A Life On Drugs-Mark (Part 1)
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- Опубликовано: 18 мар 2022
- Part 1 if a Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Mark, a recovered drug addict now living in Southern California. Here's a link to Mark's second interview: • A Life Of Service To O...
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Someone posted a comment stating that these videos should be played in schools. I introduced my DNP class to these videos during our mental health rotation a year ago. These videos have helped me and others have a better understanding of human behavior. A few people in my class were recovering addicts and they had powerful testimonies. Anything is possible.
Great idea Ms Liberty 🗽
That is awesome!!!! What a great idea!!!
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It's easy to lose your way, and once you do it can happen over and over again.
Whenever I feel as if I’ve had a “hard” life, I watch an episode of Soft White Underbelly, and quickly realize how blessed I am. It’s kinda like having someone slap you on the back of your head.
Amen!
Right there with you!!
Same
The system is so screwed up. People make mistakes, pay the price and then get out and when they try to start over they can't get jobs...we need to get rid of that mindset.😢
I can feel the slap too, silly me... But ay okay
Cheers
Iv been on opiates since I was 15 years old after I got shot and had surgery now I’m risking my life with using fentanyl I have a long story like this man and he just gave me hope I’m going to get help and finally surrender I can’t live like this anymore I’m tired of waking up in the hospital from suicide attempt and overdoses thank you for your work mark and this man’s story thank you
How are you doing now?
How are you doing now?
Bankroll hunh? 😶👌❄️🌎❄️
Best of luck to you hun!❤
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Almost 30 years of addiction and alcohol abuse and now four years sober, these stories make me feel good about the path I'm on-peace brother.
I'm also almost 4 years..April 18th I Celebrate..congrats to you also..
A day at a time brother! Congrats on 4 years!!
Beautiful words 🤗!
@@francoisfrancois7353 Listen this vid over snd over.... And over and over.
@@madmanpaul8823 1/5/18 for me...it's a blessing I prayed for, for years, and never thought would come.
Can we just take a second to thank this dude for interviewing so many different people for our entertainment/education? Good job my dude I appreciate your efforts, hope your channel will grow huge
@@robthefactsmachine9428 What's got your panties in a bunch?
Love Mark and his interviews no matter what he makes or dont make.he has some of the best unjudged interviews
Thank you Mark! ❤️ God bless you and all of the people you interview/ help! ❤️🙏
@@robertgreenwood2258 so true, preach.
@@marylougeorge9890 they are not in a bunch..I’m not mad or anything..just answering a question with some facts..I have nothing against soft white underbelly..in fact I like them and I’m subscribed.
Every person struggling with addiction needs to hear this brave man's story. Love.
Eye roll
Yes jus started to listen and suddenly read your words , really needs to rest n calmly jus keep listening though in the grips of a relapse with everything still safe n intact, why not, why not, maybe I may get Back Home.
Mark you have literally made a platform for the voiceless who's souls are screaming to be heard , GOD BLESS YOU
Exactly!
Exactly my thoughts. They want to be heard👌🏽
there's meetings everywhere. That is what they need.
The deep rooted pain of his childhood is still apparent and led him down a road of self destruction , Mark much prosperity to you
Road
@@brick8558 shut the fuk up you imbecile...what exactly compells you to correct something like a spelling or grammatical error of a random nobody in the comments section..??
@@brick8558 thank you so much, I’m usually on point with spelling
@SpecialK Your response speaks volumes about your character. Instead of being rude back, you chose the higher road. 👏👏👏
@@jenniferlaine3817 rude?
I am baffled. Mark, you keep on giving us the best content. These people are storytellers beyond belief. I’ve been subscribed for 2,5years almost and have changed so much as a human because of mark’s channel. Keep up the amazing work 👏👏👏👏
I read this taking fat shi t
Same here…I discovered Mark’s channel about eight months ago. I never miss a post. I live a “square life” and have grown as a person. My perception of the less fortunate has changed. A simple hello and treating a person down on their luck with respect and dignity can make a difference. Keep doing what you are doing Mark! Thank you!
Everybody has a story. Everyone wants to MATTER. 90% of us contribute to helping others in one way or another. I wouldn't have known these stories had it not been for Mark. Gracias!
Me to! This channel is a life saver! (Not to be to hyperbolic lol). But that my story and I'm going to stick with it.
Me too.
This man reminds me of my father…
He seemed to always be grasping at a chance for redemption. All while succumbing to his addiction. I took care of him and my little brother for years before re his arrest. He almost lost an arm to the needle. He would’ve lost his life. 14 years of prison saved him. He is still healing from all his experiences but I love him so much and he’s finally clean. He tells me he loves me all the time and for the first time , im seeing him love himself. It’s never too late to begin again. Im so grateful.
WOW!!! Tomorrow morning for the 6th time. I am checking myself into rehab. With the Grace Of God this will be my last and finally time. Praise The Lord! Never give up because God hasn't given up on me, I just been denying his present his help.
