Daria, I know exactly what you went through. I´m 65 now and have lived with depression since I was 15. Like you said, I became a great liar about my condition. So, in 2019 I couldn´t take it anymore and attempted to end it all. Well, that didn´t work so things began to change. Finally a new medication began to work, I decided to get a puppy and now I have two. I love taking care of them. The pandemic forced me into retirement (I used to give in-company trainings) and I am still learning how to deal with this person I had never knew I could be. So now, I quit smoking, drinking, I eat well and go to the gym every morning from 5:30 do 7 am. Most importantly, i take things very slowly. It tasted so much better. Cheers sweet woman!
I don't know how should I thank you for making this! Dealing with this feeling issues or depression I don't know what to call it for past 14 years and that too without professional or even without a single help made me DEAD inside that nobody can feel. I am short in words to express but you were so on point in your video. It just made me feel so good because I know now I am not alone! Within past 14 years I became graduate, supported entire family who were near to death for COVID ,came to a new country to start again from the ZERO, started my Masters, finished all the courses and now absolutely unable to move further! At this point of my life I should be more focused about my career in new place, look for job but nobody can feel how empty I feel inside. They only see A strong confident girl is just ruining herself being a LAZY girl who I am not at all in real! Take my sincere gratitude to record and share your story bravely to make people like me to be counted and seen. Thank you so much !!
Thanks for sharing. I've been through it too. It was hell. In my case, everytime I try to share what I went through / was going through, I never got any real sympathy or understanding. Doctors acted like it was the first person they'd seen with depression and were just awkward about it and prescribed me pills (which made it much worse), friends don't want to hear it and don't want to be dragged down by it (which I kind of understand but it sucks being left out of things because you lower the mood), family don't think anything of it until you actually break in front of them and then they don't know what to do with you. People just find it confusing when someone who looks ok says they are depressed. People these days always say it's good to talk about it but I didn't see any benefit. Stoic 'stiff upper lip' and just get through it with practical steps and changes in your life, that's the way that worked for me. We are ultimately alone in our own particular suffering and if you do not find a way out of it, no one will.
That's precisely the reason why I spoke about it a year later. At the time I didn't want to talk about it much either. I'm quite a stoic too. :) Sounds like you had a very difficult experience. It is a lonely journey most of the time, especially knowing that you can only rely on yourself. There are people who find most relief in talking to someone else about it, but there are a lot of people who have no one to talk to for various reasons. I hope you are feeling well these days!
You have explained that so perfectly and was complete honesty . Empath - which I think you are super sensitive and artistic. It has its good sides and amazing benefits but it’s the sensitivities of people and environments that are so organic but you absorb them psychically and physically. I know this so well. You’re a wonderful beautiful photographer and cinematographer thank you so much.
Thank you so much for creating this video, it really helped elevate what I'm feeling right now. I'm kind of in a situation where I'm confused of everything and seeing this video somehow helped with my mental clarity. So, thank you a lot!
You are an inspiration to me. I agree 100% about internal feelings. My amazing, bright light, smart, witty, and artistic eldest son took his own life at age 30 in 2020. My life will NEVER be the same and many things do not matter. I go through the motions of the day like the professional I am, but NO ONE knows the real me now. I do not understand this world and losing a child, no matter the age, is unbearable. Your channel is therapy for you AND for those of us suffering in our own reality. All I can say to you is: THANK YOU. ♥💔❤🩹
I slept at 4am last night which is very BAD. However i wokeup ontime today and looking forward to a very productive day. Art has changed my life for this i am greatful. I teach others
Thanks you for your help, it's really help me because I'm dealing with Depression and I wish if someone told me this before.I think Why is all the bad things happening to me, Now I realised Everyone is Going through this Situation and we want to understand and it just to experience no to Suffer. I'm really appreciate and Love u.
I really liked the way you put the music and that sweater's color fits you very well with your eyes. And of course, thank you for sharing your personal story.
Thank you so much Daria..🥰 Draw the line (past and current). This is important to me because when I am feeling down all the bad things in the past come rushing through my already mess up thoughts. I'm going to draw that dang line and scold myself, I mean remind myself to stop 😆. I am 55 now and guess what ? The naughty menopause hands me extra depressions 😂..huh..sigh...luckily, I love to paint ☺so whenever those depressos hit, I just grab my pen and sketch like crazy! 🤣It helps! but now I have your channel...I have a nice outlet...Thank you 🥰
This was quite a rollercoaster 😀 From touching and emotional share of your past to great tips on how to battle bad feelings in general to self realisations 😀 I feel like i just had a therapy session or something 😂 I wonder if some coach experts will try to now identify your disorders 😀 at some point I thought that there will be at least someone who will claim you have a bipolar or something, lol. Great and emotional video 😊👍🏻
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Thank you so much for watching this. It's probably the most real and raw video I made to date. It means a lot to share this with you.
