Hello Rachael. Thank you so much for sharing your story. So many of us struggle with the same issues. I'm 42 and have been struggling for three years, having relapsed into anorexia. I appreciate your candor and honesty. Your openness is a blessing to so many of us! Again, thank you!
Thank YOU!! While it's unfortunate that so many of us struggle with the same things, my hope is that these videos can ultimately serve as a way for us all to support and encourage each other. You're most certainly not alone 🧡🧡🧡
Rachel don't give up. I struggled with AN/BN for 30 years before I was finally able to get into recovery. I was one of those who was written off as 'chronic'. I had to get sick enough, to not want to be sick anymore. What I did differentry was use the exchange meal plan. Eat every 3 hours at the same time everyday, gave up exercise, threw out the scale, and let go of my idea of a 'goal weight'. I've been in recovery for almost 7 years now, I am 51. You can do this, it's not easy but it really is worth it.
Hi Lily, thank you so much for this lovely and encouraging comment! It gives me so much hope to read and I'm sure will do the same for anyone else who happens to stumble upon it. 😉👍 The commitment and bravery it must have taken for you to take that official first step despite all the internal resistance and external doubters is so admirable. Thank you for serving as yet another evidence that this IS possible and for sharing your hard won freedom!
The 'next right thing' idea was really helpful to me with meals. Looking at each meal and snack individually and commiting to that, regardless of how I ate earlier.
Hello Rachel, again I relate to your experience. Nearly 53 and during the past 20 or so years I have started fresh and optimistic in uncountable tomorrows. However, still binging and restricting and exercising. Several years of therapy from different people have not helped. I know what to do, but doing it??? Thanks for sharing 🙋🏻♀️
Isn't it funny what a huge incongruence there can be between knowing and doing!?!? I love the way you phrased that, "optimistic in uncomfortable tomorrow's." Sums it up perfectly. I wish us both tomorrow's and TODAYS full of action 🧡
Once I made a decision to quit bulimia I just did it.My mother had told me once that what ever you put in your mouth you keep,So,if I binged I didn't get rid of it.It took me 7 years to get to this point .I was so tired of hiding all of it.I also after 20 years of smoking ,quit .I felt like smoking was harder to quit.I did it all day everyday and it started at 13 ,same as my ed.I smoked a ton of cigarettes before I went to bed ,thinking it would make me sick and not want one when I woke up to take my kids to school,but no,I woke up and craves a morning smoke and had one or two and that was it.My daughter was 5 and she said she had had a dreamed that I had diedin a fire and she was so sad.I walked into the house and grabbed a nicotine patch and slapped it on .I never smoked again.That was 12 years ago.When i put my mind to something, i do it.I dont like letting myself down.You just have to stick with what you say.I did however try a few times at both before i was like,I'm done,no more.You know your ed mind is controlling these decisions and once you really feed yourself well,your thought around ed will change.i know you can do it.I did the minnie Maud, aka, homeodynamic methid.Also,quitting bulimia on my own fine,but I had no rewiring with my relationship with food,so I got into orthorexia and over exercise 11 years later by just wanting to lose 20 pounds after having kids.Had I had help ,I would have recognized what I was doing was excessive.I wish you all the best and you deserve to be well.
Thank you and I wish the same to you!! I admire your determination and commitment to a happier healthier life, regardless of the obstacles. I can be quite stubborn as well and believe the trait can serve us as long as we turn it in the right direction. 👍👍👍 Thank you so much for taking the time to share!!