You got this!!! I promise life is so beautiful without drugs; it’s not easy as you know but it’s WORTH IT! One day at a time, live in the moment, focus on you and learn to love yourself before anything; once that happens, life opens up to you and you will never go back. Remind yourself, you’re worth it, you deserve it and never look back…it’s called the past for a reason! The future is now! You can do it; it sounds like you’re sick and tired of being sick and tired-that’s when I was ready and sought the help I so badly needed and here I am almost 10 years later sober, successful and happy! If I can do it; you can too!!!! 💪💪💪
Hope everything is going well bro… small steps Man U got this
@@emm2937 awesome!! Congrats on ten years! Everything you said was perfect! Im three years clean and never felt better in my whole life! Ill never touch drugs again, ever!
@@krissykriss328 thank you! Congratulations to you as well!!! Keep it up! Life is too great to ever live it any other way than sober! 👏💪🥰
@@emm2937 Tell me about it! I wish I could give all these addicts Mark interviews the free and amazing feelings I feel off of drugs, and help them ,, its literally life changing lol, but I cant , its its something they have to do on their own. I can only tell them how much better you feel off of drugs ( its like breaking free from chains that bind you ).Thank you for your kind words! 💗
This is why you should never judge a book by its cover. You never know what people have gone through. Truly an incredible story 🙏🏽💜
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I was just thinking the same exact thing
Everyone is fighting a war we know nothing about
The fact that they didn't let him play football was absolutely criminal.
Especially if they didn't even have a real genuine conversation asking what made him do that or how did he get caught up in the selling of the drugs... what's the why.. just those simple questions would have opened this man up to spill out his childhood and they would have understood and coach could of helped him etc
was hoping someone would have commented this. Just insane that this happened.
Very funny . Rules are rules
@@terrytownsend5583 somehow the humour is escaping me
You don't get "caught up" in selling drugs. It's a series of deliberate decisions. @@Cheese_crackers
I love this guy's self awareness. He is so well spoken and tells the story with so much introspection and accountability. I love that he sees where everything went wrong and what he needed to be better. Its never too late.
My gosh! Because of this I’m going back into recovery. It’s the same story for addicts. It never gets better, only worse. I relate to every single thing Mark shared. Thank you for this. Im so 😪 tired. So so tired.
How are you doing? I hope you’re well. This is heartbreaking.
@@brentbaker1637 I’m doing better. Working with a sponsor and studying the big book so i can better understand myself. And believing this is what my higher power wants me to do. I thank AA for this day that I’m clean and sober. Thank you 🙏 so much for asking.
@@Salvievelynn You can do it !!! Im three years clean and I was the worst addict ever! Hugs !💗💗
You got this! Go claim the life you want. You are intrinsically worthy.
It sucks doesn't it? After a period of moderate use I always think i can manage drugs. Then shit starts to happen and I stop, then two or three months later I start the cycle again. After getting my act together last time I got a great job making over 100k/ year and just like clockwork, the cycle of destruction, after being there a month. Got away with it but can't f up again, Im 40 years old, waaaaaay too old for this.
It’s insane how hard it is to separate ourselves from our childhood.
Truth in em Words, IF , IF Only I , We Could 💯❣️... I disassociate, in stores, around Ppl, crowds, dont do MY "Family Function's", cause family is a hard story to tell bout Yet I MADE my Own , Husband, his relatives, n Our children n grandchildren n I need nuthin More 😳💭💯❣️... Im over having my born into Blood "Family" , they 🚫 my 💭 of 1, n 🚫 missing nuthin but the drama 😧⏩👋❣️...
The memories are Enough 😳💭❣️
You said it, brother, but there's always ways we can improve ourselves.
But his brothers and sisters did well, they had same childhood
Seriously ❤
erybody obviously ain’t the same numbnutz.
I like how Troy told him, ‘If you’re not there (ready to go to treatment) at 10AM, never call me again. And Mark walked, hitched through the desert and made the 10AM.
I’m just at that part in the interview right now…. Just amazing
Yup, there comes a time when we have to draw a line.
That was incredible
Wow you really didn't see all that coming when this interview started. I really felt his pain and lived it and his happiness too, he seems like a really good person. It's nice to see it all worked out again for him.
Ive gone from a young herione addict to prison to sobriety to meth addiction and somehow i made it through and im a family man now crazy how life works. These videos all touch my heart. I tell my story frequently and peoples reactions sometimes are unreal but i hope it helps someone somewhere
There is a huge contrast between the people Mark interviews that are on drugs , and this guy , who is a recovering addict. It seems to me that this man could help alot of people. He takes accountability for his actions, which is key to beating addiction. His story is fascinating, and I wish him the very best in life ....💗
It's cool u stated these comments. There are different types of people suffering from addiction. When we're younger we tease and disrespect stuff we don't understand. I realize that addiction is a disease now. There are folks addicted but they don't really hurt anyone but themselves. I can say so much more but don't know how to start. Damnnnnnn, I want him, me and everyone to be okay 👍🏻. Idk, jus wondering
@@MrReed-yj3hk your right . Another thing bugs sayimg i have an ADDICTION personality....
