What It’s Like To Lose Someone To Suicide

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Комментарии • 35 тыс.

  • @elil8094
    @elil8094 8 лет назад +1464

    This is why I don't just do it. I can't hurt someone else just because I'm in pain.

    • @melancholybaby7138
      @melancholybaby7138 8 лет назад +13

      exactly, but then you end up having to live in pain :/

    • @BunnyBell12345687
      @BunnyBell12345687 8 лет назад +9

      +Donie Little I'm glad someone thinks the same as me.

    • @etta5487
      @etta5487 8 лет назад +8

      I know. I hate to sound insensitive but it seems so selfish.

    • @RM-nl9es
      @RM-nl9es 8 лет назад +5

      I hope things get better for you. Hang in there.

    • @miamccormack7960
      @miamccormack7960 8 лет назад +5

      +AnimalEtta564 I think that at one point things get so bad that you come first and you have to put other feelings aside and decide what is best for you, but I understand what you mean

  • @Bekahcraig
    @Bekahcraig 5 лет назад +13448

    the only reason I'm still on this planet is that I am afraid of how it would affect the people who love me.

    • @cowboydelnorte3078
      @cowboydelnorte3078 5 лет назад +335

      My brother is the only reason I’m here. If he passes I may go too. But sometimes I feel I should just leave now but I don’t want him to be hurt and to live contemplating on how he could’ve saved me or said something or even blaming himself bc it’s not about that it’s just me a lot of times I simply don’t want to be here I hate the human race and blame God for all that we are to this very second but whatever love doesn’t matter on earth it never did power is what matters and it’s poison

    • @BenChung78
      @BenChung78 5 лет назад +85

      @@cowboydelnorte3078 Just know that GOD is not the type who abuses and uses people for power. The ones who abuse and use people for power are evil people....not GOD.
      So learn to trust in GOD and not in the others who abuse and use people the wrong way. Peace only comes from GOD anyhow.
      You see...Christians believe that GOD sent His son into the world so that people can be free from sin and misery...not to abuse people and use us.....but to set people free from the source of misery that is having the wrong mindset of seeing everyone and everything as something to be used and acquired for oneself.
      Jesus saves from sin and gives a hope stronger than death. But one has to be humble and believe in order to receive that hope.

    • @gattinafatata
      @gattinafatata 5 лет назад +39

      It's not the only reason, it's not how it works! You may be suffering but you have love around yourself, you want to be alive even though you're struggling with mental health. You don't just decide if you're going to die so easily, you're still in time. I hope you get better.

    • @yurelldetorres1071
      @yurelldetorres1071 4 года назад +40

      Exactly dude my friends are the only reason im still hrre

    • @bokastark3925
      @bokastark3925 4 года назад +23

      How are you doing now 💕

  • @emmamargaard4510
    @emmamargaard4510 3 года назад +1311

    I don’t want to die, and I don’t want to live either. I wish I was never born

    • @inameier1257
      @inameier1257 3 года назад +36

      Well I'm glad you're here and do you know why? According to your profile picture, you stan or like a man who is incredibly wonderful and kind. And because of that, you must me a wonderful, kind person as well.
      I don't know what you believe in, but I believe that everyone is here on this earth at this time for a reason. And so are you and maybe it doesn't seem like it's worth living right now, but I promise you one day it will get better. And you'll know why you're here. We influence so many people around us without even knowing it. Let's take the two of us as an example. I just read your comment and even tho I have no idea who you are, I care about you now. I want you to be here! Whenever you think there's so reason to stay or no reason for you to be born at all, you can now think about the stranger out there (hi, that's me, I'm Emmi :)) that cares about you being here.
      I want you to be strong and to fight for happiness. One day you will realize it's worth it. And I promise you this day is nearer than you think.
      So please stay strong and never stop fighting for yourself and others. Everybody can be the someone who makes a difference to somebody else. Please stay, you deserve all the happiness in the world.
      And if you want to, you can always contact me. But if you want me to stay the stranger who cares about you, that's fine as well.
      TPWK :)

    • @emmamargaard4510
      @emmamargaard4510 3 года назад +28

      @@inameier1257 this made me smile, you’re so sweet. Thank you sm🥺 this means so much, to know someone cares. I wish you all happiness in the world ❤️

    • @youtubeaccount1441
      @youtubeaccount1441 3 года назад +6

      Same

    • @ea062
      @ea062 3 года назад +16

      Never read anything so relatable, I just want to sleep forever peacefully. But I also want to know what happens if I don’t, will it get better? Hopefully. I’m gonna keep pushing through for now, nothing can ever be the same ya know? We all change. I hope we all can find a sense of peace 💜

    • @naahbro
      @naahbro 3 года назад +5

      Same why I born

  • @SuperVladdrakula
    @SuperVladdrakula Год назад +115

    "Suicide isn't selfish. What's truly selfish is neglecting someone so badly to the point that they want to kill themselves." Words of a wise person...

  • @annalee9281
    @annalee9281 4 года назад +1735

    If you’re reading this, I’m sorry. You’re on this video for a reason and that just breaks my heart

    • @mimimagic1895
      @mimimagic1895 4 года назад +27

      No. I'm sorry. For letting everyone down. It was the last time. See ya everybody

    • @bigcountryspoundcake4513
      @bigcountryspoundcake4513 4 года назад +1

      Anna Lee Pretty assuming of you but alright then

    • @userNOTfound1-3
      @userNOTfound1-3 4 года назад +26

      @@mimimagic1895 Hang in there luv. The feeling comes and goes... I know. Your life is worth living, you'll see.

    • @agrimabist1112
      @agrimabist1112 3 года назад +2

      ❤️

    • @puripurimimi2803
      @puripurimimi2803 3 года назад +11

      @@mimimagic1895 please, we love you, we want to see you happy and prosperous

  • @northlovelady-allen6441
    @northlovelady-allen6441 5 лет назад +723

    If I could leave without hurting anyone I would.

    • @nickdick454
      @nickdick454 5 лет назад +24

      You just found your reason to stay

    • @arielrodriguez1892
      @arielrodriguez1892 5 лет назад +3

      @@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona they only care after the guy or girls ended their life like always why they didn't do anything to help him or her in the first place I don't care anyways I am just giving my opinion on the video have a nice day.

    • @arielrodriguez1892
      @arielrodriguez1892 5 лет назад +1

      @@thiswndrlnd8119 Mona that's fine I am glad u have that many friends but I front have any I only go from my home to work and then from work to my home I accept my life the way it is but It makes me sick seeing all this people in the video acting like they care when in the momment they didn't do anything now it is too late to cry

    • @AceOfWaffles
      @AceOfWaffles 5 лет назад +9

      @@arielrodriguez1892 They probably had NO IDEA that their loved one was struggling, or just how bad it was getting! It's terrible to say those people didn't care until they were dead. You don't know that. People care about you. They really do. They just don't understand and/or don't know how to help.

    • @ruicosta4044
      @ruicosta4044 5 лет назад +1

      That's the only thing holding me back but everyday the feeling gets stronger

  • @HardlyBoring1
    @HardlyBoring1 8 лет назад +1610

    I hate it when people say that suicide is selfish, you may think its selfish because they are making people suffer by them committing suicide but you don't know why they did it, you don't know what made them turn to suicide, stop calling it selfish

    • @charalscrybaby2754
      @charalscrybaby2754 8 лет назад +17

      +Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

    • @charalscrybaby2754
      @charalscrybaby2754 8 лет назад +6

      +Dan Wills i finally found someone who thinks like me>

    • @samanthaskye00
      @samanthaskye00 8 лет назад +8

      +Dan Wills I agree with you 110%. I want to hit ppl when they say it is

    • @Apezz19
      @Apezz19 8 лет назад +16

      I wouldnt call it selfish until i know what is the real problem and the cause of it..we might not know exactly how it feels, but its our job to comfort other when they cant comfort themself..the world was warm, lets make it warm again, together..

    • @fathzable
      @fathzable 8 лет назад +4

      so true

  • @kaguramiochanlu9942
    @kaguramiochanlu9942 2 года назад +48

    I dont want to keep hearing the "dont kill yourself because youre just passing on the pain" thing. I know its worked for others and im glad.
    But like to me, so im just gonna sit here and take it then? For others? What about me?
    Man i want to live because i want to live, not because other people will be sad if i dont live.

    • @angelawright-swifte6247
      @angelawright-swifte6247 2 года назад +2

      Exactly, people saying that doesn’t help me feel any better it makes me feel guilty.

  • @yshannng
    @yshannng 4 года назад +1794

    We are all suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide is never an answer

  • @randimurphy6835
    @randimurphy6835 8 лет назад +824

    Mental Health Week is the best thing Buzzfeed has ever done.

    • @randimurphy6835
      @randimurphy6835 8 лет назад +17

      +irapedmymothersthroat Are you kidding me? Do you not understand what this video in particular is about? This video is about losing someone to suicide, which some of the time suicide can be caused by a poor mental health state. Also, losing someone else to suicide can cause mental health issues such as depression, anxiety, panic attacks, agoraphobia, etc. So don't you or anyone else dare tell me mental health is not important.

    • @mayaphipps5195
      @mayaphipps5195 8 лет назад +12

      +irapedmymothersthroat it's really not important? Millions of people die every year from mental health (suicide because of their health problem) and even more people stay strong and fight with this. You are insulting them, me, my sisters, my best friend, and so much more. It takes lives, ruins relationships, self esteem, and more. So please don't say that

    • @katlin9274
      @katlin9274 8 лет назад +1

      +Emily Loera don't feed the trolls

    • @daraley1098
      @daraley1098 8 лет назад +3

      +irapedmymothersthroat reported as spam. little brat get of the internet.