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 I know each person's journey is their own and different for each person and I know you'll get there,,but sometimes someone says something that sticks in your head when u might need it.I used the things people have said to me that motivated me and to know if they can,I can.😊
I understand the importance of defining what’s going to be different. On the other hand; sometimes just knowing that I don’t want things to remain the same is all I can come up with. Unfortunately it isn’t (necessarily/always) sufficient for changes to happen. Listening to someone like you, who truly knows what living with anorexia is, is definitely helpful, though - in a way words can’t describe. Hug from Norway❤️
You bring up such an interesting point! Recovered life is ultimately such an unknown, so I think you're absolutely right. Acknowledgement that this current existence is miserable and not working for us is MORE than reason enough. Whatever gets the food onto our plates and into our mouths 😉👍
I had the exact same conversation with myself this morning to which i asked myself "what am i actually prepared to do to get well this time" and all the answer i had to tell myself was committed to recovery not try to limp into it but instead commit no matter what stop all negotiation and habits it sucks i cant say its unicorn and rainbows but i am ever hopeful the land of plenty is around the corner PS thanks for your videos at last someone saying actually how it is and not what they can eat in ONE day xx
Hahahaha you are quite welcome!! Indeed, full day of eating videos have always seemed less than helpful to me. I don't know how watching a video of someone doing a 10,000 calories challenge is going to help me way MY food. 😂 And that sounds like a really challenging but introspective moment of self honesty!! Here's to running rather than limping to recovery, at all costs.
If you aren't distressed at every meal, every snack, every day- you aren't doing it. Submit to inpatient. Give in and trust the process because there is all the intention there but the action is not. You can spend the next few weeks and months and years doing the same thing. Go inpatient, get Rider to serve you meals, tell him what to do and what behaviours are indicators that you are struggling. Go to the Centre for Balanced Living 5 day TBT-S workshop. The neurobiology of an eating disorder means that we literally cannot do this alone. I lost my job last year and felt so much shame and it let my patients down... it's not just talk, do exposure on video- all talk no trousers ;D
I love the saying all talk no trousers! 😂👍 I recall hearing it for the first time in a Megsy Recovery video and finding it both so funny and so true. I'm currently in the process of trying to "expand" my treatment team/support, so fingers massively crossed that falls into place sooner rather than later. I've never heard of that workshop before but will definitely take a look! Thank you so much for sharing, letting go and submitting is so hard but SO vital.
Hello Rachael. Thank you so much for sharing your story. So many of us struggle with the same issues. I'm 42 and have been struggling for three years, having relapsed into anorexia. I appreciate your candor and honesty. Your openness is a blessing to so many of us! Again, thank you!
Thank YOU!! While it's unfortunate that so many of us struggle with the same things, my hope is that these videos can ultimately serve as a way for us all to support and encourage each other. You're most certainly not alone 🧡🧡🧡
Rachel don't give up. I struggled with AN/BN for 30 years before I was finally able to get into recovery. I was one of those who was written off as 'chronic'. I had to get sick enough, to not want to be sick anymore. What I did differentry was use the exchange meal plan. Eat every 3 hours at the same time everyday, gave up exercise, threw out the scale, and let go of my idea of a 'goal weight'. I've been in recovery for almost 7 years now, I am 51. You can do this, it's not easy but it really is worth it.
Hi Lily, thank you so much for this lovely and encouraging comment! It gives me so much hope to read and I'm sure will do the same for anyone else who happens to stumble upon it. 😉👍 The commitment and bravery it must have taken for you to take that official first step despite all the internal resistance and external doubters is so admirable. Thank you for serving as yet another evidence that this IS possible and for sharing your hard won freedom!
One thing my nutritionist told me that really stuck in my head was,"If you have a back-up plan, you are planning to go back."
Hahahaha love this! So so true
The 'next right thing' idea was really helpful to me with meals. Looking at each meal and snack individually and commiting to that, regardless of how I ate earlier.