@@MrReed-yj3hk in IRELAND its fun and joy to be DRINKING wildly..
This guy is open and honest with such tragedy that his story can't be made up , what a sad sad life, He's done the best he could
this dude hasn't seen nothin his story is everyone's story
@blookyblops and the tinfoil hat gang why are you shitting on his story, and undermining what he has been through? Just because it doesn't meet your standards of what you consider a hard life doesn't mean he hasn't suffered. Compassion must not be in your nature. Try it sometimes.
No. He could stop putting substances in his body. That would be the best he could do
@@jenniferlaine3817 Well said.👏👏👏
@@crazypeoplearoundtheworld304 You must be new otherwise you wouldn't have made such an uninformed remark.
this is no coincidence, im about 40min in. yesterday I completed a required program, so that I can qualify for a internship in a recovery program as an employee instead of a patient. I have wanted to do this for years, but it took years to get my S together enough to try! well here we go!!!!!!! and again I feel like im supposed to see Mark's story! thank you to both Marks! have a beautiful day SWU FAM!!!!!!!
Congratulations and best of luck to you!! So glad you’re here! 🤍🕊
@@jaydkay30 thank you and back at you!
Not a coincidence. Stay strong, congrats, and do good work!!!
@@ObiAmajoyiSrMD thank you! I will!!!
I wrote I'll try, but I changed my mind! Lol! Have a great day!
Good luck.
Mark, your story has taken me on an emotional rollercoaster today. I’ve listen to it 3 times. We NEED a “Troy” in our lives. I want to BE a “Troy” in another person’s life. Very, very powerful
You've just interviewed someone who explained addiction and all it's consequences to a T. I think every addict and non addict could feel the struggle of his pain in every word he said.
This man’s story is so heartfelt and genuine, beautiful speaker also.
Mark speaks well. I could picture his story in my head and now I can understand why people can’t get out of drugs. Very informative. I hope things go well in the future, Mark!
Such a beautiful man. And perfect example of how poor parenting can really fuck a person up. Speaking from experience...
Yeah it started with home. Bless his heart 💖
Out of many interviews I've watched this has to be the most heartbreaking to listen to. Since the beginning, I felt his pain in his voice, how his childhood hurt him so much. He's an inspiration. I lost my dad to alcoholism 4 years ago and until this day, I always feel I could've done more. I should've shown more support and kept insisting him to get to treatment. Troy showed Mark that he was an important human being and knew better than that. Mark had many gifts, he has a genuine heart, wants to help others, is kind, compassionate. It's so sad to see someone get into addictions so deep that they have control over your life. Everyone that has some type of addiction whether it's drugs, alcohol, food, pills, sex, etc is to numb so much pain that they can't take anymore. We need to do better at encouraging others to prioritize their mental health, if that's not in good condition, this is exactly what starts happening. Mark, thank you for sharing your story, you're courageous, and felt honored to listen to you. 💝
We need more capable and qualified counselors because there's a lot with degrees who are clueless.
@@marylougeorge9890 I agree with you, 100% Mary!
My personal take on this is that most all health care professionals and doctor’s in this field and practice do is mostly soft selling and pushing drugs to financially maintain a client base. You have to be strong to look far and wide to find the right one for you. But, by the time they know that they need help they are in a desperately clouded state of mind.
I’m proud of Mark going it Cold Turkey.
We all need to get better and heal from life’s problems and our problems. Our bodies are engineered to heal and repair-not to medicate and label to prescribe toxins to tap into our own natural feel good receptors. It’s not help-it’s all a lie. Who wants to live a lie? Those that continue to want to escape reality.
We suffer because we desire to heal ourselves, our ways and to learn more about ourselves. Depression is a sure sign that we have to learn to change. We need clarity and a new perspective. We need closure and that comes with time with yourself.
Self care is loving and accepting yourself as you are deep down inside.
We lose ourselves with drugs or prescriptions as they numb us and most all psychotropics cause Gray matter loss-it is similar to a slow liquid lobotomy to placate you.
Ones own truths actually cures. Getting down to ones authentic feelings work not a drug to numb you, maintain and control you.
Being heard brings clarity. Family counseling if possible can bring healing because ones truths and feelings deserve to be heard.
After, seeing what really happens to individuals and studying this subject since my childhood; I know the damage prescription drugs and shock therapy do to a person as well as the entire family and how the subsequent generations are affected due to postpartum depression, and abuse within the home.
Heal the family, heal the child!