    • @zariya7665
      @zariya7665 8 лет назад +1

      Yes.. I feel its making me more mentally healthy

  • @Dani_77709
    @Dani_77709 4 года назад +1131

    I'm so sick and tired of "you're not alone"
    Yes, yes in the end I am on my own. Dealing with this unbearable pain when I'm awake. I'm alone at 3am, silently crying and screaming without making a sound.
    I tried everything and it doesn't get better. Stop lying. This pain is with you forever. It's a mental torture.
    I always return in this state. Always. And I'm so, so tired.

    • @kc-wr1ui
      @kc-wr1ui 4 года назад +26

      u should really talk to someone i hope your ok stay strong

    • @janiraannette6173
      @janiraannette6173 4 года назад +1

      Exactly nelli

    • @kc-wr1ui
      @kc-wr1ui 4 года назад +6

      @Nelli Torre yeah i guess so

    • @lizcherrez
      @lizcherrez 4 года назад +8

      Life is like being alcoholic, there is no cure and you may feel completly in control somedays and other days you feel in the need of a drink. It's hard, you wish you weren't alcoholic, you feel you don't deserve nothing but you have to keep living if you want less bad days. Of course you can't ignore that you are an alcoholic but neither control your life. If you justo gave up on everything, you will regret and drinking meawhile you say "I'm drinking because of the shame of being an alcoholic!" (The example if from 'The Little Prince')

    • @applef1uffy
      @applef1uffy 4 года назад +36

      That’s true, no one knows what it’s like but you. I’m not going to pretend I know exactly what you’re going through. But I’m here to talk

  • @awadoo4503
    @awadoo4503 2 года назад +45

    Some people blame them saying theyre selfish! really? don't you realize that death is the last thing anyone wants? It was really unbearable what they were going through that they finally saw no escape but to die!

  • @laboskisota2963
    @laboskisota2963 5 лет назад +567

    Here's the thing:
    People only care after the fact, before that everyone wishes you would shut up and stop being so negative.

    • @victorianrainbow6366
      @victorianrainbow6366 5 лет назад +52

      That's so true. One day, I found the courage to talk to a friend about my depression. They comforted me that day, but then, everytime I tried to vent about my depression, they seemed annoyed that I was touching that topic again. So I never talked about it again, I guess.

    • @user-gb6vw4qb9x
      @user-gb6vw4qb9x 5 лет назад +5

      koi no yokan I know your most likely sick of hearing this ( I was) but things really do get better, please take care of yourself ✨

    • @victorianrainbow6366
      @victorianrainbow6366 5 лет назад +2

      @@user-gb6vw4qb9x thank you so much

    • @shoulol7424
      @shoulol7424 5 лет назад +19

      Pretty much. It's sad, but so true. People don't want to hear your problems and negativity all the time. Your loved ones, the only ones who you feel you can tell about it, tell you to go away cause' your so annoying and negative. It hurts. 😔

    • @Lihle_Ndita
      @Lihle_Ndita 5 лет назад +7

      So true, I once tried to genuinely open up to a friend only for her to say I drained her and that I always have problems. I get negativity isn't going to be well received but don't act like and say you care when we all know you'll only care if something ever happened

  • @thangamuthur7097
    @thangamuthur7097 5 лет назад +559

    We don't want to die, we just want to disappear like never existed at all.

    • @TheOnlyHollywood1
      @TheOnlyHollywood1 5 лет назад +28

      Death is the closest thing we'll get to that

    • @snoopy-mf7nv
      @snoopy-mf7nv 5 лет назад +4

      But we can't. I know I felt the same.

    • @nenalovepullip8684
      @nenalovepullip8684 4 года назад

      @@TheOnlyHollywood1 but it's better to live all can change!!

    • @namcicle2309
      @namcicle2309 4 года назад +2

      I wish there was an easier way out

    • @thangamuthur7097
      @thangamuthur7097 4 года назад

      @@namcicle2309 Don't we all. Depression teaches life: it's never a one day work.
      Work every day and forgive yourself when you screw up.
      You might have heard/read it already but still:
      Move away from internet (or the whole smartphone), listen to Music, try to find some conversation groups and 'Meditate'. Concentrate on your breath when things go wrong. It helped me a lot.

  • @Joeyblondewolf2
    @Joeyblondewolf2 4 года назад +634

    I found out my coworker friend ended his life while I was at work. We were all crying... the day before he came to visit us and left. He looked so happy but it makes me feel so useless I didn't see his sadness through his fake smile... He was 17.

    • @JoleneRoxs72
      @JoleneRoxs72 4 года назад +7

      That is incredibly difficult to go through.. I am so sorry. Please take life as it is and try to enjoy the little moments. I hope we can all bring awareness to these things. Beneath a hard shell lies a vulnerable sensitive person... it's important that we all try to help each other. We don't know what others are going through .. the best we can do is listen and support them.. to be those people they can trust and confide in. I used to want to die everyday of my life and I am forever grateful I was strong enough to pull myself out of it and had that support system that wanted me to succeed and be better... I am currently in university to pursue law enforcement. I hope to be that person that others come to for help even when it seems there is no hope left. Please take care and I hope we all learn to love and look after one another... we all need it.

    • @kristyna.kocianova
      @kristyna.kocianova 4 года назад +21

      A lot of people who are resolved to kill themselves look very cheerful and at peace before they do it. They have a plan already and feel relaxed. It's not your fault in any way. Don't feel guilty about not spotting this, because it can definitely look like your friend is doing better but they are just saying goodbye...

    • @awickedformerdisneysinger8445
      @awickedformerdisneysinger8445 3 года назад +1

      My condolences to you and the other people in his life who cared for and loved him. Do not feel guilty. Sometimes, all that anyone can do is let them know that they are cared for.

    • @Emily-hk6wc
      @Emily-hk6wc 3 года назад +5

      I just want to say, it may not have been a fake smile. If he dad already planned his death and everything, changes are he was actually happy. He was going to be out of pain soon.

    • @r1thy4
      @r1thy4 3 года назад +1

      i'm so sorry, no one should have to go through that. pls don't blame yourself for what he did. you're so strong, i hope someday the pain will go away

  • @jenniferastrom8805
    @jenniferastrom8805 Год назад +44

    I think if someone turns to suicide that their life must be horrible. or they must be suffering a lot mentally. You can't cure everyone who is mentally ill. If a cancer patient kills himself because the pain is unbearable everyone seems to understand. Mental pain, however, is seen as something unreal? Why is one okay not the other?

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula Год назад +6

      "Why is one okay not the other?" Because people are hypocrites...

    • @M.Guy1095
      @M.Guy1095 Год назад

      You are right people always people keep saying that suicide is sin or they are selfish that why they live other in suffer but they doesn't know they suffer form interior themselves any try not conference to any and keep it in themselves and keep acting too be a normal person and some people show some sympathy after suicidal person done already suicide and some don't care during alive time and after die too so form my concept people are different have different mentality that's why they keep doing like this but those how keep try too carry on the struggling they are like suicidal mental health conditions and they done it's mean it's too much load to carry on but they keep try to control harder but last some become weak to continue they just quite like me what I am going too do but some try like this way

  • @hid8290
    @hid8290 5 лет назад +275

    *It's hard to survive in a mind that wants to die*

    • @deanalvarado795
      @deanalvarado795 5 лет назад +5

      100% truth

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 5 лет назад +2

      Who needs to survive?

    • @SaithMasu12
      @SaithMasu12 5 лет назад +5

      Try to ease the mind, as much as possible. Thats what i do.
      Understand that whatever the mind comes up with, it isnt reality.
      Give it some rest.
      Maybe do some breathing techniques or meditate.
      Ease the mind as much as possible and i guarantee you, you will feel better.

    • @userNOTfound1-3
      @userNOTfound1-3 4 года назад +1

      When you've already decided .. trying to undo it takes a lot

    • @hid8290
      @hid8290 4 года назад +1

      @SC I this comment caught me off guard. I'm happy now because of prayer. I gave my life to God and now I'm happier than ever. Still alone but not so much because I can control my mind now

  • @sgx6215
    @sgx6215 3 года назад +595

    i dont want to kill myself BUT i simply dont want to live, i want to die in like a car accident, a fight, a fire or anyrhing that would take my life instead of me taking it by myself

    • @ali-vi6xv
      @ali-vi6xv 3 года назад +18

      Same. Just something to end it. I'm tired

    • @ilovespeed7467
      @ilovespeed7467 3 года назад +7

      If you guys need someone to talk to add my Snapchat, iii_britney or Instagram, britn3ey, and I feel the same way as you :).

    • @ali-vi6xv
      @ali-vi6xv 3 года назад +6

      @Defaulter X does it matter?

    • @sgx6215
      @sgx6215 3 года назад +1

      @Defaulter X suiciding is a sin, hoping to die is a different thing

    • @amidayooo
      @amidayooo 3 года назад +1

      I’m so sorry to hear that .. it breaks my heart that you have to be feeling this way. ;((

  • @zayneyeehaw401
    @zayneyeehaw401 5 лет назад +145

    i hate when people say dont kill yourselves because of your family ect it makes it feel like more of a burden and even worse about the situation

    • @adityaHB456
      @adityaHB456 5 лет назад +5

      Zayne Yeehaw exactly..😥😥

    • @MariaKiran1
      @MariaKiran1 5 лет назад

      Exactly.

    • @snoopy-mf7nv
      @snoopy-mf7nv 5 лет назад +5

      I know especially if you have a family of narcissists and they treat you like your life is supposed to be an enslavement to serving their narcissism.

  • @moneo007
    @moneo007 Год назад +64

    The only reason I haven't done it, it's because I'm afraid I will survive it...

    • @MinjiJeongg
      @MinjiJeongg Год назад +1

      Please know that you’re loved ❤️‍🩹

    • @buddy3635
      @buddy3635 Год назад

      Please don't go. I promise promise promise you life gets better. What can I do to help?

    • @moneo007
      @moneo007 Год назад +1

      @buddy3635 at the moment, I feel useless 😔

    • @buddy3635
      @buddy3635 Год назад +1

      @@moneo007 What's your life situation right now? Are you in school, working, something else?