I am really happy for you Daria that you feel alive now, it really helped me. Have a wonderful day:-)
Daria, I know exactly what you went through. I´m 65 now and have lived with depression since I was 15. Like you said, I became a great liar about my condition. So, in 2019 I couldn´t take it anymore and attempted to end it all. Well, that didn´t work so things began to change. Finally a new medication began to work, I decided to get a puppy and now I have two. I love taking care of them. The pandemic forced me into retirement (I used to give in-company trainings) and I am still learning how to deal with this person I had never knew I could be. So now, I quit smoking, drinking, I eat well and go to the gym every morning from 5:30 do 7 am. Most importantly, i take things very slowly. It tasted so much better. Cheers sweet woman!
I don't know how should I thank you for making this! Dealing with this feeling issues or depression I don't know what to call it for past 14 years and that too without professional or even without a single help made me DEAD inside that nobody can feel. I am short in words to express but you were so on point in your video. It just made me feel so good because I know now I am not alone! Within past 14 years I became graduate, supported entire family who were near to death for COVID ,came to a new country to start again from the ZERO, started my Masters, finished all the courses and now absolutely unable to move further! At this point of my life I should be more focused about my career in new place, look for job but nobody can feel how empty I feel inside. They only see A strong confident girl is just ruining herself being a LAZY girl who I am not at all in real! Take my sincere gratitude to record and share your story bravely to make people like me to be counted and seen. Thank you so much !!
I feel so validated right now as I am struggling with my depression ❤
Thanks for sharing. I've been through it too. It was hell. In my case, everytime I try to share what I went through / was going through, I never got any real sympathy or understanding. Doctors acted like it was the first person they'd seen with depression and were just awkward about it and prescribed me pills (which made it much worse), friends don't want to hear it and don't want to be dragged down by it (which I kind of understand but it sucks being left out of things because you lower the mood), family don't think anything of it until you actually break in front of them and then they don't know what to do with you. People just find it confusing when someone who looks ok says they are depressed.
People these days always say it's good to talk about it but I didn't see any benefit. Stoic 'stiff upper lip' and just get through it with practical steps and changes in your life, that's the way that worked for me. We are ultimately alone in our own particular suffering and if you do not find a way out of it, no one will.
That's precisely the reason why I spoke about it a year later. At the time I didn't want to talk about it much either. I'm quite a stoic too. :) Sounds like you had a very difficult experience. It is a lonely journey most of the time, especially knowing that you can only rely on yourself. There are people who find most relief in talking to someone else about it, but there are a lot of people who have no one to talk to for various reasons. I hope you are feeling well these days!
You have explained that so perfectly and was complete honesty . Empath - which I think you are super sensitive and artistic. It has its good sides and amazing benefits but it’s the sensitivities of people and environments that are so organic but you absorb them psychically and physically. I know this so well. You’re a wonderful beautiful photographer and cinematographer thank you so much.
Thank you so much for creating this video, it really helped elevate what I'm feeling right now. I'm kind of in a situation where I'm confused of everything and seeing this video somehow helped with my mental clarity. So, thank you a lot!
Emotion is quite a delicate thing. To safeguard one's heart...I can respect that.
You deserve a million views for this video 🙏
You are an inspiration to me. I agree 100% about internal feelings. My amazing, bright light, smart, witty, and artistic eldest son took his own life at age 30 in 2020. My life will NEVER be the same and many things do not matter. I go through the motions of the day like the professional I am, but NO ONE knows the real me now. I do not understand this world and losing a child, no matter the age, is unbearable. Your channel is therapy for you AND for those of us suffering in our own reality. All I can say to you is: THANK YOU. ♥💔❤🩹
I can relate so much with all what you said here. 🤗
I slept at 4am last night which is very BAD. However i wokeup ontime today and looking forward to a very productive day.
Art has changed my life for this i am greatful. I teach others
Thanks you for your help, it's really help me because I'm dealing with Depression and I wish if someone told me this before.I think Why is all the bad things happening to me, Now I realised Everyone is Going through this Situation and we want to understand and it just to experience no to Suffer.
I'm really appreciate and Love u.
I really liked the way you put the music and that sweater's color fits you very well with your eyes. And of course, thank you for sharing your personal story.
Thank you so much Daria..🥰 Draw the line (past and current). This is important to me because when I am feeling down all the bad things in the past come rushing through my already mess up thoughts. I'm going to draw that dang line and scold myself, I mean remind myself to stop 😆. I am 55 now and guess what ? The naughty menopause hands me extra depressions 😂..huh..sigh...luckily, I love to paint ☺so whenever those depressos hit, I just grab my pen and sketch like crazy! 🤣It helps! but now I have your channel...I have a nice outlet...Thank you 🥰
This was quite a rollercoaster 😀
From touching and emotional share of your past to great tips on how to battle bad feelings in general to self realisations 😀 I feel like i just had a therapy session or something 😂
I wonder if some coach experts will try to now identify your disorders 😀 at some point I thought that there will be at least someone who will claim you have a bipolar or something, lol.
Great and emotional video 😊👍🏻
haha I don't want to dig deeper into it anymore! :D This was made to release what I felt back then, so I hope no online diagnoses will be made! :D