Trust yourself before possibly trusting a judgmental, power driven assessment robot, and/or a selfish, greedy pill pusher that labels to prescribe to only intercept your clean and clear drug free life recovery.
I’m so proud of Mark-standing up for himself in this way! By doing this one act, he gained back his authority over his own person and his recovery. He also took ownership of his rights to face his own responsibilities in his life. And, he clearly took it for his future lifes’ experiences and journey going forward. That is a huge step in the right direction in my opinion. Bravo!
Most people are in a vulnerable state of mind when seeking help and are most definitely easily swayed by a so called authority figure. For whom only bandaids the scars and wounds with chemicals that numb and weakens ones own resolve to fully fulfill ones soul purpose to be clean and aware-not controlled. Even causing further insecurities and shame, stigmatizing a client with the hook of labels of mental health issues or illness.
Especially when people are only trying to survive. When they just really need guidance on how to survive and overcome life’s traumas through awareness sessions as well as to basically be accepted, believed and heard.
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Hes a master manipulator.
@@elaineandrepont I agree that people often use meds/drugs rather than face their trauma. However, meds are useful in helping a person use what they learn in therapy to improve their quality of life.
It's unbelievable torment to live with the beginning of PTSD. It's like you're mind is drowning in fear. You can't talk or think about whatever your trigger is. You have to close that door ASAP because the fear is overwhelming. Being on the right medicine can help the individual accomplish the normal demands of life like eating, getting dressed, showering, answering the door/phone... Seriously.
@@marylougeorge9890
Most people live and manage with PTSD, and cope their whole lives with CPTSD without ever seeing a therapist. Some actually get over their CPTSD with self work and an intense year of talk therapy.
And, most people that are in a deep state of major depression can also manage somewhat; but, others seriously need help with meds to snap out of their chronic depression and/or suicidal ideology and state of mind.
Yes, there are certain drugs that can help a person that is in a catatonic state, suicidal state or who are in complete and utter shock. These are serious emergencies! Psychedelics are known to aid in healing with proper supervision. They also can help reset the neural-plasticity.
The truth is,...in my opinion, from what I have witnessed in my life personally as well as observed and read when I was doing my own research,...that meds can easily have one naïve dependent for life on prescription drugs. And, a-lot of people around the world are co-dependent abused souls that can not standup for their rights very well especially when they are being gas lighted or abused in their homes.
Others want the drugs to alter their minds and further escape and they want to be labeled because it gives them some clarity of what it is that makes them tick.
The body is engineered to self regulate and it adapts as well to meds that are engineered to tap into ones receptors. Therefore, due to their ease in adapting, eventually, a combination of meds is needed or higher dosages are prescribed for the doctors to regulate. In all actuality intercepting and/or by-passing the body’s own self regulations.
The 2weeks it takes to kick in is in fact to intercept-shutting down the bodies own efforts to self regulate. They literally create opiate receptors that look like bullet holes in an MRI. Studies from the MRI scans in the 30-40 till now show the increase of opiate receptors.
These vulnerable trusting clients become addicted and rely on another concoction for a new high or fix; especially if they have highly addictive traits. It’s only a numbing affect that uses their own natural resources, but the drugs are toxins.
Basically, one can easily lose their backbone to never be able to stand up to authority figures or their abusive spouse. They believe wholeheartedly that they need the drugs to cope with life. They feel they have a damaged brain due to the stigmas.
They never resolve their issues and remain stuck because they treat clients like patients and sell them on meds. I’ve seen generations dependent on meds due to sadistic, left-brained, narcissistic spousal abuse. The problem is the abuse but they only treat their patient not the bread winner that thrives off of their power and victim supply-to boost their egos.
Most of these drugs are prescribed to maintain a client base and to ensure this fact, they label. Labeling stigmatizes the next generation and up to six generations, I have read. The questionnaire asks if you have a relative or close relative that had or has a mental disorder?
Some doctors say that there is a 50% chance of inheriting the disorder. But, I have also read it’s less than 1% inheritance.
The money it costs to maintain a vulnerable victim of abuse is a stressor, therapy costs money, that more often than not consists of discussing medications mostly. And, these costs put a strain on their relationship with their abuser.
The abusers have power and control, they pay the bills-and the doctors who are abusers collect the bills and they both run the show; but, the weak link is the one that is dependent and labeled as defective-the one who is dependent on drugs and obsessed with the switch they experience as they go deeper within themselves and isolate.
Resentment builds within the relationship and only causes more neglect, more abuse and stress, it seems to never end until divorce. Why?
In my personal opinion, the therapist never intended to truly heal and build up a client. They only narrow in on the weakest link not the abuser or the family dynamics.
They just placate, medicate and numb their patient without any true therapy, plan of action or healing. They keep face and control the victim in order to keep their bills paid and to afford vacations and college funds for their children.