    • @ingenuised
      @ingenuised Год назад

      No chance of surviving a gun to the head, quick and painless, if you are afraid of a gun you are afraid of death which is why you shouldn't commit

  • @ultronisgaming2024
    @ultronisgaming2024 3 года назад +298

    People would care and cry only if you're gone, as long as you're alive and still living, you are like an invisible person

    • @aviezerscop401
      @aviezerscop401 3 года назад +2

      Wanna be an invisible penpal?😊

    • @ultronisgaming2024
      @ultronisgaming2024 3 года назад +1

      @@aviezerscop401 sure

    • @nickn2794
      @nickn2794 3 года назад +2

      HII! I created a Discord group where we can discuss about our problems. You're not alone! discord.gg/BjJxFSpK I'm not a therapist, but I've had/having these problems too, I can listen

    • @ultronisgaming2024
      @ultronisgaming2024 3 года назад +1

      @@mollymalone2838 agreed

    • @peterevans6480
      @peterevans6480 3 года назад +7

      @@mollymalone2838 exactly, you're frustrating to deal with until youre not there anymore

  • @user-oq7ee2ol6i
    @user-oq7ee2ol6i 4 года назад +394

    If I'm "sooooo loved" by my family and friends why don't they show it when I'm alive?

    • @khaligoihl9455
      @khaligoihl9455 4 года назад +27

      I have never related to something more :(

    • @khaligoihl9455
      @khaligoihl9455 4 года назад +21

      @@user-oq7ee2ol6i yeah I get what you mean. sometimes people say they care but don't show it

    • @fiona7088
      @fiona7088 4 года назад +9

      Trust me you are loved. ❤️❤️Some people just don’t know how to tell you even if they care a lot. They just need some time to push themselves to tell you . I know that sounds horrible but Idk how to explain this but they might be lost aswell..

    • @khaligoihl9455
      @khaligoihl9455 4 года назад +5

      @@fiona7088 you have no idea how much I needed to hear this! thank you

    • @user-oq7ee2ol6i
      @user-oq7ee2ol6i 4 года назад +3

      @@fiona7088 I want to off myself but they don't care about that

  • @jackcarraway4707
    @jackcarraway4707 2 года назад +291

    People who thinks suicide is selfish are clueless.

    • @tebohosefatsa6627
      @tebohosefatsa6627 2 года назад +36

      They don't understand how tough things can be.

    • @6851843
      @6851843 2 года назад +2

      Caught my eye, I try to be reasonable and open. I'm interested in hearing your take on this , reason being is because about after a month or so I was really angry with my dad who ended his life . At the time I felt it was extremely selfish. This is why I'm asking. Thank you for your time.

    • @ahumanbeing2283
      @ahumanbeing2283 2 года назад +22

      @@6851843 I think I might have a similar take on this to the guy above so I thought I might add. People who commit suicide (or think about it) often actually see it as selfless or somewhere in the middle. This is because they well and truly believe that the world would be better off without them. Yes, they probably acknowledge that their loved ones will experience immense pain after their death but they may also feel that, after a while, they will be ultimately better off without them. This is just my take on things, I hope it helps :)

    • @rozhin6055
      @rozhin6055 2 года назад +6

      @@ahumanbeing2283 Exactly! For me I feel like it would be better for everybody if I just didn't exist

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад

      Sure, they are...

  • @Merian_Dhe_vheeera
    @Merian_Dhe_vheeera 2 года назад +30

    Ah i fuckin' hate my life.. i wish i could die now while sleeping

    • @nalaninanir6518
      @nalaninanir6518 2 года назад

      you mean so much to the people around you just hold on a little everything will get better x

    • @filipfarkasovsky5948
      @filipfarkasovsky5948 2 года назад +2

      same bro

  • @preski000
    @preski000 6 лет назад +131

    One day I was at school and I went into the bathroom and I heard a girl sobbing in one of the stalls, I went to see who it was and when she said for me to go away I realized that it was a girl that had been particularly mean to me and other students over the past few months. I asked her what was wrong over and over again while she repeatedly told me to get out of the bathroom. The locks on the bathroom door had those weird slits in them so I used my finger nails to unlock the door and I saw her sitting on the toilet holding a tube of sleeping pills, when she saw that I had opened the door and seen what she was doing she sobbed eve harder in defeat and let me take the pills from her hands and we sat on the floor of the bathroom in the middle of 5th period for 45 minutes crying and and telling each other that it was going to be ok. That’s the story of how my 11th grade bully became my best friend to this day, we’re celebrating 6 years of friend ship and staying alive and heathy this fall. I might add that I had survived a suicide attempt and understood what she was going through.

  • @fishcakez
    @fishcakez 4 года назад +490

    i feel really guilty for being depressed and having suicidal thoughts.

    • @ΣπύροςΧρυσάφης-ο1ψ
      @ΣπύροςΧρυσάφης-ο1ψ 4 года назад +13

      going through anxiety and ocd myself i can tell you that we should have faith , suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. as long as we are alive ,hope is there my friend, be patient and strong

    • @CitizenofGallifrey
      @CitizenofGallifrey 4 года назад +5

      @@ΣπύροςΧρυσάφης-ο1ψ My autism is not a temporary problem, it is a permanent disease that I am afflicted with.

    • @ΣπύροςΧρυσάφης-ο1ψ
      @ΣπύροςΧρυσάφης-ο1ψ 4 года назад +3

      @@CitizenofGallifrey I know my friend... But whatever problems you may have you always have the choice to stay strong and get the best out of every situation. If you search you can find examples of people in the worst possible situations who managed to thrive

    • @scythe7269
      @scythe7269 4 года назад +12

      You shouldn't ever feel guilty for anything. It wasn't the path you chose. Power through it, do good in this life and hopefully you won't have the same problems in your next life. That's all I'm trying to do as a person suffering with ocd and intrusive thoughts myself.

    • @scythe7269
      @scythe7269 4 года назад +1

      @@CitizenofGallifrey Yes you do have a permanent disease. Does it affect you daily? Yes it does. Is it bad from your perspective? Yes it is. But there are people who have it much worse. I can't compare my ocd and intrusive thoughts to autism because 1. I am not autistic and 2. I do not know the severity of your autism but you see people on the streets daily. They suffer more than anyone in the world and the person you see begging hasn't committed suicide because they believe it can get better. I pray for everyone to have the same mindset as the less fortunate.

  • @JamesV84
    @JamesV84 8 лет назад +489

    *Wow*... it was already _moving_ even before they said anything... But when they _spoke_, you really realise how important it is to *listen* to what they've learnt from it, I feel we could *all* learn something from this.

    • @lilacbp3908
      @lilacbp3908 8 лет назад +1

      Well that was quick

    • @bhad7201
      @bhad7201 8 лет назад +2

      damn it i commented before you and this video was so sad that i forgot to comment about graphic design guy

    • @JamesV84
      @JamesV84 8 лет назад

      TeaPawncha Hi :)

    • @JamesV84
      @JamesV84 8 лет назад

      _Eva _ I watched it straight away, but took me some time to put down in words exactly what I wanted to say, but it was still impossible to convey my feelings in words...

    • @JamesV84
      @JamesV84 8 лет назад +1

      Whatt Ariana It's okay, getting your message across is certainly more important than beating me :)

  • @martinrasmussen6869
    @martinrasmussen6869 2 года назад +45

    People only care when you are gone because its reflect badly on them.

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад +3

      True...

    • @donaldkeith139
      @donaldkeith139 2 года назад

      I disagree. What you wrote is exactly what my own demon tries to tell me...
      "they don't really care"
      "they only want you around because you do stuff for them"
      And then my brain would agree
      "yeah that's right"
      "they don't really love me"

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад

      @@donaldkeith139 _No one_ cares for anyone... They only pretend to at best and only care about extorting things out of each other... It's just flat out truth... If it wasn't, life would have given a very different image... There wouldn't have been so much suffering and misery in the first place...

    • @llawliet9yearsago920
      @llawliet9yearsago920 2 года назад +1

      Not really.. If my best friend were to die or something.. I'd wanna die as well

    • @ageis3250
      @ageis3250 2 года назад

      @@donaldkeith139 But its true...

  • @rejeanarainn5662
    @rejeanarainn5662 5 лет назад +76

    My sister committed suicide in April. She came to my house that day with biggest smile on her face and a look in her eyes I couldn't pinpoint. That look was her knowing she would never see me again. I have no words...

  • @lolidk2024
    @lolidk2024 4 года назад +305

    i saved my sister from suicide once, and i didn’t even know. i knew she was having hard times and she locked herself in the bathroom. i knocked on the door and told her that i’m here and that i love her. a few months later she told me she was gonna slit her wrists that day but when i told her i loved her, she decided that she’ll keep going for me. and i have never been more proud of both her and myself. i saved someone and she was strong enough to stay alive.

    • @Jivi_Galaxy
      @Jivi_Galaxy 4 года назад +1

      🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼👍👍👍😊😊😊

    • @jacklandy5704
      @jacklandy5704 4 года назад +14

      We need more people like you in this world. If I could get the chance to meet you in person I'd gladly shake your hand.
      Good job and I hope your sister is OK.

    • @klyzl
      @klyzl 3 года назад +12

      im 16 and my sister is 4 she often finds me crying in me room and just stays there quiet until im done i love her so much I can't imagine what would she would remember of me when she grows up and im not there to take care of her anymore or even learn the simple things of being a teenager i dont want to leave her with my parents but I can't take this anymore i hpe they takecare of her

    • @LucieCornelia
      @LucieCornelia 3 года назад +5

      @@klyzl Remember that it will be okay. If you're depressed I suggest ither getting a pet or borrowing a pet or volunteering at somewhere animal related. They are so innocent and creating a bond with an animal changes you. You could also focus on the things that makes you happy or distracts you from the pain if only temporary. I know you might often hear the bs about not being alone by people who only say and don't actually do anything. You might be alone, but then you have to find someone. Someone you can talk to, listen to, trust, feel loved by. It might take time but you will find that person of not people. You have a place here, but no one can tell you where that is. You have to find it. Whatever it might be. You belong.