Hello Rachel, again I relate to your experience. Nearly 53 and during the past 20 or so years I have started fresh and optimistic in uncountable tomorrows. However, still binging and restricting and exercising. Several years of therapy from different people have not helped. I know what to do, but doing it??? Thanks for sharing 🙋🏻♀️
Isn't it funny what a huge incongruence there can be between knowing and doing!?!? I love the way you phrased that, "optimistic in uncomfortable tomorrow's." Sums it up perfectly. I wish us both tomorrow's and TODAYS full of action 🧡
That sounds so familiar, I’m 54 and in the same cycle, it’s always starting again tomorrow x
Once I made a decision to quit bulimia I just did it.My mother had told me once that what ever you put in your mouth you keep,So,if I binged I didn't get rid of it.It took me 7 years to get to this point .I was so tired of hiding all of it.I also after 20 years of smoking ,quit .I felt like smoking was harder to quit.I did it all day everyday and it started at 13 ,same as my ed.I smoked a ton of cigarettes before I went to bed ,thinking it would make me sick and not want one when I woke up to take my kids to school,but no,I woke up and craves a morning smoke and had one or two and that was it.My daughter was 5 and she said she had had a dreamed that I had diedin a fire and she was so sad.I walked into the house and grabbed a nicotine patch and slapped it on .I never smoked again.That was 12 years ago.When i put my mind to something, i do it.I dont like letting myself down.You just have to stick with what you say.I did however try a few times at both before i was like,I'm done,no more.You know your ed mind is controlling these decisions and once you really feed yourself well,your thought around ed will change.i know you can do it.I did the minnie Maud, aka, homeodynamic methid.Also,quitting bulimia on my own fine,but I had no rewiring with my relationship with food,so I got into orthorexia and over exercise 11 years later by just wanting to lose 20 pounds after having kids.Had I had help ,I would have recognized what I was doing was excessive.I wish you all the best and you deserve to be well.
Thank you and I wish the same to you!! I admire your determination and commitment to a happier healthier life, regardless of the obstacles. I can be quite stubborn as well and believe the trait can serve us as long as we turn it in the right direction. 👍👍👍 Thank you so much for taking the time to share!!
@@rachaelerinrecovers6099 I know each person's journey is their own and different for each person and I know you'll get there,,but sometimes someone says something that sticks in your head when u might need it.I used the things people have said to me that motivated me and to know if they can,I can.😊
It's awesome how those little nuggets of wisdom can be stored away. Thank you again, your words definitely inspired me ❤️🧡
I understand the importance of defining what’s going to be different. On the other hand; sometimes just knowing that I don’t want things to remain the same is all I can come up with. Unfortunately it isn’t (necessarily/always) sufficient for changes to happen.
Listening to someone like you, who truly knows what living with anorexia is, is definitely helpful, though - in a way words can’t describe.
Hug from Norway❤️
You bring up such an interesting point! Recovered life is ultimately such an unknown, so I think you're absolutely right. Acknowledgement that this current existence is miserable and not working for us is MORE than reason enough. Whatever gets the food onto our plates and into our mouths 😉👍
I had the exact same conversation with myself this morning to which i asked myself "what am i actually prepared to do to get well this time" and all the answer i had to tell myself was committed to recovery not try to limp into it but instead commit no matter what stop all negotiation and habits it sucks i cant say its unicorn and rainbows but i am ever hopeful the land of plenty is around the corner PS thanks for your videos at last someone saying actually how it is and not what they can eat in ONE day xx
Hahahaha you are quite welcome!! Indeed, full day of eating videos have always seemed less than helpful to me. I don't know how watching a video of someone doing a 10,000 calories challenge is going to help me way MY food. 😂 And that sounds like a really challenging but introspective moment of self honesty!! Here's to running rather than limping to recovery, at all costs.
If you aren't distressed at every meal, every snack, every day- you aren't doing it. Submit to inpatient. Give in and trust the process because there is all the intention there but the action is not. You can spend the next few weeks and months and years doing the same thing. Go inpatient, get Rider to serve you meals, tell him what to do and what behaviours are indicators that you are struggling. Go to the Centre for Balanced Living 5 day TBT-S workshop. The neurobiology of an eating disorder means that we literally cannot do this alone. I lost my job last year and felt so much shame and it let my patients down... it's not just talk, do exposure on video- all talk no trousers ;D
I love the saying all talk no trousers! 😂👍 I recall hearing it for the first time in a Megsy Recovery video and finding it both so funny and so true. I'm currently in the process of trying to "expand" my treatment team/support, so fingers massively crossed that falls into place sooner rather than later. I've never heard of that workshop before but will definitely take a look! Thank you so much for sharing, letting go and submitting is so hard but SO vital.
For anyone struggling Please try listening to Surah/chapter Rahman from Holy Quran. The Almighty help you in your journey to complete recovery❤️