These strong medications should never be used long term because in my opinion they rely heavily on this routine to feel good when they really need to work on applying themselves to feel good naturally. And, solve the issues that their clients suffer-through day in and out.
This is how prescribed drugs work-people are addicted and brainwashed with how the doctors use their composure, lingo and how professionally present themselves as the authority figure over them when they label them.
They keep their client base and sometimes get kickbacks. The clients/patient looks up to the doctors to fix them. And, they enjoy the high just like an addict.
When the drug no longer works, higher dosages are prescribed, when this fades out and doesn’t work they add more prescriptions through out the years of taking more toxic medications that literally tap into your own feel good receptors to release dopamine and when that doesn’t satisfy they give you more experimental drugs to maintain and regulate your mood.
I’ve known patients-clients that were up to 40 pills a day for years on end until one good doctor took over. This new doctor weened her client off of pretty much all the medications and supplemented her client with vitamins. This person was restored and healed completely on next to no meds what so ever after the divorce. Problem solved but it took 28 plus years to be theirselves once again and accepted.
Talk therapy and especially family therapy is the best therapy because you get to the root of the problems and that is where the real healing and clarity begins.
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God bless Francis for standing by Mark and loving the man and not the addiction....
I think we all need a Troy in our lives.....
Sending positive energy to Mark and his family...
xoxo Randolph
The way people who have been locked up on a felony drug case are treated is ridiculous. It's like they're not allowed to move on with their life after prison. I know people who have murder/manslaughter charges that have had more chances than a person with felony drug charges. The system needs to be changed.
Right on. Totally agree. Great comment
💯 agree
War on drugs they call it, and the propaganda causes ignorance amogst society
@@hipsonsogbo yep. My dad is a retired San Francisco inspector. He began his career as an officer in early 70s and even he believes all drugs should be legal and taxed. Period.
100%. If you're punishment never ends what's the point in trying....
But then you look at a system which profits from incarceration and the lack incentive to rehabilitate people... and it all starts sounding a bit sinister
This guy is so bright and self aware. I have real hope he will be ok.
Troy, his mate is an absolute legend.
He a complete idiot and absolutely pathetic in every way
I wish Mark would interview Troy!!!! I’d love to hear his thoughts of how he kept standing by his friend Mark. What a TRUE FRIEND.
This is just such an amazing man, i can see his genuinity all the way through and i pray and hope hes doing amazing! Im so proud of him.
The deprivation this poor man suffered in childhood is unreal. My heart goes out to his radiant soul.
And soooo many kids experiencing what he experienced RIGHT NOW 😭
@@Sweetdrownsoda 😭💔
Funny how his 7 siblings turned out ok
@@HandbagDiva and his dad was an accountant too - hardly a story of abject poverty
To anyone struggling with an addiction. I can absolutely promise you this: Your worst day being sober/clean will ALWAYS be better than your best day getting high.
Hell yea 3+ yrs clean after 30 active/ inmate etc
Love this comment. Everything can change
Silence tells no lies.
Yes
Amen!
@@RadRedhead222 💖
This channel is really better than gold. This channel is revolutionary and provides a sort of content that is deeply needed to reform thus dysfunctional system we are in. You cannot solve a problem if you don't understand it.
I could not stop watching this interview. His story is incredible and he relays his struggles with such clarity. I cannot wait until Part 2 tomorrow! This man has had an angel on his shoulder for years. What a life he's lived.
I resonate so much with what he said about his 8 years of sobriety....especially with alcohol, cigarettes and gambling. It's just that easy. They're everywhere. EVERYWHERE. You just need to reach a somewhat of a low point in your life and boom, back to it again, because you literally see "the solution to your problems" everywhere.
In Detroit it's as easier to buy crack, fentynl and meth than it is beer liquor cigarettes. I'm not over exaggerating at all. 148 SQ miles of it. Much love.
@@DetroitFettyghost Heartbreaking.💔
@@DetroitFettyghost yep Ive heard about Detroit, thats crazy!
He seems like a man with a really good heart. I am so grateful to hear his story. Thank you to both of you 🙏
Right On Mark & Mark‼️35 years sober now, impressed by only a few in recovery, and very impressive you are sir.
It broke my heart to hear Mark had been denied some opportunities because of some past , first instance being at his school. It’s plain cruelty to reject a kid that’s talented and reformed . Looking forward to the next part
That’s not why he was rejected… they don’t always tell the truth…
@@marialiyubman sorry to break this news to you but you’re neither God to know it nor that school authority
During Bush administration things were very strict in this country.
@@marialiyubman what an ignorant thing to say
I felt that “ why would you bring a another kid into this world and you can’t even provide for the other six” smh.. so many ppl do this.
sadly i can help you with this one. His Mom was from Ireland, I'm an Irish woman (52 yrs) -my parents generation if Catholic were taught that any form of birth control was a mortal sin and absolutely forbidden, the fight for access to birth control here was absolutely real.