    • @crybaby7085
      @crybaby7085 3 года назад

      we all waiting for that person to say im with you

  • @sonephomreuanglit1760
    @sonephomreuanglit1760 4 года назад +182

    If you are suicidal and you’re still alive, I'm very proud of you. ❤️
    (Edit : Omg I didn’t expect to have 47 likes but thanks, love your guys stay strong) ❤️🥀

    • @lingardinhold5409
      @lingardinhold5409 4 года назад +2

      I have mental lines live Dubai
      I am fighting angist my anxiety
      People look down me
      Am only 22 they are jealous because who I am best teen in Dubai

    • @nadiamills4781
      @nadiamills4781 4 года назад +3

      I almost lost my bestie then my family almost lost me

    • @EvelynOnline9205
      @EvelynOnline9205 4 года назад +2

      No I’m not

    • @youtubeaccount1441
      @youtubeaccount1441 3 года назад +1

      Well Im disappionted in myself

  • @yte4yyt186
    @yte4yyt186 2 года назад +28

    Let's all be honest life goes on nobody really cares about anyone but themselves I wish there was a guaranteed easy way out that wouldnt scar me for life if I survived I don't want to live anymore

  • @SebastianReedAndrews
    @SebastianReedAndrews 8 лет назад +474

    This video hits close. I lost my dad to suicide when I was eight. It's been about nine years now, and we're finally starting to get back on our feet, but it took such a long time since his death shook our whole foundation so much.

    • @raquel_sofia512
      @raquel_sofia512 8 лет назад

      +Sebastian Reed Andrews I'm sorry

    • @xImpashionedx
      @xImpashionedx 8 лет назад +1

      I'm really sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family have gone through.

    • @Z2Z9
      @Z2Z9 8 лет назад +1

      People who commite suicide are selfish. I don't mean to be rude they are probably having tough times but when they commite suicide they are affecting those around them who love them and cherish them. I think we all think about commiting suicide at one point but we all think about is it worth it. Some people sadly say yes

    • @jacoblot6939
      @jacoblot6939 8 лет назад

      aw I'm sorry to here that, and just move on bro. I lost my biological mother when I was 14 man was it rough. I remember failing every exam I had that year and crying almost every class.But I have my step mother now and I love her so much.

    • @kierstynsaoirse
      @kierstynsaoirse 8 лет назад +5

      +Panda San most people who commit suicide aren't being selfish because they believe that no one will care if they die because they think they're completely alone.

  • @That_dom_guy
    @That_dom_guy 2 года назад +129

    I wish I could give my life to someone who wants to live

    • @CandyKitty_Doll
      @CandyKitty_Doll 2 года назад +11

      Same, I want to give it to my grandpa who died last year from ALS and he never wanted to die.

    • @UseADamnCoaster
      @UseADamnCoaster 2 года назад +13

      Exactly. Had a friend die of cancer a few months ago when he had a bright future. I have no future and no desire to create one. All I could think about was how if trading places with my friend was an option, I would have done it instantly, without any hesitation or regret.

  • @breafrederick9358
    @breafrederick9358 8 лет назад +89

    if people could just talk about their problems without having people call them babies or drama queens then i think we could save a whole ton of lives. just saying.
    #rip

    • @zack4423
      @zack4423 8 лет назад +1

      Especially if we weren't taught to hate

  • @Urpersonalplaylist736
    @Urpersonalplaylist736 Год назад +43

    My sister committed suicide 2 weeks ago. I check her room and saw she wasn’t there. I cried. I miss my big sister so much. I need her. My best friend said everything was going to be okay but it’s not. It will never be. I will never see my sister again. I miss you big sister. I love you

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula Год назад +1

      Life simply doesn't incline to itself...

    • @cierrakateraa3124
      @cierrakateraa3124 Год назад

      @@studioustok same.

    • @sweetcreamnpeaches9577
      @sweetcreamnpeaches9577 Год назад +1

      The only reason I’m holding on right now is because I don’t want my younger sisters to be sad but it’s getting really hard to hold on

    • @the.seagull.35
      @the.seagull.35 Год назад

      ​@@sweetcreamnpeaches9577how are you doing?

  • @human2501
    @human2501 4 года назад +325

    I feel like I won’t last till age 30.

    • @hannahtolson02
      @hannahtolson02 4 года назад +5

      human praying for love and peace in your life. 💜

    • @heyseonghwabemyhusband960
      @heyseonghwabemyhusband960 4 года назад +5

      plzzz don't feel this way..be happy and don't let depression make you weak..i can't say more bcz i've no word or i can't say bcz my eng sucks..but plzzz love yourself you're worth living this life

    • @BenChung78
      @BenChung78 4 года назад +1

      I feel sorrow for all hurting confused people...I wish evil arrogance and difficult misery would be lifted away from you...but do not have the power nor knowledge that only God has to make it really and truly better....it is hard looking for goodness in all the sadness....God help us all

    • @BenChung78
      @BenChung78 4 года назад +1

      God help you because I am not God....but Only God can help

    • @euphoric1183
      @euphoric1183 3 года назад +1

      İ think i will suicide in my twenties. İ am 15 and i dont have hope that i will see my 30's.

  • @sadie5112
    @sadie5112 4 года назад +84

    "People will miss you". I don't need them to miss me when I'm dead, I need them to miss me when I'm alive.

  • @brianapillar1319
    @brianapillar1319 8 лет назад +387

    I started crying in the beginning

  • @sonisatim2015
    @sonisatim2015 2 года назад +33

    I’ve considered suicide for a very long time. The reason I haven’t done it yet is that I don’t want my family to suffer mentally.

    • @anonympassingby1983
      @anonympassingby1983 2 года назад +1

      I hope their love is your power, not the burden. I don't know you but I'll wish you to have a power to stand still. you'll be doing great after this time.

  • @Kylimatic
    @Kylimatic 5 лет назад +137

    The biggest mistake made is assuming someone is happy just because they are smiling.

    • @exoticcar5482
      @exoticcar5482 5 лет назад

      An even bigger mistake is society making happiness the norm in the first place

  • @alienillusi0n
    @alienillusi0n 7 лет назад +204

    The only thing keeping me alive right now is knowing that my mom wouldn't be able to survive if I died.

    • @Pashmi420
      @Pashmi420 7 лет назад +6

      hoo hoo stay Alife ♡ truce, ok hun? truce with yourself. I believe in you. live for yourself too, you are worth it! you are important! you are alright ♡

    • @isoperuna2
      @isoperuna2 7 лет назад

      Live your own life, make your own choices.

    • @kutjegodverdomme
      @kutjegodverdomme 7 лет назад +3

      That's exactly what kept me too. It WILL get better, it's so cliché but truly, it will. Hold onto her. I remember telling my mum that I felt so down that I would be capable of killing myself, she pulled over the car with tears in her eyes and started sobbing. That's the only thing that'll make you realise there are people who care so much about you, even if it is just your mother. She is important and you are to her. You won't feel her pain if you're gone but she'll feel your current pain a thousand times worse every single day for the rest of her life. Love yourself for her and eventually you'll be okay with yourself.

    • @amygosley8201
      @amygosley8201 7 лет назад +1

      Same

  • @AudoricArt
    @AudoricArt 8 лет назад +413

    honestly one of the biggest reasons I don't want to commit suicide is because of the people around me. I just don't want to put them through that.

    • @Nazzamajazz
      @Nazzamajazz 8 лет назад +5

      +REALKalikokyle why would you say something like that..? you are disgraceful.

    • @sa-zs2xr
      @sa-zs2xr 8 лет назад

      +Dori C Stay strong things will get better

    • @philippam7844
      @philippam7844 8 лет назад +1

      +Dori C very brave and courageous and selfless to stick through it X

    • @rensren6277
      @rensren6277 8 лет назад

      That is the same reason that stoped me so many times. My sister took her life five years ago and i remember how painful it was to see her there and not being able to help her and knowing that i didnt do anything to help her, that i didnt knew what she was going to do. I dont want my family to go through that again. I still cry at night thinking what i could've done to help her.

    • @mggreen1072
      @mggreen1072 8 лет назад +1

      yes
      Im trying not to because my firiends are from like 5 year old to 18ish and my all school will know that I gave up on life

  • @gzjam
    @gzjam 2 года назад +46

    so we're all here at the same time, same week, same day, maybe same minute or hour, but somehow we're all watching this video from 2015 now, i guess just like me we are considering suicide huh, yeah same i've been thinking about it all day

    • @joshstewartmotovids3810
      @joshstewartmotovids3810 2 года назад +2

      you are loved by many stay strong

    • @chelsy6724
      @chelsy6724 2 года назад +1

      we can do this. i might not know you, but we share the same struggle. try to keep fighting.

    • @erwinkusuma9419
      @erwinkusuma9419 2 года назад +1

      I hope we can win this time & i hope you're getting better !

    • @anushayadav4021
      @anushayadav4021 2 года назад

      yes, right now evn i am thinking

  • @leah1527
    @leah1527 5 лет назад +88

    I want to die but I don’t want to hurt my parents, shit’s frustrating

    • @amanicoolbeans7408
      @amanicoolbeans7408 5 лет назад +3

      Leah Life gets better mamas

    • @danilynn.
      @danilynn. 5 лет назад +4

      Same. My dad already lost my mom, it would kill him

    • @KJ-sx5wd
      @KJ-sx5wd 5 лет назад +1

      Leah same. it would hurt my mom so bad.

    • @jimmyog
      @jimmyog 5 лет назад +1

      the same stopped me, I've actually improved a lot since that low point. Had the rope around the neck and couldn't figure out the best place to tie it to. That was literally 3 days ago so trust me you can weather the storm, and get help, try to find joy in the little things in life. We're lucky to be alive, find peace within yourself and on the other side of the double edged sword unlucky to be burdened with such pain.

