stuff my face with things that are bad for me. My husband is very supportive but thankfully he is not an enabler. He started a hello fresh subscription with healthy choices for me and got me some lupus friendly exercise stuff like stretching bands and chair yoga videos. Keep these videos going girl and we can all support each other. And I am so sorry for all the issues with your family and I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. Thanks Em❤
I am dealing with this too. I've always been thin and athletic. Well, I got a job interview and went to my closet to get a nice outfit, and got really depressed when I realized hardly anything fit me. Somehow, without realizing it, I had gained a lot of weight. I think one of the main things is I used to walk everywhere, used to walk miles! Where I live now isn't really a place I feel comfortable walking outside, and I am so far out in the country, there is no walking to the store here, it's really far away. Been dieting since last year! Well, not so much dieting, as changing my eating habits for good. The real challenge is getting enough exercise. I hate it! I want to walk! I think I am going to bite the bullet and get a treadmill so I can get some miles in like I used to. I almost always live someplace with stairs, too. Lots of stair climbing. My new place has no stairs. This really sucks but hey at least I'm facing the problem and dealing with it. I do have a stationary bike and a mountain climber and am using those as much as I can. You can do this! I know you can.
Happy that your making the changes for the right reasons since it's really all about how you feel and not how you look. If your happy with how you look then that's all that matters but if you don't feel good then you don't live good.
A FANTASTIC book that I CANNOT recommend enough is The Body is Not an Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor. I work as a therapist, and reference this book all the time in client sessions. The audiobook is great too if you prefer that mode. There’s also an adjoining workbook if you want to dive even deeper!
Also "how to do the work" by Nicole Per.
Honestly thank you for sharing. I have not related to something more.
For me, after so much trauma, it feels good to have had some kind of pleasure (in food). Also, dieting, denial, going hungry, giving up this bit of pleasure, and working out is painful and my pain bucket is full. I relate so hard. I cannot care but I also care so much. I also want to feel good, and look like myself. Thank you for sharing. Many of us relate so much.
Man oh man can I relate. ..😢
This feels like it came out of my brain. I’m so sorry you’re feeling what I’m feeling because it’s exhausting.
Thiiiiiisss.
Thank you for sharing Kristi! This is all so common and not talked about enough. Have you listened to maintenance phase? I’ve found it to help ground me and my thoughts about health, weight, and body image.
I can relate to some of this. My daughter has PANS/PANDAS and had an awful flare that lasted about six months and just ended around March/April. I was down to my smallest size in years bc I was RIDDLED with anxiety over our every day chaos. My dr put me on prozac, i was doing some at home therapy using a therapist who has a daughter with OCD, so I was able to use her tips and her group for support and get through it. My husband started doing 75hard, and while that was great overall, i was bored and lonely and much less anxious, so i ate and ate and ate, and stopped moving. I have gained 10 pounds, and while that isnt a ton to most people, im 5 ft. and at this weight? my joints hurt. i sleep worse. i am more tired. i feel like my skin is literally tighter like a sausage casing. IT IS NOT COMFORTABLE FOR ME NOR IS IT SUSTAINABLE FOR THE LIFE WE LIVE. I cannot homeschool if i am too tired or weak. so for me? i have to lose this weight. ive been trying to go about it in a healthier way, and trying to lift weights almost every day at home. im enjoying it but not seeing physical results yet bc im so sore. but my goal is stamina, energy, and being able to fit in the clothes i have bc in this economy, i cannot afford to purchase a whole new wardrobe. sorry for the rant. ritalin is kicking in, got dang it.
I love how raw and real you are. Never stop being you. I feel the exact same way….and I need to make changes. I feel uncomfortable….and I don’t like it.
I like Magnus's approach, which is live life. Eat well for like 80% and the other 20% you enjoy food. And there is intermittent fasting.
But I like the approach of just trying to make healthier meals, enjoy a treat now and then, and find some physical activity that I enjoy. I really enjoy going disc golfing with my husband. Walking (some cases hiking) while throwing discs, you're being active and enjoying it so much that you don't realize your workout till you're done and tired, but you have a smile on your face.
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You’re beautiful Kristy ❤ inside and OUT. Genuinely you’re such a light.
Lost my daughter in 2009… still gets me now!! Every now and then I’ll burst into tears!
Mentally suffered from PTSD since (recently diagnosed as C-PTSD). EMDR has helped loads but I’ve had multiple traumas so I could do with another batch really!
Sometimes I completely stop eating. Sometimes I binge… my binge eating is - I will eat until I’m in pain or physically sick! Thankfully haven’t binged in a while. I’m going through the not eating phase… 🤦♀️
Are you taking medication though? Because those can mess with impulse control & lots of stuff
I want to say this again but thank you for being open about this! I'm living the exact same thing. In 2020 I had a crisis and lost 20lb got on medication and now have gained 50lbs 😞 I need to change but it's hard!!
I have more conditions than not lol. Seeing the most positive difference taking relaxing walks and having added Kiefer to my diet💛✨️
totally unrelated to the topic of this video, but I remember watching your videos back a few years ago and somehow losing track of your channel - only for you to pop up in my recommended today. I'm happy to have found you again, you are for some reason very soothing to me. Thank you for still being here and thank you for this video :)
I hear you. When you say you care but not enough you are speaking to my soul!
This is why i had to go off antidepressants. I course corrected too much, going from hyper vigilance about everything to not worrying about anything, especially what i was eating. I was gaining weight so fast it was worse than the mood swings off meds. Everyone is different, gotta find what works for you.
Also, what if it’s ok to eat what you want for a while? Find other outlets to feel healthy, like vitamins/supplements, adding in healthy foods alongside your comfort foods. Add movement, etc and have compassion for yourself. Sometimes it’s ok to have time to nourish your soul. ❤