God brings babies not people .. its beyond just " bringing kids into this world "
Nothing unfair happens .. it doesn't make sense to most because past lives and souls are heavily resisted in schools , homes and everywhere
Shout out to Tom for giving this man a chance .
It was a true privilege to hear Marks story. It helps me and reminds me that sobriety is the only way forward. I could literally taste the despair and carnage during his life story telling, such a graphic reminder of my dark, messy sad days. THANK YOU to both Marks. My gratitude is immense right now.
I’m not even 5 minutes in and I’m feeling the pain, agony, and sadness. I pray that God Blesses him tremendously .
With all his ups and downs, I don't know how he's managed to keep going.
@@marylougeorge9890 it’s like when he did good negative people came into his life time and time again. 😢
@@ad_stayfly7 Exactly.
He feels highly intelligent, emotionally aware and given his experience, he would be in perfect position to help change the outcome of others who go thru similar life cycles and challenges. Very insightful.
@@enaquasanitas7017 @me
A great motivational speaker.
Thanks Mark for all you do to bring awareness. Much love from Little Rock, Arkansas.
♥️♥️♥️💯💯
I have been in and out off recovery for the last 38 years.7 years clean now.There are times when I have reservations and want to get high.Hearing your story and those at meetings stomp out those thoughts. Thank you ❤
I got sober in this same area July 3rd, 2018. God Bless the Coachella Valley Rescue Mission and Indio, California - the recovery capitol of the world! I volunteered at the rescue mission in early sobriety, and I was fortunate enough to speak on a panel at The Ranch. This story took me down memory lane. I tremendously appreciate this man's vulnerability and humility. Keep comin' back!
Right on, brother. I got sober Nov. 14th, 2021 at ABC in Indio,CA. Still in the area.
He was failed so much as a child and it definitely set him on a path of self destruction. I wish they would make it easier for non-violent ex-cons to assimilate back into society. They always say the chances of re-offending are extremely high but part of that is due to the stigma and lack of chances some of these individuals face. Mark seemed to really have a desire to reform in the early days but just wasn't given the opportunity or support. I also feel that non-violent drug crimes should be handled differently, with a focus on addiction and counselling. Mark's story really touched me, it just didn't have to be this way ❤️
Exactly,great comment xx
Truth.
This reminds me of my dad and brother soo much. I send them a lot of these videos in hopes that they will hear something that will click.
That was so captivating and beautiful how he was able to tell his story. These are the type of interviews that really show you, in detail, what some people go through to live a life of freedom. I am excited for part 2!
This man gives me so much inspiration to keep pushing forward and stay sober no matter what. I believe in myself and in my higher power to achieve so much and reach my true potential. Thank you so much for your truth.
10:42 That’s what broke him. Putting your child out your damn house is WRONG!!! And F you if you do it! IDC
I think this interview I resonated with the most. Trauma unchecked and not inquired upon can create some serious consequences. Thank you Mark for sharing your story. Keep telling it brother. It helps and my gratitude for your sharing. It gives me strength to look at my own. 🙏❤
Thank you other Mark! Your work is helping change lives and it is inspiring to witness. This channel inspires me to be a better version of myself.❤
Your story is amazing. It brings tears to my eyes listening to you overcome all of the things that you've been through in your life. I am so happy that even when you did fall down you just kept getting up. You never really ever gave up on yourself because you kept trying to do better each time.
So appreciate his honesty & self awareness. You can tell he's sat down with himself & gotten very real about things. Encouraging to see someone who's done the work involved in recognizing the whys and hows of their journey. Really enjoyed this one.
We’ll said.
He's really sensitive and intelligent and could have gone a totally different way if his childhood wouldn't have been so rough. I feel sorry for the many losses and the bad luck he had to endure in his life.
"Luck"? Really? It just "happened"?
I been in the GUTTER with BOOZE its nothing to do with my family . In IRELAND its ALKOHOL culutre that traps many folk.
God bless Mark, I wish him all the best for him and his family.
Cold reality with emotional and physical pain , shame and guilt and worthlessness and self loathing are so big in the first days of sobriety . Relapse is easier because it's what you've done to make things bearable . Knowing that others have been through the same and managed to find their way out can be the difference between success and relapse . Keep up the good work Mark{s} .
Oh man, I really can't wait for part 2. Thank you Mark for finding people who are willing to share their stories with the world. Thank you!! ❤😇
What an incredible storyteller 😨
Most drug addicts are great story tellers !
Damn, sounds like my dad. Off drugs, has potential. On drugs: Blind to the world around him, incapable of control, damaging everything close to him. For some, addiction is bigger than the person and there's nothing they can do about it. The harm he's doing to the world around him may never stop. His potential lets people close, and then he repeats the cycle. What a cycle... It is the epitomy of Tragedy :(
I hope one day he will turn it all around , keep hope , a never thought I'd get clean I thought that was me for life ,hating what a was doing breaking inside because letting everyone down ,I hope the day comes soon , kind regards
This hit me reading that. I can relate to your father.