    • @stephanielincoln1238
      @stephanielincoln1238 4 года назад

      @@jimmyog please don't I know what it's like to lose someone that way my friend hung himself back in 2004 I blamed myself I started telling myself it should have been me. everyone in your life would have a empty feeling in there heart forever if u died.even though we don't know each other I would be sad if u died. u matter to me. I'll keep you in my prayers 💐😊💕

  • @stardropboy
    @stardropboy 5 лет назад +71

    To whoever is reading this right now. I love you.
    Edit: I CARE OKAY

  • @laura6281
    @laura6281 8 лет назад +377

    This may have just saved my life.

    • @kaylak1423
      @kaylak1423 8 лет назад +8

      Mine too

    • @addykralich4360
      @addykralich4360 8 лет назад +10

      That's grate!!! You were put on this earth somehow for some reason and someone loves you. 💕

    • @ameliastevens2453
      @ameliastevens2453 8 лет назад +5

      Stay strong

    • @daphnea5447
      @daphnea5447 8 лет назад +3

      ❤️❤️❤️

    • @crr7637
      @crr7637 8 лет назад

      +Addy K great ^*^***^^^^^^^**

  • @ingenuised
    @ingenuised Год назад +43

    "There's no better salvation than never having to be born into this world"
    - Eren Yaeger

  • @zoebott3824
    @zoebott3824 8 лет назад +453

    If I ever lost anyone to suicide I'd probably wonder why I wasn't enough for them to live

    • @lillyv7615
      @lillyv7615 8 лет назад +51

      +Zoe Bott You have no idea how many times I screamed that while choking on tears after my brother killed himself.

    • @zoebott3824
      @zoebott3824 8 лет назад +5

      +Lilly V I'm really sorry for you! It must be horrible especially having that thought 😰

    • @yehonatansdomi498
      @yehonatansdomi498 8 лет назад +4

      +Lilly V my brother also klled himself.. its so hard..

    • @nataliapena9459
      @nataliapena9459 8 лет назад +1

      + Yoni Sdomi I send you my love, and truly from the bottom of my heart i am so sorry

    • @jaheriawilson19
      @jaheriawilson19 8 лет назад +3

      Even while being enough for that person, that doesn't exactly mean your existence evens out the depression they're going through...
      I'm trying to comprehend your point and explain without basically contradicting myself, or sounding harsh..
      It usually takes a period of time before someone finally snaps and says they're ready. i believe it takes a lot of pressure, even more so when that person has others in his or her life that are important to them. They'd just have to feel so overwhelmed. I personally know the pressures that would hold one back from taking their own life~ bleh
      what am i doing here(•ิ_•ิ)

  • @user-df3ms9gk2i
    @user-df3ms9gk2i 6 лет назад +129

    People only care when you’re gone

    • @funybill
      @funybill 6 лет назад +2

      Ro x so true

    • @joobjoob323
      @joobjoob323 6 лет назад +10

      Ro x I don't know about that. This is what I think: People don't only care when you're gone. They care all the time, but they just don't know when to say it. And when you're gone, when nothing can be done anymore, they finally take the courage to say how much they loved you. I guess what I'm trying to say is: tell the people you love that you love them. Listen to their struggles. A lot of people bottle up their feelings, so it always feels sudden when they take their own lives. Get to know people, and don't be afraid to express your love.

    • @brad5590
      @brad5590 6 лет назад +1

      Sad but incredibly true

    • @incarnate478
      @incarnate478 6 лет назад +1

      Ro x true

    • @izzillidizzilli6188
      @izzillidizzilli6188 6 лет назад +1

      Ro x so true..

  • @maddragon3076
    @maddragon3076 6 лет назад +133

    "I dont want to die... But i dont want to live"

    • @shaneweathers3319
      @shaneweathers3319 6 лет назад +1

      Same here

    • @hendrahalim4643
      @hendrahalim4643 6 лет назад

      same here...

    • @misterchristopher8857
      @misterchristopher8857 6 лет назад

      Get involved in some form of service to others. We gain perspective by giving, sharing, growth, helping, learning and expanding our heart minds. Travel a newer path to find great happiness.

    • @pinadecristofaro8771
      @pinadecristofaro8771 6 лет назад

      Same.

    • @generichuman2044
      @generichuman2044 5 лет назад

      That sums it up perfectly. I suffer with depression and BPD and every day is a task. I don't want to suffer anymore but at the same time death is a finality. I think people would be better off without me but at the same time I don't want to leave them in pain. You can't win and life feels like a cruel and endless cycle.

  • @kananelolesesa4447
    @kananelolesesa4447 2 года назад +36

    Every morning when my eyes open I become so frustrated because I realize that I actually made it to the next day.

    • @giyuufs
      @giyuufs 2 года назад +5

      we’re glad you are still here with us!

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад +7

      @@giyuufs "we’re glad you are still here with us!" You're pitiful sadists... You're glad at the sight of someone's suffering. What does that tell about you?

  • @Cikcicjdmsk
    @Cikcicjdmsk 6 лет назад +132

    People that say that suicide is a selfish act are making me sick. You don’t have any idea how selfless suicidal people are. They are keep pushing and keep trying to stay alive for their loved ones until the end! Unfortunately, sometimes
    It’s too much to bare! The pain is just too much. Not be able to breath. Not be able to sleep. Not be able to eat or enjoy something. Neither exit your house for months. And instead keep enduring this for your loved ones because you love them too much to hurt them. Suicide it’s not a solution but show some respect to the beautiful souls that suffered so much that could not find a way out! Stay strong.

    • @hayat707
      @hayat707 6 лет назад +1

      Vasiliki Michailidou 👏👏👏

    • @rainasajid6678
      @rainasajid6678 6 лет назад +5

      And the people who after hearing about someone's suicide say the departed soul should have reached out to someone, they are sick too!
      Like if a person would have someone whom he could trust and could cry his heart out, he would have done it already.
      And we don't have such people in our lives mostly.

    • @8923903910
      @8923903910 6 лет назад

      Raina Ali yes you are so right

    • @8923903910
      @8923903910 6 лет назад

      Hello Gaara Of The Sand

    • @mk6alex
      @mk6alex 5 лет назад +2

      No, this is coming from someone who was suicidal. It’s selfish for a certain extent of people. If I spoke to myself when I was younger I would be mad at myself. I would tell myself how dare you even think of this. You have so many people in your life. Don’t you dare.

  • @bhad7201
    @bhad7201 8 лет назад +169

    I really love how buzzfeed is making people aware of these situations. Thanks.

    • @koalarenegade2171
      @koalarenegade2171 8 лет назад +4

      same. It's amazing to see that they are starting conversation about serious topics

  • @rodnajs4048
    @rodnajs4048 4 года назад +61

    Who’s watching this contemplating suicide also

    • @JoeIIama
      @JoeIIama 4 года назад +4

      Rod Najs just know you are loved, to whoever is reading this. I can’t shake the feeling, but I know I’m loved so I will be okay

    • @Hankmyboi
      @Hankmyboi 4 года назад

      I really hope you're still here love. 💗 you matter.

    • @billbo7630
      @billbo7630 4 года назад

      For heavens sake people, what is it with all this you are loved. Thinking no one loves you probably accounts for very few suicides. To the people who have had suicidal thoughts I respect your comments, to the do gooders who at best no somebody who carried it out , you know nothing , please give it a rest.

  • @juliusvalencia5126
    @juliusvalencia5126 2 года назад +54

    I watch this because I wanna know what my mom would feel. I can't afford to break my mom's heart that's why I'm still hanging on as long as I can.

  • @infamouselephant3974
    @infamouselephant3974 5 лет назад +100

    Dear education system:
    It's all your fault.

    • @Hanna-lw4to
      @Hanna-lw4to 3 года назад +1

      I hate the sistem.They make me look like I am not gifted and useless.My mom always force me to get a good marks.But I don't want and still be myself.

  • @holdyourhorses7658
    @holdyourhorses7658 5 лет назад +74

    For some reason I always come back to this video when I'm feeling depressed.
    Today is one of those days. To whoever is reading this, you are not alone.

  • @shaina6629
    @shaina6629 5 лет назад +75

    the only reason im not dead is because of my family and friends. i dont want to hurt them but living is hard

  • @thesnakeman8492
    @thesnakeman8492 2 года назад +34

    At least they can rest now. People just do t understand how tiring it is just to stay alive when you just want to be gone. Don’t be angry at them, just know they are at peace now.

  • @alexblowers4643
    @alexblowers4643 8 лет назад +167

    It's times like this where I am insanely happy my 2 suicide attempts failed. I love everyone reading this. Stay strong.
    Ps. I'm a guy. They can struggle with this too. It's not just girls. I'm insanely happy that there was guys in this video.

    • @jayc342009
      @jayc342009 8 лет назад +1

      +Alex Blowers no one said it was just girls, here in the UK males are more likely to commit suicide.

    • @alexblowers4643
      @alexblowers4643 8 лет назад +5

      +Sir fap alot first of all your name. Yes. Second in America it seems cowardly for guys to deal with this. I wasn't trying to be rude

    • @figgyfilmscorporation9095
      @figgyfilmscorporation9095 8 лет назад +3

      +Alex Blowers LMFAO WHEN YOU SAID" First of all, your name" I WAS DYING

    • @none4530
      @none4530 8 лет назад

      I would just like you tell you that men are much more likely to commit suicide, it's a fact

    • @lawiza1805
      @lawiza1805 8 лет назад

      +Kyou Fujibayashi but females try to commit suicide and fail more

  • @maicarichelle
    @maicarichelle 3 года назад +230

    i dont want my parents to feel like this but im so tired

    • @cookiedoughart4914
      @cookiedoughart4914 3 года назад +3

      I know you are tired and I know that it seems like things won't get better any time soon but you have to keep going its not going to be easy but it's so worth it if you just hold on just a little bit longer . you don't know what tomorrow will be like if you aren't there please keep on going

    • @Albaisnothere
      @Albaisnothere 3 года назад +2

      Please, stay strong. If you want to talk, I'm here.

    • @lucifide4766
      @lucifide4766 3 года назад +1

      samee im tiredd like so tireddd and didn't want to do anything again

    • @rashmisharma3830
      @rashmisharma3830 3 года назад

      I know but please we have to live

    • @heyimsophie8842
      @heyimsophie8842 3 года назад

      ANGEL ARE U HERE? If u need to talk I’m here for u!!

  • @oreowolfrose5979
    @oreowolfrose5979 4 года назад +82

    I want to die....but I don't want to hurt my loved ones and family....

    • @rudolfoorozco1218
      @rudolfoorozco1218 4 года назад

      wolfe rose sans rich same hear, but hey where lucky to even have family:) appreciate every moment bro, god bless u

    • @weirdteenagelife2617
      @weirdteenagelife2617 4 года назад

      same here.

  • @kathymeza3444
    @kathymeza3444 2 года назад +98

    People always say that the ones that commit suicide are selfish but I feel like everyone else is selfish wanting that person that is in pain mentally or physically to stay here in pain.

    • @kathymeza3444
      @kathymeza3444 2 года назад +8

      @@behonest8658 I'm not struggling with suicide I am saying I want out and it is selfish of people to want me to keep going in pain. I have been living with this horrendous pain for more than 15 years and it is just getting worse. There is no way in my mind and heart that I should keep going just to keep others happy. I didn't understand it completely until my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreas cancer and was told if she didn't have chemo it would be 3 maybe 4 weeks until she passed but if she took the chemo it would keep her around for at least a year. We all pushed her to take the chemo because we were selfish and didn't want to let her go. That was the most horrible year for her in and out of the hospital in pain all the time getting sicker and sicker and hurting more and more. We could have had 3 or 4 really good weeks with her she could have been happy and she could have died peacefully but no we pushed her to keep us happy.

    • @empressofhearts7300
      @empressofhearts7300 2 года назад +7

      I don't want anyone to stay here to suffer, I just want them to get better on whatever it might be.

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад +2

      @@empressofhearts7300 "I just want them to get better on whatever it might be." And what if it's not possible?

    • @empressofhearts7300
      @empressofhearts7300 2 года назад

      @@SuperVladdrakula If it's not, then find something for them to still be able to enjoy life

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 года назад +3

      @@empressofhearts7300 And what if that's _still_ not possible?

  • @LIVdaBrand
    @LIVdaBrand 6 лет назад +111

    people don't appreciate you until you are gone...

    • @Zans_
      @Zans_ 6 лет назад +4

      Juice8815 true

    • @pepziii9380
      @pepziii9380 6 лет назад +4

      That’s really true

    • @ginnypikachu6449
      @ginnypikachu6449 6 лет назад +3

      Sad true

    • @nastjazahour2799
      @nastjazahour2799 6 лет назад +4

      not true. ive always appreciated my father.

    • @SSs-ch4ey
      @SSs-ch4ey 6 лет назад

      100% true for many people... dont tell someone they shouldnt have left when you weren't there for them while they were here

  • @derekc.6709
    @derekc.6709 6 лет назад +49

    Anybody watching this cause they want to know what will happen after they suicide?

    • @majavalentin9539
      @majavalentin9539 5 лет назад

      Me

    • @jihan27park
      @jihan27park 5 лет назад

      i came across this vid i think 1-2 years ago ? and now I’ve been feeling really suicidal and I remember about this vid bcs I need to find some motivations for to ‘stay strong’ bcs I know damn well I could never do it to my mom...

  • @baldwin5510
    @baldwin5510 3 года назад +192

    I'm only alive because I don't have the guts to take my life

    • @isadorad8836
      @isadorad8836 3 года назад +3

      hey :) ouch huh.... it does hurt... I’m sorry. But hey, you have a reason to live. You do. I understand that now you might not see this, but, trust me, you can do this. Stay strong. You can always talk to me if you need to! And, cry if you need to. Let it out if you need to. But please stay. I love you. ❤️🌕
      - isa from Canada

    • @---oj5bn
      @---oj5bn 3 года назад +7

      man, if it wasn't for my mom and my brother I would do it sooner.

    • @emma-dm3xz
      @emma-dm3xz 3 года назад +1

      Same... :(

    • @tatavalles8974
      @tatavalles8974 3 года назад +1

      No, honestly like this is spot on . But I feel like I get better then 10x bad again I lost motivation for everything, I lay in bed all day and just cry idk what to do anymore

    • @Em_Elizabeth
      @Em_Elizabeth 3 года назад +1

      "Conscience makes cowards of us all."

  • @ghost-gh5ce
    @ghost-gh5ce 2 года назад +30

    Happens to me every 3 months or so , get so depressed i just stay in my bed the entire day crying , watching videos like this and contemplating life . Every time i end up looking to my right (that s where my little 8y/o brother sleeps) , and the thought of seeing him crying because i m not there shatters me in pain , that s the only reason i m still here , i ll thank him when he grows up .

  • @friendandpoet
    @friendandpoet 5 лет назад +89

    they only care when you're not there

    • @kasper9136
      @kasper9136 5 лет назад +6

      friendandpoet true people only care when it’s too late

    • @futuristiccat5636
      @futuristiccat5636 5 лет назад +1

      Keis en Eps that’s the exact literal meaning

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 5 лет назад +1

      @@lensflares9901 That's debatable.

  • @zeynakhan
    @zeynakhan 4 года назад +131

    Me: **crying at 3 am having suicidal thoughts*
    RUclips recommendations: *"here you go, cry more"*

    • @brendafernandes3429
      @brendafernandes3429 4 года назад +5

      I’m sorry you’re in pain and I’m telling you your feelings are completely valid! But you have come a long way, you were able to survive your worst days and it shows you are strong and brave and I admire you for that! Just keep battling and you will win, all you need is help and support to fight through it, maybe you have someone close to you that you can open up about your feelings with, a friend, a family member, a teacher... if that’s not the case, you can reach out to a crisis hotline or go to a hospital to get the care you deserve! You can get better, you are strong!

    • @zeynakhan
      @zeynakhan 4 года назад +4

      @@brendafernandes3429 thank you soo much!!this has helped me alot thank you for being so supportive and understanding there are not alot of people in this world who understand these situations and i will take the advice thank you so much ☺☺☺💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

    • @brendafernandes3429
      @brendafernandes3429 4 года назад +1

      @@zeynakhan Of course! I'm here if you need! :)

    • @zeynakhan
      @zeynakhan 4 года назад

      @Gopika Nambiar its been almost a year since i commented that, things have gotten way worse, but im trying to handle it. thank you so so much for asking!

    • @hasinaashraf9332
      @hasinaashraf9332 3 года назад +1

      @@zeynakhan in sha Allah get out the bad situation and lead a peaceful life . You have come this far ,you can go further.And if you are willing to share your problem here , you can . May Allah ease all of our problems.

  • @wtfamidoinwithmylife529
    @wtfamidoinwithmylife529 5 лет назад +59

    To everyone who lost someone to suicide: they didn’t mean to hurt you or guilt trip you, they just couldn’t see the light in their future.

    • @aryanpandey7928
      @aryanpandey7928 5 лет назад +1

      I feel this

    • @rumaulia2709
      @rumaulia2709 5 лет назад

      Yeah, i would never want to hurt my loved ones.

    • @rumaulia2709
      @rumaulia2709 5 лет назад +1

      @@vegetaismydad5382 A Lou A Lou im sorry to hear that. I don't know what you're going through now but i hope things can get better for you. I nearly lost my best friend to suicide a year ago. He said he didn't go through because i called him just mere moments before doing it. He suffered through that year but when we finally get to meet i can see that he is truly doing better. Of course it is different with every people but i do hope you can get better. If you are hurting much and your closest ones cannot help, please seek professional aid. I am not against assisted suicide but i hope you can reconsider that decision.

  • @kimareum29
    @kimareum29 2 года назад +27

    The question should not be how it feels to lose someone instead ;
    " why it became that bad that nothing felt good than being dead".

  • @callmesuede2367
    @callmesuede2367 7 лет назад +70

    a few years ago my best friend told me she was going to kill herself. i called the police to go to her house and when they got there her mom had no idea and told them they had the wrong house. the cops wanted her to check on her daughter just to be sure. they found her foaming from the mouth bc she had drank a substantial amount of bleach. they got her to the hospital in time and she lived. after that she went to a mental facility. she still struggles w depression and mental illnesses but i'm so glad that i was there for her that day. ❤

  • @ilovebilliejoe35
    @ilovebilliejoe35 8 лет назад +169

    100% the only reason I haven't ended my life is because of my mother. I couldn't put her through that. No matter how much I try to convince myself she doesn't love me as much as my brothers, or maybe she wouldn't care, I just can't do it. I know she loves me, it's just hard to accept it as that. I couldn't imagine hurting her in anyway. If I lost her I would be gone soon after. I know no one lives forever, I just hope I am able to live for myself before that time comes. If not, I won't go on and I can feel it deep down I'll go through with it.

    • @OhYoungWakeroftheWinds
      @OhYoungWakeroftheWinds 8 лет назад

      +Jenny Tulls Same here

    • @afroditismile2584
      @afroditismile2584 8 лет назад +4

      Thats really sweety and you are not selfish cause you are thinking your mother.Don't give up on life.You are from the people that deserve to see the beauty of life.You are worth every chance for a better feature.

    • @gabbyg7929
      @gabbyg7929 8 лет назад +1

      Jenny, you are so strong. Don't end your life. You have so much to live for, so many people to help. And for your mother, I don't know you personally or are suffering the same experience as you, but I can tell you this; it will get better, hang in there, buddy.

    • @anawissink8443
      @anawissink8443 8 лет назад +4

      You should never give up, whatever happens... Even when your mom is gone, she would want you to live your life the fullest, and just get a nice family and be happy. You are worth all of that ♡

    • @lilymarcum7764
      @lilymarcum7764 8 лет назад +3

      I feel the exact same as you.