I was that father. 22 years clean. The 22 yrs before that? P.o.s. addict/ inmate.
Glad I found correct path to make up for my mistakes
Hope ur ok.
@@Mark-gn5rw so proud of you. Congratulations
@@Mark-gn5rw hey Mark glad you found your path and that u are enjoying life in a way u can be proud of. Sending u good vibes, friend.
This is such a sad story. This channel has opened my eyes up to others lives and its really changed my view on the world. Never will I ever judge someone again, even the smallest amount. I've had a great childhood, loving parents, friends and education. It makes me so sad and angry when I hear what other children (and adults) go through. Thank you so much for your videos and best of luck to this guy, I hope he finds all the happiness he deserves.
Ohh Mark!! This one was absolutely incredible! Touched my soul, Marks story telling moved me. Great work as usual Mark Laita❤️
Wow, he’s such an intelligent man. I see a lot of myself in him. I wish him the best and years of sobriety. You’re a good man who did bad things, you can beat this too.
Humble brag
@@emm2937 lol because I’m addict and he reminded me of myself and how I don’t have to be and can get better? Lol fuck off dude. If he helps me get clean then let me be happy about it. You’re the one getting butthurt over a RUclips comment.
Em m. Exactly my point. They can’t help it today. WILD how they use any and every situation to prop THEMSELVES up
It’s bc it’s no longer “acceptable” in society to publicly shame today…thus silly comments like that go unchecked. Truth is, people need to be shamed, enacting self reflection and much needed change
Try being with a chick who witnesses a news/crime story happening on a street they happened to walk down a month ago. OMG!!! IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME!!!! It’s a bizarre thought process
2nd week in a row that I've caught a super early upload :)! Keep releasing These interviews, I myself am an addict, & I can tell you these folks are speaking the truth 💜💞.
Xoxo 💫
What a bitter sweet story this man endured, the same cycle he was living by was simply wanting love and a family. To Mark the interviewee what a GREAT story teller you are the way you speak not missing a beat and keeping people’s attention is so authentic and captivating. God bless you man you deserve everything you work for. Our childhood is the “mark” of our path for the rest of our life, such little time we spend growing up to become the adults we are (for a much larger part of our existence) shapes us into the human being for the rest of our lives. For Mark the interviewer man you kick ass for the work you do and the special eye you have to put these stories to life is something special and a work of art. I thank you as it helps myself with dealing with my own demons in life from childhood experiences to even now trying to heal as a 39 yr old women, there’s something so special about this channel that is just needed. I have been a silent watcher for a bit now have seen almost every video and the diversity in this crazy world is beautiful and ugly at the same time but one thing we ALL have in common is we ALl are chasing something that we lacked in our childhood from the trauma it brought…THANK YOU Mark for the work you do 🙏
Ever since i could read between 6 and 7, i went to the library and always got books about 3 subjects: the occult, meditation/yoga, and drugs... why i don´t know. I´m 46 now and learned a whole lot about drugs, but this channel,is a freaking goldmine. Sometimes it feels like i´m sitting in front of them. I salute you for such insightfull, intelligent,emotional, honest and heart filled interviews. Can´t believe i didn´t found this before. Pro is that i have a helluvalot catching up to do. Thank you.
finally an hour long convo from SWU .. awesome work man
When I saw it was over an hour...knew I had to give it a listen 👂
You want hour long convos from SWU.... Search Frenchie ❤️
@@SmartMoveGraphics oh haven't seen that one .. thanks
Patrick as well, he's got 4 or 5 videos too
Awesome interview! Great work Mark and clear story well told. Great work both Marks!
What an emotional episode. So many times I was close to where he was. The exception to his story was I have two great parents that have saved me even up to this day at 56.
I so know the saying was you have to let is let them fail. Thank God I was saved with the help of them and I'm finally coming to understand that there is life after life's disasters.
What a great storyteller, I felt I was on the journey with you. I can't wait to hear part 2.
What a powerful testimony. Mark brought this recovering addict to tears. I needed this today.
This one put me in tears. So proud of Mark!!!
I'm absolutely riveted by Mark's story telling abilities. His authentic recollection was filled with such strong emotions. I could feel his pain and anguish.
Thank you for being brave enough to share your experiences with the world. Your impacting many people.
I'm so pleased to have found this channel. It's truly educational and entertaining. Keep it coming! 😊
He’s going to help a LOT of people ❤
This is such a beautiful interview...Mark, you have an amazing story.
I appreciate his honesty so much.
Wow I love the consistency of this channel! Keep them coming Mark!
I'm a friend of Bill as well. Keep FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT life can be very ugly , but it can be super beautiful, too. Always remember there just thoughts until you put them into action.