  • @wadew.1869
    @wadew.1869 5 лет назад +50

    All of you here, hurting, suicidal, depressed, starving yourself, being abused, or anything that is hurting you...
    I’m going to tell you right now that,
    *We deserved better*

  • @brendancoffman4342
    @brendancoffman4342 2 года назад +34

    I know people care for me, I just don't care for myself, nor do I desire to. Apathy and discouragement are powerful in what they can do to one's will

    • @charlez1174
      @charlez1174 2 года назад +1

      This is exactly how I feel. I know I have so many people that care about me but I just don’t care about myself. Like I don’t understand people like me and I just don’t want to be here. I hate living every day.

    • @NamNguyen-ls6pb
      @NamNguyen-ls6pb 2 года назад +1

      there are times i feel the same too. so many times. but please just find yourself even one thing to enjoy. I only want you to feel better regardless of what others may say

    • @midloran
      @midloran 2 года назад +1

      I will be sad if Brendan won't exist anymore

  • @Dani_77709
    @Dani_77709 6 лет назад +65

    *I don't want to die, I just want to stop the pain*

    • @dilarakaraman2005
      @dilarakaraman2005 6 лет назад +1

      Dani Just Dani me too. I can't anymore. I just cant

    • @rinigranini9389
      @rinigranini9389 6 лет назад

      Dani Just Dani Heyy, please don‘t give up now. I was at this point some months ago. But everything is changing so rapidly. I whish you so much to find some hope again!

    • @Dani_77709
      @Dani_77709 6 лет назад

      @@juliantherussian7752 dude (¬_¬)

    • @sikkesticepikk2981
      @sikkesticepikk2981 6 лет назад +2

      Dani Just Dani I get it. I feel that way all the time.

    • @shivx1
      @shivx1 6 лет назад +1

      I understand too, reach out and speak to someone my dude, there are still people out there who care about you that don't even know you

  • @hehehehehehe2195
    @hehehehehehe2195 3 года назад +79

    The only reason I haven't committed suicide is because I'm scared it would fail and it would be so awkward.

    • @nickn2794
      @nickn2794 3 года назад +5

      HII! I created a Discord group where we can discuss about our problems. You're not alone! discord.gg/BjJxFSpK I'm not a therapist, but I've had/having these problems too, I can listen

    • @caroljeeben7064
      @caroljeeben7064 3 года назад +20

      This is so relatable it made me laugh lol. Thank you for that.

    • @natt7449
      @natt7449 3 года назад +17

      Lmaoo same. I wouldn't even be able to look at anyone's face without feeling that way.

    • @honeybee3579
      @honeybee3579 3 года назад

      😂 😂 😂 Relatable

    • @brunpoon875
      @brunpoon875 2 года назад

      @@luiscaetano6184 you really want them to die huh? ..?

  • @magic672
    @magic672 3 года назад +193

    I come here often because I want to die, but that mother in the beginning is why I'm here. That's how my mom would be, and i can't do that to her.

    • @M3lly.xoo.
      @M3lly.xoo. 3 года назад +2

      I’m so happy your trying to stay. Yes, think about your mother who loves you with all her heart. Think about the pain that would cause her. Don’t just do this for her either, do this for you. Cause you’d never know if you’d ever be truly happy in the feature if your gone. You’ll be happy you’ll get there. Maybe you don’t believe it but I do, things will get better and I strongly believe that. In a nearby feature you’ll look back on this time and think “I made it”. Keep fighting I know it’s hard, but I want you to know your so strong for fighting your battle everyday.

    • @Max-0101
      @Max-0101 3 года назад +6

      I have the same thought. But it’s like a pain torturing me everyday.

    • @asanda.mkhize
      @asanda.mkhize 3 года назад +1

      Stay strong bro. Praying for you

    • @heyimsophie8842
      @heyimsophie8842 3 года назад

      are u still here? Let’s talk about it in insta or snap!

    • @zakidjellouli364
      @zakidjellouli364 3 года назад

      @@heyimsophie8842 can you give me your ig , i want to talk to you if you don't mind

  • @itslemma
    @itslemma 8 лет назад +177

    I almost committed suicide 2 years ago.... Right now, I'm glad I didn't

    • @Faunamusicmx
      @Faunamusicmx 8 лет назад +7

      +Emma Leeshanok I'm glad you didn't as well.

    • @nicksimpson88
      @nicksimpson88 8 лет назад +3

      +Emma Leeshanok me too! :)

    • @haandawg
      @haandawg 8 лет назад

      Always remember, that someone, somewhere around the world is suffering more than you no matter what. Whether it be physically, or mentally. You should be grateful for absolutely everything you have. Whether it be a house, a mobile phone, or even your eyes. Someone, somewhere around the world has none f these. Never forget that

    • @ROCkUguys13
      @ROCkUguys13 8 лет назад

      Me too. I attempted suicide about a year ago and I am at such a happy place right now. I am very grateful to be alive.

    • @itslemma
      @itslemma 8 лет назад

      Libertarian Realist I saw that stat in another video. I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way and I totally agree with you that society is very harsh. But there are a lot of people who are not white and not male who also have no outreach

  • @ratte8633
    @ratte8633 5 лет назад +52

    I lost five friends to suicide.
    I would kill myself by my depressions any time, but I don't want my friends to go through the same as me.
    I lie awake in my bed every night thinking about what I could have done better.
    I blame myself that I could have saved them all.
    But I couldn't have done that...
    It still doesn't change the fact that I miss my angels (so I call the people I lost through suicide)...

    • @viperr06
      @viperr06 5 лет назад +6

      Im so sorry hope someone will help u and I hope God will make u feel better and I pray for u to feel better soon,dont end your life there are people who loves you be strong and fight 🙏💙

    • @hursimear3408
      @hursimear3408 5 лет назад +1

      Black Angel I don’t like people who reject someone on the account that they have insecurities, as if having any weakness is unbecoming of a worthy man. I’m not going to assume that is the way she is, but it sounds that way from your description.
      On a second note: I don’t believe there is “the one”, I’m a hypocrite for saying this but you could find someone else you know? Someone just as good, better probably. But I know the temptation, I know how it feels to just not feel like trying. But if you’re going to live u might as well find someone else. Don’t fixate on her. She doesn’t sound that great for you anyway tbh. A true lover will be with you through your strong days and your weak days

  • @fatimadarvesh2620
    @fatimadarvesh2620 5 лет назад +79

    I shut everyone out and they beg me to open up
    I open up and they ignore me

    • @JasminLovesSloths
      @JasminLovesSloths 5 лет назад +4

      Your beautiful and I understand your feelings. It can be so hard to build yourself back up after being hurt so hard/much but your worth living and being happy.

    • @mrpopcorn6506
      @mrpopcorn6506 5 лет назад +1

      Jasmin Green I’m here to

    • @nanayaa3511
      @nanayaa3511 5 лет назад

      Fatima Darvesh exactly

    • @mysteriosbeing5337
      @mysteriosbeing5337 5 лет назад

      Lol lovely

    • @Jobe-13
      @Jobe-13 5 лет назад

      Fatima Darvesh true

  • @endormimi5261
    @endormimi5261 2 года назад +100

    This video saved my life as an 18 year old. I’m now nearly 24 and still alive. Thank you to those who shared their stories. Thank you. Just thank you. I love you all

    • @PHEROMONE-wz9bz
      @PHEROMONE-wz9bz 2 года назад

      U happy now ?

    • @endormimi5261
      @endormimi5261 2 года назад +5

      @@PHEROMONE-wz9bz It's been up and down but in that time I met and got engaged to the love of my life, emigrated to france, started on a new career path and am planning to have my own family after my wedding. So yes I still have my mental health struggles but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula Год назад

      @@endormimi5261 "but to be alive and not dead at 18 is a blessing" _Utter BS..._

    • @Goawaypl5
      @Goawaypl5 Год назад +1

      I hope I'll be able to make it to that age. Sometimes it's harder than others times. But lately it's gotten really bad, I was going to end it all about a week ago but one of my friends just kept texting me, she didn't know I was going to do it but she stopped it without knowing what was going on.

  • @hi-ls6lt
    @hi-ls6lt 5 лет назад +50

    I get that people are only trying to be nice when they say “Are you ok?” but it’s comes to a point when people keep asking it and you know you’re not ok but if you say “No” they’re like “Well what’s wrong “ and if you explain to them all you’re demons,attempts at suicide and how much you hate life they’ll never look at you the same way again. So I blink back my tears, fake a smile and say “Yeah of course I’m ok.”

    • @duckiecone1055
      @duckiecone1055 5 лет назад +1

      I can relate and it sucks cuz i hate lying but i genuinely like to listen

    • @hi-ls6lt
      @hi-ls6lt 5 лет назад

      Debeshi Ghosh but that’s the problem. I don’t trust anyone.

    • @nightwhispersbond6891
      @nightwhispersbond6891 5 лет назад

      I get this A LOT but it's good to speak up to the older ones who can help but they don't know how bad it is sometimes they think a fight with a family member while you can think it's more than that its self harm it's cold heart that you sometimes you wish would stop beating

  • @怡帆슨
    @怡帆슨 8 лет назад +160

    I am so disappointed in some of these comments that I have read. "Lol" ? Is that something to be even thought about?
    I absolutely agree this matter should be talked about. If these aren't then we will never be able to move on.

    • @argielgasga7602
      @argielgasga7602 8 лет назад +3

      +Libertarian Realist alot of people actually

    • @怡帆슨
      @怡帆슨 8 лет назад

      ***** ehmmmm why ._.

    • @怡帆슨
      @怡帆슨 8 лет назад

      Libertarian Realist im not worrying people can die all kind of ways though like for example suicide

    • @怡帆슨
      @怡帆슨 8 лет назад

      Libertarian Realist that could happen tbh, never thought about it but thanks for your idea... ?