Me too. Absolutely true. A daily sometimes hourly (lol) Conscious Contact with our HP will give us a daily reprieve. I'm excited to see part 2 about serving others. We are not alone anymore💖
Wow…. What an amazing story! I am almost ready for part 2. Thank you for sharing your story to give hope to others! Thank you (Mark from the channel) for bringing this amazing man to our lives. I hope his story helps many people through their addiction. I hope Mark (in the video) is happy and healthy and with his family! I appreciate the heart you have in sharing the stories you share with us on this channel. So many people ask me why I watch these sad stories. I watch these sad stories to see the great successes that come from them! I’ve seen so many horrible outcomes during my life of service given to the public. I’ve retired and maybe this is my way of being able to know there are still people out there doing good and making a difference. Thank you Mark, for all that you do!
This was mesmerizing. My heart is with Mark and all the challenges he has had in his life. I so hope he is able to find the hope and self love that he needs, to succeed.
Watch Marvin Herbert on LADbible TV here on RUclips..dude with a similar story British gangster
This was absolutely memorable and powerful. Mark's courage, strength, and wisdom are unmatched. It's great to see others who are inspirational on here. I am currently someone on a recovery journey and it's been a struggle. Mark's words brought some peace and hope into my life and I'm very grateful for that.
I love how he talked about never giving up or not giving up on others.
Awareness and understanding is so important.
Thank you for your hard work.
My prayers for you.🙏❤️
Mark gave an incredible, elegant interview. His honesty and strength is dazzling. Thank you.
I related so much to what Mark said about how good we feel when doing for others. I have at times found it conflicting because the intention remains doing for someone else in need in a selfless way but yet, we feel so great doing it we start feeling like we’re also in some ways doing it for our own satisfaction. It’s just a fact that by uplifting others we uplift ourselves. I hope Mark stays on the best healthy path for him. No matter the context, we’re all a work in progress. He’s so right when he says “don’t ever give up”. I’m really rooting for him.
The strength of these people to survive !!!! Amazing. I wish this guy all the luck and all he needs. 🙏
I watched this 3 times. The horror he went through….I sobered up in 2018..after a life full of alcohol. He’s such a good narrator. So much respect…thnx for your story
This is an amazing story of trouble, addiction & redemption! I wish my juvenile detention students could hear all of this man's story. His honesty and his pain would steer them away from their sadness and self-destruction.
Wow what an amazing interview/story. I really hope part II Mark stays sober. I’ve never used drugs so I will never understand that kind of life. That story kept me glued to the tv from beginning to end. One of the best.
one of the best episodes. wish you all the best Mark! Keep it up!
Some people don't UNDERSTAND what an impact they have on their children 😢🥺
This completely touched my heart and soul! I have tears of joy in my eyes and heart. Wow, what an amazing story. Thank you for sharing, this is so encouraging, never give up and never give up on loved ones that are struggling- keep trying.
This story is so incredibly powerful. Riveting. Can't wait for part 2.
I loved this interview!! Wishing you good wishes and strength - Mark! Ty other Mark! - Love your channel. First time I've commented... UK viewer :) xo
Mark if you see this I just want to thank you for doing this in spite of demonetization. it’s very important and it gives me hope that world changing things can happen without a monetary incentive
I love stories like this where Mark doesn’t even need to ask any questions and they just tell their story. Man, this breaks my heart.
His emotions truly touched me. Rawness and really makes you think about life.
2 minutes in and I just want to tell you you're a great brother! You did what you could!
I relate so much to your story. The cycle of relapse is the devil. They say it gets worse everytime and we never believe it but it's the 1 guarantee in the program that I know it absolutely true.
Me again...It's the true when you help others it makes your issues seem much smaller somehow. It's such an important part of our puzzle of recovery.
I just love this interview it's so true never ever give up I always say if the person has breath they have hope in all the years I've been in recovery and my parents as well I've seen the worst of the worst the people that you never thought would get better get better and have amazing lives and you never know when it's going to happen it could be the 3rd time it could be the 30th time of rehab never give up on someone you love I know it sounds cliche but it's true.
As I listened to Mark's story. It was as if I was transported there. Like reading a booking and imagining it. Truly is a rollercoaster of his life. It really would be amazing if the Soft White UnderBelly. Ever evolved further and actually did a dramatic series of stories. Many of these interviews can be used to educate the youth. Like the series After School Special many years ago.
Good Lord, you told this story well. My husband and I met in rehab 20 + years ago. We lived in recovery for 11-12 years and then decided we could safely have a drink. 9 years later we are still battling that monster. Hearing your story makes me think of my 3rd son and gives me motivation to not let this be his story. Thank you so so so much for what you went thru, and for the way you’ve shared it with us. Your story is incredible and power and I pray you have peace❤️❤️❤️
"I came here to get off drugs , not get on different drugs" That's pretty powerful .