    • @argielgasga7602
      @argielgasga7602 8 лет назад

      Libertarian Realist how do you know if all people are suicidal and will die of cancer?

  • @user-oy6yd9sw6v
    @user-oy6yd9sw6v 3 года назад +233

    Step 1 : Don’t bring children into this cruel world.
    It’s better to adopt and save one.

    • @Knightx392
      @Knightx392 3 года назад +4

      That's right!

    • @mija1570
      @mija1570 3 года назад +2

      Exactly

    • @Skymariodoctor
      @Skymariodoctor 3 года назад +6

      @randomstuff No, nothing is your fault, college isn’t for everyone, and it’s exhausting to just exist sometimes. It’s good to take time for yourself, and just work on yourself more. I hope everything goes well, keep fighting!

    • @harriedsloth4399
      @harriedsloth4399 2 года назад +1

      @randomstuff There is so much more to life than education, employment, and money. Who you are becoming is so much more valuable than these external and temporary things. Also, mental illness can hold you back in a lot of ways. You are not a failure just because you have struggles. I feel your frustration, my friend. Please be kind to yourself and let love in.

  • @Mintman_Editz
    @Mintman_Editz 3 месяца назад +37

    I just want to be at rest

    • @lordronn472
      @lordronn472 3 месяца назад +5

      Same, and without my family!

  • @nanita7848
    @nanita7848 4 года назад +103

    If I could end everything without hurting my loved ones . I’m sorry but I would .

  • @brie5016
    @brie5016 5 лет назад +43

    You know it’s gotten bad when you start watching these again..

  • @stefanklass6763
    @stefanklass6763 5 лет назад +62

    *Sometimes I wish I didn‘t have a sister and parents and friends so I could just do it and noone would have to feel this way afterwards.*

    • @FapFap666
      @FapFap666 5 лет назад

      Don't ever think that way

    • @Jamie_void
      @Jamie_void 5 лет назад +1

      Same

    • @relaxandfocus5563
      @relaxandfocus5563 5 лет назад

      Exactly

    • @relaxandfocus5563
      @relaxandfocus5563 5 лет назад +1

      It feels like they are the only bonds or say limits that make you don't suicide.
      I mean if i hadn't my familly it'll be easier to end life.
      But anyway i think i'm still
      trying to find something

    • @malari089
      @malari089 5 лет назад

      It gets better

  • @emmab2767
    @emmab2767 2 года назад +23

    I'm not brave enough to do it
    I wouldnt be worried about hurting my loved ones cuz I know they'd be better without me around

    • @JohnSmith-dt2yb
      @JohnSmith-dt2yb 2 года назад +1

      ❤️ ☹️

    • @saeed05
      @saeed05 2 года назад +1

      same, also because they deserve it

    • @acexavier3816
      @acexavier3816 2 года назад +1

      Well just think about it why leave
      Yes you can get out of pain but what about happiness

  • @benj9380
    @benj9380 8 лет назад +169

    I can't do this to my family. I can't. But I'm tired.

    • @Missy-vm8fr
      @Missy-vm8fr 8 лет назад

      You're gonna be alright dude.... :)

    • @mila.inthewoods
      @mila.inthewoods 8 лет назад +6

      It'll be okay. Please don't do it. I just lost a 19 year old boy from high school who was best friends with a friend of mine and it's so heart breaking. We're all so extremely sad. Please know that people in your life love you, even if you feel they don't. It'll get better, I promise. Please, do the things you love, read, watch your favorite tv shows, go surfing or biking or any sport you enjoy, paint something, play guitar, play with legos, anything! You'll be okay

    • @jordannn4329
      @jordannn4329 8 лет назад

      stay strong! *virtual hugs*

    • @Ninab542
      @Ninab542 8 лет назад

      you have sooo much to live for. your family loves you so much. things will get better even if it doesnt look like it now you will be alright. keep your head up😘😇

    • @justalex9340
      @justalex9340 8 лет назад

      There's more out there... I promise.

  • @dustinbrite2422
    @dustinbrite2422 4 года назад +66

    Its crushing when you know that nobody would really care if you were gone.

    • @brycelucas286
      @brycelucas286 4 года назад +6

      I know how it feels to think that nobody cares. but you can't possibly know how many people you would affect if you were gone.
      Those who hear about your death and don't even know you could be deeply affected. Those close to you who you thought didn't care could spend their whole lives dealing with it. It is impossible for you to know how your own death will forever change the lives of those around you.

    • @dustinbrite2422
      @dustinbrite2422 4 года назад +5

      @@brycelucas286 Maybe many people would be affected but in the end, they would quickly get over me. I dont have a single close connection with anybody in my life, not my family and not any friends(I dont have friends). We know that people die every few minutes but we dont get sad over their deaths so i dont expect people to be sad over my eventual death.

    • @sailorsnail6935
      @sailorsnail6935 4 года назад +2

      @@dustinbrite2422 Even persons that I don't like or barely know, like here on the internet... I am sad about them. I'm sad when I listen to their stories. I know what it feels like, wanting to end your life. You should be happy about every day you have. There is always someone on earth for you who cares. Suicide is just the one type of dying that takes my breath away and leaves me sick in my head and heart. I want this to stop happening.

    • @sitakelemswati
      @sitakelemswati 4 года назад

      I would care

  • @charlizelavastida8315
    @charlizelavastida8315 5 лет назад +36

    I’m going through a hard time mentally. But it’s not like I want to die. I’m just tired of living and I wish I was never born

    • @emily-hg3sx
      @emily-hg3sx 5 лет назад

      When you hit rock bottom the only thing you can do his go up, i wanted to but i never fully went through and i’m so thankful I didn’t i’m a lot happier even though I thought I couldn’t have been

  • @BDworldeditz
    @BDworldeditz Месяц назад +19

    Scared of death ❌
    Scared of the pain ✅

  • @jinpluskenequalsheartattac3290
    @jinpluskenequalsheartattac3290 6 лет назад +45

    Jonghyun come back 😭😭😭

    • @dsyzkl1709
      @dsyzkl1709 6 лет назад

      Grandpa Yoongz oh my god :(

    • @user-s3ts8my2x
      @user-s3ts8my2x 6 лет назад +3

      You read my mind. I was in shock and I'm still crying I don't know what do do because I staned Shinee fore 8 years and he was my ultimate bias of all time

    • @jinpluskenequalsheartattac3290
      @jinpluskenequalsheartattac3290 6 лет назад +3

      I. M what I am man I feel like its a movie, and I'm watching it, shedding a few tears, but knowing it's not real. But it is real. And I can't get over it.

    • @user-s3ts8my2x
      @user-s3ts8my2x 6 лет назад +1

      Grandpa Yoongz me to I wish it was just all fake :"(

    • @sailoriro8854
      @sailoriro8854 6 лет назад

      Grandpa Yoongz why.......... Did..... He... Leave us.....?

  • @senami3706
    @senami3706 5 лет назад +61

    suicide is not about wanting to die... you don’t really want to die, you just wish that you never existed in the first place

    • @senami3706
      @senami3706 5 лет назад

      joashsmusic let me correct myself:
      that’s been my experience and what i’ve heard from people i talked to about this..

    • @richie832
      @richie832 5 лет назад

      @@senami3706 how to kill the stress? The bully? The laugh? The sad me?

    • @jakob1440
      @jakob1440 5 лет назад

      i never wanted to exist and i wanna die.

  • @NunoLuna
    @NunoLuna 8 лет назад +103

    I've had suicidal depression and agoraphobia since I was 14. I am now 22 years old. It's hard to find a hug or someone to talk to for me because I have never had a friend at school and both of my parents are not here. I live alone, and haven't been socializing since 2010.

    • @Supadrumma441
      @Supadrumma441 8 лет назад +1

      +SNIPERmicSNIPER Same. 23 year old here with no friends and zero people to interact with. Just waiting for my mom to die then gonna off myself I don't want to put her though it.

    • @NunoLuna
      @NunoLuna 8 лет назад +3

      +Supadrumma441 man I'm sorry . It's sucks going through this but don't give up

    • @KyleWoolridgeGrant
      @KyleWoolridgeGrant 8 лет назад

      +Supadrumma441 You can get help! Seeing a therapist really does help; It worked for my sister. There is nothing wrong about seeing one. I wish I could give you more advice.

    • @KyleWoolridgeGrant
      @KyleWoolridgeGrant 8 лет назад

      +SNIPERmicSNIPER I hope you're getting help.

    • @charlesmaleza521
      @charlesmaleza521 8 лет назад +2

      +Supadrumma441 I don't know you guys but i care about you. you 2 should be friends. please choose life. it gets better. please don't give up to find beauty in life, find a passion or even go start a new life in a new or totally different country in the world where you'll make friends! Life is worth living. I love you and i send you a big Hug! This world is more beautiful with you in it

  • @annrodriguez2299
    @annrodriguez2299 2 года назад +26

    the world is not meant for me

    • @chironex4844
      @chironex4844 2 года назад +2

      Yes it is. You are meant for the world. Keep going

  • @sailoriro8854
    @sailoriro8854 6 лет назад +36

    Jonghyun my angel I never thought that I'd relate to this I really want to hate you for the pain......... But I can't

    • @Sh-lb3tv
      @Sh-lb3tv 6 лет назад +4

      sailor iro I hope he's happy, now in heaven. I will never forget him. He was my idol he'll always be.
      R.I.P Kim Jong Hyun

    • @killerwasp102
      @killerwasp102 6 лет назад +7

      I watched this video when it was uploaded and I also never thought I'd relate to it so much. While I'm still in shock and cry daily, I can never be mad at him. He was suffering...

    • @sailoriro8854
      @sailoriro8854 6 лет назад +4

      killerwasp102 i feel ya same I'd watched this video before but I never in a million years thought I'd relate to it............ We gotta stay strong and hope the best for him........ My insta is @sailoriro if you ever want someone to talk to feel free to talk to me I'm here